http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:ninj4-z3k3&section=today deviantART RSS for by:ninj4-z3k3 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 21 Dec 2009 15:47:57 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/27893022/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/27893022/ Wed, 21 Oct 2009 16:56:20 PDT
back on DA for the first time in forever. Did a tattoo design for a friend, and it turned out killer. Another friend has commissioned me for a tattoo design now, and it's a challenging concept. I needed to get practiced up on my drawing skills to do the concept justice. Nothing holds my attention better than an amazing set of curves, so I turned to DA's "artistic nudes" photography section and tried a few. I spent a lot of time on them, measured and re-measured everything a dozen times. There's some problems with proportion in both of them, but they're fairly minor and I don't think they ruin the image. I'm really happy with the results, two of my best drawings.

While I was working on the drawings I started diving through the massive archive of amazing lifedrawing reference, so many amazing shots, great poses, pro lighting, and gorgeous models are on this site. Model linked to a photographer, who would in turn have great work and a bunch more in the favs section ..

I left deviantart because of the horrible anime and the legions of talentless furries who fav anything with tits and a tail, but I've come back for the photography.

Some photographers are very militant with "MY ART IS NOT YOUR STOCK" warnings and threats to sue for possession of your firstborn if you use their work, so I hope that my drawings won't piss off the creators of the stuff I reference. It'm not making money here, this is just practice. I doubt I'd even add this stuff to my demo reel, drawings from photos don't "count" the same way drawing a live model does.

I'm tempted to keep going on drawing models from photo, but I really should get started on the tattoo ... I've got some ref collected. It'll involve smoke and crows wrapping around the guys arm, so laying out the drawing is a challenge. I'm trying to think of how to arrange things so they'll wrap around the muscles properly and still have room to fit everything in there.

I'm also working on writing a large story setting that I hope to turn into videogames and short films, but that project is fairly daunting at times. My theory is "bite off more than you can chew, then chew it" and it's worked so far. Every project I set for myself for the past three years has been outside of my abilities, but they've come together with some success.

The drawing "vancity" was the first jump. Went crazy finishing that thing on time. Was never quite happy with the amount of detail though, I just hit a wall of being unable to make lines tiny enough. I'd like to attempt a larger version of such a drawing, like a square meter sized canvas of the whole planet in that type of warped perspective, with caricatured cities, military battles, nukes, space stations and the moon. I've done some rough stuff on this idea, but abandoned it in favor of writing the story of that world.

Been writing a lot lately. So far I've got about thirty pages of material for this world setting, dubbed "Project Dystopia" for the time being. If I keep going at this rate, in four months I hope to have the whole timeline done, along with written planning for the first game or two to be set in this world (XBLA titles hopefully), then I'll be able to start designing and drawing everything. Archetecture, airplanes, ships, tanks, vehicles of all kinds, guns, armor, space ships, bunkers, costume design, everything. This base of writing will give me a platform for every type of design imaginable, so as I learn painting and such, I can base all my project on one growing idea. Hopefully within two years I'll have enough stuff down on paper that I'll be able to make a real game pitch to some big studios.

If that doesn't work, I'm considering a more independent rout. There are now a handful of distribution methods that could allow me to circumvent the traditional publishing methods, opting for pure digital distribution has worked for plenty of games on XBLA, the Playstation Network, and Steam, and Sony is turning the PSP into a purely online platform, hopefully the DS will move in the same direction.

I've played several digital distribution titles and been blown away. Geometry wars, Trials HD, Braid, Super Puzzle Fighter 2 HD, Castle Crashers, Flow, Flower, TF2, Battlefield 1943 ...

Digital distribution is an amazing thing. It looks like games are becomeing more and more accessable to the artist, with more options to get the product out there. We still rely on beurocracy to some degree, and always will. Call me misty eyed, but I feel we're truly in an age of artistic reneisance like no other. For the first time artists can collaborate across the globe instantly, share our work with millions instantly, gather reference of all types instantly, it's fucking beautiful!

Combined with the introduction of gaming as an interactive art platform (Flower, Braid, Pixeljunk Eden) and you've got a trul... ]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/16328494/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/16328494/ Wed, 09 Jan 2008 11:16:58 PST
Doing another flush of my gallery. Deleting old crappy stuff, uploading new awesome stuff.

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/15719815/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/15719815/ Thu, 29 Nov 2007 11:08:28 PST
I'm now attending Think Tank Training Center in North Van, I'm studying all manner of 3D art. Modeling, lighting, rigging, animation, matt painting, and a bunch of other stuff. With a little luck, I'll be working at EA a year from now.

Cheers,

Zeke

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/13563153/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/13563153/ Sun, 01 Jul 2007 11:33:20 PDT
Dammit.

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/13459431/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/13459431/ Sat, 23 Jun 2007 12:09:43 PDT
Originally to be released July 10th on the PS2, PSP and Wii, Manhunt 2 lets you play as a scientist who awakens on a operating table with a dead body on top of him and a bloody needle sticking out of his arm. You must then murder your way out of the grotesque asylum filled with tortured men who have been experimental subjects of "The Project", an illegally operated weapons research team.

Gameplay mechanics on the Wii are particularly violent, as the Wii's motion tracking controllers mean that you will be making the thrusting motion with your arms as your on-screen character stabs broken bottles into his victims necks, or make the sawing motion as you character uses a hack saw to disembowel his enemies. Attacks using stealth can even be "charged up" to increase their deadly accuracy and gory execution.

Upon reviewing the game, the ESRB dubbed the game "Adults only" due not only to the violence, but to the handful of sex scenes within the game as well. The problem with this rating is that both Sony and Nintendo have a longstanding policy not to allow AO games on their platforms.

This left Rockstar in a tough position. Do they simply cancel the game and cut their losses? Or do they take it back into development, and release it at a later date in a watered down, "Mature" rating form?

Rockstar opted for the latter of the two options, which has lead to an uproar in online gaming communities.

The gamers feel that they are being censored needlessly, pointing out the levels of sex and violence in other mainstream medias such as movies like the Saw series. All three of the Saw movies contain the same type of violence, yet none of them warranted an Adults Only rating, why should this game be any different?




I would argue that there is a massive difference.


Now I am a strong believer in the right to express oneself. If you are offended or disgusted by the amount of gore in this game, don't play it! Parents have a responsibility to monitor and regulate their own children's media consumption, so don't give me that "think of the children" crap.

Despite the fact that I don't believe in rampant censorship, I agree with the actions taken by Nintendo and Sony in disallowing the game on their platforms. These companies have their reputation to consider. Can you honestly picture Nintendo allowing a game like this on their console? This is a company which has built their entire image around the ideals of family entertainment, not gore and violence.

As for the rating itself, I would argue that there is a massive difference between watching a movie where other people are committing horribly violent acts, and playing a game where you are doing these acts yourself. The psychological difference between passively watching violent acts played out by actors in a film, and actively participating in an interactive simulation of said violence is massive, and the ESRB was right to rate this game Adults Only.



But I think the problem is rooted else ware, in the ethics of game violence.



First allow me to point out that violence is very different from gore when it comes to gaming.

I've played dozens and dozens of "violent" games. In fact, near every game I own is violent. In Ratchet and Clank you are given an arsenal of deadly weapons with which to dispose your enemies. In Viewtiful Joe you punch and kick your way through many levels of enemies. In Super Smash Bros you clobber the daylights out of Nintendo's most recognizable faces. In Dynasty Warriors you take control of a mighty Chinese warrior and kill hundreds of men per stage.

Consider the amount of violence in these games.

Now take into consideration that in none of these games is there any blood whatsoever. None. As massively violent as these games are when looked at analytically, they are absolutely gore free.

It's also notable that none of these games rank higher than the "Teen" rating by the ESRB.


These are all great games made by some very talented people who understand that you don't need to include blood in a game to make it good.

When it gets down to it, that's the key word isn't it? Blood.

Take, for example, Company of Heroes. An amazingly innovative, beautiful, and fun to play WWII real time strategy game. In CoH you take control of the Able company as they fight their way towards Germany in the Allies most powerful assault. Every battle you fight in this game is real. Every weapon you use existed in the war. This... ]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/13358289/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/13358289/ Fri, 15 Jun 2007 15:48:56 PDT
Funny, I haven't uploaded anything since last term. Looking thru my gallery I realized that half of the stuff in there was complete and utter crap.

*delete-delete-delete*

*phew*

That was an improvement.

Same thing for the favorites gallery. Holycrap there was alot of depressing stuff in there. I un-favorited alot of stuff simply because my tastes have changed. More accurately, I'm no longer easily impressed by abstract stuff, gratuitous blood and gore, and cutesy "I hate my life" emo stuff. All the recent additions to my favs are expressive photography or cool character illustrations.

Straight to curve, my friends. That's the key.

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/12348682/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/12348682/ Tue, 27 Mar 2007 11:06:03 PDT
Now off to school to finish my assignments

... hey ... wait a minute ...



Meh, it's not like I'm starved for a vacation anyway. I friggen draw all day. Oh no. Poor me. Give this child some time off.


*ahem*

Anywho I finally got my hands on a copy of Company of Heroes. Holyballs, this game rocks in so many ways. You control the American forces from the attack at Ohama beach and play through the allied assault on Germany. The game play is wicked fast for an RTS, and the micro is some of the best I've ever used. It's a real challenge to manage multiple fronts . Fully destructible environments are fun too. I picked up a D-link, so hopefully Jason and I can get some LAN battles going tonight.

Also awesome is SSX Blur, which I'm very addicted to right now. I just unlocked the second mountain, and wow the level designers for this game deserve a medal or something.


Also, I've become addicted to the band Dragonforce. It's everything I love about 80s metal in one band.

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/12209533/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/12209533/ Fri, 16 Mar 2007 17:23:46 PDT
To my spleen; stop trying to eat my lungs, it's even more painfull

To the rest of my body; Fuck off and heal! I have work I need to be doing!

-Management-

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/12195651/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/12195651/ Thu, 15 Mar 2007 15:34:33 PDT
Getting sick at a time like this, when my schedule is inundated with work, and deadlines measured in mere days, is unacceptable!

I expect a full recovery from this flu/cold by tomorrow morning or else!

-Management-

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/11558956/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/11558956/ Wed, 24 Jan 2007 21:50:02 PST
Those of you who've already seen it, I tweaked a setting that DA added since I last updated (months ago) so now the pic is displayed much MUCH larger.

And yes, once we make it pan in Layout I'll re-post so non-animators can understand why the hell I would subject myself to such a task.

Cheers!

-Zeke-

PS: Thanks to all for the great response!

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/11126069/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/11126069/ Wed, 20 Dec 2006 10:26:00 PST
There's a new Transformers trailer online here!

[link]


Any negative images I had of this movie have disappeared. I can't wait to see it, it's gonna rock the house!

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/11115175/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/11115175/ Tue, 19 Dec 2006 10:32:04 PST
Joe nearly infected me with his throat herpes, but my immune system triumphed through sleeping alot.

Seriously, I haven't accomplished dick all in the past three days. (okay that's not true, I cleaned my appartment. Spick and span!)

The other day I played Oblivion for 8 hours straight.

ph34r m3




um yea so I DL'd some sweet metric the other day so I'm just groovin out right now.

Dinner with auntie Brenda tonight, tommorow I'm off for the 'Toba. Woot.


I will update this page ... after I get back!

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10750754/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10750754/ Thu, 16 Nov 2006 22:14:41 PST

gross


I snuck into the top floor of a government building to get some pictures today and accedentally tripped an alarm.

I'll upload the pics sooner or later



I'm drawing like a mad sort of fool again, huzzah and such!



PS. gross

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10728295/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10728295/ Tue, 14 Nov 2006 21:15:56 PST
]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10713442/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10713442/ Mon, 13 Nov 2006 15:20:26 PST
Her name was Shawnee

I'm not going to bother tracking everything back to her on this page, but know that I have thought long and hard, and I owe so much to this girl ...



I remember every detail of that night, one year ago.

We were just about to have supper (rice, pork chops, broccoli .... told you I remember every detail) When my mom called me into her room.

She was shakey ... I could tell something was wrong.

She had just gotten off the phone with Shawnee's mom ... She told me to sit down. She looked me in the eye and told me that Shawnee had commited suicide.


I didn't believe her. I thought it was some sick joke (that is, I wanted to believe that it was)

I didn't eat. It couldn't be true! Shawnee was such a happy girl. Her locker was right beside mine. In the mornings she would come skipping down the hall humming a tune from some anime show ...

There was always something going on beneath the surface ... all her close friends knew that she cut herself .. her arms and torso were covered in scars... we knew she had a terrible relationship with her mom .... we knew she had nightmares ... but we had no idea how deep her problems really were ... she was quite adept at hiding them.


I called Jeff and Tom.


I didn't tell them anything over the phone ... I just told them to get over here, fast. I was the only kid to know about this, I had to tell them myself.

I told them in the basement. How do you handle hearing that one of your best friends killed herself? Everyone deals with things differently I suppose. Some people break down crying on the spot, others laugh, hoping its all a dream ...

The three of us drove around town, visiting our friends homes so they could hear it from us and not some damn guidance councellor.


I may as well have carried a fucking sythe


Words can't describe how I felt. All that week, it was like watching someone else walk around in my body. I was numb. You could have slapped me in the face and I wouldn't have felt it. My hands shook constantly ....

What kind of sick world is this? Where a group of foolish teenagers, so hopefull as we are all entering grade 12, lives laid out before us .... have to attend their best friends funeral?


FUCK!







....




I loved Shawnee


There, I said it.


I loved her so much that my hands are still shaking as I type this.


But I never told her.

I couldn't!


I had fucked up trying to express myself to her too many times ....


and now it was too late







I don't even know why I'm typing all this.








One year



I've thought about her every day



I miss her so much




I .... I just want to hear her voice once more ... her laugh


I want to tell her that I love her

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10695361/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10695361/ Sat, 11 Nov 2006 22:54:07 PST
We've got two major projects on the go at school right now. I like both of them and they should come out looking awesome.

Ryan bought Gears of War this week, so I've been playing that with him and Jeorge. Wow that game is intense. Why you ask? An intuitive new approach to gunfights, and your machine gun has a chain on the end of it, says I.

On that note, Jason bought both Gears, and a 32 inch LCD HDTV to play it on.

He is now my hero.


So friday was our day off for rememberance day. I played Gears for most of it, and that night everyone went over to Andre's place for a lil' ol' party.

Nothing epic, but a fun night.

Ryan learned the meaning of too much vodka, and Jeorge acted like a man-slut.

fun times!


So I'm very excited for next weekend. Janelle is flying out to visit her aunt, and we'll be hanging out for at least one day. It'll be so cool to show her around the school and city. It's always fun when a friend comes to visit and you get to show them around. You see your too-familiar surroundings through their eyes.

Oh, and the wii is being released next sunday

*spazzes*

Oh! and my old friend Kriz is now an official Katimavixen!

Hurrah!




PS: I have discovered the awesome that is K-Os

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10609659/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10609659/ Sat, 04 Nov 2006 00:00:30 PST
(frankly I'm amazed anyone took the time to read through that beast of a post)

I realize that I haven't uploaded anything worth looking at in awhile, and I'm kinda annoyed at myself for that.

DA isn't the centre of my life, I could just blame it on that.

Lazyness too.

I've been doing some cool looking work at school, it just doesn't make it onto the site.

If any vanartists read this, is there a good way to upload animation so it's easily viewable? I don't know what I'm doing.

If not, whatevs. I've got a piece I'm chipping away at that should be pretty swank, I've just got to get my ass in gear and finish it.




the Lan party was a bit of a bust tonight, but we were kinda unprepared for it.

We've got Halo up and running for the next one though. Battlefield has a better variety in weapons and more teamwork, but you can only play so many "capture the base" games before it gets old. It's time for a good ol fashioned deathmatch!

*ahem*

BOOM! HEADSHOT!

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10598718/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10598718/ Thu, 02 Nov 2006 22:09:44 PST
This website has so much potential! It's already massive and has a massive user base. There's so much talent on this site!

But it's being plagued.

Thousands upon thousands of untalented, uninspired artists clog this site. I'm talking about all of the horrible anime fan art you see. "Art" being uploaded en-mass without so much of a passing not to basic lifedrawing skills. Drawings devoid of a sense of perspective. So many pieces without a lick of originality.

Now chief among such people are the "furries". This group is a new wave of young bestiality-crazed kids who need to get their heads together.

Now I wouldn't mind these people normally. But the other day I saw a particularly offensive drawing in the "most popular" section. Out of disgust, I took a closer look.

Allow me to describe;

This was a drawing of "pikachu" done in a more humanoid style. That is to say it was a furry human-like female with pikachu's ears and tail. She was sitting up against a wall with her legs spread wide, wearing a bikini of sorts, the view situated directly in front of her. Not a particularly flattering position. The term "camel toe" comes to mind.

Aside from the generally gross nature of the drawing, the art was terrible! Her legs looked like they had been dislocated from her hips, there was no sense of depth to the drawing, it was clearly very poorly thought out.

Enthrawled by this artists complete lack of talent and .... well disgusting taste, I looked into his/her library. I found a hundred or so pictures that could be described as poorly done, soft-core pokemon hentai.

Here's where I errored. I posted a comment about this artist on his/her page. I was very creeped out at the time, and was no doubt a bit over harsh. The gist of what the post was saying is "this is a terrible drawing and you are a sick, sick person"

Now I've been reported several times by her and another furry on account of a similar situation.

And that's just fine with me.

What really bugs me here is that there "artists" think that they are generally talented. They think that because they have 25000+ pageviews they are something special. If this logic were to be applied elsewhere (that is to say, popularity = quality) that would mean that Justin Timberlake was the worlds greatest singer, and that McDonalds makes the best burgers ever.

This is wrong. So very wrong. But I have a solution!

I think that DA (along with any other online arts communities) should have a small staff to screen the submissions. Nothing complicated, just a quick glance at each piece as it was uploaded to see that there was at least some forethought and effort put into the work. I understand this is unrealistic to expecto of DA, what with there being seven million pieces of artwork uploaded on them, and I have no expectation that anyone will give two shits about this idea, or even read this entire journal post.

Now I'm sure it will be said that I was out of line, and should never have posted those comments, and they are probably right.

But I just hate the idea that such pathetic excuses for art, insults to art even, are taking up slots in the "most popular" section on the front page (not that any of my work deserves to be up there either)

It it turns out that this is just the nature of online arts communities, and they are truely just a haven for teenage fetishests, then so be it. I will have no part in it, and will have very little problem with deleting my account and it's contents.

We'll see how this pans out.

Until then, my hat is off to the thousands of artists on this site who are truely talented, as it's not like I don't see their work. There are many, many people on this site that put alot of effort into their work, and it shows.

Cheers

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10537579/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10537579/ Sat, 28 Oct 2006 12:32:31 PDT
to a non-gamer, that doesn't sound like that big of a deal, no?

I, on the other hand, have been waiting for this system for FOUR EFFING YEARS! And now, less than a month till the release, they put these videos out there?

No, no, it's okay Nintendo, there's nothing wrong with dangling a burger just out of reach of a starving person


...


bastards

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10515768/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10515768/ Thu, 26 Oct 2006 10:05:06 PDT
I've been reading through PA at my workstation for the past few days, and it's been hampering my productivity alot. Considering that, I'm amazed at how I am (by some act of a higher power) ahead of the game right now.

My walk cycle is looking dam sexy (in a non-sleeping-with-you sort of way) and my background pan was done before anyone elses.

I've got some tweaking to do on that walk cycle, and I need to add sleeves to the dude, but that's nothing big. I'm pretty happy with him right now, but his hat's a tad off.

So I've been playing alot of Dead Or Alive on the 360 lately (tag team rules) and it's a seriously sweet game. It can be tough to get you character to do what you want to at times, but that probably has more to do with Ryan smashing my face into the wall repeatedly than any fault of the programming.

The graphics are pretty sweet, but there is definitely room for improvement. the physics on the hair especially. It looks like a bunch of ribbons glued onto the skull at times.

That said, the animation is impressive. Especially so on the drunken master character, all of his moves are so fluid and link together perfectly. You really get the feeling that he's blind drunk, and the fact that he's winning the fight is only out of luck.

I went online on Battlefield 2 again. My bloated sense of self esteem told me to try a ranked server, and that was a mistake. A humbling experience to say the least.

Well I should probably be working right now, so I'm off

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10485906/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10485906/ Mon, 23 Oct 2006 10:44:50 PDT
I woke up to the alarm clock and was all "fuck this!" *hits snooze button*

Lifedrawing class this morning and I can't draw to save my life.

Need ... caffine

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10477009/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10477009/ Sun, 22 Oct 2006 14:23:29 PDT
fear!

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10474824/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10474824/ Sun, 22 Oct 2006 10:34:47 PDT
Again ^^

I'm pretty on top of everything, and I'm fairly happy with the work I've been doing. My panning background should pretty much kick ass, it's too bad we have to wait till term 2 or 3 to scan and color it, I wanna see it live!

I have to touch up my sack-jump today, then I will have every project we've been given so far finished and ready for the mid-term crits so I can focus on making one kickass walk cycle.

I haven't had enought spare time to draw any "stand alone" stuff that is worth uploading, which is a shame.

I did some city photography the other day, which I'll be uploading now-and-then so this page doesn't stand still too much

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10429335/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10429335/ Tue, 17 Oct 2006 23:39:13 PDT
I'm sure you've long forgotten me, but the vision of your cargo pants stays ever with me.

You explained to me what the list of numbers on the buss stop pole meant (times of arrival, it makes so much sense now!) as I was far too shy to hit on you.

I would have loved to spend sun-drenched afternoons in a field of flowers with you, to have toked in a moonlit grove by a river bend. Such wonderful imaginary times we had.

But no, you've long gone. I missed my chance for all that.

I'll be content to remember the way your dreads were tied in a knot to keep them out of your hair, your green army jacket artfully frayed at the hems.

Farewell, hippie of my dreams

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10424808/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10424808/ Tue, 17 Oct 2006 15:18:39 PDT
Befuddled, I searched around my shelves and various keeping places for papers, and became increasingly distressed.

This was not a case of absentminded-ness, but one of theft!

Some nogoodnick animator had nicked my paper from me!

I had a near-full stack, dammit!

I borrowed a few sheets from Levi, but now I have to buy a new stack tommorow!

dam thief ...

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10406857/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10406857/ Sun, 15 Oct 2006 22:22:26 PDT
I've never seen him before, it startled me

Since when has my reflection looked like a man? What happened to that scrawny, pathetic dork that used to look back at me?

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10399492/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10399492/ Sun, 15 Oct 2006 09:59:40 PDT
]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10369479/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10369479/ Thu, 12 Oct 2006 13:30:43 PDT And I hope someday your life turns out just like you planned.
Oh. Well I hope you can
Find it in you to forget all the things I've said.
Yeah. And I know you will
Cause you're my friend and that's the nicest thing I've said: all day
I hope to god. I hope to god that someday you will understand

I don't think that you understand
The things we say are not always the things we feel
You need to think before you mistakes
Something may end up to link the reasons
Why we do the things we had to to
To the day where we were:
Prove me wrong and do what you do

I don't think that you understand
The things we say are not always the things we feel
You need to think before you mistakes
Something may end up to link the reasons
Why we do the things we had to to
To the day where we were:
Prove me wrong and do what you do

Oh. Well I hope you can
Find it in you to forget all the things I've said.
Yeah. And I know you can
Find it in you to forget all the things I've said.

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10362530/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10362530/ Wed, 11 Oct 2006 19:37:07 PDT
gah.

I'd better get used to it

New layout thing started, it's pretty dam hard. Mine has alot to do with mushrooms. Giant mushrooms. Fear them.

I'm bloody tired as I was up late talking to some old friends, both of whom are currently action packed with issues.

I lack all motivation right now. Hopefully a good sleep will cure that.

Friday should be wicked fun with a horror movie and lan party going on at the school. I'm stoked to play Battlefield 2142

this was a lame journal

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10288470/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10288470/ Wed, 04 Oct 2006 23:39:26 PDT [link], which I highly suggest you start reading right now)

(seriously)


Anywho, I just finished my two point perspective for our new exercise for my animation class. It'll be done sometime next week, and I'll definitely be uploading it 'soon as I can.

I'm fairly confident in saying that this is my best perspective drawing yet.

I was tweaking out about it cuz I had no inspiration for it, so this eve I googled some victorian architecture and got some sweet ideas.

I'm also quite happy with my Bouncing Ball exercise. It needs to be tweaked and re-shot before I upload it, but I'll do that when I have the time (so pretty much never, it's not the most exciting animation)

Apparently you can get on the roof of my appartment building. I'm now quite annoyed at myself that I didn't explore this earlier, like in my time off. Sometime soon I'll go check it out. If there's any sort of view from up there I'll be uploading one helluva panorama from there.

that's all on the arts front

-the Zeke

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10228935/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10228935/ Fri, 29 Sep 2006 18:30:44 PDT
You know how you get a message every time someone replys to a post you made on a forum?

Well I can't delete these messages! even if I do delete them, they pop up again if I refresh the page or if I log out and back in again!

help meeeeee! *gets dragged off by tentacles*

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10218643/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10218643/ Thu, 28 Sep 2006 18:34:10 PDT curled up in each others arms
we were in heaven

i wish it never ended
i would live it all again

would she do the same
would she hold me in her arms
knowing it would end

i would suffer her leaving
if it meant i could hold her

all i can hope for
is that when she thinks of me
a smile spreads her lips

for when i remember her
i know that she was perfect

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10204384/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10204384/ Wed, 27 Sep 2006 14:23:05 PDT
I never did like that cat.

Today's the second day of class. Yesterday I was the last one in my class to leave the building, mainly cuz I was working on some of my own junk.

Oh, and I get the prize for being the first to bring in junk to clutter my desk space.

See, we get to decorate our workstations as we please. Most people bring in alot of posters, action figures, models and the like.

The only decoration-able thing I brought from Manitoba was my DnD miniatures, so I now have a black dragon and an Ice Troll watching me as I work ^^

Also, I found a sculpy figure discarded in the corner of the lab. I'm told it was going to be a character from "princess mononoke" or something like that, but it never got finished. In it's half-formed state, it looks like a fetus.

It is now my fetus.

I named her Nibs.

What else ... well I'd like to start a webcomic, but I lack the ideas, motivation, time, tech knowhow, l33t 5ki11z and such.

So much for that plan.

I'll put it in the "maybe-one-day" file.


...


In my boredom I had a quick browse through the Applegeeks archive. Was it always that not-funny? I seem to remember it being awesome, but it didn't even get a chuckle out of me.

Mac Hall, now there's a great webcomic. Too bad it's done for. I'm looking foreward to seeing what project Ian's working on right now. It'll be out in mid October, apparently.


...


So I'm heading back to Manitoba for Thanksgiving weekend ... It's gonna be so surreal seeing all my Neepa-friends again. I hope I have time to hang with everybody, I'm only in town for like two days.

For that matter, I've gotta figure out how to get to the airport speedy-quick so I don't miss my flight.


...


Went with Jason, Noelle and Mike to see "little miss sunshine" last night. I didn't know what to expect, so I was pleasently surprised.

It was a wierd kinda comedy ... a great disfunctional family flick anyway.

Some parts were so serious though, the movie had a wierd two-sided-ness to it.

Dwane was my favorite character, easily.



...


well this rant has gone on long enough, so I'm out.

-Zeke-

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10185514/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10185514/ Mon, 25 Sep 2006 18:27:48 PDT
I'm pretty tired this eve. Tired enough that I'm probably not going to go to Manhunt. Sorry fellow manhunters, I just feel like crashing.

Starting to look foreward to my trip to 'Toba for thanksgiving. It'll be sweet seeing the ol' gang again.

'tis all

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10045445/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10045445/ Mon, 11 Sep 2006 23:17:50 PDT
^^

problem solved.

Several more drawings to come. As you can see I've re-submitted a few old deviations at more screen-friendly sizes.

I found a new church the other day. I never thought I'd find a church where I truely felt at home ...

I love it there

*smile* ]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10030973/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10030973/ Sun, 10 Sep 2006 16:59:00 PDT
The schools scanners are broken (again)

I'm gonna buy a printer/scanner very soon (today?)

until then .... grrr ]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10030231/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10030231/ Sun, 10 Sep 2006 15:44:05 PDT
That's a really amaturish mistake, so I'm gonna pull the images down and resize them.

Also, I'm gonna upload some drawings (finally)

Photography isn't my strongpoint, but it's all I've been uploading recently. Mainly because I don't have a scanner myself.

I'm just heading out the door to use the schools scanners, they are really good.

So yea, today is "DA cleanup day"

*don't pink apron* ]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10008566/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10008566/ Fri, 08 Sep 2006 12:07:41 PDT ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10004173/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10004173/ Thu, 07 Sep 2006 22:15:44 PDT
sorry folks, lost my temper there

Back to normal now

Allow me to say that Demon Hunter is an awsome band

Same goes to Gorillaz

-Zeke- ]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10000947/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/10000947/ Thu, 07 Sep 2006 16:44:16 PDT
You call yourself a friend
no..

you told me I was your best friend

I spill my fucking heart out to you

and as soon as I ask anything of you


you dissappear

gone

invisible


An asshole breaks your heart

I would have been by your side in a second if you had let me

but instead you go find a nameless face

and open yourself up to him

what's wrong with you!?

why do you give yourself up so easily?

you sell yourself for too low a price



You are a fool



and I am growing to hate you



I don't want to



But you leave me with little choice



grow up


-Zeke- ]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9977286/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9977286/ Tue, 05 Sep 2006 13:33:38 PDT
*dances* ]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9945385/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9945385/ Sat, 02 Sep 2006 21:53:07 PDT
using cafe's is lame

Boring day, but I just remembered that mondays are manhunts in the downtown! Think tag all grown up played on a huge downtown vancouver scale. Should be a cool way to meet some new pplz, seeing as how my school buds all moved away.

So yea, until then, I'll just sit and watch my pageviews as they sit at a standstill ..

-zeke- ]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9899748/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9899748/ Tue, 29 Aug 2006 18:25:34 PDT
My computer is up and running. She's a beautiful machine, nice and fast.

Now if only she was connected to the internet ...


There are some problems getting online at my new place, but I'm sorting them out.

By early next week I should be set up in my new place and online

..hopefully..

-Zeke- ]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9792090/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9792090/ Sun, 20 Aug 2006 11:24:06 PDT
Unfortunately, the school's internet is down. Now I can't even upload from there

There will be a notable flood of updates once I get this crap working again.

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9774064/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9774064/ Fri, 18 Aug 2006 16:45:03 PDT
I dunno what kind of ram it's got, but appartently it can't even merge three pics into a panorama anymore

why do you care?

because it means there will be a good weeklong delay on getting what could be alot of really cool shots uploaded

see, As soon as I realized how cool panoramas look when you do them right, I decided to play with them and take massive, spanning panos that go not just horizontally, but vertically. I often feel that one pic does little to capture the beauty of a scene I'm looking at

But with this laptop I'm on, there's no way it can handle these shots I've taken

One of them will be composed of seventeen different pictures, and I'm pretty sure this little toshiba would blow up if I tried that

so until I get my new computer, I'll have to stick to one shot photos

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9773555/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9773555/ Fri, 18 Aug 2006 15:51:04 PDT
I wasn't tired at school, I wasn't tired walking home

but I open the door and BAM!

it hits me like a sack of bricks


sleeeeeeeeep .....

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9766645/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9766645/ Fri, 18 Aug 2006 00:25:29 PDT
at all your pathetic jokes

then she's worth the world

]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9758569/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9758569/ Thu, 17 Aug 2006 10:13:41 PDT
*smile*

This means I get a wish

what shall I ask for ....

THE POWER TO TELEPORT!!

Nightcrawler ain't got nothin on me

^^

*scurries off*

two in one shampoo AND conditioner!? this is the greatest timesaver ever! ]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9758541/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9758541/ Thu, 17 Aug 2006 10:11:23 PDT
I'm feeling better now, took some artist-lax

... eeewwww...

anyway, back to work!

two in one shampoo AND conditioner!? this is the greatest timesaver ever! ]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9750250/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9750250/ Wed, 16 Aug 2006 15:41:20 PDT
I friggen hate perspective drawing

It's the most boring part of animation, it takes forever, you have to use a ruler a million times to make sure every friggen line is perfectly straight

*sigh*

at least it's not math ]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9750177/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9750177/ Wed, 16 Aug 2006 15:34:42 PDT
I think it's cuz I'm just not confident in my perspective stuff

2 point perspective is noticibly harder than 1 point

Tommorow it's back to walk cycles, that shoucl be more fun

I've got an idea for a run cycle I wanna try out ... ]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9707758/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9707758/ Sat, 12 Aug 2006 22:51:44 PDT ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9704069/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9704069/ Sat, 12 Aug 2006 15:57:40 PDT
The internet at my appartment was blocking the "continue" button on the upload pages, so I put the pics on my memory stick and uploaded them from the school (where I am now)

I'm pretty proud of alot of these shots. I'm having fun experementing with traffic and slow shutter speed, so alot of my shots may look similar.

Wow I've been at the school for two hours and I've barely accomplished anything. I finished my four second animation (took me over five hours ... shit son) an now I'm finally getting to my one point perspective (which I'll upload once it hits a finished state) but I keep getting sidetracked by Tigerdirect.ca I'm starting to think that getting a mac is far too expensive. I can spend the same amount of money and get a hella-powerful PC so I will probably do that

-zeke- ]]> ~ninj4-z3k3 http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9696939/ http://ninj4-z3k3.deviantart.com/journal/9696939/ Fri, 11 Aug 2006 23:08:41 PDT
someone fix it or I'll shoot this dog

-Zeke- ]]> ~ninj4-z3k3