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I'm just chilling. I'm trying to be more sociable and I think it's going pretty well. Can't join the navy. Can't be on medicine for 1 year before I can enlist. Maybe once I graduate.

A couple chicks at school keep eyeing me and I can't tell if it's a good thing or not. I keep thinking back to the guy at the gym who's afraid I'm gonna snap and kill someone.
Why is asking out a girl as hard as it is. Seriously. It's fuckin nuts. I've been hit punched kicked stabbed the fuckin works and I'm still scared of girls. God damn dude.


I gave up my beloved monster. That's right! I gave up my monster. It's really fuckin hard. This morning I wanted one so badly it hurt. I was gonna fuckin cry man. But I did it. I got though. I'm going 6 days strong. tomorrow makes a full week. I think I can do it.

I keep thinkin back to the days when I drank 6 cans of monster a day. And now I'm down to 0. Holy crap.

I started running too. And I realized something.... I'm slow as hell!!! It makes sense. For someone who's 6'2'' 220lbs and a lifter I'm pretty fast. But I wanna get faster. My goal is 1 mile in 7 minutes and 1.5 miles in 12 minutes. My best mile time so far is about 9 minutes.

Is it a compliment or an insult if someone calls your legs "massive". I can't really tell yet.

I also think I know what I wanna do with my life. I wanna be an FBI agent. I wanna catch bad guys. I thought about possible jobs for a long time and I kept coming back to things that might be fun but wouldn't be fullfilling. And I thought about maybe being an agent and so far that's what I wanna do.

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/28486651/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/28486651/ Sat, 21 Nov 2009 11:16:42 PST
Ok. As most of you know I'm in a 2 year community college. And I'm not 100 percent sure about what I want to do between next year when I graduate my 2 year school in june and when I go to a 4 year school. And I think I've foundy it. I think I want to do a 2 or 4 year tour in the navy.

I've always liked boats. I know how to sail. And I have no motivation or ambition in my life. I talk to a recruiter on monday.

Any thoughts?

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/27956506/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/27956506/ Sun, 25 Oct 2009 09:35:31 PDT
]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/27861094/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/27861094/ Mon, 19 Oct 2009 19:09:57 PDT
My birthday is a few days away. I Turn 20. Oddly enough I don't really care.
School's been going ok. Everything has basically been pretty good although JOEY G IS A FUCKIN IDIOT!!! Why pull Roberston for Aceves?! You're an idiot! You lost the game for us! Bastard!!
Sorry That's my rant for the day.

Epic news though. I actually bought jeans. I never liked to wear them, I usually wear cargo pants, but now I'm gonna wear jeans too. It's a huge deal. I haven't worn jeans since I was 12.

And I have Angelspit stuck in my head.
[link]

Your tongue
Bores me numb
Terror toma carcinoma
Speaking for you

Shallow opinion,
Acid fetish toy in the shape of YOU
Look very beautiful [beautiful]
Deranged, deauched, denued

On that stainless steel cot.

Enter Herr Surgeon
Take up the bowie knife
And play join the dots.

[Vena Carver
Heart Starter
The Doctor is in 2x]

Your fist
Judas kiss
Writhing carcass
New Lazarus ravenous blood

Razor Devil Child
Drugged up aristocrat
Completely fucked up with formalities

Empty, Heiress, Tantrums
Psycho, with a gun
Finger heracy
Clean out the poison when you cut out your tongue

(Heart removed neatly with a bowie knife
Pick up the blade and join the dots) 4x

[Vena Carver
Heart Starter
The Doctor is insane 4x]

The Doctor is insane (4x)

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/26967184/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/26967184/ Tue, 01 Sep 2009 21:09:47 PDT
I can do a few different things with college. And I'm not sure what to do. I am currently on academic suspension from VT where I spent freshmen year. I can go back next semester. And I am currently taking classes at a county college.

The problem is VT wont take any of the credits that I will get this semester.

So I can apply to other schools for spring semester and see what happens. Which I will probably do any way. Or I can go back next semester to VT and basically start all over.

My tuition for this semester isn't very much but it's still a lot to be pissing away.

What should I do!!

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/26771855/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/26771855/ Sun, 23 Aug 2009 10:00:53 PDT
But better late than never. Here are the movie quote answers.

1: --She turned me into a newt.
-- A newt?
--....I got better
MONTY PYTHON AND THE HOLY GRAIL

2: Hey Stan, you're in Ala-Fuckin-Bama. You come from New York. You killed a good old boy. There is no way this is not going to trial.
MY COUSIN VINNY

3: Semper Fi Mother Fucker!
DOOM

4: God's gonna sit this one out.
THE PUNISHER

5: Smells like victory
APOCALYPSE NOW

6:"Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for I am the baddest mother fucker in the God damn valley?
JARHEAD

7:Just a reminder, fans, comin' up is our "Die-hard Night" here at the stadium. Free admission to anyone who was actually alive the last time the Indians won a pennant.
MAJOR LEAGUE

8: Welcome to earth!
INDEPENDENCE DAY

9: ** Yeah that's right. I love this movie. Got a problem with that?**
-- Me a name I call myself
THE SOUND OF MUSIC

10: Let's Play Football Bitch!
THE REPLACEMENTS

11: Do not try and bend the spoon. That's impossible. Instead... only try to realize the truth.
THE MATRIX

12: Here's Johhny!!
THE SHINING

13: It's all right. It's all right, mate. We're just having a friendly little argument.
THE GREAT ESCAPE

14: A boy's best friend is his mother
PSYCHO

15: A little bit of the ultra violence
A CLOCKWORK ORANGE

Now 2 really hard ones

1: It's all right. It's all right, mate. We're just having a friendly little argument.
This one was supposed to be different it was a typo. My bad so it's the same as it is above

2: 2:**this one will be really hard**
-- We may be witnessing a Biblical prophecy come true - 'And there shall be destruction and darkness come upon creation and the beasts will reign over the earth.'
THEM

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/26361358/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/26361358/ Mon, 03 Aug 2009 14:38:43 PDT

1. Pick 15 of your favorite movies.
2. Go to IMDb and find a quote from each movie.
3. Post them here for everyone to guess.
4. Strike it out when someone guesses correctly, and put who guessed it and the movie.
5. NO cheating, if you don't know any of them then that's just too bad.
6. You DON'T have to be tagged in the note to play.

-----------------

1: --She turned me into a newt.
-- A newt?
--....I got better

2: Hey Stan, you're in Ala-Fuckin-Bama. You come from New York. You killed a good old boy. There is no way this is not going to trial.

3: Semper Fi Mother Fucker!

4: God's gonna sit this one out.

5: Smells like victory

6:"Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for I am the baddest mother fucker in the God damn valley?

7:Just a reminder, fans, comin' up is our "Die-hard Night" here at the stadium. Free admission to anyone who was actually alive the last time the Indians won a pennant.

8: Welcome to earth!

9: ** Yeah that's right. I love this movie. Got a problem with that?**
-- Me a name I call myself

10: Let's Play Football Bitch!

11: Do not try and bend the spoon. That's impossible. Instead... only try to realize the truth.

12: Here's Johhny!!

13: It's all right. It's all right, mate. We're just having a friendly little argument.

14: A boy's best friend is his mother

15: A little bit of the ultra violence

Now 2 really hard ones

1: It's all right. It's all right, mate. We're just having a friendly little argument.

2: 2:**this one will be really hard**
-- We may be witnessing a Biblical prophecy come true - 'And there shall be destruction and darkness come upon creation and the beasts will reign over the earth.'

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/26302846/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/26302846/ Fri, 31 Jul 2009 17:12:46 PDT 9:00 am

2. How do you like your steak?
Rare

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
Bruno

4. What is your favorite TV show?
Megas XLR

5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?
Alone

6. What did you have for breakfast?
Apple Jacks

7. What is your favorite cuisine?
Italian

8. What foods do you dislike?
None

9. Favorite place to eat?
On a boat
[link]

10. Favorite dressing?
Italian

11.What kind of vehicle do you drive?
1999 Honda CRV, 1973 Ford Mustang Convertible, 1967 Triumph Spitfire

12. What are your favorite clothes?
Shorts and a hoodie

13. Where would you visit if you had the chance?
Places

14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full?
Empty

15. Where would you want to retire?
Away

16. Favorite time of day?
Midnight

17. Where were you born?
NYC

18. What is your favorite sport to watch?
Football

22. Bird watcher?
No

23. Are you a morning person or a night person?
Night

24. Do you have any pets?
A dog and a cat (he's not really mine, he just kinda shows up everyday looking for food)

25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share?
No

26. What did you want to be when you were little?
A soldier

27. What is your best childhood memory?
I don't have good memories of my childhood

28. Are you a cat or dog person?
Dog

29. Are you married?
No

30. Always wear your seat belt?
If the car has them, then yes

31. Been in a car accident?
I've been in the car as a passenger while we were hit. I've never been in an accident while I'm driving. I don't have any tickets either

32. Any pet peeves?
Being laud

33. Favorite Pizza Toppings?
None

34. Favorite Flower?
White Rose

35. Favorite ice cream?
Cream sickle

36. Favorite fast food restaurant?
White Castle

37. How many times did you fail your driver's test?
None

38. From whom did you get your last email?
[link]

39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
[link]

40. Do anything spontaneous lately?
No

41. Like your job?
No

42. Broccoli?
That's not a question

43. What was your favorite vacation?
I don't like vacations

44. Last person you went out to dinner with?
Don't remember

45. What are you listening to right now?
Orgy ( yes it's actually a band )

46. What is your favourite colour?
Red Black Blue

47. How many tattoos do you have?
None but I want some

49. What time did you finish this quiz?
8:11 pm

50. Coffee Drinker?
I'm a monster drinker

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/26205491/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/26205491/ Mon, 27 Jul 2009 06:41:39 PDT
Nothin big is goin down. I'm kinda bored. My sister lost my favorite shirt.

OH OH OH!!! I finally got that vein in my bicep to pop out when I wokrout!!! OH YEAH!

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/25981068/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/25981068/ Thu, 16 Jul 2009 08:57:11 PDT

A
- Available: Yeah

- Age: 19

- Annoyance: Everything

- Allergic: Flowers

- Animal: Sharks

- Actor: Ed Norton

B
- Beer: Land Shark

- Birthday/Birthplace: NY.NY

- Best Friends: Dont have one

- Body Part on opposite sex: Boobs

- Best feeling in the world: Adrenaline rush

- Blind or Deaf: Blind

- Best weather: Warm and kinda sunny

- Been in Love: Nah

- Been bitched out?: Too many times

- Been on stage?: The stage of life!

- Believe in yourself?: Eh

- Believe in life on other planets: Yeah

- Believe in miracles: No

- Believe in Magic: No

- Believe in God: No

- Believe in Satan: No.

- Believe in Santa: No

- Believe in Ghosts/spirits: No

- Believe in Evolution: Yep
C
- Car: 1969 Mustang Fastback Boss 429 Black on black

- Candy: Don't like candy

- Colour: Black

- Cried in school: Real men dont cry

- Chocolate/Vanilla: vanilla

- Chinese/Mexican: Chinese

- Cake or pie: Pie

- Countries to visit: All of em

D
- Day or Night: I'm a night owl

- Dream vehicle: 1969 Mustang Fastback boss 429

- Danced: No

- Dance in the rain?: No

- Dance in the middle of the street?: No

- Do the splits?: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA no

E
- Eggs: Srambled

- Eyes: Green/grey/hazel/yellow

- Everyone has: Heart, lungs, kidneys, spleen, liver (the vital organs)

- Ever failed a class?: Several

F
- First crush: Dunno

- Full name: Matthew

- First thoughts waking up: FOOOD!!!!

- Food: Pizza or steak

G
- Greatest Fear: hurting people

- Giver or taker: give

- Goals: Don't die yet

- Gum: None

- Get along with your parents?: eh

- Good luck charms: none

H
- Hair Colour: redish blonde

- Height: 6'2'' or 1189 cm

- Happy: never

- Holidays: summer

- How do you want to die: action packed

- Health freak?: Exercise freak

- Hate: everyone

I
(In guys/girls)
- Eye colour: green

- Hair Colour: long

- Height: shorter than me

- Clothing Style: Haha. I generally dont notice

- Characteristics: Happy

- Ice Cream: This doesn't make sense

- Instrument: whatever

J
- Jewelry: I wear a silver chainlink neclace

- Job: student

K
- Kids: nope

- Kickboxing or karate: Jui Jit Su

- Keep a journal?: Does this count?

L
- Longest Car Ride: 14 hours

- Love: Music

- Letter: M

- Laughed so hard you cried: Watching Bruno

- Love at first sight: No

M
- Milk flavour: Protein shake flavored

- Movie: I dunno. I've seen a few hundred

- Mooned anyone?: Yeah

- Marriage: maybe later

- Motion sickness?: never

- McD's or BK: I don't eat fast food

N
- Number of Siblings: 3

- Number of Piercings: 0

- Number: 73

O
- Overused Phrases: All of them, people talk to much and listen to little

- One wish: To leave here

- One phobia: hurting people

P
- Place you'd like to live: Kuttyhunk Island Massachusets

- Pepsi/Coke: MONSTER

Q
- Quail: Never had it

- Questionnaires: ?

R
- Reason to cry: I don't cry

- Reality T.V.: I dont watch tv

- Radio Station: The radio doesnt play good music

- Roll your tongue in a circle?: nope

S
- Song: to die for by the birthday massacre

- Shoe size: US 14 mens

- Sushi: eh

- Skipped school: yep

- Slept outside: Yeah It's a long story

- Seen a dead body?: yes

- Smoked?: No

- Skinny dipped?: oh yea

- Sho... ]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/25758672/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/25758672/ Sun, 05 Jul 2009 17:46:25 PDT I hope you guys are all doin well.

Yeah. Not much has changed since last time. But I am feeling better.

I was at the gym doing pullups and this chick kept looking over at me. I didn't notice but this guy came up and said "Dude she's totally checking you out" I was like "What are you talking about man?" And this chick was at least an 9. Hot as hell. The guy pointed her out and said she's been looking at you every few minutes for the last hour. It was a little odd for this guy to tell me that cuz he's easily older than my dad. But any way. I said to this guy "No way man. She's way outta my leauge." And a guy I know comes up and starts talking to me for a few minutes and then goes to another part of the gym. I looked over my shoulder to see the chick and was talking to the guy I know. So I figured this chick really was just looking at some other guy. So I shrugged it off. He then came back over laughing hysterically. He then came comes up to me and explains that this chick is deathly afraid of me but wants my phone number. It made me feel really good about myself. I apparently went from being a 2 on the scale of hotness to good enough to have that chick. Haha. The world has odd ways of turning around.



But then my computer crashed and I had to re install windows. But it's all good now.

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/25503052/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/25503052/ Tue, 23 Jun 2009 19:12:47 PDT
I don't know what I'm gonna do about school next year.
I have no money
I can't find a job
I haven't seen any of my friends in weeks
and to top it all off!
My dog just died.

The only good thing I have going for me is.... uh.... hmm....
I don't think should be this hard to think of something that is going right in my life.

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/24323510/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/24323510/ Sun, 19 Apr 2009 10:32:12 PDT

I was sick for like 2 weeks straight and it got kinda bad over the last week although I'm feeling much better now. I actually lost 5 lbs in the last 2 days oddly enough. I don't really understand how but I did.

My tests went pretty well. I did Ok on my psych test. I did ok on my sociology test which I did some extra credit for. I didn't do well on my econ test but I did some extra credit for it and I'm gonna see if there is any more I can do.

I've got my raft test this thurstday. Raft is the crisis hotline for the surrounding areas around here. and I'm in training for it. It's actually where I met soap.

Everything is going pretty well. I wasnt able to work out too well for a while because of how sick I was but I was able to work out well for the past 2 or three days so I'm feeling really good right now. A little sore but that's always a plus.

Yeah that's about it. I hope you guys are doing well!

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/24074039/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/24074039/ Sun, 05 Apr 2009 11:13:42 PDT . It's been a crazy few weeks. My brother crashed here over the past 2 nights. He told me like 4 hours before he came which caught me by suprise, it was cool and all I was just kinda shocked. It was ok though, he was much nicer here than he was at home. Which makes sense because my home sucks. My sister got into the school she wanted so hopefully she'll stop bitching at me.

Raft has been eating up a lot of my time. Raft is basically the crisis hotline around here and I've been in training to volunteer there. And it's been kinda crazy.

I've got 2 tests coming up this week and another next week. And they're all pretty important tests. So i've been busy as hell.

Soap ( the girl from before ) and I are going out, I guess... I see here like every other day and we make out and stuff so I'm gonna say that counts. I like her, she's in raft with me too. That's how we met. It's been really bust with my tests coming up. But on the upside a bunch of girls apparently want to go out with me, so I feel all hot and stuff. I wont go out with them, because I dont cheat on people. But it makes me feel all good and stuff.

Yeah. I woke up around 10, showered ate and have been studying ever since. Gah fuck my life. Nah, just tired and over worked.

Peace. Oh yeah and check out my healthy refrigerator. [link]
Only the necessities.

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/23845931/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/23845931/ Mon, 23 Mar 2009 09:27:44 PDT
I'm back at school now and have been for a few weeks now. Things have been pretty good, my grades are much better than last semeester. I'm in this secret society thing that I may have mentioned before. It's not acutally secret at all, that's just what I call it. It's called RAFT, it's a crisis hotline here at school for everything from general sympathy to dealing with suicide and stuff. It looks really good on a resume, although that's not why I joined. I'm in training now with about 20 other people, and only 2 of them are guys. Oh yeah! And I was going to the bus stop after training last week when this chick runs up and starts talking to me and stuff. We'll call her Soap, I hope you can tell that soap is not her real name but I dont like posting peoples names on the internet. We're on the bus talking and stuff and she's really nice and i'd say she's a solid 7. And it turned out that her roommmate it in my psych research class.

The next day in psych research her roommate comes up to me and give's me soaps phone number and give me the normal "Oh she said that if you want to you can call her, but you dont have to if you dont want to" and stuff. So saturday evening i called her and she said theres this movie thing going on. So i figured it'd just be the two of us, I was wrong. It was me her her roommate and this other dude. Which was cool, we had fun. When we got close to the end of the movie a bunch of their friends had just got back from a party, a little drunk but not wasted. That was cool I mean they were fun and stuff. Then the movie ended and we all went into one persons room to chill. Although now it was the 4 of us, plus the other dudes roommate. We were all just chilling and stuff when this drunk chick comes up hitting on me, which was really odd! She's trying to get me to go smoke with her and stuff when I'm here with someone, and it was really awkward.

After that we talked for a little while and this other kid comes up and invites himself in. We didnt mind so we were all cool with it. He started to get really obnoxious but no one said anything, so I just kept my mouth shut. Then he started getting really obnoxious but no one said anything so again I just kept my mouth shut. Soap and I have our backs on one wall the 3 other guys are sitting on a few chairs and soaps roommate has her back on the other wall. This prick comes up and starts laying on soaps legs, and she says ow your hurting me. So I wait a few seconds and tell him to get up. He just shrugs it off. She says it again, and I'm like dude get the fuck up! He shrugs it off again. So I get up and I'm gonna pick this kid up because he's hurting her and then he gets up before I do anything, and says fuck off to eveyone individually and sits back down on the chair.
So this whole thing ended a little oddly but it was fun.... yeah. I'm kinda afraid that soap never wants to talk to me again, but we'll see what happens

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/23634476/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/23634476/ Tue, 10 Mar 2009 20:36:45 PDT
MATT'S DAY!
11:00 wake up
11:10 eat giant bowl of cereal
11:30 do laundry
11:45 eat 2 egg omlet with bacon .... we only had 2 eggs left. I wanted a 4
12:00 go to GNC get more protein shakes
12:30 eat protein shake
12:45 finish laundry
1:00 Eat gronola bar
1:15 go to gym
5:40 get back from gym
5:45 take second protein shake
5:50 take showerd
6:00 get yelled at by sister
6:20 get food for little brother and I
6:40 eat for the 6th time
7:30 watch some TV play some more cod
8:00 do dishes for moom
8:15 watch some TV
9:00 have some tea and have a bowl of cereal for a total of 7 meals in the day
10:00 watch law and order cuz it's the new episode
11:00 surf internet and go on DA and unfortunately I'm still hungry

That was my day

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/23593553/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/23593553/ Sun, 08 Mar 2009 14:23:49 PDT -- Name: Matthew A. FitzGibbon
-- Birthplace: Manhattan, New york
-- Gender: Dude
-- Eye Color: Green, Blue, Hazel, Yellow In rings ( i know it's weird)
-- Hair Color: Red blonde
-- Height: 6'2'' almost 6'3''
-- Righty or Lefty: Righty
-- Zodiac Sign: I iz a scorpio

LAYER TWO:
-- Your heritage: Irish and Italian yo
-- The shoes you wore today: Yeah I put this thing up last april and am re doing it, but i'm still wearing the same old skate shoes. Sneaux biatch!
-- Your fears: Top 3 in order: Hurting someone I care about, letting someone I care about get hurt, and mediocrity
-- Your perfect meal: 3 porterhouse steaks
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: A few, Bench 350, squat 1250 (world record) get a 1969 ford mustang fastback boss 429 black on black, 17s in from 21's in back rear lift kit, quad 2.5 edelbrocks 3 inches out the back, perfect jl competitious sound system dual holly 4 barrells hooked up to a single ramair inlet on the hood. Black on black leather rear windshield guard black rims... if you dont understand what I just said dont worry about it. And just general happyness

LAYER THREE:
-- Your thoughts first waking up: BREAKFAST!!!!
School: Finishing up freshmen year at VT, GO HOKIES!!!

Free Day: Chill with friends, work on car, listen to music, party sleep and of course work out

-- Your best physical feature: I like my strength, I bench 260, squat 700, leg press 1000 (damn machine doesnt go any higher ), curl 220, and machine crunch 190 (another thing that wont go higher), and a bunch of people have told me I'm cute...
-- Your bedtime: Usually a little after 12:00 but really it just depends on how much work I have to do
-- Your most missed memory:My grandmother she passed away about 2 years ago now, and there was this one time my best friend in the world was crying and stuff because she was all upset about something and I held her in my arms for a good 10 minutes. I wished that moment never had to end

LAYER FOUR:
-- Pepsi or Coke: Monster!!! (Still true)
-- McDonald's or Burger King: White Castle!! (still true too)
-- Single or group dates: Single but they both can be fun
-- Adidas or Nike: Sneaux/ Vans
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: I'm gonna have to say monster
-- Chocolate or vanilla: All
-- Cappuccino or coffee: I will refer to the first question in layer four and say Monster!

LAYER FIVE:
-- Smoke: Never
-- Cuss: Fuck NO!!! I'd never do shit like that!
-- Sing: No, never
-- Take a shower: Usually like twice a day
-- Have a crush: Nah
-- Do you think you've been in love: Hell yeah! I love my dog abby, my car [link] and monster!!
-- Want to go to college: GO VT!!!
-- Liked high school: I loveed high school
-- Want to get married: I think so, but not for a while
-- Get motion sickness: Never
-- Think you're attractive:I dont, but a lot of people tell me I am
-- Think you're a health freak: HAHAHAHAHAHA!!
-- Get along with your parent(s): I like my mom, my dad is a royal asshole
-- Like thunderstorms: Sure
-- Play an instrument: Nah, I'd like to learn, but I want to learn Ju-Jitsu firts
LAYER SIX:
In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: Yeah, it's a part of college. VT i... ]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/23090665/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/23090665/ Sun, 08 Feb 2009 19:35:46 PST
Yeah. So I'm sick. I've got a sinus infection, but I should be good in a day or two. Being sick sucks. I havent even been able to go to the gym! Fuck that! It sucks. And since I cant workout I'm all not sleeping right and stuff.

School has been ok. Not much has changed but my studying has been pretty good so I think this semester is gonna be a lot better.

I had something specific I wanted to say....
Oh yeah. I've noticed that people have been staring at me a bit, or like glancing at me more than usual. It's very odd. I dont smell bad, and even if I did they were too far away to notice. And it's kinda confusing me. I'm gonna guess it's positive but I'm not sure.

That wasn't what I wanted to say but That was something. I'll figure it out later. PEACE YALL <3

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/22922606/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/22922606/ Sat, 31 Jan 2009 12:08:41 PST
I've been having a touch of a problem, it's a really odd one though. I only really wear t shirts and I wear a size Large shirt, but I'm having a problem with them The sleeves dont fit my arms any more!! Everything else is good but I put the shirt on and the sleeves wont go past my bicep. I've been trying to think of ways to fix this but I'm not coming up with anything. But see it's not really too much of a bad thing as much as it is just kind of annoying. But on the cool side, I can curl 200 lbs now! Oh yea
I've been trying to work on my chest strength too. I'd really like to improve it. And I started switching up my routine a few days ago and it's gone really well. I've already gone up from benching 205lbs for 10 reps to 215 for 8 reps (if you dont understand just know that that's really good)

Yeah. This semester is going a lot better than the last one. It's only a small amount in to it. A bout 2 weeks, if I can count (no guarantee) but it feels a lot better. I like my classes much better. It's easy to get into the swing and get my work done and concentrate more on school. My econ work took me 3 hours yesterday and last semester I would have just bolted through all of it and said screw it. I actually took my time and did it well. Even though my computer crashed and I had to redo it. I still plowed through.

My social life is also much better. I didnt really go out much last semester. I chilled with my friends but instead of going to a party or something we watched a movie or something. I've gone to a party every week I've been here and been having a lot more fun as well as getting my work done. So it's been all around pretty good.

Apparently I can hold my alchol pretty well. We went out last night and I was talking to some poeple and told them I had never been drunk, I had never even been buzzed before. So the decided to make it a goal to get me at least buzzed. There was a cooler of something called "Get Laid Lemonade" It was about 1/3 beer 1/6 lemonade and the rest was vodka. It was around 60% alchohol. I had 4 giant cups of that, 4 shots, and 6 or 7 cups of beer. They had the good stuff too! No more natty lite!! Sorry I'm Irish I like good beer. And I should have been passed out on the floor from that much, and I was actually pretty good. I was a bit buzzed but nothing more. So my roommate and some other people were kinda ticked cuz he wanted me drunk but I was pretty good. It was a great time.

Yeah that's about it
I hope all of you are having great days!

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/22632995/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/22632995/ Sat, 17 Jan 2009 12:21:42 PST
It's official. 3 and a half weeks of being home was more stressful than 4 months of school

I'm finally back at school! It was a bitch getting here though. I had to take 2 flights to get here but it was worht it. I got here the first day the dorms opened. Before I left my dad yelled at me so badly for wanting to leave early. I wanted to beat the hell out of him but he's not worth it.

My sister had been such a fucking bitch! She has yelled at me everyday since I got home for break. I figured the first week she was just worried about school but fucking christ! Everyday she was just a bitch.

But I'm finally back. All is right with the world. It's balls ass cold ehre though. It's 10 degrees at the warmes and I didnt bring a jacket. I was going to ship it to myself so I put it in the box, but I realized when I got here that I definityly should have brought it. My roommate doesnt get back for a few days so I've got the place to myself for now. Which is pretty cool but I kinda miss him.

I'm not looking forward to school starting. Classes are gonna be hard and I'm on academic probation. I need to meet with the dean on monday before I actually start classes. I cant even look up what I'm registered for yet. Which sucks!
All in all life has sucked!

I hope you guys are doing well!

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/22359996/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/22359996/ Fri, 02 Jan 2009 18:16:41 PST
My mom finally fixed the problem at the gym 3 days ago so I've been able to go again, and luckily i'm still at about the same level I was before so I'm pretty happy about that. I did do something really dumb though! I was doing a dumbell press and dropped a 65 lb weight on my shoulder so that hurt like shit! And somehow I messed up my right wrist but I think that'll heal soon so I'm not too worried about it. But damn did it feel to get a good work out in. I was there for 4 hours and it felt great

I've been having some problems while I'm back for break. The worst have been problems with my family. Now as some of you know the worst problems I used to have with my family were between my sister and I. And right now it's the total opposite of that! Weird right?! I'm having really bad problems with my older brother. He's been condascending and obnoxious since we drove back home. But the worst part is how much he tries to boss me around. Every time he opens his mouth I want to cut out his tunge. My dad is only a bit better. He's been a total dickhead! I want to slap him when I see him. And the worst part is he is still off until monday. I'm not sure I'm going to make it that long. The odd part is that my sister and mom feel the same way. Specifically my sister because she gets the same amount of the problems as I do. I've also been on really good terms with my sister recently. We havent fought at all so that's a plus. It's good to have an ally.

I have the best grounding story ever! I got grounded for doing the dishes. Best thing ever! And by best thing ever, I mean dumbest reason to ever ground someone. I think that means I can stop doing chores now

I got to go out with my friends 2 or 3 times since I've been home. I chilled with my best guy friend. Then I went to one of my female friends houses where a bunch of us got together made fried oreos and then saw the spirit. And just so you know... THE SPIRIT SHOULD WIN EVERY AWARD FOR ANYTHING EVER!!!
I also chilled with like 30 people a few days ago. We grabbed something to eat at Ihop and then went bowling. I had a lot of fun!

I should really call my boss and get put on the schedule for a little while to get some money for school.

I got put on an increased dose of adderall almost 2 weeks ago. It's been working pretty well I think but it's hard to be sure. My normal schedule is completely out of wack there's so much stress with my family and I don't get up at a set time and everything so I'm not sure how it's going.

Gah! Fuck my life dude.

I hope you all are better than I am!

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/22359985/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/22359985/ Fri, 02 Jan 2009 18:16:20 PST
My mom finally fixed the problem at the gym 3 days ago so I've been able to go again, and luckily i'm still at about the same level I was before so I'm pretty happy about that. I did do something really dumb though! I was doing a dumbell press and dropped a 65 lb weight on my shoulder so that hurt like shit! And somehow I messed up my right wrist but I think that'll heal soon so I'm not too worried about it. But damn did it feel to get a good work out in. I was there for 4 hours and it felt great

I've been having some problems while I'm back for break. The worst have been problems with my family. Now as some of you know the worst problems I used to have with my family were between my sister and I. And right now it's the total opposite of that! Weird right?! I'm having really bad problems with my older brother. He's been condascending and obnoxious since we drove back home. But the worst part is how much he tries to boss me around. Every time he opens his mouth I want to cut out his tunge. My dad is only a bit better. He's been a total dickhead! I want to slap him when I see him. And the worst part is he is still off until monday. I'm not sure I'm going to make it that long. The odd part is that my sister and mom feel the same way. Specifically my sister because she gets the same amount of the problems as I do. I've also been on really good terms with my sister recently. We havent fought at all so that's a plus. It's good to have an ally.

I have the best grounding story ever! I got grounded for doing the dishes. Best thing ever! And by best thing ever, I mean dumbest reason to ever ground someone. I think that means I can stop doing chores now

I got to go out with my friends 2 or 3 times since I've been home. I chilled with my best guy friend. Then I went to one of my female friends houses where a bunch of us got together made fried oreos and then saw the spirit. And just so you know... THE SPIRIT SHOULD WIN EVERY AWARD FOR ANYTHING EVER!!!
I also chilled with like 30 people a few days ago. We grabbed something to eat at Ihop and then went bowling. I had a lot of fun!

I should really call my boss and get put on the schedule for a little while to get some money for school.

I got put on an increased dose of adderall almost 2 weeks ago. It's been working pretty well I think but it's hard to be sure. My normal schedule is completely out of wack there's so much stress with my family and I don't get up at a set time and everything so I'm not sure how it's going.

Gah! Fuck my life dude.

I hope you all are better than I am!

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/22359896/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/22359896/ Fri, 02 Jan 2009 18:10:13 PST
I've been having some problems while I'm back for break. The worst have been problems with my family. Now as some of you know the worst problems I used to have with my family were between my sister and I. And right now it's the total opposite of that! Weird right?! I'm having really bad problems with my older brother. He's been condascending and obnoxious since we drove back home. But the worst part is how much he tries to boss me around. Every time he opens his mouth I want to cut out his tunge. My dad is only a bit better. He's been a total dickhead! I want to slap him when I see him. And the worst part is he is still off until monday. I'm not sure I'm going to make it that long. The odd part is that my sister and mom feel the same way. Specifically my sister because she gets the same amount of the problems as I do. I've also been on really good terms with my sister recently. We havent fought at all so that's a plus. It's good to have an ally.

I have the best grounding story ever! I got grounded for doing the dishes. Best thing ever! And by best thing ever, I mean dumbest reason to ever ground someone. I think that means I can stop doing chores now

I got to go out with my friends 2 or 3 times since I've been home. I chilled with my best guy friend. Then I went to one of my female friends houses where a bunch of us got together made fried oreos and then saw the spirit. And just so you know... THE SPIRIT SHOULD WIN EVERY AWARD FOR ANYTHING EVER!!!
I also chilled with like 30 people a few days ago. We grabbed something to eat at Ihop and then went bowling. I had a lot of fun!

I should really call my boss and get put on the schedule for a little while to get some money for school.

I got put on an increased dose of adderall almost 2 weeks ago. It's been working pretty well I think but it's hard to be sure. My normal schedule is completely out of wack there's so much stress with my family and I don't get up at a set time and everything so I'm not sure how it's going.

Gah! Fuck my life dude.

I hope you all are better than I am!

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/22144444/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/22144444/ Tue, 23 Dec 2008 15:03:39 PST And happy holidays to everyone that doesnt celebrate christmas!

I keep getting odd looks from girls which I cant really figure out. My friend was with me and he told me that itz because they think I'm attractive, I hope he's right otherwise it's probably something bad. It's odd though it's been increasing a lot lately and a couple of girls have randomly started flirting with me, like the chick at the coffee shop at my school. So that's been pretty cool. It's a real confidence booster when stuff like that happens. a year and a half ago that never happened though. Granted I weighed almost 300 lbs and now weigh less than 220 plus my muscle has increased a lot. So it just goes to show you that hard work payes off!!

I've set my goals for the year. By april or so I want a decent set of abs. I can do it if I keep my ab excersizes up and keep my nutrition going well. And I need to be able to bench 350 by the summer and squat 750. I'm not sure I can do the last one though. Not because of strength but I think the bars break at 700:


I'm home which enivetably means misery. So I'm stuck here and it sucks. My brother is being a giant ass hole. My sister whom I'm normally pissed at is being suprisingly nice and friendly which is pretty cool My moms beeing cool too so has my lil bro but my dad is a dick.

And something went wrong at my gym so I wont be able to go until my parents fix the thing.
And I've been asking for a week and they havent done it.

I chilled with my best guy friend yesterday which was cool. It was only for a little while but that's cool.

I've been listening to a lot of happycore music recently. Which is weird. My genres recently have been trance happycore punk and death metal. Odd combo right? That's about it.

My internet doesnt work well at my house so i've been really bored when it goes out and shit like that. It's a really odd problem too that I cant figure out.

I started doing yoga. A couple of people have reccomended it to increase balance and range of motion whihc i could really use so i've been doing that for the past few days which has been pretty cool.


That's it.

I lovez you all!!!

** Riki I promise I'll respond to all of them soon my internet doesnt work here so I'm gonna go to starbucks or something and use wifi to check everything. I'm not just being a dick. I'm suprised It's lasted long enough for me to do this! K bye <3**

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/22016067/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/22016067/ Tue, 16 Dec 2008 13:43:56 PST Fuck you!
Fuck this!
Fuck That!
Fuck School!
Fuck life!
Fuck him!
Fuck her!
Fuck Them!
Fuck my family!
Fuck grades!
Fuck The best!
Fuck the rest!
Fuck Off!
Fuck on!
Fuck this place!
Fuck people!
Fuck humanity!
Fuck being alone!
Fuck being together!
Fuck the truth!
Fuck all the lies!
Fuck the bullshit!
Fuck everyone!

FUCK IT ALL!

No matter what the day holds... YOURE STILL A PIECE OF SHIT!
Nice guys don't finish last... they're killed by people like me!

Fuck you! And have a nice day.
Home is where the people that are supposed to help you gradually drive you to drink

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/21788774/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/21788774/ Tue, 02 Dec 2008 18:21:00 PST [link]
RULES :
#1) You must fill out EVERY question! No skipping!
#2) Tag five people afterward.
#3) Leave a message on their page telling them their tagged. (I'll skip that)


ARE YOU ,

1.Perfect
HAHA

2. Tall?
Unfortunately

3. In your pajamas?
Nah, cargo pants and a black wife beater. Plus a black addidas hat

4. Left handed ?
Right

LAST:

1. Friend you saw :
Alyssa

2. Talked to on the phone :
Alyssa

3. Person to text you :
Alyssa... hmm I think i see a trend here

4. Was today better than yesterday ?
Nope

FAVORITES :

1. Number :
Uhh dont have one

2. Color(s) :
I appreciate all colors equally

3. Fruit :
blue berries or banannas

4. Place :
Kuttyhunk Island massachusets

QUESTIONS & ANSWERS :

Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?
A: hopped off my bed and played some music

Q: Do you have anything bothering you ?
A: Yeah but it'll take a while to explain

Q: What's the last movie you saw ?
A: Tropic thunder about 20 minutes ago

Q: Where is the last place you went ?
A: Grociery store

Q: Do you smile alot?
A: no

Q: Do you wish upon stars ?
A: I'm from Jersey, we can't really see stars
YAY FOR POLLUTION!!!

Q: Are you a friendly person ?
A: Yes but i don't look it

Q: Where did you sleep last night ?
A: my dorm

Q: When was the last time you cried ?
A: Don't remember, I don't cry much

Q: What was your last thought before going to sleep last night ?
A: I love music

Q: Rate life as of right now one being bad ten being great?
A: 5 i guess

Q: What do you hear right now ?
A: Mayday Parade and my roommate playing quake 4

Q: Does anything hurt right now ?
A: My chest shoulders back neck torso biceps and triceps, I hadn't worked out in 2 weeks. And kinda emotional lacking pain if that makes sense

Q: What's your favorite month ?
A: October

Q: What did you do last night ?
A: Chilled ate dinner hung out watched x men listened to music

EIGHT EMOTIONS :

1. Are you missing someone right now :
Yeah

2. Are you happy ?
I'm not pissed off, is that good enough?

3. Are you sad ?
Yeah kinda

4. Are you bored ?
Nah

8. Are you tired ?
A little

ABOUT YOU :

001. Real name ?
Matt

002. Nick names ?
Buttercup matt mattybear

003. Eye color ?
Rings of blue green gray and yellow

004. Zodiac sign ?
Scorpio WOOT WOOT

005. Male or female ?
Dude!

009. Smart?
Smart enough

010. Hair color ?
People call me strawberry blonde

011. Tall or short?
Tall

013. Sweats or Jeans?
Jeans

014. Phone or Camera ?
Phone

016. Drink or Smoke?
None of the above

020. Tattoos ?
not yet

021. Righty or lefty?
Right

FIRSTS :

024. First best friend?
Tony

025. first crush?
Mary kate olsen

027. First pet?
Wellington, my black lab great dane mutt kinda thing <3

028. First big vacation ?
Disney i think

049. Eating?
Fuck yea!

050. Drinking ?
MONSTER!!! My favorite energy drink

052. I'm about to :
Answer question 53

053. Listening to ?
Nelly now

054. Plans for today ?
Finish this thing do some work and read some of my book

079. Drank bubbles ?
huh?

080. Lost glasses/contacts?
Dont wear em

081. Ran away from home ?
Not seriously

084. Broken someone's heart ?
Yeah

085. Been arrested ?
no

DO YOU BELIEVE IN :

090. Miracles?
Not really

089. Yourself ?
Sometimes

092. Heaven ?
Not really

093. Santa Claus ?
OF COURSE!!!!

094. Love ?
I'm a hopeless romantic afterall

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :

0... ]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/21515853/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/21515853/ Sun, 16 Nov 2008 10:12:43 PST

It's almost time for thanksgiving break. It's going to be the first time I've been home in a few months. The first time since I left for school. I'm looking forward too seeing all my friends again, and I'll admit that I'm even looking forward to seeing my family again. I get a while off because I only got a 1 day for fall break. Which sucked.
The other thing it means is that I have a lot of work to do before I get to leave. I have 2 papers a test and 2 essays not to mention 3 quizzes. Yeah, not fun.

Everything has been pretty good here at school. My grades aren't what I'd like them to be but I still have a little while to pull them up.

That's about it.
How are all of you?

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/20940324/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/20940324/ Sat, 11 Oct 2008 16:37:16 PDT
My life is now sickeningly normal. It's kind of scary. Or at least I think it's normal. Maybe it's just because Everything has been off the walls for a while. School is going pretty well. I'm not doing too great in biology but shit happens. I may void the grade. I'm taking 15 credits so if I do void it it wont matter. Our football team is doing pretty well so I'm happy about that. Oh yea I'm joinging the boxing club and I need to see when the ju jitsu club meets. I'm gonna try that. It's a good way to stay in shape and I've always wanted to do ju jitsu. I'm just chilling out right now. I have a paper due tuesday and I don't feel like writing it so I'll put it off until tomorrow.

Apparently my house has been in chaos. It's fall break right now but I didn't go home. We only get a three day weekend we got friday sat and sunday off. Most people get monday too. But it wouldnt be worth going home if it's only that long. So I'm here. Almost everyone went home though. there are like 200 something people here out of the usual 27 000 so it's kind of freaky.
But anyways my home has been crazy. My dad's doctor has been on him about his weight, he's right my family has a bad history of diabetes and my dad needs to loose a few pounds for his health. Everyone in my family is overweight my brother and my dad are pretty bad though. My sister isn't bad and I'm only over by 15 or so lbs. But mine is hard to calculate cuz I lift a lot and have big shoulders so I can never figure it out right. Anyway my dad went to the doctor and something happened and now the doctor basically wont treat him anymore. That's right my dad got fired as a patient. I didcn't think that was possible!! But that's my dad for ya. I love him, I really do but he's an asshole sometimes ( a lot} My mom has had the worst week ever. She's a teacher and for the first time ever she has regretted becoming a teacher. Her kids are terrible she actually cried on friday because her kids are that bad. Last year they were the kids I would have gone to school with but I switched. And they were great she didn't have any problems. But now they're going crazy. And my grandfather is being an asshole! I love him dearly too but he's being such a jerk to my dad. I wish I could help or something but I'm 500 miles away.

Anyway thats about it

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/20829073/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/20829073/ Sat, 04 Oct 2008 17:06:39 PDT 002. Nickname → Matt Headhphones Buttercup
003. Status → Kinda Hungry
004. Zodiac sign → Scorpio
005. Male or female → Male
006. Elementary → nope
007. Middle School → nope
008. High School → nope
009. Smart → nope
010. Hair color → people call it strawberry blonde -> they call it the gayes name ever!
011. Long or short → Short
012. Loud or Quiet → In between
013. Sweats or Jeans → Neither Cargo pants
014. Phone or Camera → phone
015. Health freak → HAHAHAHA!!! no
016. Drink or Smoke? → Nope
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → It's complicated
18. Eat or Drink → Both
019. Piercings → Nope
020. Tattoos → Not yet I want some though

FIRSTS:
023. First piercings → none
024. First best friend → Tony
025. First award → I don't remember before 6th grade
026. First crush → See answer above
027. First pet → Dog Wellington! Rest in peace buddy
028. First big vacation → See answer 25
030. First big birthday → I don't celebrate my birthday. CONGRATS YOURE NOT DEAD YET!!! :

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating → Pizza
050. Drinking → Cherry Coke
052. I'm about to → Finish some work on a viper
053. Listening to → Angels by within temptation
054. Plans for today → Dunno yet

YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? → Ask again later
059. Want to get married? → Yeah
060. Careers in mind → Professional hobo or mechanic or psychologist ( or all three!!)

WHICH IS BETTER WITH GIRL/BOY? - The ladies!
068. Lips or eyes → eyes
070. Shorter or taller? → Shorter
072. Romantic or spontaneous → Why chose?
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → Stomach?
074. Sensitive or loud → Sensitive
075. Hook-up or relationship → relationship ( I am a hopless romantic)
077. Trouble maker or hesitant → Hesitant I like the quiet ones

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → Don't wear em
081. Ran away from home → yep
084. Broken someones heart → maybe
085. Been arrested → nope
087. Cried when someone died → no

DO YOU BELIEVE:
089. Yourself → Sometimes
090. Miracles → no
091. Love at first sight → Dunno
092. Heaven → yes
093. Santa Claus → FUCK YEA!
094. Sex on the first date → Nah
095. Kiss on the first date → Yeah That's cool

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → Yep
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → Fuck no!
099. Do you believe in God → Not really but I don't look too much into it. I'm agnostic
100. Post as 100 truths and tag → ME!


From [link]

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]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/20379374/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/20379374/ Sun, 07 Sep 2008 17:05:56 PDT
She has called me three times this week in tears. All three times were during a meal by the way. I'm really worried about her, I'm afraid she's going to have a nervous breakdown of just explode into a million pieces. I dont know what I can do except be there for her and talk to her.

I dont hide my feelings. Everyone knows how I feel about almost everything. If I dont like someone they and everyone else knows it. She iether has or recently ended a relationship with her boyfriend. She says they just broke up kind of or something but I dont think she's telling me the truth. Or at least the whole truth. Heres how I feel about this kid... I would like to dismember him slowly after beating the living shit out of him repetitively for about a month only keeping him alive enough to feel everyone bit of pain I inflict on him, after I dismember him I will make him watch as I feed his body parts to random animals and insects. After the creaturs have eaten his body parts I would kill him in the most painful manner I can and then feed the rest of his corpse to those little critters. So I dont like him. So as she was telling me this I both felt bad that they broke up because she was sad, but I was happy because A/ I fucking hate him and B/ he has hurt her very badly several times but she always takes him back like nothing happened. Even though everyone tells her that she shouldnt. This little fucker keeps saying stuff like ( she hates her job) if you dont quit I'll never talk to you again. And her hey boyfriend and their mothers went to the beach. Now her mom is very nice but can be kind of testy I guess is a nice way to put it. And her mom kept complaining. So Her boyfriend screamed at my friend for an hour once they got home and said it was all her fault that no one had fun. DUDE WTF?! I wanna kill the little fucker!!!!



Every day I wake up I'm afraid she's going to get hurt or something. I dont really know what to do about it. She knows I'm worried about her and she knows why too. I call her everynight and she's had another problem and they just keep digging away at her.

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]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/20237986/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/20237986/ Sat, 30 Aug 2008 14:55:07 PDT
I go to a huge football school and we lost our first game today. I think the school has group depression now.
Not much else is going on.

Oh! I've been writing this book on and off for a while now. Just kind of a story I put together and I finally put up the first little bit of it. If you would do me a favor and read it and tell me what you think I would really appreciate it.

I hope all of you are doing well!!

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/20154222/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/20154222/ Mon, 25 Aug 2008 18:12:16 PDT ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/20095110/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/20095110/ Fri, 22 Aug 2008 12:02:11 PDT
Its really nice weather here so thats a big plus. And I'm still trying to add a class. Then I have to pick up my books. $$$ not enough money for that crap. Eh. Its good and bad. I dont think its really hit me yet. But I hope it will soon.

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/19849468/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/19849468/ Fri, 08 Aug 2008 17:08:19 PDT
I gots a little dilemma. Theres a party going on tomorrow that I was invited to. A bunch of people are gonna go and it sounds like fun. Theres gonna be drinking and stuff but I'm ok with that. I dont drink. My dad thinks I'm an alcoholic but in actuality I dont drink. I called one of my other friends who I've seen like 2 times this summer and I really wanted to hang out with her. But she hasnt called me since since yesterday. She said she'd try to put something together where a bunch of people would hang out. And I was really looking foward to it. But now I cant even tell whats going on. I can probably go to the party last minute. It doesnt really matter. My curfew is 11:30 for some dumb reason so id just bum at my friends house when we get back from the party.

I kinda feel obligated to go, just because I want to make sure everyone gets home safely. I think they will because they're pretty safe and stuff like that but I'm a little uneasy.
So I'm not sure what I should do now. Kinda sucks.

Everyone at work thinks I'm 22! tomorrow is the last day I work before I go to school. Cuz i need time to get ready. And they keep saying we should get something to drink at work to celebrate! They're crazy! I told them I was going out after work and they said I should drink and then go out and drink... wtf? 0.o

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/19360271/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/19360271/ Sat, 12 Jul 2008 19:02:53 PDT
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I'm really worried. I don't know what to do. I thought i wasnt too worried ne more and was allowing myself to have fun but it came back to bite me. I havent slept and i've worked everyday for 2 weeks straight. I'm about to break!

My best friend is on vacation and hasnt had a good summer or life for that matter! I just want to make sure she's ok. She sounds like she is. I've talked to her and everything. Maybe it's not even that but I have this sinking feeling something is going to go wrong. Maybe it's her boyfriend or something. If she didn't ask me to hurt him, that little fucker would be breathing out of a tube and shitting into a pan!

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/19299781/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/19299781/ Wed, 09 Jul 2008 20:35:00 PDT
Everything here's been pretty good. I'm working but not making much. which sucks but I am making some money for college. Beer money! Tehe. I actually don't drink

I guess I'm gonna put some stuff about me:

My name is Matt FitzGibbon
I live in NJ United States
I'm 18
Going to VT next year
Want to be something in a science field or play football
I like music hangin out with my friends etc
I'm a scorpio
Born year of the snake on chinese zodiac
I don't smoke or Drink
My current job is a mechanic
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But It wont let me change my mood and I cant figure out why.....

Here are some funny videos that i like and randomly found
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And that's about it.

I hope everyone is doing well!

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/19192698/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/19192698/ Thu, 03 Jul 2008 22:11:04 PDT
I know this is an odd title but it has a good story at the end. I was working out a few hours ago then went to take a shower. I realized that my shirt was really wet, I took it off to realize I was bleeding like hell. There's a straight bruise across my shoulders!
I work out a lot, I lift weights. And I was doing squats with a lot of weight. I was doing them today with 435 a new personal record!!! And even though I used a pad, I started bleeding from the pressure on my shoulders. YESS!!!!!

My friend's been doing a lot better. I've been trying to talk to her a lot to make sure she's ok and try to be there if she needs to vent and I think it's working pretty well. Tomorrow is 4th of July and I live in the US so it's our big holiday. I'm trying to see if I can go see her tomorrow if not I'm definitely going out with other people.

That's about it. I hope everyone is doing well!!!

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/19114477/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/19114477/ Sun, 29 Jun 2008 18:05:10 PDT
I haven't been online much recently. I just graduated 2 weeks ago. So that kept me very busy. And then I've found myself working more than I should be but I do need the money. And I have seen my friends a few times so that's cool.

I've been good about going to the gym to work out. I'm there 6 days a week so that's a good thing. I go before work so it's all good. I realized what I wanna do in school! Not academically but, I wanna play football for Virginia Tech which is a really good football school. Division 1 (The big leagues) I haven't played football for a league in a while, a long while. I had to stop because of some family stuff. And I've been told by a few coaches both high school and college that I should play. So I'm gonna play in club. (Theres inter murals, club, then the league) I miss football and I think It'd be fun to play again. That and it's just a good goal to shoot for.

I would love some help if anyone can!!
My best friend is having a lot of trouble. She's the one that I've written about a lot. Her boyfriend got sent to Brazil. And she is really upset but I think he just got back. She got mono from him, apparently you give it to someone 2 years after your sick. And her boyfriend got it from Her best friend. --Odd right? So she is sick and then she is a lot sicker than that I just don't understand much about it. Blood pressure stuff and enzyme stuff as well.
**side note - If I got the chance I would be the living shit out of that kid. He's a dick and a whore who deserves to rot in hell! I don't like him**

She hasn't had a good summer. She hasn't been able to do anything at all. Her parents, and entire family for that matter are such assholes to her! It's horrible and she just tries to sit and take it. They don't acknowledge her at all! They're very old fashioned and think that cuz she's a girl she's unimportant especially compared to her brother (also an ass). She's called me in tears at least 5 times in the last week. I'm really worried about her but I don't think her parents will let me see her. She's on the brink of a meltdown! I'm really worried.

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/18829390/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/18829390/ Fri, 13 Jun 2008 22:15:21 PDT
I graduate tuesday. And I can't stand it!!
I hate the fact that we graduate tuesday!!! :sad:
I start crying everytime i think about it

I don't know what I'm gonna do without all my friends around. It kills me to know that we're leaving eachother and that I won't see some of these people that have been around me and helped me and have shared memories with again. It's killing me!!!

These people are the world to me! I don't know what I'm going to do!

I'm going to miss 2 people more than anyone else.
My guy friend we're best buds but he's being a dick right now.

And this next person I'm going to miss more than anyone else combined times a biliion + chuck norris

She's the girl I used to want to go out with. She's my best friend in the world. And I don't know what I'll do without her. I cry evertime i think that I wont be able to see her everyday. I don't want to leave. I've had so much fun in school!
==Starting to cry now==
I can't even say how bad I am now. I dont' know what to do. HELP ME!!!!!

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/18421988/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/18421988/ Tue, 20 May 2008 19:53:22 PDT

Prom was on friday and it was amazing!!!! I loved it! It was so much fun! As you may have read I was worried about being put at a bad table... as it turns out I wasn't sitting at that table. Somehow they got switched and even if I was at the worst table in the world I was sitting for about 1.44 minutes and dancing (making an ass out of myself) for the remainder.

A bunch of people didn't go with dates and as I observed all the people that went without dates had a lot more fun! It was pretty funny! It was fun as hell!!!!! <3 We took a party bus to prom which was amazing in itself. Then we went into NYC which was amazing!!! We had such a great time.

We went to 6 flags yesterday. --Big ass amusement park with the worlds tallest rollercoaster. This rollercoaster is huge and only lasts 40 seconds. So I'm there with all my friends saying it can't be that great it's so short.
But guess what.....
ITS THE BEST 40 SECONDS OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!
It was great. We road all the rollercoasters and it was a blast. I have a season pass so I can go a lot which I hope to do.

School has been pretty fun, I havent done much, and by much I mean any, work.

We are getting our senior class adviser a gift. And I guess I'm spearheading this lil project, And it is a pain in my ass but I want to make sure we get him something nice. Probably a watch and a digital picture frame with a lot of pictures of our class throughout highschool. I have to work my ass off to get this done but it's cool. He's worth it!

Started my new job today. Well kinda, I started training. But it's the same 45 something questions that I've done 8888888 billion times before. But it's good money! It's supposed to take me 19 hours to get through it all and I did 4 hours today and need maybe 2 more. But only because Ive done all this stuff before! I hope I don't get in trouble.... =/

Sorry I haven't had much time to be on. I'm kinda busy.

How are all my darlings out in cyberspace??


]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/18312665/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/18312665/ Tue, 13 May 2008 21:04:34 PDT I haven't posted in a while, busy as hell!!

I got my new auto certificates, I have 2 but need 2 more. The NATEF ones and they're kind of hard but not that bad. I have a job now, or I start tuesday at sears auto working on cars and stuff.

Base pay is 9.25 an hour and 5.75 commission. I want to see if I can test up to the next 2 levels so I can make more money. All of the stuff they do there is stuff I have done a million times!!!!! It's gonna be crazy easy and good pay!

Been hangin out a lot. Went to my friends graduation/sweet 16/ whatever party. She's 18 now but who knows.

It was a lot of fun.

PROM is on FRIDAY and it's gonna be cool but I'm at a really really really really bad table!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My friends' boyfriend the one I despise and I are sitting at the same table, she is also there along with a few others who I like. So we'll see what happens!

We're going to 6 flags on monday kind of our senior cut day. Which'll be cool. Might get a season pass with a bunch of other people so we can go have some fun. And it's not too far from my house so it's cool.

Sorry I'm really tired and Am gonna go to bed now!

Gnight!!!


]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/18091289/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/18091289/ Tue, 29 Apr 2008 18:23:40 PDT "If you were gonna die in 24 hours, how would you spend your last day?"

I answered very truthfully.

If I were gonna die, I would make sure everyone I care about knows that I love them.
There are 2 people I need to kiss.
And then spend the remaining time trying to help the world.

I've asked a few people this question
3 said skydiving
2 said do something illegal so they don't have to deal with the consequences
ONLY 1 person mentioned their friends and being happy!!!
WTF??!! Heartless bastards!!

Here is my rant for the day:
My friend is very very pretty and its obvious- she isn't a whore!! Or slutty at all!!!! So don't get any ideas!
A group of guys honked at her while she was walking down the street. She sent this in a text btw.

I said to myself....
Hey Matt, PEOPLE ARE FUCKING ASSHOLES WITH NO RESPECT OR CONSIDERATION FOR ANYONE BUT THEMSELVES!!!!

I hate the human race!

What would you do with 24 hours to live?

Oh yea, and I HAVE THE ATTENTION SPAN A A GOPHER!!!! YAYZ!!!

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/18029894/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/18029894/ Fri, 25 Apr 2008 21:14:10 PDT
Ok this was my night.
My friend and I (the one I used to like) went to the school play. --The play was awful!!!! I didn't know it was just going to be the two of us. I thought there were going to be a few more, but it turned out to be different. The play was three hours long. And crazy hot in the room. After the play a few people went out to a diner and I got invited. It was me, 1 girl I kinda know, 1 girl that I thought hated my guts (but she was actually pretty cool) and her boyfriend. I didn't know him at all.
I could have gone to the cast party even though I didn't do much for the play, but the kid hosting it is a really good friend of mine. I've spoken about him before. But most of the kids in the cast are in a school that most consider "smart" and I'm in a school considered "dumb", the other school where most of my friends are is in the middle. And the "smart" kids hate everyone that goes to my school. IT'S FUCKING HILARIOUS!!!!! It's soo funny! They think that they're crazy smart, and most of them are so dumb! I went to help build the set and having done a lot of work with carpentry and construction stuff I know what I'm doing. One of the kids was using a saw and I pointed out that she was using it wrong, and she screamed at me for speaking. So I said to myself "Fuck it!" so I didn't say anything and she ended up almost cutting her arm off. And then I had to give an infamous I told ya so!
So I went to the diner. It was a lot of fun! It was a blast! One of girls kept saying that I should drive my friend to give us time alone. I was like STFU!!! I didn't actually say it but that's definitely what I was thinking! The other has been saying stuff like that for a month! And what I didn't know, is that my friends parents say stuff along those lines too!
JESUS CHRIST PEOPLE!!! LEAVE US ALONE!!!
It was fun though, I don't get to hang out with her (my friend) a lot so it was really cool to see her outside school.
Her boyfriend didn't go, because he's grounded or whatever.
So everything was a lot of fun! I'm happy!

I hope you guys are doing well too!!!

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/18012102/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/18012102/ Thu, 24 Apr 2008 18:18:45 PDT

Prom is coming up may 18th so I've got a little while to figure everything out. But a few things have gone a rye.

And yes this is how I will start this issue...
The girl I used to like is having some troubles with her boyfriend. I'm not entirely sure what the story is. But here's what she told me.
She said that he has been having grade problems and has parents got mad. He's Brazillian so somehow this is common, that his parents are gonna send him back to brazil and some stuff like that.

Now, he is crazy grounded, so my friend won't have a date to prom. She was telling me the story and everything. as we were going to a prom committee meeting. As she finishes saying "I won't have a date for prom" she waits about 30 seconds and asks "Are you going to prom?"

Uhh... What'do I do? I'd go with her, but I don't know if I should ask her, or wait a little while. Or Not ask at all. I don't want her to think I'm trying to go on a date with her, or anything like that. But I feel bad for her, she got all the stuff ready and everything.

So basically now I'm confused as to what's going on with that.
I need to get my tux
I NEED A JOB!!!
I need to keep my grades up

And to try to keep my sanity.

I'm not a big fan of my sister but lately she's been really nice. 0.0

She had to miss a concert because I had to go see Virginia Tech. And we tried in every way to see if something would work, but nothing would. So we're going to a different one on wedsnday.


That's about all. I'm gonna go explode now.

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/17867226/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/17867226/ Tue, 15 Apr 2008 15:46:52 PDT
Heres the deal...

Freshmen year there was this girl that went to my school. She left after that year but we've kept in touch. She's cool. My X girlfriend was best friends with her, but they don't speak to each other anymore. And haven't in years. I got this girl phone number a few weeks ago and texted her, we usually talked through myspace or facebook or something.

There was a tiny problem though. I texted her the first time and introduced myself first. I texted her a few days later and though she saved my number but she didn't. I was in the car with a few of my friends and the kid driving was friends with her too. I decided (and now regret) to send her a text message. The kid driving said something odd and I decided to send that to her. I messed with the words though and sent a message saying "Kid X said he got in your pants". That isn't at all what he said, I was just joking.

I got a call from her phone a few seconds later. It was some guy I had never met before and he called threatening me with a baseball bat or something like that. (Being me I said "it's not good to threaten people", I've been threatened so many times I don't really care anymore) I hung up the phone. I got a call from her phone again and it was her this time asking what was going on. I explained everything and everything got sorted out after a while. It turns out that the guy was her boyfriend of 2 years.

On friday I left to see Virginia tech, a college in Virginia I like. It took a few days because it's very far away so it was quite a trip. On the way back my dad and I stopped at a store for a few hours to roam around. I got a call from the girl....

She called crying. "Oh what's wrong?! are you OK??"
Then she told me about how she broke up with her boyfriend...
Needless to say I felt like the worlds' biggest jackass!!
That was a few days ago, and I've been trying to help her get through everything and make her feel better because she was really torn up. Then an hour ago she calls me while I went out to vote. After talking to her for a little while she says "Do you wanna hang out sometime?"

I think she asked me out.....
And I don't know what to do....
I don't want to be her rebound or something like that. But I'd like to see her again.
Uhhh........ HELP!!!!

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/17699021/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/17699021/ Sat, 05 Apr 2008 12:41:09 PDT

We left for our senior trip on Thursday morning and got back at like 4:30 pm on Friday. It was our school's first ever overnight trip. Our class adviser really fought for us on this one. I love that guy! He's soo cool! And what's funny is; he was my teacher and my mom is his son's teacher. I find that funny.

The trip was to a place called Camp Bernie. It's out in the woods where you can go hiking and do rock climbing and go down zip-lines and stuff. IT WAS SOOO COOL!!!! It was amazing! We all had a great time.
About 1/3 of the grade didn't go, everyone said "Oh it's gonna suck" and stuff like that. But everyone that went on the trip had a blast!

The cabins were set up boys in 1 girls in the other, of course. And all the guys had soo much fun. We didn't get to sleep until like 5 in the morning and woke up at 7:15. There was a marshmallow fight and all that good stuff. We were all on our bunks/throwing stuff at each other and somehow the discussion of bears came up. (There aren't many bears in New Jersey) And a kid across the room said he's really scared that a bear is gonna come in here. One of my really good friends said I'm sure Matt could take on a bear. I think he'd rape the bear ".. 0.o Almost everyone agreed with him, the kids who didn't were asleep. So yeah.

We had a giant fire which was great! But all my clothes still smell like smoke. =/ It was easy to make a fire because one of my best friends is an eagle scout. We got the marshmallow out and got the sticks to roast them, and one girl asked me "Where are all the sticks coming from. " I turned around and screamed "WE'RE IN THE FOREST!!" Good times.

The entire thing was great, I'll remember this for a while.

There are a crapload of pictures, which is really cool. I really like a lot of them. My friend got stung by a wasp :bee: in the leg which sucked. I felt really bad for her. She's only 90 something lbs and we had to climb a really big hill, about an 1/2 mile trail on a big incline so my friend and I (The kid I mentioned before) carried her.

We had soo many energy drinks on this trip! It was crazy!! I must have had 6 15 oz cans the first day. But the second I only had 2. Odd right? Our class moderator bet that I couldn't stay awake on the bus trip home (about 1.5 hour drive) I did!!

2 years ago I went to the doctor and had my physical. I was 6 foot flat and 289 lbs. I was really huge and overweight. I got measure about 2 weeks ago when I was sick, I'm 6'2'' and 223 lbs. I don't really care about the numbers or anything like that but I never really realized the change in how I look and feel. I was looking at a yearbook picture from then and some pictures from the trip and there was a drastic difference. But the change in how I feel is even bigger, we have a 20 foot rockwall in school; we climbed it 2 years ago and I couldn't get to the top. It's about the same difficulty as a 50 foot climb at the camp, and I got to the top easily. So it's pretty cool to see the differences.

Yeah it was a lot of fun. I'm happy.

I love you all!!


]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/17688720/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/17688720/ Fri, 04 Apr 2008 19:08:24 PDT
I haven't been on in a little while, so I figured I'd tell everyone I'm not dead.


I'M NOT DEAD!!!


I'll tell you about it later.


LOVE YOU ALL!!!

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/17536517/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/17536517/ Thu, 27 Mar 2008 06:17:08 PDT Do people actually have the right to be happy or is it just a mirage in the distance that people strive for? Man kind runs all day, scurrying about trying to attain what they feel is "happy". Does this really exist? If so then why do people always feel empty at the end of the day? Even after they've scurried off to do whatever it is they do to gain some sort of feeling that they are alive..

Why do people live?
Why do people die?
What drives us to go forth?
Is there actually a reason? Or is our existence merely in vein?

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/17533377/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/17533377/ Wed, 26 Mar 2008 22:01:23 PDT 1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Tag some people.
5. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.



HOW ARE YOU FEELING TODAY?Brea
Fiction Kingdom by Demon Hunter - uhh.....

HOW DO YOUR FRIENDS SEE YOU?
Lawyers by The Audition - A lot of people do say I speak very well

WILL YOU GET MARRIED?
This Is A Call by Foo Fighters - Is that a good thing?

WHAT IS YOUR BEST FRIEND'S THEME SONG?
Spiral Architect by Black Sabbath - That might be true.

WHAT IS THE STORY OF YOUR LIFE?
Never Ever Land by Infected Mushroom - I'm 18 going on 6

WHAT WAS HIGH SCHOOL LIKE?
Insomnia by Faithless - Do ya like waffles? Yeah we like waffles! Do ya like pancakes? Yeah we like pancakes! Do ya like French toast? FUCK NO!!

HOW CAN YOU GET AHEAD IN LIFE?
No Way Back by Foo Fighters - Never regret anything that once made you smile!

WHAT IS THE BEST THING ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS?
Heart Attack by Sum 41 - OK your guess is as good as mine on this one

WHAT IS IN STORE FOR THIS WEEKEND?
tomorrow Too Late by Saves The Day -- Uhh I guess I'm free for this saturday night,

THE BEST THING TO DESCRIBE YOUR GRANDPARENTS?
My Adidas by Run DMC -- 0.o HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! That's probably the last thing that could describe my grandparents!!

HOW IS YOUR LIFE GOING?
The Future of War by Atari Teenage Riot - I was hoping it was going better than that! XD

WHAT SONG WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
The Nobodies by Marilyn Manson - That's not cool!!

HOW DOES THE WORLD SEE YOU?
The Dope Show by Marilyn Manson - I guess I'm pretty cool!

WILL YOU HAVE A HAPPY LIFE?
I Will Follow by Fear Factory - ..........

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS REALLY THINK OF YOU?
Born Like This by Three Days Grace - Wtf does that mean?

DO PEOPLE SECRETLY LUST AFTER YOU?
Timelessness by Fear Factory - Ya know, a lot of people like that quality. It's just usually about jewelry, wine or cars. =/

HOW CAN I MAKE MYSELF HAPPY?
Now Or Never by Godsmack - NOW!!!!

WHAT SHOULD YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE?
Down To The Bone by Scooter - I'm pretty hardcore as it is, but I'll try to be better.

WILL YOU EVER HAVE CHILDREN?
Sextacy by East-Clubbers - YES!!!

WHAT SONG WOULD YOU STRIP TO?
The End by My Chemical Romance - Sure why not!

IF A MAN IN A VAN OFFERED YOU CANDY, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
Iron Tusk by Mastadon - Kill him?

WHAT IS YOUR DEEP DARK SECRET?
Sick, Sick, Sick by Queens Of The Stoneage - That's not a secret, everyone alreadys knows that about me.

WHAT IS YOUR MORTAL ENEMY'S THEME SONG?
Rizzo by Chimaira - Probably not.

WHAT IS YOUR PERSONALITY LIKE?
Sweet Leaf by Black Sabbath - I'm a sweety

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Black Sunday by Cold - That doesn't sound good. http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/17387089/ Mon, 17 Mar 2008 21:00:43 PDT ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/17348863/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/17348863/ Sat, 15 Mar 2008 14:45:57 PDT
[X] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[X] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily. I'm Irish, I just burn.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[X] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[X] I am self-conscious about my appearance. Kinda
[X]I have/I've had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[X] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger. A few times and it's always werid!
[ ] I have more than 2 piercing.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[X] I have freckles. Again, I'm Irish

Family/Home Life
[X] I've sworn at my parents. It's almost a sport!!
[X] I've run away from home. All the time!
[X] I've been kicked out of the house. All the Time!
[X] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[X] I want to have kids someday. Yeah.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[X] I'm in school. Highschool now, college soon!
[ ] I have a job.
[X] I've fallen asleep at work/school. Not in a while though
[ ] I almost always do my homework. Nope!
[X] I've missed a week or more of school. I've been really sick and in the hospital.
[X] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years. And student of the month!
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[X] I've stolen something from my job. Only some candy and little stuff
[ ] I've been fired.

Embarrassment
[ ] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation. Fuck No!
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry. I don't cry
[ ] I've peed from laughing. That's disgusting!
[ ] I've snorted while laughing.
[X] I've laughed so hard I've cried. I do that a lot. I love to laugh.
[X] I've glued my hand to something. Glued, burned soldered and welded!
[X] I've had my pants rip in public. My crotch too! But I made it so no one noticed (Wore my jacket really weirdly)

Health
[X] I was born with a disease/impairment. Asthma
[X] I've gotten stitches/staples. All the time!
[X] I've broken a bone. My shoulder buckle. It was not fun.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[X] I've sat in a doctor's office/emergency room with a friend. Yep! <3
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[XXX] I had a serious injury. Oh Yeah!!
[X] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling
[X] I've driven over 200 miles in one day. Florida!! :beach:
[ ] I've been on a plane. Florida! :beach: (Yes again)
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan. I really want to!
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe. I really want to!!! Ireland, and Italy the most!
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[ ] I've gotten lost in my city. My city is 1 square mile! It's not big enough to get lost!
[X] I've seen a shooting star.
[X] I've wished on a shooting star.
[X] I've seen a meteor shower.
[ ] I've gone out in public in my pajamas. Hell no!
[X] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator. Yep!
[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts. There are 2 instances a guy can do that to another guy, murder

and rape
[X] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[X] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle. Oh yea!
[X] I've drank a whole gallon of milk... ]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/17303670/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/17303670/ Wed, 12 Mar 2008 15:33:39 PDT How are you?

I've been sick these last few days. It sucks, not even just faking it I'm all out sick. I've missed school for 3 days which sucks. I get really bored at home, and it's not like I do much in school anyways .

On Friday we went to this cool thing called Mideval Times. It's this giant arena where they act out a mideval tournament and all this cool shit. It was fun, or it would have been if I didn't have to sit next to the 1 kid I didn't want to!!!! The kid is an ass, he's the same person that has stalked a bunch of my friends! I wanted to beat the shit out of him! There is one kid in the grade who is really gay, like actually homosexual. I don't care about stuff like that, it doesn't bother me and I'm not going to hate a person because of something like that. But the kid I had to sit next to likes to make fun of the person, and within the first 30 seconds of me sitting next to the kid I wigged and screamed at him to SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!! I was ticked, it was even planned out for me to sit with a bunch of my friends, but that didn't work the way I had hoped. That night was cool though, a bunch of my friends and I went to my other friends house. We did a scavenger hunt which sounds pretty stupid but was a lot of fun. I called my parents and asked if I could sleep over at the kids house, a bunch of people were going to. And they acted like it was a giant conspiracy! I take some meds every night and I always keep 1 days worth with me just in case. My parents thought I was going to kill someone! "HE MUST HAVE PLANNED THIS" is what my dad screamed on the phone. He told me frantically THERE WILL BE NO DRIVING PAST 12 AND IF THERE IS ANY ACCIDENTS AND YOU'VE BEEN DRINKING.... blah blah blah. The truth is, it really was a spur of the moment thing and they don't seem to understand that I DON'T DRINK!!!! But it was fun to see their reaction.

Does anyone know any good petnames a guy could call a girl?
I've been making up pet names for all my friends but can't come up with too many good ones.
So far I have:
Buttercup
Pooh bear
and Cupcake.
Any ideas?

I hope all of you are doing well!

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/17212108/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/17212108/ Thu, 06 Mar 2008 15:41:31 PST
Most of my entries have been sad and/or riddled with bad situations but it's really strange... I'm happier now than I have ever been before! I love life! My biggest worry now is getting my curfew extended, my parents wont though.... but it's ok cuz I'm never on time anyways. ^.^

There was standardized testing for high school students, except seniors so the seniors didn't have to go in until later. That was fun. A bunch of my classmates and I got together and went to a diner for breakfast (do they have diners in other places? I know they do but her in NJ they're everywhere) It was a blast! I sat with a bunch of my really close friends so that made it even better. At one point though, I had about 5 girls rubbing my head because my hair is soft....

In ecology yesterday I decided to put as much sexual implications into everything I said that I possibly could. Absolutely everything was wholly inappropriate and hilarious! Everyone that was close enough to hear was laughing, so we had fun!

I still go to they gym a lot to work out. Which I think helps reduce stress a lot. Which is good.

One of my best friends (I have not mentioned her before) broke up with her boyfriend and was really really sad. I am famous for my hugs, so needless to say my shirt now has tears and eye liner on it. But she felt better afterwards. She, I, and 2 other of my really good friends went to get ice cream after which was also a lot of fun!

My sister has been a real bitch lately, which is not so fun though. Every chance she gets she screams at me, but I'm not going to let her get to me I get to leave for school soon!

I realized now that I hang out a lot with my friends and talk to them a lot. My sister used to be known for getting text messages and phone calls. Now I get about double the amount she does.

There was a weird situation though, I used to be really into hockey. And my neighbor got 6 tickets to a game and my family and I were going to go but that morning my dad got sick so I got the tickets for me and some of my friends. It was so hard deciding who to take. I felt really bad that I couldn't take everyone!! But I think everything turned out well. We had a good time. Even though my team got shut out!

I hope everyone is doing as well as I am! I love you all!

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/17042109/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/17042109/ Sun, 24 Feb 2008 12:55:35 PST
I've got a little problem. Prom is coming up in a few months and I was wondering about who to ask, I'm not worried about going alone, a lot of people are doing that. I'm cool with it. But I was thinking about asking the girl I was going to ask out, as friends, I didn't get to ask her out btw.

But there's a few catches in there.
She's the best friend of the girl I used to like, and I don't know how she'll take it. Either one of them, if the girl I might ask is going to feel like I'm trying to get back at the other for saying no, or if the girl I used to like is going to think that!

She used to date one of my friends, but the broke up for various reasons. And she was jealous for a little while, but I think she's over it. He has a new girlfriend. And I'm really really good friends with her.

I have a forum post about it, it's kinda long but this is the full story. [link]

I'd really love some help on this one!
Thanks guys!

****The other one messed up the stuff at the bottom*****

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/17042074/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/17042074/ Sun, 24 Feb 2008 12:53:57 PST
I've got a little problem. Prom is coming up in a few months and I was wondering about who to ask, I'm not worried about going alone, a lot of people are doing that. I'm cool with it. But I was thinking about asking the girl I was going to ask out, as friends, I didn't get to ask her out btw.

But there's a few catches in there.
She's the best friend of the girl I used to like, and I don't know how she'll take it. Either one of them, if the girl I might ask is going to feel like I'm trying to get back at the other for saying no, or if the girl I used to like is going to think that!

She used to date one of my friends, but the broke up for various reasons. And she was jealous for a little while, but I think she's over it. He has a new girlfriend. And I'm really really good friends with her.

I have a forum post about it, it's kinda long but this is the full story. [link]

I'd really love some help on this one!
Thanks guys!

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/16978696/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/16978696/ Wed, 20 Feb 2008 14:23:17 PST
I have a situation that'd I'd love to get some feedback on.
The girl I used to like and I are still best friends. But I feel like we're drifting, like we aren't as close as we used to be.

We had a 4 day weekend friday - monday and I didn't talk to her at all. And in school if I am talking to her, I get one word answers. It sucks. I'm not sure what to do. Should I try to talk to her more? The problem with that is that I don't get any opportunities. Even in class when we're talking she seems cold. I'm not sure what's going on. So I'm kinda depressed.

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/16849588/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/16849588/ Tue, 12 Feb 2008 14:23:02 PST
I'm a senior in High School and I've sent out a few applications. I've had a top 4 list of schools

-Penn State
-NJIT
-Rowan
-Virgina Tech

I got a letter from Penn State yesterday, and got in! :happy:

So that's pretty cool. It was the first school I heard from, one of my top 4, and the first place I got accepted to.
My dad and I were arguing about me not sending in enough applications on saturday and I got my acceptance letter on monday too.

Nothing major is going on socially, except every time I want to see the kid that's been harassing my friends, I want to punch him in the face more and more! I went out with my friends on friday like we do every week and I was talking to a different one of my friends, and she shares a locker with the girl I used to like. She told me about how they love it when I'm near their locker. The kid that is ticking me off has his locker right next to theirs.

That's about everything. What's up with you guys?

]]> ~njsaberman http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/16715451/ http://njsaberman.deviantart.com/journal/16715451/ Sun, 03 Feb 2008 21:57:20 PST GAINTS WON BABY!!!! XLII CHAMPIONS!!!!
ELI MANNING player of the game!!!! Beating the no-longer undefeated Patriots!!! Brady is my bitch!!! HAHAHA!!

Now that that's out of the way.

I went to a superbowl party tonight and it was a lot of fun. A bunch of my friends went which was really cool. A girl that I have previously mentioned was there. She was being stalked and stayed near me the whole time during the school thing. I'm debating about something though, and I was hoping to get advice. Should I ask her out? She's really cool, and we're pretty good friends. I think I'm starting to like her, and I think she likes me too.
But here's the odd spot. She's one of the best friends of the girl I used to like (But no longer do, even if she were to not be with her current boyfriend I wouldn't go out with her) Any advice?

GO GIANTS!!!

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