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1. Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favourite Film:
5. Favourite Song or Album:
6. Favourite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of dA?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favourite memory of us?
14. What is your favourite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favourite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/25109387/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/25109387/ Wed, 03 Jun 2009 15:05:39 PDT .>



And now for an update on my life -
May 23- Graduation! I officially no longer go to high school.
May 29- Birthday! I can now buy porn, smoke, vote, and join the military.
June 3- Today my Goddaughter turns 10 months old - wow. (She and her mother are here visiting from Tennessee for 2 weeks, its been good so far.)
June 13- Wedding! I will be Alyssa Uetrecht, the Whitehead name dies with me. (Until my children have to fill out credit card applications and put down Whitehead for my maiden name)
July 13- Cory's birthday! He will be older than me again
July 27-28- Orientation for college. This is the start of my "adult" life. Strange.



And in other news...Cory and I obtained our marriage lisence the other day, I'm officially allowed to get married now. Life is good

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/24180464/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/24180464/ Sat, 11 Apr 2009 10:38:37 PDT
Anyways, read - enjoy - comment


Random Question:
What is your favorite kind of weather and why

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/23881273/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/23881273/ Wed, 25 Mar 2009 11:31:09 PDT
We got everything here in one night, I was rather surprised but it happened and i dont have much left to unpack ((of course most of my room is still in boxes until we get our own place))


just thought I'd let you know what's going on in my life

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/22851809/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/22851809/ Tue, 27 Jan 2009 19:50:27 PST
Leave a comment and...
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you which song or movie you remind me of.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wondered about you.
8. I'll tell you my favorite thing about you.
9. I'll tell you my least favorite thing about you.
10. If you play, you MUST post this on yours.

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/22298373/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/22298373/ Wed, 31 Dec 2008 09:10:59 PST - Age: 17
- Available: no.
- Annoyance: nothing really
- Animal: wolf or snake
- Actor: Johnny Depp I suppose, I've never really had a favorite though

B
- Beer: got some in the closet haha
- Birthday: May 29
- Best Friend: Delaney and Marie
- Body Part: neck
- Best feeling in the world: love
- Big Words: I don't use them often however I know many
- Best weather: rain at around 60 degrees
- Been in Love: currently am
- Been on stage? many times
- Believe in yourself? most of the time, yes.
- Believe in life on other planets: mhmm
- Believe in miracles: not by that specific word, but miraculous occurances, sure.
- Believe in Magic: yes
- Believe in Satan: no
- Believe in Santa: what do you think?
- Believe in Ghosts/spirits: yes

C
- Car: Ford Focus
- Candy: don't have a favorite.
- Color: black and red
- Chocolate/Vanilla: chocolate for taste, vanilla for scent
- Cheerleading: heh heh no
- Cake or pie: pie ^.^
- Country to visit: Germany

D
- Day or Night: I'm a night owl
- Dream vehicle: 70's Trans Am
- Dance: sometimes
- Dance in the rain: yes please!
- Do the splits? not anymore

E
- Eggs: scrambled with cheese sauce
- Eyes: dark brown
- Ever been in a hospital? yes
- Ever committed a crime? technically.
- Ever been suspended? well technically, but it was IN school suspension so I still had to go lol

F
- First crush: Spencer
- Full name: Alyssa Marie
- First thoughts waking up: I love having cory beside me
- Food: Mashed potatoes sounds good right now

G
- Greatest Fear: losing cory or my mother
- Giver or taker: giver
- Gum: sometimes
- Get along with your parents? for the most part
- Good luck charm: I dont really have one.

In Girls/Guys:
- Eye colour: Cory's eyes are the most brilliant blue I've ever seen.
- Hair Colour: doesn't matter - usually not blonde though.
- Short/Long hair: whatever they like
- Height: taller than me lol
- Clothing Style: whatever they want.

H
- Hair Colour: auburn at the moment
- Height: 5'5"
- Happy: yes
- Holiday: halloween
- How do you want to die: murder
- Health freak? not really
- Hate: nothing

I
- Ice Cream: one scoop of rainbow sherbert and one of cotton candy from UDF
- Instrument: vocal chords

J
- Jewelry: my engagement ring and earrings

K
- Kids: love them, only want one but am going to teach them
- Kickboxing or karate: I've never done either one
- Keep a journal? used to.

L
- Longest Car Ride: the vacation in california I had when i was 10
- Love: Cory
- Laughed so hard you cried: yes

- Last person who:
1. Slept in a bed beside you? Cory
2. Saw you cry? Cory
3. Went to the movies with you? Cory
4. You went to the mall with? Myself lol
5. You went to dinner with? Cory
6. You talked to on the phone? My mom
7. Made you laugh? Cory

M
- Milk flavour: chocolate
- Mooned anyone? nope
- Marriage? June 13
- McD's or BK? neither really.
- Music: anything but country or rap
- Movie: too many

N
- Number of Siblings: 1
- Number of Piercings: 4 (2 in each ear)

O
- Overused Phrases: psh, whatever ((I dont really have any lol))
- One wish: cheaper real estate
- One phobia: losing love

P
- Place: Seattle or New York
- Perfect Pizza: Pineapple

Q
-Quail: reminds me of "Doug"

R
- Reason to cry: none
- Reality T.V: most of it is stupid
- Radio Station: WEBN!
- Roll your tongue in a circle? yep

S
- Shoe size: 10
- Salad Dressing: honey mustard or spicy ranch
- Sushi: no thank you.
- Scent: I love a lot of them - don't have a favorite.
- Skipped school: yes
- Slept outside: of course
- Seen a dead body? not human.
- Smoked? yeah
- Skinny dipped? mhmm
- Shower Daily? every other.
- Song? way too many to name.
- Sing well? yes
- Sing in the shower? occasionally
- Swear? all the time
- Stuffed Animals? have a few
- Single/Group dates: I don't really date anymore
- Strawberries/Blueberries: BOTH!


T
- Talents? singing
- Tattoos? none yet
- Time for bed: after 12
- Thunderstorms: LOVE
- TV: House, Ghost Whisperer, NCIS
- Touch your tongue to your nose? yes sir

U
- Unpredictable: I can be

V
- Vegetable you hate: Lima Beans!
- Vegetable y... ]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/20766366/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/20766366/ Tue, 30 Sep 2008 19:24:27 PDT Goddess-of-Snark

I don't really know how to tell you this, but our affair is over. I think I realized it first of May at the Mental Hospital and I saw you sit on my Kid Rock collection. I'm sure you're scarred enough to understand how awful I've felt. I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your photo as a memory. You should also know that I never will forget cocaine abuse.

with ease,
~nmbc-lvr


How to Do the Letter MeMe:

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your journal):

I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .

___12___,
-Your name-



**Edit the phrasing a little if necessary.**
1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister


2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes


3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchiladas
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife


4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out


5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk


6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed


7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks


8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service


9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grad... ]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/20191477/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/20191477/ Wed, 27 Aug 2008 19:57:21 PDT


We DO have a guest page, so if you'd like you can send either Cory or I one of your poems and we'll review it and maybe put it on the site (all credit to you of course)

but anyways definitely check it out, it's going to be a REALLY cool site as we get more and more poetry =]



www. blackrosepoets. webs.
com





I'll love you forever <.<>.>

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/20119398/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/20119398/ Sat, 23 Aug 2008 19:49:53 PDT 2. People tagged must post eight things each about themselves in their journal.
3. Tag six people if you feel like it, but if it's too much hassle or if you feel like doing something else like making home made ice-cream, then that's cool, just go on ahead and make some delicious ice-creamery goodness.
4. If it's not too much trouble, try heading to their user pages and reminding them gently that they might like to complete the meme that you tagged them in.
5. No tag-backs. There will always be a tag back because people only have so many friends, even on the interwombs. But try? Please?





One
I'm getting married on June 13, 2009. <3


Two
I constantly like to rearrange my room, if I get to used to it I get bored. I like change which is totally opposite than Cory.


Three
I am always the advice giver, never the reciever and that's the way it has always been - I never agreed to it but it's always been my role and I've fallen securely in place and yet I still like to talk about myself to complete strangers


Four
My fiance is trying to potty train our cats >.<


Five
I really don't have that much of a social life, my existance consists of going to school, going to work, and going to cory's house. It's kinda sad how far I've fallen from the rest of my friends and yet at the same time they don't seem to miss me and I realize many of them are the people who've hurt me.


Six
My happy place is laying outside with no one around me reading a book with music playing somewhere in the distance and a river or stream babbling softly beside me


Seven
I don't like to get rid of things


Eight
Almost everyone I know thinks I'm anywhere from the age of 20 to 23 and many people have said they'd sell my alcohol without an id lol, I find it funny.



and I don't tag anyone!

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/20031153/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/20031153/ Mon, 18 Aug 2008 21:06:27 PDT not at all.


tomorrow is gonna drag....




anyways, on a happier note -


what's your happy place like?

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/19979086/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/19979086/ Fri, 15 Aug 2008 22:24:08 PDT [x] You drink a lot of tea
[ ] You know what a brolly is
[ ] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life
[ ] You wanted Ben to win X Factor
[x] You use the word "bugger"or the phrase "bloody hell"
[ ] Fish and Chips are yummy
[x] You can eat a Full English Breakfast
[ ] You dislike EMOS!
[x] It's football...not soccer
Total = 4

Australian
[ ] You wear flip flops all year
[ ] You call flip flops thongs not flip flops
[x] You love a backyard barbie
[x] You know a barbie is not just a doll
[ ] You love the beach
[x] Sometimes you swear without realizing
[ ] You're a sports fanatic
[ ] You are tanned
[ ] You're a bit of a bogan
[x] You have an Australian something
Total = 4

Italian
[ ] The Sopranos is a great show.
[ ] Your last name ends in a vowel.
[ ] Your grandmother makes/made her own sauces.
[ ] You know how a real meatball tastes like.
[ ] You know Italian songs.
[x] You have dark hair and dark eye color
[ ] You speak some Italian
[x] You are under 5'10".
[x] Pizza/spaghetti is the best food in the world.
[x] You talk with your hands.
Total = 4

Mexican
[ ] You say member instead of remember
[ ]You speak Spanish or some
[x] You like tacos
[ ] You like Chihuahuas
[ ] You are dark skinned
[x] You know what a Puta is.
[x] You talk fast occasionally.
[x] You have had highlights or dyed your hair.
[ ] You know what platanos are
Total= 4

Russian
[ ] You say villian as: Vee-lon
[x] You get short tempered
[ ] You know of sombody named natasha
[ ] You get cold easily
[x] Rain is fun for you
[ ] You get into contests all the time
[x] You can easily make do with the cold weather
Total= 3

Irish
[x] You like to drink
[ ] You have a bad temper.
[ ]Your last name starts with a Mc OR Murph or O' or Fitz or ends with a ley,on,un,an,ins,ry, ly, y.
[ ] You have blue or green eyes.
[x] You like the color green.
[ ] You have a family member from Ireland
[ ] You have blonde hair
[x] You have/had freckles
[ ] Your family get togethers always include drinking and/or singing
Total = 3

Asian
[ ] You have slanty/small eyes
[x] You like rice a lot
[ ] You are good at math.
[x] You have played the piano
[ ] You have family from asia
[x] You laugh sometimes covering your mouth
[ ] Most people think you're chinese
[ ] You call hurricanes typhoons
[ ] You go to Baulko
Total= 3

German
[x] You like bread
[x] You think American Chocolate is good
[x] You Speak some German
[x] You listen to Rammstein
[x] You went to Pre-school.
[x] You're over 5'2"
Total= 6 (well I AM german!)

Canadian
[ ] You like/play/played hockey
[ ] You like beer
[x] You say eh
[ ] You know what poutine is
[ ] You speak some french
[ ] You love Tim Horton's
[ ] At one point you lived in a farm house
[ ] You watch/watched degrassi
Total= 1

American
[ ] Hate foreigners
[ ] Hate non-Christians
[ ] Lazy
[ ] Not cultured
[ ] Love McDonalds
[ ] Love American Idol
[ ] Don't read
[ ] Shop at Target
Total = 0

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/19561738/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/19561738/ Wed, 23 Jul 2008 19:47:44 PDT - Answer using ONLY titles of songs by that singer/band/group
- Tag 6 more people (let them know they've been tagged)


you know me, Marilyn Manson all the way


1. Are you male or female?
The Fall of Adam

2. Describe yourself.
Angel with the Scabbed Wings

3. What do people feel when they're around you?
Better of Two Evils

4. How would you describe your previous relationship?
Slutgarden

5. Describe your current relationship.
The Love Song

6. Where would you want to be now?
Long Hard Road out of Hell

7. How do you feel about love?
Sweet Dreams (Are Made of This)

8. What's your life like?
They Said that Hell's not Hot

9. What would you ask for if you had only one wish?
Born Again

10. Say something wise.
Use Your Fist and Not Your Mouth

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/19561531/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/19561531/ Wed, 23 Jul 2008 19:34:43 PDT

RULES:
1. Put Your iTunes, WMP, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Put this on your journal.



What’s the meaning of life?
"Somebody to Love" Jefferson Airplane (This song NEVER comes on media player and its perfect for this answer, twas meant to be.)

What’s tomorrow’s forecast?
"Kick in the Eye" Bauhaus (hail? )

What did you dream about last night?
"Session" Linkin Park (I guess it was pretty melodic and stuff. This song always makes me think of falling through nothing, which is a good dream too)

What do you like to do on vacation?
"Ride the Lightning" Metallica (hells yeah, now THATS a good vacation )

There’s a message on your answering machine. It says:
"Snake Eyes and Sissies" Marilyn Manson (Is that a code?)

What do you think of school?
"Disposable Teens" Marilyn Manson (Perfect.)

What does the last person you talked to think of you?
"Moon Baby" Godsmack (actually thats really accurate...weird.)

What do you do on your days off?
"Saints and Sinners" Arch Enemy (that would be a fun day haha)

Describe your hairstyle:
"Fuck You" Damageplan (That straightforward enough? lol)

Describe your lifestyle:
"Breathing New Life" Damageplan (awesome)

Your thoughts on aliens are:
"Angels Don't Kill" Children of Bodom (apparently i think they're harmless angels.)

You won a trip to another country. You feel:
"This is the New Shit" Marilyn Manson (well yes, it IS a new country )

Describe your favorite TV show:
"Just Like You" Three Days Grace (could be a good show)

Describe your family:
"Eat Me, Drink Me" Marilyn Manson (yeah...)

What you think when you see your enemy:
"You Make Loving Fun" Fleetwood Mac (actually that fits b/c I can show them that I'm in love and its fun haha, makes it like a game to show your enemy that you're in love and they're not)

When someone asks for the time you say:
"Christmas Canon" Transsiberian Orchestra (Some people might be calling the psych ward on me , it's NOT christmas time haha)

You’re very happy when:
"Gypsy" Fleetwood Mac (works on a lot of different levels.)

You get upset when:
"Another Brick in the Wall" Pink Floyd

What you want to do in the next week:
"(s)AINT" Marilyn Manson (I'm up for an exciting week =])

Your thoughts on the future:
"Monarch of the Mighty Darkness" Mortiis (we're in for some deep shit.)

What you want the most:
"Whatever" Godsmack (it fits so well with me lol)

Favorite flavor of ice cream:
"Cinnamon Girl" Type O Negative (Well I do like cinnamon...never knew I was a lesbian cannibal though )

Describe your fav video game:
"Hit the Floor" Linkin Park (interesting)

What you do on a sunny day:
"Dead in Hollywood" Murderdolls (oh my)

What you do when u wake up:
"So Far Away" Crossfade (yes, I frequently space out and dont want to actually get up lol)

What you thought of lunch today:
"Don't Say" Linkin Park (its a secret )

What you hate in a person:
"Trance Awake" Lacuna Coil (guess that could be translated into people being brainwashed to follow the crowd, and I dont like that.)

What you like in a person:
"Silence" Claire Voyant ( )

Describe your favorite movie:
"The Unforgiven" Metallica (actually fits rather well)

What your wedding will be like:
"American Bad Ass" Kid Rock (I cant help but chuckle at that)

What your honeymoon will be like:
"Slit My Wrist" Murderdolls (oh my...o.O)

How you will feel about your job:
"The Nobodies" Marilyn Manson (hmm...interesting)
~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/19190903/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/19190903/ Thu, 03 Jul 2008 19:59:50 PDT



How long have you lived in your current home?
I'm not sure, a year maybe more maybe less i've lost track after so many moves lol

Look above your computer screen, what do you see?
a picture of Cory and I

Your avatar, where'd ya' get it and why'd ya' pick it?
I found it online and I liked it because it goes along with the inside joke that I have with cory

What are your Birthday plans?
birthday is already passed, I just had a small party here.

What is your favorite workout?
swimming

Have you ever planted a tree?
yes sir

When it comes to politics, do you do your own research?
only if I'm curious about something

Do you still inhale helium from balloons?
not recently, I used to though

Do you always use your blinkers?
when there are people around I do.

When was the last time you played in the rain?
last time I was awake when it was raining lol

Do you enjoy taking pictures?
yes, yes I do. I'm saving money to buy a camera right now

Do you save cards that are given to you?
mhmm

How is your memory when it comes to people you have previously met?
fair

Favorite color on your bf/gf/ husband/wife?
black

If you can cook, what is you favorite dish to make?
I enjoy making anything, cake is particularly fun though

What is your favorite holiday movie?
The Nightmare Before Christmas

Do you text into the game shows on TV to win 10,000 dollars?
no o.O

Whats the worst gift you have ever been given?
I'm not sure lol

What is your favorite picture that you own?
the one of my birth father and I before Halloween when I was 3

What makes up your heritage?
German, Cherokee, Scotts/Irish

What color is your couch?
beige

What kind of sleeper are you? Stomach? Side? Back?
side, curled up

Do you even care about Britney Spears and her mental ways?
I pity her, not so much care though.

Where is the strangest place you have ever had sex?
wouldnt you like to know

Whats your poison?
Beck's (had it in germany, loved it)

What kind of bumper stickers do you have on your car?
I have a sticker that has a skull on it that says 'No Regrets' and a magnet that says 'Come to the darkside...we have cookies'

How many cameras do you own?
one...but its broken =[

Do you look at the keyboard when you type?
no lol

Do you change yourself when starting a new relationship or do you stay as yourself?
I used to change alot but when I met cory staying myself is what came naturally.

How many serious relationships have you had?
I suppose this would be my only "serious" relationship when you consider I've never been engaged before

Did you graduate from high school?
not yet

What kind of game console do you own?
personally only a gameboy but in my house there's a PS2, PS3 and in Cory's house there's Wii, Xbox 360, PS2, PS3, Game Cube, N64, and a couple gameboys which I always have access to so I kinda consider those mine too lol

What type of "character" was your room decorated with when you were a kid?
I dont think I had a specific one, but if I had to say the most commonly occuring one, it would prolly be Pooh Bear

Have you ever sent in videos to Americas Funniest Home Videos?
hahahahah no...

What should you be doing right now?
Painting <.<>.>

Are you going to do it?
yes, I only have 10 days left before it has to be done >.<

Look down and to the right, what do you see?
a bag of pretzels I bought for cory and a box of colored pencils.

What time is it?
10:55

Do you blast the music in your car?
yes ^^

Are your parents still together?
my mom and step dad, yes.

Have you ever square danced?
yes o.O

Do you watch Sex in the City?
NO.

Ever had the chicken pox?
nope lol, hopefully never will.

Favorite type of cheese?
Swiss

How many MySpace friends do you have?
I dont know, let me check
147

and delaney you have 27

Do vegetarians... ]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/19081733/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/19081733/ Fri, 27 Jun 2008 19:19:37 PDT
My mom was like amazed she said alot of them look like postcards haha so I guess that's a good thing


anyways, I'm going to be REALLY busy with work in the next few weeks so forgive me if I don't get to upload them in the next few days, I'll put up a few whenever I have downtime and I hope that the scanner doesn't totally mess them up quality wise, if it does, I'm sorry.

Oh, speaking of work I have exciting news. I'm a canidate to become a service trainer. It's going to take a hell of a lot of work but if I actually become a trainer I get a raise and more responsiblity. Plus my favorite manager is firm in the belief that I could be a manager one day - she said I'd probably be like a general manager by the time I'm 23 and they make like really good money. I think it was 38,000 minimum so I dont know, we'll have to see what the future holds. For now, I'm just excited to be training to become a trainer =]

And Delaney, they STILL haven't fixed the emoticon thing
so I guess I'm staying awestruck for a while!

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/18686544/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/18686544/ Thu, 05 Jun 2008 19:48:35 PDT It hadn't really sunk in until now. My HUGE suitcase is all packed sitting on the floor next to me I have 8 disposable cameras in the bookbag I'm using as a carry on and I'm getting butterflies! (I NEVER have those)

so to put it simply, I probably won't be on much in the next two weeks. Maybe once or twice. I don't know how my host family will feel about me using the internet when they already have 5 kids. We'll see.


anyways, wish me luck and when I get back and get the pictures developed, I'll post some of my favorites.



bye guys! <3

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/18286567/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/18286567/ Mon, 12 May 2008 09:35:56 PDT
anyways, I hope you enjoy the poem I put in today and I just wanted to let you know that I'll be in a creative writing class next year so hopefully it'll spark me up again =]


so now I'm going to go attempt to find something to do since ny book I'm reading is at home >.<

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/17738600/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/17738600/ Mon, 07 Apr 2008 20:00:46 PDT
well Dotti ( ~Dotti600 ) won the contest.

I have done one manip for her I'm still working on some others. They're a lot more complex so it'll take me a while lol - just be patient with me.



and in other news - I haven't been writing at all lately. It's really kind of upsetting me. But I'm sure I'll pull out of this slump



and a random question for you - Who are you hoping is the next US president?

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/17122900/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/17122900/ Fri, 29 Feb 2008 19:11:49 PST

eeeeeeeeee I'm excited!!!

Just to remind you of the contest:

The person who sees my page at the 2,000 mark will win media of their choice.
-A poem (on a topic they choose)
-A photograph (of whatever they want - within human limitations lol)
-Or a photoshop of an image they want to be photoshopped
(one of mine or one of theirs is no problem. If it's another deviants, I will ask permission to use it before I start working on it.)

make sure you take a screenshot to show me you saw it, otherwise it's not fair

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/17005207/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/17005207/ Fri, 22 Feb 2008 07:45:28 PST wow


and in other news, I'm almost to 2,000 pageviews!!!!
I've been waiting for forever to be able to say that haha


anyways, there's a contest I've been brewing up. The person who sees my page at the 2,000 mark will win media of their choice.
-A poem (on a topic they choose)
-A photograph (of whatever they want - within human limitations lol)
-Or a photoshop of an image they want to be photoshopped
(one of mine or one of theirs is no problem. If it's another deviants, I will ask permission to use it before I start working on it.)


edit: make sure you take a screenshot to show me you saw it, otherwise it's not fair

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/16936158/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/16936158/ Sun, 17 Feb 2008 20:41:23 PST
*school girl laughter*


I'm so excited


teehee

I'm probably the happiest person in the world right now

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/16824724/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/16824724/ Sun, 10 Feb 2008 21:28:26 PST

1 . YOUR REAL NAME:
Alyssa

2 . YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first 3 letters of real name plus izzle)
Alyizzle

3 . YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (fav color and fav animal)
Black Cat

4. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 2 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first)
Whal

5. YOUR SUPERHERO NAME: (Your 2nd favorite color, and favorite drink)
Red Water (lol I'll spew red water on youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!)

6. YOUR IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, first two letters of your middle name, last two letters of your first name then last three letters of one of your pets name)
limasalla

7.YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (both parents middle name)
(non existent) Merrit Manly

8. YOUR GOTH NAME: (black, and the name of one of your pets)
Black Bella (I like that!)

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/16323119/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/16323119/ Tue, 08 Jan 2008 22:31:14 PST
BUT the most amazing idea popped in to my head for a poem and I HAD to write it down!

I think "Transform" might be one of the best poems I've ever written. I must say I'm really pleased with it, so check it out, yeah?







and don't forget to read about bob (www.freewebs.com/bobandslave) and click and ad for us!

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/15802764/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/15802764/ Wed, 05 Dec 2007 05:27:01 PST
I've been writing again, I hope I can keep it up


go look and tell me what you think, ok? I think I've figured out that I'm more likely to write if I get some feedback on the things I do




oh and do me a favor go to my website [link] and click some ads and read the comics, ok?
We really want it to get popular so tell everyone you know =]

thank you in advance!

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/15351909/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/15351909/ Sat, 03 Nov 2007 20:27:01 PDT

b/c I do but apparently dA doesn't...moved it to scraps. And in my opinion it should be up to the artist to decide where thing are placed. Because maybe there is a REASON they put it there!

gah! I hate things like that lol


and now I'm pretty much done with that I put it in conceptual and if gets moved again I'm going to scream



but in happier news I moved in to the new apartment on friday and I only have 3 boxes left to unpack most of which is clothes and decorations. so it's pretty awesome.


and I'm really bored - I don't really know what to do lol

oh and I took a shower today for the first time in the new place COMPLETELY forgetting that I didn't have towels lol so I got to experience that nice clothes sticking to wet body feeling as I was brushing my teeth it was weird lol and yeah don't really have anything else to say except -

GO LOOK AT MY WEBSITE!


[link]

my boyfriend and I run it - we update every monday and friday with a new comic so go check it out and tell people about it pleeease? oh and click some ads while you're there, it'll help us out =]

THANK YOU in advance!!!

again that's [link]

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/15093598/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/15093598/ Tue, 16 Oct 2007 20:04:48 PDT

first off, my latest discovery : this girl is AMAZING. and if anyone wants to get me this [link] ((or any of her work, really)) I'll love you forever!
princess-of-shadows

secondly, My oldest and dearest friend on this site who also happens to have amazing photography skills <3
cobaine

and last but CERTAINLY not least is a man who is a definite artist by nature and probably one of the most talented painters I have ever known
relaxeder

so GO! look at them! love them! lol

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/14991209/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/14991209/ Tue, 09 Oct 2007 19:56:45 PDT
first off, the reason for the "Hurt" emoticon is cause my shoulders/neck are extremely tight, and it hurts very badly lol
no, I don't want sympathy, I'm simply explaining myself b/c if I dont certain people (cough D cough) will worry.

and second, you should be proud of me! I'm actually getting into the habit of writing again =]! I haven't done it near as often as I used to yet, but it's a start. I've got the "thoughts of a tormented soul alone in the night" series goin on and everything, so I feel pretty good. Also I got a comment from a complete stranger on The Asylum, so that makes me feel pretty good too

And yeah, things have been going well. In about another hour cory and I will have been dating for 11 months, I'm excited - it's the best and LONGEST relationship I've ever been in =]

ummm other than that, work is going good, I took some pictures of me in the trailer but I'm not sure if I'm going to post them yet.
I think my camera is still broken as well, but I don't know because I haven't tried it lol


OMG D goes to see Arch Enemy tomorrow, I'm envious lol but glad at the same time b/c she'll have an amazing time


and other than that I can't really think of anything except that I lurve you people and yeah - that's pretty much it.

bye now!

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/14233005/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/14233005/ Sat, 18 Aug 2007 22:49:59 PDT
1. Bass players always have been a turn on for me.

2. I'm an energy vampire

3. The only person I met online that I know in real life is now my boyfriend. and the only reason we didnt meet in school was bc neither of us would go say hi to the other. But he stalked me in school and finally got a hold of me on myspace. and now we've been dating for over 9 months and have known each other for almost 2 years.

4. I think I used to be, and maybe still am, a compulsive liar. but i am much better now.

5. my boyfriend cheated on me in 4th grade.

6. my first kiss was in a tunnel on my elementary school playground.

7. I used to want to die more than anything and now all I can think of is life with someone I love.

8. many friends of mine have changed my life in greater ways than they'll ever know.

The ruleses:
1. post these rules.
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random (hopefully interesting) facts about themselves.
3. Tags should write a journal of these facts.
4. At the end of the post 8 more sexual deviants are tagged and named.
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them that they're tagged.

ummmmm I tag Lindsey and Tiffy.
bc I feel like breaking rules and only tagging TWO people.

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/13993189/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/13993189/ Thu, 02 Aug 2007 21:43:09 PDT
Opening credits:
"Absolute Sole Right" Dimmu Borgir

Waking up:
"Cinnamon Girl" Type O Negative

First day at school:
"The Bright Young Things" Marilyn Manson

Falling in love:
"Battery" Metallica

Breaking up:
"Meatplow" Stone Temple Pilots

Prom:
"I Write Sins, Not Tragedies" Panic! At the Disco

Life’s okay:
"Broken" Seether feat. Amy Lee

Mental breakdown:
"Second Hand News" Fleetwood Mac

Driving:
"Circle" Slipknot ((slipknot is ALWAYS good for driving lol))

Flashback:
"Smokin in the Boys Room" Motely Crue

Getting back together:
"Forgive and Forget" Alien Ant Farm ((fitting lol))

Wedding:
"Master of Puppets" Metallica ((soooo ironic))

Birth of child:
"Confined" As I Lay Dying

Final battle:
"Summertime Blues" The Who

Death scene:
"No Way Out" Stone Temple Pilots

Funeral song:
"Scars and Stripes" Angelspit ((love this song))

End credits:
"Predator" Type O Negative

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/13663915/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/13663915/ Sun, 08 Jul 2007 21:20:14 PDT

it's nice



so were having comments on my work =]

love you all.

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/13613195/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/13613195/ Wed, 04 Jul 2007 21:30:00 PDT
so yes, be proud of me. k? k. ]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/13392342/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/13392342/ Mon, 18 Jun 2007 10:14:52 PDT
and I still have yet to refind my inspiration to write alot...I miss writing!

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/13386500/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/13386500/ Sun, 17 Jun 2007 21:38:18 PDT cobaine

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool..

+Opening theme: Ice on Fire - Powerman 5000

+My Daily Life: When Everything Becomes Nothing - Through the Eyes of the Dead

+Beginning my journey: End of the Line - Devil Driver

+First battle: Electric Funeral - Black Sabbath

+Menu screen: Silvergun Superman - Stone Temple Pilots
((that's a pretty awesome menu!))

+Party member themes:
me: You Never Met a Motherfucker Quite Like Me - Kid Rock

heroine: Christmas With the Devil - Spinal Tap

friend: Like Suicide - Soundgarden

some intellecutal person: I'm Only Happy When it Rains - Garbage

some muscular person: What I See - Lacuna Coil

some childish person: There She Goes - The Cranberries

+Entering a town:
my town: Conquer All - Behemoth

in forest: The Trooper - Children of Bodom

in desert: Enjoy the Silence - Lacuna Coil
((lol perfect))

in mountains: Fight Fire With Fire - Metallica

+Resting: Dark Medieval Times - Satyricon

+Romantic scenes: Self-Made - Otep
((lol THAT'D be an interseting love scene))

+Finding out the truth about the world/myself: Living Dead Girl - Rob Zombie
((I'm a zombie? COOL!))

+Entering dungeons:
easiest: Free - Powerman 5000
easy: Lonely Day - System of a Down
normal: Where Are You Now - Nightcore
hard: Love Like Blood - Killing Joke
very hard: Truth - Seether
final dungeon: Pieces - Sum41

+Battle themes:
normal enemies: November Rain - Guns 'N' Roses
boss fights: You Can Talk to Me - Stevie Nicks ((that's right mister boss monster man, let it all out. I'm here to listen HAHA))
rival: Special - Garbage
final boss: The Decaying Process - Through the Eyes of the Dead

+victory theme: Like a Stone - Audioslave

+Mini-game theme: Changes - Kelly and Ozzy Osbourne

+Ending theme: Drift and Die - Puddle of Mudd
((lol guess I die in the end oh well.))

+Bonus: Caeli Et Terra - Enya.
((now that's a good relaxing bonus to have))

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/13131762/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/13131762/ Mon, 28 May 2007 22:17:12 PDT
and so now I'm all happy and cheerful, but not overly lol. I'm just kind of content and comfortable.
Other than my neck has been really hurt the past few days but it's starting to feel better so that's good

and I drove for like and hour and a half tonight with my mom, it was fun-ish.

and technically it's my birthday! ((with the exception that I was born at like 8:10 in the morning but shhh it'll get to be that time soon enough))

so anyways sorry if I worried anyone. I'm okay I swear

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/13122102/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/13122102/ Mon, 28 May 2007 07:21:51 PDT
I should be happpy.

but instead.

I feel abused and semi-worthless.

oh well. I'll see cory soon.

he'll help.



talk to you peoples later.
I'm sure the next journal I write will make you much happier and not be as whiny.

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/12926268/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/12926268/ Sat, 12 May 2007 07:48:27 PDT


in other news...

yesterday in first period gym I got beamed in the side of the face with a ball and the back of my head hit the wall pretty hard. I had to go home lol. and yeah. So now it's more than 24 hours later, my head still hurts I feel like I'm gonna puke and my mom is still making me go to work x_x


BUT cory spent the night last night and that helped a little. He always makes me feel better.

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/12808932/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/12808932/ Tue, 01 May 2007 20:56:24 PDT

but in any case everything is better now and everything is happy =]


We have state choir competition on Saturday and I'm really excited to go see it! plus Aida opens this weekend and I can't wait to go see it <3




but the main point of this journal is:
I just added two more poems to my big poem binder ((which you can read here)) and oh my god it felt so good.

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/12747845/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/12747845/ Thu, 26 Apr 2007 20:24:50 PDT -There's a lot less love in the world for me than I put into it
-Most people don't give a shit about me. I'm just the random goth girl.
-The times I'm happiest is when people are making me pretend I am
-the times I'm TRULY happy are the times where I'm with cory and we're just lying together talking softly close to each other
-I give so many compliments b/c I like it when I get some in return...but I rarely do.
-I'm REALLY letting my art slip
-Nothing I used to want is important anymore
-Too many people are disappointed in me
-The thing that affects my mood the most is what music I am listening to when I'm talking to someone
-Compared to most people I know I'm innocent
-I'm not who I thought I was
-I appease people too much
-The rain is my home
-I really miss the way things used to be
-I should work on my book but it's crap.
-I want to just run away but won't b/c of my friends
-No one really cares about my art but me
-Many people think that Cory is horrible, including himself
-I often get lost inside myself and I like it that way
-I think about the past too much
-My mother is the person I have hurt the most
-There are so many pieces that I'm SO proud of but no one has even looked at them...
-I've fallen.


I don't journal at all so here you go! hope you enjoyed my random thoughts.

I have so many things that I could be working on to post but they're laying in my crappy camera and the one poem is in my binder, all sorely untouched. I just can't bring myself to do anything on this site but compliment other people.

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/12275901/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/12275901/ Wed, 21 Mar 2007 18:57:26 PDT
]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/12262545/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/12262545/ Tue, 20 Mar 2007 18:16:53 PDT
but in any case I have a lot of pics I need to work on and if I'm ever not too lazy I'll edit and submit them...until then go read "Welcome to My Nightmare" and tell me what you think.

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/12237982/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/12237982/ Sun, 18 Mar 2007 20:23:39 PDT [link]

and if you want to be an aweome vampire under me please please please join! I need people to play wif meeeeeeeeeee

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/12044178/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/12044178/ Sat, 03 Mar 2007 18:34:14 PST
How does the world see me?
"The Prophet Said" Lacuna Coil
cool...I'm a prophecy!

Will I have a happy life?
"Optimised" Skinny Puppy
YAY

What do people really think of me?
"Blue" A Perfect Circle
probably...it's not THAT far

Do people secretly lust after me?
"The Reason" Hoobastank
gonna say yes

How can I make myself happy?
"The Years Without Light" GWAR
yes darkness does make me happy

What should I do with my life ?
"Politics" Korn
NO.

Will I ever have children?
"Severed Head Stoning" Cannibal Corpse
uh oh.

What is some good advice for me?
"Born of Desire" Mushroomhead
ok...I think I can do that.

What do I think is my current theme song?
"Concquer All" Behemoth
not bad. not bad at all

What does everyone else think my theme song is?
"Living on a Prayer" Bon Jovi
well they're sadly mistaken...I don't pray lol

What song will play at my funeral?
"Stigmata" Arch Enemy
hehe Awesome.

What type of men/women do you like?
"Jaded" Aerosmith
not bad I guess

What is my day going to be like?
"Black Dog" Led Zeppelin
I'm gonna meet sirius black? ((lol I'm such a dork))

Why am I here?
"Loyalty" American Head Charge
I can deal with that

What will people remember me for?
"Antihero" God Forbid
YAAAAAY I GET TO BE THE VILLAIN!!!!!

What song will get stuck in my head tomorrow?
"Lies" Evanescence
doubtful but we'll see...it's the one I know least from them.

Are there people outside waiting to take me away?
"Don't Stop Me Now" Queen
yes...but they CAN'T STOP ME NOW BWAH HAHA HAHAHAHAHA

What will this year be about?
"Focus Shall Not Fail" All That Remains
good advice...my only trouble is following it.

What will my next boyfriend/girlfriend be like?
"Sally's Song" Nightmare Before Christmas
great...

What will tomorrows dinner be like?
"Join Me" HIM
yay we get to die!

Am I good at kissing?
"Cloud Connected" In Flames
I'd take that as a yes

Should I go on a diet?
"Silence" Claire Voyant
apparently not

How will I die?
"Sorry" Madonna
okay...I'll stop apologizing and live forever! yay!

Why is Norbert such a LAMA?
"Mean Machine" Motorhead
He's a meanie!!!!!

What will the next important person I meet in life be like?
"Spoon Man" Soundgarden
okay

What do my friends think of me?
"777" Danzig.
they're 111 off lol

What will my next party be like?
"All These Things That I've Done" The Killers
fun

Will I ever change radically?
"The Ghost Woman and the Hunter" Lacuna Coil
nope not really.

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11864542/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11864542/ Sun, 18 Feb 2007 07:34:16 PST However, I've seen much better on this site and that's the thing that amazes me.
In any matter another main reason this journal is being typed is that I need to tell you of a very talented artist who has recently returned to DA.

is back!

If you never payed a visit to her page when I gave her a spotlight a long time ago DO IT NOW!!!!!

she's an amazing artist and an amazing person she deserves some recognition.

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11706535/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11706535/ Tue, 06 Feb 2007 06:55:49 PST
but ANYWAYS...that's not the point of this here journal. It just so happens that I have also been quite bored today and so I...


TOOK PICTURES


yes...I took pictures of meself and I'm soon to post them. I'll also be posting a new poem and I'm going to try to write some more today...b/c well, as D would say, because I can.

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11503082/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11503082/ Sat, 20 Jan 2007 08:07:06 PST
IT COMES OUT IN SPRING! I WANT WINTER TO GO AWAY!!!!!!

but yeah....enjoy the following from marilynmanson.com:
arilyn Manson has nearly completed work on his upcoming album, set to come out this spring. The album is titled EAT ME, DRINK ME. The band will also launch a world tour coinciding with the release.

Stand by for further instruction: additional details, commentary, and particulars forthcoming.

Syndicate; The Celebritarian Corporation / Photograph; Perou (perou.co.uk)
-------
and there's a picture...but dA won't seem to let me put it....so...here's the link!

[link]

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11452115/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11452115/ Mon, 15 Jan 2007 19:04:45 PST (Marilyn Manson) ((of course lol))

1. Name: Jack

2. Describe yourself: Today I am dirty
I want to be pretty Tomorrow, I know I'm just dirt Yesterday I was dirty wanted to be pretty I know now that I'm forever dirt We are the nobodies we wanna be somebodies when we're dead, they'll know just who we are

3. How do some people feel about you?: They'll just cut our wrists like
cheap coupons and say that death
was on sale today

4. Describe your girlfriend/boyfriend/interest: Father told us to be faithful
I've got a crush on a pretty pistol
should I tell her that I feel this way
I've got love songs in my head

5. How do you feel about yourself?: I've got an angel in the lobby
he's waiting to put me in line
I won't ask forgiveness
my faith has gone dry

6. Where would you rather be?: In the Shadow of the Valley of Death

7. Describe what you want to be: the first flower after the flood

8. Describe how you live: the valley of the dolls is
the valley of the dead

9. Describe how you love: Hey mister superstar
I'll do anything for you
I'm your number one fan
hey mister porno star,
I want you
hey, mister fallen star
don't you know I worship you?

10. Share a few words of wisdom: be obscene, be, be obscene!

11. What do you want to be doing right now?:
I wanna live, I wanna love
But its a long hard road, out of hell

12: What are you thinking about?: there will never be enough of anti more
I can't believe in the things
that don't believe in me

13: Favourite memory:
i wanna grow up
i wanna be a big rock and roll star
i wanna grow up
so no one fucks with me
i got the pencils in my pocket, try to put me down
wanna go out, gotta get out
to the playground, gonna throw down at the playground
i wanna go out

14: Worst Embarrassment: She says,
"I'm not in love, but I'm gonna fuck you
'til somebody better comes along."

15: Any Final Words?:
God is in the t.v.

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11432431/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11432431/ Sun, 14 Jan 2007 09:18:39 PST yes...that's only a TASTE of what my initial raction was. I'm so fucking excited!!!!!

And his new gallery is open and OMFG I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE MOVIE AND THE ALBUM!

oh oh, and he's going to try to get Absinthe in the US!!!! I want that to happen too!!!!!!!

God he's amazing.





ok.




I'm done now...


I promise.

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11432159/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11432159/ Sun, 14 Jan 2007 08:50:04 PST
Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle. Say the following questions aloud, and press play. Use the song titles that come up to answer the questions. NO CHEATING.

How does the world see me?
"Everlasting Cocksucker"
yay I'm a whore in the eyes of the world

Will I have a happy life?
"Tourniquet"
I like the ideas in that song so I'll say yes...however most would view it as a no I'm sure

What do people really think of me?
"President Dead"
hehe cool

Do people secretly lust after me?
"The Fight Song"
hmmm, yes?

How can I make myself happy?
"Coma White"
start popping pills?

What should I do with my life ?
"Long Hard Road out of Hell"
try to escape this hell...ok!

Will I ever have children?
"The Last Day on Earth"
I'm going to die while giving birth, aren't I?

What is some good advice for me?
"Obsequy(The Death of Art)"
stay away from art...

What do I think is my current theme song?
"New Model no. 15"
that could be possible.

What does everyone else think my theme song is?
"A Place in the Dirt"
sounds about right

What song will play at my funeral?
"This is the New Shit"
YUS!!!!

What type of men/women do you like?
"Para-Noir"
hmmm...people who use me...

What is my day going to be like?
"Cake and Sodomy"
sounds like fun

Why am I here?
"Mister Superstar"
ok, I'll take that.

What will people remember me for?
"Kiddie Grinder"
I'm going to be a serial killer of children? sweet.

What song will get stuck in my head tomorrow?
"I Put a Spell on You"
possible

Are there people outside waiting to take me away?
"Angel With the Scabbed Wings"
yay I get to fly!!!!

What will this year be about?
"The Bright Young Things"
sounds good.

What will my next boyfriend/girlfriend be like?
"The Speed of Pain"
I don't know if I want to know what that will mean...

What will tomorrows dinner be like?
"The Beautiful People"
doubt it, unless I eat with Cory tomorrow.

Am I good at kissing?
"Tainted Love"
that could go either way, but I'll hope it's yes.

Should I go on a diet?
"In the Shadow of the Valley of Death"
I should almost starve myself to death? sounds like a plan to me.

How will I die?
"Coma Black"
I'm going to commit suicide

Why is Norbert such a LAMA?
"godeatgod"
b/c he's god?

What will the next important person I meet in life be like?
"Posthuman"
SWEET!

What do my friends think of me?
"The Dope Show"
greaaaaat....my friends think I'm a druggie lol

What will my next party be like?
"Sweet Dreams"
everyone's going to pass out and be asleep lol

Will I ever change radically?
"(s)AINT"
no.

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11408559/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11408559/ Fri, 12 Jan 2007 10:28:08 PST

RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Tag 5 people (no, I don't think I will.)
5. Bold the questions and with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.


How are you feeling today?
"We Will Rise" Arch Enemy
I am feeling rather empowered today actually

Will you get far in life?
"10 or a 2-way" KoRn
hmm...I suppose so

How do your friends see you?
"You're All I Need" Motley Crue
sweet!

Will you get married?
"Icebreaker" Skinny Puppy
marriage is an icebreaker? to what? oh god I'm scared now lol but none the less I'll take that as a yes

What is your best friend's theme song?
"She (Demonic mix)" Diary of Dreams
good song, don't know if it's his theme song but I guess it could be...

What is the story of your life?
"Chasing Cars" Snow Patrol
yeah, I could see that

What was high school like?
"Bed of Razors" Children of Bodom
in a way

How can you get ahead in life?
"Vampire the Masquerade" Type O Negative
I WANNA BE A VAMPIRE!!!!!!!!! yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes *breathes*

What is the best thing about your friends?
"Unholy Confessions" Avenged Sevenfold
yes, those are fun

What is in store for this weekend?
"Stairway to Heaven" Led Zeppelin
ok, guess I'm dying...bye guys!

To describe your grandparents?
"Gimme Some Money" Spinal Tap
lol, when I was young, yes

How is your life going?
"Beth" Kiss
that's...cool.

What song will they play at your funeral?
"Ladylike" Storm Large
YUS!!!

How does the world see you?
"Stonehenge" Spinal Tap
I'm a druid temple?

Will you have a happy life?
"Saints and Sinners" Arch Enemy
The good coexists with the bad - good, that's how I want it.

What do your friends really think of you?
"Speak" Godsmack
that's cool, I'll take that.

Do people secretly lust after you?
"Broken Promise" God Forbid
great....married people lust after me

How can I make myself happy?
"Dethroned Emperor" Celtic Frost
ok then.

What should you do with your life?
"Picture" Kid Rock
no...I will not spend my life falling out of love.

Will you ever have children?
"Thank You for the Venom" My Chemical Romance
take that as a yes

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11368245/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11368245/ Mon, 08 Jan 2007 20:47:00 PST
and things were good, Cory looked sexy in his fishnet, and he wore my boots. It was great.

Things were getting better and better and everything seemed to make me happy.

And then we went to lunch. And Alisha just HAD to mention that I have play practice tomorrow and it all went downhill...

things went bad. Everything kept getting worse and I hated it. That's when i wrote "Abuse" b/c that's how I felt...b/c he won't spend rehearsal time with me.

And so things were bad and then by the end of the school day we'd be writing each other notes and sending texts and I was starting to feel a bit better...

And by the time I got to his car I remembered that my step dad had called me during the whole algebra badness fiasco so I listened to his message and it said that I had to go home and get the number of some attourny so that brought me down b/c I like being away from here as much as possible and while I was inside he said I was acting like chrissy and that killed me.

And then we got to his house and everything got better and better again. We watched a movie and played video games with his family and then fell asleep together. then I was happy again

And then his mom wanted to take me home an hour early since we were sleeping...and that disturbed me...especially since I now know that they think I'm there too much and wish I wasn't...they said to him that I'm "basically a part of the family" like that's a bad thing! What if I marry him? what then? are they still not going to want me around?

yeah...anyways...that was my day today...too many ups and downs for my taste and I don't ever have that many...it concerns me...



oh, and I've decided that if there were ever a movie or book made about my life it would be called "Misprint"
and that's where the one line in "Abuse" came from...

so yeah...byes now.

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11191279/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11191279/ Mon, 25 Dec 2006 16:26:45 PST

This is the best thing. I'm just sitting here killing my eardrums with my awesome headphones, my computer speakers, and Stone Sour...I love it. I haven't felt this good since last night when Cory sent me my christmas present poem. All day has been hectic, and it has NOT felt like christmas AT ALL.

Earlier I was sitting by my open window, watching and listening to the rain. I could feel the cold, rainy air on my skin and I was calm. but then my sister came in and started pestering me, and my mom followed her and told me to shut the window. Obviously, she's not one that knows what goes on in my head. That singing by the window with nothing but the rain was the only thing that had made me happy all day...and she took it away.

let's see...oh, I haven't seen Cory at all today...it's horrible...I know some of you don't like him and I don't care...he's still a huge part in my life...yeah, where was I? Oh, I haven't seen him at all...isn't that horrible? It's christmas and I haven't been able to see him...which means I haven't been able to give him his present. I should've given it to him yesterday, but I didn't trust it in my purse at work...and I have his hoody...he needs it back, part of me doesn't want to give it back. I've been wearing it all day lol, It makes me feel comfy and warm, a feeling I rarely have when he's not here.

Anyways, enough with my life, love, addiction ((that's from the poem lol)) and on to the "good" events of christmas!

presents: two hair ties ((both animal print)), a hairagami thing which I have been wearing all day, shitload of candy, body spray, candle holders with a mirror plate, boots ((which I got a day early)), earrings which are surprisingly of my taste, and I do believe that's it from my family. Except, of course, for my driving school!

I want to go wear my boa and play dress up with my sister...but I won't let myself. I just won't do it. Not today...I don't know why. I just can't. I wish I knew what went on in my head...
I don't.

oh well...you know what I want for my birthday? A Canon Rebel. yes, Alyssa wants a camera.

Oh! Lindsey got music for her piano for christmas, one of the songs is Imaginary. she said that when she got it she was reminded of me. I love her for that. That song helped me through so much...I used to listen to it on repeat day after day. It reminded me so much of myself. In fact, it still does.

Look at me, I never journal and now I'm turning into D lol. But ya know...that's ok. She's not a bad thing to turn into.

merry christmahanakwanzika to you all.

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11110144/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11110144/ Mon, 18 Dec 2006 20:39:27 PST












that is all.

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11077899/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11077899/ Fri, 15 Dec 2006 21:14:36 PST
*breathing* YAY YAY YAY
*more* yay yay yay yay yay
*let's try this one more time* yay.

ok, obviously I'm very excited, but I've been waiting for that quite a long time now.

so ya me for 1,000 and YAY D for 3,000!


I'm so happy for both of us

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11060312/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11060312/ Thu, 14 Dec 2006 09:36:10 PST I can't stop coughing....and it's hurting my throat...and even tea doesn't help...

oh well, I just have to suck it up and stick it out.

I submitted the stuff I wrote those last two are sooooo fucking personal to me so if you have a degrading comment keep it to yourself <.<>.>

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11044938/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11044938/ Tue, 12 Dec 2006 20:37:26 PST "not to mention all the grief she caused, you'd have yourself a sticky mess as tall as the statehouse in Boston" It goes a little into the 3rd and 5th lines and isn't a complete sentance but I don't suppose you care at all.

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
it ran into a dresser...

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Cold Case

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
11:40 pm

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
11:29 pm

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
nothing

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
about 10 and I was saying goodbye to cory

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
this survey on D's journal

9. What are you wearing?
wristband, Dimebag tshirt, and plain black pants

10. Did you dream last night?
no...I don't dream near as much as I used to...

11. When did you last laugh?
on the car ride home with cory

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
all of my stuff...

13. Seen anything weird lately?
my reflection

14. What do you think of this quiz?
I like D's answer so I'll keep it - i fancy it i suppose. i chose to do it didn't i?

15. What is the last film you saw?
Friday the 13th part VI

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
a house and car and anything the people I love wanted

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know:
one of my favorite words is believe. dare you to ask me why

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
life in it would be easy

19. Do you like to dance?
yes actually...

20. George Bush:
can't run for office again! whoooooo *does a little dance*

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Gypsy

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Damon

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
yes

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
go away we don't want you

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11044824/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/11044824/ Tue, 12 Dec 2006 20:25:45 PST oh well.
The point is, it's no longer 12:10 when I look at my clock now. Whenever I'm in my room at night I always see the time at 11:11 and every night I wish for the same thing. I'm hoping that maybe if I wish it enough...just maybe someday it'll happen...

is that stupid and childish of me? to still believe in wishes? especially at times like 11:11...
I can never tell if it is or not...

I wrote a really long poem today that's basically my life story and I'd post it tonight but I'm falling over tired.

Forgive me for the unviewed deviations and the unanswered comments - I'll get to it eventually I promise.

I had auditions for the student directed plays today - it went really well. And I had the choir concert right after that which went amazing! They were a nice break from everything that's been going on. And before you ask, no I can't tell you what it is and you can help by not worrying about me.

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/10997646/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/10997646/ Fri, 08 Dec 2006 17:13:56 PST
I'm going back to listening to Good Charlotte, Evanescence, and Linkin Park nonstop...

the last time I did that I was about to go into the worst spell of depression I ever had...but I can't stop myself...I don't know why it's what I want but it is and oh god I just don't know.


on a brighter note, I've been writing more again! It's good to be back to being me when it comes to writing.

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/10971437/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/10971437/ Wed, 06 Dec 2006 11:47:13 PST
How does the world see me?
"godeatgod" Marilyn Manson
awesome!

Will I have a happy life?
"I love to say fuck" Muderdolls
hehe yay I'll definitely be thinking this one means yes

What do people really think of me?
"Dethroned Emperor" Celtic Frost
wow...

Do people secretly lust after me?
"Again" Alice in Chains
uh huh

How can I make myself happy?
"The Light that Blinds" Shadows Fall
be in the light? that's not happy =/

What should I do with my life ?
"Just Another Pretty Face" Bleeding Through
so nothing? guess I'll have to marry rich then

Will I ever have children?
"Roxanne" The Police
great...I'm gonna be a whore lol and so I guess that means yes

What is some good advice for me?
"She was a Teenage Zomibe" Muderdolls
become a zombie? why can't I be a vampire?!?!?

What do I think is my current theme song?
"Silent Night, Bodom Night" Children of Bodom
I'll take that

What does everyone else think my theme song is?
"Cure" Metallica
that's cool

What song will play at my funeral?
"Renegades of Funk" Rage Against the Machine
he hehe yay

What type of men/women do you like?
"Nemesis" Arch Enemy
that's...cool...people who will be my enemy

What is my day going to be like?
"Losing my Religion" REM
been done already lol

Why am I here?
"Marijuana" Nirvana
greeeeeaaaat I'm gonna be a druggie

What will people remember me for?
"The Usurper" Celtic Frost
sad...

What song will get stuck in my head tomorrow?
"Before I Die" Mushroomhead
we'll see

Are there people outside waiting to take me away?
"Where Strinds the Behemoth" Mastadon
so definitely?

What will this year be about?
"Call me When You're Sober" Evanescence
yay lots of alcohol!

What will my next boyfriend/girlfriend be like?
"Dead Man Walking" Fear Factory
yay a vampire!

What will tomorrows dinner be like?
"Golden Years" David Bowie
I'll be dining with old people? oh shit...my grandmother's coming tomorrow...

Am I good at kissing?
"The Man Behind the Mask" Alice Cooper
Jason wants to kill me and he hates people who have sex so I guess?

Should I go on a diet?
"Dragula" Rob Zombie
hmmm....yes?

How will I die?
"Posthuman" Marilyn Manson
I'm not a human so I won't die? cool

Why is Norbert such a LAMA?
"Skeleton Dance" Arch Enemy
he doesn't have any moves

What will the next important person I meet in life be like?
"Denial" Sevendust
Aren't we all in denial?

What do my friends think of me?
"Sleep Now in the Fire" Rage Against the Machine
great they want to kill me with fire

What will my next party be like?
"Love Gun" Kiss
OKAY!

Will I ever change radically?
"Scars and Stripes" Angelspit
That's already me so no

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/10971213/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/10971213/ Wed, 06 Dec 2006 11:24:20 PST
I just noticed this

So...so...idk...look at me a lot lol

Things are going pretty well for me right now and it's quite a welcome surprise.
I got my temps on friday and I've already done my first hour of driving
I am sick today but so is cory so I've spent all day talking to him and that's been cool

and the other bad stuff I will not mention b/c it would bring the pleasant mood of this journal crashing to the ground where it would spontaneously combust into flames.
Yes...self combustion of the good mood <.<>.> lol

I wrote more poems! It's been waaaaay too long and I need to do it more often.

I want to get my hair redyed...I'm sick of being faded. I want it back to my virbrant "stand back run away" bright red hair

I feel like doing a survey that I haven't done in a long time...the one where you do random songs on media player...oh fuck it *rumages through old journals* excellent...

until about 5 minutes from now -

]]> ~nmbc-lvr http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/10872715/ http://nmbc-lvr.deviantart.com/journal/10872715/ Mon, 27 Nov 2006 20:14:42 PST
I know the people that watch me are good people and that poetry is often times hard to sit down and read. It's ok, I've gotten over it.

Thank you to my Lady D who is amazing and went through my gallery to look at the new pieces I've written - you're amazing!

And to Tiff Tiff for putting me in her journal

Better mood now, and very tired so guten nacht.

]]> ~nmbc-lvr