http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:nnf247&section=today deviantART RSS for by:nnf247 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sun, 20 Dec 2009 00:48:44 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/28862268/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/28862268/ Thu, 10 Dec 2009 10:58:59 PST
(Since I brought the freaking Final Fantasy X official strategy guide from Barnes & Noble just for the sake of Tidus.)

I didn’t know what to get for her. So my friend/neighbor John took me to Pleasant Hill/Concord to get an idea.

(I said to myself if there a FFX strategy guide, I’m gonna get it. Seem like I eat my words.)

On our way there, I remember she like Pear from Victoria's Secret. I went there and got her three items. Cleaner, Lotion, and body mist. John went to the book store inside the mall. He later came back looking for a gift for his sis. He got an idea and thinking buying a gift from there too.

Early that day, I called my untie for some Idea when I was at Walgreen after I bought my mother a Christmas card. She was at work. She called me later that night and gives me some good tips. But she told me my mother will like the gift I bought. I hope so.

I thank John by paying the bright toll. That change was from the Freaking FFX.

P.S. Don’t tell my Mother…

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/28630028/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/28630028/ Sat, 28 Nov 2009 12:41:57 PST With family, they know about you and your past. Some are good time and some you want to forget. I have made some mistake that I want to forget. But some people (Not naming name) just won't let it go. Some judge you on your past and for that, you can't change their mind.

With strangers, you have a clean slaight. They don't know you or your past so they don't judge you on that. They only judge you on the Now. That how new friends are made anyway.

It not like I don't like my family. They mean the world to me. I just feel uncomfortable talking to them because I fear they gonna bring up the past. The only family member I talk to is my auntie in Las Vegas and my brother, Micheal. I barely speak to my auntie/mother (who I care about very much). I want us to have a relationship, I just don't know how to fix it.
Everytime I try, I made a mistake. That's another item on the list of past mistake.

I realize all this on 11-27-09.The day before, when I got off the phone with my friend, James. And my auntie/mother asked me who I was talking to. When I told her who it was, her face change. I know trouble was coming. She then asked me: "How come you don't talk to me like you talk to James and I'm family?"

I didn't have the answer then, but I have the answer now.

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/26857201/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/26857201/ Thu, 27 Aug 2009 13:35:19 PDT I know I have to die someday. I just wish it will be painless like in your sleep.

I’m scare.

I’ll type more later.

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]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/23919173/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/23919173/ Fri, 27 Mar 2009 15:26:21 PDT I’m still alive and well to be honest. I have my own place; have a job, and doing well.

Well not the writing part. I’m back doing the Destiny Children but I’m stuck. On the Angel series but I’m stuck. Still doing Bud adventure (It in scrap.)

But I’m alive and well. Just in case someone wonders…

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/21154505/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/21154505/ Sat, 25 Oct 2008 11:39:57 PDT
Cynax is my nobody who Heart Riku
Sen is my KB who heart Tidus. (don't asked why.)
And Cynaka is me who heart them both.

I was bored when I type this...

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/21046442/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/21046442/ Sat, 18 Oct 2008 11:42:04 PDT
I pay the rest of my rent and take care of my cp.

I earn a Startbucks on that day.

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]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/20421623/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/20421623/ Wed, 10 Sep 2008 11:42:20 PDT
More bullshit.
I gave someone my CP to use and they never give it back. And now won’t give it back. My fault.
I have more hate and sadness in my heart.
I’m between wars of my friends
I missed my B-F birthday.
I’m staying at the house that I don’t belong
My friend rushes me to the point I lost my 4GB flash drive yesterday.
I don’t have the money to pay next month rent.
And still jobless…but not for long…I’m getting help and maybe a job too.

More art comming. I just need to buy another 4GB drive...

Maybe I’m just a toy that is broken. Maybe I’m just older now….

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/19659119/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/19659119/ Tue, 29 Jul 2008 10:54:08 PDT Maybe next time I have more to say...

But so far, no new story or art yet...

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/19252689/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/19252689/ Mon, 07 Jul 2008 11:10:17 PDT Yes I move out
Yes. I'm still writing
No Maxie is not with me but he's doing fine.
Yes. I do visit him
Yes I will post the picture of him
No, I'm not playing video game.
Yes. I did draw and plan to post them soon
No I don't have a job
No I'm in progam to prgram
Yes. I still remember deaviant and all my friend
No I'm not good with names....

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/18210876/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/18210876/ Wed, 07 May 2008 12:06:17 PDT Had a interview. Didn't get the job
Have a part time Teacher assistence Until June
Have to moved out in June
Must pay back money on June
Do a new job yet....

But I have to do something I have to do it for my cat Max(ie). I don't know how that cat give me joy but it do. and I mustn't give up...I have to do it for myself my cat Max....

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/17651398/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/17651398/ Wed, 02 Apr 2008 13:11:20 PDT
For I'm sorry for breaking the rule. It just I don't have much time on the computer any more...Maybe I shoud take it off on watch...PLEASE DON'T KILL ME!!!!!!

For Tifa Final not fantasty lovers. Thank you for loving my story. Tho I don't know much of FF7, I think I know just enough to bring this story justice. Now if only I could do the third one than I could lay this serie to rest... I like FFX anyway....

For people who wondering why I haven't post any good shit latley. Well, my job is being a ass to the point they gave me ONE day on a payroll week. So now I'm on the search. I've move and lost all my music for my mp3. And the EDD office won't let me use their scanner to scan my pix. And I sitll have shit to pay off.


I don't want to get anymore trouble so I will make my leave here.

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/17015515/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/17015515/ Fri, 22 Feb 2008 19:44:31 PST
I have to work on my birthday 2-12-08. I turn 24. It was a pain in the ass. I thought the day didn't get any worst. When I invite my roommate to have birtday dinner with my mom, she bust out all of my secret. Everything that I told her not to tell...she told. She's on my shit list

The person who care and remember instead of my family is my b/f Adam. He text the day before, on, and after for valentine day.

I got pleanty to tell but time is short.

I just want to let you know that:
Yes, I'm still alive
Yea, I'm still doing art
Sure, I'll post it one of these day...
And no. I haven't forgotten DeViant Art.

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/16476502/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/16476502/ Sat, 19 Jan 2008 14:39:55 PST
]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/16345189/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/16345189/ Thu, 10 Jan 2008 14:51:53 PST
How life? Not so well. They cutting my hours to 1/4. So I'm broke. but atlest Christmas was delicious. And New Years was free.

Oh shit. I'm busted. Gotta go.

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/15864478/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/15864478/ Sun, 09 Dec 2007 14:44:47 PST
So help me out.

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/15638161/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/15638161/ Fri, 23 Nov 2007 16:15:19 PST
P.S. Target is much better anyway....

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/15507021/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/15507021/ Wed, 14 Nov 2007 12:56:00 PST Let me count the ways.
1. I lost my CD Case that contains 4 library cd and most of my favorite burn CD.
2. The manger who I thought was gone came back. I have to deal with him tonight w/o my music.
3. One of my mangers took my CP (cell phone) w/o my knowing when I was using it for business. (One of our employees wasn't coming in the next day cause of family business.)
4. Guys in Vallejo are ghetto w/ baggy pants gold teeth and their favorite word is "BITCH!!!!!"
5. Bus is always late....
6. Vallejo Girls like to waste your time with bullshit. (Why didn't I say no?)
7. People won't pay you back
I got more...but that enough bullshit for one day.

I'm sorry if I only write negative stuff but I have to get it off my chest.

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/15309248/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/15309248/ Wed, 31 Oct 2007 22:05:48 PDT They’re working me to death.

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/15258489/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/15258489/ Sun, 28 Oct 2007 13:21:03 PDT I will post drawing if I don't get caught.
Lately I have been down.

You see... My Off ON BF is leaving Cali. this Wednesday morning. The program he was in want him out because he graduating. He doesn’t have enough to rent a place here so he's going to Kansas to stay with his older sister. He wants me to go with him, but I don’t have enough money to fly with him, and my family is here in Cali. I want to say good bye face to face but, it seem that isn’t gonna happen. I don’t have the money to visit.

So I have been kinda down this whole month. This will be the worst Halloween ever.

P.S. and beside that, I left some of my things over there, including my TonyHawk

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/14443836/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/14443836/ Sat, 01 Sep 2007 16:07:39 PDT Two: The computer @ the library is slow and someone is aleady on
Three: The computer I been using is use also
Four: At work most of the time.
Five: Stress out most of the time

Another words...I'm sorry I haven't been on...

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/14231036/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/14231036/ Sat, 18 Aug 2007 19:56:36 PDT One: Job. My assistance manger=Jorge don’t like me very much to the point he send me home for the stupid reasons.
Wednesday he sent me home early because I was talking when I wasn’t. He told me to do something but I couldn’t understand. He was speaking too damn fast. Than I was asking him “what you want me to do? I don’t understand.”
Must I remind you that I’m the only black bitch that don’t speak Spanish? My other coworker was talking around me to the point I got sent home.
Thursday was the worst day’s because he sent me home…37 minuets after I clocked in. For…talking to my coworker. At that point I want to kick his ass. But the big cheese (Manger) was there and he want to keep the peace. As we was talking Jorge was speaking in tongue which really piss me off. But we work it out and I won’t be on his shift anymore. I may make less money but I save my sanity and my job.
Poems: Gemini, Jabbajaw No respect, and only uno


Now here’s number two: Home. After that bullshit at work, I have to deal with home too. Let the fact be told; IM A MESSY BITCH. I can’t be neat. But guess what forks; I’m dealing with a neat freak and that night she went off to the point I want to end it…really. I really need to get out of that place. I can’t stand rooming with her. But it seem I need to change my way so I won’t hear her mouth. Mama said it will be days like that, she warn me…
Poems: Your warning, Homesick, and I have a Guilty Conscience

I so want to open the can of whop ass. And thank to my final fantasy x, I can. Now if only I could get over that stupid blitzs game, than I’ll be okay.

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/13864303/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/13864303/ Tue, 24 Jul 2007 18:38:08 PDT At work, we hired 5 new people and two of my employee quit. I heard from one of co- they fired a manger and employee. If they hired five more people, why the heck I’m still working every day? Not that I’m complaining.
But lately business is getting slow since summer is almost over so I have getting less hours. Not bad but I have to pay $300.00 month. I don’t have time to even save because I have to catch a cab home every night. But I’ll make it work, somehow. But all in all, I’m doing okay. I have been going to church and renew my spirit. I think all this time I have been bless and not even know it. I have seen my mother when I finally got a phone number. She picks me up and we went to Larry house. After she drop me off, she said something I always want her to say “I’M PROUD OF YOU”
That all I wanted all this time, I hold the tears in until I got in the house.

Also this is a busy week since I have to watch Max’s pet when he was a way in business. Thing was going well until Paulie (the cat) escape and ran under the house. I was scare but I got through it. I have to go under the house and get her out. It took me three tries (rip up working pants) and getting me shirtless to get her out. A lot of thing was going on this weekend. And there still a lot of thing to get done.
Even tho with all this mess, I’m still blessed. I have a bike, I have a job, and I have people who care about me.
It strange you know, I remember I was one asking for applications, going place to place. And now I praying for those people who doing the same thing. May they find a job soon too...

Well this is my update. If I don’t post anything for a while, I might be busy. But I’ll be aright
Cause GOD is on my side…

Until we meet again.
Nani, The fallen dreamer

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/13707566/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/13707566/ Thu, 12 Jul 2007 11:52:36 PDT
I just find out that one of the mangers (that I can't stand) got fired or left. And we hired 5 new people. If we hired 5 new people, why the hell am I working everyday?

Even though I will get pay big, I wonder if it even worth it, getting off late, catching a cab, paying 10 dollar to get home…

Today is 3-10 but until Tuesday: 4-12

A hustler life is never done…

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/13609459/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/13609459/ Wed, 04 Jul 2007 15:53:51 PDT
It have been a week that I have move out of my mother place and what I have discover, I have new feeling I haven't felt before

First: Tired. Work has been getting harder. I'm doing all nightshifts to make some more cash, since I have to pay rent, food, and transportation. It takes $1.75 to get to work and $9.50 to get home by cab. I only spend 2 or 3 dollars each day. I hoping all my hard work am paying off...

2: Worry....ALOT. I'm more paranoid that I was staying at my old place. I have three roommates. They all cool and everything but now I'm wondering if they really like me. Thank to my friend, Ash and her sister who I visit the other day after afternoon work. I know she care about my well being and everything but now I just wish she didn't put that in my head.

I also need to get a phone. Maybe Metro will help. I'll do that with my second check.

3: Missing Phone (no phone) Internet (must use the library)

And...Mom. YES. I still care about her and I still want to work thing out but maybe I left in a bad note somehow. For some reason, I'm just scare to talk to her. Maybe she will say that I'm a bitch or something like that. The truth of the matter is...since I hear that allot, I started to believe it myself. You know when you hear a record over and over again until you know every word by heart...it just like that. It reaches to the point that I wrote a poem about myself being a monster.

Maybe is Fear of talking is the reason why I haven't called. I will always care for her. And if she reading this…

Thank you for raising me. I know it was hard and I was a pain in the ass but I do appreciate for all that you done for me. And I love you.

4: BLESS. I have been going to church since I moved it. The church I went: they know how to PARTY. People were dancing and praising and feeling good. Preacher was a woman and damn, she was good at her words. I find out that I forgot who I was: I'm God child and Jesus' little sister. I love the lord and Jesus is my savor. I will go to church every Sunday for now on, so I could be reminded that I am bless…

I'm doing fine and I'm surviving. Until we meet again…

Fallen Dreamer always. ]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/13527728/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/13527728/ Thu, 28 Jun 2007 15:59:50 PDT I make a deal with my ante/mother that I will move out on the 1st of July. My mother just reminded me. July 1st is coming up (this Sunday) and I'm still moving out. Well I didn't know that coming up...Like this Sunday... Knowing I have to work the night shift this weekend.
No stuff is pack, no boxes from work. I didn't know this is REALLY my LAST WEEK. AH SHIT. My mother REALLY wants me gone, for good.

I got two places to stay at.
One is Max place. He lives in my neighborhood close By the bus stop. He's a gay Jew friend I have been talking with...I could walk from work and have my own room. I'm just not sure because I find out that I'm a messy person. Need to change that. He had a dog and a cat which I don't mind.

Second is Ash place. She lives close to downtown. Even tho she has her b/f, evil sister and her baby father staying at her mother house, she says I could stay there. I just have to pay $100.00 a month and sleep in the living-room. Her mother needs help with the bill and it still close to my job.

So I need help, which god delivers. The program, HOUSE OF JOY has a room for me. With my friend, Max, I got my stuff out. Tomorrow is a new beginning...I’m just scare that I will fuck this up just like Job Corp. If you don’t hear anything from me, don’t worry. I’m just taking care of business.

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/13500680/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/13500680/ Tue, 26 Jun 2007 15:59:05 PDT [link]

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/13478062/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/13478062/ Sun, 24 Jun 2007 22:10:53 PDT [link]
But now I'm asking you..
why Yaoi is so popular and not Yuri?

P.S. I have a connfession: I like Ansem *Beeping* Riku and I don't know why.

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/13464870/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/13464870/ Sat, 23 Jun 2007 21:06:53 PDT
Do you think your life is good or bad?

My resonds is this, Sorry if I was acting bitchy
about it.
Why must you ask us this stupid question? Are you just being noisy or curious...

Well since I'm here, I'm might as well...
Knowing it could've been worst. I'm okay for now. I have a job, I have a roof over my head (at this time), clothes on my back and food in my stomach.

Even tho I'm dealling with depression and EMO (you want to called it.) I'm surviving so far...
But it could have been better....

Now it goes to you....

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/13424827/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/13424827/ Wed, 20 Jun 2007 20:35:35 PDT Code:
Big cheese=manger
HoHay=Jorge, manger assist.

Here the story:
I suppose to work 10:30 to 6 today until the big cheese called me in. He told me that I will stay until 7, clocked out, and have 2 extra hours (make it seem I’m work till 9) I got with the plan and stay. He told me to keep it a secret and not tell anyone. (I was stupid at the time and fall for it.)
So I stayed until my friend Max came in, that when I looked at the time. It was close to 8.
I told HoHay that I have to go. He told me I have to stay till 9. What the heck? I told him what the big cheese. The big cheese told him another story. I say ‘hell no, I’m going home’ HoHay told me that those two extra hours I will lose. Who cares? It had been along good day until this point so I deserve my tomorrow day off.
I need another job….

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/13107662/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/13107662/ Sun, 27 May 2007 00:24:58 PDT
You are NOT allowed to explain ANYTHING

1. Taken a picture naked? No
2. Painted your room? No
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? No
4. Drove a car? No
5. Danced in front of your mirror? Yes
6. Have a crush? Yes
7. Been dumped? Yes
8. Stole money from a friend? Yea
9. Gotten in the car with people you didn’t know? Yes
10. Been in a fist fight? No
11. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Yes
12. Had feelings for someone of the same sex? Yes
13. Been arrested? No
14. Made out with a stranger? No
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? Yes
16. Left your house with out telling your parents? Yes
17. Had a crush on your neighbor? No
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? Yes
19. Slept (not had sex) in a bed with a member of the same sex? No
20. Seen someone die? No
21. Been on a plane? No
22. Kissed a picture? Yes
23. Slept in until 3? Yes
24. Miss someone right now? Yes
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? Yes
26. Made a snow angel? No
27. Played dress up? Yes
28. Cheated while playing a game? Yes
29. Been lonely? Yes
30. Fallen asleep at work/school? Yes
31. Been to a club? Yes
32. Felt an earthquake? Yes
33. Touched a snake? No
34. Ran a red light? No
35. Been suspended from school? Yes
36. Had detention? Yes
37. Been in a car accident that you didnt cause? No
38. Hated the way you look? Yes
39. Witnessed a crime? No
39. Been the person doing the crime? No
40. Pole danced? Yes
41. Been lost? Yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? No
43. Felt so sick you thought you might die? Yes
44. Cried yourself to sleep? Yes
46. Sang karaoke? Yes
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes
48. Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? No
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? No
50. Kissed in the rain? No
51. Sang in the shower? Yes
52. Had sex in a park? Yes
53. Had a dream where you were married? Yes
54. Glued your hand to something? Yes
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? No
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? No
57. Been a cheerleader? No
58. Sat on a roof top? Yes
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? Yes
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? Yes
61. Played chicken? No
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Yes
64. Broken a bone? No
65. Been easily amused? Yes
66. Laughed so hard you cried? Yes
67. Mooned/flashed someone? Yes
68. Cheated on a test? No
69: Forgotten someones name? Yes
70. Slept naked? Yes
71. Gone skinny dipping? No
73. Blacked out from drinking? No
74. Played a prank on someone? Yes
75. Gone to a late night movie? Yes
76. Made love to anything not human? No
77. Failed a class? No
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? No
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? No
80. Been cheated on? No
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? No
82. Thrown strange objects? Yes
83. Felt like killing someone? Yes
84. Felt like running away? Yes
85. Ran away? Yes
86. Did drugs? No
87. Had detention and not attend it? Yes
89. Made a parent cry? Yes
90. Cried about someone? Yes
91. Had sex with more than one person in a 24 hour period? No
92. Dated someone you didn't even like? No
93. Had/Have a dog? No
95. Own an instrument? No
96. Been in band? No
97. Drank 25 sodas in a day? No
98. Broken a CD? Yes
99. Shot a gun? No
100. Had feelings for one of your best/good friends? Yes

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/12987922/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/12987922/ Thu, 17 May 2007 10:02:41 PDT Wear the pants so low
That they show their underpants
Where ever they go
Will it be too tight to wear them right?
Is being ghetto is aright
I don’t date guys like that
Maybe I’m getting too old.

Why the youth these days
Are doing stupid things
Why they Not wearing a raincoat
When they having sex
Do they know about HIV and STD?
The youth these days are having babies
Is it me or the school aren’t teaching them nothing
Maybe I’m getting old

Why youth these days
Are getting into mess
Killing people
Sex and politics
The music I’m hearing
It way for my understanding
And the radio is playing the same damn thing
These youth these days I don’t understand.
Maybe…I’m just getting old….

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/12826257/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/12826257/ Thu, 03 May 2007 10:03:11 PDT Then I send back.

What a minuet! That was in Feb. so it really 7 months later.

Oh well.
He said he want to see me again. But I don't have the money and I don't have the time. I'm doing the night shift (at Taco Bell as Cashier) on the weekend so I'll be tired as hell.

Seven months later, should I forgive him and let him back in?

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/12456230/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/12456230/ Wed, 04 Apr 2007 12:02:52 PDT Can’t seem to get my life together
Can I

You know I try
You can see can you.

Needlss to say...
Not everything in going to plain

All the time
Anytime

Keeping a job is hard to do
Kicking myself every time I lost it too

And dealing with emotiona issue
Ant that the truth...

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/12204213/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/12204213/ Fri, 16 Mar 2007 09:33:33 PDT Please no pity
please no sympathy
Please no mercy
I don't earn it
I don't deserve it
I don't need it.

Yea, I have a bad day yesterday, and It seem that today will be ten time worst....

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/12195200/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/12195200/ Thu, 15 Mar 2007 15:01:01 PDT
I thought I would suck on this game but in the last two I surpise them all. I love my 4+6 one. My brother help by making stupid move.

Well anyway, we playthis monring as I won three time as Ash beat us by points.
Last night game Ant=1 Sen=2 Ash=3
Morrning game Ash=1 Sen=2 Ant=3

It was fun, but I'm back to reality. Where I'm gonna live? What gonna happen next?
Find out....

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/12091075/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/12091075/ Wed, 07 Mar 2007 10:04:25 PST Ash is such a big flirt and Anthony is handsome guy. (Can’t help but to be truthful) I thought it wasn’t a big deal…think again…
Than things started get hot and heavy a couple of time.
Ash is a good girl and all but I can’t shake this feeling this math…
Ash+Ant=TROUBLE

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/11948165/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/11948165/ Sat, 24 Feb 2007 13:32:39 PST 1.Mental breakdow on V-day. Since I didn't get anything on my b-day or V-day, I was feeling unloved. I cry in front of the customers.
2. Casher and customers said that I was looking in people purse when I was bagging. Truth is...I was dozing off.
3. I was singing or being too goofy. I thought you surpose to have fun at work.
4. Bad words. I said some thing that was cool. During my testing I made a comment about condoms. Don't asked what for.

I think that's it.

Thanks to my mother, my friend Ash(ley) and her mother for helping me throught this.
And my DA friend with their prayers.

Now I pray for another sunny day....

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/11923974/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/11923974/ Thu, 22 Feb 2007 16:11:12 PST GAME OVER...
p>My japanese name is 中村 Nakamura (center of the village) 歩 Ayumi (walk, deeper meaning: walk your own way).
Take your real japanese name generator! to

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/11906563/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/11906563/ Wed, 21 Feb 2007 09:56:56 PST My job coach call me that my bosses need to talk with us 30 minuent early before I start my shift (if I have a shift.). I don't know if it's good or bad. But all I know is if I lose this job, I'll lost everything.
Pray for me...

@)}~~X~~Clubs~~X~~{(@
~Adult-Swim-Club
~KHIIClub
~Riku-x-Namine-Club
~riku-fanatic-club
~riku-fanclub
~Organization
~organizationOCs
~Tidus-x-Yuna-Club
~Starter-PKMN-CLUB

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/11812658/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/11812658/ Wed, 14 Feb 2007 10:13:42 PST
AH SHIT. I have to get ready to go.

I will tell you more later.

Until we meet again.....

@)}~~X~~Clubs~~X~~{(@
~Adult-Swim-Club
~KHIIClub
~Riku-x-Namine-Club
~riku-fanatic-club
~riku-fanclub
~Organization
~organizationOCs
~Tidus-x-Yuna-Club
~Starter-PKMN-CLUB

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/11748794/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/11748794/ Fri, 09 Feb 2007 15:00:11 PST
Job: I'm a courtesy clerk a food market. I'm kinda nervous about it. That where that poem of the hero phobia came from. It suppose to be for me but since I can't stop thinking about Tidus and Cloud, it ends up that way.

B-day: Feb 12 84. Yes, I'm going to be 23. Don't remind me. I already have my auntie (who I'm staying with) doing that. I'm so old to stay with my auntie. I need my own life.

Poem/Stories: I'm taking meds for my depression (Yes, I'm on meds) and it acttally helps. I have alot of things to write. I'm reading other poem to give me inspiration or idea. If only I have time to finish the stories I started and have a place to save it.
Alot of people likes my simple poems, I'm thinking about making it a book and make it a living. Maybe...Damn maybes.

Dictionary: I left mine at my X-bf. So I got another one.

@)}~~X~~Clubs~~X~~{(@
~Adult-Swim-Club
~KHIIClub
~Riku-x-Namine-Club
~riku-fanatic-club
~riku-fanclub
~Organization
~organizationOCs
~Tidus-x-Yuna-Club
~Starter-PKMN-CLUB

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/11563495/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/11563495/ Thu, 25 Jan 2007 10:37:17 PST
My story is that Cynaka have lost everything she have, including her heart. For some reason she could relate to Riku who was also lost in the darkness. She asked him to take her to his world and he did. Riku recrute her and join the many nobodies who lost their heart in the world they from. She became Cy -Senax Nobody 002.
Use me-She start falling for Riku as he show her a good time. But she not alone. Ansem wants Riku to himself. Even to she falling for him, Ansem have his soul in his hand and he show that in Shatter (There is something that should not be seen.)
She lost her heart again and became The Crazy Conent. Elaxis and Maurexen from DEart are also in the story.

I still got more to write but I don't have time.
I just wish my story to be seen.

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/11487213/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/11487213/ Thu, 18 Jan 2007 20:25:53 PST :sigh:
That assholesonofbitch. This whole week I have to think about if I should reply and what will I say? I have been trying to get over that asshole for the last past months or so. Most of my poems are about getting over him or trying.
So I replied ‘I’m doing fine, and you?’

What else could I say….
:sigh:

]]> ~nnf247 http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/11441266/ http://nnf247.deviantart.com/journal/11441266/ Sun, 14 Jan 2007 22:46:40 PST This is my first journal entry for a long time and I have to say, it's good to be writing again. I have a low bad last year but I feel this year will be different. I feel I'm different from the girl I knew. I finally got over my lover Adam, things in my life is looking up and as of 29 of last year, I became auntie. During the hard time I feel like I can't write any more but now, I feel all the insperation comming over me. All the pain, and bullshit gives me something to write/draw and I see thing in a new light.

I'm glad this is a new year and I could get a fresh start and this time, I will have a year with no regrets.

]]> ~nnf247