http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:no1important&section=today deviantART RSS for by:no1important en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 21 Dec 2009 20:12:26 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/8294616/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/8294616/ Tue, 28 Mar 2006 12:30:20 PST ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/8037338/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/8037338/ Wed, 01 Mar 2006 12:41:35 PST I'm not supposed to be like this
I should be on the top of the world
Is anybody out there like me?

I followed something's missing
Self control Forcing me down
Whispers consume the air
Above her I'm endless

When the rain comes falling
I'll freeze I'm so afraid
When things start to flood me
I will drown in seconds

Fear - There's a way out
Touch of red
Break away
Nothing has it all
Bury the place I've been
I fear there's a way out

As If I ever had a choice
All in the hands of the energy
Once again feel the quicksand swallow me
Tonight =I wont struggle

Fear - There's a way out
Touch of red
Break away
Nothing has it all
Bury the place I've been
I fear there's a way out

The weak in me should know I'm as sober as I could be

Fear - There's a way out
Touch of red
Break away
Nothing has it all
Bury the place I've been
I fear there's a way out

In Flames - Touch of Red ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7972140/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7972140/ Wed, 22 Feb 2006 14:00:22 PST It's so damn wrong, you outdid yourselves
Beaten numb, I didnt see you sneaking round the corner, how could I?
There is no sight in my other eye

When I'm done I will hunt you down
One by one I'll blow you all to hell
For you faceless, nameless, cowards, cannot hide
The day you break me will arrive

Strike from behind and knock me to the ground
Kick me while I'm down, stab me in the back, you bastards
Tear my heart out of my chest
I rise from the ashes, from these ruins of mine, from the rage
I'm right on your track you bastards
Dozen of eyes for an eye
Vengeance is mine

I have dreams of hammering your skulls
Fantasies of bashing in your brains
Obsessively I am watching, I am stalking, I am following
And then the massacre begins

Strike from behind and knock me to the ground
Kick me while I'm down, stab me in the back, you bastards
Tear my heart out of my chest
I rise from the ashes, from these ruins of mine, from the rage
I'm right on your track, you bastards
Dozen of eyes for an eye
Vengeance is mine

Strike from behind and knock me to the ground
Kick me while I'm down, stab me in the back, you bastards
Tear my heart out of my chest
I rise from the ashes, from these ruins of mine, from the rage
I'm right on your track you bastards
Dozen of eyes for an eye
Vengeance is mine
Dozen of eyes for an eye
Vengeance is mine
Vengeance is mine


Vengeance is mine - Sentenced ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7838179/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7838179/ Wed, 08 Feb 2006 14:05:32 PST

1. My uncle once:
Danced around the room pretending to be my nan looking at shiney things. heh.

2. Never in my life have I:
... seemed to do anything important right.

3. The one person who can drive me nuts, but then can always manage to make me smile:
lol Jason.

4. High School was/is:
not in britain (danns answer, not mine)

5. When I'm nervous:
I bite my nails. Or smoke.

6. The last time I cried was:
Earlier. I've had a bad day. (but its better now. I have shotties and larger and family guy)

7. If I were to get married right now my bridesmaids/groomsmen would be:
lol, uh... Ross, Sam, Becca annnnd I've run out of people. I'm not sure if I should mention Jason or not?

9. My hair:
Pisses me off.

10. When I was 5:
... I was younger than I was now?

11. Last Christmas I:
climbed out of the window at like 11 in the morning to get away from my family.

12. When I turn my head left, I see:
Manson... YAY.

13. When I turn my head right, I see:
the whole of the rest of my room.

14. When I look down I see:
my legs.

15. The craziest recent event was:
...now... when you say crazy... I dont know what you mean. So, we leave it.

17. By this time next year:
I'll probably have done achieved nothing, lost a whole lot and be doing the exact same thing as I am now.

18. Last night:
lol, I came home, watched Hollyoaks, had a smoke and played mario party. watched the angry beavers and fairly odd parents. went to bed. (all such important things that i couldnt leave any of them out, hense the list - and explanation)

19. I have a hard time understanding:
when more than one thing is happening at once quickly.

20. One time at a family gathering:
I got paraletically drunk on cream gin or some crap, with some random people in the park, ended up hitting my uncle and waking up the next day with a babysitter lol.

21. You know I like you if:
I'm willing to give/lend or - otherwise spend money on - you.

22. If I won an award, the first person (people) I'd thank is:
I wouldnt win an award. If i did it would be like "worlds biggest mistake" or something... in which case id start off by stating that my mum should really get the award.

23. Take my advice:
dont listen to me.

24. My ideal breakfast is:
a shottie

25. If you visit my hometown:
you'll be bored out of youre mind

26. The place I would visit anytime soon would be:
nowhere. i want to stay here. i like it here. *rocks*

27. If you spend the night at my house:
you'll probably be stoned

28. I'd stop my wedding if:
i wanted to

29. The world could do without:
oh I could make a list! But I wont. but the first thing that come to mind is emotional pain. that would be good.

30. I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than:
i dont want to answer. it sounds stupid.

31. Most recent thing you've bought yourself:
grape and apple panda pop and a boost. WOOT!

32. Most recent thing someone else bought for you:
I think my grandparents bought me a bar of marzipan... it was on my bed... i think thats where it came from.

33. My favorite blonde is:
I honestly honestly cant think of anyone.

34. My favorite brunette is:
why are these things actually important? does anyone actually read these things? If you read this... leave a comment telling me you did... I'm going to conduct a survey.

35. And by the way:
I'm really wasted

36. The last time I was high:
If now doesnt count then... this morning.

37. The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are:
pigs... meh

38. I should have been:
in mexico a long time ago? I dunno.

39. Once, at a bar:
i got thrown out for drinking my own straight tequila... well that was a pub, but I dont remember anything happening in a bar.

40. There's this girl I know who:
has an exploding panda

41. This guy I know:
is a complete prat

42. A better name for me would be:
I dunno... how about 0

43. My birthday is:
January 1st. It's not as great as it sounds.


Well.. I got bored with that halfway though... I'm done. Dont forget... The survey!!!! ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7702941/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7702941/ Wed, 25 Jan 2006 09:45:58 PST

Bleed for my pain
Revenge on treacherous snakes
They will pay

Slicing the flesh
Sculptured wounds my catharsis
I will stain

Into the heart
Needle injects gasoline
Convulsions

The one that they betrayed
Has made them this way

Plagued by the bastards
I will kill you
Killed by my rage

Scream at my face
The grisly scars went unavenged
Until now

Deep in the hole
You are not gagged and scream aloud
But unheard

Choke on your vomit
You watch your hands cut off
Then your legs

The one that you betrayed
Will kill you this way

Scarred by the bastards
I will kill you
Killed by my rage
I must kill you

Into the throat
The scalpel slices
Warm blood sprays out
The gushing entices

Pull out your heart
And let you watch
Shove in your mouth
Then stab your crotch

I watch your agony

I am released
From years of pain
Your death averted
My becoming insane
You are dead

I have killed you


Cannibal Corpse - I Will Kill You ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7621257/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7621257/ Mon, 16 Jan 2006 14:12:04 PST

1. Of all the bands/artists in your cd/record collection, which one do you own the most albums by?
Well... Probably NIN or Reel Big Fish... but thats because I have so DAMNED many!

2. What was the last song you listened to?
Uh... Ill Nino - How Can I live (without you) Spanish Version.

3. What's in your record/CD player right now?
Nothing. I have an ipod.

4. What song pretty much sums you up?
Very much depends how I feel. Marilyn Manson - Coma Black

5. What's your favourite local band?
Was PWH (shut up Jason!) But now its Otoko (actually the ONLY local band i like)

6. What was the last show you attended?
Show? Gig? There either wasnt one or I would rather there hadn't been.

7. What was the greatest show you've ever been to?
The one with Dan.

8. What's the worst band you've ever seen in concert?
MMR (local band) To be fair... I mostly just didnt like them.

9. What band do you like musically but dislike the members of?
Ah, there are shit loads.

10. What is the most musically involved you have ever been?
Uh... My X was in a band?

11. What shows are you looking forward to?
None. I'm going to stay in bed forever.

12. What is your favourite band shirt?:
atm its Alice Cooper... But thats only because no one else i know has one and i wanted one for ages.

13. What musicians would you like to hang out with for a day?
Manson... that'll do.

14. What musician would you like to be in love with for a day?
I don't want a musician, I'm happy where I am... however... if you really want an answer.... manson

15. Sabbath or solo Ozzy?
Ozzy, but only for the lyrics.

16. Commodores or solo Lionel Ritchie?
I dont care.

17. Punk rock, hip hop or heavy metal?
Heavy metal.

18. What was the greatest decade for music?
Early 90s... just for Manson

19. How many music-related videos/dvds do you own?
A few... couple of Alice Cooper, NIN and a few Manson

20. What is your favourite movie soundtrack?
Queen of the Damned... I love it.

21. What was your last musical phase?
I guess SOME PEOPLE would say I'm still in it.

22. What's the crappiest CD/record/etc. you own?
By normal peoples standards? Gary Newman. But I think hes fantastic!

23. Do you prefer vinyl or CDs?
CDs

24. All totalled, how much do you spend on music a month?
Usually nothing. I'm a dirty music pirate.

25.How many CDs/records do you own?
A shitload. ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7574457/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7574457/ Wed, 11 Jan 2006 14:01:55 PST

Everyone has their firsts...

First real best friend:
Lauren Duffield

First school:
Shrewton Primary School

First Screenname:
I dont remember.

First Cell phone:
Nokia 3310

First funeral:
Someone I knew at primary school

First pet:
Uh... I had a guinea pig and a rabbit. They were called Gorden and Bennet.

First fight:
I don't fight.

First big trip:
Depends how big you mean. Wales or Germany.

First flight:
To Germany... I don't even remember what year I was in.

First celebrity love:
David Duchovny. Actually... I think I might watch the Xfiles.

First time out of the country:
Germany In Secondary School (it was gay)

First job:
Heh... I'll let you know when I get it.

First MySpace friend:
Dann of course

Everyone has their lasts.....

Last person you hugged:
Jason

Last song you heard:
Blur - Coffee and TV

Last car ride:
I actually have no idea... Have a feeling it was when Shaq came round last.

Last time you cried?
Yesterday night

Last movie you watched:
Head of State. WOO!

Last food you ate:
Ham. Ham is fantastic.

Last person of the opposite sex that you talked to:
Mike. He was explaining that if I moved in with him I wouldnt be able to smoke, do drugs or drink.... we were predicting how long it would take me to die.

Last item bought:
I don't think I've bought anything except pot recently.... does that count as an item? If not... Rizla.

Last shirt worn:
my "Political Correctness Fucking Rules" tshirt

Last phone call:
Grandparents this morning.

Last text message:
Dann most likely.

Last thing you touched:
My bottle of larger (its pretty much empty)

Last Funeral:
My great uncle.. or something... me and my mum just sat there and sniggered at the stuff from the bible.

Last time at the mall:
Today. Well, I walked though it.

Last time u were excited about something:
Earlier when I got to go home into the warm, smoke, drink and watch tv.

Last person u saw:
Either my mum or my sister.

Last thing you drank:
San Miguel

Last thing you typed:
San Miguel

Last Person that broke your Heart:
Jason

Last time you were Happy:
Before I got on the bus. ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7563183/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7563183/ Tue, 10 Jan 2006 10:36:54 PST hael... damnit... its not even interesting!

2. Who is your best friend of the opposite sex?
Probably Dann

3. The last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
Meh... some.... thing....

4. Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?
I have licked a battery... however whether it was 9 volt or not... i dunno.

5. Last time you swam in a pool?
I actually have no idea... but it was in Tidworth

6. Have you ever been in a school play?
Yes... every fucking year. And I was an angel. Every fucking year! Till year 6... then I got to be Mary... How gay!

7. Who are you missing?
Jason. As usual.

8. Type of music you dislike most?
I don't have a type... just things I don't like

9. Are you registered to vote?
No. and I don't think I ever will be... maybe just to annoy my grandad

10. Do you have cable?
Unfortunatly no.

11. Have you ever ridden on a moped?
No I bloody haven't. I don't go near those things.

12. Ever made a prank phone call?
lol indeed I have. heh, sounds of the rainforest.

13. Ever kissed a frog?
Not as far as I remember... but I may have done.

14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
I'd fucking love to go sky diving! Might make me less bored for... a day.

15. Furthest place you ever travelled?
Dunno. Which is further... Germany or Egypt... Theres your answer.

16. Do you have a garden?
I personally do not. However there is a garden attached to the house.

17. What's your favourite comic strip?
Garfield all the fuckin way!

18. Do you know all the words to the national anthem?
I only know the name of it cause of the sex pistols

19. Bath or Shower, morning or night?
shower. night. usually. but thats only cuz I dont have any time in the morning.

20. Best movie you've seen in the past month?
Phone. Easily. By far. I don't really remember many others.

21. Favourite pizza topping?
I don't really care as long as theres cheese.

22. Chips or popcorn?
chips

23. What type of deodorant do you use?
.... that stuff. (points) I can't be arsed to check... i dont remember.

24. Have you ever smoked peanut shells?
No, but it sounds like something that might amuse me.

25. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?
lmfao. no... funally enough.

26. Orange juice or apple juice?
Orange. Apple tastes crappy.

27. Who were the last people you went out to dinner with?
The family. But it was years and years ago.

28. Favourite type of chocolate bar?
Meh... varies, depending on whats around and how I feel.

30. Last time you ate a home-grown tomato?
haha, never. Don't eat tomatos.

31. Have you ever won a trophy?
You have to be fucking kidding.

34. Ever ordered from an infomercial?
no... and like dann.. never will.

35. Sprite or 7-UP?
They taste different?

36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school or work?
School, Yes.

37. Last thing you bought at Walgreens.
I'm not american

38. Ever thrown up in public?
a shitload

39. Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?
Meh. Depends how I feel when you ask me. Atm true love... however couple of months ago it wouldnt have been.

40. Do you believe in love at first sight?
I believe in lust at first sight. Not Love.

41. Can ex's be just friends?
It depends on a massive amount of things. Like whether hes a complete prick.

42. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
I don't know.

43. Did you have long hair as a young kid?
yes, stupidly long.

45. Where would you like to go right now?
Fuck that, I dont wanna go anywhere. Can I bring people here instead?

46. What is the name of your pet?
Heh. uh... Loki

47. What kind of backpack do you have, and what's in it?
meh. everyone knows the bag... and... a folder, two king lear books and a shottie atm.

48. Last missed call on your phone?
Dann

49. What is one thing you are grateful for today?
The usual.

50. What do you think about most?
Things that I probably shouldnt think at all. ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7441533/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7441533/ Wed, 28 Dec 2005 16:17:39 PST What are you supposed to do when the only person thats there for you is some american artist that doesnt even know you exist?
What are you supposed to do when everything that bad about your past comes back to haunt your present?
What are you supposed to do when you truly feel the only thing (or person) you have to live for doesn't give a shit. Just like the last one. Exactly infact.
What are you supposed to do when the person you love blatently loves someone else.
What are you supposed to do when no body give a shit what happens to you.
I miss last year.
I miss being the most important thing to someone. I know it sounds selfish but if you feel like i do right now, you'd understand. Oh. Thats another one.
I miss having someone who understands.
I miss last year. Everything was so simple. So easy. I thought it was complicated, but it wasn't.
This is the only thing thats ever gone right for me and I really really don't want everything to scew up now. Problem is. It always does. It always has.
I should have just done what I was planning to this new year eve. I was stupid to think anything would ever work out for me. No. Forget that. I AM stupid. ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7254816/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7254816/ Thu, 08 Dec 2005 10:49:08 PST because there's truth to what you say
i know it kills you i'm this way
there's something different every day

[chorus]

could it be that i never had the chance to grow inside?
Could it be that my habit is to find a place to hide?
could it be that sometimes i say things just to disagree?
could it be that i'm only being me?

not easy living in my mind
a little peace is hard to find
my every thought is undermined
by all the history inside

[chorus]

[bridge]

i know i hear the words you said
over and over again
i just can't get them through my head
there's just too many voices
must be like living with the dead
waiting for me to begin
to do the things i have said
and for this i'm sorry
so there's some truth to what you say


Staind - Could it be ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7237030/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7237030/ Tue, 06 Dec 2005 10:10:51 PST Anyway, I had a thought today... if you could draw a graph for how or low my mood gets throughtout a day it would be fantastic. I left college in a seriously crappy mood today and now I'm fantastically happy! (that could be because I've been celebrating since about 4 - but I dont care) I was going to write more about this but now i realise that #1 its not actually important #2 i dont remember what i was going to say. bollocks.
I think I should probably shut up and watch hollyoaks now, plus my window is open... and its really cold. ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7200563/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7200563/ Fri, 02 Dec 2005 04:46:08 PST
Migits are always funny. Theres one on the computer over there.

Dude... I cant work out why we havent left for a spliff yet. Apparently I havent managed to comprehend the distance we'd have to walk, we walked all the way up here for an english lesson and we're not even in it.

We've given up. (Ross really wants to stroke that black mans head... because its so shiny!) ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7175930/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7175930/ Tue, 29 Nov 2005 11:12:42 PST I wonder what it's like to know that I make the rain
I'd store it in boxes with little yellow tags on everyone
And you can come see them when I'm...done, when I'm
Done
I wonder what it's like to be a super hero
I wonder where I'd go if I could fly around downtown
From some other planet, I get this funky high on yellow
Sun
Boy I bet my friends will all be...stunned, they're stunned

[chorus]
Straight up, what did you hope to learn about here
If I were someone else, would this all fall apart
Strange, where were you, when we started this gig,
I wish the real world, would just stop hassling me

I wonder what it's like to be the head honcho
I wonder what I'd do if they all did just what I said
I'd shout out an order, I think we're out of this man get
me some
Boy don't make me wanna change my...tone, my tone

[chorus]

Please don't change, please don't break
The only thing that seems to work at all is you
Please don't change, at all from me
To you, and you to me

Matchbox 20 - Real World ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7071220/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7071220/ Thu, 17 Nov 2005 11:46:53 PST And everything feels so right
Like a magic carpet ride
We fly away up high

And never come back down
We'll keep this peace we found
And you're always there

To love me when I'm feeling down
When no one else will come around
Every night you're always there
I need to know how much you care
You keep me hanging on and on
You keep me hanging on

The sun will rise
And I'll open up my eyes
But it all looks the same
As it did yesterday

etc....

Big Dismal - Hanging On ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7053405/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7053405/ Tue, 15 Nov 2005 10:23:47 PST Te amo and I hate you
Te amo... I hate you
You always think that you are right

Everything you ever promised to not do you did
You fucked me up so just admit it
You are just another bitch and I know that you did it
How could you let us split in two

I was just another game so fuck you
There is nothing I could do
You're so tough, so bad, so cold
But now you eat your words

Don't try
Telling all your fucking lies
'Cause I
Make you eat your words and die
Don't try
Telling all your fucking lies
'Cause I
Make you eat your words and die

Think you're better but I know that you will never get it
This page will turn and you'll regret it
Everything you ever promised to not do you did
How could you let us split in two


Te Amo...I Hate You - Ill Nino ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7044954/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7044954/ Mon, 14 Nov 2005 12:49:59 PST With a clip-on tie and a rub-on tan
He's got me running 'round the office like a dog around a track
But when I get home,
You're always there to rub my back

Hey Julie,
Look what they're doing to me
Trying to trip me up
Trying to wear me down
Julie, I swear, it's so hard to bear it
And I'd never make it through without you around

Hours on the phone making pointless calls
I got a desk full of papers that means nothing at all
Sometimes I catch myself staring into space
Counting down the hours 'til I get to see your face

Hey Julie,
Look what they're doing to me
Trying to trip me up
Trying to wear me down
Julie, I swear, it's so hard to bear it
And I'd never make it through with out you around
No, I'd never make it through with out you around

[Bridge]
How did it come to be
That you and I must be
Far away from each other every day?
Why must I spend my time
Filling up my mind
With facts and figures that never add up anyway?
They never add up anyway

Working all day for a mean little guy
With a bad toupee and a soup-stained tie
He's got me running 'round the office
Like a gerbil on a wheel
He can tell me what to do
But he can't tell me what to feel

Hey Julie,
Look what they're doing to me
Trying to trip me up
Trying to wear me down
Julie, I swear, it's so hard to bear it
And I'd never make it through with out you around
No, I'd never make it through without you around
No, I'd never make it through with out you around


Fountains of Wayne - Hey Julie ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7032738/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7032738/ Sun, 13 Nov 2005 04:52:16 PST


51 thing's that you [will] know about me [after reading this quiz]

1. What is your middle name?
Zara

2. Last person you kissed?
Craig

3. What are you listening to right now?
Poison Black ... the entire album

4. what are the last 2 digits in your phone number?
09

5. What was the last thing you ate?
i think it was cheese.. or something to do with it.

6. Last person you hugged:
Thorin

7. How is the weather right now?
so so so cold!

8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
I actually have no idea, I don't remember back more than a couple of days

9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Hair and eyes

10. Favorite type of Food?
Cheese-like .. is that a type?

11. Do you drink?
Yes, but less than I did I think

12. Do you smoke?
Yes, more than I did I think

13. Ever get so drunk you dont remember what you did?
lol yeah... there have been quite a lot of times like that

14. Hair color?
blonde with black streaks

15. Eye color?
Blue in a grey way

16. Do you wear contacts?
no

17. Favorite Holiday?
the one when my family leave me the hell alone

18.When's your Birthday?
January First

19. Have you ever cried for no reason?
Kinda, its hard to explain... and I cant be bothered to do so.

20. Last Movie you Watched
well... Ghost Ship, but if you want the last full movie The Butterfly Effect

29. What books are you reading?
Tengu - Graham Masterton (I've been reading it for ages.

30. Piercings?
Yeah. I could list them, but I can't be bothered, so... 12

31. Favorite movie?
The Crow

32. Favorite basketball Team?
why should I care

33.What were you doing before filling this out?
... drugs

34. Any pets?
not personallly, but there are 2 cats and a gerbil (thats supposed to be mine but its evil.

35. AIM?
I have msn, I only need to be unpopular on the one messenger thanks.

36. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
none of them! either sweet of toffee!!!

37. Dogs or cats?
Meh, used to be dogs, now its shifted to cats.

38. Favorite Flower?
Roses - meh, what can I say

39.Have you ever been caught doing something you werent supposed to?
lol, yea.

40.Are you single or taken?
Single

41.Have you ever loved someone?
Fuck love.

42. Who would you like to see right now?
dont care who they are as long as they have more drugs..I'm running out

43.Are you still friends with your ex?
No. Theyre all cunts in one way or another... 'cept Ross.. but yeah, lets not go into that.

44. Have you ever fired a gun?
Not that I can remember.

45. Do you like to travel by plane?
Not really bothered

46. Right-handed or Left-handed?
Left Handed

47. If you can be with someone right now, who would it be?
does it really matter?

48. How many pillows do you sleep with?
2

49. Are you missing someone?
Yes. But fuck 'em.

50. Do you have a Tattoo?
No, I have 3. And probably another one after Christmas if I can ever built up the courage.

51. Do you still watch cartoons on saturday mornings?
There usually isnt a morning on saturdays.


Bollocks! Right.. More drugs, then Essay. Stupid Shakespeare. ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7017959/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/7017959/ Fri, 11 Nov 2005 11:47:59 PST but I'm still not even close to where I'm going
(and now) I can no longer see the shine
that has been lighting up my way
I cannot feel its glowing

The fire in my heart is dying
and the zeal I had is gone

This path that I've chosen's a rocky one
Long, hard and frozen it has become
Each turn that I've taken on the way
has only led me back to Hell
I am dying down growing weaker now
It could seem that I'm doing fine
but I'm broken to little pieces deep inside

Why did I ever choose to go this way
The question I keep asking myself all the time
I guess it was my instinct for self-destruction
that pointed me down this way

The fire in my eyes is dying
and the dream I had is gone


Sentenced - Broken ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6981731/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6981731/ Mon, 07 Nov 2005 14:20:03 PST ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6960056/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6960056/ Sat, 05 Nov 2005 07:04:50 PST Desire. Deceit. Control.
It's killing you for everyone.
Just stick around until I'm gone.
I love you so it hurts.
For whatever that is worth.

And no time will fade away,
The rumors and the lies.
And no one will remember,
If you even said goodbye.

What's the point in dying,
When the world thinks you're already dead?
What's the point in crying,
With the rain beating down on your head?

Greed. Hate. Lust.
Divide. Disgust. Distrust.
Happiness comes in a pill,
From a fifteen-story windowsill.
You'll love me till I die,
Or at least until I try.

The after words don't mean a thing,
The problems still persist.
Don't think about the story,
And the bullshit that you missed.

What's the point in dying,
When the world thinks you're already dead?
What's the point in crying,
With the rain beating down on your head?
What's the point in lying,
If no one believes what you say?
What's the point in dying,
If you're already dead anyway?

If you're already dead anyway.
If you're already dead anyway.

I hope you will remember me.
At least say so, to comfort me.
You say goodbye so easily.
It's now or never.
It may seem really pitiful.
But life became too beautiful.
The pain of love unbearable.
It's now or never.
Gone forever.


Marilyn Manson - The Point ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6954982/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6954982/ Fri, 04 Nov 2005 15:35:03 PST I don't understand why some people have it so easy. Do they really have easy lives or are there just more fucked up people populating the earth that anyone realises?
Or are there just other factors.. ie. people. That screw things up for others?
I've been single for.. what... 3 weeks now? I've known I made a mistake for over 2 months. Well... I say mistake... I should have just ignored the prat trying to fuck me over and actually tried with the person I actually loved. - even though, he loved somebody else... i actually tried to forget.
And you know whats funny? I need help. I need him to help me. Nobody else has ever known how, or cared enough. But I'm so scared that I'll fuck everything up for him again. I'd rather be desperatly unhappy while hes happy, rather than being happy with him while hes not. So I stay away from anything to do with him and quietly play songs that remind me of him, while I'm getting drunk. I don't know what else to do.
(shit, I just ran out of vodka! - that was supposed to last me all weekend.)
What else. Oh, yeah, the soulmate thing. WHAT BOLLOCKS! In my opinion you can have loads of soulmates...I've found two. The first... was the most amazing person in the world... then his best friend died... in his arms... while his had was on his heart. (any empathy here?) The second... yeh... hes been mentioned. I'd like to think we're still the same, and I'd like to think he still understands.. but I don't think he does. This means I don't have anyone.

You know what? thingwentbackwards ... if you really wanna talk to me that much add me on msn or send me an email. I'm not looking for a friend... but if you want someone to wallow in sorrow with then I'm your girl. ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6953280/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6953280/ Fri, 04 Nov 2005 12:12:51 PST Last thing, have some lyrics... only like... a verse... For the last 2 days this is the only thing that can get any kind of emotional reaction from me... stupid life.


the farther I fall I'm beside you
as lost as I get I will find you
the deeper the wound I'm inside you
for ever and ever I'm a part of...

Nine Inch Nails - We're in this together now. (yeah... stupid life) ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6936954/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6936954/ Wed, 02 Nov 2005 15:34:46 PST

- Marilyn Manson (2005) ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6934588/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6934588/ Wed, 02 Nov 2005 10:45:48 PST yeah you
hey pig piggy pig pig pig
all of my fears came true
black and blue and broken bones you left me here I'm all alone
my little piggy needed something new
nothing can stop me now
I don't care anymore
nothing can stop me now
I just don't care
hey pig
nothing's turning out the way I planned
hey pig there's a lot of things I hoped you could help me understand
what am I supposed to do I lost my shit because of you
nothing can stop me now
I don't care anymore
nothing can stop me now
I just don't care
nothing can stop me now
you don't need me anymore


Nine Inch Nails - Piggy ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6891072/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6891072/ Fri, 28 Oct 2005 12:54:28 PDT I've managed to get hold of the first series of The Mighty Boosh. WOO! This means no painful boredom for atleast the rest of tonight and a while tomorrow.
I suppose I really should do my coursework but ah well.

Alcohol has now been officially banned in my house... It's not my fault my mum sleeps next door to me is it. Damned people.

I should also mention... SAM! IF WE DON'T DO ANYTHING MONDAY NIGHT I HAVE TO TAKE MY SISTER AND HER FRIENDS OUT TRICK OR TREATING! SAVE ME! Sorry, didn't mean to sound desperate, but the truth is I really am! Stupid family. ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6866358/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6866358/ Tue, 25 Oct 2005 17:02:59 PDT

TEN FIRSTS
First Best Friend: Mikheala Boulton
First Screen Name: Probably evil_girl_exposed
First Pet: Herbet
First Piercing: Ears
First Crush: Luke Patton (or is it en.. I can never remember anymore)
First CD: I actually have no idea, but probably something gay.
First Car: Vauxhall Corsa (I think)
First Stuffed animal: A random duck. (still have her)
First Love: ....Urgh
First time: Craig

NINE LASTS
Last Beverage: Rio tropical (you know when you've been RIOED!!)
Last Car ride: Coming Back From Amesbury today
Last Movie Seen: Hellraiser: Deader
Last Phone Call: lol.. Emma Lawman
Last Cd Played: CD of random depressing songs.
Last Bubble Bath: A very long time ago.
Last time you Cried: Last night
Last thing you ate: Burgers
Last bad thing you did: I never do bad things.

EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: I wouldnt say dated
Have you ever been arrested? nope, told you, I never do bad things
Have you ever skinny dipped: no, and I dont plan to
Have you ever been on tv: not that I'm aware of
Have you ever kissed someone? Why.. yes, yes I have
Have u ever cheated? Uh... yeh.

SEVEN THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW
1. left sock
2. right sock
3. underwear
4. bra
5. Jeans
6. t shirt
7. ....uh... I ran out


SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY
1. got my hair done finally
2. Went to my tattooist ( I actually am getting addicted )
3. Watched Kenan and Kel
4. Went to Beccas (to see Ryan mostly)
5. Watched some random thing to do with a vampire murderer.
6. uh... smoked

FIVE FAVORITE THINGS IN NO ORDER
1. Drugs
2. Alcohol
3. Cheese
4. Marilyn Manson
5. Getting tattoos/piercings

FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL ALMOST ANYTHING TO
1. Ross
2. Dann
3. Becca
4. Sam

THREE CHOICES
1. Black or White: black (duh!)
2. Hot or Cold: ...depends what it is
3. Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla

TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. See Manson Live
2. Drink an entire bottle of absinthe without almost dying.

ONE THING YOU REGRET
1. Right now? Jason. ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6863542/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6863542/ Tue, 25 Oct 2005 11:29:48 PDT I don't want to talk for a reason.
I don't like to depend for a reason.

Few people understand how I think and feel... for a reason.




I was going to post some lyrics... but I actually can't think of any song that describes how I feel right now. Fuck it. I doubt its important to anyone but me anyway. ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6852406/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6852406/ Mon, 24 Oct 2005 06:49:53 PDT But either way, I'm finally getting my hair sorted out tomorrow and the day after that I'm actually going to see my shrink again (for the first time in about 5 months - anyone apart from me realise why this is yet?)

Anyway, I'm going to shut up now and go back to my music (it turns out that when I lost my Ipod I actually lost almost my entire collection of Wumpscut... this annoys me) Actually thats a lie, I'm probably just going to sit in my room and not move for the next 10 or so hours. And to be honest, the only reason I'm wasting my time writing a journal that only a couple of people are going to read is to put off having nothing else to do.

I'm so sick of being lonely. ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6845701/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6845701/ Sun, 23 Oct 2005 13:09:43 PDT If I'm the only person that understands why does it hurt so much?
If nobody understands the way I think, who am I supposed to turn to?
If everything keeps falling apart, whats the point in always piecing it back together?

I wish I could run away. Just like he did. ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6834084/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6834084/ Sat, 22 Oct 2005 06:04:25 PDT I think of you
A solitary cry echoes through my throat and through my mind
I think of you
I think I woke up screaming
I had a dream that you still loved me
I think I woke up screaming
For hours I'll just stare at my ceiling at nothing at all
and think of you
The candlelight through bells make shadows just like rosees in my mind
and I think of you

I think I woke up screaming
I had a dream that you still loved me
I think I woke up screaming again

Could this last forever?
Or will I die?
Could this last forever?
Or will I die?
Just can I die?

Maybe I could try to take a bath and drink a little wine
and think of you
But probably I'll lie naked on the floor by candlelight
and I'll think of you

I think I woke up screaming
I had a dream that you still loved me
I think I woke up screaming again
I had a dream that you still loved me
I think I woke up screaming again
I think I woke up [repeat]
Screaming again


Stabbing Westward - ACF ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6800266/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6800266/ Tue, 18 Oct 2005 11:19:52 PDT I'm such a stain
I just keep fucking up again and again
You crawled inside my mind when you crawled into my bed
Said everyhting I've ever longed to hear
So perfect, so alive, once inside you sucked me dry
Used me up and left me here for dead
I crave it desperately, a cancer eating me
An addiction too intense to be denied
Worthless, I'm a whore, crawling back for more
Pathertic how I feed off this abuse
You told me that you loved me
You swore that you loved me
And I believed, now I know it was a lie

[chorus]
I don't believe
I don't believe
That I could be so stupid and so naive
I don't believe
I don't believe
That there is nothing, nothing left for me


Stabbing Westward - I Don't Believe.





I'm not sure whether I'll be posting... or even online for a while. ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6738924/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6738924/ Tue, 11 Oct 2005 12:05:56 PDT i've aquired a taste for poisoned lips drank
deep of this disease
in me
adored with prying eyes
beneath
a mask made of flesh
and thorns

collected from the ones she'd loved before
collected from the ones she'd loved before
collected from the ones she'd loved before
collected from the ones she'd loved before

my heartstrings cease to strain
i've aquired a taste for poisoned lips drank
deep of this disease
in me
adored with prying eyes
beneath
a mask made of flesh
and thorns

her eyes were opened wide
she now could see forever
traced deep the marks she'd made
with her razor

her eyes were opened wide
she now could see forever
traced deep the marks she'd made
with her razor

the lines of suicide
the lines of suicide
the lines of suicide
the lines of suicide ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6728643/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6728643/ Mon, 10 Oct 2005 09:31:10 PDT
Actually managed to write and post a poem. I haven't felt much like writing recently, it really really sucks. I need to find myself some inspiration... any ideas?

Apart from that... I'm bored, I'm broke (even though I'm supposed to be providing the alcohol for this weekend) My throat hurts but I refuse to stop smoking. And I've listened to this album 4 times now. ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6727096/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6727096/ Mon, 10 Oct 2005 05:12:30 PDT
These days I'm getting older
Before my time
To say I'm getting stronger
Would be a lie
I think you're trying to break me
Seems so unreal
Don't know how to take me
Don't know how I feel
Look around you
Do you see what I see
Other people think you try to
Make a fool of me
It seems to take so long
Till anything gets done
Why do I have to lose to get things
I've never won
I'm defeated again
I see the look on your face
I've got that feeling again
My mouth has a bad taste
My hope in empty promise
Put me to shame
I know its what you wanted
I need the pain
I was gonna be someone
You held me down
Didn't want me to move on
You let me drown

Fool - God Lives Underwater


I can see you but I don't know what your thinking
I can feel you but I don't know what your feeling
You take me away when I look in your eyes
I can't reach you no matter how hard I try
I don't care what gets in the way
Some days I don't know what to say
I can't get this through to you
Maybe you just don't want me to try
I can touch you but I don't know if you'll let me
If you let me I don't know if I'll want to
You push me away and I don't come back
Sometimes its so hard to get you to react
I can't help it I'm to young to be truthful
Maybe I'm not good enough to deserve you
It eats me away and I can't fight back
Can't you help me I want you to protect me


Try - God Lives Underwater ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6693917/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6693917/ Thu, 06 Oct 2005 09:46:06 PDT
[B is for booze of choice:] Larger

[C is for career:] I don't (and probably never will) have one

[D is for your dad's name:] Micheal... or mick. But we don't speak of him.

[E is for essential items to bring to a party:] drugs, fags and alcohol

[F is for favorite song:] At the moment... either Boxcar Racer - There is or Agony Scene - Scapegoat

[G is for favorite game:] Die Hard 2

[H is for hometown:] Shrewton

[I is for instruments you play:] Not enough tallent.

[J is for jam or jelly you like:] I don't think I've eaten either in years.

[K is for kids?:] don't even get me started

[L is for living arrangements:] Mum and sister

[M is for mom's name:] Lisa

[N is for name of your best friend:] Probably Dann

[O is for overnight hospital stays:] never overnight.... just hours and hours on end

[P is for phobias:] Large black cats.

[Q is for quotes you like:] It can't rain all the time

[R is for relationship that lasted the longest:] uh... officially, nonstop.. 8 months. on and off. 3 years.

[S is for sexual preference:] Male

[T is for time you wake up:] half 7 on college days... otherwise.. whenever i wake up

[U is for underwear:] ...Why is this question always on these things???

[V is for vegetable you love:] I dont like vegetables

[W is for worst habit:] drinking... although I have a million... Make a suggestion!

[X is for x-rays you've had:] last count was like 14 or something stupid

[Y is for yummy food you make:] whatever the hell i feel like eating

[Z is for zodiac sign:] Capricorn ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6685607/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6685607/ Wed, 05 Oct 2005 09:59:14 PDT
"Then they said: 'Come in!' And then we saw them on the window ledge. We couldn't do anything. They just jumped," he said.

A suicide note was found in one of their pockets. It read: "Life isn't worth it." ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6572616/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6572616/ Thu, 22 Sep 2005 12:39:56 PDT This is why I hate getting attached. ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6560654/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6560654/ Wed, 21 Sep 2005 04:37:35 PDT These white pills aren't kind
I've given a lot of thought on this 13-hour drive
I miss the grinding concrete where we sat past 8 or 9
And slowly finished laughing in the glow of our headlights
I've given a lot of thought to the nights we use to have
The days have come and gone
Our lives went by so fast
I faintly remember breathing on your bedroom floor
Where I laid and told you, but you swear you loved me more

Do you care if i don't know what to say
Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
Will i shake this off pretend its all okay
That there's someone out there who feels just like me
There is

Those notes you wrote me
I've kept them all
I've given a lot of thought of how to write you back this fall
With every single letter in every single word
There will be a hidden message about a boy that
loves a girl

Do you care if i don't know what to say
Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
Will i shake this off, pretend its all okay
that there's someone out there who feels just like me
There is

Do you care if i don't know what to say?
Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
Will i shake this off, pretend its all okay
That there's someone out there who feels just like me

Do you care if i don't know what to say?
Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
Will i shake this off, pretend its all okay
That there's someone out there who feels just like me
There is

Boxcar Racer - There is ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6520770/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6520770/ Fri, 16 Sep 2005 14:02:21 PDT
I'm sick of always being wrong.
I'm sick of it always being my fault.
I'm sick of being told I'm wrong when I'm obviously not.
I'm sick of people pretending to give a fuck.
I'm sick of trying to pretend to give a fuck.
I'm sick of trying to be better.
I'm sick of failing at everything I try to do.
I'm sick of my family having so little money we can't afford anything to buy anything without planning two months for it.
I'm sick of only having a musician I've never even met before to fall back on.
I'm sick of being the bad one.
I'm sick of my attitude towards everything being a problem.
I'm sick of being an embarrassment.
I'm sick of college.
I'm sick of the way people seem to see me.
I'm sick of not being understood.
I'm sick of people.
I'm sick of not being motivated enough to do anything about anything.
I'm sick of waiting for the only thing that brings me the slightest bit of happiness to come crashing down around my ears.
I'm sick of always feeling alone. Even when I'm not.
I'm sick of not being listened to.
I'm sick of not being important.
I'm sick of being sick.

There you have it. If you actually read all of this then you have about as much time on your hands as me. (I empathise completely) But I still despise you all. ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6519960/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6519960/ Fri, 16 Sep 2005 12:08:44 PDT
1. College is boring. (It wasnt as boring last year... what happened?)
2. I hate Chris
3. I hate Carris (or however you spell her stupid, welsh name!)
4. It is impossible to learn Shakespeare from a video
5. I am useless at everything, therefore should I actually bother trying? (Its come to my attention that I always screw up or something bad always happens whenever something is going half decently - and waiting for it to happen and wondering if it is actually happening at that moment is probably going to drive me slightly more insane)
6. If I'm useless at everything then theres really no point in trying.
7. Poison Black are the second greatest band in the world.
8. Its impossible to sleep if you've eaten too much cheese.
9. People are shit.


(small amount of lyrics, you can ignore these)

Ain't a person on Earth who could take my life
I wish they would so a man could get some sleep at night
But my design is a mixture of descent and decay
I see a monster in the mirror fucking everyday
Can a man ever wash his hands of blood?
Perpetual deja vu, isn't that enough?

Peel back the layers… and see what I've become
Satisfied? Now I feel nothing
Stay away - I swear it wasn't me!

- Stonesour ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6475494/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6475494/ Sun, 11 Sep 2005 10:01:39 PDT Its amazing how much satisfaction I can get from deleating poems about R and C just by clicking on the "no longer desired" option. Heh. (My God I really am an idiot)
I've spent all afternoon at my uncles... so of course I'm quite drunk, but it's ok, because I have nothing else to do until getting up for college tomorrow. (I've been there a week, and I'm sick of it already!)
Screw it. I'm bored with writing now. I was going to rave on about how much I'd missed having a smoke with all the old Shrewton crew... I managed to do it yesterday and it was FANTASTIC!
Meh, I'm going to go home and watch yet another Hitchcock film. (I have about 30 now... mum bought my them to help me with my coursework - I only needed 3, and I had 2 of them) YAY film studies! ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6475390/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6475390/ Sun, 11 Sep 2005 09:47:34 PDT
LAYER ONE:

-- Name: Leah
-- Birthplace: Wiltshire
-- Gender: Female
-- Eye Color: Blue.. in a grey kinda way
-- Hair Color: blonde with black streaks
-- Height: no idea
-- Righty or Lefty: Lefty
-- Zodiac Sign: Capricorn

LAYER TWO:

-- Your heritage: english
-- The shoes you wore today: Black Buffalos
-- Your fears: People I care about leaving me.
-- Your perfect meal: I hardly ever eat.
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: I dont really have any... it avoids disappointment later in life.

LAYER THREE:

-- Your thoughts first waking up: usually "oh god, I'm awake" or something to do with Jason.
-- Your best physical feature: I don't have one.
-- Your bedtime: whenever I fall asleep or get tired
-- Your most missed memory: year 11. The 7.

LAYER FOUR:

-- Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi Max
-- McDonald's or Burger King: dont really like either of them but I'd pick McDonalds.
-- Single or group dates: neither
-- Adidas or Nike: neither, labels are for people
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: what IS nesta?
-- Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla
-- Cappuccino or coffee: coffee

LAYER FIVE:

-- Smoke: yeh
-- Cuss: Just a bit
-- Sing: I try not to around people.
-- Take a shower: Every day if I can be arsed.
-- Have a crush: Nope. (this actually being truth)
-- Do you think you've been in love: Describing love in limited terms like that... yes.
-- Want to go to college: Am. (its gay)
-- Liked high school: Not till year 11
-- Want to get married: probably not. depends I suppose.
-- Get motion sickness: nope
-- Think you're attractive: really no
-- Think you're a health freak: definatley not
-- Get along with your parent(s): mum, sometimes. dad...really no
-- Like thunderstorms: i love 'em
-- Play an instrument: too lazy

LAYER SIX:

In the past month...

-- Drank alcohol: .... Yes. Yes I have. Infact, I have a couple of empty larger bottles sitting next to me.
-- Smoked: yupp
-- Done a drug: Yeh, but nothing too often. I pride myself on not being a dick about drugs.
-- Made Out: yea
-- Gone on a date: no
-- Gone to the mall?: nope.
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no
-- Eaten sushi: no
-- Been on stage: no
-- Been dumped: Noope
-- Made homemade cookies: probably...but I can't actually remember
-- Gone skinny dipping: not a chance in hell of that EVER happening.
-- Dyed your hair: nope, not this month (need to soon though)
-- Stolen anything: not that i can remember.

LAYER SEVEN:

-- Childrens Names: I hate children, and I don't tell people the names I like cause they're weird and I get mocked.
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: dont care, as long as I'll be happy
-- How do you want to die: beyond caring, just not slowly
-- Where you want to go to college: Somewhere where I dont have to do anything!
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: I don't want to grow up.
-- What country would you most like to visit: I'd love to go back to Egypt

LAYER NINE:

In a guy/girl...
-- Best eye color?: n/a
-- Best hair color?: dark
-- Short or long hair?: oooh long!
-- Height: dunno, the guys I like are usually taller
-- Best weight: n/a
-- Best articles of clothing: n/a

LAYER TEN:

-- Number of drugs taken illegally: couple
-- Number of piercings: 11
-- Number of tattoos: 2 (another 1 coming soon)
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: Not sure
-- Number of scars on my body: I have no idea, a huge number
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: a number that big has not yet been invented ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6376769/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6376769/ Wed, 31 Aug 2005 09:25:07 PDT Don't even get me started on this morning. Suffice to say... it was gay.
I then get home to discover my driving lesson has been moved back half an hour.... what driving lesson? So 2 hours of driving around aimlessly, followed almost immediately by a speech about what a loser I am and how I can't do anything right.
Escaping from my parent I bugger off to Neil’s house, where I discover the amount that my Manson CD is fucked up was very much underestimated. This computer is pissing me off... and it looks like I'm going to have to walk home in the rain (ain’t that just the pickle on the giant crap sandwidge that is my day?!)

I'm going to get drunk. ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6375834/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6375834/ Wed, 31 Aug 2005 07:01:05 PDT I'm going back to all those wasted years.
I see the rise and fall of the world I lived in.
This time it doesn't seem real at all.
But I took the fall and on came all the changes.
All i had could not be saved - it was far too late.

Everyone leaves. In the end.
Everything dies. In the end.
It doesn't matter how hard you hold on.

I'm going back to the times you went away.
I thought you thought that I was that monster.
I see the rise and fall of the world that I made.
I always wanted to take you with me.
And then I saw some people for the people that I thought they were.
In your painful absence.

Everyone leaves. In the end.
Everything dies. In the end.
It doesn't matter how hard you hold on.

How hard can you?
Do you want to hold on?

How hard can you?
The all leave in the end.

How hard can you?
We all die in the end.


Mortiis - Everyone Leaves ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6348247/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6348247/ Sun, 28 Aug 2005 05:35:01 PDT ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6272649/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6272649/ Fri, 19 Aug 2005 16:27:14 PDT Anyway, on a completly unrelated (and massivly less depressing) topic. I have just finished watching The Ring 2 (remake of course).. Now, I could rant on about how much American cinema is possibly the worst and most painful thing to ever be inflicted on this poor pathetic planet... but I'm not. (and to be honest I think I may have just managed to do a pretty good job of it anyway)
Incase you hadn't noticed I actually have nothing to do... or to talk about so I'm going to bugger off and try to actually prepare a speech to make someone feel better about his best friend being dead. (oh how wonderful my life seems to have become!) ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6270247/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6270247/ Fri, 19 Aug 2005 11:24:51 PDT That you know just what to say
Words are only words
Can you show me something else
Can you swear to me that you'll always be this way
Show me how you feel
More than ever baby

[Chorus:]
I don't wanna be lonely no more
I don't wanna have to pay for this
I don't want to know the lover at my door
Is just another heartache on my list

I don't wanna be angry no more
You know I could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me know for sure
I don't want to be lonely anymore

Now its hard for me with my heart still on the mend
Open up to me, like you do your girlfriends
And you sing to me and it's harmony
Girl, what you do to me is everything
Make me say anything; just to get you back again
Why can we just try

[Chorus:]
I don't wanna be lonely no more
I don't wanna have to pay for this
I don't want to know the lover at my door
Is just another heartache on my list

I don't wanna be angry no more
You know I could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me know for sure
I don't want to be lonely anymore

What if I was good to you, what if you were good to me
What if I could hold you till I feel you move inside of me
What if it was paradise, what if we were symphonies
What if I gave all my life to find some way to stand beside you ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6255338/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6255338/ Wed, 17 Aug 2005 18:57:26 PDT

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

- Kelly Clarkson ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6190892/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6190892/ Wed, 10 Aug 2005 18:26:08 PDT ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6190348/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/6190348/ Wed, 10 Aug 2005 17:20:11 PDT I wish you were here tonight with me
I wish I could have you by my side tonight when the sky is burning
I wish I could have you by my side

Cause I've been down and I've been crawling
Won't back down no more

Can't you stop the lies, falling from the skies
Down on me, I'm still standing
Can't you roll the dice, I might be surprised
Conscience clear, I'm still standing here

burns like a thousand stars, though you are light years away
burns like a thousand stars or more

you're up there, you're always with me
smiling down on me

can't you stop the lies, falling from the skies
down on me, I'm still standing
can't you roll the dice, I might be surprised
conscience clear, I'm still standing here

It's something sacred, something so beautiful
something quiet to ease my mind
when the pressure's taking me over and over

cause I've been down and I've been crawling
pushed around and always falling
you're up there, you're always with me
smiling down on me

can't you stop the lies, falling from the skies
down on me, I'm still standing
can't you roll the dice, I might be surprised
conscience clear, I'm still standing here
can't you stop the lies, falling from the skies
down on me, I'm still standing here
can't you roll the dice, I might be surprised
conscience clear, I'm still standing here

The Rasmus - Still Standing ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/5929960/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/5929960/ Thu, 14 Jul 2005 05:43:57 PDT Either that or you're all such a bunch of lazy selfish twats that you expect people to comment on your stuff but don't bother with anyone elses.
I will still continue to write and I will still continue to comment on other peoples work if I feel something needs to be said. But this means nobody will see anything I do. Which is a shame... at the moment this is the only thing I get any pleasure out of at all.
Thanks guys. ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/5923291/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/5923291/ Wed, 13 Jul 2005 12:39:57 PDT

I will just sit here in the dark and slowly go insane.
Its not much of a step anyway.
Surrounded by these walls again for another million years... time is stretching out again.
Coated with hot, sticky blackness, trying to burry myself with meaningless words.
I listen to the others talk, although I see right though them.
I listen to their half choked tears of agony and betrayal.
Quietly I take their hands and pull them away from the edge.
Funny how I can save them from falling while already halfway down.
Don't try to catch me. I will slip though your fingers. ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/5921622/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/5921622/ Wed, 13 Jul 2005 09:11:35 PDT

----------------LAST PERSON WHO--------------
x. Slept in your bed: me and ross
x. Saw you cry: ross
x. Made you cry: ross
x. You shared a drink with: either becca or ross
x. You went to the movies with: uh... I have no idea. Loads of people
x. You went to the mall with: I actually dont know.... luke?
x. Yelled at you: probably mum
x. Sent you an email: Jason

-----------------HAVE YOU EVER---------------
x. Said "I Love You" and meant it?: Yes
x. Gotten in a fight with your pet: its kinda hard to fight with insects
x. Been to California: no
x. Been to Hawaii: no
x. Been to Mexico: no
x. Been to China: no
x. Been to Canada: no
x. Danced naked: no
x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day?: I dont remember my dreams
x. Wish you were the opposite sex: No
x. Had an imaginary friend: no. I like being alone.
x. Do you have a crush on someone: ...pathetic
x. What book are you reading now: Everythings Eventual - Stephen King
x. Worst feeling in the world: how I was feeling last night.
x. Future son's name: tobias!!!
x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: nope
x. What's under your bed: the floor
x. Favorite sport to watch: skateboarding if I have to choose one
x. Siblings: one sister
x. Location: shrewton
x. College plans: ... I go to college?
x. Piercings/tattoos: lip, eyebrow twice, 8 various ones in my ears, belly button. and two tattoos.
x. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: whats he done now???

------------------------EXTRA STUFF----------------------
x. Do you do drugs: just a lil bit
x. Do you drink: Indeed I do
x. Who is your best friend: I dont have one
x. What are you most scared of: people I depend on leaving me
x. Pet Peevs: i have many...
x. What clothes do you sleep in: black/red silk pjs (woo!)
x. Where do you want to get married: I dont want to
x. Who do you really hate: myself
x. Been in Love: Dont even remind me
x. Do you drive: learning
x. Do you have a job: no, no I dont
x. Do you like being around people: depends if I feel like it or not
x. Are you for world peace: is anyone not?

-----------------------------STUFF---------------------
x. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: yes
x. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: lol just a bit
x. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: ...alcoholics
x. Want someone you don't have right now: Not really
x. Are you lonely right now: A little bit
x. Song thats stuck in your head a lot: I dunno
x. Do you want to get married: no
x. Do you want kids: not really

-------------------------FAVORITE---------------------
x. Room in house: mine. I hardly see the others.
x. Type(s) of music: anything I like
x. Band(s): Manson
x. Perfume or cologne?: The stuff liam bought me
x. Month: probably june
x. Stone: .... I dont have one... Odd question.

--------------IN THE LAST WEEK, HAVE YOU---------------
x. Cried: Yes
x. Bought something: Yes
x. Gotten sick: nope. heh.
x. Sang: Yes, but only where nobody could hear me
x. Wanted to tell someone you loved them: Yes
x. Met someone new: *shrugs*
x. Missed someone: *sigh* Yes
x. Hugged someone: Yeh, loads of people
x. Kissed someone: Yes

-----------• × • F A S H I O N | S T U F F • × •--------------
Where is your favourite place to shop for clothes: Shaprs
Favorite designer?: dont have one
What is your sexiest outfit?: dont have outfits
What is your most comfortable outfit?: the usual stuff i wear
What do you usually wear?: black jeans and black tshirt

--------------• × • S P E C I F I C S • × • -------------------
What kind of shampoo do you use?: I dunno
What are you listening to right now: Richard and Judy
Who is the last person that called you?: I think it was becca
How many buddies are online right now?: I dunno, I'm not signed in.
What would you change about yourself?: Everything

-------------• × • F A V O R I T E S • × •-----------------
Foods: CHEESE
Girls names: not telling.. people will laugh.
Boys names: Tobias
Subjects in school: English
Animals: dont have one

---------------• × • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • × •-------------
Given anyone a bath?: no
Smoked?: yea
Bungee jumped?: no, be a laugh though
Made yourself throw up?: yea, a few times.
Skinny dipped?: no
Ever been in love?: THERE IT IS AGAIN!
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: lol yupp. I used to be... ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/5911666/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/5911666/ Tue, 12 Jul 2005 07:42:56 PDT

You're one of God's better people
And you don't know
That's why you're special
And I cry so I can talk like this
From my downbeat existence
And I know that you can make my wish
If my wish is pure

But I don't know
I just don't know
I don't know
Let me love you so
Now I can't live this without you
I'd die without you
Without you, without you

You're one of God's better people
And you don't know
That's why you're special
It must hurt to see your favourite man
Lose himself again and again
And I know that you're my only friend
>From way back when

My wish was pure
It was oh so pure
It was pure
I couldn't love you more
Now I can't live this without you
I'd die without you
Without you
Now I can't live this without you
I'd die without you
Without you, without you

'cos I don't know no more
I just don't know no more
I jsut don't know
Let me love you so
Now I can't live this without you
I'd die without you
Without you
Now I can't live this without you
I'd die without you
Without you, without you

You're one of God's better people
And you don't know
That's why you're special

Robbie Williams - One of Gods Better People ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/5895905/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/5895905/ Sun, 10 Jul 2005 15:07:04 PDT Saturday I met up with Luke in town. Didn't really do much, just chilled on the grass by the cathedral. I forgot how great it was to talk for hours about nothing... I really don't keep in contact with him as much as I should.
Sunday... Actually today I didnt really do anything till Karen showed up. My uncle has buggered off to Italy so I invaded his house.... long story short, we found his alcohol.... red aftershock... absinthe... everything. So there was a serious mixing session. I now have about half a litre of the finished product left, and I'll be drinking it for a while (karen and becca wouldn't drink much)
This week is gonna suck. ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/5884855/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/5884855/ Sat, 09 Jul 2005 10:18:39 PDT I think only one person might get what this has to do with anything. Its long and repetative.. but shhhh.

look at the stars
look how they shine for you
and everything you do
yeah they were all yellow
I came along
I wrote a song for you
and all the things you do
and it was called yellow
So then I took my turn
oh wh at a thing to have done
and it was all yellow

your skin
oh yeah your skin and bones
turn into something beautiful
and you know
you know I love you so
you know I love you so

I swam across
I jumped across for you
oh what a thing to do
'cos you were all yellow
I drew a line
I drew a line for you
oh what a thing to do
and it was all yellow

and your skin
oh yeah your skin and bones
turn into something beautiful
and you know
for you I bleed myself dry
for you I bleed myself dry

it's true
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine

look at the stars
look how they shine for you
and all the things that you do

Coldplay - Yellow ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/5822312/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/5822312/ Sat, 02 Jul 2005 16:16:47 PDT Everything is gay. (especially Jason... for starting me off using this word again!)
And I hate it.

I have nothing more to add.... except someone contact me tomorrow and tell me how Jays campout went! Oh yeh... Shrewton is gay! ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/5762593/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/5762593/ Sun, 26 Jun 2005 13:36:42 PDT
I was just looking over the Odeon site and what should I see but a remake of Dark Water???

Why can't the Americans just leave Japanese cinema alone?!? All they do is fill it full of mindless cliques, crappy music and pathetic acting! Fucking fucking fucking Americans! I'd like to see them remake Naked Blood! Now that would interest me!

CUNTS! ]]> ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/5725885/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/5725885/ Wed, 22 Jun 2005 17:24:44 PDT ~no1important http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/5694800/ http://no1important.deviantart.com/journal/5694800/ Sun, 19 Jun 2005 13:04:17 PDT

Its hot and I'm bored! So everyone has to listen to me talk. Of course you just ignore this journal... but that would mean ure selfish, boring little cunts with social lives... and i hate people with social lives!
I just played the N64 with my sister for 2 hours... She kept turning it off because I was winning! Cheating swine! And she put a cat on my back while I was putting my fag in the ashtray... believe me, once its been done to you its not actually as funny as it sounds.
My stupid internet has been fucking me around all afternoon... I've only managed to get online about half an hour ago... URGH!

And... in other news... solstice tomorrow! I just hope to god that we have enough money to get decently wasted for the whole night! There are officially 10 people coming... that I know of. It should be a fucking laugh... barring people dying, getting lost or anything else crappy happening.

I shall leave you now, and go and talk to the most bored person in the world.... now, wheres that mirror? ]]> ~no1important