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I have been selling squid shirts mostly on WGD- Since, they decided to go ga ga over my stuff-
I am coming out with coffee cups and new shirts this month for those who are interested-
along with the Coffee squid shirt I first put out-

Working in a small graphic story- Which I am going to try to put out locally, tho I am sure it will flop on a local market- But I want to see how it does before i try to sell it to a bigger company- I put one of the frames up-

I've been having fun-
Hope everyone is doing well-

]]> ~noirjyre http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/13111050/ http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/13111050/ Sun, 27 May 2007 09:02:28 PDT
I promise to keep in touch more-

]]> ~noirjyre http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/9184078/ http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/9184078/ Sun, 25 Jun 2006 23:34:58 PDT ~noirjyre http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/8655813/ http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/8655813/ Tue, 02 May 2006 19:22:06 PDT
I'm not good on forums most of you that know me realize i'm not much of talker- hell I don't say much on here most of the time--But mostly I'm completely unmotivated to interact- I listent o the daily this and that of customers at my work and the whining mass that comes into coffee-- and I put on my head phone or just ignore them- I don't want to talk to them even tho they seem to think I want to--

Yesterday I went to see a friend in her home with her new baby--with a person with two kids--augh!! I should know better I should but I did it anyway and half way thru there baby converstions- I was bored senseless--

It's instant add--

I have picutre to finish for the happy new parents-- but I don't think I'll be around much after that--My friends get older and more busy with their ownlives and there is less time to have with them-- Unless I want to go thru some trails of parenthood via phantom pains--Nope-nooooo thank you--sorry i suck and I'm sorry--

Maybe 3ric has rubbed off on me in some fashion-- I just don't want to do it anymore--So I escaped to the only socail aspect I can understand- and it made me happy--I'm not on personal basis with anyone there--I'm not ude to interacting with ppl on a whole but now i want to--It's nice--


I feel pleasant- ]]> ~noirjyre http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/8247181/ http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/8247181/ Thu, 23 Mar 2006 15:01:25 PST I am working again-- Yay!!!
the e-mail on my deviant e-mail button works again it will send me e-mail again-
And I am working on things For Gub and I am hoping he likes it--
this time--I'm doing a small animation--
I'm excited--
I don't know if I will be able to put it on here-- tho- ]]> ~noirjyre http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/7938244/ http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/7938244/ Sat, 18 Feb 2006 21:36:34 PST No matter how far they are--

sometimes even the ones that I can't prove exsist--


It's splash of color on the mind...nothing overly horrid- My eye don't have chance of glazeing over infront of the screen--I prefere the internet to tv most of the time- tho I love G4 but who dosen't--

But being able to communicate with one- Is relieveing--or maybe it's reliving...I always get them mixed up at least in the the process of communication--

I got new music today--I had to really think on weather I was going to expend the effort to reach for them--I fear pop-y---music it just all sounds the same in some peoples speakers- to hear it blared until it makes you numb and you'd rather live in silence--

Silence is good-

But good music is even better--

And unfortuneately most of those I knew who made music won't do so anymore--I just wish all those who've given up would quit giving me disapproving looks for not throwing in the towel-
I got this towel and it's big, so big you could double it as a blanket-and the really amazeing thing about it is it's actually is as fluffy as those towels you see in the movies-
So no you can't make me throw it in--I'll probly buy a new one someday--
Come to think of it I've never owned matching towels--
Probly never will--

I think he tried to turn away once-but didn't make it very far--He understood what he loved--

And so do I-- ]]> ~noirjyre http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/7902194/ http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/7902194/ Wed, 15 Feb 2006 00:23:39 PST
It fills me with girlish glee at least I must assume this is girlish glee-- Because I've never been filled with glee as a girl-- Just a lot of forbodeing about the future- and knowledge that it would- suck-

I keep finding people whom I had high hope for falling in one way or another- it's dificult to watch-- I often think I am missing things and this is why I look so close--

Maybe I am missing some thing a tiny spark of light--?-

I know it not there but someone keeps telling me about this hope thing and that if you have it all works out--

I wonder if they are lieing?-

I don't know-
I don't care-

Embrace World Destruction-- ]]> ~noirjyre http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/7902167/ http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/7902167/ Wed, 15 Feb 2006 00:16:35 PST ~noirjyre http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/7861436/ http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/7861436/ Sat, 11 Feb 2006 02:24:18 PST
One thing i have realized--I SUCK at politicail ideals and veiws- either way you look at it- I have no taste fo rit-- i don't support or oppose it-- I have so many around me whom get outraged at this idea or that action--And here I am completely with out really feeling for what I see--It like static in my mind--Except static is a pleaseing thing-- Most of the time I just don't care--People have said to me that some day some thing is going to happen to someone or something close to me and 'then' I will care--

Perhaps and then I can weep at the injustice of the universe-

But for now-- I'm not concerned--I have other things to put my engery to-- Things that won't make me feel more helpless than when I began--

So Gub will have to focus on the speaking out part- I'm going to stay with the saterical, slightly insulting side of things-- ]]> ~noirjyre http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/7717787/ http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/7717787/ Thu, 26 Jan 2006 20:34:04 PST I always wanted to be a writer in a simliar league with him--I suppose I could send him art--But that seems cheesy ne?--
These places I have been going to have given me pause for thought--But I think they are supposed to be thought provoking or at least amuseing--

Here are few of my favorites--

[link]
[link]

they are both very interesting-- ]]> ~noirjyre http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/7324090/ http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/7324090/ Fri, 16 Dec 2005 01:09:31 PST The good news is that received a funny call from the lady investageing my disablity claim--
It seems see has just recenty been informed of my illness- It's rather funny cause I have filled out pile of paper work to tell them what happened yet some how the poor woamn has been misinformed--

"You had an anyurism(sp)" she say to me one the phone-
I smile
"Yes, that's what they tell me-" I say-

It seems she was told I had a mild stroke--(insert unstable giggle)-- Well, I suppose it would seem that way-- I came out with the odds in my favor-- a polentially lethal situation and I emerge with my scathing wit and threats for doctors and nurses alike-
(come closer....I'm nice)
(I'm going to rip yur arms off and beat you to death with them)

I don't handle helplessness and illness well- I guess I'm used to having to be stronger than anyone else--or at least appearing to be--

But I am drawing--


Yur
B ]]> ~noirjyre http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/7104252/ http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/7104252/ Mon, 21 Nov 2005 10:34:46 PST 1) Finish x-mas project-
2) Learn how to use paint shop program-
3) Do Pilate’s-
4) Fall out of love with my new silk top-
5) Make I love Yaoi shirt-
No one here in Great Falls knows what Yaoi is anyhow except those whom read it- I imagine sooner or later parents will learn- and they will be tossing me dirty looks and damning me to hell- They either figure I am from there or belong there-
I have little project list also- It includes some stuff I don’t know if I am actually going to do- One is making a decoration of a mountain with one of my past friend favorite sayings on it- I don’t know really if it was just a quote or a reminder of what he wanted to do- Going up the mountain- It had something to do with a Japanese- proverb about choosing the mountain instead of the riches offered by emperors-
I know this story by hear t but I don’t feel like quoting it-
I think the whole project is about missing him—
What you call getting it maybe wishful thinking- GitS

I miss him, more than I do others- I don’t think he expected that from me so I get the last laugh I suppose- any way every time I pass his work and his car is there I think ‘I hope he made it up the mountain- I might do it and leave it on his car- If he tosses it oh well- I’m sure many of us have found many of the things we have made for theirs trampled under foot in the mud- Art is expendable no matter how much we love it-

Things I’m not sure I want to think about-
1) I let my mom talk me in to accepting a date( if he bothers to ask)-
2) I haven’t really dated since high school- (looooooong time ago)
3) He’ll never ask-

Mom dosen’t understand the concept of fairy tale—and what it means to me--
and my dog growls in her sleep- ]]> ~noirjyre http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/7088333/ http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/7088333/ Sat, 19 Nov 2005 11:11:16 PST I can't wait to work on some of my new stuff with this--She visited that was why I got the gift--and upon looking thru her sketch book I was inspired--In ways I didn't even know I needed to be so the drawing has begun--and hopefully I will be able to reach that lovely subdued color range I am reaching for--I have found a way to finish my x-mas project bought the last essentials-- thank you Jen-- whom is MtGranloa and Bethany whom is xxsqueekbatxx Sooner or later I am going to figure out how to put there avatars on my journal-- ]]> ~noirjyre http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6980766/ http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6980766/ Mon, 07 Nov 2005 12:34:45 PST He must have been an intersting person to meet in collage--I don't think people really start to get interesting or uninteresting until they hit that age group- they are just at the larva stage until then-
When you get out on yur own you begin to be hit with so many different things that you suddenly have to decide what is going to hold yur interest- It funny to go to Missoula and see the gaggle of collage kids running about being very.....something- I don't know exactly what they are and most of the time I don't even notice them so I refuse to give them a tag-But they are running around trying to be smooth and modern when they seem more awkward than when they took their first steps--I suppose everyone is like that-
I don't want to be like William Gibson but I wouldn't mind being able to sit and have a conversation with him- I wouldn't make a very good Gibson mostly because I'm a girl--
and I suck a spelling--

B ]]> ~noirjyre http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6945802/ http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6945802/ Thu, 03 Nov 2005 15:00:37 PST
B ]]> ~noirjyre http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6906880/ http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6906880/ Sun, 30 Oct 2005 13:17:51 PST I was sittign with a friend listening to her go on about her roomate and as we passed some loaf and jug-I noticed the sign that said some thing about egg nog lattes--And thougth of Eric and one of his e-mail where he was going to listen to Coil's autumn equinox and sip apple cider lattes- I think that is what he said- But it lightened my mood and made her complaining seem less-And in the mist of all she said all I could think is- I thought he didn't like apples....
It's funny I want to desperately get away from the ghost world and everyone else is stuck in it- So maybe I am too- It is possible--
I am tempted constantly to make phone calls to old friends and get together with them- But i realize at some point I don't really know if it would be good for me-



B ]]> ~noirjyre http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6881711/ http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6881711/ Thu, 27 Oct 2005 11:50:14 PDT
Repeat--
Well it seems to be working well enough-- My brother has earned major brownie points for letting me have access to his comp--I love this thing--So I'm going to reinstall yet another program and burn all his lovely music on to discs--It the least I can do--

Who here has played FF7?-

At times I feel like I'm speaking to an empty room which is better than speaking to all those little creatures I've made up and ignore me at times-
Heh-
I don't think they are ignoring me persay just they don't see any reason to respond to my crazy rantings--(Don't tell them I called them small- Most of them can wipe the floor with me--)

Anyway hurrah to Jen known as MtGranola on this site--Everyone do a little dance and I'll tell you what she has done to make this life worth taking the next breath for--
Jen has not only bought me an satifying amout of manga but got FF7 Advent Childern for me--

I have watched it an it is good--Damn I wish all my old friends where together again so we could all watch it again and again- She is heaven sent-
And I met some one yesterday--She's helping with painting JB's but she is a yaoi addict too and I can't remmber her damn name but she gave me some sites on here to cheak out-Hopefully she writes she was really interesting-
It is well--If you ahve a chance to get Advent Childern do it and I mean it it is an amazeing video--Amazeing--

Heh heh--


B ]]> ~noirjyre http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6872102/ http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6872102/ Wed, 26 Oct 2005 10:12:49 PDT Being apart of this community is often like open mic night-- or at least how I remember open mic night when I used to go--You clapped even if you didn't completely understand what the hell that guy/girl is doing cause you want to encourage them--
Everyone remembers being slammed at something they love at one point or another-But it felt good to be told to go forth--Yeah sometimes I run in to peoples sites that make me frown--and wonder what the hell they call art- but those who are trying, kind of have one of the few soft spots in my heart--And I don't have many-

Today feels a little surreal--I've got some idea's to work on and I recieved a letter from one of my breathing journals other wise known as friends-
(my friends have very little to do with my voice of reason-- Mostly because I think they distrubted it int he process of drilling my brain-- it's hard to explain-But i am happy with the distruption I receive--

B ]]> ~noirjyre http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6863521/ http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6863521/ Tue, 25 Oct 2005 11:26:53 PDT
I'm working on a few fun things- One for my uncle that just got back from the middle east- and a door hanger for my friend it's going to be great--All the little joys--
(grrrr)
this comp just did something else I am sure it's not supposed to--
(thinking really bad thoughts about my youngest sibling--)
He's a funny kid- He's got alot of soild ideals- the same ideal and thought patterns I have seen so many times before- I hope they work for him- He is very much a Montanan(sp) anyone who lives here knows what I am talking about- My sister just got back from Itally(sp)- It was great hear from her she saw lots of great art and took pictures- When she come up for Turkey day she's going to show off to me--My next plan is to go to Japan with her- And Jen of course-
It ought to be fun-


B ]]> ~noirjyre http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6715472/ http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6715472/ Sat, 08 Oct 2005 19:59:22 PDT
Belinda ]]> ~noirjyre http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6689856/ http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6689856/ Wed, 05 Oct 2005 19:16:28 PDT
B ]]> ~noirjyre http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6591285/ http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6591285/ Sat, 24 Sep 2005 15:21:53 PDT I figure I've submitted more today than I have in a month so I should write something--What i don't know--I think I'm getting better with my boys--which are a pain in the ass--I think there headz look lopsided and out of perportion--I could be crazy but you should look and tell me cause I think they are--

B ]]> ~noirjyre http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6571219/ http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6571219/ Thu, 22 Sep 2005 09:15:44 PDT I didn't expect this short story to happen or to remain short fro that matter--I have a problem with that--But under the proper mix it came about and it received the needed cultivation--So here it is--I still haven't heard from Gub to know weather he liked itor not--But I'd be happy to know what is thought of it--

Belinda-- ]]> ~noirjyre http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6536329/ http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6536329/ Sun, 18 Sep 2005 10:50:25 PDT It amazeing that you can bee affected by his voice so much--I guess I got used to hearing only one asspect of it--To hear it now harmonized iis wonderful--And almost made me jump with surprize--
It makes me wonder if I've changed or if he's that good--Once when I use to listen to people sing it used to kind of embarass me or i wouldn't notice-But we where on the street and he was joking around about riding a skateboard Gandala in the mall and singing and he began singing this italian bit--i didn't know he knew it but he did-It was breath taking hearing his voice--I kind of forgot where I was for a moment-It's wonderful when someone dose that for you--I'm looking forward to seeing what else he will do with this peaice-
Of course while listening to everyone play their music I got an idea for a short story--Now I just gotta keep it short--then maybe I'll put it up here--If I can keep it short--it's hard sometimes--I have a habit of making small stories long--I talked it over with Gub and he seems to think it's a good story--
Well, I have to go and continue my work on the male figure--I hate it really really hate it-When I have an image in my head but can't make it happen--

Belinda ]]> ~noirjyre http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6492433/ http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6492433/ Tue, 13 Sep 2005 08:11:30 PDT I was tempted to throw a fit instead i just threw myself into looking up what ever turned my fancy on the internet--And it helped--I don't know what anybody else dose when they are unproductive--I say thisin the sense that you can't draw anything no matter how you try--And I did try--I got one peaice done and I did it as a favor for someone who has been on me about drawing her--I did it and wasn't satisfied-- Match this with taking care of my grandma and having to deal with a a bunch of therpist and my mom trying to show she is a good daughter--thru over comfinsateing--she feels very deeply about every illness our family takes on--I was gritting my teeeth--and not speaking much as I glared at any little doodle I did--
Now this is what lead up to me recoloring and vamping some of my recent peaices--I'm afraid of color--I don't mind looking at it but to put it on my stuff or myself is very hard--I'm still not wearing it but I'm willing to work with it--One of the reasons is some of the people I draw I can complete with out these vivid colors--cause they are not just black and white to me--I wish it where that easy but it's not--I don't feel I can express these charaters like I have anymore-- they've become to much--that's not to say I've given up on my old black and white-- I haven't--I'm just peeking around the corner a little bit--

and I wish Taco Johns had a delivery service--and they came all the way out here--

Belinda-- ]]> ~noirjyre http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6421130/ http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6421130/ Mon, 05 Sep 2005 09:09:06 PDT I don't know that I cared-- really don't--I was more concerned with getting to work-- Now things happen around me all the time and I have friends and family that are ever so concerned or just need to put there two cents in--But I always feel more concerned with problems and idea in my sphere of thinking--
They look so proud aboutt his information they hold--I suppose I should be jealous or something--or at least act it--

Belinda ]]> ~noirjyre http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6404033/ http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6404033/ Sat, 03 Sep 2005 09:26:26 PDT I'm blown away by his work--I've noticed that i know basically musicians--but they aren't yur average garage techno, nirvana-a-bee's--they have these mind exploding idea's that make me want to continue to do what I enjoy--My writing and my drawing--
Which is where my Gub enlightened came from--It didn't work out exactly the way i wanted--I think I am going to try to do a more full body rendition(sp)--But I need to get some photos of the type of equipment he uses--I always avoid drawing my friends because the last couple of times I did so they went off the deep end--I thought it looked great--but most often no one like being drawn--It took me a while to realize that I loved to see myself in their vision-- it gave me a new perspective--
Any how that what's up--my life is boring beyond my mental workings--- ]]> ~noirjyre http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6251931/ http://noirjyre.deviantart.com/journal/6251931/ Wed, 17 Aug 2005 11:29:36 PDT
Belinda ]]> ~noirjyre