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i'll upload more soon, missing a couple pics i've hidden somewhere in cyberspace.

]]> ~nonix http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/10906562/ http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/10906562/ Thu, 30 Nov 2006 20:25:22 PST
I know you (don't) care.

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*I don't want them to be lost in the random crap on here
*More poeple will see it on LJ than DA unfortunatly.

[link]

and for those new to the game, my main LJ is

[link]

p.s. I may be disconnecting my net soon because -$, so i'll understand if you take me off your flist. ]]> ~nonix http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/6783520/ http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/6783520/ Sun, 16 Oct 2005 13:26:28 PDT As they siphon off all of our blood
And when Miranda sang
Everyone turned away
Used to the noose they obey... ]]> ~nonix http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/6672578/ http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/6672578/ Mon, 03 Oct 2005 20:03:47 PDT ~nonix http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/6669359/ http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/6669359/ Mon, 03 Oct 2005 14:15:31 PDT
Click here!

Thanks to =fuhk ]]> ~nonix http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/6434699/ http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/6434699/ Tue, 06 Sep 2005 17:46:22 PDT
enjoy my reclusion. ]]> ~nonix http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/5528952/ http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/5528952/ Thu, 02 Jun 2005 06:58:59 PDT
Check out my new poem plz.

Bb.

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I'll still comment and may occaasionally upload something immaculate but other that that you prob won't see me much.

later
~N0N1X~ ]]> ~nonix http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/4559223/ http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/4559223/ Sat, 12 Feb 2005 02:32:30 PST i think it's time i laid my soul bare, to see who will take a bite from me.
a warning, you won't like what i have to say.


i've grown numb to almost every feeling since i was a child: of love, compassion, pride, and the such. it resides inside me but i cannot express for more than a moment until it slips away into a pit of bleakness. i've been crushed so many times. by bullies, by girls, by family, by those who were my friends. my heart continues to beat if nothing else for me to exist, though i question why i still.

i am a fortress of solitude, a place where i freeze the warmth.

everyone has their problems, everyone had demons. my demons are the fact there are things about myself that need change and i lack the will to change them. most people would take this as a sign of abnormality and instead of supporting instead choose to walk away, and that's fine. people turn their backs on the physically abnormal all the time, i just happen to be ugly inside and out.

"you're not ugly. how could you say that about yourself? you're just being depressed..."

more than i despise people who cannot be themselves for fear of not belonging are those who refuse to accept the fact there are darker shades in their bright world. you cannot wear blinders forever because if you do, you'll never see the semi that's about to blindside you. this is the reason i disabled comments on this post, i don't wany sympathy or pity. it sickens me.

i can honestly say i don't trust any of you. not because i can't, but because i've lost the empathy.

i am not attractive. i am however smart, kind, loyal, and integral. for those of you with the eyes of vain who look past me, you will continue living your landscape life until the paint starts peeling away and revealing what is true about life. ALL THINGS ARE UGLY BEAUTY, and the sooner you realize this the sooner you can see that it all makes sense and you will cease to judge others based on smoke and mirrors.

don't trust magic, it turns you into an atheist.

i asked a friend to pray for me tonight, and realized afterwards that this was the first time in my life i've ever asked someone to pray for me. i wondered if anyone else has prayed for me, if there are people who would see fit to water this plant instead of ignoring it and watching it wither away. it goes back to being numb, without feelings, without caring, without trusting. you cant have a heart if you have nothing to make it beat.

i beat to exist, and yet i beat for nothing.

i will never kill myself, that is the fool's way out yet some of you seem to think i would be so cowardly to do such things. i may not be able to topple the largest linebacker, but im strong enough not to topple my own life. in a way, i suppose i beat for me if not for anyone else. i used to think i needed a girlfriend to be happy, that i needed to be loved in this way to be happy. now i see that i must love myself first before someone else can. right now, i hate myself.

ive never hated anyone, but i hate myself.

nothing more to say tonight, the universe is calling me to float in its nothingness. how i wish that i could float away into space and never return, to be alone with my thoughts and memories.

to be alone. ]]> ~nonix http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/4373031/ http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/4373031/ Thu, 20 Jan 2005 21:21:53 PST it's come to light maybe pills won't help me after all.
you can't prescribe love, it has to be offered.

unfortunatly, my collection plate has gotten nothing but dust. ]]> ~nonix http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/4306539/ http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/4306539/ Wed, 12 Jan 2005 21:47:52 PST
the less depressed i get, the less i seem to be writing.

is this the end, or the beginning? ]]> ~nonix http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/4258865/ http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/4258865/ Fri, 07 Jan 2005 01:04:02 PST
ill grant a wish for the lucky winner (within reason) ]]> ~nonix http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/4229107/ http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/4229107/ Mon, 03 Jan 2005 12:40:41 PST
i think of what i can be in the future, i want to be an alternative man- but all i am is a fantasy boy. my dreams are grey and hazy like a midnight london fog, thick like a bittersweet soup to quench my aching throat that became hoarse from one too many screams in my pillow. i want to wear concealing cloths that mask my identity from the world, so that they would not turn their own heads as i walk down that dimly lit alley. though i am free of some evils, i myself have been self-determined to be such that. a ghostly figure roaming seedy ethnic restaurants, notebook in hand and drink in the other. i am the one sitting on the driftwood at mukilteo waiting for the ocean to carry us back, but instead i gaze upon the stars in the mooncast sky and wait...

wait for them to be captured in a pair of eyes.

but after a spell, the sun appears and informs me no one is there. it was all a dream, and as all dreams go, i needed to wake up. the problem is, sometimes i don't want to wake up. sometimes, i just want to dream of those eyes staring back at me with warmth and enchantment. calling me home so that this heart that beats too hard for one may be able to beat for two. i walk, i drive, i continue for the moment that neon lightposts give way to emerald palm trees and sparkling oceans of azul. it seems so far away, this paradise that as much as i run away from here i may never reach. the image escapes me like the sand spilling through my fingers, and i have to catch my breath so as not to choke on these boyish fantasies. for that would be love, and this would be life. but for now, all i have is a painting of a dream to stare at.

i wait for the moment it captures me... ]]> ~nonix http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/4187775/ http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/4187775/ Wed, 29 Dec 2004 18:41:27 PST ~nonix http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/4142294/ http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/4142294/ Fri, 24 Dec 2004 04:12:53 PST
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ain't life a bitch? ]]> ~nonix http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/3645350/ http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/3645350/ Thu, 21 Oct 2004 20:55:23 PDT [02.] Are we friends?
[03.] When and how did we meet?
[04.] How have I affected you?
[05.] What do you think of me?
[06.] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[07.] How long do you think we will be friends?
[08.] Do you like me?
[09.] Would you date me?
[10.] Would you kiss me?
[11.] Would you hug me?
[12.] Physically, what stands out?
[13.] Emotionally, what stands out?
[14.] Do you wish I was cooler?
[15.] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[16.] Am I loveable?
[17.] How long have you known me?
[18.] Describe me in one word.
[19.] What was your first impression?
[20.] Do you still think that way about me now?
[21.] What do you think my weakness is?
[22.] Do you think I'll get married?
[23.] What makes me happy?
[24.] What makes me sad?
[25.] What reminds you of me?
[26.] If you could give me anything what would it be?
[27.] How well do you know me?
[28.] When's the last time you saw me?
[29.] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[30.] Are you going to put this in your journal and see what I say about you? ]]> ~nonix http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/3331686/ http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/3331686/ Fri, 10 Sep 2004 12:00:12 PDT
btw, does anybody want to hook up with me so i dont do something bad with my ex? that would not be good ]]> ~nonix http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/3229619/ http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/3229619/ Sat, 28 Aug 2004 03:37:18 PDT reaching over and out to all you see.
refractions of the future are in your sighs,
you hold so dear to optimistic means.

aches and pains stiffen your body,
but they see the love in your heart.
slings and arrows pierce your skin,
but they see the pain that hurts so smart.

so extasy-laced are those angel wings,
that no pure being will judge you so.
fierce courage demand you avoid such things,
so they can feel your everlasting glow.

breathe in an artic blast of faith,
stay true to yourself and a shining smile.
today is the day you eat your piece of cake,
and survive with us for just a little while.

you will survive... ]]> ~nonix http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/3132515/ http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/3132515/ Sun, 15 Aug 2004 14:44:25 PDT
this is a calling; ]]> ~nonix http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/3111915/ http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/3111915/ Thu, 12 Aug 2004 22:11:57 PDT
working on my scanner right now, if i get it up, expect good things tomarrow

...no i dont mean more pics of me. geez! ]]> ~nonix http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/3096630/ http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/3096630/ Wed, 11 Aug 2004 02:50:39 PDT
i write because i am alone and lost.

i write for sufferance.

i write because ham salad is not for fucking lunch.




i write so i can feel dead inside. ]]> ~nonix http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/3087724/ http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/3087724/ Tue, 10 Aug 2004 01:37:45 PDT ~nonix http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/3082109/ http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/3082109/ Mon, 09 Aug 2004 11:30:15 PDT ~nonix http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/3078838/ http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/3078838/ Mon, 09 Aug 2004 00:06:16 PDT ~nonix http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/3078456/ http://nonix.deviantart.com/journal/3078456/ Sun, 08 Aug 2004 22:58:54 PDT [link]

when i get my scanner up and running, ill try uploading pictures I did, instead of submitting other people's work I like.

in the meantime, enjoy! ]]> ~nonix