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I did not expect that when I moved back that this much would change. And when I mean this much, I mean everything. My direction in life has totally changed. My relationships with all of my friends have changed. I was an insane person when I left, and I am even more insane now.

They say that a person in love has the same qualities as somebody who is insane. I think in order to fall in love, you have to become insane first.

So in less that two years, I tried three different schools. College obviously isn't the thing for me to do. So I am going to become a tattoo artist. I have an apprenticeship with an amazing artist. I just started. I have to do a shit ton of tracing. Tracing, tracing, and some more tracing. My hand get super cramped up.

It's funny how I don't care to use this site to post my art anymore. I've created so many different pieces and I just don't care to post any of them up here. I have a lot of shit too.

It's weird having something set in your life and having something to look forward to in the future and you know that's what you want to do with your life. I am happy. I am focused. I am ready.

I haven't felt this great since forever. I am stressed out about some things. I am scared about some things. I just feel amazing. It's like I got my groove back after being kicked out of it for so long. It's cool. I've forgotten about and moved on from so many things that used to just drag me down and stick in my mind. It's gone. I finally have the weight of so many things lifted off of my shoulders.

My heart has been completely dominated. I didn't see it coming. I didn't think it would be with this person. Deep down I knew for a very long time but never thought that I would come to this point. It's a very weird feeling. A very different feeling from anything i've ever felt before. It's a weird connection kinda thing.

I like the stories where a boy and a girl are best friends for a long time and then they fall in love and everything hits the fan in a very epic moment or time. Like New Years. I like the stories because the stories became a reality and I have no idea how to handle it. It's overwhelming but great at the same time.

I always somewhere else. When you're talking to me, I am usually somewhere else. Like at a tea party with the Mad Hatter or traveling through the Information Superhighway. Or maybe trying to figure out how to draw an Air Zepplin.

Drawing has consumed my life. I don't really care to paint anymore at this moment. It kinda sucks. I have to stay in that drawing mode and now I can't get enough of it. I just love spending days and late nights just drawing on my big lap board in bed listening to Hip Hop.

My music taste has changed too. I still love my indie music and still love all of my favorite bands. I just can't get enough hip hop and R&B. I have to draw to a funky beat for some reason. I can't listen to harder music or softer rock type music. I just need a constant beat that will stick in my head. It's been working out for me.

Man, it's weird that I am actually growing the fuck up. I wonder what happens when I am done with my apprenticeship. That's when my life really starts. I'll be able to take my trade anywhere in the entire world pretty much. That's the part that I am really excited about. I'll have a lot of freedom in my job. I'll get paid to do art all day. Better yet, do art on people. You'll know that your art is going to get looked at everyday by somebody for the rest of their lives. They will always remember you.

That's all I've ever wanted with my life. Now that I know that I am on my way there, I am so incredibly excited.

I hate missing somebody to the point where you can't or don't want to handle it some times. Even though they only live two hours away from you, it sucks.

I like writing here sometimes. I don't know most of the people that still use this, so strangers are reading it. It's easy to tell a stranger your secrets sometimes.

Sleep is calling me. My dreams are like another life outside of my head. They all make sense in their own crazy fucked up way. They're all pretty good for the most part. I wonder what the movie will be like tonight.

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"The truth is, the world is too wonderful to believe".

I am trying to get on that track. It seems as if I jumped from one hole to another. Good thing I have amazing people in my life to keep me going.

What a weird Thanksgiving this year was. Making all of the food and having it at your residence is a weird thing. Me and my cousins made entirely too much food.

My friends are on tour right now and they stopped by and saw me and I got to feed them Thanksgiving food. I liked that.

I've been working on new things like crazy. I have so much time on my hands that I just end up spending hours everyday painting or drawing. Most drawing these days. I love pens.

So for this next week, I am going to try to think that the world is too wonderful to believe.

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I've always had this balloon thing. I've always seen balloons. My head has always been a balloon. It keeps rising and rising and rising. I surprise myself at the content that is in my head. How it gets there, I have no idea. How I have the thoughts that I do, I have no idea. I can't really be certain of anything. I am just waiting for the day that my head pops.

I've seen so many shift changes in the past couple of months it's almost too much. Life changes. Life Style changes. Living changes. I am slowing crossing over to the grown up world. I am in too many children story books for my own good. It's weird when you have a high school kid tell you to grow up. They have no idea what it's like once you cross that podium. Everything changes.

At least lately, I have my own ray of sunshine that makes me smile everyday. I think it's one of the reasons I am still in these story books. I live my life in a story book. I am always narrating everything and coming up with a different story for everything else. I have too much imagination and I was letting it get away from me for awhile. It's like in that movie Hook, when Peter Pan goes back to Never Never Land and finally believes again. I am in my own Never Never Land. Perhaps it's the only thing keeping me sane while I am stuck here for another few months. I haven't spent this much alone time with myself in such a long time. It gives me too much time to think and analyze.

At least there isn't anything to take away my ray of sunshine this time. I know that it's here to stay this time. I just wish it was closer. Reading the words can only keep me so warm for so long. This weekend. After this weekend I get my short little break. I get to go to where I should be with the people that I should be with and I get to see that Sunshine up close. I hope it doesn't leave me too sun burnt. But then again, that would be a good thing because it'll probably be awhile till the next time I am that close.

I am really confused. I live day to day. I've burned a lot of bridges in the past month that should've been burned down a long time ago. Cause I kept crossing tattered bridges that were all just risks. I just can't believe that I did it.

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I also got to take a ride on The Information Superhighway. It was blinding fast and ended abruptly with me hitting a wall painted with clouds.

I also hung out with my mothers significant others children. That was pretty strange when I work up.

I also got to walk along an endless boardwalk and got pestered by a bunch of kids on skateboards. Then I just started to throw rocks and they left me alone. Then peoople started swarming the sky on air bicycles. You know those bikes that you see sometimes in disney movies with the propeller on them? Yeah, they were everywhere in the sky. Then they started to divebomb towards me and I had to jump out of the way and keep running and just kept running. Then out in the distance there were battleships. They started to fire and I woke up.

My dreams were pretty intense this afternoon. They seem to always be way more visual when I sleep afterwork.

Too much has happened in the past few weeks. I guess I say that alot. But it seems as if I can beat my personal record each time.

Madness, it's not just madness anymore. It's pure outright insanity.

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Playing To Break or Bury Alpha 3000 concerts are quite fun. Not my Cup of Soup on the music taste, but it is really fun to play.

I listen to way to much music.

I somehow don't have enough time to finish things. Something always comes up. Or sometimes there just isn't enough motivation to pick up the brush and start smearing.

It's been awhile. It really has.

So it turns out that I am going to have a 16 hour work day on the day after Thanksgiving. I guess that day is just Bat Shit Insane. Damn consumers.

New ink coming up in a couple of weeks. Lets see how far I can get.

I dream too much. I think too much. I wish too much. I want too much.

I think it's time for a new job. I just need something that is fulltime and pays decent and is a place that I can stand.

It's the love. It's the feeling of wanting to know where someone is even if they have only been gone for a couple of minutes. It's too much sometimes. It's everything one has always wanted.

I think it's time for the Maestro to play the last song because this curtain is going to close for the night.

]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/10511525/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/10511525/ Wed, 25 Oct 2006 21:10:21 PDT
I have one of the worst jobs ever. I have also obtained a pretty sweet job though too. So two jobs, man I am a badass.

It's good now. Real good. Like new good. Can you dig it?

The New Killers album, I must it's pretty good. A big difference from their last one. Much much much better.

So twenty two days until the To Break or Bury Alpha 3000. That's right, I am playing a TBOB show. So you should all come out.

I finally got out of that valley only to find myself in a different one. I need to get rid of the one thing that detirmines if I have gas in more or not. Waking up a 5:30 in the morning to go to work is not worth it to me anymore. I'll just have to get used to it until things change. I really hate it though. Unload the truck. Cut the boxes open. I happen to be the only guy employee that works at this place that is not part of management. So since I am the guy, I have to do the bitch work. "Lift this", "Do this cause we're pregnant", "Load the Trailer". It sucks more than anything. I have to wear black pants and a white shirt. It wouldn't actually be so bad if the Red Apron weren't involed. I have been finding so many dreams lately being crushed and not being able to finish them because of this job.

It's been awhile for alot of things for me. I am starting to grow up. I hate it more than anything. I wish I could be four years old again and not have to worry about a single thing other than whether or not a get a good snack or a new toy.

Responsibility really sucks. I got the gists of it when I lived my glorius month in the state of Wyoming. I wonder what it's going to be like when I am really gone.

The reason is pretty much unknown.

Will Baker jaked my SLC Punk movie.

Oh well, I got his Office Space movie.

If he ever wants to trade back, I am down.

The screen is getting fuzzy and my forehead feels like it's in the back of my head.

The sleeping pill is kicking in quite fast.

It's the good ol' days that is getting me through all of this. Just think good thoughts.

I think when I move to the big city, it's going to be a clean break. Nobody will know me. Nothing. It's like being born again. I am kinda looking forward to that. I want to make a knew reputation.

I want to be Alive right now.

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It's that job thing. I have barely started and it is alreayd kicking my ass. It's the easiest job in the world. It's just so tedious and the hours are horrible.

I love these things. I can complain all I want.

I know at least one person who got some news they didn't expect to get. Well it's the truth.

I really like writing. When I was in college, I got A's on every assignment. It's about the style. Metaphors are a key. Taking something ordinary and making it conceptional to the readers feelings. It's fun. It's very fun. Sucks that I don't have anything to write about.

Stanly Redding is coming. He is coming out.

I had a dream about an art school that is located in Billings, Montana. I don't feel like going into details about this one.

Three night vacation. That was a good break. I need another break. A break from it all. I wish I could just go on Artists Retreats out int the middle of nowhere. That would be awesome.

I will take a sledge hammer to that wall. Mark my words on that one people.

I just can't support the cause on this. Sorry.

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Working at Linens and Things gives one time to think.

To think about way too many things.

This screen needs to stop moving around on me.

I need to stop moving around. I need to stop go to one place in my mind and then the other. How am going to resolve anything if I can't focus on just one.

I wish I could go flough in the sky. Just flought through the clouds. Way HI! To the airplanes and just float around.

I hope all of what your said is the truth and that it's here to stay. Because if not, I am gone.

There are so many different types of lies. The main one being the infamous "White Lie". I bet that is how our country was founded. White Lies.

My dreams are the most visual images in my head.

Too bad they control alot of what I do.

My Therapist says it's not good to have that. Let's write you a perscription. I'll refuse to take them.

It's what therapy is for.

I need to go and see the Claus.

I miss so many people right now. Well, not that many, but the ones I do are the most important people in my life.

Love. Such a backstabber.

Slap with your grubby hands and make my face clean again please, his dirty hair didn't quite get the job done.

Art cannont be taught. Art as a whole. You can learn techique can be taught. But nobody can tell you how to see the world and give you meaning towards symbolic images. Those are yours, nobody else's, no one can take that away from you.

Thank Will for bringing me back to the light also.

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I remember in the second grade, I convinced myself that I was an alien and at the place I went to afterschool, I tried telling everyone that I was an alien and that I was telling the truth.

I was a weird kid.

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Way too much for a month anyway.

Now it is time to start clearing through all of this paper work stacked up on my schmorgus board. Tell them I'll be out of the office. No calls, i'll be back later.

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Man, it's been a trip so far. Starting to get used to all of this. One things I am not getting used to too well. I don't think that will happen anytime soon.

My classess, are incredible. Cept' for math. That is the most pointless class I have ever had the pleasure taking. I didn't do too well on the ACTs. So I got put in Retard math. We didn't even get a formal book. We got a 2.50 packet and all of the problems involve "Basset Hounds" because the teacher is obessessed with those dogs and it makes us feel like we are in the third grade.

I got bumped a couple english classes. I feel pretty good about that. I just need to figure out how to get the books exchanged because it's after the exchange date. Nobody told me about that one. So I got in a pretty big pissin match with my mom. This is going to be a good year.

Still can't sleep at night. I have tried and tried and tried. I wish I had my Ambien again. I guess it's good that I am not taking it. I don't want to be dependent on it.

I still remember most of my dreams. They have all pretty much turned into nightmares.

The past few nights I have had dreams that I have been swimming down a raging river and I am getting thrashed beyond reason. The first of all them took place in the middle of the street. I was swimming in asphalt and get cut, thrashed bruised, and just torn up. I am glad I have Chris as my roommate.

I wierd not being in highschool anymore. I wish I was still there sometimes. It was so much easier. So much more welcoming. I had my friends there.

Take my advice on this, Don't ever think about moving to Wyoming for school. The school here is pretty cool. Everything else just sucks,

Everything sucks right now. Time, something that mankind created. You don't see animals staring at their watches not having enough time. I hate time, I really do. But I have to respect it. It's they need.

Morning came and dressed the sky.

I have seen the sunrise too many times in the past few months. I have made very many mistakes these past few months. You can't even begin to imagine the guilt I feel. I deserve it though.

One week. I can't take that meaning in my head right now. I am dreading it more than anything.

For what it's worth, it's worth everything. Something real, something rare, something that nobody can take away. When you understand that, everything will start to become more clear.

Everything these days feels like I am looking through a dirty fish bowl. It's blurry and it doesn't seem very real.

My little cousin is doing a speech on me. She said she really admired me and asked information of things I have done in my life so far. You have no idea how much that meant to me.

Crying is overrated, but it feels damn good.

I was asked today in my drawing class what I thought god looked like. Everybody had the same answer, grey long hair, grey beard, robes. I told him that if there is a god, I think he looks like a cloud. Clouds are aways dispeering. Clouds set the mood to many things. Clouds decided if we are going to have a sunny day or not. Clouds decided if we are going to have nourishment in our crops or not. Clouds decided if we are going to face destruction. Clouds decided what season we are going to get. Clouds control more than one would think.

My bestfriend is hopefull coming to see me tommorrow. You have no idea how much I need that kid right now.

Blairs is open 24 hours a day. Amazing.

I hope they understand, it's too much to throw away. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/9834564/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/9834564/ Thu, 24 Aug 2006 02:56:22 PDT
I don't want to wait 10 years.

Yesterday was just a different day. I have never felt so much fear before. Yeah I know, I am pussy.

Time to pretend you are someone new is going to start taking it's place in my life today. I think that is with more than just me.

Last night, I thought only maybe 12-15 people would be showing up. 21 people showed up to dinner. That was pretty epic. The ending was best. Well not really, it was a sad one like in Simon Birch.

Get Down, Get Funky.

I spent 7 hours in Denny's the night before last. It only felt like I was there for a short time. The company was the best. The Conversations, the strolls down memory lane, the thoughts about the futur and making fun of our friends who have to go back to school today. Funny stuff I say. Good Times Jeremy Good times. Man those fooking times killed.

It's so hard to imagine myself as an old man. Hell, it's hard enough imagine myself not a teenage punk ass anymore.

It's time to get up and actually do something with our days. I have been thinking way too much lately.

Did I mention how hard some good byes are? I bawled my ass tonight when it came time to say bye to my girlfriend. I know I won't be that far but still, it's the thought of being away.

The man I want to marry mom might not be able to say good bye to me today. We have some pretty gnarly fires on the outskirts of our city, he has to fight those.

Time to bring on the fire worm. When's the last time one of those had an explosion?

Speaking of explosions, today, I decided to listen to Angels and Airwaves. Big mistake. One song was all it takes. Their only good one. It sent me over the edge. "The Adventure", I don't reccomend listening to that song.

That's where it's at.

Today is the start to my journey. It's going to be a pretty long road. I have no map other than the one my goals set for me, even that map doesn't have a compass. I have no idea how I am going to manage this. I have no idea on really anything. [link] , his name is Danny. He gave me the most uplifting advice I have ever recieved. I took Martial Arts for over a decade and the advice Danny gave me was the best. I messaged him, told him about what was going on, asked him for advice. I have no idea who this man is. I have been so touched and so hypnotized by his art, decided to ask a man of great talent for advice. I wasn't sure if he would even reply, but he did. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/9811397/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/9811397/ Tue, 22 Aug 2006 02:17:25 PDT
My dreams are getting worse and worse these days. Too visual, too vivant, too cold, too dark, too icy, it's coming.

I am going to miss entirely not enough people. There are going to be those who I keep in touch with all my life. There are going to be those who I'll see in a grocery store and we will avoid contact because we don't feel like going through that awkward conversation of how are lives are doing. We will just live in silence and hear about the gossip hear and there about who did what and how some people are living.

To the Cowboy State I go. Two more days and then I get to see how my parents managed to do this. 'Cept I won't be having a kid anytime soon.

One thing I won't miss about this place...I can't say it, it's kinda bad.

Pretend your someone new.


Too much music for one day. I can't believe it. Atleast I'll be filled for a couple of weeks until I get sick of it and will go out on the prowl for more.

I posted a painting yesterday. In September that painting and three other pieces will be up in the Yellowstone Art Museum.

College schooling, I am looking for the freedom of artistic conception. I will not be censored like I was in High School.

The main goal I have set for my life right now is to be successful in my art. I care about how much money I make. I will have to support a family someday. I will become successful in life.

My painting teacher asked me the question the other day on ever thinking about the future and what happens when I have to bring up family. It's kind of been on my mind as of late.

It's wierd how many of my friendships have tarnished as my departure comes closer and closer. Most I really don't care about, there is one that is bugging the crap out of me. I have to have it back before I leave.

Went in to get my last paycheck from work. I don't think I have ever been more verbally abused in my life. It took all of me, I am glad I have control.

I got a new laptop yesterday. It's a mac book. It's pretty sweet if I say so myself.

Yesterday was a pretty busy day. Time to get back into the old hum drum routine of day in day out lifestyle. Except for this time, I'll be on my own. No more mommy to make sure if everything is in order. I don't like that.

Up to the top, that's where they will go.

I wonder what it's going to be like when I turn fifty. I wonder how the ipod is going to be topped.

I have become a consumer. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/9785998/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/9785998/ Sat, 19 Aug 2006 19:36:42 PDT
I am tired. I really am. New Laptop comes on Monday.(hopefully)

Poems these days are just pointless. There are only a few out there that are worth reading. Some of it is almost like the anime/okaki crap you see every where on this site. What ever happened to some well thought out conception? Sure there is the bland try to hard to be deep conceptional work, but that stuff is just crap.

4 days after today and I am gone. I think it's time for me to get a life finally. Too bad I couldn't go to Kmart and buy one on the Bluelight Special sale. Instead this is going to be one of those expensive ones in all aspects. Let the draining begin.

Pretend your someone new.

The new Cursive cd is quite enjoyable.

Cowboy land Cowboy land. Oh boy what was I thinking?

Ego trippin? No I just call it confidence.

All of my dreams as of late have been taking place in a winter, snowy, icy, grey, desaturated, sleeted, scape. I love every minute of those dreams.

I used to be addicted to writing these little Journal entries. Now I would just rather read about other peoples thoughts than write my own. I guess it's easier that way.

Japanther, I would suggest you all listen to this band. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/9737287/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/9737287/ Tue, 15 Aug 2006 13:11:14 PDT
College, next week. No more Sanctuary.

I am ready. I just need to get my computer first.

I submitted some new stuff.

I really don't have all that much to say except...Me and Chris got a couch for COLLEGE!!! ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/9546070/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/9546070/ Sun, 30 Jul 2006 18:35:49 PDT
I took a nap one day last week, I had the most vivant dreams ever. I wish I could go back. I wish I could feel the feeling of the bed disapearing beneath you and feel weightlessness. It was amazing, I really want to go back.

Shambles shambles shambles.

I leave this house in less than 25 days.

I leave alot of things in 25 days. I am not ready for it. I wish there were training wheels for this. It feels like I am being pushed into the deep end without proper lessons.

I never took swimming lessons. I only had training wheels for a short time. My dad tought me how to do both.

I took Martial Art lessons and Bass Lessons. Who knew that I would one day I would be teaching them both. And I have, I have taught both.

When and if I become a Dad, I'll be able to teach swimming lessons and Bike lessons. I'll send my kids to a martial arts instuctor I deem worthy and let them take lessons on whatever else they want.

That won't be for a long time.

My apologies to the Flock. I fell victim to misconceptions, I feel like a dumbass.

Sailing through the smooth asphalt knowing you can crash, get hit by a car from a blind corner, or make it all the way through knowing you just owned that hill are the best feelings ever.

Questioning a risk makes the risk all the worth while to try. Some people shouldn't try that, I know I have about crapped my pants doing so.

I beat Jade Empire today. I feel like I accomplished something. The game was amazing. The storyline was insane. The ending almost made me shed a tear. I hope I can find a game like that again someday.

Abba, you are one derranged queen.

Let's all pretend we are somebody new. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/9485699/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/9485699/ Tue, 25 Jul 2006 02:15:28 PDT
Last night, I guess some Woman got struck by lightining and was killed. I find something very different about that one.

Hold on to your cruel intentions kid.

I love sailing through the streets like a Pirate on a siege. It's so uplifting and fullfilling, I just love it.

So, how many of you questioned what is real and what is not?

Gosh I am wierd person. Can't help it.

Somebody help me destroy this House of Cards.

I need a life. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/9375182/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/9375182/ Fri, 14 Jul 2006 12:07:16 PDT
You cannot imagine how much I hate hot weather.

I watched the entire second season of Niptuck.

Two more movies under my belt, they are some good ones.

Stealing concept and ideas for a contest is the wrong thing to do, just think if you win, who really came up with that concept.

I had a dream last night that Xlophones required water to be played.

I also had a dream that I was in a Ghetto.

Not the gangsta ghetto, the concentration ghetto.

All of my friends were there.

It was actually a good time, we all had to act like we were James Bond.

Good Times Jeremy Goodtimes. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/9292463/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/9292463/ Thu, 06 Jul 2006 13:14:23 PDT
Motivation from playing Fable to Painting is getting really hard. I think the whole "Not being able to sleep" thing is a player in that field.

I cannot sleep and it is really catching up to me.

I bought 4 very awesome movies for about 22 bucks. The titles are , "Fight Club", "Donnie Darko", "Snatch" and "Super Troopers".

I am going to start to plan my new tatoo. It's going to be for my start on the journey of life. I haven't started to live yet. Come the fall, I will be.

It's going to be a sail boat. Instead of a Sail it is going to be a Butterfly. A lot of symbolism is involved when it comes to Butterflies and me. I am debating on whether to put the boat on clouds, or water.

I am going to put it on water. I'll have clouds above it.

I can't wait for this. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/9200394/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/9200394/ Tue, 27 Jun 2006 13:51:05 PDT
So my glowstick burnt out on this ever so long parade, it's recharged and brand new but it's not really mine anymore.

I wish blacklights didn't glow purple. They should just call it purple lights. Blacklights should just be black. You would have the comfort of sleeping with the light but it would still be total darkness. You smell what I am cookin?

So it came to my attention the other day that "Da Generation X" is back on wrestling. I need to go back to my childhood days with my dad and watch wrestling again. DX was the best. Them and Stone Cold. When I would be at my dad's house, no matter what was going on, every Monday we would watch Monday Night Raw.

Now I just look at wrestling as a white trash contest to see who can act the best. I wish I never grew up.

Radiohead, really knows how to make somebody feel like crap.

Speaking of feeling like crap, Mexico lost to Argentina in the World Cup the other day. Today's main game was Spain vs. France. I hope Spain one. I think it's funny how fast the US lost in the World Cup.

I miss playing Soccer.

I miss alot of things. Like Preemys, DKs, Meatwads, Bloos, Billboards with the Jesus sayings on them.

Time to move on I guess. I need to obtain copies of Amelie, Rushmore, Bottlerocket, Dutch, Pulp Fiction, The Neverending Story.

I am going to try that after I get the rest of my tattoos that I want to get.

Did you know that in Illinois you can get in trouble for beating Rats with baseball bats? True Story. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/9011369/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/9011369/ Thu, 08 Jun 2006 17:45:57 PDT
13,000 dollars here I come. Now I just need to get the supplies and my partner in this project and get started. This weekend seems preemo for it.

I have a friend with breakdowns, I kind of wish that they we sincere though. He'll get it someday.

I all the Brighteyes albums 'cept two, can anybody help me out with these?

Started on my new painting last night. I was up till 3:30 trying to make it look nice. Now tonight after everybody leaves and the town is sleeping and the only noise I hear is the music coming out of my pod and the only vibration I feel is the beating of my heart as it starts to race because I am getting closer and closer to another accomplish, I will be starting my favourite part of every painting I do, the clouds.

Some Obscenity oridance was pretty close to being passed here in the heartland of America. I didn't vote, I still need to get registered.

So the troops made a big accomplishment just recently, they greased some Iraqi leader. Apparently because of his death gas prices will start to go down. Good news for me. It's wierd to think that people are going to have to die in order for us to get cheap gas. Him, damn Darwin and his theory.

The more and more I see stories of celebrities and their relationships and their babies, really makes me think that it would seriously suck to be a court jesture like them.

Ego trippin at the gates of Hell reminds me of Freebird. The Flaming Lips. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/8911484/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/8911484/ Mon, 29 May 2006 12:42:12 PDT
Narcotic withdrawls are not as bad as other withdrawls I guess. I can't spell the word or even begin to. But I guess it's a happy pill.

What? I have got something in my teeth?

I am so original.

I am all graduated now. So far I have gotten a new bass, a newish car, and a new Tattoo.

First ink, and now I want more. Alot more.

So I am going to try and see Modest Mouse again this summer. Do any of you want to travel with me for this even?

My brain is finally going back to normal. Too much school, too much work I say. It was really wierd, my brain just collapsed. Did that happen to any of you?

I'll just have to let it break through. Like really hard.

Let's live hard, I think we would be cooler if we did. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/8843800/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/8843800/ Mon, 22 May 2006 11:03:46 PDT
But whos counting anyways?

It's a different feeling. Now it is time to grow up. Real world awaits and the whole time I thought I was in the real world. Reality check to the bank.

Now we are what we have always been, wrinkled rugs called life waiting for the streamroller we like to call identity to straighten us out, sometimes it comes pretty fast, other times it never comes at all. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/8771426/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/8771426/ Sun, 14 May 2006 18:19:06 PDT
One more week, one more week.

Time to go into the real world. Well, not quite yet, but I am pretty stinkin close. Tonight is going to be a late night. Have to finish a painting. Stupid Soroptomist thing.

Sad thing, I am pretty much going to miss this.

Mr. Boyd did a psycoanalysis thingy on me today. Quite interesting.

This site is getting more lame and more lame. Anime, stupid anime. Okaki, stupid okaki. Talentless pricks is what they are. "Let's complete a peice in five minutes and call it a work of art". That is what it seems like.

Maybe I should start doing fan art. Come up with somebody else's idea. Try and make it look good, maybe I should start worshipping Sonic the Hedghog. We all know that Sonic is a pussy, Knuckles is where it's at.

The Life Aquatic never gets old to me. Wes Anderson is amazing. I sometimes wonder what it would be like if he were a painter. He is Beauty.

Tommorrow marks a huge point from the past six months.

Tommorrow is also a day closer to the big day, more stress, more stress.

For everyone who is graduating, are any of you as scared as I am? ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/8642480/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/8642480/ Mon, 01 May 2006 14:46:15 PDT
I think it is that they really don't want the blatent truth up there for the school to see. Because that is how most everything is seen at school. Most of the teachers actually want copies of this to put up in their rooms. They agree fully with me. Not the deans though. They said they can get in trouble if somebody on the board of trustees saw it.

The word "faggot" they said was a bad word. But I have read that word and heard that word on so many movies and in books that I have seen at school.

"Emo Queer" was another one. Because they have gotten so many complaints.

I told them I choose Will because he gets the most crap for it. He is pretty much deemed the "Emoest Queer" of them all. Will is not really even emo. All of the deans in my school had to look over it. Teachers didn't see what was wrong with it.

I am just upset right now.

All of that work. Atleast I got a scholarship for it. The professors loved it.

Telling the truth is hard for some individuals I guess. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/8596436/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/8596436/ Wed, 26 Apr 2006 20:38:44 PDT
No more highschool.

I got some new cds as of late.

I have to get my tux for prom.

I had a really emotional dream last night. It was just super crazy. It had you in it, and you too, and you were there, and no way...you also. ( Pretty much, Kerry was there, Luke made a cameo, Will was in the hospitol, I killed Kerry so his little sister wouldn't die, Besty had a deadly toxin in her body, Ms. Lujggren was directing traffic, tears were turning into rivers, triangular enigmas where everywhere on my way to the hospitol, little kids playing one base baseball, gravel paths lead the way, Will died, Kerry and Will had a funeral, me crying alot in the dream, 50 story buildings were piled everywhere, hotairballoons and balloons where flying everywhere, Zepplins were Marching across, ended in a mushroom cloud explosion.)

That was all one dream.

It is already in production over a triptitch. It's gonna be hard, but I'll finish it.

Soroptimist. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/8442164/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/8442164/ Tue, 11 Apr 2006 19:38:45 PDT
Strarting off slow can be good at times. Other times it can really screw you. Screw you like when Jesus is jackhammer and doodoo hole and Mickey Mouse with a lawn dart whlie Garth Brooks gives birth to something resembling a cheddar cheese log on Santa Clauses tummy tumm. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/8343642/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/8343642/ Sun, 02 Apr 2006 13:04:34 PDT
I finally re-obtained Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness. One of my old friends borrowed it and never gave it back.

Submitted a photo for once. Maybe I should start submitting my paintings and drawlings for once. They are all loaded and everything on my computer. I just haven't felt like putting them on here.

Scratchy, grainy, low quality professional recordings get me everytime. The Fruit that Ate itself is such a different album.

I had a dream that I cleaned an office that tax collectors worked in and I had the mathmatical help of my highschools mathletes. The wierd thing of this dream, I clean the IRS floor of the Wells Fargo building. But it wasn't the same floor. The math problems were pretty sweet though. People were sleeping in chairs that reclined in pairs. Each person, I knew. I have known them all for quite sometime. They were all just sitting there sleeping while me and the mathletes figured out how to mathmatically clean the office. The elevators were glass elevators. They weren't connected to the building though. You got in and it just went up. Somehow you ended up where you needed to be. This was a strange dream for me. Usually to other people, my dreams are as strange as they get, but this one was really different. Maybe it's because I can't do math any better that a chained down goat, but I could understand every problem that was belted out.

I look too much into this things.

The other I had a rainy dream. But it rained in streams. Not just all over, but in a tube like formation in some spots, everything was wet though. The next day we got the most rain Montana has seen in a long time. It rained for 24 hours. We got officially above the moisture level they we are supposed to be at. That hasn't happened in a long time.

I watched Fooly Cooly the other night. I normally hate anime with a passion. But this one always seems to leave me in awe once it's over.

Not many things do that. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/8278543/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/8278543/ Sun, 26 Mar 2006 20:03:49 PST
I finally did it.

I completed my Modest Mouse collection.

I finally purchased the last two Modest Mouse cd's that I needed. I now have them all.

I saw a four point war. My boy came out on top.

I saw V for Vendetta. A truely amazing movie. Some parts of that movie just astonished me. Just the way the movie was made. I was jaw dropped.

Incredible.

Some things just strive off of need. Others of nothing. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/8244658/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/8244658/ Thu, 23 Mar 2006 09:55:59 PST
Read some books.

Two of them happen to be the most out there kinda books I have ever read.

Lullaby and Down to the Dirt.

Got over half of my college paid for in pure scholarships comepletely based off of my portfolio.

I feel pretty good about that.

It's a good thing that today is only a half day at shool. Go back for 3 hours. I can handle that.

I feel like I am starting to live in the future. Keep thinking about what comes next. I wish I could stay more in the present. Living in the future just makes things tasteless. It's time I work on that.

Still wasting time, like always. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/8210376/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/8210376/ Sun, 19 Mar 2006 18:58:03 PST
Gosh I hate that commercial.

If I ever made my own commercial, I really don't know what I would be promoting. Maybe I would just make a 30 second play and have be entirely based on nothing. What a good waste of time.

Got back into the groove of the video game habit. Halo 2 is so beautiful. I am afraid to go back to playing Morrowind. If that happens I really don't know what will happen. I would probaly lose my job, my girlfriend, and my good grades. I think I will wait till the summer for that game. That would be the smartest choice.

I posted a couple things in the past couple of days. A little expiremental. I am in the market for a infra red filter.

I am not having any luck on E-bay for my camera.

Oh Caliente.

I waste too much time. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/8108134/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/8108134/ Wed, 08 Mar 2006 23:06:41 PST
It's a test. A test of true grit.

Keep going.

Get your shoes, get out, go to work, or get a job.

I want to stand there looking tense.

With that crossed arm stance.

I wish I was a bad tempered Prom Queen at a homecoming dance.

My life began. I didn't like that too much.

I want to go see a Tundra.

I have seen a person die since my last Journal.

Not have somebody I knew die. Because that happened also.

But I actually witnessed death. No blood, not anything like that.

It was the ugliest thing I have ever seen.

Life ain't much prettier, but it sure makes Brittney look like Natilie.

I want to play music. Classical music. I want to be in a big band again. Filled with the brass and everything else underneath it.

I guess I can't have everything I want.

New pictures up on Friday.

Not that it would matter or anything.

I keep having dreams that I am back in Asia. I also keep having dreams that I am on soft icy planes.

Let see what the brain has in store for tonight. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7920112/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7920112/ Thu, 16 Feb 2006 20:21:43 PST
Idiot Pilot has taken me in. If I were straight edge and still friends with somebody, I would so make this kind of music with this person. It's the kinda music we used to stay up at night talking about while we would either eat ramen, sit on the computer, watch tv, or eat ramen while sitting on the computer and watching tv. Those were the days. Now simple glances even come rare, oh well...

As the days come closer I get more scared and more anxious. It's really strange.

Painting is starting to come second nature to me. I don't know why, but when I don't do it for a day, it throws everything completely off. It's weird. I need somebody to take pictures of. I have more concepts new different concepts, but they need a person. Any volunteers?

The school might not let me put up my photography project that took me a long time to create in my senior art show. My painting teacher is telling me he doesn't care, but it's the deans that get to decide. I have had so many teachers want copies of the project. Because they know it's the truth. If the students can't handle the truth, then why are we at school? ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7820913/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7820913/ Mon, 06 Feb 2006 16:53:32 PST
I still need to go out to BFE and take some shots. If any of you want to come *coughcoughErikandHallie* that would be pretty awesome.

I tell the truth to much. Not one for telling lies. Unless they are huge lies like, " I murdered a Sparrow with my car". Now that is just a cool lie. If you can find somebody gullible enough to use that one, I highly suggest that you do.

So I am going to be living in Wyoming this up coming fall. Hoo Rah, now I guess I am going to have to see for myself if Jordan was right about the place.

I am finding it harder and harder each day to have a class with a very large girl that wears the tightest and skimpiest clothes possible. I have been biting my lip to no end. I really don't know why, but I am.

A four day weekend is upon us. So is Valentines day. So is the 15th. Hoo rah Hoo rah.

I had a dream that I got into a battle with the werewolf guy from Brothers Grimm.

I think I have the beast down. Controling it was half the battle, now I just have to figure out which is which.

All manuel settings are beautiful if you know how to use them. I love turning my white balance as high as it can go. With the right lighting, every things goes odd colors. It's just beautiful.

Everybody needs to listen to The New Pornographers and Idiot Pilot. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7610084/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7610084/ Sun, 15 Jan 2006 11:16:17 PST
I have the urge, the huge urge to go on an adventure. Not just an adventure here in town. But out there. I want to end up way out in BFE again. This time somewhere different. A place where not very many people no about. Then take some shots. Not the alcoholic shots.

I finished an impossible painting. I had to rush on it. It really looks like shit. Yes I just cussed. I think being 18 descibing something that you made, you can express yourself the way you want to and the way you feel on it.

I think I have one more cd to complete the Modest Mouse collection. Now I just need to find it.

People who call for attention on the easy side and try to gain sympathy through the masses are really just sad people. Buck up. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7511855/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7511855/ Wed, 04 Jan 2006 19:51:36 PST
This sore throat has been nagging at me for far too long. It feels like there is in intertube in my throat right now.

My research paper is coming along quite well. I am doing over Dali. I have an english class full uncultured and closeminde people and when I give my report, they are going to look at me with disgust, a deer and headlights look, and think to themselves about why I would be interested in that kind of stuff.

Got to see a Picasso sculpture today. I also got to see a Wood painting. "Spring Plowing"

Quite interesting stuff. I must have to say that you all should go to the museum and check out the new show. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7487488/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7487488/ Mon, 02 Jan 2006 10:02:39 PST
New Times


Some new classics on are the horizon. The pioneers happen be the new Cowboys in the cities.

My friend that plays the song, "I Messed with Texas". Does not have any talent. He might as well go die.

Many things have been said in the past 24 hours. A little different, but everything is different these days.

I pierced my ears, I think I am good on the piercing thing for a while.

Being numb in a sense of being silent is not a good thing.

I have heard sobs.

Empty shells from the hermits. More and more people are coming out now a days. But everything is still in black and white.

Whats worse than teenage poetry? crappy teenage poetry using lines from little heard songs. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7367523/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7367523/ Tue, 20 Dec 2005 20:08:36 PST
I like the fact that I don't have to work for 2 1/2 weeks. I don't work as much as some people, but I need the break.

I have been trying to find somebody else's problem field. Douglas Adams didn't give that great of instructions.

Classics and styles, peas in a pod.

I think that is how you say that.

My teacher completly agreed with my long artist statement. That caught me totally off guard. So I am feeling pretty good about myself.

I am taking ART 2 next semester. That is pretty much a freshman art class. I need a class to fill and I pretty much skipped art 2. So it looks like I will have taken all of the classess Senior High has to offer except ceramics 4. No regrets about that. I have learned what I needed to learn. Not about clay, assembleges and mosaics is my pick from the jukebox. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7312798/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7312798/ Wed, 14 Dec 2005 19:08:25 PST
By April I need to try and frame some of my paintings. For this "formal" type of art show requires your art to be framed. I think I need to get on that.

So my new camera is a pretty confusing one. I will slowly but surely understand this camera. I think I might actually post a couple of things tonight. I was going to wait for tommorrow when I get Photoshop CS. I get to learn how to use that program. So now I get to be a hippocrate on most things I stand for. But just about everybody is. So I guess I can follow the entire crowd. One person who I cannot stand what so ever still seems to amaze me on what he can do with photoshop. It's pretty intense.

Modest Mouse compared to Modest Mouse are two very different styles of music. When one listens to most of their other stuff compared to their new cd, you will hear two different styles of music. I would suggest But Nothing Out of Something or Everywhere and His Nasty Parlour Tricks.

I have been trying to put all my cds back on my computer. It's finding the motivation that is the frustrating part.

Clothes being tide to the roof of ones mouth is alot like being around the people who seem to try to amaze you to the sense that they can gain your respect by doing things or kissing your ass when when you really don't care. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7286538/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7286538/ Sun, 11 Dec 2005 20:16:44 PST
I also got my new camera. It is an Olympus E-500 SLR. Quite expensive but well worth the purchase. Now I can post on here again. Being without a camera since Asia has really sucked.

Everynight and day, I can remember most of my dreams. I used to not be able to. But now I can. It's really different. I think that when one studies surrealism to the extent I have, one begins to understand how dreams work. I bought a book called Zolar's Dictionary of Dreams...it's pretty much pointless. It was only a 1.50 at Hot Topic so it didn't really matter.

Audrey Hepburn In Pill Form is one of my favourite songs now. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7228534/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7228534/ Mon, 05 Dec 2005 11:48:26 PST
I saw walk the line. Amazing movie I must say. A little long, but very good.

I hopefully get my new camera this week, when that happens I will actually post something.

I had a dream that I was in Hawaii and a navy ship start shooting cannons at us. It felt kinda like dodgeball.

I just listened to Eifel 65, I am Blue baba de. That song is so catchy, I will probaly be singing it all day. Just cause I am cool like that I guess.

My friend says he has a crowbar, my other friend says he as a spork, well I say I have "your mom". Its just one of the common comebacks that don't really have any relavance. Relavance issues these days have no relavance to me. I don't think I spelt that word right.

I have a got a friend who is a monkey. His name is Alfred. He slept with me last night. Now I feel like a little kid with stuffed animals. So Alfred the monkey is my new trusted advisor....Hes gonna crack down. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7127562/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7127562/ Wed, 23 Nov 2005 21:50:21 PST
Things have been changing at a rapid pace lately. I've already got this jealousy thing happening torwards other people. I have not had that feeling in a long time. So now here is the jealous part of Jeremy. Lets all enjoy this. It will tend to get interesting.

Been reading alot lately. Reading about how to make a staircase look like it has no top nor a bottom. Trying to explore the infinite.

I retired my watch. That watch had been on my wrist for a couple of years. I am a brown person. Its been on there so long that I have a tan line on there still. Its almost winter. So now I have a new watch that I bought for 4 dollars at Hot Topic. I love it when that place has those huge clearences on clearenced items.

Tommorrow is Thanksgiving. I don't like turkey off of the turkey. I like when it is cut in the deli. Not as dry. Speaking of being dry, I have felt so dry and not inspired lately. But I think that will change when I get my new camera. I think that might be delayed though because my car is kinda messed up. It wasn't my fault. But let's make the common assumption that a kid driving is more at fault than an old ignorant lady that accused me of lying with the first five words that came out of my mouth. Yippy! I didn't get cited. Either did she. The cop says that we are both at fault. I still can't grasps this cops half-assed investigation that took him over a half an hour to get to the wreck. Didn't even write down all the info that we were supposed to have.

I have not had a great start to my weekend what so ever. This is supposed to be a good weekend. Its the big ol' five day weekend. I think I am going to try and coop myself in my house for the weekend. Just sit in my basement. That is all I want to do right now. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7113129/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7113129/ Tue, 22 Nov 2005 10:09:34 PST ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7088604/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7088604/ Sat, 19 Nov 2005 11:50:40 PST
I finished my meth horse. Its going to own your face when you see it. Because all it takes is one time for it to own you. I think there was some symbolism in that last sentence. That makes me pretty deep then.

I just finally realized how many journal entries I have posted on here. So that means I think you all should go here [link]

Last night there was a chill to my bones. I remember when I was a few years younger and the cold didn't bother me at all. Now I get cold a little too easy. I think that is a sign of age. Speaking of signs of age I am getting old. Along with everybody else.

I finding paranioc-critical activity as late being pretty fun. If it weren't so damn cold out I would have a better time.

This year I am mantaining grades for once. Last year was alright, year before not alright, year before that really sucked.

I look back at the way I used to be and wondered how anybody could have liked then. I think I just matured and perfer not to be dumb anymore. Although I do miss my braces, boots, spikes, patches, plaid, torn-up stuff, etc. I was pretty PAF. Now I am pretty much a wuss and pretty much as lame as it gets. I still have that fiery spirit to mean from time to time. But not as much. I think I realized I should stop trying to be and just be cool. Does that make sense?

Naming streets after trees we cut down looks pretty fun. I think I should be a lumberjack. Just cut down things, do the same thing from day to day, never have any adventures...

I love adventures. I love going on them. When I am with a group of people, I like to call it a fellowship. Man I sound like a nerd. But lately I have been taking the time to talk to the kids dubbed as "nerds". They may be nerds, but they really don't care. I really respect that. They don't change, They are always them selves. That is the coolest thing ever. So I guess I am not totally a nerd...but I'am pretty close to one.

Good times really did kill me. Now I go from always having to have people with me all time. Now I prefer to be in my basement. I love that place, its my home inside of home. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7039711/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7039711/ Sun, 13 Nov 2005 20:07:44 PST
Pencil makes a good black. I like all those pencil masterpieces that is just purely based off of a world in black in white.

Lately I have been having repetative dreams of riding down very long hills on random objects. One dream consisted of me on one rollerskate holding onto a shopping cart. Another consisited of me on a bicycle with a flat tire. I have no idea why i have been remembering all my dreams lately. But I am really liking it. Gives me something to dwell on while I am sitting in class.

So it takes two people to sucessfully screw in a light bulb. Its also fun to discover someone else's problem field. Its like two phantoms racing across the desert on a jib. How can two phantoms be racing if they are on the same jib?

I ask myself questions like this all of the time. I generally write it down in my sketch pad. Then I try to draw the question itself to help me better understand the question. Tommorrow I have to go to school just to get my picture taken for the yearbook. Iam cool, I am getting all of my Senior Photos done for free. By two different photographers.

Managing ventricular tacharrythmias is important because of association with sudden cardiac death. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7007846/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/7007846/ Thu, 10 Nov 2005 09:51:28 PST
So combining different contrasts of perspectives is dubbed very taboo these days.

20 days till my birthday. Ill be legal and I can do all those things that 18 year olds do. I probaly just gamble a bit. I have no idea how, but Ill learn. Learning and study different things is all I have been doing lately. I play some video games. But I read more and more.

Most all fairy tales have been proven wrong. I am going to prove that statement wrong. The air has been filling up lately, Its hard to breath. Just pointless words and beliefs filling the air with pollution. Kinda defeats the straight life.

My friend happens to be in a band with straight edge kids. We I guess they just don't completely fill out that commitment. That sucks, communism and euphoria are two different things now. So just turn back on that road less traveled and see where things end up. I think I am going to do that. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/6989756/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/6989756/ Tue, 08 Nov 2005 11:10:41 PST
Ive given out so much of my useless wisdom. I wonder what would happen if people actually used it. How much better the world would be if they did. I could see it. Then again I could just lock it all up, read more fortune cookies from my work and gain really no inspiration.

My computer had everything erased on it. iTunes is gone. All my photos and scans are gone. So it looks like Ill just have to wait until my birthday to get that camera. Ill be 18 in 22 days.

All kinds of people try so hard to be equivalent to others. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/6961550/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/6961550/ Sat, 05 Nov 2005 10:37:45 PST
I busted out the ol' lego set. I must say, they have got to be the best toys ever. Except for transformers and ninja turtles. Those were my favourite toys back in the day. Good times good times.

I forgot to mention, its windy enough outside that its making that howling sound. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/6924546/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/6924546/ Tue, 01 Nov 2005 09:49:15 PST
There was one dream. I was playing softball. I have never played softball in my entire life. Everything had a cold shade of purple to it. The Field did not have any type of fence or end to it. It was my turn to bat. All kinds of kids in the outfield. I could not reconized any of them, except one. He is a bigger kid. He had on a bear mascot suit on. Except it did not look like a suit. It looked like it was a part of him. So it was my turn to bat. I hit the ball. It flew farther and farther away. I started to run. Then the bear started to chase me. I ran first, then second. But instead of turning I just went straight. I kept running, I was so scared. I kept on running, next thing I know Iam on an icy cold purpley shaded color plane. Just going straight into a very bright light. The sky looked like it should have been moving. But it just stood still. Just like everything else.

I had this dream last night. My mom had boughten a new house. A kid I used to teach was to show me the house. Because the house I had moven into happened to be one of my very good friend's house. But it wasn't her actual house. It had a very different feel to it. None of the lights would turn on. It was like a maze. So many hidden compartments with different subjects in them. All of them had meaning at one point in my childhood.

This dream happened to be at night time. Like almost all of them are. I had gotten out of my car to walk around. As soon as I got out, I tripped. There were gigantic bats flying over head. Then all of a sudden everything had paused, just stopped moving. I ran in fear of everything going back to normal. But it didnt. Even the wheat that was being blown had stood still. A very good friend's house just happened to appear. But it wasn't his actual house. But for some reason I knew whos house it actually was. It felt comforting. As I walked in. None of the lights would work. But instead i could see shapes of people in the darkness. But the light from the moon wasn't touching them. Just stuff like tables and chairs. I walked out the back door, I was all of a sudden in a graveyard next to a river. And all my close friends, were all laying down.


In almost all of my dreams, none of the lights will ever work. But instead, the light of the moon will shine and guide part of my path. I can only think of one or two dreams that took place during the day. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/6880890/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/6880890/ Thu, 27 Oct 2005 09:50:20 PDT
Jack's Mannequin is just a rad band. just totally rad. so iam not taking the sats or the acts. iam already qualified to get in to any university here in the bigsky country. i guess i got good enough grades throughout highschool.

i watched edward sissorhands last night for the first time. pretty good movie. i also watched fern gully. both pretty intense movies.

i realized just now how pointless some "smart people" are. they are just plain stupid.

i like the fact that jenga is just a puzzle and logic unfolding. i used to play that game all time. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/6828727/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/6828727/ Fri, 21 Oct 2005 14:31:37 PDT
so sailing the streets like a hawk on a windy day is quite a good time. all i need is some new bearings and ill be like snakes on a plane.

ive been having more and more dreams that i can remember lately. they have been oh so great.

so useless toys are good to mosaic with. so that doesnt make them useless anymore. kinda like with tools, as people though. i wonder what it would be like if i mosaiced a person. would everything fall off? or stick together?

its kinda like a broken bulb at a fashion show, it doesnt look to great.

so my dream in life now is to spend all my lifes savings on a huge plasma screen television. well, i would pay for half. the better looking side of me would pay for the other. so when that happens, good bye.

cocaine blitz and dilloted traditions make for a fun hebrew festival. i wonder who would turn out for a televised event like that. they put everything else on tv. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/6790607/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/6790607/ Mon, 17 Oct 2005 09:52:23 PDT
marilynn manson once said that god is in the tv. dansun martin once said that god was in square cubes. Jeremy Pettibone says that he is not in anything but imagination. imagination is a very powerful thing. it is probaly my favourite thing in life. if i didnt have an imagination, i would probaly be in a wheelchair. why would i be in a wheelchair? because i would be that boring.

its a long way to the lake. its also a long way to the gates. i took a crap on the sands of time once. thats why my beard looks like a bunch of pubes. but am i going to shave it? no way, iam not going to give time the satisfaction.

suits are a man's identity. if they are important or not. me, i wear cowboy button up shirts. i dont think i will ever move back to the boots. too uncomfortable. i like my chucks, they mold to my feet. for optomum comfort.

i keep listening to neon blonde. i suggest you all take a gander at their beauty. photosynthesis is how plants eat right? i eat meat. i just really overly hate chicken breast. it is so gross. i like fried chicked, chicken legs, chicken strips. but i just hate chicken breast. i dont like shake n bake. i dont like bbq style. i dont like it italian style. i just plain dont like it.

i often wonder what it would be like to have wings growing about of my back. i wonder if it would be comfortable to sleep. i also wonder if i were flying through the sky if a hunter would shoot me down. out of the sky. would i be eaten? or would i be left for the dogs?

so ive met my fair share of cutters in my day. i wonder why sometimes? it doesnt relieve pain, it would bring even more i would think. is it for attention? a really good friend of my does that. i just wonder why.

jack white claims that the devil possessed his soul. but there is no devil. and if there is one, its man. we are god, the devil, and bob. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/6769090/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/6769090/ Fri, 14 Oct 2005 18:57:53 PDT
i asked him, what kind of people have legs? he said, "good people". that was it. then i asked him, what people look like snakes? he said, "different people". then i asked him, what kind of people have horns? he said, "mean people". then i asked him, what kind of people have lines? he said, "liars, like my brother."

this representation coming from a 4 year old was just amazing. i couldnt believe that a kid of this age could do art like that. it didnt look like scribbling either, you could tell he knew what to do. just to be able to justify everything like that. i was just taken back. and so i watched this kid draw some more. then he decided he wanted his coloring book.

at that age, i didnt know what art was. i could barely color in the lines. i still cant color inside the lines that well. coloring books to me are just hard. back then, i didnt color pictures i drew. i dont even remember if i drew at all. i know i did coloring books.

at my grandma's house she has all kinds of coloring books. this little hallway in her house she has pictures her grandkids colored or drew for her. i think iam going to color my grandma another picture. maybe this time i can color inside the lines. or not, it will look like my scribbles from way back in the day. ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/6742331/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/6742331/ Tue, 11 Oct 2005 18:33:46 PDT
id like to think ive doused a lot of fires this year. this year will probaly be my best year. unless somebody dies. that happened sophmore year. yeah, his birthday was the day after mine. its kinda strange. he was the only person i hung out with on my first day of highschool. he wore the tightest pants known to man. to get the off he had to cut slits...then to keep them on he had to put them on then sew the slits back together. it was great.

one day a hole ripped in his croch. he wasnt wearing underwear. he didnt even notice there was a hole there. long story short...he sait up front of his class and his teacher was too busy looking at his penis than telling him there was a hole in his croch.

so i thought of something, too many people use other bands lyrics to make their art. original ideas i must say...take anothers frustration and use it as your own. not unless your are interpreting a song...then its different. me, being a snobby artist. kinda like a snobby toy.

so all kinds kids nowadays, are just being so plain. what happened to all the zest? ]]> ~noplaceleft http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/6690429/ http://noplaceleft.deviantart.com/journal/6690429/ Wed, 05 Oct 2005 20:25:22 PDT
hardlines and piano wires are one in the same. nazis used them...

from drunken anarchy to strict dictatorship, i applaud you all. i really do. for stickin too it. now lets see how much longer it will all last. probaly not too to long id imagine.

so it already had its first snow. not very enjoyable. driving is primarily a secondary task. not last night.

so i want to meet walt disney. i also want to watch little nemo again. i dont think they have anything to do with one another. just like me and you. most people on here that i know personally are just mere aquatinces. .

straight forwardness and straight edge, both pretty much foolish.

but a yo-yo eventually always comes back. just like junkies. they cant stay away from it for too long.

knockin a some down for the cause is always a good thing. when it gets too be too much is when you need to watch yourself.

plastic barbies and dragon ball toys are the same. they are both fake and plastic.

little rascals the movie. can be very inspiring. best friends are like...bert and ernie, milli and vanilli. but i think one of the shot themselves. ]]> ~noplaceleft