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see you all in december! <3



]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/27043055/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/27043055/ Sat, 05 Sep 2009 20:44:05 PDT

um, not much else to say. 2 days til i leave OTL im gonna miss you all email me your new art so i can see it! xD

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/26968916/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/26968916/ Tue, 01 Sep 2009 23:53:40 PDT
i'd have a garden or something. and i'd make tons of plushies and make the woodland animals deliver them to the nearest town to be sent to friends to show that i do love them and am only in hiding to make their lives better.

i'd be a hermit until a grew a long white beard or died, whichever came first.

a lot of the time it seems that life would just be so much easier that way

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/26952097/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/26952097/ Tue, 01 Sep 2009 07:05:43 PDT LESS THAN A WEEK LEFT DD8

::USE ONLY THE FIRST LETTER OF YOUR NAME TO ANSWER THESE::

Your name: Alexis
A color: ...Amarillo? (lol, i cant think of any OTL)
A place: Alabama
A store: Anna's
A street name: Adam street
A famous female celebrity: Alexis Bledel
A famouse male celebrity: Ashton Kutcher
A band name: Aerosmith
A song title: Across the Universe
A drink: Absinthe
A boy name: Andres
A girl name: Angela
A car: Acura
A food: Applesauce
Something found in the bathroom: Aspirin
Something found outside: Air xD
Something you wear: Apron
A TV show title: America's Got Talent
A movie title: A.I.
A holiday: America day? (it exists in honduras )
Something you find in the kitchen: Apple xD
A job title: Actor
A state: Arkansas
A famous landmark: idk OTL
A notorious person: Alex Baldwin?
A mood: Apathetic
A weapon of choice: Axe
Something you shout: Amen
Reason for being late: Ate too much pie xD;
Book title: Alice in Wonderland

(had to use goggle for most of them OTL)

::Love::
What is the name of the person you love? ___
Do they love you back? probably not
What would you give for this person? <3
How Far would you go for this person? as far as i could
What do you love best about them? Everything
Do they make you smile? mostly
Do You Get sad when they are? yeah
Do you consider them a friend? :/
Would you trade this person in for anyone else? no
________________________________________ _______

Last December, what was your love life like?
same as always. non existent OTL

Where is your number one on your top friends list?
?

If you could pack up and move away right now, would you?
maybe

What time are you waking up tomorrow?
probably around 6 if they make me go to work D8

Will tomorrow be a good day?
prob. not 8/

Is your #2 single?
?

Has anyone said they love you in the last week?
probably. my family and stuff

Are you listening to music?
no

Are you the type of person who has a new boyfriend/?girlfriend every week?
NEVER had a bf.

Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
yeah...

Have any plans for tomorrow?
no

What are you looking forward to in the next month?
hanging with jessie, sending stuff to twinsy C8

Looking back, did you ever think you would be where you’re at in life now?
maybe

Do you remember the first time you kissed the 2nd to last person you kissed?
lip virgin

Last place you fell asleep other than your bed?
couch

What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
my back hurts xD

Do you have any nicknames?
not really

Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
um either my dad or chatting online with raincloud.

Who is the last person who texted you?
chuckie :3

Is anyone protective over you?
i dont think so 8(

Do you correct people when they make spelling mistakes on the internet?
depends

Were you single on your last birthday?
yeah

Are you afraid to tell your true feelings?
depends

Do you know how it feels to be cheated on?
not really

Are you waiting for anything?
yeah...

Are you happier now? Or were you happier 4 months ago?
4 months ago i was with my best friend so....

Ever been kissed under fireworks?
no

Is there someone you wish you could fix things with?
quite possibly

Whens the last time you wanted to punch someone in the face?
xD dunno. probably not too long ago

In the past week, have you cried?
i dont think so

If something was wrong, who is the first girl you would go to?
um...if i could, my twinsy <3 if internet access was a no, ashley.

Who do you know that can make you feel better if you’re not feeling happy?
jessie, ashley, my lovely dA girls <3

Has anyth... ]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/26847278/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/26847278/ Wed, 26 Aug 2009 22:55:13 PDT
anyways, update! wooooooo. even though lately only keihi has been reading my journals, cuz aguzz is busy with stuff, and i know twinsy just started college so of course she's busy too. i still miss you guys T^T

....um, im still kinda sad, but im getting over it, i guess.


dads letting me stay home tomorrow (yesssssssssssssssss! sleeping in!!!!!). i mean, im only volunteering, i should be able to not go at all when i dont want to xD

i leave the 7th, back to college. its less than 2 weeks from now D8

i mean, ive missed jess and i want to see her, but...i just really dont want to leave dA again. ppl stopped caring about my art while i was gone. now im lucky if i get even one comment per drawing. ;^; and its always more difficult to contact my friends outside of deviantart, cuz im so bad at emailing and my college monitors everything we send. OTL im really gonna miss you guys! never stop emailing me, ok?

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i love all of you who have stayed as sweet, if not sweeter, as the day i met you here on dA <3

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/26613128/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/26613128/ Sat, 15 Aug 2009 16:43:48 PDT
anyways, someone i watch did this meme with a friend, and i wanted to know if any of you wanted to do it with me? :3
[link]


<3

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/26560311/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/26560311/ Thu, 13 Aug 2009 00:59:48 PDT
but anyway, i've just noticed that like, none of my art is being viewed. i mean, it wasnt ever popular at all xD; but i at least got a couple of comments and stuff. and i love reading those o3o even if its somebody shouting pie for no particular reason xD

yeah. otherwise, just trying to enjoy my last few weeks of freedom. =3

love you guys! ive got to go sleep b4 my mom kills me OTL

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/26411366/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/26411366/ Wed, 05 Aug 2009 20:50:24 PDT
about a month until i go back. im partially sad cuz i liked lazying about all day xD but also excited cuz i get to see jessie again finally! and then sad again cuz i dont think ill be able to finish all the special things i planned for her T^T

ok, now, onto the point of the title! xD; i wanna get another dress made b4 i go back. if any of you guys are free/bored/feeling generous (xD), does anyone want to help me design one? cuz my designing is fail. and i really think any dress designed by you guys would be truly awesome ;3; just like a super quick sketch if you feel like it, and a color suggestion, and i would be eternally grateful! (and draw something for you o3o). so it would be like a trade or something i guess lD

and aguzz, i drew my superhero self xDDD i'll try to color her tomorrow or something =3

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/26323248/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/26323248/ Sat, 01 Aug 2009 18:00:46 PDT fill out so i can know all about you and stuff =3

1. Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favourite Film:
5. Favourite Song or Album:
6. Favourite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of dA?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favourite memory of us? (feel free to make up an elaborate story)
14. What is your favourite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake (or any other food)?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What is/was your best/favourite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/26311158/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/26311158/ Sat, 01 Aug 2009 03:35:42 PDT
sooo, i went to a museum today. meh, it was ok. our tour guide was wearing a mask though xD; i went to the post office, and twinsy's package thing is still not here yet D8 it kind of worries me

then i got to talk to my awesome roommate ^^ and i hurt my foot xD

i uploaded some more art today 8O hope you guys like it ^^ i also bought this cute read and black striped shirt type thing x3 just like Niiro OTL

luv u guys! <3

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/26141664/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/26141664/ Fri, 24 Jul 2009 00:28:51 PDT
i wanted to make some for a friend T^T

speaking of which, i have a random question for you girls =3

do/would you like to get roses? you know, like for your birthday or from a secret crush, boyfriend, etc. or do you think it an obsolete ritual or something? xP personally, i love roses. they're my favorite flower (though i hate their smell xD). but i have noone to get any for me T3T ...which is partially why im trying to make some myself xD

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/25947011/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/25947011/ Tue, 14 Jul 2009 16:32:21 PDT
so i just wanted to take a moment to write a journal saying how much i appreciate you three, who have been here for me no matter what, keeping in contact with me even when i've been busy and away at college.

i couldn't ask for friends more awesome than you guys ^^

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/25817862/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/25817862/ Wed, 08 Jul 2009 12:56:31 PDT

1. Do you sleep in your bra?:
nooooooooo. pain D8

2. Do you enjoy drama?:
no, i hate it. x_x

3. Are you a girly girl?:
not really.

4. Who was the last person you hugged?:
um........i think it was my little brother last night.

5. Small or large purses?:
i don't use a purse that often, but when i do, its small. i'd be embarrassed to have a large one xD

6. Are you short?:
xD yes, something Jessie never lets me forget <3(she's only a couple of inches taller )

7. Do you like somebody:
;_; ...no

8. What would you do if someone smacked your butt?:
in all honesty, i'd probably just glare at them x_X

9. Do you care if your socks are dirty?:
only if i've been walking around the house in them (our floor is so dirty xD). otherwise, not really xP

10. Do you dress up on Halloween?:
nope.

11. Are you double jointed?:
y'know, there's no such thing as double-jointed. those ppl are just REALLY flexible. i saw it on the discovery channel, i think xD; but no, im not that flexible

12. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?:
um....i guess sprawled across two chairs at my dining room table xD;

13. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?:
i don't think so xD;

14. Is there of rumor going around about you?:
im invisible.

15. Do you call anybody by their last name?:
no, but i've been told after a couple of years at PCC i probably wil o_o

16. How many guys will read this just because it says "Girl Confessions"?:
...none?

"X" Marks the Spot:
[ ] I do wear make up. (i fail at putting it on OTL)
[x] I have cried at a movie theater. (i guess i wasnt REALLY crying crying, but meh.)
[ ] I can put mascara on without opening my mouth.
[x] I get jealous. (T^T it's horrible, but i don't like sharing my friends.)
[ ] I think Johnny Depp is sexy.(xDD)
[x] I love to laugh.
[ ] I like death/grind/black metal.
[ ] I like rap.
[x] I like country (YES! Love it! xD)
[ ] I carry a purse.(sometimes, not much)
[x] I’d be lost without my computer. (my computer is my LIFE DD8)
[ ] I own a Spice Girls CD.
[ ] I own a Britney Spears CD.
[ ] I own a boy band CD.
[x] I get bored watching football. (sorry Jess xD)
[x] I’ve never been called a spoiled brat. (i think...)
[x] Guys are confusing. (T^T)
[x] I’ve been called a bad influence. (but it was jokingly xD)
[ ] I have/had a piercing other than my ears. (the pain x.X)

Come on ladies, be truthful!
1. What color is your bra that your wearing?:
tan xD yesterday it was orange and purple xD

2. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?:
hm...i focus more on hair style than color xD;

3. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?:
hm...maybe.

4. Do you have a best friend(s)?:
my jess-jess <3 ^^ and my lovely twinsy.

5. Have you ever had your heart broken?:
T^T

6. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?:
uh....no. i may be ugly, but im still a coward who will avoid going into surgery for ANY reason xD;

7. Do you like your life?:
well...i think i make it a lot more difficult than it needs to be, which makes those close to me have slightly more difficult lives too. and i hate that T_T but i love the time i spend chatting/emailing my dA friends, or hanging with jess stealing vacuum cleaners xD

8. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?:
i've never had a boyfriend to steal.

9. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?:
um....oh wait, yeah. xD it was one of those tiny inflatable pool things that we had in our back yard one summer a couple of years ago, and i didnt feel like going inside to change xD

10. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?:
i dont have many friends at all. =/ but the few i do have are mostly girls xD;

11. How long have you had Facebook?:
about a year, i think.

12. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?:
i dont...think i have.......

13. What are your biggest fears?:
unstable heights, getting some terrible disease, getting mugged, and many more o_o

14. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?:
yeah, many times T_T

15. Have you... ]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/25807929/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/25807929/ Tue, 07 Jul 2009 23:32:27 PDT
but that is obviously not the question

this is probably pointless cuz we'll prob never be able to do this, but imma ask anyway cuz im stubbornly hopeful over impossible things xP anyone know of any good cons going on in florida? preferably during december, but whenever is fine just so i can know xD

and in other news i am very sweaty right now and being eaten alive by mosquitoes DD8 and i gotta go wash dishes. T^T

im gonna hopefully go to the post office tomorrow and see if my awesometastic twinsy's package is here yet 8DD *can't wait*

they're easing up a little on the curfew for now. i think tonight it's 10:30pm to 4:00am. on sunday though it was 6:30pm to 6am...

i gotta go cleannnn. love to all! ^^ <3

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/25761224/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/25761224/ Sun, 05 Jul 2009 20:06:00 PDT

so...i dont even know where we are anymore...the OAS (OEA) 'suspended' Honduras yesterday, i think. BUT, pay attention here, when they told us the requirement for us to stay in was to bring back Mel, our president told them we were quitting. but they didnt accept our resignation from their little group cuz we were illegitimate or whatever by that point...basically, they said "you can't quit, we fire you" xD FAIL, OAS, FAIL!!!

...so, yeah, we're still in turmoil and stuff. keep praying this ends soon things seem to be getting worse. yesterday some of Mel's supporters pretty much rioted down the hill from our house. they wore red clothing and MASKS (why???), and carried sticks. they vandalized pretty much every wall from my house to about half a mile down the street. and yet the ppl against Mel know how to march peacefully, and have many more supporters.
how can the other countries just ignore this?? the ppl on the right side, the side of our constitution, are doing peaceful marches and being good examples. the ones who support Mel, however, are rioting and hurting ppl, destroying property, hiding their faces like the cowards they really are. >>

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now wahts happenin' in my life, besides this mess. i finished coloring two more drawings of my OC last night. i dunno when i'll be able to upload them, cuz my mom keeps using the comp to update everyone on whats going on. if you think i write a lot, you should see her emails xD;;
i, with the help of a couple of friends, have named the OC. D8 i know, shocker. anyway, her name is Niiro, which is japanese for red =3 one of my friends thinks its pronounced something like "neh-rou". i would be grateful to anyone who could confirm this

my shower is fixed, so i can take warm showers again! 8DDD its a...summer miracle! 8D

ok, gotta go. luv you all ^^

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lets see what ive been hearing...

there was a bunch of major protests yesterday by mel's supporters, and they weren't at all peaceful. we were told to go home early again to be safe -_-;

also, yesterday morning, an idiot soldier killed a guy who was blocking their way. the military was trying to get into hondutel to better control the communications and junk, and the workers were blocking them, and one wouldnt move, so it took one idiot to kill him and make this whole thing look worse. of course, ppl who side with mel are gonna just eat this up and use it against us -_-;;

today there's a PEACEFUL march by our governments supporters, and a lot of ppl that i know are there. let's hope nothing goes wrong.

most, if not all, central american countries are refusing to trade and stuff with honduras for the next 48 hours. D8

if mel was really such a great leader who was wronged and deserves to be put back in office, why is he supporting the countries who are doing this??? if he was a real leader, he wouldnt want his country to suffer just so he could get back in. think about it.

total power outages since this thing started: 4

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/25619052/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/25619052/ Mon, 29 Jun 2009 00:01:23 PDT [link] its a really good insight of whats REALLY happening here.

ok, lets start at the beginning. i've already told you guys about the cuarta urna and all that junk. well, that was supposed to be done today at 7 or something. ILLEGALLY too, because the supreme court researched FOR MONTHS in the constitution and everything, and they determined it would be illegal. but Mel (president) was on the TV and he was almost WHINING about how he was the boss and could do whatever he pleased, and that he was going thru with it. well, enough was enough, this morning at around dawn or something the military (with orders from both the legislative and judicial branch of the government, so noone can truly say this is a military coup or illegal! there's a reason for a constitution, and under ours, those branches have the authority to take the president out. its mostly set up this way becuz we've had many dictators, and this is to prevent it. and thats whats it doing. Mel wanted to become a dictator.). anyways, at dawn, they went into the presidents home and removed him from power. flew him to Costa Rica. Mel is claiming it was a brutal kidnapping, gunshots flying everywhere, but you can not trust ANYTHING that man says. he was doing dozens of interviews from the costa rican airport, and he was absolutely fine.

so after that, they cancelled the cuarta urna. a while later, the president of congress was sworn in as president, and will serve out the rest of Mel's term (which ends in january). now, almost all the news i've read is wrong. they did NOT have tanks in the street, it was NOT a military coup, and EVERYTHING was legal and goes according to our constitution. but the outside presidents would rather just sit there and say "oh, this is wrong, i won't recognize any government but Mel's". Even Obama. All these leftists are believing Mel's lies. And now Hugo Chavez has pledged his support to Mel or something, and is ready to freakin INVADE to help him get back in power. and if he invades, there will very likely be bloodshed. up til now, our military has done a fine job, noone has been killed. I actually think it would have been better if Mel had disappeared. that's how intense my dislike of this man is. The coming weeks will be tense.

Ok now that i got alot out of my system. yes, the honduran government may be doing some things wrong. in a country as corrupt as honduras, its a surprise we could even get this far. this morning, power was out around most of the country, and did not come back til about 11. this was said to be because they wanted to keep the news from spreading. then when it did come back on, the news stations were still cut off. there has been a curfew instated for the next two days from 9pm to 6am. and there is a lot of mystery surrounding a letter of resignation supposedly recieved from Mel, dated the 25th. Mel, of course, denies ever signing such a letter, but there are his seal and signature. we don't know any more info at this time. it doesnt really matter, becuz what Mel was doing was illegal anyway, but the supreme court is accepting it as legit. as of right now, noone can be sure if Mel actually signed it, or if its a fake made by the government. yes, the government is imperfect, but nowhere near as bad as Mel. Mel's approval rating was around 30% in recent weeks. The only ones who liked him were the poor, cuz he promised them all sorts of things for their support. He was going to use this cuarta urna as a way to make them rewrite the constitution so he could be president for more than the lawful one four-year term.

i just wish anyone outside of honduras would get their facts straight. almost everyone here understands what happened and that its legal, and they support it. ppl who are outside the situation have no business writing about it if they won't even research how our constitution is set up and how, under it, this is legal and all done correctly. please pray for us, with the threats of invasion and everyone misunderstanding what really happened, we're in a tight, dangerous spot. please.

i love you guys. i'll try to update whenever something major happens. let's all hope NOTHING major happens and this whole nightmare is behind us.

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...NOW WHERE THE HECK IS THE SUN?????? D8

*puts on potato ninja uniform and goes in search of lost sun*

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/25555974/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/25555974/ Thu, 25 Jun 2009 23:53:43 PDT
1. this country is in major trouble. -_-; they were discussing starting a curfew. and i heard rumors of them cutting off electricity. dont know how true that is though =/

2. micheal jackson and farrah fawcett. i didnt know much about them, wasnt their fan, but it still shocked me somehow.

3. i drew 5 drawings today, and i like ALL of them D8 tis the end of the world xD

ok, so about the drawings. i somehow created a new OC xD i dont even remember what i was doing, but i absolutely love her x3 she is KH based, and of course, an Axel fan-girl. xD but not an as crazy and obsessed one as me xP she wears the (in my opinion) oddest, awesomest clothes, and they're all black and red in honor of axel xD (i have mental issues). so, when i manage to scan the drawings, do you guys wanna see em right away, or wait for me to push them thru photoshop (which could take a while cuz im lazy)?

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/25530596/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/25530596/ Thu, 25 Jun 2009 02:27:08 PDT our president is really going off the deep end. pray for us and our safety!

so, i wont be able to hang with my friends until all this 'cuarta urna' junk is cleared up, cuz my mom thinks its too dangerous. not that any of them were anxious to see me >.>

well, tis 3:30 am, i should go to bed xD g'night. ^^

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/25407831/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/25407831/ Fri, 19 Jun 2009 03:32:04 PDT
xD jk. ^^ so, i got some horrible news today. im not in the nursing program after all cuz i failed english and yet...im not as bummed as i thought i would be. part of its prob. becuz jess and ashley helped me to see the bright side to having to wait a whole year to get in. and jess emailed me today, making me feel special ^^

anyways, i am now officially 19. time to grow up, stop watching cartoons, thorw out my teddy bears, and...WHAT AM I SAYING?????? xD im never gonna grow up, you cant make me! *stays up late watching phineas and ferb over and over again on disney xP*

anyways, i get to stay home tomorrow and sleep in 8DDDD and then on saturday go hang with some peeps at the mall or something *shrug*

potato sauce! <3

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/25352372/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/25352372/ Tue, 16 Jun 2009 12:57:05 PDT
whatever. i'm sick of myself and a million other things *disgusted*


in other news, the barcode scanner works again, so that makes my job slightly easier. im turning 19 in three days. my friend's turning 19 in two days. our washing machine's broken. i have no idea who these books belong to. i want to crawl into a hole and die. im very tired -_- everything i touch dies. i miss jessie

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/25247853/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/25247853/ Thu, 11 Jun 2009 04:02:04 PDT 8D
*trips on flat surface*

...ANYWAYS...

lol, ima post some ramblings here so i dont annoy the heck outta jess. xD i feel like im gonna get back and she'll take one look at me (or i'll say one sentence to her) and she'll run out screaming for a room change....sadly, im not completely kidding xD that is one of my fears OTL i know jess would never run out screaming from like...anywhere xD i just mean my fear is that SOMETHING like that will happen...

so, waht do i have to get off my chest....well, i REALLY have to pee right now xD pretendyoudidntreadthatD8 but i dont want to get up cuz my mom is guarding the door! >> well actually, she's asleep on the couch xD but if i make any noise, she's sure to wake up and yell at me and send me to bed xP THERE IS NO WORK TOMORROW 8DDD tis cuz our president is trying to alter the constitution to "improve our country" or whatever (really he just wants to change it so he can stay in office longer >.<, so ppl are marching against it or something. so school is cancelled for safety reasons 8D *doesnt have to get up at 6 AM now* and my dad and i had kinda a fight tonight >> i just meant that my college is really strict! i wasnt even badmouthing it, almost ANYONE who goes to that college will tell you its very strict, whether they like it or not. i LIKE it, ok! (its the only way i can see jess, plus, believe it or not, i have more freedom there than i do here OTL) he said it was the enemy trying to take hold of my mind OTL i just wanted to email my roomie! Dx (lol, ive prob. confused y'all by now xD moving on!)

also, i have. the. bestest. dA. friends. EVER. C= i did not think my twinsy could get any awesomer, but then she went and planned a super mega awesome thing for my birthday! 8DDD
and aguzz is making me get off my butt and draw a comic xD and keihi is also making me write a supertastic story for her x3 and then i must recreate twinsy's and my awesome random imagination land of random! xDD im gonna be so busy all summer!!! yay!!!! <3333

mega luv to you three!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3

and the big bang theory is awesome xD i just watched the one with the renaissance fair for the 2nd time xD i love sheldon x3

okies, i shall go off and stop typing random stuff now, and maybe even go to bed DDD8 ...nahhhhh xP

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i needs ideas for how to not lower my self-esteem xD cuz i seem to be doing that alot lately, and it really sucks. *nods* lol, its 5:30 AM xDDD someone's gonna get up and yell at me to go to bed soon, i just know it...

anyways, i was thinking, if i could actually accomplish something, maybe i wouldnt feel so totally worthless and down and full of cheese. but i don't know what i should accomplish xD so, if yer not too busy, throw your suggestions out there ^^ i was thinking maybe if i started/finished the 'surprise' things i wanted to make for jessie, i could say i had accomplished something...but i'm not in the mood for sewing or making the necessary patterns yet. and i need more felt xD maybe i just gotta wait for work to end so im not always tired and unmotivated

as always, much love to you all! ^^ even in the darkest of times, you guys manage to keep me going (which is not an easy feat) <3

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/25117139/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/25117139/ Wed, 03 Jun 2009 23:33:21 PDT
anyways, hello all. i love you all so much *tear slides down cheek all dramatic-like*. you're all so sweet. thank you again ^^

xD i just lost my hearing for a couple of seconds there. i should really go see a doctor, if only for peace of mind xD

si! KH 358/2 days came out in japan last week 8DDD there's this totally awesome dude on youtube who has been playing thru it and posting all of it! im to part 45 xDDD its so awesome, even if i have no idea whats going on half the time cuz its in japanese! x3

and im turning nineteen soon! DD8 im so ollllddddddd xD im turnin' nineteen on the nineteenth xD sure, im still not as old and decrepit as jessjess, but im close! D8 scary thought! xP ah, how i miss my lovely roommate...even if she is olddddd...

ima ask for a DS. but i prob wont get it xD so instead i'll just ask for the shower to be fixed so i dont have to freeze to get clean xD and i want to try to do a lil cosplay of Blood Rose, and make Henhen do Reno x3 i finally got to see Final Fantasy Advent Children, and i really liked it x3

okies, i have bored you enough! luv to all!!! <3

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im not sure whats wrong with me anymore. its just a myriad of things, i guess. and today my heart broke. no, not over a guy. i havent had any crushes in two years. that last one hurt too much. but thats not the point right now. anyway, there are many ways a heart can break. i dont really know how to explain this one, nor do i really want it here for the world to see. if you want to know, feel free to note me anyways, it was so bad, i felt nauseated, even after eating nothing all day. it felt like i could actually feel my heart splitting in two. even now, hours later, i still feel like throwing up when i think about it. i hate feeling this way >.< i care too much about stupid little insignificant things.

you guys know that saying, "you may be only one person in the world but you can be the world to one person"? i wanna be like that. but im never the world to anyone. i know, its kinda selfish on my part. and i dont think anyone even WANTS to be my world. i've had some friends i thought were, but they didnt really care about me. T-T

so...i dont know. does anyone know how to ease this pain?

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well, i leave things in your capable hands, twinsy x3

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/22641569/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/22641569/ Sat, 17 Jan 2009 20:49:06 PST .> xD anyways...i guess today was fun ^^ i got my dress and stuff. i went in the morning, but it needed a better zipper, and she decided it should be tighter too. i actually like how it fit on me, but w/e....she should have left it the same >> now, when i went to go get it, it was too tight, so we had to wait for her to take it out xD and it didnt fit perfectly in the right places anymore D8 (i.e. shoulders and bust Dx). but it still looks ok ^^ i must diet when i get back or something to lose some weight to make it look better xD;; i also got to eat out with some friends (only two, really xD), and then we shopped and walked around the mall. it was great fun. ^^ we hung out from like 3 to 9:30 xDDD

and now im tired D8 and waiting for henhen to call so we can go watch some late night movies b4 we both leave. <3

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/22625949/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/22625949/ Sat, 17 Jan 2009 02:16:17 PST
sho, it was a pretty typical day. my last day helping out at the school until my return in may and stuff. i gave the new librarian lady a red mini teddy bear that i made. she was really sweet to me the whole time i was here, and everyday had some little treat for me (candy, bracelets, food, apples xD, and even this cute sweater thing! <3).

and...omg, i think i have a crush D8!!! he's like superrrrr nice, and sweet, and shyish, and omg so cute!!! xD but i wont see him again in like forever, and he's going to the U.S. soon too! i just dont know where/why/for how long xD *fails*

anyways, after what seemed like eternity, we left the school to go pick my friend x3 so i finally got to see her! she looks so cute xD <3 anyways...then, we like went to get our friend kat-kat, and we went to youth group and stuff. (mostly cuz i HAD to say goodbye to Nestor *willmisshim*). and the youth pastor was all like keep in touch and stuff and i was like yeah...and yolany (head of like, plays or something xD) told me i have to keep her up to date on whats going on with me xP i hope i dont bore her xD then, we like...LEFT! D8 xD lawl, sorry, its 4 AM, im not making sense...

so, we got to the mall, right? and our aim was to convince mom to let us see twilight? well, mom was all like "dad already said no and i cant overrule him etc etc etc" and we were begging (my sister and i xD alexa and kat were standing off to the side awkwardly <3) and i was trying to explain that it was good, and they had let us watch far worse crap before, and so she called dad, and said, "nope, he still says no." so, we tried to see if anything else was on, but NOTHING worthwhile, and i just wanted to have fun and stuff, and this was ruining it D8 *whines* xD so then, I called dad and talked to him and stuff. to this moment, i have no idea what i said that made him say "is mom gonna be with you? let me talk to her" they talked a few minutes and she came back and said he had said YES!! 8DD omg, how did i do that???? the last time he let me have something i wanted so badly like that was like in 1st grade when we didnt have peanut butter for my sandwich, and i was all pouty cuz i didnt like the cafeteria food, and he actually went to the store, made the sandwich, and brought it by at lunchtime x3

..what was i saying? xD oh, right. so, we went in and junk, and had to wait like half an hour for it to start. the random previews were hilariously corny xD they were "did you know...?" type things x3 then...it started!!!! 8DDDDD

well, aside from the fact that it annoyed me every time they did something/didnt do something that was in the book (cuz im weird like that xD did it for lord of the rings as well orz), it was pretty good ^^ i think they could have gotten a better Edward though :/ and bella was too perfect IMO, but thats just cuz i already had this picture of her in my head and this Bella was nothing like that xD;; um.. and i think they killed a teensy bit of the romantic aspect of it. like, when he was all *grab arm and yank into forest* "you have to see what i look like in the sunlight NOW!" (or something like that)...yeah, that wasnt romantic at all xD;

when i saw the like, posters, i thought Jasper wasn't good-looking at ALL. i thought they had made a horrible choice or whatever. but then i actually SAW him. they just did REALLY bad lighting on that poster, cuz he is hot! xD i loved his character and all (though, yeah, they didnt even mention his special ability...). and emmett was also hot xP and James. you just gotta admit it xD poor alexa, she was sitting next to me and had to endure all my whispers throughout the movie, how "that didnt happen!" or "aw, mike's so cute" or "he's too poor to afford a special hand-pedal car!!" xD yeah. but all in all, i loved the movie, and will try to buy it for myself if i ever get the chance =3 much love once again to my twinsy for starting me in this fandom! <333

tomorrow i gots lots of stuff to do!!! i have to go get my formal dress (D8 i hope it turned out ok...), i have to buy the honduran junk for my roomies, i gotta get some heels for the dress (xD), bake a cake and cookies with my dem-dem for one last time (8(), and go have a hello/farewell thing at pizza hut with some friends xD *tired just thinking about it*

sorry for the super long journal! im trying to make up for lost time! xP

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welll, i would post it, but:

-no scanner 8C
-i cant take a pic and edit in photoshop cuz my sis totally just wrecked my mom's laptop, which is where the PS is DD8

sho....sorry T.T

its in my back pocket right now 8D oh, how i luv my jeans <3 i will miss them T^T

anyway, it is a drawing of the main characters of my story 8D i like the guy's hair x3 and her hair sucks like...alot xD but i dont care xP and i cant draw male bodies, wtfan???? T^T

...anyways...yesh ^^

this is my roomie: [link]

go bother her!!! *commands you*


....and ignore all she says about me xD TIS LIES!!!


much love to all! ^^

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/22535853/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/22535853/ Mon, 12 Jan 2009 00:24:07 PST
well...yeah, im feeling better and stuff <3 i dont know why... *ignores the fact she just scouted out tons of awesome axel art *.* * x3

*coughs* anyway...im leaving the 18th...next sunday D8 im gonna miss you all so much! if you dont have it yet and want it, note me this week for my other e-mail ^^ i cant use my hotmail one when im at school. and email me every day! xD i'm taking some good ref pics with me this time so i might actually draw something that doesnt totally suck! 8DDD just, i got there and realized i had NO good ref pics of guys so i could draw and stuff...and what was i gonna do, go up to my male classmates and say, "i love your body and want to scrutinize every detail and draw it and stuff can i please have a pic of you topless??!??!?" xD i can imagine their horror. and i cant search for images there. its all blocked *shrug* i've gotten used to it, really. i still really miss you guys though T.T

so, you want to see more of my *crappy* art when i get back, e-mail me pestering me about it! xD maybe it will be the motivation that i need ^^

and if anyone knows of any stock galleries and stuff that have AWESOME poses, let me know!!!! i really need to stock up before i go xD

lol, im still up at 4 AM looking thru ppls faves for KH and twilight stuff xD so annoying when the favs arent organized, but i understand that ppl dont have the long periods of nothingness that i do x3

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Alguna vez has..?
100% es vidaaaa

[ ] espiado el fotolog/facebook/myspace/otro de tu ex, para saber de su vida
[x] espiado el fotolog/facebook/myspace/otro del nuev@ polol@ de tu ex
[ ] espiado el fotolog/facebook/myspace/otro de el ex del nuev@ polol@ de tu ex
[ ] inventado un MSN falso para molestar a tus amigos
[x] pasado más de 5 horas consecutivas en el PC o viendo TV
[x] pasado más de 1 hora hablando por teléfono
[x] pasado más de 3 días sin salir de tu casa sin estar enfermo
[x] hecho bromas telefónicas
[x] hecho bromas telefónicas a familiares o amigos
[ ] hecho bromas telefónicas a tu misma casa desde un telefono publico

PORCENTAJE HASTA AHORA: 94% (...creo xD)

[x] tenido un amigo imaginario (jessica xD lawl)
[x] jugado solitario con cartas
[x] jugado solitario en el PC
[x] bailado frente al espejo
[ ] y encima grabarte haciendolo
[x] grabado tu voz sólo para escuchar como suena
[x] hecho más de 3 notas de facebook diarias NO.
[x] hecho "art attacks" (...)
[x] inventado un nuevo idioma (xD)

PORCENTAJE HASTA AHORA: 86 %

[ ] llamado y cortado al chic@ que te gusta
[x] dejado mensajes anónimos
[x] intentado armar un cubo de Rubik
[ ] haber podido armarlo.
[x] pintado los cuadraditos del cuaderno
[x] dibujado caricaturas del profesor
[x] inventado sobrenombres al profesor
[ ] pegado un cartel de "pateame" o "soy maricon" a alguien en la espalda (u otro insulto)
[ ] pedido un autografo a un famoso
[ ] esperado más de una hora despues de un concierto sólo para pedirle un autografo a un famoso

PORCENTAJE HASTA AHORA: 81%

[ ] ido fuera de los canales de televisión para pedirle el autografo a un famoso
[x] sido parte de un fan club
[ ] hecho un fotolog de fan club
[ ] llegado a un concierto 3 horas o más antes de que comienze
[x] hecho angelitos de nieve o arena
[ ] salido solo a caminar
[ ] espiado al vecino
[ ] grabado al vecino
[x] tenido un diario de vida desde los 8 años o antes

PORCENTAJE HASTA AHORA: 78 %

[x] sabido una canción de memoria (una sola?)
[x] en otro idioma ( en un solo idioma?)
[ ] que no sea inglés
[ ] en chino o japonés
[x] hablado solo
[x] hablado con un animal
[x] hablado con tus peluches
[ ] hablado con las plantas
[x] besado una fotografia
[x] hablado a una fotografia (xD no tengo vida)

PORCENTAJE HASTA AHORA: 71 %

[ ] .. imaginado que la fotografía te responde
[x] pasado la noche despierto solo para ver el amanecer
[x] dormido más de 15 horas
[ ] soñado despierto las 27 horas del di-- 28.*
[x] soñado que te casas con alguien
[ ] jugado al kino
[ ] todas las semanas por mas de dos años
[ ] hecho los crucigramas del diario
[ ] guardado el crucigrama hecho hasta el dia siguiente para comprobar las respuestas
[x] leído diarios antiguos

PORCENTAJE HASTA AHORA: 67%

[x] recortado reportajes que consideraste interesantes
[ ] tenido fotos de famosos en tu pieza.
[ ] comprado revistas (Tu, Cosmopolitan, etc) y leer los "consejos para seducir al sexo opuesto"
[ ] intentado aplicarlos
[ ] anotarselos en los brazos para no olvidarlos en el momento
[ ] juntado con alguien que has conocido por MSN
[ ] ..y terminar pololeando con el (ella) *pololear?*
[ ] tenido un ciber novi@
[ ] ..de otro pais
[x] haber escuchado la misma canción más de 3 veces consecutivas

PORCENTAJE HASTA AHORA: 65%

[x] cantado en la ducha
[x] bailado en la ducha
[x] .. hacer las dos cosas a la vez
[x] inventado un esquema de baile
[x] .. por iniciativa propia
[x] leído un libro de más de 300 páginas
[x] .. por iniciativa propia
[ ] estudiado materias de cursos superiores al tuyo
[x] sabes decir algo en una lengua muerta (latín, griego, sanscrito, etc) (lawl, cogito, ergo sum)
[x] haber hecho el test de las 450 preguntas en facebook

PORCENTAJE HASTA AHORA: 56% pum para arribaa

[x] tenido un Playstation
[ ] .. y más de 50 juegos
[x] coleccionado algo
[x] leído las calorias de algun alimento
[x] .. y los ingredientes
[ ] sentirse identificado con muchos de los grupos de facebook
[ ] hecho un huevo al microondas
[x] hervido agua en el microondas
[x] visto la misma película más de 3 veces
[x] intentado chuparte el codo
[x] has leído cosas mientras estas en el baño, mientras te cepi... ]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/22478774/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/22478774/ Thu, 08 Jan 2009 21:10:11 PST
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...no xD

actually, i have a reason this time. my best like, guy friend ever, is moving to South Africa 8( like, that's soooo far away, and it would be especially hard for him to come visit Honduras, so i dont know if i'll ever see him again TT____TT i dont know the details really, he just came in today and told me. then he gave me a hug and i said we have to make lots of cookies first xD and he said cake too. x3 but yes. he leaves like the day after i go back to college D8 yeah, my henhen is only 13, but he is wise beyond his years. wiser than me at least xD ...except when he's stupid xD (like when he invited us over to make cookies and had like nothing to bake with xD). but yes, he has helped me with my depressiveness many times. i cant imagine life without him T.T

(if you're wondering who the heck im talking about, he's also my demdem [link])

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/22425318/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/22425318/ Mon, 05 Jan 2009 22:56:37 PST
whats up and stuff? i am doing ok, trying to get rid of all the freaking devwatches i have (so far ive gotten rid of about 3,000. i have 8,998 to go D8). i havent even made a dent in my message inbox xD

um...what else. well, i think i've figured on a dress design. its absurdly plain, and probably won't come out the way i imagine it, but its not like i have any guy or anyone i want to show off for xD no guy would ask me to the fine arts anyway, i'll just end up going with my roomies, which is usually fun anyway. i still wanted to feel pretty for once though -_-;

also! i've started writing again 8D i hadnt written anything in forever, so this is helping with my feeling of low self-esteem...kinda. i hope i can think up a good ending. you probably won't be seeing it for a while though, i don't want to start posting chapters until i'm completely satisfied with it (read as "until it's completed"). i do this because a) you guys have better things to do anyway, and b) im afraid i'll drop the project and leave you guys with no ending, and i dont want to do that. so, if i finish it while im at college, i'll email it to my twinsy to post it for you guys ^^ if not, i'll *hopefully* have it done by the time i come back in...may, i think and i might post drawings of the main character and others if i have time b4 i leave ^^ (so far i only have 2 characters in the story, and 5 pages written.) so...yeah x3

oh, and if anyone wants to proofread it and give me ideas or something, just tell me ^^ only if you really want to though, i dont desperately need someone to do it x3 its just an offer ^^

i think that's all...^^

luv y'all! <3

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/22365872/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/22365872/ Sat, 03 Jan 2009 01:04:02 PST
it seems like i've been a very unresponsive potato lately. *coughprobablycuzimdeadinsidecough* so, sorry im a horrible friend and artist and everything..bah! not rant time....anyways, i hope that you are all having a good weekend and stuff ^^

my mom keeps bugging me to find/make a dress design for a formal to take with me to college for those random events we have...and i'm just SO uncreative i cant think of anything. i mean, some girls would love this opportunity, to have a dress they design made for them, but i just cant think of anything >.< any suggestions? it can't be more than four fingers lower than the collarbone and no thin straps or anything. im thinking orange would be awesome (duh) or like an amazing crimson red so i'd look like a blood rose 8D except im so fat i just make everything look horrible T^T even pretty dresses. *sighs*

...oh, good news...i guess. i saw some awesome twilight fanart that has inspired me to attempt to again make something thats not total crap ^^ *willprobablyfail* so...here's hoping? *shrug*

so, um....whats up? xD

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/22316279/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/22316279/ Wed, 31 Dec 2008 21:11:55 PST
i has a headache D8 it hurts T.T

anyways, highlights from 2008:

got accepted at that college i go to, got a scholarship type thing, grew closer to my dA friendlings, left for college, got used to college, made new friends at college, missed dA terribly, gave up on love (xD), learned to be more independent, walked 6 miles in one day, started a potato trend, took my first airplane ride without any parents, fell in love with Twilight, got into the Invader Zim fandom, got a roomie that i am so alike to its scary (she's not much like me...its hard to explain. she's too carefree to be like me. i worry about everything and other stuff. the only one almost exactly like me is my dear twinsy ^^), and a bunch of other stuff that i cant remember. so, it was an ok year, i guess ^^ the year of Axel, too. I am very scared to see what comes in the year of Demyx D8

luv y'all, hope your year is fun and stuff. ^^

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RULES:
Do the "Letter MEME". Tag no less than 5 other people, and leave them a comment, informing them that they have been tagged. Then copy the "How-to" Letter Meme, and finish your Journal entry.

-> How you do the Letter Meme:

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your journal):

I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .

___12___,
-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister


2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes


3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife


4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out


5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk


6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed


7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks


8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service


9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college


10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell... ]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/22271387/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/22271387/ Tue, 30 Dec 2008 00:20:06 PST
*sigh* i'm just a weird little ball of angst, aren't I? i dont even know what the tartar sauce to write >_>; i haven't drawn anything in awhile, or anything acceptable in even longer. not that i was ever any good at it anyway >< im just so uninspired. and useless. and alone T.T i've only seen like one of my 'friends' since i got here, and who knows how the heck im gonna see everyone else, not that they'd want to see me. and i've got such a horrible self-image right now. im so fat and gross Dx and i never get anything right.

...i think im gonna go play mindless games and drown my sorrows in crappy chocolate and just get fatter >>. later.

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/22209740/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/22209740/ Fri, 26 Dec 2008 12:54:47 PST
anyways, what did y'all get for Christmas?

lessee....i got cashews (seriously xD they were wrapped up and everything xDDD), leggings (for when i go back to PCC and freeze xD), new headphones (my sis broke mine while i was at college), a pretty necklace thing, and some random gold bunny billfold thing from a friend xD my mom says we gotta go shopping to get the clothes i wanted =3 i asked for a nintendo DS, but knew i wouldnt get it *shrug* my plane ticket back was expensive >-< i also got a Twilight shirt and Christmas toe socks from my roomie Jessie and her mom, but that was before i left PCC a few weeks ago =3

sho yes, it was an ok Christmas, not the best ever, but twas fun luv y'all! <3

POTATO!

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/22154747/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/22154747/ Wed, 24 Dec 2008 02:00:04 PST
ANYWAYS! i hopes you all has the bestest Christmas evur!!!! 8DDD

...geez, i sound retarded D8

...

xD

anyways (again) i luv y'all so much!!!! you're all like, so epically awesome, you dont even know!

I'm thankful for (yeah, i know this is thanksgiving-ish, but i wasnt here for that, so shut up! xD)

- the BESTEST twinsy ever in existence of the whole wide history of the universe *megatackleglomps* 8D she is like, so awesome, i dont deserve anyone as sweet as her <3 always there to make me feel better, draw me epic stawfs of epicness, and OMG introduce me to Twilight and get me the books!!!! 8DDD i will never be able to thank you enough, twinsy!!! <3 ^^ i luffles you so much!!!

- the awesomest argentinian ever xDDD Aguzz, eres como que, tan genial! x3 and so sweet too! even includin mah ugly face in your pretty drawings <3 Hermanas en Cristo! x3 <3 le agradezco a Dios por darme alguien tan especial <3

- Cheihi! of course i could never forget you =3 you are such a talented writer, wise beyond your years and stuff <3 and such a sweet and caring friend, too. i luffles you! you shall be the maid of honor at the wedding! ;D

- my awesome roomies who got me thru my first semester of college! LOL, you probably wont listen to me and check out my dA cuz you're all lazy lil potatoes, but i still loves you x3 thanx for keeping me from death and giving me candy, and not killing me when i was jumping off the walls and hiding pickles in your beds =3

and all my other awesome friends here on dA! i dont have time (or enough brainpower x3) to mention each and everyone of you, but you have touched my life is such an extreme way. i luv all of you!



Merry Christmas!!! <3

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]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/22084144/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/22084144/ Sat, 20 Dec 2008 11:43:41 PST
-I absolutely ADORE the Twilight series, thanx to my too-awesome-to-be-real twinsy ^^

-I now really enjoy Invader Zim, thanx to my insane roommate Jessie xD WHO ARE YOU??!?!?!?

-i have a mac and its pretty o3o i think my dad was trying to buy me off so i'd come back xD

-i hasnt drawn anything acceptable in forever D8 and im totally out of practice with photoshop. so, I REALLY want to do Christmas presents for my loving friends, but i can't promise i'll be able to *hangs head in shame*

-ummmmmmm, i like potatoes?

so, yesh, that is the haps =3 if any of you know some really epic twilight fanartists, let me know!!! i must feed this obsession xD

luv y'alll sooooooooooooooooooo much! <3333

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/22077689/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/22077689/ Sat, 20 Dec 2008 00:58:23 PST
anyways, i was taggled by ^^

1. Post the rules listed here
2. Each person tagged must put 8 random facts about themselves
3. Tags must write a journal about these 8 facts
4. At the end post list 8 people you tag.
5. Finally, go to their page telling them they're tagged

1. I like potatoes 8D
2. i have started a potato trend at my college, and it is awesome x3
3. i dont like scary water slides D8
4. i am sooooo glad to be back
5. im gonna be so sad when i leave T.T
6. i think everyone i know IRL hates me or finds me annoying 8D
7. I luffles my twinsy very much <3 she is the sweetest person evar and i could not go on without her <3
8. i like staying up very late 8D

...i dont tag anyone cuz i dont wanna! 8D and its 3 AM....


luv yall!!!! <3

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]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/20458536/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/20458536/ Fri, 12 Sep 2008 16:55:29 PDT k8y411. Lexi just wanted me to tell you guys she cant log onto dA and she also cant log on to any email accounts other than the one she has with her college. If you really want to email her, note her or me and I’ll find out if she feels comfortable with you having it.
she misses all of u guys ^^

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/20309748/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/20309748/ Wed, 03 Sep 2008 15:11:08 PDT
luv y'all!!!

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/20260397/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/20260397/ Sun, 31 Aug 2008 21:00:33 PDT
lol, hi random ppl that i love! <3
well, im here in florida somewhere (had no idea where until about an hour ago xD). lets see....we drove to San Pedro at like 6, so didnt get there til 10, and had to go directly to the airport instead of the hotel -_-; san pedro has a horrible airport, remodelling going on everywhere and stuff Dx um, said bye to mom like 5 times xD she wouldnt let go, even though it was like 11 and she had to find the hotel! xD it was sweet though. she cried, my sis cried...i felt like crying, but didnt cuz i suck like that xD no, i just knew i wouldnt b able to stop if i started. so i saved it for today alone in the bathroom xDDD my eyes got so red, i had to upplay the headache i had to explain it to my dad...well, the headache was painful anyway...
getting back to whatever i was typing about...well, waited in airport, got on the spirit plane, twas kinda small...im scared of flying...well, mostly just taking off, turbulence, and landing...um....slept a little...i havent slept much in the past 4 days....got here, did stuff. hmm....XD lawl, so much has happened....and its midnight....ok, ill type more tomorrow if i get time....which i prob. wont.....so...its boriing junk anyway xD

ok well, goodnight! n_n

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/20213673/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/20213673/ Fri, 29 Aug 2008 06:00:22 PDT and (some time ago x3)

1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about themselves on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs

1. I got my hair cut yesterday.
2. I spent most of yesterday talking to my empty house xD twas fun!
3. I hung out with my dear friend ~Fairyjar18 yesterday, and realized how much i will miss her ;_;
4. I am hopelessly addicted to Axel x3
5. I am leaving today for college D8
6. I didnt sleep at all the night b4 yesterday. i went to bed, but just couldnt sleep.
7. I usually look like a sloth when im sitting next to my friends xD (they all wear nice clothes and i just throw on jeans and some random t-shirt)
8. I got up (gave up sleeping) at 7 yesterday and FINALLY got my clothes ready to be packed (still havent packed em xD). by 11, i had absolutely NOTHING to do (other than sewing, but my friend was coming over and i didnt want to make a bigger mess). it amazes me how much i got done just cuz i got up early xD

i tag...noone! x3 everyones done this like a million times, and im too lazy to write out usernames right now x3

news: well, you all knew this i guess xD i leave today! at around noon i think, we (my parents and siblings)drive up to San Pedro (which is like near the northeastern coast of honduras...i think x3). thats like...3 hours away...i think. (we live like right smack in the middle of Honduras, far away from any beaches xD). then at 1 a.m. my plane takes off, and i think i get there at like 6 a.m. (time differences FTW xD). my dad is the only one taking me up. we have to shop and stuff. i dont know about internet access, and then once i actually move into my dorm, i dont know about logging onto dA. sooo...hope with all your might that i can? x3 cuz dA is like...soooooo much of my everyday life. all my greatest friends are on here, whether ive ever met them in real life or not. it would be too terrible to lose them!

if i dont log on after this week, feel free to email me at overladyofdreams@yahoo.com to ask why xD make sure i know who you are though! i get lots of spam on that account (hence me not using it much and giving it to all of you). or if you know my hotmail address email me there

hugs to all of you just in case! i'll b answering as many messages as i can b4 my mom whisks me away to go see relatives b4 i leave

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/20194727/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/20194727/ Fri, 29 Aug 2008 06:15:33 PDT
i give my journals random names a lot xD

anywayz, i am writing a journal about some of my basic interests.

Why?
- my twinsy wrote one once and she's awesome x3
- have you ever wanted to make something for someone but wasnt sure about a certain detail? like their fav animal? but if you asked them you would totally ruin the surprise? EXACTLY. (p.s. i suggest you guys do a journal like this too. never know when a friend might want to surprise you with something x3)
- im bored and procrastinatin' xD

sooo, let the stuff begin!
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*Appearance*
Hair: dark brown, turns lighter if im in the sun alot
Eyes: dark brown
Skin: tanned and oliveish?

*Favs*
Fav. color: orange! <3 ...then scarlet red, black, purple...bright green's cool too
Fav. type of pet: cat
Fav. animal: humming birds and tigers
Fav. restaurant: Taco Bell, Sonic, Cracker Barrel
Fav. ice cream: chocolate chip, cookie dough, the one with lil peanut butter cups <3
Fav. websites: dA, facebook, neopets, moviemistakes.com
Fav. Food: tacos, sweaty chicken, waffles, toaster streudels (sp?), oatmeal raisin cookies, PIE, cheesecake...other stuff? xD im a picky eater.
Fav. Music: a lil bit of everything xD especially country x3
Fav. number: i dunno. x3 i like the number 17, i guess xD
Fav. weather: i like when its warm and sunny especially if i have a chance to get wet (swimming, water fight, even doing he dishes sometimes xD)...and sometimes when its sunny and it randomly starts raining xD
Fav. smell: hmm... i guess the smell of baking (cookies, muffins, etc). thats a really nice one
Fav. school subject: well, atm i dont remember what subjects im taking this semester xD but, ive always loved english class. getting to read and write is just so fun for me (but ive always hated book reports xD i always read the book in the first day and didnt finish the report until the night b4 it was due.)
Fav. day of the week: x3 well, ive always loved fridays. saturdays come in close second, but on fridays, i just get so happy cuz the week of working on whatever is over and its relaxing time x3

*random junk i dont want to categorize xD*
hobbies: drawing, writing, dancing, stalking, making plushies, baking.
Obsessions: emo guys, vampires, internet, DP, KH, Psych, etc
Tv shows: DP, FOP, Phineas and Ferb, Dancing with the Stars, Psych, Monk, Burn Notice, Big Bang Theory, How I Met Your Mother, Gilmore Girls, Scrubs, etc.
Movies: ...A LOT xD
Books: Speak, Lord of the Rings, Gathering Blue, The Giver, etc.

(if you can think of any other basic interests i should write here, let me know )

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/20176846/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/20176846/ Wed, 27 Aug 2008 00:14:47 PDT
b4 i begin though, i'd like to say that im feeling better =3 screw that person, if they want to act all retarded (god, if you only KNEW what that person did! >.<, thats their decision. i tried to work it out, but no. so whatever. i wont miss them. thanx for the support, guys!

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1. i actually woke up at 9 today 8DDD
2. i actually did all my chores! 8DDDDD
3. i didnt work on any plushies like i had planned to
4. im gonna work on them tomorrow
5. i love making and planning things for my twinsy x3
6. bees scare me D8
7. i spent most of this morning talking to myself out loud and wishing i had a video camera xD best morning ive had in a while.
8. i actually planned out a short video dedicated to my peeps here on dA xDDDD
9. i love dancing around like a lunatic...when noones watching
10. i wish i could find a guy to "ballroom" dance with.
11. i actually knew a guy who could dance...but he sucks and i now hate him anyway.
12. i really want to read Twilight
13. i've liked vampires for a while
14. i wish i had a pirate costume
15. i can actually sing well, but cant do it in public >_<
16. i can sing boys' parts better than girls' parts.
17. i cant do high notes
18. i can actually dance half well
19. i sorta collect beanie babies with my sister xD
20. i want to save up to buy an axel wig
21. i wanted an axel action figure for xmas...but mom said no T_T
22. now i want sims just so i can download axel's hair and have my won virtual axel xD
23. ive been practicing realism, and i dont suck as much as i thought
24. i cant draw faces to save my life
25. my dA friends know way more about me than my real life friends.
26. i have problems with actually talking to ppl, no problems typing to them x3
27. i love cats
28. i used to have around ten cats
29. my cats get stolen alot T.T
30. i buy anything i can thats orange
31. i even wash dishes with orange dishsoap x3
32. my fav outfit to wear is loose jeans and a boston t-shirt
33. i hate talking on the phone.
34. ppl ignore me alot -_-
35. i sleep every night with Teddy
36. Teddy is a stuffed bear i got at JC penney's about 16 years ago.
37. he was nameless until i was 6 x3
38. there are few books that i really hate.
39. i like almost every book i read
40. i wrote a story about a girl getting raped or something, but i dont know if i should post it.
41. i would upload my original stories if i had the time to update them with new chapters.
42. since im lazy, i dont have time to write....?
43. i dont want to get you guys interested in a story and then have to wait forever to find out what happens next.
44. im waiting for my twinsy to upload her fanfic b4 i upload Blood Rose's background story, just so i can fix any connections i might have messed up xD
45. im usually the one who names our cats
46. im a terrible namer: snowball, snowflake, Miss sweetie pie, sunny, stripes, kink, tigger, midnight, etc
47. i used to have a german shepherd who was afraid of kittens x3
48. i like climbing trees.
49. i have never needed any form of surgery.
50. i have never broken a bone.
51. i've never gotten stitches.
52. i like jumping in moonbounces x3
53. i wish i knew how to do flips.
54. i love singing along to disney classics x3
55. i have an overactive imagination
56. im terrified at the thought of needing an appendectomy or tonsilectomy.
57. i dont like needles -_-
58. i scratch the crap outta my arm to keep me from screaming when my dad acts like a jerk or something.
59. i have a slowly fading scar from doing it two days ago.
60. i hate my body -_-
61. i used to like my nose, but not so much anymore.
62. i love doing arts and crafts
63. i LOVE candy
64. i LOVE taco bell.
65. i think the Cracker Barrel is made of awesome.
66. i often wonder why we dont have any down here.
67. i was terrified of dogs when i was little.
68. i always wanted a cat, but we lived in an apartment, soo...
69. i finally got a cat when we moved to honduras and i was 8.
70. i HATE mosquitoes
71. i am running out of things xD
72. i think Axel is total hotness.
73. i want to buy a commission from =<... ]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/20157624/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/20157624/ Mon, 25 Aug 2008 21:29:55 PDT
*sigh* 4 days left. i still have some friends i havent seen, but im not really sure i want to anymore. i kinda just want to chill and...well, not leave. its just, i saw my friends the other day, and it ended on a good note, until later that night. i hate how one person can just ruin everything -_-;
now, it seems im trying so hard to see some friends, and they dont give a %$&# about seeing me. at least, it seems that way, cuz they're "too busy". im leaving for 4 months, and they're too busy to see me? -_-; except Dinoh, shes in exam week, and she said she's willing to give up her studying time to come see me . at least someone in this country cares.

oh yeah, and our president is a jerk. he gave the government workers a day off today, and bussed hundreds of ppl from around the country in to support some random thing. i cant remember, its something stupid. the point is, he paralyzed the freakin economy today for his own gain. and he's becoming very close friends with the presidents of communist countries >___< there were a bunch of ppl near our street who were chanting something and burning tires *rollseyes* i had to go get my skirts today too. took us forever to get there. there were busses from all over the country blocking the roads >_< and on top of that, i dont really like the skirts! i mean, some are cute, but some are...eh. and most of them have to be readjusted. she made them too big. i go back to re-try them on on wednesday.


...im actually kinda scared to write the thing about our president...he doesnt take kindly to criticism x.X

sigh...i want ice cream T.T

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/20122758/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/20122758/ Sun, 24 Aug 2008 00:44:24 PDT
...then i come home to a whole bunch of crap. no, not from my family. from someone else who shall not be named. im just so pissed right now! what the heck!?!?!?! why do people do these things?!??!!? maybe its not so bad that im leaving after all. im just so pissed, im crying right now. and sorry, no further details will be given. talking about it will make it worse in this case.

WHY!?!?!?!?! you just had to go and ruin an awesome day, one that i actually enjoyed!!!!! dont you know how few of those i get?????

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/20107101/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/20107101/ Sat, 23 Aug 2008 03:47:53 PDT if any of you have facebook, i'd love to add you! note me

...anywayz....hi! xD um, i decided to try the rainbow teddy thing x3 lulz, i had five cut out, and i have finished 3 of those. missing to cut out indigo and blue the thing that sucks is, i have to make 8 instead of 7, cuz i have so many friends who like purple! D8 xD you see, i had already planned to give the purple one (i plan to give most of these teddies away to my greatest friends after i photograph them alot x3) to...someone. x3 not revealing who, cuz that person might read this and its a surprise, durn it! xD lawlz. soooo, i thought i'd give katy and alexa two of them, so i asked alexa kat's fav color. and guess what? its purple! xD and alexa wanted pink but thats not an official rainbow color, so she gets green instead sooo, yeah, i might have to make 9 actually, cuz i dont think i can finish the others in time. i MIGHT see them tomorrow for a goodbye dinner thing im having at KFC, and i only have orange and purple done. green is almost done, just a few severed parts to put together >D

...*sigh* i dont want to bore you with the other random junk thats been happening, so i'll stop here xD

..7 days D8 lawl, i keep sounding like Samara xD

]]> ~nottotallyhere http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/20034514/ http://nottotallyhere.deviantart.com/journal/20034514/ Tue, 19 Aug 2008 03:06:28 PDT
...xD lawl, i dont know what else to say...well, earlier my cat was annoyed that i stopped petting her to type something, so she stepped on my tummy and rubbed her face in my nose xD and after that when i got up she ran ahead and tripped me (i actually fell to the ground cuz it was dark and i couldnt see anything)...oh, and i finished my toast pillow didnt stuff it enough, but didnt care to fix it cuz i was kinda pissed that it came out a little lopsided xD

...my dad bought me some fruit chiller cup things (that are awesome! its kinda like italian ice. and if you dont know what that is...you're missing out on an awesome treat xD), cuz "it was kinda the last thing" he could get for me b4 i left. meaning, he wanted to get me something special (i had asked mom to get them the day the car died) cuz soon he can't. so nooow he starts caring?

oh yeah. on sunday, i had to go to church even though i felt like crap, and i almost threw up like ten times while there, but it was nice xD i like this new church we're going to, aside from the fact that i dont know any teens in it yet...and wont be getting that chance, cuz i leave in ten days...anywayz, after that, there was the special picnic the school does every year for the new teachers (they get most of them fresh out of college from the U.S.). so, i had to go to that too Dx but after sewing for a while and doodling with my sis (who has no artistic talent x3 poor thing, all her talent is in the athletic....side.), i felt better. i just had a little salad, but by the time dessert came, iwas feeling up to it. my dad said i should run around to get the chocolate mixed in so that putrid smell wouldnt keep wafting up my throat...dont ask xD so, i watched ari throw around a football with dad, and he tried to throw it to me, but i totally suck and it almost broke three of my fingers xD (hey, it was from a long way off!). so after that, whenever he tried to get me to catch it, i ran away xD laaatter, i felt a lot better, and played catch with ari. my dad bought a left-handed mitt for my bro recently, so i could finally do it properly! x3 we got real competitive about it after a while. then ari wanted a rest, so dad took over. it was fun, but i totally hurt my arm. it still hurts! so do my legs, but i dont know why xD later he said he didnt know i was that good at baseball. a lot of people dont know that. i CAN play sports, i love soccer (its fun to see the guys surprised faces when i catch up to them so quickly and steal the ball xD), but i just cant play...on a team xD im bad at passing and stuff, and making goals. if im just hitting a volleyball around with friends or throwing stuff, im pretty good. ppl always say that...*sigh* just another one of my half-talents i guess.
anywayz, after we got back, my stomach started to hurt a bit again, so i took a nap, and then woke up and ate chicken soup at like 10 pm xD i think that really helped get me back to full health

...lawl, this became long. i'll try to do replies and stuff tomorrow! ..er, today xD its 4 am.

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