http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:nytag&section=today deviantART RSS for by:nytag en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 30 Dec 2009 08:47:05 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://nytag.deviantart.com/journal/29294849/ http://nytag.deviantart.com/journal/29294849/ Wed, 30 Dec 2009 01:55:15 PST
I hate/dislike/cannot tolerate:

- People taking things I say so damn personally. Honestly, you're always telling me, "I like your opinions because they're honest and straightforward. I also just like the way you are in general; you're different." Don't say this to me when you can't even accept the way I am, and therefore, the way I verbally express things. I can't help it if I'm giving off a hard-ass attitude, but do you always have to play the victim? I mean, REALLY?! Sorry if my being "mean" isn't convenient for you. Let me just turn on my nice face and agree with everything you say! Don't mind that this fake agreeableness is killing me on the inside. Believe me, if I didn't think it was so INCREDIBLY insulting as you've taken it to be, I wouldn't have said it in the first place to cause myself so much frustration!

- Killjoys. JUST LET ME HAVE MY FUCKING MOMENT. I don't get to have a lot of them, so don't shoot me down as soon as I step out of my safety zone!! Otherwise, you're in the fucking line of fire.

- Disrespectfulness. I wouldn't mind it if I honestly acted in such a way for me to not deserve it, but since when have I been anything else but polite? I might be complaining right now, but at least I have the decency to not rag on you in front of your face like you discreetly hint at . Of most people I know, I am the most appreciative of general manners. In fact, I think it should be a class that would be required for you to take at an early age. Why hasn't anyone caught on? A "please," a "thank you," and a "pardon me" are all great places to start.

- People playing innocent. Yeah, you never did anything wrong. You're a total angel. You are so especially pure and kindhearted with the way you handle things. I mean, don't even pay attention to the most common phrase: "Nobody's perfect." OBVIOUSLY, you are! >8(

- Saying one thing and doing the other. Honestly, after all the disappointments, I can hardly expect anything now. I have high moral standards for myself, but for others, I can't expect much. It's not that I didn't in the first place (I had total faith in the ones I cared about, respected, and looked up to), but then they started acting different and going against things they had promised, and from then on, I never looked at them the same. In H. Williams's words, "I'm watching everyone I looked up to taking shortcuts just to come out the hero."

- Playing the ignoring game. When multiple people do this, I honestly can't see anything but red. It becomes even more obvious you're ignoring me when you respond to someone else's statement and completely cast mine aside. Let's not call ourselves "friends" anymore. This behavior you're exhibiting is strictly reserved for "acquaintances", so let's just be that, agreed? Agreed.

You can probably expect more of these in the future.

Sorry for the cursing. It's a habit. I probably need anger management...I feel too hostile sometimes. Minor annoyances seem major, and major annoyances cause rage.

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Seriously, I've wanted one of these since...like, 4 years ago, so it's a dream come true! Metaphorically, I'm crying tears of joy.

And not to mention, I got a free HP scanner/printer/copier! Sweet deals.

Hope you're having a lovely holiday/break/vacation/solstice, whatever you might be celebrating.

]]> ~nytag http://nytag.deviantart.com/journal/29008581/ http://nytag.deviantart.com/journal/29008581/ Thu, 17 Dec 2009 21:27:00 PST
I've been thinking, how do other people look at their friendships?

In high school, I had a lot of time to re-think my relationships; up until sophomore year, I had been friends with very...what's the word? Average people. "Average," however, isn't always a bad thing. Although, after a while, it just seemed as if they weren't really bringing out my "true" self; I guess you could say I have a personality that allows me to interact with all kinds of people, but at the same time, that same aspect of my personality is what lead me to quantity over quality. In the pursuit of establishing relationships with everyone, you tend to lose yourself. Needless to say, I was confused about who I was, despite being the supposed epitome of self-confidence...

When I became friends with a particular person, my perspective of all friendships changed (for what I think is, the better); I know that it's virtually impossible to fully accept someone the way they are, but it seems as if that's what this friendship is standing on (which still pleasantly surprises me everyday). I probably shouldn't feel this way, but when an acquaintence uncertainly asks me, "Why do you like this?" or, "Do you really think like that?", I get incredibly offended. I haven't really noticed up until now, but certain "friends" are pretty narrow-minded. Ever since, I haven't been very keen on getting on that "emotional level" that everyone seems to strive for: let's tell each other all our secrets, I'll ask you for advice and give you some when you ask for it, we can talk on the phone for hours and hours, etc. I am not mocking this (in fact, I love doing these things with my best friend), but I don't think everyone is capable of reaching this level of friendship.

I'm not saying that, when finding this true friend, you should neglect all others. But when, in the process of constructing our friendships, do we realize which friends make us who we are and which friends make us who we're not? People confuse me.

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- Feeling left out, especially around my own friends. I keep telling myself this is impossible, but every other week, I am proven wrong.

- Getting really worked up about something and receiving, "Well, it's not that big of a deal" and "You shouldn't think of it that way." As it said on a button I wanted to purchase, "Well, aren't WE just a fucking ray of sunshine?" You should know by now that because pessimists are pessimistic, they have a hard time feeling better! Life isn't that simple, honestly!

- Being made to feel guilty about how I feel. I'm the one that's upset; you're upset because I'm upset? Wow, that's really solving something. We're just a big ball of "upset," now aren't we?

- People telling me I'm too "emo." It's not an emotion, but I guess the blame's on me for thinking you would use any term correctly!

- Being left alone when I'm "too angry." Doesn't anyone know that this just gives you more time alone to contemplate how horribly upset you feel? Yeah, I totally feel better after staring at this wall for 20 minutes (which feels like an eternity) thinking about what lead up to this moment. In fact, EVERYONE SHOULD JUST DO THAT WHEN THEY FEEL BAD ABOUT SOMETHING!

- Being unable to concentrate because of how upset I feel. I just want to eat my lunch and read this book, and now I don't even have an appetite and everything I read just looks like, "You're mad, you're angry, you're fuming, you hate everything, you hate everyone, blah, blah, blah!"

- Having to make lists because I feel like people will tell me that I'm feeling angry for stupid, selfish reasons. I admit I'm selfish sometimes, but I can't be all the time. For once in my life, can't the blame go to someone else other than myself? I'm tired of this guilt; having to pretend things don't upset me only saves the situation for everyone's sake but my own.

I just hate feeling this way. If only I could be a stupid ray-chelle of sunshine once in a while.

I'd apologize for being too negative about pretty much everything, but it's just too bad, isn't it?

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I feel so bad! All the other designs are so beautiful! *Tears*

Anyway, I think I'm going to Utah this month...but it's kinda inconvenient. We'll see! And I'll keep you guys up to date for when (and if) they actually come out. I want a pair so bad! They should make the other designs too! I just love them all.

]]> ~nytag http://nytag.deviantart.com/journal/27517327/ http://nytag.deviantart.com/journal/27517327/ Thu, 01 Oct 2009 08:08:09 PDT that early), and I'm already at school waiting for class to start (boring!). I wanted to write a "see you later" journal entry a couple of days ago, but I was busy mentally preparing myself! Hahaha.

So I had my first day of college yesterday, and I have to say that's IT'S SO WEIRD. I guess it's because every time I looked out to the throngs and throngs of people on campus, I didn't recognize any faces, whereas in high school, everything was the same old thing. Pair that with my almost blindness of contacts/glasses, and you've got one physically lost kid!

Truth be told, I'm slightly fearful of a few things; I've noticed that some of my friends are already obnoxiously acting out for attention. Whether it's for attracting future potential loves or just friends, I still find it kind of if-fy. I probably sound like I'm resisting change, but to be honest, I just feel really comfortable and certain of who I am as a person, and if other people want to change their personalities because they're not...well, then...I guess that's their deal.

I hate how everyone's always saying "Make new friends!" and "You'll find out who you really are in college!". First of all, I'm definitely not shy, but truthfully, I'm content with the friends I have; I feel like it takes a lot of work to truly establish a friendship worthy of strings of late-night phone calls, random adventures, and matching friendship jewelry (if you're into that sort of thing). Because of my whole artist persona, I always had people saying, "I've heard your name before! You're amazing at drawing!" so I made a lot of "friends" easily, but everybody always seems to end up an acquaintance or somebody you talk to just because they're there. I don't really consider that real friendship! Do you?

And as I've already said, I'm really comfortable with who I am. How many more times do I have to drastically change myself unwillingly or naturally (or even worse, unnaturally)? Middle school was the dark ages (geez, who was I trying to impress/kid? *cringe*), high school progressed slowly, but during senior year, I struck gold, and "figured it out." I just want to get through college, pass exams, join a few select clubs, and...er, I don't know what else. I know who I am, but I'm not sure where I'm going...with all this, at least.

Anyway, sorry if I sound like such a pessimist/crab; it's because I am! I just wanted to get this off my chest, and I'm bored, AND...I don't have any art to upload at the moment, so if you're looking for posts, it's because I'm "living it up" at school.

Ooh, and I've been taking the bus lately (not something I would usually do because of strict, Filipino parents), and I really like it! I guess that's weird, but...we all have our likes.

Anyway, I'm off to Principles of Archaeology 205; maybe I'll go dig up some art!

]]> ~nytag http://nytag.deviantart.com/journal/27180933/ http://nytag.deviantart.com/journal/27180933/ Sat, 12 Sep 2009 23:32:58 PDT
A. Post these rules.
B. Each tagged person must post 8 things about themselves on their journal.
C. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
D. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
E. No tag-backs!

1) I applied for a job once at Hot Topic (yeah, I know, TERRIBLE, but I needed a summer job!). I got 2 interviews and no call-backs. I'm thinking they thought I was too enthusiastic, or so it seemed...well, all in good fun, I suppose.

2) I LOVE MANGOES. One summer, I ate like 5 a day. No joke! Go Champagne!

3) My favorite Beatles song is "Eleanor Rigby." That "Ah, look at all the lonely people" line always wins me over. I can't believe they made a Rock Band for The Beatles. Nooooo!!!! That's so weird.

4) I'm SOOOOO obsessive-compulsive about my iPod. If there's artwork missing, I'll fix it. If there's an artist with an "unknown album," I'll go crazy. It has to be perfect!

5) I cannot, for the life of me, do a cartwheel. Can't I just push one around instead?

6) I not-so-secretly love Taylor Swift. If you have to ask, I secretly call her T. Swift (not a secret anymore). I know the whole "I love the boy, he doesn't love me, oh wait...now he will!" thing is overdone with her, but I just can't help it! It's sad.

7) Keeping in line with country-pop, I met Hannah Montana's TV brother, Jackson, on a tram going to Disneyland. It was awkward.

8) When I was younger, I wanted to be an archaeologist and study fossils too (wait, what is THAT called? I don't know...), so I would keep chicken wing bones and "examine" them (yeah, I know...GROSS). Sometimes I would forget I had them, and...it was not pretty. In fact, it was pretty ugly.

Well, I hope that was entertaining. Coming up with interesting facts is hard!

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Weird, weird, weird.

]]> ~nytag http://nytag.deviantart.com/journal/22267516/ http://nytag.deviantart.com/journal/22267516/ Mon, 29 Dec 2008 19:26:26 PST rcsi1.

1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
Got stuck in snow. Other than that, this year was not the year of new things.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
No, I never do, and the resolution is the same every year: be nicer to people and take more showers. Although now, I take more showers! XD

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Everyone in my family is either too old or too young.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
I wasn't close to him, but I was affected. Plus, I found out before a cross-country race, which was painful to run physically and emotionally.

5. What countries and/or states did you visit?
Not enough money. But let's just say I mentally visited foreign countries!

6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
Less random/pointless friendships. Geez, I'm like a person magnet sometimes! Not that I don't like having a lot of friends, but some of them...ugh.

7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
I suppose when I got rejected for my first job. It was lame, so moving on...

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
...hmm. Completing my first college application! It was a daunting task, believe me.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Jealousy; it's such a pain. I'm trying to be more considerate, though.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Yeah, it was scary. I thought I had some disease, but it was less than that.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
I don't like buying things for myself.

12. What was the best thing someone gave you?
A key to their heart. HAHAHA.

13. Were you lucky in love or lucky in cards?
I'm not into the love thing, contrary to my answer to the previous question.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Buying presents (holiday or not) for my best friend. I'm such a sucker. >_<

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
I never really get that excited, but I guess my last cross-country race? It was exhilerating. Plus, I PRed!

16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
Geez, I don't know. There're too many. I guess "I Kissed A Girl" by Katy Perry. WAY overplayed.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

Happier or sadder?
Both, but probably sadder.

Older or wiser?
Both, unfortunately. I've always been too old and serious for my age. @_@

Thinner or fatter?
Fatter, duh! Who gets thinner? At least I'm well-fed (now I just sound like a farm animal).

Richer or poorer?
Most likely poorer.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Drawn. It sucks being studious.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Getting annoyed, angry, and bitter. Oh, and saying mean things. It's become a habit.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
The same. At home with my 'rents and sister.

21. How will you be spending New Year's Eve?
Probably doing my HW.

22. Did you fall in love in 2008?
I wouldn't call it falling in love. Just a crush!

23. Did you fall out of love in 2008?
Well, I get further disappointed by people I suppose.

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Gossip Girl! Guilty pleasure. XDD

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Yeah, unfortunately. I need to have more patience. 8(

26. What was the best book you read?
Hmm..."Animal Farm," "Heart of Darkness," "A Clockwork Orange"...lots of great books!

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Well, hmm...Secret & Whisper, Alexisonfire, MGMT, Lupe Fiasco, Does It Offend You, Yeah?,...not that these things are new or whatever.

28. What did you want and get?
More productivity. And so I was overdosed on school work. UGH.

29. What did you want and not get?
Faith in my old friends, but everyone just changes in bad ways.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Bolt, The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, uhh...I'm sure there are others.

31. What did you do on your birthday?
Traveled to Columbia City for some independent, artsy stores! Ate dinner with some friends, the usual...

32. What one thing would have made your year imme... ]]> ~nytag http://nytag.deviantart.com/journal/20242541/ http://nytag.deviantart.com/journal/20242541/ Sat, 30 Aug 2008 20:19:57 PDT
It's my senior year! Which means that college is around the corner, and, for those of you who are my age or younger (I'm 17), what are you planning to study in college? If you have other plans, are they art-related? And for those of you who are older and more accomplished, what kind of job do you have? Is it an artistic sort of job?

Honestly, I have no idea what I'm going to do after high school. I do wanna go to college (University of Washington, hopefully), but what I'm going to study and major in is a different story. I was wondering if other people are stuck in ruts (like I am), choosing between something they love (art) and something that is more financially secure (medical field?). I was thinking of doing art as a side, but I feel like I'm abandoning a good friend or something. I wonder if you feel that way as well...? At the same time, I'm trying to go for something in the medical field because I feel that it would be good to always have a job. My friends and teachers tell me, however, they couldn't possibly imagine me doing something NOT art-related, but...I just don't know. 8(

I hope those of you who read this can offer me some words of wisdom/comfort! It's a truly confusing time. :/

Ah...maybe some good art will come out of it. :]

]]> ~nytag http://nytag.deviantart.com/journal/19225077/ http://nytag.deviantart.com/journal/19225077/ Sat, 05 Jul 2008 20:14:29 PDT
"What a loser. How come she never writes about anything significant in her journal entries?"

Well, honestly, I'm just not into that kind of thing. So here I am doing another pointless Q&A!

What's your fave LP album/s?
Hmm...Hybrid Theory and The Hybrid Theory EP. Reanimation was pretty cool, too. But after that, something changed... :/

What's your fave LP song/s?
KRWLNG, Crawling, Part of Me, 1stp Klosr...I guess it varies depending on my mood!

Which LP music video is your fave?
Ever since I first saw "Crawling", I was amazed! But "KRWLING" was really cool, too. Actually, the Reanimation videos were all really artsy and interpretive...I love them all!

What's the first LP song you ever heard?
Crawling

What's the song that got you hooked to LP?
The whole Hybrid Theory album. Specifically "Papercut", "One Step Closer", "Crawling", and "In the End" (great, didn't mean to point out all the singles!). *Shot*

What hairstyle do you prefer on Chester Bennington?
Eh, it's not really a big deal...anything looks fine! I like his gauges. I wish mine were that big, already.

Do you think LP is the best band EVER?
They're definitely in my Top 5! I've liked them since forever...I rarely stick with bands for so long.

Do you like old school LP or new school?
Old-school, definitely! More hardcore. Xero was really raw (which I like). MTM is just...bleh. It was whatever. But I bought the special edition MTM just 'cause I'm a loser.

Are you a member of the LPU?
No. I wanted to join when I first heard of it, but whatever! I've never really been like that with bands--I'm mostly just into the music, not the band knowledge, merchandise, etc. Although, I wish I had some LP stickers or something.

Which LP song relates to you the most?
Hmm..."Part of Me" and "No More Sorrow".

If Mike Shinoda were to run for president, would you vote for him?
That would be somewhat random. What is this, Arnold Schwarzeadfkjsak;jf (can't spell) for California? Don't get me wrong--I like Mike Shinoda...

Fort Minor or Dead By Sunrise?
Fort Minor's okay, but I really prefer Chester over Mike. I can't wait for DBS's CD!

If Phoenix Farrell came up to you randomly in the street, what would you say/do?
*Flabbergasted/confused face*

Who is/are your favourite member/s of LP?
Chester Bennington, because I love his scratchy vocals. Mike Shinoda and Joseph Hahn are really amazing in terms of art and musicianship.

If you had to choose between Brad Delson? and Rob Bourdon, who would you choose?
Choose? Why would I choose between them?

Chester Bennington or Mike Shinoda?
They're pretty awesome together; I like the alternating rap-vocals thing going on.

If you go to an LP concert, would you do almost anything just to get a backstage pass to meet them?
If I met them, I honestly wouldn't know what to say, so NO.

Do you love ChesterXMike?
WOW. As much as I support GLBT, that would be REALLY random. I guess if Chester divorced his wife, it's fine....no cheating!

]]> ~nytag http://nytag.deviantart.com/journal/19211478/ http://nytag.deviantart.com/journal/19211478/ Sat, 05 Jul 2008 00:06:16 PDT
RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. NO CHEATING!
5. Bold the questions and with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.

How are you feeling today?
"Morning Glory" - Oasis
Actually...it's 11:32 at night. HAHA. Actually, this seems kinda...nevermind.

Will you get far in life?
"End of the World" - Yoko Shimomura (from the Kingdom Hearts Soundtrack)
BUWHAHAHAHA. GOSH. This literally makes me laugh. I guess I won't, then! *Crosses fingers* Or maybe my life will be full of heartlessness, keys, and blades?! XD

How do your friends see you?
"With Me" - Sum 41
Hmm...well, I suppose this works. The lyrics are very lovey, and I adore my friends! (The good ones, at least.)

Will you get married?
"The Places You Have Come to Fear the Most" - Dashboard Confessional
HAHAHAHA. Well, apparently I'm 'afraid' of commitment, anyway...good riddance, boys!

What is your best friend's theme song?
"Getaways Turned Holidays" - Meg & Dia
HAH, I would've laughed had it been "I Kissed a Girl"...anyway, this song could've applied if you only considered the title, but I think the lyrics are too serious for a theme song.

What is the story of your life?
"It's Like That" - Mariah Carey
WOW! My life is glamorous...like THAT!! XD

What was/is high school like?
"48" - Sunny Day Real Estate
Angry and sad. It fits.

How can you get ahead in life?
"D.A.N.C.E." - Justice
WHOO! HELL YES! I knew dancing would be the thing do to! Sike. I suck at dancing...but I love this song!!

What is the best thing about your friends?
"My Art" - Le Tigre
"...if you ever want an adventure, if you ever want a fashion show, I'll walk on your block!" Yeahhh! Me and my friends are all about random adventures.

What is in store for this weekend?
"Star Wars and Revenge of the Sith" - John Williams
Wow, good thing I've got a lightsaber! Seriously, why wouldn't I have one! Star Wars = love. And...I bet I'd be the Sith lord! *evil cackles*

To describe your grandparents?
"21 and Invincible" - Someting Corporate
HAHAHAHA, gosh, if they were 21...I'd be like...-5 years old. Or more! But my grandma is definitely invincible. She's awesome!

How is your life going?
"Mr. Brightside" [Jacques Lu Cont's Thin White Duke Mix] - The Killers
Eh...there's no unrequited love, and I'm defnitely no Ms. Brightside.

What song will they play at your funeral?
"The Lemon Song" - Led Zeppelin
I wish Led Zeppelin made it "The Banana Song" instead! Hehe.

How does the world see you?
"Tell Mary" - Meg & Dia
WOW, out of like...7,746 songs, Meg & Dia sure pop up quite often...anyway, I'm not sure how this applies to my life...

Will you have a happy life?
"Misery Business" - Paramore
PUWHAHAHA, well, I guess it'll involve some revenge and whatnot--which is great--evil is my business! 8D

What do your friends really think of you?
"Miracle Drug" - U2
I guess I'm bad for them...but good at the same time?! *raises fist in triumph*

Do people secretly lust after you?
"City Pavement" - The Subways
THEY JUST STEP ALL OVER ME?!! DDD:
Well, I guess I'm just a doormat, then...

How can I make myself happy?
"Sunday Morning" - Maroon 5
Actually...I hate Sundays, and I hate mornings. BLEH. But this song is very easy-peezy, so it works, I guess!

What should you do with your life?
"Endless Warfare" - Soul Calibur III
ROFLMAO. OH MAN, SO TRUE. I'M GOING FOR IT!...It's on, losers!

Well, I hope you enjoyed laughing at my easily-amused self. I sure did! *Pounds fist on table while crying/laughing hysterically*

]]> ~nytag http://nytag.deviantart.com/journal/19011163/ http://nytag.deviantart.com/journal/19011163/ Mon, 23 Jun 2008 22:44:31 PDT NeodeadlyraveR to write eight facts about myself! I'll try to make this interesting...

1) I completely adore rainbows and zebras. I mean, how can you not like rainbows? They contain EVERY DAMN COLOR! Roy G Biv for life! And zebras are just...*romantic, lovesick sigh*

2) I don't like sports. No offense, athletes...it's just not my thing!

3) I suppose you could say I'm a total nerd. I don't like partying, dances, drinking, dances, other social events popular among high school students, etc. I see no need for such things!

4) I'm not materialistic, but I believe your physical appearance and the clothes you wear are important. It's self-expression! If it makes you feel good, wear it!

5) I'm kinda mean...but that's only because I'm honest.

6) At school, I like teachers more than students. They're my pals! And much more together, in every aspect.

7) I like foreign films better than American films. They just have better cinematography and overall, I think they are just much better made!

8) When I was younger, I loved drawing computers, Digimon, Gundams, and people in general! It was so much fun! And still is. :]

Well, I hope you didn't sleep through that!

I tag...whoever would like to do this. I don't really read people's journals often enough, though...

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