http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:o0sugarplumfairy&section=today deviantART RSS for by:o0sugarplumfairy en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 10 Dec 2009 11:37:06 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/21039941/ http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/21039941/ Fri, 17 Oct 2008 23:12:36 PDT
Yikes! It's the 17th of the month already... Halloween is near.

Was once my favorite holiday of the year.

I'm glad those dreary depressed days are over, I'm much happier these days.

Photography makes me really happy.

]]> ~o0sugarplumfairy http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/20816425/ http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/20816425/ Fri, 03 Oct 2008 21:29:18 PDT
I've never felt so tested in life as I do right now.

The things that have all just happened to me in the past few weeks have caused a big change in my life and in my thoughts.

At first I didn't think I could be strong enough to deal with any of it, but I haven't come this far just to keep digging myself into a hole.

There are always ups and downs... it's the ebb and the flow of the universe.

The way.

Feng shui.

Black & white.

Hot & cold.

Love & hate.

It's all the same, for nothing would exist with out it's opposite.

and HEY, Bf.. you know who you are.

You are my one, my only bf.

Things aren't the same without ya.

I was looking at old pictures, laughing at old memories.

So many great ones we've made this year alone.

Can you believe it's been a year since we saw "Across the Universe?"

I've always felt really connected to you.

I just know that I want your friendship in my life at all times. lol.

You're a really good friend to have.

You treat the ones close and dear to you really well.

I feel safe with you.

You would make a super great husband to someone some day... (if you ever end up getting married)

I don't like to share my feelings very often, because i'm a TURTLE.

Damn, why'd I get stuck with the TURTLE, why can't I be a dolphin or an elephant, or a butterfly, or something???

So anyway,

I feel really lucky to be able to connect with someone in this whole wide world, like I can with you.

Like i've always said, nah jk i think i've said enough about you.

Back to me.

It's time for me to grow up.

I thought I was grown up because i've lived on my own for the past 3 years.

Maybe this is why I still look like a little kid??

My older brother, he's 30, he hasn't grown up yet.. and he looks like he's 10 years younger than he is.

I'm 24, I think I need to be more "put together" at this age.

I'm kind of broken, in lots of itty bitty pieces.

When I put myself back together, I'll be stronger than I ever was before.

After this week of tests and trials of life, I think I am stronger.

It's like shit, what's next?

After this week, I feel pretty confident about my strenghts.

To be able to pull together in times of a crisis.. or crisises, in my case (lol) is tough, but you do what you gotta do.

I've also realized that the problems I have are so family related!!!

I think we all have anxiety, we're all turles with our feelings, we like to drink because our inhibitions are too high to begin with, so we need just a little bit of alcohol to OPEN us up just a little bit. This not only relates to my immediate family, but my whole family, and i've got a HUGE family. My mother had 7 brothers and sisters... and this is not including my dad and his other families!!!
Yikes.
It's just funny how much these people you feel you have no other connection with besides blood, are actually a lot like you and eachother.

Ya, I think i'm done for now.

]]> ~o0sugarplumfairy http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/20750587/ http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/20750587/ Mon, 29 Sep 2008 21:11:54 PDT
I learned that I've made some really big mistakes.

I just realized just how unhappy I really am.

Funny thing is, I've always been a happy person.
One thing people have always said to me is that i'm always smiling, and it's true, always has been, until lately....

I made this move thinking it would make me happy.

In fact, I'm not happy!!!

I NEED A LIFE!!!

I get so sick to my stomach thinking about the point i'm at in my life.

It's going to take a lot of work to get to where I would like to be. Especialliy since i've dug myself into a huge hole.

I realized that I relied on my best friend to make me happy these past couple of months, because without him I found I was pretty miserable. Hanging out with him was just an escape from the reality of my everyday life.
I didn't have to deal with any of my problems because when I was with him, nothing else existed. No worry about the outside world because we have such a good times, best times ever.

I realized that i'm unhealthy and that i'm probably not the best influence. I'm a slacker, a procrastinator.

I've got great intentions, but I lack the self control.

I can be strong when I need to, but since friday, things have been different.

I think friday changed my life.

I don't think i've ever felt so down and depressed in my entire life.

I also think this weekend was a test... beccause that many things can't go wrong in 1 weekend.

Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday have been thee longest days of my life.

Phew! Can I take a deep breath now?

I got lost these past 2 months, really lost.

I know what I want do now, just don't know how to achieve it.

My ex bf is afucking ass!!! Always WAS!!! Sorry, just had to throw that out for a good laugh.
I hope he never messages me again... if only his new gf knew how he really is...

So one of my "friends" a girl who I RARELY talk to these days likes to gossip and is a drama queen apparently likes to gossip about me with my ex... WHO DOES THAT!!! You don't talk to a friends ex about who they're seeing or anything at all! I guess I won't be talking to her anymore, or him.

Right now, I'm just really lonely.

I've always had plenty of friends, so right now, it feels like I don't have any.

Jenn, she's my sister. I hate her and I love her. She'll be part of my life forever. Her and I go way deeper than friends, so it's almost like she doesn't even count as a friend.

Obviously I don't have many friends if i'm sitting here journaling it.

Soooo..
my phone is about to die, I left charger at my moms house and now i'm in butt fuck egypt.

My dad pisses me off, my mom pisses me off.

I hate everyone.

I feel so alone.

I just need a friend right now.

I wish someone could rescue me from me.

hahhaah.

]]> ~o0sugarplumfairy http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/20692021/ http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/20692021/ Fri, 26 Sep 2008 18:01:27 PDT It was fun.. but I came back home on monday with this awful depressed feeling still lingering.

I figured if I just do things for myself that I might feel better.

It's difficult to get started when you have no motivation, when you feel this awful weight upon your shoulders for everything in your life is a fucking mess and you just don't know where to begin!!!

So I began to clean, to organize, to make my room feel like home.. to make it a place where I belong. A place where I can be at ease. A place that is me.

I have this big problem where I don't finish anything that I start. It's my resolution every year. FINISH WHAT YOU START!!! I've got plenty of ideas and good intentions, I just don't seek anything through until the end. This applies to everything in my life, even food, i can never even finish a meal!!!

After I had washed/dusted/organised everything, I was actually starting to feel so much better! And now that, that's all cleared up I can now focus on other things, like looking for a job.

I was once a very organised person and I hope to be that person again.

I really liked who I was 2 years ago. I looked better, I was way skinnier, I was organised, I was going to school and working, I had my shit together. I know I can do it again.

I'm just over drinking... really over it.
Every time I drink a beer, I regret it.
Why go to the gym if i'm going to sit around and drink beer most of time, it's pointless!

I'm gonna do what I know best, and that's school. My whole life I was pretty much a straight A student. It's easy to me, and I like to learn new things. I like to excercise my brain as well as my body. I just want to be in the top shape that I can be all around.

and another lesson I learned this week is that I really, really have to be strong. I can't be taking shit from anyone. I know i'm cool and really laid back but that doesn't mean that i'm going to let people (especially men disrespect that)
I'm learning all these things myself, my mom didn't teach me shit about anything I need to know about REAL LIFE. and my dad, he was never around, nor did I want him to be. Now is a different story, I actually do have a relationship with my dad now and we talk almost everyday.

I just can't be pushed over anymore, I have to stand my ground.

The thing that sucks is that at the time, I don't care, but afterwards, i'm like HEY! That man shouldn't have talked to me that way, that was super disrespectful, and later, is too late to say anything. I just like to think I can trust the world. I like to think everyone is just as honest as I am, but that's hardly the truth.

I've learned a lot lately.

I learn a lot all of the time.

Everyday, I try to make an improvement in my self or my surroundings.

Everyday, I better.

Everyday, I am stronger.

I have been a really shitty friend to some people lately.

I lag, I don't write back, I don't call, and I don't write.

I would have some really great people in my life right now... if I let them.

I'm working on becoming a better me first, then I can become a better friend, a better sister, a better daughter, a better aunt. lol.

BETTER, BETTER, BETTER.

Everyday.

]]> ~o0sugarplumfairy http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/20407667/ http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/20407667/ Tue, 09 Sep 2008 14:08:16 PDT
Bad news everywhere.

Everyday I've felt hopeless, everyday has felt like such a dddrrraaggg.

Haven't had a good nights sleep in days, and have had horrible dreams.

My body is sore from all the moving. I'm moving my self and helping the others move too.

My last living grandfather is dying and I don't have the money to fly over to Mexico to see him. I guess my dreams of taking pictures of him are over before they started. He's 98 years old, and quite handsome and charming. I hoped to document him by taking photographs of him soon. My dad and aunt are flying there right now. Poor gramps had a cardiac arrest. I'm just waiting on a phone call from my dad to let me know how things are going.

I love my Marley now more than ever and i'm going to miss him dearly.

My highlight however is that my new room is finally put together. I'm so happy with it. After 2 months of hopping around from one place to other, I finally have finished unpacking my room and it's beautiful, it's ME. All ME. All mine... and I can have whoever I want over. Like a certain someone who wasn't allowed at my old place, can come over now! That calls for a celebration.

Saturday is NOCTURNAL, my first time, i'm sooo excited.

and as for tonight... RATATAT!!!!

What helps me when I don't have motivation is looking ahead at the good things to come.

Now that i've got my living situation cleared out of the way, I can focus on the next big thing which is my license.

I'm so glad this hopeless, homesick, depressed feeling has gone away.

Oh yeah and I need a job now, just a small little part time job, so I could go to school part time as well.

I wish I could just go to school full time, fuck work. I need to catch up on everything I haven't learned at school in the past 2 years.

My vacation is over, i'm over it.

In these past few days i've been able to some self reflecting.

I have some good stuff, that's in my other journal because I did'nt have internet acess at the time.
So i'm going to have to post later.

]]> ~o0sugarplumfairy http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/20344460/ http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/20344460/ Fri, 05 Sep 2008 17:29:26 PDT
No discipline.

I like to go to the gym, I like eating healthy food and feeling good about my body, but I also like to thrash my body with drinking and smoking habits.

It's like all the hard work I do at the gym goes to waste over a night of drinking.

I can't do both, so for now I have limited my self to a new rule.

Thou cannot drink more than one goes to the gym. haha.

For a start, that's a pretty damn good rule.

Since I have no self control, I don't discipline my self, therefore I feel that I have no right to discipline anyone else.

I'm a dog mom (and a shitty one at that)
My dog is spoiled rotten
He knows no discipline, and when I get mad at him for doing something bad, he gets mad at me!!!

I'm also practicing self control through reading.

I haven't gone to school for the past 2 years and I need to catch up on everything I haven't learned, so I've got books, books, books.

Books on

Digital Photography

Existencialism

Buddhism

Organic cooking

Organizing

That's just to begin with.

I'm gonna learn everything I wanna learn in the meantime, until I get my ass back in school.

Another book to get is color theory, so don't forget.

Yeah, that's about it.

]]> ~o0sugarplumfairy http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/20018907/ http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/20018907/ Mon, 18 Aug 2008 08:58:33 PDT
Sometimes, a little space is all you need to clear your head.

I have this amazing ability to see the bright side in all things, even in the midst of what seems like a tragedy.

It may take a little time, but I always come around to my senses.

I feel better yet worse at the same time.

Writing helps, it helps a lot.

No te quiero perder para siempre, pero no quiero ser amigos, Ay! Pero que hago??

]]> ~o0sugarplumfairy http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/20011705/ http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/20011705/ Sun, 17 Aug 2008 20:28:43 PDT
Not that I haven't learned them before, but I just forget about these things and I get side tracked from my goals from time to time.

I realized that I need to focus on me for a while.

There are a lot of things I need to change and be doing on my own and I will be doing, not slacking or procrastinating anymore.

I had my vacation and I had a lot fun, and now it's time to get to work.

I went to the library and checked out a lot of books on things that I would like to know more about... for now, until I get myself checked into school. i'm looking at starting by spring next year. I can't believe I just wasted 2 years of my life working and slaving away without school. I know school is for me, i've always been a great student without even trying. It's time to get my brain back in top shape, as well as my body. I feel so lame that i'm not going to school right now. It's going to take some time to get used to it again. I have to remember how to write reports and all that good stuff, buying scantrons and blue books and noteboooks.

I hope to find my main passion in life, whether it be library science, photography, or environmental studies, or jewelry, or. or. or. lol. See what I mean!

I like so many things, it's rather difficult to focus.

Little by little things are coming together, although I thought everything was falling apart a few days ago.

I've been re-connecting with my cousin and her buddies, which are almost like family to me as well. It's been years and years since we have all hung out, but it feels like absolutely no time has gone by. Immediately I just felt super welcome. I couldn't have fit in better.

There are actually a lot of people i'd like to re-connect with, eventually.

I need to get myself organized to move ahead.

I wrecked my life in the last relationship I had, and still haven't fully recovered... and it's been almost a year now.

I know what I need to do.

Time to pick up the pieces and jump into my new life.

It might be cold, but it will be refreshing.

Street fair is coming up, along with my birthday... that's something to look forward to as well.

Think positive.

Be the lightning

So so so eager to get it together!!!

]]> ~o0sugarplumfairy http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/19978734/ http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/19978734/ Fri, 15 Aug 2008 21:55:50 PDT It rains a lot this time of year
And we both go together if one falls down
I talk out loud like you're still around

No noo

And i miss you (ooooh…
I’m goin back home to the west coast
I wish you woulda put yourself in my suitcase
I love you
Standin all alone in a black coat
I miss you
I'm goin back home to the west coast

And if you shake her heart enough she will appear
Tonight i think i'll be stayin here
And you never did like this town
I talk out loud like you're still around

No nooo

And i miss you (ooooh…
I'm goin back home to the west coast
I wish you woulda put yourself in my suitcase
I love you
Standin all alone in a black coat
I miss you
I'm goin back home to the west coast
Come on everybody
Lalalalaaaa, lalalalaaa
Lalalalaaaa, lalalalaaa

So pack up the bags to beat back the clock
Do i let her sleep or should i wake her up
You said
We both go together if one falls down
Yeah right, heh
I talk out loud like you’re still around

No noo

And i miss you (ooooh…
I m goin back home to the west coast
I wish you woulda put yourself in my suitcase
I love you
Standin all alone in a black coat
I miss you
I'm goin back home to the west coast
Lalalalaaaa, lalalalaaaa
I'm goin back home to the west coast
Lalalalaaaa, lalalalaaaa
I 'm goin back home to the west coast
Lalalalaa
Lalalalaa

]]> ~o0sugarplumfairy http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/19870259/ http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/19870259/ Sat, 09 Aug 2008 22:11:11 PDT I have just made many many huge and drastic decisions in my life.


i have moved various times in my life.

and in the past year this would be my 3rd move.

this time, i'm making like a 360 turn.

i'm going from the lukewarm water i'm used to, to the arctic ocean.

i don't really know where i'm headed, but i made this decision based on all the postive outcome of this move.

]]> ~o0sugarplumfairy http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/19843708/ http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/19843708/ Fri, 08 Aug 2008 11:03:24 PDT [link]

2 of my photos got selected for the Macro Beginner's Club favorites for August!



]]> ~o0sugarplumfairy http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/19779694/ http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/19779694/ Mon, 04 Aug 2008 21:12:57 PDT
I made one in January and never really starting using it until recently.

I've had a myspace since 2003. The only place I ever really posted pictures.

Submitting devations felt like filling out 5 pages worth of questions just to post your work up, and I didn't really know how to use this site that well, so I kind of forgot about it.

I went out and took some brand new photos on various outtings to really neat places with M... Using his Canon, I was starting to really like the shots I was getting out of it...

So I submitted some more deviations. Starting learning about clubs and types of photography when I really got into macro and bokeh. I used to only think and do long exposures.. and when I saw bokeh, I knew what style of photography I wanted to do.

So I checked out the MBC and the bokeh club, and starting submitting photos...

I starting collecting favorites and I started to get to know what everyone was like.

Everyone here is genuine and nice.

On myspace, you only really see your little network of friends, but on deviant art you get to see people's work from all around the world.

Anyway, enough of my rambling because it's time to submit some more photos! yay!



]]> ~o0sugarplumfairy http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/19569385/ http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/19569385/ Thu, 24 Jul 2008 09:00:50 PDT I've come across writers block...

The beauty of my journal here at DeviantArt is that I can write what I wish, without having to worry about anyone reading/judging what I say.
This is why I don't write journals on myspace.
The only reason I use myspace now really is for music purposes.
To keep track of bands I like and to find out where they are playing.
Also to discover new music.
It's also good for reuniting with old friends.
That's really it... or else I would've deleted my account by now.

I hope I can get over this writer's block so that I can express my feelings... it's the only way for me to make sense of all these thoughts in my head.

I NEED THIS

]]> ~o0sugarplumfairy http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/19558970/ http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/19558970/ Wed, 23 Jul 2008 16:36:49 PDT

1. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
2. When you lose, don’t lose the lesson.
3. Follow the three Rs:
a. Respect for self
b. Respect for others
c. Responsibility for all your actions.
4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.
5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.
6. Don’t let a little dispute injure a great friendship.
7. When you realize you’ve made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
8. Spend some time alone every day.
9. Open your arms to change, but don’t let go of your values.
10. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.
11. Live a good, honourable life. Then when you get older and think back, you’ll be able to enjoy it a second time.
12. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for your life.
13. In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current situation. Don’t bring up the past.
14. Share your knowledge. It’s a way to achieve immortality.
15. Be gentle with the earth.
16. Once a year, go someplace you’ve never been before.
17. Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.
18. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.

]]> ~o0sugarplumfairy http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/19448625/ http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/19448625/ Thu, 17 Jul 2008 15:11:25 PDT
My last day at my job will be 7/31/08!!!

My first day in my new apt will follow that.

and in between all that I must find time to pack up and organize while there are so many events this month!

Santa Monica GLOW festival

Pinback

Bloc Party

A very special birthday

and maybe the OC Fair...

I am so giddy with excitement!

I can't wait for my life to go into a more positive direction... after having been in a bad relationship for the past 3 years, my life kind of went to hell.

Lost friends
Lost contact with family members
Went through 4 cars
Moved 4 times
Every time I moved... I just had less and less everything.

I moved in with Jenn (friend of 7 years) last september.

My bf kicked me out of his house, he crashed my car, and I broke my ankle and had to have surgery where they installed a metal plate and 6 screws total.

I was on disability for a month and would have been super depressed if it weren't for Jenn and my family.

My life's beeen pretty shitty since.

Barely scraping by just to make the rent.

Just getting deeper into debt.

Things are changing for me now.

I feel really postive about my decision to move out of Jenn's to make a better life for myself.

I'm so happy to be moving out of Anaheim!!!

So sick of it.

Glad to be going to Brea where everything is a bit more mellow.

Fullerton is like party-party.

Brea is chill.

My new roommate Koki is one of the coolest people I have ever met in life. A good true genuine person.

Him and I are going to get along so well.

I've got a great best friend who makes me really really happy. My favorite quote of the night was when he said "don't say someday, just make it happen"

JUST MAKE IT HAPPEN

That is our motto.

Anything we wanna do, we go out there and do it.

Eduardo is really cool too.. such a postive person himself. I'm super happy he came to dinner last night.

I can't wait to make some new friends at my new place, not that I need more friends, but it'd be nice to be friends with my new neighbors.

Sometimes I start to doubt my decision to move, but when you waste your energy on doubtful things, then doubtful things will happen.

STAY POSTIVE and MAKE IT HAPPEN

Be the lightning!

]]> ~o0sugarplumfairy http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/19372284/ http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/19372284/ Sun, 13 Jul 2008 13:02:43 PDT I like that, it was what my horoscope said today.

Let's just say I have had quite a weekend.

It all started great on Friday, picked up an 18 pack of Quilmes - Argentinian beer.
Jenn and I probably had about 6 each. I think I probably had 7 and she had 5. We were having such a great time, catching up on each others lives, laughing, maybe a little crying. It was all good though.
So let's just say we're pretty toasty, when my phone rings and I get one of those "bad news, this is not a joke phone calls"

BROTHER IS IN JAIL.

No joke.

We've got until 10 to bail him out, omg it's 9!

I'm not even going to go through the details, but we went on wild goose chases looking for a place where there is a fax I could use and depositing and wiring money, it was a mess. Calling bail bondsmen people... Parents, brother, friends calling me asking me his status.
It was such a mess!
Especially after having had 7 beers.
Jenn and I were at each others throats stressing out because things were being mis-communicated.
We finally get to an open Kinko's and I have to sign like 6 pages and I don't know what the fuck I'm signing all I can focus on is looking for the x's where I'm supposed to sign.
I got a call saying I forgot to initial 1-16 on page 3...
How in the world did I miss 1-16... I was so drunk, even though I had stopped drinking 3 hours before that! Ah man. It was just so much to deal with, but the important thing is that I did what I had to do.

Overall I spoke to 4 shifts worth of people at the bail bond.
Anyway the nightmare started at 9 and ended about 1 in the morning.
Then to finally be over at 10Pm Saturday when we picked him up.

And to top this all off..
Saturday I lost my cell phone somewhere between Long Beach and Anaheim. So then I had to borrow Jenn's phone while I went to a wedding with my mom. So every 20 minutes, I'm stepping outside to use the phone, calling bail bonds and keeping friends updated on the latest status.

Despite all of this bullshit I was dealing with.. i managed to have a great time at the wedding.
Drinks were free until about 9... So I got to drink quite a few while it was free. I did end up paying for one after that. lol.

Overall I have to say that I was very inspired by the whole event.

I regret NOT having a camera there with me.

That is bullshit, how can people live there lives without having a camera!!!

I felt like I was betraying myself of all these wonderful opportunities for great shots.

One great moment was the grooms 13-14 year old daughter sang the song to the newlywed couples 1st dance.
Her voice wasn't stellar or anything, but I was just really inspired. Thanks to Rockband, I now have the courage to get up and sing someone a song in front of everyone like that. hahah.

I fell in love with the cutest couple.
Another co-worker of my moms and his wife.

They were truly in love.

As the observer that I am, I studied them.

I saw the way the looked in each other's eyes as they spoke.

Smiling and laughing.

You look at them, and you just know they're gonna be together forever.

Okay, so they are the only 2 white people there at this thing, the rest are mexican.

When the music comes on, they are out there on the dance floor, they too are observing the mexican culture.

They watch at the different ways to dance as different songs come on and they did quite a good job of keeping up with everyone.

I laugh as I remember when everyone got in a dance circle and the bridesmaid was pulling couples out to the center of the circle to dance, and that's when you're supposed to show off your dancing skills. 2nd couple she picked was my favorite couple!
They did their thing out on the dance floor and it was too adorable.
Like I said, they were pretty good.

I wish I had my camera I would've taken so many pictures and would've emailed them all to them.

Closer the end of the night, we finally get a call that brother's been released.

My mom and I say our good byes, and I tell the couple how cute I think they are together and just complemented them on everything.
I think I even gave them a hug.

Off in our formal dresses to pick up brother from jail!!!!

Finally got home about midnight and crashed out, in dress and all.

It's Sunday now, and I just wish for another day off! Just to relax and do nothing. Well that's what I'm doing today, playing video games and just chillen.

Waiting for the time to go by fast as I pack up and move... as I eagerly wait for my bestest friend to come back... as I wait for Pinback and Bloc Party sh... ]]> ~o0sugarplumfairy http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/19223703/ http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/19223703/ Sat, 05 Jul 2008 18:39:58 PDT
There's not much I feel like doing right now.

Only thing I did manage to do today is laundry.
I'm glad I found motivation to get that done.

However, I did manage to come up with some things that would make me happy, even if it's only temporary.

I wanna take some macro shots really really bad, but no camera.

I wanna get my hair dreaded like her! [link]
but again gotta wait until I get paid.

I wanna do some mad shopping right now...
Get some fresh cotton sheets for the summer... So over flannel. There are these Tommy Hilfiger sheets I particularly like they're all lemony-green with little white crocs all over. I hope they still have them at the store, but I've got to wait until payday.

Hmm... What else???
Lay around and do nothing with my best friend, but he wants to be alone right now.

Enjoy some time alone at the beach, but no car.

hahaha.

I will have a car soon, as soon as I move out of this shit hole.

Music isn't even making me happy right now.

and beer, I drank beer yesterday, I could today too, but that's not making me feel better because I've got to drink a lot of it and i'm not even motivated to that either. Anyway, why even resort to drinking when you're down. Plus i'm pretty much over my little drinking binge.

and for blazing... that's just making me feel worse.

so that's not working either.

ehhhhhh.

I was excited for moving out and all the good things to come of it.
The happiness, the money being saved, the freedom.
I'm kinda freaked out because my future roommate is going to be a person that I'm going to see everyday. Not that I have any problems with him but it's a big commitment to move out with someone, whether you're just friends or dating, or married. Yikes. I'm nervous.

I'm no longer going to see my dad, mom, brothers, nephews so often, depending upon how far I move, but I will still come see them regulary... right now I only live about 2 minutes from my moms and 5 minutes from my dads.

and lastly my roommates and I now have a dog. One of the roommates is moving out next month and I have yet to give my notice the other one telling her that i'm moving out next month too.
what's going to happen to the puppy???

I don't want to leave him, but what if I can't take him with me.

I'm going to miss him the most.

He always loves me no matter what.. He is my best friend actually.

and my little nephew, although he's a brat.

ah, what am I talking about, my dogs a brat too.

Lots of changes coming up and quick!!!

Gotta get prepared!

]]> ~o0sugarplumfairy http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/19075473/ http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/19075473/ Fri, 27 Jun 2008 12:36:59 PDT I just got a really good visual of it while closing my eyes.

I am so listening to RATATAT right now they song Lex. I saw solid music, completely solid. I mean what better music than Ratatat to see music with. In my opinion Ratatat are masters of music. Couldn't get any more perfect than that. As Matt would say "Their music is SEAMLESS."

...I wanna close my eyes and see it again. Not only seeing but it's like their music takes you on a musical journey.

They don't need lyrics to their music, it's already complete. Oh, and the remixes... they take master lyricists like Biggie Smalls and fill in the gaps of his lyrics with their music, never overshadowing their lyricist. They have mastered the music of Hip Hop. It's bouncy, it's got attitude, it's exactly what hip hop is supposed to be.

Okay, so I'm listening to Gettysburg right now and totally bopping my head.

Oh-my-god!!! They are so amazing. I hope I never forget what this looks like... maybe I should try drawing it.
I saw it in it's digital form.
Imagine a vinyl record, the needle follows the grooves, right. So it's as if they take that needle and scribble all over that record... and again i'll say it again, FLAWLESSY!!

When their tracks climax, it's like they are splashing you with pure, beautiful beautiful sound. So many sounds going on at once celebrating in perfect harmony.

I don't even bop my head, it's my ears that just want to follow their sound.
and it doesn't stop there either, it's vibrations travel throughout my entire body making me want to dance with it!

I MUST see Ratatat perform LIVE!!!

With their fingertips, they caress the grooves of music in such a way that it absolutely moves you.

They pluck from the highest of strings to the lowest.
They can cruise as light as a feather or travel into deep, heavy bass.

Track: Nostrand
It's like a musical journey, slowly drawing you into it and you follow it's light and airy flow, then SPLASH!!! They totally throw you off when it changes up. It's so unexpected and quite refreshing.
Some tracks you know it's coming and others they just hit you with it.

Well, I don't think I can say anymore better things about this band.

They are amazing, that it all.

]]> ~o0sugarplumfairy http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/19048433/ http://o0sugarplumfairy.deviantart.com/journal/19048433/ Wed, 25 Jun 2008 23:17:10 PDT Most animated person, he has a background in theatre and video production. Oh and he also makes music.
Well i've gotta go this journal is to be continued!!

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