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I think you have noticed that I was not around so often in the last months. I must admit that this will not change so fast. There is still a lot working to do for my apprenticeship, my first exam will take place in May, and my weekends are full of action. I like this, mostly.

So, I got some faves in the last months, and I want to say that I appreciate it truly although I do not leave any thanking comments. I am not expecting them either. Please do not think I am arrogant, it is just my feeling that someone should not expect a pageview for faving. Alright.

So, everybody commending and faving should feel hugged!

See you!

]]> ~obscurarts http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/20466139/ http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/20466139/ Sat, 13 Sep 2008 05:17:15 PDT
My dear arrived one week ago and I am really happy that he is with me again, athough we are a bit struggling because we need to get used to each ither again. But this is better than sitting around and waiting. Today he has done the last part of his English Examination and it sounds like everythong went fine...I hope so!!!

Alright then, have a nice weekend!

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]]> ~obscurarts http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/20106796/ http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/20106796/ Sat, 23 Aug 2008 03:00:37 PDT
Some of you might know that I am back from Belfast since one and a half week, and still I don't like to write about it cause it reminds me of some wonderful days I had to spend with my dearest boyfriend, and now I am alone again.

Okay, let me explain: He is doing a traineeship in the IT-section, and during this traineeship thes have to do a placement in Ireland. One group in Dublin and one group in Belfast. Which means that he is away for two months. Fortunately the time is nearly over and only two weeks are left. So, while I visited Belfast I also visited him.

As I told you, I enjoyed this days very much. Belfast is a very impressing city, although many things are under construction. I liked the people there most, they are mostly friendly and open for visitors and so warm-hearted you feel a little bit ashamed when you think about Germans treating tourists. I also liked some impressing buildings like the Opera House ore the City Hall, but also the parks (Orneau Park!) and the walks along the River Lagan. The pub culture is really remarkable, in my four days there I visited two and it were interesting and wonderful evenings.

As for now, I can't wait until he's with me again...a thing which I found out about me during this weeks is that I hate waiting. I hate it so much I can't tell and I miss him and it really makes me sick. Of course I look forward, but sometimes it is more that I can bear to sit around in this big flat, trying to do something without really doing it. Anyway, it is egoistic, I know, but I cannot deny what I feel about this. I am not the right person to wait for another one, even if I love this one a lot. But I wait. And I miss. And I try to look forward.

Okay, enough. Weekends are the hardest thing, when I have to work I am mostly too tired to think about it.

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http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/19818711/ Thu, 07 Aug 2008 00:00:48 PDT
I will be back on Tuesday, hopefully it won't rain so much.

Goodbye and many kisses!

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]]> ~obscurarts http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/19214001/ http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/19214001/ Sat, 05 Jul 2008 06:09:49 PDT
it's done, we are moved. Our moving was the best training I ever had: We live in the sixth floor without a lift and it was very hard to bring up all the furniture and other stuff.

Now nearly everything is done and we are getting used to live here. Thank God we had so much helpers!

So, I am on again, and I am looking forward to see some more of you!

Many kisses to everybody!!!

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]]> ~obscurarts http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/18848488/ http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/18848488/ Sun, 15 Jun 2008 03:27:04 PDT
The first boxes are filled, our new flat has got new colours and carpets, the kitchen is nearly finished and my dear boyfriend has brought his stuff in there this Saturday....I will follow next Saturday.

I am really excitetd and looking forward when all this trouble is over, but I can't realize that this will be my last week living here. Uhm...this makes me a bit nostalgic, but well, it is better to start my own, isn't it?

Anyway, I do not know when I will be able to be here again, I hope for the beginning of July.

This will be a hard week...

But we're doing it!!!

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]]> ~obscurarts http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/17825286/ http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/17825286/ Sun, 13 Apr 2008 03:53:48 PDT [link] has tagged me, and I am going to fulfill my duty!

This quiz is originally in German, but I am going to do it English for training and my watchers around here.

Whom celebrity would you like to drink a beer with?

Ernst Horn, the music part of Deine Lakaien. I would like to know what he is planning for the next tour!

Imagine your soul as a colour. Which one would it be?

My soul is a rainbow. The colours depent on my mood....a cool blue when I am reasonable, red when I am passionate, white when I am shy, black when I am humorous, green when I am calm, yello/orange when I am happy...

Caused by many catastrophies there are only three kinds of food left on earth. Which kinds would be necessary for you to survive?

dark bitter chocolate, grapes and milk

Three things which enervate you mostly:

Uhm...Techno, unreliability, smart asses

Which comic hero do you identify with?

I don't read comics and I don't think that I am a hero. But I like Rogue frome the X-Men films.

Which job would you have chosen in your childhood?

veterenarian

Three subjects describing you:

defiance, sun, cat

Who or what can make you weep periodically?

"Through Glass" by Stone Sour.

Your worst shortcoming/the best thing of you:

worst: my insecurity
best: the child within me

What are you afraid of?

Jumping with my head forward into a swimming-pool.

You are going to get a new organ. Which one would deperately be needed to be transplantated?

A new organ??? Uhm...that won't help. I need a new backbone!!!

Imagine Steven Segal is ringing your door bell. What would you do?

Depends on my mood. Maybe I would invite him to come in and have a cup of tea. Or I would smash the door.

The worst nightmare you can remember:

It was too long ago...

Three little pecularities about you:

I am shy, emotional and stubborn.

Which kind of martial art is catching your interest mostly besides the one you are actually practising (when you are practising one)?

Hmm...difficult. I would like to have a closer look to Indian martial arts or Chinese ones. But I am really satisfied with my choice.

So, now it is your turn. I do tag ~snail (German translation is linked!), *Jeannieblue and *patty-space.

Take care!

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http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/17101083/ Thu, 28 Feb 2008 10:43:35 PST
Reality is something else. Well, there was a really beautiful flat in a wonderful house, but too small for two people (unfortunately), and it is hard to see it when everything else is nearly perfect. Enthuasticism and naivity will tell you that everything will work, then you sit there in the office, doing everyting to get the flat, only to leave it and to decide: No, it won't work. I hope we won't get any problems with that, else we cannot count on this office any longer.

However, there are opportunities and there are decisions. I am bit sad about not having taken the opportunity, but at last I am relieved we did not, because it was never really one.

Do not ask for any sense in this text, it was just a feeling that I should write my thoughts down. Of course we will go on serching, and we will find something, I am sure. But I'm just wondering how many things can become less important when you see an offer shining like gold. First lesson learned: Do not decide ebthusiastic, and look behind the golden illusion.

So far, enjoy your days!

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]]> ~obscurarts http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/16550270/ http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/16550270/ Thu, 24 Jan 2008 11:43:50 PST
My dear friend has arrived as ~diesnail now. I am truly happy that she finally decided to show her wallpapers here and I hope there will be some of you taking a deeper look into the gallery and behind some band photographies she has used. And no, she is not doing only fan art, but I will not tell too much!!!

I'd love to show some of her work here, but I am not subscribed and so my journal is not able to deal with thumbnails, I am sorry!

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]]> ~obscurarts http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/16168054/ http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/16168054/ Sun, 30 Dec 2007 14:31:02 PST patty-space kindly tagged me, and I thought it is a very interesting thing to do, although I am not a person who does plans on New Year's Eve or whatsoever. Anyway, 2006 changed a lot of things in my life, and the last year went on with these changes between tears and joy. I think it is a good time to get things into order now.

THE RULES
1. Copy this in your journal.
2. Write at least 5 things you'd like to do or achieve in next year and at least 3 things you would like to change or let go of. You can also write more.
3. Tag people who you'd like to do this

Things I want to do/achieve in 2008:

1. Get back into both callygraphy and painting. I did a bit of smaller stuff (mostly gifts) which is not worth to be shown in my scraps, and I feel it is time to work on.
2. In order to achieve this: Getting my life in some structures between my apprenticeship, my partner, my friends and myself.
3. Doing my own website.
4. Move out of home.
5. Last but the most important thing: Enjoy life!!!

Things I want to change:

1. Stop talking about only bad things.
2. Be more consequent.
3. Do what I feel I have to do.

There are some people I'd like to do this. I would never force you, but I would be really interested to read it!

~huehnerhose
~nierikate
*lokisb

If you like to do this yourself, feel free to do it!
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]]> ~obscurarts http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/15806290/ http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/15806290/ Wed, 05 Dec 2007 11:41:58 PST
So, let's hope they will get the right sentence. But it wil take a lot of time until the process will be done.

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]]> ~obscurarts http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/15603566/ http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/15603566/ Wed, 21 Nov 2007 10:53:58 PST
Yesterday night somebody broke into our house and stealt some of our things, like a laptop, almost all mobile phones, a digital camera, passports, tickets, ec-cards...you know.
Not enough that I do not feel safe within these walls any longer, but now I have to go and get all these things again. I am really upset...I actually have had a lot of trouble because of this.

I was so angry when strating here...but now I am just sad. Empty. However...If I ever get to know these people...

But here:

"Robbed of my innocence, had no more time to play. I sure got my feathers burned, but I'm stronger than the flames!"

(Tarja Turunen - My Little Phoenix)
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]]> ~obscurarts http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/14935391/ http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/14935391/ Sat, 06 Oct 2007 02:24:16 PDT "Please open the door, come in and rest,
Lay down all the stories you saved from me...
Please open the door, come in and rest,
Here you find your silence in me...

'Cause here you can sleep in my arms,
Here you can dream in my mind.
And if you sleep, I will heal you...

...yes, I can heal, free your heart from the steel."

(Down Below - Heal)

What else to say? I finally found one of the most wonderful persons in the world...or maybe for me! I will take care for you, my dear!!! And I thank you so much for being there for me, for actually healing me!!

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]]> ~obscurarts http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/14345912/ http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/14345912/ Sun, 26 Aug 2007 08:39:20 PDT
So why should I? I had a lot if freetime during the last year, and what have I done? Wasted my energy on senseless things, in persons who left me or who I had to leave, in all this grandious shit which is called friendship and I don't feel like I want to see anybody anymore. So here I am alone, typing these senseless words, lamenting myself (yes, it's the only thing I am really good at) and hating the fact that the only person I want to see right now lives so far away from me. But, c'est la vie.

One week is left....one last week full of senseless time, then I will have something to work on...I will have something that gives me a reason to regain my energy. OMG - I am so full of self-lament, it sucks!!!

And why did I chose this subject? I wanted to talk about this song, about its meaning to me...but it is gone...I hate the English language because it is much more easy for me to write down my feelings an English than in German....language is a mask, and Englich sounds so gentle, so soft. Not as rough and pure as German. The other fact is, that English is the only other language I can think in...and according to its gentle sound it makes it so easy just to betray yourself by expressing your emotions in this language. Maybe that's the reason why I write all my poetry in English...when I write poems. That does not mean I am going to post up literature here...I am not interested into this part right now. But don't ask me what I am interested in...

So I close this entry...

BTW: ~Soundwave78 is gone, long live ~ScriptorCarelus!!!

(And that's the reason why I write in here...I just wanted to update ist....and I do nit want to stuck in memories when visiting my page...but well, this is something I cannot help, all entries make it....maybe that's why it is called journal?)

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http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/14178780/ Wed, 15 Aug 2007 10:59:20 PDT
I can only say one thing: I met a woderful, beautiful person and a fantastic graphic designer who shares my love for typographic art...I want to go there again!!!
It is such a fantastic feeling to know that there is no need to explain something which is normal to you, but there are still enough differences to discuss about...I am speechless!!!

Dear, if you ever read this: I miss you!!!!

So, hopefully I will finish some of the projects I started, but I am not sure how long it will take....I am still around here and I appreciate your art, but I will not be as active as in former times. My apprenticeship is coming...I want to prepare myself...I am really looking forward to it!
But remember, I will look at all of your work, my friends, just be patient!

So, again, I wish you all well, especially my dear calligraphy friends (Soundwave and patty-space, where have you gone???).

Feel hugged, my dears!!!
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]]> ~obscurarts http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/14087784/ http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/14087784/ Thu, 09 Aug 2007 09:35:28 PDT
I hope to have a good time with her!

Again, I wish you well!!! Hugs to all of you!!!!
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]]> ~obscurarts http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/13727941/ http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/13727941/ Sat, 14 Jul 2007 01:43:18 PDT
I just wanted to say that I am off for the next two weeks...I am going to visit Austria. I wishing you well, hugs and kisses!!!

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]]> ~obscurarts http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/13184345/ http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/13184345/ Sat, 02 Jun 2007 02:25:53 PDT
Yesterday the training was really cool, we worked so hard that we got some problems in concentrating on the things we were doing. The best was me: I ran against the stretched-out arm of my partner while I was attacking her! I was very angry with myself because this is a really stupid mistake for real beginners, but not for a person who is practising Aikido for almost three years. Well, the others had a good lough...

Our teacher was also not the fittest yesterday: He wanted to be filmed while showing some techniques with the stick (we call it Jo). He is wearing a kind of traditional trousers (called Hakama) over his Gi (this usually white tracksuit), as all Aikido teachers do. These trousers have very wide legs, some even identify them as skirts. So, he sad down in order to bow, and then he tried to get up again, but unfortunately he put one foot on the hakama's leg...he nearly fell on his nose. We loughed so much that my stomach started to ache...you see, we had a lot of fun!

And art...I am unable to draw...I tried to draw the angel ~Nayleya dared me to draw, but it looks so weird...I am going to have another try soon.
Here is a little checklist pf all the projects I am currently working on:

The angel for ~Nayleya
A coloured version of Scarlett Baby
The last brushstrokes on the painting based on a poem by ~PrettyCrazy
Two Celtic callies
My first really Gothic-Style cally

I hope to get on with this checklist soon...and you see what you can expext to see from me during the next weeks...stay curious!

Best wishes and enjoy your day!

PS:When you comment on this entry, I'll do the folowing things (found in ~Nayleya's journal):

1. I'll reply with something random about you.
2. I'll dare you to try something.
3. I'll say a color I associate with you.
4. I'll tell you something I like about you.
5. I'll tell you something that reminds me of you / A first memory about you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I always wanted to ask you.
8. If I do this for you, you must put this in your journal.

(8 is kinda optional, but it makes it so much more fun)
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~obscurarts http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/13032971/ http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/13032971/ Mon, 21 May 2007 01:54:53 PDT Nayleya was so kind to tag me...so now I am sharpening my knife to get through this jungle of questions!

01) First name: Claudia

02) Your nickname in dA: obscurarts

03) Birthday: 05/08/1985

04) Horoscope sign: Lion

05) Birth town: Berlin

06) Religion: Art/Music

07) Nationality: German

08) Parents: are German, too

09) Do you love them: yes, more or less, sometimes!

10) Brothers or sisters: "little" brother

11) Do you like the place where you live: Yes, Berlin is such a fascinating city!

12) Where would you move to live forever?: To a place where reality is silence!!!

13) Color of your eyes: Gray with a bit of blue.

14) Height: 168 cm (My passport says 171 cm!)

15) Weight: Do not ask a woman about this. But well: 60 kg.

16) What school/grade are you going to: I am waiting for my apprenticeship at the moment.

17) What marks do you have: None at the moment.

18) How many piercings do you have, and where are they?: Two earrings, one in each ear, how boring!

19) What do you want to be in your life: Just myself!

20) Your life: MUSIC, Art, Aikido....

21) Personal quote(s): My end includes my beginning. (Maria Stuart)

22) Lucky number: I don't have one.

23) What are you interested in: Music, art chemistry, martial arts, self-development, nature....and so much more.

24) Good side of your character: Difficult..I always try to do my best whem somebody needs my help.

25) Bad side of it: Laziness, sometimes too much egoism.

26) Is your life happy: Sometimes, when I recognize it!

27) Do you think that you are crazy? Some people say, but I do not think that I am extraordinary crazy.

28) What is the time: 09:59 AM

29) What is the date: 21/05/2007

30) What’s the weather like: Warm and sunny

31) Favorite day in a week: I don't have one...maybe Mondays and Fridays.

32) Favorite music: Too much to mention..I like so many styles, classical music as well as metal as well as some electronic pieces as well as a bit of reggae and what the hell...

33) Singer: Maybe Tarja Turunen, but there are so many graeat singers. I have madly fallen in love with Emiliana Torrini and Lisa Gerrard.

34) Band: If you will needle me on this, I would answer: Deine Lakaien and Samsas Traum.

35) Song: At the moment "A Strange Device" by Emilie Autumn (okay therer are no voclas in it), but that changes faster then my mood.

36) Best concert you have been: Deine Lakaien and Die Neue Philharmonie Frankfurt, it was definatley one of the best.

37) Actress: I do not have one.

38) Manga: Hate manga.

39) Film: Uhm..no, I do not have a favourite film.

40) TV serial: Refer to above!

41) Theatre play: "Leonce und Lena" by Georg Büchner at the Berliner Ensemble.

42) Film director: No one, sorry.

43) Do you want to be famous: I want to be myself, and if myself is famous?

44) Do you want to be an actor/actress: As a hobby, sure, it was a lot of fun!

45) Do you want to be a singer: Not anymore.

49) Colors: I am white-addicted, but I like all colours in their context.

48) Flower: White lily.

49) Food: Lasagne Al Forno.

50) Drink: A strange kind of Milk-Espresso made by one of my dear friends.

51) Sweet: Dark bitter Chocolate. (I hope you don't mind that I sign this!)

52) Fruit: Grapes!!! And lichees.

53) The worst food: Spinach.

54) The worst Drink: A kind of strong bear...

55) Favorite singer: How more often? Tarja Turunen, Emiliana Torrini, Lisa Gerrard...and if you're asking for males: Alexander Veljanov and Markus Testory.

56) The worst Band: I can't tell.

57) The worst Actor: Refer to above.

58) The worst Actress: Myself???

59) The worst Movie: Again, I can't tell.

60) The worst book: Too many to list!!!

61) Do you drink alcohol: Seldom.

62) Do you smoke: No.

63) Do you take some drugs... ]]> ~obscurarts http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/12871223/ http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/12871223/ Mon, 07 May 2007 02:57:31 PDT
So, what did I do the last weeks if not arts or work? I had a music-excess, like I did'nt have had it for ...uhm...I don't know how long. I listened to so much music, and I JUST listened to it, means that I did not do anything else while music was playing. It was so fantastic, I had a lot of inspiring pictures in my mind, but I could not get my lazy ass off to work on them. And yet, I don't dare to work on them. Sometimes things change faster than you can follow, and I just asked myself why to do ANYTHING, for it will only be blown away. I lost really interest in my own art, but I did not want to give it up....music brought me back.

It is time to go on now. There are some unfinished works waiting to be completed, so many ideas which want to be born. Maybe it will take some time again, but I will go step by step.

Hugs and kisses to everybody.

PS: Fortunately I found two other interesting sketches, you can see them here: [link]

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]]> ~obscurarts http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/12823982/ http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/12823982/ Thu, 03 May 2007 04:33:58 PDT Guenieviere's journal, and I am bored and it's about music, so why not?

The Rules Are As Follows
1. You shall put your music player on shuffle.
2. You shall press forward for each question.
3. You shall use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. You shall tag 5 people and rain hell upon humanity.
5. You shall bold the questions and with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.


How are you feeling today?
Negative - My Personal Sensivity
[I hate to think, I hate to dream...]

Will you get far in life?
Apulanta - Pahemi toisaan
[I don't know, what this song is about, so I'll have to find it out!]

How do your friends see you?
Disturbed & KoRn - Forsaken

What is your best friend's theme song?
Nirvana - Lake Of Fire
[oh yes, she definately IS a lake of fire!]

What is the story of your life?
Dope Stars Inc. - Kiss
[ You'll never understand the meaning in the end...]

What was high school like?
My Chemical Romance - Welcome To The Black Parade
[my school was full of goths...]

How can you get ahead in life?
Reflexion - Undying Dreams
[never lose your hope...]

What is the best thing about your friends?
Taking Back Sunday - Make Damn Sure
[You are so cool..., the only line that fits...and yes, maybe that's it...]

What is in store for this weekend?
Entwine - Time of Despair
[Hopefully not, I want to get rid off it!!!]

To describe your grandparents?
Eighteen Visions - Broken Hearted
[They are really close to each other, and if one of them is bad, it seems to break the other's hard]

How is your life going?
AFI - Intro
[Promises, secrets, bitterness, and finally redemption in sleep...]

What song will they play at your funeral?
Charon - Little Angel
[She craved the more but have it all..]

What do your friends really think of you?
Dope Stars Inc. - Fast and Beautiful

Do people secretly lust after you?
Placebo - Pierrot The Clown
[That means yes? Leave me dreaming on the bank, see you right back here tomorrow...]

How can I make myself happy?
The Used - I Cought Fire
[Just feel and enjoy?]

Will you ever have children?
Dope Stars Inc. - Make A Star
[no comments...lol]

No, as my tagger has broken wth the rules, I will do ot, too and refuse to tag anyone.
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http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/12753828/ Fri, 27 Apr 2007 11:30:37 PDT

As if I'm not quite sure what to write about, I decided to do a quiz I did in another Forum some years ago. The rules are simple: Just answer the following questions with parts of song lyrics.

1. Are you male or female?

"An aura of mystery surrounds her,
The Lady in brightest white"

Nightwish - Devil And The Deep Dark Ocean

2. If you could say one thing to the person you like what would it be?

"My heart weighs minimum a ton
An army's feet pounding on my head
Maybe I'll weak up ine day to notice
that all my life was just a dream...

And maybe I'll be better off without you
You left me here with all my thoughts
I'd write a zillion words or walk a million miles
I'd sleep on broken glass just not to lose your smiles"

Diary Of Dreams - She and her darkness (Farewell)

3. Where do you wish you were right now?

"An einem Ort, wo die Wirklichkeit schweigt,
Und wie ein Eindringling wirkt..."

(At a place, where the reality is silent
And seems to be a trespasser...)

Stillste Stund' - Wo die Wirklichkeit schweigt

4. What do you think about your best friends?

"Von Anfang an,
Ein Leben lang,
Du bist ein
Echter Freund.
Von einem, der mich so
Wie Du versteht,
Hab' ich lange nur
Vor mich hin geträumt.
Dein weiser Blick
Zeigt mir meine Grenzen auf,
Du gibst wortlos auf mich Acht.
Ohne Dich hätte ich das letzte Jahr
Mehr schlecht als recht nur
Hinter mich gebracht."

(Rough translation: Frome the very beginning, for a whole liftetime, you are a true frien. I have dreamt so long of somebody who understands me like you do. Your wise eyes show me my limits, you guard me silently. Without you I would have wasted the last year only worse than better.)

Samsas Traum - Ein Kater kennt den Weg

5. Any words of advice?

"Fade all the demons in your head,
It's getting harder to understand,
Delusions all that makes no sense..."

Negative - Fading Yourself

6. What do you wish you were doing right now?

"She sits in the corner,
Singing herself to sleep..."

Anastacia - Burning

7. What do you think about drugs and alcohol?

"We're the Hate Crew we stand and we won't fall...
We're all for none and none for all.
Fuck you! We'll fight 'til the last hit
and we sure as hell ain't taking no shit!"

Children Of Bodom - Hate Crew Deathroll

8. If you could say one thing to your enemy what would it be?

"I'm on the outside,
I'm looking in,
I can see through you,
See your true colours.
'Cause inside you're ugly
- You're ugly like me.
I can see through you,
See to the reaö you!"

Staind - Outside

9. What do you usually do on Friday nights?

"Sie kämpfen für das Leben, Krieger sind deswegen hier,
leben für den Traum und alle sind ein teil von dir und geben dir
ein gefühl wie ein Schild, du hast es lange vermisst,
dass so lange du kämpfst, du nicht alleine bist.
Tritt in den Kreis und mach wahr was du weisst
und die Erkenntnis bringt die Kraft mit der du dich befreist
und dabei frei von Angst ganz gelöst
erlöst was in dir döst."

(Again, just a rough translation:
They are fighting for life, that is why warriors are here,
they live their dreams and all of them are a part of you and give you
a feeling like a shield, you missed it for so long,
that, as long as you fight, you'll never be alone.
Step into the circle and let become true what you know
and the knowledge gives you the power to free yourself
and - withou fear - just do
what is sleeping in you.)

Thomas D. - Der Krieger

10. Are you for World Peace?

"Ich durchwanderte die Kriege - sah die Angst und das Verderben
Und ganz gleich, ob Krieg, ob Frieden
Egoismus - blinder Hass
War doch immer hier zugegen"

(I wandered through the wars - saw the fear and the desease
But no matter whether war or peace
Egoism - blind hate
Were always present here)

Lacrimosa - Die Straße der Zeit

11. What do you think about your job?

"I know t... ]]> ~obscurarts http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/12520981/ http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/12520981/ Mon, 09 Apr 2007 07:13:30 PDT
About economy

"In our world, alsmost everything is based on money and on having good economy. So what does government do when there is bad economy? In Europe, they want people to spend more money. That can be achieved by buying things or even by raising fines. I mean, some years ago you payed for crossing the street by red traffic lights about 50 Euro. Today, you pay about 200 Euro, and that's all for a good economy! In Japan, before the European cultere reached ua, our government told teh rich people to spend less, so that it became possible to hold the level of economy. So, what is better: Keeping good economy by spending more or by spending less?
Spending more...there will always be a limit. But there is no limitation on spending less."

About communication

"What is communication? The exchange of information? And is it also communication if you send me an e-mail which doesn't arrive me? Is iot communication to get a letter send where the scripture is so small that you are unable to read? Is that an exchange of information, when the receiver is not reached? This is not communication. Communication does not mean spreading information, but communication means to have a similar imagination.
So it is important to listen, because only when you're listening you can get something of people's imagination. Europeans talk all the time, they think talking is the important part of communication. When I join a party, sitting alone and having a good glass of wine, just listening to others, there will allways be someone asking me: "Is everything allright with you? Are you sad?" Why should I be sad? I am enjoying myself, relaxing and grinking good wine. Actually, I am happy, but I do not need to tell everybody.
Most things you can learn from other people ypou learn by listenig. So, not talking is the importand part, but to listen."

About imagination

"What is Ki? Is there a univertsal Ki like in Chinese philosophie? I don't agree. At last, Ki is just a name. Everybody has got his own imagination about Ki. Even Aikido is just a name. Everything is just a name, like hate, love, martial arts and reality. Do you know what reality is? No? Because there is no realtity. Reality doesn't exist, because everybody is different. Even science is just an imagination. Everything in life is imagination. Some people might call ist illusion, but that sounds too negative. I woulsd call it imagination because it is not negative at all. It just telles us that there is no reality or holy truth.
When yopu accept this, you can live your own imagination. You cannot change everything...that would be the way for material. You can change the position of a table. But you cannot change a living being. You can only change relations, so it fits better to your imagination and you can live happily. But then: Can you live happily when your wife suffer and children are suffering? If you say: I don't care, than it is your imagination. But if your imagination is to take care for your family, then you will change relations for them to get better.
And then; can you be happy while other people in the world are suffering? If you say yes, it is again your imagination. But most of you will say no, and then you will do something to change relations for the world to get better. And that is the essence of Buddhism."

About pain and how to handle it

"Most people are afraid of pain. They lament around how bad they are. When we practise Misogi (kind of mental training), we also receive pain. We learn how to handle it. Because pain itsself is not bad. Pain is a part of life, physically pain the same as mental pain. I know some peole who even enjoy pain.
So what is to do when you have pain? There is nothing to do but to loook at it and listen to yourself. Pain can dissappear by doing nothing. Pain should not overtake you in your way of life. If you pay too much attention to it, you will be caught by pain. So it is better to know it, but not to pay too much attention t... ]]> ~obscurarts http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/12304661/ http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/12304661/ Sat, 24 Mar 2007 02:10:46 PDT
"Ophelia"...even the wird seems to be a synonym for dreams (if you do not know Shakespeare's Hamlet), it tastes so wonderful on the tongue when I speak it out. And the sounding of this name leads me away to the sea...to waves, wind, the salty air, the loss of weight when you are swimming. I am fascinated by the fact that I associate dreams usually with water. Maybe for the weightless feeling when you are lying in the water, maybe for a memory of a wonderful night I'll never forget...

It was about three or four years ago, I am not quite sure. My family and me went to Corfu, a Greek Island, and spend there a week for vacation. It was really wonderful there, we had a room in a small hotel located in a small bay, formed by green mountains and rocks. One night I went down to the beach and to the ending of the bay, climbed on the rocks, trook of my shoes and hung my naked feet into the water. It was so wonderful I am not able to describe the feeling looking at the waves and the reflections of the nearly full moon on the water, feeling the night breeze on my skin and singing...singing all the songs which came to my mind. I do not know how long I stayed there, but as I returned to the hotel I recognized that it was really cold (it was autumn season). Next day I was knocked out by a fever, but it was worth it. It was like...beig real, breathing and feelng life in my veins. I felt it again, afterwards, sure, but this night is something I'll never forget.

And this dream leads me back to Ophelia: I searched for information, but I didn't get some (I mean, she is not a mythologic figure or if so, not very popular), so she became my Goddess of Dreams. I hope I can catch her and show her to you as soon as possible...I am really curiosus to see her!

So please, do not be bewildert, I am not wasting my time, I am just dreaming a bit away...don't wake me up. Reality will catch me soon enough!
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Talents, friends, inspiration and supporters:



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The only thing that is actually left are the thoughts. But thoughts are not such an advance. They prevent us from living, from enjoying ourselfs, maybe from just BEING ourselfs. Because what else can it mean that so many people out there are not able to live for just one moment and forget about tomorrow? And even, like me, when they lived the moment and it is finally gone, like everything, just start to think again, and the thoughts go round like a circle and you are not able to switch them off? Not able to remember that moment and enjoy the memories, because there is a feeling of loss you cannot explain why it is there?

Uff, I think I know now why I feel this way now. Last weekend a long known person which had lived in me my whole life died. And I cannot tell that I mourn the death of this personality, because it was one of those parts who made it sometimes impossble for me to enjoy life. It is so difficult to accept that something has changed inside me that I prefer to blame myself or sink into self-lament. And now, when I know, it is still hard to see. An illussion broke away, the illusion of a deeper sense of living. There is nothing like a fate, nothing like a destiny, all decisions are made by your own, and so it is your duty to be responsible for all the consequences. And if you don't ever make a decision, it actually IS also a kind of decision: The dicision not to decide. So it is better to decide.

And the best why to decide is to trust in your feelings. I am learning to do so, but after the death of my inner preacher I lost something to be fixed up in, to feel save. Yes, it is a loss, but it also developes freedom. The freedom to live. The freedom to feel.

Joy is the only reason to live for us, because we do not have to fight in order to survive, we have enouigh to eat, and at last the only reason to live is to have fun. Yes, we should take care about our neighbours, our families, our friends and those who are not as lucky as we are, but after all there is just this one: HAVING FUN! It is the deepest loss I ever felt, seeing this illusion braking down. But at last, what is left? So, tell me, what?
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Talents, friends, inspiration and supporters:



]]> ~obscurarts http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/12041553/ http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/12041553/ Sat, 03 Mar 2007 14:45:08 PST
The last weeks here around DA I saw some deviations posted by somebody who didn't do them and without the permission of the artist. I will not mention them (a crusade is not neccessary, as most of these deviations are deleted or reported now), but it gives me a kind of numb feeling, for I know that art is not only fun, but hard work.

Last week I read something in *artoftheempath's journal what really made me sick: There was someone around in the web who did not only steal her art, but also her identity! I was speechles, couldn't even comment and thought about questions like: What does a person think who does such things? Do they think the artist must feel honoured because they think that this art is worth stealing it? Do they think they support the artist by spraeding their work under a wrong name or a wrong account? WHAT DO THESE PEOPLE THINK? Or did they lose their brains?

Some of them might not know that it is a hard way to develope those skills. I am only at the beginning of my way, I am not like those ones who began drawing when they were able to hold a pencil. In fact, I started to do calligraphy about three years ago, and it was not always fun. And now I am working on character paintings and drawings, and as you can see, it is not easy to do. You have to do a lot of sketches, sometimes you do not even get one you can use. You have to learn how to use colours abd to mix them (it is not done be reading books, it helps a bit, but you have to try it out to make some experiences), you have to develope techniques to use a pencil, a nib or a brush. As I wrote above, it is not only fun, it is sometimes boring and more often really frustrating. For my calligraphy, for examples, I did several sheets only with even short lines, to get a feeling for my pens. Now I am working on a project which is beginning to drve me mad because I'm not able to work it out the way i visualized it, and this is so frustrating. But I'm learning with every piece I do. I will never be perfect, but I do what I can to get as near as possible to perfection.

So, all of you who use art without thought: Can you imagine what it means to an artist seeing his work abused, a work he did with real passion and determination? A work he invested not only time and material, but also hours of thoughts, preparations, and even deepest emotions in? Can you imagine how you would feel? I suppose the first moment you would like to tear those people asunder. Or you will get numb. Like me. Do you earn so much by selling a foreinger's work? What do you get?

To all of you who did not know, I hope you will think twice before doing it. If you really love art, develope your own skills, create your own style. It will make you richer tham stealing other's people's work. You can learn so much things about yourself, your eyes will open up for the inspiring world around you and you will find things you never imagined to find. Art can give so much, abd if you are really interested, try it an do not blame yourself by saying: "I am unable to draw!" Maybe, but they are so many other possibilities to express yourself! And you will find them, if only you begin to search for them.

And if you want to support an artist, give feedback to his work! Constructive criticism, or the emotions coming over you while watching a piece. Give input!!! That is the best way to support an artist's work, because it helps to get better and it helps to get another view on his own work. So, my dears, DA is an art community to support artists, and there are so many talents arpound waiting for yous suggestions! Go out and spread your love!!!

Best wishes and thank you for reading!

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I would like to mention some really talented deviants below. Their works are amazing and getting better whith each piece they do. So, check out their galleries!

calligraphy:
http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/11758030/ Sat, 10 Feb 2007 09:35:32 PST
So, here I am. I know, it is February, but I think I just won the price for 2007. It was Friday night, when I went back from my training and I couldn't sleep because some thoughts didn't want to get out of my head, and so I did the only thing which makes sense in such a situation: I gave up trying to sleep and sketched a little around. The outcoming was a very likeable study of two of my characters I developed in countless stories. Today I finished the detailed sketch and began to colour it with my beloves acrylics, when I saw that the white colour was running out! I mean, I knew for weeks I had to buy some new white colours, but I ignored it, just worked on on my bigger projects thinking: Okay, it will be soon enough if I do so next week...
Unfortunately it was not possible to get some white acrylics today. I was really speechless!!! And it does not make any sense to paint on now...

I mean, it's not stupid that a colour is running low, but it's REALLY stupid to ignore it until Saturday when all art shops in Berlin close after 12 o' clock!

Okay, I really want to see it coloured, so I think I'll do it in watercolour pencils, although it will not look as pretty as in acrylics.

Best wishes!

]]> ~obscurarts http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/11536867/ http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/11536867/ Tue, 23 Jan 2007 02:38:12 PST And after some problems it went on will with it. So I guess I don't need to wait too long until I get my works on now...

Outside the sun is shining...it's getting colder as it belongs to winter... It's a beautiful life!!!
So for all the ones who are sad, I send you a brtight beam of the winter sun and tell you: Go out and enjoy life as long as you can do!!!

Best wishes and coll greetings from Berlin!

]]> ~obscurarts http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/11046872/ http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/11046872/ Wed, 13 Dec 2006 02:52:07 PST
So I wanted to remove them, but at least they'll stay, because I'm a bit proud of these works and so there seem to be no reasons to cast them out...

Well, after all, it's very difficult to get handmade works on, so they would look pretty in the web. Even when using a scanner they don't look the way as in "natural life"...maybe I'll try in digital arts, hoping that these ones won't cause that kind of troubel, but in the end I must say :I love to work with my hands!

I promise to make better shots of the last three paintings, hoping that I can do this soon, and I promise practising how to do this in order to get a better quality on presenting my works!

Best wishes!

]]> ~obscurarts http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/10720581/ http://obscurarts.deviantart.com/journal/10720581/ Tue, 14 Nov 2006 07:52:54 PST
But there is always this one question, it seems to be so important for human beings: WHAT WILL YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE???
I really hate this question, but it's already the one I'm concerned about most at the moment, while searching for a destination I can take. I hate it to live only one day after another, either.

The futre seems to be a big rock rolling down on me, and if I'm not careful, it will roll over me, pressing me down to the ground. And whenever I think: Okay, today I'll do it, I take a closer look on all the possibilities, there is always this damned lazy thing deep down in my soul, crying: WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING HERE? YOU DON'T WANT TO DO THIS OR THAT, YOU WANT TO DO ARTS!!!

And then I try, but all I work out is grandious sh**. Art can be frustrating, really. Like searching for a job. I'm not sure if I want to live this way...

Sorry for my bad English.

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