http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:oldoneeye&section=today deviantART RSS for by:oldoneeye en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 30 Nov 2009 07:18:31 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/25692179/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/25692179/ Thu, 02 Jul 2009 10:13:45 PDT Bachelor Of Arts in Computer Animation With Second Class Honours Division One (2.1)

Oh yea, I've got a degree now

Today's journal title is provided by Angels and Airwaves - The Adventure


3 years seems to have disappeared, I've learnt so much and made many good friends who I will miss, even though I'll still be in touch with facebook or msn. I'm not really sure where to start, there has been so much I've experienced...

From crawling into drawing and composition the night after student night and hearing old man Don's awesome stories while I scribbled through my hangover, the climbing of the coke machine ( [link] ), the nights out at club one before realising it sucked, and all the animation and acting theory that I have crammed into my head and now start to use for analysing random things around me.

So much has happened, and there is an abundance of pictures on facebook to show the good times. And my hard work and handful of all nighters has pulled off a 2.1 (for those who don't know the grading system for uni works out as 1.1, 2.1, 2.2, 3.1 and then I think fail). In the 3rd year I had the pleasure of working on a group project that could have been so much more awesome if we had got the damn thing rendered in time with passes... and I've been able to attend the animex festival for 3 years in a row now and each year has been better and better.

Now that I'm out of uni I've got some serious work to do:
Learn Maya
Do some animation (in 3DS MAX) for a game some friends are working on
Write a Games CV and an Animation CV
Compile a showreel with the current work I have
Work on pieces for my showreel
Start a few personal projects
Find a good life drawing class

...oh and get a job

Well now I really do have my life ahead of me, I wonder where I'll be in the next 3 years.

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/24019748/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/24019748/ Thu, 02 Apr 2009 08:33:27 PDT
Final year project handed in, and a conversation with my mate Kris pointed out, that now i have done 70% of the work that I'm being graded on in my final year... crazy, I've done so much it seems, and here's me thinking I was actually a bit lazy this year.

My final year project is up on youtube at the moment [link] due to DA's copyright policy it probably wont be appearing here. I've learned a lot from it so I'm glad I built my character from scratch, and I was introduced to a rather effective of facial animation by one of the people I talked to at expotees. [link] Used in Metal Gear Solid 4, to explain it simply it's a low poly mesh that has multiple bones cluster constrained to the mesh which are enveloped to the final face model - pretty simple eh?

I've got a fair bit of work left to do, but it'll be nice to work on something different to my final year project.

For now I've been taking it easy, but I'm gonna be getting on with work soon... now to play Dawn of War II

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/23837145/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/23837145/ Sun, 22 Mar 2009 17:53:04 PDT
Well tagged me
1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must tell 8 things about themselves.
3. At the end, you have to tag 8 people, and post their icons in the journal.
4. Go to their page with a comment saying you tagged them.
5. NO TAGBACKS.

I'll do normal journal stuff after this but onto this tagged thing now:
1) I'm half Czech and I do like my Czech beer, I recommend Staropramen, it's good stuff

2) I have various guitars, a fender (mexican) P-bass, an epiphone gibson les paul, a fender (mexican) telecaster, an aria electric acoustic, a classical guitar, and and old classical guitar, on top of that a bunch of FX pedals and amps

3) I'm left handed, but kinda ambidextrous

4) I'm subscribed to 26 podcasts

5) I'm dyslexic and dyspraxic

6) I haven't been out of the country since my 18th birthday, I'm now 21... I want a holiday

7) Poor quality animation makes me angry

8) I've gotten away with asking a question which would probably get most men a slap in the face

Time to get tagging
:
(if Brett does this journal I'm totally gonna buy him a cookie)


This week I've managed to get my final year project to a sate where it's now a case of tweaking things, as for the dissertation I've got 3300 words left, and it's going to be talking about what I did, which shouldn't be a problem, since I've been keeping a blog of my work and I won't have to do any more research. But the end of the final year project is nearly at an end, I've learned a lot from doing it, and I hope it all works out well.

As for the fun it was my friends', Kris and Cris, joint 21st party, was a great night. Had a couple of mates come down for it, Steve from Newcastle who went off to do a teaching course, Tom from Dundee who went to work on a game called APB (also he worked on one of the 200 issue 200 edge covers [link] ).

We started off at the local student pub, annoying the kitchen staff by ordering about 16 burgers at once. Then at 's house was a fishbowl and flippy cup [link] then we went out to a club (well the people of Brett's house didn't go out because they suck, though Francis actually had an excuse because she wasn't feeling well, but the others - no excuse!). The next day was spent hanging out pretty much, it was great to catch up with Steve and Tom, later on we watched JCVD, which isn't anything like Juan-Claude's other movies and was also a pretty good movie.

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/23503431/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/23503431/ Tue, 03 Mar 2009 08:16:20 PST
After having a patch of panic, general loss of hope and annoyance in myself, I'm getting back to work. Currently working on the lip sync animation for my character, the actual music track is a bit tricky to do at times since it actually has two overlaying tracks of singing in places. Creating an open/closed/wide/narrow mouth control speeds the whole process up a lot since I have the one object to key for the respective range of shapes. I've also got a control for lifting the sides of the mouth, but I'll be adding that in on a second pass... then once I have the animation to a level I'm happy with (and if I have time) I'll go about adding in more controls to the mouth to make it more flexible.

One of the downsides of lip sync is that I can't really listen to music while I'm doing it, after the final year project is handed in I'll be working on a fight scene, so I can listen to music then and animate a couple of guys kicking each-other's asses.

While the focus is now on work, and my gym visits have been cut since I'm focusing on work, I've still got my housemate's joint 21st (on the 20th this month) to look forward to, there's gonna be a load of people coming from here and there including who should be coming down from Dundee, Scotland where he works... and he may try to steal his old bed back off me now I've taken over his room. Should be a lot of fun, and as is customary a fishbowl will probably be made.

Once everything is done (final hand in, creative character animation on the 15th of may) I'll be relaxing my ass off and there may also be a roadtrip, wooo!!

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/23455677/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/23455677/ Sat, 28 Feb 2009 17:31:15 PST
Today's journal title is provided by Alexi Murdoch - All My Days

I got a phone call a few weeks ago from my parents, they said that the family cat had been put down, the vet said that she had a tumor, she had been losing weight and been off her food for a while and I had been expecting it... but it always seems to blindside me when I don't see it coming. added a picture I took of Shelley a while back to her 'cute' collection.

This is the picture of her [link]

Looking at the notification message it brought a bit of a tear to my eye, but she also left a message.
'When a cat blinks, she (he) shows familiarity and comfortableness to you.
R.I.P.'

I just broke down, I couldn't stop crying. I always seem to get hit by some random reminder of a painful event and it just makes all my emotion come to the surface.

There's a song by Ben Folds called 'Narcolepsy', it refers to an emotional narcolepsy rather than the sleep disorder and is about when everything gets to much you just shutdown and become emotionless. I always seem to have been this way with negative emotions, maybe it's why I tend to have a positive outlook on life and always try to be optimistic. But it usually builds up and then I'm down for the count and not able to do anything and the floodgates open.

I've also recently been having a lot of stress with the final year project, which probably contributed to this. I have been far too complacent with it and I'm wishing I had done something different, while I have been enjoying aspects of it, the technical side always stumps me. I am so much more competent with animation itself rather than the modelling, rigging and other aspects - I can understand them to a degree and the general principals, but the execution and technical aspects stump me.

Animation, I love, I like seeing the motion, planning out action, giving a character life. But with my own in-experience with modelling and rigging, I have ended up with a character that does not animate so well. For a while I have been thinking I should have taken another route with my final year project, but now I am really regretting my decision to model and rig my own character.

I'm really hoping that I can pull this off, and I dearly hope I can pass my final year.



I want to finish talking about my cat Shelley.
As much as she was a whiny little thing, I really did care for her. She put up with me following her round meowing at her, putting my face right up close to her and stroking her with my head like she did to us when we here feeding her. Though she didn't always want peoples attention, she was a very adorable animal and she helped me feel better when I was feeling down or lonely.

She always loved attention... when she felt like it and as much as she annoyed the whole family at times, we all loved her. She was a rescue cat who had been mistreated by her previous owners, they pushed her off their laps and locked her in a room all because they thought she would hurt their new baby, and though she improved so much when we had her, she still hated people closing doors near her and up until more recently she would rarely jump up on people's laps.

I'm glad to say my family gave her a good life, she will be missed and the house won't feel the same without her.

RIP Shelley

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/23040760/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/23040760/ Fri, 06 Feb 2009 13:23:25 PST
It's been a busy week for me, and there is a lot to cover but I'll *try* not to drag on. With help of a guide I teefed from a table at the end of Animex this will hopefully have some order to it.

It was the 10th year of Animex [link] , and I'm confident in saying that this has been the best year that I have attended, there have been some absolutely stunning lectures. The Monday and the Tuesday were dedicated to games, the Wednesday was workshops and the Thursday and Friday was Animation.

ANIMEX GAME: day one

On the Monday Animex game started with an opening adress then a look into the future of computer entertainment, this covered looking at the divergence of demographics and how both technology and gameplay might evolve. Next was the presentation on Super Street Fighter II Turbo HD remix by Jim Zubkavich and Long Vo from UDON entertainment, it was one of the most amusing lectures due to Long putting additional slides of Street Fighter related hilarity without telling Jim. His reaction to the sudden appearance of 'Street Fighter valentines cards' among other things was brilliant. The art and commitment to keeping the spirit of the original Super Street Fighter II Turbo while evolving the style was amazing.

The next presentation was on the making of Wheelman by Chi-Hung Cheung and Jim Gentile of Midway, a large portion focused on motion capture, I was very pleased to find learn that they believed that you did not need to learn motion capture before applying for a motion capture job, but instead have an understanding on the physics and weight of a character and the ability to accurately show realistic motion. I'm interested in motion capture and well as hand keyed animation, so it was great to hear that I could keep on with learning to animate by hand and still have mocap (note: short for motion capture) as a possibility for employment.

In the evening was the players lounge, I talked to Jim Gentile for a while about mocap. He thought the main flaw with Beowulf in terms of motion is that the director did not get the best performance out of the actors while they were in the mocap suits, Jim has nearly had his nose broken trying to get an American Football player to perform correctly. I guess this means he's quite happy to risk his own health getting a good performance by pissing off American Football players. I talked with a recruiter about things like showreels, internships and keeping in contact with companies, it was very useful and gave me something to think about for when I start applying to companies. The last person I talked to... well I got them confused with someone else...

I unfortunately though Long Vo was Chi-Hung Cheung... I was mortified with myself but quickly tried to pick up my mess by telling him how much I enjoyed the UDON presentation, I ended up talking to him with for a fairly long time about all sorts of things, like Street Fighter, marrying my way into getting a Greencard and the original transformers movie. I hope I didn't make a bad impression on anyone, and I felt the night went well.

ANIMEX GAME: day two
On the Tuesday I attended the first lecture, but was away until lunch with the group of computer animation 3rd years who opted to get their worked looked at by Ed Hooks and James Finlay. It was a great opportunity, Ed looked more at the acting side of the piece, he was generally positive about my piece [link] , though he though that there needed to be a stronger focus and purpose at the start as the character is switching between addressing himself and addressing the camera. I was glad to get such a good response from Ed and it gives me something to build upon. James was more on the animation principals and technical side, he pointed out where my character wasn't moving correctly and where it lacked the right weighting, anticipation and staging. all that gave me some useful feedback to go back and work on my piece(which I will re-start based on the feedback, trying to tweak it is often a time wasting way of approaching animation rather than re-working it).

The final lecture on Tuesday was the lead animator on Left 4 Dead, this was more about game design than animation, but was still interesting. The lectures I've seen valve give have always shown their dedication to making a solid game and creating brilliant gameplay.

WORKSHOP
On the Wednesday I was meant to be doing... ]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/21514710/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/21514710/ Sun, 16 Nov 2008 08:54:49 PST
I has a blog now [link]
I've started it to keep track of my final year project which is getting into gear along with all my other modules, I've been doing more work recently maybe about 4 hours a day, depending on when I start. Would probably do more if I didn't get so distracted.

At one point I was freaking out about my Final Year Project, but I've got my head around what needs to be done and I'm in the process of modelling a head based on Imogen Heap which will be singing (in a recording studio) to the song 'It's good to be in love' [link]

Currently I'm working on my creative character animation, using the audio clip "Who am I? What am I? I'm a chihuahua!... rrrow.." from the Beverly Hills Chihauhau movie - Never thought I'd be animating a character to that for my university degree when I first saw that trailer.

I should consider eating something, it's probably gonna be toast, a kit kat or just playing Motorstorm... I got me a Pizza for later

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/20805132/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/20805132/ Fri, 03 Oct 2008 07:57:41 PDT R.I.P. Richard Wright, if you don't already know he passed away on September the 15th aged 65

I've broken the trend of getting up in the morning unfortunately, since I didn't have any lectures today, so now I'm a bit complacent... ergo, one of those journal questions things, taken from 's journal

1)Full Name:
- Nicolas Zdenek Bright (only one person has ever said my middle name right the first time)

2) Male/Female:
- Male

3) Were you named after anyone?
- I think my middle name is after my dad's uncle

4) Does your name mean anything?
- A keyring told me that Nicolas means 'leader of men', I have been considering becoming a producer... though some would question that decision.

5) Nick Names:
- Feral Nick

6) What do you think you look like?
- I've been told I look like Syler from Heroes, I reckon cross him and Niko Bellic (from GTA4) and you might end up with me

7) Date of Birth:
- 23 of June 1987

8) Place of Birth and Current Location:
- United Kingdom

9) Nationality:
- British

10) Astrology Sign:
- Cancer

11) Chinese Astrology:
- Rabbit

12) Religion:
- Agnostic

13) Whats your favorite smell?
- Probably a good curry

14) Political Position:
- In American terms I think Liberal, in the UK probably Conservative

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
- Either tea or 'Breakfast juice' (i think its orange and grapefruit)

16) Hair + eye color:
- Both brown

17) Do you look like anyone famous?
- As I've mentioned before I've been told I look like Syler aka Michael C. Hall (my sister randomly said that in a text)

18) What do you look like?
- 6'1" with a buzzcut and stubble, medium build, with a bit of a European appearance (namely from my dad being Czech)

19) Any unusual talents?
- I can get my leg behind my head, but I generally don't do that... I also have mad tangent skills

20) Righty, lefty, or ambidextrous?
- Lefty, though I'm kinda ambidexterous

21) Gay, straight, bi, or other?
- Straight

22) What do you do for a living?
- Student (Computer Animation)

23) What do you do for fun?
- Watching various series, Movies, Anime, Gaming, Drinking with mates, Hanging out with mates, Music

24) What are your favorite art materials to work with?
- The computer, though if we're talking otherwise then mechanical pencil

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?
- DREAMS!!! screw you reality!

26) Have you met your grandparents?
- Yes, all of them, though my grandfathers on both sides have passed away

27) Boyfriend/girlfriend?
- No... I'm so lonely...

28) Crush?
- Secret (you be quiet now )

29) What celebrity would you date if you could?
- Well I'm gonna say screw the conventional celebrities so maybe Jade Raymond (Producer at ubisoft), Rhianna Pratchet (computer game script-writer, as in the movie type not programming) or one of the fragdolls

30) Current worries?
- 3rd year vs my procrastination

31) Favorite online guy/girl:
-

32) Favorite place to be?
- Somewhere with sun, pretty stuff and a good nightlife

33) Least favorite place to be?
- Middlesbrough... the university and night-life is great, but I fear for my safety

34) Do you burn or tan?
- Tan

35) Ever break a bone?
- At most my little toe, otherwise no

36) What is your favourite cereal?
- I wish they still had lucky charms in the UK

37) Person you cry with:
- No one...

38) Any sisters:
- One, older, currently working at a riding stables, she has her own horse

39) Any brothers:
- Nope

40) Any pets:
- 1 cat [link] she is going senile i think

41) An illness:
- Freshers Flu

42) A Pager:
- Nope

43) A personal phone lin... ]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/20729162/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/20729162/ Sun, 28 Sep 2008 17:45:57 PDT
Today's journal title is provided by Peter Gabriel - Down to Earth (again)

Wall-e needs to hurry up and be out on blu-ray, I got my student loan now


After a lazy summer that was devoid of the corporeal forms of the pipe dreams in my mind I'm back in Middlesbrough. I know I'm definitely back since I saw a kid carrying a massive chunk of wood as I went to see the dark knight for the second time...

To be honest I knew in the back of my mind that I wasn't gonna do half the things I planned over summer, and now I'm back at university I'm spending a lot of time with my house mates(+1) - props to Jo for the awesome Sunday lunch... not that she reads my journal.

What I'm not looking forward to so much this year is the fact that, now I'm back with my mates at uni, I can't afford to spend lots and lots of time with them since I'll have a lot of work, a planned 3 day gym routine and sei-ken-so on Saturdays. I've got a bit of work done over summer but I know I'll have to really knuckle down and produce a load of pages for my dissertation and some high quality animation. To be honest it's not so much the animation itself that I'm dreading, more the technical work that goes into making it.

I've been thinking that I might look into what it takes to be a producer (which could mean a higher salary), though my word speaking skills leave something to be desired. Hopefully my Studio and Business practice module should be able to help with some of the elements of that, though I've learnt from one of my podcasts that it is possible to get into the job just by helping out, offering some organizational skills here and there and filling the gaps.

I'm expecting that there should be all kinds of awesome in my 3rd year as well as stress... I just hope my 'living a chilled life' podcasts can help along with my usual optimistic outlook.

Last year I shouted 'F**K OFF' at a misbehaving animated chair, I'm just wondering what lies in store this year.

Peace Out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/19898997/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/19898997/ Mon, 11 Aug 2008 14:19:55 PDT
Bin out a few times for my mate's 21st celebration, one more trip involving the pub should be due tomorrow , and now since I don't know what else to say

From

1.Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
...of an attribute and select Expressions. (Stop Staring by Jason Osipa)

2.Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you reach?
My giant bottle of Budweiser that holds loose change.

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
I think it was the news, TV is often crap, plus I have a good computer, the internets and 2 games consoles to keep me distracted.

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
8:04

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
fail - 21:48

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
The ticking of what I hope is my alarm clock

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
Going to Chessington world of adventure, fun rides and aminals

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
My facebook and emails

9. What are you wearing?
My 'anime junkie' t-shirt and jeans

10. Did you dream last night?
Nope, fell asleep in the car journey home from Chessington though

11. When did you last laugh?

"20. George Bush:
Has no upper lip.."

12. What are on the walls of the room you are in?
Some squashed bugs who got into my comfort zone, a poster of the transformers movie, red hot chilli peppers, Kurt cobain (which i should replace cus i hardly ever listen to nirvana now) and an evangelion wallscroll

13. Seen anything weird lately?
A big fat guy wearing a 'wide load' shirt (at least he's honest)

14. What do you think of this quiz?
I've had better

15. What is the last film you saw?
Wall-e, for the second time

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
Nothing major for myself till I finished uni, but I'd sort my parents out with paying any bills off that they need to and get them new cars (my mum is kinda driving mine at the mo), buy my mates awesome stuff (particularly my mate Kris who really needs a replacement for his archaic Imac), after uni I'd live in Japan for a while and buy my mates tickets to come and see me, then buy a big house, kick ass media system with awesome PC and massive HD screens and an Ariel atom [link]

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know about.
The toe next to my big toe is longer than my big toe (both feet)

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
Stop businesses making so much damn profit when they don't need a second jaguar and a summer home in Costa Rica

19. Do you like to dance?
Hells yea, whenever there is a good opportunity

20. George Bush:
Is speshul [link]

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
I honestly am not sure

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
I am also not sure (maybe Optimus Prime or Grimlock)

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
Yes, in fact I want to go to Japan for a year, and Montreal in Canada could be on the cards for a job with animation, and Insomniac Games is my Dream Job and they have two (one newly opened) offices in America

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
Turns out agnostic was the right religion, congratulations, you had the balls to be a fence sitter!

25.Tag six people who must also do this in THEIR journal:
Anyone who reads this http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/19566481/ Thu, 24 Jul 2008 03:58:13 PDT
Today's journal title is provided by Peter Gabriel - Down to Earth, from the brilliant movie that is wall-e, which is now probably one of my favourite movies of all time.

If you haven't seen Wall-E yet, go book some tickets now. It really is a beautiful movie, and as Ed Hooks points out in his most recent acting for animators newsletter; "is arguably the first American made animated feature film for adults ("Fritz the Cat" excepted)"
I'd just like to give thanks to Ed Hook for the excellent 'acting for animators' class he gave at Teesside university at Animex '08.

With animation in mind I've recently been working on some practice for the 3rd year using the 'guy v1.0' rig, trying to animate a 'nervous walk to a cross on the floor'. While I have rather been taking it easy, and spent the last of my student loan on going out with my mates, I'm starting to make more progress on preparation for my impending 3rd year of university. Even if it is only an hour or two a day . Though I'm starting to work for a bit longer... Kinda need to get back into the focus I had when I was working on my ICAs.

Finally I think *touchwood* summer might be here in England, though currently it is being spoiled by some old guy who has decided to start a fire in the allotments behind my house. He keeps doing it as well and my room now stinks of smoke, plus his carbon footprint must be massive

Well I've bin up since about 8am today, which is a first since god knows how long, and I've been playing around with the centre of gravity in the rig I'm animating with and adding in some more keys. I'm gonna have me a break and play some of the old game's I've been installing on my PC.

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/19055027/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/19055027/ Thu, 26 Jun 2008 10:38:36 PDT
Today's journal title and the bit above is provided by Newton Faulkner


Two main things have happened recently, firstly I'm now 21 - a proper adult (supposedly), and I'm celebrating my birthday this weekend, my mate's from uni and will be coming up, much appreciated.

The second is I had an interview with Lionhead for an 11 month motion capture internship, which would pay 15K PA. I feel the interview went well, though when I was talking about my show reel I wasn't so good since I'm not happy as I as could be with it. But it got better as I started talking to them about motion capture, and started having a joke about a few things. My NDA (non-disclosure agreement) kinda stops me from saying various things, and I sure as hell don't want to have Microsoft on my ass, already had one mate trying to get info out me, no dice.

Also talked to some of the people on their lunch break and they seemed pretty aright, and it seems like a great place to work.

But I didn't manage to get the job, was a bit down about it since it would have been a great opportunity, but I feel I lack some technical skill. I know the guy who got the job, and I knew he was probably the most likely to get it. Though if I had got the job there would be some issues to sort out with my house next year as I'm in a contract, so I can look at that as a positive.

His 3D animation ability is better than mine, and I knew it. So I'm gonna keep getting better myself.

Also thanks to for the help with navigation, even though we still ended up getting lost thanks to my quick decisions.

...admittedly the plan for getting better starts after this weekend, I'd kinda always had it in mind to take it easy till after my birthday, but I've had a play around with a few free XSI rigs, and I've selected the songs I'll be using in my Final Major Project in the 3rd year, maybe 10-15 seconds with be used from each.

I want to plan out a rough animatic and show the artists how I plan to use the songs, but just see if you can guess what I'm planning, they're gonna be used in this order:
[link]
[link]
[link]

Well the tasks I'm gonna be working on over summer are:
Storyboard
Animatic
Character design
Animation Tests
Animation practice with pre-built rigs
Research into texturing (including work with Zbrush)
Research into Rigging (The XSI biped guide kinda sucks)
Learning to use 3DS max
..and whatever else comes to mind

Granted some of those may be put of the back burner in favour of other ones, but the main thing is preparing for my 3rd year and getting better at animation.

....and before I forget, I need to put this down as I commented on 's journal

Comment and I will:
a) tell you why I friended you, (if your a random person I don't know, I'll just say nice things)
b) associate you with something - fandom, a song, a colour, a photo, etc.,
c) tell you something I like about you,
d) tell you a memory I have of you,
e) ask something I've always wanted to know about you,
f) tell you my favourite submission of yours,
g) in return, you must post this in your journal.



Also MGS4 is awesome, there are some freaking amazing boss fights, sometimes it can feel a bit cumbersome, but I'll be damned if I didn't have an awesome time playing it... now time to try it on Big Boss mode without killing anyone or setting off alarms :S

Also my spore page, I've wasted too much time with the creature creator...
[link]

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/18355008/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/18355008/ Fri, 16 May 2008 16:59:30 PDT
Got the new album the other day, its a different sound to Hold your colour, but it's really starting to grow on me

2nd year over, and I went into a bit of crazy at one point during it because I freaked out about actually getting all my work done, and then I also did 2 all nighters in a row, now that was a bad idea, made me all kinds of crazy... self inflicted insomnia isn't a good thing. But I wouldn't have been able to actually get all my work done if I hadn't of done that.

While I'm pretty happy with a fair bit of stuff I've done this year and I've definitely improved as well as gaining a better insight on what I need to do to get better, I really regret not using my time better, mostly on my 3D character. I reckon I'm most proud of my 2D animation production work which currently sits pride of place on my DA featured work thingy.

All regrets aside I'm planning on working on things during the summer, and I'm fairly confident I've passed the year.

Various aims include photoshopping some drawing and composition work (which would have helped me get some more marks, but I ended up doing the drawing the night/morning before the actual hand-in), various animation exercises, playing around with animation stuff for my final major project, looking into texturing, and other things that I forget. I might not get around to doing all this, but I just don't want to be lazy and un-productive...

But for the moment I will be, still got a week at uni and I'm gonna just relax and get a few things sorted before I go back home. One of them will probably be a new deviant art ID involving my half beard...

Thanks to everyone who commented on and 'ed my 2D production [link]

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/17940046/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/17940046/ Sun, 20 Apr 2008 08:12:28 PDT
Random music things stolen from

Take the music listening device of choice, with all your songs on it, stick it on shuffle and put a song together with the first lines of the songs that come up (now i'm using a rule of thumb of if a song dosent have lyrics skip it, plus i'll whack on a translation if some non english stuff comes up)

City rooftop, summer night
You saw me lost in treading water
I feel the night explode, when we're together
Because I had danced, the beautiful lady was enchanted*
Let me take your hand
Make it funky**
Going home late last night
Let's go to a rave and behave
Do nothing but cry
I just couldn't believe it


All this love - The Similou : Circles - Incubus : Tell is to my heart - Taylor Dane : 遠神忌為 - 川井憲次 (english "Toh kami, emi tame" which is a wedding song used in the movies of ghost in the shell) : Let's go to bed - the cure : Make it funky - James Brown: Jack the stripper/Fairies wear boots - Black Sabbath : No Tomorrow - Orson : Dahlia - X - Japan : Snoop Dog Baby

* origional translation
吾が舞へば、麗し女、酔ひにけり（あがまへば、くはしめ、ゑひにけり）
A ga maeba, kuwashime yoinikeri（あがまえば、くわしめ、よいにけり）
I have mad internet skills - fact

** just used the first lines of the actual song part ignoring the talking before and the count in

O.k.

That's a pretty good range of my music library and it sorta works, and '遠神忌為' took some skills to get a translation.

Now go play raptor safari! [link] (you have to install the unity web player beforehand, its not spyware or any crap like that)

Well apart from this journal, I've been busy, spent about 10 hours yesterday finishing off the animation in my 2DAP, now it just needs a couple of little things added, then putting all into a single movie, while i'm pretty happy with it, there's a weird feeling about it, i put it down to the amount i freaked out while making it, swearing at chairs, and increased paranoia due to lack of sleep and lots of work. I'll contact the Paragonx9 about using their track in the animation, but it was on the newgrounds audio portal so it should be ok since its all royalty free sorta stuff, then it will be up on DA in a while.

strangely enough my work seems manageable now for uni, but still I'm not letting my guard down, next up Concept Development, Drawing and composition, 3CA and finally 3D character (which is the last hand in on the 15th of may)

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/17679957/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/17679957/ Fri, 04 Apr 2008 08:42:32 PDT
And I really wouldn't swap what I'm doing at the moment for a job in Starbucks.

Been busy, though could be busier... I've been working on 2D stuff mostly, recently, and my 2D character animation work is now finished and I've just activated my film account and uploaded it [link]

Next (and currently on the cards) is my 2D Production which means making the finished animation of the animatic i was working on for a hand in earlier this year [link] , currently I'm adding posters and other random things around the robot office in the first part of the animation and on the outside I need to make a skyline, flying cars, window washers and whatever else comes to mind to bring the environment to life. Its all a slight homage to ratchet and clank. While I'm putting a lot of work into it it might not be able to go up here (though it will definitely be on youtube) since it kinda uses a lot of referenced images, but they have been altered to fit with the style of the scene, might go onto the forums at some point when its done so get an idea of what ppl think.

I've also been struggling to discipline my character 'Arthur' as the rig and enveloping on the model was freaking out (his hips pulled a 180 for a reason unknown to be), though after nearly having to start the rigging and weighting again I sorted the problems and saved him as a model so if it all goes wrong I can just grab him from my file directory.

Less than a month till my first hand in date, so I'm gonna be keeping busy over the upcoming break, no going home, but working on my various projects instead.

At some point I'll contact another batch of companies, and post some W.I.P.stuff up here to link to, though if a work placement falls through I've got my housing next year sorted, moving into my mate 's room across the road since he's been snapped up by realtime worlds to work on cut scenes for thier upcoming game A.P.B., so best of luck goes to him with his work.

Also I've mentioned to and about modelling and animating their characters over summer, if you read this and you want me to model your character (well as far i know it will be terry and taj) would you be able to provide a front back and side view with arms out at right angles, and on the side view leave the arms out, instead showing the 'space' left by where the arm joins the body. Any Q's just shoot them in my direction, I can probably get the character profiles off the stuff in your DA galleries, though I might need to go more in depth (its what ed hooks would want, he's a legend [link])

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/17432681/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/17432681/ Thu, 20 Mar 2008 19:47:20 PDT
I'm now right in a good working mood (though its coming up 2:30 am so maybe i'll sleep now), i'm getting a good few hours work done everyday and feeling optimistic... though not so much about my placement, nothing so far, but a very nice reply from glassworks which was full of good advice to improve my work, so thankyou very much for that.

There are a few places locally to my home down south so I might try them, but I'm not sure if they're strictly animation, more production in 3D models it seems.

I've got a lot to be doing, for my modules, so I'll be busy over the next few weeks, planning to finnish a module a week, currently nearly finnished with my 2D character animation which is probably gonna be posted up here.

now onto this quiz which was stoelen from who stole it from

Phobia Quiz

x = Somewhat
xx = Greater
xxx = huge enormous crippling omg fear

A
[x] Achluophobia - Fear of darkness. was a bit afraid of the dark as a kid, always ran up stairs after being downstairs late at night
[ ] Acrophobia - Fear of heights.
[ ] Agliophobia - Fear of pain.
[ ] Agoraphobia - Fear of open spaces or crowds.
[x] Aichmophobia - Fear of needles or pointed objects. not so cool with needles
[ ] Amaxophobia - Fear of riding in a car.
[ ] Androphobia - Fear of men.
[ ] Anginophobia - Fear of angina or choking.
[ ] Anthrophobia - Fear of flowers.
[ ] Anthropophobia - Fear of people or society.
[x] Aphenphosmphobia - Fear of being touched. i kinda got issues with intamacy, depends how drunk i am, i also really dont like people being in my personal space, i find it very irritating
[XXX] Arachnophobia - Fear of spiders. jesus i hate those dam things, they hit a certain size and then start scaring the everloving crap outa me
[ ] Arithmophobia - Fear of numbers.
[ ] Astraphobia - Fear of thunder and lightening.
[ ] Ataxophobia - Fear of disorder or untidiness.
[xx] Atelophobia - Fear of imperfection. I'm really anal about a lot of things
[xxx] Atychiphobia - Fear of failure. I really want to achieve my goals, i feel like there will be no meaning in my life without achieving them
[xx] Autophobia - Fear of being alone. I'm fairly happy on my own, but for one thing i dont like being all alone, and another i really dont wanna die before i'm married or at least had a long meaningful relationship

B
[ ] Bacteriophobia - Fear of bacteria.
[ ] Barophobia - Fear of gravity.
[ ] Bathmophobia - Fear of stairs or steep slopes.
[ ] Batrachophobia - Fear of amphibians.
[ ] Bibliophobia - Fear of books.
[ ] Botanophobia - Fear of plants.

C
[ ] Cacophobia - Fear of ugliness.
[ ] Catagelophobia - Fear of being ridiculed publicly.
[ ] Catoptrophobia - Fear of mirrors.
[ ] Chionophobia - Fear of snow.
[ ] Chromophobia - Fear of colors.
[ ] Chronomentrophobia - Fear of clocks.
[ ] Claustrophobia - Fear of confined spaces.
[ ] Coulrophobia - Fear of clowns.
[ ] Cyberphobia - Fear of computers.
[ ] Cynophobia - Fear of dogs.

D
[ ] Dendrophobia - Fear of trees.
[ ] Dentophobia - Fear of dentists.
[ ] Domatophobia - Fear of houses.
[ ] Dystychiphobia - Fear of accidents.

E
[ ] Ecophobia - Fear of the home.
[ ] Elurophobia - Fear of cats.
[x] Ephebiphobia - Fear of teenagers. Chavs at least, nearly getting my wallet stolen did wonders for my paranoia
[ ] Equinophobia - Fear of horses.

G
[x] Gamophobia - Fear of marriage. I've got commitment issues more than fear, really wish i didnt
[ ] Genuphobia - Fear of knees.
[ ] Glossophobia - Fear of speaking in public.
[ ] Gynophobia - Fear of women.

H
[ ] Heliophobia - Fear of the sun.
[ ] Hemophobia - Fear of blood.
[ ] Herpetophobia - Fear of reptiles.
[ ] Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia - Fear of long words.
[ ] Hydrophobia - Fear of water.

I
[ ] Iatrophobia - Fear of doctors.
[x] Insectophobia - Fear of insects. depends on the type, and if they're all up in my face

K
[ ] Koinoniphobia - Fear of rooms.

L
[ ] Leukophobia - Fear of the color white.
[ ] Lilapsophobia - Fear of tornadoes and hurricanes.
[ ] Lockiophobia - Fear of childbirt... ]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/17226928/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/17226928/ Fri, 07 Mar 2008 15:38:33 PST
I've got into a working stride now, though still need to spend more time in the labs, usually spending a minimum of four hours in the labs each day, but now more of my lectures and tutorials are starting to come to an end its easier to spend more time working. My first hand in is the 2nd of May so time really is ticking away.

I've compiled my show reel today, and I'll be sending that along with my CV to various companies in London with the hope that I can get a years work placement. I've got it hosted up on youtube as well [link]

My computer has been fixed after a rather nasty spyware overload/virus/corruption, and I can now work on my 2D modules at home which greatly increases the amount of time I can work on my projects, now all thats left to do is work my ass off.


I've recently purchased audiosurf off steam, and it's a great game, simple, fun, trippy. It's an action puzzle game that creates the 'tracks' based on whatever MP3 you give it, meaning its got as many levels as you do songs, plus difficulty settings.

And on a similar audio note, I've been listening to two fairly common names in anime soundtrack, one being Tsueno Imahori, who has a good talent for weird and disjointed background music as well as bluesy style and some really nice relaxed pieces (two main things he's worked on are Trigun and Gungrave). The other is Yoko Kanno who has a great range of styles in his repertoire, from jazz to industrial rock, to choral, atmospheric, modern, classical, oriental, and has worked on all the Ghost in the Shell Movies and Series as well as Cowboy Bebop. Both great composers.

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/16885663/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/16885663/ Thu, 14 Feb 2008 16:40:52 PST
Last week was animex at Teesside university, and I've got to say it was amazingly helpful, especially compared to last year when i couldn't quite appreciate it.

I've got ideas and input from it for my showreel (as it really needs work) and I've been given great motivation after seeing a couple of showreels from the students at Gobelins in France who are pretty much pixar quality producers of animation [link]

I also attended the Ed Hooks 'acting for animators' workshop and it was amazing, with respect to Ed Hooks I don't want to explain what he covered, but he really revealed amazing ideas about how good animation and acting work and how a story should play out. He's an amazing guy and he's really passionate about what he does, he's worked with a lot of big names including Disney, Dreamworks, Valve, BioWare, Midway to name a few. He even helped develop a story which was nominated for an oscar.

Sure being inspired and motivated is all well and good, but now comes the time to do the work, so i've been spending a lot more time than usual outside of classes in university to get it done, so my 'Arthur' [link] character is now almost modelled to be rigged and weighted, then I can get animating him.

I've also just read my mark for the 2D animation production line test and its only 26 out of a possible 50, its well into a pass, but I want a better mark overall, so I'm gonna put a lot of time in effort getting the final thing looking good.

Hopefully with vista being not crap and my computer working nice I can get either XSI or Maya to work on my PC and get onto making stuff for my show reel and get a placement year, and then go on to get my degree and get a job that I love.

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/16678466/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/16678466/ Fri, 01 Feb 2008 17:23:31 PST
I've been busy this week with my 2D animation production module, since the line test and supporting work was in Friday. I'm pretty happy with it, though as always there is something I could have done better or improved. I'm gonna try and get it up on you tube or maybe go for a movie account with DA, I'm intending to use it to send to companies, though at the moment it is a bit slap-dash.

Though I've been having problems with my PC
1 - vista
2- trojans

For one thing vista has a nasty habit of not working the way a company with billions built it should and eating my RAM like a tasty snack.

And it could be worse, but the trojan inhabiting my PC is causing issues with slowdown, and 'zlob' as I believe it is called, is not playing fair and (unless its just my PC) it turned very suddenly to being veeeeery slow at start-up, also nothing has been flagged as a trojan, but I'm getting a regular flow of spyware.

I'm gonna see if I can sort it, but I'm rather tired after a week of looong days getting my 2D animation Production finished - and I really don't have the patience at the moment...

Also, I'm coming up to my 10,000th page view, I'll do a drawing for whoever catches that view or closest to (I would offer to do more but I'm busy with uni stuff)

on a side not as well I'm currently uploading my current show reel and 2D animation production line test to youtube, so check them out here if you want to [link]

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/16041763/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/16041763/ Sat, 22 Dec 2007 09:52:42 PST
At the moment I'm back down south, feeling crime free , and feeling some Christmas vibes. I got all my shopping done and I'm just waiting on [link] to deliver my order.

Currently I'm working on some scene layouts for my 2D animation production for a 30 second short rooftop chase, I've set it in the future where downloading illegal MP3s is punishable by a savage beating, I might upload them at some point along with some past work from the 1st year that I haven't scanned in yet.

Hopefully I should be getting my new computer on January 9th, so I can finally start churning out work, or more start working on my many projects for uni. I've got a list together of companies to try applying to in London for my placement year (since it would be roughly a 40-50 minuet commute by car and train). Plus my CV has been sent off to a couple of people who should be able to forward my CV on, fingers crossed I'll get some work. Though at the moment I'm having problems with my show reel as the renders I got of my run seem to have come out a bit jerky, so I'm gonna see if I can fix that when I get back to uni. Though I'm gonna re-do my walk cycle from scratch, even though I only need a walk or run, but my run is pretty much done.

At the moment my sleep patter is silly, usual bed time is about 4am, and i get up around 2pm, I need to get into a better working ethic :S

Over the Christmas I'm gonna try and get a few things done:

At least the pencilling of my drawing and composition presentation sheet (a Mayan/Aztec hero saving a baby from sacrifice being sacrificed, with his golem sidekick holding back some cultists)

Design a 'Heath Robinson' style machine [link]

Get the rough animation for my 2D animation production well under way

Treatment for an idea for concept design, about internet dating

Apply to some companies

At the moment I'm taking it a bit slow, and this journal is a product of procrastination, joy. I'm gonna be buckling down after today, and after going into town to catch up with my mates here in the south. Though I need to make time still to catch up with people like some more

Merry Christmas, and a happy baby Jesus day

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/15393758/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/15393758/ Fri, 09 Nov 2007 03:58:49 PST
Today's journal title is provided by 'Welcome to the North' by The Music

I'm about half-way through my first term, and currently working on various things, weighting, rigging and animating a walk for my 3D character animation, character creation in drawing and composition, writing a treatment in concept design, various random tutorials in 3D animation production, Scene layout in 2D animation production and finishing off a 'weight lift' in 2D character animation.

I like the fact I got a nice bit of stuff to keep me busy, I just get annoyed with myself if I'm sat around doing nothing to be honest... though not having a PC in full working order really doesn't help.

Start computer junk
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My PC was really messed in the summer holidays and to right the problem I did a full re-install of windows, which I attempted several times, each time it would have massive problems with drivers and the cards were out of whack, plus it corrupted my hard drive during a format so i had to get a new one. So rather than pouring money into this computer getting new parts and trying to get people to fix it, it will be used more for parts and with my dyslexia funding I'm getting a new one.
As long as I get the funding from my local council I will be getting a new PC and a few other things to help me with stuff, like a dicta-phone and some fancy software. Plus I'm putting some of my own money (about £450 from my Japan fund ) towards the PC on top of what the normal specs would have been to get:
2.6 quad core Intel processor
GeForce 8800 (320MB model)
2GB of ram
400gb hard drive

The reasoning being that I want it to be long lasting and effective with the software I'm using on my course.

End computer junk
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Onto the not so fun bit of being back at uni;

Within the space of a week I managed to have my PS3 nicked and a couple of guys tried to mug me - on a side note in a recent channel 4 programme Middlesbrough was declared worst place to live in Britain

The PS3 was stolen as well as my mates wallet, but luckily nothing else, especially not the CD/DVD cases, the HDTV, xbox360 and Wii that reside in the living room. Whoever it was got in by the fact that only the chain was across the door, everyone thought it was locked and the door was forced, somehow without anyone waking up - it was all down to bad judgement and bad luck really. But I got the insurance sorted out pretty quickly and bought a new PS3 within a couple of days, so no big loss to be honest, if you don't count the save games and stuff bought on the playstation store.

As for the mugging I was feeling to nice that I decided that 'yes i will give you 50p to catch a bus' lesion learnt quickly, never give anyone in the street money. The two guys grabbed my wallet, I was knocked to the floor, still clutching the wallet, kicked out with both legs got up and legged it.

I got away with nothing lost from my wallet and gave the police a call later on to report it, granted I was told that I should have called 999, but with no credit on my phone I waited till later till I could borrow my mates phone to call the local police station, then gave a statement. Seems like the same guy had gone on a little crime spree and I'm hoping he got locked up, even the police said I should of kicked the crap out of them.

Granted I'm a bit more paranoid when out on my own in Teesside, but I got confidence in my self-defence thanks to my sei-ken-do lessions.


Well I think I've gone on for long enough, at the moment I'm just cleaning up my gallery. I've started the process of getting a work placement, and until I can get a new PC a make a website and get it uploaded on my web space that I got a while ago this is my link for my CV.

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/13744640/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/13744640/ Sun, 15 Jul 2007 13:11:42 PDT The actual lyric translates as 'Is all that I wish for'

Again its been a while since I did this here journal.

Well I'm thoroughly back home now and I've also been at my portering job for 2 weeks now (£5.35 (about $10) an hour) and its had its ups and downs.

The downs partially being an 11 hour shift last Friday.

Basically it's my job to take a sample here, drop a patient off there, move this and that, which gets complicated when you have 5+ jobs on at the same time which urgent this and that popping up. Though I'm getting to know my way around the big Wycombe general hospital fairly well now.

The first week and a half were great because I was just following a porter around with the other new guy Ian. I didn't have to do much, this was because I couldn't be sent out on my own because of the recent security step up in hospitals due to one of the terrorists in the recent (failed partially due to one of them being too stupid) attack being a doctor at a hospital. Generally, when there isn't work to be doing its a good laugh.

I've had to deal with some very poorly patients, and its not nice to see them hooked up to all sorts of machines, drips and oxygen, looking scared or in pain. I've also had to deal with what is referred to a "rose cottage" (porters carry radios which can be easily heard by people around us) or a trip to the mortuary. It's just so strange dealing with it, admittedly they are wrapped up in their bed sheets which helps, but it's strange that they're here one minuet and gone the next.


Anyways onto something more cheerful.

I've gotten down to learning Japanese, and I now know how to say:

"Watashi wa rampu ga daisuki desu"
Which basically translates to "I love lamp"

Meaning the conversation topic (watashi, with topic defined by wa) is myself, and the object of the conversation "lamp" (defined by "ga"), I'll leave it there for the lesion today kids.

I am actually quite enjoying learning Japanese, when I get a chance at work I go over my book (Japanese for Dummies).

The reason for both learning Japanese and my shigoto (job), well I want to go to Japan after university (about 2 years time). Ever since I started watching anime when I was about 18 (right at the time of my A-level exams). And then I got interested in the Japanese culture through anime, the music, the scenery, the culture, all that kinda jazz. I really like the Japanese Kenson (modesty), for what I've learnt so far it seems like the language and culture is based on respect, giving people praise and modesty.

I think the western world could really do with more of this attitude, there are far too many people who are just too big for their boots and place value in the more unimportant things in life (sorry, I do like the music but a good example of this is rappers, no offence intended)

I want to go to Japan for about a month, and I think I'm going to need at least £3000 ($6000) to do so. It seems like a lot of money, but the world is a beautiful place, and I want to see it. I would love to go many more places other than Japan ( should be going to America after his course, as much a I really would love to join him, I'm just not sure it would be possible considering Japan).

When I go I want be able to speak Japanese to a good degree, but I'll have to see how it goes considering it is a whole new language and work and my course, unfortunately my creative outputs are being hindered by my job since all I wanna do when I get home is rest and not do anything.

I hope to be able to get a good job in animation and see many places in the world, I do worry that I'm not gonna be a good enough animator to do so, but as long as I can put in the time and effort I should be able to do so.

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/13086042/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/13086042/ Fri, 25 May 2007 08:14:42 PDT
Today's journal title is provided by Meat Loaf's epic - bat out of hell

Hell i'm in a good mood, the academic year is over and after strugling with the renderfarm at university my first 3D animated movie is done, it's been an awesome learning experiance, it seems like after getting this done i've just learnt so much. I've really enjoyed working my assesments (minus history of moving pictures and professional studies).

Now I've not really got anything to do so after handing in my animation, I actually just lay in bed watching scrubs and southpark and playing pokemon, though I plan to go to the gym now there isn't any work getting in the way and over the summer I want to learn how to rig and animate charecters in preperation for my charecter animation modules as well as work on drawing and photoshop skills.

Also a job would be good, I need the money, cuz next on my shopping list in an HD monitor so i can go dual screen with XSI (which, incidentaly, is being used on fable 2, I'm presuming for animation purposes, I'm really glad to be learning it since more and more projects are being animated with XSI)

I'm feeling good about doing animation as a career, I feel like I've learnt a lot this year and I know I'm only just starting out into a world of complications, which I'm gonna be re-learning my whole life, so it should keep my brain in check.

Still I'm thinking where the hell I'm gonna work or maybe I'm gonna do contract (which does pay more) but thats all a few years ahead of me.

For the meantime I'm gonna relax a bit.

I hope everyone out there is doing well and :hexit: I'm gonna give modeling and animating terry a go.

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/13036540/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/13036540/ Mon, 21 May 2007 10:12:10 PDT I'm feeling the funk right about now

So now I've got most of my work done, now all thats left is my write up for history of moving pictures (in for thursday) and compiling my animation (which currently has 25 CPUs dedicated to rendering it, thankyou renderfarm) and writing a 1000 word report on it.

I've got a lot of work done over the past few days which will be coming up on deviant art including my concept art and drawing and composition.

When I took my sketchbook D&C to herb wiersma (the course leader), he said i seemed to work best with a kind of quick, flowing, rough sketch work. Over the summer he suggested i start using a biro and try a kind of giacometti ( [link] ) style of drawing

I feel great for having done so much work, and I think I've improved a lot since I started my first year, and I'm determined to be a skilled 3D animator and improve my drawing and photoshop skill. Over the summer (as well as getting a job) I want to draw, animate and photoshop and be well prepared for next academic year.

I'm gonna be back home in about 3 weeks, so I can catch up with al my mates down south, though I'm gonna miss the days of dayroom G

Next year its on to wellsley.....

Peace Out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/12832293/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/12832293/ Thu, 03 May 2007 19:20:32 PDT
I haven't journaled for a while now i believe, i think i might as well now at coming up to 3am.

I bin in the dayroom watching 's goldlike skills on guitar hero II which arrived earlier this week after being back ordered, totally awesome game, and freebird is awesome, if a bit of a mission. Also I got pokemon diamond from america which is awesome

As well as God of war II as well, and a load of other games and things here and there, DS a 320GB external hard drive... yyyyea, i kiiiinda spent about £460 in the first week back at uni :S

All this provides an adequate distraction from the looming amounts of work -_-

I've been working fairly hard on my animation over the past 2 weeks (seriously i swear i clocked up over 20 hours or something on my 10 second animation, yes 10 seconds of which i think i have done about 6-8 seconds of).

My professional studies is done and dusted and i'm very happy with that as it was a massive bore.

Still standing... and needing a lot of my time is drawing and composition (two detailed drawings based on 'manhunt' and 'waiting room' as well as 12 pages of sketchbook which needs work), i just need to hand in the written part of my history of moving pictures presentation, and then its concept and 3D animation which I expect will bring a lot of grief due to the time they will take.


I need to work lots, I'm going into the animation labs tomorrow to *hopefully* finnish my animation principals which would make me very happy, then I can get drawing and all the rest done from halls (exept for the animation for my 3D labs which i have to do at uni as they are using XSI 5.11 and i'm 5.1)

It seems manageable, but I'm expecting much worry on my part.

Although there's also my physical state which is making me anooyed, with myself. When i was going to the gym 3+ times a week I was in good shape and happy with myself, but now i'm kinda getting a bit of a belly and i don't like it, i really need to get in the gym, which i was gonna do tomorrow until i thought my time would be better spent on my ICAs.

I've been improving my diet at least (well now i've got some propper food in stock again) i'm getting fruit and salad and tryin to cut down on my snacking, but i really need to get back into shape.

on a sidenote this saturday in sei-ken do we're doing a wall drill, one where 3 people take it in turns to attack you full force (headguards will be worn as well as gloves, but that sure as hell don't mean it won't hurt). It's gonna be awesome in a way... a way that most non-SKD people look at and say 'i like you man, but you're craazy!'

but sei-ken do is the best martial arts club i've ever know, totally kick ass i tell ya, best martial art culb ever - FACT

Good luck to all those who have exams or assesments, to my G and particularly as i have not actually been in contact with him all that much as of late, sorry about that.

anyways sleep time

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/12556470/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/12556470/ Wed, 11 Apr 2007 16:38:32 PDT
Spiders indeed...

There is a big spider in the room with me right now, and it scares me, I guess you could say I have a bit of arachnophobia, I sprayed it with glass cleaning spray and it fell off the , whilst I stood in terror on a little chair like some tom and jerry cartoon

yea....

I'm kinda behind on what I meant to get done with my uni work (don't worry i'm gonna get my HMP done, I wouldn't let ya down), I'm still in the process of my 'Manhunt' drawing and I've been looking at various parkour, american football, rugby, riot police pictures for reference because I have some awkward poses to work with (that I forced upon myself)

I kinda like it cuz it's challenging and I'm really looking forward to the end result, also I've re-thought my 'waiting room' drawing.

Next term I'm gonna have to most likley work my ass of, though *in theory* i'm gonna have more money to play around with , so after everything is out of the way I'm gonna party hard to relax (just so long as I don't go feral again [link] )

Peace Out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/12486203/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/12486203/ Fri, 06 Apr 2007 16:49:00 PDT
Well yes, maybe I got thrown out of time the other day because i was 'too drunk' and maybe I'm a wee bit drunk today cuz I met back with some mates back home...

But on to other things.

I started work on my next drawing and composition ICA, that should be done in a couple of weeks, and then, along with my previous ICA it should be up on DA soon.

I'va actually got so much to do for my course when I get back, and now as well I guess

Now, to the reason I origionally did this journal (aside from the alchohol) I did 's journal question thingy and now I must answer ANY 3 questions per person as much as I see fit.

So anyone reading this - GO, ask me 3 questions!

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/12117512/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/12117512/ Fri, 09 Mar 2007 11:48:39 PST I found out about ATD on newgrounds origionally, he's got a few flash music videos on there but this is his latest, by wonchop [link]

Have you ever had one of those days when you just wish you could go back and be a kid again without any worries. I'm pretty sure you're lying if you said you haven't. Sure growing up is great and brings most of the best things about life, but with great power comes great responsibilities...

Earlier this week it was feeling like my future is fading into obscurity, once again my modeling being the main problem, it just wouldn't work and time is closing in on the deadline. Also I've been wondering if I'll be good enough to compete in the industry by the end of this course.

Sure all those things are a worry, but I've done some modeling and I think I've made another step to getting better at my modeling skills (bevel tool rocks ). I'm feeling fairly confident about getting my work done by the end of next term - though I need to start working my ass off.

I've been thinking that life would be kind of boring really without its ups and downs, everyone goes through hard times, and I know damn well I've got it easy compared to some people. You might of heard it before but things that slow us down are charecter building, it really does make us who we are. If we can learn to cope with something or get over something we will be stronger for it.

I've found that (as long as linux and XSI dosent start complaining because of my 800+ poly keyboard) modeling kinda relaxes me, though admitedly I've got to get a move on, I would have uploaded my current lab and some equipment into my scraps but XSI just didn't want to play.

Also, I've got my drawing and composition marks back and I got 22/30 and I'm pretty happy with that

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/11962893/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/11962893/ Sun, 25 Feb 2007 14:59:59 PST I'm in a dragonforce mood

Dragon force is the best music to walk in the rain to, normally its just a bit dull and depressing walking in the rain... but with dragonforce it becomes epic, like some lone wanderer carrying a kick ass sword waiting for the next battle...
-hooray for tangents!

I've finally managed to get some new stuff uploaded after wrestling with the university e-mail (on the grounds that I can't view it from my halls), joy!

Not really too much out of the ordinary has happened apart from Pat Sharp from funhouse being corrupt, nearly getting me booed off stage by telling northeners I was a southerner, but more inportantly helping me avoid having to give a bloke a lapdance in order to win a new phone... ah classic

you remember that time nick tried to say soggy, that was classic...
you remember that time nick dropped his pancakes, that was classic...

now before this goes off into in joke after in joke, i'll stop.

I've been making loads of pancakes recently because of pancake day (also shrove tuesday if you want to get all religious [link]) as a result my pancake making skills have improved and I've saved a little bit of money as pancakes are dead cheap to make

I've also saved way more money than the pancake strategy by just not going out as much, I'm saving my money to buy an Xbox360 at the end of term .

Well thats pretty much it, I just felt like writing a journal.

Also if you're on facebook check out my profile, its got loads of uni pics up on it [link]

peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/11810913/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/11810913/ Wed, 14 Feb 2007 08:02:34 PST
Today's journal title is provided by Pink Floyd - Lost for Words

I just heard that line;
"Because there'll be no safety in numbers
When the Right One walks out of the door"
While I was just hanging up my washing to dry, and it made me stop and think.

'Ok todays valentines day, I'm going to a traffic light party tonight in the hopes of pulling, but theres always that feeling that I don't just want to get some action, but I want to find the right person for me'

It's something that has always been smouldering in my thoughts, as much as I want to actually pull tonight, there's always something holding me back from walking up to a girl and trying to get thier affection. I've had a bad track record with my past relationships, either I've just been rejected from the start, the girl went off (or was actually was) with someone else, or something inside me just started screaming at me.

Admitedly none of these relationships lasted longer than a couple of days, some no more than under an hour.

I've pondered going for an online dating service kinda thing a few times, because I want to find a girl who is right for me, but I don't know if there are any like that near me, or that I might not even meet the right girl for me on the track I take.

There's so much uncertanty that I feel like if I start trying to loosen up and try it on with loads of girls, that... there'll be no point in the number of different girls, because the right one has walked out of the door.

Admitedly I don't think I'll ever be the kind of guy who could go out every night looking to pull. I just really want that one special girl who I could spend the rest of my life with, but I don't know if I'll ever find her. And then I might mess it up.

I want a freind, I want someone who I can always talk to, someone to accept me for who I am and the way I am, someone who shares my intrests, someone who can be there for me when I feel down and someone who I can be there for when they feel down, I want someone special, I want a lover - not just a one night stand affair... and I don't know if I can get that from trying my luck with girls in a club.

I've made a big effort to feel better for today after being all ill and stuff, and I'm feeling much better. I'm just gonna see what happens tonight... if nothing does I'm sure I can live with it.

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/11768675/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/11768675/ Sun, 11 Feb 2007 05:05:09 PST
And thats pretty much how I feel, I'm all I'll and snifley and bunged up. Chouging all over the place as well, I don't know whether to put it down to sitting around in the lecture hall for animex for hours on end with loads of other people or my recent shaving of my head (which gives -10 to cold damage, luckily I have my +30 frostbount beanies)

I think I might have flu... the dreaded man flu... it's crushed empires I tells ya!
(on a sidenot bird flu is apparently in the UK, so lets all do what the papers suggeest and panic )

Now where was I... oh yea. Animex was kick ass. It was pretty much just loads and loads of guest lecturers on subjects related to computer games and animation. There was

a concept designer from disney's meet the robinsons, who showed an exclusive trailer

a level deisgner from Valve

the guys who did the compositing on children of men, but you wouldnt notice just how much
they did unless they told you

lots of guys on motion capture including

the guys who worked on the massive battle scenes in narnia

the people who did programming and mocap for 'b-boys', which is a breakdancing game

the animation director on the not even near released harry potter movie, who showed us a textureless, shaderless bucket-over-head, mystery charecter

This was just a fraction of the lectures (oh yea and the concept artist from the iron man movie, also he says there's gonna be a hellboy 2)

It was all so awesome, I'm gonna order the animation showreel as well as it's pretty kick ass.

Well I'm gonna go get some food and vitamin C now, cya later and I hope you guys arn't ill as well

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/11686513/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/11686513/ Sun, 04 Feb 2007 16:04:20 PST awesome band, awesome video [link]
also the most manifactured band ever!

Today has been a good day, thanks to a careful slection of music and me finally getting my arse in gear, I spent about 3-4 hours modeling my lab in softimage XSI [link] . I found that unlike most other times I didn't get pissed off, when I came to a bit of a dead end I just simply though about what was going wrong, did a few sketches to work out what to do, and then did it.

Maybe it really has been my mind-set that has been affecting me with my XSI stuff, with the help of neil young, jeremy soule, nobuo uematsu, straylight run, damien rice, david ford and other musical artists on my new playlist that I shall name my modeling playlist... I was able to keep my cool and just get down to some work

Here's what my labs looking like at the moment [link]

I'm happy with the way it's going, admitedly it's nothing amazing but it's all starting to make sense and its all working towards becoming a great animator
I'm sure steve would join me in a dance if I asked
When we were flashing those moves behind the cigarette machine in lava (a club in town, not the stuff in a volcano) we definately looked awesome cool.

Azim, a programmer of m4d sk!11s, showed me this awesome game [link] theres some 'lynx's mod' you have to get for cool physics (you got to load physics, then refresh the game), but basically its all partical based stuff with all sorts of materials and elements and lifeforms.
one of the best time wasting devices... EVER

I've also been having fun with mushy peas, 13 stone fell right for the peas trap... it's ok now though, they're in the freezer...

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/11613099/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/11613099/ Mon, 29 Jan 2007 15:19:24 PST
I got smacked in the head repeatedly while being pinned on the floor last saturday....







During my sei ken do class. Heh . I wonder if anyone took that seriously. But it was, to say the least, a strange experiance. We got on gloves, head and elbow guards and with one person in the mount position ([link] for all you thinking the wrong thing). Then we took it in turns to get our heads pummled in, I think I was a bit concussed for a bit, though I managed to hold the guy down for a bit so he couldn't do anything.

You might of heard in the new about people on youtube potentially getting money for videos, in some ways its a good thing. Talented people can get probably much needed money to keep doing what they are doing [link]
On the other hand, there is a chance that this money will go to 14 year old wiggas who have some serious identity issues, who really don't deserve it [link]

aaah, rant over.

While I'm kinda on the subject of anger... I've been trying to get my printer/scanner working, but with no joy. The ink cartridge is a complete mystery to me to be honest and I can't figure out how the hell to put it in, and the drivers just plain don't work. After about a 1/2 hour of fustration in getting the hellspawned creating to work I was f***ing pissed off. As a result I started punching a nearby suitcase and took a good few layers of skin off my knuckles and then was more concerned about the bleeding from my hands.

I'm better now though, I've calmed down

I bin doing a bit of drawing here and there and theres a bunch of stuff, including my assesment drawings, that I want to upload, I might see if I can can them in with 's scanner, well I think he's got one, though he said he was gonna have a look at it at some point - brett, what a pirate legend

Also - we got a house!!
Now the G has a couple of 4 bedroomed houses to move into next year. £52 a week with bills inclusive . Went out drinking to celebrate, it was a good night.

It's the animex festival next week so i'm looking forward to that, theres one of the founders of aardman animation (wallice and gromit) gonna be there as well as a level designer from valve, the guy who currently draws iron man and all sorts of awesomeness that will come with an international festival of animation and computer games.

and it's all LITERALLY just down my street, yay for teesside university

Now it's time for some guild wars....

peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/11398605/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/11398605/ Thu, 11 Jan 2007 13:17:01 PST
Lyrics from Grace Kelly, by MIKA
seriously that song rocks hard, check it out at his myspace [link]

Also I got facebook, it was enevitable really, though do check it out, I'm in the proccess of uploading all the pics I got on my PC, though kris, my mate at uni, took the majority of them [link]

So now I got some time, I'm gonna do me a journal

On the way back to uni I got a fair bit of drawing done, pretty happy with a couple of the pics too so I'll probably upload them sometime soon, when I get my scanner from amazon.

While I'm on the subject of drawing, had a kinda intresting lecture today about drawing people. Basically the guy was showing us all these poses of stick figures while we were supposed to draw them. Kris took this opportunity to draw an intense jazz pianist.

The guy taking the lecture said we pretty much had to draw loads of crap pictures before we got awesome, so that was a nice prospect, though I'm still not drawing everyday as I've bin meaning to, I might open up some requests in sketch form so I'm encouraged to get drawing.


...with the student loan through, I've taken the opportunity that money brings to buy a whole load of stuff I've been wanting, the list includes.

my new and awesome to the max G15 gaming keyboard (it cost £60 but it's soo good) [link]
Snakes on a motherf****ing plane!!!
A few final fantasy soundtracks including an orchestrated live performance of a load of tracks (including FFVII theme, man with the machine gun and a whole host of others)
Lots of anime (FLCL, gantz, maki sensei disgaea and Ikkitousen)

Now it's back to budgeting, so iceland burgers, mince and chicken it is, and by iceland I mean the food store. I might try a few new food much type things, because last term I pretty much lived on burgers, curry and rice, pizza and pasta with bologneise sauce in terms of propper meals.

Now its time to teef that quiz of 's journal, i think I done this already, but whatever

Music I'd Use In A Film

Opening Credits "the adventure" by angels and airwaves
its a totally epic track that feels kinda euphoric and powerful, so I reckon it'd be a great one to start with, plus it says 'i think i had the same last dream again, the one where I wake up and i'm alive', its a good link to waking up

Waking Up "what's my age again" by blink 182
A great opening for a lazy guy getting up, throwing on some trousers and going out to face the world (for some reason I like the whole guy in trousers thing, not in a sexy way, more the fact that I stand in front of the mirror on a regular basis like that )

Falling in Love "Better together" by Jack Johnson
A really nice simple accoustic track, makes it seem like love isn't some complicated affair, just more that more often that not, there's always gonna be that one person for you

Fight Scene "Vamo' Alla Flamenco" by The Black Mages
One of my favorite songs of all time, starts off with simple spanish guitar, then shreds off into powerful chords and organ. Makes me think it's like 2 people walking up to each other, then it all sparks off. It'd have to be a really stylish fight too, one with lots of showing off rather than straight sensible combat.

Breaking Up "There is" by Box Car Racer
A real sentimental song, seems like theres a massive hole left by someone, but with faith that there is still the 'one' out there

Getting Back Together "In the Back Seat" by The Arcade Fire
A slow, atmospheric, calm song that suggests intamacy, the sort of feeling that everything is just the way you want it

Secret Love "Naive" by The Kooks
Its more one of those songs about someone who just can't seem to ask someone out

Life's Okay "Shine" by Mr. Big
Classic 80's feelgood, it's just like YEA! everythign's great

Mental Breakdown "Supermassive Black Hole" by Muse
For a just wierd freak out insane kinda break out, like "I'm feeling greeeeeat and I'm gonna show you... ]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/11388229/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/11388229/ Wed, 10 Jan 2007 15:29:09 PST
Anyways quick journal

First thing - whoever gets my 1000 pageview (you gonna need a screen cap) gets a sketch from me of whatever, within reason

i'm back in uni, having fun, buying lots of stuff with my student loan and i really need the loo

byeee!

peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/11224999/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/11224999/ Thu, 28 Dec 2006 16:30:53 PST It's the theme to the awesome anime that is RahXephon.

First up I'm currently watching quiz of the year 2006... with the birtish (and godlike) comedians that are Russel Brand (also a fine presenter on channel 4) and Noel Feilding (also in the mighty boosh) making up one team.

I an very nearly pissing myself with laughter over the sheer hilarity of it all, admitedly it dosen't have the same resonance when not coming out of Noel's adorable goth-face, but in answer to what is the muslim veil called he said 'Peep scarf'

Anyway I shall resume this after it's finnished as the commercial break is over.....

.... that was AWESOME, team cool goth won it. I say cool goth because they are goths of the cool variety, and not the annoying teen ones that are all whiny. Anyone who does not admit to wanting to marry Russel Brand and/or Noel Fielding is most likley a liar. I know I would



....aaaaaaanyway, sillyness over.

I've bin working on my drawing and composition piece (1 of 2) and I'm starting to find it easier using a ruler, I used to find it kinda awkward using one and it stopped the flow of my drawing. Now that I'm using it for construction lines more eficiently I'm finding my drawing is flowing a lot more smoothly now.

It's kinda wierd, since I've bin working on this it feels like I'm actually getting better at drawing, that or I've realised the pay-offs of working on a single piece for a long time (well I did a bunch of planning too). It's gonna take a fair bit more time still, and I forgot to do one bit in 2-point perspective, but it's coming along nicely.

Once I've got all the pencil done on this one I'll start on the drawing of the living room. I'm gonna leave the clean-up, shading and inking till later.

I've also bin getting a bit more natural with my hapkido and general martial artyness. I managed to hit the right pressure point when I was doing a lock on , he went kinda limp on his right-hand side as a result. I can't normally find the pressure point that easy and it was kinda cool.

I've also bin messing about with kicks and strikes as well as general balance.

Either way I'm feeling pretty happy nows

I had a good christmas too, got a new iPod shuffe (1 gig) [link] and now I'm converted.

Had my gran and my mum's brother and his wife round (she's kinda crazy) and we had an awesome turkey that was just a big chunk of breast meat, no bones
It was awesome and tender and moist, not like turkey I've had in past years that is all dry and stuff.

During the Queen's speech I suffered from the deadly situation known as the giggle loop [link] admitedly not the worst of times it could of happened, but it was not appreciated, especially since she was talking about equality and all that jazz.

If you got time read all of those concepts of jeff, its from the british sitcom 'coupling' its so good its amazing, most guys watching it will watch it and agree completley with many of the concepts... I'm told the gals find it the same way too.

Well I think I'm in danger of going on longer than a recent journal entry from , which I have yet to read propperly, don't worry I'll get around to it taj...

Anyways hope you have had a merry christmas and I wish you a happy new year!

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/11118176/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/11118176/ Tue, 19 Dec 2006 15:48:25 PST
Draw a living room and a street with shops, well there's more to it than that, but I have to 'undertake a complex drawing'

Also I wish wycombe had awesome shopping fronts like japan does...

Back from uni, after a less than perfect journey, yea. I'd had a long day and then I missed the train and had to wait another hour cuz i didn't see the change on the board. My reaction was to scream out S*** and punch a wall... well I most likley won't see any of those people again so its ok

Now I'm home it's great eating all sorts of crap and not worrying that I have to save my money

I think I've pretty much got my christmas presents sorted out, but I'm going into town sometime this week, also cuz I want a bit of a drive. Haven't driven in a while.


I'm probably gonna upload a bunch of my drawings/sketches from my course to my DA since I haven't uploaded for a while, there will probably be a lot of stuff going into my sketches as a result.

Anyways 'tis the season, so

to

Merry Christmas,

from Nicolas Bright

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/11060969/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/11060969/ Thu, 14 Dec 2006 10:55:33 PST
Before I get the the vodka and the booze tube, I'd just like to say, I really need to get my arse in gear and do lots more drawing. I need to be drawing each day, though kinda failing. Also I need to do more drawings where I've spent a while on the actual thing, most of my stuff is just sketches.

anyways.....

This morning I woke up, my head was killing me and I couldn't remember how I got home in the slightest. I had faint memories of the queue to get in the club and a taste of sick in my mouth.

I then realised I was naked, luckily I was in my room.

I looked around, stuff was moved and there was a bucked by my bed, there was no one else there, but the door was unlocked.

I pretty much plodded around at a slow and wobbly pace to get me some juice, at this point I realised my nose hurt, so i kinda guessed I got into a fight or something...

After slowly moving around and getting food inside I texted tom a message that said

"What the F*** happened last night?"

I got a text back from him and proceeded to his room to see if i could find out what happened last night.

--- on a sidenote before I went out I'd had half a bottle of vodka and a boozetube of a mix of beer, cherry lambrini and vodka. That boozetube is amazing, it went down in about 3 seconds, its even got a lever on it


As well as feeling like absolute crap, I started to find out what I did last night.

Turn out that I basically fell asleep in the club, the hurt nose was actually from the *second* time that mat decided to happy slap [link] me. My face kinda bashed into the table that it was hovering just above, I was kinda in a slightly comotosed state.

Also I found out that I threw up in the toilet in the club, tom, brett and adam gave me a hand finding my way i think.

They then took me, well dragged me, home. I'm told the bouncers were actually pretty good about me being totally out of it, though apparently I said sorry on my way out.

I was then threw up in my sink, I found that tom and brett kinda put me to bed, though as for the reason why I was totally naked, they had no idea.

For other examples of my drunken antics, check here -> [link]



Well... on a non-drinking note I've got all my animation principals work done, so they'll probably be up on youtube soon.

Also I'm back home this weekend so I'll scan in some of my sketches and upload them

Tomorrow is the 'festive fling' a party thing thats going on all day at the student union, I got my shirt and santa hat with my goodie bag, so i'm good to go. I don't know about vodka, I've still got a whole bottle left though...

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/10665803/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/10665803/ Thu, 09 Nov 2006 03:50:42 PST
Much as I have had a lack of sleep and being ill, I'm good more or less, although I am pretty tired.

I had a spar with on of my mates from halls yesterday, was pretty awesome, I learnt some useful stuff too. Like how I need to loosen up, I'm far too much in the gym mentality still of tense, push and push harder. After I loostened up I did a lot better, though Azim is clearly better than me...

But it was a good work out too and if I keep this sort of thing up then maybe my arms won't be bruised afterwards. I pretty much got bruises here and there over my forearms from parying, it also didn't help in hapkido, what with all the break falls...

I think I broke my toe again as well.

Again I am being lazy and not doing much, the excuse of course is me being tired... from aruba.

In fact after I came back from the club I fell asleep on the table, unbeknownst to me I had chairs stacked on top of me and people whispering in my ear "cakes ready nick"

Though I was awoken by someone trying to draw on my neck, with my mad hapkido skills I pretty much woke up and delivered an upwards backfist kinda thing.

Luckily I did not actually hit keyleigh... that would have been less than good...

Well hotmail is being a collosal fag, so I can't actually check my mail to see if I can return Vigilante 8: 2nd offense, which cost me £30 and is an old PS1 game that I used to love, then I found out it isn't as much fun anymore

Well I'm gonna go play some half life 2 deathmatch or smnt like that.

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/10600193/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/10600193/ Fri, 03 Nov 2006 03:54:37 PST poor justin fell into the rock and roll life of excess and now he's left

Before I get on with the journal:
CHECK THIS OUT --> [link]
thats me on the left

Yea haloween rocked hard, we got dressed up and drunk. I myself attacked anyone wielding a weapon of any description, that clone trooper had it coming...
Duff man () got pulled all over the place doing soundbites and posing for photos, Beetlejuice had all his drinks bought for him by randomers at the bar.

A good time was had by all, well exept for chris (the bear), he probably nearly died in his costume.


I've now started to budget, to about £60 a week (there are a few things like books and other stuff [link]) and that means going out twice a week at max.

Although with all the germs from around the UK, and in fact the world, floating about, I've rarely gone a day where I haven't been ill in some sort of way. Currently I'm just coughing my lungs out (I'm not a smoker I'll point out now) and feeling a bit dead.

This wasn't helped by the fact that this morning, after about 5 hours sleep, I went the majority of my introductory to 3D animation contending with a non-working keyboard. Which later revealed itself to be the 'sticky keys' feature, meaning stuff would only work if I held it down for ages.

I also am not enjoying the cold weather of teesside, home of the Parmo [link] , at the moment I'm just feeling very cold and tired.

On the plus side though I had a really good day for drawing yesterday after being kinda inspired in the drawing and composition lecture. I sat around for a couple of hours just sketching while waiting for my washing to be done. Once I can get access to a scanner I might start working on some of the stuff I've been doing, though it's probably all gonna be in scraps.

Also sorry to for not getting the sephiroth + toaster picture done, I've done a few sketches and worked out what I'm gonna do for it, I bin ill, gimme a break

Well tonight is malibu soundclash, DJ battles mean that the DJ shouldn't be a bit crap as per usual. Well I'm gonna go to sleep nows, as it's gonna be a late night tonight and I've got hapkido before I go out as well.

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/10478856/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/10478856/ Sun, 22 Oct 2006 17:29:49 PDT
At the moment I'm spending the majority of my time pissing about with the (dayroom) G. On saturday we watched 4 movies and went out at 4am looking for food. Then tom swore at a guy who sprayed us with window cleaner stuff from his car, when he stopped and started to reverse we legged it, it was awesome, haven't done that for ages!

I actually got talking to a few girls at the bar on friday night as well which is a first for a while, still very single though and nothing really came of the bar chat *sigh*

Though with the beach party theme going on, lilos were thrown out into the audiance, the G got one and I procedded to take part in the lilo fight that was taking place outside the club... during this i managed to charge full pelt at someone and fall over very much.

Though vicky patched me up after I got back in the morning which was nice of her.

I also nearly got in a fight over the lilo with a very big man, we exchanged 1-upmanship. He said he'd take me down, I said I knew hapkido (didn't mention I had been doing it for only 2 weeks though), he said he was 30... this went on for a bit until a descision was made - rock, paper, scisors

Using my awesome skills I took down his drunk logic, I won first round with scisors, so his first natural instinct was to use rock to beat the scisors next round. I of course played paper and won like a pro. Thus the laptop was mine.

Got up fairly early in the morning and played some guild wars (properly) for the first time in a while, with brett from the G, the boy done good and got himself 15 attribute points from the mission


I was on the phone to my mum for a while today, found out that my cat shelley [link] hadn't been eating for a while, though now she's on a different diet (the more expensive cat food, fussy little lady) she's eating alright.

Though I also found out she's been sleeping in the space under my desk in my room (in my house, not here at uni), I think maybe she's missing me since I usualy give her a bunch of attention, play with her, talk to her and hastle her. I hope she's alright I'm kinda missing her a bit now .

I'm feeling a bit wierd at the moment, just like an almost 'out of body' experiance. As much as I've settled in, it feels like there just isn't something right. I think its just that I miss my freinds a bit, as much as I'm having a great time with the G.

Well I'm sure it will blow over, though one thing I'm kinda pining for is a girlfreind, someone I can talk to about anything, someone to hold, and, stuff, yea you don't worry about the rest.

I'll cya all later

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/10404342/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/10404342/ Sun, 15 Oct 2006 17:54:50 PDT
[link]

as well as this

[link]

Haloween is gonna be soooo awesome!!

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/10394138/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/10394138/ Thu, 19 Oct 2006 17:29:25 PDT
Todays Journal title is provided by Kings of Leon's awesome song - the bucket

Ok, now I've had a lot to drink, and 1/2 a chiken parmazan - which almost killed me (chicken is breadcrumbs, deep fried, with 2 types of cheese and some grease, served with a side of chips and salad), no man unless they have an infinate stomach, can eat a whole one...

NOW, to the journal:

I have to do TEN sketches for peoples who want them, whatever subject they want (nothing too obscene please), maybe they wont be good, but i asked for a spike spiegal [link] sketch

now i didnt realise at the time (due to it being that i only just got up) that I have to do 10 sketches for people!

Now ANYONE can ask me for a sketch of pretty much whatever, start your engines:
There are places left

1. sephiroth + toaster
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10.

come on if you want just ask!

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/10313454/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/10313454/ Sat, 07 Oct 2006 10:58:46 PDT Why this is used for the title will become more apparent as I go on.

Thursday night was the 'Lo Reid Hypnotist Show'. At first I didn't really want to get involved, but when she explained that no personal information and secrets would be divulged, I was up for it.

I rushed to the stage to claim my seat, next to a guy who was there purely because he didn't belive in it.

While she was 'preparing' us for it, it felt like I went into a deep sleep, but I was aware of everything around me, I could feel my eyes flicker quickly like r.e.m. (rapid eye monevment) sleep. For those who don't know r.e.m. sleep is a deep state of sleep. I felt really good, it was an overwhelming feeling of peace and hapiness. Aparently (or so the hypnotist said) its the second best feeling in the wolrd... not that I'd know the first... I'm so very single... very... *cries*

She weeded out those people who weren't suceptable to hypnotism. Some of the catogories were drunks, people with a low IQ and people who weren't effective learners/refused to follow commands.

So the guy next to me was gone fairly soon. Then she went through various things, one of the more funny and prime examples of how the hypnotism worked was when she told one of the people that when they woke (after 1,2,3,4,5) that when she tooted a horn the seat they were on would be red hot.

And when she did it they jumped up in an instant, it was very funny and they nearly ran off stage.

She then proceeded to make all the guys dance like ballet dancers, I still retain the fact that I made a dam good ballet dancer...

Among other things there was a girl who was made to beilve that she was showing the world someone turning into a frog, and failed miserably, X-ray glasses, Missing out the number 7, as well as other things.

Though as with all good things, the best bits came in threes.

The First was the X-factor audition, everyone was made to belive that they were singing to Simon Cowell [link] . There were various ones such as S club 7, spice girls and other more pop crap. Everyone got annoyed with the person (from the audience) who we belived to be simon cowell when he turned them down.

For my perfomance I ripped out metallica's enter the sandman, much to the joy of all of the rockers out there. I got a fair few people telling me how awesome it was afterwards. I went for it in my best metal voice, when he gave me the no I shouted out, 'we don't need anymore of this pop crap, LETS ROCK!!'.

The second awesomeness is when I was made to be a gay fitness instructor, I had little spangly pom-pom type things and I was in the zone, dancing to YMCA and trying to get the crowd motivated...

The third example though, was a bit more risque.

All the guys were triggered by the music 'you can leave your hat on' from the movie 'the full monty'.

All the guys lept up and started dancing, within a moment i was spinning my shirt around my head and throwing it into the audiance. 1 or 2 guys got completely naked, one was right in my vision, it still is in my brain as an image of immense fear. Just before I was about to take my trousers off my shirt was thrown back from the audiance and I did the kind of 'between the legs shirt pull'...

Though that was a good thing, because without that bit of time taken from the routine, I would have ended up most likely completley naked... thankyou shirt thrower.

So by the end of it just as I was about to take my other sock off the music stopped. I was suddenly aware that I was wearing just my boxers and a sock. I quickly scraped all my clothes together and threw my clothes back on.

Now you might be thinking 'I thought hypnotists didn't make you remember what you have done'. But she did, she said look at the time and then when we saw how long it was and she brought back the memories of what we had done. Much swearing was to be heard.

It was a surreal experiance for the whole time, I never once questioned the actions I was taking and it moved in 'blocks' of memory for one thing to another. Some people were apparently more sceptical about the whole process.

The way I see it is hypnotism is the art of persuasion, so sure the people were concious and knew what they were doing, but they had no way of saying 'no this is stupid i'm not doing this'. It was pretty much mind controll.

Though aftwerwards I felt so refereshed and I felt so good.

Ah the joy of university, I hope I get more experiances like this, its been awesome so far.

I am part of the (dayroom) G-unit, though on a walk home we assesed that the G stood for geek, as we are mostly hardcore gamers.... ]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/10268557/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/10268557/ Tue, 03 Oct 2006 07:45:24 PDT
Todays journal title provided by Infected Mushroom - I wish
They are an awesome techno kinda style, and they are awesome

Well, freshers is over and I'm more or less settled in.

I finally have the game I've been waiting for - KINGDOM HEARTS 2!
It rocks hard and the storyline is awesome.

Had a bit of a rude awakening the other day, 8am, after a roughly 2am bed time - fire alarm goes off. Initially going for the door in my boxers, I rethink the situation and put on some shoes, trousers and jacket. Naturally everyone is still very tired, myself included. I should have probably gone back to bed,

no.

Instead I played Kingdom Hearts 2 for several hours, dam it was I tired that day.

First lecture I had (3pm) was all about an introduction to animation, we got shown some of the technical kinda exercises we'd have to do as part of the 'introduction to animation' sylabus. Basically we'd have to do pendulum, squash/stretch, jump, walk cycles, etc. At the end of the year we also had to produce a roughly 15 second animation showcasing what we have learnt.

There were also some words of great comfort from the lecturer 'so what if i'm crap at drawing' and then he went on to basically explain that we should sketch/draw everywhere we go. He also went on to explain that it can double as a pick-up line, but my thoery is that he's lying, though theres no use in not trying, so I'll see what comes of it.

Though I still feel my drawing needs loooads of improvement.

Well at some point I might get a photo-montage up of the uni sights (on a day when it isn't crap and grey outside like today) and the dayroom G crew (aka the G-unit).
We're mostly gamers and doing computer based subjects, well off the top of my head kyle is the only one who isn't, he's doing sociology and criminology, or is it psychology and criminology.... I forget, dam my brain.
Of course there are a bunch of people who are less prolific in dayroom G, maybe they ph43r the 1337l\l355 (or fear the eliteness for those who do not speak t3h 1337).

Well there are still a few things I need to get, The animators survival kit by Richard Williams (the guy who directed/worked on who framed roger rabbit), a gym membership and of course when it comes out - guild wars nightfall.

Also for a bit I was worried I was losing myself in meeting all these new people, but then I saw click (the new adam sandler movie) and it re-engaged my over-analytical brain.

So expect one of my philosphical/analytical/rambling journals in the future.

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/10213335/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/10213335/ Thu, 28 Sep 2006 09:57:21 PDT
I'm in university and now I've found a break to sort out my computer and check my e-mail and all that jazz.

First night I got to university started chatting to everyone, cracked open a few beers had a laugh, went out and got pissed. I was kindly introduced to the aftershock challenge - 1 shot of aftershock, hold in mouth for 1 minuet. its intense.

Needless to say I drank a lot more that night and got a bit drunk... so the next logical step was the prauge dance, it can't be described in words, but its good, belive me.

Next morning I did feel it a bit but wasn't too bad, I went out with a few people from my dayroom into teesside to shop for a bunch of crap, there were 80 coloured balls (for ball pits) on sale for 79p. I think we might have to invest in some of those.

That night I once again hit the booze and the prauge dance and ended up going home with 3 girls my mate Tom made a pioneer discovery of, then I lost the afforementioned Tom and the others and ended up at thier house. We ended up chatting till about 4am and then I got a taxi back to the halls. In the morning my alarm clock went off early giving me a total of 3 hours sleep at best.

I entered the lecture feeling like crap, then convinced I was about to die... felt so very bad.

But I've been doing other things besides drinking, I went out kiting with a few dorm mates. Tom was telling us about it before hand and I wasn't really sure what to expect, but basically: big kite, lots of wind and keeping it in the air. Its awesome and I was so dam tired afterwards, once again I ain't sure how to explain it best, but I might get a video of it onto youtube or something.

I'm also going to take up Hapkido and I'm joining the anime society (if I can find when the bloody meeting is because I missed the societies day).

Well my brain aint working like it usually does at the moment, but up until today I've been more sociable and gonig out and more talkative, though in correlation, my computer has just been connected to the Internet. I don't really want to waste to much time on my PC though, as much as I am supposed to be a geek with all the anime and what not.

Mind you I havent watched as much as I usually do...

Hopefully in the next few weeks I can get some work done to upload to DA.

Peace out

]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/10119622/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/10119622/ Tue, 19 Sep 2006 07:43:53 PDT [link]

Todays journal title from soul to squeeze by red hot chilli peppers, its really such a very good song

I'm finally off this sunday, and I think I kinda lost track of time, intensely lost track of time. I still need to pack everything fo university.
The packing list incluides:
all of my anime DVDs
other DVDs, a few movies and stuff like that
my PC
my clothes
my PS2
a selection on computer games
a few books
my accoustic guitar
a bunch of drawing materials
bed stuff
cutlery and plates and the like
all my little electronic bits and pices
bathroom stuff like shaver, shower gell, toothbrush, etc.
my dvd player
other crap

The anime is gonna require some space and thought, seriously there IS a LOT.
... I'm not kidding.
Maybe I can upload a pic of my anime once It's all together.

Well once I'm up there it *hopefully* wont take long till I'm back on the internet. Though admitedly I'm probably gonna be all busy with new people and taking up extra curricular activities, like aikido, the anime society (yes I AM that cool), and hopefully other things.

plus drinks at the student bar are £1.50 so its gonna take my time, plus theres a jazz club near the uni, exiting!

The plan also for uni is to improve myself as a person, at the moment I kinda struggle with conversation with new people unless I hit it off. I also know I spend too much time on the computer and I want to change that, well my course is a computer based one so using the computer for work is allowed.

Plus with all this work I should be doing I should hopefully be more active with the DA submissions.

I also want to improve my fitness and diet, my cardio sucks. So I'm going to work cardio into my excercise regime, the gym is only £60 for the year, joy .

In other news...
I went to 's hairojin class, it was fun, punches, kicks and I learn't some basic fighting logic. It was a lot of fun too, even if I was ver tired afterwards. I'm probably gonna do hairojin while I'm at home and Aikido while I'm at university.

Peace out ]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/10039251/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/10039251/ Mon, 11 Sep 2006 13:06:04 PDT
Did a bit of drawing with the wacom tablet, started with an idea in my head and did something pretty different from the image in my mind. The picture still needs work, I'm playing around with the dodge and burn tools for highlight and shading.

Though still it annoys me that I can't put down what is in my head, as a result I'm pretty much putting random things down, and it seems to be the way I work best. I still don't really consider myself as having a defined 'style' and it can take a long time to get one which is cleaned and polished.

I was just having a shower and was thinking (which is something I always do in the shower and it takes me twice as long to have one as a result). I though that if I don't have something that is 'good' enough in terms of drawing ability, how will that go down on my course, or will I be able to develop my style and skill on the course?

Sure I'm happy with my observational skills when I get stuck into a drawing from a source, but from imagination it lacks, so I figured I need to try and work on my style.

From tommorrow I'm gonna cary a little sketch book around with me so that when I have a little idea I will put it down on paper. I want to get a big collection of charecter designs together, just little simple ones that I can work on. I do like the simplified, yet somehow very individual style that some artists use.

I was feeling kinda low at the start of this journal to be honest, but now I got smnt to work on which makes me feel better

In other news:
THE CHALLENGE
I have been given a year by my mate, and fellow dyslexic (we have probmels with our spolig), Marc Lister, to learn Japanese in a year. Sounds like a challenge to me

So from a few words in Japanese to being fluent in it, as well as university, a job, Aikido, going out to partay, guild wars and all other things in my life, within the space of a year.
Well I do want to go to Japan at some point, and I don't want to be some 'touristy' tourist who just points and shouts at the words he dosen't understand. I want to immerse myself in the culture and spend anout a month there. So this time next year I might be able to speak Japanese... though I'm not sure about learning the kanji (that pretty writing they do in lamen's terms).

I could have a rant today about how extremists in the Muslim religion are complete arseholes after watching a documentary (you don't beleive what i belive -which cannot be proved- so i'm going to kill you)... well it wasn't an extended rant at least.

Peace out ]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/9928787/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/9928787/ Fri, 01 Sep 2006 10:30:32 PDT He's a brilliant modern day jazz musician, and he's homegrown in the uk too

Recently I have managed to completely kill my sleep pattern through a mixture of guild wars, anime and checking out all the various sites I'm signed up to. And it's really starting to hit home now, its about 6:20pm here, and I feel totally drained. In fact I only got out of bed about 3 hours ago... yea its pretty shocking.

I was up watching the last episodes of Trigun, which is an excelent anime that preaches peace. Then I checked my deviant art, my myspace, my youtube... and then I just started browsing the net for my usual webcomic sprawl, then I listened to my relaxing winamp playlist.

Eventiually I crawled into bed at gone 3am, and couldn't get to sleep. The last time I remember checking the clock, it was 5:15am.

I need to sort my sleep pattern out, since uni is coming closer everyday. And that kind of sleep pattern wouldn't exactly help.

Now I'm starting to get a bit fearful of university, I'm really looking forward to it, but there are various things that are worrying me.
Will I get on with my room-mates, will I blow my student loan in the first few months... and most of all its a big step because now I'm finally realising that I'm going to be independant, despite my parents being there financially if I need it.

Admitedly I'm really looking forward to improving my art, in fact a recent deviation by [link] gave me a bit of motivation and made me realise that art isn't something that will just instantly be there.

You have to keep working on it, let it grow and find its own way. Looking at the various sketches for ideas lying around I see potential and I have various things I could be working on.

... but with this messed up sleep pattern I feel like I can't do anything.

Theres so much that I could do, but with this drain of energy I feel like I'm missing countless oportunities...

I need to set an alarm, or a set bedtime or something, because I can't go on like this, its gonna mess me up if I do. ]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/9907350/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/9907350/ Wed, 30 Aug 2006 12:19:23 PDT
Today's journal in honor of the questioniare dealey in 's journal, is from one of my favorite, and probably most girly songs in my music library.

The song is called 'let me be with you' by round table ft nino. The song is off the chobits OST, and I loves it, as well as the anime, for the intro its a youtube link [link]

Well, time to prove just how, erm, womanly(?!) i am.... i think i need to chop down some trees or something....

[] my fingernails/toenails are almost always painted
[] during the summer the only shoes i wear are flip flops
[] my favorite toys as a child were barbies
[] my favorite colour is pink or purple
[] I did Gymnastics
[] I love skirts
[] hollister is one of my favorite places to shop
[] tight jeans are the only jeans i'll wear
[] I love chocolate
[] I've never had a real job
TOTAL: 0
[] my hair is almost always straightened
[x] I have at least 8 myspace pictures (what, i'm getting the most out of myspace..)
[] I usually go shopping once a week
[] I love to hang out at the mall with friends
[] I have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace or earings
[] I've gone to a tanning salon
[] I've gone to the beach to tan - not to swim
[] I have at least 10 pairs of shoes
[x] I watch either the OC or Laguna Beach (seth is the best thing ever, he is the embodyment of geek sheek!)
[] I change my icon weekly
[] I wear a shower cap
TOTAL: 2
[x] I don't shop at Hot Topic (I've looked around a few times but never bought, they got cool stuff though)
[] my cell phone might as well become a part of me
[] I wear mascara everyday
[] I've been or am on a diet
[] bathing suits are adorable
[] I dont know the difference between a sheep and a goat. (thats not girly its just stupid)
[] big sunglasses are hott
[] I have gotten my nails done before
[] I own over 10 purses
[] MTV is one of my favorite channels
TOTAL: 0
[] all I want to do at sleepovers is talk about boys
[] I love to have gurls do my hair
[] I give and recieve hugs from all my friends
[] I hate bugs
[] carnivals are so fun!
[] Summer is THE best season
[] my swimsuit has 2 pieces (just the type things, swimming trunks if you will)
[] I'm waiting for my knight in shining armor
[x] musicians are so hot (a few, like amy from evanessence, but often i'm put off by the personality)
[]you write me a poem and tell me im beautiful and im all yours
TOTAL: 1
[x] I am self-conscious (very yes)
[x] I cry often (its always anime that gets me)
[] my car smells like vanilla or cherry (definately not, my mate threw up in it last month)
[] my dishes get washed more than once a week
[x] I don't do sports (me, and sports, nooo way, I 5uXX0r5 at football, or soccer for u americans)
[] I HATE to run
[] I squeal when i am surprised or angry
[] I eat dried fruit as a snack
[] I love romance novels
[] Drew Barrymore is so cute
TOTAL: 3
[x] I dance a lot (if i'm standing and theres a song, generally i'm off )
[] usually spend an hour or over to get ready to leave my house
[] I only have like 5 billion hair products
[x] I love to get dressed up. (its fun, i loved wearing my tux)
[x] every part of my outfit needs to match (i try to co-ordinate colours at least, only when i'm out the house though, around the house anything goes!)
[] I talk on the phone at least once a day to my friends
[x] I would love to have a photo shoot (it would be cool, plus they always make you look better than usual)
[] I apply lip stuff 50 times a day
[] I wish I were a model
TOTAL: 4
[] I wish I could meet Paris Hilton (not in the sense her, more like meet her, and set her on fire, but just a bit so she learns some sort of lession)
[] I have been something that was semi (this question is semi-stupid)
[] I own Uggs
[] Hip Hop is the best music
[] I pop my collar (i don't usually wear collars, and i'm not usher)
[] I like to be the center of attention
[] guys with Mohawks are crazy
[] horses are beautiful
[] I'd rather not pay attention in school
[x] Cats are adorable (they are so awe... ]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/9849006/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/9849006/ Fri, 25 Aug 2006 09:41:57 PDT
Well, I nearly am at 500 pageviews, get the 500 and I'll give you a mention, or maybe some gift art if you give me much <3. Though I'm not sure what I'd do.

Ah... todays journal is provided by the song 500 miles by the proclaimers (later covered very well by less than jake). What a song

Well I've been more active on deviant art recently and been getting more pageviews. Joy

In happy happy news; my PC somehow fixed itself with the problem about the wireless connection :3, and I got my first choice for halls at uni.

In the less fun massive amounts of paperwork news, I've just had my student loan application form through... 28 pages!

I'm in a fairly good mood today, and it's friday, though not that I have a job or anything. Plus I'm going spending in watford with on monday.

Also think about this, before God created light, he created the heaven and the earth... in the dark!
Now thats just showing off, and yes I did watch ricky gervais: animals last night
"He, is F***ing him, in the head!" gervais you are awesome, awesome you are the awesome-est ]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/9828538/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/9828538/ Wed, 23 Aug 2006 14:34:55 PDT
ooooo its a tag, now this is slightly confusing, but it means i can only tag 4/6 peeps who watch me. So i'm gonna tag a fellow ska enthusiast too, who i comment on on a regular basis *ska*

The Tag is to compliment 5 of your friends. The Rules?

1. People you know offline/real life don't count.
2. Do not say something like "Their art rox!" At least say something more complex, and go into detail of why.
3. If you are one of the five people complimented, then you are TAGGED! Therefore you must take this quiz as well.
4. You can tag people other than those you mentioned, even deviants you know from offline.

A great anthro artist, great at making an emotive piece. She's got a real grasp for positioning of bodies or facial expressions. Her stuff makes me laugh too, very amusing, despite the crazyness of some of her journals and conversations (don't worry I'm not phased by it, my brain is also a bit crazy, tangent after tangent..)
Go check her gallery out NOW! I command thee in the name of patrick stuart!

I first got watched this guy because of his animation with an eagal [link] it shows a creative process and variation in style. He's also got some funny flash animations that make me laugh too . Also he has done some excelent work with ink and gets a great texture quality and a bold visual style. Also he has drawn a picture of he man, you can't go wrong with that .

Star Wars enthusiast extrodinare, and at some point he has been in the possesion of both an obi-wan costume and lighsaber, and therefore RoXor5. His work with 'lost language' design stuff looks great, and he's got a lot of good charecter design work going on.

First found him for this Alucard fan art [link] its an excelent piece and works in his own style, the shading and lighting on it works great to create I kind of creepy atmosphere. And the moon poking through the trees at the back pierces through to support the bold colour in the foreground. He's also got some great 3D landscape work as well. It retains a mystical quality and looks vibrant.

His charecter design has got an awesome style to it as well as variation. He's got some classic 'what-ho' kind of english gentlemen in funny proportions, bouncing tofu and uses a range of media (which all artists should try). I'm not exactly sure where to start without going on with his style, but its varied and each variation is awesome enough for me to talk too long about it, i'm already rambling on about it, just looks at me .

Well: that'll do pig, that'll do ]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/9827669/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/9827669/ Wed, 23 Aug 2006 13:11:31 PDT
Today was good, and bad.

I started to get that creative drive, I just wanted to go do something, and I did a bit of playing around with my new (free) 3D software - shade designer 7 LE. Its a great little programme that intuatively creted 3D models from what you put down in the 'magical sketch' feature.

Then I covered some paper in Clerasil (its probably gonna be used for typography)

I'm probably gonna upload pics from my various animations as well with a link to them on youtube, so sorry for another mass upload like with my melted bottles.

Also I have a load of A3 paper/white cardboard that I might muck about with. Though at home its a lot harder to make art like on the art course since there I could just go crazy with ink, dye, charcoal and all manner of messy things. Plus there was a lightbox (which was very handy for some stuff, I might buy one for myself).

I made a little random render after experimenting with different approaches to Shade Designer, was gonna upload the little guy untill... I killed the internet on my new PC.

From that point on things just went WRONG [link] (also see [link])

My wireless connection was running with a poor connection, so I tried repairing it, no joy, then I though maybe I disable and enable it again it might get a better signal.

wrong

My computer didn't let me 'enable' it, in fact for a while it said that the wireless card didn't even exist!

Eventually I could get a signal from it, but it kept failing to connect to the internet and the wireless card appeared as 'disconnected' even though after much searching for answers on the internets I found nothing to help me.

All I can piece together now is:
The card reads disconnected even though the 'auto reconnect' function is on on the driver is switched on.
The link sometimes tells me I have a HEX error (even though the code for the wireless is in ASCII)
My card is a ralink RT61+RT2500 and updating the driver does not help

Anyone computer smart?

Needless to say I freaked out very much as everthing had just worked out with my new PC. I did actually repeatedly smack my head into the arm of my swively chair (it was padded but still hurt). I was very pissed off.

Even the large amounts of sugar I consumed did not help me cheer up . I then slapped on Ratchet: deadlocked and blasted away at everything in sight.

I've clamed down now at least, especially with the fact that the internet works on the PC I'm typing with now (yes I know, stating the obvious). Also I have everything I wanted to get done internet wise on the new PC done.

Now its gonna be a case of running to and from my PCs with my Flash memory card when I want to transfer files for any reason if I need to download/upload them. My new PC is so much faster than this one .

Well I want to change to tone from that to something rather silly and amusing.

It was a dream I had, for this you must know who patrick stuart is to get the whole funnyness of it. He's the guy who played proffesor X in the X-men movies as well as Captain Jean-Luc Picard of the USS enterpirse [link]

The Dream:

I was in my freind pete's car, he was driving.

For some reason we were drving through what looked like a long, intracate, concrete beer garden. We were somehow fitting his car through stairs and gaps that didn't seem possible to fit through.

We came to a group of tables on flat concrete curface, with no wall between that and a small drop to an adjacent river.

He reversed up the car in order to go through the tables, but he reversed too far and a back wheel was dangling off the edge poised to fall into the river.

The car fell into the river, stood still for a moment and then hopped to the other side.

I got out the car, grabbed hold of the side and yelled PATRICK STUART POWER!
I flew off into the air with the car and placed it down saftley.

I then flew off into the air and away.


.... yea, I blame ytmnd.com

Well, I've gone on for a while now, and have rabled like a pro. I'll stick the tag I got from ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/9771094/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/9771094/ Fri, 18 Aug 2006 11:47:46 PDT ) art course.

The pieces that I'm uploading are from the 'surface manipulation' task. This involved breaking, twisting, tangling, glueing, melting and many other 'ings to various things.

I tried various methods to create little works. But the one that I was happiest with involved a little tool called the 'heat gun'

The heat gun basically just melted everything as long as you pointed it at something for long enough, and I melted bottles and thier contense into a vase like object. They came out deformed and shrunk/melted, and I really like how they turned out.

So they are about to be uploaded

Todays journal title comes from the feeling's song - fill my little world.

In other news, I'm getting things from the list I made done, had the meal with and freinds and my car is back in action amongst other things. Still more to do, but at least I'm getting on it. ]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/9716968/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/9716968/ Sun, 13 Aug 2006 19:05:00 PDT as for kingdom hearts 2's release date
ITS FREAKING DELAYED UNTIL 29th OF SEPTEMBER!!!!!!!!!!!

why do you do this to me square enix and disney?

By that time i'm gonna be at uni, and i'll have lots to do, and kingdom hearts 2 must be played.


why, why why!!


its bin out for ages in the US, aaaa!!!


Well, it's bin a while since I ranted.

...but I'VE WAITED 4 FREAKING YEARS FOR THIS GAME!!!!

petty i know, but its gonna drive me crazy.

just like the price of the PS3... ]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/9714787/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/9714787/ Sun, 13 Aug 2006 15:22:49 PDT
I've got a few ideas for little comic strips, such as finding jesus and a colab one with . As well as that I might try using different media to create the odd piece here and there. ]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/9694787/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/9694787/ Fri, 11 Aug 2006 19:17:39 PDT well enough of my shoddy french
tagged by

also i havent had a reply in a while from lil miss taj, now i'm paranoid i said something that was too silly, too serious or too something else

1. Do you like animals?
yea, they are great, still wanna go swim with dolphins

2. Have you ever met an online friend in person?
no actually, more the other way round, if ya get what i mean

3. Are you athletic?
i go to the gym, but my cardio is crap, plus i suck at football (or soccer as you americans call it, we invented the language, it was perfectly fine to begin with)

4. Are you: thin, fat, athletically built etc:
i'd say athletic, i have a six pac sometimes and everything.... if i tense and all that shizzle

5. How much do you weigh?
70-75kg i think, or 12 stone

6. What's your height?
6'1"

7. Shoe size?
about 10-11 (i think thats 11-12 american)

8. Girls- are you tomboyish, girly, normal, etc?
no, wait wrong gender, i've already been accused of being a girl when my mate insisted i escort her to the loo because i was the closest thing to a girl around

9. Guys- Are you girly, or guyish?
depends, i probably cry more than most blokes, when no-ones looking...

10. How old are you?
19

11. When's your birthday?
23rd june (taj has no birthday, does that mean she was born outside of time?)

12. Do you like to receive giftart?
yea

13. Are you sociable?
if someone asks me to go out i am

14. Do you have many friends?
yea, though i don't see a lot of them as much as i should

15. What's your race?
caucasian, I is british

16. Do you like to talk on the phone?
if i don't know the person then i talk really posh, but otherwise i sound like me, going off on hour long tangents

17. Are you single or taken?
so... very... single

18. Do you eat meat?
yes, i like ham (which co-incedentally was a song by a band my sister's mate was in, and the guy didn't even like ham, true story)

19. Are you paranoid?
who said that? who's asking. aaaaa paranoid

20. Do you read a lot?
does text on a PC screen count?

21. Do you listen to music, what kind?
Hells yea, i listen to everything, though just yesterday recomended i use this site called pandora, and smnt with music. and it recomends me lots of awesome stuff, good for inspiration, i did a bit of sketching, which i should have done sooner

22. Do you play any instruments?
I play a bit og guitar and bass, enough to get by, but i don't know any of that theory stuff

23. How long have you been drawing?
life, on and off, i usually doodle here and there, and i always drew on stuff when i was a kid, i even tried to design a computer game when i was about 8 and i got dune 2, probably my first ever game and i loved it

24. Whats the meaning of life?
easy, 42 (go watch monty python's meaning of life if you dont get that)

25. Now tag five of your friends comrades!

k, time to go tag, hmm i need to find more people on deviant art, but they always seem to have so many watchers and only reply scarecly
and i cant really tag he's already taken



~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/9672811/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/9672811/ Thu, 10 Aug 2006 02:58:22 PDT "kowaresou na SUPIIDO agete
tsuresatte kure"
Heaven's drive by L'arc en Ciel, an awesome song.

I've started to get onto that list of crap I've been meaning to do for too long. I've restrung my telecaster, and I've just de-strung my les paul and cleaned it up (with clearasil, that stuff cleans most things really well, not just ya face!).

My Pho (car) is all better now, and I need to get her MOT'd again.

Also I'm getting my new PC today, and my granny should be chipping in a bit of money towards it as well as my parents, so after one of my guitars is sold I will have the money to pay back my parents (as well as the £500 at the start of the term I get from Teesside university).
Here's the stats of my new favorite thing:
PHILIPS MT2600
- Intel Pentium D 940 Processor
- 3.2GHz, 800MHz FSB, 2MB Cache
- 2048MB DDR RAM
- 300GB Hard Disk Drive
- Dual Layer DVD ReWriter Drive
- 256MB ATI RADEON X700 Graphics
- Built-in TV Tuner + Remote Control
- Wireless Keyboard + Mouse
- Microsoft Windows XP Media Center
- 19" TFT Flat Panel Monitor
All for £859.99

Now once I got it on the internet I can install the 3D modeling software I got free with 3D world magazine, Shader 7 Designer LE, and get to work. As well as getting the free learning editions of Maya and Gmax (or studio max as the full version is called).

I've also been cleaning up a bit around the house, and I've got a stack of games I don't need anymore that I'm going to sell for a little bit of money.

Though tuesday night wasn't so great, went out to a club with some mates, had a good time, met a bunch of people from the art course and my old school.

Though as I was talking to my mate on the dancefloor, some fat bloke started on him for what seemed no apparent reason. He grabbed him and tried to slam his face into the counter at the side of the dancefloor. Before he could do that my mate stepped in and laid into him.

At the time I had been pushed back into the counter and into my already messed up back. Once I got up I saw my mate pete throwing punches at him and vice versa. I then jumped of the guys back and grabbed him round the neck. At some point the bouncers interviened.

I'm not 100% sure of the details as I'd had a bit to drink before then and it was dark on the dancefloor. Pete's face wasn't looking so great afterwards, I didn't see for myself but apparently the fat bloke took a fair bit of damage as well. We went to the station and gave statements, but the guy will probably just get off with a caution and a night in the cells. Well that's the justice system for ya.

Since I don't really want to end on that note, I'll get onto my lack of work with Ethinden. I'm not really sure where to go with him. I've got a few sketches of movement, one almost full body design, hair, eyes and mouth as well as a few other things. I might see if I can do a full body length design of him, but I just need to get started more than anything.

I often get charecter ideas in my head fom listening to music, though they never go right when I put them down of paper . The only thing I can do is keep practicing my drawing, I hope to get a load of sketching done before I leave for university. I just need to find the inspiration. One of the worst things I've found is trying to be creative with no inspiration or motivation.

Linking back to the title of this journal, 'Take me up to speed, beyond the breaking point', I want to get back into the regime I was in at the end of my art course. At times I was working for hours on end with the animation I was doing [link] and I really feel like I was being productive, even if it wasn't all of my favorite work I have produced.

I just need to find that spark of motivation to get going, as a result I am cutting down on my gaming (trying at least ). I might go out, when I have my car MOT'd, and find somewhere to draw without any distractions, other than pretty landscapes.

Peace out ]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/9601422/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/9601422/ Fri, 04 Aug 2006 19:11:02 PDT I love that song, I just put it on and all my hair stood on end, seriously, music means so much to me and I let it mould me, and I use it to controll how I feel.

pretty handy really

Now... to the journal instead of my traditional ramblings.

*start*
My life is waiting to begin, I got a lot of things to do and I'm just being bloody lazy. My deviations have crawled to a stop, and I am barely ever sketching unless there are no distractions (i.e. the PC and TV).

To be honest I'm now tempted to go for a drive to coomb hill (a place I used to go to a lot for walks with the family when I was a child) and sit there and draw. I need to stop spending so much time on the computer, but its just the fact it's so much easier than real life... sigh

Sure I find it great after having a stressful day, but I haven't really had one for ages since I don't have a job or college/uni. When I got in debt and had to pay off a £60 fine (which isn't that much in the grand scheme of things, but it really shocked me), then the PC died, it helped to play my PS2 because it made me stop worrying about the things stressing me out.

Being analytical as I am, I know what I'm doing wrong and see it a mile off, like annoying way too much, not helping out around the house and being hypocrytical. And in some respects I hate myself for that, and wish i didn't do it, but I still do.

I got a lot of things I need to get done. 1 or 2 odd jobs around the house that I'm getting money from for doing, getting money for my new PC, digital art and sketching and various other little things.

One thing I've found that works for me when I need to get something done is to write a list of things to do in the day so I have a goal to reach. I've always found I work better when I have a target or something telling me what to do, which is why I guess I work better in a 'learning' environment (like a studio).

Well since I need a list I might as well write one here-

To do list:
1) lay the tiles in the kitchen
2) play my les paul and telecaster to work out which one i'm going to sell
3) put my decided guitar and bass up for sale of adtrader and other places
4) clean up around the house
5) get my car's front suspension sorted out
6) install and play around with the 3D modeling software I have
7) work on Ethinden charecter design [link]
8) contact teesside university and LA about dyslexia support
9) see osteopath about problems with my back
10) get all the little sketches around the house started as works
11) get a date down for the meal with , bob and john
12) sort out student financing (when conformation from teesside comes through)

Its less than 2 months till I go to teesside university to do computer animation, and thats a fair bit to do for the moment, but I really need to get started on all that. Today (now saturday) I can put more tiles down in the kitchen, and sketching isn't hard to do.

I just need to get started on it to get the ball rolling, I have the first guild vs guild battle on guild wars, sunday evening, which I really need to be there for because I don't want to let the guild leader down, I've gotten to know him quite well now.

I might just get a big sheet of paper and put that list up in my room as a constant reminder, so I can't escape it.

Well I hope all who read this have a productive day and are feeling well, I must go to sleep now, its 3:10am, and theres a few things I need to do today.

Peace out ]]> ~oldoneeye http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/9488973/ http://oldoneeye.deviantart.com/journal/9488973/ Tue, 25 Jul 2006 10:56:08 PDT
Having a dad who knows people who can fix PCs is t3h 1337

Now thats enough 1337 for one day... My pc is fixed and i'm happy, normally i would go and geek it up by playing guild wars, but i've got a trampoline to sleep on! ]]> ~oldoneeye