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deviantART: by:omoimasuyo http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:omoimasuyo&section=today deviantART RSS for by:omoimasuyo en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 18 Dec 2009 21:31:17 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png updates and such http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/28859843/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/28859843/ Thu, 10 Dec 2009 07:41:22 PST
In the area of art, though, I find myself being drawn back into lettering and typography. That has been interesting since this is a time of year that I write a lot of letters.

Anime, hanging with friends, work -- all of these things take way too much time out of my day when I barely have any energy due to lack of sleep (3 hours or less at a time per day).

My friend Phillip is here, so I am going to be present with him for a while. Take care.

For those of you reading this, if you do watch me or even pay attention to my art or photography, let me know.

Later, dAnimals.

]]> ~omoimasuyo new skin and such http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/28243864/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/28243864/ Mon, 09 Nov 2009 14:32:57 PST
other than that i wonder if anyone visits my little corner of the world here. i miss you guys. leave me comments when you visit and maybe a fave if you see things you like.

]]> ~omoimasuyo open features ^^ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/27593392/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/27593392/ Wed, 14 Oct 2009 18:00:09 PDT
So, here we are.

1.~Stormfire-SF
For one, he's super nice. For two, he's a really talented artist. If he trained me at all, I don't think I would have a complaint. Take a look at my thoughts below ^_^

:: Dream is a really nice typography piece. I love the lighting. Aside from that, he really knows his way around a c4d.

:: This Coca-Cola piece looks so good that it actually makes me thirsty. It's just well done. I love how well-blended the bottle is, yet the sharpness is also done in such a way that it pops. I enjoyed it enough to

it. So should you.

:: More than anything else, I appreciate the simplicity of the Truth piece he has in his gallery. Black, white, and grey. Smooth circles and stark lines. I'm in love.

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]]> ~omoimasuyo a little loopy http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/27255160/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/27255160/ Wed, 16 Sep 2009 23:48:30 PDT
...why not?

Head on over to the gallery or do a search for "goneLOOPY".

later folks.

]]> ~omoimasuyo nakedness http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/27038778/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/27038778/ Sat, 05 Sep 2009 16:19:52 PDT
Honestly, I wasn't looking for it. I was looking through dA for ab pics, and ran into this guy called

Interesting shots. Some are a bit... well, you can look for yourself, but some of his shots are pretty nice and I kinda wanna do something like that. From what I see, he uses himself as a model. That's pretty interesting.

Back to the grind of trying to get

to pay attention to me

]]> ~omoimasuyo recruiting help http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/24869968/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/24869968/ Thu, 21 May 2009 08:24:40 PDT this. So any encouragement I can get from the crew here would be great and welcome.

Oh yeah, Enkera, I still want to do that collab. I got some decent material now

omochan out.

]]> ~omoimasuyo stats http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/23304603/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/23304603/ Fri, 20 Feb 2009 11:10:19 PST
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omoimasuyo has 5,428 pageviews total and his 115 deviations were viewed 9,079 times. He watches 74 people, while 38 people watch him.

Overall, his deviations received 543 comments and were added to deviants' favourites 142 times, while he commented 3,232 times, making about 3.73 comments per day since he joined DA. This means that he gave 60 comments for every 10 that he received.

His deviation with the most comments is sotw 34: patriotic with 35 comments, while his most favourited one is for moonbeam: keep fighting, with 28 favourites. His most viewed deviation is for moonbeam: keep fighting with 1,525 views.

3 favourites were given for every 10 comments.

Every 7.5 days he uploads a new deviation, and it's usually on a Tuesday, with 22 (19%) of his deviations.

His busiest month was July 2007 with 33 (29%) of his deviations.

The majority of his deviations are uploaded to the literature gallery (46), while his favourite category was general>open with 12 deviations.

Comments per deviation: 4.72
Favourites per deviation: 1.23
Views per deviation: 78.94
Comments per day: 0.62
Favourites per day: 0.16
Views per day: 10.48
Pageviews per day: 6.26
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]]> ~omoimasuyo btw http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/23304299/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/23304299/ Fri, 20 Feb 2009 10:45:42 PST here.

Enjoy.

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]]> ~omoimasuyo omg http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/23304205/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/23304205/ Fri, 20 Feb 2009 10:38:09 PST
I went through and looked at all the deviations,

ing as I went. Because of the sheer volume of deviations, I couldn't leave a thoughtful comment on my favorites (know that I thought them in abundance).

Take care, guys.

]]> ~omoimasuyo new pics http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/19425338/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/19425338/ Wed, 16 Jul 2008 10:01:00 PDT
Which ones should I post? The majority wins

]]> ~omoimasuyo need my writing groove http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/19235442/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/19235442/ Sun, 06 Jul 2008 12:47:27 PDT
i want you guys to look through my writings and artwork in the gallery and from there i want you to think of a writing theme.

i'll take up to fifty.

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what are you waiting for?

]]> ~omoimasuyo new art http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/17553464/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/17553464/ Fri, 28 Mar 2008 07:54:59 PDT
That being said, you can feel free to smile as I prepare this new photo I took last night and post it for your love. It really was a beautiful piece and the concept just kind of smacked me on the head at random yesterday afternoon.

Allow me to get everything ready and it will be on its way.

]]> ~omoimasuyo happy resurrection weekend http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/17470902/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/17470902/ Sun, 23 Mar 2008 08:27:26 PDT
"Happy Resurrection Weekend"

No, IÂm not going to blah blah blah on about what this day is for, but I will try to sum up. Jesus died a few days previous and got up on this day to complete His part in saving the world. He has a part He has left to me and anyone else naming themselves Christian and it is this that we celebrate today; the fact that He is, in fact, alive and more so alive in us. He calls our names and we run to kneel at His feet and let His love wash over us again in teaching, warning, encouragement, discipline and just the freakinÂ sweet sound of Him calling our names over and over and over and over and letting us know that we are still a part of the family.

That we still belong.

So in case you were wondering what weÂre really doing today, the eggs and stuff are a cover-up. WeÂre just excited that someone we love so much is still so close to us and still loves us just as much as the day we met Him.

If you donÂt know what IÂm talking about, maybe you should take a chance to fall in love, too.

]]> ~omoimasuyo I'm sorry http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/17470897/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/17470897/ Sun, 23 Mar 2008 08:26:48 PDT
IÂm sorry I canÂt rescue you. You have a million faces, but youÂre the same person. YouÂve done things you canÂt tell anyone. Things youÂll never be able to say without shedding a tear or staring at the floor or wishing you could disappear. Things that remain in the shadows and constantly threaten to peek their head out at the first sign of weakness on your part.

I am so sorry you had to endure that. IÂm a healer and a lover. I have the kind of personality where I would gladly give my very life to shield you from pain, but the fact of the matter is that I cannot save you. In fact, IÂm not even close to a savior. I know one, though. They call him Jesus. WeÂre celebrating his resurrection (under the name of a pagan holiday, but letÂs not go there right now) this weekend, but I want to tell you something you can carry with you every day.

Most of my life was difficult. No need for the details; you can ask for them at a later time. Then I met Him. I had looked for love and identity everywhere. A book, a personÂs voice, my friends, wherever...

...then I found Him.

He loved me unconditionally and told me so. He promised to be there every step of the way and He has been - no matter where the steps go and no matter how I treat Him. HeÂs the most wonderful thing that has happened to me on earth (and hereafter for that matter).

Right after that, of course, thereÂs you. YouÂre reading this wondering if I am writing this to people I know or people I donÂt. Honestly, it doesnÂt matter because I love you all. He made me like that. Maybe you donÂt believe in Him. ThatÂs fine for now. I canÂt make you. I just want you to know what I know. I want you to have the hope that I have. I have a hope and I know a love that is so strong, that I canÂt believe in luck. ItÂs not a matter of "IÂm a Christian, so I donÂt believe in luck..."

ItÂs more like, "God is so good to me that I donÂt even need to believe in luck. HeÂll just make sure what I need is there..." ItÂs been that way since weÂve met and HeÂs stuck to being faithful to me all this time. Honestly, itÂs borderline romantic. ItÂs probably the best thing IÂve never said...

...until now.

IÂm saying this now because you are in pain that I canÂt understand. I donÂt have to. He does. He dealt with all of it long ago and because of that, He can understand whatever (and I mean whatever) you are dealing with right now.

Maybe you donÂt pray. ThatÂs fine for now. All I hope is that when you see me... if you see me at all... whatever time that happens to be... that you can look at me and know that the greatest love in the universe... no, the love that created the universe... is alive and actively seeking you. Even more that when you come in contact with me, you experience that love. A love that draws people near, embraces them in their weakness, anger, sadness, and despair. A love that dances with you in your happiness. A love that swallows you alive and washes over you and puts a smile on your face and overwhelms you with so much peace that your hearts beats with gratitude just to be alive.

I want you to know that IÂm sorry that I canÂt save you, but I know that He can and that maybe I can show Him to you. I want you to know that I wish I could have been there with you when you went through whatever you went through that made you say "yes" to that person when it should have been "no!" or made you drink or made you smoke or made you start cutting or anything else.

IÂm so very sorry.

If you were here, I would hug you, but for now IÂll be content to weep and determined to love you to the best of my abilities in the here and now.

With all the heart I have to say it: God loves you.

He really, really, really does.

]]> ~omoimasuyo birthday http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/16985252/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/16985252/ Wed, 20 Feb 2008 21:34:06 PST
omg.

]]> ~omoimasuyo stuff and stuff http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/16286936/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/16286936/ Sun, 06 Jan 2008 13:24:53 PST
I had a rough christmas day, but it ended well. I got my christmas present friday (this past friday). Yay for my new camera. Sony Cybershot at that. I should have lots of fun with it soon I think.

Other than that, it's been work and home and work and home and work. A friend of mine has been trying to get me away from home and chilling at his house once a week and watching a movie or two. It's been nice.

Emotional state = a wreck most of the time. My life seems to be a mess, actually, but work and bills are constants and that's just the way things are. I would give more details, but I don't feel like being super emo on dA. Although if you want to read long blogs, you can always read here.

More when I can. Love you all.

222 Deviations to sort through? You all must hate me.

]]> ~omoimasuyo holiday cards http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/15417312/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/15417312/ Thu, 08 Nov 2007 08:25:18 PST Holiday Cards

So here's the deal, guys. We send holiday cards for the holidays to people who are in hospitals. I know that most of you have known someone who had to be in the hospital over a holiday and we can all relate to how much that sucks.

Make an effort.

Especially if you are in the US. You can go to a dollar store where I live and get 10-20 for $1.

One. Dollar.

Don't be slack about this. Get your cards in!

Yes, I said cards.

To sum up:
1. Read the article

2. Get cracking!

]]> ~omoimasuyo good job everyone http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/15166561/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/15166561/ Sun, 21 Oct 2007 23:54:18 PDT
Unfortunately, I haven't had anywhere near the time to read and view all of your work. I miss you all terribly, but with work all the time and then having to run around picking people up everywhere and all that, I am too exhausted to even type most of the time.

So, I will have to say "gomen" again and hope you forgive me.

I love you all.

]]> ~omoimasuyo gomen http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/14853488/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/14853488/ Sun, 30 Sep 2007 09:41:56 PDT
I logged in to find 117 new pieces and 58 messages. I was exhausted and looking at the screen - just looking - made my head start to swim. I couldn't do it. Not today.

The last few weeks have been exhausting. I go to work, come home, try to snatch some sleep and repeating the process. On my days off, I have to wake up early anyway just to take people to work and pick them up.

I wake up tired and I go to sleep from exhaustion. This has gone on for weeks on end now. I just do not have the energy to sift through so many pieces of work right now, so I had to leave a whole bunch of pieces without comment. Please pardon me.

]]> ~omoimasuyo new deviant... http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/14672006/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/14672006/ Mon, 17 Sep 2007 11:23:45 PDT CFRatao feel especially welcome, okay.

- look
- comment
- watch

D0 i7 nao!

]]> ~omoimasuyo SUPPORT, CONTEST, GO! http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/14512712/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/14512712/ Thu, 06 Sep 2007 06:10:12 PDT
Support the fight against Breast Cancer!

Click here for more details.

]]> ~omoimasuyo 2k pageviews http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/14469278/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/14469278/ Mon, 03 Sep 2007 10:01:33 PDT
There are 2,155. The fact that my page has been viewed that many times should be cause for a celebration or at least a journal entry.

I think I will work on a project to celebrate later, but I'll just say this for now:

Thanks for your pageviews, favorites and comments. Thank you for following my work. Thank for being there for me with my more emo journals. Thank you for telling me that things could use a little work.

I read your comments and such and sometimes I think I could conquer the world. You are all wonderful.

]]> ~omoimasuyo omg: part 2 http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/14291247/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/14291247/ Wed, 22 Aug 2007 16:16:17 PDT
]]> ~omoimasuyo omg http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/14195302/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/14195302/ Thu, 16 Aug 2007 11:53:10 PDT
In that time 64 have accumulated which I will have to read through. omg. Why do you guys make so many things. Especially

>_<

Back to this project I'm working on.

]]> ~omoimasuyo update http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/14036476/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/14036476/ Sun, 05 Aug 2007 23:46:10 PDT 40 minutes just looking through art - 44 pieces worth from:

*sigh*

You guys work me hard after you come back from these vacations. Give me a break! XD

Going on, I also read through 6 journals and now there are 7 comments left to leaf through before going to bed so I can be coherent for another blissful day of work *strong sarcasm*.

Everyone around here seems to be doing a lot, so in order to not be a slacker, I am going to post my newest sig piece with and without a filter. It's going to be titled dreamcoffee. I hope you like it.

I don't know what to do with images of the isolate now. I'm out of my more emo state, but I still want to write. We'll see. Off to read, submit, then sleep. Good night, all.

]]> ~omoimasuyo from the days of yore http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13953405/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13953405/ Tue, 31 Jul 2007 12:32:51 PDT
So I am! They'll be showing up soon and you can read, enjoy, comment and maybe even

if you like them enough.

As for the remainder of the images of the isolate series, there is more coming, so try to be patient as I wait for the words to flow. Take care, everyone.

.:: EDIT ::.

Okay folks, part 5 is up for reading. It's labeled mature because the character bleeds. Don't be afraid to read it, though.

Until next one!

]]> ~omoimasuyo why naps are bad http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13915412/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13915412/ Sat, 28 Jul 2007 14:35:35 PDT
Keeping it to myself, I continued to plod from day to day. During that time, my emotions swelled to a fevered pitch. I still refused to talk to anyone during this time. As the days continued to pass in this way, I started to dread being alive and conscious and so in the middle of my hardest time, I would take a nap to forget everything and just not be awake.

You can't hurt if you aren't conscious.

The time of the naps were maybe an hour or two, but soon they increased to 3 or 4. After about a week and a half of this, it became almost 17 hours per day for about three days. Meals were missed, classes were missed.

I had to escape it and I have to say that without God's intervention there, I couldn't have. Every now and again then, when I get really depressed or upset, I have to struggle - and struggle hard - to avoid taking naps because I don't want to be conscious or deal with the way I feel at the time.

Well, in my previous journal, if you read the comments you will notice that I said that "I did something bad". It was this thing. No, it's not overeating, or cutting, or drugs, or sex, but it's just as bad to me because it's not running for the light

I hope this explains things a bit. For those who know what I'm talking about, pray for me. Thanks.

Outside of this, the series is now four stories long and the titles are:

waiting

smile

abandon

drowned

Take a look and leave your comments for me.

]]> ~omoimasuyo new series http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13900958/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13900958/ Fri, 27 Jul 2007 12:39:29 PDT
I started a new series, posted here of course, called "Images of the Isolate". There are two pieces up already, so take a look and comment (faves appreciated but by no means required) if you would.

Also, I'm in a new RP here for those who want to take a look. I'm Aurelio. My character description can be found here. Not much, but it keeps things flexible.

I really should track down ~iyeru42 since I'm such a writing mood today. Maybe I'll find him after work. He's been busy with another RP'er though. Such is the way of things.

Well, that's all for now. I'm looking for people to feature, so if you want a feature, please go here and request one! Thanks.

Until next update.

]]> ~omoimasuyo update http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13884588/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13884588/ Thu, 26 Jul 2007 07:48:04 PDT
You are very very hard working people and I definitely appreciate the time you guys take to make things and drag old things out of the closet to share.

Sometimes, I'm afraid that you guys have more art than I have time!

I think I am going to pick up a pen, but if that happens, then it will probably be dark feelings in my writing. I've been very emo'd out this week and the writing will be an extension of that.

Also, let's not forget that I have the "What You Wish You Had Said" series floating about. I think that series deserves seven pieces. Other suggestions for the amount of pieces are welcome.

]]> ~omoimasuyo GAZOO!!!! http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13623236/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13623236/ Thu, 05 Jul 2007 15:57:01 PDT

. He's an up and coming stock photographer. He has some pretty amazing stuff. Most of his photography centers around electronic devices and the like, but what amazing pictures!

Visit his gallery after you read this and give yourself a little treat. Comment and maybe even favorite. There's something there everyone could like and, unlike some other things in my life right now, you won't have wasted any time.

The name is ~Gazoogleheimer. Visit it!

]]> ~omoimasuyo trip to narrows series http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13600600/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13600600/ Wed, 04 Jul 2007 02:36:57 PDT Trip to Narrows series. This included pictures from the trip I took to Narrows, WV and the many stops along the way there and back home. Most of the shots occurred on Pinnacle Rock. Some on side of the highway.

It was a fun set to post. I have a shorter series from an older event coming up. Be looking for them.

If I get the higher quality pictures from Johnette (I took some of my photos with her camera and I don't have those back yet), then I can post a few more pictures, rounding out the Trip to Narrows set to about 20 pictures.

Until next time, folks! ]]> ~omoimasuyo hard worker http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13574392/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13574392/ Mon, 02 Jul 2007 07:09:17 PDT
It took me almost an hour and a half to read through all of those and leave comments and/or faves. You are all a lot of work, but I do enjoy it. I wish I could post that much. You are hardcore people.

*hugs* ]]> ~omoimasuyo updates and such http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13570302/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13570302/ Sun, 01 Jul 2007 22:11:19 PDT
That being said, there are 8 pictures up right now with more on the way. I have a few older pictures from another picture adventure day.

In other news, I'm catching up on Bleach eps and teaching japanese to a friend (well, the little bit that I know). This weekend has been pretty fun. Taking pictures has made me realize (1) I really like taking pictures and (2) I want a better camera.

Take care everyone.

]]> ~omoimasuyo irc channel http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13512225/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13512225/ Wed, 27 Jun 2007 12:50:53 PDT
I wanted to write a quick blurb for an IRC channel I was invited to. It's a wonderful place most of the time and I think it's worth the join. I've been there almost everyday. It's a wonderful way to pass time among other things and I would love to see a few of you there, so why don't you all head that way and join me?

You can go to this site, download the mIRC client and hit the lobby. It's already configured for that channel, so you don't have to mess around with any settings at all.

See you all in the lobby ^_^

]]> ~omoimasuyo new deviant: fredconkles http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13503077/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13503077/ Tue, 26 Jun 2007 19:32:53 PDT
It's Omoi-kun with an update and such. A new deviant joined today by the name of ~fredconkles. He's a personal friend (actually, he's in my room XD). He posted a new poem today as his first piece. It's a song dedicated to his sister and something special God did for her. I encourage anyone reading this post to give it a good read, comments and maybe a few faves.

Take the time to welcome him, too; we all know how it felt to be the "new person on the block". Nervous about being watched, or favorited, or welcomed and we are, after all, a community, right? ^_^

Oh, before I forget,

is working on another RP. He's formatting it a little differently for a more easy read, but it's time consuming and he's working on other projects, so that may be slow in coming (although well worth the wait - after all, I'm one of the main characters XD).

Take care and check out my previous post so I can feature you! I have twelve slots open. Please have at least three pieces of art.

]]> ~omoimasuyo to keep a promise http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13453540/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13453540/ Mon, 09 Jul 2007 09:55:42 PDT
This week has been hard at work, so I am glad that the weekend is here. I hope I can start cranking out more art and/or poetry. This next week is apparently more of the same and I'm not looking forward to it, but oh well. Such is life, right?

I have recently acquired a new musical love: Maximum the Hormone.

I guess I should describe my musical tastes a little. They are varied to be sure; I like jazz, swing (a derivative, but not quite the same), some hip-hop, R 'n' B, classical (especially piano), baroque, rock, disco, techno, etc. For example, I l-o-v-e Sade. In any case, even with a musical palette that varied, I don't really listen to hard music. This started to take a slight turn after hearing "I'm So Sick" by Flyleaf. Normally, I can't handle music where people yell loudly and growl at the same time. It was just a bit disturbing. After a while, though, I decided I would give it a try. So someone introduced me to "I'm So Sick". It starts off soft and then you hear the word "BREEAAAAAAKKKK!..."

It was very intense and sent a chill down my back, but I instantly fell in love with it. The growling made sense and in painted the portrait of the song very well. I loved every minute of it (and all the minutes I spent listening to it exclusively on repeat thereafter).

Well, the adventure doesn't stop there. Last night, a friend of mine introduced me to a song called Zetsubou Billy. This song comes from Death Note (well worth the watch, I might add). What an amazing song. So much intensity, growling and everything. By the end of the song, I was near to tears. Not because I didn't like it, but because it was so intense. There was something in the vocals at the end and the flow of the song (not to mention, the excellent musical vid). It was a total treat. It was the last thing I listened to as I fell asleep, the first thing I listened to when I awoke and everything in between.

In short, my musical journey is taking me to harder music and I am liking the change. Not to say that I'm letting go of my softer music; God forbid. Instead, I'm learning to embrace a bit more. I don't think I am going to like everything I hear that is hard, but I'm a lot more open to it than I used to be and that kind of change is nice.

Now, onto why I titled this particular journal entry. I made a promise to

that I would copy her challenge if she featured me. Well, she did, and as you read the rules, you'll see why. Here they are:

Rules:
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The first twelve peopLe who reply to this journal will get their work featured.
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How It Works:
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I will pick three works to feature from twelve people who reply to this journal. If you are featured, repost this information in your journal. Then feature me, plus the first twelve people who reply to your journal.

You will have thirteen features in all. The person who featured you. And the twelve people who answer your journal.
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Of course, as is fitting, I will feature =chinaroses, so here goes:

*note: I can't show thumbnails because I am not subscribed*

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=chinaroses
1. Chairs in Conversation
2. Retro Queen
3. My Pixie (it's so cute!)
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~Iggyness
1. -G-L-A-M-O-R-O-U-S-
2. :A Kiss for the Rose:
3. ++We're All Friends Her... ]]> ~omoimasuyo Nina the Naga: It's Over? http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13424276/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13424276/ Wed, 20 Jun 2007 19:44:55 PDT

and I rp'ed the final bit of NtN tonight. Things wrapped up pretty quickly. Who knows what will happen now that it's over! Will there be no further rp'ing for yours truly?

I don't know.

There may be another story in the works, but you'd have to ask ~iyeru42

. Take a look at his gallery and read the adventure from start to finish!

Here's the last of the current series.

Part 14

Part 15

Part 16

Well, that means no rp'ing after work for a while. Maybe I'll get something done (I never seem to at work, that's for sure).

Thanks,

for a wonderful time. Maybe one day, we can do this again.

]]> ~omoimasuyo Nina the Naga: The last half to date.... http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13408819/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13408819/ Tue, 19 Jun 2007 15:24:16 PDT iyeru42 has been doing a tremendous job as a story teller for this RP. I'm having a lot of fun doing this RP and I hope that, at some point soon, there would be more to come.

That would be awesome

Part 9

Part 10

Part 11

Part 12

Part 13

All of the Nina goodness you could handle and in reasonably-sized chunks. I would summarize, but I'd be too tempted to tell too much, so you'll just have to read.

Iyeru even called me a great rp'er in his journal! I thought I would die! I'm not nominal anymore!

Check him out:

]]> ~omoimasuyo Nina the Naga: An Ending http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13368236/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13368236/ Sat, 16 Jun 2007 11:42:31 PDT Nina the Naga: Part 8 is now up and ready to read thanks to the hard work of ~iyeru42. Check out his gallery (but maybe not his favorites *sigh).

All of the humor you crave and a plot change besides. You know you want to do it, so get reading!

Part 8 (in case you missed the first link): [link]

]]> ~omoimasuyo The lastest in Nina-wear #1 http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13352365/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13352365/ Fri, 15 Jun 2007 06:50:55 PDT

has been constantly updating dA with posts for "Nina the Naga". I swear, this story ought to have a title that includes me

.

Moving on, the story is coming along nicely. I wish I could do a voice announcement as much as I wish that Iyeru would make all the cleavage disappear XD.

Part 5 (did I already post this?): [link]

Part 6: [link]

Part 7: [link]

Enjoy enjoy enjoy!

Of course comment here and visit

's gallery for more interesting (non-vore... ewww) things.

]]> ~omoimasuyo Omoi in an RP?! http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13335181/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/13335181/ Wed, 13 Jun 2007 20:58:37 PDT

a couple of days ago and the whole thing has evolved into something rather light-hearted and humorous. It's a blast to write (even if he did call me a 'nominal rp'er'

).

You should take a look. My rp leader seems to be in love with cleavage (meh), so there are cleavage references all over the place. They aren't mine, though, but because of their constant mention, I ended up doing something funny in one section of the story. It's a must-read!

Part 2: [link]
Part 3.5: [link]
Part 4: [link]

More to come as it's posted. ^_^ Make sure to leave

a few comments and let him know what you think. Explore some other parts of his gallery, too.

I really should post here. I feel like you guys are getting neglected. If you think I should post more, let me know, k?

]]> ~omoimasuyo the latest http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/12729349/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/12729349/ Wed, 25 Apr 2007 11:28:57 PDT SO WHAT IS GOING ON WITH YOU, OMOI-KUN?!

Glad you asked!

I know you have all been looking forward to some kind of image from me, but I'm afraid to post the recent signature banners I've made for fear of breaking a rule of any kind on dA, so I've been keeping things on the low-down in terms of images. Also, I've been in more of a poetic flow as of late, so hopefully that hasn't left you entirely bored.

I will be moving in a couple of days (actually tomorrow night), so I won't be able to visit here as frequently to drop off my poetry as usual. Be sure that I will continue to be here as much as I can until I can get more regular net access.

Thank you, everyone, for commenting on things I make and posting yours. You inspire me everyday

.

By the way, have you seen these deviants?

or

Interesting and beautiful. Check it out!

Stay tuned!

]]> ~omoimasuyo wow http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/11914498/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/11914498/ Wed, 21 Feb 2007 21:05:18 PST

, for my birthday, bought me a subscription to this place! Holy CRAP!

]]> ~omoimasuyo the simple truth: fulfillment http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/11286665/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/11286665/ Tue, 02 Jan 2007 10:31:02 PST
I was thinking about this and I wrote it in my journal the other day, but thought I should share it with you.

Remember my earlier blog about music? Well, it's related to that. We look at so many things we liked before Christ and we think that we are missing something because we don't have it. Allow me to explain.

When I had the music, I don't just look for music that is just music. I like music well put-together and I like loud and I like feeling lost in the sound. I like being able to find music that touches parts of me that I can't even speak about. I like music that touches my emotions. I like music that flows with my life experience that I can point at and say "YES!!! YES!!! THAT'S SO ME RIGHT NOW!!!!!"

I had forgotten something important in all that process that it took me losing that music to find again and that idea is this:

No matter what I can find out there, I'm not missing anything if I don't have what the world has. Now, that doesn't mean "throw away your CDs and blah blah blah..."

I wouldn't dare be that demanding of everyone and it's not God that I should do such a thing, but I want to make it clear to you, brothers and sisters and those yet to be saved, that, no matter what it is, I am not missing anything. I'm not lacking anything. That is to say, there is nothing that the world is offering me, could offer me, might offer me, will offer me in the near or far-off future that could possibly compare to what I have already been offered in the person of Christ Jesus and in a life empowered by the Holy Spirit.

This is to say, I shouldn't have to look at the current fashion trends (for example) and think, "I don't have Abercrombie..."

I have Jesus.

I don't have to look at my music collection and think, "I wish I had some Dave Matthews right now..."

I have the Holy Ghost.

We are far too often cheated thinking that we are missing something if we don't have this or that thing that we like when we are offered so much more in Jesus.

Here's an example:

I have a feast laid out in front of me. Anything I can think of is laid out in front of me. Cooked to perfection. Served by angels even. Everything I could want is here... excepting sour cream and onion potato chips. Now imagine me getting hung up on these potato chips and pining away not having these chips and, because of that, missing the lasagne, turkey, cornish hen, meatloaf, linguini, rotini, shrimp, filet mignon, porterhouse steak, jasmine rice, duck a l'orange in front of me because I refuse to participate in it for lack of chips! Then imagine someone going to get me the chips and me, being satisfied, walking away from that whole feast!!

WHAT A TRAGEDY!!! But we live lives of tragedy in one area or another because we can't see the simple truth: the little entertainment I could find in this world with its things (whatever they are), are no match (not even a close one) to what I have left to find (heck, even what I have already found!) in Jesus! Look at all this life that I have to live! Shame on me (and you) for being sad, even for a fleeting moment, over giving up a small bit of music and even my dreams if asked.

To sum up: fulfillment is found in Jesus Christ and nothing else. All else = less than nothing. You aren't missing anything if you have him no matter what the whole rest of the world says and you are missing everything without Him.

]]> ~omoimasuyo music and transformation http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/11286655/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/11286655/ Tue, 02 Jan 2007 10:30:11 PST
I'm going to give you a few minutes to groan. Go ahead, I'll wait...

*waits*

...

...

...

Okay, now that we have that out of the way, I will tell you my story and you can all feel free to go wherever from there.

For a while, when I became a Christian, I tried to keep my mind on God as much as possible and since most of what is in my ear is music, I had to be the most guarded about that. That being said, I got myself some Audio Adrenaline and WoW CDs for a start and went from there. I found a lot of things I liked and that made me happy for a while.

Then it became an issue. I still liked Dave Matthews (well, some), Louis Armstrong and Scott Joplin. I started falling in love with the japanese language, and hence, Jpop (japanese pop music). For a solid year and a half, my standby became cartoon opening and closing themes (ask anyone who has listened to what I listen to).

Then some issues started to occur. These actually weren't related at all to what I was listening to. The songs I listened to (in japanese) were all about love, life, finding meaning in the world, having fun, moving on toward the unknown future, etc.

Most music is like that, actually.

I bet you thought I was going to say, "but I found out that all secular music is bad and should never be listened to..." or some other nonsense like that.

No, not quite.

Last week, I was sitting in front of my computer and I felt that I should take all the jpop and other "non-Christian" music off of my computer for some indefinite period of time. As far as I know, that may be permanent. My mind rose up and argued the whole time. I mumbled, "I don't understand this, God. This isn't bad music. Nothing is wrong with it. It's not blasphemous. No cursing in it at all. No sexual overtones. None of that. I have been careful to avoid it and still You tell me that this has to go. It doesn't make sense..."

Then God interrupted my thoughts with a thought. It's not about good or evil, right or wrong, moral or immoral. It's about influence. I just needed more of His word in my ear, not less "bad music". Actually, His instructions were quite clear. "If it doesn't influence you for me right now, then away with it." That cleared up the whole matter for me. It really wasn't about the idea that one type of music was better than another. It was about obeying Him with my music because I love Him.

And that is where things get hard.

I have friends that don't have these instructions. They may play secular music of varying kinds. I can't tell them "You can't listen to this music around me" and I can't say "If you listen to this music, I can't be around you" either. That wouldn't be correct.

It is at this moment that the voice of the Holy Spirit becomes alive. Here's why: He gives every believer different specifics. By that I mean, in the case of music, that it is an area of faith and everyone has to hear God for themselves. There are obvious biblical guidelines, but outside of those, I can't make you obey a revelation that God gave to me in my living room by calling it "the Gospel". That's bondage. It's freedom to me right now, however. Two days later, I'm in a much happier mood (much to the delight of many I'm sure) and things just seem to be "clickin' along" so to speak. Again, please note, the issue isn't the music I listen or (now) don't listen to, but obedience to God.

Romans 14:23 makes this clear: "All that is not of faith is sin."

And here come the bible scholars: "How about the context there, buddy?"

Let's review. Paul is addressing an issue in the Roman church that occurred because someone has complained that the believers are eating meat and they felt that this was wrong. Not all of the believers felt that way. They felt that they were free in the Lord to pray over their meat, thanking the Lord, and move on without shame. What Paul says to them is that neither is wrong at all, but we should all just be considerate of one another's convictions. Not to say that we should take someone else's convictions as our own without God revealing things to us, but that we should be sensitive enough to say "This person has issues with Christians eating meat, so for the sake of their faith, I will not eat meat around them."

That being said, I'm afraid that people without my revelation (which you cannot have without my experience) will either (1) feel that I am judging them or (2) judge me. The first will occur because I may have issues with a song they are listening to and ask them to change it. This isn't because I don't like them or their music, but because I really want to be free... ]]> ~omoimasuyo inventory '06 http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/11215270/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/11215270/ Wed, 27 Dec 2006 19:30:27 PST
Here we go.

How am I doing with God? He's talking, but it seems harder than ever to listen and even harder to obey. Obedience, which was once pure and simple, is now clouded with thoughts and circumstances and "hows". I can't imagine that this is good for me, but I don't know how to change it.

That is to say, God has all of these big dreams for me and all I can see are my limitations which fall into two categories: many and obvious. He seems to see past all of that, but I can't right now. I can't see how He can use me when I don't have a job, a car, or enough of anything to get either of those.

Let's go to our next item: the Word. What I have stored in my memories hasn't faded because the things I memorized are the things I apply constantly. That's not a problem. The problem however is spending time with the text. Mind you, the text is not God, but God has allowed us to have this text. I should read it more. Part of the problem is simply creating time. I just have so many other things to do. At the same time, let me not make excuses of any kind. Point blank issue, really. Just sit down and read the text.

Next would be prayer. Most of my prayer has become several intermittent cries for help and relief. "I'm lost, God." "I don't know what I'm doing, God." "I don't know how to be this alien you want me to be, God." "I want to be who you want me to be, but I don't know how, God." "How the heck am I supposed to do what you want me to do when I don't have anything, God?" "God, just let me believe, for once, that this relationship with other people thing is worth it because I don't know how to believe that on my own anymore." Things like that. It's becoming harder everyday to not just flat beg God to just make me feel good all the time instead of making me a better person who loves His will no matter what it is. That much, however, I have managed to hold on to and I am proud of that (as proud as I could be that God is keeping me from falling apart).

Bitterness. A friend of mine said that I was full of bitterness and invalidating people this past weekend. I don't know whether that was because she was mad at me or annoyed or whatever. That really hurt and I had to leave the house for a few hours. I'm sure she thought I blew her off, but I actually prayed about what she said and asked God His thoughts on the matter. Since then, I have been seriously looking at the root of bitterness in my own life to see if it is there. I think there may be enough truth to warrant an honest examination of that idea. I don't like it because I'm afraid I've already found some.

I look back on the person I used to be five years ago and I see many places where it seems like I have fallen for miles. I almost have to look up to where I was five years ago just to get an idea of who I should aim to become and the worst part is that that person back there doesn't even get the half of it.

I still think about him, that is, that person that I was then. I wonder what happened to him. His love. His purity.

Let's look at what I have become in the last year or so (which means that this has been a lot longer in process)...

- angry
- bitter (at least in some ways if not all of them)
- harsh

I'm simply not the happy person (if I was that) that I used to be. I miss being that oversensitive person who hugged everyone he could see and had to learn to restrain his love because it was so hard to contain. I miss being the person who couldn't think of anything better to do with his friends than break into prayer rooms and pray for hours. I miss a lot of things.

It's not that God likes me less or desires me less. It's not that I want to be with Him or desire Him less. It's just that I have become harder. There is a shell there that wasn't there so long ago and now I have to fight everyday to escape it just for a few hours so I can breathe air as myself only to go to sleep and have to fight this process all over again.

I spend a lot of time these days, laying on the floor in my room and crying because I just don't know what else to do and I'm tired of that. I'm tired of a lot of things and I can't solve it by leaving everyone or ceasing to exist, so I am at a loss for solutions.

That's the inventory for '06. Hopefully now I can prepare you for 2007. I am going to tell you this much, whatever that year looks like, it will reek of freedom in Jesus.

Bet on it.

And I wish the same for you. I'm not the only one hurting like this. I'm not the only one who wants to be free. Not to just escape, but to conquer, too. We've taken hard hits... ]]> ~omoimasuyo so here's the latest http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/11210002/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/11210002/ Wed, 27 Dec 2006 10:37:12 PST
Rules:
First, the tagger (HAHAHAHAHAHA) says 6 habits/things about themself.
Next, the tagger (HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA) picks 6 other people to tag and lists them on the their journal.
Then, those picked 6 people need to do a journal entry explaining the rules clearly and do 6 habits/things about themselves, too.

1. I'm sad

2. I like oreos

3. I strongly dislike oatmeal cookies.

4. Joey likes oatmeal cookies. That doesn't say much about myself. That is because I tend to avoid saying much about myself to anyone.

5. I like to journal more than talk

6. I like japanese

have fun

]]> ~omoimasuyo six things you ought to know.... http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/11110317/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/11110317/ Mon, 18 Dec 2006 20:55:10 PST The tagger must List 6 habits or things about themself.
The tagger must list 6 other people in the their journal entry to tag.
Those picked 6 people need to do a journal entry explaining the rules clearly and then list 6 habits or things about themselves.

My 6 are as Follows:

1. I like tea a little more than coffee.

2. I shop on clearance for over 90% of my stuff.

3. I like blankets.

4. I had mentioned to God one day that I would love for weather to be in the 75-82 range all year long.

5. Today, on December 18th, it was 74 degrees at 11am, so I can't even imagine how warm it will get. Winter officially starts in a few days.

6. I love double white chocolate mocha from starbucks.

For my six people:

Anyone who is reading this line right now. ( I suppose I will be the exception that will prove the rule)

Have Fun

]]> ~omoimasuyo the secret.... http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/11099588/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/11099588/ Sun, 17 Dec 2006 21:38:14 PST
In any case, the series of poems I just posted is the result of a night when that gift was in use. In my own home no less.

Just so you know, be encouraged: God makes house calls.

In any case, those words that you read are inspired by the Holy Ghost himself and no one or nothing else. That being said, reading those words are powerful things. Even speaking aloud has the potential to alter your life. You have been aptly warned.

That being said: READ.

]]> ~omoimasuyo have you ever wondered... http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/11079600/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/11079600/ Sat, 16 Dec 2006 02:14:06 PST
For the record, I have no intention of translating a single word now or later unless it constitutes an emergency (and I mean an actual emergency).

I want a job. I really want a job. However, I don't want to work. I just want significance and part of being significant is changing something. If you don't believe me, ask Adam. Even he was given work to do and there is a great difference between work and toil. I want to be able to bring in income so that no matter where I am or where I go, there is never a money problem. I'm talking a lot of money. So much money that people hate me. Not because I want to be hated, but because I want to have the kind of money that is unpopular to have. That is to say, I want to be filthy, stinkin' rich. I should never have to walk up to someone in need and not be able to put something in their hand. I should never hear about a friend struggling with a financial problem and not be able to help them. I should never have to see someone without and not be able to help. Daggone it, I want the dough to do that. And I won't stop there, either. I want to teach people to be the kind of rich that I am, too. All over the world. Money coming out of their ears. So much so that they have to give it away just to make room for the money coming in.

Tengo un forum a ese website: [link] Todas las personas deben visitar mi website porque es bueno ^.^ Seriamente, hay muchas cosas hacer alla.

At the same time, I am trying to develop a story at the forum and it's hard. I want to call all the members back to it, but they are preoccupied with life and all that. It's too much to expect them to drop everything and go or expect them to visit and share a little or contribute a little something there everyday, but I have so many things in place already. A spanish area, a french area, a sanodian area, DWTK, and a bunch of other things to do. It's so sad to need so much for a story and not know who to ask. I don't want to ask people who are a part of five forums already; too much on their plate. I also want a more Christian atmosphere than most. I don't know...

Tonikaku, ima chatto shite yo kedo boku wa sabishii. Subete no boku no tomodachi wa nete'ru yo. boku no ie wa shizuka na. ima, ongaku wo kiiteiruyo. romaji de kaite'ruyo. naze? wakarinikui, ne? sa.... keizoku suru hazu da yo ne? demo, mada tsumaranai yo. kanashii ne? sugu, shindai ni iku beki da kedo netakuarimasen. ãã®åã¯æåããããããªãå¤§å¥½ããï¼æ¥æ¬èªã¯é£ããã§ããã©æ¥½ãããã

Aussi, j'ai besoin d'entender Dieu. Serieusement, Il m'a dit "Tu es etrange parce que je t'ai fait a cette maniere", mais je ne sais pas comment etre "etrange"... C'est plein de dificulte et je ne veux pas oublier les choses importantes. C'est tres importante - pour moi - faire les choses que Dieu veut me faire, mais si je ne sais point, je ne peux point le faire. Je suis un peu confuse, mais je crois que Dieu aidera moi...

I am a foreign language freak and I love it. Every minute and second and I wish everyone in the world were, but at this point, I have lost half of my readers because of the amount of un-understandable languages. I don''t care at this point because I'm in my world and in my world people love this kind of stuff and they are passionate about using it every chance they have.

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This french samba here is very pleasing to my ear. John sleeps in the room next to me, and him being here was very cool. The Protector (featuring Tony Jaa) was very entertaining. Not for the faint of heart, though. I have never seen so many people get their bones broken in one movie. The guy is a talented fighter. Don't mess with his elephant. A Thai movie, in Thai, and with no subtitles. What bliss! Seriously, I loved every minute of it and I couldn't understand a word! However, John did not find my idea for cartoon viewing (a few eps of Hunter x Hunter) at all interesting. Not even a little. I found almost every moment funny and with that, Joey and Kelly, who were also watching fell asleep on the couch. Soon, everyone went to bed, but because I have a very regular pattern of irregular sleep, well, guess what state I'm in. That's right: awake.

5:02 freakin' AM. Why am I still up? Oh yeah, making buttons.

I have so many thi... ]]> ~omoimasuyo new entry http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/11078522/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/11078522/ Fri, 15 Dec 2006 22:40:09 PST
There need to be at least half of the lines from your poem in the picture.

If you read this, you are tagged to take the challenge.

Post this and tag others.

]]> ~omoimasuyo Devious Journal Entry http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/11075013/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/11075013/ Fri, 15 Dec 2006 16:14:59 PST

Rules:
First, the tagger (HAHAHAHAHAHA) says 6 habits/things about themself.
Next, the tagger (HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA) picks 6 other people to tag and lists them on the their journal.
Then, those picked 6 people need to do a journal entry explaining the rules clearly and do 6 habits/things about themselves, too.

okay... here i go...

1. I hate English. Really. It's my least favorite language mostly because of the people who speak

2. I don't think I'm a good artist most of the time and I'm a closet linux fan

3. I am a Christian and the crazy kind, too.

4. If I could find a place that English wasn't necessarily, I wouldn't speak english at all.

5. I wish Kelly would speak more foreign languages with me, but it would be horribly inconvient for everyone else involved

6. I have wanted to watch Hunter x Hunter for the last three weeks

okay, and now for my six people:

nothinghere2hurt, gazoogleheimer, compu-geek, volvointimidator, prilblume,

I don't know how to make the icons appear, but I'll figure it out soon I'm sure....

]]> ~omoimasuyo I will not.... http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/11063308/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/11063308/ Thu, 14 Dec 2006 14:53:20 PST
]]> ~omoimasuyo the new me... really http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/10931931/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/10931931/ Sun, 03 Dec 2006 02:21:56 PST [link] and ask you to read the following entries:

- to clear a few things up....
- Community
- for want of a father's voice
- a few things...

That being said, here's the good news!

I told you it was coming and it's here!!!!!!!!

So I was in the living room tonight and Kelly came home from the conference to which she went this weekend. Coming in, she said it was absolutely wonderful and afterward, she said "We need to pray."

So we were standing in the living room, listening to Jason Upton. As the song played in the background, we started to pray - some in English, some not.

As the praying continued, I started to see images. I suddenly needed paper and lots of it and I started writing... and writing... and writing.... and writing. The fact that I was writing during prayer isn't abnormal; I do that all the time. The fact that I was writing an interpretation to what was being prayed, however, is a different matter.

This continued for as long as people were speaking in tongues. No lie, I have about ten pages sitting on my desk. Every page was confirmed. Hey John (Leviner), remember when you said you were looking forward to a breakthrough for me? Thanks for looking! The first words that came to me were, "Breakthrough is coming!" Not just once, but many times.

And come it did!

I was the last person prayed for and when it did come to me, it was utter madness. More than that, though, I was revealed! It didn't start there, but it unfolded a little more.

My calling is.... unknown to anyone. No one has ever done it. I'm a complete alien and I love that right now! I'm just called to do what I know to do no matter how crazy it looks. That sounds like basic "being a fool for Jesus" type stuff, but seriously, the things I am asked to do are very odd at times.

For an example, I have the gift of interpretation. I have kept that in the shadows long enough. So there, now you have it and I am glad to have that out of me. It wasn't something I needed to keep under wraps anyway. That being said, this gift came into play tonight, but in an odd way. The words were abstract, in a poetic format, and written down instead of spoken aloud. It's just not normal, and for most people quite uncomfortable, but it happens to me.

Not only that, but after that, I got more instructions. I am up writing because I couldn't sleep and that was because I was compelled (no, I mean I could not go to sleep because of this) to write this email to someone to whom I made a promise long ago. This is crazy. Who just writes random notes.

There are a few things that I feel along these lines. I get random messages, but don't know for whom they are, but I'm tired of wondering who the message is for and I'm not going to be afraid anymore, so expect - I repeat, expect - to see random messages appearing on myspace in these blogs or bulletins with just all manner of craziness on them. I'm so glad that I am starting to make some headway.

The hard part will be continuing to live out what God has expressly told me to walk in tonight, but after the taste I have had, I want more, don't you?

So this is it, the beginning of me... and an ending.

To explain that, I need to talk about my journal. Anyone who knows me knows that my journal is attached to me almost always. Tonight, God told me to throw it away. I was mortified. He wanted me to get a new one. Just like that. When I started to protest because the remaining pages weren't written on, He told me that dead men don't write journals and that I didn't need to complete something that was already finished.

TAKE THAT TO THE BANK AND CASH IT!

This particular storm of my life is coming to a close and new chapters are coming. The title of my old journal was "Illuminated Shade". I think the new title will be "Shaken and Stirred". I just feel that more now than ever.

How about you?

]]> ~omoimasuyo a little info http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/10919617/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/10919617/ Fri, 01 Dec 2006 23:27:16 PST
I always know and I usually find out.

There are many things that I find out. Information I come across. Most of it, I don't intend to find and do not seek in any way, but it comes to me every moment of the day. A feeling, a whisper in the wind, the off moments that I hear someone speaking about who (1) doesn't know who I am, (2) doesn't know I am there or (3) doesn't know I know you. Even internet history. I check your myspaces and blogs and find comments and all manner of craziness. Truth comes out when I walk into a room and people who are normally very tight-lipped about certain things feel free to volunteer all manner of info to me because they believe that I will not tell any of it.

And I won't.

But it hurts to know that I know so many things about people. So many questions I want to ask about the veracity of information and the amount of frequency in which it occurs, how long it's been going on. Not because I need to know it, but because I want to have the chance to let me into who you really are and what's going on in your life. I'm not ignorant to how many of my friends came out of a closet or walked into one or had alcohol and how many cups or bottles. I love you anyway in spite of all of this knowledge and the sad thing is, you are living under the lie that I don't know and it's not possible for me to find out.

I usually do. Maybe a feeling before or during or someone telling me after. Every blade of grass is my ear and every tree my eye. I just wish you could stop pretending long enough to see that I already know.

I would also like to add that I hate when people ask what I think or how I feel for the sake of satisfying their own curiosity. That makes me very mad. It hurts to know that the only thing my feelings count for is extra accumulated information.

]]> ~omoimasuyo treasure trove http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/10723347/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/10723347/ Tue, 14 Nov 2006 13:13:52 PST
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Enjoy!

]]> ~omoimasuyo the plan http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/10674183/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/10674183/ Thu, 09 Nov 2006 22:13:41 PST
1. I am going to go to bed tonight
2. I will not get out of it tomorrow
3. I will not care about who has what to say about it
4. I will get out of bed on Saturday (maybe)

The only disruptions to this right now that are foreseeable are a trip to NC that requires leaving tomorrow. Other than that, there isn't a chance in hades.

Goodbye, world.

]]> ~omoimasuyo a few reflections http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/10629949/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/10629949/ Sun, 05 Nov 2006 20:31:01 PST
The first thing is my lifestyle. I am very committed to it. I have chosen it and, whatever or whomever it may cost me, I will stick to it because it serves me well. Through making the choice I have made, I have found love, friends, and the strength to do the right thing when no one else wants to join me no matter how it looks. To be honest, I have suffered much pain pursuing this lifestyle; that is, the lifestyle of a Christian. I have written many blogs in the heat of many emotional moments, trying to make sense of what I feel and wanting to communicate to others where I am in my mental/emotional life. All that being said, in spite of everything, I can say this about my life:

I have not truly ever had a moment that I can say I regret.

I have wanted, at times, to have done something differently in hindsight. I may have wanted to avoid a bit of pain here or there and I have certainly wanted to feel okay with crumbling under the pressures I face,. However, I haven't allowed those things. I'm far from perfect or even "okay", but I am not sorry that I am where I am in my life. I'm sure I would have picked a different road many a time, but all in all, my life is a positive one and living that life has cost me many things. Mind you, in comparison to what I have gained, the cost is meager and petty - hardly worth a mention no matter what I feel I have lost.

I still spend each and every day trying to handle things. Figure stuff out. Make sense of life as a whole. I have a wonderful Guide, but often feel confused. As of late, I've been seeking identity. Maybe no one else understands that process, but it has become my every thought as of late. I wrote a journal entry that would make the masses weep as I tried to ask God some of the simple and basic questions about who I am and what I have become in the process of our journey together.

To sum up:

Yeah, I have been through things. A lot of things. Things I would have liked to avoid in many cases. Yeah, many people have been through hard things, too. But when it comes down to the core of the matter - when the depression comes and the questions pound my mind wave after wave and I know that no one else knows what I think or how I feel and that I and I alone will have to look in the mirror and deal with the way my life has gone up until now - I can say with confidence (and all humility):

I have no regrets and I wouldn't change anything. Not one bit.

]]> ~omoimasuyo upcoming events http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/10543218/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/10543218/ Sun, 29 Oct 2006 00:46:20 PDT
With my life in the shambles that it is, expect some poetry. It will have a dark tint to it, but it should be mostly reflective.

I may be moving soon, so for that certain someone who has my mailing address, you may want to send me a note requesting the new address.

]]> ~omoimasuyo exposure - part one http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/10516518/ http://omoimasuyo.deviantart.com/journal/10516518/ Thu, 26 Oct 2006 11:44:25 PDT
I am not doing this because I want to make anyone feel bad or single anyone out. I am writing this because I need and want help and to walk in the light that is Jesus Christ. The light of Jesus shines best in proper relationship with those who are His and I can't have that with you if I keep living in this darkness. It's only a little shade to be honest, but any shade is bad when the Son is out.

That preface being over, I am going to dive into this bit of exposure. If you find yourself in this, let me (and whomever else God sends) help you. That's all I want and to have that - and my own freedom - would be contentment enough for me.

I am a deceiver. I wouldn't have said this a year or so ago, but I have been allowing myself to deal with things as they are this week, without explaining them and through that, I have come to the conclusion that I am a deceiver. I would have said liar, but these aren't outright lies. My problem is that I simply obscure truth. Of course under the pretense/presumption/pre-reasoning of protecting myself from people who might potentially hurt me otherwise.

Let me use an example I used with some other friends the other night. Hopefully, it will help you. Italics are my thoughts that I don't say.

[I see someone I know]

Me: "Hey, Mark."

Mark: "Hey, Marquis. How are you?"

Me: "I'm not especially okay right now, but I will be. How are you?" I'm dying on the inside. I feel entirely lonely today. I had a fight with my girlfriend. My friends won't email me. I feel like I am fighting life entirely alone and no one knows how that feels. I wish I could talk to someone about it, but I can't trust anyone but God. It's hard for me to open up right now, but I might if I could get myself to believe someone cared. Please care.

Mark: "I'm sorry to hear that. I'm okay."

Me: "What have you been up to exactly?" I really am interested, genuinely interested in your life. I wonder if you are as interested in mine. Oh well, I will let you talk. Maybe this will get my mind of things for a while. Just this little bit of relief will be enough to get me through another hour.

Mark: [insert brief blurb here]

Me: "That's cool. Hopefully, I'll run into you again sometime." If I don't run into Highway 29 and jump in front of a car. I can't tell you that though, too many consequences that I'm not prepared for. Besides, I'm too chicken to hurt myself. I should get him to pray for me, but we're about to go.

Mark: "Talk to you later, Marquis."

[We part ways]

Here is where the deception lies: I'm not okay and I said so. I will eventually be okay, that's a factual statement. But the facts were given in such a way that you have the information you asked for without actually getting to "touch" me, as it were. It happens to everyone. Everyone has free access to all of the information I have about my life without actually touching me because, in all honesty, I'm too fearful of too many things to let you do that. Again, I haven't lied. This is how I justify this set of mental/emotional gymnastics. We call it "guarding our heart" or whatever, but in the end, it's deception. It might be something else if everyone in my life weren't subject to this barrier there.

But wait! I haven't given you the second example. This example is for the people who are closest to me and who care about me.

[talking to someone who I know cares]

Kelly: "Hey, Marquis. How are you?"

Me: "I'm not okay, to be honest."

Kelly: "What's wrong?"

Me: "I don't want to talk about that right now." Honestly I don't want to talk about that right now. I'm sure you have enough problems of your own, anyway. When do you get to talk to someone about those? I don't need to burden you with all of this stuff going on with me. It's minor, really. More than likely, I'm just overreacting. I'll probably tell you that, but it's still a pretty big deal to me. It's just not as big as your deal for me to want to bring it up.

Kelly: "I really wish you would talk to me. I'm your friend and I don't want you to be afraid to say anything you have to say to me."

Me: "It's not that. It's just..." I wish I could make you understand. I just can't talk to you. I'll talk too much because I feel like everything in the world is wrong. I want to cry, to be honest with you, but then you'll ask why and I don't want to talk about that right now either. I wish I could just ignore all these stupid inhibitions and just tell you what the heck is wrong with me..."

Kelly: "If you want to talk, you can." Marquis, dang it! I know something's wrong. Just talk to me already. I wouldn't have said what... ]]> ~omoimasuyo