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RULES:
1. Choose a few of your own characters. Five at the most.
2. Make them answer the following questions.
3. Then tag three people.
4. Feel free to go ahead and add some question yourself!!

CHARACTERS:
Me: Hey
Jake Ryans: Yo!

Who/What are you?
Me: A human.
Jake: I'm a playa.

WANT A HUG?
Me: Always can appreciate one thats for sure.
Jake: Of course, with a little extra from myself.

You got any bad habits??
Me: I suppose I'm too trusting.
Jake: Well yea, that's how you got slamed so many times
Me: ...you're one to talk...
Jake: There is no flaws in perfection bro.
Me: *cough* Ego >>

Are you a boy or a girl??
Me: Guy
Jake: All man baby.

Do you have any brothers or sisters?
Me: I have two brothers..
Jake: Same as me. And it seems like they followed my footsteps ha!
Me: Yeah and now they both are arrogant and are likely to fail at life.
Jake: Hey I only gave them the tools. They just didn't run with them the right way.

Are you a virgin?
Me: No...suprisingly o_O
Jake: Well it's all thanks to me.
Me: You're saying if not for you I'd still be untouched?
Jake: Bro, if it was up to you to make the moves, you'd still be living with your parents.
Me: Jake...I'm not exactly overflowing with cash.
Jake: Well...thats what you get for listening to your heart and not your brain. *shakes head*

Who's your crush/mate/spouse?
Me: Don't have one right now. Taking it slow.
Jake: And it's killing me. I want some ladies.
Me: Jake, do you have any idea how much your thoughts have caused our current situation.
Jake: Man, if it was up me to we'd be hanging out in some clubs. Leave your whiney ass back home and let me do the talking and choice making.
Me: Why does that make me want to throw up just thinking about it?

Do you have any kids?
Me: Nope. Not prepared at all.
Jake: Leave me out of that discussion when it comes. Kids are not for me.
Me: Well I do notice your absense when I am around little kids. Are you scared?
Jake: Hell yea. You should be too. Just imagine your life now as bad as it is without a woman, and add a constant yelling noise. Who would want that?
Me: Jake, I'm glad to know that once I have a kid, you'll be long gone.
Jake: That's cold man...real cold...

What's your favorite food?
Me: Chicken.
Jake: *muffled*
Me: Don't even think about it.
Jake: <_<

Do you hate/dislike anyone?
Me: I hate parents who don't treat kids like kids. Other than that no not at all.
Jake: I hate you Cody.
Me: o_O
Jake: Nah just messin'.

Do you love anyone?
Me: I love my friends and family.
Jake: I love the ladies. And thanks to this goody two shoes, I can't be with the ones I love.
Me: Jake, would you rather have sex with everyone and run the risk of getting bored with it?
Jake: How do you get bored of sex?
Me: ...
Jake: Ah, you haven't found that one kinky one yet. That's why I should be...
Me: No and no. You are going to stay put.

What is your job?
Me: Hopefully I get one soon.
Jake: No matter what job Cody has, I have to work at the suckiest job imagined.
Me: What could be worse than doing some of things I have?
Jake: It's my job to keep this weak SoB strong and make him stand up for himself. Can't do it on his own so once he's pushed into a corner, out I come.
Me: Which, as you can imagine, I try to keep it to a minimum.
Jake: You need to get into a few scuffles.
Me: And you need to not be so arrogant. Where were you when I needed you the most?
Jake: I didn't say I would always pick up your slack.
Me: Useless...

What do you do to relax?
Me: I play guitar and read and get online.
Jake: Who can relax with all those girls out there, while I'm stuck indoors all the time.
Me: If you have any ideas on what to do..
Jake: As a matter of fact..
Me: BESIDES stalking women, you let me know.
Jake: Bro, you seriously are no fun you know that?

There's a person who's teasing you, what would you do?
Jake: I'll take this one. Cody usually just sits there and takes it, turns around, and walks away.
Me: Yea so whats the problem with that?
Jake: How much money have you made?
Me: What do you mean?
Jake: Well you've been everyone's door mat for a long time...I figured..
Me: There is nothing weak about being a bigger person. I'd rather not be a punching bag.
Jake: Pff...I could take them on.
Me: Yea tough guy. I saw a whole lot of nothing the past year to back that up.
Jake: You held me back. ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/19739191/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/19739191/ Sat, 02 Aug 2008 16:49:18 PDT
Why change it you ask? Well, the name really doesn't mean anything to me anymore. There really is no meaning behind it. That's not to say I hate it. I've made some good friends through this account. Namely His Royal Raveness, and I've been able to keep up with other friends too, like Katashi, my sisters Shanin and Sable, and others.

And right now I need my friends to help me decide a new name. I think Katashi would say something in the Panku category would be suffice. But honestly...any suggestion would be ok.

I don't think I'm gonna wait til November to switch over either. Maybe I'll do it when my b-day rolls around. (Aug 15! 23 Years Old!)

No updates on me though..just wanted to get this out. Please, help a bro out here guys!

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/19544911/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/19544911/ Tue, 22 Jul 2008 20:59:11 PDT
Lol ok, all overestimating aside, this movie was really good. And the best part about it all is that not one character steals the show. Everyone in the movie was great. I don't want to give away the whole plot, but let's just say Joker is a badass and doesn't pull any punches.

I feel like I'm finally getting back on my feet here. Still haven't found a job, but this town is good about helping those in need of it. Still have a roof over my head and getting food in my stomach. Can't ask for much more than that. Just need a job now.

Not much more to update than that. May be publishing some poems and songs soon. I feel creative ^_^

On a side note, Cure, thanks again for answering some questions last night. Gave me a great big smile.

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/19426119/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/19426119/ Wed, 16 Jul 2008 10:48:32 PDT
I've been missing a lot of you guys in B-Ville and really want to visit but money has been a big problem. Wal-Mart shafted me a week ago and I'm currently looking for another source of income. Thought about whoring myself out, but that'd be too easy I suppose lol.

Just want to let you all know I love you guys. Who knows what the future holds for me.

My b-day is coming up really soon, and I'll be a big 23. Whoo...hoo? o_O

As a side note...Vicki and Sable and Shannin...I finally finished all 8 seasons on Red Dwarf...HAHAHA and it was all smegging great!

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/18838293/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/18838293/ Sat, 14 Jun 2008 12:59:18 PDT
That song is made by a band called The Cure. There is someone on DA here who goes by the name Cure. My sis.

Today is her birthday! So go on to her page and wish her one!



Love ya sis!

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/18659747/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/18659747/ Wed, 04 Jun 2008 10:17:00 PDT
Surprisingly, the only thing these hackers did were post a journal. So in that response....I AM GOOD WITH COMPUTERS!!! ^_^

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/18532836/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/18532836/ Tue, 27 May 2008 18:41:33 PDT
Music has always been like that for me. When I moved to Arkansas after living in Kansas for my childhood, I starting my transformation into rock. Korn was at the forefront of this. Hearing songs like Freak On a Leash, It's On, Dirty, etc...all songs were just pure enjoyment. I didn't like all of them at first though, not until I started looking for the deeper meanings. I wasn't happy about moving. However, to quote a line from Reclaim My Place by Korn "All I hear is disgrace. Erase them all and reclaim my place," I had to learn to let go of my depression. I had to reclaim who I was, and who I was meant to be. Another quote from Korn, this time from Beg For Me "Who gives a fuck if my life sucks? I just know one thing, I won't give up."

Music has been my way of life for a long time now. I've expanded to different genres, and in turn different stories being told. I've been through many things in my life, good and bad. Music has been there every step of the way. Nowadays I hear storied of overcoming death and despair to complete your destiny. Other stories include realizing that some people can't be trusted. Bands I hold dear are Adema, Korn, Alice in Chains, Soul Asylum, Creed, Aerosmith, Staind, and many others for helping me deal with certain parts of my past. If not for them, I couldn't enjoy what I have now. Bands like The Used, Coheed and Cambria, 30 Seconds to Mars, Chiodos, and others now take up a lot of my musical space. And thankfully a lot of their songs are there for my enjoyment, as now I can take in their lyrics in stride, instead of relying on them for my release.

Who knows what music holds in store for me in the future? I always seek out new sounds. Celldweller has been one on my list. They are like NIN and Fear Factory into one.

Well, enough about all that. Time to go.

Cody

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/18440996/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/18440996/ Thu, 22 May 2008 02:20:15 PDT
I've been able to talk to a few of you since the move. I miss you all and hope I can come visit within the next month.

In June Kelsi and Tisha will be visiting. I can't wait since I've been really needing some affection and you can't get that over the phone. It should be a fun time.

Money wise everything is going to hell. My credit is taking a beating and I'm scrounging around as it is. Living off of Ramen and bread and water. It's not too bad, but trust me when I say that when I start making more money I will be indulging myself.

I love all you guys.

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/18133454/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/18133454/ Fri, 02 May 2008 13:30:03 PDT
Ta-ta for now!

People I want to give a shout out to:

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/18101333/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/18101333/ Wed, 30 Apr 2008 12:45:19 PDT
You read that right. Three days.

Seems we aren't clean enough for the folks here at Silverwood. They come in, see a few bugs (mind you, everyone has them this time of the year), and not 5 minutes afterwards, BOOM, get out of here pal!

So we'll be leaving on Saturday to go to my moms house and kiss Paragould goodbye. It sucks because I was already feeling bad about leaving, and that was going to be at the end of May.

I won't be online for a few weeks until me and Kelsi get settled in Missouri, so if you have a phone # and care enough to leave it for me, send me a note with it so I can keep you all updated.

Tis all for now. Hope to be back on real soon.

People I want to give a shout out to:

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/18038893/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/18038893/ Sat, 26 Apr 2008 13:08:56 PDT
The past few days have been littered with suck lately. As you may or may not know, I work as an unloader for Wal-Mart. Well, we've lost about 4 people out of our 9 man crew. What that translates to is a harder work load for the people remaining. I've gotten over 3 hours overtime for the last week alone, and looks like I'll be topping that this week with 2 hours over time from the start! It sucks but the people who got fired are to blame. I'm about to be leaving the crew too because of the move, so I feel kind of bad about it lol.

I've been working on making music a lot more lately, which you can all have a listen to at [link] I'm terrible at vocals and lyrics so I'm sticking to the music. Hopefully some band would like me to provide guitar for them. Or better yet, maybe someone would like to do vocals for me?

I do have a simple request for anyone who cares to lend a hand. I've been wanting to listen to some good female fronted rock bands. I've heard the main ones already (paramore, evenesence, flyleaf, ect.) so if you guys know anymore I'd love to give them a try.

Until next time!

People I want to give a shout out to:

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/18007534/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/18007534/ Thu, 24 Apr 2008 13:28:10 PDT
As for today's update, I just want everyone to know that I will be moving to Missouri in May (near the end actually) so I will be left without interwebz for a while. It may only last a week or so.

In other news, I want to pimp a few bands I've been listening to in hopes of getting them a bigger fan base: Protest the Hero, Receiving End of Sirens, and Rush. Listen to them! Embrace them! Ect! <_<

In some other news, Kelsi's B-day was yesterday. I'm a day late in announcing this I know, but go on ahead and go to her page and wish her a happy B-day!

That is all for now!

People I want to give a shout out to:

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/17889847/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/17889847/ Thu, 17 Apr 2008 01:33:24 PDT
I will also be cleaning up my deviations, and resubmitting a few I like.

As for journals, I will be keeping them. Expect more in the future and one dedicated to all the quotes I have made.

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/15432546/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/15432546/ Fri, 09 Nov 2007 10:21:18 PST
After I get back I'll do a larger journal.

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/15397058/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/15397058/ Tue, 06 Nov 2007 18:56:24 PST Every thing you need to know about the contest ---> [link]

Received photos from:



Still waiting on:




Wondering about:


If i have forgotten anyone or if you have sent ur photo and your icon is not under received comment on this journal or send me a note.

* reminder if you are not adding the photo on da you can send it to my email address @ d2ua@gmail.com
2 days left please get the photos sent

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/15373147/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/15373147/ Mon, 05 Nov 2007 07:42:28 PST Remember, remember the Fifth of November,
The Gunpowder Treason and Plot,
I know of no reason
Why Gunpowder Treason
Should ever be forgot.

Still an awesome movie. I need to see it again.

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/15246409/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/15246409/ Sat, 27 Oct 2007 16:38:19 PDT
*Halloween Contest*
..........................

My girlfriend and I are holding a Halloween Contest in hopes of getting more people interested in DA.


How to enter:
...................
Take a picture of you in your Halloween costume.
Post it on DA and send it in a note to me or email your photo to me @ death2usall@gmail.com.


Rules:
.........

There must be at lest 6 people to enter or the contest will be off.
If you have more then one costume for Halloween you must pick only one to submit.
For deviant members only
All submissions are due the 7th of November
If you are sending your submission to my email address please include a link to your DA page. Those who don't include a link will not be considered for the contest.
If you will be joining in on the contest please comment in this journal so I can get a good idea of how many ppl will be submiting.
Every one must follow all DA rules

Prizes:
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1st place 3 month subscription to DA from us
Every one who enters will get recognized in a journal.

Judges:
............


Other:
.......
Good luck to every one I will send notes out to remind all of you. I know most of you are busy! I will announce the winner on the 8th of November!
-DG19
Note: This contest is not only for my watchers. So welcome random deviants!

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/15114602/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/15114602/ Thu, 18 Oct 2007 11:52:11 PDT
Being back in B-Ville was so much fun. Hanging out with my friends never gets old either. I got so many hugs (and made people give Kelsi some as well!) and it sucked having to leave. I prome to visit again soon!

I think in my next journal I will review the new Coheed album. I have heard it all! And what do I think of it? Stay tuned all you people on the"fence"!

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "Honestly, everyone lives forever. Through memories."

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/15050287/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/15050287/ Sat, 13 Oct 2007 21:35:18 PDT
Hope to see everyone!!!

LOVE LOVELOVEL OVE LO VE KESLI

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Well...another 2 weeks...another journal. How is everyone doing on this side of Arkansas? Oh wait...I dunno anyone on this side haha.

How is everyone doing on THAT side of Arkansas? Definitely miss you guys a lot. I really wish I could see you guys soon but that doesn't look like it'll happen for now. Kelsi and I are really trying to get settled in here (yes...still) and it's taking a while.

In an update a month late....I did get that job at Wal-Mart, and they have made me one of their cart pushers. On one hand it really sucks because I've been in the sun nonstop...so it's hella hot out there. On the other hand...I've been losing weight and I have a nice tan! I am teh hotness. ^_^ Right now I weigh in at a nice 213 pounds...with 23.4% body fat, which will only drop over the next few months. To compare...I was at 220 with 27% body fat when I started. Pretty sweet huh?

I've seen a few people have been enjoying my Adventures of Randomness, and if you all want, I will post some more when I have the time. I already have a few ideas for the next couple of entries, so stay tuned!

On the music front, I've been listening to some new stuff when given the time, and I must advertise! Alesana, Chiodos, Scary Kids Scaring Kids, Chasing Victory, and Red. Give them a listen...NOW!

Some good news for a few friends of mine, Death Note will be coming to Adult Swim in October. BE READY FOR IT! Also, I believe the movies will be coming to the states too, sometime in November...first in limited release at the theaters, and then finally on DVD. I can't wait!!!!!!

And saving the best for last...it's not long until the Kelsi comes back from Kansas. Can't wait, since it sucks sleeping alone when you're so use to not. Miss you baby! LOVE YOU!!

Tis all for now. Latz!

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "Love comes in halves. Think about it."

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TEH FOOTER!!! OF NOTHINGNESS!!!! AHHH!!!!! ]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/14524667/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/14524667/ Fri, 07 Sep 2007 00:13:27 PDT TOTALLY AWESOME BANDS
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I have to put up facts about me now...cause I was tagged by the girlfriend ness ness.....

1. I love watching mysteries.
2. I like to do weird things for attention (mostly from strangers)
3. Sometimes I wonder if I was a girl in a past lifetime.
4. Nothing makes me happier than talking to people who love the same things I do.
5. I have weird fantasies about lead singers of my favorite bands.
6. My worst fear of death is from drowning, but I love to swim.
7. I hate vegetables but will eat the pot pies from the frozen food section.
8. My worst fear is to hurt the people I love. Nothing kills me more.


Done.

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Well today is the big day everyone...the big 22!

*fanfare and such go off in a specticle of colors*

Just feels like a regular day to me...but Kelsi is going to be taking me to a Japanese resteraunt later today and then I get to have fudge cake with ice cream. yum yum

Really not much else to say but thanks to all my friends who I've made over the years....Vicki, Matt M, Matt R., Jack, Random, Shinnin, Sable, Johnny, Mary, Dylan, Josh, Will, Matt W., and Sam. You guys all rock. If I left someone out then please attack me and steal my dignity.

I love all you guys and hope to see you all very soon!

EDIT: Added some more peeps....cause i hath forgotten them....my bad.

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "Reflecting on life is about remember all the good and bad times, and how much better the good times were compare to the bad."

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TEH FOOTER!!! OF NOTHINGNESS!!!! AHHH!!!!! ]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/14133424/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/14133424/ Sun, 12 Aug 2007 12:52:43 PDT TOTALLY AWESOME BANDS
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Well in about 3 short days I'll be having the big 22 b-day. I guess this is a time when I get to be greedy and have wishful thinking right? Mwahaha...let the selfishness begin!!!!!

This is what I want for my b-day (you know.....if there were a chance in hell I'd get any of it XP)

1. Cash (kinda low on it)
2. Wii
3. DS
4. PSP
5. Games to go with any of 2-4
6. A widescreen monitor for moi PC
7. The full set of Death Note manga

A guy can dream can't he? Dream big? Meh?!

In other news....I have an interview with Wal-Mart on Tuesday...seems I may be a cart pusher or something like that. Fun times eh? Kelsi says it'll be good exercise for me. -_-

Well, there really hasn't been much else going on in life here in Paragould. This place isn't so bad and the people here are really cool. Everyone should move here and we can jam! Laterz!

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "It's not what you like about someone you love, it's what you accept about them.

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Ok...so it's been over a month since I've graced the journal of my DA page. Meh, this one has been a long time coming too, so I'm sorry and hopefully I can get a few things out of the way and explain some things to my friends.

I moved up to Paragould a few weeks ago, and luckily I was able to hang out with mot of my friends for a farewell party. Well, since that last one I really haven't been in much contact with any of you, and I'm sorry. I finally know how Vicki feels when she tells me how busy she not to be able to talk to anyone. So first things first, I should be telling you all what I've been up to.

The moment me and kelsi moved here we buckled down on job hunts, house supplies and food. Even right now we're stil;l not completely finished with any of those three. I joined a temp agency last week and I finally got a short job Thursday. Believe it or not, I'm helping to build a brand new GameStop in town. Hopefully that'll give me some pull to get hired there once it gets finished. Kelsi got a job too. She's now a waitress making good tips but bad work hours. I get my first paycheck Friday, which should feel pretty good. Once again I am sorry to you guys for not keeping in touch, but I'm sure Vicki will agree. When you have to get stuff done, it's hard to find time. I promise once things get slowed down I will take the time to call you guys.

Now as for some unfinished business I had before I left. To the girl who shall not be named (I know you prefer that lol) I do have a PSP to replace the one i borrowed, so just send me a note telling me when to send it. Sorry it took so long to get you another one, but I was waiting until I had moved because I was hoping to find it while I was packing. Sadly I couldn't. Unfortunately, this isn't the only thing I couldn't find while packing. I've also appear to be missing my Nintendo DS, my DS games in a Final Fantasy3 pouch, and my 4 GB hard drive for my PSP. So...I can only conclude all the things that went missing have been stolen, because they rarely left my room and sight.

Well, that's really all I have to say guys. If you want to get a hold of me I have the same number so give me a ring and leave amessage.

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "Sometimes you have to lose everything before you can appreciate the things you get"

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Well...I know it's been quite some time since I've posted a journal, and it will probably be a while after this before I do another one. I just want everyone to know that durring the course of the next few days I want to be able to hang out with each and every one of myfriends before I move in a few weeks.

So I purpose a party. I need my friends to reply to this and tell me if they are available either Thur night or Saturday night. This is very important. Also I know some of my friends don't have DA, so if I have people who can call the others to get information that would be grand. Please reply fast!

one-loser

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Well currently I am here with my star, Kelsi ^_^

It's been fun for the most part, but we're kind of stressing over the trip back. I just hope that we both make it back in one piece XD

In a few months time we should be moving to Paragould which should be even more stressful, but I have a feeling that once we get it out of the way we can both begin to enjoy our new life.

Once I get back home I'll finally be able to drive places (thanks to Kelsi cause she's letting me use her car) so I'll be able to visit my friends a lot more. I can also show off my girlfriend to everyone!

And then next weekend we'll all be going to see Pirates 3, which should be killer. At least I hope so, all "3" movies tend to suck. Final Destination 3, Saw 3, Shrek 3 (which we both saw yesterday), X-Men 3, even Spiderman 3. So against by better knowledge, I'll be going to see yet another 3 movie. Please don't let me down.

Well I'm gonna go back and enjoy my time with Kelsi, she's graduating today and will finally be out of her retched hell hole of a school. And house. And city. Soon after I'll be able to get out of my retched hell hole of a city. Can't wait!

Talk to everyone soon!

one-loser

Quote of the Day "Good things really do come to those who wait!"

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Well, I'm up here in Missouri right now visiting my family. I got through the EMG stuff ok. They stuck a needle in me a few dozen times. Fun fun. Apparently I really don't have much wrong with my wrist and yet it still hurts. Meh. I guess that means more pain medication that I'll probably not take.

Well on another note, I heard the Warped Tour will be in Kansas City on my birthday! Totally going. Only one bad thing about though. The Used won't be on that particular date. "cries" Oh well though, they'll be touring because they have a new album to promote so I'll definitely be seeing this year, along with Korn. I can't wait!

Three more weeks until the next phase of my life starts. I'm going to go get Kelsi on the weekend of her graduation and bring her back to my home state of Arkansas. It's funny how things happen though isn't it? I move back to Berryville because of of a girlfriend, and now I'm moving once again because of a girlfriend (with other reason too). I can't wait to be in a new town.

Well, I'm going to go back and hang out with my family. I'll be back Sunday, so if you know my number give me a call!

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "Pain lets us know we're alive. Relief lets us know we can survive."

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Meh....the day draws closer when I have to get that EMG thing done. This Friday to be exact. I dread it so much. I hate pain....very much. Plus I know it's going to show that I have carpoltunel....which means either more medicine or surgery. I may be hyping this up too much and it won't be as bad. I just want it to pass.

For everyone who knows me in real life, this weekend is kinda off limits now because my family needs me. I'll be going up to Missouri after my little hand thing...sorry everyone. I think last week maybe made up for it cause some of us had a get together. Which was nice. Maybe plan something the next weekend. I'll keep everyone posted.

Speaking of keeping everyone posted, I think I'll be moving in July. So in those terms, there is going to be a Family Values show August 23 or 24...somewhere around there, that I hope I can get everyone together to go to. It's going to be in Bonner Springs, Kansas. We can get a few car pools and go see it. It should be fun.

OK...I saw this in some random journal too.....and I figure I have nothing to hide.....Everyone can ask me two questions and I promise to answer them....if they are too personal I'll answer them in a note.

Well anyways, I'll be on my way...

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "Love me, hold me, care for me.....be mine."

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If everyone hadn't already heard about it, a mass murder happened at Virginia Tech yesterday. 33 were killed and more than 30 were injured...some serious.

Right now I hope everyone can take a moment and say a prayer for those students and families who lost loved ones. It's a very tragic and fucked up event that just happened randomly. It is being cited as one of the worst massacres in United States history, even next to Columbine.

There's a lot messed up with this whole thing with a lot of unanswered questions. I don't feel like going over what I've learned from the whole thing, as you all can do that easily by looking around the internet.

I ask that if you reply to this journal,please do so out of respect and say a few words of kindness so that the victims may read them if they stumble upon this journal.

As for my words....

To all the ones who lost loved ones and friends.....I am so sorry. I can't even fathom how much pain and suffering each and everyone one of you is going through. If I could cry for all of you, I would do so in a heart beat. I may not offer much in terms of answerers, but I promise to pray for each and every one of of you. You all are in my heart and in my thoughts. No one deserved what happened that day. I pray you find peace in your life, even though I know it will be hard. America grieves with you.....and we all love you.

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Ok...I was found out. I pointed a lot of fingers, but many more were pointed at me. And they were all right. Who am I to get mad over things when I'm the one with more free time. It's not all their fault that I have nothing to do. They got school and jobs and restrictions. Meh. To be honest I knew all that. I justed turned a lot of the stress I had lately into something negative and focused it on missing everyone. And a lot of my friends didn't like that at all. The fact I go so many responses means that they want to hang out still, and it's not like they were ignoring me.

I just have a lot going on my mind lately that's stressing me out, and I just happened to direct it where it wasn't needed. I'm sorry everyone if I offened you. I just hope you can forgive me for that mistake and know that sometimes people say some stupid things when they are stressed out.

I guess I'll say what's been making me feel really bad lately. I've been going to the Tyson's nurse every so often for the past month or so. My right wrist has been giving me a lot of problems up to the point where the pain is unbearble. Well at the end of this month I go in for something called EMV - Electromyography, which is basically then sticking a lot of needles in both arms and sending waves of electricity through my arm to see how my nervse will respond. I'm not too scared when it comes to needles but this is something new to me and I'm quite terrified. Meh....<_< Also I've been really sick and I've been missing a lot of work, and wouldn't you know it, I go back to work and get shit for missing. One of the supervisor's even said "I hope you get better for your sake Cody." like a threat or something.

Once again I'm really sorry to everyone who was offended by my last journal. I know now that I was wrong, so please forgive me. Like I said, I'll plan something out soon.

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "Throw yourself at His mercu, and be granted life anew."

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The Music Portion:

Well this weekend should be fun. I'll be going with 4 other people to go see Bullet For My Valentine. I can't wait! This will mark the third our of the four bands I have seen live that are listed in my header. Those solos are going to kick so much ass.

The love portion:

Kelsi and I are officially boyfriend and girlfriend now. Well...the official date is March 30th. I'm a little late on announcing it I realize, but meh, better late than never right? We've been talking a lot about what we should do in terms of being together, and a lot of talk has centered around moving in with each other. That seems to be the working plan. But I will talk more about that in a later journal.

The tragedy portion:

Meh. I've had it with trying to keep in contact with my friends. It seems I have to go out of my way to even talk to some of them, and it sucks. Once again, I know that not having a car myself plays a big part in seeing everyone, but it's not like all my friends are car-less. But no one attempts to come hang out with me or try to set up something with me in mind.


Well...this journal isn't really an update of what's been up...that'll be the next one.

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "What's the point of talking when no one listens?"

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I know I said that there would be music, love, and tragedy in my next journal. This sin't that one though, I just need to get something off my chest.

Apperently everyone's spring break was this week. Now I don't mean to sound bitter or anything, but I find it pretty sad that not one person I know has come over to see me or even call me. The only person I saw all week is Cotton. Well I take that back. I also saw Mary, but she doesn't count because of her limitations. But Matt, Dylan, Jennifer...I haven't seen any of them since Vicki was here. And it seems like that's the only time I see them.Now I'm not saying that it's entirely their fault. It's not like I have a car to go see them. I really miss all my friends and I wish I could see more of them. Even more so if I might be moving soon. I just wish there was a way I could hang out with them more. And since it has been spring break, I figured maybe something was gonna happen, and maybe I'd get a call and be invited. Then again I could be wrong too. Meh.

I'm also currently sick and I've been missing work. Stuck at home with really nothing to do. Who knows, everyone could be on vacation somewhere outside of this crappy town. I wish I was...

one-loser

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Meh, I'm not feeling the best right now. My throat is killing me to the point where I don't even wanna swallow anymore.

I've been thinking about the whole moving thing a lot again. This time however it's not so much of a drastic change of location. It's about 4 hours away from Berryville (so I'm not totally cut off from my friends) and from what I understand, just a few hours away from Memphis (so I can totally go hang out with Vicki!). It'll be nice to surround myself with people who don't know me again. I remember in school I'd always look forward to being the new kid or have a new year start. A chance to make a new impression of myself to people. I think that's what gets me going to most when I think about moving.

On another note, I want to thank everyone who has added me to their watch list recently. I'm very flattered and hope to make it worth your while. Also I have been getting a lot of favorites from my deviations too. A lot more than I could of ever imagined. So once again thanks to everyone who has supported my work and has enjoyed it, cause I enjoy writting them.

I have a request to my watchers. I wish to have a cool anime type of da ID, so if anyone can help me out I'd really appreciate it. Thank you!

On that note, I bid everyone goodbye and my next journal update should be filled with music, love, and tragedy.

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "Dreams are doorways. Into our past, present, and future. Or even into our creativity. Be sure not to waste any of this information."

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Ok so a lot has happened since I left on my epic trip to see one of my favorite bands and then a really good friend of mine. Where to start this thing off....I guess with the concert...

When me Josh and Sam actually got the the place we were really excited. In my opinion, I was more excited for this show than the Coheed & Cambria concert I went to last year. Just the thought of hearing some of my favorite 30StM songs like "From Yesterday" and "Beautiful Lie"...mm...it was "Killing me killing me!" Ahem...anyways.

There was an opener for the band called Saosin, and they weren't half bad. One of the guitarists actually kept throwing his pick in the air and catching it to continue playing. I was secretly hoping he'd miss it to see what would happen, but he did a good job keeping in where he needed it. After the second song they played, one of the band members actually pointed out some people in the crowd who was causing a scene. His words were "We've played over 300 shows and there are always two people wanting to fuck it up, and there are the two douche bags." He pointed them out and security took one of them out of the concert. "Please, don't be a douche." It was great. The rest of their set was good, I just wish I knew the songs.

But of course, the main dish was the next band, 30 Seconds to Mars. Funny to note, while they were setting up for them to take the stage, a huge "Jared" chant broke out (the girl beside me started it haha) and lasted for about 3 minutes...and he never came out. It took about 15 minutes for them to start, but man, it was great. They started off with Beautiful Lie (squee!!!) and it was great. Jared actually took the time to talk with the crowd between songs, or even in the middle of a song! They played a lot of my favorites, and made new favorites for me. Attack, The Fantasy, Buddha For Mary, From Yesterday. Jared even came out with an acoustic and played two songs. All in all, I was really impressed with the whole show and set, and I even got to meet the band and get a few things signed!!! I really want to see them live again, as they left a lasting memory in my head.

Changing gears here...

On Friday I went to see Kelsi. It was about an 11 hour trip from St Louis to Hayes, and then an hour from Hayes to Larned. The first thing I did when I saw her was hide my head in my hoodie. It was to mock her for how she first met me. But then I did something she wasn't prepared for.I gave her a deep kiss. Couldn't help myself. On the way back to her house, we made out and I guess her mom got mad at her later, saying we shouldn't sucked face, or something.

It was really fun being with Kelsi in Kansas because it felt like a new life. I didn't know anyone and they didn't know me, so I could kind of make a new image and impression of myself to these people. Kelsi loved every bit of it too. Here's a few highlights from the trip:

- I stole a bottle of choc. milk from Subway. Serves that chic right for being a bitch to Kelsi.

- I flirted with a few girls who were flipping me and Kelsi off. If you're reading this, please...call...we want you all.

- Her mom having a social commentary about the dog running wild in the house. I'll never live that one down.

- Kelsi actually breaking down because of me being there with her. It was sweet ^_^.

- Watching some of Fruit Basket (which will be seen in whole!)

- Playing Guitar Hero again. Always fun.

- Making her brother look like an idiot both in terms of games and listening skills.

- Getting to drive Kelsi's car. We actually went 50 over this dip in the road, causing her rear-view mirror to break off. Classic.

- Meeting her grandma to find out she was a really good artist and doll maker. I wouldn't mind going to that house again.

- Overall, being with Kelsi. I was fun and new.

Ok so I said a few highlights but a lot of good memories will be had from the trip. Unfortunately, we sorta of missed the bus for the trip back, so we had to chase it all the way to Salina. Her poor mom was so mad..."You better be saying some fancy prayers for me!" The bus trip though was great. Even though it was 13 hours it seemed faster. I guess cause we had each other to keep company.

When we got back to Arkansas it was a different story. Since I had no car we really didn't get to do much outside the house. I'm glad she came back with me though because I enjoy being around her.

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Just a little update.....I will be leaving today to see 30 Seconds to Mars live in concert! And after that I will be heading to Kansas to see Kelsi...so once I get to her house I should be able to get back on DA....

So until then, this journal shall be my away message.....

one-loser

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<_< I was tagged by the one and only WhiteRose (aka Vicki) and I think this is the first time it's happened so I hafta do this little thing where I list 6 weird things about myself. My list is gonna be meh but here goes...

1. I own about 6 game systems but barely play any of them.
2. I own over 50 books but haven't even read 10 of them.
3. When I shave off my facial hair I could pass off as a girl from the neck up.
4. I use to love country music, then switched to rap and pop, and then after I heard rock music (like it was something new) I never went back to any of those.
5. I am easily startled by anyone just walking in my room without knocking.
6. I can't fall asleep without the sound of a fan.

I hope those were good enough for you all. And now that it's done, I get to tag 6 people! Gin-Kage, SuicidalJumpingBean, Tweak0392, DorkyGurl19, Rave779, ViperishPath. You all gotta do this crazy thing now...

one-loser

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Well now that it's officially March, I can look forward to a fun month. I get to go to a concert and see Kelsi...and they are right next to each other! I can't wait.

I know I haven't really talked to a lot of my friends recently...including Jen, Vicki, Dylan, Matt (both of them), and I'm sorry. You guys are important to me but I've just had a lot of things going on. I promise to get in touch with everyone as soon as possible and we'll all do something together. Don't hate me.

I really don't have much to update this time, just kinda letting people know I'm alive and that there are big things going on this month. I love you all and I will be putting up some more lyrics soon.

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "Tell people how you feel like it would be the last chance you ever had."

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This is going to be a weird journal entry, because I have a lot of things on my mind. Please try to bear with me.

First off is something about downplaying other people and their problems. I don't know how many times I've wanted to talk about something I didn't like or how I was feeling or why I was hurting just to be told that I'm much better off than most people. And I don't mean people telling me that I should be happy to be alive, but more like they try to compare their problems to mine and try to make it seem theirs is worse and I should deal with mine. It sucks because instead off letting whats inside be released, all you get is a lecture about how it could be worse. Very rarely do I see people actually listen to what I have to say and let me vent. And I've seen it with other people too. I also have been guilty of this. All I'm saying is that when someone tries to tell you something, they are putting their demons out in the open and trusting you to let them go away. Don't make them feel like they have to just deal with it.

Secondly, even though in the past day it's changed some, I get the feeling that people expect me to screw up. Whenever I do good, they tell me "it's about time." When I do bad, they "saw it coming." I could just be paranoid about it but it seems so real to me. I'll be going to a concert in about 2 and a half weeks from now, and the stipulation is I have to be at work EVERYDAY until the concert. I wonder if they think I can make it. I mean, would she have given me the days off had she known I wouldn't miss? Who knows.

Finally, I know people are capable of hurting the ones they care about. I am. I have hurt people in the past, and as much as I try to avoid it, I have done it recently. I had gotten mad today about something and ranted it out to another friend of mine, and said some things that wasn't really the best choice of words describing the situation. And unfortunately, the person I was ranting about heard the whole thing. Not only do I have to eat my words but also have to face the fact I hurt someone I care about. I guess all I can say is when people get mad, they tend to say really harsh things about their friends, truth or not. I've had friends rant to me about people they care about, and even though it didn't seem like it, they weren't trying to make me hate them or put them in a bad light. And it's the same with me. People just have things they need to get off their chest, without hurting the people they care about. And usually once they let it out, they can put things in perspective and actually come to terms with what their friends are doing or maybe the person they ranted to could help make them see. Unfortunately sometimes you have to own up these things. Like I will have to.



I don't feel like updating anything else right now....I may have a few pictures up later today.

one-loser

"If something is buried deep inside that won't go away unless you tell someone, is it still wrong to say it if it's not nice?"

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it's been a few weeks eh?

What to update...what to update....well...Valentine's Day has come and passed...and I haven't got to buy any of the awesome candy on clearance yet. But I did get a few things for V-Day that i know i'll enjoy. Kelsi sent me a card which is the perfect summary of our friendship/relationship thingy we got going on. But more on her in a second. I also got this cool X-Rated conffession heart candy from Vicki. She rules ^_^.

I bought myself an 80GB I-pod this weekend and I feel as though I'll never fill it up with all the music I listen to. I've put some anime episodes on it though so that should be fun to watch. I need to get into more music though haha.

I notice this trend I have too, where I seem to buy a lot of shirts but not so much pants or shorts. It's weird. I think next time I go shopping I'll buy me a lot more leg ware.

Now back to Kelsi. I think I'm going to take a trip up to see her. Ever since me and her started talking, we clicked and our friendship is something I really am glad to have. I'm probably going to make the trip after the concert in March, and it appears that it won't cost that much to go either. So it's something I am looking forward to doing, sort of like a back to back thing, with me going to a concert and then straight to see Kelsi. ^_^

I really don't have much more to add, so if you have any questions please feel free to ask!

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "I catch myself smiling when I imagine what will happen the next time we're together."

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/11683808/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/11683808/ Sun, 04 Feb 2007 12:15:46 PST
~MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE~ ~30 SECONDS TO MARS~
~THE USED~ COHEED AND CAMBRIA~ ~BULLET FOR MY VALENTINE~

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I seem to have this Jekyll and Hyde thing going on nowadays. Everytime I start to get tired I seem to go into the emo thing were I start telling people I long for someone to hold and suff.

It's been a year since I've become single. And it really sucks. I can make excuses for people who want reasons why I want a girlfriend, but it would be pointless. The people around me are either taken, or are just getting out of relationships. So they really can't relate. I'm not saying that makes them bad people or that I hate them, it's just that it makes it hard to talk to them about it. Only because they have different views on relationships. The people who are taken can tell me it sucks, but they don't know the feeling since they aren't in my situation. And then the people who are happy being single can't know how I feel, since it's the opposite.

Meh, and with V-Day coming up, I'm sure there are people out there who seem to feel like I do. It's supposed to be a holiday celebrating love. I'm not totally gonna boycott it, because V-Day isn't at fault for making me feel alone. But it certainly doesn't help my feelings.

Also, I've been having this weird sensation that I'd like to be alone in a crowd. Like being surrounded by complete strangers, so that I could be another face in the crowd, where no one knows me. I have no idea why. I kinda liked it when I did it yesterday. Me, Josh, Sam, and Amanda (Josh's friend) went to the bookstore. At one point I just grabbed a few books and went to a part of the store where I was just around random people. And I didn't want to be found. I dunno if it was because I was really into the book or not, but it was a great feeling.

Maybe I'm just being weird. All I know is that I long for a relationship, even though I know right now I shouldn't try to rush into one. But the feeling is really strong. I feel like I'd give anything to be able to have someone close to me and be affectionate. I have friends, but it's just not the same. No offense, but the feeling of holding someone important to you, kissing them, laying next to them, making them feel special...love is a very big deal to me.

I hope someday the one for me shows up. Even if that person isn't the ultimate one, I am willing to go through and found out. I know the risks, but I'm not worried. Life is about trial and error. All I would care about is the moments we would share, not the future that is unknown to us.

In any case, things are bound to change for the better in the coming months. I can only hope.

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "If there were only more people, maybe I'd have the chance to be alone..."

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/11655822/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/11655822/ Fri, 02 Feb 2007 05:39:51 PST
~MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE~ ~30 SECONDS TO MARS~
~THE USED~ COHEED AND CAMBRIA~

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Well...tis been a few days but I have a few bits of news to let out...so here we go.

Will is moving out. Most of you on here probably know this by now if you have read his journal, but if you haven't, well the time has come. He said a lot of things about being expected to live a certain way. About having his future planned out. And not liking it. I really don't have anything to add to that. I just wish him the best of luck and hope he has the life he wants.

Also I haven been talking to Kelsi alot and now I really want to meet up with her again. She's really cool and even though her and Will may not like each other again, I still like her and loved her company when she was here last year. I have a feeling we'll see each other again.

Then there is me getting a car. I really want one but I may have to wait until I know the weather is clearer. But I will have one. No doubt ^_^;;

Lastly, me moving. I still think the desire to move is great, but I haven been thinking a lot on it too. I'm not 100% sure, but I'm leaning in favor of moving at this point. I still have a few months to go, so I'll keep everyone posted, I promise.

Oh...I and still really want someone to hold...meh....

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "Words mean so much but when you have actions they mean more.

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/11595507/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/11595507/ Sun, 28 Jan 2007 04:55:17 PST
~MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE~ ~30 SECONDS TO MARS~
~THE USED~ COHEED AND CAMBRIA~

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Whew what a weekend.....

Thursday night something happened that I never thought possible. I was given a chance to have a position of power (so to speak) where I work at for a trial run. Since one of my leads will be out for two weeks, I'll be taking her place. It's kind of scary because I don't want to mess up and look like an idiot when it's all on the line, so wish me the best of luck ok?

Also, last night I went to some concert that had a lot of local bands. A lot of then sucked but it didn't matter cause I had a hell of a time. I moshed a lot, and there was one particular incident that had me get elbowed in the f'n head. Thankfully as of right now I'm not feeling too sore from all the thrashing.

A little update on my thoughts about moving...at first I was really excited to do it, I guess because it was just something new to me. But now I've been made to think really hard about it. Is it really the right choice for me? Do I really need to go? It's still a ways to go before I really need to make my decision on it, and a lot of things could happen between now and then. We'll just have to see.

V-day is steadily approaching us, and I'm hoping that love is in the air for me. I really miss having a girlfriend to hold (and yea yea I could be going all emo), If not, then I can always enjoy the heart candy. Yum Yum.

I guess that's really all for now. If anyone has questions they should totally put them in the comments, cause I love questions!!!

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "Should you fall, I shall pick you up. Should you die, I shall lift you up. Should you stray, I shall guide you. For my love is greater than the biggest ocean, the strongest wind, and the brightest star."

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/11527469/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/11527469/ Mon, 22 Jan 2007 08:25:44 PST
~MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE~ ~30 SECONDS TO MARS~
~THE USED~ COHEED AND CAMBRIA~

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Well, I typed out this journal once before...unfortunately it appears that it didn't actually submit to my..um...submitting it...so here we go again....

I've been thinking really hard about where I go from here, the next step in my life so to speak. And well, I have an opportunity to drastically change it. What kind of opportunity you ask? To move away. To get out of Berryville and have a new beginning, meet new people, and have new things to do. It's very enticing to think about and I am really considering it.

If I do decide to go, it'll be north from here in the state of Michigan...which is roughly 12 hours away drving distance. I wouldn't be leaving till the sumeer (Around June) so I still have time to weigh my options.

I know a lot of my friends have a DA so I really would love to hear your thoughts.

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "Music is like our hearts. If you stop it, we could very well die. So let the music play!"

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/11464674/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/11464674/ Tue, 16 Jan 2007 19:01:55 PST
~MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE~ ~30 SECONDS TO MARS~
~THE USED~ COHEED AND CAMBRIA~

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Well, just got done watching the Dane Cook movie "Employee of the Month" and it wasn't half bad. It wasn't a flat out comedy, but it was funny. I guess it followed a very generic formula of movie, without breaking any new ground. But I enjoyed it.

I really don't have that much to update on me except V-Day is just around the corner and I love eating the conversation sweetheart candy. MMMM....

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "It kills me from the inside, yet I must have it in order to live. What is it? Change...."

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/11428464/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/11428464/ Sat, 13 Jan 2007 22:44:22 PST
~MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE~ ~30 SECONDS TO MARS~
~THE USED~ COHEED AND CAMBRIA~

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I have of bunch of stuff to let out so bare with me. This may offend people, and this may make some of you ask questions. But I feel like I must let it out so I can be cleansed of it...or however it works.

I know it's been about three weeks or so since I posted a journal. A lot has happened since then, and I've been wanting to post a journal every time I had something big going on. And then I'd forget or decide against it. Well all of these things kind of bunched up onme and now I have no choice, so here goes...

First off...and most recently...is about Vicki and Matt. She had sort of an early birthday party at her favorite resteraunt. It was all fun n stuff until Matt got down on one knee and gave her a promise ring. It was all surreal to me because just one year ago the same thing was ahppening at the same place, except I was her boyfriend. And just the way she looked today was nothing like she looked last year. She's been made happy, and he does a good job of doing that. I'm really glad she found someone who can do that for her. I just kind of fell silient durring the whole ordeal, but I'm not sad. Just kinda...I dunno, zoned out about it. But as I told Vicki and Matt both, it was just me stuck in a moment. I really hope they both stay together for a long time.

Next....I have to rant about some of my friends. This may offened them, and I am sorry in advance, but I just feel like if there's ever anything I do or don't want to do, I have to have a good enough reason for them. And it really sucks. I feel like if my reason (or lack thereof, cause sometimes I don't have one), doesn't satisfy them, then I have to be labeled a bad friend. I know I can be indecisive, and that I don't always make the best choices when left up to me, but sometimes when I feel different about something or don't want to do something, I wish my friends would just respect it at that. I've hopefully proven to them that no matter what, I'm always going to be their friend, and just because I don't want to go somewhere with them, do something with them, or agtree with them, that doesn't mean I feel any different towards them. So why do they feel angry towards me?

On a brighter side, Will and I are going to go pick up Kelsi around V-Day, and I can't wait. I just hope I can hold back all of my excitement. I don't Will to think anything bad about me or Kelsi if I all of a sudden, you know, go crazy and start hugging all over Kelsi or something.

On another brighter note, me and Josh are going to be going to the 30 Seconds to Mars due to illness. I can't wait for that either. I really like the band, but even better is that the other bands that will be there haven't been announced yet.

On one last note, I want to say that the last year was full of a lot of ups and down. From becoming single again, to moving from my old house to Josh's house back into a house of my own (with 3 other guys o_O) to becoming closer to my friends, and to a long crush gone sour but turning out ok in the end. It was a long year, but it's over now and this year is just beginning. Do I have any resoultions? Maybe just one, and that is to become stronger for myself, as I am always succumbing to a lot of pressure from everyone, including friends and family.

Well, hopefully things will be brighter this year with a lot to look forward to and two big trips planned already with two of my best friends. Until next time...

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "If you truely love and respect me, then let me go, as I will not forget my friends."

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/11114652/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/11114652/ Thu, 21 Dec 2006 17:33:01 PST
~MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE~ ~30 SECONDS TO MARS~
~THE USED~ COHEED AND CAMBRIA~

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Well...to start this off on a good note....my internet was suspended....wait..that's a bad note...let's try again.

A lot of people around me are having a lot of troubles in their life....dammit...one more time...

I get to go to my family's house for X-Mas....YAY!!!

Besides all that....I's almost been three weeks since I last updated this thing (and even longer since my last DA submission) but I am doing ok. Not too much has happened except I had gotten one thing on my wishlist for X-Mas already....NINTENDO WII!!!!

WOO!!!!

Vicki also came down for a visit and won't be leaving for 2 more weeks...and she has given me a few lessons in drawing.

Me and some in our group all had a party this last weekend...and we all had fun playing some Wii with Bomberman and Smash Bro. Melee in rotation. Then we watched some Clerks 2.

Just here a few days ago..Vicki's bf Matt came over and we watched a movie called Battle Royale...an awesome movie that I urge everyone to watch...and if you know where I live...make it a priority to come over and watch it with me. You'll love it or else!

I should have some new material up soon, since I know of a few things to write about....but I do have something for the general public:

An artist by the name of Gabbi () has a 10 list thing where the first ten people to comment gets a picture drawn for them. Well, since I really don't draw, I figured why not do it for songs and poems? So here we go...the first ten people to comment get to have a song personally written by me for them. It can be any subject.

1. :icontweako392: - no topic (request one!)
2. - Himself
3. - no topic (request one!)
4. ShadowFlames - no topic (request one!)
5. - no topic (request one!)
6. maxwellhater - no topic (request one!)
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Well that's all for now..hopefully it won't take forever for me to post another one of these things.

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "They say whatever doesn't kill us makes us stronger. I say whatever doesn't kill is can scare the hell out of you...and makes you not to take your chances a second time. That's not strength..it's knowledge."

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/10912618/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/10912618/ Fri, 01 Dec 2006 11:52:52 PST
~MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE~ ~30 SECONDS TO MARS~
~THE USED~ COHEED AND CAMBRIA~

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Ok...so it's the first of December...and what better way to start the first day of Christmas with my very own list of gifts I would love to have.

This is in no way shape or form a plea for everyone who watches me to get an item on the list, but just a little personal run down of things I would be extremely happy to receive.

1. Nintendo Wii
2. HD TV
3.Computer Tablet
4. Electric Guitar
5. A new hard drive
6. Extensive drawing kit
7. Manga (One Piece, Death Note, Monster, etc.)
8. Money

Of course...I don't care what anyone gets me...I get to go be with my family again for the holidays, and that alone is enough for me.

If you all want, go ahead and write down your own list in the comments to this journal. Who knows...I might have the urge to get you all something?

one-loser

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/10864926/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/10864926/ Mon, 27 Nov 2006 06:44:54 PST
~MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE~ ~30 SECONDS TO MARS~
~THE USED~ COHEED AND CAMBRIA~

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Well..I am back from Missouri...well..I've been back since Saturday....but I really haven't felt the need to make a journal. Until now. <_<

Tried to get into a game called Valkyrie Profile for the PSP...but it was for nothing.

Got me a few DS games...really like em.

A lot of stuff happened this last week though...which sucked and had thrown a lot of things out in the open. Lots of confusion abound. Good intentions turned into bad vibes. I don't mean to speak in riddles, just don't want to look back at this journal and know what the hell I'm talking about. Haha.

My friend will be making a Tails comic soon...woo hoo. He also has a great gallery. So if you're a fan of Sonic, One Piece, Death Note, anime, or good art in general, please by all means check out his stuff. You won't be disappointed. Promise!

I also recently bought a scanner. Which means I'll have worthless attempts of drawings soon. I was wondering though...should I make up another account for just drawings or keep them on this one? Comment on this to let me know.

X-mas is coming up soon...so my X-mas wishlist should be posted up on here soon...not that it'll matter to anyone who watches me...lol...but whatever.

I should be trying out FFXII soon, heard it is REALLY good...and REALLY good games are my cup o' tea...so...we'll see what happens.

I know I really didn't do any quotes on my last three journals (no one missed em <_< so I shall start them up again...and with that...till next time!

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "Respect your friends before you rely on them. Cherish love before you make it. Then you'll have no reason to lose friends, and you won't build up a heart to break it."

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/10836749/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/10836749/ Fri, 24 Nov 2006 16:42:36 PST
~MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE~ ~30 SECONDS TO MARS~
~THE USED~ COHEED AND CAMBRIA~

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Well...I'm about to head off to see the movie "Happy Feet" which I've heard mixed reviews for.

I was hoping to see it with at last some friends in Missouri...but they've gotten too busy this weekend...which really is a downer but it's not their fault. I leave tomorrow to go back to Arkansas...where I will sleep all day Sunday to get back on track for work. Hopefully I'll get to see Vicki one last time before she leaves.

In case I don't get to see my friends before I go back home...here's a few shout outs:

Kris: I don't think I've ever seen you that hyper when I lived here. Hopefully some cool guys show up in town that you'll like...or girls if you can't find any guys to your liking...It was fun hanging out with you and I doubt I'll find anyone back home that can match your enthusiasm.

Sam: Sorry I'm over 18 and totally can't hang out with you. I don't know if I'd go as far as to hit on you...though I may have made some very disrespectful comments last time I saw you. I am sorry and I hope that you don't take it as me being a pervert. I really wish we could of at least said hi to each other...but I guess there is always next time.

Tiff(Sam or Kris..let her know I wrote this): Glad I at least got to say hi to you, and even though we didn't hang out much, it was good to see you again. Now that I have you're cell-y phone number...I'll plague you with txt messages..mwahaha. I hope to see you again soon and we get to hang out more.

Well...that about does it. I'll probably wrap up my stay here in journal form tomorrow when I arrive safely in Arkansas...until then...Happy Feet time!

one-loser

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/10812327/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/10812327/ Wed, 22 Nov 2006 14:19:22 PST
~MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE~ ~30 SECONDS TO MARS~
~THE USED~ COHEED AND CAMBRIA~

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Well I have safely made it to where my family roams....Missouri (so Kris, that means me, you, Sammeth, and whoever else....totally needs to hang out!).

I am really tired, as the moment I got here I decided to post this little journal. So for now..I sleep.

one-loser

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/10792590/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/10792590/ Mon, 20 Nov 2006 18:47:31 PST
~MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE~ ~30 SECONDS TO MARS~
~THE USED~ COHEED AND CAMBRIA~

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Life's kinda funny in a way. How you ask?

Has anyone ever got the feeling that they are in some sort of movie. Like you're part of some director's sick game and he's trying to make the best movie possible at the expense of your life? Except there are no cuts, redos, just one straight forward shooting. And he throws in all these obstacles in the way for the hero (or anti-hero, villain, etc.) to overcome.

Sometimes, you feel as if you have control of this movie, because there are things you plan out that work out in the end. However, you soon begin to realize that it was just a plot decoy in this director's movie. Something to motivate his "actor" to keep going on with this movie. It's a sort of mountain-esque type story....you get brought up to hit rock bottom, and then brought back up again. It keeps the movie entertaining. How will the actor react to this situation? How will he pull through this hardship? He finally got what he deserved. Things of that nature are answered and revealed throughout the movie.

And then there are the supporting actors in this movie of your life. Somehow you may get the feeling they know what's going on. Yet you don't bother asking. Why? Because it's not their story, it's yours. Even when you do ask, you'll get these weird looks like you're crazy, so you'd still be out of answers and out of luck.

I guess the point I'm trying to make is that one's fate may not be under their control as much as they'd hope. Sometimes I get that feeling. Is it true? If so, who is pulling the reigns of my particular movie?

one-loser

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/10725676/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/10725676/ Tue, 14 Nov 2006 16:57:10 PST
~MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE~ ~30 SECONDS TO MARS~
~THE USED~ COHEED AND CAMBRIA~

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Well...it seems as if the worst thing could of happened....my concert got canceled...

That's right....no live show for me folks....

But not all was lost...for Josh and I had other plans that day.

Yes, we went to the mall...to the book store...and to the movies...and then topped it all off with a visit to my very good friend Jen!

Ah such a day it was....I bought me some sunglasses since I will be able to wear them what with contacts now. I also bought me another fairy shirt (I plan on having the whole set...wait and see!) And lastly...I bought "The Armory Wars" sketch book courtesy of Coheed & Cambria.

Off to the book store...I read into some MAR. A nice fantasy book about another world. It was a kiddy manga...but I enjoyed what I read none the less.

Then the movies. I went and watched "Stranger Than Fiction."....I demand everyone who is anyone...GO WATCH THAT MOVIE!!!! It kicked all ass and I compare it to a movie I hold dear to me, "The Butterfly Effect." So...go..WATCH!

Then to Jen's house...I got her a gift I knew she'd like, because she's hardcore into Devil May Cry. And now she can show off her guns anytime she wants......cause that's what is on the shirt...a pair of guns...you pervs...<_<

Oh well...tonight I go to work...cause I know everyone misses me there....so I shall leave you all to your lives, and I shall leave to tend to mine...later...

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "Slowly but surely the light shall be seen. Be patient and all will be given to you."

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/10706462/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/10706462/ Sun, 12 Nov 2006 22:13:12 PST
~MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE~ ~30 SECONDS TO MARS~
~THE USED~ COHEED AND CAMBRIA~

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Well..the day has come...I am going to see a band I really like, 30 Seconds to Mars. It should be great...

My one year anniversary of joining deviant art is coming up soon. I wonder what I should do to celebrate it....maybe like a time line of things that have happened of great importance while being on here? Who knows...

I have a few fears to get off my chest:

First off is about Vicki's boyfriend, Matt. I really don't want there to be any tension between us. I know I use to be her boyfriend, and that may have cause for me and Matt to not like each other down the line, but I really have no problems with him. I just hope he has no problems with me. I don't know why that fear has creeped up, it's just this gut feeling.

My second (and last) fear is my two best friends Will and Josh becoming hateful of each other. I know..who am I to say how they feel about each other. They both have different and conflicting personalities...and I'm hoping it doesn't come down to choosing between the two. I love them both and I hope things don't sour much more between the two. Maybe I'm just being paranoid...and that is something I hope is true.

I was reminded why I really don't listen to the radio much anymore. Me and Josh were listening in while moving some stuff out of storage. they literally played the same bands withing 90 minutes....with one song being played twice! That's definitely sad.

A lot of important dates are coming up that I look forward to.....

Nov. 17 (i think...): Will goes to pick up Kelsi...with special guest...me!

Nov. 22: I get to go see my family!

That's about it <_<

Well...so long for now...I'll totally make an entry about my 2nd ever concert trip when I get back home...how good or bad it was...and if I lost any limbs o_O

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "To make your point is one thing...to force your point is just childish."

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/10628888/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/10628888/ Sun, 05 Nov 2006 18:45:28 PST
~MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE~ ~30 SECONDS TO MARS~
~THE USED~ COHEED AND CAMBRIA~

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Man I'm so tired...woke up this morning and still haven't taken a nap or anything. I'm screwed for work tonight let me tell you. I just hope I make it through the night.

The Wii is set to come out in less than two weeks. Can't wait to get it!

In about a week, I'll be seeing 30 Seconds to Mars in concert. WOO!

I'm toying with the idea of setting up a podcast for music I've been getting into. That way I can spread some bands out there. Give me some feed back if you'd be interested in listening to something like that.

I went to watch Borat this weekend and it was interesting to say the least. It was a mix of acting and real people.

Pretty soon I'll have some means to go visit all my friends whenever I want. Jennifer, Matt (Maxwell and Raney), this is directed towards you guys. You'll be seeing more of me soon, I promise.

Hoping to go see my parents this Thanksgiving...depending on what days we get off. I'm hoping for a 4 day weekend.

Really not much more to talk about. So I'll leave it at that.

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "I love you. More than I could ever express in words."

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/10601537/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/10601537/ Wed, 28 Mar 2007 08:24:25 PDT
~MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE~

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I've been needing to do something like this for a while. I'll add to it more and more when I get the chance. If you feel I've forgotten you, please comment and I will definitely add you!

Edit: Moved Kel to "In Real Life" and added Rave to "DeviantArt Friends"

In Real Life
~Vicki~ - Vicki and I go way back. We use to be a couple but now we're just good friends. She's a great person and according to her, she is who she is today because of me. So in that sense she loves the same music I do and loves anime too. Her best trait though is her art. She's one of the best I've seen. Give her gallery a look.

~Josh~ - One of my best friends, he hasn't really done much in terms of art. But don't let that stop you from checking out his gallery. He's a good musician too. Nothing can beat his company when he's in a good mood. I think he's trying to become more like me, what with the hair being long. :-D

~Will~ - We've been through a lot. Another one of my best friends, we seem to have this love hate relationship. He's into anime and DDr, plus metal music. Not too shabby. Don't get to see much of him anymore. Check out his gallery though for some vortex type art. It's really neat.

~Matt M.~ - You know, this guy has been sort of a mirror to me. Not that we are the same person..it's just we have similar qualities. Plus, this is a guy I give very deep respect to. I may not know him personally, but as a human being, he's one of those people who I would defend whole heartily. Oh...and he's a Sephiroth admirer. (Just make sure you keep up with his ever changing DA names)

~Jennifer~ - This is a girl who is crazy about anime, maybe even more than me. She's a good person and will tell you what anime to watch or what manga to read (even though I help her out lol). I don't get to see her as much as I would like, but everytime we hang out is a blast. She's a great artist and draws from realistic to anime. Swing by her gallery if you can.

~Kel~ - Ever since I meet her on the phone one afternoon, we have gotten to know each other a lot better. We even meet in person for over a whole week. She's a photographer (even with pics of me!). She's a nice person to get to know and is funny to talk to. Give her gallery a look and drop her a line.

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DeviantArt Friends

~Rave~ - This guy is totally awesome. It seems every movie I like, he likes. What about music? Ditto. Anime, comics, manga? Yes on all three counts. One of the better friends I have made on DA. Please check out his stuff. If you're a Sonic fan, Death Note fan, One Piece fan, or hell, even 2 Stupid Dogs...then this is the guy for you!

Like I said...if I missed you, please leave me a comment...I wish I knew more people from DA better...drop me a line whenever you need to!

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*does the happy dance*

I JUST GOT IN MY COHEED PACKAGE!

Two shirts, one live DVD, one live CD, and one studio album.

LOVE THEM ALL!!!!!

And as a side note to Vicki....when you come back for a visit....I am going to force you to sit in my house and watch The Final Cut.....

ALL.....14...MINUTES...OF...IT!!!! ^^

On other notes...

I'm one week away from seeing a band I've recently gotten into...30 Seconds to Mars. I really haven't delved into their first CD (planning to!) but I know I'm going to enjoy the concert none the less.

I really don't have much more to type.....cept this month is gonna rock...a concert...and a WII!!!!!

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "If you could look deep inside...past the hard shell that protects me...you'll find me...just look.."

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/10550774/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/10550774/ Sun, 29 Oct 2006 16:33:57 PST
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Before I start this off....it seems like thanks to me MCR has gotten a good fanbase in my circle of friends. Go me!

This weekend was a blast...one that makes me feel so alive. Vicki came and visited and our big group of eight people went to go see Saw 3. Here are some of the highlights:

We all went to Jennifer's house to wait on her parents. While we were there, she was playing a Samurai Champloo game for the PS2. She had to go do something for her brother and let Will play. He got his ass kicked so many times and everyone was hollering at his deaths and having fun. Just seeing everyone laugh and talk was great.

After we got our movie tickets, we went to Hastings to kill some time. They had an X-Box 360 stand with Lego Star Wars II playing. Matt (Vicki's boyfriend) was messing around on it so I decided to join him. We started beating the hell out of each other on it and then roamed the game. Gotta hang out with him more o_O.

We went to Hardee's before the movie and had fun talking about masturbation and staring at Vicki. Josh kept putting toothpicks in his mouth, and then attempted to kiss Dylan. haha

Saw 3 was an ok movie, a lot more character driven than the last two. After watching it, I have this insane obsession to go around asking people if they wanna play a game, in full Jigsaw voice.

We went to the mall afterwards, and I bought a few wrestling bio books. Me and Jennifer were browsing manga in the book shop and we spotted this angel book. The weapons looked cool but they seemed to just be recoloring the angel people. We all split up after that and it was down to me, Josh, Dylan, and Jennifer.

So after the mall we went to Barns & Noble, cause Jen wanted to find some books on Alchemy. I was acting like a kid and was trying to be smooth and mysterious...and I hit a rack of manga...books on the floor and my arm got scratch <_<. I bought another wrestling bio book there. Also, Jennifer and I rummaged through some anime mags, commenting on new anime 'n stuff.

On the way back we listened to The Used, and Dylan wished I knew more MCR songs. I almost fell asleep but Josh wouldn't let me (that asshole). We got back to town safely and the night wasn't even over then!

Vicki and her sister Sable decided to show up for one final goodbye, so we all (Josh, me, Dylan, Jennifer, Vicki, and Sable) went it to hang out for a little bit. Jennifer wanted to play the Bleach game I had for PSP, and was occupied with that, while I played some guitar for Vicki. Then Dylan left, followed by Vicki and Sable. Jennifer stay for about half an hour playing Bleach. I kinda just watched her play, and we made up dialog for the story portion, since we can't read Japanese. Then she had to go.

Overall, it was a great day and I hope they happen again. It's great how a group of 8 people could be so close....and I'm glad to know every one of them and be well liked by them all.

Well, tis all for now....next week is rent due....good thing the last day for it to be due is payday....though....since I missed so much last week, that's all my check is gonna be good for...meh.

Till next time...

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "Cherish every waking moment, enjoy every sleeping moment, and take advantage of your life."

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This weekend is going to be a star studded one....staring me, Josh, Will, Dylan, Jennifer, Vicki, Matt, and maybe some other guest appearences.

Should be fun I would think...Saw 3, Corn Maze, and just hanging out with friends.

I've been checking out My Chemical Romance a lot lately.....I am loving their new CD a lot...and if you want to check it out, their website is streaming the whole thing for free! The End, Dead, Welcome to the Black Parade, Cancer, and Famous Last Words are worth a listen. All the songs are really good and when you get a chance, pick up the album. You won't regret it.

I miss work the beginning of this week, a full three days. And I'll be missing more soon, which I know certain people won't like. Gotta do it though...wanna go see 30 Seconds to Mars ^_^.

Can't believe I hit 1000 hits! Woo HOO!

Well that's all for now....not much else to speak on. Until next time!

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "Most things are within reach, you just need to open your eyes to see them."

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/10438013/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/10438013/ Wed, 18 Oct 2006 18:56:26 PDT Top 5 bands I am currently listening to!

1. Alice in Chains
2. 30 Seconds to Mars
3. Coheed and Cambria
4. The Used
5. Korn

Man, the past three weeks have been very blah for me. I haven't been really happy or anything and nothing exciting has happened. And all around me things are happening to the people I know that are making them stress out or get depressed. I know soon things will pick up cause a lot of things will be happening. Going to go see Saw 3, going to see 30 Seconds to Mars in concert, going to hang out with Vicki....a lot of fun things. But ultimately my life has slowed down a lot and I've been feeling the effects.

And on that note, I'm sure my friends would love to have my life right now. Nothing to worry about, no money problems, no family worries, no relationship quarells, no car troubles. I really have nothing on my plate that I can't handle. It's just my life is so routine right now, like I'm stuck in a cycle. Meh.

On a lighter side of things, I've been getting into Evanecense again, because their new CD is very melodic and not so wishy washy like the first CD. I guess I could account that too me not being exposed too much to it like their first outing. I figure whatever works.

I've been dreaming a lot more lately....but the two that stand out the most is when I dreamed I was Vince McMahon of WWE.....which was wierd...and one of my and Vicki....which I won't go into detail about...but that was freaky. It's nice to dream again though.

I've been saving money up and haven't been buying a lot of things lately...which is good because I've been waiting to buy the one thing I figure I'll play a lot...a Nintendo Wii...can't wait!

I should be posting some more lyrics soon...I've got a lot I haven't posted yet...just don't know which ones I want to show to the public. We'll see eh?

Well that's all for now...just had to get things off my chest. Until next time!

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "Physical abuse is more visible...but mental abuse hurts a lot more."

]]> ~one-loser http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/10362337/ http://one-loser.deviantart.com/journal/10362337/ Wed, 11 Oct 2006 19:20:19 PDT Top 5 bands I am currently listening to!

1. Alice in Chains
2. 30 Seconds to Mars
3. Coheed and Cambria
4. The Used
5. Korn

Hmm....well it's been awhile since I've had a proper journal entry...so here we go...

My face has finally started to feel the effects of Vicki's glasses...probably gonna try and get some new ones this weekend.

Also this weekend should be great because of the money that's gonna roll in. Probably gonna get some tickets as well as a hard drive for my PSP. MMM...yes...

In a few weeks Saw 3 will be in theaters....hopefully gonna go see that too.

Been playing me some World of Warcraft....pretty fun game...I knoe...I've been living in a hole...sue me...

Finally got to see the Death Note anime....it's not bad....and this cool website has comparisons from the manga to the anime...so I can check up on what's changed. Can't wait for them to show L!

Heroes just keeps getting better and better! I know this cause I just heard it's been picked up for a full season! Woo Hoo!

Still two words....Nintendo Wii....

Two more words....Guitar Hero....can't wait for the sequel!

Not much more going on in life....almost time for work so later!

one-loser

Quote of the Day: "We live waiting to die, and we die saying we didn't live long enough."

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