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Hmm, so it's almost been two months since I updated all of you...ok maybe like 3 of you who actually read my journals.

A lot has gone down. Tasha and I broke up. It's ok though, I had lost sight of what I wanted, what I started out with and she really wanted that person back. Maybe one day, when I grow up a little. I'm actually doing well, I know it sounds awful.

I got Cujo and Mr. P fixed and declawed and they've been limping around the past couple days. I'm going to start playing with a local hardcore band and I'll do some vocals/screaming. People say all the time "chicks can't scream" but you just wait. The only problem is these guys hate emo. Or so they claim, I know they're a bunch of softies.

I had a chance to go see Bury Your Dead and Walls of Jericho, etc but passed it up. Shh, don't ask why. ]]> ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/4038805/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/4038805/ Fri, 10 Dec 2004 22:18:37 PST ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/3960399/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/3960399/ Tue, 30 Nov 2004 22:09:24 PST
Other than that. Meh. ]]> ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/3930612/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/3930612/ Sat, 27 Nov 2004 09:49:40 PST ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/3746221/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/3746221/ Wed, 03 Nov 2004 17:55:51 PST
I should've posted my dumb little election sayings before it all went down. No one is in the mood now.

Here's two.

"Don't vote for Bush cos he is one!"

"Kerry isn't a fairy, but he supports them! Vote for Kerry 2004." ]]> ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/3674657/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/3674657/ Mon, 25 Oct 2004 20:54:13 PDT Mood: What the F--k?

So the girl that got me into trouble w/the law ( I didn't do shit to get in trouble) came by, risking her ass by parking in my driveway. Oh, she told me her feelings and all, she apparently wants to get over me but anytime she sees me somewhere she can't help but smile and she talked about being reminded of me with almost everything.

This looks like a trend, huh? Well, to those who know.

A friend's dog had 11 puppies, they're half germanshepard/husky mix( the mom) and it seems like a great dane got ahold of her. There's mostly black ones, then about 4 brindle. We'll be keeping a brindle one and I've got a name picked out already and everything. Bane....I dunno why. Actually i do. It'd be awesome to name a big dog that, I always wanted to name a horse Bane but great danes basically qualify.

Oh...this song reminds me of Shane off the L Word: Me vs. Madonna vs. Elvis also by brand new. Anyone who watches it should listen to that song and see if they think so too. Woo, everyone has a task now!


Oh yeah, and Texas killed Tech 51-31 ]]> ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/3409494/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/3409494/ Mon, 20 Sep 2004 19:27:49 PDT
Listening to: The Postal Service- The District Sleeps Alone Tonight

I haven't heard this song in awhile, but it's one I have on my mp3 because Tasha likes it a lot. But I had the mp3 list on random and so it came up, and all of our memories from living together before she left just rushed in, and it amazed me how much i had forgotten. And how much I miss and love. The way her eyes gleam when she looks at me, the way her voice sounds when she talks to me, the way she touches me, the way I know she cares, everything. I don't know, it just really made me miss her even more and so I fell into a crying fit. Her being on business for 4 months is really throwing off my aura, because I'm not acting like me. Oh well, it's only untill christmas break, right?

and wtf, thats so biased? I'm going to start calling it SOLSTICE break in front of EVERYONE! ]]> ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/3409420/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/3409420/ Mon, 20 Sep 2004 19:18:59 PDT ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/3166952/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/3166952/ Thu, 19 Aug 2004 18:01:36 PDT ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/3112118/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/3112118/ Sat, 14 Aug 2004 09:30:49 PDT I miss my baby.

She just made a page and is bummed she doesn't have any page views. It's kinda empty right now but everyone go welcome her . ~cynical-human-view ]]> ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/3075666/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/3075666/ Sun, 08 Aug 2004 16:34:31 PDT ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2987805/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2987805/ Wed, 28 Jul 2004 12:01:52 PDT
I've been watching my mothers dog while she's been on vacation. Today, I came home for lunch and found that her dog had killed the kitten we decided to keep. Black Mamba. He was lingering round the basket for a few days, being very protective and I guess he just wanted to play. I find out why on earth it had to be her. It sounds cruel, but she was albino, rare complete with pink eyes and all. They reached 3 weeks of age yesterday. She was always well behaved and so completely adorable and didn't mind hanging around humans. She would have been so beautiful. Everytime i think about it I weep uncontrollably for at least 10 minutes. at least ten minutes. i keep waiting for myself to wake up, and I can't believe she's dead. The basket seems so empty. It sounds so stupid but it's amazing what hapiness a small package can bring into your life, and the second its gone it's like your world falls apart. I'm not even going back to work. Cujo is walking around looking for the kitten and it's killing me.

xxWes ]]> ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2818990/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2818990/ Tue, 06 Jul 2004 16:49:46 PDT ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2791341/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2791341/ Fri, 02 Jul 2004 21:45:50 PDT
But it still kicks ass. The movie was in english, but the dubbing from japanese was into french. it sucked. but still, half of the movie was missing but it all still managed to make sense. I don't know.

Best movie ive seen in awhile tho, it kicked butt. ]]> ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2700628/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2700628/ Sat, 19 Jun 2004 22:33:07 PDT Oh I miss my sweet
And the birds all singing blue
And white
And white
Call me on your way back home, dear
Cause I miss you
Honey I ain't nothing new
Oh baby why did I treat you like I did
Honey I was just a kid
Bubblegum on my shoe
But you love me and I love you
Call me on your way back home, dear
Cause I miss you
And I just wanna die without you
Oh I just wanna die without you
Yeah I just wanna die without you
Without you Honey I ain't nothing new

Ryan Adams- Call Me on Your Way Back Home ]]> ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2657847/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2657847/ Mon, 14 Jun 2004 10:49:36 PDT
I bought new guitar strings tho, and restrung all the guitars but the acoustic sounds a little more lonely than it should, I don't know if that's my fault or just because of the strings I put on it.

I forgot how much Texas makes me laugh, how uptight the people are. As Ferris Bueler once said, theyre wound up so tight you could stick a lump of coal up their ass and in two weeks you'd have a diamod.

That'd be a great money maker, huh? I haven't had those kinds of stares in months. It was almost nostalgic, actually. But in my small town everyone got used to the local lesbian so the glares wore off. I guess it's that obvious? Maybe its all up in my aura.

Anyways, my camera was broken by some 17 year old brat. I hadn't even really got to use it yet either, it was used and Tasha bought it as a gift and it is one of those really nice ones you know, with the quality digital will never be able to capture. i left it sitting on the coffee table near the couch i was sleeping on at my grandmothers house and when i woke up the rewind crank was pulled out and the crank was up to 33 when last i checked it was on 4. the spring that holds the mirror up inside the camera is also missing. heh, i was pissed. excuse me, thats a little bit of an understatement.

i told him not to fuck with other peoples things even if its sitting out. its not an open invitation for gods sake, my god its not like its a throw away camera you dont just screw with it like its a 2 cent whore.

anyways, i didnt say it to that extent. i just said hey dont fuck with my camera, then i gave a came to jesus talk on how its not nice blah blah. im a nice person inside, really.

anyways, im off. xxWes ]]> ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2551030/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2551030/ Mon, 31 May 2004 14:35:59 PDT well well.

oh yeah, im pathetic not only because of this. it's because tasha's favorite tellie show [what not to wear] on TLC is having a marathon today. [yah i know, most of you hate it i dont really like it either.] but see, she's gone for the week and im finding myself moping around the house in one of her sweatshirts and curling up on the sofa watching it. she called earlier, we watched an episode of it together over the phone. i feel like such a loser. yeah, ahem. im gonna go now, ]]> ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2536950/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2536950/ Sat, 29 May 2004 16:09:47 PDT
But my personal studio/room/office that is all my own actually has a floor. Wow! I've reaaranged some furniture, got around to organizing some thing, etc. It's not the best anyone's ever seen, but it's the best to my ability which is pretty good since I am not an organized person at all.

I got a new retainer yesterday. Boy am I thrilled. You know, losing the invisaline retainer in the first place was one of the worst mistakes ive ever made. My teeth decided they hated each other, then i had to pay $250 bucks for one of those heavy duty reinforcer retainers. You're supposed to go through this kind of thing in Junior High, and High School and here i am attempting to be smooth and speaking with a lithsp. ]]> ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2521492/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2521492/ Thu, 27 May 2004 13:34:36 PDT Mood:Brainless
MusicThe Calendar Hung Itself - Bright Eyes
I do. I'm blonde, I obviously can't live without myself. I usually go for blondes anyways. But not slutty blondes, don't worry. the cute ones. annnyways.

that sounded a lot more conceited that i meant for it to. but ive spent the past two days trying to remember how the hell i make a journal entry on here and i finally figured it out again.

im such a genius.

tasha won't be back until thursday, it turns out. I'm having to meet her in dallas at the airport and my flight will arrive about 2 hours before hers so ill be killing time. so, i finished the exam to get out of school today and ill be getting my cosmetology license soon. hopefully.

When i dyed my hair blonde last week i think all of my brain mass washed out with the red.

I keep losing wait. when i stepped ont he scale this morning and it said 106.5, i dont think its too healthy when you're 5'7".

Other than that life is dandy. ]]> ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2508068/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2508068/ Tue, 25 May 2004 18:18:43 PDT jk. ]]> ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2458346/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2458346/ Tue, 18 May 2004 19:22:47 PDT them" click. oook, so the girl must be jealous i have new friends. new friends she absolutely hates. today she walked up to me and said she couldnt believe i thought she was jealous and that i "fucked with the wrong girl."....then she murmured something about starting rumors and "them" not wanting to hang out with me again. tell me, who does this when they are twenty years old? I said "ok, if you'd like." just went back to whatever i was doing. nobody seems to want to grow up these days. including my damn flowers. ]]> ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2401869/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2401869/ Mon, 10 May 2004 18:58:15 PDT if anyone were to spill their soul out to me with a guitar id definitely grow for them. i taught a kid that's trying out for drum major the salute i did when i held the position. *sigh* ahh, how i miss marching. ill have to go back home during marching season just to watch the games, and all. im out of school, and still the biggest band nerd. ]]> ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2389316/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2389316/ Sun, 09 May 2004 00:14:07 PDT ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2350853/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2350853/ Mon, 03 May 2004 12:23:36 PDT ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2333105/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2333105/ Fri, 30 Apr 2004 19:08:31 PDT it helps. but lemme tell ya, how are you supposed to write about the 45 minute orgasm when, by definition they are "short and intense". well shit, fuck me. not literally, tho ladies. im taken. heh. ]]> ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2325577/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2325577/ Thu, 29 Apr 2004 17:14:19 PDT ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2256558/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2256558/ Mon, 19 Apr 2004 14:33:33 PDT
You realize a lot when you're staring at the ceiling.

I woke up too early again. It's happening a lot lately, i wish i didn't have anything to worry about but then i probably wouldnt be much of a person. i stepped on the cat, then stuck myself in the finger with a safety pin. when things like that happen it makes you wonder why something so sharp got the name "safety". I ended up being late to "beauty school." i hate the fact they call it beauty school, i dunno it makes it seem less interesting. Maybe if they called it "X-treme" Hair. I dunno. Anyways. I'll add more later. Oh yeah! I finally finished the fucking second chapter of my fanfic today. Ive been working on it forever! ]]> ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2210845/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2210845/ Mon, 12 Apr 2004 21:15:27 PDT ~oneandonly http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2203514/ http://oneandonly.deviantart.com/journal/2203514/ Sun, 11 Apr 2004 21:49:30 PDT
Television shows can be life changing. Hell, it could even bring you to an epiphany. I don't know how many people watch Showtime's The L Word, but i certainly do. In fact i just watched the season finale, and I feel sadly enough as if I've lost a huge part of me. Perhaps a crutch on an escape that won't be there every Sunday at 9 as I need it.

It's not just the fact the show is about the lives of different lesbians, and the fact I'm a lesbian. It's the fact this whole season I've been able to relate myself to the promiscuous Shane McCutcheon. The old me anyways, I got a girlfriend and settled down, sort of. Let's just say I've definitely been around and leave it at that.

But it wasn't till this last episode that I realized its not just Shane I can relate myself to, its Bette. A woman who is sucessful and who has been with the same woman with 7 years. Almost anyways. SHe cheats on her girl twice during the finale. Now, there's nothing successful about me. I didn't go to college, I'm gay, my parents hate it, I'm going to try and live life as a cosmetologist, cutting hair. I slept around, now I dont. End of story, or so I thought. 7 months ago or so I was into drugs, alcohol, etc. I've been with my girl for a year and 3 months. She is a good girl, 20 and has never done drugs in her life. She lost her virginity to me.

I always told her I loved her. I did. I do. But something drove me past that. We were having problems I didn't think I could deal with, so I go out to have a good time. For about two months straight. I happened to cheat on her 4 times or so. Once with another, then another, then another, then the first two at the same time. I regret it and I would give anything to get that time back and make something better with it. I never told her about it. Till tonight.

I saw the finale tonight and it made me realize how much it means to have honesty in my relationship. I broke down and eventually told her. She said she's happy I waited to tell her, because she wouldn't have made it through another day if I had told her back then. We won't get into it tho.

Is there a moral to this post? I don't know, just rambling. For all of you that say you're love a person and then you go cheat on them because things get hard, just get over it, because eventually you're gonna need that person so much more than you ever needed them before. ]]> ~oneandonly