http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:onlyadreamer&section=today deviantART RSS for by:onlyadreamer en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 04 Dec 2009 00:39:46 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/17983225/ http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/17983225/ Tue, 22 Apr 2008 20:35:08 PDT
]]> ~onlyadreamer http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/17968719/ http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/17968719/ Mon, 21 Apr 2008 23:15:05 PDT
forced transmission

it's 3 am. hilliary a bsb fan?

shock muscle therapy

you should've tried staying up all night

reverse transcriptase

wrist brace. coding tapes.

you can be anyone today

]]> ~onlyadreamer http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/12001921/ http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/12001921/ Wed, 28 Feb 2007 14:50:55 PST How lame is that? I think I promised you guys pics like a month after I came back...
Anywayz, things are okay right now. Busy but ok. Finals are coming up. Lots of studying to do...
Hope everyone's doing good out there...
Peace.

]]> ~onlyadreamer http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/11909050/ http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/11909050/ Wed, 21 Feb 2007 13:56:11 PST Yes, I'm back again. I get so caught up in myself sometimes that I forget the important things.
And of course, something bad happens and I'm back here again. My refuge from the world. I have a few things I'd like to post over the next couple days...And I'll try to get caught up with all of you...
I'm still really busy with school, so bear with me.
Thanks

]]> ~onlyadreamer http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/10937142/ http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/10937142/ Sun, 03 Dec 2006 13:33:27 PST Funny how, I never attempt anything if I know I will fail, and the one time I take a risk and jump in, I sink and drown.
Isn't that just how it always seems to go?

]]> ~onlyadreamer http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/10464771/ http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/10464771/ Sat, 21 Oct 2006 10:50:41 PDT It was definitely a series of unfortunate events for awhile there. Then just yesterday things took a turn for the better big time.
I got asked out to lunch by a group of girls that I've always secretly envied. I have no idea what brought it on, but I walked up and they were like hey, you want to come to the Olive Garden with us. So of course I blew my lunch plans with my family that I had, and I went. It was fun but different. So already the day was out of the ordinary good. But once I got home I got the big news:
I just received a full 4 year scholarship to WSU! Can you believe it? And it's all academically based. This is what I've been working my butt off for my whole life!
So yeah. Relief there. No more applications. No student loans. I'm set.
Very good news.
Just had to share.

]]> ~onlyadreamer http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/10316344/ http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/10316344/ Sat, 07 Oct 2006 16:17:05 PDT Now the following might seem really lame to all of you, but try to remember that it happened to someone like me. Me, meaning, someone not brave at all, someone who doesn't talk to strangers, and someone who knows nothing about cars.

So I'm leaving Albertson's and I go to start my car. Key in the ignition. And it won't turn. The key won't turn. If there's no key turning there's no car starting. This has happened before, but usually on the second try things are fine and it turns, not this time. I try and try and it won't budge. So I pick up my cell phone and call my dad seeing as he drives my car all the time and he probably knows the trick to turn the key. But no one answered. I knew my dad and my sister were home but no one answered. I called again and again. My battery was dying and I was running out of minutes.

I thought of my boyfriend, not that he would really be any help seeing as he lives 40 minutes away, but I knew he was filming a wedding. I thought of my grandparents, but really I couldn't face the humiliation. I could just see my grandpa using this as a reason why I shouldn't be let out on my own.

I call home again. No answer. Seth, a guy who I've gone to school with and who works at Albertson's walks by helping a lady to her car. I get out of my car and stand there lamely waiting for him to finish talking to the lady.

He looks at me expectantly, and I quickly introduce myself and how I know him and I think he at least recognized me. I explained my problem and he comes over and checks it out. He can't get the key to turn either so I pop the hood and he checks that the battery is connected properly. He asks if I have someone to call, and I explain that no one is answering. He says he thinks it has something to do with the battery but he doesn't know what to do. So I thank him and get back into the car and just sit there with no idea what to do.

I try calling again, and I leave another tearful message. So I'm sitting there bawling my eyes out and I lay my head against the steering wheel and just pray, "please God, help me. Please." And I try it one last time. It turns without a catch.

Now before you think it's some powerful miracle, I talked to my dad when I got home. More like, he talked, and I blubbered through my tears. He said that when the steering wheel locks up, the spring sometimes get's in the way of the key turning. And you just have to firmly jiggle the wheel and it'll let the key slide past.

So when I put my head on the wheel, it must have moved it just enough. But I think it's still a miracle of sorts, because, I never would've touched the wheel, if I hadn't resigned and bowed my head to pray. I think God answers prayers in his own way, not your way. May way would've been for it to have never happened in the first place. His way was for me to come around and see that I needed him, and no one else could help me. Which is of course, the greatest miracle of all.

]]> ~onlyadreamer http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/10302880/ http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/10302880/ Fri, 06 Oct 2006 11:07:04 PDT Good work guys! You're all so talented! I barely feel worthy to look at your work sometimes! Keep it up!

]]> ~onlyadreamer http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/10285825/ http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/10285825/ Wed, 04 Oct 2006 18:19:12 PDT
]]> ~onlyadreamer http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/10276583/ http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/10276583/ Tue, 03 Oct 2006 21:34:35 PDT I'm down to 179 deviations, I'm getting there... Keep on working kiddos, and I'll keep on viewing!

]]> ~onlyadreamer http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/10224634/ http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/10224634/ Fri, 29 Sep 2006 10:58:21 PDT Peace.

]]> ~onlyadreamer http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/8356002/ http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/8356002/ Mon, 03 Apr 2006 17:04:58 PDT That is all! : ) ]]> ~onlyadreamer http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/7785631/ http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/7785631/ Thu, 02 Feb 2006 21:32:51 PST
i noticed you unblocked me.
i clicked to chat, excited.
'hey, why'd you do that?'
'because i can.'

'so what's up?'
i waited expectantly, hoping.
already dreaming of us again.
then you replied.

'just because i unblocked you,
doesn't mean i want to talk.'
my heart deflated, crushed.
how could i think you'd changed?

the same old sh*t,
that's what you were, obviously.
i wish that you'd re-block me.
you're a waste of my time.

you only bring me pain.
everything you say hurts me,
in a million different ways.
i need to move on.

i don't need your words
to cut me even deeper still.
i don't want the memories
lingering in my mind.

just leave me alone.
i think it's for the better.
sometimes i almost wish
that i'd never met you. ]]> ~onlyadreamer http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/7660407/ http://onlyadreamer.deviantart.com/journal/7660407/ Fri, 20 Jan 2006 18:41:42 PST
Well, that concludes my first entry. I just had to whine to someone about my trials and tribulations. Thanks for listening. ]]> ~onlyadreamer