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deviantART: by:orderly-chaos http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:orderly-chaos&section=today deviantART RSS for by:orderly-chaos en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 26 Nov 2009 09:14:21 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png KiRiBaN! http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/25851964/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/25851964/ Fri, 10 Jul 2009 02:14:40 PDT Image Description

Alright! So I don't think I've EVER?... Hah but it needs to happen as I'm at 13,000 views now!

This applies ONLY to deviantart kids

So if anyone from gaia made their way over, you need to have a DA account also!

This is pretty simple.

You get me a REAL screencap of -

13,131

Then you get lovely free giftart from me! Whether it's a chibi portrait of you, drawing of a character/oc of your own, whatever really!

I just happen to like the number 13

SO! That said,

HAVE AT IT!

]]> *orderly-chaos ALIVE! http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/25406516/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/25406516/ Fri, 19 Jun 2009 00:43:07 PDT Image Description

See? I'm alive. At least... some of the time! I'm going to try to be more frequent with my uploads! I am doing a LOT of art! BUT I give most of it away before I have a chance to photograph or scan it

We'll see if I can't steal back some more of them

Also! Going to be making more Lolita things in the future as well as star and clay things. Any suggestions? I like new ideas! I get bored of my own. Anyways, thanks for checking things out and just thought I'd give everyone a heads up! Thanks for being patient w/ the art dump too~

]]> *orderly-chaos NEW! http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/21794066/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/21794066/ Wed, 03 Dec 2008 03:56:00 PST Image Description

Just Playing with a new journal layout

Enjoy the eyebleeding Green-ness???

Brushes in HEADER used -

[link] by

[link] by

And this (in case you were too lazy to DL it from my deviations) was a present I made for

XD I just had to put it here... so kawaii~

I swear I'll post more...

sometime Image Description

]]> *orderly-chaos 10k http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/18281279/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/18281279/ Sun, 11 May 2008 21:36:56 PDT Image Description

Wow! Thank you guys so much! I wish I'd gotten the 10k, so we'll have to settle for this screenshot

]]> *orderly-chaos Return of the Stalker? UPDATED http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/16748338/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/16748338/ Thu, 14 Feb 2008 00:29:11 PST Image Description

Last year, upon purchasing my subscription, [link] didn't log on again or visit my page. This year, AFTER having purchased it and the new journal being made, they revisited 5 days after the journal posting, which means they're still lurking around. See?

And who the heck is Ceraphims-stalker? That can only be limited to a certain few because that is my WOW logon name and not an msn, myspace, or deviantart handle I use....

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So, it's been a while with few posts to boast of. This is not at all to say I'm inactive. I'm more, ghosting around at this point. My art hasn't died, I honestly don't have *as much* time for it, but the passion is still there and I am still creating. I just oft forget to upload it for the rest of you.

It has come to my attention [once again] my secret benefactor has been sure to sign in only long enough to buy me *another* years' subscription, for which I am thankful but a tad fearful?

Last year, within the same week of this subscription purchase by [link] , I also received a huge box of Pocky (which I love) with no return address other than the place they ordered it through.

While these acts are very sweet, I have gotten near restraining orders on people in the past, have had people stalk me, and while the sentiment is wonderful, I'd feel much more at peace if I knew who my 'special' friend happened to be.

If not also ironic, today I missed a parcel delivery in the mail and I have to go pick it up tomorrow. Strangely, the same day I once again receive my updated subscription? Talk about some freaky coincidences.

Considering it's been a year since this last happened, I doubt my 'friend' will tell me his/her identity this time either but... if they do, here's my reply note/thank you/request. Sweet, but definately weird.

<3

]]> *orderly-chaos ..mOvEd.. http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/13462447/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/13462447/ Sat, 23 Jun 2007 17:06:56 PDT Image Description

Wooo guys! I finally re-moved out. It's awesome. I don't quite have internet (thus the late post).. buuut we will! As another bit of news, I've been waiting around for the right job to open, much to others' criticism... and low and behold - I got the exact job at the exact place I wanted! All I had to do was wait! It's such a huge load off, and an answer to prayer. SO! If you need a haircut, colour, style, etc.. see me (soon) at Cutter's in the Dimond Center!

Oooh and looky guys! I finally figured out how to make my journal *so* much prettier! You really should be proud. I've been presently having a blast with photoshop brushes. I kept forgetting I have photoshop elements on here, which is just fantastic <3

Thanks to all of those who let me use their brushes they've been beautiful!

On that note, for a feature, since it's been a while I'd like to show off -

[link]

(stock/brushes account)

I've used brushes from her for forever off and on. They're beautiful, amazingly high quality, and all around wonderful! Check out her page pleaaaaasies? Thanks.

More to come

]]> *orderly-chaos Secret Admirer or Scary Stalker? http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/11837198/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/11837198/ Fri, 16 Feb 2007 01:20:31 PST
In the past.. probably 2 months, someone (none of these are admitted or necessarily related but I am assuming)... bought me a subscription (not Kitsu, the yearlong one) here at Deviantart. Not long after, I received one of my favourite (listed in my favourites) art print from here also. Now this was all done through the corporation that *is* that is this website, BUT... I just got something else today.

Many people know I *love* pocky. Very very few know my address. Someone sent me a box of like, 9 boxes of Pocky from some place in California. Now granted, this is sweet but is hard to take as being *not* creepy considering one would've had to first have had my address to do so. Anyhow this is where you guys come in.

Is this Creepy? Is it Sweet? Should I just enjoy the shower of gifts?

I'm not sure what to think, but if anyone knows who this is from (or is the wonderful culprit), please, for the sake of my nerves, let me know. Aside from that - whoever you are, Thank you! It's fantastic. <3 In a slightly creepy way.

]]> *orderly-chaos Wow hey guys! http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/11477745/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/11477745/ Thu, 18 Jan 2007 03:35:08 PST
I should hopefully have some things to upload very soon! And once this next week dies down I'll be able to be around here more as well.

Someone needs to help me figure out/remember how to do the journal pretties... cause I want my journal to be loverly again.
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HUGE thank yous to Kitsu and CocktailPlatter. Kitsu got me some subscription time, and the mysterious Cocktailplatter got me an entire year subscription! Wow guys, way to make a girl feel loved yeah? I'll find out who you are CP.. and thank you Kitsu doll *glomps*

I'll update this soon and let you guys know what's been goin on in my life, so you're not so much in the dark as to my random disappearing act. I swear I'm not a good magician

I love you guys, and will be around very soon! Keep up the loverly arts.

]]> *orderly-chaos More Than It Seems - Kutless http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/10502896/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/10502896/ Wed, 25 Oct 2006 03:40:22 PDT Or is all this really happening to me
Am I a prince in a far away land filled with fantasy

Where is reality and what are the actions that will define who I am?
I am holding onto the visions I've seen of what I could be
It's what I should be

[Chorus:]
More than it seems these dreams inside
(show me the way to these dreams)
Blur reality's line
('til there's nothing that's left of me)
If I could believe the dreams aside
(show me the way to these dreams)
I am capable more than it seems

Passing through darkness into my own world
Will I be more than when I left ( be more than when I left)
Never letting go of the lessons I learned
This will make a change
A change within me

[Chorus:]
More than it seems these dreams inside
(show me the way to these dreams)
Blur reality's line
('til there's nothing that's left of me)
If I could believe the dreams aside
(show me the way to these dreams)
I am capable more than it seems

This time I won't run away
I found the strength to face life's long days
This time I won't run away

[Chorus:]
More than it seems these dreams inside
(show me the way to these dreams)
Blur reality's line
('til there's nothing that's left of me)
If I could believe the dreams aside
(show me the way to these dreams)
I am capable more than it seems

'Til there's nothing left of me
Show me the way to these dreams

]]> *orderly-chaos 100 Theme Challenge<3 In Love? http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/10326338/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/10326338/ Fri, 27 Oct 2006 04:30:04 PDT

I've had a bit of an epiphany if you will today while sitting in bed, talking to new friends, old friends, and my own thoughts dancing about in my head. I've found I'm in love - with memories. I'm in love with the memory of my old cats, and how large Matthew was and smart Reba was.. I'm in love with Christmas time, and special times with my parents when I was little... I'm in love with the first crush and 'boyfriend' I had and silly secret notes that were written, such astounding words of 'love' written with true fervor that I would only dream for in a day like this. I hope soon I can learn to love more than memories again. It is only a matter of time. Love the life you're in, you only get one shot.

[link] Check out the info here, more to come soon! Stolen from Chibi

REVISED Theme List
1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Rot
6. Break
7. Heaven
8. Away
9. Cut
10. Breathe
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Spit
17. Blood
18. Under
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. War
22. Mother
23. Distastefull
24. Want
25. Lurking
26. Europe
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Urban
30. Rain
31. Flower
32. Night
33. Wrath
34. Moon
35. Walk
36. Precious
37. See
38. Abandoned
39. Dream
40. 4:29 PM/AM [link]
41. Citric Acid
42. Still
43. Die
44. Two Roads
45. Two Guns
46. Drop
47. Dirt
48. Young
49. Preservatives
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Old
53. Desecrate
54. Tower
55. Need
56. Biohazard
57. Sacrificial
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Desert
61. Fairy Tale
62. Voodoo
63. Do Not Disturb
64. City
65. Horrorific
66. Snow
67. Drum
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mislead
73. I. Can't.
74. Confrontation
75. Mirror
76. Broken
77. Testament
78. Drink
79. Empty
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. +
83. Heal
84. Cold
85. Sick
86. Seeing Red
87. Hunger
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drown
92. Rape
93. Iron
94. Soft
95. Advertisement
96. Storm
97. Safety
98. Puzzle
99. Alone
100. Gone

P.S... I moved to San Diego! Bye Alaska!

]]> *orderly-chaos For once.. writing something useful http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/10014084/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/10014084/ Fri, 08 Sep 2006 21:46:59 PDT
I didn't have to see another one, I fell in love with her immediately. I had gotten a large stuffed cat at Cosco earlier in the day, and it was still in the car. When we got back my best friend and I put the cat between us and lay the tiny kitten on it. She was amazingly cute. We later found out she was only about 4 weeks old at thetime, which explained her fitting in the palm of your hand (we'd thought she was the runt).

After a few grueling days of trying to pick a name, my older sister noticed the kitten chasing shadows. She moved her hand to make shadows, and made the tiny kitten chase them until she attacked things, and people. From that her name was given. (Mum wanted it to be Cleopetra, so her middle name has always been thus...) From then on began the amazing relationship, yes relationship I had with her. For a year straight, I came home every day from school, ran into the room we kept her in while she was still little, snatched her up before my little brother could, and cuddled with her for a few hours while watching cartoons.

She would cuddle with me, lick me on command, and follow me everywhere. She was astounding. I could bug her to the ends of the earth, but if I picked her up and told her I loved her, she would lick me nonstop until I pulled her from any bare skin and begged her to. Every single time I cried, whether quietly, or out loud, no matter what part of the house I was in, minutes after I'd start she'd be there. She would scratch and scratch at the door to any room I was in when I was crying, she would come in, and refuse to leave my side until I stopped. She was glued to my side every time I was sick. She was better than any dog anyone's had. I told her things I couldn't tell anyone, hid in her soft fur when I couldn't speak and could only cry... I really don't care what anyone's explanation for her actions were, she was amazing.

This is the important part I really want for people to read...

Earlier this week mum and I noticed her acting strangely and looking sick. We found out later that her death was, aside from complications, due to something very common. She was fairly overweight, and when my family went on a recent vacation, she slowly stopped eating. When an overweight cat stops eating, it can cause liver disease and possibly lead to cancer. She got jaundis to begin with and that just lead to worse and worse things, ending with parts of her body shaved after testing, a tube in the back of her neck, and the last few hours of her life drugged out to oblivion, alone in a vet clinic where they phoned us and said she had respiratory failure and put her down. The reason I beg of anyone reading to read this specifically is because it's painful. It's horrible. She died in an amazing amount of pain, and alone. This could have easily been stopped had we been more health concious of her. If you love your animal, I don't care how upset they are if you feed them less or get them healthy food. Just because they function fine being overweight doesn't mean something unseen might pop up. The doctors told us originally that she would be fine and merely needed treatment. Through out the week they've said that and said she was for sure going to recover. Due to all of the above mentioned, she didn't make it. Please love your furry friends, and do what's best for them. I have two other cats, and immediately upon finding this out we already started regulating food better. Don't let sickness or death come about because it seems like they're fine. This is a bit drastic, probably because it's recent to me, but if you have a best friend that roams on four legs, do your best for them; trust me, they always do their best for you.

I love you and miss you Shadow; You will always be loved. 9/8/06 [link] ]]> *orderly-chaos Devious Journal Entry http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/8667704/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/8667704/ Thu, 04 May 2006 00:33:57 PDT

Mood: Moo

inspired

Tagged by

HERE ARE THE RULES:

The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged"

in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours...

1. I love cars and video games, but I'm a Cosmetologist (hairdresser). That's probably the easiest odd thing about me because I freak out my clients constantly. It rocks hardcore.

2. Has to do with the hairdresser bit but... I am one, but I [generally] can't stand girls. And am surrounded by them. Yeah, that freaks even ME out. It makes me ridiculously uncomfortable. We don't often relate - at all.. so I feel like I'm always out.

3. I love rain. I'm Alaskan and it doesn't really rain here, so when it does I go crazy nuts and do one of my favourite things ever - Puddle Jumping.

4. I'm the most creative when under stress. I can't stick with one thing either, whether it's making tons of candy or drawing, writing a song, or photography.. I'm n ot really into sticking with one thing. I guess it's just my way of handling it in a constructive way!

5. I pretty much can't *not* love someone. I can dislike anyone, easily. But I have a hard time truly hating anyone. I really can't. I will always find something about anyone that I can love. And I guess that's how I deal with people I don't 'like'. ^^

6. o.O I can bend the tips of my fingertips while keeping the rest of my finger straight? Haha yeah I ran out of ideas but I guess thats.. kinda an odd...thingy.... yeah. so...uhm.. I hate bears? That should count as odd XD

You people are tagged now!

[link]

]]> *orderly-chaos Devious Journal Entry http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/7670625/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/7670625/ Sat, 21 Jan 2006 20:39:11 PST

Mood: Moo

inspired

So I thought it would be good to actually change this up. How are you guys doing? I'm pretty busy these days but definately trying to still stick around. luv luvs <3 we'll see what tomorrow brings.

]]> *orderly-chaos Contest? Pagviews? Subscription?? COME SEE http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/6787848/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/6787848/ Sun, 16 Oct 2005 23:40:00 PDT

Mood: Moo

inspired

UPDATE-
hey hey guys! I missed ya, how you doin??? Guess what! I'm back and guess what else! I'm almost at a WHOOOOLE lot of pageviews... SO I think I'ma hafta do a commish for whoever gets that biggy pageview..

Also, I think I'd like to hold a contest sometime soon, anyone interested in possibly joining? Drop me a note!! Never know what the prize could be... possible subscription might be one of the prizes... updates to come

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COSPLAY! Alaska is finally having a Con! Thing is..I can't figure out who to go as.. these are my ideas/others' ideas and suggestions

Rikku (Final Fantasy)
[link]
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Kisa (Fruits Basket)
[link]
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Kagome (Inu Yasha)
[link]
[link]
Sailor Moon (Sailor Moon)
[link]
[link]
Ed (Cowboy Bebop)
[link]
[link]
Xianghua (Soul Caliber) [link]
[link]

So what do you guys think? Check my poll [link] and give me some advice!!!!

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I need to find a new featured artist X.X
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Former Featured Artists-

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my clubbies!

one of my bestest best friends ever!

one of the bestest artists ever!
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And here are some of my faaaaaavy icons! hah

http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/6247654/ Thu, 15 Sep 2005 19:40:43 PDT

Mood: Moo

inspired
Listening to: people in the background

UPDATE-
I do not have a working computer right now so forgive me! Hopefully I'll be back soon *sends love* Miss you guys!

What this is about..is COSPLAY! Alaska is finally having a Con! Thing is..I can't figure out who to go as.. these are my ideas/others' ideas and suggestions

Rikku (Final Fantasy)
[link]
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Kisa (Fruits Basket)
[link]
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Kagome (Inu Yasha)
[link]
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Sailor Moon (Sailor Moon)
[link]
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Ed (Cowboy Bebop)
[link]
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Xianghua (Soul Caliber) [link]
[link]

So what do you guys think? Check my poll [link] and give me some advice!!!!

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Sooo, you guessed it! Time for another featured artist

So I'm not entirely sure why this person only has 200-something pageviews, but I say we jack that up a bit hm? real4fantasy

is now my featured artist! Her art is so beautiful, despite a few submissions, they're all worth taking a look at! So much detail and so many vibrant colours, they're wonderful! Here's just a few of her pieces..

If you've got time, drop an encouraging note too! Aren't these pictures just amazing? SO so lovely.

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my clubbies!

my sweetheart

*orderly-chaos Scott Jarkoff and DA happenings http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/6114261/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/6114261/ Thu, 04 Aug 2005 02:05:35 PDT

Listening to: Final Fantasy:Crystal Chronicles background music

~~NOTE: I leave for Guatemala then California today (the 4th) Pray for me please, I'll miss you all, and will be back in a few weeks! hope by then all the Jark stuff clears. Long live yellow aliens!~~

~~This is Highly Important. If you want any true information concerning Jark and his entire situation, Please go to -~~ ~~[link]~~

So, I've finally gotten myself caught up on this situation...Thanks mostly to saumurai007

But anyhow... for anyone that knows me, if I'm upset, I'm bound to rant. So here it is.

I'd like you all to take a good look at the above posted site. So yeah, it's long, I don't care. Read it ALL. I did, and it explains a lot. I find myself standing in a place where I don't want to become too involved directly (not that I can but I suppose I'd not like to become more adament than I am in this journal) but I must say this is ridiculous. To me, this is basically like what so many people try to do today.

God - Makes the world, creates it all, even later sends His Son to DIE and save the world..

World - You pretty much suck. Go away! In fact, you were never there to begin with.

Take that, on a smaller scale, and you have Jark and Matteo. Quite simply. That is what has happened and is happening. I truly hope as sticky as legal situations can get that Scott takes this as far as he can. I'm pretty sure it wouldn't be hard for so many of us to be backing him up at least, that's for sure. If not, if you read, from comments and journals on the site, if deviantart does not remain standing, they will simply restart. And if you're any kind of human being with a passion for art and not money, you'd be the first to jump on the band wagon and go off to the new place. I know that's going to be me if that's what it comes to.

However, I do not suppose I'm going to join the "art strike". I never personally knew Jark or Matteo, nor would I suppose that there would be a reason for me to know them. I think that by not submitting anything, we are destroying the "community" that they created. How silly is that? I'm angry so I'll just riot about everything. I don't know it seems ridiculous to me. I will continue to support Jark and Matteo, but until either they have control of this place again, or until they remake something, I think I'm going to continue as I was. Spyed might have stuck his foot in and ruined some things, but I still have friends and people I love here, and my small part of the community has not died, and I'm not about to let it. Though, again, I will continue my support of jark and matteo. *sends them hugs, and of course, gold stars

_{to support and get your own ribbon, go to [link] made by the o-c}

]]> *orderly-chaos Lots of Work http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/5199825/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/5199825/ Fri, 08 Jul 2005 04:05:22 PDT

Mood: Excited

shnazzy
Listening to: Saviour - Skillet
Reading: -
Watching: -

HEY! Everyone.. I just made my first brush set, go check it out at [link] They're butterfly wings, and I hope you guys like them! Puleaaaaaaase go take a look. I'd greatly appreciate it, thanks!

I HAVE A FULL SUBS!!! YAY! .. and a job. goody goody. ty thedarkhorizon for my subsy!

Anyhow, now that I'm over that, here's what I'm currently working on! What you guys think?

Orion Status:

skin coloured

Moonset Status:

finished!

Moonset Duo Status:

1/2 the piccy is done!

Rainbow Brite Status:

some colouring done

Moira Status:

er.. just the sketch!

Under Construction Status:

finished!

The first is a friendly Commission for Orion Fantasy, the Moonset ones are of my Pheerai, RB is just a favourite of mine and the last one is now all doneIn any case, throw me some feedback. What you guys think so far???

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my sweetheart

http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/5180959/ Sun, 24 Apr 2005 21:54:00 PDT

Mood:

really confused
Listening to: She Walked Away-Barlow Girls
Reading: -
Watching: Some Robin Williams one

Wow guys. I have such mixed feelings right now. I'm really angry at my parents,... for many reasons... like very, but I hop on here, and they gave me a free week long subscription! Isn't that awesome? We'll see. I really want to get a year one, but that'd mean my art would have to be good... Hah anyhow,.. this makes me happy! We'll just have to see how it goes. Maybe I'll finish the Rainbow Brite picture tonight because of this..... yay!

]]> *orderly-chaos mew. http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/5062623/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/5062623/ Mon, 11 Apr 2005 21:59:19 PDT

update-

Thank the Lord that even in my weakness He is my strength. Even in these days where I'm so angry or disappointed, and I refuse to be kind or give my entire self, my 100%, my effort, He still gives me 100% and more. Thank the Lord that he never gives up or gives half of anything but loves all of the time, despite the fact that I am not always faithful, always listening, always kind or always loving to Him or others. Thank the Lord that He is who He is. I wouldn't change Him for the world...

I can do ALL things, through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13 ]]> *orderly-chaos Be INFORMED!!!! http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/4993427/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/4993427/ Sun, 03 Apr 2005 23:59:14 PDT
"So if you haven't gone to your profile setting page and gone to the deviation agreement page, you should all go uncheck all your deviations unless you want to give deviantART permission to use your work however they see fit without having to pay you anything if they make money off of it, or even without having to let you know about them using it. so, be informed!"

Thanks, hope this helps you keep your art safe. Loves.

]]> *orderly-chaos IRISH DAY! http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/4842101/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/4842101/ Thu, 17 Mar 2005 23:36:41 PST

Happy St. Patrick's Day all! Love you guys

]]> *orderly-chaos CONTEST! http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/4756633/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/4756633/ Tue, 08 Mar 2005 00:28:17 PST

]]> *orderly-chaos ...the luckiest... http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/4715835/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/4715835/ Wed, 02 Mar 2005 23:22:04 PST In fact, I am told that a lot
Now I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and falls
Brought me here

And where was I before the day
That I first saw your lovely face?
Now I see it everyday
And I know

That I am
I am, I am
The luckiest

What if I'd been born fifty years before you
In a house on the street where you live?
Maybe I'd be outside as you passed on your bike
Would I know?

And in a wide sea of eyes
I see one pair that I recognize
And I know

That I am
I am, I am
The luckiest

I love you more than I have ever found a way to say to you

Next door there's an old man who lived to his nineties
And one day passed away in his sleep
His wife, she stayed for a couple of days
And passed away

I'm sorry, I know that's a
strange way to tell you that I know
we belong
That I know
That I am
I am, I am
The luckiest

That I know
That I am
I am, I am
The luckiest

ben folds ]]> *orderly-chaos Hey hey http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/4667008/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/4667008/ Fri, 25 Feb 2005 00:21:28 PST How's that sound? And it'll be *REALLY* good, I promise. In the meantime, I'll try to get some stuff up here for you guys! Don't worry, I'm still here.

and as a ps- I am going to try to clean out my gallery. LOTS of old junk in it...>.< ]]> *orderly-chaos WOW! http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/4550495/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/4550495/ Thu, 10 Feb 2005 22:14:49 PST celebrate!!!!!! PARENTS GOT A SCANNER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^_^ *DIES* YAY!!!!!!!!!!

So guys, if you happen to notice the differences in some of my old pieces, it's because I'm

scanning

them and putting better versions on. See? I can colour!

enjoy ]]> *orderly-chaos Pessemism http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/4524798/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/4524798/ Mon, 07 Feb 2005 20:56:42 PST
The guy isn't just pessemistic - y'know the glass half full half empty thing? Well, for him, the glass is completely empty - in fact it broke; and then he accidently stepped on the broken glass, got an infection, and -now- has to amputate his leg. THAT is pessemistic... ]]> *orderly-chaos prayer http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/4433337/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/4433337/ Thu, 27 Jan 2005 23:15:52 PST ]]> *orderly-chaos alrighty! trades, commishs, etc. http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/4132756/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/4132756/ Thu, 20 Jan 2005 22:36:54 PST Trades and Commishs!

Alright guys! I'm feeling nice. Since it's the holidays and I have more time, I'm open to free commish work, trades, and the like! Anyone who would like anything that you've previously seen me do (photography, drawing, etc) let me know if you want me to do something for you

Details

For any idea for what you would like, I want specific details! If it is a picture, I want ideas, anthro or not, realistic or not, colours, black and white, clothing, etc (I think you get the idea

). So... Let the work begin!!!

Current works and progress

>>>>>>sorry for "disappearing" I had finals and they just about killed me.. but don't worry! I'm back (as can be seen!) I hope you like what I've got in store! And yes, I'm still open to trade/commishs!!!

<<<<<<

Contest Winner 2
lineart: done
colouring: 0%

Fox/angel -
sketch: done
lineart: 25%

Simple hug -
lineart: done
colouring: 0%

AG
sketch: done
lineart: 0%

Hero complex
sketch: near done
lineart: 0%

Hawk gifty
sketch: near done
lineart: 0%

Princess Dreams
sketch: near done
lineart: 0%

Indian/Irish
idea- in progress! (ty Frog)

Tell me watcha want guys!
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[link]

Gaia Online
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peoples I love ----->

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peoples I admire ----->

]]> *orderly-chaos for the italian... ^_^ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/4069898/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/4069898/ Tue, 14 Dec 2004 23:19:36 PST

1. who are you?
2. are we friends?
3. when and how did we meet?
4. how have i affected you?
5. what do you think of me?
6. what's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. how long do you think we will be friends?
8. do you love me?
9. do you have a crush on me?
10. would you kiss me?
11. would you hug me?
12. physically, what stands out?
13. emotionally, what stands out?
14. do you wish i was cooler?
15. on a scale of 1-10, how hot am i?
16. give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. am i loveable?
18. how long have you known me?
19. describe me in one word.
20. what was your first impression?
21. do you still think that way about me now?
22. what do you think my weakness is?
23. do you think i'll get married?
24. what makes me happy?
25. what makes me sad?
26. what reminds you of me?
27. if you could give me anything what would it be?
28. how well do you know me?
29. when's the last time you saw me?
30. ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. do you think i could kill someone? ]]> *orderly-chaos the contest is cloooooooooosed! http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/3897914/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/3897914/ Mon, 06 Dec 2004 00:57:22 PST
First - 1wayconversation

orderly-chaos
c. e. jacobson
is a Varied Artist
is Female
is a deviant since Feb 27, 2003, 9:03 PM
has 2,000 pageviews

Second - texanspaniard

orderly-chaos
c. e. jacobson
is a Varied Artist
is Female
is a deviant since Feb 27, 2003, 9:03 PM
has 2,001 pageviews

Third - Illistrauthor

she was wonderful, really must've wanted to win, so she tried twice!

orderly-chaos
c. e. jacobson
is a Varied Artist
is Female
is a deviant since Feb 27, 2003, 9:03 PM
has 1,996 pageviews
and
has 2,004 pageviews

You guys are wonderful, thank you so much for all of these! Now what it comes down to is this...
I'm not sure how I'm going to go about who gets what, but I want to know what you three want. Drawings, Photomanips, whatever. As far as drawings go, I know there are VERY few, but I do realistic things as well as anime-esce; and Kels

(go see her) is willing to lend me the use of her scanner so... Yes! If I feel brave maybe I'll send you the originals or something. But this is all up to you, so please respond ASAP! And thank you for trying and for checking out my things and supporting me so much! Love you guys!

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<--- for Frog's Da... BLUE SCREEN OF DEATH (for real this time) ]]> *orderly-chaos guess what! http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/3889851/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/3889851/ Mon, 22 Nov 2004 01:22:26 PST or the next closest!

love you guys! ]]> *orderly-chaos contesto! http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/3854065/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/3854065/ Wed, 17 Nov 2004 00:19:27 PST love you guys, really did mish ya! ]]> *orderly-chaos *~NOTICE~* http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/3577758/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/3577758/ Wed, 13 Oct 2004 00:26:27 PDT
edit- no, I don't have a scanner, this was done w/ the evil camera. and yes, it butchered the coloured pencils... ]]> *orderly-chaos props!!!!!!!! http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/3507842/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/3507842/ Mon, 04 Oct 2004 02:26:56 PDT hey! everyone give props, loves, stars, and hugs, to ...

annakkah !!!!!!!!!!!

Not only is she a wonderful, beautiful person, a great artist and friend.. but...... she helped me learn to colour and she drew Celesse!!! (*see current favy*) so please, if you will, stop by her page and give her some love yo! she's been here a while and she's

amazing!

^_^ love ya girly. ]]> *orderly-chaos -riverdance- http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/3440494/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/3440494/ Sat, 25 Sep 2004 01:01:36 PDT
p.s. Pedro- I SAW FLAMENCO DANCERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ]]> *orderly-chaos sorry >.< http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/3366930/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/3366930/ Wed, 15 Sep 2004 01:45:24 PDT *orderly-chaos lessons from games http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/3144244/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/3144244/ Tue, 17 Aug 2004 02:28:00 PDT
-softball is a non contact sport (hey they should've told the guy standing on first base BEFORE I body checked him..)

-fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me. my left shin was fooled. twice. shame and BUMPS on me. (stupid ball..)

-sliding on your legs for a base whilst wearing shorts will tend to be painful.

-you are supposed to tag the person you want to get out with the ball, not your whole body. (hey it hurt me too! sorry!)

Oh yeah I had a -great- night. hehe I really did, if painful ]]> *orderly-chaos shamelessly silly deviant journal entry http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/3043024/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/3043024/ Wed, 04 Aug 2004 16:07:45 PDT
[link]

and if you see the red dog and girl.. ignore^_^ the rest is good.

very cute I thought, and wow what a way to waste YOUR day...

ps. I GOT PHOTOSHOP 7!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*dances about*

]]> *orderly-chaos this is your life http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/3036032/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/3036032/ Tue, 03 Aug 2004 17:19:03 PDT Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
Yesterday is a promise that you've broken
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes

This is your life and today is all you've got now
And today is all you'll ever have
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes

This is your life
Are you who you want to be
This is your life
Are you who you want to be
This is your life
Is it everything you've dreamed it would be
When the world was younger
and you had everything to lose

Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes

Yesterday is a kid in the corner
Yesterday is dead and over

This is your life
Are you who you want to be
This is your life
Are you who you want to be
This is your life
Is it everything you've dreamed it would be
When the world was younger
and you had everything to lose

Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes

this is your life switchfoot

this didnt hit me so hard 'til I looked up the lyrics after hearing a line I liked. wow it makes me think. I'm not who I want to be. Thankfully God has changed that and I'm forever "under construction"... ]]> *orderly-chaos just a reminder to myself http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/3029114/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/3029114/ Mon, 02 Aug 2004 18:40:53 PDT *orderly-chaos New stuff! http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2984528/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2984528/ Tue, 27 Jul 2004 23:53:01 PDT I will try to get a scanner soon, seeing as I >draw< much more than do photography, so we'll see! Then I can put paintings on here too. Anyways, thanks for your support, hope you like 'em! Love loves^_^ ]]> *orderly-chaos If I http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2958504/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2958504/ Sat, 24 Jul 2004 16:52:12 PDT Vs. 1
if I should wish to waste away
my every single waking day
then where would I be?
if I should find love in your arms
so far away from every harm
then here shall I be

Pre-chorus
so pull me close
hold me safe in your arms
and bring me near
let me never stray afar

Chorus
because I cannot live a day
without your ever present face
I find I need you here with me
or I will never truly be
for I know You alone are God
and I'll forever be your child
and that is all I need to know

Vs. 2
if I should find I feel alone
forsake the love I've ever known
then who can i be?
if I should wish forget you not
remember life, your blood has bought
your child I shall be

Pre-chorus
so pull me close
hold me safe in your arms
and bring me near
let me never stray afar

Chorus
because I cannot live a day
without your ever present face
I find I need you here with me
or I will never truly be
for I know You alone are God
and I'll forever be your child
and that is all I need to know

if i - c.e.jacobson ]]> *orderly-chaos I hate this http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2955901/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2955901/ Sat, 24 Jul 2004 09:26:29 PDT
she will... be loved... she will... be loved...

I want that I want that I want that. So bad. but at the same time I don't. Running on 15 minutes of sleep and a bit of sugar and caffeine, not having slept in quite a long time is not wise, specially with everything seeming to go on lately, but I couldn't =make= myself sleep right now even if I wanted to. I find tears are my only console right now. This song is so right but it hurts. I keep thinking it applies to so many different people but I don't know which is right. I don't want to talk to God, I don't want to read my Bible, in all honesty, that isn't something I have a desire to do right now. It'll change later, but right now it's how I feel.

I don't care how much this stinks, it was something that came to my head right before I fell asleep the other night...I made myself get up and write it down..

why do I try
this lullabye
full of slurs
unending words
when I just cry
finding that I
have comfort - none
from moon or sun
just say goodbye
as I just cry
myself to sleep
wet pillow, weep
these thoughts just lie
but I won't die
empty I stay
for one more day
I still can't fly
though death defy
-but-
why live alone
none can atone.

...who am I?...

it hurts. I can't decide people. that's like chosing pieces of my heart....

I don't know what to do anymore.

tap on my window, knock on my door... I want to make you beautiful... ]]> *orderly-chaos Moulin Rouge http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2950456/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2950456/ Fri, 23 Jul 2004 14:25:54 PDT ...the great-est thing... you'll e-ver learn.. is to be loved - and to love.. in .... re-turn.... *fades to black* ]]> *orderly-chaos do de do^_^ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2923540/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2923540/ Tue, 20 Jul 2004 02:00:06 PDT love all! ^_^ lataz ]]> *orderly-chaos rubber bands and blinking eyes http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2903767/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2903767/ Sat, 17 Jul 2004 11:42:42 PDT
just a thought I had. on a different note, possibly relating but put here mostly for a friend of mine...

I realized today that people at big church gatherings, events, anything that is of any importance and where there is a message spoken, will at one point or another say, "You can change your life today, tomorrow you can wake up different" and it hit me. Why wait for tomorrow? Think about God. Omnipotent, Omiscient, and Omnipresent. It isn't that He doesn't have a -grasp- on time, it's that He doesn't need it. Never has. God sees your beginning and your end and beyond every time He looks at you. There is always a possibility for change. So why give it another morning? I think I'd prefer to think that every -moment- is an opportunity to change. Every time you breathe, every time you blink, you have an opportunity for God to see you as a completely different pure person where everything you've done before doesn't matter. You just have to ask Him for it. Sometimes we as humans try to complicate and excuse things. Why do you think God made it so simple for our small and weak minds? It's the only way we'd understand. Every time you breathe, there is an opportunity for a new you. Take it. ]]> *orderly-chaos Okay guys I need some help here! http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2882209/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2882209/ Wed, 14 Jul 2004 16:44:38 PDT Alright, I've been wanting to cut my hair for-ever. I'm going to find more pics and put them on here, but so far I like hers

[link]
...something like that.

Can I have a poll? Here's my picture site
[link]

(sorry if I break anyone's glasses or mirrors!). I need opinions for a special friend of mine who will be VERY sad if i cut my hair. Poll away!^_^ and if not cut it,

dye it?
yes/no?

if yes- i'm opting for red again
yes/no?

hehe thanks guys! ^_^

]]> *orderly-chaos watch me now http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2873709/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2873709/ Tue, 13 Jul 2004 16:03:24 PDT the cure In his honour, I'm posting some of the lyrics I thought were interesting.

Something small falls out of your mouth
And we laugh
A prayer for something better
A prayer
For something better
Please love me
Meet my mother...
But the fear takes hold
Creeping up the stairs in the dark
Waiting for the death blow

---

I've been looking so long at these pictures of you
That I almost believe that they're real
I've been living so long with my pictures of you
That I almost believe that the pictures are
All I can feel

---

I've got to let it go and leave it gone
Just walk away, stop it going on
Get too scared to jump if I wait too long
But maybe someday...

I'll see you smile as you call my name
Start to feel, and it feels the same
And I know that maybe someday's come
Maybe someday's come...
Again!

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interesting hm? ah well. ^_^ I think I liked pictures of you best mhm. mhm. oh, right happy birthday little brother!

(it's his special day) yishniss. on another note? just putting this for myself. it's an idea...'programed for disbelief'. just so I dont forget it. anywho. not sure what else to say, my brain hopped away today so I think I'll do so too. toodles! ]]> *orderly-chaos watch me now.. http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2873703/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2873703/ Tue, 13 Jul 2004 16:02:10 PDT the cure In his honour, I'm posting some of the lyrics I thought were interesting.

Something small falls out of your mouth
And we laugh
A prayer for something better
A prayer
For something better
Please love me
Meet my mother...
But the fear takes hold
Creeping up the stairs in the dark
Waiting for the death blow

---

I've been looking so long at these pictures of you
That I almost believe that they're real
I've been living so long with my pictures of you
That I almost believe that the pictures are
All I can feel

---

I've got to let it go and leave it gone
Just walk away, stop it going on
Get too scared to jump if I wait too long
But maybe someday...

I'll see you smile as you call my name
Start to feel, and it feels the same
And I know that maybe someday's come
Maybe someday's come...
Again!

---

interesting hm? ah well. ^_^ I think I liked pictures of you best mhm. mhm. oh, right happy birthday little brother!

(it's his special day) yishniss. on another note? just putting this for myself. it's an idea...'programed for disbelief'. just so I dont forget it. anywho. not sure what else to say, my brain hopped away today so I think I'll do so too. toodles! ]]> *orderly-chaos trying... http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2830106/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2830106/ Thu, 08 Jul 2004 00:56:14 PDT ]]> *orderly-chaos Never Alone http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2825820/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2825820/ Wed, 07 Jul 2004 13:40:25 PDT
Barlow Girl - Never Alone

I waited for you today
But you didn't show
No no.
I needed you today
So where did you go?
You told me to call
Said you'd be there
And though I haven't seen you
Are you still there?

Chorus
I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel you by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone

And though I cannot see you
And I can't explain why
Such a deep reassurance
You've placed in my life.
We cannot separate
'Cause you're part of me.
And though you're invisible
I'll trust the unseen.

Chorus
I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel you by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone ]]> *orderly-chaos OMGOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2810168/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2810168/ Mon, 05 Jul 2004 14:56:07 PDT \/\/007/\/355!!!!!!!!

wow!! everyone come to my place we'll get it oooooon! YEEEEEE! Thank you everyone who has supported me, commented, critiqued, teased, hated and loved to bring me to this point ^_^ Been on here a while and wasn't sure I'd reach it, hah, so thank you everyone!!

http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2810134/ Mon, 05 Jul 2004 14:53:31 PDT

*orderly-chaos Reason http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2764997/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2764997/ Tue, 29 Jun 2004 16:03:04 PDT
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

I'm not oft one to get into secular music but this song hit me hard the first time I heard it. I ask that no one comment, this is more a reminder for me... it's for someone but they and they alone shall know, so if you want to comment talk to me on IM or something... cause it's just my business. ^_^ Thanks. I've changed. ]]> *orderly-chaos Guess what? Here we go again... http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2757383/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2757383/ Mon, 28 Jun 2004 17:21:27 PDT
I went to get my hair cut today, and I was supposed to meet a friend somewhere after that. Problem? Trend Setters has no payphones... so I drove across the street to the mall cause they have lots of payphones. Went in, called too many times, my friend never picked up. I was a bit annoyed by this because I told him when I'd be calling, and he "really needed to talk" but... I guess it wasn't -that- important to him (turns out he went to a friends' house and said he'd call later. Thanks a lot.)... soo since there was food there I grabbed some chinese and sat down at a table.
I don't generally like being by myself, makes me nervous, but I kept my eyes down and ate. Eventually, some guy at -least- in his 30s comes over and starts talking to me. I'm not sure which, but I -believe- he was slightly retarded or had some sort of speech impediment, I'm not entirely sure, but it wasn't bad.
He smiled, said he was from california, I said I had just been down there visiting. He asked where I told him around LAish.. He nodded, extended his hand, and said his name was David. I told him mine.
me- yeah I was just down there, I'm from here.
d- oh okay that's nice.
d-I'm david *shakes hand*
me- nice to meet you, I'm crystal.
d- crystal? okay. do you drive?
(my car keys were on the table I was eating at)
me- yeah
d- what kind of car?
me- nissan pathfinder
d- ooh, is it a new car?
me- *laugh* nooo no new car for my first one. I wish!
d- *laughs*
d- so are you married?
(I have a promise ring on my left hand)
me- no I just wear that ring there.
(that was me being stupid. I should've just said yes, or explained it... yeah sometimes I don't think. I think I was just nervousish or something...)
d- oh I see.
then we said a few more things, I can't quite remember all, talked for a bit, he asked if i lived near here, here being the mall I guess, I said no. THEN yeah it got odd? He asked for my phone number... first thing that popped into my head was "okay that's at stupid idea of course not" "but wait that's really extremely rude to bluntly say no" "you could say you're not allowed" "but that's lying and that isn't right" "ooooh I know what I'll do! I'll give it to him, then if he calls I could have Da invite him to church! Perfect, he's new here, that'd be great!" soooooo with that thought in mind, I gave it to him. He smiled and nodded, asked if it was my number, I said yes, then said okay and waved while walking away. I ate a lil more then got up to go, he was sitting elsewhere and said goodbye again, I made another phone call, then left.

Sooooooooooooo yes. And gee Don't ask me what the deal is lately, I don't even look that nice today. I guess it's just my week. And now my friend is freaking me out and telling me how stupid it was to give out my number *sigh* yeah... I feel dumb now. Bad idea. I had good intentions if that counts for anything...

]]> *orderly-chaos I got a soda from Eminem today... http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2744470/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2744470/ Sun, 27 Jun 2004 00:24:34 PDT First he commented on the writing on my car (my friend wrote on the dirt on it before he moved, so it's there for sentimental purposes

)... and I found he couldn't read too well ^_~ but anyways..
e- So.. here's your change in ones. the company I work for sucks so they don't have fives, sorry.
me- *lil laugh* s'okay no problem...
e- *tries to read stuff on the side of my car, questionably*
me- yeah my friend wrote it before he moved so I just keep it there just 'cause
e- okay. So uhm... *smile* do you want a soda?
me- huh?
e- do you want a soda?
me- will it cost?
e- no don't worry about it? what you want?
me- uhm... pick for me
*wait a minute*
e- it's cherry...*big smile*
me- thanks ...(considering cranking music)
.....
yeah that was interesting. Not sure why he was hitting on me. It was SOOOOOOO hot and i'm pretty sure I was kinda sweaty? (ewwwwwwww) but anyways... yeah! Driving by myself... great fun. Thanks parentals who won't let me drive alone, now I can get hit on constantly. *sarcastic* \/\/007 ^_~ ah well. Me is fine. ]]> *orderly-chaos Skater guys can be skeery. Mhm. http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2738067/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2738067/ Sat, 26 Jun 2004 00:31:31 PDT
I was at a "skate park" (erm, bad excuse for one cause in AK they stink..) and had some friends there, and my friend Chelsea's skater guy friends were video taping stunts. Well, Chelsea wanted to be on the tape, so she dragged me over in front of the camera, and she's like
"I love Crystal, she's great" so on and so forth.. and I was like "ew camera...erm... I love you too!",... and after she'd said a fwe things, I started to walk away, and she's yells, "AND SHE'S SEXY TOO!" and the guy with the camera continued following me with it until I covered my face with the hat. To make things more "fun", the rest the time we were with them, the guy would try to 'secretly' tape me when he thought I wasn't looking.. yeah that was great. Sheesh. I think I picked the wrong day to wear short shorts... -_- bad me. It was fun,... interesting. ^_~ ]]> *orderly-chaos My unofficial first comish! YAY! http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2719406/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2719406/ Tue, 22 Jun 2004 12:35:50 PDT and this guy saw me and REALLY liked my stuff, and he pulled out this picture of his daughter. I think she was like.. 9mo. old maybeand asked if I'd draw her. I said sure, though I think babies are one of the hardest..cause if you do shading wrong
it looks like they have old ppl wrinkles...so was like "I hope I dont mess up.." So anyways.. I spent prolly half the flight on it
and his friends were behind me, and they were cute cause they had really heavy mexican accents so they'd make lil comments like that and it was funny and when I was done I gave it to him and he wouldnt take it without giving me money even though I told him it was fine and that I do it for my friends all the time.. and he just -wouldn't- have it, and I ended up making $25!!! It's like..wow for one drawing? I know that's hard to believe on here because I have -no- recent drawings and probably -no- realistic ones at all. So... yeah I promise I'm -much- better than the drawings I have on here.. honest! ^_~ But yeah, that was exciting. And it made the plane flight not so bad (I HATE FLYING!) and.. now I'm home! YAY!... anywho.. yeah now I can submit stuff. Maybe I'll use that money towards buying a scanner so you CAN see my stuff... ooooo... we'll see

]]> *orderly-chaos brian e http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2683069/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2683069/ Sun, 20 Jun 2004 17:21:03 PDT hehe here.. I'll just post the song that made me cry and the one I've listened to lately..(long journal) oh.. and I need to do a deviant w/ "in my lunchbox"

restore

a thousand rain drops in the dark
i thought that i was all alone, but there you are
i search for answers and i look into your face
and fight the rain to hear just what you say
can your words be true?

take my every single part
break me open, crack my heart
spill my past upon your floor
make this lonely child restored

you take me in like i'm your child
you find some blankets and we sit down by the fire
the conversation moves to what you do and who you are
and suddenly, i see your hands are scarred
can your words be true?

take my every single part
break me open, crack my heart
spill my past upon your floor
make this lonely child restored

empty words

empty words, empty thoughts
spilled by tongues tied up in knots
simple little gestures confuse a little more
and every little question turns into a war
i learn a little more bout me
you can't see me, see me

every word, every thought
something borrowed, something bought
i cannot wait till morning sheds a little light
cause my pride won't take another beating to reconcile this fight
no, not tonight, cause there's nothing that i wanna do to free
you from this place where you just can't see me

these empty words, these empty thoughts
compose a man i know i'm not
so free me (free me)

yayness... ]]> *orderly-chaos do be do be do http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2677301/ http://orderly-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/2677301/ Wed, 16 Jun 2004 19:12:38 PDT
So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

CHORUS
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the (naughty word) that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

It's nice to know you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

avril lavigne - my happy ending ]]> *orderly-chaos