http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:p0isinbelladonna&section=today deviantART RSS for by:p0isinbelladonna en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sat, 19 Dec 2009 11:28:30 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/23022534/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/23022534/ Thu, 05 Feb 2009 14:55:37 PST Well, minus Erika being sick. I'm going up there the first week in June. I'm excited, I miss her so much.
I've been spending the majority of my time with Britt, either at her house or at Sandhills. We have fun just watching music videos and thinking up fanfiction in our head. Uh, she nicknamed me Panda Gates, and she's Lil' V. Don't ask.
Speaking of, I'm in the middle of a K-rated Fall Out Boy fanfic right now. Pete/Patrick, inspired by an article in Blender. Don't laugh.
School's killing me. Took two test in the past two days and I do believe I aced them, but just keeping up is getting hard.
I have a job! It's about time, too.
And along with that came the cellphone (finally), and the possibility of moving out this summer.
Oh, and one of the best for last~ Gots a new boyfriend too. His name's Joe, he's actually my age, and he's crazy sweet.
I really can't imagine things going better right now, in MY life at least.


I've missed you, DA.

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/21564782/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/21564782/ Wed, 19 Nov 2008 11:29:48 PST Uh, in a calm sortof way.
Any time not spent in the library at Tech, or doing homework, or in class, is spent either on the phone with my best friend, cramming in time with the family, or at Britt's house.
So if I've been on less and less, I apologize (:





I feel fairly exhilerated right now.
I feel different, and free.
I think it's the cold air,
and wearing my pjs to school.
Not sure, oh well.


Just a silly little update.
Oh, and I have a recent addiction to Avenged Sevenfold and neopets.
So sue me.

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/20375841/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/20375841/ Sun, 07 Sep 2008 13:26:38 PDT I'm really loving college, it's a wonderful place.
Harder, but much more fun.
There's this...boy.
And I'll leave that at that.
Of course, I adore my best friend, and we're to the point where we can go a week without talking, then talk again and things are like we talked the day before.
Things at home are great :]
Seriously great.


Things haven't been this good in a long time.

fyi, robbie just showed me this guy named buckethead and he's a little odd.

This might just be a waste of time
there's no one I'd rather waste
My time with than all my best friends
So start the car up.

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/19458817/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/19458817/ Fri, 18 Jul 2008 05:41:52 PDT Great, but long ~ so far.
Wisconsin to see my best friend, picnics and pool parties with Rachie, movies and parks with Crysi, lots of time at Midlands Tech, and job hunting, Grandma's house, and lots and lots of time with my family.
Laughter and fights and swimming and reading.
And today, the library, which is fast becoming one of my favorite places to be. Doesn't matter which library.
Not bad so far, but long.
Movie days are my favorite.
With whoever

I love this movie.
So much.
Elizabethtown.
It's whimsical, in a Rosa way.
^-^

I'm excited.
College is fast approaching, and I'm genuinely looking forward to it.

I'm rambling, mostly because I'm exhausted, and partly because I wanted to update but I'm not sure what to write.

So.
I love you.
Peace!


Sweetheart, you are my actress of the year.
This is by far your best performance.

I want you to know that I'll miss you, but I won't be there when you get home this time.

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/18921329/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/18921329/ Wed, 18 Jun 2008 22:53:40 PDT History does not always repeat itself. Sometimes it just yells, "Can't you remember anything I told you?" and lets fly with a club.
~John W. Campbell

That felt so so so good.
I told someone off who I've needed to for a long time.
I got closure, and there seems to be peace now.


I'm going back to sleep now.

It's been a long long night.
I mean, REALLY long.
:]

Sweet dreams.

P.S. Wisconsin was the absolute most amazing thing ever.
I love my best friend <3


So sweet I can hardly speak
Due to such trauma in my teeth
But your body language is telling me that you're worth the pain

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/18671211/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/18671211/ Wed, 04 Jun 2008 22:40:33 PDT I wanna run through the halls of my high school, I wanna scream at the top of my lungs."
--John Mayer


I can't believe I graduated today.
It's so surreal.
I feel old.

Hi, world.
I am Rosa Hall.
I am a graduate of Spring Valley High School.
& I'm going to college in the fall :]




I think it's time I do like Allie said, and leave all this high school drama for her.

Start over,
Be who I want to be without anything holding me back!


Wisconsin & Best friend baby ~ 4 days

I’m not one for love songs.
The way I’m living makes you feel like giving up
But you don’t,
And I want everything for you
But disappointment.
‘Cause you’ve been left behind
And the world has its shine,
I would drop it on a dime for you.


]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/18518813/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/18518813/ Mon, 26 May 2008 21:45:19 PDT The secret of a good life is to have the right loyalties and hold them in the right scale of values.'
--Norman Thomas

Countdown;
Graduation-8 days!
Wisconsin-13 days!

I'm sunburned.
Everywhere but my legs.
It's painful.

I love meebo.
They have an emoticon of a panda!
And a ninja, of course.
'I'd rather be a ninja'

The lakehouse was incredibly wonderful.
Barbeque, hammock, fishing, swimming, boatrides to Driftwood Island, counting waves, napping with cousins, falling asleep on my little sister's shoulder.
Happiness.
Pure happiness.

:]

I'm beginning to despise my best friend baby's fiance.
I have good reason to.
Being protective is reason enough.

PBSKIDSGO!
Randomosity.
Light.
Maturity.
Good.
Ketchup.
Fire.


You told me you can't wait to see me and then you didn't bother to even show up.
This whole situation is incredibly typical, I should have seen it all along.
It's (boys) like you that make me think I'm better off
home on a Saturday night, with all my doors locked up tight.
I won't be thinking about you baby.
This isn't high school

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/18311102/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/18311102/ Tue, 13 May 2008 19:10:53 PDT I thought, "hey, I can leave, I can leave."
but now I know that I was wrong, 'cause I missed you.'
--Lisa Loeb

Today has been the oddest day.

You know those terrible feelings in the pit of your stomach,
where you know something is about to go very, very wrong?
I've had one the majority of the day.

There's this hollow feeling there,
And a bit of one in other places too.

Tell me the truth,
Do you think i'm too different?
I can't say I care a huge amount,
But i'm curious.

Old school shows are dynamic.
Life-changing, maybe.


Hello ms. do you have the time?
I've lost my watch, but i have my mind
And while you're watching time go by
I'd like to ask you how it feels to die
Where am i now?
Where are you now?
Counting all your wishes
What a head rush
In the field brush
Fishing for your kisses

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/18296446/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/18296446/ Mon, 12 May 2008 20:18:54 PDT Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do.'
--AAR.

I'm quite happy.
I think!
It's a struggle trying to move on from someone.
But it's quite freeing, I believe.

I'm doing this fairly odd thing for me,
Since I actually hold grudges and hurt longer than almost anyone can imagine,
I'm trying to make amends.
I'm trying to forgive, to be forgiven, to get closure.

Graduation is in 22 days.
:]

I'm reverting back to childhood.
In an odd way.
No explanation necessary!

Wisconsin will hopefully be happening soon.
Best friend baby much?
Yay!!



I know it's mad
But if the world were ending
Would you just kiss me or just leave me?

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/18102190/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/18102190/ Wed, 30 Apr 2008 13:37:10 PDT you took a hammer to these walls,
dragged the memories down the hall.'
--Daughtry

i wish i was somewhat more sure of my own feelings.

so few things in my life are certain right now,
and that really messes me up.
i'm a sucker for stability.

i need constants.
i need reminders.
i need the past.
i need what made me who i am.

maybe this is normal so close to graduation, to be so mixed up.

i'm noone close to who i thought i was.
i think i'm a butterfly panda kid,
destined to be the 'cat lady'.
and have jigsaw puzzles and dvds everywhere.
not to mention strawberry daquaris and cream soda.
maybe.
maybe.
maybe?



i need some certainty about several things right now.
and quite a bit of closure.
it'd be really nice.

bytheway;
prom was amazing.
mike and chels and their mom are amazing.
erikababy's texts all day were amazing.
everything was amazing.


ahaha until i woke up the next morning and realized it was all just my fairytale night.

but that's okay,
everyone needs those.

i have a sinking feeling in my tummy,
mixed with thousands of butterflies that i don't understand.

i'm somewhat scared cj's going to die.
he has some of the same symptoms of last time he was that sick,
and this time we don't have the money for the vet for him.
noone quite gets how much that would ruin me.

anyway.
bye.

And I just need, need this moment
To watch the sky and breathe the air
And I can see, see the ocean and your eyes standing there

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/18031281/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/18031281/ Fri, 25 Apr 2008 23:29:24 PDT my skin's still made of memories "
--Cloud Cult

i don't know how i feel right now.
i really wish i did.
i don't think i can handle being just some joke to you.
or your mood swings,
because i have them too.
2+2 don't equal 4 here, okay?
that didn't even make complete sense in my head, really, but my fingers just keeps blurting these things out.

you're nothing and everything,
right now it's so crammed in my brain i couldn't tell you what's real if you paid me millions to.

prom's tomorrow.
biggest night of my high school years, whatever.
i've had a lot of biggest nights.
but i'm actually nervous.
excited? maybe.
nervous? highly.
this just can't go wrong,
not after so many months of planning.

i'm going to screw this up by thinking too much.

bed seems like a lovely idea.
tootles!


And honestly I miss you
And I hope that you're missing me
Cause I could use your lips on me
And a little bit of Dramamine

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/17911111/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/17911111/ Fri, 18 Apr 2008 12:11:45 PDT --Rita Mae Brown

I tend to mess up a lot.
I'm wildly irrational.
I couldn't tell you the name of any song I hear until two years later.
I never remember to turn the volume on my phone up.
I go more than a bit crazy depressed at random times,
I'm emotionally unstable.
I'm a pretty terrible friend.
Nothing I say ever comes out right.
I eat everything like it's a finger food, and I hate forks.
I tend to pick at my eyebrows too much,
And I pull out my eyelashes just so I can wish on them.
I fall in love way too fast,
I love with every breath in me,
And I do stupid things all the time.

think you can love me even with all that?

I hate days where I end up crying all day,
It's terrible.

"Hope is a waking dream."
But i'm losing mine.

all the same sad lives
all the love that disappears
we are aching bones
and wasted years

we have few regrets
save it for every night alone
in the sinking ship and haunted home

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/17838347/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/17838347/ Sun, 13 Apr 2008 19:19:27 PDT about...everything.
i know, i'm so badly in love with him, so much it really hurts.
but this thing is killing me.
we had so much fun, and we were acting silly and perverted and almost flirting all night,
but i'm getting crazy crazy confused about all of this.
i need some sortof closure.
or something new.

something.
unexpected.

We are alive for a moment
One second in the great abyss of time
All the bleedin', all the hate
Just one blink of an eye
All the conflicts, it visits dire pain on human life
Are we missing what it is to be alive?

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/17643452/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/17643452/ Tue, 01 Apr 2008 22:43:07 PDT i won't say it doesn't hurt.
it does, quite a bit.
but i should have expected it,
i almost did
--but i was holding out hope.
oh well.
'this too, shall pass."
and that, it will.

wish me luck.
i just might need it.

Hours pass, and she still counts the minutes
That I am not there, I swear I didn't mean
For it to feel like this
Like every inch of me is bruised, bruised

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/17537182/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/17537182/ Thu, 27 Mar 2008 07:29:56 PDT i think mine's fading away, though i completly understand why, and i won't complain.
things with bffboy are getting odd too.
i think the age difference is finally really catching up to us, i don't know.
i'm graduating this year.
i'm staying in columbia, but it's still scary.
actually, make it terrifying.
everyone's so excited for me,
say they wish they could get out of high school too.
i love the security it provides.

so basically,
i have peter pan syndrome.

i never want to grow up.




"It's just past 8 and I'm feeling young and reckless
The ribbon on my wrist says, "Do not open before Christmas."
--fall out boy.

my heart is on my sleeve
wear it like a bruise or blackeye
my badge, my witness
that means that i believed
every single lie you said

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/17393701/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/17393701/ Tue, 18 Mar 2008 11:28:19 PDT it's that simple.

from my livejournal:

i have so much i need to get out.
lately everything's in my head, closed up and somehow caged, and yet i have a hard time keeping these words from tumbling out at an alarming rate.
i've got these memories of things i'm honestly not sure are even real. i don't think i should be dreaming about waves, or cotton candy fields, or that all too real kiss that i'm so sure hasn't happened.
stress is killing me, i won't deny that, and that could have some effect on these colored pencil words that make no sense 4 seconds after writing them. i don't think that's it though.

maybe it's him. i know i call him bffboy, but he's so much, so much more than that phrase can even cover. maybe it's how even when he's on the phone, i'm trying so hard not to miss him, like you miss your smile when it can't come out to play. phone calls, and my throat is playing a rock harmony, hoping that it's him, half hoping it isn't because i know these thoughts will just jumble up again, and i'll make a fool of myself. it could quite possibly be how his hair in his face gives me this odd urge to bite his ear, like i do the lovely little kitten when he misbehaves. i really think it has a lot to do with his eyes, and how they fade when he's angry and flare up into some acid wash green color, how when i manage to stare into them for any amount of time, i think i'm in some sort of convulated spaceship, where there's 0 gravity and breathing is just a bit harder than usual. i very much love how i start thinking of tropical skittles, the ferris wheel at the fair, and little stuffed kittens named Emma Deliscious whenever his name pops up on my cellphone. caller id is the best thing to happen since sitcoms that are absolutly pointless and fascinating. it's like empty calores. love/hate relationship. i have realized how much he cuts into my time. some things are probably fate. maybe this isn't. maybe this is simply something i'm grasping at because i'm despising this growing up and i want something so young around to keep me a kid. maybe. maybe? it'd be nicer if that was why, then i wont have to deal with the fall out when i leave.
not that there'd be a fall out when we're not together, but i told you, i twist things around in my head.

maybe, more to the point. it's that all-together too lovely ex-boy who has a heart the size of a peanut, and still manages to get so many people curled up in it, with no good effect for him. one of these days, i think he might end up on the side of a street in georgia, begging for someone to love that devil's angel face and give him a home that he lost in his awful fight with alohol substances, all illegal substances, really. he brought it on himself, but i wonder if when i see him on that road if i'll have some sort of feeling in me to give him a few pennies, a sub, a bead, or anything. he calls me a lot these days. we talk about anything and everything, and it's quite possibly some of the most in-the-cloud conversations i've ever had. he knows everything about me, and i do have to admit it's nice to have someone who knows everything about me around. he knows about the tiny 'faux' heart tattoo on my thigh from a sharpie, needle, and heat in 7th grade. he knows about that little smirk i get right after any sort of confrontation because he knows just how competitive i get, though i never admit it. he knows that when i was in 8th grade, i was a platinum blonde, and that i secretly hated it because my best friend's crush thought i was hot and she got mad.

i hold on to everything. emotional packrat, much?
it affects who i am today.
it's made me an insecure little girl.
im scared to approach new people,
because i think they'll judge me solely on the fact that im not some bottle blonde toothpick lady,
and because i'm not thin, at all.
that's not who i am.
i am ROSA.
what i look like is NOT me.
i'm emotionally unstable,
thanks to holding things in and taking everything personally.
but i am still rosa.
and you know what?
i'm lovable.
and it's simple.


take me for me,
or leave.
now.



perhaps its better to not know yourself, than have an identity that you can't escape.
--no clue


I've run out complicated theories
so now I'm taking back my words
I'm preparing for the breakdown
Your t-shirt lost its smell of you
and the bathroom's still a mess
Remind me why we decided this was for the best

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/16886774/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/16886774/ Thu, 14 Feb 2008 17:33:56 PST Best friend and boy both got me things though :]
Best friend? POTC cards!
Boy? White rose and a pink stuffed kitty i named Emma Deliscious

yummy kids.

but my phone got taken away.
i wasn't on it, or using it.
but whateverrr.

i REALLY wanted boy today.
but i never get my wishes,
i'm okay with that.

he's been frustrating me a lot.
i love the kid,
but talking to him every single night might be getting a bit much, idk.
because i forget that he's younger, and i don't think that in a lot of ways he's less mature than me.
so the things i see in him, i saw in me.
it's sortof terrifying.
and i'm scared he's going to hurt me,
without even meaning to.

make me smile?

I know it’s hard, to be yourself when,
You’re not sure, just who that is,
All I wanted, was satisfaction,
But all I got, was empty fists
Can you hear me?

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/16848293/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/16848293/ Tue, 12 Feb 2008 13:00:58 PST i've been shaken up, crazy confused, hyper but not so happy, and losing everything slowly.

even strawberry slushie from sonic, prom with the bffboy, and getting photoshop, the new one.
hasn't made me smile.

rip brandon baby, i miss you terribly,
i love you always always always.
i don't think i'll ever be exactly the same without you.
1/26/08.

i'm so tired,
just godawful, 100% exhausted.

i'm not myself anymore.

i miss best friend.
i miss bfffboy.
i miss being myself.
i miss my past.
i miss exboy.
i miss everything.

i just possibly might need saving?
i'm not making any sense,
not even in my head.

fyi,
from flu to cold to strep to upper respiratory infection.
screw you, winter illnesses.

Tonight I want to make it real
Close my eyes feel it ride up my spine
Radiate out my limbs into air
Make it electric
I've got to know I'm still alive

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/16507272/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/16507272/ Mon, 21 Jan 2008 14:35:01 PST trying to stay friends with exes is a bad idea.
you either end up hurting for even trying, or hurting for the results.

i've also decided that despite the fact that i didn't sleep at ALL last night,
and i told almost everyone that,
it's completely impossible to actually get any sleep when someone texts/calls/keeps calling every five seconds.
and i can't cut it off because then i'd feel terrible for having it off when someone might need me.



whatever.
i need to smile.
quite a bit.

thanks.

I feel like I'm spinning out of control
Try to focus but everything's twisted
And all along I thought you would be there
(Thought you would be there)
To let me know I'm not alone
But in fact that's exactly what I was

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/16497828/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/16497828/ Sun, 20 Jan 2008 22:15:59 PST it makes me pretty happy.
i just sent an ex/oldfriend a message,
i'm pretty nervous because i don't think i worded it right.
i miss my best friend terribly.
you really don't understand.
i have so many friends.
but so few i can really talk to.

i have some strange obsession with juno.
it's so...something i can relate to.
oh crap.
hmm.


nothing,
interesting,
i guess.

I took the Polaroid down in my room
I'm pretty sure you have a new girlfriend
It's not as if I don't like you
It just makes me sad whenever I see it
'cause I like to be gone most of the time
And you like to be home most of the time
If I stay in one place I lose my mind
I'm a pretty impossible lady to be with

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/16110782/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/16110782/ Wed, 26 Dec 2007 14:36:54 PST honestly.

i guess it's just that simple.

leaving tomorrow for three days;
north carolina baby!

i was hoping to go to a movie with boy tonight.
we'd talked about it last night.
but, apparently not?



merry christmas.

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/13250660/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/13250660/ Thu, 07 Jun 2007 10:02:31 PDT things have been quite odd lately.

there's erika.
who i can't ask out.
but who i love more than anything.

rob's in jail,
which quit frankly,
almost relieves me.
but i feel bad for him.

i went out with justin [arpaia] for almost 2 months,
and i hated breaking that off,
but neither of us was happy anymore.
we were just going out for the hell of it by the end.

my nana broke her hip.
so i do have internet for a bit,
and macaroni and cheese.

amber's birthday is monday.
i'm NOT going to her party,
cuz she invited justin and i won't do it.

DADDY'S HOME!!!!!!
YAYYYY!!!!!
for good ^-^

well.
bye deviantart.
happy purple penguins, babe.

-Panda[liscious!]

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/10875457/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/10875457/ Tue, 28 Nov 2006 04:21:05 PST staying up till 3 AM on the phone with my ex-boyfriend's boyfriend who also happened to be my friend beforehand is odd.
but fun. fun odd.
even better when the ex-boyfriend calls the boyfriend while i'm on the phone with him, then i switch over to talk to the ex-boyfriend & i's mutual ex-girlfriend. then boyfriend switches over not realizing other ex-girlfriend is there and procedes to say "____ said to ask you how big his penis is because you'd know best".
oh my god.
i could have SHOT him. but everyone just cracked up, so it was alright.
but seriously....wow.
that was confusing to even type out.

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/10602341/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/10602341/ Fri, 03 Nov 2006 10:09:06 PST school is good.
i got my best friend back.
i have my girl<3
and pretty much, aside from the fact that i constantly feel empty, life is good.

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/10522501/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/10522501/ Thu, 26 Oct 2006 23:04:04 PDT A certain male ex and I are officially friends again.
And another male ex of mine and i are having some sort of soemthing that will never develop into a relationship ever again, but it's fun for now.

Me and Grape=over.
sdffsfsdfsd fuck 8th grade girlfriends.
immature.

i have swollen lips and sex hair.
good god.

but i'm so exhausted.
it's been a long night ;]
i love you!

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/10420199/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/10420199/ Tue, 17 Oct 2006 05:58:22 PDT okay so.
i have new stripeded socks ^-^
and Grape=best friend. sortof. maybe more. someday.
Josh Speed= cute guy ive been sortof...following lmao. I always see him after lunch on his way to class and he's beautiful.
Jessica= my best girl friend right now. unlike Grape, thats all there's even the possibilty of being, all she or i would want. But she's been there a lot for me.
Eizohface=fantastic. so is his boyfriend. and Caroline.
School=where i am now. I finished my Edgar Allan Poe project early.
So Mrs. Roberson just let me do whatever, as long as it isnt inappropriate.
Sonic= breakfast this morning ^-^ Super breakfast burrito, Sobe, and Sprite.
Oh & i bought random Celeb magz. I'm lame, yumm!!

kay signing out,
Pandaface
aka Rosey cheeks
aka ROSAAA

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/10300936/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/10300936/ Fri, 06 Oct 2006 06:39:59 PDT I haven't been able to take any pictures worthy of myspace, but i've written some.
I'll try to update soon :/
I have a date tonight-sortof lmao.
Well.
Fantasticalll<3

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/9780757/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/9780757/ Sat, 19 Aug 2006 09:25:53 PDT it was so freaking amazing.
digital camera, SOOOO many cards, prepaid cellphone, icecream cake, a million birthday calls and comments, and just as many hugs, $20, + LOVE
:]]]]] ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/9461383/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/9461383/ Sat, 22 Jul 2006 19:28:44 PDT life is so fantastic.
like, i can't even explain it.
i don't care that school starts soon, or that i'm single and probably will be for a while, or that i need new clothes and can't afford them, or that the boy who once meant the world to me is gone.
i have my fantastic friends, this amazing family even with dad not being at home, i get a lot of sleep,my social life is better, and i feel closer to most everyone around me.



anyway.
dyed my roots again today.
watched jordan slept.
san joses.
mega sleep\+ mega erikkkka time ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/9250047/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/9250047/ Sun, 02 Jul 2006 10:29:31 PDT Listening to: "Miss Murder" AFI
Watching: Beyond the Break
Mood: -o: + + +

haha no girlfriend.
no boyfriend.
i like it this way.

many many friends
several good ones,
and a good family
this definatly works :]

a boy who came and saw me in his boxers
and friends who drag me to sandhills?
that's even better!


haha i'm way happy.
ear infection [ech] and all! ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/8873522/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/8873522/ Thu, 25 May 2006 12:16:57 PDT a new girlfriend
Sound of Music
starting summer off at Eizohs house, swimming with him and Emm
church sleepovers with bfffff Crysiboo
anything involving mermaid IMing me just to say ily
AND OMG SUMMMMMERRR ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/8754282/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/8754282/ Fri, 12 May 2006 22:22:24 PDT therefore, despite being exhausted emotionally and physically, being sick as fuck, and having my arm hurt with every move i make becase i did something stupid,
my body refuses to let me sleep.

ughhh.

jawbreakers are yummy.
so is gatorade.
i love birthdays.
and hate back stabbing boys.
but i love those certain boys anyway.
i adore bubble gum.
and fictionpress stories
and downloading tv shows on youtube

i know who i want to take me home ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/8608373/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/8608373/ Fri, 28 Apr 2006 03:50:06 PDT but definatly not the friendship
yeah, we're on good terms,
it wasnt any sort of bad breakup.

HSAP went well,
except maybe Math,
and i did alright on that.

I adore my friends.
first on my mind right now; _{Erika, Eric, Mermaid, Ami, & Niko}

i adore you. ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/8316941/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/8316941/ Thu, 30 Mar 2006 18:08:24 PST TWO DAYS OLD
i wrote this on the 28th on LJ

MOOD: giddy
LISTENING TO: "Fly" Hilary Duff
WATCHING: Raise Your Voice

MICHAEL♥
he leaned towards her "hey, i have a question for you. want to go out with me?"
she whispered "yeshyesh" and hugged him tight


TODAY'S UPDATE
Yay for new boyfriends and Rosa being sicksicksick.

and i think today
i've learned more than was ever thought possible ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/8271668/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/8271668/ Sun, 26 Mar 2006 06:02:36 PST i'm alright being everyone's plaything,
because then i can remain partially emotionless.
but i don't want to be anyone's girlfriend
because then i'd be open and vulnerable.
and i don't want to be.
so maybe it's a good thing noone likes me,
maybe it's better for me that I'm alone.

peace, love, and chocolate chips,
Rosie Posie Osie
:hearts: ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/8129432/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/8129432/ Sat, 11 Mar 2006 09:46:54 PST love him.
though there are times i want to slit his throat
i don't think my mood swings are normal.
it's also not normal to love the people i do.
or to lust after as many people as i do.

i'm messed up
yay ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/8116268/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/8116268/ Thu, 09 Mar 2006 20:37:01 PST never update my deviantart.
i have tons of pictures, stories, poems waiting to be uploaded,
but i never seem to have time.
but don't worry deviantart, i haven't forgotten you because of livejournal and myspace
i still check you every day

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7930729/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7930729/ Sat, 18 Feb 2006 01:35:53 PST yeah, its morning.
VERY early morning.
and i havent even gone to bed yet.
and as of now, ive been up exactly 24 freaking hours.
and unfortunatly, Rosa thinks way too much at 4 in the moning and gets pretty sad.
but then she gets happy again when she remembers her wonderful friends.
and she was sad earlier because she watched the school shooting episode of Degrassi&even though Rick shot Jimmy i felt bad for him because everyone treated him like he was the lowest form of existence. Even Emma, who i always thought was so sweet, ended up to just be hanging with him because she felt sorry for him. Toby was his only real friend. sure, Jimmy was paralyzed, but man..Rick fucking died
yeah, and today was spent talking to Wifey&Mick&Allyn
i love those kids.
<333 ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7843507/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7843507/ Thu, 09 Feb 2006 04:31:23 PST owh.
went to bed @ 1.
eeeek.
talked to an old...not sure how to catagorize him...last night.
i went to bed too late.
and still didnt get my hw done.
oh well.
ill do it sometime.
biscuits for breakfast.
yummmyumyum.
and powerade for lunch.
i gotta find my hoodie.
kay, im off to school.
bye.

♥ ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7783958/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7783958/ Thu, 02 Feb 2006 18:13:57 PST [link]

brand new story.
as well as my update for the day.
because, thats what really happened today.
guess which guy?
id love some reviews on it.

oh yeah.
potts&eric.
i took a pic of me holding that sign
:]

AND POTTS.
i had some random guy today in geometry
ask me if i'd had sex with you.
because he has art with you
and said you said that.
O-O
wtf???

allyn gave me 2 very pretty rings today ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7714303/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7714303/ Thu, 26 Jan 2006 14:19:07 PST yayyy.

:]


i adore Ashley&Eizoh&Jess ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7665348/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7665348/ Sat, 21 Jan 2006 09:48:35 PST nonoseboy.
i think eizoh makes me crema my pants XP
haha.
abbys partay is today.
i need a ride to chris' partay.
any offers?
i shall give out free sex is you take me
[[sex with brittany P]]
please?
i should probably wash my hair.
and get dressed.
for babysis's partay shindig
im too happy for words.
everything is going my way.
GlitsyMcGee is amazing
my friends are too.
family is pretty good.
school is betetr than normal.
and i'm just...
happy.
<3

I watched the proverbial sunrise
coming up over the Pacific and
you might think I'm losing my mind,
but I will shy away from the specifics...

'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart
in the saddest state it's ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
that it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back. ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7631178/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7631178/ Tue, 17 Jan 2006 15:11:26 PST MOOD: Giddy&wheeee!
LISTENING TO: "Niki FM" Hawthorne Heights
EATING: uhm, an apple?

god today was boring.
i miss so many people.
Allyn gave me this gorgeoush new journal for Christmas, all black&red with this pretty lady on the cover
i'm gonna use it as a poetry book ^-^
Prozzak&Hawthorne Heights are my new obsessions.


i've been doing some deep thinking, and some of my old friends
[[not naming names]]
i cant even remember why we were friends.
they were bad for me
they hurt me
i hurt them
or something like that
eh, whatever.
some people i just shouldnt have been friends with in the first place.
but then there are some old friends
that i reallyreallymiss
i dont understand how we grew apart
they made me happy.
:'[

anyways, if Gitsy McGee doesn't get her butt back from away soon, i'm gonna start having withdrawel symptoms.
and trust me, that aint pretty.

OMFG. i just went to get the mail, and...THERE WAS A SMITTY LETTER. it was in crayon, and it cheered me up! she sent me presents too :]
this pohohontas necklace
and broken crayons
and this chickidee hand puppet
and god it made me smile
SHES SO SHWEET :]]] <3

anyone else willing to write me a letter?

and i can't make it on my own
because my heart is in ohio ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7594494/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7594494/ Fri, 13 Jan 2006 16:39:54 PST mhm folks, rosa's got a girlfriend.
hahah, Gitsy is omfg awesome.
and has made me stay in a gitsydazewhee today
im happy.

shes helping me get over him.
which is necessary?
she's better than him anyways XP

but yeah.
im taqlking to her.
and wifey.

and smiling so wide.

drastic mood change from last night. ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7586555/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7586555/ Thu, 12 Jan 2006 19:00:27 PST yeah i need a life.
i miss him so much.
im talking to him.
i miss him.
i shouldve listened to cass.
he's just hurt
thats all he causes me.
but friendship wise...
i can;t let go.
i won't.

im going to go throw up.
byebye<3 ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7548861/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7548861/ Sun, 08 Jan 2006 20:50:54 PST he makes me cry when i'm watching From Justin to Kelly
this is bad, y'all.
really bad.

SO I LOVE ME SOME KRIS&ASHLEY
i talked to ashley for 5 hours straight.
she gives me an ego boost and makes me feel loved
ive been on the phone with kris for 2 hours.
my neck hurts a lot
but her&i have talked about everything

]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7523594/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7523594/ Fri, 06 Jan 2006 04:56:11 PST grawr.
dont effin feel good.
something kayla said made me cry :/
rob not replying on aim made me
feel kinda alone thats okay though

love you guys ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7474739/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7474739/ Sun, 01 Jan 2006 03:33:44 PST what a night

where do i begin? uhm, Ashley picked me up. I gave her her present, she liked it. uhmmm, the wifey and I got into Britt's parents beer. haha, i didnt drink most of mine, but enough to get me tipsy. It was some weird tasting stuff, kinda like watered down sprite, but it was pretty good. better than that stuff we tried from the cabinet. that shyt looked like chocolate milk and tasted like cough syrup.

uhm, Jodan locked ashley&i out of the house for ahile, cuz we were drinking i think. i was so scared of the dark, it was pathetic. uhm, we gpt bored, Rachel&Emily were being wired and wouldn;t drink, exactly.

Ashley drove us to putt-putt, in britt's car. that was pretty fun, the motorcycle game things vibrate on your ass, and i sat on ashley's the two times she played XP haha. and spend like $10. and got rings, and airheads, and a bracelet. well, the airheads were for jordan. i kicked ASS at air hockey. i beat ashley 7 to 5 XP

uhm, but we had to leave pretty soon. we got back and things got blurry. haha, ashley kissed my head, first kiss of the new year. heh [[and we all know who i wish it was...]] uhm, jordan molested me. we had this odd orgy, and took some...interesting pictures. uhm, a very...odd picture of me against the wall with his crotch in my face. haha, he pretended to humo my leg a fewtimes, and had me&emily&rachel&ashley all pressed against the wall/couch at one time or another.

uhm, highlights i forgot. playing extreme hide n seek in the dark, bonding with Emily then having it thrown in my face. >.< uhm...i know i'm forgetting a lot.

and i KNOW i'm not even mentioning the huge ttrouble jordan & i almost got into at the end of the night, or us having to walk to Jordan's house from Brittany's house because her parents came home early. but that's for later.

yeah, i mentioned a certain someone too much. i'm pathetic . but thats alright.

ahhhh, Brittany gave me a present! these GORGEOUSH black earrings that are all dangly, and chocolates and peppermint stuff. :] she's so sweet. and she let me borrow Justin&Kelly and Crossroads [[yeah i'm lame]]

i'm tired, really sad, happy, confused, feeling drunk even though i didn't even drink that much, and messed up. so i'm finally going to bed, after trying to finish writing this entry for 3 hours. ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7465007/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7465007/ Sat, 31 Dec 2005 09:13:48 PST uhm, okay
rob knows now i still have feelings for him
i didn't tell him, he guessed.
i was so scared he'd hate me.
he said he could never hate me
that he'd never been able to.

the convo moved on to his gf hurting him.
i tried to make him understand he deserves someone who treats him right.
[[not like he listened...]]

he loves her, yesh.
but he's getting hurt,
admitted it himself.
grawr >.<

then i randomly asked...
"why tell someone something if it doesn't matter?
trying to be hypothetical
and i didn't get it when he said "maybe it does"
he told me to read between the lines,
and i didn't get it.
so he told me to cross out the maybe
and it made me smile.
cuz we were talking about me liking him.
and i'm hopeless?

"Crash&Burn" makes me cry.
a lot.
i've listened to it exactly 54 times now.
i sang it to him.
because it fits,
in so many ways.
but i told him i meant it in a friend way.
and he smiled.
[[over the phone]]

he called at 3:30
we didn't get off till 5:30
another late night with him
[[and god it's worth it]]

no matter what, he promised
friends forever
and that's fine with me
]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7461575/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7461575/ Fri, 30 Dec 2005 22:49:19 PST
well...for the most part. at first, everyone just sat aound. I gave Eizoh his present. he's very possessive of his play-dough. and i like brittany's cell. i suck at DDR. but chris&allyn look HOT playing. mhmm.

we went to this park thing. jordan sat on my face, and chis&julian&jordan pushed me on the swingsss. someone broke the lamp thing, but i'm not sure who. brittany and i talked about wine&sex. i rolled in the grass with jordan. almost broke my glasses. listened to Fall Out Boy. denied liking Rob to almost eveyone. which everyone but allyn believed. hey, it's almost true. got bored and looked at the stars.

got back to allyn's after we broke the lamp thing and ran. they started playing DDR again and brought out the chocolate fondue. yummm. i listened to "Crash&Burn" by Savage Garden. it inspired me to wite a poem. which i left at allyn's house. gawr.

it was easy to cry listening to that song cuz i'm really quite and my hair covers my face.
yayy?

i spent the last 30 minutes of her party talking to Rob. which was funnn? yeah, it was. but weird. and confusing? and i wish he couldve come.

<uote of the Day: si lly sh lut (10:59:05 PM): "penises are like custard with bones in them"

oh yeah, Guest List: Allyn, Johnothan, Julian, Eizoh/Jordan, Caroline, Chris, Eric, Brian, &Brittany.

yeaaah, Savage Garden makes me cry.

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

'Cause there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breath again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7440929/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7440929/ Wed, 28 Dec 2005 14:56:11 PST i love mah allyn babeh,
and today was great.
but i cant stop this sinking feeling.
heh, i havent felt this depressed in a long while.
effinrawrrr >.<

ashley&&crystal&&kiwi bear are ready to go gangsta on someones ass,
but i wont tell them who upset me.
why should i?
i dont want any fights breaking out,
and i know kiwi bear is completly serious.
nhlsxaFRIGGINA

so yeah, church tonight.
crysi wants to hug me.
and make it better.

hugs dont make the whole effin world better, babe.
god knows i wish they did.

Rosa=typical emo bitch.
wtfever.
does it look like i care?

♥i love you guys ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7417691/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7417691/ Sun, 25 Dec 2005 20:51:55 PST Rosamfggg, 3 hours of Lord of the Bloom!
Mom: we all know why you're gonna watch the movie.
Aunt: isn't it Lord of the RIngs?
Rosa: no, duuuh.
Mom: *whispers* [[she just might be more blonde than you]]

yeah, there were more.

i've been a greedy bitch today, cuz i didn't get half of what i wanted. no i-pod, no Raise Your Voice, no Cheaper by the Dozen, no digital camera, no lipgloss. so i pouted.
i'm so emo<3

i did get a new journal. I've christened it "Lover". Cuz god knows...kay, won't go there. Let's just say I'm sleeping with it EVERY night.

and i got Napolean Dynamite. Which I've wanted to see since forever. Well, really just since Mr. G started quoting the movie in Biology. And people started saying Jeff looked like Napoleon. <3 haha

and a lava lamp? which is 2 years too lated. i wanted one in 8th grade. yeah, not now. I don;t have a room. no place to put it. I might give it to Allyn?

<333 ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7412933/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7412933/ Sun, 25 Dec 2005 11:17:03 PST silversky1415: *hug*
silversky1415: merry christmas to you too
xsillyg00seTMQx: i hope its wonderful!!!
silversky1415: it is
xsillyg00seTMQx: mine too ^-^
xsillyg00seTMQx: Christmas trhis year has been wonderful
silversky1415: *hug* I'm glad
xsillyg00seTMQx: me too ^-^ same with yours
xsillyg00seTMQx: *big hug*
xsillyg00seTMQx: ^^thats you present! lol
silversky1415: I love you so much!
xsillyg00seTMQx: i love you too!

MERRY CHRISTMAS, and a happy new year!

<33-Rosa ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7382748/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7382748/ Thu, 22 Dec 2005 13:26:11 PST this time he couldn't talk long, just wanted to tell me that Melissa Frierson is moving in next door to him.
Whch really?
is beyond fucking freaky.
He's supposed to call me back later.
He sounded shakey.
odd.
If he starts liking her..
well, we won't even go there.


There are certain people whose voices still make my heart do flip-flops.
2 in particular.
well really, only 2.
No more.
I don;t like it.
Make it go away.

Hollywood Undead is my anti-drug.

everyone aroudn me is falling in love.
99% of my ex's have new girlfriends.
and some of those gfs just dont make sense.
or bfs, whichever you want.

I don;t feel so good.
I feel so shakey.
My hearts still flippy-floppy.
I cant calm down.
Cant stiop shaking.

good news?
if allyn moves, it won;t be till after high school.
which is good, cuz i don;t know what i'd do without her.
i love her too much :/

<3FUCK LOVE
<3FUCK FUNNY FEELINGS
<3FUCK EXES
<3FUCK YOU

k, i feel better now.
love you guys.

<3 ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7376611/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7376611/ Wed, 21 Dec 2005 19:54:28 PST cuz i d0ont want pipidee mad @ moi
x[Doll].[Face]x- Forget my name says:
nuuu
She wasted her entire life wishing for so much more. says:
yayzizzle
She wasted her entire life wishing for so much more. says:
albinonigga
x[Doll].[Face]x- Forget my name says:
I has to poof
She wasted her entire life wishing for so much more. says:
awh. *poofpoff* i lyffs you
x[Doll].[Face]x- Forget my name says:
I luffles j00
She wasted her entire life wishing for so much more. says:
shw33t


oh god, so Piper&&I are pretty weird.
CRAYON&&IPIDEE FOREVER




hmmm, Brittany messages me, saying she was in love with me, and wanted to be my g/f. im really hoping it wasnt actually her.

this girl names Jordyn sent me hatemail cuz i posted a sad bulletin. Ashley cussed her out. I didnt ask her to.

Allyn's probably moving back to NY :'[ Jordan/Eizoh might be moving.
that makes me very sad.
pshh yeah.
cuz i love my darlings.
what would i do without them??

Rob's called me twice in 3 days. Randomly. somethings very odd here?

ive been eating too many cheese biscuits to make me feel better. i;m extremely fat now. ewwwh.
make me stop

my hair constantly amazes me. it goes from looking like complete shyt to lookign fucking amazing. wheeeeee.
i dye it too often.
im dying it again next month.
well, getting red highlights.

im missing Neppy,Cashidy,Kaylala,Amyyyyy,&&ipidee<3 ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7361052/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7361052/ Tue, 20 Dec 2005 06:34:53 PST [link]

please make an account from that link, and activate it. you dont have to get on it ever again, but i'm trying to buy my sister a present on neopets and i need the reward points i'd get for rewarding people. message me or comment me saying you did it and I'LL reward you@!

thanky ou nepaul for already registerin g for me ^o^


oh, and PEOPLE. Mom extended my curfew to midnight or so on New Years, so SOMEONE better have a party or SOMETHING, cuz you BETTER not make me pas sup on this chnace to stay out late!

:] k, thats all. ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7360692/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7360692/ Tue, 20 Dec 2005 05:26:52 PST
so lets recap. eizoh came and picked me up round 10:30. i snuck out, cuz i'm not allowed to spend the night with him. We spent about 7 hours on Neopets. That boy wont fucking leeave certain frog-like creatures alone. AND i totally clustered a fish doughnutfruit. XP his mom&&her friends were pretty hilarious. Jordan was as well. Quotes, but i don't feel like writing them down. I had cake. And took a picture of his back/my arm. THEN:


EIZOH DROVE.

his first time ever. to take me home cuz the guy who was supposed to take me home wouldn't wake up, cuz I had to be home at 6. he was a fucking natural. i'm pretty much in love with him for it. <3

and i got away with lying to mommy. i told her i'been for a walk aroudn the neighborhood. she believed me. and jordan t home and inside without a fucking hitch.

SCORE. <3333

Matt called me before I left last night. And then, to my surprise...Rob called. He wanted to check up on me, and see me sometime. I think that'd be great ^-^

HAPPY HAPPY ROSA

You're my inspiration
You're my infatuation
Help me find the way
Help me, help me find the way

You're my sweet salvation
You're my soul obsession
Help me find the way
Help me, Help me find the way

You're the greatest friend I know
You really are the aces
With compound eyes I've been shown
You really are the greatest

You're my percolation
You're my intonation
Help me find the way
Help me, help me find the way

You're the greatest friend I know
You really are an all-star
With X-ray eyes I've been shown
You really are the greatest


Current Mood: giddy
Current Music: "Kiss Your Language" Squirtgun ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7340510/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7340510/ Sat, 17 Dec 2005 21:27:32 PST
this weekend was wonderful

last night I went up to Monroe, North Carolina, for my cousins' ballet performance. We got home, the girls were still at practice. I wanted to stay up, cuz hell, it was only 9! but i was the first pone asleep :/ i couldn't wake up this morning, but when i did, zomfg. best breakfast evvvvvurh! scrambled eggs, strawberry coffee cake, and whole wheat bagel halves with LOTS of butter. and that wasn;t even the best part of the day.

I had to dress up for the play. UGH. bvut...it was worth it. I went backstage before the Nutcracker started. It was pretty damn professional, so everyone was backstage. everyone. i helped Hannah with her makeup a bit, then curled her hair in sausage curls, then i helped Bethany get her mouse costume on.

Te play began. It was...magical, for lack of a better word. Clara was wonderful, and so beautiful. I loved Fritz, and the man who played Herr Drosselmeyer was exeptionally good. The prince was HOTTTT. His name was SImon Catoe, and he had the most gorgeoush red hair i've ever seen. Katie was a Part Girl, Bethany was a Mouse, and Hannah was a Dream Angel, and looked very much the part.

The lighting was magnificent, as were the actors/actresses. There was one in particular I watched the whole time, her name was Camryn. She was...stunning. She played Cinderella in the play Cinderella, which was the last production I saw down in NC. I was transported to CLara's world. IT was magnifico

i'm happy happy HAPPY. ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7321751/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7321751/ Thu, 15 Dec 2005 18:36:05 PST let me put it this way. the only reason i press the truth fromn poeople is because when i dont know, ia susme and most times mya ssumtions are 21433421x worse than reality

story of my fucking life.
god fuckign damn.
i need seriosu help.
~p0isinbelladonna http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7321675/ http://p0isinbelladonna.deviantart.com/journal/7321675/ Thu, 15 Dec 2005 18:28:38 PST i know why.
but dont you dare ask why.
cuz i'm gonna pull a nepaul, and not tell anyone.
but make it go away?
<3 ]]> ~p0isinbelladonna