..| F r i e n d s |..

Go here!
, , and I have started a commission and print 'business'! Go check it out and give us some love!

My Mommy! Give her tons of love!

My little TWIN! ^__^

My brothers!

http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/18001291/ Thu, 24 Apr 2008 02:53:39 PDT
REQUESTS (The final stretches!):

1. *ItamiAssassian Drawn, Inking
2. ~TerryGoodkindFan Concept Sketched
3. ~cspan3000 Drawn, Inking
4. ~BhaskaraLestat Inked, Scanning
5. ~rowandamia Drawn, Inking
6. ~bobrox15 Inking
7. ~Fai-Fan-Club Drawing
8. ~JarahOfSorrow Queued
9. ~uncharmemysterieux Queued
10. ~the-kub Queued
11. ~jhubert Queued
12. ~nelly1234 Queued
13. ~FRACTUREDFAIRY Queued
14. =mippa Queued
15. ~toniii Queued
16. ~Blueoriontiger Queued

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COMMISSIONS:
Drawn, awaiting inking!
I'm still trying to draw yours out, hon!

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I am still open for commissions! Prices are as follows:
FOR 1-2 Characters:
Sketch- $5
Inked- $10
Cel Coloured- $15
Cel Coloured w/ background- $20
Fully rendered colour- $25
Fully rendered colour w/ background- $30
For each Extra character - add $5
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And so freakin' tagged me! Here we go!

1) What's your character's name?
Dagda

2) How old is he/she?
We’ll say 17

3)Is your OC a boy or a girl?
He’s a boy!

4) What's his/her race?
He’s a ram boy, haha!

Appearance:

1) If this character were to suddenly become part of the real world, and ended up in a heavily-populated area, how many stares would he/she get?
He’d probably get a lot of stares, though I don’t think he’d care.

2) Is your character considered normal in his/her own world?
Yes, he is the prince of his kingdom!


3) What would be his/her most recognizable feature(s)?
His wild hair!

4) Would you consider your OC as attractive?.
I think he’s hot, haha!

Personality:

1) Temper?
He’s got a temper for when he doesn’t get his way, yes!

2) Does your character ever get depressed?
Not really, though he does occasionally think about his position in the universe.

3) Leader or Follower?
He’s a leader, no doubt about it!

4) What is the main aspect(s) of his/her personality?
He is a very manipulative and rebellious teen who just wants to live his life his own way.

History:

1) Did your OC have a family of any sort? If so, are they still alive?
He has two parents and a sister, who he fights with constantly. They are all currently living.

2) Is your character out on his/her own? If so, why?
Nope, he’s still at home being trained to be the king!


3) Has he/she encountered any traumatizing events?
Not yet, haha!

4) What was probably the best time in his/her life so far?
For him, any time he can get An to go with him on one of his horrible plots to get into trouble.


Romance:

1) Single?
Yes and no.


2) Has your OC developed any romantic relationships?
Nope!


3) Virgin?
Not a chance!


4) Does your character like flirting?
Definitely, he likes to pretend he has to woo his women before sleeping with them.

~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/17680045/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/17680045/ Fri, 04 Apr 2008 08:49:39 PDT
REQUESTS (The final stretches!):

1. *ItamiAssassian Drawn, Inking
2. ~TerryGoodkindFan Concept Sketched
3. ~cspan3000 Drawn, Inking
4. *BhaskaraLestat Inked, Scanning
5. ~rowandamia Drawn, Inking
6. ~bobrox15 Inking
7. ~tineinfrin Drawn, Inking
8. ~Fai-Fan-Club Drawing
9. ~JarahOfSorrow Queued
10. ~uncharmemysterieux Queued
11. ~the-kub Queued
12. ~jhubert Queued
13. ~nelly1234 Queued
14. ~FRACTUREDFAIRY Queued
15. =mippa Queued
16. ~toniii Queued
17. ~Blueoriontiger Queued

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COMMISSIONS:
Drawn, awaiting inking!
I'm still trying to draw yours out, hon!

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

I am still open for commissions! Prices are as follows:
FOR 1-2 Characters:
Sketch- $5
Inked- $10
Cel Coloured- $15
Cel Coloured w/ background- $20
Fully rendered colour- $25
Fully rendered colour w/ background- $30
For each Extra character - add $5
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Wow, the past few weeks has raced by for me, I'm already almost done with my first week back at school! Where did my break go? It literally slipped out from under me. *sob* Anyway, I didn't get half as much done during the break as I wanted to, of course (that's what I get for traveling), but I did get to go to my hometown and present for my mother's art classes about how art can become a career. I really think that people don't believe it's possible. . . And that makes me sad.

Anyway, I have tons of news for everyone!

First off, scored us a table at Anime Expo! So, , , and I will be at the Artist Alley this year! *cheer* We are trying to get set up properly, but we don't have a lot of time, so does anyone have some good suggestions for what to draw for it? We've been working on a lot, but I wanna see if we can hit a bigger demographic of fans. . .

Also, I'll be working really hard on getting out some fantastic art this quarter. I'm taking Advanced Illustration, and this time around I have the option of doing digital work! That makes me extremely happy, because it means I can futz with the colors more and get out some truly rockin' pieces! So keep your eyes peeled for that!

And for those who are still waiting for their requests, I am letting you know now that I am going to get them done within the next two weeks, though a lot of them are only going to be sketches, and I apologize for that. I really wish I had the time to finish all of them to the caliber that they started o... ]]> ~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/17240949/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/17240949/ Sat, 08 Mar 2008 13:40:03 PST
REQUESTS (The final stretches!):

1. *ItamiAssassian Drawn, Inking
2. ~TerryGoodkindFan Concept Sketched
3. ~cspan3000 Drawn, Inking
4. ~BhaskaraLestat Inked, Scanning
5. ~rowandamia Drawn, Inking
6. ~bobrox15 Inking
7. ~tineinfrin Drawn, Inking
8. ~Fai-Fan-Club Drawing
9. ~JarahOfSorrow Queued
10. ~uncharmemysterieux Queued
11. ~the-kub Queued
12. ~jhubert Queued
13. ~nelly1234 Queued
14. ~FRACTUREDFAIRY Queued
15. =mippa Queued
16. ~toniii Queued
17. ~Blueoriontiger Queued

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COMMISSIONS:
Drawn, awaiting inking!
I'm still trying to draw yours out, hon!

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

I am still open for commissions! Prices are as follows:
FOR 1-2 Characters:
Sketch- $5
Inked- $10
Cel Coloured- $15
Cel Coloured w/ background- $20
Fully rendered colour- $25
Fully rendered colour w/ background- $30
For each Extra character - add $5
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So, this week was one helluva pain in my rear! This morning I got up extra early to do some yardwork around the house, and I totally forgot how much I hate yard work, and for this reason - my hands hurt! *sniffle* I know I should suck it up because it's my own fault that we put it off for so long, but dang does it hurt to have multiple blisters on your palms! Anyway, thankfully for us, the yard is now pretty and leaf free, and the garage is a little bit more organized! Life will be better!

Finals are also approaching fast for me, and I've got a LOT of work to do. So, please don't be sad to not see me responding as often, I'll get to everything and get all of my artwork posted when the break hits, and after that I'll be in over my head with classes for the next quarter, I'll be taking 7 classes, 23 credits, whoo! It's a bit scary, but I think I'll be able to handle it.

----RANT (don't read if you can't handle it)-----

Oh, and just for a small rant I HATE stupid people. Who in the fuck comes up to a print shop with a pre-made image and gets pissed off when it's not cropped right because THEY were the ones who fucked it up in the first place, and then makes the worker actually sit down and manually crop all of their shit? AAAARG! This is so frustrating, and it's hard to be nice when all I want to do is shove my fist in her face because she's being a complete hag about something SHE FUCKED UP. NOT ME. All I do is press the print button, I'm not responsible for something you did wrong, I'm sorry. I'm not your fucking servant, I don't get paid to bow at your feet and kiss the ground you walk on with your high horse. I fucking hate interior design students at this school, too, because they seem to have the least amount of brain power with the most amount of egotistical bitchiness added in to make one fine piece of shit for a human being. I've met THREE that actually had some brain power.

I'm sorry, this bitch just REALLY pissed me off with her fucking attitude. . .

-----END RANT-----

Anyway, I will be much more scarce on DA for a while, but keep faith! I shall return!

My Bitches!

http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/16943177/ Mon, 18 Feb 2008 09:54:22 PST
REQUESTS (The final stretches!):

1. *ItamiAssassian Drawn, Inking
2. ~TerryGoodkindFan Concept Sketched
3. ~cspan3000 Drawn, Inking
4. *BhaskaraLestat Inked, Scanning
5. ~rowandamia Drawn, Inking
6. ~bobrox15 Inking
7. ~tineinfrin Drawn, Inking
8. ~Fai-Fan-Club Drawing
9. ~JarahOfSorrow Queued
10. ~uncharmemysterieux Queued
11. ~the-kub Queued
12. ~jhubert Queued
13. ~nelly1234 Queued
14. ~FRACTUREDFAIRY Queued
15. =mippa Queued
16. ~toniii Queued
17. ~Blueoriontiger Queued

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COMMISSIONS:
Drawn, awaiting inking!
I'm still trying to draw yours out, hon!

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

I am still open for commissions! Prices are as follows:
FOR 1-2 Characters:
Sketch- $5
Inked- $10
Cel Coloured- $15
Cel Coloured w/ background- $20
Fully rendered colour- $25
Fully rendered colour w/ background- $30
For each Extra character - add $5
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Wow, I know these requests have been waiting a while, but I've been really tired lately, and I really haven't had the energy to really do much when it comes to them. Those of you still waiting for requests, hang on tight, I'll have them done hopefully soon! Past the people that I've already said I'd do requests for, I will not be opening myself up for them again anytime soon. I'm in six classes this quarter and it's finally catching up to me in all senses of the word. I am, though, going to open myself up for art trades, because that seems like it's much more fair, since both of us will be putting out the effort for it!

Another reason for my fatigue and for my lack of art being put up is I've gotten myself back into some majorly bad obsessions, and started up on some new ones. I finally got myself back into Naruto, D. Grayman, and I'm starting up on Bleach again! Go me! I've also gotten myself into Tsubasa and xxxHolic. In the course of two weeks I think I've read over 630 chapters of manga. I would like to think that's a mighty big number! Do be expecting some awesome fanart from all of these! I have quite a few that I've been drawing that I really need to finish, haha! I also still have some more Sailor Moon, Gundam Seed, Avatar, and Hikaru no Go pieces to put up along with a few other random fandoms, haha!

I'm also trying to wrap my brain around graduating from the Art Institute. I know I've still got a little less than a year to go, but oh, my GAWD I never thought it would come up this quickly! I'm trying to get my portfolio up to snuff right now along with taking all the final classes. . . I'm almost scared about this now, really!

So, in a nutshell, that's why I've been so busy, so please, everyone, be patient with me, haha!

My Bitches!

Go here!
, http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/16719906/ Mon, 04 Feb 2008 08:35:28 PST
REQUESTS (15 at a time only!):

1. Inked, Scanned
2. Inked, Scanned
3. Drawn
4. Concept Sketched
5. Inked, Scanned
6. Drawn
7. Inking
8. Drawn
9. Inking
10. Drawn
11. Queued
12. Queued
13. Queued
14. Queued
15. Queued
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COMMISSIONS:
Drawn, awaiting inking!
I'm still trying to draw yours out, hon!

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

I am still open for commissions! Prices are as follows:
FOR 1-2 Characters:
Sketch- $5
Inked- $10
Cel Coloured- $15
Cel Coloured w/ background- $20
Fully rendered colour- $25
Fully rendered colour w/ background- $30
For each Extra character - add $5
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Alright, so I am back to make yet another addition to my journal novel, haha! After one hell of a week, I wanted to come down and say hello to everyone, to let them know I'm not dead yet, I still have a lot of requests to do, but I'm working as fast as I can on them, I promise! I still have three that are in the coloring phase right now, I just need to get them finished finally, and I've had a hard time doing that. . .

I also wanted to talk about my biggest pet peeve, which has gotten worse since I've started doing these requests. I HATE it when people favorite my work with not so much as a "cool" for a... ]]> ~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/16567450/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/16567450/ Fri, 25 Jan 2008 14:24:17 PST
REQUESTS (15 at a time only!):

1. Inked, Scanned
2. Inked, Scanned
3. Inked, Scanned
4. Inked, Scanned
5. Drawn
6. Concept Sketched
7. Inked, Scanned
8. Drawn
9. Queued
10. Queued
11. Queued
12. Queued
13. Queued
14. Queued
15. Queued

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COMMISSIONS:
Drawn, awaiting inking!
I'm still trying to draw yours out, hon!

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

I am still open for commissions! Prices are as follows:
FOR 1-2 Characters:
Sketch- $5
Inked- $10
Cel Coloured- $15
Cel Coloured w/ background- $20
Fully rendered colour- $25
Fully rendered colour w/ background- $30
For each Extra character - add $5
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Well, I have started taking requests, as you all can see! As of right now I'm closed, because thirteen requests is a big load, haha! I'm still open for commissions, though, so until I hit 13 there, I am definitely ready to get paid, haha!

Anyway, my quarter at school has started off with a bang, and I'm actually happy right now, because even with six classes, I've got a lot of time to draw still, and that also means I have more time to plan for ~sadpandainks to show up at Akon, Anime Expo, Anime Weekend Atlanta, and... ]]> ~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/16280370/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/16280370/ Sun, 06 Jan 2008 03:31:45 PST
Anyway, I wanted to pop in and say hi, since I've actually started commenting again! I am going to be putting up a lot of art soon! I have a ton from a class I had attended, and I need to do some color correcting in most of them, but I'll hopefully have them up pretty quickly! I have also branched back out into the world of fanart! I have been drawing tons of fan art, mostly from shows dear to me like Avatar, Sailor Moon, and Hikaru no Go, though I have also drawn some Gundam Seed fan art as well! It really is amazing how much I've drawn in the past few months, and I can't wait to have everyone looking at them.

A majority of what I'll be putting up soon will be on sale for prints, as well, though I won't be doing them through deviantART. Very soon , , , and I will be launching Sad Panda Inks, a place for the four of us to come together in our artistic abilities and sell like hell! Hopefully you'll be seeing us at a few conventions as well!

Hopefully we'll get some kick-ass artwork up there for everyone to buy from us, and there you'll be able to commission us for your favorite character, even if it is your own! Be ready for us!

Anyway, I'm still open for commissions on my own, and my prices are as follows:

FOR 1-2 Characters:
Sketch- $5
Inked- $10
Cel Coloured- $15
Cel Coloured w/ background- $20
Fully rendered colour- $25
Fully rendered colour w/ background- $30
For each Extra character - add $5

For those of you still waiting for a commission from me, I do have your works already partially done, and I'll hopefully get them finished very soon!

My Bitches!

Go here!
, , and I have started a commission and print 'business'! Go check it out and give us some love!

My Mommy! Give her tons of love!

My little TWIN! ^__^

My brothers!

~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/15456691/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/15456691/ Sat, 10 Nov 2007 23:49:21 PST
First off, I want to restate that I am open for comissions! I have changed my pricing and gotten a little more specific, though, because of me being an idiot and not doing so earlier. Anway, it goes like this now:

FOR 1-2 Characters:
Sketch- $5
Inked- $10
Cel Coloured- $15
Cel Coloured w/ background- $20
Fully rendered colour- $25
Fully rendered colour w/ background- $30
For each Extra character - add $5

I don't mean to be snooty or anything like that, but my time is a bit more limited, and I need more buck for my bang, haha! Anyway, to all previous commission grabbers who I'm already doing a commission for, don't worry, your price will not change!

Anyway, I'm also fully moved into my new place, and I do love it here. It's so much nicer to have a house, and though it's harder to clean, I do miss having people coming and going all the time, and that's finally back.

I have also come under a new obsession! High School Musical has taken over my life, and now I have a High School Musical blanket, water fountain (I kid you not), poster, pillows, and a Ryan (my favorite character!) doll! I am really lame, haha!

I also finished doing a professional illustrator job, and the hookers you're seeing popping up on my page are from that job! Isn't that awesome? You can go to [link] to see one of them actually being used already! I'm really excited, haha!

Wow, this is the most I've written in a journal in a long time. . . anyway, that's it for me now, I'll see you all again soon!

]]> ~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/14642039/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/14642039/ Sat, 15 Sep 2007 09:07:53 PDT
I'll also be moving tomorrow, which will be really sad, because it will be my fourth time in two years to move. . . Hopefully I'll finally be settled in a place where I don't have to worry about stress at home overtaking my life and causing stress at school.

On another positive note, I have passed all my classes for the quarter, so I'm not completely dying yet! I had to drop some classes, but I'll survive I guess. I'm really hoping for next quarter to rock even harder than this quarter, haha! I'll hopefully have the time now to finally start going through all the deviations that I've been looking at but not commenting on (231! @__@!). . . . So I hope to have everything all put together by then. Until next time, my lovelies!

]]> ~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/13819011/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/13819011/ Sat, 21 Jul 2007 09:42:15 PDT
Well, last night and I went to a concert for "Hot Hot Heat" (bitches, if you don't know who they are, look 'em up!), and holy shit they were fantastic! It was even better because we were literally right up in front! I think the only time I've been more hyped after a concert was when I saw Incubus for the first time.

Which brings up more cool news. I'm totally going with to see Incubus on September 6th!! You have no idea how psyched I am! After missing their concert last time (I was SO pissed), this time is going to be awesome, because we have floor seats! *dance* WOO!

Anyway, not much else is going on past that, I'm still up for commissions, prices are still as follows:

Sketch: $5
Inked : $10
Coloured: $15
Coloured w/ BG: $20


Alright, bitches, until next time!

]]> ~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/13728130/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/13728130/ Sat, 14 Jul 2007 02:15:32 PDT
Sketch: $5
Inked : $10
Coloured: $15
Coloured w/ BG: $20

I can say that my break was extremely quick, I really felt like I hadn't had a break! It really shocked me how fast it went! I'm probably going to be pretty scarce on here again throughout the quarter, but I'll still get on for commission work and all that happy hoo-ha!

I can also say I celebrated my 20th birthday in June, so I'm only one year away from being fully legal! w00t! I got to visit my mother and it was a blast! Well, I'll leave you all alone for now, haha!


COMMISSION REPORT:

- 20% done, I've finally found a decent background reference, so that will start moving along much faster now!

- 45% I have your character inked, all I have to do is scan him in and set him to a nice background, yay!

- 10% I have the initial sketches pretty much done for you on both, yay!

]]> ~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/12972081/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/12972081/ Tue, 15 May 2007 23:17:45 PDT
Hear that bitches? It means buy from me, haha! I'm going to price them accordingly:

Sketch: $5
Inked : $10
Coloured: $15
Coloured w/ BG: $20

I know I dont' respond here a lot, but I definately will when it comes to the commission thing. I'll draw just about anything- I'll need references, though. It's all I request. ^__^

This is all in a desperate attempt to be able to go to Anime Expo without completely killing myself with my jobs and school! Help a fellow artist?

]]> ~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/12885286/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/12885286/ Tue, 08 May 2007 07:55:00 PDT
I must say, though, when I come back, I'll finally have some great stuff to show for it! I have been working as basically a character designer for one of my classes, and I really can't wait to show ya'all the work I've been doing in there. I will also have a sculpture or two to show you! Yaaaay!

Okay, it's personal rant time.

Have you ever had the problem where you are trying to prepare yourself for moving on, and when it happens, you aren't ready yet? Yeah. . .

Rant time done!

I also have some wonderful news! Hopefully, by the time I graduate from the Art Institute of Las Vegas, I might be able to move to Maryland! And go to MICA to get my masters! WOO! Finally time to go to the school of my dreams! So I'm feeling better than I usually do! Anyway, personal time with Erin is done for today, and as I said, I do hope to be back into all of your lives soon again!

]]> ~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/12474801/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/12474801/ Thu, 05 Apr 2007 18:43:06 PDT
WHY can't people just tell me to my face when they have a problem with something I'm doing? Is it that hard to come up to me and say "Hey, Erin, I don't think you should do that, it's kind of bothering me?" I won't freaking bite your heads off!! In fact, I'd rather have it that way than have to hear it through whispering or by someone else's lips. THAT is what causes me anxiety. THAT is what gives me panic attacks. THAT is what makes me lose sleep at night because I feel like throwing up. I will not get into the incident where this happned, but I can tell you it majorly upset me because I TOLD these people to do that, and they completely ingored my requests, and it really bothers me a lot. I try not to ignore theirs, but I guess I can't be held at the same esteem, eh?

I'm also really sad because my mother told me that my brother is getting kicked out of the house now. He refuses to learn, and I just wish I could kick him the right way in the head to get him to understand that doing nothing all day gets you NOWHERE. Keep him in your thoughts and prayers, please?

Anyway, rant done, I'll leave you all be.

]]> ~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/12200954/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/12200954/ Fri, 16 Mar 2007 00:25:31 PDT
Anyway, I wanted to let everyone know that I've been extremely scarce as of late because I was moving into my new apartment, and as of last night, I finally got internet again, yay! I'll have to get pictures of my new place for everyone to see, it's really nice for the price I'm paying for it! I can't wait for Monday, though, because my darling rommate, will be joining me, so I won't be all alone anymore! I get so lonely here. . . it's too quiet. . .

Also, in recent news, I got to go see the demolition of the Stardust Hotel and Casino, and now I officially have a piece of Stardust dust lodged into what I think would be my right lung. Never compound demolition dust with a cigarette. It's bad times.

And, last but not least of all, I went and saw 300, and DAMN it was awesome! I've seen it 4 times so far, haha! I do love the movie to death! Great cinematography, acting, and editing. . . *drools* Of course there are problems with it, but there are problems with every movie out there, you just have to find where they are, haha!

So, that's all that is gonig on in my boring life, I should be posting again soon enough!

]]> ~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/11928592/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/11928592/ Thu, 22 Feb 2007 22:55:17 PST

Yes, the time has come where I want everyone to actually freaking write in my journal! And I have bait for it, too! THe first ten people to comment on my journal will get three pieces of theirs featured up here, with a description of why I like the ones I picked the most!

I really could care less if you post it on your own journal, I know most of you already have, I'm lagging behind, haha! Anyway, just let me know, actually COMMENT, and you get some free promotion!

1. I really hated having to pick only three!
[link] A classic of his that I still chuckl at every time I look!
[link] I LOVE his design work, he always makes it pop and stand out from what everyone else does, and this work is no exception!
[link] Again, he has a great sense of design and style, and this piece just rocks! Who wouldn't want a fish balloon?
2. Another one I didn't wanna pick only three for!
[link] I love this picture of her character, Ashley, whom I adore! She nailed that pose!
[link] Her dabbling in pixel art, which she rocks my socks in!
[link] And of course a quite drool-worthy pic of Ashley! It's a bit mature, kids! Watch out! *melts into a puddle*
3. Another hard bit of desicion making. . . limits are sad face for me.
[link] This was the first drawing of hers I ever saw, and I still must say it is the awesome sauce! THe hands! *drool*
[link] I love this piece, too. It's inked cool and I LOVE the pose. I still wanna try to hug her. . . *might be ded soon*
[link] I love his hair and horns! He's so molestable! Again, I'm probably going to end up dying. . . ¬¬;
4. only has two pieces, but that's okay. ^^
[link] I think this is cute, and it uses a good triangular composition!
[link] Very cute ltitle comic. . . I wont' ever ask for Itachi-chan's chocolate. . .
5. Another wonderful artist with great stuff! Go check her out!
[link] This pic is just the awesome sauce. THe pose is great, the pencilwork is fantastic, an all around rockin' piece!
[link] She can do pottery and such, I envy her so!
[link] This is so cute, I loves it! She has a great sense of style, too! *dances*
6. An artist I've watched grow for about three years, now! She's come so far!
http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/11783682/ Mon, 12 Feb 2007 09:02:27 PST

My dreaded Project management midterm is over! I must say thank you to everyone who supported us through this, my team and I GREATLY appreciated your help!

We managed to get an 'A' on our project, too! Our professor said it was because we handled ourselves professionally, like we were a business. Hurrah!

Again, thank you all! I'll get crackin' on commenting on deviations and such later on!

Mah Buddehs (according to me ) :

My little TWIN! ^__^

My SteSte! *hugs him*

My dummy brother!

http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/11683441/ Sun, 04 Feb 2007 11:46:13 PST

Well, things are going alright with our video, though it's still not as close to 5,000 as I'd like. . . we have three honours, though! We're over 1,000 hits now, but since the counters on YouTube are kind of faulty, we can't really tell HOW many we REALLY have. Anyway, I want to say thank you to EVERYONE who is helping us, we appreciate it SO much!

Again, the link is here: [link]

Again, thank you, and we hope for more of your wonderful support!

Mah Buddehs (according to me ) :

My little TWIN! ^__^

My SteSte! *hugs him*

My dummy brother!

~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/11642347/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/11642347/ Thu, 01 Feb 2007 01:49:05 PST

Well, hello again, my darling supporters, the few of you left;

I know I have been very distant on DA, and I do apologize for it, but I do have a very valid reason: school. I have one class in particular that I really need help with, and I am pleading to all of you to do this for me! For my Project Management class, I need to get 5,000 hits on a video my team and I made. Sadly, we can’t do this on our own (yes, we did consider trying it). I need every single one of you who actually give a rat’s ass to help me by viewing my video, and spreading it to every friend you have! Also, if you do watch the video, if you could send a quick email to editor@youtube.com saying that my video should be featured, I might be able to make my quota! My grade is LITERALLY dependent on this!

The link is here: [link]

Anyway, thank all of you who actually do decide to help me, I REALLY appreciate it.

Mah Buddehs (according to me ) :

My little TWIN! ^__^

My SteSte! *hugs him*

My dummy brother!

http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/11295956/ Wed, 03 Jan 2007 01:08:28 PST

Holy crapbats, gramma! I'm back! I will be here for a little bit, I'm doing my best to catch up on everyone's artwork and such, I'm going to be slow, and I apologize for that, I've been one busy chick!

Lately I've taken to being all over the place, visiting friends, working long days, and generally being busy. I finally had the time to day to just sit and post things, so I hope everyone is happy for that, haha!

I would love to wish everyone a belated Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! I hope everyone has made reasonable resolutions and such, and if anyone wanted a Christmas present from me, they better tell me, because I don't have a clue as to what to draw for who (I don't have the money to buy people things, haha!).

Anyway, I do hope ya'all have noticed the wonderously bad additions to my gallery, they will be better soon, when I put them in photoshop and colour them to death, meaning they'll actually get a fucking background! WOO!

I started up on drawing for the 100 Manga Theme Challenge, which I'd forgotten about completely, haha! I feel slightly bad, but hey, I've been a BUSY bitch!

So, without further adeu, here is the list thing!

# of Artwork Completed: 2/100 (so far!)
Last Update: January 3rd, 2007
Themes Updated: #3, #4

1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light ~*~ [link] ~*~
4. Dark ~*~ [link] ~*~
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

Mah Buddehs (according to me ) :

My little TWIN! ^__^

My SteSte! *hugs him*

My dummy brother!

http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/10848184/ Sat, 25 Nov 2006 17:54:29 PST

I'm a very bad girl, I know. I am also a sad panda.

I haven't updated this journal in months, and I really must say I have been shying away from DA a bit, but not to the fault of anyone I knwo here, really! I've been so freaking busy it's amazing, really. I decided it might be a good idea to give everyone a head's up on what's going on, and why it's taking me so long to do all the simple things I claimed I'd get done quicker. . . I do feel ashamed of myself, really.

I recently got a new job, working at a place called Coldwater Creek. It's a really nice store and I LOVE working there, almost to the point of obsession, really. I make a lot more money and I get good hours, so I am actually able to save up for things like AX this year (yay!). It's taken up a lot of my time, but it is one of many factors in my absence.

I also have my Intermediate 2D animation class that I've been working on as close to nonstop as a person with ADHD can. I think as soon as I'm done with this class, I'll have tons more time for things like internet, at least for a quarter, until I get into the Traditional Animation Workshop.

I also don't have a car anymore. . . it got towed, and really it's a VERY long story that I no longer HAVE to rant about anymore.

See? A lot HAS been going on in my life, but it's turning out for the better, really! I do promise that when I have the time (and the willpower), I will reply to all of you, and pick through your deviations! It might just take another month. . . Do be patient with me!


As for the sketch thing that I did in the last journal,I do have them all done, you'll all just have to wait for a little while! Sorry!


Thansk for listening to this boring person talk at herself!

Mah Buddehs (according to me ) :

My little TWIN! ^__^

My SteSte! *hugs him*

My dummy brother!

~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/10074640/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/10074640/ Sun, 01 Oct 2006 01:47:14 PDT

Alright! I should have done this forever ago, I know! I also know I STILL have to get my Five sketches up, and I WILL. ^^ They are all done, I just have to get to posting things, and that will happen after the quarter is over. The last class I have to actually worry about is on Saturday, so you might see them up as early as Sunday. . . I'm not sure, though. Sorry! I wish I could do more, but I've been busy ((the only reason I'm writing this journal is because I'm waiting for my files to render)).

ANYWAY! Here is the ten sketches thing that everyone is doing. ^^ Claim one if you want, I'll be on break for two weeks, so hopefully I'll be able to get them all done and scanned and posted before classes start again!

Free sketches to the first 10 commenters. A simple sketch, nothing that has to be really horribly involved.

The Rules:

• Only one character per request.
• You must repost this meme in your journal if you get accepted for a request.
• References for original characters please.
• Fanart allowed, but nothing crazy, still, with references.

1. wants our OC Soopah Poof [link]
2. wants her OC Ashley [link]
3. wants herself drawn in kitty form
4. wants a sketch of herself ^^
5. wants Yukio-chan, my OC! [link]
6. wants Kingdom Hearts fanart! [link]
7. Wants a sketch of her self-character! [link]
8. Wants a sketch of a band member from the Aquabats!
9. wants a sketch of our RP couple, Domino and Brent! [link]
10.

I still would LOVE for more people to request something here, really!

Oh, yeah, enjoy! ^^

Mah Buddehs (according to me ) :

My little TWIN! ^__^

My SteSte! *hugs him*

My dummy brother!

http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/9540139/ Sun, 30 Jul 2006 05:33:23 PDT

Yes, I should be working harder on picking through my messages, but I got myself down from 80+ to 31, I think this deserves me actually posting!

I have some major news!


I FINISHED MY FIRST AMV IN FIVE YEARS!

It's been a long time since I've done videos, and when I did them before I had Premiere. . . right now I'm working with Windows Movie Maker. . . yeah. Doing lip syncing with that is HELL. Seven hours of work for a video that's only a minute and a half long. . . I almost feel ashamed, really. . .

ANYWAY! Bitches! Time for you to look at my come back to the realm of AMV's! It's an Ouran High School Host Club vid, so ENJOY IT!!!!

[link]

MUAHAHAHAHA!!!

Mah Buddehs (according to me ) :

My little TWIN! ^__^

My SteSte! *hugs him*

My dummy brother!

~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/9407975/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/9407975/ Mon, 17 Jul 2006 16:58:07 PDT

Well, I must say that people should NOT introduce me to crack. . . I get addicted so easily. . . and I must say, I'm quite addicted to my new form of crack. It's called Ouran Highschool Host Club. . . It slays me. I'm DYING to watch more, and I think it's kind of funny, since I'm usually not a big anime person. . . I prefer manga. . . but something about the way it's animated attracts me. . . that and I haven't read the manga yet. . . I'll probably get a kick out of both. . . Obsession is bad. It really is.

*Dances* Well, I'm finally getting my school schedule all worked out, and making it work well with my work schedule . . . I had a talk with the person who does the scheduling. . . and it made me quite happy.

In sadder news, I think I might have the flu. I went a 30-hour span where my stomach REFUSED to let me eat. Then I tried to drink juice and I almost threw up. . . not cool. I've been doing a LOT of sleeping. . . And I've been having funky dreams because of it. Damn my sickness! I really think it's because of a LOT of stress. . . >< Stress is bad for you, kids!

OH! And this is from Enjoy!

First five people to comment on this entry get a free doodle from me. Oh, and you gotta do this for five other people too. If you do this, you must post this in your journal and do 5 doodles for other people.

1.
2.
3.
4.
5.

You'll have to tell me what you want when you comment, kay? I'm hoping I'll have the time to get them all done quickly! WOO! ^^


OH! I think I might as well put up a kiriban, because I'm actually getting pretty close to 6,000. . . So yeah, whoever gets it, contact me, and if no one does, I guess I'll do something for whoever asks about it first. . .

Mah Buddehs (according to me ) :

My little TWIN! ^__^

My SteSte! *hugs him*

My dummy brother!

~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/9355430/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/9355430/ Wed, 12 Jul 2006 14:38:23 PDT

Wow, Pirates of the Carribbean- Dead Man's Chest broke two records over it's opening weekend. And you know what? I FELT IT.

I work at a movie theatre, and there was NO WAY ANYONE was prepared for how many people would come to see it. We sold out of every show except for one the entire weekend. I was working concessions through most of it. We LITERALLY had NO break in the lines until 11:30PM, and most of us didn't get our breaks until then, either. 7,000 people in and out of the theatre in one day is a LOT of people, and no matter HOW good your air conditioning is, there is no way it can handle THAT kind of pressure.

Sunday was actually pretty funny, though. I wasn't in concessions (thank GOD), I was ripping tickets at door. Well, we had a brawl in one of the theatres, and in a theatre that wasn't playing PotC, the reel broke- TWICE. We had a lot of technical difficulties. . .

And I STILL haven't gotten to see the movie yet! @___@; People keep trying to spoil it for me, too *sniffle* I just wish I could get the time to go in and see it. . .

IN OTHER NEWS!

I've started school again! My first class of the week is Advanced LIfe Drawing. *sighs happily* God, I missed life drawing. I'm so glad to be back in it. I also have a LOT of 3D classes *whimper*. This quarter is going to be TEN TIMES better than last quarter, though! I will NOT let my grades fall to the level that they did before! NO! I will not fail anymore!

I'm also getting prepared to do some kickass portraiture. ^^ I have pictures I"m already getting started on! *squeal* I'm drawing again! YAY!

Well, Other than that, all is well, so I'll leave y'all alone!

Mah Buddehs (according to me ) :

My little TWIN! ^__^

My SteSte! *hugs him*

My dummy brother!

http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/9297951/ Fri, 07 Jul 2006 03:58:17 PDT

*pokes at her journal header* WHY is this thing so STUPID? Maybe I'm just an idiot? I need help!

ANYWAY! I am back from AX! My first ever convention, and it was quite an experience! I had a lot of fun, and met a LOT of really great people! Things got a little sad and weird on the trip too, but all is well now. I ended up getting myself a really cool "I yaoi" book bag(it is now my treasure), and a really pretty Loveless fanart. . . and I got something for each of my roomates!

I was so happy, cause I got to meet my !! *Tackles* She was so cute, I love her even more now that I've met her in person! She was such a sweetheart, and a real help for me during the convention, she introduced me to a lot more people than I would have if I were left to my own devices.

I'm a loser, and I won't go into detail about the con, just because it was filled with a lot of stuff that I'd just rather not talk about in a journal. . . and nothing nasty, really!

I was really in no way prepared for an event like this one, and next year, I'll be much better at it, and I'll get to cosplay, too! @__@; It will be good!

Anyway, just wanted to let everyone know that I MIGHT end up looking at my comments and deviations at some point this year. . . >_>;

LOOK! A random quiz!

1. Would you get back with your last ex if you could? Heh, I don't have one.
2. What kind of shirt are you wearing? A night shirt.
3. Would you kiss anyone on your watch list? Of course I would. . .
4. Do you have a 'thing' for someone on your watch list? *Cough*
5. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life? More than I thought, actually!
6. How many kids do you want to have? I really don't want any at all
7. Do you have a good relationship with both of your parents? I think my great relationship with my mother evens out the shitty one with my father. . .
8. What name would you want besides the one you have? Tara. . .it's less common.
10. What did you do for your last birthday? I went home and saw my family.
11. What's your main ringtone on your phone? FanFare, of course!
12. What time did you wake up today? 10:00AM
13. What were you doing two nights ago? Saying goodbye to all the kickass people I met at AX
14. Do you like having your hair pulled? No one has ever really PULLED my hair. . .
15. Name something you can't wait to do: Get my pictures developed!
16. Last time you saw your mom? *sob* Two weeks ago! T_T
17. What is one thing you wish you could change about yourself? My issues with being insecure.
18. If you had $250,000, what would you do with it? Pay off school and help mom with the kids. . .
19. How long have you been at your current job? About three weeks. . . I just switched!
20. Have you ever talked to Tom from myspace? No.
21. Describe what color socks you are wearing. None! Nekkid feet!
22. Last thing you ate? A cookie. . .
23. What's your favorite month? October
24. Your least favorite month? January (too cold!)
25. What's the last piece of clothing you've borrowed from your friend? A yellow shirt from my friend . . . I gave it back, though ^^
26. Who is getting on your nerves right now? I don't want to say.
27. Most visited webpage? Sadly, this place right now. . . but [link] has come in a close second!
28. Last person you text messaged?
29. Last person to make you sad? Again, I dun wanna say.
30. Would you take a bullet for your best friend? Maybe to the kneecap, sure. . .
31. Favorite kind of drink? Anything that keeps me hydrated. . .
32. Favorite food? Tator Tot Casserole/ Steak and Potatoes. . .
33. Favorite dessert? Mint Chocolate Chip Ice Cream
34. Have you been to Europe? Not yet!
35. If someone you hated died, what would you do? I'd probably feel bad. . .

Mah Buddehs (according to... ]]> ~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/9090205/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/9090205/ Fri, 16 Jun 2006 19:08:18 PDT

My journal header hates me. It really does. Someone fix it? I'm obviously too stupid to. . . ;_;

Wow, it's been a while since I've even really commented, let alone posted or said anything to anyone here. . . I do apologize for my lack of response! I literally have had NO time! I've barely had time for my classes (that's pathetic).

Work literally took over my life. A nothing job like Subway took over my life. I didn't talk to my mother, I barely talked to my roomates. I woke up, worked ten hours at Subway, came home, and cooped myself up in my room. And I'd repeat the process. Every now and then, school would come in, and I'd go, but I was always so exhausted that I hated going to school before work. Thus, this quarter my grades have tanked. Life has not been good.

My job is literally killing me. On Friday, I spent five hours in the emergency room for a stress related problem. My only real stress is work. Physically, I shouldn't be workign such long shifts on my feet, running around like a mad woman because my boss is such a crazed perfectionist that any mistake I make is a 40 minute talking to. I'm never able to relax there. That is why I have finally quit. My last day is Tuesday, thank GOD.

I have also been in quite a depressed but happy mood lately. I know it sounds contradictory, but it's the truth. Within the past two weeks, I've cried more over my insecurities than I have in my entire life. I never really seemed to be bothered with things like my weight, or my health problems until this week. Probably that visit to the emergency room was both a blessing and a curse. I'm waiting for my case-worker to call me back so I can get appointments set up with the many doctors I'm going to need to see.

I have bought internet. I have bought a cable modem. I still dont' have internet in my home. I have to have a tech guy come into my apartment on Thursday, almost TWO WEEKS after I bought the internet, to check the connection. What a load of horse shit.

My birthday is on Sunday, too, and that usually brings bad emotions with it, too. . . and of course it's on Father's Day, so the only day *I* get attention on, I have to share it with my father, who right now is on my shit list. He has been for a while, but lately especially he's just been pissing me off. I think my birthday must be a curse. I have to spend it with my least favorite parent, it is usually TERRIBLE (I've had ONE good birthday in all my 19 years). . . I've broken my ankle on my birthday, my great-gramma died on my birthday, my best friend broke her nose on my birthday. . .

God, I'm so sorry for being such a downer in this. . .


Well, I do have some okay news. . . I have a new obsession: Miyavi. Lately I've gobbled up just about anything involving him. . .

My quarter is almost over, too! That makes me happier than anyone will ever know. I'm ready for it to be over, I really am. Tomorrow is my last class. After that my roomies are going to go get our nails done, and then we're going out to eat for the end of quarter/ birthday party. . . I love my roomates so much, they have no idea how much I appreciate having them. They literally make my life brighter. I really don't think I could go through half of this without them.

Tessa took me out to breakfast this morning. It was delicious, and I was really glad to have some time wiht her, it seems like I never have time to hang out anymore. That really depresses me. But it's good now, because we had a good time and we created a character, and a nickname for her charachter, GS.

Well, I'll stop ranting now, thanks for your ears.

Mah Buddehs (according to me ) :

My little TWIN! ^__^

My SteSte! *hugs him*

My dummy brother!

~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/8692647/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/8692647/ Sat, 06 May 2006 15:47:31 PDT

Wow, it's been a little while since I've posted last. . . Not too much has been going on, besides my terrible grades. . . I've started working full time now, so my times to be on the computer have dwindled to just about nothing. . . @_@! I work my ass off a lot, and I found out that Goldie treats me VERY well compared to some others, and I think it's funny. I know why, too. I actually WORK. I don't burn the meatballs because I'm pissed off at my boss. I don't not clean something cause I don't feel like it. I do all my work and most of everyone else's. That's why I'm treated like gold. And these stupid highschool brats don't seem to understand that in order to get respect, one must actually DO AS THEY ARE TOLD! Oiy.

I've also been doing a LOT of drawing lately, and I wish I could scan it all in, but I think that it would kill people with HOW MUCH I have been drawing, and most of it is actually post worthy, too! I've been doing a LOT of work on my gods and goddesses, and it's amazing that for almost two weeks I drew nothing but straight men. So the other night I broke down and drew two beautiful gay men and now I have another story I need to write, except this one will finally be a solo effort, unlike all my comics and all my other stories where other people are involved. I can't wait to get everything done for that!

Last night, for the first time since I moved to Vegas, I went out with my two roomates, and to a bar called Ichiza. Now, for weeks my roomate has been swooning over a worker there who we dubbed "Midori Boy." I have been wondering for WEEKS how cute this boy actually was, and finally I got the chance to stare last night. Damn he was a hot little man! What sucked was I was staring at him ALL NIGHT, and he didn't even look at me once, but he looked over at Cyndi and Kamryn multiple times during the night. . . though I did get stares from one of his other co-workers, who was cute, but wasn't midori boy.

Then I did something amazing. I actually went ant TALKED to Midori boy for Cyndi. I was trying to get a name and a number, but I only got a name, since he has a girlfriend (V_V). It was fun, and I at least got a laugh from him. . . he was awesome! I think I'll have to go back there more often. . .


Well, that's it for now, night, folks!

Mah Buddehs (according to me ) :

My little TWIN! ^__^

My SteSte! *hugs him*

My dummy brother!

~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/8509221/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/8509221/ Tue, 18 Apr 2006 10:07:37 PDT

Well, this weekend was good. For the first time, someone followed me home from Vegas! went with me for Easter, and also so we could go to church. . . And the drive home was really fun and techno-y. We got our hotel room, and then we went and visited mumsie. After that, we went to church, and then we took a bath in the hotsprings bath thingy. . . (It's more like a jacouzzi thingy, but more old fasioned. . .) With Jo-jo . I saw my father briefly, so we didn't fight. The next day we went and met gramma at her house, and got some good foods, but not before we got stuck in the middle of no where (LITERALLY) in my cute little two-wheel drive car. My uncle had to come fish us out. . . he was amazed that we'd gotten SO far in my little car without being stuck. . . ^^ I'm STILL getting shit from the family about that, too. . .

Then we went home. . . and that was amazingly scary. We almost had a passing car get us into a head-on collision (NOT cool). . . and then we were watching cars pass on hills and curves. . . scared the bejeezus out of us!

BUT! All in all it was a good trip, and I thinks the wife had fun! YAY!

And the two of us have created a monster story of doomy DOOM! Full of all sorts of wrong things that someday I'm sure we'll post. . .

Mah Buddehs (according to me ) :

My little TWIN! ^__^

My SteSte! *hugs him*

My dummy brother!

http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/8464249/ Thu, 13 Apr 2006 22:52:13 PDT

I Did something amazing.

I said NO to someone!

I know, this is a short journal, but I had to say that. . .

Mah Buddehs (according to me ) :

My little TWIN! ^__^

My SteSte! *hugs him*

My dummy brother!




Clubs:
I'm like... vice something to this! Whee!

http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/8354470/ Mon, 03 Apr 2006 14:29:34 PDT

Before I depress everyone, lookie! I actually did a quiz!

Rules : The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6(or as many as you know xD ) people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours....

1. I have an obsession with touching people’s inappropriate parts (like boobies and rear ends. . . NOTHING else!)
2. I have an oral fixation (I always have to have SOMETHING in my mouth).
3. Yaoi.
4. I threaten people’s lives a lot. . .
5. I call my mumsie at 1:30AM EVERY DAY.
6. I collect mistresses (I already have a wife).

Yeah, this seems like that should be good. I tag:

I've recently become very involved in a video game that I haven't played since I was about seven years old. . . Final Fantasy Mystic Quest? Anyone else who remembers that game?

Oh, and just for everyone's information, here are some great movies to watch: Eulogy, Snatch, Love Actually, KaKuRenBo, Perfect Blue, and Heat Guy J!

:RANT::RANT::RANT::RANT::RANT:

Fuck, if life could get any more screwed up. . .

I thought my life was falling apart before, I should have held my tongue. My trip home definately did not hold up to what my trips home do. I recently dyed my hair blonde/redblonde, and everyone was telling me it looked great, that I was finally looking around my age(18) instead of looking like I was 30. . . and when I got home my dad immediately told me that he hated it and that I should dye it back so that I don't 'embarrass' myself. . . of course that couldn't be my ONLY confrontation with my beloved father, he also had to yell at me about something that had happened two years ago, and was beyond my control. A friend had borrowed a book of his and before she could return it, her older brother took the book and moved to a different state, and so now my dad won't let me touch any of his books because of it. Maybe he's right there, but I think it's total bullshit. . .

Then my mother is going through hell, not because of her miscarriage now, but because of the fact that her co-author and best friend is moving today, and she's going to have to wait about two months until she can move too so they can talk again. She's really upset, so I called off work today and told her I'd stay for moral support. And of course this couldn't end without my dad telling me how careless it is for me to call off work. I NEVER CALL OFF WORK! I always work late, I get stomped on all over at Subway, but I have no right at all to call in to work when the only person who I really trust myself around is going through hell? I dunno, my dad and I are having a lot of issues right now.

And now I think I finally have an answer for my therapist when she asks me why I think this is all coming down so hard on me. My life is losing all the structure it ever had. Everything is crumbling, and I'm stuck at the bottom trying to pick up the pieces and start over. . . I really don't know if I can. . . I really don't. . .

I'm sorry for ranting. . . I just had to get it out. . .

Mah Buddehs (according to me ) :

My little TWIN! ^__^

http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/8198184/ Sat, 18 Mar 2006 13:39:45 PST

Wow, in just a few days, a lot has happened.

Well, I went to counseling on Thursday, and I don't think I've ever gotten more compliments on my mental state in all my life. Jenny, the counselor, told me she was really impressed with me for knowing that it was time for me to get mentally evaluated again before I went into a bad bad state again. . . She told me that I had an amazing coping ability, because she made me tell her my past, which at some poitns can get realy messed up and sordid. . . So now my ego is swelling. . .

Though I got hit by a rough blow on the same day. . . my mom, after finding out so soon that she was pregnant, miscarried the baby. I dont' think it was as bad as the first time she miscarried, because she wasn't as connected with the baby and she wasn't as far along, but it was really upsetting for her. So keep her in your thoughts and prayers for a while, please? She says she's okay, but I'm still worried for her.

My parents' divorce has been filed, and they're waiting for the grace period to be over so that they will no longer be a married couple.

Well, on a happier note, Slushie (my wife :semienigma and I went to see Switchfoot at the House of Blues! I almost got to touch the lead singer! We were extremely close, and I was stoked. It was her first concert, so I think she got lucky by having such good seats! Although she and I made enemies in the security guard after Slushie poked him in the arm fat. . . and stared at him for at least a minute before finally asking where the trash was. . . I was worried that I was about to lose my life to protecting the love of my life. . . but it was fun! And we've had a few good laughs about it, too! ^^

And now I'm sitting in class with Slushie, when I'm supposed to be doing my taxes. . . I'll get them done today, though. . . ^^

Oh, and since this is the beginning of Finals Week, I'm probably not going to be online as much, if at all. . .

Have fun!

Mah Buddehs (according to me ) :

My little TWIN! ^__^

My SteSte! *hugs him*

My dummy brother!

http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/8145282/ Mon, 13 Mar 2006 02:28:39 PST

Damn, life has been confusing lately. Everything is getting crazy, and I don't know what to do, really.

It started on Thursday night, when my mother called me and told her she was pregnant. I'm 18. I'll be 19 when the baby is born. . . I won't ever get to know him/her. . . on Monday, she and father are finalizing their divorce. yes, the baby is his. It's kind of like a soap opera, ne?

Then I had dinner with my grampa this weekend, and he was telling me how much he didn't like my mother's desicion to continue with the divorce. He kind of bitched her out over the phone, and made her cry, and I was upset for her. Grampa is a good guy, really, but he doesn't really understand the circumstances, probably because his divorce with my gramma wasn't an ammicable one.

This weekend was supposed to be kind of stress-free, but I should have known better. . . Sorry for the rant, peoples!

Mah Buddehs (according to me ) :

My little TWIN! ^__^

My SteSte! *hugs him*

My dummy brother!

http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/8060611/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/8060611/ Fri, 03 Mar 2006 22:06:05 PST

Wow, I think I figured out the header-footer thing! I'll try to get a footer up soon enough, I have to make one to fit with my header. . .

Well, this week has sucked big fat donkey balls. . . I've been sick and my job is stressing me out to the max. I didn't go to classes for two days straight! @___@; In fact, I should probably be in bed now, but I can't help myself. . . I need to be here to say hi to everyone. . .

I WILL get to looking at all my messages, it's just going to take time, so be patient!

Now, I have to tell you of my latest achievement. I bought gay anime porn. It is the most beautiful thing I have. It's called Sensitive Pornograph, and it's where I got the title of my journal. The boys are so delicious, the bad animation doesn't even really come into play. . . They're just pretty. . .

Though my roomate asked me some questions that have me confused. I wonder now if I even have hormones, because porn (I've watched a LOT of porn in my day) doesn't turn me on, like. . . at all. . . NO kind of porn does it for me. .. is something wrong with me!? @_@!

Mah Buddehs (according to me ) :

My little TWIN! ^__^

My SteSte! *hugs him*

My dummy brother!

http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/7971094/ Wed, 22 Feb 2006 11:55:16 PST
Mom is coming down this weekend, though! I can't wait to see her! My dad and the kids are coming too! I'm so excited to see my family! And I will be getting a cell phone! WHEE! *SQUEAL*

Well, I am working hard on all my projects that I have set out for myself, and I'm failing miserably! I have started to get JJ's pictures done, and my midterms turned out REALLY shitty. *sniffle* I have B's and a D! A FUCKING D! I was going to shoot myself, too, cause it's in my FAVORITE class! WHY must I be such an idiot? WHY!?

Oh, and there is actually a reason for the title of this journal. Me and my good friend are getting married. She'll be a pizza, I a pimp. People were taking us seriously! My dad didn't get the joke, my roomate didn't get the joke, her good friend didn't get the joke! It made me sad, but if we had the attention spans and could get planning, we could milk it for a LOT of free gifts. . . We're bad. . . but we won't, we're now just going to get our little quarter rings and call it good. . .



And this is another project that I will put on myself sooner or later. I'll edit this journal and put up the link to where I got it soon, but for right now I'm just going to say I found it in 's journal. I am really hungry and I think they have free pizza lurking! See ya!

Got it from [link]

# of Artwork Completed: 0/100 (so far!)
Last Update: Feb. 23
Themes Updated: n/a

1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

Mah Buddehs (according to me ) :

My little TWIN! ^__^

My SteSte! *hugs him*

http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/7800228/ Sat, 04 Feb 2006 14:02:09 PST
I have been talking to everyone on the phone lately, it's been awesome! I'm so happy to have people to talk to! And though some of you, when I was too tired to talk, I apologize!

I gave blood on Tuesday. When I was there, so was my friend, Cat. She fainted there, freaked me the FUCK out! Everyone else was calm, I was having heart palpitations! But she's fine, just remember to NEVER drink excessive amounts of caffine before giving blood. I have the nastiest bruise because of giving blood, too. I mean NASTY. If I had a camera, I'd take a picture of my nasty bruise for all of you. It's purple and greenish and has little red dots littered around it. I know, no one really needs to see that, ne?

MY PARENTS ARE FINALLY GETTING THEIR MONIES! Meaning I won't be in debt, and they won't be either! I'm so excited for them! And me! Means I'll be getting a cell phone, laptop, and monies! WHEE! Monday or Tuesday they'll have the monies, and then they'll come over the weekend or something to give it all to me. *squee*


I know I have TONS I have to get done, but I wanted to let everyone know about all my happy things, and I wanted to get that depressing journal off my front page.

Mah Buddehs (according to me ) :

My little TWIN! ^__^

My SteSte! *hugs him*

My dummy brother!

http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/7702984/ Wed, 25 Jan 2006 09:53:01 PST
[link] French Chick by

[link] Pirate Hunter by

[link] 11 Armed Squid by

They all drew me some lovely things! Go look! Fave!


:RANT:

Don't read this part if you don't want to listen to my problems.

Last night, for the first time in literally years, I had a panic attack. I couldn't breathe, I couldn't stop crying, I even had to rush out of the dining room so my roomates wouldn't see me bawling. They didn't need to see me upset for no reason. And it was literally for no reason. I don't know why, but I totally freaked out. And then I couldn't call my mother because my roomate was on the internet, and it freaked me out more. I was scared because I didn't know what was going on, or WHY I was having an attack. When I finally got a hold of my mother, I cried some more. I was successful in keeping my roomates from knowing I was crying, though. . .

I think I'm extremely stressed. I have no money, tons of homework, no working car, my joints are fucking up from walking a lot, I feel a bit strained when talking to my roomates, and things just don't seem to be going right. I'm sorry if I'm ranting at you, I really am.

I'm sick of people telling me how worthless I am. I hear it all the time here at school. Just because I'm a conservative person in a liberal city doesn't mean I'm trash, right? Just because I don't think abortion is right, and I think that gay marriage should stay away from the churches doesn't mean I'm "intolerant". I don't care about gay marriage, really. I don't think they should push themselves on the churches who don't believe in it, though. There's still the Justice of the Peace. Go get married by them. Why does it HAVE to be in a church? WHY!? Because it's a power issue. If they win and make the churches do so, then they win. Oh, yay. Abortion is murder, no matter how you say it. Fuck you if you don't think so. The very SECOND the sperm merges with the egg, it's a human life. Just because it doesn't look like it doesn't mean it isn't. I think it's funny, because they say it's the woman's right to choose. What about the baby? Why doesn't he/she get the right to choose whether or not they live? Does their opinion not matter? But I guess the babies go immediately to heaven. . . I remember hearing someone say "Why didn't you abort me so I had a shot at heaven, mommy?". Are we really that low? That's terrible. This kind of shit makes me sick.

I can only take so much of being told I'm a piece of shit.

:RANT OVER:


ANYWAY, here's a quiz that Said I had to do:


1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
It's a mathbook, so I'm not repeating it here. I'll save people the torment.

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
I can't! I'll hit Guy, and then he'll get mad and kill my ass!

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Commercials.

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
9:30AM

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
9:24AM

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
The air conditioner

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
I was walking to school this morning. . . I was almost late, too!

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
Math homework.

9. What are you wearing?
Pink hippy shirt, black pants, socks, black shoes, and the necklace Ste-Ste gave me

10. Did you dream last night?
I couldn't remember it.

11. When did you last laugh?
A few days ago. . .

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
Nothing because I have no tacks.

13. Seen anything weird lately?
Everything I see is weird, so I dunno if there's a point in answering this question. . .

14. What do y... ]]> ~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/7443468/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/7443468/ Wed, 28 Dec 2005 20:57:32 PST
Well, Christmas Eve sucked ass. I've never had my ankles swell so bad in my life. . . I worked a 12 hour shift that day, and it about killed me. I can't stand THAT long anymore, it hurt me really bad, because I am just too fat. And I don't want anyone getting pissy about me calling myself fat, because that is what I am. It's what I've accepted myself as. I need to lose the weight though, so I am not as sore as I was that night. . . my neck is STILL sore. . . It was a hellish night.

RIGHT after that, I drove the 3-hour trip home, running on nothing but two grody energy drinks (hey, they were on sale!). I got home and I don't think my mother has ever hugged me as lovingly as she did when she saw me. . . that alone made my trip worth it. Then her and I talked for a little while, I got my presents in, and all was well. Mom and I were ready for bed about 3Am. . . and that's when the kids woke up.

Sarah was the first to wake up. . . she didn't even look at the presents, she came right over to me, running. Sammy nearly jumped over the coffee table to tackle me, and Jack even came to cuddle. They didn't move until dad came down to tell them to open presents. That made my entire trip worth it. I think it was the best Christmas I've ever had. I was relaxed and happy the entire day.

Then mom and dad got a call back from their appraiser, and they got their house appraised for $27k more than it had been six years ago! So all was great.

Then I went back to reality.

I got back to Vegas and things just didn't seem to be working right. My uncle was really upset by my mom and I's desicion for me to quit at Kmart, and he let me have it. Then he had other complaints of my behavior for me, and even how I sit was wrong. . . I just feel in the way here. . . so my mom and I talked, and I think I'll be moving very soon into student housing so that I don't have to waste gas money. . .

We'll see what happens.

Mah Buddehs (according to me ) :

My little TWIN! ^__^

My SteSte! *hugs him*

My dummy brother!

http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/7400274/ Sat, 24 Dec 2005 07:46:51 PST
See ya!

Mah Buddehs (according to me ) :

My little Yaoi TWIN! ^__^

My SteSte! *hugs him*

My dummy brother!




Clubs:
I'm like... vice something to this! Whee!

~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/7365071/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/7365071/ Tue, 20 Dec 2005 15:26:08 PST
Most kids don't know what it's like to go through hardships.

They know NOTHING of what it's like to not get what they want. Even the poorer familys break their backs and their banks to make sure their kids are spoiled rotten. This is something I really just can't believe.

As a kid, I went through hell. I didn't get much, but I can goddamn well tell you I was grateful for what my mom and dad could give me. There were a few Christmas's where I got just about nothing, where Erin and Adam (my little brother, before the other three were born) got one present each.

My cousins, Jordan and Cameron don't understand this. Hardship for them is when they only get ten presents uder the tree, and they only get one really expensive electronic gift. Now, I'm not saying that I don't like my aunt or uncle, I'm just saying their kids won't really get how hard life can be. They won't go through eating just ramen or mac & cheese because that's all we have in the cupboards. They won't get the whole 'we can't afford it' thing that I got when I was small.

I know this is gonna sound conceited, but I think I turned out into a pretty damn good person. I grew a LOT from what I didn't have. I know what moderation is. Jordan and Cameron aren't going to get that, and I really feel sad for them because of this. My younger siblings are getting some of what I didn't, too. But as I said, I feel more sorry for them, because this is how things are working now.

What ever happened to loving your family, and liking what you got, even if it wasn't much? I watch kids throw fits at their parents all the time because they didn't get the DVD player they wanted, and their parents, instead of teaching them that they can't always get what they want, buy the damned thing because they don't wanna hear their kids whining at them. I think it's terrible. Most of these kids are betweent he ages of 5-12.

We need to work on society, a LOT.

Mah Buddehs (according to me ) :

My little Yaoi TWIN! ^__^

My SteSte! *hugs him*

My dummy brother!

http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/7360104/ Tue, 20 Dec 2005 02:39:34 PST

Taken from


What is your name?: Erin Michele Butler

Are you named after anyone?: My name is what happens when mom and dad can't agree. Mom got my first name by making it Irish, and then she made my middle name my dad's name in female form (he's Michael). . .

What's your screename?: panchan14, meanbowtoe, rahtahdmeister, mutantnerd87, punkydumplin, etc. . .

Would you name a child of yours after you?: I vowed never to give my child such a generic name.

If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: Maria Spada

Are there any mispronounciations/typos that people inflict on your name constantly?: They always spell it 'Aaron'. >_<

Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: *shrugs* Depends, I guess.

Basics

Your gender: Female

Straight/Gay/Bi: Unsure as of now

Single?: Sadly, yes.

If not, do you want to be?: V___V

Birthdate: 870618

Your age: 18

Age you act: 4

Age you wish you were: 4

Your height: 5'7"

Eye color: Hazel-Green

Happy with it?: Yep. ^^

Hair color: DARK brown

Happy with it?: *nodnod*

Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: Ambidextrous, I can draw fairly well with both hands (some of my lefthanded stuffies is better).

Your living arrangement: With my Aunt and Uncle

Your family: My life.

Have any pets?: No.

What's your job?: Kmart.

Piercings?: 3 at the moment.

Tattoos?: Not yet. ^^

Obsessions?: Art, Music

Addictions?: So many. . . Drawing, Reading, Talking. . .

Do you speak another language?: I speak some Spanish, and very little Japanese. . . I do also know a few phrases in Danish. . .

Have a favorite quote?: "Aww, titty biscuts!"

Do you have a webpage?: HA! No.

Deep Thoughts About Life

Do you live in the moment?: I don't think so, I just try to get through each day without too much emotional damage. . .

Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: Yeah, I do.

Do you have any secrets?: Quite a few, actually. ^^

Do you hate yourself?: NO! I love me!

Do you like your handwriting?: I think it's awesome, it's pretty and loopy, but DEFINATELY not ledgible. ^^

Do you have any bad habits?: I like distracting noises.

What is the compliment you get from most people?: "You're so nice and friendly!"

If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: "Shotguns and Shovels: Life in the Realm of the Criminally Insane" (I've got that copywrited, bitches!)

What's your biggest fear?: Heights.

Can you sing?: Hell yes! I wasn't choir president for nothing! ^^

Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: Pfft! No.

Are you a loner?: Nah, I like company.

What are your top priorities in life?: School, Art, Work, Family, Friends, Sleep

If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: Heck yes!

Are you a daredevil?: Nah, not really. I'm too easily startled for that stuff.

Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: My inability to say 'no'.

Are you passive or agressive?: I'm aggressive.

Do you have a journal?: Like, a real one?

What is your greatest strength and weakness?: My greatest strength is my laid back personality, my greatest weakness is my laid back personality. ^^

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: My hormone disorder, I thinks. ^^

Do you think you are emotionally strong?: I think so, I went through a LOT to get to where I am now!

Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: Not yet!

Do you think life has been good so far?: It's been rough, but I think I couldn't be where I am without it, so yea, it's been good. ^^

What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: When momma says no she means NO!

What do you like the most about your body?: My eyes.

And least?: I scar way too easily. . .I'm littered with scars.

Do you think you are good looking?: I'm a sexy bitch!

Are you confident?: YES!

What is the fictional character you are most like?: Edmund from Chronicles of Narnia, I like Turkish Delight too.... ]]> ~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/7319725/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/7319725/ Thu, 15 Dec 2005 14:58:10 PST
After 11 LONG weeks of figuring out how to work a schedule between work and school, and becoming accustomed to it, my quarter has finally ended. I'm done for the next three weeks, and I'll be getting the proper rest and relaxation I deserve. Now, granted, I still have work, but it's a little less on my plate for the time being. ^___^ I'm so happy for now, because I have a lot of good things to think about for now, like the fact that I got an A- in my Intro to 2D animation class, and *I* got an A in math! Freaky as hell, I think!

I get to go home for Christmas! I'm so happy, I get to see my family again! It's been so long, I'm so excited about it! ^___^

I've also been messing around a LOT with tablets, and I'll get to show everyone soon enough how I've been progressing. ^^

Well, that's all the news I really have for now, so here are a few things I have to post in my journal:

Taken from

A. First, recommend to me:
1. a movie
2. a book
3. a musical artist, song, or album

B. I want everyone who reads this to ask me three questions, no more, no less. Ask me anything you want. No kidding, ANYTHING, I'll give you the absolute honest truth, to the best of my ability.

C. Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends to ask you anything.

Also taken from

1.) What's your name?
2.)How long have we known each other?
3.)Where did we first meet each other?
3.) What was your first impression of me?
4.) Do you still think of me that way?
5.) When did we last see each other?
6.) Describe me in your own words. (at least three words to describe me!)
7.) Are we friends?
8.) Choose one character from a TV show that is similar to me. Please also list the TV show! Thanks!
9.) If you had to give me a nickname, what would it be and why did you choose it?
10.) Have I impacted you?
11.) What is the best memory that we've had together?
12.) How long do you think we will be friends?
13.) What do you think my weakness is?
14.) Do you think I'll get married?
15.) If so, to who?
16.) What makes me happy?
17.) What makes me sad?
18.) What reminds you of me?
19.) If you could give me anything what would it be?
20.) How well do you know me?
21.) Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
22.) Do you think I could kill someone?
23.) What is one of my goals?
24.) What are my favorite colors?
25.) Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
26.) Anything else?

Mah Buddehs (according to me ) :

My little Yaoi TWIN! ^__^

My SteSte! *hugs him*

My dummy brother!

http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/7278604/ Sat, 10 Dec 2005 23:57:41 PST
Oh, and before I forget, here's a thing that Wanted me to do. . .:

10 Things You Like:
1. Art
2. Reading
3. Making others smile
4. Music
5. Pepsi
6. Diet Pepsi
7. Keeping up with what I told myself I could. . .
8. Being crazy
9. Laughing
10. WINTER BREAK! THREE WEEKS! HELL YES!

3 Things That Make You Happy:
1.Good grades
2.Good friends
3.Good beer

3 Things That Anger You:
1.Bad grades
2. Grumpy Customers
3. Regulations

10 Things That You Hate:
1.Finals
2.Politics
3.Religious battles
4.Obstinate customers that won't take no for an answer!
5.Messes
6. Cleaning
7. Conflict
8. Drama
9. Super Sculpy clay
10. Maquettes

3 Facts About Your Name:
1. It's Irish
2. I was actually supposed to be Cassandra, so momma could call me Cassie. Daddy thought it was a snob's name. . .
3. It is the nickname for Ireland.

5 Facts About Yourself:
1. I love to talk and laugh, it keeps me going in trying times.
2. I'm lonely
4. I am in love with a highschool friend who doesn't get it.
5. I used to have freckles, but I grew out of them.

2 Things You Expect (At Least For Now):
1. To fail my finals.
2. To go home for Christmas (FINALLY!)

4 Random Thoughts:
1. Nacho cheese man. . .
2. Crazed monkeys make good pets.
3. I miss my guinnea pig GW.
4. I hate finals.


Song You're Listening To (Give Artist):
Jennifer Lopez- Get Right (DON'T ASK).

Time:
11:59pm

10 People You'll Tag To Do This:
Whoever wants to do it, I dun care. ^^ ]]> ~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/6944142/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/6944142/ Thu, 03 Nov 2005 11:43:28 PST

This is 's fault. ^^

Total volume:
Last CD bought (or downloaded):
Lostprophets- Start Something

Song playing right now:
Superfabulous - by BT

5 songs I listen to a lot, or that mean a lot to me:
Middle of Nowhere- Hot Hot Heat
DARE- Gorillaz
Stomp- The Brothers Johnson
Cry Me a River (Cover)- Lostprophets
New Way to be Human- Switchfoot

The Movie Baton
Last Movie watched:
Dinasour (watched it with my cousins last night)

5 Movies that I watch a lot, or that mean a lot to me:
Sixteen Candles
Drop Dead Gorgeous
Young Frankinstein
Happy Texas
Soap Dish ]]> ~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/6865906/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/6865906/ Tue, 25 Oct 2005 16:10:31 PDT
I have Character and Object Design on Mondays. . . that's actually my favorite class so far, I love being there. . . Jon is a great instructor, I can tell why he's the Academic Director. . . ^___^ On Tuesdays I'm in Intro to 2D Animation, and I figured out today that I have NO room to fuck around in that class. I HAVE to take it seriously or it is gonna bring down my GPA. I have Math Wednesdays, and I hate that class. . . THursdays I have Digital Imaging and Computer Applications. . . Woo. Yeah.

I have a job now! I work at Kmart. . . don't laugh. It's actually a pretty decent job, I'm getting paid for doing just about NOTHING. ^^ I'm happy.

Well, I have a bunch of crap that people decided I needed to do, so here we go:


Got tagged by

20 Random Facts About Me
1. I am at the Art Institute of Las Vegas, studying in Media Arts and Animation
2. I don't know how I walk with my fat head on my shoulders.
3. My Ego outweighs even me.
4. I would like to think of myself as a creative person.
5. I am a pain in the ass sometimes, and I feel sorry for my friends.
6. I miss my highschool Spanish class with Commander Z.
7. I work at Kmart.
8. I Love Tetris.
9. I mostly only listen to Techno and Rock music, but I like a lot of other kinds, too. . .
10. I miss having a choir class. . .
11. My love for anime and manga is starting to thin out.
12. I am still completely obsessed with yaoi, though.
13. I have a purple lepard-print pimp hat.
14. I can get myself into trouble nowadays by talking too much.
15. I am fiercely loyal to the few good friends I have.
16. I am obsessed with food.
17. I have to wake up by 5:30AM every day to get to school on time.
18. I am a generally happy person.
19. My favorite colours are blue and yellow.
20. I hope to never have children.
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This is from 's journal. . .

Seven things that scare you:

1. Heights
2. Being startled
3. Creepy Crawlies
4. Being robbed
5. Losing my job
6. The human race
7. Drunks


Seven things you like the most:

1. YAOI
2. Manga
3. Animation
4. Food
5. Bubbles
6. Drawing
7. Chatting online


Seven important things in your room:

1. Computer
2. Clothes
3. Bed
4. Papers and drawing utensils
5. Uh. . . my Manga
6. Shoes
7. Backpack. . .


Seven random facts about you:

1. I like soup.
2. I hate working late, even when I agree to do it.
3. I have no money.
4. I have a painting that my friend Sherryl painted for me of a martini glass
5. I love Yaoi and slash, but only in certain areas. . .
6. I am incredibly lazy when it comes to doing what I"m supposed to.
7. My room is actually near clean right now.


Seven things you plan to do before you die:

1. Start my own animation studio
2. Go to Japan
3. Marry a homosexual rich man so I never have to have kids and can be pampered
4. Learn to fly with my old lady bat flaps
5. Quit working at Kmart
6. Get skinny
7. Live on my own.


Seven things that attract you to the opposite sex:

1. Nose (dumb, I know)
2. Eyes
3. Hair
4. Sense of Humor
5. Intellect
6. Wealthiness (I'm a gold digger, I'm not ashamed)
7. Teeth


Seven things you say the most:

1. Yeah?
2. Rawr
3. Right?
4. Thanks for shopping at Kmart, have a great day!
5. Hmmm. . .
6. Nooooo!
7. How are you tonight?


Seven celeb crushes (whether local or foreign):

1. Brandon Boyd!!!! (lead singer of Incubus)
2. Johnny Depp
3. Joseph Fiennes
4. Billy Zane
5. Orlando Bloom (can't help it . . .)
6. Hal Sparx



Seven favorite drinks:

1. Pepsi
... ]]> ~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/6641692/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/6641692/ Fri, 30 Sep 2005 10:53:37 PDT
Usually I can go through months without remembering a single dream. I might wake up bad from a few, but I hardly ever remember them. In the past three nights I have had three of the wierdest damned dreams EVER, and let me explain them to you.

The first one had me, my parents, and my uncle trying to steal my grampa's bedsheets. It was quite the conspiracy, and my grampa had turned into Porky Pig. It was really wierd, cause halfway through the heist I got a guilty conscience. . . yeah. . .

The second one was a bit weirder, and made me realise that I have an obsession for food. In this dream, I met Jetta Umiker, M.C. Escher's wife, in a hotel. It was really weird because she was all sad that he'd died, but she was still looking young, it was funky. . . then JJ and I were picking out bathing suits, and my blue bathing suit turned orange (Oh, JJ, we were like model thin in my dream, too! It was awesome!) while we were finding pins to put on them. Then JJ disappeared and the family was back, and I decided to do something that no one else at the hotel had done, and I can't remember what it was, but it had to do with riding on a very small box thing. . . Well, the last stop was full of cockroaches and spiders and it freaked me the hell out. Well, suddenly this large tube thing started coming out of the wall and ALL the creepy crawlies scattered. I was all confused and scared, and then suddenly a bunch of NACHO cheese was pouring out. I was happy, and then also out of it crawled a really hot model guy, and he was covered in the cheese. I was satisfied. I think I have an obsession. Most people would go for chocolate covered. . .not me! I need CHEESE. and that was the end of that dream. . .

And last night, I had a dream about my uncle's boat. JJ was on it, and a few others I can't remember were on it too. We were playing a fishing game, and then sharks came and ate our fishies. It sucked. Then suddenly we were in the middle of the ocean, and Uncle Matt's boat transformed into this big luxury boat (not as big as a luxury liner, the boat was only to hold about five people). In the middle of the night, a hole in the boat made us sink, so we were stuck swimming in the ocean with no boat. It was stinky.


See? What the hell am I doing to make me dream!? I have fucked up dreams when I remember them, but they are usually few and far between. Three in a row? NUUUUU! The last thing I need is fucked up dreams to remember every night! ;_;

Now that I'm done ranting, I'll leave y'all alone. ^^ ]]> ~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/6593976/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/6593976/ Sat, 24 Sep 2005 21:43:50 PDT
Well, I am finally done with all my first quarter's classes, ands o far I have four A's. I dunno what my Art History class is yet, she hasn't posted it, but I fear that it won't be an A. I can just tell.

I have to start doing job searches this week, I'm SO excited. ¬_¬;

Other than that, there's not TOO much going on, I'm just planning for JJ to come down for anime Vegas. I dunno how we're gonna do that still, but we'll figure it out, I have that feeling. . .

Sadly I can't give out a Kiriban until I have more time, so when I have it, I'll let y'all know. ^^ ]]> ~panchan14 http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/6502198/ http://panchan14.deviantart.com/journal/6502198/ Wed, 14 Sep 2005 10:44:17 PDT
I wanna thank everyone for their support and prayers during my family's time of need. Isaac is doing better, he's even talking now! If you want to know more about what's going on with him, my mother has started a blog- you can find it here [link]

Other than that all I really have to say is I might be a little more active now because I'm almost done with all my finals, and I have that time to spare. So you'll definately be seeing more of me! ]]> ~panchan14