http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:panda69680102&section=today deviantART RSS for by:panda69680102 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 16 Dec 2009 00:19:41 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://panda69680102.deviantart.com/journal/28859976/ http://panda69680102.deviantart.com/journal/28859976/ Thu, 10 Dec 2009 07:53:32 PST
So far the entries include:
1: Unigirl-Cloudghost = Oreo
2: Verdastar = Delinquent
3: AnarchyAnnie = Belair
Thanks to those who have enter thus far. Contest is running until 01-01-10. Anyone is allowed to enter and these is no limit on entries. So enter as many names as you'd like.

Sorry to all of my watchers for all of the older photos being posted. I am trying to get my Add 2 dA folder emptied before I add anything more to it. I promise there will be newer photos soon though. Just bear with me for now and thanks. (Trust me my camera already has lots of great new photos just waiting to be unleashed to an unsuspecting world.)

Also I am looking for models located near or in Illinois that need portfolios done. I will do the shoots for next to nothing as long as I can use them here on dA. If interested please note me and we can make arrangements. (I really need models that are not my boys. )

Thanks to everyone for their support (and pageviews). To my watchers: Much Appreciation.

*Whoever is the first person to send me a shot of my page at 2000 pageviews gets a 2 picture 3 month feature*

Lastly please remember that all photos in my gallery are mine. If you'd like to use them in your work you need to obtain my written permission first, and then link it back to the original shot in my gallery. Thanks

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Reason for Contest: Finding a new name for my new kitten (aka Little-Bit).


Rules: None other than the name must be an appropriate one as I have kids. (Example: No names like Shithead so on and so forth.) Anyone can enter. Please limit one name per comment line. (Thanks)

Prizes:
First Place: 5 Pictures featured on my journal for 3 months.

Second Place: 3 pictures for 2 months

Third Place: 1 picture for 1 month.

Thanks ahead of time to everyone that enters.




Also to the person that catches and sends me a photo of my gallery at 2000 pageviews gets a 2 picture, 3 month feature in my journal.


Just a reminder that all photos in my gallery are mine. Please do not use them without my written permission. To those who have been permitted, PLEASE link back to the original photo. THANKS!!

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Just a reminder that all work posted in my gallery is mine and is not to be used unless you have my written permission. Feel free to browse and fav anything you like. Input is always welcome too. Just if you want to use something in your work please ask, and then link the work back to the original picture used. Thanks.

Also I have had people ask about when I am posting more kitten pictures. I will on December 4. At that time they will be 4 weeks old. So check back at that time for kitten pictures.

I will also be posting Santa pictures next month. I am friends with a couple that do Santa and Mrs. Clause in our community. As payment for them coming and playing Father Yule for my boys I have offered them a 20 photo shoot. I am looking forward to any input on those as well once they are posted.

Well I think that is it. So good night and again Happy Thanksgiving to those who celebrate it, and good night.

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Zack we love and miss you. You were always welcome to be a part of our lives, and always will be a part of us. Never forget that. Rest in Peace.


Zachery Glen Chasteen
April 30, 1990- Nov 19-2006
Missed by family and friends alike.
You left this world before your time.

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We did what we have done on every anniversary and even on our wedding night and we took the kids Trick or Treating. I was fun. This year they at least knew what to do and Adryan didn't try to walk into peoples houses. However he took as much candy as he could when he was allowed to get his own and always tried to grab his own. He was Batboy and Jon was a Pirate.

Just 2 years to go and my husband and I are going to do a traditional hand binding ceremony. We were married Justice of Peace because we could not afford a real wedding. We are going to start putting back a little money at a time so we can have a decent ceremony, and we need to find a Pagan priestess to perform the ceremony for us.

Anyways happy anniversary belated to Pooka (you know who you are). Sorry I didn't get a chance to call and say so. Give the baby love for me, and hope we get to meet her soon. :hugs:

Well goodnight and Blessed Be.

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I am planning to do the same thing on my anniversary as the last 2 and our wedding night. We are going Trick or Treating with the boys. Yeah I know but hey I love Samhain (or Halloween as non-pagans call it). It is actually my favorite holiday so we will have fun with the kids.

Well enough of this for now. They keep coming upstairs here wanting Mommy to come play with them. So off I go...

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Yesterday morning I woke up and my chest really hurt. Earlier in the week I began feeling tired with absolutely no energy, and then came shortness of breath later on in the week. So naturally when i woke with my chest hurting I thought "What is going on..." So this was at 4:30 and my hubby was getting ready for work, therefore I couldn't go in to the doctor because of the boys. So I waited until he got off work at 2pm to head in. (yeah I stayed up and worried something was wrong with me all that time. I was afraid to go back to sleep cause I was gonna call a doctor if it got worse.) So we went into Memorial Hospital's Walk-in Care and was seen for what I thought was early signs of a Heart attack. They ran blood work, an ekg, and took several chest x-rays while I was there. Everything checked out fine minus the fact I have Bronchitis. The shortened breath, and tiredness were the result of of that. The other was that I apparently had a panic attack, because of all of the stress I have been under lately. They told me to minimize the amount of stress and to take an antibiotic and everything should be ok. I cannot believe that was it. Don't get me wrong I am glad it was nothing, but with all of the heart trouble in my family I had to be on the safe side. I have two very young kids and I will do whatever needs to be done in order to ensure I m alive when they have kids of their own. I am just glad that everything is alright now. Hopefully we get everything else taken care of so I don't have another panic attack. I am a worry wart though so it probably will only this time it won't be combined with everything else and I will know what is happening.

]]> ~panda69680102 http://panda69680102.deviantart.com/journal/27531022/ http://panda69680102.deviantart.com/journal/27531022/ Thu, 01 Oct 2009 22:21:39 PDT And the stupid icon thingy hates me cause it still shows JOY, when I am not.

]]> ~panda69680102 http://panda69680102.deviantart.com/journal/27524377/ http://panda69680102.deviantart.com/journal/27524377/ Thu, 01 Oct 2009 15:46:12 PDT Sorry for the rant, but I needed to get that out of my system. Should find out Monday if I have a job. Hope it falls through so we can have at least a little more cash in hand. Luckily if it does it is a paid weekly job. As for college I am working on filling out the FASFA right now... Well not exactly at this moment because right now I am typing this. Maybe if I can find a daycare I can go this spring. As for my plans to go out tonight for my birthday (yeah right no such luck), it is storming and I am not going to walk around downtown in a thunderstorm, plus of course no sitter. I am going to call my brother though (he and his bride to be were going to go with us) and see if he wants to come over and play video games and drink some beers and SO-CO.
To everyone who shares this same birthday as I, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, and hope yours is going better than mine.
(To top everything else off my brother just informed me that the present he bought for me in Afghanistan is lost in the mail. Go figure. Well it is the thought that counts.)
Well looks like the mood icon is stuck despite my actual mood. It refuses to change yet again.

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Anyway enough with that.

I have just reciently add newer work, and as soon as I find the rest of it I will add stuff that has not spent 3 years or more on My computer. So feel free to comment on anything and let me know how good or bad my work is. Thanks Everyone

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Ok! Here is the lo-down...
1. My brother is stuck in Bangor Me on his way back from Afganistan. Yes the place I once spent a year of my life. Only he is stuck on the airforce base where they had stopped to re-fuel. He was told that the air balencing sensor was out so they will be delayed until it is fixed. Then he has to spend a few days in Fort Makoy (sp?) for a few days then hopefully he will make it home in time for his comming home party Saturday. If not it will have to be put on hold for a week. Boo...

2. Both of my boys are in Early Start now and doing well. Baby can say all of his ABC's now and count to 10 in a month of being there. (Of course he wouldn't learn them for Mommy he had to from a stranger...) He is even more stubborn than ever, but all in all a good kid. He is now almost potty trained and is now 3 going on 40!! My oldest is an old-timmer Early Start student now. He however was not allowed because of age to start Kindergarten. (I really felt that was crap.) However is enjoying school so far and can spell random works he want to learn how too. He actually comes to me and says Mommy how do you spell this and I tell him. He can spell stop, go, love, pizza, Mommy , Mom, Dad, Daddy, and monkey. I think there are a few others in there as well but right now i cannot remember them. At his age though I think that is great. I don't know to many 4 yr olds that can spell. he count to 60 and can repeat almost anything you say to him. He is like a sponge that soaks up everything. He can also read simple books based off of work recongition.

3. My birthday is comming up in 2 weeks. Not sure if I am ready for it but I guess it is comming whether I want it to or not. also My 3 year anniversary is aproching soon...

4. We have finally found a house that we are buying. It is so good to kow that it will be ours and we won't have to rent anymore, and we will have complete say over what gets done to it. (Like if I wanna paint a room purple or black I can or even the brick, not that I would but I could if I wanted too). It has 3 bedrooms, 2 down stairs and the up-stairs is all one room, 2 bathrooms, a huge kitchen, a good size living room a den with a fireplace, a full basement and a huge back yard. I love it. Finally things are really starting to work out for us.
Well that is it for now cause I have to pick the kids up from school. Kepp watching cause hopefully tonight I am going to up-load some new pics to my gallery. Peace

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1) I now have five cats. Yeah I know it is crazy but I do.....

2) I am no longer medicated. I found out the depression meds were making me more crazy and therefore not doing their jobs.

3)Lost a friend

4)Made new friends and gaming buddies.

5) I am trying to get pregnant, but having no luck. I had 2 miscarriages in a 3 month period. In that time thought I was going crazy because of it and gave up for a while because I could not deal with loosing 2 pregnancies.

6)My oldest is now 3 and in a year round school. He is doing so well that he no longer needs speech therapy. They are also despite his age wanting to put him in Kindergarten next year. I am unsure if I really want him to but if they think it will be ok then he probably will. He also can count to 10 in both Spanish and English, and knows and repeats several other words in Spanish. (He so cute when he watches Dora and Diego. Even Kai-Lan) He can say hello and a few random words in Mandarin Chinese. Also he is almost potty trained. YEAH!!!!!!(Well enough so that when he is at home he wears real undies, however now when he is at school or when we are out.)

7)My baby is 2 now. He is such a pain in the butt. However I love him so much. He is too smart for his own good and knows how to break into the kitchen (we have a baby gate up so they cannot get into the kitty litter pans ect.), and how to put it back after he has what he wants. He speaks as clearly as his older brother. (Which is remarkably clear for kids their age)

8) I am now 25 years old and have to move in with my mom again in order to put back money to buy a house. (We have out grown or Shit hole apartment.)This is not where I wanted to be at 25. I feel I have failed somewhere that it has resulted in that if I want my own home I have to move in with Mommy and Daddy just to come up with a down payment. However like a lot of people I know I don't have everything given to me or my family. We have to work for everything we have. Which I don't mind because I know I have accomplished something in my life that they have not. Even though they have people to give them and their kids ( the ones that have kids)everything, I have more because I know it was me that got it not anyone else. I am an adult not a leech of society, family and friends. I will eventually have what I want and then I unlike them can say I did it on my own, and I will have more because when those people who help them out are gone they are going to have nothing.

9) I have now been married for 2 years as of Oct 31. We are still much in love and are happy for the most part. So despite them common out look on marriage. We're doing great.

10) This month is the 2 yr anniversary of Zen's death. We miss him so much and love him. I just hope he has allowed his spirit to move on into his next life so he can finally find the happiness he did not have in this life. Blessed Be Zen. Grimstone the kids and I love and miss you.

Well I think that is everything. Gotta go change my baby's shitty pull-up. He is just starting potty training so he still has quite a few accidents. Later and peace out. Gallery updates are coming soon.

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We also are unablr to get my husbands 500GB external hard drive to work and I am worried we may loose all of the pictures we have on it and they are not backed up yet because my husband wants to burn them on DVD's instead og just regular cd's. If he would have just done as I wanted him to then we would at least have the kids pictures backed up and not be worried about loosing them forever. We have lost so many things that are important to use in the last year in a half noe I am afraid we are going to loose some of the most prize possitions other than my kids that we own and that is the pictures of them as they have grown to where they are now.

]]> ~panda69680102 http://panda69680102.deviantart.com/journal/14795168/ http://panda69680102.deviantart.com/journal/14795168/ Wed, 26 Sep 2007 03:26:24 PDT I really miss my step-daughter. I have not seen her in almost a month and only talked to her on the phone a handful of times. I will however at least see her on the 12th and 13th of October when we go to the St. Louis Witches Ball, but the boys will not because they are going to stay with my cousin that night. I am going to miss them, but I am hoping to have lots of fun.
I am kinda bummed that my birthday is comming up and no one has any money so we probably won't be able to do anything for it. I was just hoping to be able to go out with my kids (all of them) and my husband, Alphamamma and Gamma, (and maybe Bull but that depends on his mood lol). I guess I have gotten used to having people do things with me on my birthday ( thanks to my husband and Alphamamma), that now I actually am kinda sad when we cannot. That is what happens when you are an adult so, Oh well it's life get over it. I think the greatest birthday present right now for me would be that Adriana would be able to come up and stay with us now, but I know that is impossible right now but I can wish can't I.

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Anyway, here goes: first we over draft my husbands account to buy things we needed, then he misses several days of work. Then because he missed work (because of really, really bad migraines), we could not afford to pay rent or all of the over draft, then he hurts his back, and misses yet more work and now we cannot pay rent again and still owe the bank 427.52 which is almost his entire check, now he missed more work today because of his back and a migraine, and he has spent all day in bed, except when he went to the doctor. This is not going to work out ok right now unless we can find some government agency to help us out, but what does that mean that we are lazy stupid people with kids who cannot make it on their own, and should not have them since they cannot afford them? That is how we will most likely be treated. I really hate being poor, because we cannot make ends meet no matter how hard we try. The photography studio cannot run without money to start it with. We were going to try to get the plan off the ground by next month, but it does not seem like it will happen. I am trying to figure out how we are going to get diapers without selling the few personal items we have. At least food in the beginning of the month is taken care of buy food stamps, but I am sick and tired of having them. I don't want to have to depend on anyone else to pay anything for us. It is very degrading to go into a store and when you go to pay for your groceries you pull out the blue link card to pay for them and you get all kinds of dirty looks for other customers and the cashier if you buy even one frivilous item. I really want to be on the upper end of things not on the bottom where everyone shits on you. It seems no matter how hard we try to better ourselves we always end up right back where we were in the first place. I am so close to just throwing in the towel and saying I am done with this, but I most likely won't because I really want to see my sons grow up and have kids of their own.

Sometimes I really wonder what I have done to end up like this? I don't want to be like my family and not care about anyone or thing but themselves. I just want a better live though for my family, not just because I want it but so my kids don't have to suffer, or do without. Is that really to much to ask for outta life?

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I am sorry for my babbling even in my journal. I am going to bed now. Hope everyone who reads this understands, my parents really f**ked up my life and I don't want them to have to deal with it. They are not good people and I am trying to make sure I NEVER EVER end up like them. I love my kids and I DO NOT think they owe me anything like my parents believe.

Goodnite
Peace out and Doritos

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We still don't have a car and the money is gone. We spent most of it on groceries and things we needed. Almost none of it was spent on what we wanted to spend it on, but that is what happens when you have kids.

I am worried about my ten month old. He has five teeth comming in all at once. I know he is miserable, and I understand how he feels. I really feel bad for him.

I am also hoping I have talked my best friend into moving back to the U.S. She and I went to school together. Even if she has to stay with my husband and I, it will be ok. I don't care what I have to do to get her here I will do it. She is one of my best friends and I miss her a lot. I have not seen her for almost 8 years, but we have managed to keep in contact with each other. It is amazing considering for about 3 years I didn't have a phone and no way of contacting her. We have overcome that though and we still talk to each other. She has yet to meet my husband and my kids. I can't wait until I see her again.

This really sucks. My husband works until midnight and I am at home alone with my boys. They however are in bed asleep so I am bored outta my mind, and lonely. I however cannot wait until tomarrow because he is off and Alphamama and her huband, kids and Zyal are going to be here. So at least I will have another woman to talk to. (Even if she is moody.lol.) I am so bored and cannot find my Cleopatra game. Booo!!!

]]> ~panda69680102 http://panda69680102.deviantart.com/journal/13100801/ http://panda69680102.deviantart.com/journal/13100801/ Sat, 26 May 2007 12:23:18 PDT I got to talk to My best friend in Mexico last night. I am so happy I did she made me realize that nothing matters but those who care. I really miss her and hope to see her soon.

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