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deviantART: by:perfect1 http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:perfect1&section=today deviantART RSS for by:perfect1 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 08 Dec 2009 11:25:13 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png Shameless, but awesome. I'm sorry. http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/26808411/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/26808411/ Tue, 25 Aug 2009 00:35:26 PDT [link]

Help choose their 2010 Creature Hoodie and you could win a priiize!

They're really awesome. Who wouldn't like to look like they're being eaten by a bear? haha. or at least carrying one on their back.

My favorite is 3a.

btw. I'm planning a comeback once I get a new camera.

]]> ~perfect1 Graduated High School http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/25146456/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/25146456/ Fri, 05 Jun 2009 15:40:50 PDT

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 Long time, no updates. http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/24318152/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/24318152/ Sun, 19 Apr 2009 01:25:54 PDT
My high school life is almost over so I've been working hard trying to get things in order for my college adventure.

Even at the time of writing this, I'm in the midst of two projects, an essay due on Monday, and 2 AP tests on the horizon.. ugh.

So yes. I did take some pictures of flowers earlier during Spring Break, which to me always seems to be the go to subject of photography since you can't really go wrong with a picture of a flower. I may or may not post them, depending on time.

Did I mention that these projects are due on Wednesday? I've started on one which involves sewing puppets and setting up a puppet show (both of which have yet to be constructed) and an English one about Macbeth..

ugh. Terribly busy. Typing out what I have left to do is stressing me out even more so I'm stopping now. lol.

btw, I didn't procrastinate on these projects. I spent nearly all of my Spring break on the script of said puppet show and I received the project for english the day back from break.. grr)

Have a great night/morning/evening.

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 Guess who won a one month subscription! http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/22636112/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/22636112/ Sat, 17 Jan 2009 15:21:52 PST
weeeeeee!

For entering the Epic Logo Challenge.

my entry was also featured as one of the "best of the bunch"

Awesome right?

I feel happy.

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 up up update. http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/20817114/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/20817114/ Fri, 03 Oct 2008 22:32:53 PDT
school's been ok. College is continuing to freak me out.

loving AP Calculus at the moment.

Lost tons of weight too. (Down to about 108 after eating.)

I don't think it's intentional. it just happened. probably school stress.

been getting about an hour more of sleep which is better than nothing.

didn't win the sewing machine.

blah blah blah.

joined the knitting club at my school and I felt like a pro even though I have a lot to learn / do.

wish I could go to the Gay Days thing at Disneyland.

NO to prop 8. Sarah Palin makes me laugh.

lots of incongruous statements but yeah.

pretty much all I can think of at the moment.

Take care.

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 Fancy Footwork. http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/19709177/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/19709177/ Thu, 31 Jul 2008 22:41:23 PDT
I've noticed how thrifty DIY I've gotten and frankly I love it. I'm practically prepared for my poor college kids days. I don't eat and I thrift & remake with a sewing machine. that's like $5 a day? perfect.

. plus, I've stopped growing pretty much everywhere so my clothes will continue to fit for another 10 yrs just about. (unless I get fat)

I actually started reading my summer book. Unforch, it's another war prisoner novel. I get utterly confused and uncomfortable when I read about prisoner life and it drives me insane. Hopefully it gets better. usually it does but who knows. I'm hoping it'll be my new Great Gatsby or Hamlet.

On the road to reinvention, I've actually been holding off on biting my nails for the past month. It's so awkward having nails as long as they are now. (they're not even that long). if you've seen my fingertips before you would have noticed how jagged and bloody they were. I didn't have a nail from the tip of my finger a quarter of an inch in. not joking. it's rather annoying that I'm preventing myself from biting them though. I'm getting more anxious now because of it.

on the down side, I've been constantly getting more depressed as time goes on. No one really calls me or anything from school which makes me feel like I'm more annoying than previously thought. either that or I serve merely as a resource rather than a person. being isolated then makes me want to call attention to myself in really drastic ways but at the same time I'm forcing myself not to. honestly I think I have 3 different people governing my body at the moment. makes my head spin.

ok so I'm not sure if any of that made sense. I wrote this whole thing with a migrane. haha.

have fun.

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 Let's start off fresh shall we. http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/19428895/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/19428895/ Wed, 16 Jul 2008 13:35:02 PDT
Summer is almost over. I didn't do much at all. sleep was great. when school starts back up that won't be happening much anymore. great fun that will be. haha. I have yet to start my summer reading book too.

so anyways, about talking of starting fresh I've decided to make a couple of changes.

Number one is actually exercising some. My manorexia and boylemia just won't cut it anymore. I've started out doing crunches and push-ups and found out about One Hundred Pushups (search it) which is pretty fun.

Number two. organize more efficiently. Half of the problems I was having last year was poor management of things. you know how hard it is to cut things out with an exacto knife when you use a plastic ruler? yeah.

Number three. shut my mouth. I've realized how much I used to blurt things out and say "Wait, what's going on?" pretty much invading people's conversations. I guess that's just because I yearn for attention. that's what I get for being the lonely asian kid in primary school. damn my mental issues. anyway I'm pretty much just going to shut up this time around.

Number four. SLEEP. it's nice.

there's more out there somewhere in my mind.

oh and I got my wisdom teeth out. it was fun. I love my teeth and I was just excited to have them after they were pulled. the problem now though is that food constantly gets stuck in the holes. also, I think one of my cheeks is now more bloated than the over. fuck. as if my face can get any uglier.

ok well I think that's enough catchup for now.

have a nice day.

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 Where's Victor these days? http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/18874803/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/18874803/ Mon, 16 Jun 2008 13:57:37 PDT
I intended on starting work on a lot of new artistic this and thats but my laptop died on me a few months back.

so my dad is getting it fixed and I'll be getting a new one soon. (anyone have any suggestions? PC though please)

so at the moment I've been using my dad's lappy but I have to surf using IE. (gross right? Firefox is the way to go)

Anyway, to see what I do most of the day, visit my blog:
venefic.blogspot.com

have fun this summer. mine has been the pits so far.

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 It's almost over. http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/18651823/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/18651823/ Tue, 03 Jun 2008 19:36:31 PDT
I have finals beginning tomorrow (only in my Economics class because nothing is really going on in APBIO or Spanish now)

and then 2 more finals on thursday (PreCal and Honors English)

and then the day after the last day of school I have SAT IIs.

after that, on Monday, I have to being volunteer work for Vacation Bible School.

grr. school is almost over and yet it's not.

let's see how this plays out.

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 The Moment of Truth - the Revelation Part Deux http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/18229653/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/18229653/ Mon, 12 May 2008 16:29:28 PDT
gahhhh!!! I'm super nervous.

I think I'll do okay, but I'm really worried about the essays.

ugh. free response? no thank you.

I'll update this when I get back home.

at least I get to miss my first 4 periods!! whooo!!

----------------------------------------------------------------
UPDATE:

I think I did pretty well.

some of the multiple choice was pretty rough though.

but yeah. it took FOREVER.

and now I have to do it again for APBIO. hurray for me.. ugh.

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UPDATE #2:

APBIO was a bit trickier because of the essays but I think I did well.

Honestly, I'm just glad I don't have to do as much for either of my AP classes right now.

now I can focus on the rest of my classes more equally. whoo!

oh and I can get more sleep too. FINALLY!

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 Quick update on this week of death. http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/18188978/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/18188978/ Mon, 05 May 2008 22:00:24 PDT
I have AP (advanced placement) testing this week on Friday and this coming Monday.

eeek!

First APUSH - AP US History and then APBIO - AP Biology.

it's really scary.

I want to get a 5 on both, but I highly doubt I will.

Greatest possible score I'll probably get on BIO will be a 4

and APUSH maybe a 3.

Then comes SAT IIs in June. gahh! on the same crap.

I don't think it'll be too bad, but you never know.

I'm in the process of studying my brains out and ignoring all of my other classes in the process. (PreCal, Econ, Spanish, and English)

so yeah.

Hopefully I don't die in the process.

I'll be sooo glad once it's all over though.

Almost summer too!

golly gee.

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 Day of Silence 2008! http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/18011245/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/18011245/ Thu, 24 Apr 2008 17:24:31 PDT
What are you going to do to end the silence?

More information:

Youtube Video Message about the Day of Silence

]]> ~perfect1 I was born 17 years ago.. http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/17173464/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/17173464/ Tue, 04 Mar 2008 00:00:29 PST

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 The Break is almost over. http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/17001780/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/17001780/ Thu, 21 Feb 2008 23:24:14 PST
I had Bronchitis for what seemed like the longest time 2 weeks ago.

I don't usually get sick, so it hit me really hard.

I was having painful coughs, I couldn't stand up without feeling faint, I was hallucinating..

not fun.

and so last week I just felt really behind on everything.

Well this coming week will be different.

I'm going to get to work ASAP once I get home,

study my ass off,

and get more sleep.

It's going to be great.

I'm still a tad stressed out though.

I have SATs coming up on March 1st (which I REALLY need to start studying for) and I need to figure out my college situation.

and my birthday is soon. I hate birthdays.. mine is always put together with my brother's.. it's not fair really. nor do I have fun with friends. it's all just really depressing. I'm keeping the date hush hush just so I can get it over with without anyone knowing about it.

oh and DeviantART wise, I'll be uploading some new stuff sooner or later.

I have a few knit things that I've completed/are WIPs, which I will photograph.

Have a nice February/March.

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 Finally some new deviations! whoo. http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/16231337/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/16231337/ Wed, 02 Jan 2008 20:57:51 PST
Most of them are fairly basic but I still like them enough to post them.

Other than that, I don't have much to say.

Not looking forward for school to start up again.

Scared about SATs and my future.

Hating my satellite connection because I can't watch Project Runway.

hmm.. pretty much it.

any questions?

Make 2008 special everyone.

ohhhh!!

everyone go here:
[link]

and vote for my entry please!!

thanks!

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 where is this all going again? http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/15758473/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/15758473/ Sun, 02 Dec 2007 02:15:18 PST
yeah. that happens to me a lot.

so I'm going to compete in a couple of design contests to earn scholarships.

I think it'll be pretty interesting.

There's a conservative greeting card company one
(their cards are sooo boring!!!!)

an ACT poster one. (as in the ACT exams)

and another poster one about changing the world.

I know what I'm doing for the greeting card one and I might post it here to get some constructive criticism, but hopefully no one will bad mouth me too much and make me cry. grrr.

so yeah. my future is pretty hazy right now.

I don't know what majors I'm going for or even what college I want to go to.

it's all just really confusing.

oh and I'm deficient in the love department as usual.

those fucking boys keep popping up wherever I am and it makes me feel like they're taunting me.

whatever.

have a nice _____ (insert time of day here)

.victor

(I LOVE the gloomy emoticon btw. it looks really good)

]]> ~perfect1 and a Happy Thanksgiving to those who celebrate it http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/15614297/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/15614297/ Thu, 22 Nov 2007 01:53:48 PST
Happy Thursday!

or whatever day it is depending on your time zone!

whoooo!!

foooodddd!!

and then sleep.

Once again, sorry for the lack of updates.

school is hard.

plain and simple.

AP classes? DRIVE ME INSANE.

also, I have trouble making my ideas come to life.

I had some really good photographic/manipulations in mind

but I'm horrible at executing them.

grrrr.. oh well.

maybe it's just something I can't do.

idk. I might just end up taking pictures of random things..

like my Pre Cal book & it's new cover.

very minimalistic.

maybe some knit things I've made?

I really have no clue.

oh well. I still have a lot of time to think about it all.

la de dah

ramble ramble.

I'm going to bed now. haha.

Good night!

Drive safe!

Don't die!

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 update? sure why not. http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/15290155/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/15290155/ Tue, 30 Oct 2007 16:51:36 PDT
he's taken now. by someone wayyy cuter.

and my heart snapped in 2 when I saw them kiss.

anyway, I've been so swamped with work this school year it's not even funny. AP classes? what was I thinking?!

ok so in actuality it's more just of an inconvenience. the work is ok it's just that there's a lot of it.

I'll get used to it eventually.

art? someday.

now? later.

why? busy.

ok. yes.

sorry. lol.

but yeah. I find it rather unfortunate that I've been unable to make anything worth posting here. someday I'll get better.

oooh! Happy Halloween everyone!

I wanted to go totally steampunk until I realized I have nothing steampunkish.. ugh. oh well.

Happy Halloween.

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 he didn't show up... http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/14889006/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/14889006/ Tue, 02 Oct 2007 17:32:18 PDT
I totally made myself as cute as possible as I could today,

tried to make my hair perfect and last until lunch,

wear one of my favorite shirts which makes me feel good

and all this other stuff.

But yeah. He didn't show up this time.

gahhh. I'm just sad and painfully disappointed..

but whatever.

I expected something like this would happen though..

anytime I get worked up about something, something happens.

garr. does someone want to trade lives with me?

er. wait. anyone want to give up their life for me?

you wouldn't want mine.

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 First GSA meeting? I say moderate success. http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/14689610/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/14689610/ Tue, 18 Sep 2007 15:34:05 PDT
I'm quite happy about it.

The next meeting should have more people though.

and a lot more ideas and activities.

Any suggestions?

oh. and is it bad I already have a crush on one of the members?

I'm weaaaak. gaaahhh. I hate it.

have fun.

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 Why I hate my High School. http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/14607058/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/14607058/ Wed, 12 Sep 2007 17:28:47 PDT
My friends set up a new school GSA (aka Gay Straight Alliance)

& I'm the secretary (aka Scribe)

anyhow.

It was great seeing everyone who signed up

but I just hate how bitter almost every guy from each class was.

pretty much all I did was watch people's faces as they went by. seriously. most of them were pretty sour.

half the time we were there, guys just came up to check the lists if their friends signed them up or not. gahh. it was stupid. they definitely thought that if they were on the list, they were gay. seriously? ugh. grow up.

the worst thing that happened was when this group of guys asked if our club was AGAINST gay people. when we said no they said, "damn, we should start one. we hate gay people." yup.

this is the world I live in every day.

weeeee.

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 www.lost.eu/624a9 http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/14357614/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/14357614/ Sun, 26 Aug 2007 23:39:10 PDT

Have fun!

and don't let me lose!

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 You're joking right? arg. http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/14050489/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/14050489/ Mon, 06 Aug 2007 21:02:10 PDT
yes.

my sister and I have this thing with saying arggg and then mermaids.

so anyway.

I'm pretty sure the DA administration has psychic powers and created all of these special events just so I can miss them.

ugh. I'll be gone for Discovery Kingdom tomorrow. not excited.

and I know I won't have as much fun as Disneyland because:

A.) Victor hates roller coasters/anything that makes him go upside down.

B.) All these California boys are too beautiful to look at.

C.) I want to sleep a little before school starts...

I swear. my parents assume I have all the energy in the world.

and yeah.

no art for a really long time.

my laptop is dying on me.

Whenever I load photoshop, it's too much for it to handle and pretty much stops responding after 5 minutes of work or my laptop will just turn off by itself without warning. I can't even watch 2 youtube videos or listen to music while I surf.

and I'm not good enough for a replacement one either.

I want to say I deserve it but at the same time I don't think so.

School starting soon too.

2 AP classes. and a whole ton of more work.

Luckily, I won't have to deal with my crazy yet lovable chem teacher though. phew.

Also, am I the only one who has that feeling of being extremely late but there really isn't anything that I need to do?

it's like a clock in the back of my mind that's ticking and I feel like times almost up.

it might be because I haven't gotten behind the wheel yet or I don't know where I'm going to college or what my career will be (which I was supposed to know by now). idk. it's just annoying.

Well. have fun.

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 I'm sorry. http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/13628636/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/13628636/ Fri, 06 Jul 2007 01:23:14 PDT
I'm so bad at keeping my promise in making new art pieces.

I've been so uninspired it's not even funny.

I'm really really sorry.

Tomorrow is 7/7/07 so I'll be watching Live Earth on Bravo! but maybe I can conceive an idea tonight in my dreams.

idk.

I blame my uninspired state of mind on my self-consciousness and growing depression. yup.

isn't the first step realizing you have a problem.

it's funny how I have no idea. haha.

but yes.

sorry again for not keeping my promises.

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 So this is how it all went down. http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/13503676/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/13503676/ Tue, 26 Jun 2007 20:24:30 PDT Ok so I admit that I had fun,

but the fact that my parents kept it a secret still bugs me.

(I went to Disneyland btw)

There's this pin trading thing at the Disney Parks

and I didn't bring mine so I missed out on all the good ones.

ugh. whatevs.

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

Anyways, just to put it out there now, there were a LOT of cute boys.

crazy. My self-esteem is like in the negatives right now because they were all gorgeous. they made me feel fat.

(btw, don't pay attention to my ugly face in the upcoming pictures. I look HORRIBLE. no joke.)

Some of the crew members were pretty cute too. (especially the "strong" Knights during the Princess shows.

they had campy voices. it was funny. this one guy was telling this little girl about how he had to slay the dragons to keep the disney visitors safe. lol) I'd throw up if I had to spend a day as a crew member though.

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

To begin, I rode way more rides than before.

I avoided most of them when I was younger because:

A) I was tired and just liked looking at the scenery.
B) I was scared.
C) Lines were long and I didn't have the patience to wait.

I enjoyed how everything was dubbed in spanish too.

I got to practice a little bit and was excited to actually know some of what they were saying. lol :couch NERD cough:

I rode The Twilight Zone Tower of Terror for the first time. holy crap. FUN. haha.

[link]
Guess where I am!!

Also rode on It's A Small World with my baby cousin. I missed riding it at DisneyWorld because it was closed.

.

It was pretty fun though. Nostalgic trip for sure.

In New Orleans Square, there's a shop called "Le Bat en Rouge". [link] As a Nightmare Before Christmas junkie, I orgasmed when I saw it. haha. the title makes no sense though. at least I don't think so. if you kept Bat as Bat in english, it'd be the bat in red which would kinda tie it in with the halloween theme. Bat apparently means Beats? (according to google translator). oh well. found the little shop right after riding Pirates of the Caribbean. what I bought at the store I'll be talking about later..

Tomorrowland was where I rode the most rides, Autopia first on the second day because the line was short in the morning. Thank god the cars were on "tracks" because I was a horrible driver. I got better at the end though.

Then I rode Star Tours for like the bazillionth time.

Next was AstroBlaster. that was really fun. haha.

while walking around in Tomorrowland though, it was kinda hard not to notice the huge line for the new Finding Nemo Submarine Voyage ride. the line was seriously 3 to 4 hours long during the afternoon. horrible. I was eventually able to ride it though, but more on that later..

Finally, I went into the Innoventions building and saw the ASIMO presentation. pretty cool. ROBOTS!! lol. it'd be awesome to have one do stuff for me, because I'm a lazy bastard. haha.

The rest of the time went a little like this:

There were parades and walking and rides and walking and pictures and walking and fireworks and walking and boys and more boys and even more boys and walking.

Finally, on the last day, I waited in a 2 hour line for the Finding Nemo Submarine Voyage. It was AWESOME! it's not a thrill ride but the effects and anamatronics were really cool. The technology is getting a lot better. The only thing that was weird was that they recycled things from the old submarine rides. (If you didn't know, there used to be a submarine ride which was one of the original rides of Disneyland. It had real fish and cast members dressed as mermaids (yes, unforch no mermen..

) and a cheesy sea serpent.) anyways, the new ride uses the old original submarines, the same area, and takes things from the original narration from the original ride as usual. weirrrdd.. I guess they wanted to make the parents who rode the original to remember the old days. :shimmery white cloud effect: ahh.. wasn't that refreshing.

[link]
This was the sub I rode in... ]]> ~perfect1 I'm back! http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/13490238/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/13490238/ Mon, 25 Jun 2007 20:04:02 PDT
yes.

it was enjoyable.

Guess where I went!!

do it.

I'll talk about it if someone gets it right.

(or maybe tomorrow if I'm not doing anything..)

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 I'mGoingToMissDeviant'sAppreciationDay http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/13427075/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/13427075/ Thu, 21 Jun 2007 01:49:54 PDT Deviant's Appreciation Day..

ugh..

I miss all the fun stuff.

I'm leaving on vacation Friday.

the stupid "secret" vacation thing that I've been bitching about this whole week.

It really does piss me off though.

Honestly, I'd rather stay in front of my dying lappy, knowing what's coming up

rather than have to wait at the airport for about an hour, fly to some random place, and then realize I'm not really prepared, have a horrible time, and then come back feeling miserable.

Yes, I'm not in a good mood right now.

but don't let me ruin your day.

Have a great summer everyone!

(I won't be on deviantART tomorrow and I'll be gone for 4 days so talk to you all then.)

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 KathyGriffin&HandmadePaper http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/13400812/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/13400812/ Mon, 18 Jun 2007 23:28:53 PDT

so.. I'm going on a "secret" vacation soon.

It's very annoying that it's a secret.

My parentals are horrible at surprises.

I'll be taking pictures during the trip though.

sorry that I haven't brought the amount of art you've all expected

and it's only a picture of my horrid face. lol

is it just me or do you all just love those devART pins?

I gots to buy them. lol.

unforch, no credit card. blarg.

I hate not being able to buy things on the internets.

anyways..

Have a wonderful summer everyone!

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 Hold up. Check it out! http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/13278151/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/13278151/ Sat, 09 Jun 2007 12:57:04 PDT
It seems like last month I just started Sophomore year.

In two months I'll be a Junior!!

I really need to step it up though.

I was really worried that I was going to lose my straight A record.

I didn't but I had a lot more problems along the way than usual.

Oh well.

Anyways, new myspace profile. wooo!

umm.. yeah. lol

I'll have some new deviations soon.

Summer = ART!! haha.

Have a great summer.

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 TwoEnd, TwoBegin http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/13209305/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/13209305/ Mon, 04 Jun 2007 00:12:12 PDT

So two things are almost over:

School (in a few days)
DeviantART subscription (in a few hours)

I will surely miss both.

(except I'm still excited over summer break. lol)

Two beginnings?

new Email address
new myspace

Have a great summer everyone!

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 hmm.. New Deviations? http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/12991082/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/12991082/ Thu, 17 May 2007 15:45:37 PDT

Nope! lol

not at the moment at least. Soon though.

(THIS JOURNAL WAS MADE TO PISS OF A CERTAIN SPECIAL SOMEONE. HAHA)

]]> ~perfect1 Day of Silence http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/12640846/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/12640846/ Wed, 18 Apr 2007 07:07:29 PDT

]]> ~perfect1 Sweet Sixteen http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/12048755/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/12048755/ Sun, 04 Mar 2007 03:30:59 PST

It's my birthday!

whooo.

16. whoop whoop.

So far nothing has happened considering its 3:30 in the morning. lol

Anyways,

I hope something good happens when I wake up for lunch tomorrow.

(I always wake up around lunchtime during the weekends)

Have a great day.

(and a million thank yous to the person who gave me the sub.

)

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 Seven Days http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/11889438/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/11889438/ Tue, 20 Feb 2007 00:43:58 PST

yup.

Seven days 'till my subscription runs out.

Pretty funny since I just watched Scary Movie 3 for the 20th time today.

anyways, I'm sorry for not getting any art in for a while.

School is so constraining to my artistic muscles.

I am knitting a whole bunch though. Like my "big" Chem project is pretty much 100% knitting. Hopefully I'll get it done in time. idk. I didn't finish my last one in time. (The "medium" project) Maybe I can post that up later.

As far as graphic art and manips go, I've been so uninspired that I haven't even thought of any new concepts in a while. Summer will be better for art. I promise.

Personal life you ask? Not very good. I'm having trouble sleeping and I'm getting tired of fake smiling and such. It will get better eventually.

Anyways, I hope everyone has a great week.

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 Disappointment!! http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/11393289/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/11393289/ Thu, 11 Jan 2007 14:16:03 PST

It didn't snow after all! yup.

but it was mighty cold.

anyways, there's a possibility that it might snow over the weekend too.

if so, I definitely will be able to take pictures when it does.

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Ok so apparently, tomorrow

(or later today actually)

it's supposed to be the coldest day ever in the past like 15 years or something (just a guess. haha).

Based on that, the meteorologists are telling everyone it's going to snow in the Sac area for the first time in a long while as well.

but there's a catch:

unless there's moisture, there won't be any snow.

I'm betting on no snow. I wouldn't be surprised if it did snow because I tend to get things wrong, but I have the feeling that a whole lot of people will be disappointed tomorrow.

and REALLY cold. like REALLY.

luckily I got a new black jacket that's cozily warm.

I just wish I finished my new scarf in time..

]]> ~perfect1 Happy New Year! http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/11245544/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/11245544/ Sat, 30 Dec 2006 13:21:16 PST

well maybe not yet.

but soon obviously! haha

My sister and I always celebrate by making a whole bunch of confetti and then throwing it everywhere (including at each other) when the clock strikes midnight. It's fun

This year I decided to make a piñata. haha. It was fun.

I'll take a picture later. It kinda looks like a jellyfish.

BTW, Did someone buy me another subscription? bleh. I'm sorry for not remembering when my other one was supposed to end.

It's just that I got one of those things that tells me to buy a new subsription but at the top it said:

"Your Current Subscription 2 months Lucky you!"

and I honestly thought my sub was supposed to end around January.

Idk. I just might be crazy. lol

Thanks though if anyone did.

Anyways, Happy New Year everyone.

Love,
Victor

]]> ~perfect1 Happy Holidays! http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/11144469/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/11144469/ Thu, 21 Dec 2006 22:32:52 PST

yup yup.

I'm still busy making some gifts.

I'm currently in the process of finishing up two cards for my friends

since today is the last day before the big break.

for you all,

I give you my Honors Chemistry teacher.

Please watch it! You won't regret it.

[link]

(He's the one who jumps up on the desk and dances around)

yup. he's the one who teaches one of the hardest classes I have.

at least we get a laugh or two each day.

I wasn't actually there when the video was taken (this was a couple of years ago) but it's something you'd expect to see everday.

Happy Holidays everyone!

Be safe. <3

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 Hawaii.. (update 12/10) http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/10931527/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/10931527/ Sun, 10 Dec 2006 02:51:00 PST

*update 12/8********************************

The conclusion with pictures of course.

Sorry for taking so long. I currently have 2 projects assigned for the same class and a third one to come soon, all due after the break (which isn't enough time).

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Monday:

This was the day we took off from the Sacramento Airport to Hawaii.

It actually didn't take to long going through security. I'm glad.

I ended up sitting in front of a gay guy and I guess his sister in the plane and it was hilarious. (not that I was eavesdropping.. >.>

After we landed in Hawaii, we went to my aunt's, ate, and slept. yup.

BOXORS!!

umm yeah, these kisses boxers were on the roof we could see below our balcony at the hotel..

Tuesday:

Trail Sign

This was the day I hiked up Diamond Head.

OMG. It was soo tiring. Seriously. Look up Diamond Head Hiking or something like that. There was like 8 switchbacks, lots of stairs, steep inclines.

Plus, it was hella scary because we were so high above everything.

When we were going down the mountain, a whole bunch of people were taking pictures or this old couple, "the Fergusons" who were right in front of me. I'm probably in half of those pictures. It was sooo fucking annoying.

After that, we headed to the beach. I obviously didn't go into the water and instead looked around for some really hot guys.

Unforch, the beach was pretty much empty so I sat and drew pictures in the sand.

And then there was this one guy. OMG. SO HOTT. He asked me to take a picture of him and this one chick who I really don't care about. He was bronzed, great abs, dripping with sweat. It was orgasmic. And then he was like "Thanks dude" after and I think I was blushing (I know, I'm weird.)

I had a picture but for some reason it wouldn't load. oh wells..

Wednesday:

Swap Meet. Always fun.

My mom was being a bitch so I left them and went off alone. Of course, they ended up getting mad at me when I regrouped. Whatever. I bought 2 bracelets that could probably be found at PacSun for 5 bucks for both.

Anyways, while I was there I was also scoping for guys. (me and my teenage hormones..

)

I found 2 gay guys, er, I'm mostly sure they were gay. I guess you could say they were stereotypically gay. (One of them was carrying a Louis Vuitton bag and the other had the gay "accent") Both pretty hott.

Gays? Where?!?!

thanks to my crappy secretive photo taking, you can't really make out their amazingly cute-ness.

then there was this other guy, 17? 18? He was about my height, maybe a little taller, but he was muscular. Like really muscular. It made me jealous. but he was still really hot and I enjoyed it.

Afterwards, we ate at Bob's Big Boy and our waitress' name was Lei which made me smile. She was so nice.

Thursday:

Thanksgiving. I honestly don't care too much for Thanksgiving. Family stresses me out, unless I have people my age to hang out with. (and obviously there weren't any)

We actually had a barbecue instead of the traditional dinner which was a big plus in my book. I had turkey burgers and some hamburgers too. I ate like 2 of each. I felt so sick. It was all good though.

Then a few of us decided to go visit a Chinese temple. I went just so I could walk off all the extra weight I just put on.

It was really cool yet really spooky. The wind would blow into the temple in areas behind giant statues so once in a while there was an odd whistling. It was like the Gods were trying to communicate. like they wanted us out or something.

The temple gate

We too... ]]> ~perfect1 Victor Loves YOU! http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/10869901/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/10869901/ Mon, 27 Nov 2006 15:50:05 PST

Whoever bought me the subscription,

I LOVE YOU!!

omg. This seriously makes me feel better after such a boring day.

Please speak up whoever got me the sub.

And if you want anything in return, go ahead and ask.

I'd be glad to do something.

p33n pics? maybe! lol

But yeah, whoever you are, I love you bunches!

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 Victor is back.. http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/10850783/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/10850783/ Sat, 25 Nov 2006 22:39:27 PST

but now he's really sad that my subscription is pretty much over..

blehs.

early Christmas gift someone?

lol.

oh well..

but yeah. I'm not dead yet. Glorious ain't it?

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 inHawaii. http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/10783654/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/10783654/ Sun, 19 Nov 2006 23:29:34 PST

Be back soon.

Unless I die in a firey plane crash.

<3

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 Relaxation Anxiety http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/10767401/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/10767401/ Sat, 18 Nov 2006 14:10:08 PST

Ok. So already I have tons of rants about going to Hawaii right now.

1. Clothes are supposed to make you feel comfortable and good about yourself right? Well. I honestly don't have that many things that actually make me feel good about myself in my wardrobe. Maybe like 4 shirts and 5 pairs of pants? We're packing, er should I say my mom is packing, things for Hawaii and she's automatically picking things I should wear. Well great, considering she's the one who bought me things I don't like wearing in the first place. Right now she's getting angry at me for wearing the same things over and over again. I wonder why, fucking bitch.

2. You don't wear Hawaiian shirts in Hawaii. It's redundant. Plus, they are really tacky and unappealing. At least thats what I think about them.

3. I'm glad summer is over. It's possibly my least favorite season besides the fact that school gets out. I was hoping that it'd be a little cold and windy over there since it does get cold once in a while, but it's not. It's gonna be hot. bleh. My mom is also making me bring swim trunks. That's also kind of pointless considering I can't swim. I also was made to bring these ugly green shorts anyway so if I wanted to walk along the shoreline I could just wear those.

4. This is supposed to be a vacation. A vacation that I actually think I deserve. I need rest. I've worked hella hard but my parents obviously don't acknowledge that.

5. If none of this gets any better or I don't have any fun, I'll probably be pulling a Wednesday Addams for the next month or so.

Don't worry about me. You guys should have fun.

I just needed to get that shit off my chest.

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 Where did Victor go? http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/10750995/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/10750995/ Thu, 16 Nov 2006 22:56:25 PST

I'm here and there.

I really should be studying for a history test.

yup.

I'll be doing that soon.

Anyways.

My backpack is going to be the death of me.

First it was stolen.

And now today it was locked inside my history classroom.

you don't even know how nervous and frustrated I was at the time.

ugh.

Luckily I got it in time to turn in my formal lab write up and my homework for the day.

I'm not one to turn in anything late. It's not in my nature.

but yeah. My lab cover was pretty awesome though so I was looking forward to turning it in.

So lastly.

I'm going to Hawaii for Thanksgiving.

yay?

I'm not too excited.

I will be taking pictures.

And getting bloated.

because I honestly can't go a day without gaining like a gianto bulge in my stomach.

eww.

Why can't I have rock fucking hard abs?

well. Happy [early] Thanksgiving!

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 Happy Halloween! http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/10567751/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/10567751/ Tue, 31 Oct 2006 07:14:52 PST

Let the festivities begin!

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 National Coming Out Day http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/10353776/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/10353776/ Wed, 11 Oct 2006 00:00:40 PDT

I support National Coming Out Day.

Do you?

]]> ~perfect1 Stolen. http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/10350466/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/10350466/ Tue, 10 Oct 2006 17:30:46 PDT

Some idiot stole my backpack out of my PE locker today.

The coaches weren't much help either. I hate them so much.

I found it.. eventually.. with most of my stuff inside too

EXCEPT:

a couple of pencils
my red pen
my white pen
my un-opened Pepsi

&&&

my fucking MP3 player.

Now I have to buy a new one or wait for Christmas..

ugh. Why must people make things so difficult?

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 Testing? http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/10328022/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/10328022/ Sun, 08 Oct 2006 17:17:13 PDT

Just trying out the new CSS controls for the journals.

sooner or later I'm going to change it to pink or something.

but yeah.

uploading 2 new pieces right now.

early Happy Halloween!

.victor

]]> ~perfect1 Ew. I hate coloring.. http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/9872707/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/9872707/ Sun, 27 Aug 2006 12:04:42 PDT

Ok. So this really sucks and I'm really mad about it even though it seems like it's a really simple thing.

I drew this awesome picture of me wearing aviators and everyone loved it. It was for this English portfolio that I had to design and stuffs. Anyways, I spent like 4 days on it and then we were FORCED to color it. Well not really, that's they way it felt when I heard it.

So I go and start coloring the picture. First the hair. It went ok. Then the eyebrows. Piece of cake. Then I get to my skin. I really hate how I don't have my skin color in any of my colored pencil packs. haha. Instead I try to blend colors. BAAAADD. It ended up looking uber dark with an obvious distinction of where one color starts and one ends..

That pissed me off so bad last night, I seriously had a mental breakdown.

Really bad.

It was my fault though. Cause I'm so stupid.

but yeah

But besides that, everythings going ok.
No gay basher sightings. (Even though all the guys in the locker room constantly rag about gays. and say faggot. ew. I hate that word.)

And most of my teachers are hilarious. haha.

Have a nice day.
I on the other hand have to think of a replacement for my picture..

.victor

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]]> ~perfect1 So true. http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/9784957/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/9784957/ Sat, 19 Aug 2006 17:36:38 PDT

So very true.

New art coming soon maybe?

School is going to be soo stressful.

.victor

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]]> ~perfect1 Give in to Reinvention. http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/9623344/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/9623344/ Mon, 07 Aug 2006 00:03:53 PDT

Thanks to =jaba for getting me to the 5,000 pageview mark.
Coming up with a kiriban (oh boy. I hope thats right) but it will most likely be late because of school starting.

Speaking of school, I get my schedule this friday. It's going to be so weird seeing people again. I hate it. I liked being alone. Anyways, I need to start off fresh. I'm taking more care in my appearance (like my lips which were constantly chapped now refined and lighter because they aren't bleeding.) and my health (more water, less food). well. at least its going better. Pimples are almost gone. yay. Now that I say that I will have a giant one on my forehead tomorrow morning.

So yeah. Schedules friday. Then get my picture taken for my ID. bleh. I hated my last ID. My picture and the ink got rubbed off and crap. oh well.

Since my classes are a lot harder this year (all honors and a language which believe me, I suck at) I will have to quit goofing around. I wouldn't be considered a fun person to be around in the first place but yeah. Perfection in school is my main priority. Why? Cause I'm a smart, asian loser. yup yup.

Friends? maybe 4. but who's complaining.

PE still sucks. I saw my would-be gay basher at the supermarket. He looks a lot more muscley then before. I bet he's still taking steroids or testosterone. He used to have a falsetto but now its more of a brawny type voice and dude seriously has a beard. but yeah. I hope we don't share PE. I do hope I have PE with Jimmy again. Its fun being a perverted freak.

I also have to find a way to get out of swimming. Man that sucked..

Art is getting bigger in my life. Not like it was already though. It's nice to get known for my art so that's got to be stepped up more. I hope I get to make more collages. Those were so fun. I got into fashion drawing over the summer. So far I have 2 croquis that I like and I'll be drawing more soon. I need to work on figure and portrait drawing though. Architectual drawing might come in handy later too.

Oh. one more thing. When people say I'm weird or get worried about me when I start saying I like qruesome things and enjoy when people die and stuff, its not my fault. It's really the only thing I have. I can act all preppy and happy and flowery if I want but it's not something I can think about or feel on the inside. Happy doesn't register in my mind very well. So really, my brain is balancing out happy versus sad or good versus evil and since there is more sad or evil, there will be less happy and good. It makes sense for me so if it doesn't for you, sorry. That pretty much explains why darker poetry is easier for me. I know it well. I can use the feelings and thoughts that I've gone through. Life is hard for me most of the time and I guess I tend to use it to my advantage when it comes to writing or drawing.

ok well that was a lot to type. Oh boy. I'm tired and I bet myself that I could read the book and type the thingy before schedule pick-up. ugh. School sucks.

Have a pleasant early morning, or afternoon, or evening, or night, depending on where you are in the world.

.victor

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]]> ~perfect1 And I believe her. http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/9538989/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/9538989/ Sun, 30 Jul 2006 01:06:23 PDT

You're getting big. You need to start exercising. - My mom

great. I'm really not that big. Kinda underweight really. It's just my face. My cheeks are pretty big and now that my controlling bitch of a mom made me cut my hair super short my face looks even fuller.

Thanks to her I threw up all my dinner.

But then again it isn't the first time. Mark even said I had a fat face while we were going out. I seriously hated eating since then and now I do even more.

I'm not trying to be one of those people who are like, "I'm fat.." expecting everyone around them to be all, "No you're not. You're skinny!/perfect the way you are!" So yeah. If you've seen some of my pictures, please don't be like "You're face is fine. You have nothing to worry about." I'm being super serious here. My face is big. I have a double chin thing going on too. I just want to cut it off.

Anyways. This day was shit. I have too many emotions going on to deal with right now. I don't think I can make it this coming school year.

.victor

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]]> ~perfect1 What a Dream, What a Dream http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/9360988/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/9360988/ Thu, 13 Jul 2006 03:46:28 PDT

I had a dream. Twas a wonderful dream of fairies and sugar dust..

yeah right.

I was at a gay porn convention just walking around. After a while, these three 18 yr old, french speaking guys started talking to me (in english of course) and we got into a conversation. Two of them had beautiful blue eyes and the other one was kinda scruffy. During our small chat they said something to eachother in french and they whipped their meat out and I.. well yeah. They said I did ok. Got a little messy though.

Anyways, after I wiped my mouth off I walked around some more I found some beefy German? guys. They said something like, "Hey cutie, ever been with a bear before?" which was kinda weird because a bear is a hairy guy and they were smooth. Besides that, I kinda shrugged and walked over there. I got behind him and started feeling up his body. It was nice. And then I woke up.

Alas, only in my dreams will I ever get anyone like those boys.

.victor

P.S. My art has been halted because something is wrong with my left mouse button and I'm not able to drag or scroll. yeah.. it sucks.

I don't know when I can get a new mouse or get my mouse fixed so.... sorry.

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]]> ~perfect1 Life has left me.. http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/9237958/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/9237958/ Sat, 01 Jul 2006 01:17:27 PDT

uninspired.

I'm making a book about how I exemplify each of the 7 deadly sins. It will include some collages, sketches, and maybe some of my thoughts.

My threadless design sucked. I admit it and everyone got made at me for "copying" an illustration that had created a long time ago. Apparently it was also on the cover of a Led Zepplin album too. The voting on my design stopped early, due to the fact that the score was low and there were lots of complaints. I already had barely any trust in my own artistic abilities but now I just feel like forgetting about pursuing an artistic-based career all together.

What the fuck am I supposed to do now? I'm not being a fucking nurse. Fuck my parents and everything they've forced me into doing. It's my fucking life. All the shit they put me through is pushing me off the edge and I can't take it anymore.

mildly ok to angst in a couple seconds.

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]]> ~perfect1 Late Rant (but it's bothering me) http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/9143668/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/9143668/ Thu, 22 Jun 2006 02:31:47 PDT

Ok so Idk if I'm missing something but this is how it goes:

When I was going out with Mark, my friends had a strong dislike in him. They hated how I'd be with him all the time even though school was the only place I could see him (because of the parentals thing) at all. It bugged me but I still loved him so much.

After he broke up with me, all of a sudden they loved him to death. So at lunch he would come to the classroom I'm at during lunch and could hang out with them while I'm in the corner or somewhere at the side being the odd man out like I usually am. It hurt me all the time. Even if I'm in a good mood, once he comes in and starts joking around I start getting the empty feeling. Just like elementary really. I think I'm emotionally scarred because of that place..

But yeah, am I missing something? Do you think it was intentional? It doesn't seem fair. Even though I doubt it will happen again (I'm not sure if I will be hanging out with them next year) it still bugs me and just twists the knife in my heart.

And the worst part? I never forget things too well if it makes me sad. I get flashbacks during idle times or when I'm sleeping. The pain never goes away. Maybe if I hear what you guys think I would stop thinking about it or something. One less thing to worry about I suppose..

Thoughts?

.victor

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]]> ~perfect1 Flames to Dust, Lovers to Friends http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/9052516/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/9052516/ Tue, 13 Jun 2006 00:48:13 PDT

Why do all good things come to end?

I'm really liking Nelly Furtado's new album "Loose". I especially like All Good Things (Come To An End) It shall be the new "Bad Day" because it's so goddamn stuck-in-your-headed-ness.

:whistles to the whistling part: I like that part.

School's over.. I'm gonna miss people. Jimmy didn't come so I was kinda down about that. I think some of my best friends were fed up with me the last week.. heh. I vow to be as shy and as silent as I was in elementary..

I have summer reading though.. eww.. and then a test the first day..

I think playing with my baby cousin is the only thing that makes me truely happy and I'm going to cry when she goes to the Philippines for a month. I'm like tearing up right now talking about it.

Anyways, I need to take some pictures that will hopefully become part of my reinvention.

.victor

"Oh the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
hoping it would come soon
so that they could die.."

(the whistling part that I like so much has such a sad part in the song.)

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]]> ~perfect1 Day of Silence > Day of Truth http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/8597488/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/8597488/ Thu, 27 Apr 2006 19:02:07 PDT

Day of Silence was fun. Lot's people asked me what it was. Luckily I had a little sign thingy that I taped on my chest so I wouldn't have to break the silence.

It was funny how all the teachers were calling on me and there would always be one person who would say, "He can't talk today." I'd just kinda smile back.

I liked all the positive comments people gave me. It was nice. I got a little happier. Didn't last too long though.

Anyways, tomorrow is the Day of Truth.

It's basically against the Day of Silence.

Really stupid.

I'm not gonna post the link to the Day of Truth site because it disgusts me so much. But if you really want to know what the Day of Truth is about, just google, yahoo, ask, whatever.

.victor

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mmm.. PINK has received its 1,000th view!! yay!

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]]> ~perfect1 Cross Posted from Myspace http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/8290054/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/8290054/ Mon, 27 Mar 2006 23:14:43 PST

Everyone pretty much hates me now.. thats how bad today was.

I'm sorry for actually thinking about myself for once.

but whatever.

This is the last time I'm going to treat myself right.

People just end up getting pissed off.

so yeah. Be happy if I died in my sleep.

.victor

/rant

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]]> ~perfect1 un Happy 4,000. http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/8266798/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/8266798/ Sat, 25 Mar 2006 16:04:20 PST

yay. 4,000. Hurray for me.

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]]> ~perfect1 Boys Call Me when they feel Freaky Hot http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/8193370/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/8193370/ Fri, 17 Mar 2006 23:19:32 PST

Is it bad that I'm obsessing over straight boys everyday and have day dreams that I'm having sex with them?

Sophmore year is going to be so hard. I'm taking 4 Honors classes (because I'm not smart enough for AP classes). I'm also taking Spanish (since its easy I guess) and PE 2. I swear I'm gonna be pretty stressed out.

I really need to get over Mark.. I keep thinking about the good times we had together and its making me miss him 10 times more than I did before.

And now I've lost all courage in coming out to my parents.. bleh..

A guy named Sam Adams killed himself a while ago. He was on drugs. I didn't know him so I didn't really care. Is that bad? I mean like, I felt bad but at the same time I didn't know why so it didn't seem like a big deal to me.

Knitting a new scarf. Hopefully better than my first one. It's really time consuming but stress-relieving which I need badly.

Damn. I love Degrassi. If only Marco was still somewhat cute..

Ok well I'm gonna get back to the knitting and Degrassi.

.victor

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]]> ~perfect1 The Wish That Never Came True http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/8116821/ http://perfect1.deviantart.com/journal/8116821/ Sun, 12 Mar 2006 18:37:13 PST

I got cake from my best best best fucking friend in the whole world.

Plus a really cute balloon, a card, and a $50 Visa card thingy.
Love her to death.

^{_______________}

^{_______________}

but anyways. Before I got an actual cake. I grabbed some candles and lit them. Sang Happy Birthday to myself (yeah. how sad is that.) and made a wish. Wanna know what my wish was?

"I wish to be with Mark forever."

And guess what?

He broke up with me again. I had to open my fucking mouth. Goddamnit.
and this is the last time. He said hes not getting back to me ever again. No patching back up any more.

^{_______________}

It's because I'm too depressive I guess. Well fuck. : pause : sorry. I was gonna cry but I held it in. : unpause : If I didn't have so many problems I wouldn't be such a downer all the time. Ugh. What did I do to have all this bad karma? My theory: I was born. I'm not any benefit to anyone. I'm falling and I'm bringing everyone down with me.

How much easier do you think life would be without me? I wish I could just have one of those moments where I can actually see how people would be without me, you know, like in the movies. But screw that. My wishes never come true. Ever. No sarcasm. like really.

It should be about time for me to call Mark. But I don't have to anymore. So now I'm just holding back my emotions until my mom leaves so then I can start smashing things and cut little hearts into my arm. How fun! People tell me not to anymore, but its my life and my body.

^{_______________}

I'm sorry for the rant.

and I'm sorry for wasting your time.

I'm sorry for everything.

.victor

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UPDATE 3/12

Currently listening to: Sadness Playlist

Nothing's changed. But I'm still alive. I guess thats good right?..

yeah. this was a pretty pointless update.

I have a lot of work to do thats due tomorrow so I'm gonna get onto that now.

Bye.

.victor

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