http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:pheona&section=today deviantART RSS for by:pheona en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 25 Nov 2009 04:06:22 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/25855064/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/25855064/ Fri, 10 Jul 2009 07:47:04 PDT
I'm going to be taking a leave of absence here for a few months, so I apologize for not being able to promptly answer all of your questions like I sometimes do.

Unfortunately, you will likely not read this after posting a question/comment on my tutorials, but hopefully you can figure it out on your own.

I will be back around mid October and probably just delete everything, but any specific questions I'll try to get to.

So for now, I just want to say thanks to all of my fans and to all of the people who say nice things about my doodles/tutorials.

Have an awesome day!

Semper Fi!!!

-TLA

]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/24190080/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/24190080/ Tue, 21 Apr 2009 21:20:24 PDT [link]

This gal is for sale. She says "Good Morning!" and plays the Sailor Moon theme. It is about six inches tall. If you want it, let me know. You must have Paypal

GO BID


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]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/23847430/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/23847430/ Mon, 23 Mar 2009 11:41:23 PDT

Thanks for everyone who leaves nice comments on my art and tutorials! I am glad I can make you all still laugh or teach you something new~


Life is hectic, but maybe I will have more time now that I'm on my own. It's a big bad world out there, stay young while you can.

Much love,

Tonya

]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/17482354/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/17482354/ Sun, 22 Jun 2008 07:38:04 PDT









Two decades old



Thank you everyone for the faves and comments



The popularity of my GIMP tutorials makes me pretty happy. They've got to be a couple years old now and they still get faves and comments every day. I am so happy to be helping out people.


My art has been nowhere- school and work has really got me down. I guess it comes with the age ya know.


Tough times and tougher circumstances have made me bitter and lazy, but I do love you all for the nice things you say and do.


There are good people out there, but you need to be a good person yourself to find them. You are worth your weight in kindness and honesty. Unfortunately the bad people know that too, so be cautious.

Much love,

Tonya
























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]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/17236571/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/17236571/ Sat, 08 Mar 2008 08:19:19 PST
I have the other three linearts for the Amazoness series of drawings. I'll finish those when I get around to it.

My college gets out a week after all of the other colleges around here, so my break isn't until the 15th. Oh well

Two more midterms and a paper (in Spanish) for next week, so don't expect much from me.

Not that you do, but you know what I mean. XD

I'm off to work, gotta make dem petit fors

]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/16788717/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/16788717/ Fri, 08 Feb 2008 17:11:53 PST
New comic coming soon- Something hilarious (imho) and based on a true story.

I downloaded lots of GIMP brushes, so fun fun and thanks to the people who make them.


I wish I had a sub D:

]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/16714663/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/16714663/ Sun, 03 Feb 2008 20:48:55 PST
Only one episode left and SHE COMES BACK ick ick ick



Wilson, how coud you??? Greg House is the man for you!

]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/16634541/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/16634541/ Tue, 29 Jan 2008 19:25:20 PST
Also, a Diet Coke, drink of the... er.... cool people.

People who don't like bosco sticks can kiss my boo-tay (and give me their share, so as not to waste)

Oh, and House MD tonight was great

]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/16505882/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/16505882/ Mon, 21 Jan 2008 13:07:27 PST

I am back at school now, so I can scan stuff. I found some old comics I made in October- I laughed when I read them again, so keep an eye out for some comics of mine!

]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/16370308/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/16370308/ Sat, 12 Jan 2008 10:11:25 PST [link]


OMG that was amazing *_*

]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/16289473/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/16289473/ Sun, 06 Jan 2008 16:18:31 PST I will upload it in a couple weeks and finish it if I think I did a good job.


- TA

]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/15884126/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/15884126/ Mon, 10 Dec 2007 21:41:47 PST

I was told I will get a thank-you note. I will scan it if I do.


AMAZING

]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/15793907/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/15793907/ Tue, 04 Dec 2007 13:43:56 PST

Type my user name "pheona"

then "I'm feeling lucky"


and you will be here again!!!!!

Sweetness




"College isn't the place to go for ideas"
-Helen Keller

]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/15538973/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/15538973/ Fri, 16 Nov 2007 19:36:47 PST


The path numbers were in the 300's. If you use GIMP (or paths, for that matter) you know-- that is a lot of work. Not to mention all the layering and coloring.


The lineart was so much work.

UGH


If I don't figure this out I will be very discouraged.

I want my picture back!!!!!

]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/14798496/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/14798496/ Wed, 26 Sep 2007 10:38:49 PDT
]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/14784550/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/14784550/ Tue, 25 Sep 2007 10:23:09 PDT
even if I'm the only one to show up, I won't care.

But I'm bringing Oreos 'cause my birthday is tomorrow.....

I'm so excited


AAAAAAAAAA

]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/14594033/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/14594033/ Tue, 11 Sep 2007 18:07:07 PDT
Add me to your friends!

I will be updating more once I get a scanner!

University life as a nerd sucks!

[link]

]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/12190627/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/12190627/ Thu, 15 Mar 2007 07:31:30 PDT
It's been a while. But I'm glad to be updating my dA. I uploaded the things I've been working on, but without any anime crap, I am afraid it was not recieved as well.

Go figure.

But this is another thing I enjoy. Besides working way too much and school, I spend my days off (Monday and Tuesdays) with my boyfriend or at my life drawing class. I sleep little and drink a lot of water/coffee/soda to keep myself up. Spring break isn't for a while, but and Oekaki marathon sounds great.

I guess there isn't much else... I'll be in Mexico in July and off to the University of Iowa in August. Double major fun. Wish me luck in my art scollarship interview. X3

]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/11271961/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/11271961/ Mon, 01 Jan 2007 09:24:44 PST
But anywhoo... I've been painting in my art class... not a lot new. I'll take some pictures eventually.

But good news! I will be starting at the University of Iowa in August! Wish me luck in Biochemistry. XP I am excited to leave... but then again I know a few things I'll miss pretty bad.

Expect some update in... well some time, don't hold your breath (u'd prolly die).



]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/9605874/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/9605874/ Sat, 05 Aug 2006 08:32:58 PDT
Mood: plz doan eet meh
Listening to: Misia- Everything (TK remix)
Reading: I am reading your MIND
Watching: Super Ex-Girlfriend


so I wrote this long Journal entry about why I've been gone and how sorry I am that you don't get to see my crappy art lately. Then it screwed up and when I tried to submit It was a BLANK journal entry. conflabbit.

So I don't plan on re-typing anything, but sorry I've been gone, don't expect a full return, I miss the community here at dA etc.

No current projects, but a few sketches
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other stuff
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If you have a request send me a note with DETAILS and if I am interested I will do what I can. ^^ I love to bring other people happiness-ness-ness by doing what I love, so request away. ^___^

I got a new set of watercolors, so when I learn to use them I'll post some watercolors!


Okay, so I don't get many pageviews, but if you want me to feature you, ask and I'll check out your gallery. Puh-leeeease



If I'm forgetting one or you know one I'd like, let me know!

]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/9248537/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/9248537/ Sun, 02 Jul 2006 06:23:36 PDT
Mood: quiero ver mi novio
Listening to: Eternally- Utada Hikaru
Reading: I am reading your MIND
Watching: X3


Aaw, I just love this song ^^ (see above) it is so sweet.

So I finally got my wish and I am dating the most wonderfull guy. -^^- He is so much different than any other guys I've met... We have only been 'together' for two days, but I feel like time is on our side. I always want to be with him, even if it is at work, lol.

But darkness looms! My parents are wanting to meet him, so Tuesday is the day for that (as of now). I am a bit nervous. Nope, that is a lie. I was sick to my stomach thinking about it yesterday. I don't want to scare him away cause my parents are a little... out there when it comes to me dating. Ma is real excited for me, but when I told her that I was afraid of them giving the wrong impression my ma said that if anyone can make me smile so much that they must be a good person. She trusts me like she has for so much of my life- which is strange because most parents are not like that to their kids, you know? My other sibblings are not even trusted by them as much as I am. I shouldn't worry, though- he is wonderful and charming, and so long as he doesn't get too shy I think things will go well.

Aah, yesterday I was put at the register instead of the salad counter, so I couldn't slip away and even give him a hug when he left. I felt like crap, but I guess it couldn't be helped. Today, though, I think I am on pies, so hopefully I can catch him before I leave. Especially since I don't get to see him at all tomorrow, I better make sure we have good timing and meet up in the back. lol. I know that my friend will get mad when she reads this (if she is near a computer any time soon) but oh well. XD Sorry faff, I am in love!

No current projects, but a few sketches
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other stuff
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I have a characture of my history teacher that I'd like to color in GIMP, so we will seee how that goes.. XD

If you have a request send me a note with DETAILS and if I am interested I will do what I can. ^^ I love to bring other people happiness-ness-ness by doing what I love, so request away. ^___^

I got a new set of watercolors, so when I learn to use them I'll post some watercolors!


Okay, so I don't get many pageviews, but if you want me to feature you, ask and I'll check out your gallery. Puh-leeeease


http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/9034813/ Sun, 11 Jun 2006 07:54:15 PDT
Mood: snokoneonmyshoes
Listening to: dumb anime crap on JAR UGHH
Reading: I am reading your MIND


So I got another job, did I tell 'yall? Now, added to my current job (only about 6 hours a week) I will be getting in 42 hours a week! The new job... I work all but Thursdays and Saturdays. The job itself is so much better than other because I am constantly doing SOMETHING... whereas at the stadium job I stand doing nothing for a majority of the time... plus there are no hot Mexican guys bringing me my dishes. XD

Oh, but first things first... my parents and two of their friends came over last night about an hour before I left for work... they brought much booze and chip dip, to the delight of my little brother, who knew that when the bottles were half gone... he would be offered some. So I was gone before they popped the tops of the Sprite and cherry vodca. I did, however take a sip of my mom's peach Bacardi... ohman, I love peach flavored things, but this was sooo good.

I do not advocate underage drinking, just as a disclaimer. lol

But after a few sips I had to leave for work. That was boring as hell, and I told my boss that I would rather shoot myself than make more Sno Kones and that he had really bad breath... in Spanish, so I didn't get in trouble. hahaha. Anywhoo... I got home and all of the bacardi, cherry vodca, and beer was completely gone, my little brother seemed to get along with my dad better (or he might have been holding him up), and my mother was very drunk. Everyone was enjoying the strawberry vodca and Sprite- that's all that was left. Now, to her honor, she hasn't drank much for about two years... she used to be a very mean drunk back when I was younger, but now she is pretty good. So, obviously past her point of saturation, ma was enjoying the crazy stories that her friend's husband was telling... seriously, this has got to be one of the funniest men alive- his stories from when he lived in the Southside of Chicago and his run-ins with cops and jailmates, and his 40 foot slip-n-slide he made down Siscero (sp?)... along with much more, he could have rocked Last Comic Standing. Ma got into this speil about her heritage and how important it was and she firmly believes that she is something she was slurring as "Black-Irish". Truthfully, I am not knowleable on world culture or anything, but my father and the guy with the funny stories (he was also very smart) were trying to explain that there was no such thing. I told ma that we wanted to hear more funny stories, not about her heritage and how she is "As black as white can be". XDDD Another story started up after I quieted my mother and to my horror... well... someone wet themsleves. O.o FTW

lol. So I went to bed.

Sadly, as of now I have to go to work. Sadly? That doesn't sound right to me. I can't wait to see him... but for now, that is none of your buisness, random internet people! GOSH!


No current projects, but a few sketches
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other stuff
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I have a characture of my history teacher that I'd like to color in GIMP, so we will seee how that goes.. XD

If you have a request send me a note with DETAILS and if I am interested I will do what I can. ^^ I love to bring other people happiness-ness-ness by doing what I love, so request away. ^___^

I got a new set of watercolors, so when I learn to use them I'll post some watercolors!


Okay, so I don't get many pageviews, but if you want me to feature you, ask and I'll check out your gallery. Puh-leeeease


http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/8886638/ Fri, 26 May 2006 19:01:57 PDT
Mood: no think more art
Listening to: Ayu mega mix!! :)
Reading: I am reading your MIND


Sooo, no more polls, I promise. XD I know no one actually reads those things... not that many people read my journal in general. XD

So today was my last full day of school. So, less thinking and more art! I've got a few sketches of some fanart that I plan to finish in GIMP, then other than that it will be my own stuff. I kind of feel bad doing fanart and getting PV's for it. I have a lot of ideas for art, it is just that I tend to do art to what others will like, rather than for myself. Habit, I guess, but you know how that is...

So anyways... In school yesterday, I guess my little brother found an Mp3 player in the field next to the school and when he told me that he was going to keep it, I was kind of mad, but whatever I guess. Then he told me there was some weird music on it (of which a friend of mine listens to) so I made a call and my friend was not missing her's, but she had a friend who was missing her's. I got it from my brother and took it to her first period teacher like she had asked. I am good friends with this teacher, but when he saw the player, he almost flipped. I guess the thing had been stolen from his desk while he was holding it for the girl. So all was solved, until I got a note to go see the school detective. XDDD

She starts drilling me as soon as we sit down and says that I was the one to steal it. OSOSIODFOSFDkjfdskjaljkaklOMFG. "Um... no. I am never in that room, I don't even really know the girl whom it belongs to and I didn't find it- my brother did." Kay, don't backtalk detective lady. Learned my lesson. She starts accusing my brother and she asks if he steals stuff often. "What? I don't know if he steals stuff... I mean, no! He doesn't steal stuff!" She was trying to get me to say I did it for the longest time, then turned on my brother. Ohman... for realz

So I got out of there finally and she drilled my brother. The nice teacher whom it was stolen from knows I didn't do it, in fact, he thinks he knows who did. But the officer lady I guess does not like me, so she threatened my brother and I with polygraph tests!!

The moral of the story is: Don't be nice, it will get you in the end, and finder's keepers.


No current projects, but a few sketches
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other stuff
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I have a characture of my history teacher that I'd like to color in GIMP, so we will seee how that goes.. XD

If you have a request send me a note with DETAILS and if I am interested I will do what I can. ^^ I love to bring other people happiness-ness-ness by doing what I love, so request away. ^___^

I got a new set of watercolors, so when I learn to use them I'll post some watercolors!


Okay, so I don't get many pageviews, but if you want me to feature you, ask and I'll check out your gallery. Puh-leeeease


http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/8837362/ Sun, 21 May 2006 17:22:26 PDT
Mood: I barf on joo
Listening to: Ayumi Hamasaki- Will *wall5 remix*
Reading: I am reading your MIND


Stealing this from =kaitouace like mah other one. XD


1. Spell your first name backwards: aynot

2. Story behind your DEVIANTART name: Too long of a story, I just like the name, kay?

3. What month were you born in? September

4. Where do you live: a house

DESCRIBE YOUR:

5. Wallet: It matches one of my purses... like a light brown with a dark brown stain from trying to balance chocolate ice cream and money at the same time. XD

6. Car: It is super nonexistant

7. Toothbrush: Crest Spinbrush Pro XDDDDDDDD

8. Jewelry worn daily: Big, sliver hoop earings and another pair of earings in the other holes, then I have four different rings that I wear every day.

9. Pillow Case: I had one that was really neat then I went to sleep with wet hair a lot and it faded in the middle so I took it off, but then I (almost) went on a car trip so I put on this dark green one that I have yet to take off. Wait... too much? DROOL

11. Underwear: ...."Thursday"

13. Sunglasses: I got them in a claw machine in Las Vegas. lol they are blue-ish

14. Favorite shirt: Tofu Records shirt.

15. Cologne/Perfume: Lucky body spray. OMG, I love that stuff

16. CD in stereo: MP3 cd with lots and lots of L'arc~en~ciel and Ayu and lots of other j-rock and pop. Only one english song *not counting Engrish* The Real Sugar Baby- the only good thing to come from dub Sailormoon. XDDD

17. Piercings: I have my ears double-pierced

WHAT ARE YOU:
18. Wearing now: A shirt I tye-dyed in Art club and some soft pajama pants

19. Wishing: To get a boyfriend

20. Wanting: money

26. The last thing you ate: Watermelon YUMMM

27. Something you are afraid of: dogs... especially the small ones

Do You:

28. Do you like candles: kind of

30. Do you like the taste of blood: eeew, no

31. Do you believe in love: unfortunately yes

32. Do you believe in soul mates: yes

33. Do you sleep naked? no

34. Do you eat seafood? Yup.

35. Do you believe in God: Yes

36. Do you remember your dreams? Not usually, but then again I have some super-weird dreams

37. Do you consider yourself a study freak? Yes. u.u

38. Do you consider youself a health nut? I guess not

39. Do you like tattoos? Yup, I've known what I want for a tattoo for about four years now.

40. Do you believe in miracles? no

41. Do you burn easily in the sun? Yup, in fact, I get sun poisoning easily

42. Do you speak a language other than english? I know a bit of Japanese, and I have three years of spanish so far from school.

43. What's something you wish you could understand better? love

RELATIONSHIPS:
47. Are you shy around your crush? Yes...

48. Still have feelings for anyone in a past relationship? no

49. Do you know what it feels like to be in love? I don't think so

FASHION STUFF:
51. Where is your favorite place to shop? the mall.

52. What color looks best on you? um... anything that covers up all t3h ugly!

53. What is your favorite thing to wear? CUTE SHOES OMFG

54. What is a must have accessory: Big earrings!

55. How much is the most you've ever spent in a single clothing store? I once bought a $50 shirt and wore it a total of TWICE

56. Who is the least fashionable person you know? Oh dear... let's not ask that, kay?

57. Do you match your belt with your hair color? I don't usually wear belts, but the one I wore yesterday did. lol

59. How many pairs of shoes do you own? three cute pairs, some flip-flops and mah good ol' tennis shoes

60. What is the worst tren... ]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/8753390/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/8753390/ Fri, 12 May 2006 20:24:05 PDT
Mood: TACOBREATH
Listening to: Another World- Gackt
Reading: I am reading your MIND


I stole this from =kaitouace

Autobiography
Part 1: The Birth of You

Were you a planned baby?: Don't know...
Were you the first?: Second...
Who was present at your birth?: I think it was just my mother and grandmother... maybe.
Were your parents married when you were born?: I believe so
What is your birthdate?: September 26, 1988

Part 2: The Family
How would you describe your family?: No one gets along, screwed up values
Are your parents married? It depends on what you mean by "parents"
Siblings or an only child?: I have siblings
If you have siblings are you oldest, middle, or youngest?: Middle
What are your siblings names and ages?: ADHD, Bitch, Abandoner, and Runnaway
Which parent do you get along with best?: Ma
What do you fight about?: School and her being disappointed in me
Do you have step parents?: Yup, but I think that is a biased word. Dad is dad.

Part 3: The Friends

Do you have more than one best friend?: I guess
Who are your best friends?: I don't know... I am not a very good friend myself. XD
What do you like to do when you are together?: It is usually fun, but we play DDR and go shopping sometimes
Do you share the same interests?: some things more than others. O.o
Which friend can you tell anything to?: I have this adorable notebook... but she died in an intentional fire. she. knew. too. much.

Part 4: Your Personality
How high/low is your self esteem?: I don't know if I can answer that honestly.
Do you get depressed about things easily?: Some things, of course.
Are you happy?: I'd lean towards a medium-no
Do you live life to the fullest?: Not at all- I am wasting my life

Part 5: Appearance

Are you comforable with the way you look?: Nope
What would you change about your apperance if you could?: I wish I had a cute face at least...
Do you have any peircings besides your ears?: Nope, just a double-ear peircing
Describe your hair.: Poofy, wavy brown with blonde in front.
What make-up do you wear?: Basic foundation/powder plus mascara and sometimes eyeliner and eyeshadow... lipstick sometimes... okay, just a bit of everything every now and then. XDDDD
How do you dress?: I'd like to dress cute, but it is too cold lately and the only people who notice when I do are friends and my mother- no one else notices


Part 6: The Past
Were you a strange child?: Don't know, don't remember
What did you use to love that you no longer do?: the thought of the future
Do you have the same friends?: No. I think I vented about it in a past journal...
Was there anything in your past that was traumatizing?: When my best friend ruined my life

Part 7: The Future
What is your ambition?: to be happy
Are you scared of growing old?: yes
Do you want to get married?: Very much so. -^^-

Part 8: The Outdoors
Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?: Outdoors, especially in the rain
What is your favorite season: Summer
Weather?: Warm rain
Do you like walking in the rain?: Oh yes, it is sooo romantic- any boyfriend I have better take that opportunity -he better be a romantic also-

Part 9: Food
Are you a vegetarian?: No- Me gusta pollo
What is your favorite food?: Wonton soup OMG
What food makes you want to gag?: Barbeque chips
What is your favorite dessert?: something overly chocolate
What is your favorite restaurant?: the Chineese Kitchen downtown
Are you a fussy eater?: Sadly, yes. I avoid a lot of food and won't touch others.

Part 10: Relationships and Love
Are you single or taken?: Single- hopefully I'll find someone who can sweep me off my feet. Aah- Must like romantic walks and giving surprises! lol /personal ad
If taken who is the lucky guy/girl?: whatwhatwhat
Do you think love is the best feeling in the world?: yes
Do you believe in love at first sight?: No- looks are more likely decieving

Part 11: Experiences
What was one of your greatest expierences?: I once felt really important
What was one of your worst?: Getting my heart broken and betrayed, then ditched- all at the same time. BEANS ARE MINEEE (don't ask)
Do you do drugs?: No
Have you ever thought you were goin... ]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/8619609/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/8619609/ Sat, 29 Apr 2006 09:23:32 PDT
Mood: OMGSNOKONE
Listening to: Prism- M-flo
Reading: freakin suck ass book for english class


I have had something on my mind for a long time now, and I was wondering what y'all thought about it:

It was the end of 6th grade and my group of three friends (we were all best friends) were very excited to go to middle school together. Well, it turns out that one of them (she was the 'leader' of the group) was moving. As much of a shock and dissappointment as this was, I was going to be okay 'cause I had my other friend to be with. Well, the 'leader' knew that I was going to be alright, and she didn't want us to be happy if she couldn't be happy also. So she wrote a note to the other girl and signed it from herself and me. The note was given to me and I was told to pass it along after she moved. I didn't read it like a good friend (she had asked me not to) and I gave it to my friend, unknowing to what it said. Well, it said that we hated her and we never wanted to see her again, she was a lousy bitch and we hated her guts etc. She called me crying and I had no idea except for that the 'leader' girl had told me that the letter was telling her something important. She was practically sobbing and she asked me if it was true. I just said yes, I believe it was. I had no idea how to react to someone all emotional, I was 12 for goodness sakes! So, I found out later that "I" had signed the letter. I thought that I had caused enough damage, so I just left it alone. And alone I was going into a school twice the size and population without a single friend to sit with at lunch. How the hell could I let a great friend go like that?

But I suppose it is for the better. I see her around school, all these years later, and she is popular, pretty, with a nice-looking boyfriend, etc. She is even friends with my sister, who we used to make fun of all the time back in elementary school for being popular. It is funny how she is everything we hated, but I am glad that she is happy. She still ignores me completely, I mean... I'd like to say something like "I'm sorry" or tell her that it wasn't me, but does she care or even remember? Am I beating a dead horse here, or what?


So, onto a happier story

So there is this kid who is a Senior at school and he works in the same place I do (only different job) and he is super cute! I asked a lady that he works with if he had a girlfriend and the answer was no. I wonder if he is going to his Senior Prom that is coming up. He had better be going! I told the lady that I had a friend that wanted to know about his 'status' but I hope she didn't catch on that it was me. I was just curious, I don't think I would date him, but he is so nice. X3



Okay, enough wased vents, bai for now!



Things to do for people:
---
I have a characture of my history teacher that I'd like to color in GIMP, so we will seee how that goes.. XD

If you have a request send me a note with DETAILS and if I am interested I will do what I can. ^^ I love to bring other people happiness-ness-ness by doing what I love, so request away. ^___^



Okay, so I don't get many pageviews, but if you want me to feature you, ask and I'll check out your gallery. Puh-leeeease


http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/8555200/ Sat, 22 Apr 2006 21:19:59 PDT
Mood: OMGSNOKONE
Listening to: Love Bug- Mflo feat. BoA
Reading: freakin suck ass book for english class


Ugh, missed Jr. Prom. I totally should have gone. I am really regretting it, but I do have good reason. :/ I need to study for the ACT and I had work. Okay, so that sucks as a reason.

At work today the guy that looks like the kid I talked about in my last journal- they are dopplegangers if you do not recall- asked me why I looked sad and I told him that I was missing prom and he was all weird saying that he wouldn't take me etc. I felt so bad for not going... I realy wish that I didn't miss out on so much.

So I spent another $145 on my camera. Grr. I got a battery charger, case, service plan, and memory card. Oi is this stuff expensive... especially for me 'cause I work 12 hours a week if I'm lucky. XD But I am happy to have something nice for a change. When I have time I will upload some macro pictures I took of my tulips. There are these neat ones that you've just got to see.

Oh, and I'd really like to do some self-portrait pictures like =kaitouace does. His art is so smexy. I miss the old Kero Kero Oekaki boards- he always had such nice art. Stupid angry people have to mess it all up for the rest of us. Pfft.

I have been doing a lot of paintchat stuff lately, but I can't get into it much.

I need to go study more.

...I think


Things to do for people:

~sailorsenshi club winners
Eternal Saturn and Chibi Moon flying- sketch done
A picture of... myself (don't ask, I don't know either). -in thought process

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other stuff
---
I have a characture of my history teacher that I'd like to color in GIMP, so we will seee how that goes.. XD

If you have a request send me a note with DETAILS and if I am interested I will do what I can. ^^ I love to bring other people happiness-ness-ness by doing what I love, so request away. ^___^

I got a new set of watercolors, so when I learn to use them I'll post some watercolors!


Okay, so I don't get many pageviews, but if you want me to feature you, ask and I'll check out your gallery. Puh-leeeease


http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/8412407/ Sat, 08 Apr 2006 21:47:05 PDT
Mood: cameracameracamera
Listening to: Candy- Crystal Kay X3
Reading: The Kite Runner



OMG! I just today bought my camera!! It is an Olympus SP-350, which is 8 Megapixles. Wee! I am so excited. X3

I love my camera so much. YAY

Oh, and I was in Chicago on Thursday and I bought this clock:

[link]


OMG, so cute! X3

Okay, here is a story you've just got to hear!

So I took a busride (fieldtrip) to Chicago on Thursday, and there is this kid named Steve, who was sitting behind me. Well, we were talking and goofing around and such, but I was kind of really getting to like him (which is another story XD ) So we were talking about how I've never been to a school dance and he was all shocked and said he had to ask me to one (DOKI DOKI) and I tried to act all cool, but I was super giggly. XDDD Yeah, anyways, so Steve looks almost identical to my boss at work, Scott (except ten years older). Woah, I mean very much alike.

So anywhoo... I was at work today and I was thinking about how much they look alike and how much I would like to see Steve at the moment and Scott walks up and asks if my inventory is right, and I blush so badly that I nearly faint. I just started busting out laughing and I couldn't stop. Being the cool guy he is, Scott just stood there waiting for an explanation. Well, I really didn't want to mention anything, but I blurted out, "I was hanging out with your doppelganger all weekend!".

OMG

And I have no idea where "all weekend" came from, it was one day, on a bus. XDDD omg. So then I correct myself, and now it seems as though Scott has the wrong idea and he thinks I was 'romantically involved' with someone that looks like him. lmao. I wanted to tell him sorry, but I was still blushing and laughing uncontrollably. The whole day was SO akward. omg, I have never felt so embarassed just by seeing someone like that, but now I know that he thinks about that whenever he sees me. lol

I want to like, quit my job now. It is so weird asking for his help now... it is like "could you change this inventory number... OMG, I'm not hitting on you!"

Woo, gotta go, gonna go die.


Things to do for people:

~sailorsenshi club winners
Eternal Saturn and Chibi Moon flying- sketch done
A picture of... myself (don't ask, I don't know either). -in thought process

---
other stuff
---
I have a characture of my history teacher that I'd like to color in GIMP, so we will seee how that goes.. XD

If you have a request send me a note with DETAILS and if I am interested I will do what I can. ^^ I love to bring other people happiness-ness-ness by doing what I love, so request away. ^___^

I got a new set of watercolors, so when I learn to use them I'll post some watercolors!


Okay, so I don't get many pageviews, but if you want me to feature you, ask and I'll check out your gallery. Puh-leeeease


http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/8313303/ Thu, 30 Mar 2006 10:45:24 PST
Mood: asdf
Listening to: Candy- Crystal Kay X3
Reading: The Kite Runner



Weee! Thank you everyone for 5,000 pageviews!!

Love you all lots!

Ooh, I am excited. It is like nothing at all comparatively, but thanks still.



So for Spring break I did... well almost nothing so far...

I got back just a bit ago from staying at a nice hotel with some friends. I really can't stand their immaturity at times, but all things aside, it was really nice. We went swimming for a long time and had fun in the sauna. Wee fun sauna. Seriously, it felt GREAT. Once we had just a few of us around things settled down and it actually felt like friends hanging out having fun and enjoying eachother's company.

That is, until we got back to the room.

Seriously, if I heard another fart/genitalia joke I was going to stab myself with the complementary coffee stirers. Woah, that is a weird word. O.o Anywho... It kind of sucked for some of us because some people felt all weird and said rude things like if we didn't want to wait for an unoccupied bathroom to change so... just change there. Or, after I got back from swimming, I fixed my hair and makeup and when one friend told me that I looked nice the rest started making lesbian jokes. WTF? I swear, having close friends is like a disease or something. Ugh. People make me mad.

But regardless, I am glad to get out of the house. I hate not being a rich kid who is in Florida for the week or whatever. Grawr. But that is another story...


I have a lot of pictures to do for the contest winners over at ~sailorsenshi. I am kind of regretting saying that I'd do all the winning prizes, but I really love that club and I wanted to try and get people excited to be in the contest. One of the requests kind of confused me, but I guess I'll do whatever they want. XD


Oh yeah,


THANKS FOR 5K!!!!






Things to do for people:

~sailorsenshi club winners
Eternal Saturn and Chibi Moon flying- sketch done
A picture of... myself (don't ask, I don't know either). -in thought process

---
other stuff
---
I have a characture of my history teacher that I'd like to color in GIMP, so we will seee how that goes.. XD

If you have a request send me a note with DETAILS and if I am interested I will do what I can. ^^ I love to bring other people happiness-ness-ness by doing what I love, so request away. ^___^

I got a new set of watercolors, so when I learn to use them I'll post some watercolors!


Okay, so I don't get many pageviews, but if you want me to feature you, ask and I'll check out your gallery. Puh-leeeease


~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/8136736/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/8136736/ Sun, 12 Mar 2006 06:45:27 PST
Mood: SNOKONEONMYSHOES
Listening to: Candy- Crystal Kay X3
Reading: Pride and Predjudice


So I finally finished the tutorial. XDDDD It took me forever and a day, and the cell-shading half was total crap, but I am glad I am done. I got a lot of nice comments about it. I am so glad to help out people. I do love my GIMP.

Too bad the Gimp club here doesn't do much. X3 (Yes, there is a GIMP club).

Last week was hell... and ACT prep class had me getting home from school at 6:30pm. > Grr. It was interesting, but the $65 was best spent on the books we got, not the two days lecture. Yeaa...

So school is kicking my ass totally... I have no desire at all anymore to do the same damn thing day after day after day and maintian a good spirit. Every day I think, "Is this not yesterday's partake?". And it is! Every damn day.

I need a boyfriend. That would be great... when will my Kaitou Ace arrive? Miss Masked Senshi is weary from all work and no play.

/otaku mode

But anyways... "Black Stone" by Gackt is a cool song. But I really want to hear some Laruku right now... I have CDs, but they are so far away... upstaris. XD


Is it just me or is this journal dragging on aimlessly?

...So my pageview average went down by HALF. That sucks. They took a jump when I finally submitted something. hee hee. I wish I had more time for DA, but even now I am taking time that I need to get ready for work or doing my homework which I will most likely procrastinate until later tonight....

-End Transmission-


Wow, I am such a nerd.


Things to do for people: (Sketches done!)
someone asked for a Haruka/Michiru pic. I think I'll try that out.
A friend from the PGSM forums wants me to make a picture of Bonnie Parker and Annie Okley (sp?). That is all he gave me, so I'll have to try and figure out something (something other than them just standing there).
Another guy from the forum asked me to make a picture of the Senshi crossing the Deleware. XD I don't know if he was serious or not.
If I forgot someone, let me know

If you have a request send me a note with DETAILS and if I am interested I will do what I can. ^^ I love to bring other people happiness-ness-ness by doing what I love, so request away. ^___^

I got a new set of watercolors, so when I learn to use them I'll post some watercolors!


Okay, so I don't get many pageviews, but if you want me to feature you, ask and I'll check out your gallery. Puh-leeeease


http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/7994169/ Fri, 24 Feb 2006 21:06:58 PST
Mood: SNOKONEONMYSHOES
Listening to: Precious- Utada Hikaru
Reading: Pride and Predjudice


Woot! So I've been getting a lot of requests to do a coloring tutorial for GIMP, the only problem is that I don't know which picture to do it for... I am considering these ones:
Soft shading:
or or (this is the one I did for the lines)
Cell shading:
or or

What do you all think? Tell me which ones show the style the best, if you would please. I'd joo 4evarr!

Anywhoo... I have been seriously negelecting DA these last few weeks. Now that I have a job I don't have time on weekends to get on the computer and make pretty pictures. X3 I'm the sno kone gal, remember?

Oh yeah...

Who the FAK decided that bubblegum was a good sno kone flavor? Naaaaasty.

I had the most hilarious thing happen... I'd like to draw up a little comic of it if I ever find the time...

Okay, so there is this kitchen boy who works at the same place that I do, right? We talk a little and all, and he's pretty cute... but I am shy around guys I don't really know. Welp, I'm talking to my aunt and she has to leave, and I turn and he's there. Now, normally the cooks don't eat with us, but there he was. I sat there for another ten minuites trying my hardest to get myself to say SOMETHING, ANYTHING... but no words. I get up and find my way to the soda machine when this old lady sits in the chair where I was. She then begins to talk to him for a very long time. Now, I have nothing against old people, but WHY could she have so much to talk about and I couldn't even bring myself to say hello? as;ljksdjlkfjlskdfa bwaaaaaaaaaaaa!

But now I'm venting.




Things to do for people: (Sketches done!)
someone asked for a Haruka/Michiru pic. I think I'll try that out.
A friend from the PGSM forums wants me to make a picture of Bonnie Parker and Annie Okley (sp?). That is all he gave me, so I'll have to try and figure out something (something other than them just standing there).
Another guy from the forum asked me to make a picture of the Senshi crossing the Deleware. XD I don't know if he was serious or not.
~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/7838648/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/7838648/ Wed, 08 Feb 2006 14:58:51 PST
Mood: doobeedoobeedooo
Listening to: Feeling Fine- L'Arc~en~Ciel
Reading: Pride and that other 'p' word that I can't spell


Okay, so I don't really like to make a journal without at least two things to talk about, but I need to tell you about the contest over at ~sailorsenshi

~sailorsenshi is having a contest! Draw your favorite Senshi or other BSSM character in a 'traditional' scene or style. For more info go to the club!

So ah... you all are going to join and/or enter, right?? ^_________^

Oh, I'm a helper there, did I ever mention that? The owner is gone and such so myself and some guy from Hungary (he is awfully nice ^^) are running it. It is a lot of work, but I love my BSSM.

We have had such a problem with copies of other pictures being submitted... It is a shame. I made an angry journal about it at the club, made me sound like a bitch, but it needed to be said.

Gotta go to kickboxing now, chow.


Things to do for people: (Sketches done!)
someone asked for a Haruka/Michiru pic. I think I'll try that out.
A friend from the PGSM forums wants me to make a picture of Bonnie Parker and Annie Okley (sp?). That is all he gave me, so I'll have to try and figure out something (something other than them just standing there).
Another guy from the forum asked me to make a picture of the Senshi crossing the Deleware. XD I don't know if he was serious or not.
If I forgot someone, let me know

If you have a request send me a note with DETAILS and if I am interested I will do what I can. ^^ I love to bring other people happiness-ness-ness by doing what I love, so request away. ^___^

I got a new set of watercolors, so when I learn to use them I'll post some watercolors!


Okay, so I don't get many pageviews, but if you want me to feature you, ask and I'll check out your gallery. Puh-leeeease


http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/7734251/ Sat, 28 Jan 2006 17:36:50 PST
Mood: doobeedoobeedooo
Listening to: Feeling Fine- L'Arc~en~Ciel
Reading: Pride and that other 'p' word that I can't spell


You know... I deleted my last journal because I didn't want some people to see it. Hopefully they did not.

Anywhoo.... second semester starts off badly with a student teacher in AP Chemistry. Ugh. I swear, let her teach the regular chem students. I didn't learn a thing. I know I failed the test, too.

But in other words...
Wait, more about school!

I got my report card. I'm ranked #2 now. That sucks so badly... I had it all goin for me. *sigh*

I need to go and put all of the journal deviations into the gallery over at the ~sailorsenshi club. That is going to take for ever. X.o

I don't want to!

Oh! More about school!

So I was seriously dreading having to take AP Government next year, but now I don't think I have to! You know what I'll replace it with? POTTERY. Yatta! -^^-

You have no idea how great that makes me feel. ^^

Ooh! And the song that just came on. Fortune by Sowelu. I just love her voice and she is so cute when she gets all into her singing in her vids. Her big smile. I wish I could do something fun for a living like that. I am envious of people who really enjoy their life. -_-

I had Subway for lunch! It was yummy! A toasted chicken breast with oregano, tomato, onion, spinach, cucumbers, and swiss on wheat!

I am such a dork.

Did I tell y'all that I got a job! It is at the place where all the concerts and hockey games are! I'm going to start working in a week and I am so excited. ^^ So what if I'm serving sno cones to a bunch of drunken hockey fans? I get to hear the concerts when they come and such. I am so excited.

A band called Nine Inch Nails is coming soon, and I'll probably be working. I've heard of the band, but I don't know what kind of music they play. I'm worried to have to serve a rough croud. O.O

I was the youngest at the orientation the other day... there were seven of us.

CAN YOU BELIEVE I have to pay thirty dollars for my shirt, apron, hat, and nametag????!! Grawr. That is a lot! O.o

I'm rambling... it has been a weird day.

phi


Things to do for people: (Sketches done!)
someone asked for a Haruka/Michiru pic. I think I'll try that out.
A friend from the PGSM forums wants me to make a picture of Bonnie Parker and Annie Okley (sp?). That is all he gave me, so I'll have to try and figure out something (something other than them just standing there).
Another guy from the forum asked me to make a picture of the Senshi crossing the Deleware. XD I don't know if he was serious or not.
If I forgot someone, let me know

If you have a request send me a note with DETAILS and if I am interested I will do what I can. ^^ I love to bring other people happiness-ness-ness by doing what I love, so request away. ^___^

I got a new set of watercolors, so when I learn to use them I'll post some waterco... ]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/7617600/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/7617600/ Mon, 16 Jan 2006 06:50:14 PST
Mood: googleplex
Listening to: L'arc~en~Ciel- New World :heart:
Watching: Stealth- it was okay. :/


Okay... I just had to get rid of that old journal... I was making myself sad. Thank you all who commented and tried to make me feel better, some of you didn't understand, I think. ;.; I was being a little over-emotional, but I really DID screw myself out of a FULL RIDE scollarship. I wish I could be as laid back as some of you. *sigh*

Anywhoo... I 'ought to get to work on all of these pictures I told people I'd draw. I think I am supposed to be drawing Mizuno Ami for someone... I just don't know. XD I've never connected with that character (which is pretty weird, I guess. I've just never given the character the time), so I'm having a hard time getting pictures in my head. I have completed the sketches for all of the participants of my coloring contest (not on dA, on the PGSM fourms). I was pretty surprised by my first request from Jay Navok... He wan't the Senshi crossing the Deleware like in that old painting. O.o He is a strange one, but I respect him as an awsome writer. The sketch is pretty funny so far, so look forward to this strange picture. O.o

Hmm... what else is there to talk about? Um... first semester is over! We are in the home stretch, y'all! Well... not really. But almost summer break! Wait... You all have year-round now, don't you? Well I live in a corn-tastic place and we still observe the summer vacation! W00t. I think it might be better if we did switch to year-round, but that is just my opinion. O.o I need to clean out my folders.

I don't think I'll get around to that any time soon. I'll probably end up over at someone's house playing DDR.

I suck ass at DDR but it is fun to watch Faffy rock it out on heavy mode! ^^

I think that cars will be my undoing. I just have a weird feeling in ALL cars that I am going to die. I constantly run scenarios through my head about t-bones, flying off into ditches, and being crushed by an 18-wheeler. I've been in so many "almost" accidents I think I am getting worse. I was running a scenario in the back seat with someone I was in an "almost" accident with driving. She tapped the brake at just the WRONG time and I freaked out and grabbed the seat in front of her. I hope I'm not offending anyone. ;.;

Alright, enough of this blabber. You have better things to do, I'm sure.

phi


Things to do for people: (Sketches done!)
someone asked for a Haruka/Michiru pic. I think I'll try that out.
A friend from the PGSM forums wants me to make a picture of Bonnie Parker and Annie Okley (sp?). That is all he gave me, so I'll have to try and figure out something (something other than them just standing there).
Another guy from the forum asked me to make a picture of the Senshi crossing the Deleware. XD I don't know if he was serious or not.
If I forgot someone, let me know

If you have a request send me a note with DETAILS and if I am interested I will do what I can. ^^ I love to bring other people happiness-ness-ness by doing what I love, so request away. ^___^

I got a new set of watercolors, so when I learn to use them I'll post some watercolors!


http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/7590861/ Fri, 13 Jan 2006 09:10:21 PST
Mood: doors closing
Listening to: Nami Tamaki- Greeting



I didn't put on any makeup this morning because I knew I would cry.

I studied all night yesterday for my Precalculus final, which I took earlier today. I knew that there was no way I could do well enough to raise my grade. I've had so many scollarship places sending me money and colleges sending me applications, but now it will all stop.

They all promised me that I would get a full-ride scollarship if I kept up my good grades.

So many doors closed this morning.

So many opportunities lost.

I have ruined any hopes of becoming anything notable.

I screwed up my life this morning when I made so many dumb mistakes.

Teacher says that It was all dumb mistakes and that I shouldn't feel bad because I do know the stuff.

It is true, I know it all.

"I know that and you know that, but no one else will"
"Who cares?"
Colleges care- the people and places that will give me my future will care. They do not know that I tried really hard or that I actually know the stuff.

I fucking screwed up my future. That damn final was so easy... the mistakes I made...

I didn't put on makeup this morning because I knew I would cry.

In other news, I got my Nami Tamaki CD and my Tofu Records t-shirt.

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I've always wanted to do one of these:
*blatently stolen from someone else's DA*
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I've always wanted to do one of these, so here goes and incredibly long journal entry:
1. Initials:
TLA
2. Name someone with the same birthday as you:
Shamu, Johnny Appleseed
3. Where was your first kiss?
Sakte Land. XDDD
4. For or against same marriage?
For
5. Are you homophobic?
no
7. Do you believe in God?
Yes
8. Do you drink often?
Nope
9. How many of the U.S states have you lived in?
two
10. Have you ever lived outside the U.S?
nope
11. Name something you like physically about yourself.
I have weird lips... wait that isn't a good thing
12. Something non-physical you like about yourself:
At the moment, nothing
13. Whats your moms first name?
Dawn
14. What is your dream car?
Something with great mileage and is a convertable
15. If you could go anywhere in the world where would you go?
Japan
17. Do you like to be romanced?
Most definately!
18. Do you download music?
I used to... then it was bad... not to mention my mother downloaded a virus attached to the song "There is no Arizona". XD
19. How many illegal things have you done?
I j-walk all the time. ;>.>
20. Where would you want to go on a first date?
To the movies, keep it simple and safe.
22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally?
LMAO, I have been serenaded by that "numa numa" song numerous times. XD
23. Ever been kissed under fireworks?
*GASP* That sounds wonderful. ^^ I must work on that one...
24. Do you like president Bush?
Hmm... NCLB has screwed up a lot of schools, but he isn't terrible.
25. Have you ever bungi jumped?
YES! OMIGAWD it was awsome. ^^ In Las Vegas, even!
26.Have you ever white water rafted?
Nope
27. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you?
LMAO, unforunately yes.
28. Have you ever been in a wedding?
No.
29. Have you met a real redneck?
Only half of my family!
30. Do you dye your hair?
I did a few times, but my hair is so frizzy it can't take much.
31. What are you listening to right now?
Japan-a-Radio Yea!
32. What is your current favorite song?
Ooh... Anything L'arc~en~Ciel
33. What was the last movie you watched?
Mr. and Mrs. Smith
34. What kind of movies do you like?
Foriegn films, heartbreakers, and super hero movies
35. Where was the last place you went besides your house?
School XD
36. Have you ever seriously vandalized someone elses property?
I got in trouble for drawing on a desk in school, but it was a neat picture!
37. Have you ever hit... ]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/7458274/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/7458274/ Fri, 30 Dec 2005 15:52:59 PST
Mood: a;slefiji
Listening to: L'arc~en~Ciel, of course!



Soooooo... Christmas wasn't as bad as I predicted... it was pretty fun, actually. It was in the upper fourties/lover fifties the whole time. It was nice to get out of the cold for a while. Where we stayed is only a little more southern than here. It was in the middle of nowhere... and I do mean NOWHERE. Our little Christmas reunion doubled the population.

It was great to see Grandmother. She isn't doing as bad as we had thought. She was her perky, happy self. Good news, too... she will be walking again soon! ^_^ I am so happy for her. I got a pillow and a cup from her... it is so pretty, both have an oriental pattern. I guess she knows what I like. I just need more bamboo for the cup. ^^

I feel really bad about something... I told a girl from the PGSM forums that I would get the estimate to see how much it would cost to send her a canvas painting of mine... I haven't had ANY time at all... I'd do it now, but the post office is closed for the day... I just got back from babysitting. ;.; I feel like crap that I did that to her... She sent me a message asking to get the price before New Years, but I cannot because it will be closed tomorrow. I don't even want to send her a message.... I'm so awful... ;.;

I guess that I should set a resolution... I'd like to say that I should dedicate more time to art and less to school, but I know that that will never happen. I do know that I want to loose some weight... I gained back it all that I lost last year. I hate dieting, though, because I get so much shit from my friends and family, moreso the latter.

"Do you want to thy this chocolate? It is really good! ....Oh, wait... You can't! Hahahahaha"

Yea, like that. It sucks.... also I have to deal with a certain insane aquaintance of mine who will probably freak out cause she thinks I'll crash diet again. I swear... when I lost those twenty-five pounds last year 90% of it was from good, honest-to-goodness diet and excersize. I only started bad cause I was in a bit of a depression. Long story.

So.... I plan to loose at least twenty pounds, hopefully it will work. Stress is mostly what I blame for eating crappy. O.o Seriously... in the middle of a six-hour homework binge, what sounds better than a Suzi-Q? Besides, it is unhealthy to be even a little overweight. Boy was it nice to be skinny...

Speaking of boys... Hyde makes me melt...

/Laruku fangirl mode


As of now, I have absolutely NO insparation for any requests that have been given to me. If y'all could be a little more detailed so I don't have to use my imagination so much.... that would be GREAT.

My first two Photoshop pictures are being re-done! I was looking back in my gallery and I've decided to revive two old pictures from crappy, chubby, chibi hell. XD

If you have a request send me a note with DETAILS and if I am interested I will do what I can. ^^ I love to bring other people happiness-ness-ness by doing what I love, so request away. ^___^



Okay, so I don't get many pageviews, but if you want me to feature you, ask and I'll check out your gallery. Puh-leeeease

http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/7337525/ Sat, 17 Dec 2005 14:40:25 PST
Mood: a;slefiji
Listening to: Paradox- W-inds XDDDD




So... happy holidays. ^^

I won't be home for Christmas this year. I won't even be celebrating. I get to see my grandmother again, though. That makes me happy.

It will be strange, though... no Christmas... I made a holiday picture (go look at it! >.< to keep me happy, but it turned out all sucky. :/

Merry Christmas/other holidays to y'all. I love it here at DA. I owe it to the few people that even know my gallery exists. Thanks for all of your support and encouragement.

I think I'm gonna go draw some pictures... I keep making myself all sad...

Love y'all and happy holidays again
TA

Gingerbread house: 100%
Art trade with ~LonerSoul96 100%
Art trade with ~Rainbow7 100%
Gift art for... o crap, I forgot to write down who it was... That sux. 0%
Art request for ~AngelRaye 0.5% done. I started a sketch. x.x
Christmas present for Molly. XDDDD 0%

If you have a request send me a note with DETAILS and if I am interested I will do what I can. ^^ I love to bring other people happiness-ness-ness by doing what I love, so request away. ^___^



Okay, so I don't get many pageviews, but if you want me to feature you, ask and I'll check out your gallery. Puh-leeeease


~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/7248500/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/7248500/ Wed, 07 Dec 2005 15:56:02 PST
Mood: OMGBBQ
Listening to: Endless Sorrow- Ayumi Hamasaki



I'm going to copy and paste this from a forums that I'm a part of, cause I don't want to type it again...

I had a bad day today. First thing this morning my sister made fun of me for wearing the same hoodie every day. I know her and her friends make fun of me a lot. I just wish that they would have the guts to ask me why. See, I have a normal body temperature of 99.5F (37.5 C, I think). I don't know why, and niether does anyone I've talked to, but technically that is a low-grade fever. With any cold, even if it is just a small one, anyone's temperature will rise to fight it. This means that with me, even a small cold will put my temperature up (102 most of the day Monday, even). Also, I feel the cold more than most people do (because my temperature is higher), so I need to wear something warm. I don't exactly have enough money to buy tons of clothes, so I wear my hoodie. I wash it like... every other day. But no one cares to know, it is much more fun to hate me, I guess. Oh well.

Those bastards don't even care...

Anywhoo...
I'll be uploading a bunch of scraps... then a few more tomorrow, probably. I know that no one really cares, but if there is something you like, let me know and I'll finish it.

I won't have a lot to do tomorrow and Friday in school cause we're having a charity thing. I'd love to go to the Karaoke room and sing my guts out or to the DDR room and surprise everyone... but I'm a little too embarrassed. I'd get riddiculed so badly. I wish I was cool sometimes...

Yeah, that last deviation of mine... I happen to be proud of it, but it didn't get much recognition. Too bad. :/


Gingerbread house: 100%
Art trade with ~LonerSoul96 100%
Art trade with ~Rainbow7 100%
Gift art for... o crap, I forgot to write down who it was... That sux. 0%
Art request for ~AngelRaye 0.5% done. I started a sketch. x.x
Christmas present for Molly. XDDDD 0%

If you have a request send me a note with DETAILS and if I am interested I will do what I can. ^^ I love to bring other people happiness-ness-ness by doing what I love, so request away. ^___^



Okay, so I don't get many pageviews, but if you want me to feature you, ask and I'll check out your gallery. Puh-leeeease


~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/7132043/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/7132043/ Thu, 24 Nov 2005 11:42:13 PST
Mood: gawbble
Listening to: Feel the Same- BoA



Welp, My gingerbread got like... one pageview. It feels like it was for nothing. I'm still upset about who won first place, too.
Oh well, it wasn't that good anyways.

So ah... happy Thanksgiving, y'all.

My mother claims to love the holidays so much, but she turns so crazy when they come. She was having these super weird mood swings. O.o
Oh well.

I finished the art trade with ~LonerSoul96 I hope she likes it! ^^ I changed some colors, but I hope she is not mad about it.

I bought something for a friend on eBay and used his credit card, but the transaction didn't go through, so now I've got an alert and probably some negative feedback. I tried to call him, but he's not home. I don't think I'll be buying stuff unless it is my own money anymore. GRAWR



Gingerbread house: 100%
Art trade with ~LonerSoul96 100%
Art trade with ~Rainbow7 7% complete. Sketch is done...
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If you have a request send me a note with DETAILS and if I am interested I will do what I can. ^^ I love to bring other people happiness-ness-ness by doing what I love, so request away. ^___^



Okay, so I don't get many pageviews, but if you want me to feature you, ask and I'll check out your gallery. Puh-leeeease



If I'm forgetting one or you know one I'd like, let me know!

Sailor Moon fans: Please visit the Warriors of legend site and learn about the best pages of Sailor Moon goodness since the manga itself!
[link] ]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/7048315/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/7048315/ Mon, 14 Nov 2005 18:43:18 PST
Mood: GRAWR
Listening to: Feel the Same- BoA



It is done!! As of yesterday morning at about three o'clock the thing was finished. My gingerbread house is done and I couldn't be more glad. I maxed out the uh... maximums: 16x16x15 inches! >.<

I had about 45 minuites of help on Thursday, they didn't want to help much and they had to leave, but that was okay because they were coming over the day after and on Saturday, right?

Wrong.

I have heard three different stories of why no one showed up, my least favourite being that Godlfish didn't want to come over so she could watch a movie and she lied to Fruitcup and Peaches saying that I had said that I didn't want them to come over anymore. That is so far from the truth it disgusts me. I was crying and begging for help. I did that whole damned thing by myself. You know what time I went to bed Saturday night? I didn't, it was 7:30 AM Sunday morning before I went to bed. I slept for 2 and a half hours then I was up again to go deliver the thing.

Morph came over for about an hour after work, she talked a lot and kept me company, but she was too tired to help. I understand that and all, but I was so upset that no one was there to help me I was almost beside myself with angst. I was crying like a fountain yesterday at 5:30 AM gluing fondant to the side of the thing and fixing a collapsed roof. x.x

But I'm finished and it was delivered safely. I sat in the back hugging the box it was in... I was uber tired and paranoid about the bumps. >.>

A letter had fallen off of the sign when we got there so I ran and got the pastry bag to fix it and when I came in I found that my mother had talked to the lady there and had the entry name changed from my high school's Art club to my name, president of the art club of my highschool. I was upset, but I kind of understand where she was coming from. My mother was throughly pissed at my friends for not helping that she had yelled at them three times on the phone when they called during the two and a half hours of sleep I got. I woke up to ma yellin at Morph. XDDD

Please expect pictures on Saturday. You might be thinking that gingerbread houses should not be so much work, but please wait until I get the pictures developed and you will see! I really hope that it gets some recognition, I worked so hard. ;.;


Festival Of Trees: where volunteers decorate trees, rooms, and gingerbread houses and they are auctioned off and the money goes to charity. Isn't that nice? ^-^ I volunteer there every year helping out at Children's World or selling tickets, etc. and I had signed Art club up to do a gingerbread house this year.

I have really big plans for it... but I won't tell until it is posted. I plan to do a big Deviation of a series of the pictures starting from the concept sketches, working on it, then the completion.

please wait for the arrival of the Big Gingerbread House Deviation coming to you on Saturday!

If you have a request send me a note with DETAILS and if I am interested I will do what I can. ^^ I love to bring other people happiness-ness-ness by doing what I love, so request away. ^___^



Okay, so I don't get many pageviews, but if you want me to feature you, ask and I'll check out your gallery. Puh-leeeease


http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/7017000/ Fri, 11 Nov 2005 09:35:25 PST
Mood: GRAWR
Listening to: Feel the Same- BoA



Waii!!
Work on the Gingerbread house has started as of last night! I made all of the fondant and most of the peices to be assembled. I ran out of molassas, though. So, I'll be getting some more of that and the plywood base. I want to get going again, but I can't until my mother gets going and takes me to the store.

I'm taking pictures from the process of the whole thing, so hopefully I can make a really big Deviation with it all there. ^^

I think that I have to cancel a few people coming over today cause my ma is taking forever to get going this morning. :/

Fondant is fun to make, but very, very sticky. I'm talking melted marshmallows and powderded sugar HAND KNEADED. XDD it was fun, though. I can't wait to get that up on the house! ^^

I tried to pay my mom's morgage over the internet two weeks ago and I messed it up. That sucks, I feel really bad about it.

Poo.

Now, I guess I'm jsut waisting time and internet space with this rambling.

I pretty much just want to apologise for the lack of artwork. I'm having some serious backup from all work and no art. I drew a few sketches that were pretty crappy (the chibi was cute, though) and a fanart of Peaches' characters. I'll scrap them when I get them home so that I don't look like a total blogger or something.

Wish me luck with the house.


Festival Of Trees: where volunteers decorate trees, rooms, and gingerbread houses and they are auctioned off and the money goes to charity. Isn't that nice? ^-^ I volunteer there every year helping out at Children's World or selling tickets, etc. and I had signed Art club up to do a gingerbread house this year.

I have really big plans for it... but I won't tell until we are done. I plan to do a big Deviation of a series of the pictures starting from the concept sketches, the kids working on it, then the completion. ^^ It should be fun. I have the sketches, so I am at least started with it. It will be about a month before we even start working on it as a club, but there is so much I need to do to prepare. ^^

If you have a request send me a note with DETAILS and if I am interested I will do what I can. ^^ I love to bring other people happiness-ness-ness by doing what I love, so request away. ^___^



Okay, so I don't get many pageviews, but if you want me to feature you, ask and I'll check out your gallery.


http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/6858367/ Mon, 24 Oct 2005 19:04:39 PDT
Mood: GRAWR
Listening to: Justice- HAL


Ummmyeakplzthnx

I feel like using an obnoxious amount of emoticons in this.

Ugh. My english grade is runined.

"Well, I wouldn't say that"

Quiet, teacher-hominid.

Heh. Let me translate.

So I'm teetering on a 89.7 in my English class. If I do well on this next paper, I'll get an A in the class. Yay me, right? So I do a great definition paper (if I do say so myself) and I turn it in all confident-like. A week later I get it back.

D+

D effing plus!

I could not even beleve it. I looked to the back page and her gawdawful handwriting says how great and wonderful the paper is, but it sucks. I guess you weren't supposed to use a verb. What the eff? She never said anything like that. I used this verb as a noun in a lot of my sentences, so every time she saw it, she circled it. My "gross misuse of the word" was too much for her, I guess.

Whyyyyy

So, school finishes (the previous happened 2nd hour) and I head on in there after school to plead my case, and she doesn't budge at all. So I'm throughly upset and I make my way to a math class where I need to be taking a test. I passed the teacher in the hall on the way there, I made like I was okay and she told me that the test was on her desk. I continued my crying for a while in the hall and stopped before the door. I whipped out my notes to study for a second more before I went in and tried to calm myself down. Sure enough, just as I was blocking my mind out with equations, who comes chugging down the hallway, but my history teacher. Mrs. "Approachable" as she calls herself, smiles at me. Now, she's a little deeper than most of the teachers, and when I gag out a response to her greeting, she immediately puts her arm around me and asks what is the matter. I don't care what everyone thinks, I think she is nice, and I admire her intelligence. I blurt out in one cracked breath that I screwed up my english grade and my teacher wasn't listening to my pleads whatsoever. So I was hoping a little hug would get her to go (I really had to take that test), but she began to insist that I come and see her afterschool tomorrow. No, I have artclub, kickboxing, homework, and I need to help my aunt with her computer, I thought to myself. ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/6829151/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/6829151/ Fri, 21 Oct 2005 15:24:01 PDT
Mood: a;sdlfklajsd
Listening to: L'arc~en~ciel
Reading: Nineteen Eighty-four


If you ain't cheatin' You ain't tryin'

...or so says the Jr. t-shirt this year. I suppose it is good to know that the designers really know the class.
One thing is for certain: this year, school stopped being fun.
Yea, I'm a geek, get over it.
School is no longer about learning, it is about getting a good grade. Every day I am at school at seven o'clock and I leave anywhere from 3:15 to 5:00. When I get home I have an average of four hours of homework. I do every worksheet, study for all of my tests, and teach myself material scantily covered by teachers. As you might have guessed, it gets stressful and tiring, but I stick with it and run through the daily gauntlet of calculators and grammar books. Now, I'm not trying to discourage you from challenging yourselves by taking honors classes (just not as many as I am taking T-T).
Back to the Jr. shirt... I've seen a disgusting amount of cheating this year.
Fucking make me vomit, you lousy scum cheaters.
Chemistry ion charges scrolled out on desks before a test, history quiz answers stolen and shared, math equations written in the calculator, all of it. Makes me sick. I want to ignore it all, but there it is, everywhere. Why don't they want to learn? Don't they value education any longer? What is more fulfilling, more satisfying, than understanding? Knowledge is power... or at least it was.
There is a strong reversed methood at school as of late. Those that cheat are rewarded and praised. How they can take this ill-gotten praise is beyond me. They don't deserve it. They know they don't deserve it.
Don't get me wrong, I looked off of a worksheet before that I had forgotten about. I felt so badly about it that I actually erased all of the answers myself later and found them all again. It is so hard to be doing the right thing in the middle of all of this.... God grant me the strength.

Another vent, if you don't mind:
Now, my family is a bit confusing, so I'll give you the short version. My and my two brothers' mother is married to a man with a daughter. Since the age of five, that said daughter has been my sister. She does not know her mother and I do not know my father. It is so weird to say it like that, because, as far as I am concerned, I have had one father for as long as I can remember, even though he is not biologically related, he is my dad. My sister, however, does not feel the same connection with my mother and myself, I'm afraid. I love her, she's my sister, but how do I feel when she throws the whole 'blood relation' thing in my face. I feel hurt is what. Now, she doesn't say it to my face exactly, that might have been a little decieving. I heard from a friend of her's that she was upset at my mother for yelling at her, and started complaining that she is not her real mother. What the hell? I have no idea how she can say that when mom has been there for her for so long. Maybe she remembers her biological mother, maybe not, but her and now, this is her mother. She should love and respect her for all that she has done for her. Mind you, my mother has never heard of this, thankfully. It would break her heart. Although, knowing my sister, she is tough on the outside, but on the inside she is very weak. I know she loves her, even if she pretends well that she does not. My sister and I are the same age, btw.
Now that you've heard that...
Yesterday my mother sat me down with a concern. My sister has a D in her english class. Ugh. I'm not trying to praise myself, but I write well and understand grammar, so I was a little biased. There is no excuse for getting a D in that class, imo. All papers can be edited and all grammar can be studied. It just takes a will. Now, I don't want to rat her out, of course, so I told my mother the excuse I assumed Amanda had been using, "It depends on the person, either you get it or you don't". Sure enough, "That is what she said, too". I know she works hard and that not everyone has the will of steel to plug in five hours of straight afterschool schoolwork. After I calmed my mom down, I left to go do some more homework, and a couple hours later... ]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/6715058/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/6715058/ Sat, 08 Oct 2005 19:03:50 PDT
Mood: stress
Listening to: mah new L'arc~en~ciel CD yea baby!
Reading: Nineteen Eighty-four
Watching: the Family Guy movie


Waii!! I'm so happy about my new L'arc~en~ciel CD I could cry! But who can cry when I'm THIS HAPPY??

It's my parent's anniversary and they didn't do anything because they didn't have enough money. How sad is that? I feel badly for them. My younger brother and sister both went to Homecoming tonight so that is where all the money went. I didn't go, though.

My mother and friend were pretty upset that I didn't go, but I just felt it was a waste of money for us... with the dress, hair, and nails I would feel so bad for taking their money for something that I probably wouldn't have fun at anyways. I did see a dress, though. It was beautiful, and I actually liked the way it looked on me, but I just couldn't bring myself to let my mother purchase it for me.... especially on her anniversary like this.

OMG, check this out: [link]
I won!! how exciting is this? I'm overjoyed. ^^ I don't even remember what the prize is, I just know that Kalisama is one of my favourite artists and she liked a picture I drew for her. YAYTASTIC

I've been getting back into kickboxing now that my aunt has herself pulled together... It is so much fun! ^^

The homecoming parade was yesterday and the Art Club did pretty well (I'm the president of the club FYI). We walked and handed out leis (Hawaiian theme this year). I love my art club so much. ^^

Speaking of art club...
I volunteer at my community's holiday... thing. It's the Festival Of Trees where volunteers decorate trees, rooms, and gingerbread houses and they are auctioned off and the money goes to charity. Isn't that nice? ^-^ I volunteer there every year helping out at Children's World or selling tickets, etc. and I had signed Art club up to do a gingerbread house this year.

I have really big plans for it... but I won't tell until we are done. I plan to do a big Deviation of a series of the pictures starting from the concept sketches, the kids working on it, then the completion. ^^ It should be fun. I have the sketches, so I am at least started with it. It will be about a month before we even start working on it as a club, but there is so much I need to do to prepare. ^^

I've already got the recipies (all but one which I will be finding shortly), the sketches, and the schedule for when we'll be working on it so far. I'm planning to make the 'stencils' next weekend. I'll be making it out of cardboard first so I know exactly what to cook. The contest calls for absolutely everything to be edible, so this will be hard to do... but I crave that blue ribbon so badly.... I hope everyone in art club will be working hard. ^^

If you have a request send me a note with DETAILS and if I am interested I will do what I can. ^^ I love to bring other people happiness-ness-ness by doing what I love, so request away. ^___^


This month's featured artist is ~Galaxia
She is a brilliant artist who does a lot of fanart for a lot of different shows/comics.

OMG, Galactic ponies! I'm not a big fan of the whole pony craze, but I couldn't resist the charm and creativity! I just love the way Sailor Lead Crow looks! ^^
http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/6706161/ Fri, 07 Oct 2005 17:36:06 PDT
Mood: Yawns and yay's
Listening to: Chemistry- Kimigairu
Reading: Nineteen Eighty-four


I posted a mini-review (well, more like my blatent opinions) on my new L'arc~en~Ciel CD. OMG, I am so happy to have it. I don't like it as much as SMILE, but it is still so good. Hyde has such an awsome, unique, sexy voice. ^^

OMG!11eleven!!
I just got my new L'arc~en~Ciel CD, Awake from Tofu Records...
I'm very excited!

I think I'll do a little mini-review..

Awake- L'arc~en~ciel

First off, the cover art is very pretty. I guess I've always been a sucker for greytones and hey, they are very sexy indeed. The booklet pictures are awsome, too. I really enjoyed the funny pictures from their SMILE CD, but these ones have such mood in them. Very cool.

Track 01: New World
Awsome guitar as usual. ^_^ Hyde has such a unique voice... it's raspy like some recently popular American rock singers, but it's not not as deep as say... Creed (I think that's right). The melody is pretty typical of their songs, nothing exactly special, but the song, overall is pretty good. I want to hear a little more emotion, though.

Track 02: Lost Heaven
Ooh, ouch. Sounds like a slow one. His voice doesn't seem to flow very well. The engrish is a little akward sounding, but at least I could tell what he was saying (for the most part). When his voice goes high in the corus it sounds a little weird. Lovin the guitar solo. I'm loving these lyrics:
(I can't type the Japanese characters)
"te wo nobashi tsukanda yume ha
sotto kuzureyuku suna no shiro
tada tachitsukushiteta wakare michi
hohoemi wo nokoshite
kieteitta kimi ga egaku rakuen he to"

Track 03: Poem- Jojoushi
Ooh, I've heard this one before. I love it so much. The vocals are so smooth, sexy and calm. I think that was some english words, but they were hard to hear... "You are aside (inside?) of me" or something like that, I'm not sure.

Track 04: Trust
The opening music sounds like an Ayu Ballad. Oh, please let this be a good ballad. Ooh, awsome. They sing this so emotionally, I love that feeling when they just reach you like that. Ooh, the lyrics sound sad, I wonder what hyde was feeling when he wrote it. Hyde's voice is so nice. ^______^

Track 05:Killing Me
Ooh, I love this one- I've heard it before, though. Finally an upbeat song on this disk. The lyrics are cool, he keeps saying its killing him, but he's in love.

Track 06: As One
Erm... this is... this is strange. It sounds like he's trying to hard with all of those english lyrics. I can barely understand him. The music is sounding pretty hard-rock at times, kind of dark like an emo band. XD Wait... what about fruit? Looking at the translations the engrish part sounds like a 70's peace song.

Track 07: My Dear
Oh dear, this does not sound like Hyde. Wait, now it does, just have to wait a bit. This one is pretty slow, but it's pretty cool sounding. This will be a good one to sing aloud with the friends or when you are feeling upset. When I'm upset it is either a slow, deep song or rap for me. XD Pretty lyrics, lots of passion in them. ^^

Track 08: Existence
Nice! love the opening music. "Take away. Their insistence." Umm, what? The lyrics are a little confusing, but I think he just shot himself. O.o LMAO, "Take away... take away... take away". It's the first grade all over again.

Track 09: Invitation to Freedon- Jiyuu eno shoutai
I've heard this one before, too. It has a real "go get 'em" tone to it. I've only heard it a few times, but I adore this song. Once I get the lyrics memorized I'll be singing it quite a bit, I think. The lyrics are pretty insparational-sounding, too. This is definately my fave so far.

Track 10: Ophelia
Jazzy... kind of like one of those old songs where the lady is rolling around atop the piano. I keep wanting more from this song. He says "Ophelia" weird. Oh-pheee-ri-ahh... hee hee. I'm not liking this one very much, the music seems to n... ]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/6635379/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/6635379/ Thu, 29 Sep 2005 15:42:16 PDT
Mood: *sigh*
Listening to: Chemistry- Kimigairu
Reading: Nineteen Eighty-four


Ugh... So my birthday was on Monday and I told myself that I would treat it as any other day and that I wouldn't have a party/cake/icecream/anything. Well, I'm feeling now that I was wrong to do that. Sure I had fun shoping and stuff, but I suppose it is good to have a day to myself. My friends didn't plan anything like they did a few years back when I didn't do anything for my b-day, but I had told them not to. So I'm glad. However, a friend of mine has just stopped by...

Sure she's my best friend, but I think I am upset at her... or perhaps it is at myself. Just a few moments ago she stopped by along with a friend of hers (her friend isn't exactly my friend) and gave me a K-mart Hello Kitty bag with some beautiful flowers in it. I was so estatic to see her and for the gift, but in the bag with the flowers was two boxes: Low-fat Triscuits and Low-fat Wheat thins...

Okay, so it is the thought that counts, right?

She had been getting me all excited about a "secret super-awsome present that I'll love" for my birthday. I kept telling her not to get me anything, but I kind of did want something for my birthday, didn't matter from who, but I didn't want to make a big deal out of it. After I saw the boxes in there I asked, "Was this the present you were talking about?"

I'll give you three guesses.

No, she was going to get me the first volume of HER favourite comic, Strangers in Paradice. "For me?" O.o Sure it is a great comic, but needless to say I was upset.

It is kind of like what you see on TV when the husband gets his wife a new power drill for her birthday. Get it?

I was still happy to get something, and the flowers were gorgeous, but they just up and left after that. No hanging around, no conversation, they just left.

...Just like that.

I should be getting started on my homework, but I just can't stop thinking about it. What a lousy birthday I gave myself. I suck.

I know that I might not deserve to enjoy myself too much, but I can't help but feel bad. I think I'm getting a little emo here...

I don't even like wheat thins.

I know that I'm a pretty much an awful friend, so I don't even know why I think I should be so happy about being another year older. It is nothing to celebrate by oneself. I'm not creative enough to throw a great party and I'm not nice enough to be a great friend.

Meh. I wish I had more time for artwork to get my mind off of crap.




My bud ~343PaNiC suggested that I make a crazy dream I had into a short comic and I'm thinking that I might just do that. It was pretty strange and inconclusive due to my cat trying to sleep on my face. I might not do it if I don't have time, but we'll see.

If you have a request send me a note with DETAILS and if I am interested I will do what I can. ^^ I love to bring other people happiness-ness-ness by doing what I love, so request away. ^___^


This month's featured artist is ~Galaxia
She is a brilliant artist who does a lot of fanart for a lot of different shows/comics.

OMG, Galactic ponies! I'm not a big fan of the whole pony craze, but I couldn't resist the charm and creativity! I just love the way Sailor Lead Crow looks! ^^

Catwoman- Sexy, awsome, fabulous tigers! Awsome inking on this one- looks like it is just out of the comic!
... ]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/6609119/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/6609119/ Mon, 26 Sep 2005 15:40:32 PDT
Listening to: Chemistry- Kimigairu
Reading: Nineteen Eighty-four




It was an ok day. ^________^

I'm having DDR withdrawls... I must.... DANCE DANCE! >.<

My sis told everyone that it was me b-day today so her friends were being obnoxious about it. grawr. Oh well, I suppose I can pretend that they were being sincere.


Gah, I try but I have so little time with an upwards of five hours of homework a night.

If you have a request send me a note with DETAILS and if I am interested I will do what I can. ^^ I love to bring other people happiness-ness-ness by doing what I love, so request away. ^___^


This month's featured artist is ~Galaxia
She is a brilliant artist who does a lot of fanart for a lot of different shows/comics.

OMG, Galactic ponies! I'm not a big fan of the whole pony craze, but I couldn't resist the charm and creativity! I just love the way Sailor Lead Crow looks! ^^

Catwoman- Sexy, awsome, fabulous tigers! Awsome inking on this one- looks like it is just out of the comic!

Fabulous proportions! Awsome shoes! Can you believe this was hand drawn? O.o

Just dripping with talent! I love the style and professionalism in this one! I've never been able to draw animals, I guess I am a bit envious!

Go and look at the rest of her gallery, she is fabulous!



http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/6583452/ Fri, 23 Sep 2005 16:59:36 PDT
Mood: Whew, glad it's over
Listening to: Orange Range- astrisk
Reading: The Five People You meet in Heaven


Morph got DDR finally! YAYTASTIC! Hopefully I can hop on over to her house once she's off of work and we can bailamos! XDDD

The following paragraph is a vent, please ignore if you don't want to hear me complain about assholes at school ^_^

So I'm in spanish class, kay? We were wasting the last few minuites talking and such and I asked this girl that used to be pretty nice (back in the sixth grade when I last talked to her) if she still listened to any K-pop (she is Korean). I guess I'm a bit too much of a looser for her, so she was a little hesitant to answer. She said only when she was really really bored and that it sounded like J-pop. I agreed just for the sake of the conversation when this kid who I had until yesterday thought to be a pretty funny/nice guy says, "My dad went to China and bought some CDs, they sounded like crap". I said that J-pop was a lot different, that some of it sounded pretty much like America-- He inturrupts with a very rude and sarcastic "Mmmmmhmmmm".

"Oh, I didn't notice you were being sarcastic. Sorry, I didn't know you were an asshole."

So that was fun, yea. Speaking of spanish class, we had to do a timeline of our childhood and my first picture had this caption, "Fui una bebe muy fea." Seriously, I looked like a chiwawa hybrid or something. O.o

I got my school pics today. *dies* When my ma gets home tonight she is going to freak out cuz I forgot to smile. YES, FORGOT. I was so pissed off that it was going to make me late to my next class that I knelt down and then I was out. I wore this awful shirt with no sleeves and a square neck, and with the border I look nekkid! O.o It is an awful picture. Plus, I'm like super shiny. DAMNIT MA ISH 'ONNA KILL MEH.... and all will be kilt.

*sneezes* and I have a cold.

Oh! And don't forget to celebrate your favourite killer whale and the man that brings the apples on Monday!
Sept. 26 is Shamu and Johnny Appleseed's b-day.

I used to think that Ivan Pavlov's b-day was the 26th, but I think it has been changed as of late. O.o I think it was found to be the 14th... Meh

Gah, I try but I have so little time with an upwards of five hours of homework a night.

If you have a request send me a note with DETAILS and if I am interested I will do what I can. ^^ I love to bring other people happiness-ness-ness by doing what I love, so request away. ^___^


This month's featured artist is ~Galaxia
She is a brilliant artist who does a lot of fanart for a lot of different shows/comics.

OMG, Galactic ponies! I'm not a big fan of the whole pony craze, but I couldn't resist the charm and creativity! I just love the way Sailor Lead Crow looks! ^^

Catwoman- Sexy, awsome, fabulous tigers! Awsome inking on this one- looks like it is just out of the comic!

Fabulous proportions! Awsome shoes! Can you believe this was hand drawn? O.o
http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/6505076/ Wed, 14 Sep 2005 16:48:47 PDT
Mood: Whew, glad it's over
Listening to: Orange Range- astrisk
Reading: The Five People You meet in Heaven

This is a copy & paste of a message I recently posted in a forum's "Vibe" thread.

I wasn't sure if I should post this here or in the "do you talk about SM IRL" thread, but I figured it might be a little too off topic with the whole noting to do with SM part... yea.

Still feeling the grief I got from the girl that sits next to me in gym class about the whole anime=digimon freaks thing, I was overly stressed about an EC project in my AP American History project. I took this opportunity with open arms because AP classes rarely give EC whatsoever. Anyways, the topic was to bring a song/poem/picture to share and tell why it is important to you (indepth of course, being an AP class).

Alright... so I'm loading up the CD player in front of the class, my heart is racing so fast because I know this will be a big test to how big of a weird/different person I am. I feel everyone staring at me waiting to see what exactly it is that I plan to share. I got to the song and paused it so that I could talk about it first.

So I'm shaking like a heroin addict up at the podium and I can feel my face start to turn pink. My explanation went something like this:
"As most people, I love music. The songs that are the dearest to our hearts are ones that mean something to us and tell us that our lives aren't all insignificant and that we are never alone. In a search for these songs I was lead away from most music on the radio because it seemed to me that the best sounding songs were about things that aren't exactly.... kosher. (yes, I said "kosher" XD) Among this search I came accross this singer and her song; Ayumi Hamasaki's "Grateful Days" spoke to me in such a touching way, moreso than some of her other beautiful songs. The song isn't in english, so these are the lyrics. (I read translated lyrics). It tells me that the days won't last, so make them as wonderful as possible. I'd say that my life can be hecktic and frustrating, so at the end of the day I can hum the song and reflect on what I did to make that day worth living and to know that tomorrow will be over sooner than it seems, so I'll try my best to make that even better and more worthwhile. (I explained a little about the significance of some of the song lyrics about how summer is short in Japan and such, but I won't bore you with that).

That was over, so I turned around, hit play and went back to my desk at the other side of the room, listening to the music at the beginning of the song swell to the melodic "la la la la naa naa" type sounds. I knew everyone was still staring to I pretended to become interested in a notes handout. I listened to the song which calmed me down a bit, but the song is kind of long, and I eventually looked up at everyone all confused at the "weird" song. As I was told, my face was very red. I was feeling very sick and I could feel myself about to cry. I was so upset about everyone's reacton to my speech and the song, I could hardly think. The teacher liked the song and thanked me for sharing after it was over.

I brought my CD back to my desk and still they stared. I guess they stopped after the teacher got us back on task about... well I don't remember, something relivant to history. XD When I heard a kid who sits near me ask what language I had said it was (he forgot what I had said it was). Then this kid (one of two Asian kids in my class of 700. Sad, I know) who sits behind me was asked if he was Japanese. He said no, he was Korean. I asked if he had ever been to Korea and he said no, sarcastically. He is pretty popular (and funny) so the kids around were saying things like, "You spent your whole summer there!" and such.
Ooh, do you like k-pop? He raised an eyebrow at me and said, "kind of, but it tends to all sound the same". I laughed and agreed, but then I said that j-pop could have new and different songs if you dig deep enough past the popular songs. I asked if he liked BoA (because I knew she was big in Korea) and he said yeah, that he liked some of her songs.

OMG, 'effing kill me, did he just say that?

So, as I had expected, someone asked if I was an "anime freak". I said that I wasn't really, at least not to what they think is anime. I told them that I only watch the un-dubbed versions which are much different.

"You have all heard about Sailor Moon, right?" ("yeah" *laughs*)

So I talked about the stuf... ]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/6435363/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/6435363/ Tue, 06 Sep 2005 18:47:01 PDT
Mood: *homework zombie*
Listening to: Let go- M-flo loves Yoshika
Reading: The Five People You meet in Heaven


The weekend was very nice, indeed. I went to an amusement park with mah friends.
I suppose I kind of made it bad for the people I went with because of my negative attitude towards the begining. I had been saying that I didn't want to go for a few days before we went, although I didn't really want to say why. The truth is, this was the first Labor day weekend that I didn't spend with my old friend who moved away... I was very upset that she didn't call or even e-mail me to see if I was coming. I suppose friends aren't forever, ne?
Although, I can say that I had a blast this weekend. I had no idea that hanging out with so many people could be so much fun. I was a little uneasy at first thinking that I would be left out (I happen to be the least nice/friendly/outgoing of everybody). I couldn't believe that everyone got along so well and that I was fitting in and having a ton of fun. That's not to say that it ended so well, I think I was getting on someone's nerves.... >.>

I submitted that last Oekaki Deviation, but I don't think I like it much... it was more like a vent than anything, I needed to stop and enjoy some art time. It felt very nice.

Speaking of art, I was trying to explain to a friend how I like getting critiques, but that I always feel bad at first, like I'm letting someone down by not making good pictures. I always end up taking it as a constructive criticism (which I overwhealmingly appreciate), but I tend to feel bad for someone not liking part of a picture. I didn't get very far because Morph's attention span is.... short. Luff ya, morph. Just letting you know that I love all criticism.


Sorry I only have time to doodle crap as of late. School is seriously taking a toll on me. I plan on making a gift art for a person that I watch (I'm pretty sure he watches me too). His character designs are so awsome, I just have to. ^_^ I'll be taking my time on it and hopefully it will be good.

If you have a request send me a note with DETAILS and if I am interested I will do what I can. ^^ I love to bring other people happiness-ness-ness by doing what I love, so request away. ^___^


This months featured artist is my favourite artist that I know IRL.
Presenting: Peaches Doolie 343panic VXVII!
~343PaNiC
Peaches is a great artist with amazing pencil and digital coloring skills.
My favourite picture of her's would have to be this one:

This definately shows that she's got the rocking pencil/pen skills. She's got a great grasp on anime anatomy and she's even had a graphic novel going at one time.

Here you see her super neato photoshop coloring skills. This is her character Raven, I think. It's been a while.

A beautiful composition and concept! Another great work by her.
Please stop by her gallery and look at all of her neat stuff and stuff and stuff n' wow. I know you'll like it!
http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/6396774/ Fri, 02 Sep 2005 11:48:09 PDT
Mood: OMG wheres mah brain
Listening to: Let go- M-flo loves Yoshika
Reading: The Five People You meet in Heaven


Wellll.... It is finally Friday.
School was tougher than I thought. All of these tough classes are getting to me, I think. I was crying in first period AP chemistryII on Wednesday. It was just after I didn't have my assignment to turn in, although that definately isn't what made me break down, it just pushed me over the edge. I take fifteen hours out of my day for school which is really taking it's toll on me. I know that I'll have homework every day, but so damn much for all of my classes? Grawr.

I find myself monologing an awful lot lately.... I just keep talking to anyone who will listen to my nonsense.

I just put my backpack on my bathroom scale.... 40 'effing pounds (and I'm pretty sure that my scale is 5 lbs forgiving)!

The only art I've been getting in is doodles in my notes.

I'd love to stay and chat, I may add more to this later, but I've got many hours of homework to get to.


Well, I'm very busy with school, so I'll see what I can do in my free time.
I'm not too proud with that last TeenTitans picture I put up. I know it kinda sucks, I'm not very good at gradient-shading and the picture itself wasn't drawn well. I promise to do better. ^^

If you have a request send me a note with DETAILS and if I am interested I will do what I can. ^^ I love to bring other people happiness-ness-ness by doing what I love, so request away. ^___^


This months featured artist is my favourite artist that I know IRL.
Presenting: Peaches Doolie 343panic VXVII!
~343PaNiC
Peaches is a great artist with amazing pencil and digital coloring skills.
My favourite picture of her's would have to be this one:

This definately shows that she's got the rocking pencil/pen skills. She's got a great grasp on anime anatomy and she's even had a graphic novel going at one time.

Here you see her super neato photoshop coloring skills. This is her character Raven, I think. It's been a while.

A beautiful composition and concept! Another great work by her.
Please stop by her gallery and look at all of her neat stuff and stuff and stuff n' wow. I know you'll like it!



http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/6362125/ Mon, 29 Aug 2005 17:21:53 PDT


Waii!!! Thanks everyone who voted for me in =Kroc's contest! I won a year's subscription and I couldn't be happier! ^^

So... what went on today?
Welp, it was the second full day of school and I have to say, these classes suck majorly.
Here's what I mean:
Early Bird Gym
Advanced Placement Chemistry II
Honors English III- Composition
Advanced Placement Biology II
Precalculus
Advanced Placement American History
Physics
Spanish III

GAH
Did you see it? No EFFING art class. Yup- that's right, I wouldn't be able to keep my good class rank if I didn't skip the art class. That sucks major balls then bites them clean off (wow, that was weird O.o). I have at least three hours of homework a day now, and it has only been two days. Wish me luck to get through it all. ^^

Oooh yeah! Goldfish, my parents said that they would go to that resturaunt with you and your parents and everybody!! ^_^ Isn't that great? Make sure it is okay with your parents first, though!

My parents will be giving me my birthday money in about a week ($100- the only time I EVER get money) I will be shopping for sure and buying lots of cute shoes and some anime! I don't know why they are giving me the money, my b-day isn't until September 26. oh well, money is money be it now or then, ne?
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH SUBSCRIPTION!
I'M SO HAPPY I'M BEING OBNOXIOUS AND TYPING IN ALL CAPS OMG OMG ZOMG!!!!111ELEVEN!!

Phew, I'm over it.
I don't know if I should put my lil' journal piccie things as a deviation or not, the first one was done very quickly (those four floating heads are Peaches, Morpheus, Goldfish and Anana fruitcup, respectively) and the others were from existing pictures. Hrm... Anywho... onto the next stuffsssssssss yea.


Well, I'm very busy with school, so I'll see what I can do in my free time.
I'm not too proud with that last TeenTitans picture I put up. I know it kinda sucks, I'm not very good at gradient-shading and the picture itself wasn't drawn well. I promise to do better. ^^

If you have a request send me a note with DETAILS and if I am interested I will do what I can. ^^ I love to bring other people happiness-ness-ness by doing what I love, so request away. ^___^


This months featured artist is my favourite artist that I know IRL.
Presenting: Peaches Doolie 343panic VXVII!
*343PaNiC
Peaches is a great artist with amazing pencil and digital coloring skills.
My favourite picture of her's would have to be this one:
http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/6286070/ Sun, 21 Aug 2005 07:57:48 PDT [link] ]]> ~pheona http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/6270123/ http://pheona.deviantart.com/journal/6270123/ Fri, 19 Aug 2005 11:09:16 PDT Maybe I'll just do some Inuyasha fanart.

Ah, well I am supposed to be joining the peanut gallery over at Morph's house (the Macadamian nut) where Goldfish (the pistashio), Fruitcup (the walnut), and possibly Peaches (the cashew) are.

What type of nut am I?

Why, I am not a nut at all. I am a Garbanzo bean!



I'm trying to draw some pictures before school starts, but I'm having a hard time with thinking up what to draw. I do have a request that I'm trying to get started, but I just can't think of how (where) to draw a pink-haired, yellow-skinned elf. O.o

Bwwaaaa ]]> ~pheona