http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:phoenixtx&section=today deviantART RSS for by:phoenixtx en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 16 Dec 2009 15:02:47 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/25087333/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/25087333/ Tue, 02 Jun 2009 11:44:36 PDT life is fucking crazy weird, and the poems may or may not reflect that, depending on how personal i want to dip.
but i am back. no longer in school, newly married, and doing better!

i've missed you all.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/20529988/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/20529988/ Tue, 16 Sep 2008 22:23:54 PDT
]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/18403465/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/18403465/ Mon, 19 May 2008 17:24:30 PDT
seriously, don't drop out a couple of times, okay? it really sucks when you're trying to finish later on, especially since you only have seven years for credits.

i have been writing happy fluffy crap for college (don't be an english major, kids) and i'm going crazy.

more poems slowly to come.

here. have a photo of moi. how exciting, n/n?

anyone want to buy me a subscription? i'm broke.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/17823029/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/17823029/ Sat, 12 Apr 2008 22:54:58 PDT
i haven't had a ton of time to write, as i'm writing 2 essays a week, and reading roughly 1000 pages a week. i do have some stuff to post, but it might also be a bit.

also, i'm engaged

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/14955041/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/14955041/ Sun, 07 Oct 2007 11:53:48 PDT
i have a few poems in the works right now, but it might be a few weeks until i get them posted. i have been insanely busy with class - especially russian. alas, i don't seem to be learning much, but i like it.

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]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/12244806/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/12244806/ Mon, 19 Mar 2007 12:11:24 PDT i may or may not have an apartment.

my muse has committed suicide.

and i feel like i've been kicked in the stomach by someone i once trusted.
but that's okay. i still have the two people that mean the most to me.




someday i'll write poetry again.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/10564766/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/10564766/ Mon, 30 Oct 2006 21:38:02 PST {blog}

i just got accepted to portland state.

i am so excited! i'm kind of terrified, though, as it involves moving halfway across the country.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/10412572/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/10412572/ Mon, 16 Oct 2006 13:28:38 PDT {blog}

~girldisrupted was kind enough to point out this to me: [link]

once again, someone has stolen "memoirs of a whore" and claimed it for themselves.

i am so, so sick of this, and so, so angry.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/10374127/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/10374127/ Thu, 12 Oct 2006 20:54:27 PDT {blog}

so. i fail.

i try to generally thank people for faves and devwatches and such, and i'm like a month and a half behind. ...oops. sorry, everyone.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/10153935/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/10153935/ Fri, 22 Sep 2006 16:23:17 PDT {blog}

i miss you, tasha.

rest in peace.

i love you.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/10007965/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/10007965/ Fri, 08 Sep 2006 10:54:12 PDT {blog}

... to me.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/9833940/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/9833940/ Thu, 24 Aug 2006 00:37:31 PDT {blog}

my sub runs out on my birthday. anyone care to buy me another one as an early birthday present?

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/9647020/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/9647020/ Tue, 08 Aug 2006 11:51:24 PDT {blog}

i hate the new look.

my muse is so fucking dead it's not even funny.

argh.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/9226477/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/9226477/ Thu, 29 Jun 2006 22:42:26 PDT {blog}

i know, i'm never around anymore. i'm a loser.
but! i am now a loser with a job, thank god. and 8 gauge lobes. hurrah for getting pierced! even if that was my most painful piercing to date...

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/9020986/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/9020986/ Fri, 09 Jun 2006 17:53:42 PDT {blog}

i'm never around anymore. so sorry. slowly getting around commenting on people's pieces. it may take me quite a while; sorry.

i'm not online nearly as much as i used to be.

and - i just got accepted to another college (a better one, yay), but that will be all online work starting in the fall. hurrah. maybe i'll start slacking and visiting here more often.

and, hey, merlin? get online one of these days. i miss chatting with you.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/8719117/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/8719117/ Tue, 09 May 2006 09:59:00 PDT {blog}

whoo. poetry final is over now, thank god.
reciting a poem in front of the class is far from fun.

but, yay for reciting sylvia plath.

i shut my eyes and all the world drops dead
i lift my lids and all is born again
(i think i made you up inside my head)

the stars go waltzing out in blue and red
and arbitrary blackness gallops in
i shut my eyes and all the world drops dead

i dreamed you bewitched me into bed
sung me moonstruck, kissed me quite insane
(i think i made you up inside my head)

god topples from the sky, hell's fires fade
exit seraphim and satan's men
i shut my eyes and all the world drops dead

i fancied you'd return the way you said
but i grow old and forget your name
(i think i made you up inside my head)

i should have loved a thunderbird instead
at least when spring comes they roar back again
i shut my eyes and all the world drops dead
(i think i made you up inside my head)

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/8592209/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/8592209/ Wed, 26 Apr 2006 13:38:49 PDT {blog}

i'm sick - i blame it on stress from school and work. i've put in a 50 hour work week last week, and the project is about half done. yay overtime, i guess.
and now finals will be coming up shortly.
so, work and school are stressful, so what do i do? go look for a second job! ...sometimes i wonder about myself.

just developed some photos i had taken, and was unsure of how old the film was. turns out: old. as in, 90% of the photos are from december '04. most are of `mkinne and there's one of the xmas tree with a beer can on top.

fun, fun.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/8529753/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/8529753/ Thu, 20 Apr 2006 09:19:24 PDT {blog}

work is killing me.
but, at least i'll be making good money this paycheck, considering all that i've pretty much done the past few days is sit at a laptop working.

i've been thinking. (amazing, i know.) i still really want to move to oregon someday...eventually... and, i've been looking at milwaukie, oregon. anyone live there or have been there? i'd love to hear anything about it. i plan on visiting it sometime, but as a broke minnesotan, that's a bit difficult.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/8283948/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/8283948/ Mon, 27 Mar 2006 11:37:16 PST {blog}

i got another tattoo this one is on my ribs.
it's a matchbox twenty lyric that i have loved since i first heard it; it has a ton of meaning for me.
besides, i think it's quite fitting for a poet, no?

forgive the shininess, as there is lotion on the tattoo.



more photos and such can be found here.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/8011860/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/8011860/ Sun, 26 Feb 2006 18:49:02 PST {blog}

i seem to have hit a bit of a creative streak as of late. just started a new poem tonight, so hopefully that will be up soon.

thank god spring break is coming up. i'm feeling horribly overwhelmed from school work. as it is, i still have to read 6 chapters for poetry, 4 chapters for mythology, write two papers (for poetry and mythology), finish a website, and... hrm. other things.
oh, yeah, and send out more transcripts so i can go to another college.

anyway, as a poor college student, i have to ask: anyone willing to donate a few bucks to keep my subscription running, since it dies in a few days?
i'll love you forever. really.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/7953238/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/7953238/ Mon, 20 Feb 2006 13:32:09 PST {blog}

atheism and science are not religions.
polyamory is not swinging. neither swinging nor polyamory is cheating.

dear god, make the stupid go away.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/7916993/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/7916993/ Thu, 16 Feb 2006 14:35:23 PST {blog}

just thought i'd make mention of some people that i feel deserve more hits than they are getting. go check them out



much for those i mentioned, as well as those i didn't, this time around.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/7878376/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/7878376/ Sun, 12 Feb 2006 21:56:40 PST {blog}

my natural hair color is growing in striped. i'm vaguely frightened.
look.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/7708064/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/7708064/ Wed, 25 Jan 2006 19:55:53 PST {blog}

a car smashed into mine today, causing me to spin around, and then take out a few stop signs and do major damage to a fire hydrant. this then made me roll, and my car flipped, so that driver's side was on the ground. i was pulled out from the windshield...

details are here.


_{and click to enlarge}

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/7302105/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/7302105/ Tue, 13 Dec 2005 15:03:12 PST {blog}

do you ever have those days where you have a hundred things to say, but yet, you can't say any of them?

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/7190879/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/7190879/ Thu, 01 Dec 2005 01:33:34 PST {blog}

! went to the rob thomas concert last night, which was awesome; the show was so fucking energetic. and my best friend even caught the drumstick that rob used during one song, which she allowed me to hold.

val and i looking stupid holding the drumstick:



and i'm lazy, so details are here

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/7067568/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/7067568/ Wed, 16 Nov 2005 20:29:39 PST {blog}

since i have another concert coming up, i'm curious:

what concerts have you been to, and which was the best?

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/6995427/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/6995427/ Tue, 08 Nov 2005 22:32:34 PST {blog}

my blog is finally back up.
/me is oh-so-happy.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/6931277/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/6931277/ Tue, 01 Nov 2005 23:22:00 PST {blog}

look, people. overcoming depression isn't as simple as thinking happy thoughts about pink fluffy kittens, okay? advice about thinking about your first boyfriend, or going through a scrapbook - hell, maybe it'll cheer you up if you're sad. if you're depressed, it is more likely to make you more depressed. i sure as hell can vouch for that.
when you are at the very bottom, you can't simply say "hey! i'm going to be happy today," no matter how hard you try. on better days, it may work somewhat. sometimes you can, well, ignore the depression, but you still can't make it go away. it's not that easy. depression is not simply having an off day or three. it's not about feeling bad to get attention. telling a depressed person how life is short and how they should feel happy is not going to make anything better.


i my psychologist; she's much better than any of the others i've ever had. i actually don't dread going to see her.
and i'm missing a certain person and hating it, because i feel like i shouldn't be missing him.

blog should be back up in a few days, i hope, after being down for like two weeks or more.
i hate ace hosting.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/6749041/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/6749041/ Wed, 12 Oct 2005 14:15:16 PDT {blog}

nine inch nails = best. concert. ever.
that is all.

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i'm 21 today!

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/6429508/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/6429508/ Tue, 06 Sep 2005 06:34:32 PDT {blog}

thanks to a certain relative of mine, dad has found my blog. and things are not going well now. i don't want to have to explain my life (he hasn't asked, so far) besides the piercings, which he did end up agreeing is better than cutting.
i'm so angry and hurt now.
that was my outlet.
i'm hurt, and bitter, and scared. and i want to bring my blog back up but i'm scared to do so.
i don't know what to do.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/6298878/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/6298878/ Mon, 22 Aug 2005 15:54:55 PDT {blog}

so it turns out that my ankle isn't swollen - it's broken. that would explain the horrible pain.
i was dismissed without being told anything, so i have a question to all those that have broken a leg: how the hell do you change?

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/6258641/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/6258641/ Thu, 18 Aug 2005 04:51:51 PDT {blog}


yay for moving out today away from my vaguely creepy roomies.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/6183889/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/6183889/ Wed, 10 Aug 2005 00:34:12 PDT {blog}

i'm getting rather sick of moving.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/6070155/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/6070155/ Fri, 29 Jul 2005 17:49:18 PDT {blog}



°jark is now a former staff member while this isn't a huge surprise, i don't think it's for the best for dA.
anyone else think this site is going to go downhill faster, now?








and now i remembered why i stay out the forums, now: [link]

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/6027104/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/6027104/ Mon, 25 Jul 2005 04:37:57 PDT {blog}

"I miss you like a chronic disorder in the brain that misses certain memories.. "

that is all.




_{(i found that on a page that is supposedly written to me)}

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/5990011/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/5990011/ Wed, 20 Jul 2005 20:25:57 PDT {blog}

i swear to god my blog attracts morons.

in brighter news, come october, i'm going to see nine inch nails! i can't wait! (thanks to ~locke-d for getting `em)

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/5870681/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/5870681/ Thu, 07 Jul 2005 19:31:10 PDT {blog}

i got my tattoo yesterday! it hurt, but it was so worth it. ah, now what to pierce/tattoo next?
photos can be seen b=1"here. photos are courtesy of ~locke-d

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/5823396/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/5823396/ Sat, 02 Jul 2005 18:52:30 PDT {blog}

i am so goddamn fucking angry.
1) my domain is down, i paid for three years renewal which apparantly has not kicked in, and i've been given the run around by four different places, and none are being any help.
2) the government has decided to shut down even more sites... one easy example being: [link]
3) one of my favorite sites, bme had to remove its servers from the states because it is now illegal. if it stayed - the owners would have faced life imprisionment.  for fucking body modication information and photos!

thanks, george w. bush.  thanks for fucking censoring americans even more.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/5728817/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/5728817/ Thu, 23 Jun 2005 00:00:18 PDT {blog}

sorry to everyone i watch i swear that i will get around to commenting on your works soon. i'm not online nearly as much now that i have a job, plus living with the parents makes being online hard. new poem will be up sometime, as i actually have it written but no time to post.

and.. blah. give me interesting sites to look at?

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/5606303/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/5606303/ Fri, 10 Jun 2005 05:12:59 PDT {blog}

i have had shit happen to me as an adult that i wont go into here. that im sure i could of moaned an complained about like a bitch saying omg im so depreseed i just want to end it all.
but i have a child and in my opinion to kill myself would just be weak a quick easy way out for weak fools who cant deal with life.and also i doubt very much that even a quater of the dark emo acting depresed attention seeking twats here on deviantart even want to kill themselfs that just wanna moan about it for attention. maybe your one of them?
have you ever been suicidal,have you?

fuck you.  i went fucking years without letting on anything was wrong.  how dare you insinuate that i'm just an attention-seeking twat.
yeah, i'm depressed.  yeah, i have been and still get suicidal.  but moaning about it for attention?  no.

i hope you rot in hell.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/5539398/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/5539398/ Fri, 03 Jun 2005 05:27:10 PDT {blog}

i get to spend this weekend with 40 relatives. half of whom are at least 60 years old. `tis going to be a fun, fun party. time to drag out the black clothes and fake nose ring.
someone please kick me for ignoring da like i have been. i swear to god i'll catch up on everyone's deviations soon. also slowly slowly slowly working on a new poem. and by working on, i mean one line is written and when the rest comes to me i'll write that down too.

i need a job.

...tell me something about yourself. anything.


edit: eeeee! my best friend is coming home in august! i can't wait!

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/5358438/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/5358438/ Sat, 14 May 2005 18:43:08 PDT {blog}

though it's on my blog, i had to post it here, as it makes me smile. i present to you, phoenix with horribly done eyeliner (because i suck as a girl) and just out of the shower. and fake nose ring. `tis a horrible photo, but that's okay. yay for forced smiles. i'm babbling.


slowly working on a poem. and finishing up an article for a zine.

also, i fell face first in the mud today. you do anything stupid? make me feel better about myself.

and, since i forgot to note you (you know who you are ), battle royale is on its way.

edit: noooooo. vnv nation is going to be in minneapolis on the third, and i just might be able to afford tickets... omg, someone please go with me. please please please please please.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/5324416/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/5324416/ Tue, 10 May 2005 20:20:38 PDT i can barely sit up, and walking is straight out of the question. my god, missing a few days of medication is bad, isn't it? i was supposed to go to london this entire summer, but now who knows what... my cousin isn't sure she'll be able to have me.
so, if she can't, i have to find a job around here, which is... well, worthless.
and i really, really need to spend more time here. i miss the forums.


/whine

...and can someone please explain to me what pasties are? phoenix is retarded.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/5125078/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/5125078/ Mon, 18 Apr 2005 21:01:31 PDT
i've been busy being distracted by bme and attempting to make an effort to attend classes this semester. come the last day of class, i'm awarding myself with a piercing. and i still need to dye my hair.

i haven't been writing much as of late, as my newest medication has pretty much killed my ability to write, cry, or concrentate. but, hey, i'm feeling better, i think.

tomorrow i have to go job and apartment hunting, which promises to entail tons of fun. i guess the current housing that i'm in is being taken over by a new realtor. it'd be good to get out before that happens, as we are unsure whether we will be kicked out or not.

and, of course, since i have a constant need to whore myself out - my blog is always updated and can be accessed here.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/4487468/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/4487468/ Thu, 03 Feb 2005 10:43:16 PST i dragged myself out of bed to find a daily deviation! first off, thank you to *demonlight for recommending me. second - thank you all to my new watchers, and all those that commented. all of you made my day.

there's going to be one more non-poem deviation submitted, then i'm going back to poetry. i like it more

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/4185252/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/4185252/ Wed, 29 Dec 2004 12:49:49 PST
the past twelve days or so i've been rather busy and haven't been online.
how was everyone's christmas? mine rocked

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/4074693/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/4074693/ Wed, 15 Dec 2004 15:57:13 PST i'm special.













_{sorry for the lack of... well, being here. +mkinne is up and so i'm rarely online now.}

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/4014048/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/4014048/ Tue, 07 Dec 2004 19:21:26 PST
also, i fear my writings are dying. they seem to be declining in quality, almost. ...my muse (if i ever had one) has apparantly committed suicide.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/3985906/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/3985906/ Sat, 04 Dec 2004 08:55:24 PST Breeze still carries the sound
Maybe I'll disappear
Tracks will fade in the snow
You won't find me here

Ice is starting to form
Ending what had begun
I am locked in my head
With what I've done
I know you tried to rescue me
Didn't let anyone get in
Left with a trace of all that was
And all that could have been

Please
Take this
And run far away
Far away from me
I am
Tainted
The two of us
We're never meant to be
All these
Pieces
And promises and left behinds
If only I could see
In my
Nothing
You meant everything
Everything to me
Gone fading everything
And all that could have been

Please
Take this
And run far away
Far as you can see
I am
Tainted
And happiness and peace of mind
Were never meant for me
All these
Pieces
And promises and left behinds
If only I could see
In my
Nothing
You meant everything
Everything to me

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/3813467/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/3813467/ Thu, 11 Nov 2004 20:55:59 PST london ! specifically, around the brixton and clapham areas. my cousin just emailed me, offering. and i could live there 6 months, without needing a special visa... granted, i couldn't work, but there's other ways to earn money.
fucking london! i 've always wanted to go back!

now i just have to figure out the pros and cons...


eeeee!

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/3738992/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/3738992/ Wed, 03 Nov 2004 02:18:39 PST if you are american, who did you vote for? why?

i voted kerry. personally, bush strikes me as a dangerous idiot that will slowly turn america onto the course of a theocracy.


....

you know what america? fuck you! fuck the close-minded fearful bigots that can't tolerate someone that's gay. fuck you people that prattle on about the sanctity of marriage, something that doesn't even truly exist in the minds and hearts of most people taking those vows.

fuck you.

]]> ~phoenixtx http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/3615300/ http://phoenixtx.deviantart.com/journal/3615300/ Sun, 17 Oct 2004 23:39:39 PDT nanowrimo:  national novel writing month.

i am a masochist, it appears, and have signed up to attempt to write a 50,000 word novel in one month.  one month.

so anyway, my question is: any plot ideas?  i have one, but at some points it hits too close to home to be wholly comfortable.  any ideas, boring or radical, would be appreciated.

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there is a new poem up, though - china white. not sure if i should scrap it or not yet. i just can't find a good way to end it, really.

anyway. has anyone noticed the direction that my poetry is going? it's been through the whole angst and love stages. now it's in "murder, whores, and heroin junkies" stage. is that disturbing to anyone else?

i'm moving out in less than a month. no more dorm!

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why i cannot, and will not, vote for bush.

camp x-ray. camp delta.

the average american knows little, if anything, about those two camps. the american media falls into two camps here: those that did not report on it, and those that did were denied much access and information.

they are essentially concentration camps. camp x-ray first, and later camp delta took over when the aforementioned closed. prisoners were kept in small cages, given filthy (yellow, or black) water. the food was sometimes up to 10 years past the expiration date. the detainees were routinely tortured. devout muslims, who had never before seen a woman unveiled, were tortured and humiliated by being forced to watch naked prostitutes masturbate. some would be bound, hand and feet, together. in camp x-ray, prisoners were allowed to "exercise" for 5 minutes a day. camp delta alloted them 15 minutes. guards would mock the muslim religion, denying water for prayers, or kicking the koran. washington itself has stated that those kept in these camps have no rights. children are in these chain-linked, razor-wired, dog and sniper-guarded prisons. the prisoners, upon arrival, are given "comfort items ", or ci. these include a blanket, a bucket for human waste, a copy of the koran, and toothpaste. a ci is frequently withheld, often due to just the whim of a guard. prisoners are held "indefinately." some attempt suicide.

there are roughly 660 prisoners currently, none of which have been tried or convicted. rather, they suffer here because of our administration's "war on terror."

this all has taken place under president bush, who has yet to step in and remedy the situation. rather, his presidency attempts to keep this quiet from the american public.

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