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deviantART: by:piercingxsilence http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:piercingxsilence&section=today deviantART RSS for by:piercingxsilence en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 21 Dec 2009 22:29:37 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png life. http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/28290585/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/28290585/ Wed, 11 Nov 2009 11:15:24 PST

Surrrie, loves.

Okay, so maybe this sounds bad, but nobody at my habitat is on here and I need to vent. Most of it is poinltess stuff you should probably leave now. But I need to get it off my chest.

First off; high school. You gotta love it... or hate it. I don't know anymore. The people here are so different from people in Peru. Some of them are just more happy, but the people themselves, some of them - theres just nothing there, if you catch my drift. Like today, this kid Tanner (who, by the way, has the prettiest blue eyes ever.) asked me if Alaska was a country, and when I said "no", he asked me if it was a territory of Canada. I about cried. From laughing. All of my classes are pretty easy, which is okay. Its just the people. Theres just so much immature stuff that goes on. And maybe I take it too seriously, but really? High shcool kids these days are just mean... and I observe a lot during the day. I really hope that doesn't sound weird. I do have some pretty cool people. I call them people, not friends. I miss having friends.

Family is well... Interesting. I don't think I'm used to the whole having siblings thing yet. Some of the stuff they do is just un-necessary. Like, my cousin, she's 17, and she's really... anxious. And rude. But sometimes we have good times and we laugh. And then other times, she's just a bitch. Excuse my French. Her parents decided that she now has to pay for everything other than her healthcare, food, and board because of her bitchiness and disrespect. She was not happy. She pulled out a "I'M GOING TO BE POOR NOW, DON'T YOU WANT TO SEE ME SUCCEED IN LIFE?!" thing - it was... dramatic. My cousin who's 14, almost 15, is pretty chill. We have a lot of good times together. And my 12 year cousin, just told me he's had a girlfriend for about a month. It made me giggle. Then he told her that he's kissed her. I was thinking; "He beat me damnit!" But then I figured its just Jr. High and probably didn't mean anything. Its kind of funny. Because I'm the only one he told. Sometimes its like he trusts me, and then the next day he's enraged at the world and hates everything and everyone. My aunt is different too. She likes to emphasize on how she's a nurse and she spends all day helping people, and when she comes home we're just mean and can't do our chores. How it'd be nice once and a while just for her to relax and not have to do everything that we don't do. Well, she goes on one of these rants at least every other week. My uncles pretty chill. He avoids conflict and just rolls with it. But he's got a stressfull job, so I wonder who he talks to. My aunt, she has a habit of whipping out stories about herself after every sentence. Like, today we were talking about my mother and my grandparents, and how I felt about that and after I got a few sentences in, she went in to tell me how she didn't have grandparents and how her mother was manipulative. But, I've heard that story at least 4 times before, if not more. I hate to complain, because they all have a lot of strong suits as well. I just... I fell so pessimistic sometimes. Ever since my grandpa learned how to text, he's been trying to text me back and forth. But, sometimes my uncle has to do it for him because he's too sad.

Photography class is pretty cool. We've been using Flickr for our digital images; [link]

Ummm... my teachers pretty cool. I just wish I could take art classes all day. That'd be much more fun than Geometry. Some kid felt the need to refer to the size of his "testicleballllsss" today.

I've been addicted to poladroid lately.

Hey, that was a long journal. And I'm being summoned. So bye.

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]]> ~piercingxsilence I HAVE DECIDED. http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/27584897/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/27584897/ Sun, 04 Oct 2009 18:21:35 PDT Swim season is chaos right now.
But, it ends November 7th.
NOVEMBER 7TH IS THE DAY.

I'm starting a project 365.
I know its not original,
I know its slightly over-done...

But, I have no inspiration anymore...

It's all the flippin' weights at 5:30 AM!

But, I'm going to do it.
And I don't know if I'll be able to commit to it, or if I'll even have time to do it or upload it... If I don't upload it here, I'll probably upload it to my Flickr account:

[link]

Please check it out! I know I've been near dead on here... but I'm starting it in a month or so. I'd really appreciate views and feedback!

]]> ~piercingxsilence Devious Journal Entry http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/27433427/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/27433427/ Sat, 26 Sep 2009 17:21:52 PDT
I'M SO FUCKING ENVIOUS.

HE HASN'T MADE A DECISION YET.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHH!

]]> ~piercingxsilence Devious Journal Entry http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/27287611/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/27287611/ Fri, 18 Sep 2009 19:36:52 PDT I hate chlorine.

I suppose I'm happier here.
I haven't decided yet.

I'm listening to happier music... Maybe...

Hmm...

I'm uploading a bunch of my old stuff. I feel kind of bad for not having any people.

My cousin wants me to take some senior portraits.
BUT, I'M NOT PROFESSIONAL!

I hope she's not disappointed.

Social life; I don't have one.

I just changed subjects like three times... ALI, where are you when I need you (and your pills?)

XD

BYE.

Imma go watch American Pie 2 with COLLIEEEBEAR. XD

]]> ~piercingxsilence D: http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/26915290/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/26915290/ Sun, 30 Aug 2009 12:25:01 PDT I have no time anymore.
Swimming everyday.
I supposed I signed up for it.
It wasn't what
I haven't taken a picture in God knows how long.
It makes me sad.
BAHHHH.

You know what else?

21st century grammar makes me want to cry.
I was sitting at lunch the other day and me and my friend Abbey were listening to some rather questionable girls.

Girl 1: "So, dis boy was texxin me and he was all "Girl, I wanna get wit you."
Girl 2: "NUH UH! Who whussit?!"
Girl 1: "Girrrl, it was dat boy Anton I met at mah old schoo."
Girl 2: "OOOOO, girrrl! I heard he be gettin' wit all dem girls."
Girl 1: "Bitch, he's hot! *giggle* Imma call him tonight.
Girl 2: "OOOO, he gon be gettin' some ass tonight!"
Girls: *giggle*

I WANTED TO CRY.

]]> ~piercingxsilence Summer, Part II http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/26172094/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/26172094/ Sat, 25 Jul 2009 14:09:37 PDT
Photography Camp tomorrow. Its through GirlScouts, so I'm not expecting much. I can't even bring Nigel! D:

I don't really know what else to say.

Not much exciting has gone on.

OMG OMG OMG.
Okay, so my cousin and I went to see the midnight opening of Harry Potter 6.
FFFFFFFFFFFF. (:

(Fangirl Moment.)
THOMAS ANDREW DRACO MALFOY FUCKING FELTON.

The part where he's in the bathroom and right before Harry walks in when his hair is all messed up and he's crying whilst looking in the mirror, and then rips his sweater vest off....
HOLY SHIT.

And can I just say, that Luna Lovegood has got to be the coolest person at Hogwartz?
That dress she wore to the SlugClub Party with Harry, was epic.
As was the lion headdress she wore to the Quidditch Game.

I mean. d00000d.

Oh yeah, and since my new school doesn't offer Driver's Ed as a class, I have to study on my own.
I was talking to my cousin who just got a car (flippin' sweet) and she said most of the book thing they give you is just using common sense and that she didn't really study for her driver's lisence. XD Don't worry kiddos, she flips out if she's two miles over the speed limit. XD

PS: I think I'm bi-polar.
Bah humbug. It could also be my iron deficiency.

PSS: So, my friend Megan offered to let me register her Photoshop on my computer but when I asked my uncle if I could, he said that I was the only one who used it and we didn't really need it. -__________________- That bummed me out hXc.

]]> ~piercingxsilence Summer, Part I http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/25616955/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/25616955/ Sun, 28 Jun 2009 21:31:52 PDT
I remember I used to go into these long journals about my life, and now I just don't.

I can't be handled. I know that for sure. My 8 year old cousin even knew why I moved.

Ummmmmmm, so, Micheal Jackson and Billy Mays died. Thats kind of depressing for the U.S.'s pop culture.

RIP Isak Penrod. I didn't know the kid, but I heard some really cool things about him. He went to my old school and recently died.

Ummm, it kind of depressed me today to realize that the only people I know who will willingly be models, are my 8 and 4 year old cousins.

Ummmm, I'm back in Illinois right now. It's been okay. There was some... turbulance, if you will, at the beginning, but I do believe it is all resolved now.

I have recently realized how envious and emotionally unstable I am.

Like, really I've been thinking about it too much. But I usually get in my moods like this when I'm tired. Maybe I should go to bed?

Yeah, Nigel, my Canon D30 hasn't been used up that much. And no one will do portraits with me. *sigh*

PS: I hate hot weather. I love air conditioners.

PSS: I kind of can't wait to go back to Iowa. But I'm not telling my grandpa that. It would kill him.

PSSS: Okay, enough of my emo rant.

To any of you who just read that, it was pointless. Now go eat your soup!

]]> ~piercingxsilence The last official day of school. http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/25123752/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/25123752/ Thu, 04 Jun 2009 11:28:14 PDT
Tomorrow and Monday, we come in for half days to finish finals.

I'm really stoked! On June 16th, I'm going camping at Wildcat Mountain with MAI ADVENTURE DIVAHZ!

That should be fun.

After that, I'm coming home to party with all mah franz.

I can't wait till summer.
Seriously, this day feels like it has gone on forever.

If you read my last journal, Madison didn't go as well as I thought it would. Megan's leaving early tomorrow morning and I'm not going to see her for two whole months! AHHH.

Anyways, I'm also going to photography camp this summer. I'm pretty happy. Then I can use Nigel to his full potential!

I don't really know what else to say...
Except that I laugh at myself everyday because there's these two guys in my English class, ones a pot head, and one tattoo's himself but they always smell really good, and they're pretty hot. xD

So, yeah, I'm a dork.

I have to log off now,
KTHXBAI!

]]> ~piercingxsilence Computer Class, volume bajillion. xD http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/24889085/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/24889085/ Fri, 22 May 2009 11:22:48 PDT It's pretty great.

Except for my friend =Egyptianruler who likes to draw funny things and make me LOL.

Kids around me stare. But, what else is new. xD

Everything reminds me of home. ARG.

Sooooo... I'm just typing away...
OH OH! Guess what guys?!

Me and my aunt went to this place called the Mines of Spain last night, and the ticks were flippin' everywhere!

PS: Momo and Sara, you would love that place.

Anyways, we both got in the shower literally the second we got home. Then we found out that the dog, Zen, had like 30 of them on her. It was really bad... but my cousin Jeff had a really fun time burning them all. xD

I'm going to Madison tomorrow! YAY! Yeah, we have to go shopping for my cousin because she's going up to the Boundary Waters to be a Guide In Training for Girl Scouts. I myself, am coming home on June 20th to July 3rd. And then when I get back, I'm off to Photography Camp.

COOL BEANZ, DOOD.

Uhmdee ummdee, uhmmm... I don't know what else to type but there really isn't anything else to do. I wonder what would happen if I tried to get some "_artistcnudes".... xDDDD

THAT WOULD BE A FUCKING FREE FOR ALL!

I just used the FFF wurrrddd.

Peace out, girl scouts.

]]> ~piercingxsilence New, new, new! AHH. http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/24650161/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/24650161/ Fri, 08 May 2009 11:28:41 PDT My new school doesn't have any internet blocks.
Losers.

Although, I have to say it does have its perks.
So, we just got a new computer at my new house and I'm putting up new photography with my new camera.

DAMN ALL THESE NEW THINGS!

I'm really conflicted as to how the new moves been.
I get really nostalgic sometimes...
But, at the same time, I have more opportunities up here and I know I'll probably do more up here.

I have loads of summer plans already. I can't wait!
I'm coming home for like two weeks... I'm not sure when though.
I can't wait to see all of my friends.

I haven't made any real friends up here yet.
I know I shouldn't expect much. I've only been here like a month.

Schools almost out! We have like 3 weeks left! (:

AHHHH!
Rambles.
I'll probably edit this when I get home. Peace!

]]> ~piercingxsilence Devious Journal Entry http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/23840803/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/23840803/ Sun, 22 Mar 2009 21:57:44 PDT Packing and moving process is taking place now...
I might not be updating for a while.

...A long while.

]]> ~piercingxsilence Uhpdaytez. http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/23699889/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/23699889/ Sat, 14 Mar 2009 18:50:13 PDT I know I haven't updated in forever.

Lots of stuff going on.

Family; If you know me, or have been reading any previous journals, you know my grandma isn't well. Its like we take a step forward and then two steps back. Something happened, she's not getting better, and its bringing the whole family down.

School; My school art teacher is a b!+(h. >___________< I don't even want to take Art 2 next year. Everyday she critisizes the class and our personalities and she reminds us everyday that she's been teaching for 30 years. She never refers to herself as an art teacher, its always an "art specialist". She pisses me off so much! Other than that, grades aren't too good. Thats my own fault. I don't do homework... I don't have motiviation to anymore.

Friends; *This is not about any of the friends that have a dA* Theres just so much superficial drama, I don't even know why I hang out with some of the people that I do. I mean, we have fun, but everyday its "Did you hear what that bitch said about me?! Imma beat a bitch!" Like, what does cat fighting solve, really?

On a positive note, my friend gave me one of her own cameras... my grandpa thinks I'm 'borrowing it'. >D Its a Canon D30. It's kind of old, but its a good camera. The only thing I don't like about it, is that it doesn't take very good pictures inside places.
Which is okay, because most of my pictures are of the outside anyways. (:

]]> ~piercingxsilence Devious Journal Entry http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/23261117/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/23261117/ Tue, 17 Feb 2009 20:07:07 PST Yeah, I was getting tired of my last journal.
Uhm... No new updates... except, we're doing a non-objective watercolor painting in art... and we're supposed to use ink tomorrow to draw symbols on it.. but I like it the way it is. I don't want to change it. But my art teacher is... many things... that I would rather not say on here...

Oh, and if any of you have ever seen Balto, she looks like Uncle Borris. No joke. >_<

]]> ~piercingxsilence It pretty much blows. http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/23205729/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/23205729/ Sat, 14 Feb 2009 21:45:15 PST So, Valentine's Day.
[TITLE GOES HERE]

I went to Peoria to see my grandma today.
The first thing she said to me was "I'm sorry your life is like this."
I about balled. I wanted to yell at her tell her to stop blaming herself.
I was talking with my uncle on the way home, and asking him questions.
I'm left with more questions...
My grandpa's in worry mode. All the time.
He goes to bed at like 6:30 now, so I haven't done anything with friends in a long time...

One of my friends, who I used to be really close to, stole a ton of money from her family and she's just been going downhill. Its all because of one of her stupid cousins.
I can't go into detail, but I can't believe she would do something like that!

A few months ago, me and this guy were talking. I guess you could say we became friends... but I remember one day in particular, we were on the phone and he told me about a time he was skating with his friends and the went to the roof of an abandoned building and watched the sunset. He said he wished I would have been there with him. I just kept remembering that today. It made me feel lonely and needy and pathetic.

Valentine's Day blows.

I've been feeling espicially emotionaly unstable lately.

Sorry for all this, I just thought I'd get it out to someone.

]]> ~piercingxsilence Mourning. http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/22952313/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/22952313/ Sun, 01 Feb 2009 20:11:14 PST MIKEY DIED.

^{(My camera.)

So if you guys thought I died and haven't posted any new deviations in a while, you have longer to wait.

As if you actually were waiting...

UGH. I hate this.} ]]> ~piercingxsilence Devious Journal Entry http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/22789511/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/22789511/ Sat, 24 Jan 2009 19:25:41 PST For the next week, I'm on my own.
I'm uncabable of handling all this.
I can't do it.

]]> ~piercingxsilence End of Break/Skewlz. [EDIT] http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/22478612/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/22478612/ Sun, 11 Jan 2009 21:01:49 PST
Break wasn't really spectacular.

Skewl = LAMEASSMOFOness.
I started PE for second semester.
And it sucks ass.

(Excuse my language.)

Other than that... I'm slowly falling apart.
I'm not going to elaborate on that, so don't ask.
Please.

And don't worry, its hereditary.

I'm kind of looking forward to Saturday though.

EEEEEEP..!

-EDIT-

Saturday didn't go as planned.

I was supposed to meet a boy [Yes, friends, a boy.] at the mall.

And my grandpa flipped out a half an hour before we were supposed to leave...

So, I didn't get to meet him and he hasn't texted or anything since then.

I hope he doesn't think I'm using my grandfather as an excuse.

But yeah, I'm not liking my grandfather right now.

It was the only thing I was looking forward to all week.

We don't talk much anymore.

]]> ~piercingxsilence Winter Break [PART 1] http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/22110758/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/22110758/ Sun, 21 Dec 2008 20:48:01 PST So far, its been absolutely horrid.

Something really bad happened.

And now Christmas is going to suck.

I'm just happy I don't have to deal with finals on top of all of it.

I guess I should try to stay optimistic.

But I think I might be part of the cause for the bad thing.

Sorry for being so general.

I need inspiration.

I want to start taking pictures of people.

But I'm afraid that no one would take me seriously with my piece of shit camera.

I'm going to try and write my story.

I had an idea during the summer, and I've changed it about 6 times since then.

All I have to do now is put it onto paper.

Yeahhh.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!

]]> ~piercingxsilence piercingxsilence; http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/21906529/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/21906529/ Tue, 09 Dec 2008 21:11:59 PST Seriously.
Not say anything.
She doesn't understand anything.

]]> ~piercingxsilence This is Who We Are http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/21837439/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/21837439/ Fri, 05 Dec 2008 19:28:09 PST And I'm afraid to say, things suck.

THE TITLE: It's the song I'm listening to.
It's by Hawthorne Heights.
It's kickface.

]]> ~piercingxsilence HAPPY TOFURKY DAY. http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/21704507/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/21704507/ Thu, 27 Nov 2008 18:32:15 PST Suuuu, I spent 3 hours in a car with my grandpa.
My grandma's doing a lot better...
I went out to lunch with my grandpa and uncle.
And then I slept for three hours.

But now theres drama and shit, and I always seem to be the one to fuck it up.

(Excuse my language.)

How was everyone elses Tofurky Day?

]]> ~piercingxsilence I miss you... http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/21622303/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/21622303/ Sat, 22 Nov 2008 22:13:49 PST
]]> ~piercingxsilence ? http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/21542435/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/21542435/ Mon, 17 Nov 2008 20:58:58 PST I'm dealing with it.
How is everybody else?

]]> ~piercingxsilence Life + dA stuphz. http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/21395474/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/21395474/ Sat, 08 Nov 2008 21:04:48 PST Shit sucks.

So, my grandma's still in the hospital and it's been about a week. My grandpa says all they have to do is get her medications straigtened out, and then she'll be home. But thats what they had to do last time. She was fine for about 8 months... and then she just got nervous and depressed again. So, I really have no idea when she'll be home.
As for my grandpa, he well... he's sad. He says he can't sleep without her. It's depressing. And then he drinks. And that makes me depressed. I asked my grandma if she thought he drank a lot... and she said they were just "after dinner drinks" but... it just bothers me... I guess I'm paranoid.
I've been going to church with my grandpa lately, because well, A) I have no choice, and B) He wouldn't ever go by himself. He gives me dirty looks when I don't pray and follow along in the readings. I feel I should be doing it, to make my grandma happier. She says I'm too young to decide that I'm Atheist, and that I haven't been through enough to determine whether I think there is a God or not. I'm still trying to figure out what exactly I "have to go through" before I can make that decision... And I'm beginning to think that I should just be Catholic and believe in God again. I'm getting so much shit about it at school. Everybody's like "You don't believe in God?! o.e" "Do you worship Satan or something?" "You're going to hell!" After a while, I'm used to it, but it still bothers me that they call themselves Christians and can be so... prejudicial... What ever happened to "Love the sinner; hate the sin"?
Highschool's pretty lame. All you hear about is "So and so had sex!" It's like... dude, we're 14 and 15 years old, WTF?! I mean, I'm not saying I'm going to wait till I get married, but I just think we're too young. It's just lame. That, and my head is about to turn to mush. I like a guy, and I know he doesn't like me. But at the same time, theres this dude that I used to go to school with in like 2nd grade, and now he's nice to me and he's really funny...(unlike before)... and IUNNO. And, I'm sort of envious of my friend and her boyfriend. They're so cute together, and they get along really well, and they just love being with each other, and UGH. Being a teenage girl is just lame in general.

dA: Well, I only have one new deviation... and guess what?! It's a drawing!!! xD
Yeah, it was for my friend... it'll be up soon.

Please tell me you didn't read that. Thats probably the longest journal I've had in quite some time...
It's lame, and I need to stop complaining and ehhh.

]]> ~piercingxsilence Yuhp. http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/21224206/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/21224206/ Wed, 29 Oct 2008 20:37:34 PDT My grandpa is going to go nuts.
And I, I think I already have.

This sucks.

...But, I guess I have to stay postive.
I'm not battered.
Or starving.
Or alone.

I really need to shut up.

]]> ~piercingxsilence Grandma; http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/21177952/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/21177952/ Mon, 27 Oct 2008 20:27:27 PDT You're always a true friend
I don't deserve you
'Cause I'm not there for you
Please forgive me again

I wanna be there for you
Someone you can come to
Runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you
I wanna be there for you

Swirling shades of blue
Slow dancing in your eyes
The sun kisses the earth
And I hush my urge to cry

I wanna be there for you
Someone you can come to
Runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you
I wanna be there for you

'Cause I hear the whispered words
In your masterpiece beautiful
You speak the unspeakable through
I love you too

I wanna be there for you
Someone you can come to

I wanna be there for you
And be someone you can come to
The love runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you

[EDIT]
Sorry to disappoint you all.
I didn't write this.
It's called There for You by Flyleaf.
It basically gets the point across though...

]]> ~piercingxsilence Nevermind. http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/21103116/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/21103116/ Tue, 21 Oct 2008 22:08:58 PDT I can never seem to put it into words.

]]> ~piercingxsilence Iowa, http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/20971703/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/20971703/ Mon, 13 Oct 2008 15:00:20 PDT Bottom line: I'm moving to Dubuque, IA when I'm old enough, because it sucks here.

I went there this weekend.
And it made me sad that I had to leave.
Everyone here is depressed and boring.
(Literally...)

]]> ~piercingxsilence THE WEEKEND. http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/20849236/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/20849236/ Sun, 05 Oct 2008 20:09:07 PDT Okay, so yesterday, I attempted to post a journal.
FAILURE.

Things were typed, send buttons were pushed, and nothing was published.

This weekend was good... and bad.

GOODNESS:

-I went to the Homecoming football game and had a blast!

-I wathched numerous scary movies wiht my friend Vera, celebrating the upcoming holiday. (Few of which, were Rob Zombie movies, and I will never look at cheerleaders the same.)

-I didn't go to Homecoming. After it, I heard it was lame anyways.

BADNESS:

-We lost our Homecoming game, so everyone will be uber depressed tomorrow.

-Saturday, I had nothing to do because everyone was getting ready for Homecoming.

-Saturday also marked the third year of my mom's death. My grandma and grandpa were all weird.

-After pondering it for the longest time, I have yet to find out what I want to be for Halloween.

Any suggestions as to what I should be for Halloween?

]]> ~piercingxsilence Devious Journal Entry http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/20832694/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/20832694/ Sat, 04 Oct 2008 21:27:02 PDT
]]> ~piercingxsilence Devious Journal Entry http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/20832614/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/20832614/ Sat, 04 Oct 2008 21:19:43 PDT
]]> ~piercingxsilence Uhmph. http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/20713374/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/20713374/ Sat, 27 Sep 2008 21:29:31 PDT I haven't updated in an uber long time. And it bugs me.

I just finished a book Water For Elephants - Sara Gruen
READ IT. It's really good.

My friends are getting mad at me for using big words.

My grandparents are totally oblivious.

I'm beginning to think theres some kind of conspiracy out for me.
Everyones weird around me. (Maybe I'm just paranoid.)

I can't be trusted - found that out 3 days ago.

Green Team's pretty snazzy.

Mornings in the hallway are amazing.

(That was a lame "journal". But if it wasn't on the internet, I'd probably be saying all the juicy stuff that elaborates on all those general statements I just made.)

]]> ~piercingxsilence dA + LYFFFEEE. http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/20560778/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/20560778/ Thu, 18 Sep 2008 21:51:41 PDT Optimism is not easily attained in my life.
I don't know why though. I guess it comes along with adolesence.

Highschool's pretty cool. As of midterms - I have six A's and one B. Thats probably the best I've ever had in my life. Friends are awesome.

I've made new ones, and at the same time kept and lost some old ones. Its kind of wierd how much everyones changed. Since we have twelve or thirteen differnt schools going into one, you don't see the people you used to hang out with as much.

I think my grandma is loosing it.
No, seriously.

I might have some new deviations soon. MAYBE.

]]> ~piercingxsilence Jersey http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/20527561/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/20527561/ Tue, 16 Sep 2008 18:59:45 PDT Cause jersey just got colder and
I'll have you know i'm scared to death
That everything that you had said to me was just
A lie until you left
Now i'm hoping just a little bit stronger
Hold me up just a little bit longer
I'll be fine, i swear
I'm just gone beyond repair

Let's write a song that we can dance to
Cause they all wanna listen
Just to know how it sounds when
I do that thing you know that i do
When i find inspiration
This is me breaking down when

Jersey just got colder and
I'll have you know i'm scared to death
That everything that you had said to me was just
A lie until you left
Now i'm hoping just a little bit stronger
Hold me up just a little bit longer
I'll be fine, i swear
I'm just gone beyond repair

Let's write a song that we can sing to
And you can lead the choir
And put the hook where it hurts most
And you threw a spark that lit the candle
That set us all on fire
And sent a flame down the east coast

Jersey just got colder and
I'll have you know i'm scared to death
That everything that you had said to me was just
A lie until you left
Now i'm hoping just a little bit stronger
Hold me up just a little bit longer
I'll be fine, i swear
I'm just gone beyond repair

And i should have been your everything
I'm now at the end of my eternity
And i will sleep to have the darkest dreams
This just won't seem right to me
I close my eyes and beg for peace

Jersey just got colder and...
Jersey just got colder and...
Jersey just got colder and...

Jersey just got colder and
I'll have you know i'm scared to death
That everything that you had said to me was just
A lie until you left
Now i'm hoping just a little bit stronger
Hold me up just a little bit longer
I'll be fine, i swear
I'm just gone beyond repair

]]> ~piercingxsilence This really fucking sucks. http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/20477970/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/20477970/ Sat, 13 Sep 2008 19:36:32 PDT I just realized. It's jealousy.

]]> ~piercingxsilence Yup + Yeah. http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/20356022/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/20356022/ Sat, 06 Sep 2008 11:03:08 PDT Boredness.

]]> ~piercingxsilence Shit + Stuff. http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/20347567/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/20347567/ Fri, 05 Sep 2008 20:43:51 PDT Shit, and stuff.
Thats all thats going on right now.

My grandmother died. But don't worry friends. It was my dad's mom. Considering I see my dad whenever he can afford enough money for gas, I only met the gal about 6 times. Now I have to decide whether or not I want to go to the services. Shit.
School is also shit. Because I don't see a friend too much anymore. Her boyfriend is a fricking flirt and I think she needs to get a new one. If your reading this, you know who you are. I'm sorry, and you probably don't care, but he is.

More stuff. Uh, school is miserable. I hate it. Depression? I think so. Shit.

Yeah. Sorry to all of you who actually read this.

I might have new deviatons this weekend. Maybe?

]]> ~piercingxsilence Updates + Life is really confusing. DX http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/20298342/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/20298342/ Tue, 02 Sep 2008 20:30:06 PDT Hey hey hey! Suuu, as you might have noticed, I have three new deviations... which I'm fairly proud of... I plan on getting more this weekend... Probably just walking around town.
For the people that read this journal: I need suggestions on what to photograph. I know that sounds really un-inspirational, but I really have lost all inspiration. And, although I love doing it, my gallery practically dedicated to flowers, is starting to get on my nerves...

As for life... Theres so many questions that I don't know who to ask. I love all my friends, and I can go to one in particular, about anything. I know she'll help me, I just feel like I'd be a burden. Theres so many things I feel I should improve on, but I don't know how... and my grandma thinks I need serious help. After school, I come home and go straight up to my bedroom. I mostly sleep or listen to music... but I don't leave until its dark out. Only for dinner. Then I don't talk much. I'm beginning to think that depression is genetic and that I'm getting the symptoms early. But I don't want to think that. Logic, I guess. Schools starting to be miserable. I don't like things to be redundant, and after the second week (Or third, I can't remember.), yes, I am tired of it.

I had a dream once, where for some reason, the only people on Earth, were the people on dA... and that we could travel and do things as we please, and since everyones really nice over the internet... that everyone was really nice, and we all had peace.

*cough* DREAM *cough*

]]> ~piercingxsilence Haven't Updated + First week of highschool over! http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/20132732/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/20132732/ Sun, 24 Aug 2008 15:06:31 PDT Well, I know I haven't updated in a long time. I have a lot of semi-good stuff on my PC that I want to upload but, ever since school started its sort of slipped my mind. That, and the fact that whenever I need my memory card to load the pictures into my PC, it always ends up missing... DX

Highschool's been a lot more easy than I thought it would... The classes are pretty cool... the diversity is awesome... Art class is pretty good... I have an inside source that says you don't really learn anything per say, but it's only the second week, so I'd rather not jump to conclusions. I've joined Foriegn Language Club, and thats really cool. We're having a magazine sale (which I absolutely hate), but its so we can go to Six Flags in October for Fright Fest and in Chicago they have an.. "International Festival" in December?

/////Hows it going with all you guys?

]]> ~piercingxsilence HELP! http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19918768/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19918768/ Tue, 12 Aug 2008 15:27:27 PDT
]]> ~piercingxsilence Devious Journal Entry http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19877595/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19877595/ Sun, 10 Aug 2008 11:31:17 PDT UHM, I don't know.

I'm a coward and deleted my Shout It Out... Yeah.
Bye.

]]> ~piercingxsilence DOMG DOMG DOMG. http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19768039/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19768039/ Wed, 06 Aug 2008 14:23:06 PDT DOMG DOMG DOMG.

AUGUST 2ND = WARPED TOUR in CHICAGO!
It was fricking killer!!!

We (My friend Vera and I) saw:
The Devil Wears Prada
The Academy Is...
All Time Low
Relient K
Family Force 5
Automatic Loveletter

DOMG! IT WAS FRICKING AWESOME.

Moshing was crazy!!

During The Devil Wears Prada, they had to stop in the middle of a song twice because people were basically passing out and getting hurt... Moshing was out of control! There were so many people. Once they started their set, these dudes, (looked to be about college age) would start forcing everybody together. We were so tightly packed, I couldn't breathe! (Not kidding) Me and Vera had to leave right before their last song... I couldn't breathe, and some guy kept rubbing up against her...

During All Time Low, some jackasses who were standing next to me decided to make some random kid crowd surf. So, they launched him right on to me. He kicked me in the head and we both went down. The guy who helped me up was clearly wasted.
Dude: "YOU GOT NAAAIIILLLLEEEDD! Hahah... hehe... heh... hahahahah... heh..."

Kalee:... O.e ... Uhm... Thanks for your help. *walks in opposite direction*

Relient K was the best performance... Family Force 5 was just fun to listen to. And, I made four friends during Family Force 5...

Today we had registration for Highschool.
I'm terrified out of my fucking mind.
XD

Tomorrow I'm going to Six Flags with Vera's church group.
They do so much stuff, its amazing.
And I'm Atheist...

Peace Out dAer's.
---->> Kalee

[EDIT]

Well, Vera ended up ditching me yesterday.
But I still had fun with some people from her church.

...We went on these Mexican looking tea cups...
The spiny ride they have at DisneyWorld only instead of Alice in Wonderland cups, you have terra cotta looking things...
WE HAD SO MUCH FUN. And they were only tea cups! I don't know why we had so much fun, but we practically laughed our asses off!

We stopped at Burger King... and I ended up eating my lunch.. (PB&J, carrots, and an apple). Turns out Vera told people that I'm an Atheist Veggie Person... so, they were basically making fun of me the whole time. I don't know why she would tell them that...

Today - I got a shot and I got bloodwork done. Stupid people didn't record it right, so I had to go to our local hospital to get blood work done to see if I got some shot when I was little. The shot I just had to get because I need it for highschool....

I have a new favorite song. I'm listening to it right now.

]]> ~piercingxsilence Haha. http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19650893/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19650893/ Mon, 28 Jul 2008 21:51:55 PDT I'm back...?

]]> ~piercingxsilence Bye people. http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19579992/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19579992/ Thu, 24 Jul 2008 20:50:10 PDT I'm leaving dA.
I don't know when I'll be back.

No one visits my gallery.
I haven't submitted anything in a long time.
I don't have any inspiration.
Freshman year is coming up.
My August is pretty much booked.

I am doing my friends contest though, because no ones entered.
Check it out. ~fairylover2

]]> ~piercingxsilence Devious Journal Entry http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19563322/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19563322/ Wed, 23 Jul 2008 21:39:45 PDT
]]> ~piercingxsilence Mhm, Most definately. http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19462861/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19462861/ Fri, 18 Jul 2008 10:49:18 PDT I need to get away.

]]> ~piercingxsilence Devious Journal Entry http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19462711/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19462711/ Fri, 18 Jul 2008 10:39:37 PDT
]]> ~piercingxsilence Devious Journal Entry http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19436108/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19436108/ Wed, 16 Jul 2008 21:30:43 PDT Dudes are major deeeebagggsssss.

]]> ~piercingxsilence I'm SOOOO Sorry all you amazing dAer's! http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19360985/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19360985/ Sat, 12 Jul 2008 19:50:21 PDT I forgot to tell you!
AGHH!
So, when I got home I had a bajillion messeges and even more deviations, so sorry if I didn't get to see them!

I feel like such a doorknob for not telling all of you!

___________________________________________________________

Well, it was pretty kickass.
There was only a few bad things...
But Camp Tuck pwns.

___________________________________________________________

I had to go out to lunch with my dad and my sister today.
It was weird.
I mean... we don't talk much at all.

___________________________________________________________

I'm still deciding if I like this "Version 6"

___________________________________________________________

I didn't want to come home, and now I feel kind of depressed.
Along with other things....

]]> ~piercingxsilence Devious Journal Entry http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19136187/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19136187/ Mon, 30 Jun 2008 21:29:37 PDT I'm writing a story.
Be proud of me.

New Club;

]]> ~piercingxsilence Devious Journal Entry http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19119051/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19119051/ Sun, 29 Jun 2008 23:39:18 PDT Nothing to say.

]]> ~piercingxsilence Devious Journal Entry http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19101663/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19101663/ Sat, 28 Jun 2008 23:43:25 PDT Bb
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Dd
Ee
Ff
Gg
Hh
Iidon'tknowwhatIfeel
Jj
Kk
Ll
Mm
Nn
Oo
Pp
Qq
Rr
Ss
Tt
Uu
Vv
Ww
Xx
Yy
Zz

]]> ~piercingxsilence Damn You, Momo. XD http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19029847/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/19029847/ Tue, 24 Jun 2008 23:00:55 PDT 1. What is your DeviantArt name and what does it mean?
piercingxsilence= Pretty self explanitory? According to my family, I don't talk much.

2. Why did you join this site?
I envied all of the other frucking awesome artists who were already on here...

3. What fandom were you obsessed with when you joined?
None that I can recall...

4. How many watchers are currently watching now?
I don't keep track...

5. Your first gift ever was to?
...PatrickStumpsGirl, it was a picture of Patrick Stump! (And all his glory!)

6. List five things you are a fan of?
-Fall Out Boy
-TREESSSSS.
-Perry the Platypus!
-Fantasy stuff (Legolas and King Edmund... <3)
-Music in general.

8. List four people you look up to the most?
-My grandma.
-Patrick Stump
-Joe Trohman
-Gerard Way
-Mia Hamm/Garciaparra

9. How many pets do you own?
None, but I used to have a guinea pig...

10. Who is your most played character?
I'm not sure I have one...

11. What do you prefer, white or black?
Black or in between...

12. Name 3 aspects of your personality?
Stoooooooped, weird, and, random.

13. If you could have a power what would it be?
Change into animals... (sorry Becca, its cool)

14. Who was the last person you talked to?
Grandma

15. Who was the last person you said "I love you" to?
Grandma

16. Write the first five things that pop into your head?
-TV is scary.
-I just watched a really good movie.
-I wonder what I'm going to do tomorrow.
-PERRY THE PLATYPUS!
-I'm ticked at Momo for TAGGGGGINNGGGG me.

17. What are the things you wish you could do better?
Draw, sing, just be a better person in general...

18. Do you like who you are?
Nope. I need to borrow Mrs. Sabowski's book... ("Raising Confident Girls") XD

19. Summer or winter?
Fall.

20. Rain or sun?
Rain.

21. List 2 odd things about yourself?
-I don't say half the things I want to.. or need to.
-I'm afraid of my grandpa?... Yeah...

________________________________________________

In other news, I'M GOING TO WARPED TOUR!!!!!!!!!
I'm so fricking happy! I think I shat myself!

YAIII!

]]> ~piercingxsilence Devious Journal Entry http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/18992927/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/18992927/ Mon, 23 Jun 2008 00:14:52 PDT You just had to.
I knew, but you had to prove me wrong.
Well it bit you in the ass.
I knew all along.
I hope your happy now.

(Sorry for being a bitch.)

]]> ~piercingxsilence Devious Journal Entry http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/18992901/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/18992901/ Mon, 23 Jun 2008 00:11:55 PDT
]]> ~piercingxsilence I can't think of names for these anymore... http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/18966633/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/18966633/ Sun, 22 Jun 2008 23:54:21 PDT
I'm now taking requests... Photography... Drawings...
Hopefully its within what I can do... I'll only be taking four... Wimpy I know, but I can't even find time to read my library book...
Requests:
1.
2.
3.
4.

I really want a sub, and my grandparents hate using their credit cards on the internet... so, any contests? That you feel I would be able to handle?

]]> ~piercingxsilence ; http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/18864310/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/18864310/ Sun, 15 Jun 2008 23:26:29 PDT And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Ya I try to believe you,
But I don't

When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be
a different way,
I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day

It's always been up to you,
It's turning around,
It's up to me,
I'm gonna do what I have to do,
just don't

Gimme a little time,
Leave me alone a little while,
Maybe it's not too late,
not today, today, today, today, today...

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day

Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah
yeah, and I know I'm
not ready,
Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah
yeah, maybe tomorrow

Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah
yeah, and I know I'm
not ready,
Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah
yeah, maybe tomorrow

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Yeah I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...

Tomorrow it may change

Tomorrow - Avril Lavigne

]]> ~piercingxsilence Devious Journal Entry... http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/18775463/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/18775463/ Tue, 10 Jun 2008 22:27:27 PDT Do you think it's bad to not know what the hell you're doing? But, I mean really?

I seriously just don't know what to do anymore.
I'm so confused.
Theres so many questions I want to ask.

But I can't really confide in my family...
and I barely ever get to see my friends...

]]> ~piercingxsilence Devious Journal Entry http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/18568972/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/18568972/ Thu, 29 May 2008 23:00:39 PDT Dreaming gets me nowhere.

]]> ~piercingxsilence Devious Journal Entry http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/18422772/ http://piercingxsilence.deviantart.com/journal/18422772/ Tue, 20 May 2008 20:58:39 PDT I'll never be good enough.

]]> ~piercingxsilence