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just chillin.
lifes great when you follow your dreams.
i dreamed about visiting USA since i was 12 years old.
im 20 now.
BEAT THAT
and yes i did dream about it Every dayyy since i was 12 yrs old..every single day.

never give up on your dreams. never. never. never.

theres time for everything ..time for your dreams to be prepared for you..time for you to get prepared to meet your dreams come true..and time for you to live in your dreams.

peace out fellas
love ya all and may your new year be awesome and ...

be yourself. live in your dreams. have peace in your heart. smile. take time to rest and enjoy moments that make your soul rejoyce.
love yourself and love everyone around you ..

]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/21104401/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/21104401/ Wed, 22 Oct 2008 01:46:12 PDT
lifes been a whirlwind.

plus my name means wind in estonian and finnish. just puttin it out there.

u know what..

i am leaving france this saturday morning.....in 3 days. i cant believe that....oh wow...i will fly from Nice to London..stay in london one day and night and then fly to estonia on Sunday morning..

i will go to estonia and spend 2 weeks there...our home is empty though...only my twinbrother lives in our 3 bedroom apartment. i bet hes lonely there so i will go and live with him for a while hahaaa...anyway...i need to go to estonia to get my passport.

so after 2 weeks in estonia...our whole family will fly to London...my sister A is getting married to one english guy..Rich
I havent met him but im going to my sisters wedding hahaa.. funny.
So we will spend one week in england....and wedding is 15th november..

THEN...my family will fly back to estonia and IIIII will fly from London to Toronto ! YAYYYYY I CANT WAIT!!!

Estonia will be visa free with usa in ONE MONTH!

u just dont know hoowwww excited i am about all this....

byebye france

]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/20014803/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/20014803/ Mon, 18 Aug 2008 01:18:59 PDT
Whole family is celebrating at the same time, how funny is that! One special family they are
Today we have been blowing up balloons here ..Okay me. Juliette and Nina love them .. And ..
Me: Juliette, what would you like to do today?
Juliette: Lets play with balloons?!
Me: the whole day????!!!!!!!!!!!!
*we both laugh out loud*


Thats what she wants to do the whole day and I was like WHAT?

So

aujourd'hui nous mangeons de la glace au tennis GRAND GLACE
(we go eat big ice cream at tennis )

my bday was 19th july already and I AM TWENTY finally haha!

]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/18884366/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/18884366/ Tue, 17 Jun 2008 01:05:51 PDT
whats up?

lotsa has changed.
im still in france though. still working. broke up with my bf. summer is here. lotsa sun. and im turning 20 in a month!

whats up with you?

]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/16052685/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/16052685/ Sun, 23 Dec 2007 03:04:05 PST
I just want to wish you merry christmas and may all your dreams come true and may you all have one beautiful time with your friends and family. Notice little things and rejoice. Remember what Christmas is really about. It is not about gifts and eating, but it is actually birthday of Jesus. Always be thankful. Respect people around you. Smile. Take time to be alone. Enjoy being alive.

I love you all

]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/15473512/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/15473512/ Mon, 12 Nov 2007 04:14:25 PST
Anyway.. life here is great. I really dont have anything bad to say.. not even one thing.. ok maybe the fact that I cant speak french.. YET! Haha. True..

I*ve done a lot in those last 2 weeks.. visited Monaco.. went tons of times to Nice.. and am planning to go to Italy one weekend to buy cigarettes there! haha. yep France is expensive country and cigarettes are cheaper in Italy.. and ITALY is only 30 minutes away from here by train.. how cool is that!! I know !!!

Juliette started her school last week. She is 3 and goes to school. How crazy is that! And so now Im mostly just looking after Nina. She is 2. How fun. HAHA. Right now she is sleeping.. ah the family.. parents.. they moved their computer from their bedroom to livingroom; so I could use it when Nina sleeps.. I mean.. HOW MANY PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD WOULD DO THAT?? Im serious.. They are just awesome.. very sweet people!! And that is good. I*m looking after their children with a joy .

Umm what else..
I got new bank account; new phone and french number and internet also.. I will pay TONS for that.. but its worth it right.. I mean Im a computer freak!! BUT .. internet is so SLOW and i can only use like 50 hours per month!!!! Like WOAH... such a stupid system!! In estonia I could use it as long as I wanted and costed same and it was FAST!! Now it barely opens a web page!! So this is why Magali and Eric moved their computer to livingroom also.. they knew if I would go over my limit on my laptop then I would have to pay TONS for extra.. and man.. I pay like.. 25 procent of my salary for internet and phone..this sucks!

I live in Eze Village.. its really beautiful here.. lots of tourists everywhere.. most are old americans and chinese lol but thats ok! lol.. its fun and good to hear someone speak english near to you once in a while

Ah and yeah. I am living in a paradise.. check out Nice and Eze Village and Monaco out in Google.. you will see..

So.. I think I am doing good.. Just thought I would say HI to you all here.. I have taken tons of pictures.. but like.. my laptop is so slow so I dont bother myself much with uploading pictures here one at the time.. IF you wanna see pictures of me and my adventures.. check me out on myspace .. if u are my friend and know my email address.. then there u go!

LOTSA LOVE TO YA ALL FROM SOUTH OF FRANCE!!!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/15039835/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/15039835/ Sat, 13 Oct 2007 07:09:55 PDT
i also started attending customer service course here this month and it will be over on 25th.

i'll probably leave on 26th Oct.
I have no idea if i can use internet there and stuff, so... we'll see...

you know, i cant live without computer! haha.

anyway. i'll be there working as a nanny for one 2 yr old. another 3 yr old child goes to school.

NOW go to google and search for a cities named NICE, EZE and MONACO! AHah!!

now you know why i'm going there
salary isnt big...but..if ya can live in a paradise..why not?

we'll see what happens.. i gotta find tickets now

OH BTW. It snowed here YESTERDAY!! first snow 12th october. and its so cold here already. so i'm glad i can leave before i'm gonna freeze my butt off no joke its SO cold here at winter..too cold

anyway. thats all for now.. wish ya all the best...

oh and I can't speak french..how's that? hahahaa...

crazy!!

PS. my best friend is moving to Africa next week..THIS is crazy..i'm gonna miss her. you can see pic's of us together in my profile. this WEBCAM picture there. first pic is taken of us together when we were about 1 yr old. yep, we truly are best friends

]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/14744914/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/14744914/ Sat, 22 Sep 2007 14:23:19 PDT
everyone care for people around you. like TWLOHA people do. go check their site [link]
it's the little things that matter.

everyone eat some good stuff. healthy stuff. for example my dog is vegetarian.

everyone go do sports. for example. i play Tony Hawk pro skater. doing sports is fun and enjoyable. i tried Mat Hoffman's pro BMX. but even my 6 yr old nephew beats me at that. well. yeah, i'm ashamed and truth hurts, but well i could always try harder, practice makes perfect! or maybe i should never let my nephew play it again. yeah, good idea actually.

everyone do something. solve crosswords, whatever. i do that, but i always get the hard ones, so i never know what the answer is but well. at least something, right.

everyone have fun. go do stuff you've never tried before. you know. once i asked my friend if i can put my foot in her pocket. we were standing so it was very tricky but she let me and I DID IT. just because i had never tried this before. not that i wanted to, but just because it was a fun challenge. trust me, it made us both laugh, and what else ya need in this life anyway? a good laugh helps with everything.

right..?

and everyone out there. let other people live also. don't judge others if you don't know them. don't go visit them if they don't want that. don't use their last toilet paper. don't call them when they sleep. don't laugh at them when they aint what you're expecting them to be. don't hate EMO's. they are people too. don't hate people who are different from you. don't hate people who aint different from you either. don't hate people. don't hate their pets. don't hate their cars. don't hate their attitudes.

but instead. when they take off their shoes. go try . put on their shoes and try to walk in them.

and drink sprite. it's the best. and help your mom wash dishes. or put them to washing machine. and wake up early in the morning and make some coffee so others don't have to do it. coffee always helps.

i need more sprite. i'm out of sprite. but my mom refuses to buy it. she buys juice instead. i drink juice too..but come on..haven't you all seen those Sprite commercials?!?!?

obey your thirst!!

thirst never wins (:

PS. my dog is pregnant!!!!!!!
(ok, heavy with young!)

cant wait to have puppies!!!! MEOW

]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/14570943/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/14570943/ Mon, 10 Sep 2007 05:08:33 PDT
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lol.
i think she liked it. haha. i'm not sure tho hahaa..whatever. i couldn't think of anything else to do..so..until next year

so yesterday evenin..i hanged out with her.. we went at some cousin's place somewhere at countryside..place full of farms i was like: "oh no..countryside AGAIN..omg" haha...but we had fun.. she was with her dad and one friend..so we went there and men went to Sauna and we went for a walk and just talked..then BBQ...oh man..this meat..wasn't meat..most of it was FAT..haha..thank God some people LIKE to eat such stuff..yep..crazy people..but some people LIKE TO EAT FAT!!! I know many of them...i can barely eat meat but they are crazy for FAT!! I'm tryin to get rid of the FAT in my body, but they EAT it to GET MOREEEE hahaha...well whatever lol
then we watched Miss Estonia and Ugly Betty haha.. i ate half of the cookies they had on the table..
they had one huge monster dog there...bigger than me.. i was too scared to touch him even tho i like dogs..

u should be able to see one pic here
[link]
and another of me and vaarika
[link]

ok ..i can't wait to get to a CITY..big city..lol...idk why but im sick of towns and FARMS already..i live in a small town with population of 7000 people..its nice here but still.. grr

i'm home alone right now.. dad is workin-comes home at weekends-no then he is at countryhouse- that means i dont live with my dad anymore. mom is at countryhouse right now, should come home soon because vaarika is goin there for some days i guess. bro just went to drive her there. relika and annika are somewhere. they were just here.. gerlika is at work..allan is at work..marcus is at kindergarten.. even my dog aint home.. YAY- i can listen to music LOUD hahahaha..

should go to post office soon.
i dont spend much time here on DA anymore. i haven't taken many pictures.. i'll try to post some..so u wont forget me here lol

anyway
take care ya'll
hugs

ps. it is COLD . one day i was layin on the grass..and sun was shinin..and it was cold...so i came up with new expression...cold sunshine.. meow

]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/14315261/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/14315261/ Fri, 24 Aug 2007 07:11:46 PDT
I haven't written here a long time. Anyway.. Life's been crazy.

July is already over. And August is almost over. Summer is OVER! This sucks BIG! I wish..we had longer summer here. What can we look forward to now? Cold and dark winter! How fun!!! (sarcasm of course)

I joined the au-pair agency already. EF Cultural Care. And I sent my documents..and If everything will go well, I could leave on 12th September already. But I know that probably I gotta wait a little longer. But USA has been my dream for years, and now..doors are open and I can do whatever I want, so hell yeah, why not

I've been up to a lot. lol. not really. i was just at our countryhouse helping to nurse my grandmom for 3 days. yeah..again. i get sick of stuff real fast and yeah i was counting minutes and hours and days to get back at home. it's very tiring there. i was with my sister Gerlika. well, she's fun, so..thats something positive. I couldn't imagine being there with someone else..like some other sister..I'd deff die!! haha. It's good to have at least one awesome sister

What else.. it was my parents 27th wedding anniversary yesterday. so they went away today to one spa for one or 2 days. that's cool. i can be home alone. well, not really. gerlika moved back here from other sis's place and tormi came home too. so our whole apartment is full of gerlika's stuff haha.. i'm in livingroom right now and there are tons of her shoes on the floor..her bags..and if u go to my room..there's all of her make-up (which is awesome haha) and other stuff..and then parents room .where she sleeps now..etc..it's fun! i was like: "i was waiting for you to come back, here's tons of room for you!!" ( i'm home alone a lot). (:

so here I am. alone again. took a bath and straightened my hair. feeling good. but something is missing. i miss hanging out with my friends. and partying. i often HAVE to nurse grandmom at weekends, because everyone else are busy then, and.. most of my friends are here or have free time...at weekends..so...it's sad. gotta sacrifice a lot. well... that's life..right..

well...i'm gonna USE this weekend!!! going to one bday party on Sunday, which will be awesome!!! Finally...I don't wanna work in those next days and I would die if I'd have to go back at our countryhouse right now.. I came home today.my parents are away, one sister always says she doesn't wanna go there so she doesn't help, gerlika went to someone's wedding today..and..so..one more sister left..she went there today..she's never nursed grandmom like this before..i told her how to feed..and i came home..i have no idea if she'll survive there..but i was tired and wanted to come home.. i mean..it's mostly me and my mom and Gerlika who nurse granny..and these other 2 sisters..they barely help. come on, it's not like we really WANNA do that..it's just that..she's my granny..she took care of me when i was a kid..and now it's my turn..well, i hope they will understand that one day. it's not that i know HOW to take care of her or nurse..but sometimes..all that matters..is that you are THERE for her..listen..and care when she cries.

she cried a lot yesterday..and today..and...it's the moment when you feel yourself so helpless..oh well..

i'll stop now..tired of typing.

hope ya'll are good and havin a nice summer.

HUGS

]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/13784901/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/13784901/ Wed, 18 Jul 2007 17:19:29 PDT
Woohoo

haha



]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/13731077/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/13731077/ Sat, 14 Jul 2007 09:52:00 PDT
“Run your fingers through my soul. For once, just once, feel exactly what I feel, believe what I believe, perceive as I perceive, look, experience, examine, and for once; just once, understand.”

“You don't have a soul. You are a Soul. You have a body.”
C.S.Lewis

“When you kiss me, without uttering a single word, you speak to my soul”

“The soul that can speak through the eyes, can also kiss with a gaze”

“The most important of life's battles is the one we fight daily in the silent chambers of the soul.”
David McKay

“Friendship is a single soul dwelling in two bodies.”
Aristotle

Don't wish me happiness-I don't expect to be happy it's gotten beyond that, somehow.
Wish me courage and strength and a sense of humor-I will need them all.
Anne Morrow Lindbergh

What makes a river so restful to people is that it doesn't have any doubt -
it is sure to get where it is going, and it doesn't want to go anywhere else.
Hal Boyle

Dubito ergo cogito; cogito ergo sum.
(I doubt, therefore I think; I think therefore I am)
Rene Descartes

Doubt makes the mountain which faith can move
Proverbs

Don't be afraid to fail. Don't waste energy trying to cover up failure.
Learn from your failures and go on to the next challenge. It's OK to fail.
If you're not failing, you're not growing.

Don't shirk away from challenges... keep reaching for that star, that sky.

There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace....

Everyone smiles in the same language.

]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/13548215/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/13548215/ Sat, 30 Jun 2007 06:13:34 PDT
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She has beautiful eyes.

Happy Summer!

]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/13405325/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/13405325/ Tue, 19 Jun 2007 10:08:35 PDT
Haven't written here long time again.. where should I start..

BRB phone..

Back. Okay sorry I'm dying my hair atm. wait, i'll go wash my hair and then i'll be back..BRB

ok i'm back..took me about 7 minutes..where was i..in the beginning..haha..

umm..

okay the exams are over..and i already know ALL results..wanna hear? this waiting was so stressful..i knew i was gonna fail at least biology, because like i said.. I DIDN'T STUDY ANYTHING..i was playing cards in lessons with guys and no one really cared about it. teacher was strange also haha. okay i'll tell u my results..these were my final exams to finish high-school..i did geography last year already because we didnt have geography this year..and you need 20 points to pass the exam..from 100.

Estonian, essay- 48 (could have been better)
Society, politics and stuff like that- 58 (yay)
Biology- 36 ( haha, i'm SO happy, im SOOO happy)
English- 73 ( i didn't expect so much..makes me smile)
Geography- 60

just the fact i didn't study for any of these..like all the others did..they spent weeks and months studying all the time..what was i doing then? i was just hanging around haha..and the fact i took the risk like this..makes me so happy..because..I PASSED ALL THE EXAMS WITHOUT EVEN STUDYING!!!! hahahaha...LIKE IM SO FUCKIN PROUD OF MYSELF HAHA..

i'm just so happy.. i will graduate this Friday the 22nd June at 3pm with all my friends..I remember in 9th grade I doubted if this high-school is for me and if i'll make it..but i took the risk and in 10th grade ..i was so mad at myself for choosing this..it was hard..i remember sitting in book-keeping lesson and looking around with this empty gaze and numb feeling..i didn't understand anything..and i thought i was gonna be kicked out of school..i was so scared every day..well..i skipped school a lot too..and i never studied..and i was even scared this year..in 12th grade..of being kicked out of school..and here i am ..it's all over someone should hug me, don't you think? well, i told my mom i never have to study again 10 minutes ago...and now she told me i can go wash dishes, because i don't have to study..yay haha

i don't think i should write what i've been up to.. it doesn't really matter.. i just told ya whats most important.. school is over

let's celebrate!! you're invited to my party on Friday..or you can come to my graduation haha. love ya all very much

thanks for everyone who have been encouraging and always there for me. i appreciate that

]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/13009323/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/13009323/ Sat, 19 May 2007 05:21:50 PDT
haven't written here long time..

everything is alright here..

whats the biggest news?
my sister came home..the one who lived in america for 7 years..she's finally home..and guess what..it's boring here so, she follows me all the time and asks "what ya doin?" lol...and the only answer i can give is: "Nothing" lol we just sleep and eat ...

we have guests today.. my granny and aunt..fun..

what i've done the whole week... nothing.. i don't have school anymore..i mean, we have exam period so i don't have classes anymore and GOSH my grades are GREAT lol..i don't know HOW i managed to do that but in the end the teachers had mercy on me..oh how awesome is this?? haha...so..its ALMOST over..i have last biology exam in 1 week..subject i know nothing about! seriously..i don't know ANYTHING..i will start studying next week..haha..yes NEXT week lol..last week..so..do u think i'll make it?? haha...i'm such a lazy ass bastard..i must study and i don't do anything..someone shoot me now! grrrr..i hate this part of me!

well..whatever..at least the weather is awesome..hot..sunny...i like it! i mean, i have tons of make up on, but i still go and try to tan..haha..yesterday me and my 2 sisters..the oldest ones..went shoppin..i mean to this one crappy store Säästumarket.. it's the cheap one where you can buy anything..prob like Walmart or something..so we went to buy food..and then i found some tshirts..i found this one black i really liked..it cost only 34 krones..its about..2 dollars haha..so i bought it..and my sisters bought it too hahaha...this was fun..i have this on at the moment...cheap feeling but i love it

i dont know what to write here anymore. i graduate in a month..i havent bought dress yet..or anything..

i need to find a job for summer..oh man..

i guess i'm gonna stop now..hope everyone is doing fine..



]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/12785876/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/12785876/ Mon, 30 Apr 2007 03:27:16 PDT











so she got in favor again- helped teacher to blow this buccin, go vaarika " />

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haha (if u dont find it funny, then i can be honest with u and say this was the furthest they deared to go so no worries" />







dennis had a rough night, we all had, but its possible to see that from his face" />







]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/12763543/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/12763543/ Sat, 28 Apr 2007 07:11:48 PDT [link]

its just horrible whats happenin here in estonia.
what these russians are doing.

it's getting scary here.

]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/12318273/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/12318273/ Sun, 25 Mar 2007 04:24:54 PDT Life's been pretty busy busy busy lately..last month. Okay I'll just start from the beginning of this recent week.
I went to Tartu on Monday by bus. Alone. Then from there, we all met and went on another bus that took us all over 90 teenager to Kääriku. We slept in hotel, that was good. So we had our main meetings and small group meetings. Plus lots of games and free time activities. I spent most of my free time doing bracelets or painting my nails with other girls haha. I did play basketball too haa..and played slap uno how cool was that! haha
I met lots of new people and americans also. They were awesome and so sweet and caring Really enjoyed their company ..they taught me one new game also..like ..circle game..anyone knows that?
Last night we stayed up 'til 5 or something..just played cards and had fun..
Saying goodbye was awful and sad..almost everyone were in tears..then we came home..1 hour from Kääriku to Tartu and 2 hours from Tartu to Türi..

On Friday I went back to Tartu by bus..another 2 hour drive..haha..we had afterparty..and everyone were in tears again..it was just such awesome time together!

Yesterday I had some guests..grandmom and aunt Merle.. then I went to church to practise our dance with girls.. etc..organized FAN:the fire etc.. BTW u know, we get about 300 coca-colas free and some other free stuff..how awesome is God!

Today. I just came from church. The pastor talked about respect, how important it is. It was good ... it's such huge problem lately in our society.

And my holiday is over . I haven't got any sleep. I am tired..I am not ready..but I don't care..

I am just so thankful..for everything.

]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/12166306/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/12166306/ Tue, 13 Mar 2007 08:14:41 PDT How cool is that?

I am actually really happy. Because I have God by my side? Yeah! It's actually such good feeling. Whatever happens- it's gonna be alright. He's gonna take care of it. Just because He promised. That's said in Bible:

Passage Matthew 7:7-15:
Ask, Seek, Knock

7 "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.
9 "Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? 11 If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! 12 So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets.

Just thought to share.

I've been going to school now for 1 week and 2 days. Wohoo! It's a record this semester I think. Haha. Crazy.. I really thought I will take the best of my last school semester ever, but ha, didn't come out the way I planned.
So this week is the last week before the spring holiday. I will go to one camp next week for 4 days, from Mon-Thursday. It's called English Camp, and there are about 20 americans who come here and just chill and teens have opportunity to communicate with them and get better in english, plus there are many other chill-out activities planned. It is organized by christians but not only for them. So I hope it will be fun. How much I wished I had a camera, but I don't.. I have non-digital camera, but haa.. I have 2 rolls of film on my shelf unexposed from last 2 years. Grrrrrr...

After that.. in 2 weeks...FAN:the fire will take place. The event for youth all over Estonia that me and my friend are planning. It's been stressful last 2 weeks doing everything and thinking and thinking.. Now the things are better. We have 3 great bands: Source Of Light(SOL-rock), Band Of Brothers(BOB-ska-punk) and Hannes & Co (worship). How cool is that? Plus we have some dancers and preachers etc. And we are planning to do a dance too, me and my friends, we had our first practice yesterday and one today ..

What else... umm.. my mom is away for a week in Finland doing the drama Heavens gates & Hells flames.. the drama I've been bounded up too.

Uh, my coffee is cold now.. just because I'm writing this and forgot it..anyone likes cold coffee? I do, not a fan of it, but can handle it. lol. It's better to drink it all in one sip so it's all gone faster. cold coffee i mean.

Ohhhh.. Weather is so pretty here now.. Wished I could show you all, but ah come here. Today I went to school before 9 and mmmm... sun was shining..birds were singing..like a beautiful spring day...i am so thankful for that..i soooo needed sun and it is finally back to us... people are so much friendlier and happier..you can see it from their face..estonians get really depressed in winter..just because it lasts sooo long..for half a year..now the happiness returns and we just smile, yeah US the estonians who look so numb and who never smile on street and who are weird. yeah US.
I am actually proud to be estonian. Our country is so highly developed technically. We have e-society.. e-school..e-voting..you know all these e-services.. everything through internet and cell phone..we can park our car by sending a SMS and even get loans by just sending one SMS.. my school grades and homework is all on internet..and so on..i like it.. skype and hotmail and kazaa were made by estonians.. just remember the name E-Estonia
want more info? check these sites:
http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/12000054/ Wed, 28 Feb 2007 12:30:32 PST
I have been home for a week. And starving. Haha. My brother said today, it has been avail for me, because I've lost a lot of weight. Haha, thats what he always wants! Boys!
No comments about school work. It doesn't exist.
Pain killers are my best friend.

My mind has been pretty busy lately actually. Me and my friend, we decided to do one youth event here in Estonia that we've wanted to dor for years. Now we got the motivation we needed and will. So, we named it FAN:the fire. It's for youth all over Estonia. And it's christian event. For christians. It's going to be fun. Yeah, I quit smoking like over a month ago ..
Here's the web page I did today [link]

Yeah sucky I know. We just needed to do something ..

We even wrote a project .. to get money from companies and stuff..

How fun! LOL!

There are like 3 bands coming and stuff.. AND GUESS! I am one of the main organisers! LOL. I feel so weird. I have organised such BIG event! Well, we still are doing it, but hey, crazy! And its almost organised in one week ! lol.. being ill pays off

crazy..

oh and its 30-31 march. if you have money you don't use, we need it, send it! I hope we get money to pay for 3 bands, preachers, dancers and helpers and food hahhahahah

]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/11894799/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/11894799/ Tue, 20 Feb 2007 13:05:37 PST But, what doesn't kill us, makes us stronger, right?
I am better now. Only head cold ..
About last week.
My sister's apartment burned down. It was a crazy night. Apartments around her's burned down also..and the firemen just standed there half of the time! They looked so ninnyhammers! I am sorry, but yeah. Everyone were yelling at them to move faster and stuff.. my sister started crying.. oh it was crazy to see this all..

Now she's back here living with us. And she wears my clothes, lol..

Everything was just like..going better...and then this..

" I hope this life isn't a joke, because I don't get it.."

But yeah, it's alright. Life's okay.

I will have my surgery on thursday. Day after tomorrow.
I went to Paide today, gave blood. Some blood tests. It was alright.

School is crap though. My grades are bad and I've missed so much. But hey, can't help it.

Much love to ya'll... all my friends out there. Love you!



]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/11807388/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/11807388/ Wed, 14 Feb 2007 01:17:37 PST
so..to all my friends here..Hope you have one awesome..day..week...year...life!

I am doing okay also. Actually..not really..

guess why...



i am ILL again...
yeah..AGAIN..

ive been ill for at least one month..or a year?!

crazy..i should have surgery with my tonsils next week..and now i have spent last days in bed with fever and head cold and such bad and painful cough..i feel weak. I've taken all kind of medicines etc..and now i started taking antibiotics again..my last hope..

its valentines day and im here alone at home..it so sucks... i would better go to school...

God, help me!

]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/11527136/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/11527136/ Mon, 22 Jan 2007 07:45:05 PST It felt really weird though. To be without one tooth. Like crazy feeling. I still hope i will get a new one soon.Its like..from 2 first teeth in front..it was..4th after them..so its pretty in front but still far enough so when i smile no one will see it hahaha

crazy still. new tooth costs thousands so..yeah. at least i am still 18 so i don't have to pay for all this.

well.

i missed 4 days school from last week. was ill. nice , again.
today i went to school then. well, had only half day, because dentist was in the morning at 9 o'clock. Well, then.. I had driving lesson at 15.30 and now i am sitting here .. I'll go out with Vaarika soon, to take pictures. It FINALLY started snowing last week..Amazing! Seriously. It looks so beautiful now.....So....WINTER-LIKE!

Everyone's satisfied now.
But well, estonians are NEVER satisfied with weather. Thats a fact! If its cold, everyone wants warm. If its warm, everyone's sick of it. If its hot, they are mad and miss winter etc blah blah.

I'm going to Saaremaa on Thursday with my uncle's family. Vaarika is my cousin, so with her parents and sister. They are doing this drama there so I'll go with them to help them and I heard there are lots of youth etc so its nice. PLUS there's one girl I want to meet, we've been chatting on messenger and on my-space so yeah..

It will be fun. And I'll skip school again. How cool is that!? haha.

Hell yeah!! ˇˇ CANT WAIT!

I'll have my surgery in a month with my tonsils. Should I look forward to it? I don't know. I want this to be over already.



Just a little winter blog.
Wish I could show you, how beautiful it is.. Come on here, baby


]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/11158072/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/11158072/ Sat, 23 Dec 2006 04:27:25 PST
It's me.

Just wanted to wish you all Merry Christmas and happy new year!

I know internet hugs dont mean much, but thats all I can give.

Tuuuuli hugs you all so so so much!! ;*

kisses also.

here's a picture of me taken on thursday ,christmas party at school:

[link]

you all.

mwahhh

]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/10971418/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/10971418/ Thu, 07 Dec 2006 03:25:22 PST
I used to be tomboy. I hanged with boys and I was wild. I mean.. I liked extreme things. I remember playing with cars together with my twinbrother. And once my uncle even gave us both matchbox car's as gifts. Mine was pink and sport version and I remember loving it a lot. I loved fixing things. Maybe its because its what my dad always does. I liked to pull nails out of the wood and play with screw driver a lot. I guess it was when I was age 5 until 6. Then I went to school at age 7. We all collected stickers. That was the biggest hobby these days. I still have all these stickers somewhere in my closet that mean a lot to me. I had them hundreds. Cool. I remember when my dad worked in Finland and he brought home some magazines of all the places in Finland where you can have fun and enjoy winter, magazine full of beautiful winter in Finland and extreme sport people jumping off the mountins and so on. I remember looking at those pictures forever and enjoying them. They calmed me down. Everytime I was angry or sad I went into my room and brought out those magazines...and stared at those pictures..
I remember we didn't have computers these days.. it was such new thing.. they had computers in the public library and we went there to use them.. We just surfed the net and I got lots of penpals. I loved it. I had penpals from USA, Italy, Finland etc. One penpal I remember was older than me, a guy, his name is Isamu. I guess I was 13 or 14 when I met him, he was maybe 17. We had such conversations. Btw my first e-mail address was tuuli.vahtra@mail.ee haha. He saw a dream of my 17th birthday when i went out with him and we met face to face. We both believed it will come true, it was fun. He was such a good friend of mine. He was from ..uhm.. Jordan.. yeah..cool. We chatted like this for years.
Then..time came..It only took some years..and EVERYONE had computers at home..crazy I know..Estonia has developed THAT much since I was born. When I was a kid, we couldnt even buy icecream much or buy new clothes. We had deposit. You maybe had money to buy something, but you couldnt find anything from the shops! Everyone had similar clothes, crockery..everything. That should show you WHAT Soviet Union was like. Oh let me tell you more.haha. Everything was under control . Media . They lied. They lied to the world that we were happy here but we were far from that. No news from the world came to us. And it all was forbidden. My dad told me how her dad, my granddad, used to listen secretly to American Voice from the radio, he had to listen to it quietly, even though it was not clear , just because no one would hear. You couldnt trust your neighbors, if they heard they could tell someone else and you could get in big mess. Oh.. its sad.. Im not gonna tell you about everything..but all those stories..if you'd know..

OH i have one crazy story though that my dad told me .. He worked in some place where he had to clean the guns or etc. So, it was boring and once he saw those 3 drawers and he got this idea to paint them. He painted them Blue-Black-White. Guess what. Next day his boss came and told him he got new job ..in some garage or something where he had to fix something that he even couldnt. He was just sent away from the area that was public and for everyone to see. Just because he painted those drawers in ESTONIAN colors, that was not allowed. it was forbidden. You could go to prison. Maybe I've written about this here before. Doesnt matter...

Oh, my topic.
uh..

I fell in love with art. Taking pictures. Looking at pictures...I went to art club.. at school..I enjoyed it.. We did a lot of glass paintings..and stuff like this. I still have all this stuff..

My future is near to art. I'll never leave art

PS! It came out Im pretty near to having anemia. Typical signs are poor energy, difficulty with everyday activities--climbing stairs or walking uphill--and greater need for sleep. Pallor, another symptom, may appear as pale or white nail beds, lips, palms or tongue. Symptoms of anemia include:7,8,9,10

* Fatigue
* Weakness
* Shortness of breath
* Dizziness or fainting
* Pale skin, including decreased pinkness of the lips, gums, lining of the eyelids, nail beds and palms
* Rapid heart beat (tachycardia)
* Feeling cold
* Sadness or depression
* Decreased sexual function
* Difficulty sleeping
* Decreased appetite

Anemia (ah-NEE-mee-ah) is a medical condition that occurs when a person does not have enough red blood cel... ]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/10957768/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/10957768/ Tue, 05 Dec 2006 08:08:42 PST
I think I wanted to say that if anyone of you has myspace then my myspace is [link]
And if you add me, make sure you say that you are from DA, because I might not recognize you .. sorry.. I don' t add people I don' t know Just, so you'd know.

Life is pretty okay. Had nice weekend.. Went to Viljandi with dad, sister and brother. Shopping. I actually didn't find anything I wanted, yeah crazy I know, but I bought some pink socks and candles and incenses..and black eye shadow. Nice, huh. Lol.
My mom came back from Finland yesterday also, she got 3 room apartment in HELSINKI! Crazy! I mean, I love Finland. And she lives pretty near to one mall there East Center, if translated into english. But I am not sure if she continues working there. well lets see.
I didn't go to school yesterday and today. I went to see doctor yesterday, got some medicine and had to give blood test. And I'll go to see ear, nose, and throat doctor this Friday, which will be fun, because my good friend and cousin and deskmate in school will go there also, my time is 10.00 and her is 10.20, so its cool , haha, we both will try to get to sign up to go to surgery with tonsils, to get the m cut out. But there are so long queue's in biggest cities like Tallinn and Tartu where it would be much better to have surgery, but I think I will choose Paide then.. One classmate of mine will go to Paide also with same problem 22th Dec, it means her christmas are ruined. I hope I'll get mine next year then. Oh and I tried to get dentist check also, but she didn't have time til next year, like January, it sucks ah.
So yeah..
Uh, Im confused. I think I will go to ARK tomorrow morning, to do my theory exam again. I've practised, but.. oeh...
LISTENING : Evanescence "Hello"

Anyone likes Laguna Beach? I do

and I just smoked my last cig haha...fuck huh?!

]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/10798989/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/10798989/ Tue, 21 Nov 2006 11:08:41 PST i failed my first theory exam last week, i mean licence's.
i'll go again next wednesday.
i had math big test today..like summit..or..level thing. didnt go that well.
all my friends are in love. im desperate. i sent sms to my ex-bf. what the fuck.
im such boring person. because im bored.and bored people are boring.
i skipped school today. fun.
i smoke a lot.
i got caught. now my cousins and mom know i smoked. they dont know i still do. fun life, huh.
i feel like there's something i miss..like the song lyrics:
"and I just wish that i didnt feel like there was something i missed ."

oh well.
its dark outside. i have dark thoughts. i even painted my nails black. fun. fun. fun.

fuck you fuckin fuck.

]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/10590766/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/10590766/ Thu, 02 Nov 2006 07:58:33 PST -Birthday: 19.07.1988
-birth location: Paide, Estonia
-Current Location: Türi, Estonia
-Hair Color: blonde
-Height: 176 cm
-The Shoes You Wore Today: Adio sneakers
-Your Fears: being alone in a darkness, heart attack
-Your Perfect Pizza: not much meat, a lot of cheese etc
-Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: hmm
-Your Bedtime: whenever i feel to
-Pepsi or Coke: coke
-McDonalds or Burger King: mcdonalds
-Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: nestea
-Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla
-Cappuccino or Coffee: coffee
-Do you Smoke: yes, sometimes lol
-Do you Sing: no
-Have you Been in Love: not your business
-Do you want to go to College: yes
-Do you want to get Married: of course
-Do you believe in your self : i do
-Do you get Motion Sickness: rare
-Are you a Health Freak: sometimes
-Do you like Thunderstorms: they are scary
-Do you play an Instrument: yeah
-In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: YES and A LOT
-In the past month have you Smoked: YES and AAA LOOT
-In the past month have you been on Drugs: no
-In the past month have you gone to a Mall: is that a Question? ofcourse!
-In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: nah
-In the past month have you eaten Sushi: no
-In the past month have you been on Stage: i guess not
-Do you work (as in official work) : no
-Favourite Eye Colour: brown or blue
-Favourite Hair Colour: brown, black
-Short or Long Hair: long
-Best Clothing Style: well look at me
-Number of Drugs I have taken: hmm
-Number of CDs I own: estonians dont buy much cd's.we steal.lol.
-Number of Piercing: 2
-Number of Tattoos: none
-Number of things in my Past I Regret: i dont regret anything i have done, i learn from them..

stolen from [link]

]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/10544038/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/10544038/ Sun, 29 Oct 2006 03:04:21 PST
Friday was the last day in school for us, we have one week long holiday now and it makes me feel good. My marks were pretty okay, I didn't fail in any subject so yay for me.

Im taking driving lessons again. Next one is tomorrow. My driving school doesn't cost much, only 3300+1100(exam) krones. Usually they cost about 5000-10,000. It cost to my brother about 6000, just because he went to other driving school than I did. He went one month later than I did and he already got his driving licence like 5 or 6 months ago, you see, this is how long I've already messed with this stuff, but the problem is in teacher, he has so many students and he is doing a lot of other stuff also, so he is a busy man and i only get like one lesson in a week, so it sucks. Whatever.

LAST WEEK: only party after party after afterparty. every day I've just partied with my friends! since last week's friday ..plus next week. it has been fun. drinking and smoking everyday. lol. let's get this party started. i didnt party yesterday, but had one huge on this friday..mm. (:

oh happy first snow..
i'm about to finish eating now, so byebye (:
love

]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/10247855/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/10247855/ Sun, 01 Oct 2006 12:23:15 PDT
It's one lovely quote I found today.

Skillet- "Collide" is so good song.

I was at PP for 2 days. I came back yesterday. There were also some good bands like Death Is Not Welcome Here from UK and Under Your Skin from I dont-know-where. I enjoyed them a lot. Such good rock.

I havent taken photos lately. I wish I could. Oh, actually I did, with my friends camera. But I guess she deleted them all. I kind of liked them, but what the hell could I have done to save my pictures. Nothing. I so love photography. I could watch one photo forever and learn a lot from it. Oeh.. I love art. I love good thoughs...

I wish.
I wish I could fly.
I dont like to wish anymore.
I used to say what I want or what I think.
I dont anymore.
It's pointless. Even speaking is.
Im not depressed or whatever.
Im just being realistic.
I've learned a lot. Peope never have time. People do not care. They say they do, but it's actions that count. It doesnt even shake me anymore. Im used to it.
I do talk. But not about everything. Everything is nothing.
I see how having much is having nothing.
How money is nr1 in our lives, but it doesnt satisfy us. The more money you gain- the sooner it flies away.

I've understood how lovely can music be. How inspiring. How sincere.

Through music we express ourselves. How come no one understand us then? When we listen to something a lot, then it shows that its the way we think also. So, if I listen to some sad song, doesnt it mean I am sad ? How come people dont come and ask whats wrong? Well, I can say. I understand people a lot. And how and why they behave some way. Im serious. I really think a lot about people's behaviors and the reasons behind them. It kind of comes naturally. And It's like..I see behind their actions without them telling me whats going on in their minds. Its interesting. I understand how people feel, without them telling me that. I think its a good thing.

Actually there are loads of things I would like to have. I know I wont get them in near future. Sad, but true. Im gonna list them, I hope it makes me feel better, because at the moment, this is my diary, so I should say
"Dear, Diary, here are some things I really want:
*love
*hug
*love
*new clothes
*love
*mascara
*new cell phone, because mine is broken already
*new bed
*love
*ipod or cell phone with mp3-player(these are really cheap here in estonia btw)
*nice bag
*love
*DA subscription
*money to go swimming and gym
*love

i guess i want too much.
but i am happy that i am not spoiled.
makes me sacrifice a lot, but its worth it. i dont take things for granted.

well.
whatever.
bye, Diary.

]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/10182496/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/10182496/ Mon, 25 Sep 2006 12:58:43 PDT [link]
then take a look at this picture:
[link]
I was shocked and amazed
First I thought he is cool. Then I thought that gosh, president is our diplomatist. He is us. He is number 1 in our country. How can he fool like that, and my third thought was that..Oh , what the hell who cares anyway

But, yes..everyone wanted him as our new president. Just because our last one wasnt good at speaking and he was old etc. Ilves is better. He is good as being a diplomatist. But yeah whatever.

So.. congratulations, us, Estonia for our new COOL president Hooray!

]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/9996595/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/9996595/ Thu, 07 Sep 2006 08:49:13 PDT ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/9925567/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/9925567/ Fri, 01 Sep 2006 02:10:57 PDT fuckin school.
fuck it.

wake me up when september ends!
]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/9607646/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/9607646/ Sat, 05 Aug 2006 12:15:29 PDT
this da included.

bye. ]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/9490057/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/9490057/ Fri, 28 Jul 2006 03:30:12 PDT Why do they always send the poor?
Why don’t presidents fight the war?
Why do they always send the poor? [X4]

Kneeling roses disappearing,
into Moses’ dry mouth,
breaking into Fort Knox,
stealing our intentions,
Hangars sitting dripped in oil,
Crying FREEDOM!

Handed to obsoletion,
Still you feed us lies from the tablecloth.
la la la la la la la la la,
Everybody’s going to the party have a real good time.
Dancing in the desert blowing up the sunshine.
Everybody’s going to the party have a real good time.
Dancing in the desert blowing up the sunshine.

SOAD B.Y.O.B
BYOB STANDS FOR: BRING YOUR OWN BOOZE or BRING YOUR OWN BOMBS
ESTONIAN VERSION: KANGEMAD JOOGID OSTA ISE ]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/9422368/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/9422368/ Wed, 19 Jul 2006 01:41:11 PDT
we are adults now. we are 18. we can do whatever we want.

oh well..

im ill.my tonsils are still really bad..

but wtf.

its my birthday. birthday we are all waiting for!!!

there are so many songs in estonian about "tuul & torm" btw.
tuul=wind & torm= storm.

so yeah.. guess what everyone ALWAYS sing for us..not just at our birthday.. ALL THE TIME!

my favorite one is "17-tuul & torm" by Black Velvet

Happy Birthday, Tormi ]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/9386121/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/9386121/ Mon, 17 Jul 2006 12:12:51 PDT
"Good morning," said the railway switchman.

"What do you do here?" the little prince asked.

"I sort out travelers, in bundles of a thousand," said the switchman. "I send off the trains that carry them; now to the right, now to the left." And a brilliantly lighted express train shook the switchman's cabin as it rushed by with a roar like thunder.

"They are in a great hurry," said the little prince. "What are they looking for?"

"Not even the locomotive engineer knows that," said the switchman. And a second brilliantly lighted express thundered by, in the opposite direction.

"Are they coming back already?" demanded the little prince. "These are not the same ones," said the switchman. "It is an exchange."

"Were they not satisfied where they were?" asked the little prince.

"No one is ever satisfied where he is," said the switchman. And they heard the roaring thunder of a third brilliantly lighted express.

"Are they pursuing the first travelers?" demanded the little prince.

"They are pursuing nothing at all," said the switchman. "They are asleep in there, or if they are not asleep they are yawning. Only the children are flattening their noses against the windowpanes."

"Only the children know what they are looking for," said the little prince.

"They waste their time over a rag doll and it becomes very important to them; and if anybody takes it away from them, they cry..." "They are lucky," the switchman said.
chapter 24
...

"Men," said the little prince, "set out on their way in express trains, but they do not know what they are looking for. Then they rush about, and get excited, and turn round and round..." And he added: "It is not worth the trouble..."
(chapter 26)[link]

think about it.. it made me think. just. t.h.i.n.k.
love. tuuli.

PS.. I am REALLY ill.. I visited doctor today.My tonsils are really bad. I've got fever and I feel like dead! Im scared.. Im scared to die. ]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/9375868/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/9375868/ Fri, 14 Jul 2006 13:17:43 PDT [link]

you see. it doesnt show some of the words normally.

so i need help with html..

it doesnt show letters like: õ, ä, ö, ü .. etc that are in my estonian language but not in english..

so i dont know what do i need to change in the html of this blog's template.. last one was good template..

what place in the html shows the fact ... gosh i cant explain. i dont even know what is wrong ]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/9277619/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/9277619/ Wed, 05 Jul 2006 03:36:57 PDT I'll go to Tartu.
city where I lived and worked last summer, remember?
Its really cool city, full of college kids, peace and its one of the biggest cities in Estonia. so rock'n'roll. Actually I'll meet some friend and stuff. And my ex-bf too. Oh gosh! Im scared.
Weather is really great here, all the time about 27-30'C .. It's HOT! And We are lovin' it! Listen to System Of A Down "BYOB" lyrics is so true.
"Why don’t presidents fight the war?
Why do they always send the poor?"

Oh yeah.Where the fuck are you?

I dont have any plans made for me and my twinbrother's birthday. Oh well. It would get too crowdy if we both would invite our friends. We have only one apartment.. with 4 rooms. Come on.. What if we both have 1000 friends? Actually we could both invite whole Tyri city.nice party! Oh how good it feels to be twin!
Oh I gotta go.-..

have fun ya all! kisses from me.

Tuuli ]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/9166945/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/9166945/ Sat, 24 Jun 2006 08:10:38 PDT
much love to you all people.. have a nice week out there.. and like some famous person said NEVER, NEVER GIVE UP!



muah
loveya
Tuuli ]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/9115362/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/9115362/ Mon, 19 Jun 2006 11:59:23 PDT Birthday: 19/07/1988
Birthplace: Paide, Estonia
Current Location: Türi, Estonia
Eye Color: greyish blue
Hair Color: blonde or something
Height: 5"9 / 175 cm
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right
Your Heritage: Estonian
The Shoes You Wore Today: white ones
Your Weakness: chips
Your Fears: darkness, walking alone in the evening
Your Perfect Pizza: cheese, cheese, cheese.. + some pineapple + ketchup..nothing else matters! i dont like any meat or any sossige or ham or pepperoni or anything else on my pizza..
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: finish driving school and get my licence..
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: okei
Thoughts First Waking Up: nice sun outside!
Your Best Physical Feature: My eyes or something, my mom likes my smile also
Your Bedtime: whenever whereever
Your Most Missed Memory: being with my grandfather...
Pepsi or Coke: coke
MacDonalds or Burger King: MacDonalds
Single or Group Dates: Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: Coffee
Do you Smoke: Sometimes
Do you Swear: Not really
Do you Sing: nah
Have you Been in Love: maybe
Do you want to go to College: Yes
Do you want to get Married: Yes
Do you belive in yourself: Sometimes
Do you get Motion Sickness: hmm only sometimes..
Do you think you are Attractive: umm..?
Are you a Health Freak: yeah sometimes, because my sister is health freak
Do you get along with your Parents: my dad is cool , but i dont get along with my mom sometimes
Do you like Thunderstorms: Nooo..
Do you play an Instrument: yeah a lil bit keyboards
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yeah
In the past month have you Smoked: yep..
In the past month have you been on Drugs: hmm.. not really
In the past month have you gone on a Date: No
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: Yeah
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: whaaat is oreos??
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: we dont have sushi here, so no
In the past month have you been on Stage: i dont remember
In the past month have you been Dumped: No
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: Nope
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: my sisters make up
Ever been Drunk: yeah
Ever been called a Tease: No
Ever been Beaten up: hmm
Ever Shoplifted: Nah
How do you want to Die: in peace ..
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: good person
What country would you most like to Visit: Usa.. Creece..Portugal..Japan..
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: Brown
Favourite Hair Color: brown
Short or Long Hair: between short and long..
Weight: athletic look
Number of Drugs I have taken: hmm
Number of CDs I own: 20-50
Number of Piercings: 2
Number of Tattoos: None
Number of things in my Past I Regret: some..

Its so hot here in Estonia, you MUST come to visit me! ]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/9087654/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/9087654/ Fri, 16 Jun 2006 13:35:34 PDT
my dad just came from work..

and he showed me pictures he took with his cell phone..

and I told him we gotta make him an accound on DA

and he agreed.

so he's account is

[link]

go check his first picture..and say hi to him

I will be adding pictures for him and I'll translate everything to him and translate what he says in estonian to english...

check what he said in his profile. I told ya. My dad is cool

I'll add soon his ID .. we didnt find one he likes yet..


Much love to ya all... ]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/9067618/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/9067618/ Wed, 14 Jun 2006 14:17:37 PDT
Rihanna "Unfaithful"
Kelly Osbourne "One word"
Ashlee Simpson & Missy Elliott "L.O.V.E"
T.A.T.U "Gomenasai"
3 Doors Down "Landing In London"
:sad:

Why am I so sad and happy at the same time..? I don't like it.
It's so me.. but..
Oeh...

Btw did you see, I use british english, I wrote favourite instead of favorite..and I have to write neighbour instead of neighbor..It's because our english teacher's nickname is "Bean" .. so yeah, she's like Ms Bean!! She just gets on my nerves!!! With her pointless talk! Why am I talking about her? Gosh!

By the way, I am almost on my summer holiday.. almost. I've been going to summer school for almost 2 weeks now.. and Im happy, because I've learned so much, I've done so much, I've done so much myself, I am smarter....and that's what makes me happy.. Just one day left... tomorrow.. with the hardest topic, that I dont understand.. But I wanna start enjoying my summer as all of my friend do.. I really need that.. And I wish I had my own room.. I so need some privacy.. I mean.. Im this kind of person who likes to be with others, but If you want me to be happy then I need some time to be alone and load my batteries.. I'm going through hard hard hard times at home . I dont get along with my sister .. its just that.. i have to live in the same room with her, and we are 100% different. I dont wanna communicate with her, because when she talks with me then 1. she is mad because something i have done wrong or 2. she talks so "yumyum" like with some kid. I hate that. I dont wanna be around her, she brings me down too much. Oh..

Heaven, I need a little hug..

or a smile...

or a warm breeze..

oh no , I dont need anything! ]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/9016803/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/9016803/ Fri, 09 Jun 2006 09:10:31 PDT
Everyone is trying to make it. Only few do.

Everyone is screaming inside. Nobody listens.

We are here alive and so numb at the same time.

We can feel the rhythm, but we are petrified.

We bring new lives into this world, into this unsafe world.

We search for something, but answers are inside of us.

We are never satisfied. We dont realize we've got even more we need.

It makes me sad to see people around me who doesnt know how to be thankful for little things or who doesnt respect others.

I've only sang this one thing today in my mind.. by Pink from "Stupid Girls":

"Where, oh where, have the smart people gone?
Oh where, oh where could they be?"

I've been thinking about this lately. All my girl friends just talk about how they wish they could be thinner and how they wish ..wish..wish.. Yeah, Ive stopped wishing long time ago. I dont need anything! Im happy as I am. Yeah, of course I wanna be thinner too. I need more money also. I wish I had a job. I wish I was smarter. Gosh, I hate to listen to my friend who always talks so negative. She is smart. She passed driving exam with 1st time. I've failed 2 times. Gosh, she has got family who asks how she is doing and stuff. I dont. She gets money if she needs. I dont. She got so good grades in school. Im doing summer school. And so I wrote almost same kind of text in my online blog/diary and she read it and said she got it. Right. How come people dont realize anything! Im not being even negative anymore. I dont give a shit how long it will take me to get smarter or how long it will take me to lose weight. Im not gonna let it ruin my day or week or LIFE! I dont give a shit! Im just trying to enjoy this life with those negative and positive sides. PEOPLE , JUST BE THANKFUL FOR EVERY BREATH YOU TAKE! BE THANKFUL YOU HAVE GOT 2 FEET and 2 HANDS! BE HAPPY IF YOU CAN SEE! BE HAPPY IF YOU CAN HEAR BIRDS SINGING! BE THANKFUL YOU HAVE SOME BREAD ON THE TABLE! Oh, BE THANKFUL YOU CAN USE INTERNET! Just smile, when you see sun shining !! Smile, when you see kids laughing! What else you need? Dont take this life for granted!!!!!!

Im gonna say this again..

DO NOT TAKE THIS LIFE FOR GRANTED! BE THANKFUL, FOR EVERY BREATH YOU TAKE!

With love
Tuuli from Estonia ]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/8974826/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/8974826/ Mon, 05 Jun 2006 04:17:20 PDT
"Take up one idea. Make that one idea your life - think of it, dream of it, live on that idea. Let the brain, muscles, nerves, every part of your body, be full of that idea, and just leave every other idea alone. This is the way to success, that is way great spiritual giants are produced.”

“Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away”

“Carpe diem! Rejoice while you are alive; enjoy the day; live life to the fullest; make the most of what you have. It is later than you think.”

“When we long for life without difficulties, remind us that oaks grow strong in contrary winds and diamonds are made under pressure”

“Life is the art of drawing without an eraser.”

“The greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do.”

]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/8918482/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/8918482/ Tue, 30 May 2006 06:23:57 PDT
]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/8900340/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/8900340/ Sun, 28 May 2006 09:21:57 PDT we went to their schools.. played golf, went climbing..boat trips.. discussions over environment (ha).. met EU representive in Amal.. visited Aquaduct.. shopped.. ate pizza..partied .. ha. thats all..

i have geography national exam tomorrow.

my school grades are shit.
i am not sure if i even finish. and im serious..

i am sad. ]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/8755246/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/8755246/ Sat, 13 May 2006 02:09:39 PDT
first every night with austria people for one week..and then with burlgarian and swedish people ..they left today morning..we were out with all of these groups of people EVERY NIGHT..and now ...i just came from driving lesson..i had to do backwards slalom and ..this..when you have to back up between boxes..and in the end..teacher said "Well done!" Am I happy or what??? Last sunday I had to drive in one city called Paide and it was so hot that I couldnt think at all and I messed up everything. I was kinda depressed because of that..and yesterday my dad came home and first things he asked was have I been studing these drivings tests and I said no and he was kinda mad or something ..i just havent had time..I have one horrible next week coming because I have to do tons of HARD tests to pass this class..because Im going to Sweden with some people next sunday for one week..soooo...After this there's only one week left and then ...SUMMER HOLIDAY! ...so..now ...if I wont pass next week's tests then I will have one horrible trip to sweden thinking of my grades and then I have to go to school some weeks in summer..not nice. After I come home from sweden I will have geography exam next day. Nice. Looking forward to it.Haa! I just have to do about 3 physic tests and some chemistry and 1 or 2 math tests and then maybe my grades will be OK..Im desperate.

Ive had pretty nice last days with nice people. Bulgarians and swedish are all about 15-16 years old..We.estonians who are going to sweden are the oldest from this group..we are all 18 in some days or in some months. So yeah. cool.

Im going to Herta's birthday party today. Wow..We are all looking forward to it. We imagined it as this..We are all sitting there..one of my friends Helit is our alcoholometer (Haa)..So it works like this..We are all gonna drink until we see Helit turning into beautiful girl. HHAHA She agreed. Actually we are all gonna drink until we are under the table. This is going to be wild night. Ohyeah! Gosh, ..

Im gonna spend sunday to sleeping..and studing..
and then whole next week studing studing and studing..
lets see how it turns out..
and then Evelin's wild birthday party on friday..
and then saturday sleeping probably and then sunday-monday on the boat going to sweden..and then this week there going to visit their schools and city Amal and stuff..and of course partying! Its expensive there..but lets see..

Much love to ya'll..

Thanks for your comments and faves!! I really appreciate everything!
Tults ]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/8731614/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/8731614/ Wed, 10 May 2006 15:15:17 PDT
have a nicee day.

muahhhhhhhhhhhhhh ]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/8617774/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/8617774/ Sat, 29 Apr 2006 03:55:06 PDT Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm, bleeding

This is my last resort

Cut my life into pieces
I’ve reached my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm, bleeding
Do you even care if I die bleeding?
Would it be wrong?
Would it be right?
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And I’m contemplating suicide

Cuz I’m losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I’m fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I’m fine


Oh yeah, rock on babe.

Actually I just got one strange mood when I started listening to my-favorite-song-from-papa-roach again.. You know, my brother doesnt listen to rock much at all, he used to hate when I listened to it and guess what.. Some weeks ago..I heard that someone was listening to this song "last resort" sooo loud in other room..and repeated this song thousand times. and I found out it was my twinbrother.Haa! And so like..I listened to it thousand times..and then he did..so this song was playing for ages in our apartment for weeks.. Now we both have this song as our cell phone tone. Haa! He made it and then he sent this to me too.. Its cool when Im in the lesson ..haha it actually happened in ,..accountancy lesson..and teacher was like "Goosh, what now!! " when suddenly we heard " Cut my life into pieces..This is my last resort..Suffocation..No breathing..Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm, bleeding!" oh i enjoyed it. I enjoy every minute when someone calls me, i dont even accept the call, i just listen to my tune. ha. so people call me!

I've had some pretty buuuusy days and weeks behind.. After germany trip i had to catch up in school and i've still got about 8-10 tests that i have to do..+ new ones. Great. There are some students from Austria in our school too. We have been partying with them last days. Yesterday we had grillparty at one guys garden. It was great. Actually its like..30 people..ALL guys + 3 girls..from some farming school (kmh) and yesterday...about 6 guys were around me, well they all are harassing us estonian girls every minute but yesterday ..2 guys were holding my hand at the same moment and..gosh..so i escaped with one for 30 minutes and we had fun together haha. (kmhh) shhhh, dont tell anyone! We were all pretty drunk actually! REALLY drunk. I drank Gin, Kiss and Fizz + some beer + vodka & rum etc.. Nice huh. Gin, Kiss & Fizz taste like lemonade but they are 4.7 % So you see why estonian people are drinking a lot. Alcohol tastes likes lemonade! Even german people there in Aurich still talk how good stuff here tastes! haha nice for them its cheap also . For us its between cheap and expensive..SO yeah people ..whatever.

As you can see, im in a good mood. Im tired and I have hangover or something but im okay. Actually I like living like we do at the moment..my dad is at home at weekends for 2,5 days and my mom comes home only once in a month for 1-5 days. Bad this is that I have sister who is worser than my parents. + nephew. We had some fight some days ago also, because I didnt have time to clean ..partly because I had to look after her kid and bla blah.
School stuff still needs some effort. Im a slacker as you can see.

Weather here is really beautiful also. Spring..almost summer.. good. People here have finally good mood and smile more.. You dont know hod good it is to see people smiling. THis long winter is over and I finally see grass and asphalt and ...trees..

What else..Hmm..

I've been going to solarium. Nice huh.
I havent taken any photos. Im not inspired at all. I dont have my own camera and I feel shit. Im like...waiting .....I've got this "wonderful" dream in my head that maybe one day my life will be better and maybe then I can afford myself a camera..and I can do what I enjoy..
My main hobbies are travelling and photographing..and ..sleeping.
Im introvert. Yay for me. I've got tons of friends who like me because I am who I am and they adore my jokes and my views and ideas. I just say stupid and pointless stuff all the time. But I... ]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/8496932/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/8496932/ Mon, 17 Apr 2006 07:03:58 PDT
it was cool to be there..

what did we do..--LOADS

usually we woke up at 1pm with Christian..then..drank coffee..watched mtv and viva etc..waited for someone to call..or someone to come..or we went to city..actually we lived IN the city..i had to look out of the window to see people going to New Yorker or H&M and..yeah..it was best place to live. Okay so..
Monday: chilling in da city, meeting friends, then we went at one guys work place ( shop) drank coffee etc..then we were at Dorfplatz..just chatting with everyone..and then we went at this guys place with about 13-15 people to watch movies..SAW1 and SAW 2 ..and i started smoking again.

Tuesday: i went to city with Christian mom to buy some stuff..then we drank some more coffffee hahah.. and..Then i went to movies with Cho..we watched Ice Age 2..it was SO COOL! YAY ! yeah watched tv etc..later we went at Jasmine's place with loadsa friends..watched .SAW 2 one more time because some of them leaved earlier the day before..and then we watched FOG.. and of course we smoked like crazy.

Wednesday: I dont remember what I did in the morning actually..but in the evening we went to Dinis..club ..to dance..oh before that ..all the people came out our place..drank wodka..and beer..and smoke..and waterpipe..etc..it was nice..actually I WAS REALLY DRUNK:.at dinis i drank some more tequila and lemon beck..oh well..i felt REALLY SHIT..and i went out to get some fresh air..oh guess what we did. shit ! mhh..ended up with Cho being mad at me..oh well.

Thursday: i went to sleep about at 2.30am..and I woke up at 5am..couldnt sleep at all until 9am..oh it was shit..i was sad because of this yesterday thing..loads of shit happened..so i slept till 12:30 or something..then loads of people came at our place again..smoked etc..then we ended up being there..Christian..Me..Romina and Dennis..so we went to McDonalds...and then we met Cho and one guy..Cho didnt talk with me..oh well..and then later Dennis & Romina went to borrow a video and we went to CarolinenHof..met some people..chatted..went to Dinis..too early..then me and Christian went back to home to change clothes and get ready and when we ran back it started raining so we were WEEEETTT..and it was scheisse..of course we needed a cig then!
Dinis was boring for them..it was okay for me..they played too much rock music haha..it was fun..then i stayed in Dinis too long..till 1 am..i was allowed to stay there until 1:30 because im 17..and so security man was searching for me..and now im not allowed to go to Dinis for 4 weeks..well..i cant anyway..so its scheissegal! i dont care Me, Jan-Ole, Christian and Cho ended up chatting in Jan-Ole's car from 1am to 3am..about?? SEX,WOMEN and MUSIC HAHA D

Friday: Last real day for me in Aurich..actually i watched half day TV with christian..then Jan-Ole came and we went to Jasmine's place..celebrated Cho's birthday..drinked etc..it was fun

Saturday: woke up 11am..cho came at 2pm or something and our journey back to berlin started..was tiredful..and boring..

Sunday: we were in berlin 1:30 am..so we went to airport..loads of people were sleeping there-..on benches and on the floor..i slept from 2am to 3am..and then i was up all night..until more people started coming there about 4-5 am..first plane went about 6 am ...to...some city i didnt know..oh egal..whatever..

and the trip was over..

i was in tallinn...and my father picked me up..and i was hungry..and i was tired..so tired that i slept all day..and all next night..about 20 hours..and now im here writing..im in BIG trouble..i havent gone to school for 6 days and ....i have no excuse..no paper from doctor..nothing..no parents at home..shit ! ]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/8351956/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/8351956/ Sat, 08 Apr 2006 07:50:21 PDT
there was my childhood friend..who died so ..unexpectedly..last year.. no one was ready for that.. i am pretty sure this guy was happy and he didnt want to die..

and there are people who want to die...

then i thought..that people who have lost their close ones..could blame the ones who are alive and want to go to same place their close ones did.. and how..they blame them for not helping their close one to stay alive ..or like why did their close ones die who were so happy and wanted to live and why didnt this someone die who was sick of life..

oh im just saying this stuff because i was imaging myself how these situations could be..im not saying people should blame others. no..it wasnt my point..

and then i got these words in my head..from nowhere..and i liked them:

"i feel guilty for being alive

for no reason i survive

im sorry that i never tried

im above the clouds touching the sky"

PS: im going to germany to visit my friend on saturday. actually i dont want to go..but oh well..im going there a l o u n e !!! like gosh. im more than scared im pretty sure i'll get lost in Berlin! i always get lost everywhere... im so sick of life. or should i say im alright ? oh it doesnt really matter i guess.. listening to metallica at the moment..
PS vs 2: I MISSED MY PLANE!!!!!!!! GOSH!!! I WAS 10 MIN'S LATE!!!!!!! I feel shit! My friend travelled 10 hours to Berlin to pick me up..when i called him and said i was missed..all i heard for 5 min was: "SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE SCHEISSE ...Did I feel bad? OH FOR SURE! I DISSAPPOINTED HIM! I have no idea where's he 's going to spend the night Im such a stupidassholebiatchwhoshouldbewearingasi gnbackoff! Im leaving tomorrow same time.. ]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/8312242/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/8312242/ Thu, 30 Mar 2006 08:07:47 PST This is my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm, bleeding!
Would it be wrong?
Would it be right?
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And I’m contemplating suicide

Cuz I’m losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I’m fine
Nothing’s alright
Nothing is fine
I’m running and I’m crying

Papa Roach- "Last resort" ]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/8252621/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/8252621/ Fri, 24 Mar 2006 05:34:12 PST
the moments I need
from the past
to keep me alive

the voices
never stop
inside of me

Will you love me
forever and ever

Its the way I feel
The words inside of me
Happiness in darkness
that keeps me alive


*Im doing good. Yesterday we celebrated in Pizzabar ..because we won the fashionshow. Well I ate 1 piece of pizza and I was already full. I ate 3,5 pieces of pizza yesterday. Maximum! Niiice.
Im going to Tartu tomorrow. To see my cousin who is also my friend, she is anorexic and she is in hospital. Has to gain 10 kg. Its good. She's good. She's back to normal thinking. Im happy for her. Then Of course Im going shopping too. I like Tartu. Remember? I used to live and work there last summer
On Sunday im having my next driving lesson Cool!

Oh and then my holiday is over..

Music: P.O.D. "Goodbye for now " & "Will You"
Sorry that my photos suck lately. They do. I dont like my pictures at all. I dont have camera. I have one , but not digital and I havent got money to develop the pictures. Oh well. Egal- in german it means "Whatever"

I'll go out with my friend now..to city. to do nothing. Btw my mom came home too. Nice huh. Well, yeah. Its alright. ]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/8194488/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/8194488/ Sat, 18 Mar 2006 04:24:15 PST
I had fashion show yesterday..I was one of the models. It was competition between fashion designers.

First. I finished school ..went to fashionshow practise 13:00 /1 am. Met some new people. Was nice.

Then. Went home and slept for 20 minutes..

Went back there 16:30/ 4.30 pm. Clothes. make-up. Hair. practise. Loads of models and clothes . Im not gonna talk about all the stuff here what happened, because i just wrote about it to my blog in estonian. Im tired.
SO. we were nr 15..and we did it! How it felt? first time was scary and then it was cool! we danced backstage to feel better. And loads of jokes are part of it also. Most jokes were of Sille's boobs! haha. She had one V neck shirt..and then big boobs..and everytime she moved her boobs almost jumped out of her shirt. So yeah It was fun! When we finished our show then.. me and Kaupo just started laughing and jumping together..and then we found out both of us forgot to think about our bellies..haha..did we look fat or not aha( we were together on the stage..it was like couples together went on the stage).
Okay. When this fashion show ended. Chalice and Hanna-Liisa came on the stage and we had one great concert with them. Chalice is a rapper. and Hanna-Liisa has one greatest voice ever! She's more into Jazz i guess. They rock! It was fun with them..GUESS WHO WON THE FASHION SHOW!!!!!!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM SOOOO HAPPY!!!!
i had much fun with Sille..She made me laugh a lot..and i give loads of credit to people who do something like this . Usually im the one who makes others laugh..and now there was a girl who just made me laugh so i couldnt stop.Thanks Sille! loads of respect to you, girl! So i danced with her.

One dj came on the stage. And it ended with Dj Ryan Angelos dancing on the stage hahhahahhahaha ..i guess u people have no idea who he is..he is one guy from Pimp Tv..haha..Stupid tv ..he dances there ..trance music..he thinks he's cool! haa, he aint! we are just laughin at him! He always starts with "Yo, Yo, Im Dj Ryan Angelos"! Haa! So all the people were taking shots of him dancing and made videos with cell phones and stuff hahah! me too of course!

Dancing and stuff...until I felt how tired I actually was..my feet hurt. SO i went home with Sille. Showed the video to my dad Ha!!

Today . had driving lesson ..not theory..practise..10:00...urgh..it went pretty well! i even had to drive in the city while we came back to our city Türi..urgh. he didnt get mad at me so i think it went well!!!!!!! YEE!

Am I happy ? Or Am I Happy?????

I AM SOOOO HAPPY!



Much love to you all!
PS: our show's name was "Vanity Fair" ..because we are the poshiest biatches!!!
]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/8099494/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/8099494/ Wed, 08 Mar 2006 02:55:09 PST


Hope ya all have a nice and pretty day!

I've drunken 3 cups of coffee already, i have toooo much energy at the moment!!! Im listenin to all kind of rock- from papa roach , nickelback to metallica and blink 182
Im gonna be a model next week in my friends fashionshow.Im gonna wear pink or red skirt and shirt..its one big fashion designers competition here.Nice.I've never been model before and i hate being on stage haha. Great!

"this is how you remind me..of what i really am"

My parents are working.My sis and mom are in Finland.My dad is in Viljandi (city,where my grandmom lives). My second sister got new job too.In beauty salong .Great .Now I have to pick up her son from kindergarten/playschool.She's gonna pay me.Well I go to driving school already.Twice a week.So i'll be able to drive when Im 18 it means 19 july 2006 YAY!

I havent got any flowers yet.Its women day.My cousin who is in prison even called us and wished happy women day I called my sis and mom also and chatted a bit. My other sis's bf is here at home but he wont buy I guess-jerk-haa-so my sis went to city with kid to see doc and i guess she will buy us some flowers too lol
"3 doors down"
I havent went to school for 2 days.Im bit ill.AGAIN! Gosh!
Im gonna go to Germany 8-16 april gosh like.first i didnt want to go and THEN Cho already bought me tickets-gosh-he wanted to make me early b-day present.welllll nice bUT GOOOSH i have to travel ALONE! im bit scared, because i always get lost everywhere! i am scared.but im sure its gonna be fun.Im this kind of person who always starts talking with strangers.everywhere i go i find people to talk with.hhaaha my friends always make fun of me because of [link] funny.last time in german i found about 3 people to talk with.in bar.at volleyball competition and in the bus hahahaha You know, USUALLY i can be shy when i meet someone and i dont talk much, BUT when I see someone i dont know and im sitting near to him/her and she/he seems friendly and im in the funny mood then I start talkin so strange like..gosh! okay whatever

sa rokid! - estonian
sinä rokkad!/sinä olet hyva tyypi! -finnish
you rock! -english
du bist sau cool! - german
]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/7880510/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/7880510/ Wed, 22 Feb 2006 05:19:33 PST I felt something special inside of me when I looked into your eyes.We were together and that
meant so much.Time passed by slowly.I felt evening dusk and your glance on myself.Your
lips.Your eyes.You. Time stopped and we just were there.You took my hand and we started walking
back.No need for words.It was cold outside, but i felt your warm hand touching mine.
Your glance made me feel warm.I knew you loved me.You loved me too much.I kissed you.We
held each other so long.You didn't want me to leave.I felt how your heart broked into
little pieces.You tried to smile, but I saw your sadden heart.I whispered: " I am so sorry !".
I turned to left.You turned to right.And I ran.I looked back.You were
running too..Last time I saw you,my love.


PS: I've got one huge question.I thought about being honest now.and my question is.Why is this "watch" made for? Why people add each other to watch list?or friends list? Like.If I add someone then Im really interested in their art or their personality.I am in 135 people's watch list and I get 1-4 comments for a post.These are all from same persons usually.If I add someone to my watch list then I give my best to look an eye on their new works and stuff.And I comment.I give feedback.I havent got much feedback lately and I wonder are my works really that bad.Yes I appreciate every comment(thanks for all the people who have left comments,mwah) I was just wondering..Im not asking anyone to comment me,im just asking why is this watch list for?! Why have those people added me in their watch list? FOr WHat??

Happy Valentine's Day to everyone.. ]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/7807842/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/7807842/ Wed, 08 Feb 2006 21:49:54 PST Two of our friends there..Kristel & Karolina ( sisters) are the sweetest. We were at their place.It was fun (: I already miss them.

Now im back at home and studing for geography tests.Niiiiiiiiiice.

We did loads of pictures there in Tartu too so I'll add them soon. I'll get the CD tomorrow.And I havent gotten CD of the finland trip yet.Actually I havent even asked for it, because this guy is busy.

Loads of school work to do.I suck.

Listening to music at the moment.or well.all the time.
download some good estonian music.band called Terminaator - they rock.

Alright,so.
Take care ya'll. Its getting cold here grrrrrr - so lets take off all our clothes- yeah!

Tuuli. Tulla. Tullu. Tulkin. Tults. Tultsu. Schwuli. Tulio. Dooley's .

BTW!
-30 C = -86 F
that is the coldest that hits us every winter.its near to this cold at the moment too.. ]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/7710807/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/7710807/ Mon, 30 Jan 2006 06:18:09 PST
I arrived yesterday.at 7 pm.
What did i do there?

Thursday:started driving like about 5am-arrived in Siilinjärvi about 7pm
Friday:built the stage,did stupid videos and pictures with V and A.in the evening had drama rehearsal.and then we went to sauna and watched movies.
Saturday: drama rehearsal all day long.sauna+ movies.
Sunday:drama dress rehearsal and premiere(first drama day).i put microphones on+ was photographer.
Monday: we went to Kuopio shopping.then sauna and then we went to do drama again.second day.me-photographer + put mic's on.
Tuesday:we went to Tahko.its one big mountin there.was only 30 km far from where we lived.yay.i mountin skiied.if i'd had snowboarded then i think i would be dead for now because it was hiiiiiigh ..haa.tho i fell only 2 times.
then we went to sauna again ( we had sauna in our apartment,nice huh) and then it was the last day of the drama.i was doing same as always-put mic's on and took off and then i helped to color satan's face and took photos.then we all took the stage and everything down.packed our stuff and said bye to the people we got to know there.it was so sweet..i met some really sweet people.teens etc.
then we went home and packed our things there.YEAH we were REALLY tired.so we slept for 3 hours...i heard Anzelika's cell phone ringing but we slept in.we woke up like 4 am when Neemo came to our room and said:girls,we are laaaate.." haaa..so we just took our stuff and started driving home.slept and then we had breakfast in Hesburger haha .like 9 [link] we went to one shop for some time..then we were in Helsingi about 11 or 12am and went on the ship.took our laptop inside too so we watched another movie there haha.movieholics we are.sooo...had our lunch in estonian hesburger and what can i say-fnnish hesburger is much better,everything is smaller in estonia and not so tasty haha.ok..so ..we were at home about 7pm.

aaand..first days in finland it was like -30 C !!!!!! GOSH we were dead!!!

In estonia we have something like "cold holiday" when it gets too cold outside-then school children dont have to go to school...so i heard my friends didnt go to school for 2 days..we had to be active there in finland tho.and we found out there in finland its not 30 C cold for them..its 40 C ..so yeah..nice one! but lets see..in usa..or in china..even -10 or -15 is like hell to them! haha..when i heard that it snowed in china or somewhere and their cars didnt work and all was mess bc of that then i just laughed! like GOSH! learn to live people! go to northpole like we did! thats COOOOOLD! duhhh!

Alright,thats all.Im safely back.
already went to school today.aint that cold anymore,only 1 C ..haa..its warm.
yeah and its so strange that temperature changed -30>+30 = 60 C!!!!!!!!thats a lot!

mwah

"Winners risk,just like all the others-they are scared of failing,but they dont let the fear to control them.
Winners never give up.When life gets though,then they remain confident and steady until state of affairs get better...
Winners know that they arent perfect,they respect their weaknesses,at the same time using their stronger sides.
Winners fall,but they dont fall behind.They deny bloody-mindedly to let the failures hold them back.
Winners believe in the path they have chosen-even when others dont understand where they are going." ]]> ~pinktuuli http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/7617233/ http://pinktuuli.deviantart.com/journal/7617233/ Mon, 16 Jan 2006 05:46:34 PST Come on baby light my fire

Im leaving day after tomorrow 18 jan. wednesday to finland.Going there with this drama heavens gates and hells flames.
Going to help them with building the stage and other stuff aaand 2 of my friends come too! So I'll go with my pastor,my uncle,vaarika,anzelika .

We'll go to Siilijärvi.Its after Rovaniemi.About 5 hours from Helsinki or so...maybe even more.We have to be in tallinn like 7am so we'll start driving already like 5 am in the morning or so haha ;D Im so happy tho! I so wanted to go !!!! I need vacation even tho i just had one haha.

So i'll be back on 25th or something.

Now we have to write a application to our principle.we have got some new rules because usually its like when someone goes to some trip then they just go for some weeks and like no problem ..so now they made these new rules..BECAUSE OF OUR CLASS haha..our class is using this..like last year..there was time when like 4 girls..one girl went to some country for a week..then second went after her..then third one went..and then forth..like everyone were skipping school so much all the time.we love it..and so new rules this year. well i think it wont change much but we'll still write this application like we have to go to finland and stuff..cool ;D
i so wannnna goooo
meet new people
see new places
just travel
ah i love it
u guys enjoy this week and stuff
be strong and take care
mwahmwah!! )

hugs
tuuli

There's nothing to lose.. when no one knows your name..






My twinbrother & I..We have birthday together..And We Rock !

People say I've changed, but I'm finally just being myself. ]]> ~pinktuuli