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Hey

~pintos-bellaserum — Tue, 10 Nov 2009 16:03:58 PST

So what's been going on with everyone?
I haven't been so active around da lately. I've been super busy with moving my horse and barn drama that you don't want to know about >_<
But that's water under the bridge. I moved strider okay and hope to have some poetry up soon. What's new with you?

Features

Crazy

~pintos-bellaserum — Thu, 03 Sep 2009 20:12:03 PDT

Life is a bit crazy, as of late.

School just started and already I'm frazzled. I'm taking a publishing course and am submitting some of my poetry to get published. What do you guys think?

Please visit =)

~pintos-bellaserum — Fri, 28 Aug 2009 20:36:40 PDT

[link]

Sooo. HP is for sale

~pintos-bellaserum — Sat, 22 Aug 2009 10:40:05 PDT

A lot of waiting around just to sell, don't you think?
Anyone thinking of buying?

Hey everyone, I know its been a while since HP has been up but I no longer have the time or the funds to keep working on it..I've been debating on selling it to someone who can continue the work, and depending on the kind of offers I receive, I'll think about it. None of the artwork will be included but all of the codes will. If you're interested, please e-mail me at xxhopeful@comcast.net with any questions and/or offers. Thanks, Hopeful.

Current Highest Offer: $75.00 USD

Nya

~pintos-bellaserum — Mon, 10 Aug 2009 12:26:43 PDT

So I'm back from my trip to costa rica.
It was a real eye opening experiance. Like the kids there have so little, but they're happy. Whereas here we have so much but all we want is more more more. When you see that kind of poverty, it's really hard adjusting to here where everyone has so much, and it kind of pisses me off to deal with their malcontent every day, you know?
But other than that it was great, over 40 degrees every day. Cam, I saw a shotglass with some ants painted on it in the gift shop and I thought of you Haha, good times

100 theme challenge

~pintos-bellaserum — Sat, 01 Aug 2009 10:53:39 PDT

So I'm back ^_^
I'll update you guys later, but for now I just want to post a list of the 100 theme challenge for future referance.

1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence [link] DONE
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile :[link] DONE
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Cookies
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. Orly?
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

Gone

~pintos-bellaserum — Wed, 15 Jul 2009 06:18:27 PDT

So pinbutt will be gone until Aug 1
I'm going to costa rica with my church as a missions trip thing. Going to build a playground for underprivileged kids and stuff.
So see you guys when I get back. Don't do any awesome tag sales without me
ily guys

I don't know

~pintos-bellaserum — Fri, 03 Jul 2009 20:31:04 PDT

So I dunno.
I guess I need to vent about a few things.
I find myself to be so testy lately. Honestly it's like I can't trust most people now because they always have selfish hidden intentions and I always end up getting hurt. This is mostly my guy "friends" too. It's funny because I have no problem attracting assholes..in fact..I have them in abundance. Why can't I just meet a nice guy for once? I honestly wonder why that is so hard for me. I'm tired of this whole single-streak going on and it's like all my friends have met someone wonderful except for me.
My "art" has kind of been lagging too I guess. It's almost to the point of I don't know why I bother for the few pageveiws I've been getting.
All around I feel really pushed off to the side and this has been happening for a while.
*shrugs*
Maybe I just need to go riding.

*Sigh

~pintos-bellaserum — Tue, 16 Jun 2009 18:11:06 PDT

So studying for exams and stuff.
Feeling kind of blah in terms of art, seems that it's interest is dwindling I guess.

Rode Strider yesterday, It was pretty awesome. We did groundwork ^_^

Horseshow

~pintos-bellaserum — Sun, 31 May 2009 17:47:22 PDT

It's been a while since I have updated, but I just got back from a horseshow.

I didn't expect to place in any of the equitation classes, but we actually did pretty well considering a few weeks before me and strider had a lot of troubles with our western jog. It was pretty consistant..we didn't do bad or extremely well in equitation, and ended up getting third or fourth in each class.

Then we has pole bending which was *shrugs* but the barrel racing was epic! We galloped so fast, and ended up getting second place. Pinto was a dumbass and missed the pocket in the second barrel, and I was told that we would have gotten first with seconds to spare if I had been thinking about the pocket more carefully. All in all it was a really good day and I learned alot. ^_^

I wish we would do more gymkanah in lessons

[link]

Actually going somewhere

~pintos-bellaserum — Sat, 16 May 2009 15:48:53 PDT

I'm putting some music to the lyrics I wrote, and I like what is coming out of it so far. I've never really considered songwritting before, but now that it's coming together it's actually kind of fun XD

Haha

~pintos-bellaserum — Fri, 15 May 2009 16:32:44 PDT

I'm such a stupid kid.

I'm going urban-camping with my crazy friend, and we're going to stay up all night by the campfire being stupid and I have to work at six tommarow.
ily my crazy friends XD I'm going to be so wasted for work tommarow

...

~pintos-bellaserum — Sat, 09 May 2009 19:53:45 PDT

It's amazing how suddenly things can change. Today my best friend spent the day in emerg. because she got T-Boned by an SUV. Luckily she wasn't seriously hurt, but the "what ifs" can drive a person crazy. Last time we were talking we were just joking around, and then the next thing I know when I get back from work and there's a message saying that she spent the day in an ambulance and she got into a serious accident.
It's amazing how things can suddenly change.

Denial

~pintos-bellaserum — Fri, 01 May 2009 15:27:21 PDT

I'm totally in denial about being sick right now.
Everyone else around me has the flu, and now I'm starting to feel upset. But I can't get sick, because so much shit is happening that I can't miss.
*pops a pill* There is no way I am getting sick. No way.

Stolen from Cheko ;P

~pintos-bellaserum — Thu, 30 Apr 2009 20:37:01 PDT

1. Spell your name without an E,R,S,H,K,I,M,L,C,A,Y,N:
X. Sweet.

2. Are you single?
yes

3. What is your favorite number?
Three and seven

4. What is your favorite color?
Brown and green

5. Least favorite color?
Cream

6. What are you listening to?
Taylor swift

7. Are you happy with your life right now?
It's slightly lame

8. Are you involved with anyone?
no

9. What is your favorite subject in school/college?
English ^_^

10. Do you shop at Abercrombie?
no

11. Do you have money?
Not for spending purposes, but yes

15. Where do you wish you were right now?
Rinding, of course

16. What should you be doing right now?
Laundry. Screw that

THE CANS:
Can you blow a bubble?
yes

Can you do a cart wheel?
My version of a cartwheel, anyways.

Can you touch your toes?
yeah sure, if i try hard enough XD

Can you wiggle your ears?
Nope

Can you touch your tongue to your nose?
._.

THE DIDS:
Did you ever want to be a doctor?
no

Did you ever want to be a fire fighter?
no

Did you ever want to be a teacher?
English teacher. For grade nine ^_^

Did you ever break the law?
*shifty eyes*

THE DOs:
Do you like roller coasters?
Depends on who I'm with, really

Do you own a bike?
Oh, hell no

Do you play the lotto?
No, don't plan on starting

Do you like football?
LAME.

Do you have a shopping addiction?
I can't stand spending money

THE DOES:
Does your family have family picnics?
no

Does you wallet have any pics in it?
Multiple ID's

THE LASTS:
Last person you hung out with?
Bri

Last car ride?
to work. LAME.

Last text message from?
I don't text, akshully.

Last baby you held?
My little dawg

LAST THING?
What was the last thing you bought?
Starbucks. I had a tea because I'm sick..agian.

What was the last thing you had to drink?
water

What was the last thing you watched?
Southpark

What was the last thing you hand wrote?
A poem that's probably in my da about now

THE WHOS:
Who last talked to you on the phone?
my mom

Who was the last person you took a picture of?
Bri

Who do you miss right now?
Gezelle

Who last messaged you on aim?
i don't use aim

CURRENTLY:
What color shirt are you wearing?
White

Have any tattoos?
no

Have you any piercings?
Nope ._.

Straight hair or curly?
straight

Where are you?
In space

HAVE YOU EVER:
Failed a class?
No...but that's only for now

Sang in front of a crowd?
I'm in chior

SIX THINGS YOU WILL FIND IN YOUR ROOM:
Clothes, clothes, clothes, books, chips

TWO RELATIONSHIP QUESTIONS:
Want a relationship?
Sure

Wanna get married?
one day

FOUR THINGS ON YOUR MIND:
Poetry, school, horses, my stupid friends

The way to win your heart?
Classic romantic..and food.

When was the last time you really laughed?
When I was slightly unsobre

Do you drink milk straight from the carton?
Being lactose intolerant..that would probably kill me

Who knows a big secret about you?
A few girlfriends

How long is your hair?
I try to keep it shorter

When was the last time you sang out loud?
Two days ago

What did you have for breakfast?
oatmeal ._. and cold fx

Is your birthday on a holiday?
no

What instant messaging service do you use?
MSN

Are you signed on it right now and if so, who are you talking to?
Nobodies on facebook...fleet where are you?!

Can you cook?
PPFT.

Did you have a nap today?
I wish I could nap...

What do you wear more, jeans or sweats?
Pretty much jeans all the time.

When is your birthday?
Oct 17th

Do you have any regrets?
Yah..mostly having to deal with people.

Do you use an alarm clock?
Not often, if you really must know

What's the first thing you notice of the opposite sex?
Their face

What color are your favorite shoes?
Bright red. Nobody holds a candle to me in my red high heels

Who would you like to see right now?
Mr. Hot guy from the bus I take

Are you a social or a...

Massive tag contest

~pintos-bellaserum — Sat, 18 Apr 2009 19:41:13 PDT

[link]
It's huge ._.

Update

~pintos-bellaserum — Fri, 17 Apr 2009 19:03:41 PDT

Ah, sorry for being such a drama-llama.
A lot has happened in the last few weeks, and I guess the whole tag theft thing was the last straw.

ily you guys.
I'll keep you updated later. Maybe I just need some space is all.

I think I just got scammed ._.

~pintos-bellaserum — Thu, 16 Apr 2009 19:47:15 PDT

>.> On capalls.
Finally got really high bids on a single-custom sale, and the winner hasn't payed me and it's been weeks.
I worked forever on that tag, and I guess I'm not getting paid.
Whatever, I quit I guess.

Busy

~pintos-bellaserum — Sat, 11 Apr 2009 11:12:07 PDT

I'm incredibly busy.
My week so far has been bi-polar. I partied hard, and got to go riding.
But I also lost some "friends" at school, and have been insanely busy with exams. This drama is all so hateful, how do I get caught up in it?
Maybe no poetry for a short while.

Spring Break

~pintos-bellaserum — Tue, 31 Mar 2009 14:55:34 PDT

So it's spring break.
I just got my wisdom teeth out, and at the risk of sounding really whiney, am in a lot of pain.
I hope the swelling goes down fast, because my face is freaking huge. I wouldn't mind the pain if it didn't make my face so enlarged at all.
*flails*

So I guess I have nothing better to do than spend spring break on facebook and DA. Which isn't altogether that horrible a thing. (Besides not being able to ride)
You can expect more poetry and stuff to come. I just finished up a bit of stuff for capalls and now I'm done.

camandfleetgetonmsn ^_^ imissyoursexyasses

Where is everyone?

~pintos-bellaserum — Sat, 28 Mar 2009 21:23:40 PDT

Where did everyone go?
It's like everyone disappeared all at once ._.

Blah

~pintos-bellaserum — Mon, 16 Mar 2009 15:42:21 PDT

I'm so sick ._.
This past week I managed to contract the flu, a cold, and a really intense fever. With a migraine. All at once.

>_< It's like my immune system is completley shot I haven't been this sick for a long time.

Stolen from Cam <3

~pintos-bellaserum — Sun, 08 Mar 2009 18:50:15 PDT

If you jumped out your bedroom window right now, how injured would you get?
Might break a leg or snap my ankle at the worst

Who was the last person to text you?
I never text ^_^

Do you like sneezing or do you hate that feeling?
Really not a problem with me

What is your favorite room in your house?
My little box

What was the last thing you had to drink?
Water, of course

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Bri

What are you doing right now?
Facebooking

HowÂs your brother doing today?
I don't care ._.

What is the closest living thing to you right now?
My little doggeh

Are you high right now?
Nope ^_^

What's your favorite number?
Seven

What color is your shirt?
Brown..what color is yours?

WhenÂs the last time you showered?
last night

What was the highlight of your week?
Galloping on strider

Whose car were you in last?
mine

How long is your hair?
Shoulder length

Last movie you watched?
Spirit

Who were you with today?
No one really, I didn't work.

Who came over last?
idk

Are you happy right now?
not really

Where is your phone?
on my desk

What color are your eyes?
green

Are you left-handed?
no

Favorite vacation?
Riding in the mountains

What do you dislike currently?
Liars. End of story.

What are you listening to?
Audioslave

If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
Lots of money

Who makes you happiest?
Friends and my horses

What were you doing at midnight last night?
lying awake due to insomnia

When is your birthday?
In october

When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
omg. I even look tired.

How much cash do you have on you?
1.79

What's a word that rhymes with "door"?
FLOOR

Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile?
My mother >_<

Do you "label" yourself as anything?
Weird art kid

Name the shoe brand you are wearing?
Ugs.

Bright or dark room?
BRIGHT

What do you think about the person who took this survey?
She be a sexy beast

Where is your mailbox?
What kind of question is this?

Who told you he/she loved you last?
A disgusting liar.

Last furry thing you touched?
Frtiz.

How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
Does cold fx count?

Favorite age you have been so far?
13 I think

Current image on your desktop?
my dog

What was the last thing you said to someone?
"Am I working tommarow? It's like minus 30!"

If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
Flying. Totally.

What was the last song you listened to?
Poker Face.

If the last person you spoke to was getting shot at, would you jump in front of the bullet?
Probably

If you could punch one person in your life right now, who would it be?
Asshole at school

What is the closest object to your left foot?
the pc tower. woot.

My horse is a tank

~pintos-bellaserum — Wed, 04 Mar 2009 20:06:37 PST

[link]

Yah. He's totally ripped. And hardly a drop of halter bloodlines ^_^

Anyways, I had a great riding lesson today. We galloped a little. Yah

He goes fast

Still alive and well.

~pintos-bellaserum — Mon, 02 Mar 2009 16:37:59 PST

._. And craving cookies

How frivolous

~pintos-bellaserum — Mon, 23 Feb 2009 16:05:13 PST

I'm feeling really weird right now ._.
Kind of a mixture of being really happy and pissed off at the same time.

I'm super stoked for riding today! Riding with Strider is just amazing..I absolutely love that horse! He's just such a sweetheart, and it's nice to actually look forward to riding again.
Plus I've been doing some sketches and they are turning out rather well. And I got to sing for the Big Band Ball we had and that was fun. It was nice to dress up for once and get out of the whole hoodie regime.

Alas the drama resides. I am just so sick of people right now. Every day I come home from school I just feel so pissed off. It's like I attract jerks and assholes as friends and it's stressing me out. Same with work. It's like I never have a personal life anymore and a few of my friends have deserted me for it. Even on DA it's like... blah. Kind of feel like.. forgotten? I don't know.

Hopefully things will clear up soon.
eiwuriwoeurwoiurwioweurghjksd

Still alive

~pintos-bellaserum — Thu, 12 Feb 2009 20:41:00 PST

Yah, I'm still alive.
Not a whole lot to report, really.

High school drama sucks. I'm tired of all the fake people. Honestly.
High-school workload sucks.
High-school sucks.

Strider is awesome. I rode him at a lope on Wed. and I am proud to say we didn't have any run-aways this time. I think we are both coming to a bit of an understanding finally. He's such a great horse.

Oh, and I'm also starting a bit of a novel if you're interested. It's about wild horses ^_^
Yay for generality

Done

~pintos-bellaserum — Thu, 29 Jan 2009 18:16:05 PST

I'm done.

Light the Darkness (Manip: ) 10/10
Gifties ( Six traditional sketches): 6/6
Tags project: 3/3

I'm finally free from all these projects I set for myself

^_^

~pintos-bellaserum — Mon, 26 Jan 2009 10:52:52 PST

Finally a new semester has started. I no longer have to endure computers class with a bunch of lame freshman hitting on me, LOL.
I'm working on a really big project manip now, almost like my eternal sleep. *wipesbrow* Except much bigger, and more time consuming. I have this great idea in my head and it's taking so long to get it on photoshop, lol. I'm sure most of you know what I'm talking about. So the next few days I have off I'll be working on that, and with Strider. It's taking me a little while to get used to the sensitivity of that horse.

In other news, I hope this new semester isn't as dramatic as the last. I lost a lot of people who I thought were my friends, and most of it was because someone wasn't interested in dating someone else and zomggg drama!!!11oneoneone. Blah high school is lame. There was also alot of drama awhile ago about who got who the best gift. It's so retarded, really. It reminded me of some sims I played where your social status relied on gift art and if you gave it and got it enough from the right people.

Abra kadabra

~pintos-bellaserum — Thu, 22 Jan 2009 08:10:04 PST

Exams be gone!

headdesk

~pintos-bellaserum — Sun, 18 Jan 2009 17:20:10 PST

Pinto is out of space on her computer.
I literally could not save one more file on here. Not one.
All I have on here is Microsoft and an art program or two ._. SO I guess that means no more of nothing until I get some ram or something.

_______________________________________________
Gift arts:
One : 10/10
Two : 10/10
Three : 10/10
Four : 10/10
Five : 10/10

Light the Darkness
Project: 5/100

Upcoming (final) Tag: 10/10

I need to get organized

~pintos-bellaserum — Sat, 17 Jan 2009 15:20:54 PST

Gift arts:
One : 5/10
Two : 5/10
Three : 4/10
Four : 0/10
Five : 0/10

Light the Darkness
Project: 5/100

Upcoming (final) Tag: 10/10

Stolen. From cam's super old journal. stalks

~pintos-bellaserum — Fri, 16 Jan 2009 20:35:03 PST

What was your worst mistake in your life?
I guess it would have been believing alot of the lies I was told when I was younger and falling in with a bad crowd at one point in my life,

What friend do you tell the most to?
Fleet, cam and bri.

Name 3 thoughts you have at this exact moment?
I got a horse, I don't want to work tommarow, and I really want to talk to fleet once she gets back.

You're walking down the street with your love, where are you going?
Whyte ave ^_^

What's something you really want right now, be honest?
Money. On my mind 24/7

Three feelings at the moment?
Thrilled, excited, and worried

Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
today

Does anything hurt on your body?Mild headache, no big deal.

Who was the last person to disappoint you?
That would be my boss at work

Do you still talk to that person?
I have too >.>

Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Bri <3

What are you listening to right now?
Audioslave and Paul Brant

Do you know anybody in jail?
Nope ^_^

Where were you at 2:00 this morning?
sleeping

Who did you copy this from?
Camface, I stole this from an old journal of yours

When was the last time you saw them?
*talks to cam on msn*

How well do you know them?
Fairly well ^_^

Where's the weirdest place you've changed clothes?
On a pool deck

Do you wear glasses?
Yah, and I can actually pull them of really well

Who do you love?
As in "love" love? No one, atm

What's the cd in your player?
Tim mcgraw

Anything annoying you right now?
The fact that I have to work tommarow

Who was the last person to make you cry?
I can't even remember ._. Don't cry much.

Anybody you're looking forward to seeing soon?
In person? Noo..I want to see my horse though

What will you be doing in a half hour?
Sleeping

Anywhere you'd rather be right now?
Riding. ^_^

Are you going anywhere for the next summer?
Costa Rica, a missions trip with my church to build playgrounds for kids in need

Do you have plans today?
Possibly..

ever snuck out?
Once or twice *shifty eyes* Maybe more than that

how many kid's are you longing for?
I really really dislike kids. None. Ever.

Strider

~pintos-bellaserum — Mon, 12 Jan 2009 20:28:28 PST

[link]
Soo his name is strider. He is a six year old QH bred for barrel racing. I rode him in just a schooling lesson, and man is he fast! I defiantly wasn't 100 % percent prepared for that after riding Roy, my psycho slug lesson horse (that I love to pieces, btw.)
[link] <-- Roy
So yah, I'm pretty stoked. The thinkg I love about Strider is that he can really fly, but at the same time be super calm when you need him too. He's only six years old and has so much potential, I'm really excited to start working with him.
Honestly, guys, this couldn't have come a at a better time. I was starting to get really discouraged about work, especially after May's leg broke down on her. But both horses are doing fine now so I guess I can't complain...but ZOMGGGG SO EXCITED!1111ONEONEOEN

Tagged

~pintos-bellaserum — Mon, 12 Jan 2009 15:13:15 PST

Tagged by
Rules:
1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-back

1) I have incredible issues with jealousy. Sometimes it gets to the point where I can't even enjoy other peoples talents because I am so jelouse

2) If I could survive off of granola bars and orange tic tacs I would

3) I am an aspiring barrel racer

4) I sing alto at choir and have a lower voice for a female vocalist.

5) I want to get into sociology after high school

6) I get aggravated very easily when people eat loud.

7) I am lactose intolerant..which was actually acquired over last summer.

8) Two of my best friends are online and one of my best friends is in real life

On a lighter note ^_^

~pintos-bellaserum — Sun, 11 Jan 2009 15:28:47 PST

Guess who might be getting her own riding horse?
Go on, guess.

Not cool

~pintos-bellaserum — Sat, 03 Jan 2009 21:39:32 PST

Well, I had a real shitty day today at work.
I hate my job, and I don't get payed enough to do what I do. Literally, everyone makes more than I do. Even the trainees.

It's minus forty degrees Celsius today with the wind chill. And i get to work drive thru, and of course one of the trainees we just hired take the Drivethru jacket, even though she works up front. So of course I get to freeze in -40 weather out the window because apparently we have problems with being considerate. It was also not a good day from the start because I got to work with someone really incompetent, and at tim hortons it's all about speed, so needless to say after a while I was feeling really stressed and frustrated.

So then later I get to work soup sandwhich bar. And all these morons ordering like seven large sandwhiches are screaming because their food isn't instantly ready. Umm...this isn't mcdonalds. Our food isn't premade. Of course you have to wait.
So it just went downhill from their and we fell really behind. Of course we ran out of eggs, so try explaining to several bitchy people that they're going to have to wait longer for their food. Then we had to void the orders, memorize them, try to catch up, and still make the previouse orders we memorized later. It was all just a huge mess and people were yelling and screaming. One douche tried to yell at me because he didn't understand how the ordering system at out store works. Um, you order the food at the register and pick it up.

Honestly, I was just so sick and tired of the yelling and screaming. People just aren't considerate at all, they think for their 1.39 coffee they have the right to bitch at people simply because their behind the counter. That's not right, at all.

So needless to say I didn't get a break because it was so busy. I just kind of passed out when I got home and wanted to be left alone for a while. Atleast it was a 6-2 shift so I got to go home a little early. But honestly I'm wondering if it's even worth it anymore. THis whole horse thing, I mean I really want one, especially after almost having to put May down. But it's getting to the point where I'm just loosing sight of things because my job is really wearing me down and no one else will hire. I mean, riding makes me happy, but this really isn't healthy.

I don't know._.

I made some vent art I finally put up for collab on capalls- that made me feel a little better. I just need time to think.

Merry Christmas

~pintos-bellaserum — Wed, 24 Dec 2008 15:23:55 PST

Just wanted to wish everyone a merry christmas!

I feel guilty for not getting gifts out on time.
I still love you guys <33 My computer just sucks

Once again, happy holidays
-Pint

Views about HP?

~pintos-bellaserum — Mon, 22 Dec 2008 19:48:02 PST

So I was lurking the downtime forum, and apparently a lot of people are giving up on HP. I honestly can't help but blame them, as it's been almost half a year without any sort of update whatsoever. You know, I honestly don't mind downtimes as much, because I find that I grow closer to people when we have other things to concentrate on rather than the latest tag fad or obsessively training.
I, for one, am slightly disappointed that I payed for an upgrade before it went down and haven't heard even a scrap of news from the administrator since. I guess this is why you should never invest to much in a sim game; literally or figuratively.
So what do you think about the downtime? Are you optimistic or pessimistic about it? I still think it's incredibly cool that the community has still kind of stuck together even though HP is non existent anymore ^_^

*shrugs*
Anyway, on a later note, christmas gifts will be late. I haven't forgotten..just my computer keeps crashing so it's kind of difficult to actually sit down for a while and finish all of these. But just you wait..come July you'll have a pretty little gift in your mail Haha

In the meantime I'll leave you all with this:
I took this out of a moving van with my moms crappy phone ^_^
[link]
Enjoy

Aw, not again

~pintos-bellaserum — Sun, 07 Dec 2008 18:06:53 PST

So..I'm sick. Again.
I don't know what's wrong with me. I've been catching all these colds since september; and for lack of better words, am sick of it. I think the largest interval I wasn't sick in the past four months was less than two weeks. I catch a cold, barley recover, and then get incredibly sick again. What's going on? I can't function like this. I'm on four hours of sleep, and the school dance is on friday and I look and feel like crap. I'm tired of feeling so disgusting, and it's catching up with everything. School, riding, social life, ect.
*rants to self*
I don't know what to do. These colds are so violent, the last one had me coughing up a bit of blood here and there. I just..I hate it.
I'm just..exhausted. I never used to get this sick, is anyone else going through the same thing?

My Stalker : Good times

~pintos-bellaserum — Sat, 22 Nov 2008 20:02:53 PST

So..I was cleaning out my photobucket today.
I found something that made me laugh, a good memory from the old HP.

[link]

Did anyone ever find out who my stalker was?
Good times, good times..

>_<

~pintos-bellaserum — Thu, 20 Nov 2008 20:13:46 PST

I can't believe it's back.
I've been without my depression for a whole month, and now all the sudden it came back for no reason at all. I hate it. I wish I could be normal again.
I just hate it.
I've never felt so worthless before.. things just stopped going my way, and I'm so lost.
No comments please, I just want to vent

Capalls

~pintos-bellaserum — Sat, 15 Nov 2008 20:43:59 PST

Join.
It's the new HP

1602

So fucking pissed

~pintos-bellaserum — Tue, 11 Nov 2008 12:18:45 PST

Okay, so most of you know I ride. I was telling a friend how excited I was for showing. And how far I've come since when I started, and how hard I've worked. Instead of being happy for me, he puts me down.

I'm absolutely livid. I've worked so hard, and for someone to basically tell me I'm a joke just makes me so upset.

Alex says:
Some people don't think it's a real sport
AJ says:
it aint
AJ says:
lol
Alex says:
But you use every muscle in your body when you ride
Alex says:
Actually, it is.
AJ says:
LOL
AJ says:
EVERY muscle?
AJ says:
lol

Alex says:
You try getting a 1000 pound animal to move how you want it to when you want it too
Alex says:
There's more to it than just sitting on the horse.
Alex says:
Actually, it could be even classified as an extreme sport
AJ says:
LOL NO
Alex says:
One chick fell off in my lesson yesterday
Alex says:
We were doing flying lead changes
Alex says:
And she shifted her weight the wrong way
Alex says:
And the horse took off at a full gallop
AJ says:
owned
Alex says:
and started bucking and tossing his head
AJ says:
ahaha
Alex says:
And she went flying over its head
AJ says:
id laugh
Alex says:
Haha, wait till you fall off a horse. Not so fun
AJ says:
lol
Alex says:
8nods8
AJ says:
lol
Alex says:
FAIL
Alex says:
But anways
Alex says:
It's definitely a real sport
Alex says:
If you don't think so
Alex says:
I'd like to see you come to my riding class one day
Alex says:
And do two point
AJ says:
its dumb and painful
AJ says:
no thanks
Alex says:
Without stirrups
AJ says:
and pointless
Alex says:
How is it pointless?
Alex says:
I'm confused
AJ says:
whats the point of ridin a orse
Alex says:
It establishes a mental and physical balance
AJ says:
LOL

Alex says:
Seriously. Riding got me in shape
Alex says:
I have abs now..just from riding
AJ says:
omg im laughing so hard
Alex says:
0_0
AJ says:
theres no emoticon to put for it
AJ ( says:
AHAHA
Alex says:
I don't get whats so fuuny
Alex says:
Oh well.
Alex says:
I take pride in it
Alex says:
Because I know most people can't do what I can
AJ says:
u
AJ says:
abs
AJ says:
aha
Alex says:
Haha, nice
AJ says:
this is laughing so hard im crying
Alex says:
Oh well. Atleast I work for what I have
Alex says:
And I have really strong leg muscles now
Alex says:
From all the two point
Alex says:
and posting
AJ says:

AJ says:
kk
AJ says:
me and you have to do the leg press
AJ says:
ill go first and max it out
AJ says:
you go next and do like
AJ says:
100 pounds
AJ () says:
k?
Alex says:
Okay...
AJ says:
you do 100
AJ says:
i do 380
Alex says:
I still don't het what that has to do with being in shape
AJ says:
no no no
Alex says:
But whatever
AJ says:
you said yourself
Alex says:
I still take pride in what I do
Alex says:
Because I know that no one else can do it
AJ says:
u have REALLY strong leg musclew
AJ says:
congrats alex
Alex says:
Equestrians work hard to make it look like they don't
Alex says:
Seriously
AJ ) says:
i wuv u and all
Alex says:
What's with being such an *censored*
AJ says:
and now i know
AJ says:
that whenever i need to know someone who can make a horse do its bidding to its fullest extent
AJ says:
i call u <3
Alex says:
Pfft.
Alex says:
Whatever
Alex says:
Atleast I can to the whole athetic thing and pull it off.
Alex says:
The captain for out olympic team
Alex says:
Was Ian Miller
Alex says:
He's and equestrian
Alex says:
He jumps
Alex says:
and he was our olympic captain
Alex says:
So yah..it's a sport
Alex says:

AJ (jen's stud muffin) says:
lol
Alex says:
[link]
Alex says:
Watch this
Alex says:
And tell me what you think
AJ says:
no more lame horse vids please
Alex says:
No, just watch it
Alex says:
That's all I'm asking
AJ says:
why
Alex says:
Because
Alex says:
I want you to watch this
Alex says:
and tell me riding is easy
AJ (jen's stud muffin) says:

Alex says:

Ale...

Stolen from Cam, partially

~pintos-bellaserum — Sat, 08 Nov 2008 21:24:50 PST

Eye Color: Greed
Hair Color: Brown
Height: Just under 6 feet
Right or Left Handed: right
Your Weakness: Horses and dogs
Your Fears: Loosing my friends, crowded elevators
Your Most Overused Phrase: Laammeeeee
Thoughts First Waking Up: "Aw, fuck"
Your Best Physical Feature: Very unique face
Your Bedtime: 9 PM, I wake up early, okay?
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi
McDonalds or Burger King: McDonalds
Ice Cream or Yogurt: Lactose intolerant 0_0
Pizza or Chinese: pizza
Cappuccino or Coffee: coffee, black
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla
Been Arrested: nope
Do You Smoke: Nope
Do You Drink: Not really..alot
Do You Swear: Compulsively
Do You Sing: Yes
Have You Been In Love: no
Do You Believe in Yourself: For the most part
Ever Been Depressed: I have chronic depression..LOL
Do You Get Along With Your Parents: Meh...I guess..sometimes
Do You Have Any Brothers or Sisters: yes
Do You Like Thunderstorms: If I'm inside
Do You Play an Instrument: I used to play piano. I want to learn guitar
Do You Have Any Pets: Horse and a dog, schnauzer.
What Is Your Favorite Color: Brown
Ever Been Drunk: Nope
Ever Shoplifted: A candy bar when I was five
Ever Gotten a Speeding Ticket: I don't drive yet
Number of Piercings: 0
Number of Tattoos: 0
Number of Things in My Past I Regret: Lots of things I said to people that were offensive
Close With Your Family: my dads side
Gotten Into a Fight: Multiple times
Do You Do Drugs: Never
What Kind Of Car Do You Drive: N/A
Do You Like to Clean: not really
Do You Like to Cook: No...
Broken a Bone: Akshully..not yet.
Played Truth or Dare: Truth!
Believe in Love at First Sight: Sure
Phone or IM: IM
How Do You Want to Die: Like a hero, bithces
What's Annoying You Right Now: People in my personal space

Two Things:
Two names you go by: Alex and Pinto
Two things you are wearing right now: Lulu lemon sweats and jeans
Two of your favorite things to do: Sing and ride
Two things you want very badly at the moment: Money and a horse
Two things you did yesterday: Worked at tims, had school
Two things you ate yesterday: Bread..and..water
Two people you last talked to: Fleet and Cam
Two people you'd like to talk to: Bri and AJ
Two things you're doing tomorrow: I'm going to church and..studying. FUN!
Two Favorite beverages: Water and black coffee

Stolen from QueenOfGoldfishes

~pintos-bellaserum — Tue, 21 Oct 2008 15:56:26 PDT

Comment on this journal ,and then I'll..
1-Tell you how I've known you, or something about a picture on your gallery, or why I've added you to my watch list.
2-Associate you with something (a song, a color, an object...)
3-Talk about something I like of you
4-Ask you something I'd die to know
5-tell you what picture I prefer in your gallery
But you had to post that in your journal then

Many updates: With pikshurs

~pintos-bellaserum — Sun, 12 Oct 2008 15:31:10 PDT

Haha, so much has happened since my last update.

School:
I am seriously loving Wagner now. It's actually so fantastic. This semester is pretty easy going. Haha, I'm taking pure science and actually getting honors. How did that happen? The only thing I am really struggling with is AP social. The final exam sounds so hard core. Apparently we have to write two essays in an hours time. Apparently there is also this crazy point system, where you get points stacked against you if you get questions wrong? So there is akshully a strategy to the exam. Pfft. Way to stress us out when colleges and universities only really care about your 30 Ap marks. *eyeroll*

Anyways, on a more positive note, I had the most amazing day ever on Tuesday. Aj wouldn't let it pass us that his 16th birthday was on Tuesday. He was joking that sweet sixteens were for guys too. *gigglesnort*
So what me and bri ended up doing was running around Monday plotting a sweet 16 for Vaj aj.
We got him this huge ass crate of chocolate milk ( Really long story about the CM. It's kind of an insider.) And decorated it with pink frills. Of course the crate was too big to put in his locker so he had to carry it around from class to class. It was fantastic. He also had to wear a party hat.
[link] Our decorating job

[link] Party hat

[link] The card that was intended for a six year old

[link] Chocolate milk

[link] WTF is up with this?

Mayday:
So we ended up moving may to the new stable. She is coping very well, actually. We think the pasture board will be better for her legs. Thank God this opportunity came up to board her there. The rescue center was kind of shady, so now I can sleep at night. Plus I can visit her whenever I want too. I just didn't feel comfortable placing her in that other rescue home. Especially since there was a chance that she could be adopted out to strangers. Here are some pictures of her in her second day at her new home. The bay pictured with her is her half brother. You can see what her legs would have looked like before the accident.

[link] Me and her

[link]
Pretty in pink

[link]
Spartacus

[link]
Best friends

[link]
Moody Mare

[link]
May

[link]

[link]
Random friend of may

Art:
Art will be on hold for a while, until I can get my hands on a program that won't keep crashing. I am also working on a traditional painting for you guys. I am trying to get the anatomy and the shading perfect, so it might take about a month. But it's something to look forward to, non the less.

Randumb:
I have been having a fairly good week. My depression actually let up all week long. It's good to feel...normal again. The most my depression has ever let up before is one day, I can't remember feeling balanced for such a long period of time before. Honestly, I've had depression most of my life. If my depression went away, I would be overjoyed. But at the same time, slightly worried. I would have to totally readjust because it's really all I've known. While depression is a horrible illness, it has kept me down to earth, in a sense, and I don't want to lo...

Sweet Sixteen?

~pintos-bellaserum — Wed, 01 Oct 2008 20:15:32 PDT

Well, my birthday is in seventeen days.
(Oct 17) And I am turning sixteen 0_0

Is it weird not wanting to do anything special for your sixteenth birthday? Haha, I'm really not one for big parties.
What did you all do for your sweet sixteen? Anything special, or did you just sit back and relax. And do my younger watchers look forward to doing anything special for their sixteenth birthday? I'd love to know

-Pintoooo

1K

~pintos-bellaserum — Thu, 25 Sep 2008 17:58:23 PDT

Sweet. One thousand pageveiws is coming up (omg, I'm so lame.)
Catch it I'm sure we can work something out. GIMP is kind of being a d**k at the moment, and it crashes whenever I try to save anything, but we'll figure something out. Haha

ILY all
-Pint <33333333

Taggged

~pintos-bellaserum — Thu, 25 Sep 2008 14:21:06 PDT

Dear Maeris:

I don't really know how to tell you this, but I'll join the monastery. I think I realized it when I quoted Santa Under the bus and I saw you ignore My avocado plant. I'm sure you're Senile enough to understand That your Honda sucks. I'm returning Your love letters to you, but I'll keep your photo as a memory. You should also know that I told in my confession today about our friendship .

With ease,
Pinto

----------- Tag your friends here [link] --------

Stolen from Cam

~pintos-bellaserum — Tue, 16 Sep 2008 16:01:54 PDT

Will you answer every question honestly?
- Of course

Have you ever stayed up all night while drunk or high?
- No XD

Have you ever punched anyone in the face?
- Oh, yes

Do you miss anything or anyone?
- Yah. Alot of my friends from my old school

What makes you laugh no matter what?
- AJ

Who was the last person you talked to?
- My mother

What do you dislike at the moment?
- Being sick all the time, and worrying about money and time

HARDER:

Do you think it is bad to have sex at your age?
- Meh. Alot of people can be really irresponsible about it. In CALM 20 I have to listen to people talk about their sex life every day..and yah irresponsibility XD. Haha, I had to listen to people talk about their clit piercings. Disturbing? Yes, this is my CALM class every day.

Will you get married?
- Hopefully

Will you be doing drugs in the near future?
- I don't think so 0_0

Do you lie about your age?
- Only sometimes..like when I snuck into a bar and got served drinks. But I don't do that often ;D

VERY PERSONAL:

Are you happy with yourself?
- I do have tendencies to be insecure sometimes.

Would you change yourself for the person you love?
- Not drastically.

What do you think about when times get hard?
- Music and my horse. Sometimes depression gets in the way, though.

SECREâTS:â

When did you last cry?
- to be honest I wish I cried more often. Sometimes I let keep things bottled inside and its not healthy. I can't even remember

Do you believe in religion?
- Yes. I am a Baptist.

SHOCKING:

Have you done bad things with your parents near by?
- I swear compulsively

Did you ever fail the school year?
- Nope. Almost failed a few classes, though.
THE DEEP STUFF:

Do you think you were raised well?
- Pretty decent I guess. Not super fantastic, but deffinatly not bad.

Do you have a secret that you've never told ANYONE?
- Me and my best friend were conjoined feti. We tell each other everything

How do you handle stress?
- I hold it all in and take it out on people by snapping at them

How would you spend your last day alive?
- With my best friends and my horse.

Do you hide things well or do you have a guilty conscience?
- I have a guilty consiance, but I lie very very well.

Do you think you could ever forgive someone who murdered your family member?
- No, never.

THE LOVE STUFFâ:â

Do you think you know what love feels like?
- I think so 0_0

WhatÂs the most important aspect in a relationship in your opinion?
- Trust. Hands down

Are you over the last person you went out with?
- I havn't really found anyone that met my dating standards ^_^

If your parents didn't like the person you were dating, would you lose them?
- Depends on why

Have you ever been kissed at night under the stars?
- Nope

THE RANDOâM STUFFâ:â

Do you spend time with the same people always?
- Yes, almost always

When is the last time you were truly happy with your life?
- I'm moderately happy. Since I transfered high schools.

Where was your default picture taken?
- My horse?

What is your favorite color[s]?
- Brown, so neutral but pretty

Are you quick to start a fight?
- Oh, yes

Do your parents really know YOU?
- Umm..to an extent I guess.

When was the Last time you had Starbucks?
- When I was out with aj and bri and we got double shot espressos. It was excelent ;D

Is Anyone In Love With you?
- Crush maybe, but not love.

Are You Currently Wanting Any Piercings Or Tattoo?
- No, I am to pussy to get any XD

Do you get along better with the same sex or opposite?
- n/a

Who was the last person to make you mad?
- Aj's friend, will. That kid is so creepy and annoying. He pisses me right off.

What kept you up last night?
- Nothing. I was so tired from riding horses.

Do you think elderly people should be able to drive?
- Oohhh..at the risk of being prejudice..no.

Rawr

~pintos-bellaserum — Wed, 03 Sep 2008 19:12:53 PDT

Rawr.
I have to work tommarow, right after school.
Stupid Tim Hortons.

Bah, now I have to stay up late to do homework. <.<
This is so lame. School barley started and I'm feeling stressed and pressed for time.

I hate tim hortons
* mumbles and rants to self*

Whats been going on

~pintos-bellaserum — Thu, 28 Aug 2008 14:59:28 PDT

So we didn't have to put Mayday down like I thought.
Nothing to horrific has happened, but I thought I would update you just the same.

Mayday can still never be ridden, and walking still isn't the easiest thing for her. However, we think we have found a solution. One of the grooms at our stable is in contact with a "Companion horse" program.
This is a pasture for horses that can't be ridden anymore due to injuries or old age. They live out their lives at pasture, while taking on the job of a companion horse. I think this would be perfect for Mayday! This way her leg could heal better on pasture board, and I can totally see her being a companion horse. I can really see her making some senior or someone with disabilities happy. Mayday has a reputation for being the "social butterfly" of Duke Ranches.

I can also visit her whenever I like, and drop in visits are welcome. Maybe once I can drive I will volunteer out there.

That said, Mayday will no longer be in my ownership. I will have to do some hard core research into this place before making any decisions. Even though it sounds like she will be happier there, I will still be very sad when we part ways. I love that horse

Bleh

~pintos-bellaserum — Fri, 15 Aug 2008 11:24:58 PDT

Been a while since my last update, but I think I owe it to you all for putting up with my pessimistic behavior.
So I am pretty sure everyone was aware I got bucked off my horse. If your not, here's what happened:
I was going to ride my green broke TB mare, Mayday, for the first time this summer. If you have been watching me for a while you would know that I have been working all year to save up for moving may to a new stable. You would also know that we just moved her about a month ago. So, now that she was settled, I decided it was time to start working with her. We would just walk around the arena today, just to get a feel for things again. So we got her saddled with her brand new tack set that I just bought her. She was a bit stubborn about the bridling, though. It took 20 miniuts to get the french link in her mouth, so it was a very gentle bit.
So when I finally got on her, we walked a few laps in the arena. I can tell she was getting frustrated, and doesn't want me on her. Then, all of the sudden she throws her head into her chest and starts bucking. I stayed on for that round, and she gave up for a while. I decided that only a few more laps around the ring should be good for today. So we kept walking, and all was going well until she started bucking again. This was hard core rodeo style bucking and I stayed on for a while until she threw me over he head onto the ground. I was still a little dazed, but I was also really confused. It felt like I was dreaming when I got back on her and walked the rest of the way before I got off again. I was really confused because Mayday isn't the type of horse to buck out of spite. In fact, she's not the type of horse to buck at all. And I know for a fact she didn't spook at anything.
So later on I asked my trainer about it, and she took a look at Mayday. She told me that horses always buck for a reason, and then looked at Maydays legs. Her front left cannon bone was all hot and swollen. I was really confused and angry at myself at that point, because I was always concerned about her back leg, because thats the one that got injured in the accident when she was a foal. I don't even know where this new injury came up. Mayday never did have the best legs, and I knew someday this day would come, but it was happening so fast. May is only six years old! It wasn't supposed to be like this!
So I took her halter and lead rope and walked her back and forth for my trainer to asses. It was worse than I had ever seen it. It wasn't like this when I was riding, but now she was having trouble walking completely. She even stumbled once just walking in a straight line! And I also noticed she dished her foot out when she walked. I couldn't believe how everything was going downhill so fast. She never had great legs, but I didn't think just walking would hurt her at all. It's my fault she started bucking, and that probably didn't help her legs at all either.
Now Mayday can never be ridden ever again. She can never trot or lope either. She is now condemned to a life of walking and standing in a stall. And I know one day very soon that will be even to much for her and we will have to put her down. I just can't believe this is happening. I worked so hard to get her here, and now everything is falling apart. It's just so frustrating, I don't know what to do. We'll get a vet out there ASAP and get some advice and an idea of how long she has...but it just wasn't supposed to happen like this.

I give up.

Still here XD

~pintos-bellaserum — Tue, 22 Jul 2008 14:50:28 PDT

No, I'm not dead yet.
So where have I been?

For the past few weeks I have been camping. Two seperate trips.
The first one was a hiking trip. Let me tell you, that one was brutal. We hiked from the base of a mountain to the peak. I actually got to touch the very peak of a mountain, it was amazing! Altogether it was probably 7 hours of straight hiking, and it was fairly hot out. One part of the mountain was 90 degrees pretty much so we got to rock climb for a little. It was actually so hard core, I loved it!

The second one was a horseback riding trip. Last year I did the twelve hour ride, (hurts the ass), but this year I went to the week camp. I rode an Arab cross named Dasher. He was a responsive horse but a little hot (which makes the ride all the more interesting...)
But anyways, on one of our rides in the woods we saw a cougar! No joke! Me and one of the wranglers were riding up ahead and a few yards away was this massive cougar! It was incredible! The horses were freaking out, but it didn't attack anyone because we were riding in a larger group. Just incredible!

I'm surprised I'm not dead yet XD

Update on Pin

~pintos-bellaserum — Thu, 10 Jul 2008 20:01:37 PDT

Well, the moods are apparently updated, but I don't know what to change mine too. I guess I still feel sort of unheard.

Good news: We moved my horse yesterday. She is doing great. Of course with Mayday, it's almost a drama fest if she is taken away from her friends. But aside from that she is settling into her stall pretty well, and is doing exceptionally well for being in the barn for her first time.

Bad News: Bleh, depression is taking a turn for the worse again. I have noticed myself getting so snappy and irritable latley..and I'm so tired of it. I really hope I can resurface from this soon. When I'm not feeling numb, I feel angry all the time, and I don't know why. *sighs* Maybe I should just give it some more time.

Indifference: I have been thinking of starting a general fiction serise. Would anyone be interested in it? I was thinking it would be about a pack of wolves and the stuggles they face. Cliche or no?

-Pin

~Rant~

~pintos-bellaserum — Mon, 30 Jun 2008 07:48:18 PDT

*This rant is not directed towards anyone*
What is getting really old for me now is the whole English/Western debate. People seem so set that their particular style of riding is better than everyone else's, and will go out of their way to put other people down. It's all the stupid stereotypes that cause this ignorance, and honestly it's beginning to piss me off. I don't feel that western riders should always feel the need to justify themselves for choosing that particular style. Their is nothing wrong with western riding! And neither is there anything wrong with english. Just because I ride western does not mean I blast around on barrels with my Tomb Thumb. In fact, I use a french link. There is this stupid stereotype that all western riders are hicks and beat their horses. Where the f*** did this come from? It's a stereotype and its frustrating how many people go along with it. Thats just like saying all english riders are rich and can buy themselves riding talent. Thats like saying the english industry is over run by fourteen year old kids teaching jumping lessons. Nothing is farther from the truth and its the same with western riding. I am a good rider and I don't think the type of saddle I use should change that. My horse is happy and healthy, and she might not be that way if it wasn't for me so don't you dare criticize me based on the style I ride. English and Western riders should encourage each other, not try to belittle each other and put each other down. Honestly this whole debate is a joke for me as people are becoming more and more ignorant.
It's perfectly fine to prefer a style, but to say one is way better that the other is so ignorant and it only makes you look like a fool in the end. Plain and simple.

On the note of suicide

~pintos-bellaserum — Sun, 22 Jun 2008 15:21:57 PDT

Wow.
I am really sorry for the dark journal entry-but some things need to be said.
One of my friends recently learned that an old elementary friend of hers committed suicide.
Suicide is such a selfish thing. It tears people apart and causes pain that can never be healed. It is not the easy way out, no, it is far from it.
What I find is that the people who you least expect to commit suicide do. It is the kid who fakes a smile, or walks alone in the hallway. It is the kid that pretends to be alright when they are aching inside. Most of the time it is not the kid who proudly displays cut wrists or boasts about almost killing themself. For such people it is a cry for help or a desperate act for attention. Alex's family were all in shock that he took his own life; and they never saw it coming.
So I encourage you to reach out. All it takes is a smile and I kind word here and there. For most teens, it is a lack of acceptance and acknowledgment that causes them to kill themselves. For me this hit close to home because of my depression, and I realized how real that line is between life and death. Don't let an opportunity pass you by to help someone. Smile, talk to them, let people know you care.
Please.

One week left

~pintos-bellaserum — Mon, 16 Jun 2008 21:09:24 PDT

Bwaha!
Only one week left of school. In one week I can forget everything I learned, and focus on the most important thing: art!
I am ditching pixel art and soft shading. I just don't have a passion for it anymore,so their is really no point.Plus I don't like the politics of tag artists anyways. I am going to pursue photo manipulation and photography instead, since I have more of a natural talent for it, *to some extent,* and enjoy doing it. Thanks to Maeris for helping me out with my art. I am really happy with how much it has improved. <33

On a slightly more unhappy note, still no progress with moving Mayday. For those of you who don't know, Mayday is mah pinto sporthorse. We board her with relatives who live just an hour away from home. So obviously this isn't working out. She never gets worked and now she is just sitting out in a field, all wild and such. I have been working at tim hortons for a year now, so I finally saved up enough money to move her. unfortunately, the closest stable to my home just had a strangles outbreak. The next closest stable has no room for boarders, so I have no choice but to board her at my last option stable. Only problem is the board is 550 CND a month, and only indoor.
Both me and Mayday with have to make adjustments. She has never seen a stall in her life. But maybe it will be better for her so she can rest her leg. I will do anything for that horse, so I appreciate your support and understanding as I will be offline a lot to move her. (And make the proper arrangements)

Update

~pintos-bellaserum — Wed, 11 Jun 2008 14:15:20 PDT

Yes, I live!
I am just really busy with exams and work and such. These next two weeks are going to be really stressful and I am trying to stay in a positive mood.

On a side note, I am very curiouse as to if anyone has any HP commishionhs open. If you really want I can pay in FPP/FPD. But I would prefer to pay in HPD.
If you do have any tag commishoins open please note me right away and I can get bnack to you.

-pinto

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