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hey so i realized i haven't been on here in forever. turns out it's been three weeks. wow, so how are all you guys? any of you americans do something special for thanksgiving? it's just me and the dog here, and it's really cold. bah. anyway, here's a bit of an update.

chelsea left me, two days after our seven month mark (which, that mark was the day after i came back from florida). yeah so she went back and forth between blaming me for everything and then saying she'd take me back if i got my act together. after a week of that, she ended up with another girl. what a slap in the face that was. then the girl left her. now...well...i'm not getting into that. despite everything, i still love her though. sometimes i wonder why.

then, i almost had a job at wal-mart. after two interviews things were looking bright for me...but i guess that didn't happen after all. honestly, i don't think i'm really ready for a job at the moment anyway. at least, not one like that...dealing with holiday shoppers all the time and losing my mind. i have a lot of outside problems i'm trying to deal with, so let's get them all fixed before getting a job that would stress me out even more. sounds like a plan, right?

now i'm just trying to get back into the swing of things. i've been pretty depressed (you know...chelsea leaving), but i'm working on that. i have some new friends to talk to, who've really been helping a lot. then there's friends on here (like katja) who i'm sure would listen if i really needed someone to talk to. talking helps, but it would be even more helpful if chelsea herself would talk to me. i was going to call her last night, but i decided against that. speaking of last night, i missed the mythbusters marathon. alyssa told me about it...and there was maybe one episode left...so i was going to watch. of course, i got sidetracked and before i knew it the clock said 03am. man, i didn't even go to sleep until 07am. woke up at noon. that's after yesterday, going to sleep at 05am and waking up three hours later. which reminds me...i saw part of the thanksgiving day parades...and i must ask, what was the deal with cyndi lauper's hair? my sister said she looked like a rooster...and i agree. what, was she pulling a sanjaya on us? well, it was interesting. anyway, i'm too cold to stay down here any longer...and i really should be typing more of my novel (for national novel writing month). bah. cheers!

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Brushes by *gvalkyrie ]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/28020119/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/28020119/ Wed, 28 Oct 2009 20:39:40 PDT when you really should have said you’ll stay.
I cried for you because you took your light...
and left me, though you know I’ve lost my way.
I cried for you for though you’re thinking of me...
you hide it, saying you don’t know me well.
I cried for you because I know you love me...
I cried for you because you’ll never tell.

]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/27996519/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/27996519/ Tue, 27 Oct 2009 14:44:55 PDT talking to taylor...



[16:28] spawnoftofu: i hate that my laundry smells like chelsea, because it makes me miss her too much.
[16:29] suicidebagel: awww *pat pat* it will get better
[16:29] *** Auto-response sent to suicidebagel: auto response: let repeat dialing call you back when this line is free. to activate for 75 cents, press one. if you are dialing from a rotary phone, press two.
[16:29] spawnoftofu: i washed some clothing while i was there, using her laundry detergent, so now i was putting laundry away and it's like...gah. i miss her!!
[16:30] spawnoftofu: i was doing relatively ok today...until i smelled my laundry...
[16:30] suicidebagel: aww uh... um... *internet hug*
[16:31] spawnoftofu: lol.
[16:31] spawnoftofu: i don't even know why i smelled it.
[16:31] spawnoftofu: well, kind-of just a "i never actually bothered to see what the detergent smelled like" thing...so i smelled the laundry to see if it still smelled like some form of detergent. apparently it does.
[16:32] suicidebagel: i did that with a shirt a friend of mine washed
[16:32] suicidebagel: I didnt wear it for like a month
[16:32] suicidebagel: just set it near my bed and smelt it once in a while
[16:33] spawnoftofu: omg i do that too. if something smells like someone in particular, i make sure to never wear it or wash it...and i sleep with it next to me so it's like that person is sleeping next to me.
[16:33] spawnoftofu: i'll probably do that with my laundry here...so it's like chelsea is still next to me.
[16:33] suicidebagel: lol i didnt do the sleeping thing
[16:33] spawnoftofu: well i would think that's a little weird if you had.
[16:34] suicidebagel: but my friend ashley borrowed one of my shirts and she washed it afterwards and i cant say it smelt like her but it just smelt happy so i could wear it or wash it
[16:34] spawnoftofu: please don't wake me...only as long as i dream do you exist says:
btw, i hate that my laundry smells like you.
Toast says:
Lol
please don't wake me...only as long as i dream do you exist says:
it makes me miss you too much!!! T_T
please don't wake me...only as long as i dream do you exist says:
i must know what laundry detergent you use!
Toast says:
Umm. Tide methinks.
please don't wake me...only as long as i dream do you exist says:
i must get some...and soon.
[16:35] suicidebagel: lol what are you talking to her on?
[16:35] spawnoftofu: msn. except i'm sending her messages to her phone from my msn screen name.
[16:36] suicidebagel: lol
[16:36] spawnoftofu: otherwise i would never be able to talk to her.
[16:36] spawnoftofu: T_T
[16:37] spawnoftofu: ugh, i hate this. i stopped smelling the laundry, but i still smell the detergent. which sucks...because it's just making me sad all over again. i hate being so far away.
[16:38] suicidebagel: tis ok just think happy thoughts... Im not sure what but hey use your imaginatino
[16:38] suicidebagel: ... damn.... Imaginatino
[16:38] suicidebagel: GOD DAMNIT
[16:38] suicidebagel: * Imagination
[16:38] suicidebagel: there we go

]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/27735513/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/27735513/ Mon, 12 Oct 2009 21:19:19 PDT
]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/27282304/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/27282304/ Fri, 18 Sep 2009 14:55:04 PDT
that said, here's the deal. i draw portraits in graphite but almost never add color (except sometimes in the background). i paint portraits in acrylic, usually monochromatic but sometimes using the original colors. then i also draw strange ink creatures of my own creation, and i also make wallets and purses/mini backpacks out of duct tape.

if you want a realistic portrait, i can draw anyone (your mother, your favorite celebrity, anime characters) so long as i have a reference. same goes for painting. check my gallery; i will be adding new work soon.

as for duct tape creations, you can see a few wallets here: [link]

for duct tape purses/mini backpacks, please check this post for updates later.

so if you want me to draw/paint you something, send a note with a decent-sized picture and i'll see what i can do. if you want a duct tape creation, send a note telling me colors and other specifics.

prices:

strange ink creatures - 5 USD

graphite drawing, upper body - 7 USD

graphite drawing, full body - 11 USD

painting, upper body - 11 USD

painting, full body - 13 USD

duct tape wallet - 10 USD

duct tape purse - 13 USD

duct tape mini backpack - 16 USD

keep in mind the prices for drawings and paintings are one figure only. adding a second person/character will add an additional 3 USD to the full price. all prices include shipping costs. if you are confused about anything or want more details, please send a note and i'll be more than happy to answer any questions.

-jac

]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/27245663/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/27245663/ Wed, 16 Sep 2009 13:25:27 PDT [link]
Put your name in, and generate slogans after each question.

1. What do you say to yourself every morning?
-Biting the hand that feeds Jac.

2. What do you want other people to say about you?
-I was a Jac weakling.

3. Someone asked you out, your answer is...
-It's how Jac is done.

4. How would you answer a booty call?
-Not just nearly Jac, but really Jac.

5. How would you introduce yourself to someone you really like?
-Turn loose the Jac.

6. To someone you dislike?
-Once you pop, you can't stop Jac.

7. You're in a conversation and you suddenly feel the need to pee, how would you excuse yourself?
-Nothing comes between me and my Jac.

8. Your parents ask you why you got home late, you say...
-Mild green Jac liquid.

9. You're failing a subject, you say...
-Moms like you choose Jac.

10. ?

11. Your bf/gf is breaking up with you, you tell him/her...
-What would you do for a Jac?

12. Someone told you you're an asshole, you tell them...
-The Jac of your life.

13. What are the best words to describe you?
-You're in good hands with Jac.

14. If you're going to have a movie about your life, the title is...
-The Jac of your life. (again?)

15. Your last words before you die....
-Where do you want Jac to go today? (as in, heaven or hell?)

16. Your message to a special someone..
-When it absolutely, positively has to be Jac overnight.

17. Title of this post will be...
-The real smell of Jac.



ok, this wasn't as fun as i thought it was going to be. i should do it over...lol. maybe on my other account...

]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/27231264/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/27231264/ Tue, 15 Sep 2009 16:26:45 PDT i posted this on livejournal a few days ago and realized i never posted it here like i wanted. well, i'm posting now...because i guess i just want some advice.





yesterday i posted an entry. today i'm posting an entry. my, what is the world coming to? well, i've been thinking about things involving my girlfriend...so i just wanted to get some thoughts out there. now why is it most lesbians seem to rush into relationships so quickly? i don't get it. i've realized i do it myself even. ok ok, i'm pansexual...but i lean mostly toward women. so yeah, it's almost six months into my relationship and already i'm thinking of what if she's the one. you know, that single person you're meant to live the rest of your life with. i mean, she and i go together like...water and water. lol, seriously though...we're pretty much perfect for each other. so of course i want this to last forever...but i think that's my problem. i want it so much i might actually just be pushing her away in the end. this is her first serious relationship...and also her first long-distance one...so we're trying to take things slowly. yeah well i guess my version of "slowly" is still too fast for her. i feel like i'm ready to settle down...but she's just started college. so we're at different points in our lives. ah huh...that's right...just started college. hey, i waited until she was legal before i asked her out...geez! anyway, how do we find a happy medium? or rather, how do i calm myself down a bit and get to a healthier pace? if i screw this relationship up, i don't think i'll ever end up in another one again. i love her so much...i don't ever want to lose her. so how do i...not lose her?

]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/27205289/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/27205289/ Mon, 14 Sep 2009 08:20:17 PDT
really the only potentially exciting thing coming up this month is my aunt is planning her annual Oktoberfest celebration in memory of my uncle. that's the end of this month (i guess she's having it early this year). yeah so i get to go out there a few days ahead of time and help her clean. last time it took me two hours to scrub just the wood floors on the main level. well, maybe this time will go more quickly. on the plus side, at least i get paid for it. being an artist, i don't bring in much money...so every little bit helps.

oh so last night i was watching "living with ed" on planet green...and i thought it was so cool he has an exercise bike that he used to generate electricity to toast his bread for breakfast. well actually, a lot of what he has is cool...like his solar ovens and electric car. if i ever manage to win the lottery, i'm buying a house with all those fun energy-saving gadgets. well, first i'd pay off my parents' house...and then i'd buy a house and give it solar panels and all that fun stuff. oh and maybe get a car that runs purely on vegetable oil. i've always liked the idea of helping out the environment and reducing my carbon footprint and stuff. so why am i on the computer wasting energy then? lol, i guess it's time to go do things that don't use as much electricity. be prepared to see some artwork from me later!

]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/27200439/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/27200439/ Sun, 13 Sep 2009 21:46:22 PDT
just wanted to get this out there...

mein engel, ich wünsche dich in meinen Armen...in meinem Leben. bitte...lasst du für mich nur. du bist mein Glück...meine Freude. ich liebe dich, mit alles mein herz.







ok, katja...how poorly did i say that?

]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/26871953/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/26871953/ Fri, 28 Aug 2009 08:27:22 PDT
first off, let me apologize for never being on here...never commenting to anything...never posting any artwork. i'm mostly on my other account (kissingtheautumnsky.deviantart.com) working on a story...or i'm just not on at all. i've tried drawing a few things recently, but nothing good enough to submit here. right now life's just a little screwed up for me...so i'm working on fixing it. i was supposed to be going to florida the beginning of next month, but the guy i was going with is most likely waiting until october now...and i probably can't go with him then. so now i'm trying to find another way to get down there...but with limited money, it leaves me with few options. i'm working on it though...just might not be there as long as intended, and i might have to go a little later in the month.

now aside from that, my parents have been out of town for a few days...but they come back today. so yesterday i did a lot of cleaning, and i still have more to do today. sure i could have done it before, but then i'd probably just have to clean it all over again today...so i wait until the last minute because then it will be cleanest when they get home. that makes sense, right? anyway, i cut my hair last night...by myself i should add. i cut off nearly two feet, so now it's just below my ears. i'd forgotten how annoying it is to have it this length though...because my hair never wants to stay behind my ears like i want it to. well, i'm not even keeping it this length anyway. i'm going to have my mother fix it for now, but then probably go somewhere to get it professionally cut and styled like a faux 'hawk ([link] , style on the left).

oh so it's been raining here...pretty much constantly the last few days. it started late tuesday night and was still raining when i woke up on wednesday. then it rained on and off pretty much all wednesday. yesterday it was raining the entire day (i don't think we ever got a break from it), and it's raining again now. when will this rain end? come on, people...stop using so much electricity and contributing to global warming! ((i say this as i'm using my computer and was thinking of turning on the food network while i clean)) ok, i am going to get off my computer and not watch the food network. i am going to listen to music while i clean (the radio uses less electricity than the television) and then perhaps i'll cook and/or bake something for when my parents get home. so on that note, i hope you all are doing well...and i promise i will get around to looking at all your deviations soon.

hugs for everyone!



]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/26487219/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/26487219/ Sun, 09 Aug 2009 15:46:41 PDT

(05:35:36 PM) me: psh. you're always going to be difficult.
(05:36:08 PM) me: girls get enough of that from other girls...they don't need it from guys too. they expect the guy to be hassle-free.
(05:36:54 PM) shepp: i can be hassle free....ha i am perfectly willing to be difficult ness free...but if i am not in the relationship why should i not have things the way i want them
(05:37:38 PM) me: well, but if girls see you as you are now, they will think you're always that way and then be less willing to give you a shot.
(05:38:19 PM) shepp: well if i was interested in a girl i wouldn't act difficult from the very beginning
(05:39:49 PM) me: it doesn't matter. they can sense these things. kind-of like a hyena can sniff out a dead zebra in the middle of the night.
(05:40:23 PM) shepp: lol well whats the difference they are just going to turn all bitchy anyway and break my heart
(05:40:45 PM) me: only if you go at it with that kind of attitude.
(05:41:02 PM) me: you have to think positively...don't be a dead zebra!
(05:46:18 PM) shepp: ha well i am not a dead zebra quite yet
(05:46:43 PM) me: ...yet.

]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/26421436/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/26421436/ Thu, 06 Aug 2009 11:06:30 PDT and


yeah so i was supposed to move today, right? after originally supposed to be moving on the 01st. ok well nick is ridiculous. i don't even know if we have the apartment yet. to make matters worse, he's moving in someone i don't trust. great. thanks. so it looks like i'm stuck here at least another few days. rawr. i've just been so stressed about this, and this constant not moving all of the sudden? yeah, it doesn't help. anyway, i don't know when i'm leaving now. i just thought i'd let you all know...if any of you care.

]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/26363287/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/26363287/ Mon, 03 Aug 2009 16:19:08 PDT and so i apologize if it's listed in your messages twice.


alright, so i've been going back and forth between moving and not moving to michigan. one stupid thing after another, and i'm finally moving now. apparently nick checked the place out today and he said it's not that bad, so we're trying to move thursday seeing as that's his day off. well this should be fun. rawr. i guess his credit is so bad they might have to have me as the name on the lease and just nick as a tenant, since no credit is better than bad credit sometimes. eh, at least i'll start building credit somehow then; i'm going to need it for when i get a place entirely on my own then. so yeah, once i move that means no internet for a while...which means no deviantART. i'm going to be so saddened! well, i guess maybe i could go to the library once every other week or something, but i don't want to have to walk that entire way and nick will soon be starting his second job so there's no way he'd take me. besides, it's nick. no offense, but he's lazy...and he doesn't like to go somewhere unless he absolutely has to. anyway, i'm hoping we could get internet as soon as a month from now. it all depends on our finances though. at least the only utility not included in the bill is electricity...so we won't pay too much extra outside of rent. man, i am not letting that boy conveniently forget to pay the electric and i end up showering in the dark. last time i went to rebecca's and showered there. this time i won't have anyone to go to. i hate showering in the dark. yes...so...moving soon. limited internet, if any. that's all i really wanted to say. if you know my cellular telephone number, you may call me...but i might not be talking often. rawr. so yes. update over.

]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/26207541/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/26207541/ Mon, 27 Jul 2009 09:11:09 PDT
]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/26011133/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/26011133/ Fri, 17 Jul 2009 17:09:26 PDT
((tagged by katja, [link]))

1. i am not proud of some things from my past, but i must move on
2. there is one person that has my heart...most of it anyway
3. right now i kind-of feel like baking brownies or something
4. i've always longed to visit europe...but i refuse to go without the person mentioned earlier
5. listening to Enya always calms me down no matter what
6. sometimes i feel like i'm not good enough for her, because i'm so far away and can't be there when she needs me
7. all i want is for everyone else to be happy, even if i'm far from it myself
8. i believe there's a reason i've met everyone in my life
9. as a child i was always a bit of a loner...not much has changed
10. apparently, according to Toast, i am a wild berry pop tart-flavored filthy victorian (and if you ask about that, i'm not sure i could even tell you what that means)



Directions:
1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 10 things about themselves on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 10 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.

]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/25670435/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/25670435/ Wed, 01 Jul 2009 10:19:19 PDT
friday...what happened friday? i don't think a whole lot happened on friday. i'd been trying to burn some CDs for jas and finally got those taken care of saturday i think. yeah, nothing really went on friday. saturday nick drove out here from michigan and we headed up to wisconsin to pick up meli around 13:30CT or so. man, her grandmother has a nice garden. well, the whole house looked really nice. right when i saw meli i was about ready to cry...i missed that girl so much. i hadn't seen her for one year and thirteen days, so of course i was going to miss her. her grandmother was a little different than i expected, and the whole time i was there i just kept wondering what she thought of me. well, after that we went to her mother's for her to get a few things. then, stopped at mcdonald's and finally were on our way back to illinois. of course, i got us turned around because we were leaving from somewhere different than i was used to. by the time we got back into illinois and got to denny's it was maybe 19:30CT or so. yeesh. at denny's i saw caryl, virginia, diantha, drake, tomo (drake's bf), and then rebecca came with rimma and nikki. yeah, big crowd. virginia wrote her number and address down for me...my pen didn't work though so she had to use my eyeliner. oh well.

ok so...after denny's caryl, virginia, and diantha went to a movie. rebecca was going to go with but instead she ended up going with me, rimma, nikki, nick, and meli to cosmic bowling. that was fun. i got 93 the first game and 90 the second. i felt badly for rimma because no one seemed to pay too much attention to her since rebecca was the only one that knew her...so i tried to talk to her some of the night so she wasn't left out. i have to remember to add her to facebook. she was pretty fun, and i liked the russian accent. lol, anyway...so we drove rebecca to the movie theatre so she could get a ride home from diantha. then we took nikki to the lake forest train station just to find it was no longer running...so she came back to my parents' with us because we didn't want to leave her stranded. sunday we left early-ish to get to the libertyville train station and go get breakfast from caribou coffee (it's right next to the station). the oatmeal raisin cookie was scrumptious, but the iced mocha not so much...oh well. then rebecca showed up. 10:07amCT we boarded the train and headed to the city.

apparently it was some guy's birthday just like it was mine, so everyone on the top level sang happy birthday to us...and then again when the kid's brother came on a few stops later. that was fun, i suppose. rebecca had to open her mouth and say it was my birthday...rawr. that sucked, because then everyone was paying attention to me and i didn't want them to. oh well. when we got into chicago, we waited for tyler and his girlfriend (amanda) and then headed for the brown line to take the el to belmont. nikki left early to go back to her apartment for a bit, so the rest of us headed off. once we got to belmont, we walked to halsted to see the pride parade. yeah, fail. everyone was squished up against everyone else and you have all these strangers yelling at you to move and it just was not pleasant. i could barely even see the parade. good thing i'm not too claustrophobic. see, if we were in an elevator or something and that happened, i would have freaked...but we were out in the open so it wasn't as bad. it just sucked i was pressed up against the bathrooms most of the time.

police came and yelled at everyone to move away from the parade because people were too jammed together and getting grumpy about it, so we walked off and went to look around. we'd lost tyler and amanda, so we went to get happy drink-ish and ice cream-ish things from baskin robbins' while we tried getting ahold of tyler. finally found them and waited around a bit for rebecca's friend, christina. i walked off to find a rest room and ended up waiting in line at baskin robbins' for what seemed like f... ]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/25449373/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/25449373/ Sun, 21 Jun 2009 08:48:07 PDT
for some reason lately i just haven't been feeling up to doing much of anything. it's rare i'm online these days, and when i am i don't usually want to spend time responding to comments or staring at artwork all afternoon. mostly i just come on to see if there's really any important journals i should be reading. i haven't been working on any new deviation-worthy material. i haven't been doing really anything other than reading bits and pieces of the book i have to finish ("on the road" by jack kerouac)...and then there's all the cleaning from the last day or so. mother and father return today at some point, so i've just been trying to clean up a bit here and there. let's see...i tried sanding down the door (which didn't work so well), i swept all the floors, i scrubbed the floors with a scrub brush, i vacuumed the upstairs, washed dishes, did some laundry...yeah so i've been a bit busy. it's funny how i can get motivated to clean but not to do anything else really.

so last night i had a...moment. i'm not sure what to consider it to be. i'd been in a weird mood, so i called toast to leave her a voice message. well, when i went to re-record it, she called back. i answered and the call ended. i waited to see if she'd try again, but i just ended up calling back. she couldn't hear me but i could hear her so she talked for 50 seconds and then hung up. i don't know what came over me but i just suddenly started crying. yes, i am a very emotional person. actually, i've been suffering from depression (among other things) for a long while now. i should seriously probably be on medication, but i refuse to see any more therapists and do any more testing. well, that and i can't take many medications because of my heart condition...and even if i could i wouldn't be able to afford them so it doesn't matter. my art is how i help myself to control my emotions...but when i haven't felt like working on anything then my emotions go all haywire. whatever. i give up.

on another note, i love pandora radio (www.pandora.com) today. i forgot my old account, so i just made a new one and i said i wanted to hear things similar to emilie autumn. well, it gave me sirenia (which i like)...and then it gave me the birthday massacre. yes! i love the birthday massacre, so i was surprised that not only was i given a song by them but it was one of their older ones. usually you find tons of stuff for their new music but no one seems to care about the old stuff. well i care...so it was exciting. now i'm listening to azam ali - "endless reverie" and i know i've heard it somewhere before but i can't figure out where to save my life. this is going to bother me. oh wait, was it on dj ferret's underground club mix #2? yeah, just looked it up...that's where i know it from. oh, the song changed. this sounds like something cassi would listen to. i wonder how she's doing. how are the rest of you doing? does anyone even read this anymore?

]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/25237386/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/25237386/ Wed, 10 Jun 2009 14:14:18 PDT
for some reason it seems like people these days are so set in their ways they won't think twice about anything that brings them out of their comfort zone. i'm even that way with certain things. it's pretty ridiculous though. get to know someone a little before you judge them, their country, and all the people from said country. try some sushi before you say it's gross and you won't eat it for all the money in the world (it's not all raw fish, you know). learn about someone's culture before you decide their way of killing their food is inhumane. just because it's not something you're used to doesn't make it wrong.

so i've decided to completely tear my life apart and start from scratch. you know, like when you make a mess in your bedroom because that's the only way to completely clean and organize everything. i need to re-evaluate a few friendships. i need to work harder on getting out of this house. i need to do a lot of things. this is just a strange time for me right now i suppose you could say, so if i seem a bit different than normal don't pay any attention to it. i'll be right as rain soon enough. maybe during all this i will feel more inspired with certain artwork. well like when i went through 40-some google image search pages on steampunk things, i felt like i wanted to get a bunch of scrap metal and start welding up a steampunk masterpiece. then again, i also wanted to make a computer tower from a vintage toaster once i found that photograph as well (isn't it amazing?: [link]). man, i have so many ideas but can't figure out how to get them to be more than that. for now i just have to work on getting out of here. i made a certain promise to a certain person, and i plan on keeping it.

]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/25085060/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/25085060/ Tue, 02 Jun 2009 08:59:57 PDT About the way you act and look
But I haven't got a paragraph
Words are always getting in my way
Anyway, I love you
That's all I have to tell you
That's all I've got to say

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in other news, today is the day i finally install puppy linux on my computer. no more windows ME! oh this is a neat song...MANHE - Grand Rush d'été. anyway, i'm just sick of windows giving me so many problems...so i thought i'd try a different operating system and puppy linux looks like the best for my computer. i mean, i have 256KB ram and a 1202 Mhz AMD Athlon processor...so it's not like i could really have a big, exciting operating system in place of ME. that's why i'm going with puppy...it's small enough to run from a flash drive, but it's still pretty powerful in its own ways. it's perfect for an older PC like mine. you all probably don't care about this anyawy...lol. who even reads this thing?

for those of you that read this, you should tell me what you think i should do for my next piece of art. should it be a painting? ink drawing? graphite drawing? poetry? then should it be a portrait? still life? something really abstract? whatever you suggest, i'll try my best to work with it. i need to get inspired again. someone inspire me.

]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/24746690/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/24746690/ Wed, 13 May 2009 23:07:17 PDT

hey, everyone! this is your moderator speaking. sorry i've been kind-of sucky about updating this thing. well anyway, i figured i'd give a review of tonight's show in chicago since i just got back. this was my fourth year in a row seeing TBM and i must say, they never cease to amaze me. these guys are incredible. so, on with the review!

first off, the venue...reggie's rock club. if you're taking the train into the city, it's a little over two miles-ish to the venue from union station. yeah, don't be like me and wear friggin' huge pants while trying to walk through the city on a ridiculously windy day. right, well, we got to the venue just before 05:00pmCT and ended up waiting for at least an hour. you get inside and it's a cool place. they allow cameras, they had the merch right as you walk in (so it's not like house of blues where i couldn't find it and they were closing down when i finally got there)...so yeah it's a small venue but it's definitely somewhere cool to hang out. they had an upstairs bit with seating, which saved me when i was feeling about ready to pass out at the end of i am ghost's set. all in all, i definitely recommend going to reggie's for a show or two. oi and make sure you keep hydrated, kids!

now, dommin! these guys were fantastic! seriously, if you love TBM you're sure to like dommin. i can't remember any of the songs to save my life, but i remember they were some seriously good tunes. if you've checked them out on myspace and think they're just alright, they are so much better live (in my opinion). they all seem like pretty cool, laid back people too so that's always nice. oh and they stuck around afterward so you could talk to them if you wanted (though most people just crowded around chibi).

second came i am ghost. holy hotness these guys were phenomenal. i only recognized one song, but they were beyond amazing. they had so much energy, and gave such a powerful performance, they had mosh pits going and everything. well ok, just one mosh pit...if you can call it that. still, i highly suggest you see them in concert sometime. i'd never seen them before, so this was a whole new experience for me. my heart was pounding. the music was crazy, loud, and so much better than i expected. again, they too seemed like a bunch of great guys. sometimes band members can be real jerks, but i didn't get that vibe at all from i am ghost. seeing them live is definitely a good time, so go check them out if you get a chance!

last but not least, the main event, the birthday massacre! for the first two songs i was in the upper level of the venue, so i didn't get quite the feel i normally do from seeing them live. once we went back down to the main floor though, oh my god! another perfect performance by TBM. the crowd gave really positive feedback, which made the band in turn release even more energy. chibi was her usual playfully theatrical self. rainbow still spun in circles while o-en bounced around a lot. falcore and o.e. i couldn't see too well, but they seemed as enthusiastic as ever. of course rhim could hardly be seen way in the back. some of the songs they performed were shiver, looking glass, video kid, violet, and i think we're alone now. man, i can barely hear anything and i'm incredibly sore, but it was definitely worth it. we got rained on walking back to the train station and my pants almost turned into a parachute and lifted me into the wind, but it was definitely worth it. seriously guys, i cannot stress this enough...it was definitely worth it. if you haven't gotten tickets yet, you really should! oh and don't forget the band always sticks around afterward. i looked terrible, but i made my way to chibi and finally got to talk to her. four years of trying to talk to her and either wussing out or not getting to see her, and i gave in and went for it. yep, another thing that's definitely worth it. oi and yes, she really is that short. well, i made her a duct tape/knitted purse with a robot boy holding a purple lightsaber. i also made her a mixed cd and drew something ( [link] ) involving lyrics from "velvet" (that was all belated birthday stuff, by the way). oh then, i had duct tape wallets for all the guys. don't want to leave them out! everyone seems to focus on chibi, but there's so much more to the band than just a short, cute girl. don't forget that! anyway, she really is super nice. i nearly had a heart attack finally talking to her, but she's still super nice. well, they all are. so go see them why don't you!

so yeah, there's my bit of a review. i'm a bit out of it right now and about ready to pass out, but i thought i'd at... ]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/24607601/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/24607601/ Tue, 05 May 2009 18:54:31 PDT someone i used to be friends with used to refer to me as "pixiedoll" when talking about me but not wanting to use my actual name, and for some reason i liked it...and then talim, that's for the character on soul calibur...because she was my favorite at the time

2. What fandom were you obsessed with when you joined and what are you into now?
i never really had anything i was particularly obsessed with...

3. How many watchers do you have now?
how do i know?...[goes to look]...hm...23 it looks like, if i counted correctly

4. Name 3 of your favourite artists on dA.
oi...there's so many!

5. Do you comment, fav, or both?
sometimes i just fave...sometimes i comment and fave.

6. Do you participate in clubs' contests here on dA?
uh...nope.

7. What is your most popular deviation?
no clue...i should find that out at some point...how can i tell which is most popular other than seeing which has the most faves on it?...blah...oh here we go..."her most favourited one is chihiro from "spirited away", with 9 favourites."

8. What are your favourite non-anime TV shows?
buffy...serenity...stuff like that

9. What are the things you wish you could draw better?
portraits without reference images

10. Summer or winter?
winter

11. Rain or Sun?
i enjoy them both for different reasons

12. What's your favourite type of music?
anything that sparks alive certain emotions from deep within me

13. PC or Mac?
i've pretty much just used PCs most of my life aside from the old macintosh i have to the side of me...so i can't really tell you

14. Anime or Manga?
anime

15. Coke or Pepsi?
always coca-cola...though both will give you kidney problems over time...any sort of cola does that to you though

16. Read or TV?
depends...

17. How many hours a day do you spend on DA?
some days i can spend all afternoon just looking at the wonderful art and reading great poetry/prose...other days i'm only on a minute or two and that's it

18. Name a hidden talent.
uh...do i even have any hidden talents?

19. Flash or traditional cartoons?
definitely traditional

20. What is your favourite fast food restaurant?
pretty much all fast food is gross these days...but i guess subway or quizno's aren't so terrible...my favorite place ever was the cafe in town, but it recently closed...it sucks

21. What are your top 3 favourite books?
they're all children's books..."love is a special way of feeling," "over in the meadow," and "caps for sale"...oh and there was this one book series i used to love in elementary school...can't remember the name to save my life though...it was about a dog...i want to say his name was harry, but it wasn't like the "harry the dirty dog" books...OMG!...HAIRY MACLARY!...that's what it was!...all i remembered was the line "bottomley pots covered in spots"...thank you, google search. [link]

22. Wii or Playstation?
i've never played wii, but i love all other nintendo consoles pretty much...playstation has fun games on it though

23. Name 3 of your favourite bands.
the birthday massacre, fleetwood mac, the glenn miller orchestra

24. Are you a fast, slow, or medium typer?
i'd say medium...unless i'm a giant ball of nervous energy...then my fingers really fly

25. Do you like Denny's?
eh...ours has an alice cooper waitress...at least, it used to...i think her real name's terry...but my friends always called her the alice cooper waitress

26. What is your favourite emoticon?
no clue

27. What is your favourite type of pie?
it varies

28. Have you ever stayed up for 24 hours?
indeed

29. Do you go on YouTube a lot?
used to...not so much anymore

30. Are you a member on any other sites besides DA?
too many

31. Do you cosplay?
not yet

32. Fruits or sweets?
depends

33. Buttered, plain, or salted popcorn?
i dislike most popcorn...caramel popcorn doesn't completely suck though

34. Have you skipped school?
in college, yes...never before then though

35. Have you been on a plane?
a few times

36. Have you swum in an ocean?
swum?...why does that seem weird?...and no, i have not gone swimming in an ocean

37. Have you been ice skating?
of course!...am i any good at it?...definitely not

38. Favourite vacation spot?
eh

39. Ever been on TV?
nah

40. Favourite salad dressing?
italian's pretty good if you get... ]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/24587189/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/24587189/ Mon, 04 May 2009 16:05:56 PDT
last night i decided i'd finally send Toast's mail, assuming the bank issue got resolved...yeah, i taped up the box and then found i forgot something for it...suck...oh well...i guess i'll just have to send more mail then...i'm hoping to send Jett and Phoenix mail soon...well, Jett never talks to me anymore...but i'll at least send mail to Phoenix...i owe them both.

so today mitch was supposed to take me to the bank...he forgot, didn't get to sleep until 06:00amCT, and he had to be at work at 11:30amCT...great, now what?...called Cesar...he was supposed to take a friend somewhere but she found another ride, so he was magically free...thank goodness!...he took me to the bank, i fixed everything (finally), and then we got coffee at Starbucks so it wasn't a complete waste of time (yep, two tall white chocolate mochas!)...when he took me home i decided to walk to the post office.

yeah, i thought i could drink my coffee along the way...didn't work out so well...my tummybox ended up feeling blah...i only drank a little of the coffee, which sucks because i paid for it even though i'm poor (35$ to my name now, plus change)...but yes, so i walked four or five miles all together...in terribly old shoes that gave me blisters...and now i'm sore...because i've been so out of shape...i've had little to eat today...i'm running on little sleep...i need one of those pen things you roll under your eyes to take away the circles and stuff...lol...i really do look that tired...probably because i really am that tired...oh well.

in other news, the community garage sale is next month and i'm trying to think of what i could sell...any ideas?...i thought maybe i could draw a few portraits of famous people and see what happens with those...or make a few duct tape wallets, since i have so much tape...sure they're not the usual garage sale items, but i don't think i have anything laying around here that other people might actually want...well, maybe a few things, but nothing much i plan on giving up...i could sell some of my basketball cards, but those might be worth more than what someone would pay at a garage sale...what about college text books?...my ethics book and psychology book aren't that exciting, but i might be able to get a few bucks from them...oh!...one of my zillions of binders i have laying around here...if it's not all covered in writing or stickers, i could maybe sell one or two of them...unless mother needs 'em for anything...i need to find another way to make money...doing odd jobs for my parents isn't going to help me move to Florida any time soon...but i can't seem to get a job to save my life...Toast, i know you said you'd wait for me, but i just don't understand why.

i must have done something right, to deserve you in my life...i must have done something right along the way.

]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/24549827/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/24549827/ Sat, 02 May 2009 14:31:48 PDT oi, you better take photographs of this Nagisa + Shizuma cosplay of yours!...tell Tina she better make a damn good Shizuma or she may be hearing from me...lol...nah, i'm sure she'll be sexy...but you'll be sexier...huzzah!

]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/24503160/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/24503160/ Wed, 29 Apr 2009 18:49:34 PDT

[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[/] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[/] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercing.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[/] I have freckles.
[ ] I have a brother.
[XXX] I have a sister. (i have three!)
[/] I've run away from home.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.
[ ] I'm in school.
[/] I have a job.
[ ] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework. (when i had school, yeah)
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[x] I've stolen something from my job. (everyone stole at BK...they'd give you free food anyway)
[ ] I've been fired.
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation. (sadly, thanks to gingerbread...i need to not talk to her so often; she's rubbing off on me)
[/] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[ ] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public.
[x] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[x] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[x] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[x] I had a serious surgery. (I wouldn't be here without it!)
[x] I've had chicken pox.
[ ] I was born in a different country.
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[x] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[ ] I've wished on a shooting star.
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[/] I've played spin the bottle. (not seriously)
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[x] I've crashed a car. (none of the times were my fault...honestly!)
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from myspace. (greatestjournal and livejournal...not myspace...no wait!...jennie baker!...she was from myspace!)
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[/] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show. (i've seen parts)
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.
[ ] I'm single.
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[XXX] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[XXX] I miss someone right now. (i always do!...this time i miss a few someones)
[/] I have a fear of abandonment.
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've run a red light. (i wasn't paying attention)
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[/] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[/] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem. (depends on the size...not the monstrous ones)
[/] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've woken up crying.
[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[ ] I hate funerals.
[... ]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/24394542/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/24394542/ Thu, 23 Apr 2009 13:37:12 PDT
]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/24363179/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/24363179/ Tue, 21 Apr 2009 15:54:09 PDT ? You must fill out EVERY question! No skipping!
? Tag five people afterward.
? Leave a message on their page telling them they're tagged.

ARE YOU?
1. Perfect? eh
2. Tall? is 5'9" tall?
3. In your pajamas? nah

4. Left handed? right-handed.

LAST:
1. Friend you saw? rich
2. Talked to on the phone? rebecca
3. Person to text you? i don't have texting
4. Was today better than yesterday? parts of it


FAVORITES:
1. Number? 7...or 13
2. Color(s)? rainbow!
3. Fruit? watermelon or starfruit maybe...i don't know...i like melons...literal ones, i mean
4. Place? difficult to say

EIGHT EMOTIONS:
1. Are you missing someone right now? always am
2. Are you happy? a bit
3. Are you sad? not really
4. Are you bored? yes, hence this survey
5. Are you nervous? what would i have to be nervous about?
6. Are you tired? eh...mostly sore...i slept strangely

ABOUT YOU:
1. Real name? we'll just call me Jac
2. Nick names? Jac, Jac-in-the-box, Jaxx...
3. Eye color? greenish i suppose
4. Zodiac sign? cancer
5. Male or female? last i checked i was female...i don't think that changed
6. Slut? uh, no
7. Smart? to a degree
8. Hair color? go look at my deviantID
9. Long or short? long
10. Sweats or Jeans? jean material, please
11. Phone or Camera? both
12. Drink or Smoke? ...neither?
13. Righty or lefty? i already answered this


FIRSTS:
1. First best friend? sara in kindergarten
2. first crush? no comment
3. First pet? we had quite a few by the time i was born...first i can remember was actually mine were fish of the reddish orange platty variety
4. First big vacation? washington maybe

CURRENTLY:
1. Eating? nada
2. Drinking? water
3. I'm about to? get something to eat
4. Listening to? computer noises
5. Plans for today? work on more CD mixes for Toast

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? (i'm answering about girls...'cos, uh, i like them...boys are ridiculous)
1. Shorter or taller? shorter!
2. Romantic or spontaneous? i like a bit of both
3. Sensitive or loud? again, having a bit of both is nice
4. Hook-up or relationship? definitely a relationship

HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Drank bubbles? not to my knowledge
2. Lost glasses/contacts? a few times
3. Ran away from home? not exactly...it's a long story
4. Broken someone's heart? unintentionally
5. Been arrested? never

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
1. Miracles? sure
2. Yourself? at times
3. Heaven? not exactly
4. Santa Claus? i believe a man like him could have once existed
4. Love? indeed
5. Do you like someone? like is an understatement...she's ah-mazin!
6. Do you believe in God? my religion has a god and goddess...
7. Answered the truth on all questions? yes, but how does this have anything to do with believing in anything?

Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?
A: got the puppy off the bed

Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
A: just the pain in my left side

Q: What's the last movie you saw?
A: oi, i'm trying to remember...my father rents so many all the time

Q: Where is the last place you went?
A: my aunt's house...?

Q. Do you smile a lot?
A: it's been known to happen, just rarely caught on camera

Q: Do you wish upon stars?
A: yes

Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: indeed

Q: Where did you sleep last night?
A: my bed

Q: When was the last time you cried?
A: no clue

Q: What was your last thought before going to sleep last night?
A: can't remember

Q: Rate life as of right now one being bad ten being great?
A: 7

Q: What do you hear right now?
A: rebecca on the phone...she just called a few minutes ago

Q: Does anything hurt right now?
A: my left side

Q: What's your favorite month ?
A: december

Q: What did you do last night?
A: many things

]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/24180522/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/24180522/ Sat, 11 Apr 2009 10:41:13 PDT [x] You watch anime.
[x] You read manga.
[x] You buy/collect anime DVDs or manga volumes
[x] You own some other form of anime/manga merchandise.
[x] You have referred to an anime character as 'hot' before.
[ ] You have cosplayed. (not yet anyway)
[ ] You have done so in public.
[ ] You have been to an anime/manga convention. (again with the "not yet" part)
[x] You have created/joined a fanclub for an anime/manga character.
[ ] You have created/joined a hateclub for an anime/manga character.
[ ] You have squealed when you found out somebody had the same name as an anime character you knew.
[x] You enjoy drawing anime.
[x] People know you as the 'anime' person.
[x]You know that it is pronounced 'mawnguh' and not 'manga' like it is spelled.

Anime/manga nerd: 9/14

ART NERD
[x] You like art.
[x] You actually consider yourself an artist.
[x] When using art supplies, the brand of them matters to you.
[x] You have a favorite brand.
[x] You have asked for art supplies as a Christmas/birthday gift before.
[x] You give people your drawings as gifts.
[x] People actually ask for your drawings.
[ ] You are/were known as 'the art person' at your school.
[x] Instead of just 'brown' or ' pink', you'd be specific; it's 'sienna brown' or 'blush pink'.
[x] You have taken an art class outside of school.
[x] You have considered a career as an artist.
[x] Your school papers are always covered in doodles.
[x] You have a favorite artist.
[x] Your drawings have been framed.
[x] You carry a sketchbook with you everywhere you go.

Art nerd: 14/15

MUSICAL NERD
[x] You play a musical instrument.
[x] You play more than one instrument.
[x] You actually really enjoy playing your instrument.
[ ] You've given your instrument a name.
[x] You've participated in an extracurricular activity for your instrument.
[x] You are known by what you play.
[x] You listen to classical music.
[x] You are wondering whether that refers to the classical music genre or the classical music time period.
[x] You have a favorite composer.
[ ] All of your friends are from your band/orchestra class.
[x] You write music.
[x] You've had discussions with your friends about music; your favorite composers/instruments/musical time periods/key/etc...
[x] You have considered a professional career with your instrument.
[ ] You are never nervous playing for other people.

Musical nerd: 11/14

VIDEO GAME NERD
[x] You play video games.
[x] You own more than 4 different video game systems.
[x] You've had debates over which system is the greatest.
[x] You play video games every day. (since i started using my gameboy color again, yes)
[x] You have played a video game for over 10 hours.
[x] You have songs from your favorite video games on your MP3/iPod
[x] You love to talk about video games.
[ ] You memorize the dates for when a new game is being released
[ ] People know you as the 'gamer' person.
[x] You spend more time on video games than you do hanging out with friends. (i hardly get to see what friends i do have, so yes)
[ ] Your gaming system is in your room, not counting portable things like a DS.
[ ] You have preferences when it comes to what company your game came from.
[ ] You've had debates over which company is the best.
[x] You keep playing a game until you beat it.
[x] It makes you angry when you found out somebody looked up cheat codes on the internet to beat their game.

Video Game Nerd: 10/15




so, i might technically have a 15/15 for "art nerd"...or at least 14.5/15...because i wasn't really known at school...i mean, i guess people knew of me, but no one ever talked to me...the ones that did though, they thought of art first when they thought of me...so does that count for anything?...funny my second highest would be "music nerd"...i don't see how the "never nervous to play for people" thing has anything to do with how musical you are though...i mean, i'm almost as musical as a person can get but i'm always nervous to play for others...just part of my disorder and stuff...what if Beethoven or Schubert got nervous playing for others?...would they get a point off for that then?...i mean, come on!...they're composers!...yeesh!

...no, i don't think too much into things...not at all...[[shifty eyes]].

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oh and the mood icon?...it's just there because it amuses me. (XD)

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]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/24037573/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/24037573/ Fri, 03 Apr 2009 09:22:19 PDT [link] i suppose it's mildly amusing...makes me want to re-watch a vid. i found by TheHill88...it was something like "i has no epic lolz"...of course, i can't find it on her page...but now, i have this stuck in my head: [link] oh and let's not forget... [link]

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+talk to Chibi (of TBM) next time i have the opportunity (no more "run away and panic" scenarios!)

+do something with my music other than sending it to friends/family and posting on myspace

+see Emilie Autumn in concert at least once (because she is amazing)

+better the lives of others, even if only for a moment

+obtain some sort of college degree

+ROAD TRIP!

+find someone to finally settle down with (i'm working on this one...)

+become fluent in at least one of the languages i somewhat know already

+own a vehicle that will not just end up dead after a massive accident that wasn't even my fault (well, or dead from any other accident, for that matter)

+make someone truly happy for once

+let my guard down completely for a certain someone...

+be able to watch horror films without having to cling to someone the entire time

+learn to be a little less emotional and stop assuming so much

+visit the countries my ancestors came from

+try to track down my father's family that is still in slovakia (yeah, this'll be a tough one)

+go with Meli to visit Rachel's grave (i made this promise nearly three years ago, but still i have yet to fulfill it)

+take someone out on a real date for once (hanging out at the mall is not a "real date"...lol)

+find the necklace i lost yesterday (since i lost it outside somewhere but don't know where, it could be anywhere by now...probably lost it in the bowling alley parking lot)

+teach myself to play piano and guitar properly (while the correct fingering may be difficult, it screws you over much less in the end...trust me on this one)

+ask questions less and learn to just accept things as they are

+overcome as many of my fears as possible (like the fear of forever being alone)

+give people a reason to be proud of me

+finally find a toothpaste that does not have sodium lauryl sulfate in the ingredients (according to bill nye, it's not good for the environment...bill nye know everything...he's like chuck norris, but better)

+take better care of myself

+stop letting people break my heart so often

+teach myself to make those uber-delicious pearl drinks with the tapioca beads (yum!)

+get a new stylus for our record player (these records won't play themselves ya know...though i kind-of wish they would; those needle thingies are expensive)

+hang out with Sary before she moves to memphis

+get the tattoo i've been waiting so long for (they are expensive too...which saddens me...because i always have the money but then end up needing it for something else)

+learn to draw without using references

+teach myself to play the bagpipes...and possibly the accordion

+bring my clarinet back from the dead

+obtain the equipment necessary to do the type of jewelry and metal designing stuffs i learned in high school

+start playing sports again...like soccer

+beat every DDR song on standard (i mean, if i can beat rythym and police on standard, why not captain jack or cartoon heroes?)

+finally be able to look at the stars and know what constellations are what

+[[last and most important]] mend the holes in all my jeans...lol nah, that's not most important...most important would be.........make Toast happy.

]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/23885140/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/23885140/ Wed, 25 Mar 2009 15:14:02 PDT [link] anyway, so it's gotten cold outside again...this bothers me...i mean, it was starting to get warm finally...and it was really nice...but now, cold...stupid global warming and stuff, messing up the weather...rawr...oh, another good song...A Ton Etoile, by Noir Désir ([link])...now i want to re-learn french...it's sad i forgot most of it after high school...must have been all those other languages i attempted learning...oh well...so i have a drawing i'm going to start working on either today or tomorrow...it's exciting...i'm not going to say what it is, but it's going to be good...yeah, it's also going to take me forever to complete...all i'll say is it's anime-related and involves more than one character...i've never drawn more than one anime character in the same drawing...because it takes me forever...i copy the pictures pretty much exactly how i see them...which sucks, because then if i want to draw something on my own it turns out terrible even if i have a reference image...blah...and, why does firefox constantly tell me there's a severe weather alert?...it always says that...ok now i found a french artist (Nouvelle Vague) covering a german '80s song...so that led me to the original song...which led me to this strange video: [link] i must say though, Nouvelle Vague is pretty cool...i'm glad i found them...seriously...see?: [link] they covered the song "blue monday"...which, i've always loved that song...but that led me to the cover by Flunk...and i love Flunk...so this is good...i mean, no one can top the original...but Flunk has an interesting take on the song...watch it here: [link] yes, i am stuck on youtube now...better than being stuck on dA leaving Toast all these comments because i keep finding new things that are pretty...and, i take that back about not topping the original...because i think i might like the Orgy version better...maybe i just really love Orgy...something like that...and, all the band members look pretty tasty in that video...wait, did i just say that?...geez...but yes, if i love Orgy so much then it's no wonder i love Julien-K too...and now i'm watching videos on how to scream properly...hm...yeah, there is no point to this blog...wait, today is wednesday?...yes, wednesday!...i might be able to talk to Toast tonight!...sweet...i'm happy.

edit: i miss Talena from Kittie...i loved her.

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[link]

[link]

Toast, i blame you...this is all your fault...no really, it is...rawr...now i kind-of want to watch all the Batman movies...sadly, we only have the first one...if anyone has any of the others, let me know!...well, probably wouldn't do me any good seeing as most of you live miles and miles away...[sigh]...oh well...i'll find a way to watch them somehow...might have to wait a while though...blah...i will see them all again eventually!...oh wait, i think we have Catwoman...i've never seen that one, believe it or not...so that's two Batman-related films...now i just need all the others...and, i think i want to draw Harley Quinn...but i can't draw from my head...i have to have a picture to draw from...except i don't want to re-create something someone else has already drawn...this is a problem...well, i guess it won't be so bad...maybe i'll draw her in the same pose but have a different background...or maybe not...i don't know...anyone have any suggestions?...i really need to learn to draw up my own poses and stuff...and learn to draw from memory too...i can copy just about anything...but drawing something from life or something completely new doesn't work...how am i able to call myself a real artist then?...i mean, my ink creations are "something completely new," but that's not what i mean...i'm talking realistic things...not strange characters that all look about the same and don't have much in the way of hidden meanings or whatever...you look deeper into my work and you see nothing...i need to fix this...perhaps i shall start with my beloved Harley Quinn...yes, this is good...so i am taking suggestions starting now!...ok, go!

]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/22882396/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/22882396/ Thu, 29 Jan 2009 09:53:17 PST so i was reading old posts on livejournal...trying to see if i ever posted a photograph of a drawing i did ages ago...ended up giving it to natalie because i had it with me when i saw her and i was sad i forgot her birthday...but anyway, so i was going through old posts and i found this one...which amused me...so i have to post...but i must ask, what's with my "cursed mother of kittens" bit at the end?...and where the fuzzy did i get the odd phrase "eeping out" from?...o_O"


i eeped out... [Jul. 16th, 2004|02:14 pm]
[ random current emotions | feeling stupid ]
[ melodious sounds | *nick and rebecca* ...watching "miss congeniality" ]

so rebecca, nick, and i just got back from hawthorn mall...oi that was yeah nevermind but yeah well here's part of the story...
well we parked at barnes and noble because i wanted to see if they had that one amp magazine there (to get it for anna) or if i'd have to get it at hot topic and so we walk in and there's this hot blonde chick at the register and i start checking her out before i realize why at first glance she looked familiar...it was kisston...
so rebecca's going to meet nick at the bus stop while i go to get the magazine at hot topic since they were all out at barnes and noble and i spent just about $25 there in the end with the magazine and two CDs and a blondie keychain and a nofx shirt that was on clearance and yeah well fast forward to after buying the blck jeans with the chain at build-a-bear for jean's bear i'm sending her (the duct tape ones i made weren't working out well)...after everything i had three dollars left and so i bought an edgar allan poe bookmark at barnes and noble...erm, rebecca bought it...
thing with that is as soon as i saw kisston again i went mondo freaked and eeped out like a dork and i could barely speak a word so i had rebecca buy it and kisston asked if it was really for me and i said no and she asked who it was for then and i said rebecca and and and yeah i totally eeped out and the smell of nick's burnt popcorn is getting to me but anyways i can't believe i went all mondo freaked like that...i like the chick, but i'm not five years old...i mean, i've had a thing for a few chicks before and i could actually be all calm about it and talked to them like it was nothing but with kisston i start acting like i did when i was maybe six and my mom's friend came over to help paint the kitchen and i was wearing my pink land before time pajamas and hiding in the corner because i was too shy...i shall restate for those of you who didn't get it the few other times that I EEPED OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
cursed mother of kittens...i'm such a mondo dork...can i crawl into the closet in the depths of my mind and starve for the remainder of my life now? >_<

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If you wake up and don't want to smile,
If it takes just a little while,
Open your eyes and look at the day,
You'll see things in a different way.

Don't stop, thinking about tomorrow,
Don't stop, it'll soon be here,
It'll be, better than before,
Yesterdays gone, yesterdays gone.

Why not think about times to come,
And not about the things that you've done,
If your life was bad to you,
Just think what tomorrow will do.

Don't stop, thinking about tomorrow,
Don't stop, it'll soon be here,
It'll be, better than before,
Yesterdays gone, yesterdays gone.

All I want is to see you smile,
If it takes just a little while,
I know you don't believe that its true,
I never meant any harm to you.

Don't stop, thinking about tomorrow,
Don't stop, it'll soon be here,
It'll be, better than before,
Yesterdays gone, yesterdays gone.

Don't you look back,
Don't you look back.

]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/10821333/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/10821333/ Thu, 23 Nov 2006 09:43:59 PST [link] if anyone cares...right so...it's thanksgiving...happy turkey day (or tofurkey day, in my case), all you people in the states...anyone not in the states, i wish you a happy thanksgiving anyway, for whenever you celebrate it (assuming you DO celebrate it...^__^")...man, i don't know why, but i've gotten into a gothic/darkwave/industrial kick lately as far as music goes...oOo...neurotic fish's "the bomb"...pretty stuff...i like it...a lot...which would be why i'm listening to it...haha...wow...i need sleep...but at the same time i don't...'cos i had tons of sleep today...i slept last night from like...21something to 00:45ish...right when i put on my glasses and sat up and reached for the cellular telephone, anna called...it was scary...'cos i could feel someone was going to call me...fwah!...she was making sure i got her IMs yesterday about her coming out tonight instead of tomorrow...whee!...fun fun!...i love that girl...oi that reminds me...i have to find the cheesecake recipe 'cos she was going to get some cream cheese for me (i'd pay her back...i just figured, she works at a grocery store...she could get it when she closes tonight, so i don't have to walk to dominick's and back...not that it's really a far walk or anything, but i'd rather not go out since i have tons to do before she gets here (which is why i'm sitting on the computer, right?...lol)...but yeah, i was going to make cheesecake if i can find the recipe...oh and i was going to make spaghetti if i have all the ingredients for the sauce...i don't know if i do since i made it sunday and i might have used the last of some of the ingredients we had for it...just, i promised anna i'd make it...she was originally going to come tomorrow straight from work, so it would have been a nice change of an after work meal (her usual's ramen or something of the like)...well since she's coming tonight (and bringing leftovers), i wasn't going to make it...but i guess she still wants it...so i either make new sauce, or give her the leftovers from the freezer...but that stuff i put too much onion in on accident (i used a packet of lipton onion mix since we didn't have real onion)...i was saving that sauce for the ex, but it doesn't look like i'm going to be seeing her any time soon...so it'd just go to waste...maybe i'll add it to a new sauce and that can be my onion and such that i don't have any more of...yeah, i think that should work...i hope...^__^"...well, i was just thinking 'cos i don't have any more onion stuff i don't think...and there's a way i could have onion and not have it overpowering the rest of the sauce...and then i can save sauce for later...yeah ok i think that's what i'm going to do...assuming we have more tomato sauce and tomato paste (recipe calls for both)...when did i become such a big cook?...i don't know...but i love cooking...oi i think i should look for the cheesecake recipe now...so i can at least make the dough and let it sit...'cos it takes forever to make...and the dough has yeast in it so it has to rise anyway...'cos let's see...it takes about an hour and a half to make the dough alone (long time, i know!) and then another half an hour or so to make the filling...and then you're supposed to let it sit for two hours so the yeast in the dough can rise...and then you bake it for...45 minutes?...something like that...and then you have to refrigerate it before eating or it doesn't taste as good...that's like...nearly five hours of preparation before refrigeration, so if anna comes around 21:00 or 22:00, it won't be ready until...03:00 or so...fwah!...yeah, definitely making the dough ahead of time...'cos that's ridiculous...if i wait to make it, by the time it's done anna will be too intoxicated to want it and she'll probably end up passing out...so i think after this song i'm going to go hop of... ]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/8463100/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/8463100/ Thu, 13 Apr 2006 20:20:20 PDT ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/6865546/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/6865546/ Tue, 25 Oct 2005 15:31:10 PDT
omfg.

(XD)

why does that amuse me so? ]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/5677213/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/5677213/ Fri, 17 Jun 2005 13:43:22 PDT
>_ ]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/4378705/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/4378705/ Fri, 21 Jan 2005 16:44:37 PST on another note, school started and so far i've only actually gone to one class, but next week'll be different...i quit work...i paid that stupid traffic ticket and got my license back...i'm hovering between light and standard on DDR...i have a headache... ]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/3884394/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/3884394/ Sun, 21 Nov 2004 08:30:12 PST
T_T ]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/3708202/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/3708202/ Sat, 30 Oct 2004 11:40:24 PDT [moderately confused]
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i'll try my hardest to post some good pictures!!
^__^ ]]> ~pixiedoll-talim http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/1199779/ http://pixiedoll-talim.deviantart.com/journal/1199779/ Wed, 24 Sep 2003 15:39:15 PDT ^_- ]]> ~pixiedoll-talim