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insomnia rant

~poofy-wings — Mon, 12 Oct 2009 02:47:15 PDT

I've been pretty sick lately. I have trouble sleeping at night. Sucks....

So I'm an insomniac housewife at the moment. I feel like I've been really bad about putting things off. Little things and big things. I really need to clean the apartment. I'm not sure if I'm that kind of "delirious tired"; like I wanna do something to stay awake.

When I do sleep, I have a lot of crazy dreams. Then I wake up and think "Wow, that would make a great story."
Then I get ideas and my head gets full of stuff. I just want to execute that stuff...

Hrmm. Express didn't call me back. They were supposed to call last week. I guess I'm still an unemployed insomniac housewife. Maybe I'll go clean something.....

I wish Harvest Moon: Animal Parade was out already.

/end insomnia rant

Back from the wedding and honeymoon...

~poofy-wings — Wed, 22 Jul 2009 11:23:23 PDT

Well, I've been crazy busy lately. Wow.

So did I mention I was getting married. Well, I am now. Doesn't really feel that much different. But I suppose it's only different for the people that don't live together first.

So obviously I've got tons of pictures. Let me mention that it was a very hot day in June. And we did the whole thing outside. The nice part: The ceremony took like 10 minutes. The sucky part: My mom was 45 minutes late and we couldn't start the wedding without her. (I'm not gonna rant about that now. I'd be here all day...)

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^ It took Hilary (my maid of honor) and Colleen (Travis's mom) both to lace up the stupid wedding dress.

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^ I'm not sure exactly what I'm ranting about in this pic. Probably the fact that I was really hungry and all I had was a smoothie from Sonic.

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^ Here's Hillary, Austin, and Gooch being silly.

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^ Me trying to calm my nerves by playing FF3. I couldn't beat the Salamander so it didn't help.

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^ Me being so hot (temperature wise) makes me look like a spanish senorita when I'm trying to fan myself.

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^ Hillary and Hilary being silly.

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^ My sister Erin. Keep your paws off guys -- she's only 14!

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^ My dad and I at the altar. We are laughing because the feedback from the preacher microphone made this loud obnoxious sound.

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^ Ceremony stuff.

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^ Kiss.

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^ Up the aisle.

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^ Travis and Me looking cute. Omg, we were burning up outside.

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^ Me looking pretty and sweaty. lol

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^ Happy cake shot.

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^ Awesome face I make when I have cake in my mouth. (apparently)

So, yeah. I had to change after all of that. My dress had like 7 layers to it! But it was pretty. I'm surprised how dark I look in white. I never wear it so I guess I never noticed.

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^ Just for the heck of it. I really like towel origami now.

Well, hope you enjoyed some of the piccys. There's more if you really care, even really bad looking ones at: [link]
(I swear, it just looks like I'm touching my boobs in that one pic. I'm really not! lol)

BTW, our song is Strangers in the Night by Frank Sinatra. We surprised the heck out of our families just cuz they don't realize how weird we are.

Hmm, you mean I'm getting old now?

~poofy-wings — Thu, 18 Jun 2009 08:54:15 PDT

So yeah, my b-day was yesterday. But since Travis was working from home, I didn't get to use the computer. Oh well.

So.....yeah.

I'm 21 now. I didn't really go out and party or anything. I'm not that person to go out and get shit-faced all the time.

So, I went out and had a sushi dinner with my family and Travis's parents. Got some gift cards and money which is always nice. And some disney movies as an added bonus! (Monsters Inc, Bolt, and Incredibles)

So then Travis, Hillary and I went to the bar/mexican restaurant across the street. The waitress didn't even card me! Kinda anti-climactic.
Bruce and Karina showed up later and I got another gift card (gamestop) So Karina and I decided to get drunk since neither of us had to work the next day. So I had a really strong frozen strawberry margarita, tequila sunrise (good!), royal f--- (so glad it was cold!), jager-bomb (which was pre-mixed. a big no no), and a aqua julius (i think).

I'm just so thankful that I'm not annoying drunk. I just get really giggle-y. But I can still spell and conjugate sentences. Which gets helpful when you're playing drunk scrabble. Makes a grammar-nazi like me very happy.

So I'm writing this morning and I don't even have a hangover. I thought one drink was gonna do me but I guess not. Meh... I'll still drink in moderation. It's not fun if your getting smashed every night.

Oh yeah, and my wedding's next week! I'll be sure to post a ton of pics!

So, yeah, you know, stuff like marriage..

~poofy-wings — Mon, 19 Jan 2009 06:39:59 PST

So lots of nice things happened this Christmas. I worked my butt off at work for the holidays (recession my ass!). We got a Wii. And I finally got me a little kitty cat! Very exciting. Oh, and by the way.....

I'M GETTING MARRIED!

Travis proposed back at the end of November but I didn't want to say anything until we got the ring made.

I was so happy I cried.

happiness and boredness

~poofy-wings — Wed, 17 Sep 2008 14:10:46 PDT

Okay, so good stuff happening. I got me a new job at Barnes & Nobles. I took a bit of a pay cut but I'm getting way more hours and generally I'm a lot happier about work so that counts for something, huh.

Um, other stuff...hmmm. Oh, I downloaded some episodes of Nana. I'm gonna try and get Travis to watch it with me. He liked the movie alright.

I finally finished The Stand (Stephen King). I can't find the movie anywhere though, which sucks...I also found out that they are making The Stand into a comic book. I'm really happy about that because I just love the characters and the story-line. While I do like the movie/miniseries, I feel like they just left out too much and I'd love to see that in the form of a well made comic book. I'm definitely looking forward to it.

I would like to work on some more art. I'm trying hard to save up for my own laptop. That way I can use that for school and artsy stuff as well as Princess Maker 2. So right after I get new brakes and some other stuff my car needs I can work on that.

Btw, my wisdom teeth stopped hurting (for now).

wisdom teeth don't provide much wisdom

~poofy-wings — Tue, 19 Aug 2008 14:19:26 PDT

Only PAIN.

The right side of my mouth feels so freaking swollen. Fucking wisdom teeth. There's no freaking point to them coming in! I don't need some random extra tooth. Ughhh...
I have to wait until the stupid thing comes all the way in before I can do anything about it. I feel high. Because I'm constantly taking ibuprofen to control the pain and when it gets really bad I take some of Travis's leftover hydrocodone from when he got his teeth worked on. Problem is, there wasn't much left. I've been taking halves instead. To try and save some for when it really starts hurting. Fuck.
I feel like a zombie. I want to be productive but dammit I can't even fucking eat! I just want a freaking burger...with cheese and bacon....ohhh.

Okay, that's enough of that rant. Not much else going on. I fucking quit Michael's. I hated it there. My damn manager was incompetent. Just didn't know what she was doing. I hated the company too. One of the really stupid policies was to label EVERYTHING in the office. They labeled the fucking coffee machine. I think I know it's a coffee machine, it doesn't need a freaking label. There's more shit that I didn't like but hey, it's freaking over. I'd really like to go looking for another job but because of the aforementioned problem, I gotta wait.

Anyone want to come over and knock me into next week? I'd really appreciate it.

Well, I gotta look at the positives................I'll probably lose a lot of weight since I can't eat.

20 isn't that exciting but I am

~poofy-wings — Tue, 17 Jun 2008 07:57:06 PDT

Well it's my b-day today. The big 2-0. Crazy, I don't feel that old.

The mornings gonna be kinda boring since I have to wait for everyone else to get off of work before we go do anything. Meh, I might go to the mall later or something. Or maybe just hang out on Gaia like I usually do on my b-day.

I got some money in from my Grandpa Bill for Easter and my b-day. I'm debating whether to save it or buy art supplies. There's two prismacolor sets that I'd like to get. One is flesh tone marker, set of 20, for $40 and the other is a set of 20 cool gray markers for $20. I really could use both but I also need my car to last me a while. Travis helped me out with some new tires. But the power steering fluid is leaking or something. Eh, I don't really understand cars too well, but I do know that it's probably in my best interest to have a backup plan. I'd really like to get a slugbug. They are really good on gas and for the way it is now, I need that.

Were going to Japango, which will be really nice. But I have to wait till grandma gets home before we can go. If you know me, you should stop by and say hi. I'm probably be there around 6:30 to 7:30. Somewhere around that time, grandma should get home so we can go.

stop procrastinating

~poofy-wings — Sun, 23 Mar 2008 12:56:33 PDT

Sorry I haven't posted anything for so long. I've been trying to get some of my shit together. Been busy moving shit and unfortunately I haven't had any time to really work on any art. Or more like, finish any. Yes, yes. i know I'm being bad. But I'm working hard.

Um, nothing really going on today. I gotta go to work tonight and it's going to be painfully slow since it's easter and typically people have places to be. Spending time with family and such. So, the restaurant will be pretty dead today. Eh, oh well. Hopefully the higher ups will realize this and send some people home. I mean, not only is it easter but also the end of spring break, so I doubt anyone will show up.

I really need to get my ass in gear, though. I've been out of highschool for about a year now. I need to start school. There's no other way around it. I'm gonna get better about saving my money. This new job should help with that. And I need to look up and see if I can get any grants and such for school. Gotta stop procrastinating and get shit done.

I promise I'm gonna start working on some art and finish some stuffs. Recently, I also got into crochet but I haven't finished anything there, either. Bad, poofy-wings, bad.

moving out, hopefully...

~poofy-wings — Tue, 06 Nov 2007 22:32:33 PST

Yeah, so uh, stuff.

I'm moving out of my grandparents house. Needless to say, they are being kinda retarded and I have until January to move out.

I was supposed to moving in with Stefanie and Amy the end of this month but unfortunately, Amy's sister is leaving her husband so she's moving in and I'm not. Sucks. But I'll have to get over it.

I finally got my car. However, I still don't have my licence. The government likes to make things retard and since my wallet got stolen, along with my state id and my social security card, I haven't been able to go and get my freaking license because I don't have a "certified" copy of my birth certificate. Gay.

So I'm checking up on the roommate sites. Gonna see if I can find someone who's not psycho. I would move in with one of my friends but unfortunately most of them are still in highschool.

Must think positve...

my feet hurt...

~poofy-wings — Fri, 17 Aug 2007 23:00:21 PDT

Yay, I've got more shifts this week. Well, slightly more. Yeah. My feet hurt really bad. I just got off of work right now.But yay-ness, I made $90 today. And mostly on one table who order a crapload of bud light. Every little bit adds up.

Business is getting a bit better. Tuesday sucked. I only made $30. :sigh: I'm hoping it gets more steady. It should since football seasons coming up.

On the art side of life: I've been in a bit of a creative block. I really wish I had a scanner cuz there are tons of deviant-worthy pics (I think) that I could put up here. But alas, that's on my list. Just a bit further down though. Car first, then bed, then laptop, and then maybe the scanner. And my manager said that he would sell me his gamecube once he got a Wii. Awesomeness.

I've been thinking about doing commissions and such. I think I'll wait til the laptop and scanner are aquired. Hopefully it won't be too much longer.

Yay, this isn't a emo journal entry!

stuff and things...

~poofy-wings — Mon, 09 Jul 2007 12:49:55 PDT

Yeah, things have been going okay. I guess.

Been working my ass off lately at work. I got a job waiting tables. It's cool unless you stay there til 2am waiting for one freaking table to leave. Meh. Getting tips...fun fun.

On the other end of the spectrum, I feel....simply...unappreciatted. And I don't even know if I spelled that right. I don't know. It's just, I rarely get any off days but when I do, there's a certain person I'd like to spend them with. But he just...doesn't want to. Now, I could just be overreacting. I do that sometimes. But, it still makes me upset and want to cry. It's like, okay, I work all the time and you can't spend one day with me? Meh, whatever. I always feel neglected. I should be used to it by now.

BIRTHDAY TODAY

~poofy-wings — Sat, 16 Jun 2007 14:55:28 PDT

Ok. So today is my birthday. I'm pretty excited but not so much about turning 19. More about seeing my friends and eating cake.

So, yeah. Party later on, mostly softball girls showing up. I just have everyone coming over to steal cake and such.

Any presents are greatly welcomed! (hint, hint)

How about you go get some balls?

~poofy-wings — Fri, 15 Jun 2007 14:43:49 PDT

Okay so, I go out and get a job. Yay. Whoo.

I'm walking home and I call everyone in my phonebook about it. Finally I come to Kurt, whom I used to date. Kurt was cool until he ignored me for a while then started talking to me again. So, I thought, "Hey, we're cool. We're friends again." So I call him to tell him the good news. He says "Hey, wait, there's someone who wants to talk to you."

Me:"Okay..."

"Um, Hello? Who is this?"

Me: "Um, this is Ashley. Who is this?"

"Oh, this is Madelyn. So, how do you know Kurtis?"

Me: "Uh, we used to date. I'm just calling everyone in my phonebook to tell them I got a job"

"Oh, well, I don't think you should call him anymore!" *hang up*

So, this little ho that he's dating doesn't want me to call him anymore. You know what? That's fine. I'm more upset that he doesn't have the balls to tell me this himself. And I'm mad because it's even affecting me. Hello? This guy freaking ignored me and treated me like shit. Why am I upset?

I don't know. I guess it's because he always tried to give me hope. To think that things would work out and we would get back together.

I don't know what to do about this. I just can't stop crying.

Last day of School! Dance!

~poofy-wings — Wed, 23 May 2007 07:29:24 PDT

Oh, yeah. Last freaking day of school. It's fucking sweet. Two exams and a half day. I just got done with BCiS so now all I have is English 4 left. Then I go out for sushi! End of year sushi is just fabulous. Especially when it's graduation-sushi!

I'm in such a good mood right now but I'm really freaking hungry.

Still don't have a job around here. That's gonna get me depressed later but we'll cross that bridge when we get to it. Or when I fall in.

I got me some awesome furniture from my grandparents for graduation. I don't know what my mom and dad are getting me. Mom says she's getting me a car but I know my mom. Since she's doesn't have a job right now, she's gonna use up all of my child support money and I'll never see a dime of it. Oh, well. Such is my mom. She has crazy mom-logic and thinks that she deserves my child support money. Ffft. Whatever.

Hopefully everyone will be able to make it to graduation. That would make me very happy. Fuck yeah.

Oh, on a side note, myIpod freakin died. Like dead. Not coming on. And I've had it plugged in for like a week. WTF? Lame.

Procrastination...stuff

~poofy-wings — Tue, 15 May 2007 22:19:26 PDT

Almost like a continuation of the last blog.

I'm still single. There are a few guys that I kinda like but I'm hesitant to get into a relationship when I have about 2 weeks left of school.

I need to learn to move foward or else nothing going to happen. At least, that's the way it seems.

On the other hand, I got me some awesome music. Shiina Ringo and YUI should be worshipped. Along with the almighty master, m-flo. I also just got into this new band called Remioromen. Well, new to me. Sorry for hiding under a rock.Of course, most of you have absolutely no idea who I'm talking about. That's okay. I'm unique. I must go find some more Frank Sinatra too. And dammit, I still haven't looked up any Johnny Cash. Dammit...

I've got lots of crap to work on. But I'm lazy and I procrastinate. Must go hunt for furniture. Must hunt for a job first though. But damn this evil texas weather that prevents me from venturing out into the world.

I'm lonely...

~poofy-wings — Sat, 28 Apr 2007 23:08:05 PDT

Just as the title says. I'm just lonely. I've gots lots of affection to give and no one to give it to.

I'm really not used to being single. It's tough but I have to stick with it if I want to be happy. I can't keep just getting into these "relationships" that just aren't gonna last. It makes me sad but it's something I have to do. Maybe then I can mature more, just in a different way.

Lavinia thinks that I need to try a different "type" of guy. Because so far, with the exception of Kurt, I've been finding tall, white guys who can't take care of themselves and have no intention of growing up at all. Now, granted Kurt is still tall and white, he had more priorities than Chase or John. That was the problem though, he was too busy for me and didn't want to hurt me by being with me. So the one, really good relationship I had ended only because we couldn't spend any time together.

But, I digress. Talking about past heartaches doesn't solve anything. I'm hopeful, and I'm trying to be patient.

I'm just so lonely...

I'm screwed!

~poofy-wings — Thu, 19 Apr 2007 13:58:59 PDT

Well, John's family has decided to kick me out. I have no where to go. I'm freakin screwed.

I have places that I could stay, however I would either be sacrificing work or school and I can't part with either. Add that to the fact that I basically have $84 to my name.

James said he was gonna try and talk to his parents and see if I could stay with them at least until I graduate. That would be so helpful but I don't know if they'll say yes.

I don't want to get my hopes up until I know for sure.So, I'm trying to create a plan b. However, it's not going so well.

Now, whoring myself out doesn't sound like such a bad idea. But, I know it is.

Alone but not unwell

~poofy-wings — Mon, 02 Apr 2007 06:48:44 PDT

God dammit.

Right after I buy freaking prom tickets, he dumps me. Freakin idiot could've told me a week ago. Dammit!

I told him he owed me $100. Thank god I didn't buy my dress yet.

So now I'm trying to look for someone to go with. I think I'm more upset about the prom tickets rather than the fact I just got dumped but oh well.

On the good side: I've got a job over at Gadzooks! Yay! The manager said she was going to try to get me $8.50 if not $9 an hour. Yes! My luck is looking better.

I'm gonna try the single life for a while. But ya'll no I'm not good at that.

New Stuffs...maybe

~poofy-wings — Sun, 11 Mar 2007 18:38:02 PDT

Everything's good! Sorta.

I've gone through a whole boyfriend since my last entry. Isn't that crazy? Eh, oh well. So, uh, now I'm on my 2nd boyfriend since the thing with Chase and me went kaput. Yeah, I guess I do work fast. But I figure, why waste time being upset over someone who doesn't want to be with me. I'm awesome and if they can't see it, I'll just go find someone else that can.

I need to start working on some more art. I especially need to make a new id. That one's so old. My problem has been reversed, though. Because I can use my scanner but not my tablet just yet. :sigh:

I need to get a car. I'm thinking about looking into those impound auctions that they hold to get rid of cars. The only problem is that I don't know what I'm getting. Currently, I'm waiting for my tax return and money from my mom which she says that she's gonna send. It won't surprise me too much if she doesn't send it though...

I'm looking for a new job. Claire's is nice (sometimes) but I'm not getting enough hours. I'll probably try some of the real jewelry stores in the mall. Maybe work full-time during the summer til college starts in the fall.

I also might be considering doing some commissions. No, not GaiaOnline stuff but some real commissions for real money. Because I could always use the cash and unfortunately I can't whore myself out.

Holy Crap I'm Alone again

~poofy-wings — Wed, 29 Nov 2006 21:04:12 PST

Okay, so, lots of stuff has happened. Lots of stuff.

I moved out of my grandma's house, then out of dad's apartment, and now I'm living with John and his family. Yeah, my ex-boyfriend's family took me in and now they're taking care of my better than my dad was.

Uh, I've been dating Chase for about 7-8 months. Then he decides to break up with me. Yeah, he's not ready for this serious a relationship. Because he thinks he so much younger than me (he just turned 17 in Sept. and I'm 18 going on 19). Which, in a sense, is true...He gets waited on hand and foot by his mother, has no responsibility, or job and doesn't plan to get one any time soon. He still wants to be a kid, play World of Warcraft and hang out with his friends, not having a car in the world. Me, on the other hand, has to struggle with a job, saving money for a car and college.

I'm ready to grow up. I'm still scared, obviously, but everyone is. I'm ready to get an apartment, go to college, maybe even live with someone.....but Chase isn't. Not just yet. So I told him I'd be patient and wait for him. Whenever he's ready to grow up, he knows that he can always call me. I told him I would help him grow up and take on responsibility. It's hard, but when you're backed into a corner, you kinda go into survival mode.

Some people ask me all the time, why I stay close to him, why I try to help him so much. Well, he just...balances me out, completes me.
I'm such a big worrier, and I stress about everything, and I try to get things done as soon as I can. Chase helps me relax, sit back, and calm down about things. I enjoy all the time we spent together. We could have fun just watching tv or playing video games.

*sigh*

But best not to think about it. Just be patient and wait.

Scraps and my life

~poofy-wings — Thu, 11 May 2006 21:08:54 PDT

I uploaded some photos in my scraps. Just some stuff from yearbook class.

Uh, so far, things are pretty great. Um, John and I have worked out our differences and although we're not back together, it's for the best.

I have a new boyfriend now. His name is Chase and he's been helping me through all of this John-drama. I have really fallen in love with him. He's really nice and caring and funny....I could go on forever, but I won't. We're going to prom on Saturday and I'll upload lots of pictures.

This is my first prom. I've always said before that I would never go because prom is stupid but I guess my opinion has really changed since then. I'm just excited to go and have lots of fun. I always have fun spending time with Chase and that's part of the reason I'm excited.

So that's what's going on so far. Hopefully things will just keep getting better.

Break Up

~poofy-wings — Mon, 27 Mar 2006 15:34:45 PST

Alright. My boyfriend and I are on a "break" but, considering the way he's acting, we probably won't get back together.

Let me start from the beginning. My boyfriend, John, and I were walking to school one morning. I look at my watch and say "Oh, I think we'll make it in time for breakfast..." He says "What?!" He can't hear me because he has his headphones on. So I say it louder. Then he gets upset with me. "Why are you yelling at me?!" he says. "I'm not," I reply "I just don't like it when you can't hear me." So he says "Whatever, Ashley" and starts to walk faster (he does that when he's mad). I say "John, you can't storm off--you're still carrying my stuff."
He drops my stuff and takes off.

He then ignores me for 3 days. On the 3rd day, he tries to talk to me about some rumor that he heard, which wasn't true, abouut me saying that if we broke up, he wouldn't be able to find anyone else. I didn't say this and I was pretty offended that he would even think that I would. We talked some more, and then decided to go the way of "Ross and Rachel" and go on a break. He said that he still wanted to be able to talk to me and I agreed. John is like my best friend so even if things don't work out between us, I still want to be friends.

This morning, during breakfast, I go to talk to him. He tells me that he can't remember anything that happened this weekend because he was out drinking.
I asked him why he was drinking and he said he didn't know. I went on to say that he shouldn't be doing that for no reason and that he shouldn't be around people who are going to influence him to drink. His response? "Whatever, Ashley..." So I got upset and said "Fine, I'm not going to help you anymore..."
Then he writes me a note saying that I don't give a shit about him and how I don't listen to him and that he's drinking because he's depressed and he shouldn't live anymore. I started to cry, sad and frustrated tears, and Slade tried to make me feel better. I asked for John's sister, Caressa, to help me.We're gonna talk to John's mom and see if we can do anything to help John.

What makes me upset is that he always complained about how horrible his life is. Well, I was a part of his life and it always made me feel like I wasn't good enough for him. He says that I don't listen when it's the other way around. And he told me he was gonna break up with me the day of the argument. How retarded is that!? Breaking up over a simple statement about freaking breakfast!

I just don't understand guys anymore.

Holiday Family Problems...joy

~poofy-wings — Wed, 23 Nov 2005 22:31:54 PST

Okay. I live with my dad. My mom wants me to spend Christmas with her since I had last year with dad and she believes she's the only one allowed to spend Christmas with me (don't ask me why. my mom's a little on the psycho side)

Today she called me, telling me that my Uncle died. (He killed himself)
Before, I was supposed to go visit for Christmas because my grandma was very depressed since my Uncle went missing. Now, I'm supposed to go visit.

I have no clue what to do. My dad says I could stay, but I really feel an obligation to go to my mom's since my Uncle died. It'll most likely be the worst Christmas ever if I do go, but probably get better when I finally come back to dad's. Or, I could stay with my dad, have a really good Christmas holiday, then feel extremely guilty afterward (and if I don't feel guitly right away, my mom will fix that)

So, what should I do?

Saws are bad, mmkay

~poofy-wings — Fri, 28 Oct 2005 20:59:42 PDT

OMFG!!!!
I just watched Saw...
If you have seen it, then you understand my reaction. It--It just---OMG!
If you haven't seen it--and your not sqeemish and don't get grossed out easily--go watch it.

:sigh: Sometimes I really love scary movies and and at the same time I hate them. I can't sleep after I watch a scary movie. I need to watch something--do anything--to get my mind off the movie. I wonder if anyone else is the same way.

Corpse Bride

~poofy-wings — Wed, 06 Jul 2005 22:50:11 PDT

[link]

Go. Watch the Trailer. And stare. In awe.

Happy Birthday to Me!!!!

~poofy-wings — Fri, 17 Jun 2005 20:46:21 PDT

mood:

music: Tommy Febuary6 - Yume Miru LOVELY BOY

Happy Birthday to Me! Yay! I'm 17 today. 17 on the 17th. Yay-ness.

My grandparents are kinda broke since they're buying a house right now, so they're gonna take me to Olive Garden some other day. I'm just gonna go to the mall today with John and probably spend most of my paycheck. So much for saving money for a car and AnimeFest. This paycheck will go to my birthday and I'll start saving again with the next one.

I hope I get some cheesecake!

[EDIT]

mood:

music: Utada Hikaru - Colors

OMG!

Okay. Today was freaking great! John got me this giant sketchbook and some prismacolors! I got myself a pink and black FullMetal Alchemist t-shirt and a swooshy black skirt along with some Pocky and Ramune. Grandma and Grandpa got me tickets to Dear Friends: Final Fantasy. It's the Final Fantasy symphony. Oh! And as an added bonus, my dad bought me a PSP!!!!! A PSP!!!!

This was a REALLY good Birthday.

.......O.O!!!!!

~poofy-wings — Tue, 31 May 2005 00:52:04 PDT

music:Tsukiko Amano - Ten

movie:The Village

OMFG! O.O I'm in shock/awe. I just got done watching The Village and it was........OMG....I can't describe it without ruining it and I don't want to do that. Just go. Watch it.......Omg.....
It's really, really good.

GO WATCH THE VILLAGE NOW!

(s)crap

~poofy-wings — Wed, 18 May 2005 22:02:35 PDT

music: Faye Wong - Separate Ways (128 Beat Mix)

mood: pissed

....k.....I added some scraps and also moved a lot of crap that was in my gallery to the scrap section.

I'm.........pissed....not so much now but still. My mom really gets to me......yeah, stuff. Well, she got me mad after she called and I couldn't vent out my anger by hitting anything so instead I went into "cleaning mode" and cleaned the kitchen, my bathroom, and the living/dining room. Yeah...my grandma wishes my mom would call more often so I would revert to "cleaning mode" again.... Yeah....not gonna happen....hopefully.

Well, I'm out of "cleaning mode" and into "I'm-bored-as-hell" mode. And I still have to go to school tommorrow. :sigh:

Oh, well. I downloaded a bunch of mp3s and John (my boyfriend) just turned 16 on Wednesday and is hopefully getting a car. I feel better....sort of.

In the Shadows

~poofy-wings — Fri, 29 Apr 2005 16:38:06 PDT

I've been watching
I've been waiting
In the shadows all my time
I've been searching
I've been living
For tomorrows all my life
----In the Shadows - The Rasmus

Okay, I feel high...even though I'm not. I'm like...high on Stephen King and The Rasmus.

Um, we had our TAKS (Texas Assessment of Knowledge and Skills) test all last week. Took Math, Social Studies, and Science. For those of you that don't know, the TAKS is a humungous standerdized test that kids in Texas are required to take in order to pass. There's a Writing/Grammer test too but we took that in Feburary. Um, so I did that. I hope I did well. I'm not worried about the Writing. It was easy. The Social Studies test is so easy a retarded monkey could pass it and the Science test is so hard and no one passes it so if you make a 31 or higher, you pass. The test kids fear the most is the Math, which was extremely hard. You see, they don't test us on the stuff we learn this year, they test us on the stuff we learn last year that we already forgot. So, I'm taking Geometry this year and they test all 10th graders (who are also taking Geometry0 on Algebra I. Yeah....fun....

So, I took my mind off things and got addicted to Stephen King. Right now, I'm reading The Stand. It's about a superflu that the military creates and accedentally get spread all across America. It has a 99.4% efficiency. So everybody starts dying except for that .6% that is not affected. They have weird dreams about a little old black lady in Kansas and an evil dark man. So eventually they try to find them and stuff.....

I'm addicted! I swear it's not my fault! Blame Stephen King! He did it!

Mp3 rotations

~poofy-wings — Sun, 23 Jan 2005 14:04:29 PST

I'm thinking of starting an Mp3 rotation site. I know how hard it is to find the mp3s you want, especially if they're asian pop/rock. I dunno. I probably will just cuz I'm bored and have no life.

I have always wanted to make mp3 site. Maybe I should.
But, then I have to wonder:
What host should I use? (i'm already on Geocities and I hate it)
and
Who should I put on my layout? (I mean, really? How can I decide? Lain? Rikku? Chii? Selphie? Squall? Tidus? Yusuke? dammit. I can't decide!)

Yay! I'm not failing!

~poofy-wings — Mon, 27 Sep 2004 20:39:52 PDT

Yay! I'm so happy! I'm not failing anymore! I've got an 84 in English III and a 72 in IPC.

I finally figured out a way to transfer my photos from my school folder to my computer at home. See, since the stupid internet blocks are on the school computers, I can't just upload it staight to devart because it won't let me log in. I can't log in to photobucket either, but I can get into gaiaonline, pitas, and geocities. Weird, huh? Anyway, I just upload my pictures to my website then download it from here. Yay! There's always a way to get around those evil internet blocks they put on the computers at school.

Evil school and scanner withdrawl

~poofy-wings — Mon, 13 Sep 2004 17:01:43 PDT

Okay, I know I've been completely horrible because I haven't been posting anything but I have a good excuse! School is just kicking my butt! I've got a 54 in English III and a 55 in IPC (intro to physics and chemistry) and it's not because I don't do the work or I'm stupid, it's because I was absent for 3 days because I hade to go to San Antonio for my grandpas heart surgery (he's okay, by the way). I hate it when I'm absent from school because then I'm completely lost and I have no idea what's going on! I'm hopeless!

Plus, I've been going through scanner withdrawl because my grandparents don't have it set up. So I've got like tons of drawings I could be posting but can't scan. I'm just dieing! Agghh!

Cons, Dressers, and Sisters.

~poofy-wings — Sun, 01 Aug 2004 22:50:24 PDT

Man, I feel dead. I am so tired. Well, today, Dad and I went to a computer-gaming convention. We felt kinda lost since it was our first convention. Nobody really tells you what to do at a con. I played Silent Hill 4. Looks pretty good. The controls are a bitch, though. But it was probably because I'm not used to playing computer games. I'm always on my PS2! ^^ *hugs PS2*

We finished my dresser today. We had found a really nice dresser at a resale shop for $30. We stained it with a nice cherry color and now it looks so pretty! ^__^ Tommorrow-er-uh-Today we're gonna get some hardware because the ones I picked out were too big.

My sister, Erin, is at a friends house. I'm glad. Sometimes, we get along okay, but other times, it's just all out war. Like last week, when we were driving around trying to find a dresser, we passed some teenage guys who were just talking and Erin says "Eww, I think they're mexican!" and I smacked her in the chest. I didn't mean to hit her that hard but I was REALLY offended 'cause I'm Whitexican. I mean, it's just not right for her to be saying that! And I know it wasn't right for me to hit her but, dammit, that wasn't right! I think she's just might be at that age where you just say anything and you care that it might hurt someone's feelings. Kids sure can be mean...evil 10-year-olds.

New blog, Silent Hill and Resident Evil rants

~poofy-wings — Thu, 22 Jul 2004 23:37:22 PDT

Well, I sent up a new blog page at [link]

I'm gonna try to work on that one and this thing too. I really like the layout I made. It's just so pretty and purple!

I've been listening to some Final Fantasy instrumentals. They make me nostalgic. I probably the only one who gets nostalgic when they play video games.

I started playing Silent Hill. Pretty good graphics for the time it was made. Though I think that Harry runs kinda gay. Um, I'm up to the part where I'm trying to get to the Elementry School but all the roads are "mysteriously" blocked off. Silent Hill just loves having tons of fog everywhere and streets that have holes in them and TONS of doors that will NEVER open. But, I still love it. I think Silent Hill is better than Resident Evil in the sense that it has a better storyline and more plot twists....and better melee weapons. Sorry, I'm just kinda mad at Resident Evil ever since they put it on the evil Gamecube. Don't they know they'd make more money if they put it on all three systems?

Subscription-y

~poofy-wings — Mon, 19 Jul 2004 19:40:27 PDT

Alright, I'm in Dallas now with my Dad. It was a real bitch driving 7 hours here, but we made it in one piece.

My grandpa took me to the mall today. I found a used copy of Silent Hill. I'm so happy because I've only played 2 and 3 and I've been wanting to get the first one. I also got a $19 Draco Malfoy t-shirt at Hot Topic. Damn, that place is expensive! They need to make a Hot Topic for poor people like me.

Also, as a belated birthday present, my grandparents got me a 1-month subscription for Deviantart. Yay! I can use Search now.

My Dad and grandparents are asking me if I'm gonna stay for school and, uh, I really don't know if I should. I mean I know if I go to school in Dallas I'll be able to take better classes and have more resorces available to me (japanese class) but, I think I'd miss me mom too much. Plus, I've never "lived" with Dad before so I don't know what to do. Damn.

...okay then...

~poofy-wings — Tue, 15 Jun 2004 07:41:51 PDT

Well, since Deviantart has that stupid "no picture skins" rule, I probably just upload my skins on my website. I just like uploading stuff here because then people will comment on your things and you can learn how to improve upon them. I don't know why they have that stupid rule anyway. Non-picture skins look so boring. But, I guess it just can't be helped.

My birthday's on Thursday! I can't wait. I'm gonna be 16! And my mom's gonna get me a mini-disc player! Isn't that cool? I've been wanting one of those for like 2 years and I'm finally gonna get one. Yay!

So basically, I've been going crazy for the past week. Man, if only my birthday came sooner...

...in violation again!

~poofy-wings — Fri, 04 Jun 2004 12:49:54 PDT

I just don't understand why deviantart is picking on me. I received 3 violation notes for the WRONG thing.
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Here's what they sent me
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poofy-wings,

Your deviation, listed below, has been removed from deviantART due to a violation of our policies:

URL: [link]
Title: still alone - heather
Submitted: 2004-06-04 7:40:03 am

Your deviation was removed because it violated one of the following policies:

1. deviantART does not tolerate deviations which are based, in majority, off of racial slurs, are anti-semetic or derogatory in nature towards a particular religion or ethnic group, offensive in nature towards an individual or group of individuals, pornographic or are deemed invaluable to deviantART as decided by the deviantART staff on a case by case basis.

2. deviantART does not tolerate deviations which are submitted in the Tutorials category which do not follow the deviantART Tutorial Submission Guidelines. If you are unfamiliar with the proper procedures for tutorial submissions then please view the deviantART Tutorial Submission Guidelines.

deviantART enforces a zero tolerance policy in regards to violations of our submission policy and therefore will take the actions that we deem necessary on a case by case basis. There is a possibility that you will be banned from interactivity on deviantART therefore it is suggested that you visit your user page to see if this is in fact the case.

If you feel that you are receiving this in error, or have questions regarding it, then visit the deviantART Help Desk in order to submit an inquiry. It should be noted that replies to this note will go unanswered and your only course of action is the deviantART Help Desk!

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And here's what I sent to the help desk
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I received a policy violation for three winamp skins that I made saying that I either had racial slurs in my skins or I submitted something in the tutorials section that did not follow the guidelines. I didn't use any racial slurs or derogetory remarks toward anyone and I didn't submit anything in the tutorial section so I believe there is some mistake. I didn't do anything wrong. I never make any racial slurs and I've never submitted anything in the tutorial section so maybe you guys sent me the wrong note or something? I just...don't understand this. I could understand if I was in violation of making a "picture" skin but not racial slurs or violating tutorial guidelines.
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Deviantart just hasn't been making sense lately. I NEVER make racial slurs or submit anything in the tutorial section. I think the reason they sent me a violation was because I made picture skins and, for some stupid reason, they don't allow that. I'm really losing my faith in Deviantart and I believe I'm a hair away from leaving. This is just not right! T.T
Why does Deviantart hate me?!

..O.O I got 2000+ hits and I didn't even notice!

~poofy-wings — Thu, 22 Apr 2004 16:10:27 PDT

Yay! Happy 2000+ hits!

I still can't believe I didn't notice...Maybe I'm sick.

It's probably because I got addicted to Gaia. If you don't know, Gaia is like, uh, well it's mostly just a bunch of forums. You get to create you own little avatar, buy clothes for you avatar, and earn gold (fake gold) just by clicking around the site. It's really cool! ^^ And it's all free.

Just go to [link] and register.

When they ask who recommended you just put poofy-wings in the username and then put my e-mail which is akira_chan16@hotmail.com

Trust me, this place is EXTREMELY addicting. I haven't even been there a month and I already addicted. Not as bad as some people are. And I'm probably gonna get over it. I mean, I was addicted to DevArt and now it's not as bad.

I guess I'll get to work on a 2000+ hits pic. Still don't know what I'm gonna do but I'll think of something. This is an important day in history...well, my history.

Also, I'm moving. Not from DevArt but from Del Rio. I'm gonna be moving to San Antonio. Hopefully, before my birthday. And, to tell you the truth, I'm kinda glad. I really hate it here and going back to San Antonio will be great. My mom's gonna apply for a job at a cancer research center and if she gets it she'll go up to San Antonio and stay with her sister untill she raises enough money for us to move. Meanwhile, I'll be at my grandma's house, taking care of my doggies. Which will be cool because my grandma has cable connection for the internet. Her computer is FAST! So that'll be really cool.

...it's showing! Yeah!

~poofy-wings — Mon, 05 Apr 2004 21:23:24 PDT

Yay! I got my avatar thingy to work! I just went to the help section and it fixed the problem! Cool!

...my avatar-icon-thingy won't show

~poofy-wings — Mon, 05 Apr 2004 11:33:22 PDT

Dammit. I uploaded a new avatar-icon-thingy last night and it's still not showing...Did I do something wrong? It's 50x50 and under the size reccomendation-thing....Dammit. I'm sick of this crappyful avatar I want a new one!!! *cries*

...defects

~poofy-wings — Thu, 01 Apr 2004 06:15:05 PST

Woo...Watching the Maury Povich show yesterday. It was one of the one's where they show all these kids with birth defects like small arms, no legs, etc. It really made me appreciate what I have. There was this one girl on the show that was black but she had some skin condition that made her skin turn white. And people would make fun her for it and she didn't have any friends because of it! That is just not right! I would so be her friend! Just because people look different on the outside doesn't mean their not people!

Then, Jerry Springer came on...The show with the "real defect people." I really wish I could just go and smack some of those women. There was this one chick who went out and stripped and had sex with guys because her boyfriend made her! And she stayed with him! How fucked up is that! This guy treats her like crap and she stays with him because she "loves" him...It's just so stupid...

I'm also getting sick of those damn chicks in the audience who "Came to get their Springer beads" I bet Jerry's getting sick of that shit too. Come on people! The BEST part of the show is when the audience tells off the guests and they just go and waste time by getting their stupid Springer beads. Godammit! Tell off the fucking guests! No one wants to see your boobs!!!

...my computer died

~poofy-wings — Mon, 16 Feb 2004 14:03:34 PST

Yep, my crappyful computer finally died but it's okay because I've got this prettyful hand-me-down laptop. I love it. It's my friend. ^__^

I'm still havinga really tough time getting 100% on FFX-2 but, I'm not gonna give up...I MUST get the perfect ending.

I got some new GBA games: Fire Emblem, Golden Sun (finally) and the Yu Yu Hakusho game.

I really hate the graphics on the Yu Yu Hakusho game. It seems as though they put all their work into cramming everything from the show in there that they neglected the graphics. The sprites, face portraits, and surroundings could have been better...

Also, I'm gonna work on changing my icon because it's getting boring...

...evilness of the phonebill and brokeness

~poofy-wings — Sat, 24 Jan 2004 15:01:47 PST

Woo! I'm not dead! Sorry kids! ^^: It was the phone bill yet again....

So did everyone have a good Christmas?

I finally got my tablet! Here I was, looking all over eBay for one that was good and under 100 bucks, then I found a brand new Wacom tablet when I went to Sams! (It's a bulk store owned by the same guy who made Walmart) So, I'm very happy with my tablet! ^^ I got a hand-me-down laptop and Aunt threw in a whole bunch of extra memory just for me! ^^

I ALSO GOT FFX-2!!!! It's one of the greatest games ever! I've beaten it with the Good Ending and now I'm trying to get the Perfect Ending (which is a lot harder than it sounds). SO NO ONE TELL ME WHAT HAPPENS!!!! .....I hate spoilers....so nobody ruin it for me!

I've got a New Game+ file on 98% but I'm stuck in that evil Cloister in Bevelle! Jyscal is one tough cookie.... And I started another game and I'm at Chapter 2 around 30%-32%. I just really want to get that Perfect ending and NOTHING is gonna stop.

---rant---
Futhurmore, I'm really dissapointed in the magazine, Game Informer, for giving FFX-2 a bad review! They said, and I'm paraphrasing here because I can't find the issue at the moment:
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...it'd be nice to leave Spira....seems as though a lot of graphics from FFX were recycled.......the dresspheres are okay but what is this "dress-up Barbie" ....not as moving as FFX was....
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Let's start with the first thing. The " it'd be nice to leave Spira" part.
I don't know about you, but I like revisiting places I've been to in sequels. I almost cried in Chrono Cross when I saw Lenne's Square, Nadia's bell, and Lucca's house. It's almost like nostalgia. Just as I know I'm gonna get nostalgic when I finally get to see the FFVII movie. And of course they're still gonna be in Spira...IT'S A SEQUEL! And everyone's gonna leave Spira with FFXI and FF12 so shut up!

And who cares that some of the graphics were reused! They've added a lot of new stuff as well and that's what counts! Now, the "dress-up Barbie" part got me really pissed! This is the first and probably only FF game aimed directly towards girls. Infact, all of the other FF have main character guys and weakling main character girls (usually healers and summoners) with the exception of Tifa and Terra. So, why not? There are very few believable kick-ass girls in gaming and I definately think there should be more. Besides, when else can you change from a Warrior to a White Mage and then to a Thief?

And I do believe it was as moving as FFX was, with some fun parts thrown in. I found myself playing the game crying several times...just as I did in FFX! There are several quotes that will hold me forever.

"...the friends that are gone...or the dreams that have faded away...never forget them"--Yuna, FFX

"I'm not ready for this place to become just a memory yet!"--Yuna, FFX-2

"Lady Yuna, I do not ask that you forgive us....only that you forget us" --Tromell, FFX-2

And that, as they say, is that.
---end rant---

...this is just plain stupid!

~poofy-wings — Wed, 17 Dec 2003 13:59:45 PST

I received this in the mail today:
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San Felipe Del Rio Consolated Independent School District
Office of Pupil Services
Final Warning

Datge: Dec 14, 2003
To the parents of: Ashley Mullican

Under the provisions of the Texas Education Code, you, as a person standing in parental relation to Ashley Mullican, are hereby notified that your son/daughter who is dully enrolled at Del Rio High School, San Felipe Consolated Independent School District, and has failed to attend school for a total of 28 days absent.

The Texas Compusory Attendance Law states that: (a) unless specifically exempted by Section 25.086 of this code or under other laws or unless a child is at least 18 years of age and has been issued a high school equivalency, every child in the ste who is as muchas six years of age, or who is younger than six years of age and has been previously been enrolled in first grade, who has not completed the academic year in which his 18th birthday occurred shall be required to attend the public schools in the district of his residence or in some other district to which he may be transferred as provided or authorized by law each school day for the entire period of the program of instruction is provided by the district in which the child resides or to which he has been transferred; and (b) a child enrolled in pre-kindergarten or kindergarten shall attend school.

It is my duty as the Pupil Services Coordinator for the San Felipe Del Rio Consolated Independent School District to warn you by this letter that the attendance of Ashley Mullican is immediately required.

Failure to enter you son/daughter in school tommorrow, and every other school day thereafter will cause you to be charged with such failure in a criminal court.
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So basically what they're saying is that I've been absent for 28 days straight (thought it seems like longer) and that it's against the state law and if I'm not in school tommorrow they are going to take my mom to court.

However, mom already called the school, like 3 weeks ago, and told them that I have some serious mental and depression problems and that I have a social anxiety disorder....blah, blah, blah, (in which that means I can't be around a whole lot of people or else I start to panic) and that she has decided to homeschool me. So, if we already told a counselor all of this, why did they not tell these idiotic "Office of Pupil Services" people and tell them this before they send us this stupid fill-in-the-blank letter?!

Stupid counselor didn't even tell my teachers! One of my teachers called us last week wondering why I wasn't at school and mom told her all about it and my teacher said that the counselor never told her anything!

You know....I don't think these idiotic people should be working at a school.....

...okay now I'm really pissed!

~poofy-wings — Wed, 19 Nov 2003 16:56:33 PST

poofy-wings,

Your deviation, listed below, has been removed from deviantART due to a violation of our policies:

URL: [link]
Title: Pretty in Pink-Etoile
Submitted: 2003-10-12 5:21:08 pm

The administrator who deleted your deviation added the following:

This deviation has been removed since it is an automatically generated skin, which is not permissible in the Application Skins gallery. Please see here - [link] - for more details

Your deviation was removed because deviantART does not tolerate deviations which are submitted in to a category, or section, for which they obviously do not belong.

deviantART enforces a zero tolerance policy in regards to violations of our submission policy and therefore will take the actions that we deem necessary on a case by case basis. There is a possibility that you will be banned from interactivity on deviantART therefore it is suggested that you visit your user page to see if this is in fact the case.

If you feel that you are receiving this in error, or have questions regarding it, then visit the deviantART Help Desk in order to submit an inquiry. It should be noted that replies to this note will go unanswered and your only course of action is the deviantART Help Desk!

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I recieved this in a note that I just read today. It seems that devart believes that I used a skinning program to make my skin Etoile-Pretty in Pink, which I have to say is totally not true and I'm really offended that anyone would think that. No, it may not be the in the best quality or really fancy but I put a lot of effort into that skin and I did not even think about using a stupid skinning program because I wanted to do it on my own and anyway those skinning programs are a whole bunch of crap and I don't understand why anyone would use them in the first place.

So, as you can see, I'm really pissed about this. Not only because they accused me of using a skinning program but also because they didn't even bother asking to see if it was true. They just deleted without checking it out. So I am really really pissed about this!

I already submitted an inquiry at the Help Desk so hopefully next time they'll get their facts straight before jumping to conclusions.

....me want cookies...!

~poofy-wings — Sun, 09 Nov 2003 11:08:55 PST

Don't you hate it when you wake up at 8:00 a.m. and you're so hungry that you can't go back to sleep? And then you get up, eat, and get on the computer, and your mom gets really pissed at you because she thinks that you stayed up all night?

This happens to me all the time. Any time I'm up before noon on a weekend my mom automatically assumes that I just stayed up all night. I hate that.....I can't wait 'till I graduate and turn 18. Then, I'm outta here.

But, I can only dream, because the way my grades are going, I might have to take summer school or something....Damn you, Geometry!!

I can't wait for Christmas! I want:
A tablet
One of those controller thingys with an LCD screen on it
FFX-2
A Sony Mini-Disc player
Gameboy Advance SP
Disgaea
That Yu Yu Hakusho game for GBA
Some white erasers
The Breakfast Club DVD
Finding Nemo DVD
Legally Blond 1 and 2 on DVD
.hack//infection
Brave Fencer Musashi and Silent Hill (I must look on ebay for this stuff)

But, I'd be happy if I just got my tablet and nothing else! I want a tablet most of all!

....damn halloweenies

~poofy-wings — Sat, 01 Nov 2003 10:17:46 PST

Okay, I'm back. We finnally paid the phone bill but now we gotta worry about the electric and the water....I hate bills....

And then I had to go see this new shrink at the clinic...through a teleconference...and then he wasn't even there! I was pissed! Because yesterday, I actually WANTED to go to school. I told everyone in my French class that I would bring my PS2 and my The Nightmare Before Christmas DVD. But, I didn't get out in time. DAMN YOU MENTAL HEALTH CLINIC!!! YOU INCONVINENCE ME!!!!

And then, I didn't get to go out on Hallloween because I didn't have anyone to go with....I just didn't feel right going by myself...So instead, I just watched all of those Halloween specials on Nickeloden and Cartoon Network and I passed out candy....Damn kids....they took all our candy!! And we bought 10 bags!!! It's because their parents just kept bussing them in by the truckload....it was horrible!!

Getting off the subject, I'm truly getting dissapointed with some of Nickelodean's new shows....Have you seen the new All That? It sucks!!! What happened to "Welcome to Good Burger, Home of the Good Burger, Can I take your order?" or "And now here's Lori Beth Denburg with vital information for your everyday life." I miss that! The Amanda shos sucks too. It's not even funny! It's just stupid!

Now here's a quote for the day:

"We're not supposd to mention fucking in mixed company but, that's exactly where it takes place"--George Carlin, Napalm & Silly Putty

And just for kicks, here's one of my favorite scenes from Roseanne:

Roseanne: Is something wrong with your food, Becky?

Becky: Oh, you mean you hid some food under all of this slop!?

Roseanne: Hey, I stuck that in the microwave, pressed POWER, pressed COOK, pressed START, and this is the thanks I get?

Becky: God, nobody can eat this crud!

Dan: If you don't finish your crud, you're not gonna get any crap for dessert.

Becky gets up to leave

Roseanne: Hey, Becky, it's your turn to clear.

Becky: Well of course, isn' it always my turn!

Roseanne: Is something wrong, Becky?

Becky: Like what?!

Darlene: Like why you've been acting like a total snot lately?

Becky: You know, Why don't you just kiss my butt?!

Darlene: Well haul it on over here, jumbo!

Dan: Hey, hey, hey! No butt-kissing at the dinner table.

....damn halloweenies!!

~poofy-wings — Sat, 01 Nov 2003 09:51:33 PST

.....internet withdrawl

~poofy-wings — Thu, 30 Oct 2003 10:04:02 PST

I'm not dead....we just haven't paid the phone bill. I'm at school trying to type this as fast as I can. School is becoming more anal about being on the internet. Save me!

.....dammit! I'm broke.....

~poofy-wings — Thu, 16 Oct 2003 14:26:34 PDT

I'm just looking around eBay. They got such cool stuff! T.T I wish I had some money......well, I do have about $210 saved up....but, that's for a tablet.....

Look! Here, at [link] there is a Halloween Town Sora! And it even comes with a chibi Keyblade! I want it!! *cries*

And at 2 there is a Kingdom Hearts lighter! It's so cute! *cries more*

And there is a CHIBI KEYBLADE KEYCHAIN!!!! *falls down*
[link] It's so cute!! *cries yet again*

There's even a japanese promotional poster for The Nightmare Before Christmas! [link]

Now if only they had a japanese DVD of The Nightmare Before Christmas....that would really make my day....maybe I can find the japanese movie on Kazaa.... *rushes off*

....1000+ hits!? How the hell did that happen?

~poofy-wings — Tue, 14 Oct 2003 16:41:41 PDT

I'm going nuts right now!

Just got to 1000 hits!

How the hell did that happen?! It's seems like it was just yesterday that I was at 500+ hits.....ahh...memories....

Well! THANK YOU EVERYONE! I couldn't have done it without you!

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The man I plan to marry in three years when I'm legal :

....pepsi is 3vil!

~poofy-wings — Thu, 09 Oct 2003 18:51:22 PDT

Okay, I reported the douche bag for stalking me. The security guy said he would talk to him or something. So, that's good....now, I can go to school without being afraid that he's right behind me....

Still working on kyris's art trade--he wants a pic of Ky (his character, Sano, Vegeta, and Hiei. I'm working on it. Don't worry.

And, I still haven't finished jigoku-aknam's art trade...He said to surprise him and, well, I'm having a tough time thinking up something to do for him...ah, I'll think of something...

is 3vil! Boycott Pepsi and their 3vil-stealing-Coke's-Vanilla-Coke-idea! Have you seen that comercial? It's so stupid!

I really can't wait 'til Halloween! I'm never gonna be too old for Halloween! It's free candy! It's right up there on the list of great holidays along with Christmas and my birthday. I'm gonna get Jo-C's laptop! ^^ I love getting good hand-me-downs. Now, if only I could get his clothes...I'd love to get that South Park tie he has...

Whee!

The man I plan to marry in three years when I'm legal:

...eat more chikin

~poofy-wings — Thu, 02 Oct 2003 22:46:00 PDT

Well, finally uploaded pics of me....I had to do it during photography class (which is how I got the pics in the first place) because we're not aloud to have disks or whatever and anyway the computers at school use zip discs and mine uses floppys so yeah.....

I am so pissed of at the douche bag (also known as Jorge, my ex-ex boyfriend, not the one that broke up with me and then I tried to kill myself, that's Chris) He keeps flirting with Jackie. Jackie has a boyfriend. Hector, the one with the tumor in his leg. They have been going out since forever and they haven't even kissed yet. But, I digress. The douche keeps flirting with her and Jackie too nice to tell him to fuck off. I just don't think that's right. The douche bag knows that she's going out with Hector and that he's sick right now and he will be gone the entire year, and yet he keeps doing this. And I told him to back off of Jackie. She doesn't need this douche bag tramatizing her like he did with me....He would say I was perfect then he would complain that: I was too negative, my chest was too big, I needed to be more girly...etc...You know what? He kept calling me Rachel! My name's not Rachel! My name's Ashley! And I look nothing like Rachel! That's some of the reasons why I hate him so much....Plus, I think he's stalking me. It's bad enough that we have the same lunch, but, he has to sit at my table too! And I have to listen to his stupid jokes that I heard on South Park the day before....I have a record timing for eating. Two minutes! Either I scarf down my food and take off or I have to buy some chips or cookies and stick them in my bag and eat it during class. It's like he's fucking everywhere! Thankfully, he doesn't have any of my classes. He's too stupid to be in any of my classes.....

Well, that was a nice rant...^^ I feel a bit better....
I took some quizzes on the internet during school.
I found out that:

I'm an idealistic virgin
My anime hair color is green
I have a playful sexual appeal
I'm nice as pie
I'm a tech goth geek ^^!
My anime girlfriend is Fuu (Magic Knight Rayearth)
My anime boyfriend is Ryouga (Ranma 1/2)
I'm Sailor Saturn
I'm a suicidal bitch (exactly what the quiz said)
My DBZ guy is Vegeta ^^ Yay!
Stupid people piss me off
I'm a villian

I found most of these quizzes at [link] Have fun!

....schoolness

~poofy-wings — Tue, 30 Sep 2003 05:52:39 PDT

Well, I'm here at skool. No its not skool it's school because it sucks. Stupid evil computers that block just about everything......evil
>

So far now I got like five art trades going....

angelliv = finished her pic, waiting on mine - a Kuno/Ranma-chan pic
kyris = finished his pic, waiting on mine - a Yusuke pic
jigoku-aknam = doesn't what anything in particular, - gothic sakura with bat wings
whisperoutloud = warrior chick, - Duo looking cool
HokageIzlude = Izlude and Hotaru cuddling, - Cell and Hotaru flying

So, I gonna try to get some sketches done today, maybe ink them out during lunch, and hopefully scan them when I get home....I just hope my classes aren't gonna be a bitch to me today....

It sucks because I only have 2 good classes. 3 if you count lunch. All the rest of my classes suck. Ecspecially my English 3 class. I'm only a sophmore and my class is full of juniors. Plus, my teacher's a bit of a hard-ass. Only write in pen. Only write in cursive. I don't know about you guys, but my cursive REALLY sucks. Also, I'm having a lot of trouble with adverbs and adjectives. That's probably because my teacher doesn'y really explain stuff and she's a little scary so that keeps me from asking any questions. I just feel so intimidated.....

I hope I can take pictures today in photography class.....I've been wanting to upload a pic of me so people can see what I look like...

...anyone want an art trade?

~poofy-wings — Sun, 28 Sep 2003 16:18:57 PDT

Finished my first art trade with ~angelliv She's cool! ^^ I can't wait for my Kuno/Ranma-chan pic she's gonna do for me....
That art trade thingy turned out well.....

So, what I want to know is if anyone else wants to do an art trade with me?
I've got lots of free time so I can get stuff done quickly. Please?
I'll do anything, within reason, of my abilities....

I might be going to visit my grandparents today....they live like and hour away....which is good because I left on of those cheap-o one-time-use cameras there....I want ot get it developed so I can post up some pics of me....I would use the schools pics but, they just don't look like me....stupid schools pictures....

I'm working on a Frieza/Makoto fic....but, I'm stuck....I might post it up here and maybe you guys can give me some ideas...I don't want to post it on fanfiction.net yet because on my Cell/Hotaru fic, that I'm also stuck on, I got TONS of flames. Just think how pissed those people will be when I finally post up the Frieza/Makoto fic....scary

Here's a few of the many flames and my responses to them on my Cell/Hotaru fic.....

***begin flame rant***
My very first flame. An very utterly idiotic one at that...

From: Sporanox ([link])

Sigh. . .another Putting A Fic Through The Cyber Paper Shredder criticism. . .

Let's put this through the preliminaries.

Plot: Good

Grammar: Slightly above Average

Power Scale: None to speak of yet

Description: Awful

Characterization: The worst since a Vegeta x Goku male pregnancy

Your basic plot is a good idea. . .putting little Hotaru in Post - Android time. Execution falls flat, however, as you shall soon see.

As for your grammar, you know formatting, but there's a few mistakes here and there, mostly in the form of spaces forgotten. Use the spacebar and spellcheck to discover and fix 'em.

Your description is entirely absent. You don't tell us how the environment looks, or how anything looks for that matter. Yes, we know how it looks from the TV show; but this isn't a TV show, this is a fanfic. . .and a story upgrades 100% when it sparks the reader's imagination.

Your Characterization department is the most horrible piece of crap claiming to be passable characterization I have ever had the misfortune of laying my eyes on. Cell, the cruel, absorbing monster, sparing a little girl? Just because she shows him respect? Uh. . .no. . .the Cell I know would absorb her just like he absorbed everyone else who showed him respect, which was undoubtedly the first 20% or so of the people he met. What's so different between them and a little girl who apparently likes Pokemon??

I'll tell you, NOTHING!! The Cell you've made is a weak-minded pansy who would step over a fly! Ridiculous. Author, did you transplant yourself into a big green suit?

By writing this, you have shown immense disrespect for Akira Toriyama and his work, DBZ. Therefore, I condemn this fic to a rating of a -10 out of 10. Consider yourself BURNED, idiot.
-Sporanox

I understand your reason to criticize, in fact, I'm glad that you were honest because, yes, I don't have great discriptions. But, I have seen lots of fics out there where they put a whole lot of work into the descriptions and nothing else. Though, I still realize that I should put a bit more effort into the descriptions.

And, no, I don't believe that ANYONE showed Cell-sama any respect. Not even Dr. Gero! You've got to remember that this is the DBZ world and that they have the experience to run way when they see aliens and monsters. I mean, c'mon, the people there are still afraid of Piccolo! And he doesn't look as scary as Cell-sama can be. So, no, I don't believe anyone showed him any respect. I believe that when they saw him coming, mothers grabbed their kids and took off and people driving ditched their cars and took off too.

Plus, Hotaru does have that kind of effect on people. I remember a certain episode where she was in some stadium to see an athlete because he had been sick all his life and yet was still able to follow his dream--and a youma attacked, and when it took off it noticed that Hotaru was having trouble breathing and told her to go to the nurse.

Also, I don't see anything wrong with little eight year old, Hotaru, liking Pokemon! Hell, I still like Pokemon--and I'm fifteen! I felt that Pokemon--as well as Digimon--would appeal to an eight year old little girl. There is nothing...

....Cooler is so cute!!! ^^

~poofy-wings — Fri, 19 Sep 2003 16:58:54 PDT

Yeah, just got done watching Cooler's Revenge on Toonami....Cooler looks so cool and hot and bishounen-y and cute and....

I guess I could go on forever....

I was going to pair Minako with Yamcha but now I've decided to put her with Cooler! ^^ That's gonna be cool!

I wish they didn't cut out so much stuff out of Cooler's Revenge...I wonder what the japanese version is like? I guess I'll find out when I buy the DVD.....

Just uploaded some old-ass art....It kinda boosts your confidence when you look back and see how horrible you used to draw....

Some guys honked at me again on my way home.....they did that on Wednesday too, but I thought it was the short skirt and pantyhose combo...O.o I was wearing a skirt and pants today...o.O
I usually don't like it when guys honk at girls....but, it definately boosts up your confidence a bit...^^;

I figured out the katakana for my name...it would be A-shu-ri...cool huh!
My name sounds so much cooler in japanese. So today I was doing everyones name...it was fun! ^^

Chris=Ku-ri-so
Jackie=Ja-ki
Mariana=Ma-ri-a-na (basically the same)
Hector=He-ku-ta
Kristina=Ku-ri-ti-na

It's fun! ^^

...WWWEEEE no go school on Thursday!!!

~poofy-wings — Wed, 17 Sep 2003 15:48:54 PDT

Yay! Don't have to go to school Thursday because the teachers have some workshop thingy...Cool....

Deviantart is kinda pissing me off.....
I keep having to log in 20,000,000 times! I log in once, go a different page, and then the damn thing logs me out! And I have to log in AGAIN.
Not fair....I want a Dell, then maybe these things wouldn't happen as often....

I kinda got some bad news...well, I guess it could be good....anyway, some crap happen at my mom's job--Teresa blamed her for something that was not her fault or her responsiblity or her job....so mom got pissed because that stupid bitch Teresa tried to scare her by threatening to take away her nursing lisense....so mom went up and talked to the warden and wrote up a report....so, because of all that, we might be moving to San Antonio which I really don't mind. I'm not too happy with the choices of classes and stuff here at my school. Since San Antonio is WAY bigger than Del Rio, they'll have more resources, especially if I go to Judson again......one thing I don't like is that, in San Antonio, they're really strict there...mostly with the dress code....and I do mean oh, "you can't be pierced" I mean your hair can't even be red....I saw, on the news, one time, this chick dyed her hair a normal color (I think it was Clairol) like burgundy or something and they suspended her because of that! Which, to me, is extremely stupid! I mean you could have green hair and still be a straight A student and never cause trouble....So, I hope I don't end up in that district....

Eh, oh well...If I do end up in a school like that I'll have to be really subtle with my hair. Like dye a really dark purple so that it only shines purple but still looks like black....

I just hope they don't have some stupid looking uniforms like white polo shirts and khaki pants....ugh....And I also hope they don't make us wear collored shirts all the time and have to have our skirts and shorts only one inch above the knee like at Kirby....

Why can't American schools have cute uniforms like on Sailor Moon or Yu Yu Hakusho?

.....musical

~poofy-wings — Sun, 14 Sep 2003 11:03:27 PDT

I feel kinda tired-like right now.....There was a storm here....Thunder too loud....evil.....

I downloaded lotsa cool music yesterday....but, I can't burn them on a cd because my computer is being a bitch. It won't let me burn audio cds but, it'll let me burn data ones....Well, I guess thats okay....I've been backing up my computer alot because it scares me everyday that it's gonna crash...oh, I wish I had a dell......

So here, I'm gonna put a listy thing of

Music you should download and worship:
Ayumi Hamasaki - Fly High
Ayumi Hamasaki - Trauma
Ayumi Hamasaki - Endless Sorrow
Ayumi Hamasaki - still alone
Globe - Feel like Dance
Judy and Mary - Daydream
Judy and Mary - Sanpo Michi
Malice Mizer - Uruwashiki Kamen no shotaijo
Mel C - I turn to you
The Pillows - Ride on Shooting Star
The Pillows - Hybrid Rainbow
The Pillows - Suicide Diving
Yu Yu Hakusho - Moonlight Party
Yu Yu Hakusho - Eye to Eye
Yu Yu Hakusho - Rocketto Hanabi no Love Song
Silent Hill 2 - Theme of Laura
Silent Hill 2 - Room 312
Maeda Ai - Keep On
Utada Hikaru - Blow my Whistle

Okay, I think that's enough for now.
But, how about you? What songs do you think other people should worship?

Yay! I'm hyperful!!

~poofy-wings — Fri, 12 Sep 2003 17:52:17 PDT

You love me! You really love me! Ahahaha! Yay!

Lotsa people watching me and being nice to me! I'm happy ^_^!!

I feel so wonderful!! I love everyone right now!

Except for the stupid, retarded, gay, asshole, Jorge! Oh, he pisses me off. I wish I could go and set his house on fire but, I can't....it's illegal...damn law...

I hate him so much, that if I had a choice on who to kill, Britney Spears or Him? I'd kill him! I'd rather take fashion advice from Christina Aguliera than be in the same room with that dumbass....
He thinks that intelligent and smart are two different things!

Oh, a nice rant....I'm in my happy place, Double D!!

I'm still waiting for that Yu Yu Hakusho video game I heard about to get here! I'll be happy if they at least have Genkai. Really happy if they have Young Genkai. And extremely super happy if Botan is a playable character.

I also can't wait untill they make another Chrono game! ^^ Oh, I can only hope and dream that it'll get here soon! ^^

I just got finished reading Flowers in the Attic for the third time...I just started Petals on the Wind. If you haven't read Flowers in the Attic, then go, read it NOW! It's one of the greatest books ever!

...I was going to go watch Law & Order but, I'll have to wait 'till 8:00. I have to watch the begining part or else I'm totally lost throughout the entire episode....

oh, I wish there was an Olive Garden here....or at least a Denny's. All we got is stupid Kettle.....

So, how about a question of the day?
What's your favorite restaurant?
Mine's Olive Garden. I love their salad and breadsticks and seafood alfredo...mmm, italian....

And here comes the pain....

~poofy-wings — Thu, 11 Sep 2003 15:04:46 PDT

"Tell me that you don't drag that blade across your skin and pray for the courage to press down."--Lisa--Girl, Interrupted.

It's happened again....Again, I open my heart, hoping to find love, and again I lose it as quickly as it came.

But, I'm not mad at him. I love him. Very much.
He doesn't love me anymore. He says I'm over-protective. But, I just worry....My friend Hector has a tumor in his leg. He was never sick and always came to school. I just didn't want anything to happen to him...

I love him....
He, Chris, was the only thing keeping me from killing myself. And now....I don't have him to help me....I don't have love....his love....

The only thing stoping me now is fear. I can't cut myself....My hands.....they won't work right because I'm scared.....So, I've been beating myself up about it all day. Banging my head on the desk and punching my face and legs...I was almost going to jump from the second floor of the school onto the first floor, in the middle of the cafeteria. But, my legs wouldn't take me there.....because I'm scared....