deviantART: by:professorhojo

The Last Apology

Dear Everyone,

I want you to know that I value you all. Every single friend in my life has been important to me, and I am constantly amazed by the talented, eclectic, eccentric, and unique group of people I've had the pleasure of knowing through my life thus far. It makes me proud, and I'm always proud of all of you. I couldn't ask for better friends than you. You have, most likely, influenced my life greatly and helped me become more like the person I've always wanted to be, even when life deals its sucker punches and I stumble.

This is my last apology to you. I'm sorry for letting myself stay down for so long. I'm sorry I haven't been the friend you deserve in return for your friendship to me. I know I've been distant, I know I've been reclusive and cold. When I'm hurting, I freeze. I close myself to the world, and I want nothing but the best for you. When I am not the best I can be? There's an unfair conflict of interests there, and it's entirely asinine. My daily life is a constant negative environment. I've known no worse solitude, and endured no such cynicism and carelessness before. This past year has tested me in ways I hardly imagined, and certainly in ways I have never known before. But as a result, I will be an even better person still. Brick walls exist to stop those who aren't passionate enough to overcome them. I have things to do and experiences to live. I have goals to meet that need not live up to anyone's standards but my own.

But I don't wish to stay so far away forever. I will not apologize again, as from this moment in my life, there should exist no reason for me to. Not for this year of my life I wish to leave behind me, to step away from and keep only as a memory that drives me to never allow myself to repeat it. I can and will be ready for life after this. I've grown up, and the final push was the hardest part of all.

I missed you, and I love you.
Sorry 'bout the dickery
C

These supposedly tell you all about me in visual form

http://professorhojo.deviantart.com/journal/25248423/ Thu, 11 Jun 2009 05:21:51 PDT

First of all....I'd LOVE to colour your lineart. Send me something, and I promise a whole lot of awesome will be spewed across it while I build my colorist portfolio.

I think my art is reaching a point where I'm satisfied with it, but not. Which is actually a good thing, oddly enough! This means I'm ready to be slammed in the face with some critique, suggestions, and overall input about the style I work in, the skills I have, what I do well and where I should focus on improving. I never, ever want to stop pushing myself and leveling up as far as my work goes. I'm glad I'm back at the confidence threshold where I can be very easily receptive to such things again. At the moment? I am not my worst critic, which is pretty awesome.

So I would SO appreciate it if you commented here. Please tell me what it is that draws you to my art. Why do you watch me? What do you like about it? And what should I continue to work towards, work on, or incorporate more into what I do? I'm going to shut my mouth on this one. I could list A THOUSAND THINGS I think I'm less than awesome with, but I don't want to taint the water before opening the flood gates, you know? I'VE been my own worst enemy ever artistically ever since graduating art school. I need some new jerks kicking me and pushing me again. ;D

This was all oddly brought around by something as dumb as me disliking my interpretation of the Medic, but my boyfriend telling me he preferred mine over the more 'on model' sketches I sat and tried to crank out one night. Straw that broke the queerbot's back and all, I guess. Ha!

So thanks much in advance for any comments, tl;dr or just a quick howdy and hey. I really appreciate you guys, and am constantly surprised by how sweet and awesome most of you are around here. I think I'm lucky that way, to be in a cool kids crowd.

-C

PS. TF2---
I am TOLERABLE AT THIS GAME NOW. Perhaps, if I strive for it, I will level up to OKAY!

As always, COME PLAY WITH ME SOMETIME.
[link]
Add me as a pal if you want a medic to get all behind you an' shit.

These supposedly tell you all about me in visual form

http://professorhojo.deviantart.com/journal/24881847/ Mon, 25 May 2009 20:51:30 PDT

EDIT: I'm on Steam again now. I'm a tard and have no idea what I'm doing, but I'm awesome. I'm also looking for FRIENDS TO RUN IN CIRCLES WITH and to teach me what to do without making fun of me. Too much. So if you want to play some TF2 with me, add me PLZ. My handle is thatboydies

So here it is, a new snazzy journal for a new subscription. OH BOY. I've been alive and around. Been working a lot, on art and otherwise, at my job and at staying sane. Looking forward to Otakon. Looking forward to moving out. Looking forward to crushing the skulls of my enemies with a pure epic wham slam punchout. Doing okay.

Finishing up my small backlog of gifts, trades, and commissions. I have SO FEW. I'm looking forward to being able to take more soon. Motivation is the one thing I haven't been lacking lately. HOORAH. My hard drive though? Shat the bed and is now a brick. So here I am with a broken external, that housed all of my art from 2004 to present day. Ouch. Hopefully I can save that stuff off of it, because while a lot of it isn't impressive anymore? It had a few pieces I wanted for my website, a billion photos, and my animations from senior year on it. So yeah. Getting that back would be keen.

Love you guys as always. Thanks for the large influx of visits lately and commentary and favs and stuff, dudes. I might not comment all that often lately, but I TOTALLY appreciate it more than you know.

-C

These supposedly tell you all about me in visual form

http://professorhojo.deviantart.com/journal/24143355/ Wed, 29 Apr 2009 18:19:16 PDT
Yeah you people keep looking at my stuff a lot.

So let's go for 15,007!
Get it? SCREEN CAP IT
And I'll draw you something.

Get 15,009 and get a runner up prize.

Also, if anyone wants to gift me with a short-term paid dA subscription? That would be so cool. I'd make you something epic and mail it to you. Srs.

]]> ~professorhojo This Year... http://professorhojo.deviantart.com/journal/22160041/ http://professorhojo.deviantart.com/journal/22160041/ Wed, 24 Dec 2008 08:14:42 PST

Has been an absolute mess in almost every way. I've been put through more tests and trials in 2008 alone than ever before in my life. I'm young. I'm growing. I'm ruthlessly carving my own place in the world despite its resistance to let me even scratch the surface.

I'm out of college. I'm an adult, living an adult's life while keeping a timeless passion and hope alive. I never want to stop learning, creating, imagining, or sharing the love of art and ideas with others.

Things haven't been easy all the time. Things may get even worse before they get better. But there are things I'd never give up for all the world that keep me going and assure me of the brighter times ahead.

My father once told me that life was just a cycle of ups and downs. But the good thing about it? Was that, in some way, each high is always a little bit higher than the last. If we strive and work and never stop? We can only keep going up from here.

So Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, and have a wonderful New Year. Let's all start 2009 with hope and great expectations. Because we all deserve to rise beyond the boundaries we trap ourselves in. We all need to amaze ourselves, and be better than we ever thought possible.

Let's dream it and be it.

I love you, Jay.
I love you, everyone.

These supposedly tell you all about me in visual form.

Here is some Hot Stuff you Fine Folks should Gawk Over.
Because it was Drawn For Me.
Capital Letters.

http://professorhojo.deviantart.com/journal/20590722/ Tue, 30 Sep 2008 09:41:50 PDT

1. [link] - Beautiful colouring on a gorgeous conbadge! He sells these, and everyone needs one.

2. [link] - Turks! Pop art and FFVII never looked so good together.

3. [link] - I love seeing sketches! Silent Hill sketches never hurt either.

1. [link] - This girl does adorable vectors! I continue to be a fan and she continues to improve.

2. [link] - Everything she does is tiny and would make amazing spot illustration!

3. [link] - And extra bonus points for cosplay.

1. [link] - Abstract and minimal, the control over ink here is beyond impressive.

2. [link] - The colours, duke, the colours!

3. [link] - Welcome to the here and now.

1. [link] - This is where I brag about how gorgeous my friends photograph. The setting couldn't be more perfect, nor could the model.

2. [link] - A lovely landscape from a rare and pretty perspective

3. [link] - Has a way with staging sketches and playing with lineart in aesthetically pleasasing ways!

1. [link] - My good friend Ria has fabulous taste for steam punk couture!

2. [link] - Graphic and grungy, this is dream-inspired art done beautifully.

3. [link] - I love the concept of this and the softness of her watercolours, like old tea stains.

]]> ~professorhojo Annual Yearly Journal http://professorhojo.deviantart.com/journal/16344768/ http://professorhojo.deviantart.com/journal/16344768/ Thu, 10 Jan 2008 14:24:43 PST
Happily, things at work are looking up. I might be able to snag myself a new position in the near future that will allow me to spend more time working on personal projects and become re-motivated. Concierge work is somewhat swallowing my soul.

I'm going back to school this September for another year to complete my teaching certification so that as a normal, backup job, I'll become an art teacher. This way, I'll be motivating and inspiring, sharing and learning every day. It'll be a much more satisfying way to survive, incorporating something I love into my life. Giving, engaging, creating and thinking. Wish me luck. And I expect a lot of silly TEACHER stuff when I land myself a job. Like #1 Teacher A+++ mugs and pencils from the dollar store.

I might look into picking up a second job if my position switches at my current one. My hours will subsequently be less, giving me time to work on personal things, but I may be hosting on weekends for the extra cash and short hours. Part time all the way! < 3

I'm also getting through art I've promised others, art I've promised myself, and looking into getting myself a new video camera by my birthday in April so that I can start back up with filming my stop motion pieces. Since getting a new computer for Christmas, this is the perfect way to have a set-up in my house! < 3

Best wishes for the new year, for both me and you. Never stop.

]]> ~professorhojo Boring Art and Anime Boston http://professorhojo.deviantart.com/journal/8925893/ http://professorhojo.deviantart.com/journal/8925893/ Wed, 31 May 2006 15:48:03 PDT
So I'm back from Anime Boston and pretty much had a blast the entire time I was there. Next year we're staying in the hotel because dear god lugging all that stuff was a nightmare and a half and I kinda wished we could stay late for the games and dancing and 18+ panels and not have to worry about the bus.

The bus that ATE MY CELL PHONE UGH. There goes half my profit to replace my phone. AGAIN. Poor Sanji-san is seriously going to have to superglue this shit to his arm or something. In all I made about 110 dollars at my first con experience. I'm happy with that, seeing how little I actually brought with me. Have about nine buttons left of the 30 I made. Might try pushing them off on people sometime soon. Sold prints of what was meant to be examples of my work but oddly people really wanted them despite them being made on a home printer and cardstock. I WILL NEVER SELL PRINTS LIKE THIS NORMALLY I SWEAR ARRRGH but for a tiny price I gave these away. That toothfairy comic is more popular than I thought.

I also have a commission for a paper puppet which I'm both excited and anxious about because I know how big of a bitch it is to sew fingers and I'm dreading it. Though I hope the girl will be happy with what I do.

So look for a cosplay Sanji collage pretty soon once I put my pictures together and seriously if you want to buy something, anything, from me, or art trade, now is the time to ask. Who knows what I'm doing this summer, only that I will need money. Much money. And hot girls. Please to be sending Claudius hot girls.

I hung out with who was nice enough to share his art table space with me, his friend who drew me some buttseckzing doll action, who was excellent enough to carry my backpack of crap, my angry and wonderful Chopper, my one and only NAMI-SWAN!! and who gave rather excellent glomps. Love to you all. ]]> ~professorhojo A saying http://professorhojo.deviantart.com/journal/4746146/ http://professorhojo.deviantart.com/journal/4746146/ Sun, 06 Mar 2005 19:36:13 PST -spam email

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