It seems like I have been struggling to fit photos and editing into my schedule. I think it's because once I'm home and have access to my computer, I'm too tired to bother. I'm planning on changing that.

I am offering my services to anyone who needs: Family Photos, Senior Portraits, Wedding Photos, Childhood Memories, or anything else that requires you hiring a photographer.

I will be adding photos from the tunnel the boys discovered, photos from Seattle, ones of Meagan, and so on and so forth.

I will be finishing up editing Bobby's Senior Portraits, post them on my gallery, and give those finished photos to him and his family. I will be driving to Petaluma to visit and photograph an aspiring actress, Addie. Maybe even this week or next I will have a photo session with a fabulous make-up artist, Kristen, and her special someone.

Lets just say I'm looking forward to everything.

http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/21241027/ Thu, 30 Oct 2008 23:55:24 PDT
Well I just got back home to California yesterday - after driving 10 hours to get back.
I had traveled my way up to Centralia, Chehalis, Olympia, and Seattle (all cities in Washington) to visit relatives.
I got to see my Aunt Mary and Uncle Jon, my cousins Jon, Angie, Gary, and Tara, as well as my 91 year old grandfather. The only cousin who wasn't there was Bonnie but that is because she lives all the way down in San Diego.

I took a ton of photos while I was there. I have only gotten a couple posted on here but that's because I am still working on some other jobs I just came back to.
I learned a few things while I was up there:
1. Seattle is one of my favorite places in the world.
2. Always plan to bring a large variety of CDs for the 9 - 10 hour drive.
3. I never want to be away from Josh that long ever again.
4. I can get home sick after being gone for a day.
5. Don't eat sugar and junk as if you are competing for a grand prize.
6. I've gotta beat Gary at hearts.
7. Apparently dial-up still exists; unfortunately.
8. I've fallen and I can't get up. Well, in love that is.

Also while I was up there, I got to visit the graves of my ancestors - which I had never done before.

Rest In Peace:
Great Great Grandpa Carl (May 30, 1844 – April 10, 1899)
Great Great Grandma M. Sophie (September 29, 1850 – May 29, 1929)
Great Great Grandma Josephine (1854 – 1926)
Great Great Grandpa Henry (1854 – 1929)
Great Grandpa Ernst (July 24, 1872 – March 29, 1954)
Great Aunt Alice (1877 – 1954)
Great Grandma Grace (April 22, 1880 – September 9, 1969)
Great Uncle John (1882 – 1959)
Great Grandpa George (1886 – 1965)
Great Grandma Alice (18?? - 1972)
Grandma Constance (January 17, 1918 – June 7, 1998)

(Did you catch that I have a Great Uncle John, an Uncle Jon, and a Cousin John?)

I am very glad to be back home. I missed my family, my Josh, my friends, and job. It feels great to be back.

By the way:

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

I have been waiting for my bank card to show up in the mail so I can start ordering some nifty stuff of this wonderful world of DeviantART. I hope it gets here soon; I'm getting a little impatient.

I will be voting in the coming election. Will you?

And so on and so worth, but I think I've typed enough for tonight.

Now.. would you please give a girl some feedback on her photography? Go on. Don't be shy.

Peace

Myspace: [link]
Model Mayhem: [link]

Stamps

http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/20829363/ Sat, 04 Oct 2008 17:28:37 PDT
That was just a line from the song I am listening to currently. It seems to be true at times though.

I bought a car. I passed the driver's test and got my license. Then my car broke down. So I am hoping to be back on the road by tomorrow night.

It's birthday time!
Happy Birthday to:
Grandma and Grandpa G, Britney, Derek, Lacey, Kimberly, and myself! We all have October birthdays. Woot for Libras.

FEATURE TIME!
Theme: Birthdays!
Submit at [link]

Myspace: [link]
Model Mayhem: [link]

Stamps

]]> =prominent-beats http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/20333238/ http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/20333238/ Thu, 04 Sep 2008 23:03:00 PDT
The days have been going by very quickly lately - I can't even remember all the things I have done in the last few days.

Sorry to those who pay attention to my photography, for I haven't been updating my gallery. I have been having photo shoots left and right; but then after editing and going to work and etc etc.. I haven't been wanting to take the effort into distributing my artwork to all of you wonderful interweb folk.

I was the photographer for a wedding this past Saturday and was also photographing a family reunion this last Sunday. I am currently frantically editing those.

My brother, Ben, is home! (He came home over a week ago now, but I haven't been able to tell you yet.) It's great being able to hang out with him again. Though, mornings like todays.... Let's just say I'm not loud morning kind of person - and he decided to start playing his bass guitar at 7 am. Grr.. That's all I have to say. Grr. But I still love him.

<3 to Josh, Becca, and Richie.
I hung out with them today and it made me want to be with them even more so now that I'm home alone.

OH! I BOUGHT A CAR!
That also was a couple weeks ago, but hey I've been busy livin life to just blabber on to you about what I may or may not be doing.
It is a 1992 Toyota Camry. WOOT! I gotsa car!

Anyways, I got some major points out. There has been a lot more exciting stuff that I still haven't told you, but I don't want to write an essay currently.

I miss my Meagan.

I'll end this journal with a shoutout to my favorite boys. You are all so entertaining and yeah, I love ya. BTW Josh, you're amazing. Trent and Ginger, thanks for giving me so many rides around town. I appreciate it, and after the next week - feel free to call me up and have me drive you wherever. Rest of ya: *HUG* Hopefully I can have you guys over at my house to 1. swim in my 12 foot deep pool and 2. play pool.

Josh Richie Johnny Trent John Ginger Brad Alex Arik Damien

peace*

-NIKKI

Myspace: [link]
Model Mayhem: [link]

Stamps

=prominent-beats http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/19844846/ http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/19844846/ Fri, 08 Aug 2008 12:13:20 PDT
I went to the Mark Behrens Portrait Workshop this last Saturday and had a blast. I took photos from 9 am to 5 pm - which in total I took 2175 photographs. Yeah I know, over kill but that's how you seem to get the perfect shot.

I'm not going to be saying much in this journal because I've been sick the last few days and I need to finish editing Tasha's photos.

The photos from the shoot will added slowly but surely into my gallery over the next week or so. If they aren't being featured in my gallery just go to the "August 2 Photoshoot" to view all of the ones I have posted.

I have been recently featured at [link] , [link] ,& [link]

Thank Yous & Acknowledgments:

Mark Behrens for the oppotunity and knowledge I gained from your workshop. [link]
Shawn Bradley (Model)
Tareva Spencer (Model) [link]
Jessica Peer (Model)
Krista Behrens (Model)
Sara Court (Model)
Karissa Klima (Model)
Stephanie Pate (Model)
Marie Green (Model) [link]
Ross (Photographer) [link]

Myspace: [link]
Model Mayhem: [link]

Stamps

Friends

=prominent-beats http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/19606808/ http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/19606808/ Sat, 26 Jul 2008 12:41:34 PDT But that's how I always seem to be. Busy. I'd rather be busy than bored so I'm good there.

SCORE! 2,000 page views as of today.

I put in a forum that I was going to be featuring some "Interesting Portraits" on my Thursday night journal. Well, I got so busy that I completely forgot about it. Only those who bothered to reply to the forum have been featured. I have slept on 4 different couches this last week. I've just been going going ---- GONE.

I'm dying to get my camera out and take some pictures because I haven't in so long. My brother, Charlie, is coming into town from Hawaii to visit for a few days. I'll be working when he shows up but I'm looking forward to getting a hug from him after my shift is over.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KYLE! (July 27th)

I am going to put specific dates of which I am unavailable for friends and others who might be wanting to schedule something with me. Be sure to check back because I may add something every other day or so.

Mondays I spend the day with my mother 2 pm on. (So I can schedule things for the morning)
Tuesdays I babysit my beautiful niece all day til around 5:30 pm. (Free to plan whatever afterwards)
All other days I may be working at Best Buy, but before or after I can schedule anything with individuals.

July 30th: Scouting out the lighting for Heather's Wedding with Andie.
July 31st: 5pm to 9pm Market Fest
August 2nd: Portrait Workshop (20 to 30 photographers will be there and I get to spend the day with 5 to 6 models and photograph them in different situations)
August 11th: Spending the morning with Richie.
August 14th - 19th: Parents will be out of town (Will be looking for rides from people or will be staying the night at different places)
August 22nd: Photographer for Wedding Rehearsal
August 23rd: Photographer for Wedding
August 30th: Photographer for Heather's Wedding
August 31st: Photographer for Lynn's Family Reunion

Oh goodness, I'm probably forgetting something too. lol

Featuring... Interesting Portraits


... ]]> =prominent-beats http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/19507616/ http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/19507616/ Sun, 20 Jul 2008 21:05:39 PDT
Yeah I said "oh snap". Reminds me of the days I got my photos published in the "Snap" section of the local newspaper over ten times.

But anyways...

Andie & I both got featured in a journal!! I just love how we both got featured. She bought me this month's dA subscription and was the one to suggest to go poking around in forums.
Go check out the journal >>> [link]

I got another photography feauture > [link]

THANK YOU to & !!!!

I've almost (1,918) gotten over 2,000 pageviews, so WOOT for that.

On ModelMayhem I have been invited to join some photographers and models for a portrait workshop on August 2nd; Which by the way, I did a little back flip celebration in my mind when I got that message.

I have a couple weddings planned so far. For Heather's wedding, I am the photographer while Andie is the videographer.
We just seem to be awesome I guess. I dunno, you decide.

I think in one of my near future journals I will have my own feature of some artists here on dA. It'll get myself and other's more pageviews.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Kasandra. Here is a cake for you. I celebrated her 18th b-day with her last night. We went dancing with Ashlee and Danielle. I haven't had that much fun in a while. I've been in a really good mood since. Even with some back pain working at Best Buy today, I still enjoyed myself and was all smiley.

-NIKKI

Featuring... My Favorite Girls


Myspace: [link]
Model Mayhem: [link]

Stamps

=prominent-beats http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/19446579/ http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/19446579/ Fri, 18 Jul 2008 20:37:39 PDT
First off...
I would like to send a huge thank you to Andrea for she surprisingly bought me a month subscription to dA. THANK YOU!!

The song I am currently listening to "Live Your Dreams" by Athena Cage. And to support Andie it works with the title of a particular photo she has in her gallery. [link] I also chose this photo because I have been missing my brother a lot lately. I have been quite lonely without him here.

Lately I have been extremely busy working 5 days a week at Best Buy, babysitting 10 hours a week, and everything else I seem to fit into my schedule.... so I haven't done a photo shoot in a while. I am dying for a day to just photograph for a couple hours because that always seem to make me feel like myself again.

I have a new account on Model Mayhem so I have been chatting with various models and photographers there.
I went to a poker night yesterday. That was quite entertaining. I got my money back in the end but unfortunately didn't get much other than that. I was pretty quiet because that was the first time I had ever hung out with that group before. None the less, I enjoyed my time. Congrats to Dustin for winning. I watched Wall-e last night! I thought it was hilarious. lol

Unfortunately lately the people I held closest to me, aren't very close to me anymore; so I've just been trying to keep my mind occupied. Today seemed to be difficult for me. After my friend dropped me off at home, I was at a loss of what to feel. I just felt so lonely. I had fun the night before but I haven't had any one on one in depth conversations with anyone for a while. I was pretty sad for a couple hours, so I did what makes me happy; blasting music and editing photos. I know that I have my weak moments. Moments where I feel like I haven't anyone; but I know that when I don't have someone there to hug me or tell me it'll be okay, I will be alright anyways. I didn't talk to anyone about my feelings today and I'm okay. I'm content. Though, still looking forward to be close to someone again.

Other than that.... I don't have much to update in my photography world. I am slowly but surely posting. I have a couple weddings and other photo ops coming up so I will definently be posting after that.

I miss a lot of you. And welcome to my gallery if you have just discovered my page! Wander, explore, drop a comment, and be sure not to get lost!

-NIKKI

Featuring... Dani

Myspace: [link]
Model Mayhem: [link]

Stamps
http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/19172910/ Wed, 02 Jul 2008 20:13:46 PDT After thinking for two days that my computer had a bunch of viruses and getting everything straightened out by two magnificent people, I couldn't be any happier.
But then again, that isn't true now is it.
I got to hang out with someone I really care about today and I felt spoiled with niceness.

I also got a brilliant email from a local photographer who has now invited me to attend a portrait workshop. I am more than excited! Then when I got home tonight, I got an phone call from someone who I haven't talked to in a very long time. She has now hired me to be the photographer at her family reunion.

The feeling of getting hired over and over is making me feel incredible. I have now realized now I have been so busy that I haven't edited some photographs I was going to edit a month ago. Like Lisa's jewelry. I'm going to get to that now that my computer isn't tweaking.

I'm glad I hung out with Brendan today because waking up this morning and realizing it was Karen's birthday was a little stab to the heart. She died this last Easter. I didn't realize I'd miss her like this, but it brings sadness to think I can't walk up the hill and see her anymore.

I'm headed off to Photoshop world now.

-Nikki Marie

Myspace: [link]
Model Mayhem: [link]

Old dA accounts (WARNING: Not very impressive) LOL


Friends:




]]> =prominent-beats http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/19063629/ http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/19063629/ Thu, 26 Jun 2008 19:30:57 PDT All around Shasta County are hundreds of fires. They started last Saturday with the incredible lightning storms we had. Myself and Andrea were amazing with what the weather was like and watched it in admiration. I now wish I was unable to see lightning because that would mean that the beautiful world around my home would not be aflame.
Jackie took advantage of the weird lighting outside and took some great photographs. The link to her profile is the the friends section at the bottom of this journal.

I've been missing my brother, Ben, a lot lately. He is currently in New Hampshire until the end of August. He called me a few days ago and said "I love you" over five times. I couldn't stop smiling for the rest of my work shift.

I have been working constantly either at Best Buy or in Photoshop. Among my work, I had a few hours to spend with Dani and in that time frame I made a new friend. We've talked hours and hours, time I've enjoyed.

I guessed as I was graduating high school that I would greatly miss the amazing printers I had access to; and as of yesterday I hate printers for they are not as magnificent to those of Mr. Lockett's. I worked on one photograph of Dani's for hours. We couldn't get the color right, but I swear I was but it was the evil printer. Photo we worked forever on: [link]

I was paid today by Lisa Marie for I have now finished editing all of her photographs. One of my favorites of hers was [link]

I may be photographing Beverly's wedding tomorrow. Unfortunately though, I do not have a ride yet. We shall see.

The title of the song I am currently listening to is what I titled my journal today. I quite like this song.

-NIKKI

Myspace: [link]
Model Mayhem: [link]

Old dA accounts (WARNING: Not very impressive) LOL


Friends:


http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/18892627/ Tue, 17 Jun 2008 12:44:31 PDT
I have a question for those who view my art regualarly or even if this is the first time you have viewed my page.

Should I be...
- Nicole Gosney Photography
or
- Nikki Gosney Photography

???????????????????????????

Yes it seems like a fairly stupid question but my real name is Nicole and it sounds more professional; And Nikki is what everyone calls me now and it sounds more... Artistic and/or young?

Comment and let me know what you think.
Thanks!

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I graduated!!!
I haven't been updated on dA in a while because I have been so busy. Then when I am finally home, I'm too tired. I'm going to start getting back on track and am doing three or four photoshoots this coming week.

Congrats to Andie on her new camera. I do have to admit, I am a little jealous but am excited for you at the same time.

I am really looking forward to my next photoshoots. Dani got her hair cut and dyed, so I am dying to photograph her again since she is in town from Nevada. I will also be doing another photoshoot with a beautiful girl this Friday, Lisa.
I am still trying to get previous photographs edited from shoots I did a couple weeks back. Been so busy, but I am going to make the time for it now.

I got a new speaker system for my laptop!!!! I have over 12 GB of music and I could only listen to it through the dinky speakers on my computer but now I can be on the other side of the house and hear my music collection! I bought Harmon Kardon Soundsticks.

My next goals are:
To get my license and car.
Get more hours at Best Buy.
Start working with some professional photographers or at least work underneath one.
To keep setting goals.

- NIKKI

MySpace Profile: [link]

]]> =prominent-beats http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/18437951/ http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/18437951/ Wed, 21 May 2008 20:09:19 PDT I was looking for inspiration in all the wrong places. I spent time with family today and just enjoyed my day, and in doing so... I felt like myself again.
I had a photo shoot with my cousin Kimberly, an absolutely gorgeous girl, and got some great shots. They shall be on here I can guarantee it. Once I edit them up a lil bit of course. I spent the rest of the day with my sister, niece, and nephew. I felt like Nikki again. I went and watched my six year old niece's softball game and played with my nephew.

This last weekend I got my new cell phone! It is the same number as before but now everyone can actually get a hold of me.

I GOT MY BUSINESS CARDS TODAY! Lisa was so generous and made a ton of them for me. She is such an angel. I am in the process of editing the photos I took for her at the jewelry party she hosted this last weekend.

I have been catching up in my school work and I raised my college class grade insanely. lol We are going to be having a poetry slam this next week in my English class so I might be submitting a few of them on here just for the heck of it. Some of them are fiction, some are emotional, some humorous; just depends on the mood I was in on the day I wrote them.

Heh tomorrow is going to be fun after school with friends. I am going to have a fun-filled and work-filled weekend but I plan to enjoy it no matter which way it goes.

-THE NIKKI

]]> =prominent-beats http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/18424633/ http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/18424633/ Wed, 21 May 2008 01:02:30 PDT There is too much to type that I am not even going to bother.
Ultimately, I need to find my inspiration again.

]]> =prominent-beats http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/18405606/ http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/18405606/ Mon, 19 May 2008 19:32:42 PDT I had a photo shoot with Meagan at her new home in Shingletown then the next day had a photo shoot with Lisa. I really liked seeing Meagan because I was so relaxed when I was with her. Then when I spent time with Lisa, I felt even more loved. She is so nice to me. I gave her a gift a couple weeks ago. She said she still really likes it.

Sorry I've been distant to my friends lately. I sort of shut my emotions off to everyone.
I'm graduating soon. I'll be taking photographs for a couple weddings this summer and I'll be working for Geek Squad.

Today was a some what bad day. But I'll get over it. I already am. Listening to music and editing photographs always seems to help me not think of anything. It's nice.

I don't know what I'm doing this weekend. I have plans for every day this week except Friday night on... I know I only work one day this week, Saturday. Maybe I'll be able to have a photo shoot with Dani. We'll see. I was hoping I could spend some time with James on Saturday night but I don't think it'll fall through. I'd love for it to, but hey.. stuff happens. Bobby and I talk bout every day. He is one of the few people I've been close to lately. I've known him since I was three and we've been tight for friggen ever.
I didn't like how a few guys were treating me today so I just ignored them. I didn't let it bother me too much, same thing I've been doing with everything.
I saw an old friend I hadn't seen in a month or so for the first time this weekend. We said hi and that was it. I sorta wonder what would have been said if we had actually talked. They don't want me around anymore so I've just kept my distance.

Well, yeah.. random nonsense.

-Nikki

]]> =prominent-beats http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/18298671/ http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/18298671/ Tue, 13 May 2008 00:48:58 PDT I have my senior speech later today (tomorrow when I wake up). It determines whether or not I graduate. I have photo shoots on Wednesday, Friday, and Saturday.
I need a friggen hug. I should invent a juice or something that'll make me chipper when I'm sad. Any ideas?
Well I'm gonna go attempt to fall asleep again.

]]> =prominent-beats http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/18173134/ http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/18173134/ Sun, 04 May 2008 22:47:41 PDT I gave the other Lisa a present that night. She has meant a lot to me since I've known her. She has always seemed to support me. I was so happy she came to see my photographs. To some people it may not look like someone has done much but it was her kindness that touched my heart. So in turn I wanted to do something for her. She started crying when she saw it. I knew then that giving a little kindness to someone can look little but emotions can result in it being something so much more meaningful.
I've had every kind of emotion this week. All the good and all the bad, just about. Now at the end of the week and starting another, the sorting is my next challenge.

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Random Writing
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Why should she care about what they think of her? Why should it matter whether she may or may not be successful? As long as she's happy..... Right?
If she makes a mistake. Let her sigh, beat up on herself, and learn from it. Don't sigh, beat up on her, and try to teach her something. She doesn't need help to tear her self-esteem down further. Girls can do quite fine on that subject by themselves.
If she succeeds, let her jump up and down, be proud of herself. Don't tell her it wasn't a big deal. To her it's important. Let things mean something.
All the little things in the world add up so much of something great than if something fa nominal and grand happened. One big thing can happen and make you feel great that one time. But little things can happen every day, making every day great.
Of nothing in particular.
Just like everyone else.
Cry. Laugh. Weep. Smile. Throw a fit. Tears of pain. Tears of happiness.
Live. Like. Love. Regret and Forget. Yes. No. Lonely. Guidance.
Whats the point? Will you be able to?
I. Me. You. Us. We. Them. None. Everyone.
A simple word will bring so many memories back into light.

]]> =prominent-beats http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/18124369/ http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/18124369/ Thu, 01 May 2008 20:31:31 PDT
Today I found out a friend of mine died. She died on Easter and I didn't find out about it until today. My thoughts and prayers go toward her soul. I miss her dearly and I hope to find out where her body now rests so I can bring flowers to her grave.

I miss a lot of people this week.

I won a scholarship last week.

]]> =prominent-beats http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/18046871/ http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/18046871/ Sat, 26 Apr 2008 23:51:29 PDT I've starting to get a little stressed out, but I'm keeping it all together since I have a lot at stake this week.

I just got back from a great Love Alliance Benefit Concert. [link]
[link]
I took over 1000 photographs and after my busy weekend, I can start editing and posting for my viewers. The three bands that performed were:
1. Chasing Truth [link]
2. Trends of Fanciness [link]
3. The Chalants [link]
YOU ALL ROCKED!!
I'll be sure to link a lot of their photos on here and on my MySpace profile as well. My profile is: [link]

Yeah I've given you quite a bit of links but I've got to support others so maybe they might be willing to support me as well. They didn't an absolutely fabulous job performing. I wish I could take a whole day with even just one of the bands and have a photo shoot.

My high school is hosting an "Evening of the Arts" this coming Friday. The tickets are seven dollars in which you will be able to view drama and music performances. Then afterwards you will be encouraged to roam through our gallery (my school hallways) to gaze upon the student photographs and artwork. (Like how I worded that?) I am hoping to have a whole wall set up for my photography. Even if you can't pay the $7 to see the performances, around 8pm at ANTHS the school will be open for the public to view all of the artwork. Believe me, I think it is going to be a great turn out.

Last weekend, I took over 700 photographs of the Kool April Nites Car Show. So far I only have one photo on here because I've just been so busy.
I also did a photo shoot the week before with Andrea and for the first time, I wasn't behind the camera. I have posted one of the pictures here and a few select ones are on her profile.

Like I said that isn't even half of what I've been up to lately.
I'm in the middle of trying to tie my emotions together as well on different subjects. Unfortunately though I've been ignoring them and preoccupying my thoughts on anything and everything but my feelings. There's a good and a bad to it.
I hope to work on that area soon enough.
I've been pretty distance from people lately. I miss three main people right now. One of them is out of state. One of them is over 200 miles away at college. One of them is is town, but won't want to see me. I wish I had one of them to hug and to talk to. That is the only thing I want right now.

Hope you enjoy the photos!
Be sure to leave a comment and let me know if you would ever like to schedule a photo shoot!

-NIKKI

]]> =prominent-beats http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/17756137/ http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/17756137/ Tue, 08 Apr 2008 21:58:16 PDT 's journal. [link]
It made me all happy inside.

I haven't been able to stop smiling all day long.
I presented the final drafts of the front and back of Clark Davis' CD Album Covers. He loved them and paid me a pretty penny for them too. I have never been paid that much before because I never ask for the amount professional photographers charge. I know I need to but it seems to be a bad habit of mine. lol
I needed the money. It paid for my camera getting fixed and with only getting 7 hours last week and 4 hours this week at Best Buy, my bank account has gotten really really low.

Check out the album covers and tell me what you think!!!!!!
[link] [link]

My day has been great.
My week has been great.
And I'm looking forward to the rest of this week. Especially Friday.

-NIKKI MARIE

]]> =prominent-beats http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/17691685/ http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/17691685/ Fri, 04 Apr 2008 23:26:40 PDT >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

I'm having so much fun lately. I've been taking photos for people like crazy. Currently I'm on hold though....
Something just screwed up inside my beautiful $600 Digital Rebel XT yesterday.
Being deprived, I took it into Crown Camera today to get cleaned and fixed, so hopefully I shall be picking it up on Monday or Tuesday. I miss my camera already.

Yesterday I did a photo shoot with a local country singer, Clark Davis. My camera got messed up two hours before the time we were meeting. Can I say PANIC!? I was calling all over the place and arranging to use one of my photography teachers cameras, until I called Josh and asked him to bring the exact same kind of camera I own to me to use. He saved the day.
I am now currently editing the photos I took and am looking forward to presenting them to Clark this coming Tuesday.

Soon I'll be taking photos with Andie (Andrea) but I'm going to be the model for a change. I am not used to being in front of the camera, so we'll see how that turns out.

Dani is currently in New York and is there for her upcoming movie audition this Sunday. We just talked on the phone, and her describing the image made me want to pack up, grab my camera, and fly out there with her. I wish her all the luck in the world for the opportunity of being an actress.

I might also be doing a shoot with Ben and his girlfriend, Carrie. They need some photos taken for a contest. Oh that reminds me.... I need to set something up with Robert and Brittney too. Robert and I have been talking about setting something up but I've been so busy lately that I forgot. Now I have it fresh in my mind again.

I even got another idea to put something together with my cousin Mali. I got this "idea" yesterday....
BUT EVERYTHING I'M PLANNING IS ON HOLD!
I can't do a darn thing without my precious camera.

I'm looking forward to having it back.

I GOT A TURTLE THIS WEEK!
I've been wanting a turtle for years and I finally got one. My friend, Annie, gave him to me. She had named him Hannibal but I was wanting to call him Franklin. So I call him Hannibal Franklin now. Again... photos are coming soon.

-NIKKI

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Now playing: Frou Frou - Shh
via FoxyTunes

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As of last week I now have two pieces of artwork up at the new Redding City Hall. One of them is Red Amour. They will be up until June.

I have been printing photos like crazy and I've been having a blast. My portfolio looks like it is going to burst.
I need to buy some picture frames to display some for my senior project but I haven't much money. So... hopefully I can actually get something together. I will be having a display set up at the Mt. Shasta Mall on March 19th. I believe I will be there from 5 pm to 7 pm. Not quite sure yet. Come and check out my photos if you get the opportunity!
I've been drooling over a zoom lens that is at my work, Best Buy. I really want to get it because I can get a hell of a deal on it. But again, the wonderful world pointing in my face "you dont' have enough money" brings me back to reality. Its nice to dream and I'll keep dreaming of getting that lens!

I've been so busy that my photos are slowly getting to my profile gallery. I've been trying to upload all the senior portraits to a different site. But because the site isn't , it sucks and takes hours to upload everything. LAME.
If you're wanting to see em >> [link]
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PHOTO SHOOT
I've been getting a few shots of Dani up from a week ago but I did another photo shoot with her today. She's an excellent model and I congratulate her for she has a movie audition in New York.
I will be adding my select favorites of the photo shoot on here but I don't want to attack everyone with every photo taken. So the rest of the series will soon all be posted on [link] under "Series". It will be over the course of the next week. I'm not going to be getting them all finished this weekend... way too busy and I need to have *some* sleep. ENJOY!
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OH! My boy is taking me to the Trapt concert this weekend! I'm thoroughly excited! I wanted to get that lens so I could capture some good photos of the band, but unfortunately the concert is too soon. If I did get the lens, I'd have to empty my bank account, which I'd be willing to do but I doubt my parents would be pleased. They don't want me spending all my money on photography because I need to save up for a car and future living expenses etc. I can't help it though. Photography is what I love and I want to get better at it.

I haven't been getting much feedback on my photos, so feel free to leave some comments for me people. *hint hint* *wink wink*

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Friends, Loves
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-Your Nicole

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]]> =prominent-beats http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/17141693/ http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/17141693/ Sun, 02 Mar 2008 00:44:00 PST I can't decide whether I want to push everyone away out of fear. Or go running into someone's arms and hold them so tight feeling like I'll never lose them because I am embracing them with all my might.
I miss a lot of my friends. All I feel like doing is to be held in my boy's arms for hours, never wanting him to let go. To call a friend and have a heart felt conversation.
It was just a very long day. I had an eight hour shift at work and I just couldn't stop thinking. Wishing life wouldn't be so damn difficult. Wanting to just go outside, lay in the grass, watch images form in the clouds, laugh with the ones I love, forget about all my worries, get a rose, give and receive hugs, and all the things I love.
Today I found out a close friend of mine has a life threatening disease. I love this girl and it breaks my heart to see the fear in her eyes. She deserves nothing of what has been brought upon her.
Life, no matter how beautiful I see it at times, can be so unfair.
I'm always so busy. I haven't had a moment to just relax, reflect, and be happy I'm alive. i need a moment like that. I want a nothing day. A day for Nikki to just be Nikki. The Nikki I recognize better, happy and smiling.

-peace-

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I had two photo shoots today. One with a little baby named Kori and with my favorite model, Dani. I am so much happier today than I have in days. I even got to see my boy on his lunch break which added a plus plus to my already great day. I got out of school at 9:30 am in which Dani came and fetched me. We've been enjoying this marvelous day since.

So within the next week I'll be adding photos from different senior portrait photo shoots, Kori's pictures, and then the ones of Dani.

Tomorrow I have my art reception tomorrow at the new city hall. I have two of my photography pieces hung up there currently and they'll be there for the next few months. They're on sale, maybe I'll sell a copy or something?

Also if you live in my town, go to the mall of March 18th. I'll be presenting my senior project. I'll have a full station of all the senior portraits I took. I'm hoping it will bring me mucho future clients. I already have two weddings planned that I will be photographing this coming Spring. I'm very excited if you could imagine.

Oh yeah... photo shoot tip. When you're trying to find a grunge site to take photos at, try not to fall through the floor and watch out for ZOMBIES! Yeah they'll get ju! They got Dani. I have pictures to prove it. She was freaking out. Fun times. Fun times.

I can't figure out what I should name my laptop. I was thinking Niko or Leo?

-the nikki girly

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then when i got home, after being told by four teachers that i am not doing anything.... there was a note on my door.

i got really angry after that.

i just wrote about four paragraphs on here and deleted it. i didn't like the way i sounded with what i wrote.
i'm not proud of myself for getting pissed off, but i had to let it out.

i just wanna pack my things and leave, but i have responsibilities i'm not willing to leave behind.

i just wish people would be content with what i can offer. "you never do a thing for me" is a line i heard today. i made a huge collage for her last week with two days notice! i could've told her no. i didn't get a grade for it. i did it because she asked me to. nothing more. and then did a whole new assignment for her today. i'm about to drop being a teacher aid for her because she can't realize i can't dedicate all my time for the extra things she wants. too bad. i have a life.

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written later....

i'm feeling a little better. i'm listening to music i enjoy. dancing around and editing photos. i'm home alone and i'm glad.
can't be doing anything wrong because no one is able to say i am. i cleaned. can't say i didn't.. okay they still do but at least i know i did something.
i can be a dork and not be called weird or told i'm acting stupid. because i'm by myself.
i can laugh at my thoughts and joke around and not worry about anybody else.

]]> =prominent-beats http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/17065952/ http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/17065952/ Mon, 25 Feb 2008 22:04:40 PST This weekend and today sucked. My good parts of today were with Andy.
I've been trying to seclude and isolate myself to avoid being yelled at. It's just been making me sad because I don't like being alone. I was on a short fuse today and got frustrated or hurt really easily when I was with my boyfriend today. I don't like who I am when that happens.
I feel like I've lost who I am. I'm trying to find what I've lost but I get off track by all the things I have to do. Then in my spare time I try to hang out with Andy. It makes me happy when I'm with him. He seems to be the only one who is okay with who I am. I've been a little afraid around him lately because that's how I've been with everybody. I'm scared and I pretend that nothing is wrong. Even at times when I'm wanting to jump up and down and scream or just be comfortable with sitting down and crying, not worrying if people are thinking me a baby.
I forget all my accomplishments and good qualities. I know they're there, but I can't point them out to myself and realize they are real.
I think I need to just write out my feelings more often or better yet, spill my guts out to someone. Like Andy. He says its okay. He is the one I want to talk to. But I have it stuck it my head that its selfish, rude, etc from the way I was raised.
I cried last night. I cried at school today. I cried twice in front of my boyfriend.
That isn't who I am. Thats what I do when I have no other way to react. I'm scared of getting yelled at. I'm scared of not being good enough. I'm scared of being hurt or hurting some one else. I'm scared shitless of graduating because no one will help me.
I'm worrying so much about the bad, its making it hard enjoying the good. I don't like that feeling. I want that to go away. I know I am the only person who can change what is going with me. I just hope I can hold someone's hand along my way. To have some hugs when I need them. It gives me more strength to get a little affection. To laugh and smile and have a good time with someone who won't point out everything I'm doing wrong.
I have that person. I don't get to spend as much time as I would like to with him because both of us are trying to do the things we have to in our own lives. I like that we're able to arrange our schedules the most we can so we can see each other when we're both free.
A close friend of mine is in town again but I haven't even gotten a chance to hang out with her or take her photos. I'm looking forward to when I can.

I want to be happy with myself again. I feel so much healthier physically, mentally, and emotionally when I am happy and content with myself.
I'll try harder for those who don't think I'm doing enough. I'm exhausted but I'd rather not have them making me feel guilty.

I'd love to be able to fly. Or less, to be able to drive. Or less, have one of my bikes fixed. To have the wind blow in my face and just think of the beauty the world I have around me. To ride miles down a road wishing to not to turn around. But eventually I do because you can't carry as much stuff as you could in a car. A car can carry your stuff and can go farther in less time. But you don't get that "freedom" feeling.

I keep wanting to be accepted by people. Another problem I have. I have to accept myself before I can believe anyone else likes me for me.

I know I say "I'm sorry" a lot. But I really feel bad for making Andy feel bad today. I snapped at him a few times today. I know that when he said I was harsh, it was completely true. When I'm hurting really bad and not allowing myself to cry my heart out or just talk, I replace my pain with anger. I'm really truly sorry.

I loved hearing Andy's voice on the phone before he went to bed. It made me feel a lot better than what I was feeling a few minutes before it. I know I expect a lot from him. I'm not doing it on purpose. He is just being himself and I love him for it. He cheers me up when I'm sad when he isn't being distant. We were both distant from each other today for about 20 min, but it seemed like forever. Not holding his hand in the car or while we were walking... I hate it and the whole time I was just wishing he would grab me into a hug. We were both afraid of the other person being mad so neither of us said or did anything for a long time. But the times when he has his hand up against my face and looks into my eyes with such sincerity, those are the times I cherish and are the moments that make me believe he does love me, that I am good enough.
I know he doesn't like it when I get all mushy gushy like this, but he means the world to me. And my "romantic" or "sweet" times just make me feel all special like.

"I am loved." "I am good enough." are lines I need to believe.
Now me thinking of him is making me want another one of hi... ]]> =prominent-beats http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/17050002/ http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/17050002/ Sun, 24 Feb 2008 22:21:22 PST lonely and such. wanting to talk while someone holds me, is patient, and will tell me everything will be okay.
i sound emo but i just dont give a crap right now. think what you want.

i feel like running away. i'd drive but i dont have a car. lol

imma sleep now.

]]> =prominent-beats http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/16840757/ http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/16840757/ Mon, 11 Feb 2008 22:49:12 PST
Sorry dA buddies. I haven't been posting stuff since my health decided it didn't wanna be good to your dear Nikki. Also... my photoshop has now stopped working and no one seems to be able to help me. I've also just been a busy girly. Through these last few weeks it seems like when my hope and serenity was starting to slip, the people close to me jumped in and rescued me without even meaning to.

like two nights ago. i was alone. yeah i had to leave work early because i was hurtin. yeah i couldn't go out and hang out with all my friends and brother and have a blast.

but that night was great. i played slug bug with my dad on the way home from work. i won 9 to 8. and he also picked me up pizza and mountain dew.
but when my friends came by to pick up my brother, they brought me cake, cheesecake, and the first season of house!!! oh btw the double chocolate cake had a reeses on top of it. lol I LOVE YOU LIZZIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3

there are some downers in life but i think i have life pretty good because my friends are awesome beyond belief.

i miss all you peoples. i haven't seen so many of you in quite a while. my cell phone had been disconnected for a few weeks but call me if you have my house phone. come visit me if you know where i usually am. soon i'll be back to the busy nikki who is the happy hoppy busy energetic girly once i'm done healing. lol

lately though the only thing i notice that has been missing is talking to Dani. i haven't heard from her in a while and i'm starting to miss it.

then tonight i got home after spilling my feelings on my boyfriend and found a new comment from my old girlfriend, Sara Love. she had edited an old photo I had taken of myself last year before my semi-formal. it just made me feel really special that she decided to that for me. i don't expect much from anyone so when something little is done for me, it is a big deal for me because it means a lot to me that some one would take the time. it shows they were thinking of me when i wasn't there.

The photo Sara edited of me:
[link]

I don't know why I've been doubting myself. I've accomplished so much this year. But there seems to be an empty feeling... I tried to go to a meeting I used to go to... But when I showed up last week, I found out that it has been canceled and is no longer being held. Then the other meetings I liked are during my school so I can't attend them. I wanna just talk to someone I care about. To someone who cares about me. I find that when I talk about my feelings, as I'm talking I find out how I can gain back what I've lost. I can't do it by talking to myself. I just don't want to upset anyone or annoy anyone etc. I just know I won't be able to go much longer without talking to someone without not breaking a lil. I guess the scared Nikki has returned and I hope I can make that go away soon.

Thank you Lizzie for your gifts. Thank you Sara for your love. Thank you Dani for being like a sister to me.
Thank you Andy, my boy, for being with me. For your time and your love. Thanks for taking me to lunch and a movie. It made me feel all special like.

-peace-

~that one nikki girly

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Now playing: Saliva - Ladies and Gentlemen
via FoxyTunes

]]> =prominent-beats http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/16621259/ http://prominent-beats.deviantart.com/journal/16621259/ Mon, 28 Jan 2008 23:06:44 PST UPDATE

Yeah...

What can I start with?
Well this past weekend I went to the Winter Formal Dance my boyfriend, Andy, took me to. I had a lot of fun. I know that if I hadn't gone with him I wouldn't have had much fun at all because I wanted to kill the DJ. Both Andy and I agreed that he butchered every song. It wasn't enough that he couldn't have a variety of music but he just had to cut each one up to crap! We had fun secretly criticizing him between the two of us.
I ended up going to bed around 2 am after dancing for hours.... then woke up at 8 am and went to work for 6 hours. It wasn't as tough as I thought it was going to be, but it really would have been to nice to sleep in.

I found out today that my deadline to get everyone's senior portraits done has moved up another week or so. I can get sleep this week! Yay! It also means that some more people are asking me to get their portraits taken. You people better make a date and time because I can't keep chasing you guys around. Otherwise.... you just won't be getting your senior portraits done. That wouldn't be good.

I haven't gotten a lot of artistic photographs posted in here yet because of high school work, college class homework, and work itself... but hopefully in time I'll be able to make a "Nikki Artistic Photo Taking Day".


As a random side note-----
I have never had a discussion of this with anybody because I bet people won't understand what I'm trying to say, think it's weird, or think it's stupid.
But it's entertaining my brain and I figure I will type it out.

I have always wondered if our eye sight is like our taste buds. I was always told growing up that everyone has different taste buds; so that is why I love to drink V8 and my brother thinks it is the most disgusting thing in the world.
But what I wish I could find out is if my red is your blue. Or if my pink is your green?
Yeah I know all of those smart scientific people have probably gone through all of their research, analysis, and conclusions to "prove" their "facts" on the topic. They would say everyone's colors are all the same. They even have all those color seeing tests here on the internet. Thats why I'm so bad at science. It's why I sometimes hate it. Even after all the test results and the "facts" are laid right in front of me, I'll still be saying "PROVE IT!"
Everyone has different opinions. Everyone has different taste buds right? So why shouldn't my neon orange come through your sight as a light cyan?

¿?¿?¿?¿?¿?¿?¿?¿?¿?¿?¿

Yeah I know my rant made no sense at all but at least now I got it typed.
Its meaningless.... sort-of. I'm an artistic person aspiring to become a photographer and I love colors. It just has my little self wondering some times about different things.
I think a lot. I just usually keep my thoughts stuffed in a corner of this little brain of mine.

Also to anyone this applies to::::: THANKS FOR THE !!
For My Andrew

PEACE

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I have only had this DeviantArt profile for twelve days and I already have over 200 page views! I feel accomplished. And so far people seem to be enjoying the photography I have chosen to display.

My photography teacher printed out a poster size self-portrait I had taken on October 10, 2006. It was my sixteenth birthday. He requested that I enter it to be displayed at the City Hall and of course I said yes. I had re-named it today, being now titled "Red Amour" and will be displayed for sale of $50.

Yesterday I did a video conference telling students at a New Tech school in New York about my school, Anderson New Tech High. It was quite fun. My brother came home tonight after having dinner with my teacher and said that she expressed how proud she was of how well I had done.

I have quite a lot to do all the time but I love being busy. I hate being bored. Tomorrow I'll be leading the student council meeting. As of right now I have no idea what I'm going to say, but thats what makes it interesting. Also I start my college class tomorrow.

I am not able to afford a professional photographer to take my senior portraits and I haven't been successful in finding a friend who would take them for me either; So I decided to would try and do them myself.
But then my tripod broke. Wonderful right?
I took quite a few shots today and I have already posted the first one I got to editing. Hopefully I will be posting the rest either tomorrow or Friday. We'll see.
Unfortunately I wasn't able to get any full body shots because my camera can only be an arms length away when I don't have a tripod.

Tell me what you think! Give me some critiques!

Btw... I ♥ you Andy!

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I'm just waiting for one of my artistic days to jump up and then you'll see some good results from the Nikki.

I've been finding myself wanting to impress people a lot lately. My parents. My friends. My boyfriend. I just haven't been able to find my place of where I am content with myself currently. I'm working on it.

Last week my boyfriend Andy had our 2 month anniversary. I'm very glad to be with him. We both have our moments of disagreement like anyone I know but ultimately I always am looking forward to seeing him again.

Over the last month or so I have come to find a new group of friends. I haven't been able to spend a great deal of time with them unfortunately. They visit me at work quite often and I see them just about every time I go to My Meagan's house. I love this girl to death. *hug*
Love ya guys too. >> Josh, Richie, Johnny, Alex, Brad, Tim, and the rest of you boys.
CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU ALL AGAIN!

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I have a new laptop! And I now have the internets at home!!!

Can't wait to get started on adding tons of photos.

ENJOY!

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Leave comments. Leave suggestions. Leave ideas. Leaves comments I'll cherish. Leave comments I'll delete.

Hope you enjoy my photography. I've taken a lot of people's senior portraits this year. I've even taken my friend, Dani's portraits for her. She is using them to give to her modeling agent down in L.A. Hopefully this will be my opportunity to branch out my name and get my photos viewed by people who are in the photography / modeling world.

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