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                <title>Shame</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 28 Nov 2009 10:29:40 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Have you ever been interacting with strangers, in a place like a shop, or a dentist, optician, doctor, etc, and been sort of... chatty with them, just for the sake of being &#039<img src="http://e.deviantart.net/emoticons/w/winkrazz.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=";p" title="Wink/Razz" />olite' or something, but you've said something that their reaction suggests was clearly very odd or 'wrong' or something? Such that they react with a raised eyebrow, an exasperated or confused tone, or repeat things louder and clearer as if you're a moron? If such things happen, do they make you feel full of shame? Or perhaps the other person's stupidity, or something similar?<br /><br />I ask because I'm so socially inept myself around people I don't know, offline... Around some family members and friends, or people online, I seem to be okay, but when it comes to that sort of... polite chat with strangers, or answering questions in appointments, shops, etc, I just mess up and make a fool of myself, and it makes me wonder if the people think I'm a retard or something...<br />I don't really mind too much when I'm in a shop or something and can just leave instantly without having to ever return, but it gets to me a bit when I'm talking to multiple different people in the optician's (for various different types of test things or form-filling-out), over the course of an hour or two, and they're all giving me various types of strange looks at my odd responses or incompetence, and then I have to go BACK in a couple of weeks...<br /><br />Anyway, uh, I wonder if it's just ME being particularly *abnormal* or something that makes people react to me like I'm a retard sometimes, or whether we all have experiences like this... which is why I'm asking and, uh, hoping to hear things from people or something.<br /><br />But it's particularly bad for me, I think, because, uh, practice makes perfect, but I lack practice doing things like, uh, appointments with doctors or dentists or opticians or whatever, where you have to TALK to people and answer questions... When I was younger, my mother just did all the talking, and it's been years since I went to any of those sorts of things. Now that I need to talk myself, I have no experience and it, uh, clearly shows. But I'm 21, and I suppose they expect me to act more like I know what I'm doing; only a retard would say such odd things.<br /><br />So, uh... yes! Do any of you ever have such embarrassing encounters with strangers where you feel bad about making a fool of yourself, or where the person reacts to what you say as if it's particularly odd or you're just weird?<br /><br /><div align="center"><hr /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.net/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.net/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
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                <title>(Clever Title)</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 02 Oct 2009 12:04:48 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hmm... I rarely visit this site anymore (how many journal entries do I start like that?), but I feel compelled for some reason to mention here that I'm going to be spending the next six weeks with my girlfriend, *<a class="u" href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/">Firequill</a>... She's coming to the UK again.<br /><br />It's something we've been excited about for months now, and it's only the second time that we'll meet this year... The second time! TWICE in ONE YEAR! Aren't long-distance relationships brilliant?!<br />At least when we do meet, it's for a long time... Six weeks is a long time! Yes!<br />But it's so hard to survive the time apart... If you happen to be lucky enough to have a partner who lives nearby or WITH you, then you should consider yourself extremely fortunate! Or something!<br /><br />I probably see a lot of Americans feeling all unpleasant about their 'long-distance relationships' which happen to be with people who live in a different state or something so they can ONLY meet like every week or month or something... pfft! They're still so very lucky!<br /><br />Still... I suppose it's better to have a long-distance relationship than none at all... Hmm...<br /><br />Anyway, as I keep saying to myself, I'm going to start trying to DO more stuff 'artistically' when I get back... I feel like I've wasted this year entirely, since I've made so few games, musics and arts, so I want to change that... But tsk! I lie to myself about that constantly and keep saying that I WILL do more stuff and never do... o_O<br /><br />But yes... This is a journal entry for the sake of marking a significant event in my life, I suppose, more than to, uh, be interesting to read for other people.<br />Makes me wonder why people bother to record things like this about their lives...!<br /><br /><div align="center"><hr /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.net/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.net/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
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                <title>ALIENS!11</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 18 Aug 2009 09:08:59 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I have an interest in the &#039<img src="http://e.deviantart.net/emoticons/w/winkrazz.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=";p" title="Wink/Razz" />aranormal', particularly stuff like ufology.<br />I'm aware that to many people who consider themselves sane and above such things that it all seems like a load of delusional rubbish, something to mock, conspiracy crackpots and all that sort of stuff. When I read about such things, I do it in a sort of way where I realise this and don't take it entirely seriously, but don't treat it like a joke either. That is, I'm not dead-set insistent that it is all true, but I am open to the idea that it could be and curious enough to spend a lot of time reading about such things (so then I'm basing my opinions on what 'evidence' - even if it is anecdotal - there is, rather than just my own personal incredulity).<br />I also like thinking 'what if?' sort of thoughts, and sort of imagining that the accounts ARE real and wondering what it would be like if they WERE... hmm.<br /><br />Anyway, so many people - most of the time it's people who only hear about the ufology stuff from mocking, caricatured portrayals in the media - think the idea that there could be some kind of *conspiracy* regarding UFOs and aliens and so on is utter nonsense. Rubbish. Couldn't work. Make-believe. And so on.<br /><br />But I'm curious about something... Whether or not you think there's anything to that, what do you think would happen if there WERE real aliens flying around in their spaceships in the skies, and the Powers of the world - governments, militaries, etc - knew this, but the common people DIDN'T? Advanced beings that are able to travel here at all wouldn't necessarily need to be clumsy enough to be dropping evidence of their existence all over the place, especially if they wanted to remain hidden.<br /><br />My main question is this: What do you think would happen in this world if some government agent officially announced to the world that aliens existed, and that they are so far beyond us in technological advancement that if they wanted to, they could destroy us all and we'd be able to do nothing to defend ourselves?<br />Do you think this would affect society in a negative way? Especially if the aliens were known about, but refused to contact 'the governments' in the same way that they refused to contact the commoners... so everything was just speculation about their motives.<br />Would how you live your life or think change at all if you knew - KNEW - that there were aliens flying around in the sky but you DIDN'T know what they were doing? o_O<br /><br />I think that even if the ufology stuff IS all nonsense at the moment, IF 'the government' or other powers knew about such aliens, then there would be very, very good reasons for them to not tell the public about it...<br /><br /><div align="center"><hr /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.net/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.net/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
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                <title>Hmm</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 07 Aug 2009 07:21:34 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ My subscription ran out, and I wasn't going to renew it because I barely visit this site these days, but I realised that you need an asterisk to start polls... I also keep intending to re-involve myself with the site, but I've been intending that for YEARS.<br /><br />I've been really bad at responding to comments lately though, and probably didn't respond to any on that last entry! Which, uh, has been on my mind in an unpleasant sort of way. But did I reply in order to get it off my mind? DID I HELL.<br /><br />Seems I'm the type to dwell on what needs to be done for ages without actually DOING it, and this has been affecting things a lot lately. I finished 'Raider: Episode 2' almost two months ago, but it needs to get sponsored so I can get money for it, but that involves talking to these semi-important Flash game site people via emails and sorting loads of things out, but I just keep delaying replying to emails so the whole process is really slow... Hmm.<br /><br />Anyway, I'm getting to the very end of MARDEK 3 now, so it's almost finished. Hooray.<br />But I bet it'd take ages to get sponsored!1<br /><br />I don't like writing journals where I don't ask potential commenters a question, so this time my question is:<br />On this site, for what purposes would you usually write journal entries?<br /><br /><div align="center"><hr /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.net/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.net/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
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                <title>Ages of Patheticnessdomitude</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 18 Jul 2009 15:19:49 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hmm... Something that's been on my mind recently is my position in life at the moment, and how others might think about it. I'm 21 and I live with my parents for various good reasons, and I'm unlikely to move out any time soon. I realise that many people - usually certain TYPES of people - find this incredibly pathetic because they seem to think that anyone who isn't driving around in their own car to their own house to have sex with their new partner of the day and/or wife/husband/both by the age of, say, 9, is a complete failure at everything and needs to be mocked, to empower themselves or something...?<br /><br />Anyway, I want to ask two things.<br /><br />Firstly, what's the minimum sort of age that someone would have to be that you would think "that's very pathetic" if they mentioned that they still lives with their parents?<br />Why that age?<br /><br />Secondly, what's the minimum sort of age that someone would have to be that you would think it pathetic if they mentioned that they had never had sex?<br />Again, why that age?<br /><br /><div align="center"><hr /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.net/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.net/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
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                <title>You see someone lonely...</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 07 Jul 2009 04:05:30 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Have you come across people online - on deviantART for example - who write journal entries about or in some other way express being lonely and wanting new friends to talk to? Saying that they have few or no friends and are generally really shy and introverted and don't go out of their way to talk to people but wish people would talk to them...?<br /><br />If you do or if you did, what would be your emotional response, or your response in a comment?<br /><br />Would you respond with condescending thoughts like "hah, loser", or generally feel that the person was rather pathetic and should simply 'get over' their introversion and go out and meet people? Would you say something to that effect, essentially trying to encourage them by 'force' to improve themselves and 'stop whining'?<br /><br />Would you perhaps feel sympathetic and want to be their friend essentially out of pity, because they asked for it and you just want to be kind, even though you're content with your friends, confidence, outgoingness, etc? So not because you could relate at all, but because it seemed like the nice or expected thing to do...<br /><br />Or perhaps you'd feel a strong bond to the person instantly and think that you'd found a kindred spirit, because you could relate exactly to what they've said? Would you feel like you strongly wanted to be their friend just so then you could give them what they wanted and get what you've always wanted in return or something, being introverted and shy and lacking in friends yourself?<br />If you felt this way, would you actually say anything and approach them much, or be too shy to say anything (possibly out of fear of 'rejection' or not wanting to intrude)? Would you make one comment then hope that they show enough interest in you to go out of their way to befriend you more, or would you take the initiative and make it clear that you wanted to be their friend, adding them on some Instant Messaging program or something?<br /><br />Would your response be affected by the person's GENDER?<br />For example, if you're male and you see a lonely girl, would you be far kinder and sympathetic to them than if it was another male? Would you strongly desire to be the friend of a girl who's asking for friends, but wouldn't really be all that interested in befriending a lonely chap?<br />(I would assume that to be the case much of the time, but does it work in reverse? Are girls more likely to be sympathetic and wanting-to-be-friends-with males?)<br /><br /><div align="center"><hr /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.net/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.net/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
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                <title>A New Journal</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 30 Jun 2009 16:32:09 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ That other journal has been on my page for too long...<br />It's embarrassing to look at, yet it's not like it's any different to how my mind still is... I've been thinking a lot about how I am and what people said about me, and it's had varying effects on me...<br />It's, predictably, made me hate myself and made me have rather unpleasant thoughts about some of the people who comment on my stuff, and I continue to find them intimidating, but oh well...<br />I've also felt like trying to improve and be more positive over the last few days or weeks and it worked for a while, but I seem to be slipping back into my sheer negativity now... I'm going to continue making an attempt to improve, but it's not going to be a quick thing. It never could be.<br /><br />It's both extremely fascinating and sort of embarrassing and shameful hearing what people had to say about me - those of you that did comment, anyway - and I thank you for commenting even if I replied not at all or bitterly...<br /><br />I've got loads of comments in my inbox and I wanted to make a point of replying to them all, but I have a tendency to just reply in my head then either start typing a response then leave it or delete it before finishing it, then not returning, or I just put it off and procrastinate because either it's intimidating and I want my comments to be JUST RIGHT (not that they ever ARE, though), so a simple response just isn't enough because I'm not fond of such responses myself...<br />Often I think that I might have nothing nice or, uh, normal enough to say, or there's nothing good to say or 'no way I can win' in some cases (that is, if someone points out various ways in which I'm faulted, I can see nothing to say that wouldn't make them just say "see, you are like that because of this what you just said", or something)...<br />Some people are also just intimidating to me and I feel nervous about replying and if I get a reply to my response to them, it fills me with dread and anxiety... This is a fault of mine though, and it's not like I don't appreciate them commenting since they kindly took the time to do so, but... hmm.<br /><br />That makes me wonder though... Do any of you have people who comment on your stuff who you find intimidating? Would you tell them?<br />I never would because, well, they're intimidating for one thing and I'd dread their reaction, AND I don't want to upset them in any way (I would not want to cause anger or sadness or anything like that).<br />I feel nervous about being as vague as this, without specifying anyone so the ones I am thinking about may assume I don't mean them and the ones I'm not talking about might think I mean them, but, uh... Uh. o_O<br /><br />Also, do any of you feel like if you don't respond to a comment within a certain time period, you shouldn't reply at all because it'd be too late? I seem to be that way... I leave comments for too long then don't reply because I dread it just being annoying to bring up something the person had forgotten about like that, weeks after they said it...<br />I don't mind receiving late comments myself, but I find it difficult to reply to them most of the time.<br />But then again, I find it difficult to reply to comments in general...<br /><br />Anyway, uh, I've not been checking deviantART for a few days, so I'm out of touch with things here... I keep meaning to become more active again here and to finally do something about the THOUSANDS of messages in my inbox, but I've been intending to do that for months now and instead things just keep building up more and more... Hmm.<br /><br /><div align="center"><hr /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.net/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.net/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
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                <title>ME, ME, ME</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 21 May 2009 14:42:20 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ As I said in the last journal, and probably elsewhere, negative comments from people really get to me... I can't just shrug them off. They stick at the back of my mind for days, usually, and make me feel all hurt and anxious, and since I care so much about what others think about me, I take to heart what they say and I have a low opinion of myself (generally speaking) which makes me worry about how true they were and whether I really am as horrible a person as they make me seem...<br /><br />It was <a href="http://comments.deviantart.com/5/24817368/1069065333">[this comment]</a> on my last journal that made me want to write another journal entry like this... which I'll likely end up regretting, because people like that will just consider it another 'BAAWW' sort of thing and apparently it'll be another easy target or fuel for 'trolls'... But hmm. I don't want to limit my own thoughts and prevent myself from doing things that I'm curious about the outcome of just because of such people.<br />I remember reading or hearing somewhere something to the effect of "if the bully makes you change who you are, then they've won"... Hmm.<br /><br />Though speaking of changes, I really DO want to change for the better because I'm aware that my personality flaws are quite, uh, apparent... I really WANT to be as good a person as my temperament will allow, which is WHY I take to heart what people say. If I'm criticised, obviously I'm doing something wrong, and I don't want to do things wrong...<br />I really dread being hated, y'see... which I think is a temperamental thing, probably.<br /><br />But, uh... I feel like I'm lacking focus at the moment... uh...<br /><br />Oh, right. I started this journal because I, uh... want to ask people what they honestly think of my personality and attitude from what they've seen of me, in my journals on this site or in things I've said elsewhere. It's a really SELFISH journal entry and it's asking a lot of people to request that they essentially TALK ABOUT ME, ME, ME, and I hate that and feel sort of embarrassed about starting it at all, but, uh, I AM really curious about how I seem to other people since I receive such negative comments at all...<br /><br />So, uh... What do you think of me? Please be very honest, and I will take to heart what everyone says. I won't immediately change my very attitude based on other peoples' opinions, because I don't think anyone would ever do that, but it would at least make me more aware of where I'm going wrong and what I should probably try to work more on...<br /><br />I'd really appreciate detail, but I am aware that this is a really selfish journal entry so I'll at least understand if people don't care to say much (especially since it's not like I'm very active at all and I'm not enough significant at all in peoples' minds for them to have a strong impression at all)...<br /><br />I will admit that part of me is hoping for people to 'cure my wounds' by telling me I'm not as bad as that one person seems to feel, but since other people have said such other negative things to me too (about me being arrogant and narrow-minded and such), I want to know if that truly is the general impression that I give off. So I want honesty because I want better to understand how people really see me, not polite sympathy...<br /><br />Also, I, uh... need to draw more and stuff... And maybe comment on other peoples' stuff more... I've not done that in ages...<br /><br /><div align="center"><hr /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
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                <title>'Trolls'</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 18 May 2009 06:36:10 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I take to heart what people say to me, whether it's in person or online. I don't really see why people should feel that since they're not looking someone in the face, they shouldn't talk to them as if they were... like the whole internet is just some big joke which doesn't have real people on it, and anyone who 'takes it too seriously' is doing it wrong or something.<br /><br />If someone says anything to me online, I try to assume some kind of good faith and to respond adequately (not that I respond to everything anyone says to me, but if I do need to respond in some way), instead of just dismissing or even insulting them or something.<br />Apparently this leads to bullies - or 'trolls' as they're called online, but what's the difference? - considering me an easy target because I actually respond in earnest to what they say to me.<br /><br />Apparently, the users of my site, fans of my games, have created <a href="http://www.deviantart.com/users/outgoing?http://fighunter.wikia.com/wiki/Fig_Hunter_Wiki">[a wiki]</a> about the 'Fig Hunter Universe' (which I myself recently did the CSS for)...<br />There's a page about me on that wiki, containing various information about me, and at one point, a member added details to the page such as my 'real name', which I removed because I'd prefer such details not to be so publically accessible, and I left a message requesting that people respect my privacy and don't add the information back again.<br /><br />Of course, that one person apparently didn't consider my desire to have my name on the page good enough reason for it not to be there, and kept trying to <a href="http://www.deviantart.com/users/outgoing?http://fighunter.wikia.com/wiki/Talk><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/letters/=p.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":P" title=":P (Lick)" />seudolonewolf"argue with me on my userpage's talk section</a>, and... ugh. <small>(Tsk! The stupid emoticons ruined that link!)</small><br />He kept referring to me by the name I specifically requested people not put on my page, just to make a point of defiance I suppose (I don't like ever editing others' words, but I removed these instances because it annoyed me so much and he was only doing it to annoy)...<br />I think I handled the whole situation really poorly, but his last remark - "[My Name, repeated four or five times], how delightfully easy you are to troll, have a good day, man." - just makes me feel so disgusted and hurt...<br /><br />Not necessarily because of what he did to me though, but because *people like this exist* and apparently take pleasure in annoying and riling up others. Ugh.<br />And they don't get their comeuppance either. These pathetic wretches apparently seem to need to put others down to feel good about themselves because they obviously have no other redeeming features or skills, and negative attention is the best they can get... They go through life being like this, I bet, behind the protection of their monitors, laughing at those who they hurt who can't hurt them back... It makes me feel sick thinking about the lack of JUSTICE or something, the fact that they get away with it...<br />It also makes me think of large man deriving pleasure from beating up a legless child. o_O<br /><br />I try my best to be a 'good person' as much as my bitter introvertedness will allow, and this is how its received? By being an easy target to 'trolls'?<br />Should I instead *harden up* and care less about what people think or have to say, and just dismiss people instead of engaging them because they're *not worth my time*?<br />Agh... I think everyone deserves a thorough response, but it just gets to me so much when people like this exist that make responding as such seem like a bad thing...<br /><br />So anyway, I want to ask...<br />Have any of you ever BEEN a 'troll'? That is, have you ever teased, engaged, annoyed, etc, people for your own amusement? If so, WHY?<br /><br />Or have any of you ever been 'the victim' of such people, and how did it make you feel? Do people get bothered by these things like I do, or do they just shrug it off?<br /><br />How would you usually react to them? By ignoring them? Engaging them? Laughing at or with them?<br />Hmm...<br /><br />Also, on another unrelated note, I'm going to see DERREN BROWN perform one of his stage shows live tonight! This is very exciting, because I've been a fan of his work for a few years now, largely because it's stuff that I wish I could do myself...<br />I'm really nervous about going though, so, uh, I hope that my stupid anxiety disorder thing doesn't make me FAINT or something due to expectation, which I can easily imagine happening knowing my past experiences!1 o_O<br />But, uh... yes. Exciting. It'll be strange to have been in the same room as a famous person who I respect, because I've never, uh, done that before. Largely because there are so few famous people I have any interest in.<br /><br />Anyway, uh... this isn't about religion! Ho... ]]></description>
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                <title>Geocentricity</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 06 May 2009 06:14:11 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ This is about Christianity and the Bible again (sigh, groan, etc, probably), but again it's something specific.<br /><br />The Bible apparently suggests a geocentric universe - that is, the Earth is the centre of all creation and everything else is just pretty lights in the sky there for our benefit, the Sun revolves around the Earth, that sort of stuff - if you just read what it says plainly without making up various 'interpretations' and doing the 'it doesn't mean what it says' and 'that bit's just a metaphor' stuff...<br /><br />Back in the day, wasn't this a big thing that the church was firm about, and anyone who claimed otherwise was a heretic or heathen or whatever?<br />Why is it now though that people - even creationists - seem to generally accept that the sun is one of many incomprehensibly massive balls of fire that the Earth revolves around, and so on? Is it because the scientific evidence is overwhelming?<br />Why accept this though and not evolution?<br /><br />I'm curious about three things...<br />1. Do you believe that the Earth, and other planets in our solar system, orbit the Sun, or that everything revolves around a non-moving Earth? Why?<br />2. What about plate tectonics? Do you think that the evidence supporting continental drift and such is solid and that billions of years ago, the continents were all basically connected, etc? Or do you believe that the never moved, that they RAPIDLY moved, that there were magical 'land bridges' that allowed animals to get from the site of the Ark to, say, Australia, which just disappeared and can't be found now, or something else?<br />3. How about evolution? If you accept plate tectonics and deny geocentricity, why deny evolution? It's based on the same sort of scientific methods and thinking, after all.<br />(The same sort of scientific thinking and efforts that built your home, your computer, your way of living, etc, don't forget...)<br /><br />I apologise if people tire of me going on about this all the time, but I really am passionate about this topic and there are a lot of things that I seek to understand...<br /><br /><div align="center"><hr /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
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                <title>Genesis</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 03 May 2009 06:54:49 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I've been thinking and reading about religious things, as I often do, specifically about Christianity... And I just want to ask something specific this time.<br /><br />For those of you who are creationists and believe that the Book of Genesis is a literal description of the creation of the Earth, uh... What order were things created in?<br /><br />I ask because though I noticed it when reading the Bible myself, I was reminded of what this says when I came across it just now:<br /><br /><br /><i>Here is the order in the first (Genesis 1), the Priestly tradition:<br /><br />Day 1: Sky, Earth, light<br />Day 2: Water, both in ocean basins and above the sky(!)<br />Day 3: Plants<br />Day 4: Sun, Moon, stars (as calendrical and navigational aids)<br />Day 5: Sea monsters (whales), fish, birds, land animals, creepy-crawlies (reptiles, insects, etc.)<br />Day 6: Humans (apparently both sexes at the same time)<br />Day 7: Nothing (the Gods took the first day off anyone ever did)<br /><br />Note that there are "days," "evenings," and "mornings" before the Sun was created. Here, the Deity is referred to as "Elohim," which is a plural, thus the literal translation, "the Gods." In this tale, the Gods seem satisfied with what they have done, saying after each step that "it was good."<br /><br />The second one (Genesis 2), the Yahwist tradition, goes:<br /><br />Earth and heavens (misty)<br />Adam, the first man (on a desolate Earth)<br />Plants<br />Animals<br />Eve, the first woman (from Adam's rib)</i><br /><br /><div align="center"><hr /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
                <author>*pseudolonewolf</author>
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                <title>Delay, delay!</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 20 Mar 2009 05:55:13 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Do you ever have comments in your inbox that you want to reply to and know exactly what you'll say in response and everything, but you just put off replying for several days and keep going through what you'll say in your mind during that delay?! o_O<br />I seem to do that a lot... There are some comments in my inbox that I want to reply to, but I've not been doing it very quickly at all even though I certainly have the time to do so... Hmm.<br />I'll get to those soon though, I hope.<br /><br />There was something else that I wanted to mention here, but I've forgotten what it was... Isn't it annoying when that happens?!<br />Often I think of ideas for journals or polls to start, but delay making them and forget to do so later... I also usually seem to have several ideas all at once, but don't write journals or polls about them because I've only just written one hours or minutes before...<br /><br />I'll probably start a new journal later if I remember the topic that I had in mind...<br />I feel really drained and sickish at the moment, like everything I do or think is some tedious chore which I have to force myself to do... I think it's partly due to likely catching some kind of infection (my sinuses hurt, so I assume it's something like that), but also due to the unpleasantness of being back in this lonely lifestyle that I've had for much of my life... I spend like all day at the computer, by myself, making things, and I've done this for the last few years because it was always preferable in my mind to spending time with the people that I happened to know (it's an introverted, temperament-related thing, surely)...<br />But since I spent the last month with Firequill, I know what it's like to NOT be alone like this, to have someone to talk and do things with who actually thinks and acts on a similar wavelength to myself and doesn't try to make me do things I don't want to do and so on... Sigh. I hope we can move in together soon, but it's annoying that things like money and the paperwork involved in moving to another country are issues, barriers...<br /><br />But, uh, ramble ramble. I didn't intend to write this journal entry full of such things!<br /><br />Anyway, I'm working on a new game, and I've been composing the music of it, which I am proud of! Maybe people would be interested in hearing it, if they like and they haven't already, so here are three tracks for your possible enjoyment:<br /><a href="http://www.deviantart.com/users/outgoing?http://www.fighunter.com/misc2/Level1D.mid">[ONE]</a><br /><a href="http://www.deviantart.com/users/outgoing?http://www.fighunter.com/misc2/Level2.mid">[TWO]</a><br /><a href="http://www.deviantart.com/users/outgoing?http://www.fighunter.com/misc2/Level3e2.mid">[THREE]</a><br />If you do listen to any, I'd be interested in feedback like, uh, what they make you think of and such! It'd be good to know whether they're really appropriate for the levels that they're on (it's a platformer, by the way).<br /><br />Now, uh, to... get back to making games, I think.<br /><br />(Oh, I think I might update my journal CSS later...)<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> will become relevant again in several months!!1<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
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                <title>Hello, hello!</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 15 Mar 2009 08:33:00 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I'm back from my, uh, thing! What thing, you ask? The thing with *<a class="u" href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/">Firequill</a>, my girlfriend. You know? I just spent a month with her. You didn't know or remember? Oh, well, I can't say I'm surprised if that's the case!<br /><br />I'd talk more about it here, but I feel like I'm barely even a member of this site anymore or something. I'm not remotely active enough, I never submit anything, and I only ever reply to comments on my own stuff instead of going out of my way to comment on other things by other people...<br /><br />This is something that I want to change, now that I'm back. I don't know as many people as I'd like to know, and I suppose, well, I'm looking for friends... I've spoken about this several times before, surely, but well, uh, I see people on this site with all their friends mentioned in their journals or on their userpages, forming these close-knit groups of good online friends, online social group things, and I've never been a part of one but I've always wondered...<br />It's not the sort of thing for me anyway, but, uh... well. o_O<br /><br />Usually though I just expect people to come to me, which isn't a good way of doing things. I don't want to intrude, and I always expect everyone else to be content with all the friends that they have and wouldn't want me barging into their lives, and would find me a bother to talk to in general anyway, just because I find it bothersome to speak to most kinds of people... ('Most'? o_O)<br />I'm picky with who I want to talk to, you see... I've probably gone over all this many times before too, but, well, it seems that most people will just talk to anyone who talks to them, happily becoming friends and so on, but I don't just want people who want to be MY friend to talk to, but people who I similarly want to be friends with, and this is why it makes it so hard for me to HAVE friends, because the sorts of people I'd WANT to talk to would be introverted in similar ways as myself, and would also not go out of their way to talk to me so nothing would ever happen...<br /><br />If I were to make more friends though, it'd ideally be with people who were similarly in need of people who they could relate to to talk to, rather than just openly friendly people who'll be friends with anyone and already have loads of good buddies and so on.<br />Is it just me who's bothered by the thought of talking to just one person online since you don't really know anyone else, while that one person is likely talking to ten or twenty people and as such giving you a fraction of their attention while you're giving them your full focus? Hmm...<br />I've always thought that I'd want to fill a gap in someone else's life that they really want filling, if they were to fill a gap in mine...<br /><br />Anyway, uh, I think I'm going to start drawing more again and involving myself in the community. Maybe tomorrow or something I'll write about my trip thing as well, but currently I'm feeling like I'm in a waking dream since I only had like an hour of sleep last night, so, uh, I'm probably rambling and, uh... I'll write more later! Yes!<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> will become relevant again in several months!!1<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
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                <title>SOJOURN</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 13 Feb 2009 13:02:25 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ My loverly significant other girlmate partner, *<a class="u" href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/">Firequill</a>, is coming to visit me in this country that I currently live in for a month tomorrow! Exciting!<br /><br />It's been like a year since we last met in person... A painful year because of it.<br />I was always too shy to talk to girls in person and they never talked to me either (this has totally made me really bitter, probably! o_O), so I'm glad that the internet exists, allowing me to meet people I'd never be able to meet otherwise, who I have loads in common with and find really appealing as a personality, with looks being something irrelevant rather than something that the attraction is based on...<br />I like how internet relationships - which are becoming increasingly more common these days - are deeper like this, such that you can form bonds of personality, but of course it's only the personality that you each want to put forward, in a lot of ways, so there are some things about them that you don't know... and, of course, you can't interact physically at all even if you decide you want to, so it's lonelier...<br />The distances involved if you live in rather separate countries are also a large bother because of the costs involved and the SEVERE TRAUMA of flying for like 30 hours or something...<br />But, uh... I'm rambling for some reason, probably out of nervousness! I'm really excited about my girlfriend's visit, but also nervous... largely because I hope everything goes okay and it'll be sort of strange, in a good way, but strange nonetheless, to meet up again after a year apart...<br />It's also a bother that since I can't drive, but I need to pick her up from the airport, my mother and step-dad are going to assist with that... Annoying, since Firequill and I are both quiet, introverted types (generally speaking), but my step-dad is one of those outgoing extroverted choleric/sanguine types who tries to be funny and asks stupid questions or mentions embarrassing things for his own amusement, ugh. I'll probably be gritting my teeth for the whole hour long journey from the airport to where we're staying, while she'll be wishing he'll stop talking at her or something...<br />Thankfully though, we're not staying in my parents' house (which is where I live); I've rented a separate place nearby (like what we did when I went to Canada last time), so it'll just be the two of us, alone together. It'll be wonderful, and it's the sort of living conditions that I hope will soon be more permanent, when both of us have enough money to enable that as a possibility...<br /><br />Anyway, uh, I'm rambling and this probably isn't interesting or anything, but I suppose I'm just trying to distract myself until she arrives, which is still like 20 hours off...<br />I do wish time would go faster!<br /><br />I'm going to probably stop working on games for this month though, so the break in monotony will be an amazingly welcome relief!<br />For the last year, I've been spending like all day every day just in my room, on my computer, making games...<br /><br />So, uh, yes. I bet my life is far more introverted and unexciting than most peoples', or something, and I wonder how many people will think of how pathetic I am for things I've written here... o_O<br />I do know that people like to brag about all the ACTION and attention they get in person, their 'lives' that they have and so on, and to ridicule those who don't 'have a life' or have things like internet relationships... Hrm.<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> will become relevant again in several months!!1<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
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                <title>Does Mardek feel pain?!</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 28 Jan 2009 16:08:35 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Do virtual game characters feel pain?<br />Characters in games respond to stimuli in some manner. Most are programmed to flinch or even cry out when they're 'hurt' and their HP are reduced, and some are even made to look like they're crouching with pain or fatigue when low on health.<br />Superficially, they LOOK like they're 'in pain', so do they feel pain?<br />'Of course they don't, you stupid long-haired fool!', most people would say, in a loud booming voice full of rage, loathing and arousal, but how do you know that anyone or anything feels pain?<br /><br />There's a difference between *reacting* to something and *experiencing* it. Inanimate objects *react* to stimuli, but it's not likely that they *feel* them. But why is it not likely? Hmm...<br />If there was an android made to be very much like a human, such that it reacted to damage in the same way that we do - that is, it reacted to &#039<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/w/winkrazz.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=";p" title="Wink/Razz" />ain' - and it was indistinguishable from a living human when doing so, would it feel the pain? Or would it just be a 'hollow shell', which *felt* nothing at all?<br /><br />What is it about us that does the 'feeling'? That experiences the pain? Are we just a collection of reactions to stimuli, a biological machine and nothing more? Is the 'feeling of pain' just a built-in part of our programming; just a word we give to the reaction and not a separate sort of thing?<br />Do we all see colours the same way, taste the same tastes?<br />Can you describe to me what red looks like?!<br /><br />Basically, I'm talking about qualia, for those of you familiar with the term... Do qualia exist? Is there a part of us inside - a 'soul'? - which does the experiencing, which receives the reactions as feedback and observes and feels them? Hmm...<br /><br />I personally have thought for ages that the 'soul' exists as the 'thing behind the eyes' that 'does the feeling' and 'does the Being'... A hollow shell would react, but a thing with a 'soul' also FEELS the reactions, or something.<br />But, of course, materialistic types of people seem to think differently to this.<br /><br />So, uh, what do you think, people?<br />Is there some distinct part of us that separates us from other moving objects, which makes us alive and able to 'feel' things and not just react to them? Or not?<br />How do you know that other people feel things at all? They could all be programmed, soulless simulations for all you know!<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> will become relevant again in several months!!1<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
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                <title>I am updating my journal.</title>
                <link>http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/22739397/</link>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 22 Jan 2009 15:53:38 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I keep wondering whether to get more involved with deviantART again... Lately, I've rarely left my own inbox thing; the only art I've looked at is daily deviations...<br />But does 'looking at' art really interest me as much anymore...?<br />I think maybe I'm just too jealous or something, and looking around this site, I see brilliantly skilled artists and people in happy social group things, and it doesn't make me feel great...? Hmm.<br />Of course, I also see a lot of stuff that's just annoying... Attitudes, mainly. I won't go into detail at the moment...<br /><br />Anyway, I'm updating this to comment on the new user pages, I suppose.<br />They feel new and snazzy and better than the old ones, and the customisation is brilliant (especially from in a technical/coding sense, which is the way I generally look at things like this), but... I'm not too fond of the colours. The lighter coloured tops of all the boxes? Maybe it's the rounded corners? I'm not sure, but they don't look especially neat? Maybe I'll change my mind later.<br /><br />What I especially like though is the ability to put polls on my userpage rather than somewhere more obscure! I like polls, obviously.<br />I wonder if comments on them will actually appear in my inbox now?<br /><br />Anyway, when you click the information under your name on your userpage, you can enter reasons why you're here on deviantART, and I really couldn't think what to choose, because the only one of all the many options that applied to me was 'to show off my art'...<br />I'd like to put things like 'to become a better artist', and that used to be true, but lately I've only been working on Flash games and composing music, and I've not been trying to improve my drawing or anything at all.<br />I also used to be here for friends, but I've sort of given that up at the moment for various reasons... I never had any success with it anyway.<br /><br />And, uh... I'm still working on games, for those of you who care about those, but they're taking so long! D:<br />It's likely going to be a while before I release anything...<br /><br />So, uh... I should probably update this journal more often or even - GASP - try to DRAW something sometime soon...<br /><br />Also, uh... 'how are you people'? o_O<br />(I like to ask questions and get responses, because I like to learn about people, but I can't think of anything relevant or interesting this time...)<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> will become relevant again in several months!!1<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
                <author>*pseudolonewolf</author>
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                <title>XMAS</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 25 Dec 2008 02:26:35 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Sigh. Bloody Christmas! Merry it to you all and so on.<br /><br />I used to really look forward to Christmas when I was little, just because of all the STUFF I'd get on the day... These days, I've been getting fewer and fewer presents and now I get none (largely by request), and I seem to be incapable of GIVING presents due to some kind of strange social inadequacies or something, so there's nothing to look forward to and it's just like any other day... If anything, I've been dreading Christmas this year...<br /><br />It is rare that I am forced to *eat with my family*, but Christmas is one of the times I'm forced to eat with my mother and step-dad, as well as relatives who I barely see and/or don't like at all. It's really irritating.<br />Largely because of the DAMNED EATING SOUNDS! Those alone are enough to make me dread a day for weeks, really... My step-dad and his blasted parents EAT so LOUDLY with their horrible slappy noises and they talk while eating and it's worse to me than a million nails down a blackboard and aaaahhhgh! o_O<br />Truly indescribable... But do other people just not NOTICE or CARE about these horrid open-mouthed chewing noises?!? Would they not notice a PNEUMATIC DRILL through their SKULL?!?<br /><br />But, uh... apart from that, I just don't LIKE family members. My mum's about the only family member that I'd ever willingly talk to, and wouldn't dread being in the same room as... All the others, I avoid as much as possible and get nervous and anxious when they're present because they ask me stupid questions that I either can't answer very easily or don't WANT to answer because I find them too prying and/or my answers wouldn't even make SENSE to them and I don't like explaining things like that (agh, like how my ELDERLY GRANDMOTHER would ask about the details of my game development... how am I supposed to elaborate on that when she's never even used a computer in her life? I should just start making utterly absurd things up; she wouldn't know the difference... WHY do people ASK things like that? It's so... FAKE and only done because it SHOULD be done, or something; like gift-giving, and I don't like that 'fakeness' and 'shoulds' for some reason...)<br /><br />I do like the FEEL of Christmas though, at least in the UK! It'd be nicer if it snowed - it hasn't this year yet, and didn't last year either; it wouldn't surprise me if something like Global Warming was to blame - but all the Christmas Specials on the telly, the decorations everywhere, the Christmas music all over the place, the pleasant attitudes of people because of it all... it's just nice, and brings back memories of when it was actually a happy time that I'd wait all year for.<br />In Australia when I lived there, nobody made much of a bother about Christmas at all; I could barely even tell it WAS Christmas, much of the time. They addressed it as a sort of necessity, but had little PASSION about it, compared to the UK at least. I found that so annoying, so UNMAGICAL and dull...<br />So it's good to be home, yes.<br /><br />Anyway, I wonder... Am I the only one who strongly dreads family things and meals and things like that?<br />I hate eating in general (I do it only for necessity), and find it disgusting how people *eat* socially... Why don't we eat in private? Why don't we BATHE socially, or copulate? Why EATING of all the necessities of life that we have to do with others?<br />I mean, I'd be fine meeting family members and such - or better, at least - if no EATING was involved; EATING is such a disgusting and noisy activity and I hate being watched doing it in the same way that I'd hate to be watched on the toilet, I just want to eat alone...<br />Yet people also seem to go on DATES where they go and EAT with some stranger to get to know them... How foul!<br />I dread immensely the thought of going to the house of a friend for a MEAL with their FAMILY as well - it'd be sheer torture - so I'm glad that's not something that's ever happened, except maybe once or twice when I was a lot younger...<br />Almost everyone else seems to eat like a blasted rubbish bin or something, happily devouring anything no matter where it's from or what texture or taste it has... Popping cockroaches and ferret eggs into their bleedin' pie holes! COCKROACHES AREN'T PIES!! Geeze! o_O<br />But really, agh, I've known of so many things where there's like... some gathering or something, and people want to go to it 'because there's free food!' To me, the presence of food at all would put me off a lot. Everyone else goes on about how GREAT stupid FOOD is, and considers themselves a &#039<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/w/winkrazz.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=";p" title="Wink/Razz" />icky eater' if they draw the line at licking month-old excrement off a Turk's slipper, but I can/will barely eat ANYTHING - only a small amount of food types that I could count on my fingers and toes, probably - and I dread moving out of my parents'... ]]></description>
                <author>*pseudolonewolf</author>
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                <title>Outlook shift?</title>
                <link>http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/21623077/</link>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 22 Nov 2008 23:42:25 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hmm...<br />I've been an atheist for basically all my life (since I was able to think about such things rationally, anyway), and especially outspoken about it in the last few years... "GOD IS NOT REAL, RRAH!" and all that.<br />But I've always felt that, uh, materialism - that is, denying that there's anything other than the physical, material, natural universe which our current science can perceive - just seems narrow-minded and wrong...<br />I've never had any reason to believe in 'God', but lately I've been reading a lot of things that have shifted my outlook somewhat.<br /><br />I still think that many ideas of 'God' are absurd, but I suppose now, in a way, I'm willing to accept the idea of a supreme being... though that 'being' would be beyond our comprehension and something more like a force or, uh, 'the container of all universes'. The essence of all things which in itself might have some semblance of character, but I very much doubt that it'd be anthropomorphic like the Gods of most religions.<br /><br />I've been reading about Near Death Experiences, y'see... And I just wrote a long rambly thing about those, but I'll leave that for some other time or something, maybe. For various reasons.<br /><br />ANYWAY, though there indeed may be a 'God', I doubt that we know for certain what it is, any of us.<br />It is perhaps likely that each religion is accurate in some sense, but it's like... they're all artists trying to paint a portrait of a person they've only ever heard of, then claiming that THEIR picture is the ONLY right one and the others are just WRONG.<br />Which is so annoying! So human!<br /><br />Any religions that claim that they are the ONLY right one are just irritating, because the chances of that being true are essentially nil. Especially if they claim to have some omnipotent God who, for some reason, chose only a small part of the entire world's population to 'save' while damning all the rest?<br /><br />The whole 'saving' and 'damning' thing seems to be unrealistic in general too though.<br />If "God is Love" and all that (which may be true to some extent), and if it was merciful and everything, then would it be so judgemental? I doubt it.<br />A very common feature of NDEs is a 'Life Review' thing, which is the 'life flashing before your eyes' that we all have heard about, but... more in-depth than that. Apparently, you see every event that's ever happened to you and 'relive' them, sort of, and also know the emotions of all the other people who were nearby in every 'scene', so then you can know fully how you've been towards others in your life... or something like that.<br />From these NDEs, it seems that the only 'judge' is yourself. You feel emotions like guilt from watching what you've done in your life and knowing how others felt about it all, but 'God' doesn't damn you for not following any particular religion. It seems that 'God' genuinely doesn't care at all which religion you follow, if you even follow any at all... Plenty of atheists have had Near Death Experiences and got similar things to the devoutly religious people.<br /><br />There also seems to be no good reason to *worship* 'God', if it is a being of unconditional love. Wouldn't you expect more modesty from such a being? <br />"Oh, there's no need to thank me for what I did, and I'd actually prefer it if you didn't and got on with your lives instead. I didn't do it to be thanked, you know!"<br /><br />The whole 'worship and fear your judgemental god so then you and only you may be saved, lest ye be damned!' concept seems entirely human, and it's why I hate the *church*. Or whatever other similar religions' alternatives are...<br />It's clearly just controlling people, and forcing them to do as they say and so on...<br /><br />It may very well be that there's a certain way that we *should* live on Earth to transcend it, and the NDEs seem to support this to some extent... It seems that people who've had NDEs often say that we are stuck in a reincarnation loop thing here on Earth as humans until we've learned what we need to learn here, then we move on... with each life being sort of equivalent to a year at school. When you pass them all, you graduate, but if you don't pass them, you're held back indefinitely until you do.<br />In some strange way, that does explain the state of the world, I suppose... The truly 'good' people move on, transcend, but the horrible people keep reincarnating here and they're the reason the world is in such a poor state that it's in (and I do think it's in a poor state, even if it could be a lot worse)...<br />And this is meant to be a world of negative emotions, materialistic lusts, greed, conflict, etc, to actually make it a learning experience, or something... Just as work in school is necessary for you to actually learn anything at all.<br /><br />It's saddening though that people like Jesus and Buddha (who may even have been the same being in different bodies; why not?) may have taught... ]]></description>
                <author>*pseudolonewolf</author>
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                <title>What is 'God' to you?</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 05 Nov 2008 08:47:25 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hmm... I haven't done anything on deviantART in a long time for various reasons, and all sorts of thoughts and emotions keep me from doing much a lot of the time or something...<br />I keep thinking of things it would be interesting to start journals about, but then I just don't DO it, for some reason...<br /><br />But, uh... RELIGION is a topic that I get really fanatical about for 'short bursts' every so often, then I basically leave it alone for a few weeks or months then come back to it again, with my views usually evolving or changing somewhat.<br />I talked about it a few months ago, and I'm sure the religious people I argued with came to dislike me (more) for saying that what they believed was 'wrong' for various reasons...<br /><br />Anyway, something that complicates any such arguments, while at the same time, in my opinion, invalidates religion as reality all the more, is the fact that people who 'believe in' God, or gods, all have very different ideas of what exactly it is that they believe in.<br /><br />So, I'm curious about what your idea of it is, especially if you believe in it!<br /><br />And now I'm going to ramble a bit about my views on the topic...<br />If you're one of those people who hates reading, then, uh... then you're annoying. =_=<br />But skip this bit or something and just answer the question thing if you like.<br /><br />-<br /><br />Though I am an 'atheist', I am not a materialist. People who insist that "this is all there is, there's nothing more, death leads to nonexistence, everything can be explained with current science and what can't doesn't exist" rather annoy me, because it's just as narrow-minded as the religious type of thinking that I'm also not fond of.<br />It's arrogant, I think, to think that we know the absolute and ultimate truth of things, in any way, shape or form. People who believe in God and KNOW that it made the planet and KNOW that it exists and KNOW that it loves them and KNOW people go to Heaven or Hell and KNOW that this is all TRUTH are irritating in their unfounded certainty... Like someone in an argument who just KNOWS he's RIGHT from the start and will listen to no other arguments because he's so SURE he's right, and also he doesn't have evidence. Or something.<br />Those who 'believe only in science' are considerably better in my eyes because at least their 'certainties' about things are founded in much testing and research, so there are definite 'facts' in their 'beliefs', and their approach is rational and logical rather than just... blindly trusting in stories.<br />But they're still closed-minded if they think that we know everything about everything now, or even close to it.<br />Take death, for example. Science can find no physical 'soul' in the body, but it can monitor brainwaves and such, therefore, we are nothing but electric pulses in a brain. There. Solved forever. We're so great because we know this as a fact now. Anyone who thinks otherwise is an idiot who's just ignoring FACTS.<br />...Agh. Stupid.<br />I've used this example before, but I think of a person playing a computer game. They control the in-game avatar and everything, but no matter how much the game characters could search within the game, in all the code and bits and bytes and so on, they would never find the player because they player controls from another kind of existence entirely. At most, the in-game inhabitants might find code for all the actions, like "Left button makes you go left". They might assume that now they've found the very mechanism that controls the player, so they know how such things work now. But they've only found the 'button' while neglecting to look for the thing that PRESSES it...<br />Or something like that, anyway. I think my current state of mind isn't especially appropriate to be writing things like this right now, so what I say is probably somewhat garbled or something...<br /><br />Uh... anyway! What else...?<br />Oh, right. I do not 'believe in' things with religious or materialist certainty. I am just 'open to the idea' that there are things beyond what we know. I think it is... likely... that we know next to nothing still. We can always look back even a century into our past and see how utterly ignorant the people were back then, yet they didn't think that they were ignorant at all... We're always discovering bizarre things like quantum physics and such, which I doubt that people a century ago would have even been able to imagine...<br />So I think that 'spiritual things' very well could be things that we simply do not YET understand, and it could even be possible that with all our science, we are moving AWAY from the sort of spirituality that we should really embrace. We consider ourselves to be evolving beyond tribalism, but we could well be just shutting off important parts of us or, uh... something...<br />It's interesting to me, anyway, how people ever came up with things like 'spirits' and so on in the first place... It remin... ]]></description>
                <author>*pseudolonewolf</author>
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                <title>I dreamed about you the other day...</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 11 Sep 2008 17:50:40 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ If someone informs you that you've been in one of their dreams lately, what would your emotional reaction likely be?<br /><br />Of course the answer would be 'it depends on the dream and the person', but hm, I'd be interested in hearing peoples' detailed thoughts on the matter...<br /><br />For example, what if it was a friend of the same gender? Would you feel appreciated or somewhat awkward?<br />If it was a friend of the opposite gender, would you feel as if they were thinking of you in potentially sexual ways? Would it then unnerve or excite you?<br />How about if it was a stranger? Or an acquaintance who wasn't quite a Friend yet or something?<br /><br />What if the dream had you in a negative light? A positive light? You as a partner or ally to them? Hmm...<br /><br />Actually, also, what do you 'usually' dream about, if anything's common enough to be worthy of note?<br />Are your dreams usually nice? Usually unpleasant? Scary?<br />Do you more often achieve things in your dreams or fail?<br />Are your dreams set in reality with people you know in real life, in situations similar to those you encounter throughout your waking life, or are they wild fantasies with little resemblance to reality?<br />Do you dream more often of people you've met in person, strangers, people online? Characters from your fiction, from franchises that you like or don't like?<br /><br />So many questions! Dreams are so interesting. I should become an oneirologist. I bet the pay's awful. How about an oneironaut?<br /><br />Also, I got Spore the other day. I think it's a wonderful game, so full of potential, etc... But people seem to be so generic in their creature designs! Agh! Most things I've seen resemble Earth creatures... when there's such potential for strange body plans unlike nothing on Earth...<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> is still open for another month or so! Check that link there for details!<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
                <author>*pseudolonewolf</author>
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                <title>Worth of Websites</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 04 Sep 2008 12:11:47 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ It is my goal to soon make my website (<a href="http://www.fighunter.com">www.fighunter.com</a>) generate enough money from advert revenue that I'd be earning as much or more than I would from a 'Normal Job', so then I can spend my life doing what I love, making a living from my creations...<br /><br />It's a dream I believe is possible as soon as I've properly started what I want to do. I'm making games that will draw people to the site constantly, daily, instead of just once then never again. If I have a large number of consistent visitors like this, then I think I'll do fine...<br /><br />I was just looking at my site's 'estimated worth' on a site I just found called <a href="http://www.websiteoutlook.com">http://www.websiteoutlook.com</a>...<br />Apparently my website is currently worth $9285.6 (EDIT: It's actually $10103.2; apparently the data hadn't been updated for 42 days last time I checked, and I didn't click the 'Update Now' button).<br />Which is relatively pathetic, but at least it's not at the bottom of the barrel! Only, uh, just a bit up from that though.<br /><br />There's that damned Flash 'RPG' called 'Adventure Quest' though which you've likely heard of... ITS site - 'battleon.com' - has a worth of $2.53 Million; this gives me hope, I suppose...<br />Though they have years and lots and lots of advertising on their side. Hrm.<br /><br />Interestingly though, according to various Google stats, the top search that brings people to my site is the name 'red xiii', from FFVII, just because I have my artwork of Nanaki on my website somewhere... In fact, if you search in Google for 'red xiii' (try it!), you'll likely see that art of mine staring you in the face... o_O<br />This is annoying though; I'd rather have searches like 'Flash games' bring the majority of visitors...<br /><br />Anyway, though, I am curious... Do any of you have websites?<br />If so, what is their estimated worth according to that website?<br /><br />And do you use Google AdSense? If so, how much do you usually make from it, approximately?<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> is still open for another month or so! Check that link there for details!<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
                <author>*pseudolonewolf</author>
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                <title>Don't you just love sexy, sexy people?</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 19 Aug 2008 17:22:03 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Do you hate or get annoyed by people of the opposite sex only fawning/drooling over or drawing *typically good-looking* people of your sex, unlike how you look? With *typically attractive* personality traits and mannerisms too that you also lack?<br /><br />...While only ever having any interest in or drawing typically good-looking members of the opposite sex yourself?<br /><br />(If that makes sense. o_O)<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> is still open for another month or so! Check that link there for details!<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
                <author>*pseudolonewolf</author>
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                <title>What's level Artist are you?!</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 14 Aug 2008 16:54:43 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I find the idea of Dungeons & Dragons style 'classes' fascinating for some reason, particularly recently since I've been working on a game using a similar class/job system thing.<br /><br />For those of you unfamiliar with the system, at level 1, a character chooses a Class to be. These Classes are the standard High Fantasy Swords and Sorcery types of professions such as 'Fighter', 'Wizard', 'Druid', 'Cleric', etc. They determine almost everything that the character can do (mainly in combat).<br />20 is the maximum 'normal' level that characters can usually get to (unlike the JRPG systems, where characters often start at like level 5 and end up around level 40-70 by the end of the game).<br />So it could be said that a level 1 Fighter is like a clumsy sort of 'new recruit' who's done some basic training, but is still pretty inept with combat and things, but a level 20 Fighter is a complete Expert at his chosen profession, the epitome of what his class should aim to be.<br /><br />When levelling up though, you needn't necessarily choose the same class to gain a level in. You can choose to *multiclass*, so you can have combinations like Fighter 2/Wizard 1... That's like someone who's tried his hand at being a Fighter, but doesn't focus on that solely and has other interests/skills.<br />He still counts as 'third level' though, as would a pure level 3 fighter; someone who multiclasses will basically always be less skilled that one who choses to stick to a single path.<br /><br />ANYWAY... I was thinking - as I and I imagine many D&D players often do (note: I'm not actually a D&D player as such though; I've only ever played the D&D-based computer games like Neverwinter Nights, etc) - what it would be like if I tried to put my own skills into 'classes', tried to figure out what 'level' I was...<br /><br />I think I'd definitely be a multiclassed Programmer/Visual Artist/Composer...<br />Level 1 would be an absolute amateur - capable perhaps of coding a 'hello world!' program, drawing just slightly more than stick figures, or knowing how to compose a basic melody - whereas level 20 would be a pro amongst pros - like the artists you see here on deviantART sometimes who can draw with photorealism and amazing imagination, yet keep a distinct style, or a programmer who codes better than he speaks his native tongue, or a composer who, uh... is really good at composing. o_O<br /><br />But I'm not sure what my levels would be!<br />I mean, I think I'm 'slightly above mediocre' at programming, 'mediocre at best' with visual art, and 'rather good, but far from great' with composing...<br />Perhaps something like Programmer 5/Visual Artist 3/Composer 6?<br />Though I wouldn't want to think too highly of myself... so perhaps those are lower than they 'should be'.<br />Yet they could also be much HIGHER than they should be... o_O<br /><br />BUT ANYWAY! If you actually understood this possibly incoherent rambling, uh... what Class or Classes and level or levels do you think YOU would be (relating to creative skills primarily, rather than, say, performing skills)? o_O<br /><br />EDIT: Alternatively, if you're more used to the JRPG/Pokemon style levelling systems, just think of the D&D style levels as those ones divided by five.<br />For example, you'd finish most JRPGs at around level 50, and at that point you'd be really powerful, etc. A level 20 thing would be no match for you.<br />But level 100 is like the *absolute maximum* that most people would never reach...<br /><br />So if you say you're a level 5 visual artist or something, it's sort of like saying you're level 25 in JRPG terms; that's usually around half way into the game if not further.<br /><br />Oh, and another EDIT: Your reasoning and thoughts on why you picked what you did is far more interesting than you just stating some numbers!<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> is still open for another month or so! Check that link there for details!<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
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                <title>HEALTH.</title>
                <link>http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/19896799/</link>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 11 Aug 2008 12:15:03 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ How healthy do you tend to feel? Usually. We all obviously have times when we feel worse or better than usual, but 'overall' at the current stage in your life, would you consider yourself healthy at all?<br />Even if you think your lifestyle isn't healthy though, do you *feel* unhealthy each day, or do you feel fine?<br /><br />I don't at all, really... My lifestyle is really unhealthy and I know exactly why and how to change it and that I should, etc, etc, but actually getting around to doing that is something I've yet to do. I'm working on it... Or will soon, anyway.<br /><br />I just want to know though how well other people can relate... Whether I'm relatively alone in my perpetual unhealth, or whether it's a common thing amongst the other people who, like myself, spend most of their lives at computers...<br /><br />Hm, how many of you are like that, O watchers? How many of you could say that you spend the vast majority of your time in front of your computer?<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> is still open for another month or so! Check that link there for details!<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
                <author>*pseudolonewolf</author>
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                <title>Temperaments test</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 29 Jul 2008 22:28:19 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I've talked about the Four Temperaments before, but usually I just describe them and ask for people to simply decide what they are based on the descriptions.<br /><br />This time, though, I'm going to link to a test which I would be very interested to see your results to!<br /><br />It's here: <a href="http://www.oneishy.com/personality/personality_test.php">[link]</a><br /><br />And here's what I got: <a href="http://www.oneishy.com/personality/results/32f94357a">[link]</a><br /><br />If you remember your Temperament from before or elsewhere, does it match up to the results you got on this?<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> is still open for another month or so! Check that link there for details!<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
                <author>*pseudolonewolf</author>
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                <title>The deviantART forum</title>
                <link>http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/19412474/</link>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 15 Jul 2008 15:28:35 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Have you used it? Do you use it often?<br /><br />If you have, what experience(s) did you have? I mean, what were the people like to you in their responses? What did you post about, etc?<br /><br />Or if you haven't, why not?<br /><br />I've used it somewhat myself, and I've found the people to be quite unwelcoming to say the least. So many people criticising, ridiculing, belittling, etc... Writing what they seem to feel are brilliantly witty comments, usually snarky and offensive.<br />They ridiculed my attempts at humour in a very condescending way, when theirs seems to consist of crude and simple sex jokes and single emoticon or "---plz" posts...<br />The brevity is annoying too. Most posts are a sentence or less, and writing a lot is criticised...<br />And I could go on.<br /><br />Anyway, I don't much care for the crowd that I've come across the multiple times I've been in the forums, as for the most part they seem to consist of a clique of self-righteous, arrogant regulars who gang up and bully newcomers while slapping eachothers' arses and diverting off into their own irrelevant and inane monosyllabic dialogues, so I'm wondering if it's just ME or if other people have had similar distasteful experiences...<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> is still open for another month or so! Check that link there for details!<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
                <author>*pseudolonewolf</author>
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                <title>Ramble</title>
                <link>http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/19333882/</link>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 11 Jul 2008 12:18:52 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ A new version of deviantART! Interesting!<br />It came at such a peculiar time, too; JUST as I got my new computer that I've been waiting for for a while!<br />So it's like, uh... apt, or something. Yes.<br /><br />Anyway, I like it. The new layout, that is. But also the new computer.<br /><br />I never really much cared for the OLD layout though... I liked the versions BEFORE the last one, but just not the last one.<br />This one seems quite snazzy though, and hmm! The site is actually GREEN indeed!<br />I've never been able to see that on any of my other monitors; they showed it as distinctly grey. This one shows a clear greenish grey though, as it should be!<br />My own site looks more bright orange than I ever knew it was, too... o_O<br /><br />THIS KEYBOARD IS LOUD. It's got high, very *solid* keys, with space between them... So OLD-STYLE, unlike the one I'd been getting used to, which has flat keys with no space between them...<br />It's also a UK layout of keyboard, which is annoying since I'm not used to those anymore. It has @ where " should be, " is Shift+2, there's no backslash as far as I can see...<br /><br />But this computer is so amazingly fast compared to my laptop thing that I had before, so I can work on games and things without the thing overheating constantly! Huzzah!<br /><br />But speaking of huzzahs, I've been feeling really 'bleh' lately, starting around the time I wrote that last journal... It's so annoying... I'd go into it more, but who wants to hear about all that, eh?<br /><br />Relatedly though, as I suppose the cause of my moods is somewhat related to this... Something I really, really HATE is people who talk DOWN to others, condescendingly...<br /><br />They take up a self-righteous, belittling tone, often start statements with commands like "Look," which suggest that they're right and they're having to explain it simply to you, the idiot...<br />They use name calling, adopt an either exasperated or condescendingly slowed "why must I deal with this moron" or "I'm talking to a child" tone, often LAUGH at you because they're obviously so right and better than you...<br /><br />The worst bit is that they can certainly GIVE criticism and talk like that, ohyes, but they usually cannot RECEIVE it and get irate if they're talked down to. Anyone who criticised THEM is just wrong, though. Obviously.<br /><br />It's not that I don't like being criticised or anything; it's just the MANNER in which such people do it...<br /><br />It's a Choleric outlook and attitude, I realise. And it's annoying.<br />They think that they are indeed better than everyone else, everything that they say is right, they have every right to ridicule others, people who criticise THEM are *totally arrogant*, of course (and need to be laughed at because they're idiots to think that they know anything about them, or can criticise them), because "why should I be like everyone else says?! They just have to deal with it, get over it", they say.<br />Ugh. "Deal with it" and "get over it", along with "get a life", are examples of sentence things that I absolutely DESPISE to see the usage of, just because they're so arrogant and condescending and... agh.<br /><br />So anyway, do you know people like this? Do you find it as frustrating as I do when people talk like that? Do YOU ever inflict such an attitude on others? COULD you ever do so?!?<br /><br />Oh, and how do you usually respond to it? That's an interesting thing to know!<br /><br />I am ALSO curious to know whether people have thought of ME as speaking in such a manner to them, or others...<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> is still open for another month or so! Check that link there for details!<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
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                <title>Ugh.</title>
                <link>http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/19183514/</link>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 03 Jul 2008 12:13:33 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I feel really sick and annoyed and have a headache right now...<br /><br />I feel like ranting, yet I'm not going to because I'd probably just get some comments of the type that would criticise my ranting and make me feel worse...<br /><br />Ugh.<br /><br />Edit: I'm going to mention some things at least.<br />Feels like the whole world's against me sometimes... I know it's not always the case, but I have a tendency to only see the negative.<br />Like with my games... I could get a thousand good reviews and ten negative reviews from idiots, but those positive reviews would be like fluffy clouds going over my head, and the negative ones would be like pins to the heart... Much more noticeable, and they dwell on my mind a lot more.<br />With religious stuff recently, I've been arguing a lot and feeling like everyone's against me there... I know that I START it and seem hostile and things perhaps, but agh... Emotions.<br /><br />I feel so lonely a lot of the time...<br />I'm certainly lacking in actual friends.<br /><br />Bah... I'll probably look at this later and cringe.<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> is still open for another month or so! Check that link there for details!<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
                <author>*pseudolonewolf</author>
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                <title>Consciousness</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 03 Jul 2008 05:35:27 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ It's a strange thing, isn't it?<br />Is it just a phenomenon of the brain, or is it just that consciousness is independent of the brain, but 'uses' it for complex operations?<br /><br />I mean... what creatures possess consciousness?<br />Obviously humans do, but what about 'lesser animals'?<br />There are people who claim that humans have 'souls' and the capacity of thought, but that animals don't... How arrogant that is!<br />But how true is it?<br />Anyone who's had a pet dog or cat would be able to see that they clearly think in SOME way. They'd be unlikely to think in language like we do, and as such they couldn't comprehend complex concepts, but there's definitely something going on in their heads... They make decisions. There's "something watching from behind the eyes".<br /><br />That 'something' is my concept of what the 'soul' is... Nothing to do with any personality or anything like that, or memory, or thoughts, and not even the Mind, but just the thing that's most fundementally US... The bit that "watches from behind the eyes". The bit that 'does the act of BEING', the bit that we can imagine being transferred to another being if we were to imagine what it would be like to 'be them' (rather than to just possess their body and cicumstances but retain our mind and personality)...<br />If there was an exact clone of you besides you, it likely would not BE you even if it was identical in personality and memory to you; your 'soul' would still be looking out from YOUR eyes and not theirs.<br /><br />This bit is singular, even though our bodies are incredibly complex, made of many parts, etc...<br /><br />Anyway, which creatures possess such a thing? Only creatures with brains?<br />Humans do.<br />Other mammals have brains, so do they?<br />How about fish? Are they conscious and aware?<br />Octopi?<br />Insects? They have brains, of a sort, though they're much more simple.<br />How about jellyfish? They don't have brains at all, but do they have whims? Do they make decisions by some other means? Or are they essentially just machines, obeying nothing but simple if/else statements and moving only according to their 'cogs' and the laws of physics?<br />What about plants? They don't have brains either, but are they aware? Or are they only as aware as crystals or rocks?<br />What about bacteria? They possess nothing like what we have, but could it be that despite their lack of brains, they could still be, in some sense of the word, 'conscious'? If they can perceive the world around them and process the information somehow (can they? o_O), then wouldn't that be 'conscious' in some sense?<br />What, I wonder, would happen to a singular consciousness in beings that reproduce by splitting in two...?<br /><br />On that topic, and related to the topic that everyone loves, religion, there is a question: Do animals go to Heaven? If yes, which ones? And why not others?<br />If not, or for those others that don't get in (like bacteria, plants, etc), then what happens to them when they die?<br />Why does the same not happen to us?<br /><br />Also, totally unrelatedly, I HATE how the Americans call Autumn 'fall'!<br />Autumn is such a lovely word, whereas 'fall' is so simple and stupidly vulgar. When I first heard it being used by Americans to refer to Autumn, I didn't know that they did so with the technical seriousness that they actually do; it sounds like some kind of 'nickname' devised by children...<br />Why not call the seasons "Grow, Hot, Fall and Cold" instead? Don't those names just sound *enchanting*?<br /><br />I also hate how America keeps outdated measurement systems, like feet and inches, lbs, Fahrenheit, etc, and hasn't yet gone metric.<br />Ridiculousness!<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> is still open for another month or so! Check that link there for details!<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
                <author>*pseudolonewolf</author>
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                <title>YET MORE!</title>
                <link>http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/19086068/</link>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 28 Jun 2008 01:39:38 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ And again I'm STILL talking about religious things! I'm going to mention a few things that have been mentioned over the last few days...<br /><br />Something that bothers me a lot is the religious sort of thought that "as long as you believe it, it's true" or "whatever you believe is true" or such things. This is not the case at all, and it's so annoying when people think that it is!<br />Believing in a God, even though you may think it 'true for you', does not make God a real fact. Believing that a brick is as light as feather, or that you can fly, does not make those things so, because the FACTS don't care about your beliefs.<br />We really need to get out of that way of thinking, that opinions and beliefs are as important as facts. Imagine if that same way of thinking was applied to other things!<br /><br />Another thing is the fact that evil and suffering exist. I've heard various explanations for this, usually either "it's God's plan" or "we have Free Will so God doesn't intervene" (he talks personally to Christians about minor life issues like whether a relative is safe or even relating to sports teams or lost keys, but he won't do anything about the millions of starving children or people dying in natural disasters?)<br />Suffering here is necessary, they say, and without evil and suffering, there'd be no excitement, no 'challenge' or something.<br />Then what about Heaven?<br />Isn't that supposed to be a place where there's no evil or suffering ever? For all eternity? Wouldn't THAT get boring then? If evil and suffering are necessary for us not to get 'bored' HERE, then surely they'd be necessary in the infinitely longer stay in Heaven?<br />It just doesn't make any sense.<br /><br />Though life could also be a 'test'?<br />Alright, how fares a baby dying during birth on that test? Or a young child drowned in a tsunami?<br />God, if he tests us, is like a teacher giving a quantum physics examination to a 10-year-old, and threatening them with death if they fail. Or something.<br /><br />I've also heard arguments like "the Bible is necessary for morality!"<br />Yes, only if you're a barely-cognisant, instinct-driven wretch who only does good because you're obedient, and want the prize while fearing the threat.<br />I'm moralistic enough, as are most atheists. We don't go around murdering, stealing, raping and so on just because we don't have Big Brother in the sky telling us not to. Why can't everyone just live decently WITHOUT a deity forcing them to?<br />Also, what about far eastern countries where there never was Christianity before? Were/are those people brutal, immoral savages?<br />Also also, we cherry pick from the Bible using secular morals anyway. Bits we don't agree with - like most of the stoning-to-death bits and nonsense like a raped girl necessarily having to marry a rapist - are simply ignored; we focus on the 'good bits'. Clearly we are deciding which bits are good and bad based on something other than the supposed Word of God.<br /><br />Another thing... If God is omnipotent, and wants to save everyone, then why did he use as his sign to the world an incarnation of himself in a specific area of the Middle East? He got crucified there to save us from all our 'sins' or whatever, but how long did it take for the rest of the world to hear about that? I'm sure there are many people in the world who've never heard of Jesus.<br />So what becomes of those people, who are surely 'sinning' frequently because they've never heard that they shouldn't?<br />If a loving, omnipotent God WANTED to save us all, wouldn't he have told everyone all over the world? Why is it that we don't hear tales of the SAME God from every corner of the world?<br /><br />Oh, there's also 'sinning', which annoys me, because it's so *arbitrary* and petty on God's part. Why does it MATTER to him what we do with our lives, really? Why does he care so much about us devoting our lives to him? He's like one of those "attention whores" who throws a tantrum if you don't pay attention to him, is he? o_O<br />If He made us how we are, He's also punishing us for acting exactly like He designed us to, based on random Laws that HE just made up.<br />I've heard Christians attempt to rationalise some of the arbitrary laws that we must follow, because they're good for our health and so on, but that doesn't make sense because couldn't God have made us with perfect health anyway?<br />If you're about to argue the necessity of disease, then what of Heaven? Is it not free of disease?<br /><br />Everything just makes so much more SENSE if you assume that there is not Yahweh! All these bizarre things that Christians have to invent excuses for are easily solved...<br /><br />Oh, and another thing. ATHEISM IS NOT A RELIGION OR A BELIEF SYSTEM. It's not based on faith in the same way that religion is at all, as much as the religious love to make such claims in an attempt, I suppose, to put both science and religion on the same level...<br... ]]></description>
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                <title>Evolution...</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 25 Jun 2008 10:41:06 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ It is truly disturbing how many people I've encountered in the last few days 'don't believe in evolution'... It's entirely out of ignorance, and they even often claim things like 'well it's just a theory!', 'the scientists don't agree on it anyway', 'there are holes in the theory', 'there's controversy', etc, etc.<br />This is not the case at all, and if you do think that it IS, then please, PLEASE just read this: <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Talk:Evolution/FAQ">[link]</a><br /><br />That's Wikipedia's policy on it, and I think it nicely educates without going too in-depth or insulting (like I might be)...<br /><br />Too many people just don't understand evolution or science's opinion on it, so please, I just want people to learn before doubting!<br /><br />(Creationist organisations certainly attempt to discredit it or spread lies to their followers about it... What does this say about them? Are they ignorant or deceitful?)<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> is still open for another month or so! Check that link there for details!<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
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                <title>Superstition</title>
                <link>http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/19032830/</link>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 25 Jun 2008 05:29:22 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Which of the following do you do or avoid?<br /> - Do you carry a good-luck charm, such as the traditional four-leafed clover or rabbit's foot, or something else?<br /> - Do you have lucky pieces of clothing that you wear when it comes to things like exams, etc, which seem to increase your likelihood of success?<br /> - Do you avoid walking under ladders?<br /> - Do you feel unsettled if you break a mirror, your path is crossed by a black cat, you're passed on a staircase, you open an umbrella inside, or you're in a room or on a floor that has the number 13?<br /> - Do you feel ill at ease on Friday the 13th?<br /> - Do you touch (or kiss) wood for good luck?<br /> - Do you pray?<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> is still open for another month or so! Check that link there for details!<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
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                <title>Heaven?</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 21 Jun 2008 14:47:51 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ If you believe in Heaven, could you please explain it here?<br /><br />What does it look like? What can you do there? What form do you take? How do you get there, and when? Do you ever leave? Etc.<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> is still open for another month or so! Check that link there for details!<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
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                <title>Questions for Believers...</title>
                <link>http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/18883637/</link>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 16 Jun 2008 23:34:06 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Firstly, thanks a lot to all of you who commented on my last journal! Though I didn't reply to comments, I did appreciate the fact that people listened to my musics and gave me feedback at all, I really do! So thank you! : D<br /><br />Now... I've spent the last few days doing nothing other than reading many, MANY things about the whole existence of God thing... I've watched a whole bunch of videos of various types on YouTube, read a bunch of articles and things from all over the internet and from both sides, etc, etc.<br />And of course I've been 'talking about' religious things with people here on this site, and elsewhere...<br /><br />It just makes no sense to me at all how people can willingly deny evidence and instead stick with irrational beliefs... Perhaps it's just me, but I'd prefer actual provable evidence to happy delusional faith any day...<br /><br />But anyway. I want to know how believers rationalise things that go against their beliefs to themselves.<br />I've seen a lot of arguments in the last few days, some more, uh, *intelligent* and reasonable than others, some just turn to personal attacks, some are "leave me a alone and respect my religion! D:"...<br />Mostly though, it seems that religious types simply *ignore* contrary evidence as I suppose they've been taught to...<br /><br />ANYWAY. I'm curious to such an extent that I'd like to ask a few questions, and if you're a believer, could you please answer them? I want to know what goes through your minds... How you attempt to make them make sense when often they don't. So...<br /><br />1. Why won't God heal amputees?<br /><br />2. Why are there so many starving people in the world?<br /><br />3. Why does God demand the deaths of so many innocent people in the Bible? (What? You mean that you didn't know that he does?!)<br /><br />4. Why does the Bible contain so many things that completely go against science?<br /><br />5. Why does God have no problem with slavery?<br /><br />6. Why do bad things happen to good people?<br /><br />7. Why didn't any of Jesus' miracles leave behind any evidence?<br /><br />8. Why does Jesus not appear to anyone anymore, even though he did in the Bible? (What convinced his disciples that he'd been resurrected? His appearing to them, of course. Why are we supposed to believe this on blind faith alone whereas they didn't?)<br /><br />9. Why does Jesus want you to eat his body and drink his blood? Why did God need a human sacrifice to appease him when he had the omnipotence and mercy to free people of sins without the sacrifice?<br /><br />10. Why do Christians get divorced, killed, robbed, etc, at the same rate as non-Christians?<br /><br />11. Do you think that God is being merciful when he saves a single child from a natural disaster that kills tens of thousands? Who caused the disaster? Why did he not save the rest?<br /><br />12. Which of the following stories are actual facts?<br /> - The six-day Creation as described in Genesis. (Note: Even if the "days" were not as long as a day by our standards, consider the ORDER in which things were created...)<br /> - Adam being created from dust, Eve from his rib.<br /> - Jonah and the fish/whale.<br /> - The Deluge (flood).<br /> - The virgin birth.<br /> - The resurrection.<br /><br />13. Is it fair that God is blatantly misogynistic?<br /><br />14. Why don't you believe in Thor?<br /><br />15. What makes your religion the right one, and all the others wrong?<br /><br />16. WHY do you believe all of that?<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> is still open for another month or so! Check that link there for details!<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
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                <title>Concerning Music...</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 12 Jun 2008 17:07:08 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I wonder how many of you, when reading the word 'music', think of things like bands, songs, rappers, popstars, rockstars, even fashion...<br /><br />"Music is a way of life" for some. Many young people list "music" as one of their obsessions, one of the most important things in their life, etc...<br />But what IS this "music"?<br />What do people focus on? What is it to them?<br /><br />There's this modern Music Scene... People define themselves based on their musical tastes, or pick their musical tastes based on their personality, or how they want to be perceived... For example, a teenage male who wants to seem stoic, tough, etc, would hardly openly listen to pink girly pop. But why not? What's he basing his opinion of the music on, exactly?<br />Is is the architecture of the sound itself?<br />Hardly.<br />It's the connotations, the whole Image and Scene of the Genre and the Band/Artist/whatever.<br /><br />It gives me the impression that people don't appreciate or understand *music* in the same way that I do (as an arrangement of notes), but *Music*, as a much wider variety of things...<br /><br />Basically all modern music is in Song Form. It's simplistic and relies heavily on lyrics to get across any meaning at all. People seem to like certain songs because of *what they say*, literally, in words. Without words, what message is conveyed? How do you convey love or political opinions with mere notes?!?<br />(Powerful, entirely instrumental Classical works like Liszt's Liebestraum No. 3 come to mind as a non-verbal portrayal of love...)<br /><br />The way that people refer to all music with the word "song" annoys me. It's because most modern music is in Song Form, but song form is one of many different forms that music can be in. Classical had loads and loads of different forms... Symphony, Sonata, Minuet, Rhapsody, etc, etc.<br />A Sonata is not a Song in the same way that a spider is not a beetle.<br />Similarly, I hate how people (it used to be Americans, but now, like so many Americanisms, it's being used by the whole English-speaking world...) refer to all insects as "bugs"! A bug is a TYPE of insect, but not all insects are bugs! o_O<br />But that's just pedantics...<br /><br />Songs are so simple, too... They tend to have a single melodic line - clear and simple, memorable - with verses, chorus, etc. Things like a "riff", a "bassline", a "drumbeat", etc.<br />Many people dislike rap because it's just "a voice with a beat". Which is, of course, largely true. But it's just a further simplification of things like rock and metal, which are in turn simplifications of Classical. We're going down the other side of the hill.<br /><br />But simple music is appealing because it can easily be created and played with people who want to get involved in Music - as a 'scene' or 'way of life' more than merely an art of creation - but who don't necessarily have much musical talent themselves...<br />I don't disapprove of this or anything, I'm just commenting. Modern music, as more than just merely an arrangement of notes, is a very powerful form of expression, a way of people to band together (as a, uh, band, but also as fans of a band, congregating due to similar opinions and personalities which cause them to find the band appealing).<br /><br />But anyway!<br />I myself am a composer, as you may or may not know, and my composing is my favourite artistic, uh, thing. I don't care as much about drawing, writing (I do that, but I use the medium of games to tell a story, rather than writing literature), or programming as I do about my music.<br />But it goes uncommented on and ignored, mostly, because it's merely a background aspect of my games, usually (since most of my music that's heard at all is in my games), and people are likely to comment on it and admire it as much as they'd admire the textures on the walls in 3D games... Someone spent time on them, yes, but they're only bits that make up the background.<br />I partly assume it's because music - as I define it, as an organised arrangement of notes - doesn't stand out or appeal to many people as *merely* music. Add lyrics, a band's opinions, emotion, a Look, sexy *musicians* who are playing the music, fashion, etc, and it DOES become something that take more interest in. Hm...<br /><br />(Also, apparently music loses all worth to some people when not actually performed by people with instruments? Not to me. It's the design of the music rather than the performance that I care about primarily, though of course performance can affect it. The way in which a voice artist speaks a sentence is important, but the sentence alone is not worthless without the right intonation... y'know? And the sentence is not necessarily good just because the voice actor is skilled.<br />I consider my music - midi music - to be like... "neutral" in terms of performance or something. Since the computer's playing it, the timing is &#039<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/w/winkr... ]]></description>
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                <title>Hmm...</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 05 Jun 2008 00:24:21 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Apparently, my chatroom thing that I made very, very recently (it's called <a href="http://chat.deviantart.com/chat/Yalortians">#Yalortians</a>) attracts a lot more males than females. Most people who've entered at all have been male, and the few girls who've entered left a LOT quicker than any of the guys did, and I didn't notice any of them return, whereas some of the guys did.<br /><br />Why do you think this is?<br /><br />Am I simply not someone girls have any interest in going out of their way to talk to? It'd certainly reflect my experiences in real life, too, AND the fact that of all the people who've ever added me on MSN, only like two or three have actually been female...<br /><br />My assumption is that I just don't seem "fun" enough or something. Do girls find "fun" to be more appealing than, say, 'serious', deeper discussion? The guys who have dozens of obvious female friends on this site are usually the ones who often use emoticons like "<3" and "^_^" and talk in a "fun, casual way" all the time, and the chatrooms with many girls in, I noticed, tended to have dialogue that was "fun" or "random", or excessive use of memes, numerous inane jokes about a single typo, etc.<br /><br />It's all just unfair generalisation, I'm sure, but... What's your opinion on the matter, people?<br />Why do girls have little interest in adding me on MSN or entering my chatroom whereas many guys ARE interested enough?<br /><br />It could be assumed that people play my Flash games and get to me that way, therefore most of them are male because most Flash gamers are male, but since the chatroom is on deviantART, it's sort of clearly shown to all my watchers without them having to have any interest in the games... And based on journal and poll comments and votes, there seems to be a sort of even balance between males and females amongst my watchers, yet only the male ones go in the chatroom or contact me outside dA...<br /><br />"HMM".<br /><br />(Or is it just that girls already have social group things and don't go out of their way to get more friends or acquaintainces (who are like me, at least), or they feel more shy about 'intruding' where they might not be welcome, whereas guys think less about that and just assume they'll be welcomed? Hm...)<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> is still open for another month or so! Check that link there for details!<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
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                <title>Those dAmned chatrooms!</title>
                <link>http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/18635225/</link>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 02 Jun 2008 20:39:12 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Do any of you ever USE those things? I never have done, but I've been curious about doing so for ages...<br />Glancing through the list of chatrooms with actual people in, though, I see nowhere where I'd really *fit in*... Hm.<br /><br />I've also wanted to start my own for ages, so I have. It's this: <a href="http://chat.deviantart.com/chat/Yalortians">#Yalortians</a><br /><br />I'd be interested to see what sorts of people would enter it at all, but I'm also pessimistic (realistic?) enough to assume that essentially nobody would be interested...<br />I don't imagine too many people would want to TALK to me...? o_O<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> is still open for another month or so! Check that link there for details!<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
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                <title>Brevity.</title>
                <link>http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/18518396/</link>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 26 May 2008 21:06:18 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I HATE it when people don't elaborate!<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> is still open for another month or so! Check that link there for details!<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
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                <title>Temperament and Body Type Correlation...?</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 22 May 2008 12:35:53 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I'm curious about something... As is often the case when I start journals!<br /><br />I'm really interested by the whole concept of the "Four Temperaments", the basic personality types, just because they seem to be so neatly consistent in many observable ways...<br /><br />Recently, something came to my attention that made me wonder this particular question...<br />Does how we *look* reflect our temperament?<br /><br />It seems that, perhaps, melancholics tend to be skinny, phlegmatics tend to be "rounder, softer" in their appearance, cholerics are stocky or muscled, and sanguines are... "average"?<br />I'm not sure though; I wouldn't claim it as remotely accurate, that...<br />So, I want to ask here to see if the answers match.<br /><br />SO, here are four temperaments, which are NOT named! I would appreciate it if you could pick the one which you think describes you the most, and tell me also what your physique is like!<br /><br /><br />TEMPERAMENT 1:<br /><br />These are outgoing and fun-loving. They thrive on compliments; the thing that drives them is their need for compliments from other people. They would love to act on stage, they love being the centre of attention. They tend to have many friends; people LIKE them.<br />They react quickly to stimuli; often with emotional outbursts; they're dramatic.<br />However, their emotional reactions do not linger long; they're the types who'd break up a friendship really quickly based on some trivial event, but then who'd make up and forget the whole thing ever happened and be happy, best friends again maybe a day later, perhaps even less.<br />They tend to be unreliable... Not because they don't WANT to be reliable, but because they're "drifty"; for the same reasons that they don't hold grudges, they also tend to have difficulty keeping secrets or promises.<br />They don't aspire to change the world, usually, but they want to be in the spotlight, and to be happy.<br />They're proud of their talents, and tend to talk about themselves a lot, even exaggerating skills a lot, but they do so in an "I'm talented! : D" rather than "I'm better than you!" kind of way.<br />Also, they tend to accept others before they have a chance to be rejected. If they are rejected by others, they get hurt, but don't lose confidence, and just try again later, with either the same person or someone else.<br /><br />For those of you familiar with Doctor Who, the Tenth Doctor is a good example of this temperament. He reacts loudly and openly, very emotionally, to stimuli, is impulsive, says he's brilliant without saying he's BETTER than other people...<br /><br />Another example is the stereotypical "attention whore" sort of person...<br /><br />-<br /><br />TEMPERAMENT 2:<br /><br />These are outgoing, but more brooding and less 'shallow' than temperament 1. Their driving force is to meet their own goals; they are very driven.<br />They're openly social, and love talking to new people. However, they like to be in control; they like to have a dominant, leader role. This comes naturally, rather than as a choice. They like others to obey them, and respect them, and they HATE to be ordered around by other people.<br />They react quickly to stimuli; they're quick to action. They get riled up easily because of this, and tend to get angry at people who oppose them.<br />They also tend to keep these emotions for a long time; they stay with them, lingering. Whereas temperament 1 would forget all about a quarrel within a day, or a few days, temperament 2 would spend a long time secretly hating the other person in their mind, holding a grudge.<br />This is not to say that they ALWAYS hold grudges forever, but they do have a tendency to let their anger simmer for longer.<br />Because of how they hold onto feelings like this, they tend to be dependable; they can be trusted to be there for you, and to keep promises.<br />In a nutshell, their behaviour towards others is something like this: "If you're nice to me, I'll be nice back. If we're friends, I'll be the best damn friend ever, always sticking up for you, always there with you. But if you're an arsehole towards me, I swear I'll do my best to run your face into the dirt. You will regret messing with me."<br />They tend to have lofty goals, but they have the passion to try to reach their dreams rather than just fantasising about them. Most politicians, rulers, etc, are this temperament.<br />They tend to be stubborn, however; it's very, VERY difficult to argue with them, because once they're set in their opinion, they'll argue that they're right, no matter how illogical their arguments become. Because of this coming natural to them, though, and their inability to actually see that they ARE being stubborn, it makes the person they're arguing *with* seem equally or even more "stubborn"... <br />This temperament also has a habit of laughing off insults so as to elevate themselves to a higher position.<br />(Example: "You're such an idiot!! D:"   "... ]]></description>
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                <title>Does Mankind Know More Than It Doesn't?</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 24 Apr 2008 21:28:01 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ An interesting thing to think about...<br />Answer this question!<br /><br />Do you think that there is more than we DO know about the universe than there is that we DON'T know about the universe?<br /><br />Do you think that we've searched the whole main room, but just have some little cracks in the corners that we don't know about? (Or some other such analogy? o_O)<br /><br />I don't mean with things like... locating and identifying all the planets and life out there or anything. I mean things like The Nature Of The Universe, the Laws that govern it, its origins, the TYPES of things that can possibly exist in it, etc.<br /><br />It seems a lot of science-type people are under the impression that our modern scientific understanding is for the most part right, and EVERYTHING can be explained with current or in-development science or else it just doesn't exist.<br />Things like The Soul and faster than lightspeed travel come to mind.<br />Current science says the former doesn't exist because it can't be detected, and that the latter can't happen because of what we CURRENTLY think or 'know' about the universe.<br /><br />Pfft. People. Arrogant!<br /><br />I personally think that there's a great deal more than we DON'T know than there is that we do.<br />Our race is probably the equivalent of a six year old who thinks that he knows eeeeverything in the world...<br /><br />So I find it irritating when people assume that what we know now is the ultimate fact, and that there's nothing left to discover and all science is right. Anything spiritual is JUST PLAIN WRONG because CURRENT science can't find any proof of it. Tsk.<br /><br />We have five senses (maybe six or seven, depending on your interpretations). With them, we can perceive many things in the universe.<br />A creature that is deaf and was born deaf would never hear sound, so it wouldn't know sound existed. It wouldn't even IMAGINE that it possibly could exist; it would be something it simply couldn't comprehend. But that doesn't mean there's no such thing as sound.<br />A better example would be a blind creature not knowing that light exists...<br />There are many things that we've found that we CAN'T detect with our senses, but we likely haven't made machines to detect everything that "exists"! How would we know how to build the machine if we didn't even know exactly what it was it was meant to look for?<br /><br />Anyway, ANSWER THE QUESTION, PEOPLES! I want to know your opinions on the matter.<br />Elaborate as to why you have the opinions that you do, of course.<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> is still open for another month or so! Check that link there for details!<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
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                <title>Muscle strength or something...?</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 19 Apr 2008 16:02:23 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Try holding some object in your hand in a loose grip, with your palm up and your hand out.<br />Do your fingers wobble after a while? After a few minutes or a few seconds? How about the hand? Do you ever have difficulty holding your hands steady?<br />Is it worse for the left than it is for the right?<br /><br />Answer that, please, and also, in the same comment, answer this too: How much exercise do you get? Would you call yourself fit? What's your "build"? Skinny, "average", chubby, muscled, fat, etc?<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> is still open for another month or so! Check that link there for details!<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
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                <title>Replying to old comments?!</title>
                <link>http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17744799/</link>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 08 Apr 2008 08:57:40 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Do you ever let comments build up in your inbox for days on end, thinking "ooh, some of these are good comments that I want to reply to at some point!", but then you just keep putting it off for various reasons and they build up and then it's been DAYS since they appeared in your inbox in the first place and you end up thinking "this comment is too OLD! If I reply now, the other person might not appreciate the response because I'm essentially replying to a thing of the past that might no longer interest them! D:"?<br /><br />Because I do that all the time!<br />I have quite a few long comments in my inbox that I've been meaning to respond to, but I keep being distracted and putting them off...<br />I want to go through them and reply to things, but I'm also worried about them being "too old"...<br /><br />How do you feel about RECEIVING responses to comments that you'd made days or weeks ago?<br />Annoyed, sort of, because you didn't get a response sooner?<br />Or just glad to have a response at all?<br />Does it bring you back to thinking about the old topic in a good way or a bad way ("I cared about that a few days ago, but not so much right now!")?<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> is still open for another month or so! Check that link there for details!<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
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                <title>Breeding is all we're here for...?</title>
                <link>http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17647510/</link>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 02 Apr 2008 07:52:15 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ How much of your life do things like love, sex and relationships take up?<br />How much of your art or writing is about sexy/good-looking people, love, relationships, sex, etc? Do you draw good-looking people of the gender that you're attracted to specifically so then you can find them appealing and ogle them? Would you NOT draw characters that you want to like as ugly because then that would make them less appealing to you? Do you write stories about relationships to fuel fantasies? How many of your fantasies involve love, sex, or dramatic, stormy relationships? How often do you just fantasise about people you're attracted to?<br />Do you go out of your way to find people to *date*, or wish that you had more people to *date*? Or do you already have a partner who you wish you could spend every moment of your time with or something?<br />Whenever someone of the gender you're attracted to talks to you, do you think or feel "maybe there's a chance that we could be more than friends?!"?<br />Do you make friends with the (vague) hope that they'll become more than that?<br />Do you often look up porn (yaoi and similar INCLUDED; they are porn, dammit)? Do you... pleasure yourself to it? o_O<br />Even if you already have a partner?<br /><br />I'm not asking for specific answers to all of those questions in order or anything (otherwise they'd be organised neatlier).<br />It's just interesting how much of our lives seems to be devoted to reproduction. As animals, having offspring is one our most basic of instincts, or "purposes", so it's understandable...<br />But hm. I wonder if animals which have distinct "breeding seasons" completely forget about breeding when it's not the time to?<br />I wonder how massively different the world would be if humans had a distinct breeding season, and how different peoples' hobbies and interests and friendships would be...<br /><br />So anyway, how much of your pleasure is derived from things that are in some way related to reproduction? And how often do your thoughts involve such things?<br />Do you ever think about how much of your life is about sex and breeding?<br /><br />If you were to become some kind of spectral, incorporeal entity, and you kept your mind but not your body, and therefore had no reason to HAVE sex at all anymore, would you be driven to madness, extreme boredom, or would you feel incredibly empty or even like there's no point existing at all?<br />ALL sexual desires, thoughts or feelings would be gone from you...<br /><br />Would you actually consider it a GOOD thing to be completely rid of all sexual feelings?<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> is still open for another month or so! Check that link there for details!<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
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                <title>UFOs?</title>
                <link>http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17570131/</link>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 29 Mar 2008 08:55:25 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ What, people, is your opinion on Unidentified Flying Objects?<br />Do you believe that they exist at all in an unexplainable sense, or do you think that all of the sightings and photos are hoaxes, fabrications, lies, misinterpretations, etc?<br />Do you believe that extra terrestrials are flying around in our skies?<br />What do you believe their motives might be?<br />What should we do about it?<br /><br />Most importantly, WHY do you hold the opinions that you do on this matter? What are you basing these opinions on? What the Media tells you? The collective opinion about ufology and related matters? Or your own personal research?<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> is still open for another month or so! Check that link there for details!<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
                <author>*pseudolonewolf</author>
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                <title>And you are...?</title>
                <link>http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17530077/</link>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 26 Mar 2008 18:06:46 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I'm curious...<br />Tell me about yourselves, watchers!<br />Describe yourself. I want to know more about you!<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> is still open for another month or so! Check that link there for details!<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
                <author>*pseudolonewolf</author>
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                <title>What makes your gender attractive?</title>
                <link>http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17293579/</link>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 11 Mar 2008 20:58:56 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ This is a question that could potentially be interesting... Perhaps not, but... well, I want to see if people will answer as predicted, anyway.<br /><br />What do you think the opposite sex looks for in the sex that you are?<br />Males, what do you think girls are after? What makes them like some guys and not others?<br />Females, what do you think guys are after? What makes them like some girls and not others?<br /><br />I know that 'everyone is different' and so on, so it'd be impossible that every member of the opposite sex was looking for the same thing. Obviously. But if you aren't so technical and "picky", you'd see that there are trends and common things that people look for.<br />You don't see many teenage girls with posters of topless fat, old, bald, hairy, pale, bespectacled, bearded men on their walls, after all.<br />So consider this an 'in general' sort of question.<br /><br />I'd like you to try to reply first without reading what anyone else as said, so as not to influence your own answer.<br /><br />Additionally, do you think that you're attractive to the opposite sex?<br />If so, what do you think it is they like about you? (You likely KNOW if you're in this category, though...)<br />If not, why do you think that they show no interest in you?<br /><br />("Because I'm ugly" is really vague. In what ways do you think they find you ugly?)<br /><br />(If you're not heterosexual... then answer this as you see fit. Or not at all, if that is your choice.)<br /><br />The question is intentionally vague, but detailed responses would be brilliant!<br /><br />Interestingly also, what do you THINK of the opposite sex's general preferences?<br />For example, are you annoyed that they like what they do instead of what you are?<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> is still open for another month or so! Check that link there for details!<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
                <author>*pseudolonewolf</author>
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                <title>BEAST SIGNER CONTEST ENTRIES!</title>
                <link>http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17206629/</link>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 06 Mar 2008 08:33:17 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div class="box1">I'm still looking for entries for my <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a>!<br /><br />Even if you've already entered, multiple entries are encouraged! There are a lot of beasts left to add, after all. A lot of <a href="http://fighunter.com/games/BeastCatcher/chart.php">empty slots</a>!<br /><br />Design is the most important thing with the entries, not the quality of the artwork. So it doesn't matter if you're a good drawer or not; it's the imagination put into the creature's design that I'm interested in seeing, and which will be used to determine the winners.<br /><br />The contest thing will likely be open until the end of March; longer if there aren't a great many entries.<br /><br />If you've drawn a beast for this but it's not here, comment  with a link and I'll add it!<br /></div><br /><br /><div class="box1">By <a href="http://nickoheap.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/n/i/nickoheap.jpg" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconnickoheap:" title="nickoheap"/></a>:<br /><span class="shadow-holder"><span class="shadow"><a href="http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/78256313/"><img src="http://tn1-4.pv.deviantart.com/fs28/150/i/2008/054/7/6/Skraakh_by_NickoHeap.jpg" width="150" height="108" /></a></span></span><span class="shadow-holder"><span class="shadow"><a href="http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/78731649/"><img src="http://fc04.deviantart.com/fs29/f/2008/060/d/2/Srkraakh2_by_NickoHeap.jpg" width="100" height="142" /></a></span></span><br /></div><br /><br /><div class="box1">By <a href="http://taslo.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/t/a/taslo.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":icontaslo:" title="taslo"/></a>:<br /><span class="shadow-holder"><span class="shadow"><a href="http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/78383482/"><img src="http://tn1-4.pv.deviantart.com/fs28/150/i/2008/056/7/e/Rock_Cyclops_thing_by_taslo.jpg" width="129" height="150" /></a></span></span><span class="shadow-holder"><span class="shadow"><a href="http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/78383685/"><img src="http://tn1-5.pv.deviantart.com/fs30/150/i/2008/056/8/7/Siren_by_taslo.jpg" width="85" height="150" /></a></span></span><span class="shadow-holder"><span class="shadow"><a href="http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/78437938/"><img src="http://tn1-5.pv.deviantart.com/fs28/150/i/2008/056/8/9/Floating_eye__whirligig_thing_by_taslo.jpg" width="150" height="112" /></a></span></span><span class="shadow-holder"><span class="shadow"><a href="http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/78438170/"><img src="http://tn1-1.pv.deviantart.com/fs28/150/f/2008/056/d/5/Dsungipterus_by_taslo.jpg" width="150" height="132" /></a></span></span><br /></div><br /><br /><div class="box1">By <a href="http://kikyo1239.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/k/i/kikyo1239.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconkikyo1239:" title="kikyo1239"/></a>:<br /><span class="shadow-holder"><span class="shadow"><a href="http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/78817963/"><img src="http://tn1-4.pv.deviantart.com/fs29/150/f/2008/061/2/4/Vrakna_by_Kikyo1239.png" width="150" height="110" /></a></span></span><span class="shadow-holder"><span class="shadow"><a href="http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/78819677/"><img src="http://tn1-2.pv.deviantart.com/fs28/150/f/2008/061/4/e/Violeteeth_by_Kikyo1239.png" width="150" height="136" /></a></span></span><span class="shadow-holder"><span class="shadow"><a href="http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/78822198/"><img src="http://tn1-3.pv.deviantart.com/fs28/150/f/2008/061/c/2/Windlatcher_by_Kikyo1239.png" width="143" height="150" /></a></span></span><span class="shadow-holder"><span class="shadow"><a href="http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/78871812/"><img src="http://tn1-4.pv.deviantart.com/fs30/150/f/2008/061/4/f/Kazelite_by_Kikyo1239.png" width="150" height="113" /></a></span></span><span class="shadow-holder"><span class="shadow"><a href="http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/78873494/"><img src="http://tn1-4.pv.deviantart.com/fs28/150/f/2008/061/2/f/Aquesfire_by_Kikyo1239.png" width="150" height="113" /></a></span></span><span class="shadow-holder"><span class="shadow"><a href="http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/78892486/"><img src="http://tn1-3.pv.deviantart.com/fs28/150/f/2008/062/b/8/Ribonx_by_Kikyo1239.png" width="125" height="150" /></a></span></span><span class="shadow-holder"><span class="shadow"><a href="http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/79339584/"><img src="http://tn1-1.pv.deviantart.com/fs28/150/f/2008/067/4/e/Angiofyre_by_Kikyo1239.png" width="150" height="113" /></a></span></span><span class="shadow-holder"><span class="shadow"><a href="http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/79340329/"><img src="http://tn1-5.pv.deviantart.com/fs28/150/f/2008/067/f/a/Fieryster_by_Kikyo1239.png" width="91" height="150" /></a></span></span><br /></div><br /><br />... ]]></description>
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                <title>Fact or Fiction?</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 01 Mar 2008 22:04:00 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Here's a question, a hypothetical situation thing...<br /><br />You've got a job at a library for some reason, organising books. The library is divided into two - and ONLY two - distinct sections, and every book is in one of those two sections, which are Fact and Fiction. All the factual, informative, educational books are in the Fact section, and all of the entertaining, made-up stories are in the Fiction section.<br /><br />You're given books and you have to put them in the appropriate section. Which is usually easy enough.<br /><br />This time, you're given The Bible.<br />In which section do you put it?<br />Why?<br /><br />Be detailed, please, if you answer. I'm curious!<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> is still open for another month or so! Check that link there for details!<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
                <author>*pseudolonewolf</author>
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                <title>IT'S MY BIRTHDAY.</title>
                <link>http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17052294/</link>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 25 Feb 2008 04:42:52 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ IT IS THE DAY I AM BORN NOW AND I AM TWENTEEN YEAR AND AGE!<br /><br />It's so weird... I'm so used to being a 'child', in a way... A Young Person at least, rather than An Adult. I mean, I supposed I've been an OLDER teenager for years, and when I was 18 I was technically An Adult anyway, but 20 seems to make it more clear or something, y'know?<br />Maybe it's just how I am though... Even when I was 18 or 19, I never felt like an adult. Certainly not like a young child or anything, or even a younger teenager, just... not like an adult! Or something!<br />Hard to explain...<br /><br />Either way, I'm going to spend this happy, happy day working on Beast Signer. I know how to really LIVE, y'see. o_O<br /><br />So far I've woken up to such a pleasant surprise gift: my website being hacked! Yay!<br />I just spent ages FIXING that, and it's so very irritating since my site's been hacked numerous times now... I *ABOMINATE* hacker people. Such worthless wastes of space they are! They should be CREATING rather than trying to ruin other peoples' sites! Rrgh!<br /><br />Anyway, uh... I wonder how many years more my life will last... o_O<br />The Intro is over now, and I can never be a child again in this life... D:<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><div class="box1">The <a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/">[DESIGN A BEAST SIGNER BEAST CONTEST]</a> is still open for another month or so! Check that link there for details!<br /></div><br /><br />~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
                <author>*pseudolonewolf</author>
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                <title>BEAST SIGNER - BEAST DESIGN 'CONTEST'!</title>
                <link>http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/17027452/</link>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 29 Feb 2008 21:18:45 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div class="box1">I mentioned in my previous journal that I was working on a new game called 'Beast Signer', which I am (and have been doing for quite a while).<br /><br />The game will be "sort of" like Pokemon, in that you catch and train monsters. However, there'll be significantly more monsters (they're called "Beasts" in the game) than there are in Pokemon; there'll be 612 in all. That number is the necessary amount based on how the Beasts evolve...<br /></div><br /><br /><div class="box1">There's a lot of focus on Elements in Beast Signer. There are six elements: FIRE, WATER, AIR, EARTH, DARK and LIGHT.<br />FIRE is strong against AIR which is strong against EARTH which is strong against WATER which is strong against FIRE.<br />DARK is strong against LIGHT which is strong against DARK.<br /><br />Each Beast has one or two elements, eg "FIRE/WATER", "WATER/DARK".<br />There's a Primary Element and a Secondary Element; WATER/DARK is different to DARK/WATER.<br /></div><br /><br /><div class="box1">There are 36 'families' of Beasts based on these elements (<a href="http://fighunter.com/games/BeastCatcher/screenshots/ss2.jpg">[link]</a>). <br /><br />Each 'family' has a growth chart, like this: <a href="http://fighunter.com/games/BeastCatcher/screenshots/ss3.jpg">[link]</a><br />That's the pure FIRE elemental family.<br />Another example is this, the EARTH/WATER family: <a href="http://fighunter.com/games/BeastCatcher/screenshots/ss4.jpg">[link]</a><br /><br />Each family has several stages of evolution.<br /><br />- The EGG is the first. Beasts start off as this when newly merged (merging will be explained later), and have to survive a number of battles as an egg before they level up and hatch.<br /><br />- STAGE 1 is the 'baby' form, which the egg ALWAYS hatches into.<br /><br />- There are 3 STAGE 2 forms for each STAGE 1 form. The one that your stage 1 form would evolve into is based on how that beast fights. A beast that's been focusing on using physical attacks will evolve into the POWER FORM. A beast that's been focusing on magic attacks will evolve into the MAGIC FORM. If it's been balancing between the two, it becomes the BALANCE FORM.<br />On those growth charts, the RED LINES indicate physical power growth. The BLUE LINES indicate magical power growth. The GREEN LINES indicate balance or other growth.<br /><br />- Each of the three STAGE 2 forms can evolve into either a power form or magic form... But if the beast is poorly trained and hasn't won enough battles itself (it's levelled up by taking part in battles but not actually DOING anything, for example), it becomes the WEAK FORM (at the bottom of the stage 3 column on those growth charts). This form is not powerful at all.<br /><br />- If you follow the growth of POWER-POWER or BALANCE-POWER, then your STAGE 3 beast can evolve into a more powerful STAGE 4 POWER FORM (as indicated by the coloured lines).<br />And if you follow the path of MAGIC-MAGIC or BALANCE-MAGIC, then your STAGE 3 can become a STAGE 4 MAGIC FORM.<br />If, however, you 'change your mind', and have your STAGE 1 beast become a power form, then make that power form evolve into a magic form, then you're stuck at that stage of evolution and can't evolve into a stage 4 beast at all.<br />The WEAK FORM, if it does enough in battle, can rarely evolve into the STAGE 4 OTHER FORM.<br /><br />- If your STAGE 4 POWER or MAGIC form beasts are superbly competent in battle and trained well, they'll become a STAGE 5 form at a high level, which is the highest form of evolution.<br />The STAGE 4 OTHER FORM cannot evolve.<br /><br />And that explains the evolution.<br /></div><br /><br /><div class="box1">As you can see, there are 17 beasts of each elemental combination. That's a lot of Beasts for me to design! (I've made about 150 so far though...)<br /><br />Not only does each beast have a combination of elements; they also have a combination of "types", or "skill schools". These "types" determine the techniques that beasts can use in battle.<br /><br />There are 30 different types, each one with a set of moves unique to that type. Beasts can have either 1, 2 or 3 types, and they can only use the techniques for those types. (For example, a beast with types "AVIAN / GEO / INSECT" can use Avian Skills, Geo Magic, and Insect Skills, but nothing else.)<br />Beasts can only use skills that they've learned, but they can use ALL skills they've learned of the types that they are.<br />New skills are learned by merging or by levelling up or evolution.<br /><br />The types of the beast also determine its appearance. It makes sense that a beast that can use Insect Skills would resemble an insect or have insect qualities.<br /></div><br /><br /><img class="img1" src="http://www.fighunter.com/BeastCatcher/SCHOOLS.jpg" /><br /><br /><div class="box1">That image there shows all of the available "types" that beasts can be. I'll explain them all here, going in rows starting from the top left:<br /><br... ]]></description>
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                <title>I'M BACK A WEEK AGO!</title>
                <link>http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/16971818/</link>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 20 Feb 2008 04:19:19 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I am back from my trip from visiting my dear and wonderful girlfriend who is called ~<a class="u" href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/">Firequill</a> in Canada! I got back like a week ago (wait, no... 10 days ago), but haven't written a journal until now.<br /><br />I'm sure you're all so HEAVENLY curious about what we got up to and how it was for us both, but... how much am I willing to say publically? o_O<br />Probably not much!<br /><br />We got along well though, and it was a very satisfying and pleasurable trip, but now I miss her and want to be with her again... D:<br />And we don't know how long it'll be before we meet in person again... SIGH.<br /><br /><br />Anyway, uh, I'm back to working on Beast Signer now that I'm at home again.<br />For those of you that don't know, Beast Signer is a game I'm working on that's sort of like a cross between MARDEK and Pokemon. It uses MARDEK-style graphics (since it's made with a similar engine in Flash), but rather than having a team of human adventurers, you catch (or 'sign' ) and train monsters, or 'Beasts', and battle with those.<br />It differs from Pokemon in that the Beasts have a multitude of different evolutions, and three can take part in battle at one time (well, three vs three), as well as the Signers (the human 'trainers' ), who can attack with their swords, and, uh... It's set inside a virtual world in a post-apocalyptic future! Yes! o_O<br /><br />Rather than being released as a full game, or in chapters, it'll instead be added to my site with a few areas at the start, and then I'll add content to it weekly. It'll be sort of like a single-player ORPG with the evolving world and everything.<br /><br />The initial beta version should be released soon; I'll inform you when it is.<br /><br />If you're curious though and haven't seen them yet, you can see some (now sort of outdated) screenshots <a href="http://fighunter.com/games/BeastCatcher/?page=screens">[HERE]</a><br /><br /><br />Oh, and also, a question for you people: Do you ever think about me? o_O<br />I'm curious about whether I'd ever be in peoples' minds, despite likely not knowing you personally or anything.<br />How OFTEN have you thought about me? (I hope you've been recording every single time in a notebook!)<br />Doesn't it make you feel nice to know that you've been thought about by people?<br />I think it would be interesting for you to ask the same question in your journals, to see how often people think about YOU! (If indeed they answer...)<br /><br /><br />Also, another question!<br />How often do you visit dA?<br /><br /><br />Anyway, hello. o_O<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
                <author>*pseudolonewolf</author>
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                <title>o_O;</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 09 Jan 2008 15:13:14 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ HMM...<br />
Tomorrow I'm going to be flying across the world to spend a month with my dear girlfriend, *<a class="u" href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/">Firequill</a>, who I've yet to even MEET... o_O<br />
This will be our first meeting after talking for many hours a day for over a year!<br />
<br />
It will be... an experience. An interesting experience, yes!<br />
I really want to see her and spend that month with her, and I can't see it being anything other than amazing and satisfying and exciting, but, uh, I am really bad at doing things alone! I can't BUY things from SHOPS casually by myself, and tomorrow I have to go through four airports in two different countries, and fly on three planes, ALL ALONE... Did I mention I'm not sure what to do and am scared of flying? o_O<br />
HM.<br />
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The trip will also take over 24 hours! Woo! o_O<br />
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I'm scared and nervous, but that's to be expected! It'll likely be EASY anyway, surprisingly so, and my desire to meet my girlfriend will overcome the negative feelings, hopefully!<br />
Hopefully...<br />
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Anyway, I'm probably writing this to say "I WILL BE GONE FOR THE NEXT MONTH" (not that anyone CARES, I know, since it's not like you'd notice anyway on a site like this and I'm hardly active as it is... o_O), and, uh... yes! I'm probably also writing it because I'm procrastinating. Or something.<br />
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Now, uh... To last minutely sort out my money and suitcase and hand luggage and things! o_O<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br />
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                <title>PARENTS!</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 28 Dec 2007 07:19:27 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I'm just curious about things... So, uh... Describe your parents here! Their general personalities... Appearance also maybe, somewhat?<br />
And do you know of any traits or habits you've inherited from either of them?<br />
Which do you get along best with?<br />
Do you LIKE your parents and talk to them regularly?<br />
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(When I ask about how they are personality-wise, I don't mean "how are they as parents?". I mean "what are their individual personalities like as people?"<br />
Is your dad often angry? Your mother meek? HM?<br />
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I'm more curious about their personalities in relation to your own than your relationship with them...)<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br />
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<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
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                <title>Your Ideal Partner...?</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 14 Nov 2007 21:30:15 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Do you have an idea in your head of an "Ideal Partner"? A perfect mate who you'd want to spend your life with?<br />
Is it a vague image, with traits like 'they should be nice and kind', or a really specific image, like "they should have these interests BUT DEFINITELY NOT these interests..."?<br />
Would you be annoyed if you had a partner that didn't exactly match that ideal image, or who had so many qualities of it, lacking only a few (and perhaps possessing traits that you really DISLIKED...)?<br />
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Would it bother you if your partner had done things in the past that you didn't like the sound of? Things like... hm, would it bother you if you'd never had another partner before, or never been intimate with members of the sex you're attracted to, but they had done before? With one? With several? They'd be your first, but you'd not be theirs. Would you hold it against them? Would it eat away at you inside? o_O<br />
How would you feel if your first kiss was with someone who already knew HOW to kiss since they'd done it many times before?<br />
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Would you feel less special?<br />
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Have you had any experiences like these before with partners...?<br />
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I'm curious about these things... I'd be interested to hear exactly WHAT your ideal partner would be like, but you needn't be so detailed; just a "yes, I do have an ideal partner" would be interesting enough or something! o_O<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br />
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<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
                <author>*pseudolonewolf</author>
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                <title>What websites do you visit regularly?</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 01 Nov 2007 02:55:48 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Since my Flash game site seems to attract mainly a certain audience (teenage males, obviously), I'm curious about something... So, again, I ask for people to answer my questions! Which are in the form of a survey type thing:<br />
<br />
<br />
Your age:<br />
Your gender:<br />
How often do you spend online each day, on average?:<br />
Which websites do you visit regularly?:<br />
What sorts of websites interest you?:<br />
What sort of things would make you want to visit a site often? Content? Community? Etc.:<br />
What would make you join the forum of a site? What sorts of forums do you join?:<br />
<br />
<br />
Answers would be very appreciated!<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br />
<br />
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                <author>*pseudolonewolf</author>
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                <title>MY A WEBSITE ARE A BACKUP.</title>
                <link>http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/15281096/</link>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 30 Oct 2007 00:23:16 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ My website is back up. Huzzah.<br />
It was 'suspended' for like two weeks, and I was given no reason as to WHY it was suspended at all! For those two weeks, I tried to contact my webhost via email every day, sometimes several times a day, from two different email accounts (eventually, after just the one didn't seem to be working), as well as several via their 'support forum', but to no avail; they didn't even respond.<br />
<br />
The response I got today said this:<br />
"Hello,<br />
<br />
I have checked your account and activated it. It was suspended due to<br />
some reason but there was no explanation so I presume that it was by a<br />
mistake. Please accept our apologies regarding this situation."<br />
<br />
Two weeks of downtime, and there wasn't even a REASON. Just a "mistake". And two weeks of emails that mysteriously didn't get received or something?<br />
<br />
-_-<br />
<br />
I'm moving webhosts as soon as I can.<br />
<br />
ALSO, MARDEK 2 should FINALLY be out in less than a week, I hope! I've got an offer from the sponsor I'm going with, and now we just need to finalise things...<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br />
<br />
<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
                <author>*pseudolonewolf</author>
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                <title>INSTANT MESSENGERS!</title>
                <link>http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/15208482/</link>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 24 Oct 2007 21:07:45 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I'm interested to know about peoples' usage of Instant Messenger program things! So, I'll ask some questions like I usually do. You can talk about yourselves! Yay!<br />
<br />
Do you use Instant Messaging programs at all? If so, which one do you like and use the most? Do you just use that one, or several? Why do you use that particular one, or ones? How did you find out about it? And what made you get it? A peer asking you to, or just your own interest?<br />
<br />
What's your email address? (If you don't want to say what it actually IS, uh, EXPLAIN what it is? Like "It's the name of one of my characters" or "it's my interests" or "it's my actual name"... Actually, do that even if you do mention your actual email!)<br />
What made you choose it? Does it MEAN anything to you? Do you LIKE your email address? If it has numbers in it, what made you choose those numbers?<br />
<br />
How long do you spend on Instant Messenger program things? Do you have them constantly running, or do you just log on them every so often for a duration of time?<br />
When talking on IM things, do you devote all your attention to chatting, or do you do something else on your computer with the chatting as a background thing?<br />
How many people do you usually talk to at once?<br />
Do you prefer to just devote your attention to one person, or do you prefer people in numbers?<br />
<br />
How often do you have group conversations? Do you start them? Why? Do you LIKE them? Also why? Or do you get annoyed whenever you're invited to one? How often do you get invited to them?<br />
<br />
How many contacts do you have? On each IM program, and altogether?<br />
How many of them do you actually TALK to?<br />
How many do you LIKE?<br />
How many do you hate but don't want to remove them for various reasons? o_O<br />
Do any of them make you feel giddy when they start a conversation with you?<br />
Do any of them make you CRINGE when they start a conversation with you, and make you wish they'd go away?<br />
How many have you never met?<br />
<br />
How many people added you? How many did you add?<br />
What makes you decide to add a person? What sort of people do you add? Do you add people to get to know them, or only after you've got to know them a bit somewhere else first (like on dA, for example, through comments and notes and things)?<br />
<br />
Do you start conversations, or wait for people to talk to you?<br />
Do you often have your Status (if applicable) set to "Away" or "Busy" or something because you just don't want certain people talking at you?<br />
<br />
Do you just talk to just anyone on your contacts list? Or only certain people, but have others as contacts for other reasons?<br />
Do you feel happy when new people add you and talk at you, and do you converse friendlily with them? Or do you act 'suspicious' until you find out who they are? o_O<br />
<br />
Do you prefer IM conversation to phone conversations?<br />
Do you prefer IM conversations to IN PERSON conversations?<br />
<br />
Do you have a webcam? Do you use it? What for? Do you like it when other people have and use webcams, or DISLIKE it? o_O<br />
<br />
If you have a display picture, what is it? Why?<br />
Does it bother you when people have photos of themselves as their display pictures? Would YOU ever do that?<br />
<br />
Do you use grammar at all on IM programs? Or do you just not care about capitalisation? Is it just TOO HARD and NOT WORTH THE EFFORT? Do you use CHATSPEAK? Do you use grammar and hate it when people use chatspeak? If you use grammar all the time, have people ever commented on that in a rather derogatory way? (I say that because I always use grammar, and people have had the nerve to insult me for doing so before, apparently... T_T)<br />
<br />
How long are your individual messages, on average? Do you think that "lol" or "<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/smile.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":)" title=":) (Smile)" />" is a valid contribution on your part that's able to carry along the conversation? Do you get annoyed if people don't respond to your messages like that? o_O<br />
Do you say one sentence at a time, at most, or do you often end up writing long paragraphs at a time? Do you often exceed the amount of characters allowed for a single message?<br />
Does this all depend on the person?<br />
<br />
Do you just stop responding to people if they get really boring and you just don't want to talk to people anymore? Do you inform them that they're boring? Do you try to just be polite because they want to talk even if you don't?<br />
Do people often stop responding to YOU in this way?<br />
<br />
Do you get nervous about starting conversations with people because you don't want to disturb them? Or do you just casually talk to people whenever without really thinking about what they might be doing at the time?<br />
<br />
<br />
...There are a lot of questions here! Detailed responses would be VERY appreciated, eve... ]]></description>
                <author>*pseudolonewolf</author>
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                <title>INTRUDERS?!</title>
                <link>http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/15105124/</link>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 17 Oct 2007 17:10:21 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Have you ever known of people who want to get to know you, but who you don't particularly want to get to know in return?<br />
People who keep repeatedly trying to be your friend, even though you'd rather just run away because you just don't LIKE them for whatever reason, or don't WANT more friends?<br />
People who just DON'T GET THE HINT when you don't act friendly back at them?<br />
<br />
If ever that happens to you, what do you do? Do you avoid them as best you can, but humour them when they do talk to you (while longing to escape and looking for excuses to leave and just giving agitated or uninterested responses?), do you ignore them entirely, or do you just openly tell them you don't like them and want them to bugger off and leave you alone?<br />
<br />
How about people who take an interest in your life when you'd rather they didn't? People who might 'coincidentally' show up to many places you're at in person, or places where you are online?<br />
I'm not referring to 'stalkers' specifically, but they're an extreme case of this.<br />
<br />
Do you feel these people intrude in your life and just wish them to go away?<br />
Do you feel BAD because they clearly like and are interested by you, but the feeling's not mutual?<br />
Does it irriate you that they can be so selfish and inconsiderate, being unable to see that they're not wanted and just being tenacious because THEY want you, regardless of whether YOU want THEM?<br />
<br />
Do you have any tales to tell about this sort of thing, people? I'd be very interested to hear your stories (you needn't name names, of course, and be as vague as you like!), or your opinions on this, at least!<br />
<br />
<div align="center">~</div><br />
<br />
Also, my website's still down and I want to switch webhosts, but I CAN'T at the moment because my CURRENT website has all my files and my database, and I CAN'T LOG INTO MY ACCOUNT to access them because of the account suspendedness... THIS IS VERY IRRITATING.<br />
I've contacted them, but they've yet to respond...<br />
<br />
I also contacted sponsors for MARDEK 2 like... two weeks ago, and they have also yet to respond.<br />
<br />
Bah. T_T<br /><br /><div align="center">~<br />
<br />
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                <author>*pseudolonewolf</author>
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                <title>MY WEBSITE IS DOWN.</title>
                <link>http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/15090961/</link>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 16 Oct 2007 16:59:21 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ My website's apparently been 'suspended'...<br />
Guh, and it's really irritating, too!<br />
Mainly since I have no idea what caused it and I can't log into my account with my host to ASK them things since it just gives me the following error:<br />
<br />
" Your account has been suspended because you breached our terms and conditions. You should receive an email with information about it. Bear in mind that this could be due to one of the following:<br />
<br />
<br />
1. If you have run background processes (IRC or flood utils)(this could be due to some hacker who entered through your PHP scripts. In such cases you are responsible to update the PHP scripts to the latest version so that you don't get hacked)<br />
<br />
2. If you have been sending mass emails (the maximum quantity allowed per day is 1500 emails)<br />
<br />
3. If your website has generated more than the allowed CPU usage per 180 seconds or 24h. You can keep track of your CPU usage in the Load Stats section.<br />
<br />
4. If you have paid for the hosting account and our Sales Verification Department hasn't been able to verify your account yet. In this case you'd better contact a sales representative of ours as soon as possible in order to complete the verification procedure and activate your account immediately."<br />
<br />
<br />
As far as *I* know, I haven't DONE anything to cause this... The site's been acting up for a while now - just not allowing me to access the forum at all half of the time - but... hm. I wonder if things were 'hacked' at all...?<br />
<br />
EITHER WAY, I'm mentioning this here for you few people who visit it, mainly the forum.<br />
I'll try to fix it as soon as I can, but I don't know how long that will take, so be patient!<br /><br /><div align="center"><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
                <author>*pseudolonewolf</author>
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                <title>COMMENTS VS FAVOURITES</title>
                <link>http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/journal/15018075/</link>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 11 Oct 2007 16:37:54 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ When you favourite a deviation, why do you do that?<br />
Is it mainly for selfish, "so I can look at it again later" reasons, or do you do it as a way of complimenting the artist with the intention of making them feel good and proud of their work, or something like that?<br />
(My guess is that it's usually the former, but people would like to claim it's the latter... >_><br />
Of course, it's usually probably a combination of the two...)<br />
<br />
Do you actually look at things you favourite ever again?<br />
How often do you favourite things? And do you have to REALLY like a piece, or do you just casually favourite half the things you come across if they're remotely appealing to you?<br />
<br />
And when you comment, why do you do that? Do you hope for a response to your comment? Would you find it disappointing and a waste of time if you wrote a comment of decent length but didn't get a reply? Would that turn you off writing comments like that on that person's work again?<br />
Do you write comments as a kind of... exercise at putting your thoughts into words? (Does anyone DO that? o_O)<br />
Or do you just want the artist to know how you felt about it because you want them to feel happy?<br />
<br />
When writing comments, are you conscious and analytical, wondering what you'd think if you received a comment like the one you're writing? Do you think too much and spend ages writing a longish comment, then delay for a while, checking over it to see whether it's good enough? And do you feel vaguely 'anxious' afterwards in case your comment was inadequate, or something? Do you often just not comment because you don't think your comment COULD be adequate, or can't think what to say?<br />
Or do you just look at a piece for a few seconds, then write whatever comes to mind and post it and forget about it, all casually?<br />
Do you tend to write inane comments like... one-worders ("nice", "cool", etc...), or "this looks nice well done"?<br />
Do you actually like RECEIVING such comments, or do they frustrate and disappoint you because you wanted to know WHY they thought your creation was 'cool', and you feel like it was unappreciated because they clearly put little effort into their comment?<br />
<br />
Do you ever comment on peoples' work and journals in the hope that they'll notice and befriend you?<br />
Or just watch you back and comment on your things too?<br />
<br />
Do you prefer to receive comments or favourites? Or both?<br />
Do favourites feel 'meaningless'?<br />
<br />
~<br />
<br />
I really like comments on my MUSIC, but get... well, I get SOME, but not as much as I'd like. And people favourite it but don't say WHY they favourited it, though I'd prefer it if they did...<br />
I'm being hypocritical there, though, because I never comment on anything... o_O<br />
Oh, and also, really short "that's nice" comments disappoint me. Yes.<br /><br /><div align="center"><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <a href="http://firequill.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/f/i/firequill.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconfirequill:" title="firequill"/></a><a href="http://pseudolonewolf.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/s/pseudolonewolf.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconpseudolonewolf:" title="pseudolonewolf"/></a> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /></div> ]]></description>
                <author>*pseudolonewolf</author>
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