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Rules:
1. You have to post the rules.
2. Every person tagged has to write 10 things about themselves.
3. You have to write them in your journal.
4. After that tag 4 more people.
5. Go to that person's page and tell them about it

Meme's are silly.

1: I am of the species homo sapien, gender, male.
2: I have never received less than a genius-level score on an IQ test, yet I make only $12 an hour.
3: I hate the police, and being governed. I am unwilling to be any man's subject.
4: I would rather remove all my skin with a battery-powered Dremel tool than listen to the so-called music of "Linkin' Park" for an extended period of time.
5: I have driven a red 1986 Mercury Topaz at 115 miles an hour.
6: I recently spent over $2000 to repair a vehicle with a blue book value of just over $3000. What a waste of money, right?
7: I am severely disappointed with the lack of futuristic inventions since the year 2000.
8: I wish I could simply side-step our oppressive current civilization, and go live in the woods like a cave man.
9: I have body image issues with my hair, face, belly, and toenails.
10: I am motherfucking done with this meme! WooOOoOo!

]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/19499763/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/19499763/ Sun, 20 Jul 2008 12:36:12 PDT
Members of my family intermittently try to convince me to go back to church... I couldn't deal with the people I met there, each one more plastic smiles on the outside, and more gooey venom under the skin, than the last one. No, I'm not going back. I think they wouldn't like the idea of a beer with lunch...well fuck them. Beer tastes good with lunch, so I'll have one if I want to. I'll live with my lover, and watch what I want on TV, speak my mind, and think my own thoughts. I'll draw what I want. Drawing... my artwork has gotten me in trouble, in the past. Some couldn't accept it, and they felt that it made me someone God couldn't accept...well, FUCK THEM. This isn't pre-renaissance Europe or Nazi Germany, this is the fucking USA in the 21st century.

Church is for children and fools; beer is for lunch.

]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/15339759/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/15339759/ Sat, 03 Nov 2007 00:37:37 PDT
A lot's happened to me. I met my girlfriend, Stephie, two years ago, now, we moved in together, our apartment burned down, my cat died, we lived in an R.V. for a few months, we got a new apartment and filled it with a lot of replacement stuff, and...I haven't had a lot of time to draw :-P

So, that's what's been up with me.

(If anyone wondered)

]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/9728826/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/9728826/ Mon, 14 Aug 2006 18:50:08 PDT
I hate AOL. I hate DRM. Lucky me, two of the things I hate have combined, to form a conglomeration of nastiness the likes of which the world has never known.

So, I go to [link], and type in "new on DVD". Boom. I click the first link, and it happens to be on an AOL subdomain (something.aol.sucks.my.ass.org or something). I ignore this fact. Gathering the information I was looking for, I read the description for the movie "Brick", and think, "oh, that sounds cool". Then I click on the "watch the trailer" link. The page comes up, but, no, something has gone awry... I seem to be missing a plugin.

Here, is where I made my mistake. Shudder, my friends, at what is about to transpire: I clicked "Install". This launched a half hour of trying desperately to uninstall the FUCKING AOL DRM SPYWARE it doesn't list with the other plugins, and doesn't show up as a file when you search the entire fucking drive, to delete it, disregarding the bare wires of associative settings left sparking.

Fuck DRM. Fuck DRM up it's stupid fucking ass. ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/9641674/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/9641674/ Tue, 08 Aug 2006 07:00:01 PDT
I guess I haven't done much in a while, on here, hmm...

Wish I had more time to draw. You guys are cool (you know who you are) and I think that if you take the time to read this drivel, you really deserve to at least see some pretty pictures for your trouble, but, I don't have anything new to toss on the scanner. ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/8064269/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/8064269/ Sat, 04 Mar 2006 10:52:17 PST
1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
"As soon as you have caught up to it, jump and grab onto" (The "Shadow of the Colossus" video game guide)

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
Umm...ok...and....

3. What was the last thing you watched on TV?:
The TMNT cartoon this morning...

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
9 am?

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
10:39 AM

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
My clothes dryer humming.

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
Yesterday, when I came home from...Longs, I think?

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
Look at? something...in my vicinity, I assume? Probably my computer screen.

9. What are you wearing?
An old pair of black jeans, shredded to death, and a new dark-grey muscle shirt kind of thing. (I did mention the dryer was going...)

10. Did you dream last night?
I bet I did, but...

11. When did you last laugh?
At a TV Commercial.

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
Umm, "Helter Skelter", scrawled in blood....
No, there's a photo of me and my sisters, some comics strips, a big peice of plywood leaning against one wall, a calendar, a poster of a Dragon, and one of a Mermaid.

13. Seen anything weird lately?
Those cool pop-tarts commercials: "Crazy Good"

14. What do you think of this quiz?
I didn't get it.

15. What was the last film you saw?
Scary Movie 3

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
I just got an El Camino, so, really.... I'm set. I'd buy some acreage, though, so that I wouldn't have to live by rental rules anymore.

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know:
My nose always runs when I get in the shower, it's kinda gross.

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
I'd make the Baja 1000, and the weeks preceding and following it, national holidays, so that more people could participate, myself included.

19. Do you like to dance?
Nope

20. George Bush:
Is a guy. Or maybe not, maybe he's a "gal", he -is- from Texas...

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?:
Girl-Baby number 1.

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?:
Joe. I wouldn't tell him he's named after my favorite cat, though.

23. Would you ever consider living abroad? :
Yep

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
"Oh, you're late. Peter, bring this guy his bike and show him to the race course."

25. 4 people who must also do this meme in THEIR journal:
I doubt four people will read this journal... ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/7048623/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/7048623/ Mon, 14 Nov 2005 19:14:27 PST
"Meow Meow, Tomcat Jones."
"But I didn't order brussel sprouts..."
"It's ok, Mr Jones. They're gratis, the store has a surplus."
"Grown 'em out back, did they?"
"Yes, Sir, out under the people tree."
"I heard that bad frost last year made you lose half a crop?"
"It evened out in brussel sprouts, come spring. Nature's cyclical."
"More eliptical, really, eccentric as hell."
"Never-you-mind, Mr. Jones."
"Well, free's free."

I believe dream-talk isn't sane. I had a dream where I left a pulic bathroom door open and everyone in this big auditorium saw me take a leak. When I turned around, I realized what I'd done, and slammed the door shut, and started hitting the wall with my fists, trying to knock it down. I woke up scared. Dreams are strange.

Tomorrow, let the dream go all day, after you wake up. Don't end it with the screaming of the alarm clock. Go to work, and point a banana threateningly at your boss. ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/6812225/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/6812225/ Wed, 19 Oct 2005 18:00:43 PDT Do they betray their master, or does their master betray them?

Either way it's stress. I like Nine inch Nails, they're a cool band.
"There is no fucking you! There is only me!"
Assuming you're above it all...really...does make it so.
I can be Zen: I have a motorcycle.

My head still hurts. Maybe I'll float off into the clouds. ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/6805034/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/6805034/ Tue, 18 Oct 2005 20:08:11 PDT
The thought repeats itself to me in my head. Of course no one does, what is this, a slave state? It's still somewhat disconcerting:

"My family, is not 'mine'."
"Friends?"
"Not mine."
"Lovers?"
"You haven't had one in years."

So then I play with matches.

Those catholic candles are nice because they burn for days without needing attention. Just like foreigners soaked in blood and oil. Fucking government... I had vegetables for dinner and it didn't fill me up, so then I added a bottle of wine. The whole bottle. I don't feel buzzed. There's one more drink with alchohol left in my fridge but I'm saving it for tomorrow, or somesuch.

I did stop smoking, last pack...decided it was too expensive...it's been a month, I think. Maybe two. Next I'll stop driving. Just as bad for your health, and even more expensive.

Pros and Cons...based on those, someone should love me by now. I guess it's not that simple, though. No formulas apply, not even heuristically.
Well, maybe she'll come along tomorrow. ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/6649090/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/6649090/ Sat, 01 Oct 2005 08:03:37 PDT I think coffee should be neon blue. I'm still not dressed this morning, but I did put some pants on before opening the blinds to close my balcony door. No need to frighten the neighbors with nudity. I was hoping leaving the door open tonight would cool the house as a preparation for not using the A/C today, but it's already 73 degress outside, so I guess it never got much colder than I'd want it anyway. I was hoping to trap some 60-degree air in here, for the sun to warm to 75, during the day. It's a tiny bit cloudy out.
I crunched up a stick of cinnamon in my coffee grounds...it's pretty good. All the girls I've been close to in the past...what were they thinking, and who sees me like they saw me, now? Maybe a haircut would help. Or maybe I should stop pushing people away before I meet them. I'm still blaming my bed for not being magnetic. I want spaghetti with meatballs, because, I'm secretly a big lazy tomcat, and a carnivore.
I'm thinking of running a zip-wire across a parking lot and letting a running wireless camera fly down it. I'm obsessed with capturing a rush of speed on tape. My other obsession is the female body...it monopolizes my thoughts, unfairly. Now, if only I knew as much about the female mind, or heart... Oh well, I have a good heart of my own, someone will see that. Then, if they can look past the crazy ramblings... Ow! I have a zit on the back of my head...what the hell...
I wish I could stargaze for a living. ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/6589192/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/6589192/ Sat, 24 Sep 2005 10:39:15 PDT
I wish there was someone to share these moments with.

Any volunteers? My door's open. ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/6319020/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/6319020/ Wed, 24 Aug 2005 19:54:26 PDT so I haven't got the logic tonight.
Kiss me again, in my head, lost lover,
make me finally feel all right.

Speaking of sleep, I need to borrow some money,
so I'll sleep sound, with pennied eyes.
I wish that I could come on home, pretty lover,
warm you till the break of light...

Burn down the world, together, not so lonely,
Never giving up the fight.
Come get me, come and get me, I'm the one who's empty.
Remind me, your eyes' firelight.


That morning, with the sunshine, I...
Told you, you had tiger eyes.
Souls entwined as fingers, eyes locked on each other,
Burn the night, like fireflies.

Distance is cruel. Time not spent is tragic.
Lives are wasted every day.
Drifting is slow, Drinking is magic.
Bottle, help me float away. ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/6281329/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/6281329/ Sat, 20 Aug 2005 17:17:59 PDT From now on I will not click quiz links in people's journals.

The Cure song I am is apparently "Boys Don't Cry" because I'm not communicative enough to have lasting love. That's depressing. Hopefull there weren't very many results and that's a catch-all? It says only 26% of the other quiz-takers got that result. One in four...so...I'm in the bottom quarter of people, for being communicative? Ok. Only if rambling doesn't count. ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/6227720/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/6227720/ Sun, 14 Aug 2005 18:52:13 PDT Didn't even interview me.

Apparently, -working- on a Bachelor's in Computer Science, with 5+ years experience in Programming, doesn't beat no experience, with an ITT Tech degree worth no more than the paper it's printed on after I wipe my ass with it.

Fuck them anyway. ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/6227697/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/6227697/ Sun, 14 Aug 2005 18:49:11 PDT With the engine left running
'Cause the Alternator's broken
And so were our hearts.

Kissing in the parking lot,
That summer sun was fucking hot.
We pressed our bodies closer
And the spikes got in the way.

We burned up the silent nights.
Love poured out a darker light.
Kisses tainted sweet with wine,
But every flame burns out in time.

Embers, embers never die.
Lovers, lovers never lie.
Time corrodes and life's a waste,
Yes, you know we ran the race,

Hit my face, and break my soul.
Pass me 'round like a second bowl.
Naked, puking on the floor,
Accepted me, and wanted more.

Bottom out on train tracks,
Doing 90 in the gloam.
Leave the engine running,
Or we'll never make it home. ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/5881849/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/5881849/ Fri, 08 Jul 2005 23:08:49 PDT
Steel is tempered by strain, but...people's hearts and minds are not made of steel. Those parts are made of tangled webs of neurons and lies and ingrained hurts all adding up to a self-protection device that can't protect itself from it's own overzealous protection.

I miss knowing someone loves me, without any doubts, but then, how does one miss what one never experienced. Has anyone ever fully removed my doubts? Hmm...well all the better for the rambling then. Bigger and better on the horizon, I suppose. Now I just need an '72 Nova with a four-speed stick and racing clutch to speed me into that sunset.

"Stream of conciousness", they call it. Not very linear. Less so, as time passes. Sad now, but Hopeful, as my summary. ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/5032591/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/5032591/ Fri, 08 Apr 2005 08:41:18 PDT
I love you baby. ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/4907491/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/4907491/ Fri, 25 Mar 2005 08:36:33 PST
What I'm thinking is...Jody, let's start over, like you said, but let's do it right this time. If we can't do it right, then...let's...wait. ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/4719010/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/4719010/ Thu, 03 Mar 2005 12:06:58 PST
Hurray for you, love. I sure wish I had someone, and I suppose the rule applies...

"Do to others what you want them to do to you"

So, to be honest, if I'd ever been disloyal to you, what I'd most have liked from you would be your continuing love, some understanding, patience, and abandonment.

That's what you'll get from me.
Jason doesn't get the benefit of the Golden Rule, though. He gets the benefit of the "eat shit and die, motherfucker" rule ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/4319442/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/4319442/ Fri, 14 Jan 2005 14:50:17 PST
My girlfriend hasn't wanted me for months. She just didn't tell me...anyway, now it's too obvious to pretend anymore. I think I'll die alone, though...that'd be par for the course. Oh well. Hideous as my soul must be, it's no surprise.

On a related note, my production of art-like scribblings has gone way up. ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/3284957/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/3284957/ Sat, 04 Sep 2004 11:40:53 PDT
God, grant me the Celebrity
to change the things I can't accept,
to see the death of those inept,
to stir the sleep of those entombed,
to penetrate the sacred womb.

...now the question is, who am I talking about? ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/3206346/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/3206346/ Tue, 24 Aug 2004 22:31:54 PDT "Make me a sandwich?"
"Poof!"
"You're a sandwich."

I was having a conversation with my mom yesterday, about great writers. I mentioned how pipes found in Shakespeare's old house were found to have been used for smoking cocaine and opium, and we thought about all the other writers with a self-destructive bent, Hemmingway, Carroll, Poe, etc.
She wondered why we hold up the works of men who lived such sad lives, as our greatest achievements...To counter, I named some authors with less depressing stories that are still considered great: Dickens, C.S. Lewis, Tolkien, and so on...
At this point I saw a pattern...The second group wrote adventure stories, fantasy stories, while the first group wrote stories whose underlying meanings had to do with the human condition.
Our greatest achievement has been to recognize and convey the wretchedness of our own condition. That's why these great minds escaped with drugs and alchohol, they saw too clearly.

Or maybe I'm full of shit. ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/3198484/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/3198484/ Tue, 24 Aug 2004 13:51:26 PDT
In other news, look at my "scraps", if you think you know me...there are many interesting things to be seen there with no comments yet on them...like...unedited first-draft proof that aliens do indeed exist, and the meaning of life, hidden within a doodled pictorial code. Yes, all this and more can be yours for the price of a few wasted minutes looking at my scribbles.

This just in; mosquitos are evil. ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/3103696/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/3103696/ Wed, 11 Aug 2004 22:22:37 PDT

I wanna draw something, but I'm short on inspiration.
Help me help me. ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/2657830/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/2657830/ Mon, 14 Jun 2004 10:47:48 PDT ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/2569180/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/2569180/ Wed, 02 Jun 2004 19:24:47 PDT
Anyone know what I should draw?

Tell me and I'll think about it and maybe do it if I like the idea.

P.S. look at my "scrapbook" for things that aren't interesting ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/2384865/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/2384865/ Sat, 08 May 2004 10:22:35 PDT
I still don't live anywhere...it's a confusing state of affairs, but that's what happens when you let your heart rule your life, it goes in increasingly smaller circles faster and faster.

Now I must go get my sister so we can smoke massive quantities of mushrooms and snort pot. That's just how we do those things around here. ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/1693182/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/1693182/ Sat, 17 Jan 2004 00:21:25 PST Buuuut...
I'm lazy so fuck off. ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/1274008/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/1274008/ Mon, 13 Oct 2003 21:38:31 PDT
Right now I'm lumberjackingoff in Idaho.
I'm staying in a yurt. There are alpacas down the road.
I have a wireless network card stuck in my laptop...
in a glorified tent.

I have my webcam but I didn't have any room for my scanner, so...

Sorry I probably won't have anything worth looking at until I get back in a month. ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/1261349/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/1261349/ Fri, 10 Oct 2003 21:51:37 PDT
Plus it has to be insane.
Give me some time to come up with a concept, though, or I'd welcome suggestions. ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/1225330/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/1225330/ Wed, 01 Oct 2003 18:01:53 PDT
Hopefully one of those cool vicious ones that
keeps going and going until it destroys itself
and all involved, psychologically.

Anyway I'm gonna go get my pen and paper and plug
my scanner back in.

Oh, hey, tell me what to draw, people! ]]> ~psymansays http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/1222359/ http://psymansays.deviantart.com/journal/1222359/ Tue, 30 Sep 2003 22:04:04 PDT
Got some cool comments already, plus one from an anime freak who thinks I need to work on my human anatomy...like I'm gonna listen to him about how to make the human figure look realistic.

Well, nice to meet the rest of you who commented. ]]> ~psymansays