deviantART: by:r-f

the best of my shit :

http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/9459595/ Fri, 11 Aug 2006 05:15:47 PDT

till this is over .............i wont be around .

i'm a soldier in the israeli airforce,
and this is war .

talk to ya when ill get back folks .

cya .

]]> ~r-f 2:36 am damnt. http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/8991023/ http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/8991023/ Tue, 06 Jun 2006 16:43:53 PDT goddamnt !!!! ......cant wait till the full cd comes out on spetember

well ....to other things ....its 2:36 am right now ....i'm bored ...and freakin tired ....
just finished a pic i worked on .....
got the idea for it while listening to metal

heh ....go check it out ....(PLZ )

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anyhow ........i'm off to sleep ..and off to the base
till sunday ...(well i hope at least) ......................
so .....good night folks.
till we chat again....heres a song for ya all :

Rushing through 30
Getting older every day by two
Drawing pictures of innocent times
Can you add colour inside these lines?

I want you to lead me
Take me somewhere
Just don´t want to live
In a dream one more day

Sure it would change my perspective
I´m certain I would change today
I´m certain it would change our ways
Would things fall into place?

....yeah ....i'm in a "in flames" mood today.
this one ...calles "Come Clarity" .

anyhow .....cya folks ]]> ~r-f 21 and shit ... http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/8960700/ http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/8960700/ Sat, 03 Jun 2006 15:33:43 PDT nothing got different really .......

just feel more shitty .........
didnt have a fancy birthday party ...or something like this ...........
in fact ...didnt have a party at all ......

kinda stupid calling it a party when only 7 friends show up ....and 3 of them take off after half an hour

i'm fuckin dissapointed.
from my friends .....
from the system who keeps fuckin me .......sending me to all those works not considering my health ..........not givin' a fuck....

"k ....so he got some back problams .....knee problams ....phhh ......lets send him to work for 2 weeks ....lifting up things maybe he'll stop saying were screwing his back "
bet theyre laughing at me every chance they got
fuckin hate the base ....fuckin hate the military .....i want out .
a year and 7 to go .......and i feel broken .

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i'm out of muse .
cant draw .
cant think of new manips.
my photos dont get any feedback .

i hate this ........absence.
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i hate it all

good day to you all . ]]> ~r-f break http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/8551663/ http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/8551663/ Sat, 22 Apr 2006 14:04:46 PDT

first i rested my bones .
the day after i went with three friends to a concert of a 80's style metal band called Crossfire. (kinda reminded me def lepard...and skid row )
was kinda cool ........but since opeth , i developed very high standarts for concerts.
even though the sound was kinda crapy ...and you couldnt hear the vocalist , it still was a nice show

after the show .we went to the beach , we joined a group of folks (my friend had 2 female friends there ) ...they were doin BBQ ...so we were kinda freeloaders .
then we and this group ...joined to another group of folks .....(which no one knew ...., but they were making bone fire (or camp fire ....whats the fuckin word....nevermind) and we were cold .....so ....we asked them ....., and they agreed ) .

three groups of people sitting by the fire , that was kinda funny .

next day i went to the beach again.....with some friends and my girlfriend ~Glorgindel
was very nice .............time to relax ......, i love the ocean (and my gf )

so ...spent the other days at home ........, getting bored .
did a new pic ......a photo ....macro shot .....(my new love in photography ).
hope you enjoy it ...(seriously ......feedback would be nice ).

anyhow ......its 23:55 , about to pack my kitbag with stuff for about a week or two ,
really dont know when i'll get back ......could be tomorrow even , could be in two weeks .

all ya nice people who commented and faved my works ....and didnt recive a comment back from me ....
i'm truly sorry ...., i know there are comments piled up from at least 3 months ago ..or more ....., but i really dont have the time ..., so sorry ..., i thought i'll take care of it this week ..., but i didnt manage ..., so forgive me .

all my new watchers : thank you all .....hope you'll enjoy my art . and hope i'll get to know you all better .

so ....i'll talk to you all later .
when i'll get back .

]]> ~r-f opeth !!!! http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/8334944/ http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/8334944/ Sat, 01 Apr 2006 15:08:57 PST Opeth this night !!!

it was ......ass kickin'
mind blowing ..........
ear bleeding .......
ass raping (i didnt said that )

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Mikael's jokes alone were worth the ticket money .........("we gonna play you some cock rock.........yes .....i saied cock.....rock !!! " )
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my arm is fuckin tired from doin all night long .......and my neck hurts from the head bangin
but it was good death metal ........(they played "Deliverance" .....fuckin deliverance !!!!! i love that song ! )
i enjoyed every second.

i dont remamber the full song list right now ..cuz my head kinda spinning from all of mikael's growling (the sound was louder then the jets in my base )

......damn ...i saw opeth live .......

i love you people .....
so heres a song for ya all :

Come into this night
Here we´ll be gone
So far away
From our weak and crumbling lives

Come into this night
When days are done
Lost and astray
In what´s vanished from your eyes
What came and distorted your sight
Saw you benighted by your fright

Come into this night
Your plight alone
Carry your weight
You are flawed as all of us

Come into this night
You only homeIt´s never too late
To repent, suffer the loss

Come into this night
When you´re able
To undo your deeds
And atone with your lonely soul
Once you´re into this night
All minds are stable
Forget all your needs
Lose the grip of all control

Opeth - Benighted

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g'night .

]]> ~r-f Empty Opening http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/8065607/ http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/8065607/ Sat, 04 Mar 2006 13:39:50 PST have not had one like that for months now
and i enjoyed every fuckin second

hope ya boys and girls feel good .......and your life is good.....

nothing new to tell really .......still waiting for opeth ! (april 1st ..., israel ! , tel aviv )
hope they wont cancle like evergrey did

anyhow ....did 2 new pics :

Painting Nature

Clock Guardian

would be nice to get a comment

Album of the week !!!! (all hail) : Amorphis - Eclipse :

A beautiful day when it's over
Clouds high up in the sky
A beautiful day when it's over
Nobody will bury me

In this wicked world the war I live
In this wicked world to war I go
Here's my good life, best I ever have
How did I get here

Beautiful yard, trees against the sky
There is an empty opening
They only live for one summer
This world is too good for me

Empty Opening - Amorphis

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]]> ~r-f first of all .... http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/7609350/ http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/7609350/ Sun, 15 Jan 2006 09:40:08 PST

seriously now ...., i got my Opeth ticket !!!!! and its so preety

did 3 new pics :

Luce Nella Nerezza

Durex love

Lady Death

- feel free to take a look -

got featured in =Cogito-Ergo-Doleo's (aka ex-afro-mike) journal :
[thank you roman]

Album of the week ! : SoilWork - Stabbing The Drama

Can you please remind me where the fuck I've been?
Cause I can't find out anything,
So return me to a vital place.
From a distant observation,
Corrosion of emotions,
Is how you block your state.
From scratch to revelations,
It's all been there, bleeding for someone to dare.
Extension of deceptions, brings you to your final collapse.
Am I really an exception?

Is that your only entertainment? (spoiling your desire)
To blow your minds on a one way track.
From a distance..

Building knowledge out of flexible existance.
Hunt for adrenaline is staggering,
Grand lack of emotions.
You'll never face conclusions,
You'll get what you want.
Am I really an exception?

Is that your only entertainment? (spoiling your desire)
To blow your minds on a one way track.
I tell you a lie and make it a statement. (sleeping in denial)
You're all wasting the time of your lives.

Cold and crawling, you made it back.
Fear is selling and you're one with the fact.
Coutning the days for rebirth,
Lost once again and now it hurts.

Soilwork - Distance

for now it is all.

]]> ~r-f so much i didnt do this week http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/7442113/ http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/7442113/ Wed, 28 Dec 2005 17:32:50 PST so much i didnt do ......

i'm tired ....
bored
weak

my eyes are gonna explode and fall out of my eye sockets ......
and then my brain gonna leak outside ......

fell like my brain is being rubbed into a lemon

i want to sleep but i'm too fuckin tired for this .

anyhow ...its 3:20 am right now .....i'm kinda brain dead ....
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sorry i didnt comment back ....
not even on new comments and faves

thank you for everything

i'm a lazy dumbass ......and not worthy of your devwatch

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will try to comment back when i get back from the base .......
bye for now. ]]> ~r-f OMFG !!!!!!! YESSSSSS FUCKIN YESSSSSSSSS http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/7260923/ http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/7260923/ Fri, 09 Dec 2005 00:26:12 PST 4 months till the gratest METAL concert this country will ever have !!!!!!!!

april 1st ! 2006...........israel , tell aviv !!!!

OPETH are coming to kick ASS !!!!!!!!!!! ]]> ~r-f שלטון הא http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/7175670/ http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/7175670/ Tue, 29 Nov 2005 10:35:28 PST ××× ×××× ×××× ××¡×¨ ××× ××
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×ª× × ×× ×¡××× ××¨××¢ ..... ]]> ~r-f My Melancholic days of freedom. http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/7070768/ http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/7070768/ Thu, 17 Nov 2005 09:17:19 PST song: Theatres des vampires - Black Mirror
movie: kingdom of heaven
mood: bored

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so ......here i am again.........out of the base ...and in my home ...sitting here and writing this journal .
so .....nothing new here .......bored as always ....and out of muse .
cant think of any new idea for a picture ......or a drawing ..and its fuckin frustrating

so .....IF YOU PEOPLE GOT ANY FUCKIN IDEA that you would like to share
or have me to do ............just send me a note ...or comment here .........................
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as you can notice ....all of your comments was answered on last week .......took me like 3 hours ....but i did it ....., just to show i still pay attention to my fans
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]]> ~r-f here there be monsters http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/6706406/ http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/6706406/ Fri, 07 Oct 2005 18:08:00 PDT song: Katatonia - Endtime
movie: Requiem for a dream
mood: fucked up

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its 3:26 am .........and as i sit here ......farting ......and writing this entery .........while listening to some depressing doom metal songs ....( katatonia ) ..........
i think ........
what the hell happened to my life .........

i'm stuck in this army ............
not able to do shit on the civilian life .....
not able to see friends .....
nor the girlfriend ....
nor shit !!!

and when i am able ..............i dont find any point in doing anything ......
i'm tired ......, i'm weak ...., i'm mentaly broken .........and fuckin depressed

just waiting for december ........waiting for the rain to start .........
love the rain .

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to all ya dude's and dudets here .....sorry i'm not here often to talk with all of ya ......
as i sayed ....army .............
sorry i dont comment back ....
sorry i dont say thanks ....
i will one day .....promise .

to all ya jews ......happy fuckin rosh a shana !

]]> ~r-f Down Where I Am http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/5949584/ http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/5949584/ Sat, 16 Jul 2005 09:24:43 PDT

Reading: wisdom of the beigel

so ........yeah ....i'm in the airforce and stuff ......working on NVD's ...........some boring shit really , my head hurts from the constant engine noise of the planes , and i'm tired picking up leafs for 5 hours in a row every week , but hey ..thats army life

seriously ...i'm feeling like i'm wasting my time over there ....could have begin art college by now ... : \

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my knees fuckin hurt ..........., i always had knee problams but since i got into the army and i'm on my legs all day long .....it got worse .....
they even hurt when i sit ....

ive been in a military hospital ......and they sent me to a civilian one .......to start physiotheraphy in a civilian hospital .......tomorrow ......., god that sucks

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holy fuckin god ......this weekend was the first in the last 3.5 months i sat on m chair ....put my legs on the desk .........., my headphones in my ears ...and actualy enjoyed the music i listend to !
not to mention that some of it was black metal .....and i fuckin hate black metal

first place goes to ....* drum noises * :
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Demons And Wizards - Touched By The Crimson King

Side-project of Iced Earth's Jon Schaffer and Blind Guardian's Hansi Kï¢rsch.

this is their second album in this side project ......and i gotta say its fuckin awesome ......, after the sad fall of iced earth with the lose of matt barlow (all hail the true god of metal ) and his replacment with that dildo tim owens .
(not to mention "glorious burden " which totaly sucked major ass .....shame on you jon ...shame on you )

jon.....in a collab with hansi manages to suprise us , the fans , with this fuckin awesome piece of art .
(always sayed that the only man who could ever replace barlow is hansi ) .

if you liked the first album
you will surely love this one

songs list :
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1. Crimson King
2. Beneath These Waves
3. Terror Train
4. Seize the Day
5. The Gunslinger
6. Love's Tragedy Asunder
7. Wicked Witch
8. Dorian
9. Down Where I Am (my personal favorite)
10. Immigrant Song (Led Zeppelin cover)

--------other albums that kick major ass------------------

1. Rotting Christ - Khronos
2. Naglfar - Pariah
3. Tristania - Ashes
4. Lefay - The seventh seal
5. Septic Flesh - sumerian Daemons

--------disapoiting albums-----------------------------------

1. epica - consign to oblivion
2. System Of A Down - Mezmerize

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still waiting for the new Opeth album !!!

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sorry i dont comment back people
its just that i'm totaly lazy .........and i'm tired most of the days in the week ...cuz well ...i'm in the army ......,
and all i wanna do is sleep ...so ....seriously ....i'm sorry folks . ~r-f army life ............. http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/5637485/ http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/5637485/ Mon, 13 Jun 2005 14:24:27 PDT
i'm leaving today for 2 weeks ....so ....
hope everybody's fine .....and all good .

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and people ....goddamn ...leave some comments on my page ................cuz when i get back home after 2 weeks ....and see nothing new here.............it makes me sad ..............: \ ........
so comon ...be nice

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till we speak again , goodbye
and fuckin stay heavy ! ]]> ~r-f so... http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/5549020/ http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/5549020/ Sat, 04 Jun 2005 06:14:32 PDT i study all day long ..........

and this fucking army food makes me sick

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any how ....for all of you who didnt knew .....
i'm in the airorce ...........in night vision systems........

gonna break some very expensive gadgets
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]]> ~r-f Goodbye my friends, I'm leaving you today http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/5374796/ http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/5374796/ Mon, 16 May 2005 15:23:57 PDT for the next 4.5 years .......

yep ....yours truely is goin to the army
dont know what will be my job ........
dont know where will i be for this all time ......

wont be here for the first couple of months ....so sorry if i dont comment back .....i will try to get online as much as i can .

i would like to finish with a lil song ..........by gamma ray ....
yeah ..its a lil bit off topic .......but still ............

"Do you remember
How we used to play like kids in the sun
Nowadays, there's no light to see
And we're feeling cold
So the time has come
To say farewell my friends
My fate is calling loud
Now I know - it can get tough
And I don't you know where I'll be tomorrow
Do you - do you wanna know it
I don't care about it
Somebody said that we could never ever die
Oh what a lie

You will see the light again
We'll all be free someday:
I know - 'cause united we stand

Goodbye my friends, I'm leaving you today
My quest is hard, but I must be on my way
Now, don't ask why
Goodbye my friends

Don't you try and stop me
All I know is: I have to go!
There'll be no sense in my life at all
If I stay
You will never see it - you will never find it
Oh yes I will!
Someone will take my place if I die!

An old man said:
Some years ago; they've tried it all before
Some men of honour left
And searched for that land
They did not return. Now it's up to you
To play a better game - remember
When you're out there
Don't look back at all

Goodbye my friends, I'm leaving you today
The quest is hard,
I hope I'll find a way home one day

Goodbye dear friends, I'm leaving you today
The quest is hard
I know I find a way home one day
You will see the light of day
We'll all be free again
All that's left to say is farewell"

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http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/5274651/ Thu, 05 May 2005 13:38:26 PDT WTF !!!!!!!! .....

me ........you ....all of us who loves our most dark precious lord .......................we...we've been living a lie ...............
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

(taken from [link] ) :

A newly discovered fragment of the oldest surviving copy of the New Testament indicates that, as far as the Antichrist goes, theologians, scholars, heavy metal groups, and television evangelists have got the wrong number. Instead of 666, it's actually the far less ominous 616.

the all article

Church of Satan

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"How happy is the blameless vstal's lot

The world forgetting , by the world forgot

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

each prayer accepted , and each wish resigned"

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]]> ~r-f Comfortably Numb http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/5114629/ http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/5114629/ Sun, 17 Apr 2005 18:39:23 PDT Hello.
Is there anybody in there?
Just nod if you can hear me.
Is there anyone home?

Come on, now.
I hear youre feeling down.
Well I can ease your pain,
Get you on your feet again.

Relax.
I need some information first.
Just the basic facts:
Can you show me where it hurts?

There is no pain, you are receding.
A distant ships smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I cant hear what youre sayin.
When I was a child I had a fever.
My hands felt just like two balloons.
Now I got that feeling once again.
I cant explain, you would not understand.
This is not how I am.
I have become comfortably numb.

Ok.
Just a little pinprick. [ping]
Therell be no more --aaaaaahhhhh!
But you may feel a little sick.

Can you stand up?
I do believe its working. good.
Thatll keep you going for the show.
Come on its time to go.

There is no pain, you are receding.
A distant ships smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I cant hear what youre sayin.
When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse,
Out of the corner of my eye.
I turned to look but it was gone.
I cannot put my finger on it now.
The child is grown, the dream is gone.
I have become comfortably numb.

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my girlfriend has gone to the army ........i feel so alone , and i miss her so bad

(for anyone that dosent know , army here in israel is mandatory , girls do 2 years , and guys do 3 ....and yes ....i'm gonna leave to the army too , at may 18)

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nothing in my life right now exept random thoughts and walking like a zombie all day long ...doing nothing ............i have become comfortably numb

and my life dosent have a meaning right now , i just want my girlfriend back

i luff you

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i'm just too busy right now

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]]> ~r-f 29.3.05 update http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/4937538/ http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/4937538/ Mon, 28 Mar 2005 19:38:06 PST
ive spent the last 4 hours .....cleaning my room .....throwing old junk .........and listening to metal .....m e t a l .......al ....al ...al ...al
(i'm doped .....seriously.....)

my eyes are closing slowly .....ly ...ly ...ly ...........i think my brain got fried

............ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh colors ...preety colors ..........oh the blood ......the gore ........the teletubiz ........

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so ....heres one for ya ....:

what do you get when you put a baby in the microwave ? ..........

a boner !

..........seriously i need help

bla bla bla ......flying sheep ...bla bla bla .......ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhhhhhhhh.....i need sleep ...sleep ......sleep is good .....good sleep is .........colorsssssssssssssssss .....ahhhhhh ....i'm dead ?

if you read that till this point you must be really bored

bored bored bored .........no job ....no money ..............no....t ....sain ......

yaaaaa...........

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]]> ~r-f almost there ..... http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/4796982/ http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/4796982/ Sun, 13 Mar 2005 15:57:15 PST

Mood: Homicidal

katatonik
Listening to: katatonia - Elohim meth
Reading: C language .....*pukes*
Watching: passion of the christ 2 - THIS TIME ITS PERSONAL

dunno......feel bad lately ......
dont know why .....just am ......

it rains out there .......
and i feel like a road kill

my woman is far .....
and i miss her

....(ken efrat .......kzat ragshanut)

school is soon to be over ...
only one more month...
1 freakin month to end 2 fuckin' lost years
another chapter in my life ends .

and another one starts .......army .......
on the 21-23...of march ....(yep this month)
i'm gonna know when i'm goin' to leave ......may or september.

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really ..i dont know ..this feeling of sickness .......feeling of waekness ......

so much i wanna do at this point of my life ....but cant.

Ten Strings of Darkness on a Violin Sad
Flowing tunes on Autumn Funeral
Ashes spread in the Northern Storm

Now they die, Pure Sorrow flow
My Souls Funeral, Too close to the End
Now they Die, Purest blood pours
Forever Die, but I must...

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]]> ~r-f update 12.2.05 http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/4560989/ http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/4560989/ Sat, 12 Feb 2005 09:53:50 PST

Mood: Lonely

lonely
Watching: lost in translation

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new awesome albums :
the new paradise lost album

; and also the new draconian album "arcane rain fell"
very melancholic , dark and melodic .
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shows/concerts that i plan goin to :

25.2.05 - preformance of israeli Groove/Metalcore band BETZEFER

17.3.05 - preformance by israeli metal band Solaris Project

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song of the moment : dreadful shadows - Desolated Home .

I watched the houses burn, a bloodstained kind of brightness
The last breath of grace and elegance is done
The dead are lugged away, but they won't find their silence
The verges fade, another time has begun

A better time will come they say to reassure themselves
Another day will bring the light - but they are ignorant
In the cradle of their carelessness
Burning flesh, burning skin
Another raindrop burns their loathsome eyes.

The diaries are blank, they went too far
They can't return to their desolated homes
No life anymore in the rooms of the girl who lived next door
Desolated home

I watched the houses burn, the trees were full of ashes
Just like snowflakes darken the sky
No better time will come they know
The truth becomes certainty
They won't see the sun, they won't feel the light - no more

The loss of insincerity
The loss of humand souls

The diaries are blank, they went too far
They can't return to their desolated homes
No life anymore in the rooms of the girl who lived next door
Desolated home.

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]]> ~r-f blah . http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/4270669/ http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/4270669/ Sat, 08 Jan 2005 15:21:31 PST Mood: crappy.
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feeling like my life is wasted , at least the last two years.
i'm forced to learn something i dont want to learn .
i'm forced to do something i dont want to do.
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listening to: Evergrey - when the walls go down.

"
Lord, if you don't help me, I can't get through this.
I can't.
Lord, I'm too old for games... foolishness
And I'm tired of rhetoric. Meaningless rhetoric.
It never changes things.
Lord... please help me.
Help me...

I was feeling God's PAIN
and I've never had anything that's been any worth to God
in my 50 years that wasn't born in agony.
Never. Never.
Dead, empty.
And I know that sermons won't do it.
I know that revelation won't do it.
Covenant won't do it.
I know now... Oh my God do I know it.
Until I'm in agony.
Until I have been anguished over it.
I'm preaching sermons... Oh God...

I broke down
and I wept
and I mourned.
Does that matter to you at all?
I can't handle this.
I can barely make it into this.

Little by little you're losing
the love of God...
the love of Christ...
People I know of that were my friends and I see them they go one by one.
Some were my closest friends.
You're changing.
You know what you were.
You're changing.
Little by little something's happening to you.
Would it bring you to your knees?
That's all the Devil wants to do
Get the fight out of you and kill it.
So you won't labor in prayer anymore.
You won't weep before God anymore.

GO TO HELL!

No weeping?
Not a word of prayer?
It's all ruined.
No laughing.
This is life and death.

When the walls go down, and ruin sets in...
Where are the tears?
Where's the mourning?
Where's the confessing?
Love of Christ.. the agony of God's heart...
We have sinned.
"

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anyhow ........all ya nice people who comment on my works and dev-watch me . thanks .
you know i love ya all .
i will re-comment as soon as i get my lazy ass off the couch.
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]]> ~r-f Lack Thereof - by ~SinOfDreams http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/4226501/ http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/4226501/ Mon, 03 Jan 2005 04:47:58 PST by SinOfDreams

"Im sure anyone that has been around the shoutbox lately knows exactly what im going to talk about. As many people actually do know, theres only 2 main moderators who actually go into the shoutbox. They are @oedalis and @ adam1975. Now bless them, they have been good to us and they have been there when we needed it, but theres never a constant monitor to the shoutbox. No matter what happens, something is always going down in there that results in the box regulars to sit there and argue with the person who is breaking the rules, or running to the HelpDesk for someone to come in and stop it because it is getting way out of hand. The real problem comes down to this, were basicly WAITING for the dA administration to do something about it. Many of the SB regulars have actually left because problems that have been arrising because of lack of authority.

Now, we fully understand that everyones running around trying to get dAmn situated and all, and starting a whole "dAmn Army" of new support for it and all, but the fact that our crys are being tossed aside for later or completely ignored is the worst part about it. We need more moderators. Two is not enough to watch a highly used section of DeviantArt 24/7. And even then, they may not even be there to begin with because they might be somewhere else doing things, or just dont feel like being there. So were back to step one, of arguing and sending for help. Countless times people in the SB who have been there for awhile have offered there time to become a moderator so that the SB could be more stable, I was one of them, and all the times we have been turned down, saying that the help is not needed and everything is covered.

If its covered, why are we still asking for help?

Dan Cochran
SinOfDreams " ]]> ~r-f Metalhead Knights .... http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/4124909/ http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/4124909/ Wed, 22 Dec 2004 04:54:03 PST [link]

This is the situation: there's a beautiful princess trapped in a castle
watched by a dragon. Here's the end of the story with different styles
of metalheads as knights.

POWER METAL:

The protagonist arrives riding a white unicorn, escapes from the
dragon,
saves the princess and makes love to her in an enchanted forest.

TRASH METAL:

The protagonist arrives, fights the dragon, saves the princes and fucks
her.

HEAVY METAL:

The protagonist arrives on a harley, kills the dragon, drinks a few
beers and fucks the princess.

FOLK METAL:

The protagonist arrives with some friends playing acordions, violins,
flutes and many more weird instruments, the dragon falls sleep (because
of all the dancing). Then all leave....without the princess.

VIKING METAL:

The protagonist arrives in a ship, kills the dragon with his mighty
axe,
skins the dragon and eats it, rapes the princess to death, steals her
belongings and burns the castle before leaving.

DEATH METAL:

The protagonist arrives, kills the dragon, fucks the princess and kills
her, then leaves.

BLACK METAL:

The protagonist arrives at midnight, kills the dragon and impales it in
front of the castle. Then he sodomises the princess, drinks her blood
in
a ritual before killing her. Then he impales the princess next to the
dragon.

GORE METAL:

The protagonist arrives, kills the dragon and spreads his guts in front
of the castle, fucks the princess and kills her. Then he fucks the dead
body again, slashes her belly and eats her guts. Then he fucks the
carcass for the third time, burns the corpse and fucks it for the last
time.

DOOM METAL:

The protagonist arrives, sees the size of the dragon and thinks he
could
never beat him, then he gets depressed and commits suicide. The dragon
eats his body and the princess as dessert. That's the end of the sad
story.

PROGRESIVE METAL:

The protagonist arrives with a guitar and plays a solo of 26 minutes.
The dragon kills himself out of boredom. The protagonist arrives to the
princess' bedroom, plays another solo with all the techniques and tunes
he learned in the last year of the conservatory. The princess escapes
looking for the "HEAVY METAL" protagonist.

GLAM METAL:

The protagonist arrives, the dragon laughs at the guy's appearance and
lets him enter. He steals the princess' make-up and tries to paint the
castle in a beautiful pink color.

NU METAL:

The protagonist arrives in a run-down Honda Civic and attempts to fight
the dragon but he burns to death when his moronic baggy clothes catch
fire.

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my woman :

]]> ~r-f Still day beneath the sun http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/4016929/ http://r-f.deviantart.com/journal/4016929/ Wed, 08 Dec 2004 06:54:02 PST Shows the footprints round this grave
Dried up roses scattered on the mound
Honouring the one engraved

Will ever the morning
Carry away
The souls of those for whom we cry

Leaving, grieving
Seeking, meeting
Binding, unwinding
Sighing "You"

Black procession through the narrow aisles
Another's gone for all to see
Near the site for one who lost his trials
Sleeping neath the ground is me

Still day beneath the sun
Asking you who is the one
And when the day is late
We know who must forever wait

-
my woman

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