http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:rabid-penguins&section=today deviantART RSS for by:rabid-penguins en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 16 Dec 2009 13:54:34 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/20831281/ http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/20831281/ Sat, 04 Oct 2008 19:40:08 PDT
I'm in the honors program so I have to take an "honors" class every semester. This semester I'm in astronomy. it sucks. Next semester they're offering a photography class. I hope it fits into my schedule because I really want to take it. All the other classes look like they suck, and I've always wanted to be able to take good pictures. So if I get in, I can post the pictures I take? but that won't be till spring, lol

so. college life. currently on a massive apartment hunt. If everything goes as planned, I'm gonna be living with a bunch of asian guys. wow. I'm gonna be a maid/cook/tutor. I'm totally just being used and I know it but sadly enough, I don't really mind.

I hate this whole "curve" thing. I mean, my 83.5 on the chem exam translated to a 92% curved but you know what, from now on I want all my grades to be 90+ without the curve. that's my goal in college.

I've made a bunch of friends and I've taken up breakdance and every now and then I get to bake in our dinky little kitchen and I love it.

I'm "stalking" a bunch of people and let me tell you, I have the greatest luck with it ever. like you don't know how great it is to be stalking this guy from your chem class (which is several hundred people so it's amazing I can even find him in class) and then finding out that he's friends with your friends.

almost as awesome as my Japanese class stalking experience. But that one was infinitely better and well, it's still continuing, kinda.

omg sorry I'm so creepy. but does anybody actually read this anyway?

it's really funny because people go around telling other people "omg she's really smart" when I really haven't done anything all that brilliant yet. Actually, on my physics exam, I got exactly average. And I'm really mad about that. but it makes me smile.

I don't understand guys at all. But I think I'm doing pretty good, despite that. we'll see.

]]> ~rabid-penguins http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/17278475/ http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/17278475/ Mon, 10 Mar 2008 20:43:58 PDT
I really like the way foreign languages sound. maybe that's why I listen to music in other languages so much. You can look at some of the translations, and they're really nothing spectacular. but it sounds so much nicer. does that make any sense? maybe it's because I don't understand the language. thus you focus more on the actual sounds of the language as opposed to the words themself. With music in English, I spend too much time trying to analyze what the song is really saying. with foreign music, I just hear music?

I don't think that makes sense at all.

Which brings me to my next topic, which I've mentioned before, I believe. I want to learn Chinese after I finish Japanese. I guess I should specify that I mean Mandarin. but whatever.

I don't really know how to explain it, but sometimes I think in Japanese. not really, and not well. I don't know near enough. But I'll think something in english, and then try to work it out in Japanese. lately, I try to do the same thing with Chinese, but I really don't know any at all. Which is a lie. but only sort of. I started teaching myself Japanese in 5th grade, and somehow or another, I didn't do a horrible job. I couldn't hold a conversation at all or anything, but what I did definitely helped with my classes now. So I sometimes think, well why can't I do the same with Chinese?

the problem lies in the pronunciation. Since the language depends so much on how you say something, not just what you say, I don't want to develop bad habits before I know what I'm doing. of course, it's probably too late for that already. I really shouldn't try singing in other languages. but for me, music with lyrics is meant to be sung, and I can't help it.

what I try to do, then, is just recognize characters. as in, what they mean, and how to say them. but the best I can do is pinyin. with Japanese, I try to avoid romanji as much as I can, so I want to do the same with Chinese and pinyin. but I guess I'd rather stick with it for now than completely butcher the spoken language. does that make any sense?

the one thing about Chinese that really throws me off is the strokes. With Japanese, for the most part, I can usually work out the stroke order of a kanji by just looking at it. somethings are different than I first think, but that's to be expected. I'm only in my third semester of study, after all. but with a lot of Chinese characters, I don't even know where to begin.

yeah sorry. maybe someday I'll write something useful. maybe someday I'll even post some art here?

anyhow, much <3

]]> ~rabid-penguins http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/16712754/ http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/16712754/ Sun, 03 Feb 2008 18:46:41 PST
so I needed something to watch again. decided to start KO One because it has Jiro as the main character. and I srsly <3 Jiro like none other.

holy crap.

ever hear of Chromartie High? It's a lot like that. and it's killing me. I might cry from laughing. I mean, the "fight" scenes are horrible. srsly. and when Jiro randomly pulled a frying pan out of nowhere? and when the whole class was going off to fight the other class, and the one kid's dragging a cannon?

srsly wtf mate?

greatest thing ever.

]]> ~rabid-penguins http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/16558304/ http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/16558304/ Thu, 24 Jan 2008 20:44:54 PST
I was in my house. it was actually my house. which is shocking. srsly.

my dog, pHoxie, was walking down the hall, away from me. She had her slight limp and crooked head, just like she always did.

I saw her and said, "pHoxie, you're not real. I know you're dead."

and she looked at me and said, "only in your mind."

so am I crazy for trying to make sense of what my dead dog said to me in a dream? probably, but it sure sounds deep to me.

...well, despite the situation...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

besides that, I've been feeling kinda weird lately. dunno how else to explain it. not bad, just weird. like, not myself? I blame it on my show I just finished. make my day, read my blog?

]]> ~rabid-penguins http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/16363409/ http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/16363409/ Fri, 11 Jan 2008 22:44:02 PST
in 8th grade, I started listening to Faye Wong (Chinese singer). And of course, I started singing along to that too. not well, not at all. but that never stopped me.

still doesn't. been listening to Chinese (taiwanese really) music, and now I'm starting to sing along. I'm sorry, I really don't mean to butcher the language. but if I listen to music, I sing. and I don't even have a good voice. but I don't let that stop me. sorry

Fahrenheit has a song in Japanese. I can only find lyrics for half the song. I'm going to try doing the rest by ear. I've romanized lyrics before, but I had access to an online dictionary so I could find pronunciations, so I really only had to pick between a few. this time around, I've got nothing to work with except the song. Japanese class, help me out.

I'm gonna go back to Japanese class and be thinking with my Chinese mindset. oops

well, it's kinda like this: I learned to pronounce Japanese by listening to music with romanji in front of me. I learned to read hiragana by watching inu yasha openings and endings with the romanji in front of me, but no idea of how hiragana worked. I learned some kanji by frequent usage. I learned a lot more by taking the class.

I "learned" to pronounce Chinese by listening to music with lyrics in front of me. I'm starting to recognize characters by frequent usage, both their meaning and their reading. But with the tonal aspect of Chinese, I can't pronounce anything properly.

I'm going to study Chinese (Mandarin) someday, I've decided.

EDIT:

I can't stay focused on anything anymore. I had a long list of things I wanted to write about, and only remembered half the first time around. so a few more things...

1. I cannot stand our school paper.
2. today, I played badminton in gym, and it was intense. I played singles against my usual partner, and even though we played for half the period, we were tied the entire time. I loved it.
3. I learned, today, that dogs do indeed eat marshmallows. It wasn't something I wanted to know. nor did I want to pick bits of marshmallow out of my carpet.

that can be it for now, I guess

]]> ~rabid-penguins http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/16246110/ http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/16246110/ Thu, 03 Jan 2008 19:56:56 PST
no really

I'm about halfway ashamed to admit that I'm listening to a boy band right now

a taiwanese boy band actually

ok, so I know some folks who are big on J-dramas (Japanese tv shows just fyi) but I was never really able to get into them. well, 'cept for one, because it's theme song was by Mr. Children.

so I finally started watching Hana Kimi, because I really liked the manga. but then I started watching the Taiwanese version because it was complete and the Japanese one wasn't at the time.

and well, I really like the taiwanese one. and I really like Jiro Wang, one of the actors. he makes me smile so much

so I started watching another show with him in it, but I forgot where I left off. and just the other day I finally finished watching Japanese Hana Kimi. which makes me want to watch more taiwanese shows. go figure

but anyhow, Jiro's in a band with another one of the actors from taiwanese hana kimi (it's name is hua yang shao nian shao nu if you were wondering) and I figured it was about time I listened to some of their stuff

and randomly... you know how some people like pretty smiles or sexy smiles or whatever? I like the huge, stupid smiles that come when you're so happy you just can't control your smile.

]]> ~rabid-penguins http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/15366490/ http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/15366490/ Sun, 04 Nov 2007 17:57:13 PST
and that really bothers me.

it's not really that simple.

ok, you can go think I'm really strange now... I won't mind

]]> ~rabid-penguins http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/15265738/ http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/15265738/ Sun, 28 Oct 2007 22:30:05 PDT
Oct. 28th = one of the best nights of my life

bunch of stuff has been bugging me lately, but right now, I could care less.

I srsly <3 those guys

read up on my blog for details?

]]> ~rabid-penguins http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/14806176/ http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/14806176/ Wed, 26 Sep 2007 20:20:26 PDT
but today, I determined that it's still just as satisfying. well, mostly, at least. and that's good enough for me

yeah I'm weird.

much <3

~Nanaki

]]> ~rabid-penguins http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/14533622/ http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/14533622/ Fri, 07 Sep 2007 16:52:01 PDT
but their new cd ain't coming out until next year

wtf?

but I love these guys, so I'm so there. so long as they come within a couple hundred miles of Chicago. but that shouldn't be a problem

lol I'm so pumped

oh and maybe someday I'll update my gallery

]]> ~rabid-penguins http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/14437768/ http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/14437768/ Sat, 01 Sep 2007 08:21:09 PDT
I hate when I finish a series I like. It's always so sad when it's over. I never know what to do with my time.

oh well, I can still watch Japanese Hana Kimi. A bunch of the comments on my site are like "eh the Japanese version is better" but personally, I prefer the Taiwanese one. whatever.

plus I still have other stuff to watch, so all's well.

no Japanese class on Monday T_T oh well, there's still Wednesday

]]> ~rabid-penguins http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/14352020/ http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/14352020/ Sun, 26 Aug 2007 16:02:37 PDT
no lies

]]> ~rabid-penguins http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/14263260/ http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/14263260/ Mon, 20 Aug 2007 20:46:38 PDT
I think I'm looking forwards to it? I dunno. I'm not dreading it, if anything.

I haven't finished my summer reading yet. no, I finished Harry Potter. I didn't finish Tess.

the one thing that's the most discouraging about school starting is that I'm just starting to get into the "j-drama" scene (I don't want to call it "dorama", that just looks lame)

and I'm kinda ashamed of that. But I have a lot of stuff I want to watch and unfortunately, I'm running out of time.

because school starts soon.

much <3, y'all

]]> ~rabid-penguins http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/14171904/ http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/14171904/ Tue, 14 Aug 2007 21:40:56 PDT
what brings this up? A good friend of mine moved rather far away after middle school. But he's back in town for a bit, so I was hanging with him and a few of my other old friends the other night. There were a couple other people there who I didn't know, which made it a little awkward, but it was still cool. The day after, I was in such a good mood all day long. I loved it. The simplest things make me happy.

I guess some people would think it's boring to just sit around, doing nothing. I think that's what I like best. Get a small group of people and just talk, you know? Like when I was feeding ducks with *Aniua and some other folks. nothing exciting, but still real nice.

or my "end of the school year" party after 8th grade. After we migrated to another friend's house, there were just a few of us left. and it was a ton of fun. It was also the last time I saw the guy who moved. up till now, of course. that was another one of those moments I wished could have lasted forever. but I wasn't happy the next day, not at all.

a good friend of a bunch of my friends (does that make any sense?) is going to be moving shortly after school starts. I feel bad saying I don't really care, but I never really talked to the kid that much at all... and in the grand scheme of things, he's only moving two hours away. it seems like a long time, but let's face it. after this year, it's college. The lot of us will be spread across the country. two hours has nothing on the entire country. but "true friendship" can survive any distance, right?

but wait a moment before calling me naive. I've had friends move just over half an hour away, and I barely talk with them anymore. which is why I say only "true friendship" will last. lame, I know, but take a moment, think of all your friends. which ones could you truly not live without, if any?

sorry, normally a post like this would go in my blog, but I wrote there on this topic just the other night, and it would be stupid to repeat myself. only reason I came here is because, if you haven't noticed, I really like to write stuff like this.

so uhh, y'all can go back to your lives now. sorry to waste your time

]]> ~rabid-penguins http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/14111658/ http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/14111658/ Fri, 10 Aug 2007 21:22:38 PDT
yesterday, I believe it was, I was having a splendid chat with the lovely *JessieRaye. as it is, I was telling the story of my delightful stalkering experiences. ok, don't freak out there. like I told her, it's nothing creepy like "watching you change from the tree outside your window" stalking.

well anyhow, she's like, "as long as you don't know his inseam, you're safe"

and I'm like, "...uhh... and what if I do...?" lol

so seriously, is it bad if I know it?

and is it creepier if I say that he wears the same size pants I would if I were to buy guy's jeans?

anyhow, in my defense, men's pants sizes are proudly displayed on the outside. I would know, I've helped my mom look for pants for my brothers plenty of times.

and all you girls out there, wouldn't you love to have your pants size listed on the outside of your pants where anyone could see it?

]]> ~rabid-penguins http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/14101609/ http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/14101609/ Fri, 10 Aug 2007 07:21:47 PDT
my mom and I went to the post office yesterday, and got our mail. There was a ton for me . mostly college mail, but also stuff from BG and Harper.

I'm totally excited because I'm not going to have math class on Thursdays.

go ahead, be jealous. I know you want to ^_^

oh, and I'm going to Mitsuwa today to hopefully pick up the latest issue of "Fine Boys"

]]> ~rabid-penguins http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/14050868/ http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/14050868/ Mon, 06 Aug 2007 21:30:46 PDT
aa, so... what did I do on vacation? lessee... I went on a 25 mile tube ride. I almost died, just a little. More like, I almost peed myself. But I won't get into that. It was pretty funny, though, because as soon as I got back to the camp, I was stripping off my wetsuit as fast as I could, and then I made a mad dash for the outhouse.

outhouses smell way funky.

speaking of tubing, we actually had to get a new tube. Our old one popped on one of our outings on lake superior. The new tube is kinda cool. it's French. It says "le tube" on it. Whatever. It works fine, but the canvas part gave me some wicked battle scars.

I tanned some. didn't burn at all. yay. I was using SPF 0 tanning oil. Man, that stuff is impossible to wash off! Seriously, I went in the lake and didn't get wet. or something like that.

my hair is blonde. wtf. I had used "sun in" last summer, which is why my hair was blonde last school year. I dyed it back to it's normal brown at the end of the year. Haven't touched my hair since then. And it's blonde again o_O

I went to the Gay Bar. they have shirts. I wanted a shirt. My adventure went something like this:

my cousin and I walked into the bar and it was like... I don't belong here lol. So my cousin tells the bar tender person that we want to get shirts. And he comes over and is like "We sell more than just shirts. We sell DRINKS too" and I'm just thinking "dude man, I'm 17" I was a little freaked out. They didn't have the shirt in my size. Or something like that. I couldn't understand what they were saying. I just kinda got outta there as fast as I could. However, they were playing The Eagles (band) when we left, so I kinda wanted to stay and listen. Then I remembered I have the cd.

I did get a shirt from Finlandia University. FU. It's only got a little "fu" on it, but it's hot hot pink. As in, I've never seen anything that hot pink. I can't wait to wear it to school. Cuz I'll fight for my right to wear it lol.

Like everybody else, I read Harry Potter. that's really all I have to say about it. well ok, I'm glad it's over because I was kinda sick of the books. ^_^

I absolutely hate bugs. Especially spiders. Especially the giant daddy long legs that seem to be quite fond of the outhouse.

I mooned a few boats. One of them had two guys on it. they mooned us back. lol

oh, I bought two cds at Wal-mart. One is bagpipe music. The other is riverdance music. yay

I really just want to sleep. But it's soooooo humid

I need to figure out what's going on. Like, I need to pick up my schedule and I need to hang with my friends and all that kind stuff. And I need to catch up on my forum cuz I'm so far behind there now.

school starts in just over two weeks. I'm looking forwards to it, but I'm not. I mean, if I have friends in my classes, that's good. But I already know none of my friends are in AP chem with me. I mean, I know some people who are going to be in it, but they're not people I talk to on a regular basis, and I don't even know if they'll be in my class, you know?

my Japanese class doesn't start for three weeks. bleh. once again, really hoping a certain somebody is in the class because otherwise, I won't know anybody in the class (that's a lie, but I don't like most of the people who will be there) and I'll have to make new "seat buddies" and I think the only reason I was able to make "seat buddies" the first time was because I was already friends with one of the people in my class. convenient.

I just want to sleeeeeeep

but srsly guys, I have no idea what's going on anymore. The sun fried my brain? does anybody know what's going on? call me sometime or something?

I opened my "I <3 my penis" gum. it's ok. but I don't like gum.

everybody in my family is psycho. that's all there is to it.

I'm gonna try to sleep again now

]]> ~rabid-penguins http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/13871604/ http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/13871604/ Wed, 25 Jul 2007 09:14:14 PDT
A. I stepped on a piece of lead today. pencil lead. before, I had figured, if you were to step on a piece of lead, it'd probably snap in half or something. It breaks all the time when you don't want it to, after all. But nope, it didn't. It wasn't stuck or anything, so all's good.

B. I'm going on vacation this Saturday (the 28th) and will be getting home on the 6th, I believe. I could mention this later, but I figured I'd just do it now. Don't expect me to be online at all, and unfortunately, I don't draw much on vacation either.

C. I confess, internet access is readily available while I'm on vacation. it's slow as can be, but it's still there. Regardless, I won't be online because I can go online any day I'm home, but I can't kill myself tubing on Lake Superior. Or freeze to death in said lake, either.

so uhh, enjoy your time while I'm not around. It doens't happen much.

]]> ~rabid-penguins http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/13843429/ http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/13843429/ Mon, 23 Jul 2007 08:10:54 PDT
regardless! oh, with the sims, I'm facing issues in Strangetown. Mainly with the fact that pretty much everybody's related so the next generation won't have anybody to hook up with without the incest part coming into play. oi

Seriously, I just wanted to mention that I'll be getting my first piece of real live h.Naoto relatively soon. As in, just under a month from now. Vacations cause conflicts. But as it is, I'm just getting a tote bag thing, so it's nothing extremely cool. But... I could carry stuff in it. pretty sweet, don't you think? bleh, just let me be excited for myself, ok?

umm, this is my last week of japanese class. that makes me really sad. But alas, I'll be taking Japanese 102 in the fall. way cool. ...now I just gotta hope that a certain somebody also signs up for the class... lol

anyhow, I'm going on a birthday present hunting mission today, so that's cool

]]> ~rabid-penguins http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/13825806/ http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/13825806/ Sat, 21 Jul 2007 20:34:38 PDT
my post count? 0

the forum is alive again, and people are posting.

but there is no place for me to go. we don't have our Dir en grey section. I've messaged a couple people asking about it, but haven't gotten a reply at all.

I know a lot of people there would be perfectly content to post in another band's section and cause a lot of drama, for a lack of better words. but I won't do that. I want to stay out of the way. that's why I want my dir en grey section. we can be as stupid as we want, but we're not bugging anyone.

I live on my forum. but it's not there.

I don't know what to do.

]]> ~rabid-penguins http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/13703909/ http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/13703909/ Thu, 12 Jul 2007 04:38:59 PDT
I got a link to my forum. turns out it wasn't dead, but the link I had was bad. And it was for lots of other people too. but I got a new link.

and I'm quite happy

I live on my forum.

how lame

]]> ~rabid-penguins http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/13694376/ http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/13694376/ Wed, 11 Jul 2007 10:51:33 PDT
yeah, that's how I feel right now. like I'm just standing around wasting my life. I should get out and hang out with my friends at least, but I dunno what anybody's up to and the phone is like, pure evil, no lies

as it is, I'm probably gonna go back to the sims shortly.

one problem with that. sitting at my comp makes my leg go numb because my back is going bad on me.

yes I realize lots of people will say they have a bad back and stuff just because they wanna complain about something. I don't like to complain. but. bad back runs in the family. I thought I was ok. no scoliosis (sp?) or anything. And then my leg started going numb. my mom showed me all kinds of fun stretches that I can do to keep it from getting too much worse.

yay

]]> ~rabid-penguins http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/13630705/ http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/13630705/ Fri, 06 Jul 2007 06:57:39 PDT
I'm potentially happier now.

I went to Seoul yesterday (Korean Market, not the city) cuz I wanted to bring some snacks for my Japanese class. We're cool kids, ya see.

As always, I checked the drink aisle. Because some small part of me refuses to accept that they'll never have Sac Sac again. It's probably the same part that makes me check the candy aisle at Mitsuwa in hopes that they'll have the Mitsuya Cider candies again.

and let me tell you, this has NEVER happened to me before.

THEY HAD SAC SAC

I was about to stock up on a bunch of cans, when I realized they had crates of it.

so I got a box of sac sac

^_^

]]> ~rabid-penguins http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/13555944/ http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/13555944/ Sat, 30 Jun 2007 19:44:43 PDT
and they had my pencil! So now, I have a new "zebra airfit" pencil, because I broke the clip on my old one near the beginning of the school yeah. yes, I suffered this long with a broken pencil. note, though, that this isn't the pencil I draw with.

not only that, I got another pencil, that's really cute and tiny. and I think it might be a .3 pencil, because my .5 lead isn't working with it. I think it's too big. too bad I don't have any .3 lead to check it with. I gotta scope that out. if it is a .3 pencil, I might cry. I've wanted one for so long, and it's just so cute!

but yeah, I got pencils. I'm smiling so bad.

]]> ~rabid-penguins http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/13535513/ http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/13535513/ Fri, 29 Jun 2007 07:09:53 PDT blog (check it out btw, shameless advertising here) but I dun write in there every day because... whole different mood there, I guess. whatever.

so as I've been drawing my crappy little comics, there's a notebook I use as my "drawing surface" table or desk? who needs it. I sit on my bed with my notebook. occasionally my physics binder. Once I used a cookbook. lol, it's how I work. Like with my specific drawing pencil. ocd much?

no, but the notebook is significant. I've been using the same one for years. Since at least 7th grade (I'm going to be a senior this school year, for reference) That's a long time. It's a three subject notebook, so it's got lots of pockets. and in the pockets is where I keep all my old art. yes, I realize it's not the best storage method. but it works.

but it's a notebook, so I wrote in there a lot too. I was big into writing fanfics back in 7th-ish grade. to be honest, I still would like to, but I've come to realize I suck at writing. I look back at my old stuff and sometimes I feel the need to just rip it out and throw it away. It's so bad. But I can't just throw out part of my past that easy. Although technically, I have done stuff like that before.

you'd think I could look back at it and think "well I'm glad I've improved so much since then" but no, I just think, omg I sucked. the one thing I do have on my side, is that even back then, I realized it sucked. I have some of my fanfics posted in various places, but most of them never saw the light of day. Thankfully.

that's my confession for the day. I used to suck so bad at writing, and that's basically why I stopped. I think I could do better now, but I'm afraid it will still suck, so I don't. That's why I don't draw that much anymore.

did you know, when I was little, my aspiration was to grow up to become and Indy car driver? Later, though, I decided I wanted to be an artist. I always loved to draw, and color, etc, and like any little kid, I thought I was really good and that I could be an artist. Now I realize I never would make it. It doesn't help that I dun draw that much, but seriously, I just don't have the talent.

I dunno. I never even got a taste of true artistry. Everybody talks about their fancy tools they use. Lessee, the pencil I have, I believe I stole from my brother's compass set. The eraser is actually a drafting eraser from Michigan Tech. For a pen, I use a generic pen from the store. Not ballpoint, I hate those. But just a generic black "uniball" pen. for paper? printer paper. To colour, I have a pack of... 72 coloured pencils. Target brand. I keep them alphabetized. I have photoshop. Photoshop elements, to be exact. I use illustrator sometimes. Really old version. But I can't use either even half as well as I should be able to, especially considering one of the careers I'm still seriously considering is graphic design. lol.

Ok, so I have crappy supplies. But I love them like they were my own. After all, they are. And I'm very overprotective of them. Everything has to be perfect. And seriously, it would be a waste to get me high tech artist supplies. I dunno how to do anything cool.

anyhow... what am I up to today? I was going to go bowling with me amigos, but then I remembered that I gotta get clothes for senior pics. lol I have nothing nice to wear. >.< But I'm still looking forwards to Saturday, and on Tuesday, my class is going to a Japanese restaurant cuz we don't have class. pretty cool, yo. And a couple of my buddies are getting back from vacation on saturday, so I'll be able to hang out with them now, too ^_^

]]> ~rabid-penguins http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/13515882/ http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/13515882/ Wed, 27 Jun 2007 18:28:55 PDT
as it is, I got a chicken pox booster shot and something for meningitis. Yeah, I've never had the chicken pox. sweet. but my arm does hurt a little now... but it's all good, I got a scooby doo band-aid. (the doctor almost gave my brother a hello kitty band-aid, but then decided it probably wasn't a good idea)

I'm seriously contemplating ordering clothes from Japan. I've found sites where I'd be able to get stuff fairly cheap. it kills me. I don't want clothes from Japan because "they're from japan". (although I will admit I want h.Naoto because, in fact, it's h.Naoto) I love the style. (think my shirt I put up pics of) I mean, sure, I can make more stuff, but I can only do so much. I can't make my own patterns. Not well, at least. As I figured out when trying to make my Cooro cosplay (which I'm still going to finish lol)

back on topic. If I could find places in America that sold the type clothes I'm looking for, I might cry. But I haven't yet. So I turn to Japan...

oh, so I'm in Japanese right now. It's cool. Having never taken a foreign language before, I wasn't quite sure what to expect. 'specially since it's a college class. And I've heard that Japanese is a really hard language to learn. Not to mention, I've been teaching myself Japanese since I was 11 (typical anime nerd I was) I figured it would be really hard for me because I probably learned things all wrong. However, apparantly I had only done the stroke order wrong, and I've fixed that already. The class is surprisingly easy, so that'll look good on my college transcript thing. And I've even made friends! I'm so proud of myself, lol. On Saturday I'm gonna go to Mitsuwa with a few of my buddies from the class, and Aniua, I think? (how do you do the cool link with the name?)

it seems that Japanese class is what I look forwards to the most each week. how lame is that? eh, well, I have ulterior motives. ^_^

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well lo and behold, there's some security program open saying there's like, 80-something bad things hanging around my comp. And I'm like, wtf? I have my anti-viral software, and it's always said everything was fine. And I thought I was the only one who used my computer, but I didn't open up that program. That's what happens when I go to bed early, I guess. I don't even know where the thing came from. and I can't do anything because of it. So I have no idea what to do. My dad probably would. Too bad he's in Cleveland for the weekend. argh. I can't really leave home cuz I gotta babysit, but I can't even get on my comp now because I don't even know why.

welcome to uber boredom.

oh, how am I posting this, you ask? I'm on my mom's comp, a good three feet away from my own. It's got one of those old-school clicky keyboards. Like the IBM ones. But not. But still guaranteed to give me carpal tunnel. Yay, right? Or at least annoy everyone next to me because it's actually really loud when I type.

and why can't I just use her comp instead of mine for the whole weekend? Well, I'll use it some. Like I am now. But it doesn't have any of my games or anything installed. And I don't even have an account on this computer. so I don't even know if I can install anything.

so uhh, I have nothing to do for the weekend T_T I think I'm going to go draw. watch out for updates to my gallery, guys. Who knows, maybe I'll get good at drawing again...

]]> ~rabid-penguins http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/13312385/ http://rabid-penguins.deviantart.com/journal/13312385/ Tue, 12 Jun 2007 05:42:51 PDT
no really, I just wanted to mention that I have only one pencil I'll draw with and only one eraser to use. The pencil is not my favorite pencil; that would be my white "airfit" one, which I need to get a new one of anyhow. My drawing pencil is a silver thing I stole from my brother's compass set. It doesn't make any noise when you click it to "advance the lead". I love it. My eraser, however, is the same one I use for everything. It's a drafting eraser, I believe.

I could go on and on about school supplies and the like. Because I'm a dork like that. But really, I'd rather not scare y'all away.

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