http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:ragnarpendon&section=today deviantART RSS for by:ragnarpendon en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 18 Dec 2009 15:49:50 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/27514149/ http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/27514149/ Thu, 01 Oct 2009 00:30:29 PDT
apparently......... i'm one of those...

hahahaha...

dunno... jsut something random to type before running out of laptop batteries...

if my math is right..... and it's usually not nowadays.... it's been a fuggin year since i last submitted my art on DA..... guess i'm that depressed.... or dry..... or just bored now...

hmmm...

something is definitely wrong........

]]> ~ragnarpendon http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/23759647/ http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/23759647/ Wed, 18 Mar 2009 07:59:19 PDT
of all the times i wish to spend... it's the times i spend with you i wish for the most

of all the things i want to have.... it's the one's i want to give you that i want more than anything

i love you...

i can't stop thinking about you...

i want to be over you...

i want to be with you...

i miss you too much...

i can't miss you enough...

you can't blame a guy for trying right? haha...

you can ignore me.....

you can make me feel unwanted....

but it's ok....

i'll keep this one sided emotion until i burst...

it's what i'm good at

]]> ~ragnarpendon http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/23283666/ http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/23283666/ Thu, 19 Feb 2009 05:48:53 PST


now then...

let's just say i'm the kind of person who's fingers can talk better than his mouth.... probably because my brain works faster when less energy is being used to power the jaw, face, etc...

anyway...

dad started a conversation (he's a religious intellectual.... not a good combo in a person, trust me).... and it just so happened that the topic for the night was "what is the point of marriage".... i picked not throwing in a opinion... they're saying pretty much the same thing anyway....

now... remember the earlier paragraph where i said my fingers talk better? well.... the problem with me is... my ideas turn to mush when being processed into speech so much so that they come up WAAAY different from when i first thought them up..

well... under direct "coercion" from both my brother and dad... i said "the point of marriage is picking someone (of the opposite gender, sorry folks, lesbian lover that i am, i'm not for same-sex marriages) who you would be with for the rest of your life for all the right reasons (i was gonna add something else but i like being short and simple in what i say)....

then, my brother, as much of an ass i believe him to be, says "well, what if i DON'T know the right reasons"

i was walking away when i said "then you're screwed" (note: i was walking away 'cuz i'm juggling the conversation and the leeched-upon neighbor's wifi which most likely will be cut off in a matter of minutes)....

then dad gets offended and launches off into this long lecture which i can only answer in my head... i hate it when that happens but hey... that's what you get if you don't want your parents to figure that you grew up a cynic and impulsively harsh in basically everything you say...

funny thing was i get referenced to Esau and that was what frustrated me most...

crap... i'm 23 and i'm still going through the teen "you don't understand me, you suck!" phase of life....


like i said.... frustrating

]]> ~ragnarpendon http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/23014761/ http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/23014761/ Thu, 05 Feb 2009 04:57:13 PST
lemme try this...


all my life.. i've kept my heart in this handy dandy box for me to carry on my own.... it ain't that bad really.... i've gotten to be used to anyway...


oh well.... in comes this girl..... (there always is )

and not only does she offer to carry that box for me..... she opens it up and takes out my heart to let it grow....


well.... she up and went to marry someone else and i'm here hanging on my own again with my heart slipping between my fingers....


oh well....


i could've handled it better if not for this OTHER girl.... (sensing a pattern here?)

i've been rejected again... haha....

but it DID lead me to this grand epiphany....

i'm looking for someone.... the same way everyone does at some point in life....

it's someone that can carry my heart with me.... 'cuz i'm starting to find it hard to carry on my own now.... it's tiring.... and lonely.... hahaha

and the only thing i can do is laugh because i know somewhere, somehow, someone is laughing at this too

]]> ~ragnarpendon http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/22937197/ http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/22937197/ Sun, 01 Feb 2009 07:08:23 PST
haha... i'm not much of a believer in rebounds and i'm not the type to wallow too deep in fonder memories.... so i guess...

there's this girl in school (isn't there always? haha).... she's spunky... she's cute... she has this cute nose that she's rather embarrassed of.... i guess she just grows on me...

thing is... before i realized it... before i found out for myself that i might actually have feelings for this girl... i've been her close personal pest...

haynako ....

the things i do.... and the messes i make...

now i'm seriously considering telling her how i feel...

crap.... i'm a mess....

]]> ~ragnarpendon http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/22538241/ http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/22538241/ Mon, 12 Jan 2009 06:29:20 PST
there was this girl once..... liked her from the bottom of my heart.... seriously.... i think i really LIKED her...

anyway.... told her (messed up actually, didn't plan to tell her at the time), and she let me down..... HARD (well, it wasn't easy, but it wasn't gentle either)

so, like any normal guy in my position.... i couldn't function right.... what else is there to say, it was my first real heart break moment... haha...

of course i had an image to protect and played the grin and bear it card (and i can play that card with the best of 'em i shit you not)


well of course, she apologized..... a couple of years later.... but we've been friends for a while even before the big reject moment... which is good, i think.... i get what i can get and what i get is what can be given and all she can give was .... well... it wasn't exactly friendship but screw it... it was at least SOMETHING right? (confusing mouthful, wasn't it?)

the funny thing is... i'm posting this frikin' confession on the frikin' internet and i'm not the type of person who bears his heart to the world (you gotta skin me first before i tell you anything )



i guess finally knowing that your girlfriend (different girl, not the goddess - it's complicated) is getting married to another guy gets you into perspective, you know?

haha.... life's funny like that...

so here's the thing.... if that certain goddess reads this... this is the only way i can get this mushy to someone i'm not dating (or just trying to land a score, for that matter - not that i can even see you that way - God forbid it's anathema to me to even consider it )...

when you care or even just like someone enough... you leave a piece of your heart with that person... or it just gets left behind even if you don't try......

what i wanna say is.... there are a ton of girls out there that, well, "owns" seems to be the proper word at the moment, owns a piece of my heart and i guess you'd be one of 'em... jeez... what am i saying? i'm risking you going all cold on me again... haha


i'm glad you stick around with me even when i'm being an ass...

i'm glad you're there when no one's there for me (my B-day "bash" anyone? )

i'm glad that you trust me with a lot of weirded out and rough details in your life....

but you know... if friend's all you want me to be then i'd do everything to be the best you can have...

hah... i'm being corny and acting out like a character from Dawson's Creek but lot's of people prefer being weird that way....

i guess the confession would be this... you'll always own a part of me... i can't take it back... or won't, i don't know... doesn't matter either way....

you'll always be someone near and dear to me... i can't help it... you've got that effect on a lot of guys... me included...

the corny cliche thing to say would be that i'll always be here for you, with or without your LB stories ....

haha.... i almost forgot what i wanted to post this jornal for...

LB's lucky.... you love him... i'm more glad than jealous actually... you've got a good thing going on with him and if he feels the same way for you, you better hold on to that good thing....

if he makes you feel like a real person, if he makes you feel the next day is worth waking up to.... then he's the luckiest bastard i know (and i mean that in a good way, mind you)

pffft.... haha... you got me all mushy and corny... you owe me pizza

anyway... see you when i see you




P.S.

if ever you get bored, that make out offer still stands hahah just joking

]]> ~ragnarpendon http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/14009321/ http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/14009321/ Sat, 04 Aug 2007 00:22:33 PDT
In the film, Devastator appears as a separate character that transforms into a heavily-modified M1 Abrams tank. This character was listed as being renamed Brawl; however, in the final movie, the Decepticon clearly identifies himself as Devastator, although the character is credited as Brawl in the end credits and merchandise. According to writer Roberto Orci and Hasbro's Transformers team, this is an error and that he is supposed to be named Brawl. However when queried, director Michael Bay has stated that he has always preferred Devastator, and that it is not a mistake. To date this controversy has not been resolved.

In the film, Devastator first appears driving in a remote area, rallying with the other Decepticons to Starscream's call. Later, he joins in the battle in Mission City where he engages in battle against Jazz, Ratchet, Ironhide, and a number of human soldiers. During the initial battle, he is dismembered by the Autobots, but reforms, continuing to fight against the humans until a damaged Bumblebee kills him with several shots to the chest, destroying his spark.


-Wikipedia


ok..... he disassembled!?! when!? where!? damn Micheal Bay....

]]> ~ragnarpendon http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/13172178/ http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/13172178/ Fri, 01 Jun 2007 04:14:02 PDT [link].i've.seen.are.tableted.......





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GRAAAH!!!

]]> ~ragnarpendon http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/13081198/ http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/13081198/ Thu, 24 May 2007 20:16:37 PDT
gone...

GONE!!!

the folder i kept them in just disappeared... did the resident anal pyromaniac (mom) throw them away and *gasp* disposed of them?

NOOOOO!!!! i can't think of such a thing!

where are you my children? where?! daddy's soooooo worried about you....

]]> ~ragnarpendon http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/11874987/ http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/11874987/ Sun, 18 Feb 2007 22:51:23 PST
FILLERS ARE OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BWHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!


RAMEN!

FIGHTING!

BLOOPERS!

FUCKING EFFIN' ANIMATIONS! (THEY'RE BACK! THEY'RE BACK!!!!)

SAKURA!

INO!!!!



HINATA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~ragnarpendon http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/11069033/ http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/11069033/ Fri, 15 Dec 2006 03:32:29 PST


anyway, i've rediscovered an old hobby/skill i had when i was in high school and that.... BALLPEN DOODLING!!!!!

yep, for some strange reason, my art looks better when i'm just plain doodling! it's kinda bit of a piss off cuz i can't color with messy lineart, hehe..... help? please?

]]> ~ragnarpendon http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/10817908/ http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/10817908/ Thu, 23 Nov 2006 00:18:21 PST

really, is it that hard to look for the fire code of the philippines?


grrrrrrrrr.... bad internet bad bad!!!

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someone help me here, the cafe had their aircondition pointed straight at me ! omg! TT_TT ]]> ~ragnarpendon http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/9549590/ http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/9549590/ Mon, 31 Jul 2006 02:19:12 PDT

ergh.... i'm so bored ]]> ~ragnarpendon http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/9409058/ http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/9409058/ Mon, 17 Jul 2006 18:57:16 PDT
haaai.... to think that i used to think to myself "no self-respecting artist would do that to his own hand" and actually do it ^_^.... well, that's what you get for not using your brain.


grrrrrrrr.... typing with just my left hand and right pinky and thumb is...... shall we say..... vexing.....


well, let that be a lesson to you guys out there..... anime is anime, that is the only time you get to see sanosuke's dual (or was it double) extreme fist, i tried it on a rock and this is what happens to me.... hontoni, i just punched a rock 'cuz i was bored and frustrated 'cuz i didn't have anything to draw ^_^ ]]> ~ragnarpendon http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/8557131/ http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/8557131/ Sun, 23 Apr 2006 03:23:45 PDT
hehe, i'm now making a neater version of "First Submission" and coloring it....

if anyone thinks that i should draw something else, speak up, i'll draw it! (get's all fired up)

I JUST LOVE BEING INSPIRED AND IN LOVE!!!!! ]]> ~ragnarpendon http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/8474759/ http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/8474759/ Sat, 15 Apr 2006 01:07:03 PDT
Karate messed up my hand (again) but i could still draw just fine.... now if i could just do something about this numbing pain right at the back of my hand ^_^

anyways, i can finally color decently with colored pencils althought i'm still far from becoming another *pyormaniac but still, i think i'm close(r)..... hehe, skin IS a bit more on the red side ^_^

heck, i'm just happy my block is on vacation! ]]> ~ragnarpendon http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/8455477/ http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/8455477/ Thu, 13 Apr 2006 04:14:59 PDT
praise me!

PRAISE ME!

weee!!!!

i'm having such a good day ^_^ ]]> ~ragnarpendon http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/8193493/ http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/8193493/ Fri, 17 Mar 2006 23:44:36 PST ~ragnarpendon http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/8164080/ http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/8164080/ Tue, 14 Mar 2006 22:26:03 PST
anywayz, at least i've inked a few relatively new drawings on tracing paper and putting them on PS6.0 to be colored later....thing is, i'm not that good.... can anyone point me out on a good tutorial (yours if you have one ^_^)? ]]> ~ragnarpendon http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/6602321/ http://ragnarpendon.deviantart.com/journal/6602321/ Sun, 25 Sep 2005 20:01:04 PDT
after a few hours of frustration with slow connection and busted keyboard, i was beside myself with joy, when i was able to load something into Deviant for the first time....

this lasted for about five minutes until a horrifying thought crossed my mind..... "now what?" ]]> ~ragnarpendon