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I'm really really happy right now. I have a new car because the old one was totalled. I've got almost 3 years with the love of my life. I'm finding myself in so many ways.

I finally exist.

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Hopefully this will all just blow over. Pun intended. ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/6266103/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/6266103/ Thu, 18 Aug 2005 21:51:35 PDT

School has started...last week, in fact. I'm teaching English and English and more English. They switched my classes around today.

I've been up to my ears in calling parents. 110 students, and I'm trying to call EVERY parent. WOOO!

Other than that, and having to wake up early, life is good. *smiles broadly*

Better than ever. ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/6106378/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/6106378/ Mon, 01 Aug 2005 21:33:59 PDT
John turned 21 yesterday. Woo! Went to the casino, won pretty dang well, and came back this afternoon.

Found out from the school that I'll be teaching all remedial classes, instead of the ones I wanted to. A job's a job, though...

Damn Nat. and their hiring freeze until today...I hate waiting to have to hear stuff. ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/5748336/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/5748336/ Fri, 24 Jun 2005 20:47:24 PDT
Some people say that I live too much in my memories. A lot of that has gone away now that my life is good enough to be worth enjoying in the here and now. But having observed one of the classes for 30 hours this three weeks, and then sitting with Chris (one of the girls from that class) at the tallent show, and seeing some of the people I went to ADVANCE with as staff...that really brought back memories. I'd have loved to go to the dance, and I'm kinda upset that I don't have a copy of End of the World by REM, though I do know it by heart.

I feel the need to have a good cry. Last night at supper a topic came up that really hit a nerve that I'd not realized was so painful...started crying there in the resturaunt, although softly. The subject quickly changed, and nothing has been said of it since. There are things I just haven't gotten out of my system yet...things that are still raw...that I've blocked. And I don't want to burdon the one person I currently feel like I can go to, because I feel like I've done it too often, in too many odd and uncomfortable situations.

And now I'm babbling.

To you ADVANCErs out there...I miss you. ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/5684931/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/5684931/ Sat, 18 Jun 2005 10:57:27 PDT
That remids me, I need to go buy my book for this class.

*poof!* ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/5654854/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/5654854/ Wed, 15 Jun 2005 10:21:43 PDT
It's really cool that I have people randomly drop by these days, even if it is usually that they knock on John's door and he's not there, but his car is, so they knock on mine. We sit around and watch Eddie Izzard or Futurama, and I cook, and everyone appreciates it. Makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside.

I brought over Duma and Shatiel, the two siamese-looking kitties day before yesterday. They're mostly outside cats, and I made collars for them so that they wouldn't be addopted, but I think they have anyway. Duma has shown up the past two nights, but I've not seen hide nor hair of Shati' since the first day. Oh well. Duma isn't going after the food, so I assume he's being fed somewhere, so that's good.

I'm done with all of my assignments for this two weeks, so that gives me time to start on the "earlybird" assignments for the next two weeks. The class schedule is odd...Every other day we've got to come to class, the others are online. Whatever. ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/5553817/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/5553817/ Sat, 04 Jun 2005 17:55:37 PDT
A fouton bed.
A chest of drawers with mirror.
A microwave table.

That's it for furnature. There was other stuff, of course. Now...what I got from Mom, who is moving to Shreveport:

A small book shelf.
A tall skinny chest of drawers.

Alright. No big deal, and it's good to have a place to put books...I need more of such spots right now, in fact. But it's what I got from Oma that takes the cake.

A bed.
Matching desk.
Matching large mirror.
Chest of drawers (x2).
Shrunk (like a china cabinent).
Coffee Table.
"Phone table" (tall, two shelves and a drawer).

Not to mention pots and pans, three sets of dishes, two of silverware, and tons of other stuff. Three sets of coasters...the smallest having ONLY five in it...the largest set having closer to 20.

But somehow...after six or seven loads of stuff (AFTER the furniture was there) I've managed to get everything to fit. Phew.

No idea on internet access yet. Tomorrow's my last day at work. And Monday I start hardcore classes. Wooo! ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/5332911/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/5332911/ Wed, 11 May 2005 19:06:52 PDT
In other news...there's not too much going on. I'm ready to move into my new place. John's in his, and enjoying it very much. And I'm enjoying having him around for the summer. And Jeanne's coming to visit next weekend. Joy! ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/5155494/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/5155494/ Fri, 22 Apr 2005 06:17:03 PDT
We'd been hearing death rattles since early afternoon. But they finally gave her morphine, so it was likely peaceful.

I had a dream about her going. Not sure what time, though. ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/5142851/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/5142851/ Wed, 20 Apr 2005 20:17:39 PDT
Mom showed up at work around 4:30 and told me I needed to take off, that if I was going to see my grandmother again alive, I'd better go then. I ran inside, got my stuff, and don't think I even really ASKED off before I ran out. Drove to her house, she was asleep. She's looked worse, but she wasn't looking good.
Background: She's got lung cancer. She'd gotten really bad for a while, and then they put her on this [i]miracle[/i] medicine that got her back to the point that she could DRIVE by herself again. But we were told that when it quit, it [i]QUIT[/i], and that's what's happened. She started going back downhill Wednesday of last week.
So I was there at her bedside, and she was asleep. My aunt and uncle came up from New Orleans (5 hours or so), and Dad and his girlfriend were there, and Mom was there, and so was the nurse and the sitter. I went and got ahold of Deljarum briefly and told him where I was, and he came to visit. He'd only really visited once before, and that was just briefly, but when I got back, my grandmother was awake, and when she saw me she IMMEDIATLY asked where he was. She really likes him, and spent a good while trying to make sure that he was there, and not an angel.
We all sat around for a while, and tried to convince her that we were ready for her to go whenever she was, and that she should go with her husband (who died 16 years ago, and had come for her twice). She'd seen other relatives over the past two days, and we wanted her to go with them. She continued to be awake and talking for several hours, and breathing was getting harder. Finally, she asked all of us if we would be okay, and if we minded if she went to sleep. She said goodbye, as did we all. I'll find out tomorrow if she lived through the night. ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/5114848/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/5114848/ Sun, 17 Apr 2005 19:03:34 PDT
I've mentioned Mom's got a new job. She'll be leaving between June and July, selling the house. That means I had to find a new apartment, which I did, with a girl named Jill. Nifty girl, though a little too into anime for my normal taste. We get along well enough.

Had to get something signed by work telling my hours/salary for that.

Went through my interview for grad school. Now all I have to do is find a teaching job between now and May 31. Has to be high school english. And...most teaching jobs come available in August.

If that doesn't fly, I may move to New Orleans and go ahead and start massage school. I've got several friends who would love that...but John might not. *sigh* He's considering massage school after he graduates. The good thing about New Orleans is that I could transfer to Fort Pike, or better yet, I've heard they need an Interpreter. That'd be a huge increase in pay for me, and benefits. :-D Or I could do one of the night tours (haunted New Orleans, Vampire Tour, Ghost tour, Voodoo tour, etc)...with two years experience as a guide, I'd be a shoe-in.

Negatives of that...I'd likely never come back to get my masters. I'm sick of this town. I'd also have to find somewhere to live. Jeanne might let me crash for a bit if I'd babysit and help pay...but I've got birds and cats and a snake....pets are hard to find places for.

That, and since there's 7 weeks this summer I can't work (if the masters thing goes through) I've got to uber-save money, because that's rent/utilities....I've gone up to 37 hours at the fort, 6 at Computer Explorers, possible subbing on tues/thrus, and the FISH website I'm designing. Wheeee.

Yeah.

And my paternal grandmother (the one with lung cancer, Oma, not the one who recently almost died of pneumonia) has about a month left.

And dad got a new dog.

And one of my cats is pregnant...anyone want a kitten?

The after school program I work for almost got shut down, due both to the administration being BASTARDS and a lack of communication.


I know I've forgotten stuff. I'll probably come up with it soon. ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4884299/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4884299/ Tue, 22 Mar 2005 18:22:57 PST ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4805324/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4805324/ Sun, 13 Mar 2005 19:40:51 PST
In better news, mom has decided to quit smoking. She saw what Nana coughed up, and decided that she never wants to put me through this. ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4767854/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4767854/ Wed, 09 Mar 2005 10:03:05 PST ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4696584/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4696584/ Mon, 28 Feb 2005 19:48:28 PST
Bah!

And Elena's ferret died. ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4650910/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4650910/ Wed, 23 Feb 2005 04:55:00 PST ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4544511/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4544511/ Thu, 10 Feb 2005 08:34:12 PST
Starting the trip at 8, not knowing the other girl who was going with us...ears perking up when she said "I'll bring my crochett", and bringing along one of Matt's books to read in the mean time if it got bored, the morning looked like it was going to be pretty uneventful. And then Jill put in a CD, of which the first song was Corsairs. :-D :-D :-D

There was a five hours singalong through ren faire music and 80's songs, and by the time we got to Little Rock we were getting to be good friends. Stopped at David's Bridal, and the first dress she tried on, Amanda loved. She tried on several more, with the two of us helping her like servants...getting her into and out of the strange wedding underwear, putting on and taking off her shoes, carrying her purse, and running off to look at prom and bridesmaid style dresses, which were all overpriced, and not the right color (electric blue).

After our David's Bridal bit, we went looking for another bridal shop, couldn't find it, so we headed off to Mt. Fuji's to eat Japanese food, which I've never had. Unfortunatly, as it was 2 already, they were closed, so we eneded up eating at Red Lobster. No complaints here. After that, back to David's for the appointment with the fitter. She got poked and prodded and pinned into the dress again, with Jill and I pretending to be daughters, "our mommy's getting married!!!" hehe. Dress came to almost 1k, with the shoes, vail, tiara, fancy unders, etc. Then off to the mall to try to find SOMETHING appropriate for the bridesmaids. Nope. But what we DID find were a great sale at Wet Seal where I got some nifty pants and Jill got a corset-esque top and thong. And we found dippin dots. And we went to this REALLY cool store Romancing the Stone, where we ended up getting the stuff the bridesmaids will carry, instead of boquets, as we walk down the isle....REALLY nifty blue candle holders...It's an iron holder with three hanging cobalt cones, each one holdes a tea light. At an outdoor evening wedding that's going to be beautiful, especially after we decorate them with greenery and yellow rosebuds (my job).

Then was the long trip back to Natchitoches, were we talked, for the most part. We'd been sung out on the way up, so some real getting to know you was good. Turns out that Jill is dating someone from Ville Platt, from where two of my coworkers come. Probably know eachother.

All in all, though I got home after 11, dead tired, yesterday was a good day... ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4470051/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4470051/ Tue, 01 Feb 2005 10:33:36 PST
"Chewy, put your insides back in!" ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4466442/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4466442/ Mon, 31 Jan 2005 20:59:24 PST The second group was crazy. They were loud and it took a lot to control them, but we got a few rules set down, and they started on the posters, and watched the spybotics movie thing on the CD.

I've got a headache. I've not eaten in two days....need to work on that.

In addition, I feel it needs to be said that I fucking hate two faced people. ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4395663/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4395663/ Sun, 23 Jan 2005 16:24:14 PST
w00t ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4332389/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4332389/ Sun, 16 Jan 2005 06:01:20 PST B - Breast size: 36C
C - Chore you hate: emptying the dishwasher
D - Dad's name: Scott
E - Essential make-up item: Eyeliner
F - Favorite perfume: sweat
G - Gold or silver: silver.
H - Hometown: Natchitoches, LA
I - Insomnia: sometimes
J - Job title: wage interpreater, and substitute teacher
K - Kids: none
L - Living arrangements: mom's garage apartment
M - Mum's birthplace: Seaside OR
N - Number of apples you've eaten: ever? too many to count.
O - Overnight hospital stays: none, thank god.
P - Phobia: lonliness. ivy roots.
Q - Qualities: hrm...that's too vague.
R - Religious affiliation: Agnost, with a strong Christian and Pagan influence.
S - Siblings: none
T - Time you wake up: 7:45ish
U - Unnatural hair colors you've worn: red, blue, yellow, silver, orange, purple
V - Vegetable you refuse to eat: yams
W - Worst habit: self deprecation.
X - X-rays: back, knee, teeth
Y - Yummy foods you make: chicken kiev, mushroom chicken and gravy, chicken fried rice, spaghetti
Z - Zodiac sign: Scorpio ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4239404/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4239404/ Tue, 04 Jan 2005 16:38:55 PST
I'm tired of having other people's problems projected onto me.

And I'm tired of never being allowed to have a problem in peace...someone always has to have something bigger against me.

When the dust settles and I've finally admited to myself, it's time to let things be. I don't feel like dealing with it anymore. ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4220088/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4220088/ Sun, 02 Jan 2005 11:33:30 PST
That makes me mucho happy.

Certain things seem to finally be sinking in. That's a good thing.

Got a touch of work done on the website. That's a good thing too.

Yellow mucus, on the other hand, is NOT a good thing. ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4212806/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4212806/ Sat, 01 Jan 2005 14:13:45 PST About nine this morning he woke me up, we went through my clothes and are getting rid of about a third of them, walked around downtown, probaby a few miles total, in and out of stores on front street, and through the cemetary. Then napped again. Apparently I had bad dreams because I twitched a lot, he said.
And then he left, and mom's cooking cabbage, black eyed peas, and ham for supper (ick) because it's wealth, health, and happiness. And I've got to pick up my computer soon...I'll be glad for that. Need to find a place to put a bookshelf too.

The kittens are getting outdoors exposure now, they've spent several days in a row outside most of the day. Today was their first time meeting rain. And they immediatly rush to the litter box when I let them in. We moved it outside today, and they rushed to where it used to be. I'm trying to get them to start not staying in nearly as much.
Nibbler made himself true to his name and nibbled on mom's cheek a little hard today. hehe.
Last year flew by. It already seems like this one will too. I feel like I've got a weight off my shoulders, and I've got two jobs and two prospective jobs, plus the website. Grad school this summer and next semester. Then off...or here...to who knows what. ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4195970/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4195970/ Thu, 30 Dec 2004 18:44:51 PST
I could say the same stuff I said in my live journal, about John coming to visit tomorrow, and how much I've missed his arms. About work today, and making soap from lye and fat tomorrow, and going to Roques for New Years Eve.

And I could mention that Kevin finally moved into the other house, and that Bo finished my computer, so I'll pick it up sometime.

And about the website I've got to make for the fish hatchery.

But all of that feels so dull.

I talked to a friend today. I'd gotten worried for a bit that she was doing something stupid that might hurt the both of us. But it turns out she didn't. Still didn't lighten my mood once it had already sunk.

I've been depressed a lot lately, though I hide it well.

I'd really like to melt into a quivering blob, but unfortunatly I'm not Alex Mack (or whatever that show was).

This isn't a cry for notes or pity....it's more of a freewriting excercise.

I definatly think it's time for another Pg. 82 at some point. I may handwrite it, and then type it out. ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4126200/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4126200/ Wed, 22 Dec 2004 09:20:34 PST ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4115793/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4115793/ Mon, 20 Dec 2004 23:37:09 PST
It's a creepy feeling when the new beau's parents buy you christmas presents, when you have NO warning to even think of getting something for them in return. ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4069152/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4069152/ Tue, 14 Dec 2004 20:42:10 PST The first day (Friday) I was the only wage person there, and then there were some few reenactors, and the two rangers. As it was cold, and I needed warm-ish hands, I borrowed a pipe that I smoked just enough to keep going, so I could warm my hands by the bowl. I've actually considered getting one for that reason. There was one merchant tent with Joey and his daughter (she's about my age) and they had a baby quaker. They'd had it since it was about two weeks old--when it couldn't even stand by itself. It's wings were clipped, but they let it wander around wherever, and I played with it a good bit. One of the guys, James, was carying around a chamber pot with apple cider and a rubber turd in it, and would randomly take a sip, make a face, and then spit, causing anyone around to be curious, then quite grossed out when they looked into what he'd sipped. "oopse, I picked up the wrong jar". hehe. Anyway, had a pretty good time, John showed up around 5ish, Darren, Elista, Elista's mother, John, Sharky, and I went to Chillie's in our garb, getting some wonderfully confused stares. We later hung about the fort long enough to notice that NOTHING was going on, and left.
Saturday morning we arrive, there are two scheduled tours, and TONS of peole besides that. We've got about 8 wage workers, six other staff, and close to 40 reenactors there by that time, and we had FOUR HUNDRED people come through. That's more than we normally have in SEVERAL MONTHS! It was SO COOL. I got joked with a lot about being a "toe weaver" instead of fingerweaver, as I used my toes to hold the stuff. Four cannon firings, plus several musket firings, and a swivel gun, which I'd never seen used. Good times. That night we went to Maggios and picked up assorted goodies, came back, drank some, drank some punch they'd concocted, watched the fireworks from a really nifty vantage point, then came back and had flaming apple pieces. Basically alcohol, some slices of apple (not sure if they'd been in the punch or not, they were really strong) that was lit on fire, and you reached into the skillet to get one, then eat it while it's still burning. I had about seven, Tommy was too chicken to get ANY of them. Ended up crashing in the Storehouse Keeper's House, with Darren, Sharky, Nick, and John. John and I started to share a rope bed, but it was too short for John, he walked around a bit, came back, shivered so bad I made us go into the other room and build up the fire, and sleep in front of it for the night. Darren and Sharky snored so loudly that it LITERALLY shook the building, Nick and John can attest to that with me.
Morning came, we're groggy, head to wally world to pick up food and medicine, as John was sick. Came back, hung out, washed some dishes, and some socks. BEAUTIFUL day today. Abso-fucking-lutely gorgeous. Everyone was gone by five, I got another set of leg ties done, and basically had a GREAT time this weekend.


In other news, sometime next week I'll begin moving my stuff over to my mom's. Wheee. But, it's rent free...I'm just going to insist on (and pay for) DSL instead of the dialup she's got already. ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4014277/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/4014277/ Tue, 07 Dec 2004 19:50:23 PST ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/3956645/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/3956645/ Tue, 30 Nov 2004 14:16:22 PST 80's cartoon themes, MC Hawking, William Shatner "signing".

2. What do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night?
grasshoppers.

3. What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie?
What Dreams May Come.

4. If you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done?
I want longer fingers.

5. Do you have a completely irrational fear?
heights. or rather, coming down from them.

6. What is the little physical habit that gives away your insecure moments?
Picking at stuff.

7. Are you a pyromaniac?
fire good.

8. Do you have too many love interests?
nahh

9. Do you know anyone famous?
I've met several, but I wouldn't say I KNOW them..

10. Describe your bed:
mattres on the floor that sometimes is willing to keep sheets

11. Are you spontaneous or planned
both

12.who would play you in a movie?
no fricking idea

13. Do you know how to play poker?
texas holdem.

14. What do you carry with you at all times?
keys, wallet, chapstick.

15. What do you miss most about being a kid?
lack of responcibility.

16. Are you happy with your given name?
I'm not terribly fond of it, it's pretty common. And everyone misspells Nicky.

17. How much money would it take to get you to give up the Internet for one year? eh...how much ya got? It wouldn't be that hard, but I'd take whomever was offering for all they were work.

18. What color is your bedroom?
white

19. What was the last song you were listening to?
Pink Floyd's "hey you"

20. Have you ever been in a play?
several

21. Have you ever been in love?
Yes.

22. Do you talk a lot?
too much.

23. Do you like yourself and believe in yourself?
nope. but I'm getting beter

24. Do transient, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you?
rarely

25. Do you consider yourself to be a nice person?
too nice, some people say

26. Do you spend more time with your girlfriend/boyfriend or your friends?
I try to spend about equal time, though in the past relationships have had monopoly.

27. What is your ideal marriage location?
marriage? ha!

28. Which musical instrument do you wish you could play?
Guitar or harp

29. Favorite fabric?
flannel

30. Something you love and hate?
I love my friends. I hate willful ignorance.

31. What kind of bedding do you use?
dinosaur sheets!

32. Do you tell your friends about your sex life?
I try not to.

33. What's the one language you want to learn?
gaelic

34. How do you eat an apple?
chomp.

35. What do you order at a bar?
smirnoff tripple black, or a skyy

36. Have you ever been pierced?
five times

37. Do you have tattoos?
triskelle on my heel.

38. Do you drive a stick?
I know how to, but I don't.

39. Favorite personality trait of the opposite sex?
the ability to play, yet be serious when need be

40. What's one trait you hate in a person?
willful ignorance and closedmindedness

41. What kind of watch do you wear?
tryin to get into the habit of wearing a pocketwatch.

42. Most frivolous purchase?
gosh...so many. anything at ren faire...


43. Do you consider yourself materialistic?
more than I'd like to be.

44. What do you cook the best?
chicken kiev?

45. Favorite writing instrument?
ball point pen

46. Do you prefer to stand out or blend in?
depends on my mood. usually stand out.

47. Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex?
often.

48. What's one car you will never buy?
something overly fancy

49. What kind of books do you like to read?
religious documentation, spiritual stuff, fantasy, sci-fi, comics.

50. If you won the lottery, what would you do?
um...call me a dork, but put it in savings.

51. Burial or cremation?
burial

52. How many online journals do you read regularly?
two or three

53. What's one thing you're a loser at?
relationships. I always screw them up.

54. If you don't like a person, how do you show it?
I avoid them, but when I run into them, I'm extra nice.

55. Do you cry in front of your friends?
Only one or two.

56. What kind of fi... ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/3864520/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/3864520/ Thu, 18 Nov 2004 12:17:11 PST
I ended up jumping around squeeling in glee. I love dinosaur sheets. They've got happy memories, and the comforter is JUST PLAIN COMFY. As it should be.

Now that I've got a great camera, I'll likely be posting more scraps/snapshots.

Saturday the 4th Darren, Jessica, John, and I are going to Louisiana Renaissance Festival. It'll be my second time this year...we ALL managed to get off work for it, on Christmas Festival weeeknd. This should be fun, I can only immagine what Darren will be like at faire.

Things with Kevin have exploded, and it's my fault. And I feel really crappy about it. I had some hope left in that he left some DVD's and other stuff, but he very quickly noted me and let it be known that I can get those back to him through Bo, and that the reason they were left was that he couldn't find them.

He doesn't feel that I'm sorry for what I've done, only for the friend I've lost. Which is not true. I don't want to cause others pain, I hate doing so, and I have. *sigh* ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/3784913/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/3784913/ Mon, 08 Nov 2004 12:57:34 PST ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/3515041/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/3515041/ Mon, 04 Oct 2004 21:43:54 PDT
*smirk* Good turn of phrase. Bonus points. ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/3318840/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/3318840/ Wed, 08 Sep 2004 15:51:26 PDT ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/3293441/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/3293441/ Sun, 05 Sep 2004 14:42:53 PDT

last night...wheeeeee...the Zydeco festival was going on in town, and Bo and I walked down and danced a bit. We came back while the band was tuning.Jason had some friends over, and
we decided we wanted smirnoff tripple black, so we headed to the store, got that, and a bottle of jager for Jason. A CASE of smirnoff...not just a 6 pack...sat around drinking, and finally ran off jason's friends. I introduced Bo to Nightwish and some other good music, then the three of us walked down to the river again, and dangled our feet in. We came back, decided to watch A Clockwork Orange. By this time there were one smirnoff left, and only about half a bottle of jager, and it was about 2am.
And then there's a knock on the door, it's two of my coworkers drunk off their asses. "hey! can we crash for a while?!" "sure. why the hell not." So we all pile into Bo's room,they pass around the half bottle of jack they've got, and we pass around what's left of the jager. Bo decides he wants sleep, Jason's already passed out on my bed, so Darren and Gerry decide we should go swimming at Darrens' house.
Darren gives me the keys, being the most sober of the three and we head over there, but the cops are driving by, and the pool technically closes at 10, so they decide we should go to Kisatchie This is where we went... Because I thought we were just going down the road to swim, I'm in boxers and t-shirt, no wallet, no shoes, slightly less intoxicated than they are. Darren decides I'm not driving fast enough, and that he's got to reach down and push on the pedal, and that he should take over the wheel, and gerry's having to slap him away. "Let her drive. She's behind the wheel. She's more sober than you are, you drunk fuck." So we get out there, to the middle of fucking nowhere. "the plateau" We leave the vehicle behind and half carry Darren up the first plateau, then sit him down in one spot, because there's no way he can get BACK down and up the next one,
and since I'd never been out there, Gerry takes me to the second one. By this time, it's about 3am, and I'm barefoot in the middle of the woods. Climbing.
So we end up at the top of the second plateau, and we talk about work, about shrooming, about God. And then he starts going on about how pretty much all the guys at work have crushes on me, especially Darren, (Thrill) and how the other girl at work they've all got crushes on too...and that Tommy (who's my dad's age) was actually obsessed with Celeste for a while. She's 18. So we keep talking a while, and Gerry and I decide that Darren's probably passed out drunk at the top of the other plateau, and since Kevin's coming to visit when he gets off work around 7, that we need to get home. By now it's 5:30. So we head back up the other plateau, and Darren's not there. Gerry, as expected, shouts FUCK! as loud as he can. We head back to the truck, and find that Darren's crashed out half hanging out of the passenger seat of his truck.
I hand the keys to gerry because I'm so fucking tired, and he's actually got a license on him, and it's getting to be daylight. By the time we made it back to Natchitoches and they dropped me off, Kevin was already here, and neither Bo nor Jason knew where I'd been. Jason had apparently told Kevin "I don't know...two guys came over, they started drinking, and she left with them" Jason's kinda pissed that I went off with that high of a BAC, but they were going to go either way, and I was more sober than they were.

And that was my night. Wheeee ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/3242891/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/3242891/ Sun, 29 Aug 2004 21:10:30 PDT
So if y'all can keep her in your thoughts/prayers, that'd be really nice.

Thanks ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/3141772/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/3141772/ Mon, 16 Aug 2004 19:06:52 PDT
Post your completely honest opinion of me as a comment to this entry. Don't feel afraid to say whatever. I want you to be brutally and completely honest. Write as much or as little as you want, but if you're reading this, I want you to comment.

For the LJ one, there's something about "you don't have to leave your name"...but I'm not sure if you can do that here. Doesn't much matter to me either way. ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/3125940/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/3125940/ Sat, 14 Aug 2004 17:31:39 PDT It's strange when your fiance is trying to convince you someone else is better for you.
Got a nice compliment/comment yesterday. I was speaking of the different people that I am at different times...not personalities, but masks that I have to wear in different situations. And I was told that the Nicky that I am when I'm in school, the jeans and t-shirt and flannel non "girl" Nicky....is missed.

That made me VERY happy. I'm currently wearing jeans, t-shirt, and flannel. :-D ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/3075478/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/3075478/ Sun, 08 Aug 2004 15:56:25 PDT
And there may be some strange things starting in this house soon. But we won't go into that, as parties involved are sitting here. ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/3032648/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/3032648/ Tue, 03 Aug 2004 06:52:54 PDT
Poof! ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2984094/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2984094/ Tue, 27 Jul 2004 22:41:03 PDT [link] ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2974028/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2974028/ Mon, 26 Jul 2004 17:06:02 PDT
I remember that we drink the Boone's farm. I had part of a gin and tonic, because it was bitter, and I didn't like it. And I remember Jason and I drinking half the bottle Jager. According to Laura...I finished off the bottle. Apparently most of the first half was Jason, and most of the second half was me. I don't remember the second half. I also, apparently, don't remember falling backwards into a chair, straight forward and bashing my face. I've got some interesting cuts, such as the one on my chin that's circular. And the one above my upper lip--an abrasion. And I vaguely remember throwing up. But I don't remember the nose bleed. I think it may be broken. It pops now.

So yeah. I remember until about 1:30. A half a bottle of Jager. But apprently it was close to three when they got me into the bed. And a full bottle.

I was drunk the next morning to go to work. I slept at work until about 2. ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2851649/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2851649/ Sat, 10 Jul 2004 20:35:35 PDT "If I ever get a real body, will you be my daddy?"
Feathers were her special way of saying "I love you." And, as children do, she doesn't understand when people don't appreciate the gift. She once gave a feather, a BEAUTIFUL feather, that she was VERY proud of, to someone that she wanted to be her new friend. And because he didn't understand the gift, and because he didn't really understand her, he didn't appreciate the significance of the gift. And it broke her heart.
And he still doesn't understand her, because he never got a chance to know her. And he doesn't want to know her, she worries him. And because no one is around anymore for her to love, and to give feathers to, she's slowly withering away. And someday she's going to die. And only three people besides me will miss her. ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2844862/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2844862/ Fri, 09 Jul 2004 21:30:22 PDT
Tomorrow I'll put up some pictures of the two new birds--and perhaps the six I've had for a while. hehe.

Any one have ideas for names? Puns are greatly appreciated. Other birds names are

Cockatiels: Leiko (lee co) and Chickenhawk
Parakeet: Kitty ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2828906/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2828906/ Wed, 07 Jul 2004 21:02:21 PDT ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2797557/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2797557/ Sat, 03 Jul 2004 20:07:39 PDT ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2783647/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2783647/ Thu, 01 Jul 2004 21:46:15 PDT
The last one died this morning. ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2750736/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2750736/ Sun, 27 Jun 2004 20:51:52 PDT
And it's never enough. ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2742998/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2742998/ Sat, 26 Jun 2004 20:17:01 PDT
And I'm brought back to the smell of sliver polish, that gritty oxidized copper color, and the wooden case with the burgandy velvet holding silverware, with some pieces I didn't know the use of.

Waking up early and starting cooking--mom would usually have the turkey on by five or so. The smell of roasting pecans, of "forest gump peas", some form of rice for me, ambrosia (with or without cherries), bread (often homemade), and whatever else we decided. Fruit salad in Great grandmother's bowl, that no one could touch but mom, that way if anyone broke it, it would be her, and she couldn't be mad at anyone.

Fancy dinners didn't have salt and pepper shakers. We had these special containers for salt and pepper, that you had a tiny spoon to go with, and you scooped it up and sprinkled it on your food. Birgitta used those salt and pepper holders as candleholders for dad's birthday. They're made of crystal.

Church in the morning if it was Christmas or Easter. If it was Thanksgiving, people would just begin to arrive. Dinner around two, and this really was Dinner, because everyone dressed up. Our family doesn't really use the proper southern terms of Dinner being the lunch meal, the main meal, and Supper being the evening. Everyone would be dressed up...church dress, even though we knew that three people would be sitting on the bench. The extra leaves were put in the table. Place cards for people's names sometimes.

It hasn't happened since the divorce. Won't happen again, because mom's part of the family refuses to travel for big holidays, and if they do come, four year old triplets don't work well formally. And dad's side of the family...well, Aunt Kristie has a keen dislike of my mom.

But I think I'm going to ask this year...if that can be my chistmas present. or birthday present at thanksgiving, if nothing else. ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2736710/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2736710/ Fri, 25 Jun 2004 20:21:05 PDT ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2727890/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2727890/ Wed, 23 Jun 2004 20:36:29 PDT

After work Kevin and I went by a big car sale, and found nothing, but then decided on a whim to go to Shrevport. We found a ceramic dragon for me to paint, several books, a wonderful pillow thingy shaped like a lizard that we named Yoshi, 3 CD's (Nightwish, Ra, and Bad Religion). We ate Red Lobster. :-D

And then we went to BestBuy. Kevin's been wanting a wide screen HD tv, with all sorts of other bells and whistles. We found one for relativly cheap, with a free recliner and ottoman with it. It'll be delivered within a week of Ike leaving.

I'm tired. And doing laundry. And some of the towels had actual MOLD growing on them. Nasty stuff. ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2720952/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2720952/ Tue, 22 Jun 2004 16:39:13 PDT
~Rahvin ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2720820/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2720820/ Tue, 22 Jun 2004 16:18:21 PDT
Should have some interesting snap shots from it though. ]]> ~ravhinnos http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2715278/ http://ravhinnos.deviantart.com/journal/2715278/ Mon, 21 Jun 2004 22:08:34 PDT In fact, I try to suport anyone's beliefs, as long as they know why they believe them. If it's something your parents shoved down your throat until it became rote in your mind, then no, I don't suport them, and I'll actually try to (in the words of many Christians) "break your faith" so that you can really think about what you believe.
But if you know why you believe, if you've thought it out, and decided that you're athiest because __________. Or Pagan, or Buddist, or Methodist, or whatever.

I really hate it when people insult others who really do believe, and who have thought out their belief. Especially when it's something important to them. And I get insulted when that happens. I don't expect people to believe what I believe, or even to believe in anything at all. But you goddamned better respect my right to have that belief. Especially if I'm just telling my belief, not trying to shove it down someone else' throat. Giving the suggestion "this has helped me, maybe it will help you." is different than saying "you will burn in eternal flame if you fail to believe." The first I support, the second, I condem.

My personal beliefs can be summed up using scientific words. Or spiritualistic words--Metaphysical.

To some people, faith is a way to escape life. For others, it's a way of life. For some, it's something that must be worked at. For others it is as easy and subconscious as breathing. And for some, it never crosses their mind.

The yogis belive there are several ways to reach enlightnment, from what I was taught in world religions. One is persuit of physical and material plesure. Another is the dedication to a certain deity. A third is control over the body and mind. Another is dedication to knowledge, and the gain thereof. Each path is as viable as any other.

Why can't people respect other people's paths? ]]> ~ravhinnos