http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:redheadedangel&section=today deviantART RSS for by:redheadedangel en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 09 Dec 2009 17:56:36 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/17552530/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/17552530/ Fri, 28 Mar 2008 06:13:42 PDT il submit some more work as soon as i can! i promise, i just need to get some decent photos of it first,

hope everyone is well xxx

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]]> ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/8775159/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/8775159/ Mon, 15 May 2006 05:48:34 PDT any way lots of wrk to upload ]]> ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/8516788/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/8516788/ Wed, 19 Apr 2006 02:34:49 PDT
ne one want to model for me and id appreciate it!! ]]> ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/6782138/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/6782138/ Sun, 16 Oct 2005 10:10:22 PDT ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/5855223/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/5855223/ Wed, 06 Jul 2005 09:18:41 PDT i guess that means that its really over
kinda sad and scary that a yr has gone by so quick and ive really not done a lot in that yr, well over than kiad lol... hmm contemplating new things but never achieve them
maybe this yr will be different




maybe ]]> ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/5447528/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/5447528/ Tue, 24 May 2005 11:35:12 PDT ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/4285573/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/4285573/ Mon, 10 Jan 2005 12:02:39 PST
strange things are going on atm breakups i totally didnt expect and i feel so lost... if they cant hold on together christ what is happening

and choices in courses for art uni are getting harder and harder, i wish it were next yr and this was all done and i wudnt have to worry.. instead id worryabout making new friends, i sucked at it this yr what makes me think going some where else will make it any better ]]> ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/4226767/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/4226767/ Mon, 03 Jan 2005 06:00:12 PST ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/3171555/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/3171555/ Fri, 20 Aug 2004 09:41:21 PDT
yea...

im missin ben, more and more and its not like some sad lil obsession i just well miss him, we clicked so well togehter the first time we meet and had such gr8 times, yes now im in a settled relationship and studyin quite a lot of the time in prep for uni but it does not mean that i dont hav time for him, i hope he will come to the manor tonight but i doubt it manor is for lil kids.... just like me i guess ]]> ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/2712798/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/2712798/ Mon, 21 Jun 2004 14:39:01 PDT ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/2470032/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/2470032/ Thu, 20 May 2004 13:35:55 PDT

im on the look out for a drummer in the kent area to play in a new punk rock band being formed any oneknow of anyone pass on some details and il give them a call x ]]> ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/2454903/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/2454903/ Tue, 18 May 2004 11:16:37 PDT ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/2303201/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/2303201/ Mon, 26 Apr 2004 14:20:50 PDT ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/2113701/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/2113701/ Tue, 30 Mar 2004 05:38:21 PST
neb i miss u ]]> ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/1909799/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/1909799/ Thu, 26 Feb 2004 12:38:30 PST here are tings i shud hav done and things i shudnt

i shud hav done that burnin god dam coursework and nto sat at this computer and stared hopin it wud do itself
i shud have seen more of my friends, rather than see my bf
i shud hav drunk less coffee and not b so dam hype all the time,
i shudnt hav allowed my boy ( bf) to put sweets on my ice cream in pizza hut, he got to many and i felt sick
i shud have relaxed more at the theatre rather than play mummy to them,
i shudnt hav tried to reach the bars in the tubes and fallen over, already knowing im to small
i shud hav spent mroe time working out,
and shudnt hav eaten two bars of choc on the way home ( dam hormones)
i shud hav read the leaflet instructions more carefully on hair dye,
i shudnt have dyed my hair pink
i shud hav watched more films this hol,
i shudnt watch so much day time tv
i shud hav drank more water
and drank less jack daniels
i shudnt pick my phone up at half two in the morning,
i shudnt get jealous of my ex gettin laid
i shudnt b so self cnscious
i shudnt watch my wieght but i do
i shudnt fear goin up to a size 8 but i do
i shud by the left field albumn and extend my diverse music selection
i shudnt worry that the albumn will cost me 20 quid no matter where i buy it
i shud chill more
i shud smile more

and i will

so what shud and shudnt u guys do? ]]> ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/1826933/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/1826933/ Wed, 11 Feb 2004 07:17:45 PST oo dear, and i would hav thought they wud hav a brilliant sex life, obv not!!!! ]]> ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/1826932/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/1826932/ Wed, 11 Feb 2004 07:17:45 PST oo dear, and i would hav thought they wud hav a brilliant sex life, obv not!!!! ]]> ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/1798048/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/1798048/ Thu, 05 Feb 2004 11:53:33 PST ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/1706992/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/1706992/ Mon, 19 Jan 2004 13:51:42 PST

i saw chatham last night, i dont mean to say i walk around wit my eyes closed pretending im not here * return me to home return me to home* dorothy style, prayin to be taken to a land where every guy is gorgeous and dinner is always low in calories, but i saw it from the great lines.. wit matt and his new puppy -freddie the excitable pup that nibbles u and barks at bags?!? yes so anyway we sat there, it was dark adn u could see the lights twinkin and the cars goin past probably to *insert common chav tone* amadeus!! with their boom boxes in the trunk and gold clowns hung around their necks, but that didnt matter, it mattered that me and matt were sittin and watchin the wierd way that chatham looked so beautiful, but it was prob just the company making me feel that way... i feel guilty tho i did something bad last night, i guess i was testin his loyaltie, knowin his past and my past luck wit guys i sent anoymous ( cant spell) emails to him from a girl chattin him up, of course and stupidly i shud hav known this he refused he spoke my praises saying to this complete stranger that he loved me, i should hav known from the look in his eyes i guess, i should hav known, but no i was a fool and i dont deserve him i was stupid and risked losing him for my own good my own sanity i guess... mayb i do need counsilling, il lay on the couch shall i doc? ]]> ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/1658029/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/1658029/ Sat, 10 Jan 2004 12:02:51 PST
hannah is a drunk, we know this bcoz last night she went out clubbing and didnt return til the wee hours of the morning and bcoz she woke up all full of cold but remember havings a reallly good time for once. some guy and his girl wlked up to me and sarah (girl i work with) and started tlkin to them, assumed sarah new them, turns out he goes to london insitute of art and deisgn and she goes to kiad.. after tlking more bout being 18 finally and how unfair it was that i looked so young they moved on to pounce on the next unsuspecting victims, i turned to sarah and asked how she knew them... she didnt she assumed i knew them we laughed, its funny how alchol makes u such a nicer person, i spoke to yr 12's that i never normally wud and danced wit guys id met in passing... is this why noah agreed to build that arc when he cud hav been drinking cappacinnos by the river that was flooding and admiring the sunset.. but no he built an arc.. what a nice guy ]]> ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/1548025/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/1548025/ Wed, 17 Dec 2003 13:31:21 PST also cant get hold of ben which is annoying me futher, i only hav his london home fone number and i hav a feelin he is in gillingham, right on my dam door step yet cant get hold of him, im more than annpyed now, think il go draw, ...... or sulk ]]> ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/1354183/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/1354183/ Mon, 03 Nov 2003 14:13:18 PST ok so as i was before.... usually in this diary i intend on tellin u peeps what is happening in my life, as i guess thats what a diary is for... day planning, reflecting all that s*** but i usually ramble pointlessley and tend to aviod the real subject of the day.. well today... i wont.............. maybe
back to school after a week "off" i had to wrk allll week at opticains so yea ahem, was nice to see all my mates that i havnt seen all weel again, like ian i was worried bout him i know he has had a hard time recently and i was worried but he seems ok, he even let me listen to his precious punk music ( blink 182 and static x?) yea im not really into punk music but this was good i may even by the album... its nice to see someone so passionate bout something as i get... ian and his music ( his guitar) steve and his politics dan and his photography and ben and his deviant art and me and my wierdness, so any way on with the day, four lessons as normal packed with learning and such funness, saw dan for about ten mins at lunch and had sing language tonight, which is good coz im learnign more and my vocab is getting wider and wider.... tlking of dan as we were, i mentioned the other day that i wanted to do some more photo model shoots, really hopin to get my portfolio togehte rand see if 5tf2 me stands a chance of being a model, but i sed i wanted to do it differently on a deeper and darker level rather than this glizy shoots of me and my boob smiling away and posin for the camara, i dont look like that in real life and i see the photo as a lie at times,but a nice photo all the same.. i asked if he wudnt mind doin some when i was on a low ( now for a bit of explaintion i feel, i apologise to ppl like ange and tes and niamh who i havnt explained these things i get.. i jsut hope u nt worry to much, sometimes i get low.depressed. whatever u wna to call it i get headaches and things just flip for me... if u want more detail, ive done a piece of writing on it, which i can give to you but im sorry) anyway i think some photos done in this kind of mood wud b so powerful and good for me to ge tout, plus incluision of song lyrics and characters and voila more deviant art for me and my portfolio but dan doesnt seem to keen on the idea, i guess i can udnerstnad why, seein me on a low a self infliceted low at that isnt gna b nice, but he wull get som egreat wrk from it and makes a change from the glitz and glam all the time.. il hush now ( but peeps let me know what u think)
josh my nearly 2 yr old newphew for the first time asked me to pick him up he put his hands out to me and said hannah, one of only 3 wrds he can say along with ball and ballon god im special... i think thats pretty much it for the day, other than that life is .... normal i guess... well normal for me any way ]]> ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/1304296/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/1304296/ Mon, 20 Oct 2003 23:40:28 PDT ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/1263109/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/1263109/ Sat, 11 Oct 2003 11:29:48 PDT went to a formal party last night... my date was to ill so hannah played loner girl, wish id had the guts to dare ask ben to come back for it... dan is back in 6 days after his mnth holiday in spain... hannah has internet back... she has just got to send ucas monday morning, finally handed that dam coursework in and now gets to concentrate on her art work horah so many idea, i must up load those new characters ive been doin. ]]> ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/1245419/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/1245419/ Tue, 07 Oct 2003 02:57:03 PDT grrrr i miss ben and dan

how does this sound?...Psychodynamic theory:
This theory was created by Sigmund Freud. Freud believed that early childhood experiences are the most important, and that they direct the way we behave in adulthood. He said that our unconscious feelings direct the way we behave in adulthood, we are not aware of these feelings and this explains as to why we do things and behave as we do in some situations. Freud believed that we go through psychosexual stages of development (oral, anal, phallic, latency and genital) Freud also believed that people have
· An id – which makes ‘I want’ demands
· An ego- which tries to resolve conflicts between the id and the superego
· A superego- which is like the demands made by parents or society about how to behave.


yes hannah wrote that allll by herself isnt she clever? OBVIOUSLY NOT all my work is of this standard and still osnt good enough for precious grammar school
grr
bored bye ]]> ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/1094142/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/1094142/ Sun, 24 Aug 2003 08:52:08 PDT
how the fuck did i fail art, how? now what am i meant to do im stuck in this zone where idk where to turn or what to do...do i retake and risk being a failure again, ive never failed an exam in my whole life let alone art oh fuccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccck
atm i just wna smash something sorry guys for lettin u all down
sorry neb and dan i told u i wasnt good, guess i shud go pack but still fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck ]]> ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/1085862/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/1085862/ Thu, 21 Aug 2003 10:59:23 PDT ive had loads of ideas for some pieces but very lil time to actually do them, me and my busy scheudual of erm working, but the moneys good i guess well for a 17 yr old it is lol
im off to mayb do some art or more likely to the pub ]]> ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/966605/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/966605/ Sun, 20 Jul 2003 13:06:19 PDT adios
xxxlight of my life fire of my loins, my sin my soul... standing four feet ten in one sock ]]> ~redheadedangel http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/908003/ http://redheadedangel.deviantart.com/journal/908003/ Fri, 04 Jul 2003 08:24:33 PDT 1. im at a skool were they push me farrrr to much and i wna do well
2. i dnt hav a scanner in my study only one upstairs and im to dam lazy to get of my arse and do ne thing
3. i may not hav done ne work
4 or more likely IM DRUNK and socialising wit my friends

so this is my art atm...
im just starting my a level art and hopin to study graphic design at uni next yr. ONE YR COMPLUSARY SCHOOL LEFT WAHOO and yes cool idk what else to saylight of my life fire of my loins, my sin my soul... standing four feet ten in one sock ]]> ~redheadedangel