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so yeh... anyone around reading this still active and kicking around here?

Ant... im looking at you... whats up! im gonna email you when i get the time hey... wish i had time for msn.

]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/14146872/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/14146872/ Mon, 13 Aug 2007 10:00:37 PDT
I bought some new Mics a few days ago, can't wait till I have time in between work, tafe, skipping tafe for days spent at the local park, and other stuff I do each week to play around with them and record something.

Tafe is pretty boring. all except one day so far this semester has been our lecturer crapping on about some random subject only remotely connected to what we should be doing, which is getting into the studio and recording bands, fucks sake.

so yeh... things other than that are... interesting. I;m back playing basketball on Monday nights now, so yeah. I'm buggered after that.

I've been missing my younger days lately... that makes me sound like I've seen so much and I'm pining for my childhood again... but yeah... I dunno... I miss hanging out with school friends. I miss sleepovers at friends places. I miss having the same structure of day, day in, day out. all that stuff.

My dad has a new job now, which is good. He lives out where his new job is though, which is 6 hours drive away. So yeah.. Thats pretty lame, in that yeah, even though I know I can always pick up the phone and call him, he just isn't *here* anymore.

Its not like I had a particularly strong bond with him.. I just liked the fact that he was just... around. In the house.

I have a new laptop out of it all though, well, new to me. It's so much better than my old one. Mum got that. Sucks to be her!

Anyway, Peace. I am tired.

]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/12241968/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/12241968/ Mon, 19 Mar 2007 07:19:41 PDT
And yes, that includes lyrics too... I've been hanging out with a mate Kieran and writing random things that actually, of late, have turned out pretty good.

so yeh... rock on over to my music website to have a listen to some rough demos... it'll have to do if you are curious and wanna listen to my style... if i even have a style... but yes... expect things in the (hopefully) near future!

]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/11562053/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/11562053/ Thu, 25 Jan 2007 07:46:20 PST

I refrain from leaving spiteful and outrageous comments comments on other people's pages, should it not go without being said that I hope I get the same in return from people?

but enough of that.

went down to a place called Margaret River for a few days earlier this week with some friends from around the place. it was really good... went to the Colonial brewery... cheese factory... chocolate factory... a winery... bakery... and just generally around the place, bumming around doing not much. it was really good to get away fro a few days with friends and just hang out and be groovy. i came back feeling good, even though i had forgotten to take a pillow... so ended up using a jumper instead!

but yeah... was good. not feeling so emo anymore, probably to a few people's satisfaction.

so yeh... whats up with you guys out in your various partsofg the world? tell me.........!

]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/10832297/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/10832297/ Fri, 24 Nov 2006 08:57:19 PST That just for once,
something would be easy in life.

Too much to ask?

Probably.

But I'll ask it anyway.




If all of this life
Was just water under our bridges
Jump right in and hope for
hope for your miracle

Which reminds me. visit my crappeh website for my crappeh music thing.

I've finally started doing something about my music, as little as I've done, at least its something.

]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/10622428/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/10622428/ Sun, 05 Nov 2006 07:59:52 PST
But then again, I'm could probably just a whingy little fuck.

But is still feel shit. not just tired shit, not just emotionally crapped on, but... i dunno something more.

If someone else can find my words for me, please let me know.

]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/10536014/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/10536014/ Sat, 28 Oct 2006 09:34:03 PDT
Hmmm... Where to start. So much has been happening my since last proper update, and stuff that I didn't post about before.

So here it is in a rather condensed version.

1. I'm single. Again. and I'm still getting over it. It sounds so damn cliche, but just thinking about it brings back stuff that hurts to think about what I lost. Hence the "life sucks ass" I've given off over the last while. But maybe its getting OK. But theres still stuff I really wish would work itself out.

2. Job hours are getting pretty "fun", shall we say, when coupled with TAFE, church, music, youth stuff... It's all pretty hectic and I sometimes find it hard to have time to spend just hanging with friends.

3. Got myself a new Ibanez guitar. Parents not happy that I'm spending so much money on stuff like that instead of car/debt repayment/stuff like that.

4. I've been writing a lot of music lately. Not many lyrics, mainly coz I'm pretty crap at that. But guitar parts, piano parts, and melodies that all fit together. I'm in the process of getting about 5 or 6 together and finished, because a mate said he will record them for me at his home studio. So, eventually, I will have an E.P. going around that I'll try sell for 5 bucks or something. Get some artwork and cover for it too, and it shall be totally wicked.

5. Got into a band called Falling Up. Kind of in the same vein as Trapt... Sort of. Is good. Check out the song "Contact" for an awesome song.


So yeah... That's my life at the moment... work, TAFE, and trying to fit sleep and a social life in between the two.

]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/10453452/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/10453452/ Fri, 20 Oct 2006 08:12:20 PDT
my job is so wierd sometimes.

but i love it. money is good.

on another note, i changed my avatar from the blue one to what it should be atm. joy. not really sure of it, but yeh.. its better than the last one.

]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/10332280/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/10332280/ Mon, 09 Oct 2006 03:05:12 PDT
well, not trying to be emo or anything, but i came to a conclusion today.

my answer would be no.




on a completely different note, my eyes sting.

]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/10330162/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/10330162/ Sun, 08 Oct 2006 20:54:32 PDT
Fuck you too.

- Cameron.

]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/10178880/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/10178880/ Mon, 25 Sep 2006 04:10:53 PDT
so yeah...heres my month or 2 just gone in a nutshell.

Still loving my job, even with the pretty wierd hours its good fun. the people there are, for the most part, pretty awesome. but theres one or two there that are starting to grate... but thats ok... i barely see them anyway

I just finished Tafe for this term, had to go do 2 assignments today which i hadnt done (heh lazy as all hell) we had 2 weeks to do them, and i did them both in about 3 hours. gotta love my course!

urrgh. mother. i want to move out. any offers?

had a weekend away a few weekends ago with a group of men from my church... one of those guy things. it was really good. some really coolstuff came out of it, even me winning a (pretty lame) remote controlled car

had a game of football (AFL for all you non-aussies) yesterday arvo after church against another church, we got owned. but yeah, that was fun, but im still sore, and i have to play basketball in a few hours against the other LBC team. should be interesting...

but yeh.. thats my attempt at an update. if theres anyhing that youwanna hear about from me ask me in particular

thats actuallya good idea.

everyone who reads this,ask me a question (or a few, whatever goes), and i'll answer it. go nuts with the questions people!

NUTS I SAY!!!

]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/10087122/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/10087122/ Sat, 16 Sep 2006 03:03:01 PDT
I just need to get out of this place. im sick of the tension and the blame i get for little things. im sick of being judged at everything i do by a "certain mother who shall remain nameless."

Im sick of having to try and act like "oh, its just something that will pass"

if this was something that was just going to pass, it would have past a long time ago.

i want to go to canada. ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/9783791/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/9783791/ Sat, 19 Aug 2006 15:11:55 PDT
4 words.

eleven hour shifts SUCK. ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/9700102/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/9700102/ Sat, 12 Aug 2006 08:44:18 PDT
Soundgarden's Black Hole Sun.

it used to be raelly popular i think... and i liked it.. and one day i just thought.. what the hell was that song!?!?!?

and now its been on repeat for about an hour. good stuff. ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/9336134/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/9336134/ Mon, 10 Jul 2006 19:23:39 PDT
It's crap, but eh. It's also old. just feel like i should do it.

but yes...

In other news, life seems to be alrighty. I went away on the youth group camp sat/sun, which was great to spend so much time with Ellen everyone. It was great. so yeah.. that was that...

Got a job at a place called corporate theatre productions. i start on friday, so that hopefully is gonna be awesome too.

so yeah. how are all you people? ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/9162190/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/9162190/ Fri, 23 Jun 2006 18:19:00 PDT

its like life just has to go through stages of being crap, to get to the better parts. ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/9042935/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/9042935/ Mon, 12 Jun 2006 02:57:56 PDT
i hope the good stuff works. and i hope it works long-time. the last thing i want to do is fuck things up.

i think i wont. ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/9001752/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/9001752/ Wed, 07 Jun 2006 17:45:58 PDT GothicDevil

1. Do you like animals?
some

2. Have you ever met an online friend in person?
Yeah. glad i have too.

3. Are you athletic?
Not especially, but i do alright.

4. Are you: thin, fat, athleticlly built etc:
bigger than average. not fat though. just big.

5. How much do you weigh?
thats a good quesion. probably less than a year ago. i dunno.

6. What's your height?
this big |------------| (not to scale)

7. Shoe size?
13 male

8. Girls- are you tomboyish, girly, normal, etc?
-

9. Guys- Are you girly, or guyish?
more guy than girl probably.

10. How old are you?
legally able to do stupid stuff, and get tried as an adult.

11. When's your birthday?
20 april

12. Do you like to receive giftart?
never have. probably would though.

13. Are you sociable?
Sometimes. not really now though.

14. Do you have many friends?
apparently.

15. What's your race?
caucasian

16. Do you like to talk on the phone?
dont really mind it.

17. Are you single or taken?
Single

18. Do you eat meat?
Yes

19. Are you paranoid?
about stupid shit.

20. Do you read a lot?
Only when i'm on the internet. im gonna start a book soon though i think.

21. Do you listen to music, what kind?
yes. everything. 'nuff said.

22. Do you play any instruments?
guitar, bass, drums, clarinet, bit of keys.

23. How long have you been drawing?
cant draw.

24.Whats the meaning of life?
pain. learning. rehearsals.

25. Now tag five of your friends!
i dont tag. you can do this if you want. ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/8904374/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/8904374/ Sun, 28 May 2006 17:50:31 PDT [link]

found it funny ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/8784964/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/8784964/ Tue, 16 May 2006 04:09:30 PDT
6 weird things about me:

1. I like it when people attack christianity openly in front of me. its fun to watch their expressions change and their tone when I reveal I am christian.

2. i can write music, and melody lines and such, but lyrics? no chance. i fail. badly.

3. i freak people out with my music tastes, varied form extreme technical death metal style stuff to james brown and everything in between, inside, outside, and on top of that range.

4. my over the road neighbor, who was my japanese teacher for 2 years in high school, still asks me from time to time for assignments i didnt hand in 4 years ago.

5. in the last week, there has been so much drama and just SHIT happen its not funny. 6 totally different incidences since last wednesday, so about a week. enough for a few years, i do believe.

6. i dont tag people. people do this if they want to. ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/8752746/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/8752746/ Fri, 12 May 2006 19:04:16 PDT ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/8464775/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/8464775/ Fri, 14 Apr 2006 00:40:57 PDT

other than that, its my birthday in 6 days. which means everyone is gonna ask me what im doing, and im gonna say "i dont know." again and again. huzzah.

wednesday was the last day of tafe for me. was pretty good, just looked at CG pics for an hour then went to the train station, got my dad to pick me up and i drovehim around to go see a doctor and stuff. so ive only got a few more hours to go for my log book.

but yes. thats about it really. im boring these days. ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/8348464/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/8348464/ Sun, 02 Apr 2006 22:29:54 PDT
lifes a bitch again lately. just generally fairly filled with total crap.

i now play for you a DA play i entitle "life hates me coz it can"

*ahem*

Me: hi, life. how is it going?
Life: fuck you. i hate you coz i can.
Life stabs me
Me: oh. ok then.
Life: shyeah.

or something to that effect, it seems.

nothing else really to say now. ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/7651565/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/7651565/ Thu, 19 Jan 2006 18:55:58 PST
my oldest sister anna gave birth to a 7lb.7oz baby girl, who she and husband richard called Ashlin Grace.

yay, and stuff.

my family is going to go see them on saturday i think. ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/7597726/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/7597726/ Sat, 14 Jan 2006 00:06:27 PST
super

in other news, i helped my sister and brother in law move into their new house today. they love simply coz im such a "beefcake". im not really, im just bigger than everyone else. go me. but yeah.. after moving all their stuff from torage into trailers and then from the trailers into their house, they decide that its time for me and 4 other guys, my bro in law and a mate, my dad and my bro in law's dad to shift prolly about 2 tonnes of dirt to level the front yard so that their grass can go down next week. this is after moving 2 pallets of pavers, too.

ah well, it was excercise.. and it got me doing something productive.... and out of my chair, in front of a computer

but yeah.. cheerio people. have fun doing whatever you do these days. ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/7561079/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/7561079/ Tue, 10 Jan 2006 05:04:46 PST
(A) First, recommend to me:
1. a movie:
2. a book:
3.

(B) I want everyone who reads this to ask me three questions, no more, no less. Ask me anything you want.
1.
2.
3.

(C) Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends to ask you anything. ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/7225453/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/7225453/ Mon, 05 Dec 2005 01:20:32 PST
first of all, this is NOT going to be a dig at anyone. because im better than that, i would hope.

SUNDAY. we got to the house on sunday arvo, and settled in. s'all good. had a good night of just sitting around with people talking about what we could get up to, listening to music, playing music, eating, drinking, and more or less just chilling out. i also found out that i can make a pretty good shadow puppet show.

MONDAY. started out overcast, but by the time some people wanted to go to the beach and got there, it was a beautiful day. then there was our first "drama" with my ex and another leavers' ex rocking up. but enough has been said about that already. so eventually Darren, the 13th person, and therefore the 1-too-many person rocked up. not long after that he just walked out of the house, not to be seen again for about 3 hours. eventually we went looking for him, and one thing led to another, and ended up asking for his money back and going home. he isnt popular, lets just say that.

Tuesday. started overcast agin, but when we got to the beach it was even better than the day before. some people swam, some people sunbaked, some people stole a sign. good fun. had lunch at the deli, went home, played cards for a while, and otherwise just sat around for the rest of the day. Then Alisa was doing peoples hair, and went to cut out one of Nell's hair extentions and accidentally cut a bit of her hair aswell. Nell panicked at first, and Alisa thought Nell was angry at her and left in tears. We all broke up for a while, then Alisa came back. had an AWESOME convo with Danen, Rob, Erinn, and Alisa. that night/morning.

Wednesday. slept through most of wednesdays happenings, which included two of my mates starting up a hair salon, and calling thenselves Dave and Hoolio. the laughter woke me up, and i saw the last little bits of that. but apparently it was the funniest thing ever. i think it was wednesday that i got a teddy baught for me. its so awesome i called it Elijah.

Thursday. had a communal roast dinner, which rocked awesomely. saw harry potter after that, good movie me reckons. about half the group decided to go semi-dressed up, or wierd, so we had a few emo's and a few ballgowns too. good stuff. rob decided to reverse into a car, and luckily the car he hit didnt get a scratch on it at all. there was more drama after that, but technically it was on friday, and so doesnt belong here.

Friday. finally got around to burning Darren's sweatband he left behind. we are such pyros. alisas bf martin came up, hes awesome. but his bro scott got everyones back up a bit, so yeha.. they slept in the car. alisa got a bit emotional about it all, and justifiably too. but ah well it got sorted out eventually. we met Gordon, caz's new squeeze and he aint too bad. he fitted right in with us. hes cool. webb, nell, and alisa had a few drinks, and webb got very loud. me and Erinn decided that we couldnt sleep so we semi-babysat them, making sure they didnt do anything too stupid.

Saturday. tallied how many times webb swore in an hour... figured out that he would swear roughly 2460 times in a day. the little Tourette's sufferer denied every word of it. usually adding one or two more counts to the tally. then we had lunch, and just kinda bummed around the house until it was time to leave. then we left.

and i would do it over again. i miss being there with friends 24/7... especially what time i got to spend with Jess.

leavers brought everyone closer as a group. and for that, im thankful. cheers for the fun times we had people. and for people who missed out, a quote:

sucks to be you! *boom. fucking. boom.* ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/6978526/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/6978526/ Mon, 07 Nov 2005 07:20:32 PST
but yeah... ive been ok, a few downs, but mainly ups. for the time beingit seems god wants to be good to me

i decided not to do my TEE exams... its not like i need them at all anyway. all they do is get you a stupid little number that tells you what courses you can get into at uni... which isnt what i need at all, considering imgoing to TAFE instead of unim hopefully.

but yeah. i applied for a certificate in Music Technology and Production, or something along those lines. recording and producing stuff, basically.

\m/ rockin.

so yeah, that should be good. better than what my basketball team is doing atm! (hehe how is THAT for a story link!) weve lost the last 3 weeks, and we have a team we could easily lose to next week. FUN. so much for our spot on the top of the ladder we've held so far.

but yeah. im nowhere near as down about my lack-of-seeing-gf syndrome, coz thats been cured hopefully get to see her a lot more soon, and that is gonna own face i really do love her, she is rather awesome its great to have somone who understands me so much. just great.

but yeah, enough about this madness of me. go forth and... do long division or something

Bruce Almighty was a kickass movie ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/6825250/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/6825250/ Fri, 21 Oct 2005 05:55:37 PDT Ducky-dy. i dont usually bother with these either, but since i am bored as anything, why not. apparently it has something to do with the Powerpuff girls movie.. but i have no idea whereit comes into the scheme of things

20 random facts about me:

1. Once had a teddy bear called Ashley
2. My latest missed call is from a guy called Chris
3. I have a second DA account.
5. Broken 4 bones so far (both bones in both forearms)
6. My current footwear is what is usually referred to as "socks"
7. I cant stand the presence of my mother for longer than a few minutes at a time
8. Caused my younger sister to break a bone
9 Caused my sister to split open her head
10. Can play drums/guitar/bass/clarinet/some piano
11. Used to sleepwalk
12. Got a perfect right-angle cut on my forehead from a tree branch a few years ago
13. I wanna be a sound engineer.
15. hates the internet contractions (ie. "lol") WITH A HOLY PASSION!!!!!
16. I recently drew on my wall... I may post a photo sooner or later
17. 18 friends online on MSN... and no-one is talking
18. kept a huntsman spider as a pet for almost 4 months.. called him Fredrick
19. I have my music way too loud for the time of night it is
20. I know I suck at questionnare things


so yeah... now i have to tag people or die or never find true love or some BS. like that.

so i tag... ~Sophy, and ~MAKANUT please dont kill me

so.. not thats over and done with... HA!!! just like school. yes that is right, im about to finish school. just got i week then four exams to get through and thats it. hell yeah! bring on the leavers...

so yeah... other than that, im still the same old me. but yeah.. im teraching myself piano slowly, so thats good fun

maybe i'll update when there is actually something to update about... ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/6676449/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/6676449/ Tue, 04 Oct 2005 09:18:11 PDT [link]
[link]

oh baby.... those there, are my dream guitars... i think one of the guitarrist from katatonia use the second one... *checks* yeah he does

problem is i justdont have sorta cash... bastards actaully need money for the guitar... ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/6499705/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/6499705/ Wed, 14 Sep 2005 01:45:01 PDT
just thought you would all like to know that....



yep. ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/6418986/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/6418986/ Mon, 05 Sep 2005 01:10:20 PDT
ok ... i had forgotten to post this bit of news for ages, so i may as well do it now

my laptop is not working at the moment. it got a virus (damn you virus protection...) and it screwed with stuff, and so the best stuff it had was 640x480x16 colours and no mouse pointer, among a whole lot of other problems. then again, it may not have been a virus and it was jsut shitty programming by microsoft. either way works.

but yeah... until i can get it working again, im back on my desktop that decides it will crash after writing a LJ post that took me AN HOUR AND A HALF TO WRITE just when i hit the submit button... not fun i tell you that much. i cant be bothered writing it again, but it was damn good, and it coulda won me a nobel peace prize, i swear.

so yeah... im sick. i have an absolute bastardface of a cold (cheers to alisa for the cool word) didnt go to school. had to entrust my sister with $50 bucks to give to jess, to give either straight to mrs smith or to give to nell to give to mrs smith... either way, whatever happened, she got it and knew what to do with it (small business assignment costing me money!!!) so its all good. cheers to jess and nell for that aye... smith would killed me if i didnt get it to her, let alone my group...

so yeah...

[link]

this guy is the head of some company over in new orleans... he updates his blog all the time, and some of the stuff ive seent here is kinda freaky.... i saw a picture of this little girl alone in a pram, left behind by her family at a water distribution point... whatever happened to this little girl, i dunno... but goddamn it must be incomprehensible to us outside of the devastation just how bad it is if people forget their own child because they get too excited over seeing clean water.

i dunno whats happening these days in the world. i heard about some websites/people that are saying that its the apocalypse approaching... somewhat far-fetched i think. not the right time of season yet

aaanywho... im gonna go now. ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/6354516/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/6354516/ Sun, 28 Aug 2005 20:29:27 PDT
great description i know, but im not sad. and today, im not happy either... probably somewhere in between, thats closely related to jealousy or disfavour at times (dw jess, its not you im thinking of)... i dunno. im probably just being crap... hmmm..... grrr this is soo annoying. its crap, i know its crap, but its there.

i hate my brain sometimes. ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/6328164/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/6328164/ Thu, 25 Aug 2005 19:27:14 PDT Music: none... *dies*
Mood: pretty hyper now...

ok... everybody STAY CALM....

today for the first time... i have a SEVERE LACK of MP3 goodness at school... my portable music listening devices that i put in ears, some would call them "HEADPHONES", are being absolute BASTARDFACES...

this sort of HIGH TREACHERY wil not stand in MY empire!!! it CANNOT and it WILL not.

in other words, i NEED new headphones in order to keep up my PORTABLE MUSIC EXPERIENCE.

BLAST!

this means MORE money spent... and i have to put in about 80 whole DAMN DOLLARS into a small business task... i think i speak for all in our group when i say F * C K - T H A T - S H * T ... damn school taking MY hard earned cash.

but yes... other than that and my laptop being an even bigger bastardface than my headphones, (640x480x16 is the best it can get)

eehehehehe its funny coz i just made ~silkenrose completely pack her little blonde self laughing... and it all started with me slamming her elbow into the desk... so it looks like im gonna have to tell my jess... ~Jessamika about this... or i could just call STATUTORY RAPE!!!!!! STATUTORY RAPE!!!!!! STATUTORY RAPE!!!!!!

but yeah............... another song that is awesome... and yes it is anoher ben folds song...


Ben Folds - The Pirate Joke Song

This pirate walks into a bar
With a captain's wheel crammed down the front of his pants
And the bartender says
And the bartender says
"Why you got that Captain's wheel crammed down the front of pants?"
And he says: "Arr! It's driving me nuts!"
"Arr, Arr! It's driving me nuts!"
"Arr, Arr! It's driving me nuts!"
And that's the end of my song

Arr, it's driving me...
Arr, it's driving me nuts
Arr, it's driving me...
Arr, it's driving me...
Nuts


soooo damn GOOD!!!! ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/6264939/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/6264939/ Thu, 18 Aug 2005 19:17:29 PDT


i cant believe my accounting teacher actually brought us coffee... i was sitting there bored in accounting, drinking coffee... coffeecoffeecoffeecoffeecoffeecoffeecoff eecoffeecoffeecoffeecoffeecoffeecoffee!!!!!!

now i am insanely wired and psychotic... i think i just freaked out my interactive teacher... bwahahahahaha...


coffeecoffeecoffeecoffeecoffeecoffeecoff eecoffeecoffeecoffeecoffeecoffeecoffeeco ffeecoffeecoffeecoffeecoffeecoffeecoffee!!!


C O F F E E ! ! !


RULE NUMBER 1 IN LIFE EXPERIENCES... DONT GIVE ME COFFEE WHEN IM BORED AND UNINTERESTED IN THE SUBJECT MATTER

you so should have been there jess... (i was like... "jess should be here...")

damn... some girl had 4 sugars in her coffee. 0_o that is just wrong... you cant even aste the coffee throught that much!

coffeecoffeecoffeecoffeecoffeecoffeecoff eecoffeecoffeecoffeecoffeecoffeecoffeeco ffeecoffeecoffeecoffeecoffeecoffeecoffee!!! ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/6240910/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/6240910/ Tue, 16 Aug 2005 06:58:59 PDT



There's somthing in your ways
That makes me wanna stay here for a thousnd years
So just cry your fears
I need you everyday
Inside you I just want to wipe away your fears
So just cry your tears

I wish I was with you.

If I stay, well then your tears will set you free
If I stay right here and for ever with you
Eeverything I feel for you
Is everything I want to stay with you
If I stay right here and forever with you
My eyes

This is tearing me apart
I wish I could be in your soft arms
Feel you again
Anytime I feel like im to far
I will try to remember all ours and
Your memories I know

I wish I was in you

If I stay, well then your tears will set you free
If I stay right here than forever with you
Everything I feel for you
Is everything I want to stay with you
If I stay right here
For forever with you
My eyes

~ Ill Nino - With You ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/6117145/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/6117145/ Tue, 02 Aug 2005 21:39:56 PDT
but lately, i've still been pissed off at loads of stuff, but positive... im not used to this!!!

but yeah... im back at school, two weeks in, and i seriously cant be buggered putting in much effort. which probably isnt too good, considering it my last term, and TEE is coming up pretty damn fast.

meh..

that has to be one of ther most useful words ever invented, and ever used in school.


ok im insanely bored. its interactive media, ion which we have 3 weeks to put in two video clips, and a few buttons into flash... maybe a hours work... if that... FOR THREE WEEKS IM DOING NOTHING BUT FUCKING AROUND ON THE COMPUTER IN THIS SUBJECT!!!

and they wonder why...

but anywho, i have nothing much to say.. so i'll leave you with some words of wisdom from the song i've listened to for almost a week straight

enjoy. or hate. whatever floats your boat.




I hold you in like a deep breath.
Feel you like the last beautiful touch before a final rest.
I know i'll see you forever.
I want it painted black and red.
It's so beautiful to me, it's everything i see.
It's so beautiful to me, but it's nothing that i need.
And i can't taste anything less.
Every time i'm forced down.
To be with yourself, take all the blood you want.
But not from here.
It's so beautiful to me, it is everything i see.
It's so beautiful to me, but it's nothing that i need.
Not a hand, not a finger.
This is my home.
I'm dying here.
I hide in the corner.
That look on your face, I'm accustomed to it.


- Demon Hunter "The Gauntlet" ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5794073/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5794073/ Wed, 29 Jun 2005 18:34:56 PDT
Perth devmeet is soon. should be good. the last one was good.

anyway im gonna go back to studying now. anytime now me head is gonna explode from all the stuff i have to know! ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5769153/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5769153/ Mon, 27 Jun 2005 07:10:05 PDT
ok not really, but i had a friend from church and work point this out to me a while ago, and i've just remembered it... so i think its time you all got some biblical knowledge into your heads.

so here it is... TAKEN STRAIGHT FROM MY NEW INTERNATIONAL VERSION of Gods holy words, comes Ezekiel 23:20.

'There she lusted after her lovers, whose genitals were like those of donkeys and whose emissions were like those of horses."

ok, not, PLEASE EXPLAIN this verse to me... why was it in? we just dont wanna know some things... THAT was one of them. OVERSHARE!

but yeah... go see a few of these movies.. they are bloody funny!

movies about a pissed off squirrel.. bloody funny stuff!

keep well, and now get off my boat. ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5624719/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5624719/ Sun, 12 Jun 2005 06:18:45 PDT listening to - Summer Of Darkness by Demon Hunter
feeling agitated, confused and cold

ok, i hope im getting back into my art, considering i havent put anything up in ages. i think i have sone fairly good inspirations now, just the motivation to get off my arse and get the stuff done comes in waves. i am really proud of my latest piece, and it features a bit of poetry in it that i have in mind for being a song of some description. i really like it, and i hope i can work it into a song somehow.

a few nights ago i was feeling really good. so good that it moved me to completely change my music tastes. so instead of listening to metal bands such as Opeth, Soulfly and the like, i almost completely reversed my choice to Guster and Jars Of Clay... and if you know those bands, you will know what type of extreme change that is. but never fear. i got over it.

its been an "interesting" 3 weeks since my last entry... car crashes (not involved), people running away, having awesome conversations with friends, and then a day later those friends not talking to me, work hours cut by 12 hours a month our of 16, 4 exams, feuds and fights... anyone would think i loved it.

aaah well... im back at school tomorrow after the two week exam break (i still had 4 exams though in that time). i had fun during that t ime just hanging out with friends, not studying. eh. i just have no motivation to want to do well at school. i'd much rather put my effort into something more enjoyable, to me, not something that i just have no interest in doing.

oh well. im off now. so long, and thanks for all the fish. (hehe... hitch-hikers guide to the galaxy was awesome) ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5405852/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5405852/ Thu, 19 May 2005 19:13:43 PDT
some things are going really crappy. other things seem to be going great, and of the things that are going great, i've probably screwed the best thing up. so really almost everything that is happening atm just seems like a big screw-up and everything some people tell me seems like a lie. i want to believe the opposite but i know its not true. grrrr. i'm becoming depressed again. i can feel it.

AARGH! dammit. everything is just screwing with my head, theres too many emotions, too much emotion and just too much on my mind to think clearly anymore. if i had a superpower, it would to just be able to hide forever behind a facade of *yes i am ok now F*** off* ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5332555/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5332555/ Wed, 11 May 2005 18:31:36 PDT
its funny. laugh.

im tired... ive only got abot 4 hours sleep over the last two nights, and on saturday im gonna go sit up all night watching the old star wars movies with my friends. and then that morning i have to go and play bass at 9AM, so i am gonna be absolutely DEAD my monday.

]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5278259/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5278259/ Thu, 05 May 2005 18:53:44 PDT
]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5242007/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5242007/ Sun, 01 May 2005 20:55:35 PDT
its amazing how much history can repeat itself... just looking back on situations at the beginning of last year i see how much CRAP i can cause if i listen to myself and trust what i tell myself.

goddammit its like every friend i have is behind me besides the one i thought mattered the most. the one i thought i could trust the most. that one, i found, tore me and i cant handle what happened... screw that. friends just dont do that kind of thing to each other. ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5228098/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5228098/ Sat, 30 Apr 2005 08:24:04 PDT
last night was the year 12 ball... it was ok, except for a big part of it which just made me frustrated and completely emotionally drained. but that is a whole other story which i wont felve into.

but yeah.. so i got home feeling fairly crap. one of my mates luke was at my house already coz i had to take another friend home first and he had got a separate lift back. but anyway, we hadnt planned to go to the afterball but we were bored so we went anyway. but on the way there we ran into some of our other friends from school who had already been there and they said it was crappy so we went back to someone elses house instead, hung out and were groovy.

after a few hours me and my mate left and went to the petrol station and stocked up on energy drinks... jeez they are good! then we walked back to my place and crashed in my back shed.

when we woke up (about 2 hours later i think) we stuffed around for a bit, he went to his g-f's house and i went next door to watch the AFL game on the projector. i invited a friend :devsilken-rose: to come and watch it too and so she did.

after the game we jsut hung out at my place for a bit, listened to music and screwed around on my comp. then we went for a walk to the deli adn bought some stuff to go to another friends hose later on.

then we had tea, went around to my other friends hose, hung out and were groovy for a few hours, then we got picked up and took her home, and now i am writing this. well at least i would have been by the time you read it.

all of these events, and all of the talk i have had today made me realise how important my friends are in very troubling times. especially my closest ones and the ones who i wouldnt replace for anything at all. ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5192781/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5192781/ Tue, 26 Apr 2005 08:02:35 PDT
i think i can cope, but coping is not what i want to do. i want to move on. but things hold me back, and if i cant siort things out soon i'm gonna end up even more jaded than what i already am.

enough of that. today was the first day back at school for term 2. LAME. it meant i had to wake up in the MORNING!!! oh god what are you doing to me!?!?! but yeah... we had a 45 min ANZAC service, which was completely boring. i respect the tradition, but i am completely over the whole patriotism thing i think.

antway, i'm tired. so bye. ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5146146/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5146146/ Thu, 21 Apr 2005 07:47:58 PDT a major part that can never be replaced had been lost to me.
it was the best part of me.
the part that i liked the most.
and i didnt even own it. ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5116476/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5116476/ Wed, 20 Apr 2005 23:17:08 PDT
Pick ONE band and answer the questions using only that band's lyrics. The name of the song where the lyrics came from are noted below the lyrics.

Band: SlipKnot

1. Are you male or female?
A hideous man...
~THe Heretic Anthem

2. Describe yourself:
I'm cold, I'm ugly
I'm always confused by everything
~Diluted

3. How do your friends feel about you?
Who are you to me? Who am I to you?
Is this a lesson in nepotistic negligence?
~Metabolic

4. How do you feel about yourself?
My flaws are the only thing left that's pure
Can't really live, can't really endure
~Everything Ends

5. Describe your girlfriend / boyfriend:
God, the worst thing happened to me today
~Everything Ends

6. What would you rather be doing?
...Forget today, forget whatever happened...
~Diluted

7. Describe where you live:
It's all in my head
~Eyeless

8. Describe how you love:
I'd do anything...
~Vermilion, Pt. II

9. Share a few words of wisdom:
Shivelry, will get you somewhere
Rivalry, will take you there
~Don't Get Close ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5107397/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5107397/ Sat, 16 Apr 2005 21:46:44 PDT jarrydn


Pick ONE band and answer the questions using only that band's lyrics. The name of the song where the lyrics came from are noted below the lyrics.

Band: Brittany Spears. hehe this is gonna be fun!!!

1. Are you male or female?
I'm not a girl...
~I'm not a girl, not yet a woman

2. Describe yourself:
Oh baby, baby
Oh baby, baby Oh baby, baby
~Hit Me Baby (one more time)

3. How do your friends feel about you?
I'm a slave for you.
I cannot hold it; I cannot control it.
~Slave for you

4. How do you feel about yourself?
Too high
Can’t come down
Losing my head
Spinning ‘round and ‘round
~Toxic

5. Describe your girlfriend / boyfriend:
Tell me baby, please
Why you screwing
With my head?
~Lonely

6. What would you rather be doing?
Passed out on the couch I'm yawning
Just walked in and it's early morning
~Early morning

7. Describe where you live:
With you I get so high
Lost in the crystal sky
~Thats where you take me

8. Describe how you love:
We can get down
To the DJ's sound
Feelin' so good baby
All around
Feelin' kinda naughty
Come and get me now
Woah oh
Ow yeah
~Anticipating

9. Share a few words of wisdom:
C'mon baby, c'mon darling, ooh yeah
C'mon, let me be the one
C'mon now, oh yeah
~dont let me be the last to know




oh god that made me remember how much i utterly LOATHE this so-called popstar. BuT at least this is amusing ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5102042/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5102042/ Sat, 16 Apr 2005 08:49:40 PDT
what can i say? I am adicted!

but yeah... i started writing a short story today. hopefull it will be up soon, as long as i keep at it coz atm its kind of crap. if you look at this [link] in the description there is an "extract" if you will, of the story's intro. i think its the intro at least. or i might be the end. i'm not sure yet. theres two ways i could write it, and i'm all indecisive atm. what if i write both ways? meh. that takes effort, and that, i do not have atm. there's a lack of sleep in my brain, and there's too much to do. i have no energy.

today my mate Kieran came over. he brought his PS2, so i stole my dads projector and hooked itup to the PS2 and the PS2 with my stereo. we used my bed as a couch, and spent the whole day playing Dynasty Warrior 4, eating Skittles and watching movies such as Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon and Hero. damn that was awesome fun with a 2 metre wide screen. then we went out of my room for lunch, looked at my families regular 59" (i think) TV and just laughed our butts of. maybe it had something to do with the fact that by that time we had WAY too much sugar in our bodies...

then kieran went home, i packed all the other stuff up, and went on the net for a while. then had tea. then went on msn again. then went to another friends house and watched Spy Kids... why must kids movies always be so cool? its disturbing how many kids movies i like.

but yeah. now i am on the net again, jast about to add this entry, and then go to bed. so, yeah. bye for now. ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5090631/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5090631/ Thu, 14 Apr 2005 20:22:45 PDT
my dad is gonna get annoyed at me coz I have been reduced to doing this to try and force him to get unlimited or at least a bigger download limit. 200 meg a month is totally useless... THATS ONLY 7 MEG A DAY! it just isn't good use of the Internet. pure and absolute blasphemy! oh well. he pays the account not me

also this morning, i got up and went for a walk at 4 AM, as you do. i took my camera, and so there will be at least two photos coming soon.

my eyes hurt ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5074941/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5074941/ Wed, 13 Apr 2005 02:32:38 PDT
I went to the Perth Devmeet today. it was pretty good. met soem awesome people there including @flameturret, = Daro2, and ~jarrydn among others who i cant remember coz i am so spaced atm. but yeah it was fun. waiting for the bus i saw a friend i hadnt seen in about a year so that was good.

~jarrydn had this little keyboard/synthesizer thing... it was awesome. when i first heard it i thought that everyone should get rat costumes and follow the pied piper, but then it started playing a theme song fronm a really bad series of ads.

yeah... so it consisted of pretty much just hanging out and relaxing. some people saw a movie, but me and =Daro2 bought some awesome plastic swords and must meet again to find out once and for all who is more uber.

FOR THOSE PEOPLE WHO DIDNT COME TO THE DEVMEET: you shoulda. you missed out an an awesome day out. to those who did, nice meeting you all. ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5066473/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5066473/ Tue, 12 Apr 2005 03:47:15 PDT
today i hung out with my friend from work among other places. we hung around at his place, watched Resident Evil: Apocalypse and played Knights Of The Old Republic for a couple hours... good fun it was... indeed.

tomorrow is the Perth Devmeet!!!*oh no, what will i wear???* that will be fun. it better be! ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5040958/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5040958/ Sat, 09 Apr 2005 08:22:47 PDT
Empire Games is this shop that i thought was gonna be hll lame, but it kicked buttock!!! they had all this random crap that was awesome... i'm going there to get presents from now on... jack skelington, stewie, peter grifin toys, LOTS of star wars stuff and (haha!) porn star figurines! can it get anymore awesome?!?!?!

yes it can. it had swords. mmmm... swords....

talking about swords, we then went to Millenium, which is a shop devoted ENTIRELY TO WEAPONS!!!! oh baby, TAKE ME NOW!!!!! (check out there website at [link] its really cool. but anywho, i went with this dude called Kieran (also went with a dude called james) and he is really obsessed with swords, he had already bought a Katana from millenium a while ago. we spent maybe two hours just salivating there, picking up whatever weapons we wanted, which included replica LOTR swords (we all agreed that the knives of legolas were the coolest ones, besides maybe Narsil, which weighed a frikking TONNE!

but yeah, then we went to lunch, and i saw the schools new music teeacher in Hungry Jacks... haha. its funny but i dont know why.

then we went walking around for a while, then got on the bus to come home. at the station we met ~hubsy and his sister ~gluefactory and her boyfriend. we got talking, the bus came, we got on, and went home.

then i went to work, which was boring, but good coz it wasnt as bad as usual.

now im home just listening to random songs (Manson's Disposable Teens right now.. wait, now its Vietnow by RATM), writing this and feeling pretty. damn. good. ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5021738/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/5021738/ Thu, 07 Apr 2005 01:32:23 PDT Mr-NotFox knows exactly what i mean.. shes in the same class. (hi beka!!!)

but yeah, it was me and my g/f's ( ~ XxCellar-DoorxX ) 6 month anniversary yesterday. i dont know about you people, but i think thats pretty damn awesome. yeah... awesome.

better go now, i have to leave for work in a few minutes. my work is pretty crap, but at least its somewhat better than being a checkout man-chick... i stand/sit there and let people through a gate for 4 hours.. pretty lame but at least its paid for all my crap like a ball ticket and stuff like that... money is stupid. now, if you could pay for things in pieces of string... that would be an idea! ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/4958936/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/4958936/ Thu, 31 Mar 2005 07:29:38 PST ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/4940543/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/4940543/ Wed, 30 Mar 2005 17:41:18 PST

bloody hell i hate these things, but i am just SOOO BORED!!!


THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. cameron
2. Mitch
3. oi, YOU!!!

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. (current one)
2. cows would live longer if they werent made out of hamburgers or leather...
3. <-ThemataSkizm->

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. musical ability
2. music taste \m/
3. left eye

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. toes.. i have MUNTED toes
2. acne
3. gene pool

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. clowns, from a fear of Shawn Chrahan from slipknot...
2. the future, sometimes
3. other random scary crap

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. music
2. g/f
3. pfft... sleep is not essential, just reccomended

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. anklet my g/f made me
2. Shorts
3. Jumper

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists):
1. Opeth
2. Slipknot
3. karnivool

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. Opeth - Bleak
2. Slipknot - Metabolic
3. karnivool - Sewn and Silent

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. getting a song i write played on the radio
2. air travel
3. get drunk AND/OR beaten up... dont ask why

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. the given
2. trust
3. physical contact

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. i am typing with a fishy
2. caroline is strupid
3. people should need a license to type on a keyboard with caps lock SO THAT THIS TYPE OF REALLY ANNOYING THIND IS STOPPED!!!

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. collarbones
2. Neck
3. stomach

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. lick my elbow
2. stand my sister
3. listen to Britany spears without killing something

THREE THINGS YOU CAN DO:
1. play musical instruments
2. be really lame
3. answer these stupid things!!!

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. playing music
2. computer gaming and stuff...
3. hanging out with Rheana

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Play Dynasty Warrior 4
2. Be with Rheana
3. play drums with a metal band \m/

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Musician (metal legend!!!)
2. Audio Technician
3. the rabbit that the greyhounds chase...

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Sweeden
2. Canada
3. Cuba

THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. Traa (pronounced like tray
2. Archana
3. Alicia

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. get married
2. Have kids
3. go to Ozzfest

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR DIE PAINFULLY:
1. Santa
2. Ronald McDonald
3. Charles/Maryllin Manson ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/4858965/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/4858965/ Sat, 19 Mar 2005 23:50:50 PST
riday night a group of my friends and me went around to ~hubsy's house and had a pizza night and just hung around all night. that was hell awesome.

today i drummed at my church service which was pretty cool... i havent dont it for ages and so it felt great to get behind a kit again, but i had been listening to my new Soilwork CD (Stabbing The Drama) \m/ the ight before so i was all blast beats in my head... very funny coz i kept thinking about my idea of having a daeth meat carols album.

oooh! it rained three night ago, and the sunset was awesome!!! it was just like RedStorm but blue!!! but unfortunately, i was at work and i cant take acamera, so i stood there and looked for ages goind "dammit!!!" so sorry sophy, you might need to wait a little longer for that blue sky i'll get you...

have fun ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/4740244/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/4740244/ Sun, 06 Mar 2005 04:45:37 PST speaker was awesome
company was great
the headache isn't cool
the late nights were fun
sleep is needed REALLY badly
fire twirling was EXCELLENT
whole experience overall = really great time

so why do i still feel like crap? theres no reason, so my parents are crappy at me too. which makes me more crappy at them. which makes them all even crappier... you get the idea.

bah. i need sleep. i'll do a proper journal when i can be stuffed doing so. ]]> ~renegade-shadow http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/4690247/ http://renegade-shadow.deviantart.com/journal/4690247/ Mon, 28 Feb 2005 04:49:41 PST
well, i have an english in-class tomorrow i haven't even started preparing for, a maths assignment due that i'm only halfway through, and still i am feeling quite good... so wierd! but meh, i'll feel it when i'm still up at 2 doing all the crap i haven;t done but need to. oh well.

this year at school is gonna be pretty awesome. except for the whole having to learn thing. but, being in my final year, year 12, we get a ball, then the afterball, muckup day, and a whole plethora of other privelidges... its gonna be so aweosme!!!

and remember, if life gives you lemons... SHUTUP AND EAT YOUR DAMN LEMONS!!!!!!!!!! ]]> ~renegade-shadow