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Apparently I havent been giving credit where credit is due (as so pointed out by RougeBat here [link] )

THANK YOU TO THE FOLLOWING ARTISTS FOR BEING SO GOOD THAT I DECIDED TO BORROW POSES OR POSSIBLY SHADING, MAYBE A FEW OTHER THINGS FROM MAYBE EVEN COPY FREE HAND, WHICH I HAVE NEVER POSTED ON ANY SITE, SIMPLY TO EMULATE AND PRACTICE BECAUSE OF THEIR ARTISTIC GREATNESS.

TheBob74
King_Cheetah
Vashperado
Fred Gallagher
Hawk & Anath
Jin Wicked
, ETC

the artists of a number of web comics i read
(VG cats, Megatokyo, Applegeeks, Mac Hall, Peter is the wolf, Shifters, anything on Snafu, etc)

The artists of many comics and manga
(transformers, battle gods, battle vixens, Hellsing, etc)

and let us not forget those who many artist have probably emulated without citing for the last ...well since before they died,
Leonardo davinci
van goh
Salvador dali
, etc.

regardless to say, i live by an important artistic creed taught to me by my high school art teacher, Mr. Michelson.

"your good when people want to buy your work, You're GREAT when someone wants to steal it."

along with this important saying that dates back ages.

"copying is the greatest form of flattery."

so in conclusion to this journal brought on by the words of someone, that if i may say, has yet to post any actual work themself (miss rougebat) i have this to say to anyone that i may have borrowed from

I only borrow or copy to learn and to show my love of another piece of artwork.

sorry if i have pissed off any of the artists that i have done this to, and for those that are, I have moved all those works to my scraps simply out of respect and to show that they are only sketches i have done out of respect and love.

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Well for the good news, I'm going to college on the 23rd...

at WNCC (Western Nevada Community College) for A+ hardware and software. yeah only the two classes for now, but hopefully by the summer or fall ill have financial aid and enough saved up to go to school full time.

im trying to decide on a computer or if i need one for college, cause i might be able to use my money for one. anyway, im going to hopefully be taking some art classes later on too.

]]> ~reverickane http://reverickane.deviantart.com/journal/10706351/ http://reverickane.deviantart.com/journal/10706351/ Sun, 12 Nov 2006 21:53:33 PST

Ive grown up a bit since i got out of highschool, especialy in this last year and a half...

but i wonder perhaps just how much...

things i have to look forward to

I found that i really love the blues, the messages the songs have, especialy some of the old 20s and 30s stuff. ive been learning to play the blues harmonica, my dad says im doing really well with it and the band says so too.

i love to draw, but lately, ive just lost it, there is no idea, no image, nothing, not even in my writing, im in the middle of things and the ideas just wont come.

i think im going to lose it again... my mind is just slipping daily, today...today was bad, and not because things didnt work out right, or something broke or what ever, it just was bad, i want to cry and i dont know why.

i think they call it an emotional break down or mental... whatever.

tommorow im going to the dojo and working it out...somehow.

purpose maybe, perhaps that is what im trying to find, have been and still am. Ive always lived that "here are my feet, this is where i am" but lately i think my mind is elsewhere, i swear that im losing it somehow. thoughts in my mind are different then they were, i can recognize it, yet i dont know how they are different at the same time. i forget things easily, someone tells me something and i have to have them repeat it possibly one or more times till i get it down. Im worried about it.

today was quiet for the most part, the constant noise of thoughts in my head was gone for the most of it, there was no direction, nothing but my own voice.

ive been having conversations, with myself. i talk and answer, discuss abstractly and logicaly at the same time between the two thoughts.

sometimes its emotions conversing with logic and fact.

i dont know anymore, its like im not me anymore.

i just jumped because of a bubble in my soda made the surface wake.

im tense and i dont know why, im getting knots in my neck and sholders like ive never had before.

maybe im just tired, ive been short on sleep for some reason, ill go till im tired and still wake up early, which only started a week or so ago, i used to get up at ten or later, but now its like 6 30 7 8 o clock when i start waking up.

its like hitting your head against a wall in an attempt to do something.

thats the only way i can describe it.

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i guess i just need to find my own style.

i gots me some jason alexander, some off the wall spawn stuff called blood & shadows and Blood & salvation, then i got the really kick ass spawn batman cross overs ( :3 Batman is the greatest, i mean he kicked the shit out of superman like 10 times or more, and well spawn, dude, he's all fire and brimstone evil satan powers bishies!) the first issue of steampunk


then only the best series having only the best hero ever!

Optimus Prime!

wootski!!!

so i should be set for a couple of pics atleast.

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hope im better tommorow.

i got to see the animated hellboy yesterday, and all i can say was that it simply,

Kicked ass.

im thinking of moving away from the more japanime styles ive used in the past and move more towards the american graphic novel style brought about sometime in the late 80s early 90s.

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and i also really like the artwork of Aaron A. (heartshapedskull.com)

anyway, besides my art tastes, Things have for the most part gotten worse in my mind and im not quite sure what to do about it.

according to my dear father, who i love a great deal, my writing does not equal " a constructive use of my time" maybe he is right, but i dont really feel that way

then again i havent drawn a thing in close to a month. I have four sketch books and they are all empty.

not a thing in them.

anyway, im still unsure of things...

I really really want....something... i dunno, just something to go on, to dream about.

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i had to move back down to nevada for work and well, its like a week has past down here, but that is what the problem is.

Its really not home either.

there has to be some place that is home, that has that feeling.

three months is all i have to look forward to at the moment, as far as long term things.

i count down the days as i lay in my bed in the mornings and at night, thinking about her and what things in the world i want to share with her.

ive wondered about things around me, its so quiet down here. but my heart wontr stop hurting. it bleeds pain through out my soul.

i have only a hint of things i want to do

and i wish my sensei's understood how i look at martial arts

"well you should get a good footing in goju shorei hand to hand, that kung fu stuff takes years to be able to do anything with"

martial arts to me are about more than just being able to knock someone silly, its spiritual, its deep.

It has more purpose than just fighting


they preach about needing more learning in the healing arts yet they completely discount the other aspects of the martial arts

maybe they dont, but thats how it sounds to me.

anyway....

i really miss her, and i cant really show it around here.

it is a kind of love, one deeper than any ive ever had

I call it true love

i love everything about her, there is no lustful attraction to her only for sex, there is no fleeting crush, there is only that feeling of connection when im around her, that feeling of never wanting to part.

that understanding,

That Truth.

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honestly, i always believed that things will turn out for the best in the end...

but things are really just odd to me anymore. I got a job finaly, so ill be getting paid fairly well. be able to do alot of things again, like buy kingdom hearts 2 or um....yeah... stuff.

I really am a rather uneventful person. other then the outragously intense spiritual stuff i go through on a rahter regular basis.

anyway, i drew a pic lastnight of a friend of mine's furry, might post it sometime, when i like get a scanner and stuff.

I like paint....

and nachos....

and those little um...what are they....they uh....uh.....yeah....um...they...

taste good....um yeah those things. >.> <.<

so yeah. my life, is not really all that bad right now.

I could use a fine lady by my side, but hey, ill admit im definitly no casanova.

one day there will be one. i know it....


okay, im really lonely, and yeah....other things.

i need a girlfreind. ]]> ~reverickane http://reverickane.deviantart.com/journal/7942635/ http://reverickane.deviantart.com/journal/7942635/ Sun, 19 Feb 2006 11:34:05 PST
yeah, I spent the night over at a freinds house to get away from things, so i should probably be doing better for a while. seeing that i now know what I really need to do to get my life back on track.

well atleast for a while

and im not being pessimistic, only realist. (realist is the optimistic word used to cover up being a pessimist.)

gag me with a splintering wooden spork...


ninjas and pirates are cool. ]]> ~reverickane http://reverickane.deviantart.com/journal/7935294/ http://reverickane.deviantart.com/journal/7935294/ Sat, 18 Feb 2006 14:52:27 PST
thought I'd write a little journal here. mainly because I think im going through another depression moment. I dont have that feeling of failure, but it seems like i should have just stayed in nevada. I mean, i wouldnt be hurting so much for money, I wouldnt be worried about going to college, and I wouldnt feel like im just a cause of a great deal of pain to those around me.

or i probably would.

I really love her.

dissillusionment is such a cruel thing, not for the victim, but for those around the dissillusioned.

why cant KL just stop being such a....


and why can i not seem to get a f@#king moment to my self...away from all these filthy humans.

I guess i just need some time to myself, ive been living in the living room. I have no door, i have no privacy, and everyone is always in MY ROOM!

I need some form of isolation. mainly just to think, to think about what i have to do for just the next day. i mean, when i finaly get some time to myself, im too tired to do anything.

anyway...

yeah...

stuff.






Im not proud of this journal entry, but deleting it would defeat the purpose of the whole 10 minutes i spent complaining about my meagerly pathetic life.

PS...

no one seems to trust me anymore....

and i dont know why.....

there was no reason, no cause for their mistrust...

disgusting, pathetic,.......theres no word i can think of for them.




DISSILLISIONMENT...... I loathe thee with every part of my dieing heart. ]]> ~reverickane http://reverickane.deviantart.com/journal/7660061/ http://reverickane.deviantart.com/journal/7660061/ Fri, 20 Jan 2006 17:56:12 PST
"That is the title to my favorite soul song of the 70's." ~ Bill

"huh?"



Yeah. It's been a while since I last wrote in my journal, I mean I wrote in it last back on Jul 2nd according to deviant art. It's been what, six dang near seven months now?

yeah, alot of stuff has happened. i moved on the 5th of july, arrived here in montana on the 6th.

ive gone through alot in just over half a year. two jobs, one at a landscaping company called earth & wood, where my supervisor or what ever he is. he said he was my freind, a FAMILY freind since he worked for years with my mother as well at the same company. he still screwed me over in the end back in october i beleive. got in an accident with a mower that ended up in a week long attempt to recover after i had to go to a quick care facility during work. I had whiplash from taking the handle of a mower strait to the bladder. and that was pretty much the end of that.

I worked for a few days at a teleresearch company, but i would have had a break down working there.

not that it matters much, ive already had a few emotional breakdowns that have cause me a great deal of greif and hell, even physical illness at times.

ive had atleast three in the last month, all which revolved around a rather tremulous relationship with a dear freind of mine. Ill call her K for now.

alot of this is going to sound strange to some, but i do consider myself rather spiritual as that i do follow a shamanic path in life. but K and I have had relationships in the past and when we found out we tried to date eachother, but something was wrong, I just didnt love her like i did before, and it caused some troubles right off the bat, as well as the fact that she has some serious mental issues that are as of recently begining to lighten, as she is now going out with a guy i consider my brother and that ive known since like third grade.

believe me, i couldnt be happier for them, they a both really great freinds of mine and I love them like family.

anyway, me and K tried and tried, which caused us both a great deal of emotional damage. im still trying to collect myself after it all and im begining to fall into a stage of insomnia and other physical ailments. im worrying about possibly having diabeaties or something, as well as the fact that things keep piling on me, such as K's mother, whos home i am living in, is begining to have problems with me that i shall not go into, nothing bad or anything, but they are just between me and her.

anyway, i guess i just really needed to write this out. i sound pretty pathetic i bet, but it seems like just about everyone just goes on their journals here to complain about their lives. i Know mine isnt as bad as some, which makes me feel kind of guilty writing all this.

anyway, im having some severe sleep problems, and i have this feeling that a great deal of my stress is starting to build up in my subconciousness, just waiting to let flow like some great river that will result in a temporarily debilitating breakdown.


you know, i really like the band "the Cure"

specialy the song "just like heaven" and "love cats"

I Really miss my cat Diablos, or as we called him "DC" (short for Devil Cat)

anyway, i think im going to take a nap, try to get soem sleep so i can get up and paint in a little while.


Guess i forgot to mention that in my rabblings of greif.

yeah, finally getting back into painting and drawing.

did a really great water color for a girl that even after 6 years of her pretty much rejecting me, I still love.

she likes to call me Nissan, which is japanese for "older brother" or atleast thats what she says it means.

and just recently i was able to finish some works i had started quite a while ago.

might be able to upload some of it after i find a scanner. ]]> ~reverickane http://reverickane.deviantart.com/journal/5820719/ http://reverickane.deviantart.com/journal/5820719/ Sat, 02 Jul 2005 21:10:02 PDT At your jaws and your long fur
The claws in your fingers.

It's in the past when the passerby laughed
At your strange way of speaking
Your batteries leaking
Oh no

Oh God no
They don't know
The New Zero. "

~The New Zero by Rasputina~

well, I wish i had some art to post with this, but like usual, im in my artistic slump thats going on a good six months.

I was able to do some the other day, but when i tried to enlarge it for what it was originaly for, it got all messed up and didnt look right.

well anyway, I really have to say that i spend alot of time looking at art anymore, and its something that makes me happy.

so i finaly got a goal in life, and that is to own my own art gallery some day. ill sell art of all types, probably mostly limited ed prints, and music and Books, i love books and maybe ill sell soem poetry prints too.


yeah, im an art lover, i just wish i could express myself like i used to.



personaly, i really do think its where i live. Lovelock Nevada. this place, is one of those where you get stuck here, and you can never seem to leave.

I think its true. ive been here two years now, and becasue of politics in this town, ive only been able to keep the few jobs ive had here a maximum of maybe two months.


Im going to take a vacation to Montana or as i like to call it "Home" and i dont know, better yet, HOPE i find a job and NEVER have to return to Lovelock.

I have alot of freinds there, and alot of people i know, so i really do hope to find something.



so anyway

for those of you who ive added to my watch list, I really do love your work, i just dont like to post comments unless it really strikes me or is indeed in need of commentation.



For those that want to know, this was written four hours prior to my decision to leave nevada. yep, packing up my truck and making like a decapitated head and rolling.


Btw, skittles and nitrogen, fun for a whole room! lol, i like that one, its one of Gatobob-Spotty's works, go check them out. ]]> ~reverickane http://reverickane.deviantart.com/journal/5671505/ http://reverickane.deviantart.com/journal/5671505/ Thu, 16 Jun 2005 22:03:45 PDT
I tried to draw a little tonight, mostly just a scetch or two, but im not really that pleased with teh results. its different for me if its really something new and original i guess. but what i was doing was a couple of peices for the dojo, and i guess tehy just didnt have teh right feeling.

i mean i havent done the finished peice yet, so i guess i really cant say for sure how i really feel about them.

i think im going to start working on the peice ive been wanting to do of my two best freinds, my sister and kris fox.

as well as the peice im going to do of a couple of my rp personas.


still im angery that i cant just do what i want with my art when i want too. ]]> ~reverickane http://reverickane.deviantart.com/journal/1791020/ http://reverickane.deviantart.com/journal/1791020/ Wed, 04 Feb 2004 00:38:53 PST
but either way, im happy. good films, fine wine, a rather expensive sounding choped olive, sharp cheddar, brown sugar ham and white bread sandwich, and everything seems a bit better in the world. though i do dearly miss Sonia, I wils she would answer her cell or atleast call me. or email me or something, I do accept messenger pigeon.

but either way, with such a boring life, my drawing skills are returning. I guess 6 years of public school art classes can do that. I wish I had my water colors though, I used to do some wicked good work with those.

Plus, Im really starting to believe that herbal remedies are far better than chancing the side effects of some of these medications that they advertise on the TV.

I mean come on, even if im not active in those special ways, I really would rather not have said side effects...EVER. well atleast not till im like, 50 or something, I mean to the point where im so old and havent even had a dirty thought in a few weeks, then maybe.

well anyways, I guess things are kind good. ive got a shaty scanner, a comp thats nearly fragged, a boring life, over a hundred films ive watched over and over again, and a pile of pencils and a couple of scetchbooks. ]]> ~reverickane http://reverickane.deviantart.com/journal/1697398/ http://reverickane.deviantart.com/journal/1697398/ Sat, 17 Jan 2004 20:14:24 PST
for lack of better words

WOOOTZ! ]]> ~reverickane http://reverickane.deviantart.com/journal/1692403/ http://reverickane.deviantart.com/journal/1692403/ Fri, 16 Jan 2004 20:50:25 PST

well on to the actual part of this that means something.

I did my second drawing in 4 months tonight, it was of chelsi, a character on althanas.com. I think my artistic abilities are coming back in full force, which makes me pretty damn happy if ya know what i mean.

well thats about it, I guess. ]]> ~reverickane http://reverickane.deviantart.com/journal/1676974/ http://reverickane.deviantart.com/journal/1676974/ Tue, 13 Jan 2004 22:20:22 PST

been writing alot, i kinda miss my old creative writing class with mr. Gilbreth. Mostly i miss the girl that i consider as a sister. the only person who has given me a scar that ill keep, both physicaly and emotionaly.


I guess the lack of a person for me to care about in my life is my reason for not drawing, or having as much passion in my writing as usual. ]]> ~reverickane