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"You just start dating a guy. He likes you, you like him. You guys want to spend every second together. When you are not with him you are talking to him on the phone. You have deep feelings for him. The feelings keep developing. They keep growing. You begin to think this could be it. You begin to think I really think this is it for me….. You love being together. You can't stand being without each other. You start to feel like you have never felt before, and you do things for him you have never done before. He tells you he doesn’t want to be with you and only you. He tells you he adores you. He tells you u guys were meant for each other. You care for him. You are falling for him. You take things slow. You don't want to make any mistakes. You go slower with him than you have ever done before. You don't rush to introduce him to your friends, let alone anyone else. You want it to be right. You are feeling this and you feel this could mean something. He communicates with you. He thanks God you are in his life. You guys have fun together. You laugh together. He talks about being and becoming serious with you. He talks about his desire to love you one day. He talks about he can't imagine not being with you. You think he's falling in love with you. But you can't be 100% sure. You guys have not said that sacred 4 letter word that starts with an "L". But you feel it deep deep in you. Deeper than you have in a long time.

You ask him "are we moving too fast"? He replies "We are just following our hearts." You start to trust him. Something you have not done since your first heart break. How long ago was that? You wonder. Trust is something you vowed you would never do again. But slowly your heart comes out of its steel enclosure. You feel like you can trust him. You feel as if everything you went through was for a reason. And the reason was to meet him. Days turns into weeks. And he tells you about the connection you guys have in each others hearts.

Weeks turns into months and you slowly start to wean the other guys in your life out. And than it happens. No not the "L" word. But what you have been most afraid of. What deep in your heart you have been afraid to confront. What you always suspected would happen one day sooner or later. HE STOPS CALLING. You panic. But you try to stay calm. He did this before when you first started talking, but u tried to forget it. You knew you should have not forgotten. But u tried to ignore it. He disappears for a week with no phone call. No answer to yours no nothing. Finally you hear from him. You want to rage you want to scream you want to cry. But you can't help you heart from feeling a tad bit happy.


As you begin to ask him what happened he stops you. He says "I need space". You cringe at these words. This is the very reason you begin to think why your heart was in that steel enclosure. The reason you don't put your emotions your feelings, your heart into it. Because one day it always turns into this day. But you are already too far out you are at the point of no return, you can't come back. You can't believe, although a piece of you does believe it. Space. How many time have you heard this before? Space? Weren’t you giving him enough? Space. Hummm you laugh because its so ridiculous. You laugh because again you knew this day would come. Why did you not listen to that little voice inside your hear telling you to "watch out". "Be careful". You laugh only because tears won't come.

You know its not you, but u cant help but look at that man in the mirror. You can't help but pick yourself apart. Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? And again and again you can't come up with the answer. Slowly as you try to focus on other things and think of other people you put you heart back into that steel case.

Tears finally come and they make you feel a little better, but the pain is piercing through your soul. The pain never hurts as bad as the first time. But all the same you can't help but feel hopeless, foolish. Your great chance to be with your soul mate has again somehow slipped and failed.

But eventually you know you will pick yourself up. Eventually you know you will try again. And eventually you know you will find the keys to you heart, but also in the back of your mind you think…. Will it happen again?"

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--Deuteronomy 4:29

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]]> ~rhiannon219 http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/14650859/ http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/14650859/ Sat, 15 Sep 2007 21:16:44 PDT How easy it has been for me...
To forget all the ways I felt for you?
You are just another day,
Just another, just another, bump
That I've run over...on this road
Another love, that has taken it's toll

Do you see, see, oh do you see?
There are plenty of other men...
Out there....who are able to care
Way more then you ever could...
You are just another sad mistake
Another step, just another step, I
Had to take, another past I cannot change

Do you see, see, oh do you see?
I've grown tired of the chase?
Don't you see, don't you see?
I need someone to need?
Someone who isn't you
That can love just me

Are you getting the big picture?
It's a wonderful color... (shutter/click)
There's me being happy...
And there's you, not being there with me...
Do you see, see, oh do you see?
I'm better off without you...

]]> ~rhiannon219 http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/14495590/ http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/14495590/ Tue, 04 Sep 2007 22:26:49 PDT But hey, it's been a slow day
There's plenty of time
Plenty more to set a fire

Cos' sometimes
I'm tired of being let down
Tired of putting my heart
In other people's hands
There's always that chance
Things won't go as planned

But, someday they'll mend
This bridges will rebuild
These fires will burn out
So just for now
I've just got to preserve

Yes, I burned a bridge or two
But hey, it's been a slow day
There's plenty of time
Plenty more to set fire
'Cos sometimes
I'M TIRED OF BEING LET DOWN

]]> ~rhiannon219 http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/14493322/ http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/14493322/ Tue, 04 Sep 2007 19:09:23 PDT All of this up and down
I know after all this
You think it's my turn...
I should be the one to hurt
I'm the one who should feel this burn
For all the times I've changed my mind

But maybe it was you who led me on?
I know your games....
You told me how they work
Disengage and some unanswered calls
You see, it's been a week....
Haven't heard from you at all....

I know that you are making me pay
For all the little ways
I've caused you pain
I know after all this
You think it's my turn...
I should be the one to hurt
I'm the one who should feel this burn
Oh, but I do
Oh, I do

]]> ~rhiannon219 http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/14295581/ http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/14295581/ Wed, 22 Aug 2007 21:57:22 PDT I am getting a little TIRED
Of Being pushed around
You take me for this crazy ride
Spinning words
We both know are LIES
I am getting a little sick
Of you changing YOUR mind
So sit DOWN, shut UP
I've finally reach the point
Where I've had ENOUGH
Your just a boy
Silly little toy
I've used for my muse
Who's LAUGHING now?
Sit BACK and listen good
I am so done
Being misunderstood
Since you can't
Make up YOUR mind
I won't mind....MOVING ON
Your CHANCES have run OUT
So get the f*** out
I am finally done
With you pushing me around
Sit down
Shut up
Get out

]]> ~rhiannon219 http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/14067440/ http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/14067440/ Tue, 07 Aug 2007 22:30:02 PDT You feel the need
To remind me
That we are just friends
I KNOW because
I chose this
Don't you remember
Our little conversation
But I miss you
And you "don't know..
What to say"
How about
"I miss you too"...
If you don't
Tell me and
I'll GO...
You seem bitter
Which is not
What I want
There's things
I can't compromise
But there's things
I hope you would
What have I done...
To make you so mad?
Long story short...
I miss your smile...
And how you
Make me LAUGH

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]]> ~rhiannon219 http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/13258106/ http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/13258106/ Thu, 07 Jun 2007 21:19:37 PDT
smile
strong faith
family
kisses
athleticism
way with kids
dedication
eyes/eyelashes
soft side
naivete
good looks
thoughtfulness
warmth
quoting of silly things
way of talking things out
honesty
laugh





I dislike his....

way of never calling
busy schedule
lack of commitment
aloofness
bachelor side
lack of taking me out
fear of the word "girlfriend"





can you see my dilemma?

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]]> ~rhiannon219 http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/12923035/ http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/12923035/ Sat, 12 May 2007 00:05:01 PDT 'you've trusted those who don't deserve it' and
She sighs to herself and she begins to cry...

'Why why why... do I let myself give in...
Why why why can't anyone love me the way I need'

How could I be so wrong...about so many
She looks to the sky and she asks God 'why'
'Why haven't You shown me the one?'
She cries and she cries through all the broken hearts...

'Why why why... can I never find love
Why why why... is my faith not enough'

She says once again 'you've made a mistake'
And she's tired of the risks that love needs to take
She's given up...she's finally given up

]]> ~rhiannon219 http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/12661064/ http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/12661064/ Thu, 19 Apr 2007 21:30:27 PDT

I have realized today, as I was downtown purchasing my parking card, that life is nothing without goals, dreams and aspirations. We set goals for ourselves, some unreachable and some attainable. This helps us to strive for what we can reach, as well as what may be just beyond our out-stretched hads. Without goals and dreams we have nothing to aspire to.

I believe that I have overcome great odds to reach my dreams, and I have let nothing get in my way...but the more I thought about it...the more I realized that I have reached all my goals....my dream job...my dream car...my love of faith and Jesus Christ...and it becomes apparent to me that I have to once again reach beyond what I can fatholm and dream bigger and greater!

It is a beautiful life and I am so glad to be living it.

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: )

]]> ~rhiannon219 http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/12512467/ http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/12512467/ Sun, 08 Apr 2007 15:45:42 PDT when you see there is nothing there,
But you made me this way
You took all my happines away
There is no smile to show, and no heart to break
Everything already broken...and I am left cold...
All the emotions are gone...the pain no one can ever know...."





ignoring me, won't make me disappear...

]]> ~rhiannon219 http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/12343439/ http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/12343439/ Mon, 26 Mar 2007 22:20:35 PDT Because I am tired of holding on...
tired of holding on....

]]> ~rhiannon219 http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/12302896/ http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/12302896/ Fri, 23 Mar 2007 21:29:01 PDT The way I used to

I just want to feel warm in your arms
The way I used to

I just need to hear the sound of your voice
The way I used to

I just need you to need me
The way you used to

I just want so much more from you
I just want some kind of affection
I just want you here with me...

I just need to see you smile at me
The way you used to

I just need you here with me
Like you used to be...

Please just say you feel the same...and you need me too...

]]> ~rhiannon219 http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/12252954/ http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/12252954/ Tue, 20 Mar 2007 00:42:28 PDT But You always seem to stick around and see...
See me through to believe...
I thank You for standing beside me"

I did not write this...but it is beautiful and very suiting

]]> ~rhiannon219 http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/12162810/ http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/12162810/ Mon, 12 Mar 2007 21:52:04 PDT and I need more...I need so much more...
Are you willing to give?
I miss you so much...
And I don't get to see you
As much as I want to...
Maybe it's too much...
I need more...I need so much more...

]]> ~rhiannon219 http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/12092644/ http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/12092644/ Wed, 07 Mar 2007 12:28:10 PST It's weighing down and closing in...crushing me
All I want to be is yours...is that so wrong?
I have waited for so long
To find a soul as kind as yours....
Oh, just to be yours...would that even change a thing?

All of this uncertainty,
Will you go or will you stay?
Time will tell, but I am not ready to wait.

This uncertainty is more than I can stand...
But yet you don't understand...
All those wrongs just to find the ONE right
They are all nothing....nothing...nothing
Compared to you...

]]> ~rhiannon219 http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/11940732/ http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/11940732/ Fri, 23 Feb 2007 21:48:44 PST Performed by Rebekah Del Rio...


Yo estaba bien por un tiempo,
volviendo a sonreír.
Luego anoche te vi
tu mano me tocó
y el saludo de tu voz.
Y hablé muy bien de tu
sin saber que he estado
llorando por tu amor.
Luego de tu adiós sentí todo mi dolor.
Sola y llorando,
llorando.
No es fácil de entender
que al verte otra vez
Yo seguiré llorando

Yo que pensé que te olvidé
pero es verdad es la verdad
que te quiero aún más,
mucho más que ayer.
Dime tú qué puedo hacer
no me quieres ya
y siempre estaré
llorando por tu amor.
Tu amor se llevó
todo mi corazon
y quedo llorando
llorando
por tu amor.

English Translation (not the literal trans):

I was all right for a while,
I could smile for a while.
But I saw you last night;
You held my hand so tight
when you stopped to say hello.
Oh, you wished me well,
you couldn't tell
that I'd been crying over you,
crying over you.
And you said so long,
left me standing all alone.
Alone and crying
Crying
It's hard to understand
But the touch of your hand
Can start me crying

I thought that I was over you
But it's true, so true
I love you even more
Than I did before
But darling, what can I do?
For you don't love me
And I'll always be
Crying over you.

Yes, now you're gone
And from this moment on
I'll be crying
crying
over you.


*I didn't write this...but I WISH I did

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]]> ~rhiannon219 http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/10851233/ http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/10851233/ Sat, 25 Nov 2006 23:48:59 PST For someone like you to come along
It seems that I had to see ALL the bad
Just to hold onto the only one that was good
You came just in time...
When I thought I was destined...to live empty in this life

I am happy

: )

]]> ~rhiannon219 http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/10751144/ http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/10751144/ Fri, 17 Nov 2006 13:03:10 PST

You don't seem to be grasping this concept
It's surprisingly easy...if you'd just stop to listen
I hate you for my own reasons ...
There is no need for you to understand
Leave me be....every time we "speak"
It chips another piece away in me
I can't stand it... IT HURTS
So move along...and just LET ME BE
I loved you...you said it's over...NOW GO...





...and it is even worse...when people say to me..."gosh you are so beautiful and absolutely wonderful....what kind of IDIOT would let you go..." ehhh


I think my feelings can be summed up in a song...I heard it today in the tanning salon
: P


By: Vertical Horizon

"So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the boy
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

But it's not so bad
(Not so bad...)
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
(Need me back...)
You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had

The best I ever had
The best I ever..."

I thought I found someone perfect....for me...and I am SOOO PICKY that I seldom fall for anybody...and it was so refreshing...and I am angry because I thought I had something great...and I no longer have it...so therefore I am a bit perturbed...hope that clears a few things up.



kisses, Rhiannon

]]> ~rhiannon219 http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/10664959/ http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/10664959/ Thu, 09 Nov 2006 00:06:10 PST I try to press STOP, but the memories are stuck in rewind

I'd erase it all, before I'd do it all again
I'd change it all, alter the faults...that in which you EXISTED

I can't stand this broken tape, the memories just play and replay
I could burn the tape, watch it all melt into the flames

I could make you watch it, and let you drown in your MISTAKES
You'd gasp for air, and I'd turn only to walk away

I'd rather erase it all, just to forget
I'd change it all, just to expel this regret

I'd erase it ALL just to stop HATING you













"You say love is a hell you cannot bare....And I say gimme mine back and then GO THERE- for all I care..."

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]]> ~rhiannon219 http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/10428856/ http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/10428856/ Tue, 17 Oct 2006 22:06:37 PDT
...We walked together along the small stone wall, in which at on point you grabbed a stone. Stuck in it's place, you pried it free. You then tossed it destructively into the stream....

I have walked that path again, and I always see that empty spot. The remnants of your decision are still so present in my every day.

You were destructive with my heart, just like the stone. Tossed it away, for no apparent reason.

I look at the spot and I realize, that stone needs to be put back...things need to be fixed. I can fix things and the wall can be as it once was. Unless someone does SOMETHING, than the wall will always be missing that one stone.



I walk by the spot NOW, and the stone has been replaced...this heart has been mended...and I can breathe in the fresh October air.

]]> ~rhiannon219 http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/10298831/ http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/10298831/ Thu, 05 Oct 2006 22:16:20 PDT
I mean really, if guys treated girls with RESPECT and didn't PLAY GAMES and were COMPLETELY HONEST...then girls would not act all "crazy" or "irrational"! I find this very interesting... because most guys never say what they are thinking, and are never completely honest with what's going on.

I think woman are a lot more forthcoming when it comes to feelings and getting things out in the open. Guys are just the opposite. They tend to keep things in, and are rarely honest with what's really going on.

If guys just want a girl for physical reasons...they don't tell her that up front. They basically just use her, and then say that they aren't ready for a relationship, they need to focus on their job/career, they are too stressed...or find some other lame excuse to break it off. Because really guys... if you aren't "ready" or "don't want" a relationship then don't have relations with a girl...and wonder why she gets upset! It is really THAT SIMPLE!

Guys don't realize that this is hurtful, and that girls get really upset when this happens. Hence the irrational behavior that the girl expresses towards the guy afterwards.

So then, the guy is like: that girl is all "emotional" or whatever it is that they say. But really, they have messed with her head and she is acting off her feelings and then things get a bit UGLY.

I have seen this happen many a time. To many, many, many, girls; myself included. I feel helpless when giving advice, but just realize that we girls need to be extra careful with whom we give our hearts to. Even when you are 100% sure that this person is worth your time... you still have to be careful. Even those "devout" church boys who are all sweet an innocent with their big brown eyes...they can hurt you...even if you don't expect it... (To quote Andy Dick "Or that sailor from TGI Friday's who never did call me back...but that's neither here, nor there...") Ahah, some humor was needed!

Lastly, don't get me wrong... I am not bashing any of the happy couples out there. Believe me...I am happy for you. But ladies, to keep your heart from getting stomped on... you need to protect it.

That is all... tell me what you think...????


DISCLAIMER: I know all guys are not like this...and I tend to generalize. But from what I have experienced, there are a lot of guys who ARE like this... and I am in no way trying to offend the nice guys who are out there... heck I hope to meet one some day! That is all : )

]]> ~rhiannon219 http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/10209760/ http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/10209760/ Wed, 27 Sep 2006 23:14:48 PDT

He loves me... the way I long for you... this world breaks hearts... oh to be so cruel...

]]> ~rhiannon219 http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/10102919/ http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/10102919/ Sun, 17 Sep 2006 21:48:10 PDT
(start of a poem... what do you think???)



I know I am WISHY WASHY regarding relationships and forgiveness... I know that I am supposed to 'forgive' and not hold grudges... and I start off that way... then I let my emotions contradict what I have said...

"[If there is an old boyfriend, ex-spouse, parent, or boss you are mad at, whose name still comes up when you talk to people, God would say "My Son was slaughtered on the Cross for the very sin that person committed against you. Let it go. Give it up. Put it under the blood that speaks better things. Lay it at the cross."]"

I am trying my best : )



On a good note...this has been such a great week! I cannot even express my happiness. I feel so lucky to have people around that love and care for me. And who support my decisions in every way imaginable. Thank you to those who stand by me and who I consider my REAL FRIENDS! You are truly treasured in my heart!

XOXO ]]> ~rhiannon219 http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/10045504/ http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/10045504/ Mon, 11 Sep 2006 23:31:09 PDT
He wants to be "friends"... but we don't hang out... and we don't talk.. and I wonder.... what is the point? Just so he can have a free conscience... that we are still on good terms?? He tells me on the phone that he went out to dinner with some 17 year old girl... ummm HELLO... could you please not tell me these things.... it makes me want to cry... and it bothers me because I am so much stronger than that....

I feel that when I talk to him I am not myself. I am usually up front and as blunt as a baseball bat to the head.... but when I talk to him... I don't know what to say... and nothing ever comes out the way I want it to. I hold so much back.... I never say what I am really thinking... and THAT ISN'T ME! I want to tell him that when he talks to me.... it hurts... and that I can't deal with it. Why am I trying so hard? Why not just let him go... not talk to him.... and just let go....? It's been way too long... and I keep holding on... I think it's time.... ]]> ~rhiannon219 http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/9983118/ http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/9983118/ Tue, 05 Sep 2006 22:22:12 PDT
IN MY LIFE I WANT:

BOYS.... NO
HAPPINESS.... YES
BINGE DRINKING.... NO
WRITING MY BOOK.... YES
TO BECOME AN ENGLISH MAJOR.... YES
TO STAY FOCUSED.... YES
GOD.... YES
PEOPLE WHO BRING ME DOWN.... NO
DRAMA.... NO
SUCCESS IN MY JOB.... YES

there you have it!!! ]]> ~rhiannon219 http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/9939219/ http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/9939219/ Sat, 02 Sep 2006 10:11:49 PDT

...if that is even possible.... ]]> ~rhiannon219 http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/9524303/ http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/9524303/ Fri, 28 Jul 2006 15:06:28 PDT
He is walking along the New York Pier that borders the city. It is late at night, and the city is aglow with lights and dull sounds. He narrates to the camera, and reflects on his life. He speaks of a woman (played by Susan Sarandon) and he says this about her:

"Just when you let your guard down with someone.. they throw the knockout punch..."

I can truly relate. I am a very closed off person, and rarely let anyone in. For that exact fear that I will get knocked down or hurt. I think sometimes that being closed off can hold you back in life. But I have decided that I would rather keep my walls up and be skeptical than to have to deal with hurt and emotions.

Maybe it is the easy way out? Maybe... but I think that it is better that way. ]]> ~rhiannon219 http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/9495343/ http://rhiannon219.deviantart.com/journal/9495343/ Tue, 25 Jul 2006 22:30:58 PDT ~rhiannon219