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In other news, I'm really excited about Thanksgiving that is in a few days, mostly because I haven't seen my three year old sister in over three months!! I miss her a lot!! Not looking forward to the eighteen hour trip to get home, but still... it will definitely be worth it! Especially since I get to see my best friend on top of all of my family! Yay!

Anyways, I wish everyone a very happy holiday season... Thanksgiving, Hannukah, Christmas, etc. I will catch you all later if I don't update this journal any time soon.

~Rshl <3

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/28254573/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/28254573/ Mon, 09 Nov 2009 19:35:35 PST So anyways, I hope everyone is having an awesome week, and hopefully I will get some more (and better) art posted up here soon.

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/27654615/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/27654615/ Thu, 08 Oct 2009 16:53:06 PDT
I guess what happens is that you go to one of the parks, either in Disneyland or Walt Disney World, and you spend a semester or a whole year there taking classes in everything from management to hospitality to marketing. It's pretty awesome. And at the same time, you get to work for Disney and be a Cast Member! Yes, you get paid! Look for yourself on their website. You can go ahead and google the "Disney college program." You learn a whole bunch of stuff and have fantastic opportunities offered to you, as well as of course, being able to put Disney on your resume!!

The only problem for me is what the heck I could do with the courses they offer in regard to putting the credits towards my major, which has nothing to do with their classes. Being a nurse WOULD require me to have good people skills, which of course I would totally be guarunteed in getting should I participate in the program... but I don't know...

That's a lot of time (a whole semester or a whole year) to be taking classes that don't affect my major specifically... I suppose I could sign up for the program right after I graduate, that way I'm not interfering with my school, and I still might get into a good internship program - did I mention we get paid, too? Ya, so there's a whole bunch of big incentives to do this, and I'm just not sure what to do...

I also want to study abroad, but I don't know where, so I guess I'll just keep my eyes and ears open for anything that really catches my attention.

Other than that, homecoming is in a few weeks, and thankfully my parents are coming to visit - I miss them so much! Unfortunately my sister has to stay behind because she is too young, but of course I will be able to see her and the rest of my family when I return home for Thanksgiving, which, thanks to the reminders in stores and advertisements everywhere, is right around the corner almost! ...of course, right after Halloween. And I'm not sure if I'm even doing anything for Halloween... I might go caroling with some people from my hall, that sounds like fun... We'll see.

Anyways, I got bored so I took this little quiz that I stole from Pample's journal.



Stole this from Pample.

Your Boy Side :

[x] You love hoodies
[x] You love jeans
[/] Dogs are better than cats *tough call...
[ ] It's hilarious when people get hurt and fall
[x] You've played with/against boys on a team? *duh! boys are fun to play with!
[/] Shopping is torture *only sometimes
[x] Sad movies suck
[x] You own a XBOX
[ ] You played with Hot Wheels as a little kid
[ ] At some point in life you wanted to be a firefighter
[/] You owned a DS PS2 or Sega *uh... gameboy color is better!
[ ] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers
[x] You watch sports on TV
[ ] Gory movies are cool
[x] You used to go to your dad for advice
[x] You have at least 1 trophy of a sport
[ ] You used to play Yu-Gi-Oh *nope, pokemon was better.
[ ] Baggy sweat pants are nice to wear
[ ] It's kind of weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people
[x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors
[ ] You love to go crazy and not care what other people think
[x] Sports are fun
[x] You sometimes talk with food in your mouth
[ ] You sleep at night with your socks on
[x] You have fished at least once

Total : 13 1/2

Your Girl Side :

[/] You like to shop *sometimes
[ ] You wear eyeliner
[ ] You wear the color pink
[x] You go to your mom for advice
[ ] You consider cheerleading a sport
[x] You hate wearing all black
[/] You like going to the mall
[x] you like getting manicures and/or pedicures *pedicures are amazing!!
[x] You like wearing jewelery
[ ] You cried watching The Notebook *never seen it...
[ ] Skirts are a big parts of your wardrobe
[ ] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies
[ ] You don't like the movie Star Wars
[/] You are/were in gymnastics *it was a summer program thing for kids...
[x] It takes you around one hour to shower and get dressed
[x] You smile a lot more than you should
[x] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes
[x] You care about what you look like majority of the time
[ ] You like wearing dresses
[x] You like wearing body spray/deoderant
[ ] You like high heel... ]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/27365867/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/27365867/ Tue, 22 Sep 2009 20:59:53 PDT So my golden fantail I named Dani, after the song by RHCP paying tribute to the Golden State. The black one is named Iris, both because of the song by the GooGooDolls and because he has big eyes... And the third one named Spazz, the calico, was a spastic little guy, and he was the one who passed away, though I'm not sure from what.

In other news, the first episode of House I only was able to catch about the last hour of it, so I am really confused, but it looks to be a good season, as usual. I'm not one to follow House on a regular basis because my family never really liked it, but I hope to watch it more now that I have some free time in college and I'm not babysitting my little sister.

Oh, and I'm looking forward to hopefully watching Lie to Me! I love that show!

So, classes are pretty interesting and boring at the same time... I'm having a hard time staying awake in statistics, does anyone have any remedies for that? Its in the afternoon, so I try to get a nap in before that class, but sometimes it's still not enough. I need some help with this, guys...

Thanks to my lack of friends at the moment, I am currently able to get in quite a bit of drawing time, also thanks to the inspirational words of Bobby Chiu on his Chiu-stream. The link for that can be found on his journals -[link]

Anyways, must get started on homework sometime, so I'll be hopefully putting up some more drawings soon!

~<3

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/26715653/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/26715653/ Thu, 20 Aug 2009 14:43:52 PDT
I like my college so far, but classes haven't started yet, so I only have a few friends, including my roommate. I know maybe six people, but I meet a couple more every day. My side of the room (window-side) is styled blue: complete with matching bedspread, fishtank, and stationary. The only thing familiar from home I have besides my clothes is my big polar bear stuffed animal, which guards my bed during the day. There are a couple of pidgeon nests on the balcony (which I'm not allowed to access), but one of them was abandoned, leaving the little egg to face the cold nights. It's still there, but I don't think the embryo survived.

Unfortunately, I couldn't sleep last night, and I think it's because of the altitude where I am. I was told to drink lots of water, so I'll try that and maybe I won't be nauseous anymore.
So anyway, hopefully once I get acclimated and feel more comfortable here I'll start drawing... or maybe I should draw to help me feel more at home... I'm not sure yet, but I'll figure it out!

~Rashelle <3

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/26367807/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/26367807/ Mon, 03 Aug 2009 20:27:25 PDT
As for leaving friends, they all know I love them, so no worries there. My ex-boyfriend and I are still good friends so it will be interesting to see how that goes, but I'm confident that I will go into college with optimism in the relationship department.

Since I'm going to college, of course I'm going to need a laptop, and after a few weeks of searching, I finally think I've found one that will suit my needs. It's the HP Special Edition Pavillion laptop that comes with built in software for homework, webcam, and six hours of battery life, all for around $750. It's a little pricy for what my dad preferred, but it will have to last me a few years, so this might be it. If anybody has any suggestions on a laptop, feel free to let me know!

I know I don't post very much artwork, but I just can't seem to get into it lately. Life just pushes me into other things, and art just doesn't come first. Yes, I said it, so there. I can't concentrate long enough to make a decent art piece. Doodles abound, but nothing worth posting. I'm working on a few request pieces for my friends, so when I finish those hopefully I'll be able to post them here.

Anyway, I think that's it for my life update. I'll be watching you all!

~Rashelle <3

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/25061967/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/25061967/ Mon, 01 Jun 2009 00:58:51 PDT
It's summer, and I really need to think about how I'm going to organize hanging out with all my friends before I leave for college. I have a lot, and most of them already told me that they want to hang out a bunch before we all separate, so I need to find something to do in my city that won't get old. haha

The end of the summer is going to be hard, for a couple of reasons, mostly because I love these people so much, but I'm sure I'll adjust. Thankfully, I'll still have the ability to draw when I leave, so I'll just send pictures back here when I get the chance, if ever. College will be demanding, no doubt.

Speaking of drawings, I have a couple art pieces I need to get started on before summer really gets going, or I guarantee that I will not do them until the very last week I'm here, and that's bound to be hectic, what with packing all my stuff I'm taking all the way to New Mexico.

I'll be sure to draw something soon, guys, so hang in there! And hopefully it will be more than a doodle...

'Til next time,

~rshl <3

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/24412781/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/24412781/ Fri, 24 Apr 2009 15:10:51 PDT
Well, I've decided to attend the University of New Mexico next year, as I am a senior in high school right now. My last high school prom is tomorrow, and I will be going with my boyfriend, MB. We are really excited and I know we'll have an awesome time!

I have a gigantic English project due next week, and I haven't even started, so I should probably be doing that instead of this, but lets face it, I am a master of procrastination. I graduate in three weeks, four days, and four hours from now. Yay! Not sure what I'll be doing over the summer, hopefully working on artwork, because I really haven't been doing much except for what I do in art class.

Anyway, hope everyone is awesome! Let me know what's going on in your life!

~<3

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/23246686/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/23246686/ Tue, 17 Feb 2009 02:31:58 PST
Well, I don't know what else to say, other than I'm hooked on pokemon, really excited, and really really in love!

I give my love to all of you out there! Give hugs!

~Rashelle <3

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/23101213/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/23101213/ Mon, 09 Feb 2009 12:11:00 PST
YOUR BOYSIDE


[x] you love hoodies
[x] you love jeans
[ ] dogs are better than cats
[/] its hilarious when people get hurt
[/] shopping is torture
[/] sad movies suck
[x] you play XBOX 360/PS2
[ ] you played with Hot Wheels as a little kid
[ ] at some point in life you wanted to be a firefighter
[ ] you owned a DS PS2 or Sega
[ ] you used to be obsessed with Power Rangers
[/] you watch sports on TV
[x] you go to your dad for advice
[ ] you own like a trillion baseball hats
[x] you used to/collect collector cards
[ ] baggy sweatpants are cool to wear
[ ] its kind of weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people
[x] green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors
[/] you love to go crazy and not care what other people think
[x] sports are fun
[x] you talk with food in your mouth
[ ] you sleep at night with your socks on
[x] you have fished at least once
Total 11 1/2

YOUR GIRL SIDE:

[/] you love to shop
[ ] you wear eyeliner
[ ] you wear the color pink
[x] you go to your mom for advice
[ ] you consider cheer-leading a sport
[x] you wear very little black
[x] you hate wearing the color black (it's pretty boring uusually)
[/] you like going to the mall
[ ] you cried watching walk to remember
[/] skirts are a part of your wardrobe
[ ] shopping is one of your favorite hobbies
[/] you take around one hour to shower
[ ] you are/were in gymnastics/tumbling
[x] you smile a lot more than you should
[ ] you have more than 10 pairs of shoes
[/] you care about what you look like
[ ] you always/sometimes wear dresses
[x] you like wearing body spray
[ ] you like high heel shoes
[/] you used to play with dolls as a kid
[ ] you like putting makeup on others
[ ] pink is one of your favorite colors
[ ] you laugh more than you breathe
[x] you absolutely love chocolate
Your total: 9

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/23034636/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/23034636/ Fri, 06 Feb 2009 05:45:50 PST
In 2008 I....

( ) stayed single for the whole year
(x) got your first kiss
(x) kiss someone new.
(x) made-out in/on a car
( ) kissed in the snow
(x) celebrated Halloween
(x) kissed in the rain
(x) fell in love/met someone amazing
( ) had your heart broken
(x) broke someone else's heart
( ) mooned someone
(x) went over the minutes on your cell phone
(x) had a good relationship with someone
(x) suffered
(x) someone questioned your sexuality
( ) came out of the closet
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) gotten someone else pregnant
( ) had an abortion
( ) gotten married
( ) had a divorce
(x) dated someone you'll never forget
(x) done something you've regretted
( ) lost your true love
( ) lost faith in love
( ) kissed under mistletoe
( ) got a promotion
(x) got a pay raise
( ) changed jobs
(x) waited until one day before to begin a project
( ) lost your job
(x) quit your job
( ) dated a co-worker
( ) dated your boss
( ) dated your boss' daughter/son
( ) got fired from your job
(x) took an honors/advanced class
(x) broke the dress code
(x) did something you were proud of
(x) discovered a new talent
(x) proved yourself an idiot
(x) were involved in something you'll never forget
(x) painted a picture
(x) wrote a poem
(x) ran a mile
( ) seen a live concert
( ) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
( ) posted a blog on MySpace
(x) listened to music you couldn't stand
(x) went swimming (in the Mediterranean!)
( ) skinny-dipped
( ) went to a sleepover
( ) went camping
( ) threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
( ) laughed till you peed in your pants
(x) flirted shamelessly
( ) broke in a line of waiting people
(x) volunteered to help out others
(x) visited a new state (does country count?)
(x) told someone you were busy when you weren't
(x) partied to celebrate the new year
( ) cooked a disastrous meal
( ) drove the car drunk
(x) lost something important to you
( ) smoked a cigarette
( ) lied about how old you were
(x) got a gift you adore
( ) got 'shit faced' on alcohol
( ) took a nude picture of yourself
( ) almost got arrested
(x) prank called someone
( ) saw a college football game in person

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/22146321/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/22146321/ Tue, 23 Dec 2008 16:43:01 PST
The first thing I would like to point out is that I am excited that my bf and I are celebrating our fourth consecutive month together tomorrow, christmas eve. How happy this makes me, I cannot express. However, simply being with him is more than enough happiness for me.

I hope everyone is having a wonderful few weeks off of school, whatever holiday you celebrate. If you are working, I hope you find joy in your work, and if you don't, I think you should find a job that better suits your positive motivation.

For me, I am in the midst of applying to colleges as I am a senior, and I look forward to reviewing how I stack up compared to all of the other seniors in the nation and around the world by being accepted into the colleges of my applications. My little sister is growing ever bigger, being two-and-a-half, and whose vocabulary increases with each passing day. My friends are in good standing, as far as I know, however my dad could do with some prayers. Any questions, just ask.

As for you, whoever you are reading this journal, I would like to know what you are up to. Don't be shy, I am simply curious as to the goings-on of others. Who are you, what is your life like, is there anything I could attempt to draw for you, etc? Please do not hesitate to talk to me, I am always open to making new friends or just saying hello to passing strangers, eager to make their day just a little bit easier.

May the light shine from above, may rain gently fall upon you, may your travels be easy, may you always know your way. May friends be always near you, may your guardian angel be always at your side, and may love be always in your heart.

Always with my love,

~rshl <3

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/21613469/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/21613469/ Sat, 22 Nov 2008 11:58:45 PST
[x] gotten kissed
[ ] gotten a phone taken away in class
[ ] gotten suspended
[ ] gotten caught chewing gum
[ ] gotten caught cheating on a test
Total so far: 1

[x] arrived late to class more than 5 times
[x] didn't do homework over 5 times
[ ] turned at least 3 projects in late.
[x] missed school just because you felt like it
[ ] laughed so loud you got kicked out of class
Total so far: 4

[x] got your mom, dad, etc to get you out of school
[x] text people during class
[x] passed notes
[x] threw stuff across the room
[ ] laughed at the teacher
Total so far: 8

[ ] been in a fight at school, fist or verbal
[x] took pictures during school hours
[x] called someone during school hours
[x] listened to iPod, CD, etc during school hours
[ ] skipped a class period
Total So Far: 11

[ ] threw something at the teacher
[x] went outside the classroom without permission
[ ] broke the dress code
[ ] failed a class
[x] ate food during class
Total So Far: 13

[x] gotten a call from school
[ ] couldn't go on a field trip cause you behaved badly
[x] didn't take your stuff to school
[ ] given a teacher the finger when they weren't looking
[x] curse during class/school
total so far: 16

[x] faked your parents signature
[xxxxxxxxx...] slept in class
[ ] cursed at your teacher
[x] copied homework
[x] got in trouble with the principal-the vice principal
total So Far: 20

Multiply by 3
grand total: 60

post as "i screwed up __% of my teenage life"!

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/20981023/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/20981023/ Tue, 14 Oct 2008 05:43:38 PDT
...but enough ranting, I'm pretty happy overall anyway because life is just good right now. I don't have to deal with an obsessive father who shows up when I least expect it, I am able to drive myself everywhere which is a big plus, and my relationship with my boyfriend is going strong. I got beat out on asking him to Sadie Hawkins, but on the other hand, he was saved because she found out he had a girlfriend and repealed her act (which I find pretty funny). For some reason though, I feel that his truck is jealous of me. It growls at me unexpectedly and sometimes it even barks!

For now, life is good, and I only hope it will stay that way.

I love you. <3

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/20173339/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/20173339/ Tue, 26 Aug 2008 19:06:11 PDT
So I've finally gotten around to drawing some half-decent artwork so I'll have to post something up sometime soon. School has started and it's my senior year which means much stress for me... yay... not really. But it will be ok because I have my friends to help me out and my boyfriend to be there for me(which I know he will) and I'm just really excited.

And now I have just one thing left to say...

I blame you!

<3<3<3

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/20087046/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/20087046/ Thu, 21 Aug 2008 22:27:16 PDT
How Much of a Virgin are You?

Start with 100% and for every thing you've done subtract 1% and put your final score at the end.

1. Smoked
2. Drank alcohol.
3. Cried when someone died.
4. Been drunk.
5. Had sex
6. Been to a concert.
7. Gotten/given a handjob
8. Gotten/given oral sex
9. Been verbally/sexually harassed
10. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 96%

11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before
14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
15. Been to prom.
16. Cried at school.
17. Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store
18. Went streaking
19. Given or received a lap dance
20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 91%

21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over. (same hotel room)
22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house
23. Kissed a stranger
24. Hugged a stranger
25. Went scuba diving
26. Driven a car.
27. Gotten an x-ray.
28. Hit by a car
29. Had a party.
30. Done serious drugs

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 87%

31. Played strip poker/darts/basketball
32. Got paid to strip for someone
33. Run away from home
34. Broken a bone.
35. Eaten sushi
36. Bought porn
37. Watched porn
38. Made porn
39. Had a crush on someone of the same sex
40. Been in love

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 86%

41. French kissed.
42. Laughed so hard you cried.
43. Cried yourself to sleep.
44. Laughed yourself to sleep
45. Stabbed yourself
46. Shot a gun
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day
48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours
49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours
50. Watched an animal die. (do bugs count?)

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 82%


51. Watched a person die
52. Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present.
53. Pranked somebody.
54. Put somebody in the hospital.
55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out
56. Kissed somebody of the same sex
57. Dressed punk
58. Dressed goth
59. Dressed preppy.
60. Been to a motocross race

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 78%

61. Avoided somebody.
62. Been stalked
63. Stalked someone. (I do it all the time XP)
64. Met a celebrity.
65. Played an instrument.
66. Ridden a horse.
67. Cut yourself. (it was an accident!)
68. Bungee jumped
69. Ding dong ditched somebody.
70. Been to a wild party

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 71%

71. Got caught stealing something
72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend
74. Gone out with your friend's crush
75. Got arrested
76. Been pregnant
77. Babysat.
78. Been to another country.
79. Started your house on fire
80. Had an encounter with a ghost

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 69%

81. Donated your hair to cancer patients
82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by.
83. Cried over a family member of the opposite sex.
84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for 3 months or more
85. Sat on your butt all day.
86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself
87. Had a job.
88. Gotten cut from a sports team
89. Been called a whore. (jokingly... I think...)
90. Danced like a whore

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 64%

91. Been mistaken for a celebrity
92. Been in a car accident.
93. Been told you have beautiful eyes.
94. Been told you have beautiful hair.
95. Raped somebody
96. Danced in the rain
97. Been rejected
98. Walked out of a restaurant without paying
99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face
100. Been raped

Total Percentage: 61%


...wow.

P.S. See if you can guess what song I'm listening to...

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/19999876/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/19999876/ Sun, 17 Aug 2008 07:15:57 PDT
So I stayed up all night thinking. Then I finally fell asleep around 4:40 am and I woke up around 5:50 am! Not only did I only get about an hour of sleep, but I thought I was running late for school, so I jumped in the shower. Only when I got out of the shower did I realize it was Sunday and there was absolutely no reason to be awake...

I could have shot myself. ...Not really, but I was really bummed.

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/19798675/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/19798675/ Tue, 05 Aug 2008 21:24:00 PDT

I am sooooooooo excited! Want to know why?!?! Well, I'll tell you!!

It's because I am now the proud owner of my own car!!!!!!!!!! Yes that's right! My parents bought me a 1998 silver BMW and it's so cute! I absolutely love it!! I was so excited I was literally shaking!! My parents brought it home, blindfolded me, took me outside, and my dad said he bought this for me!! I turned around and there it was, shining beautifully in the light of the setting sun!! I could barely contain myself!

So, I get to drive myself to work tomorrow and I don't have to wait for my mother anymore!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

...that's all for now, I guess. Later people!! <3

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/19729842/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/19729842/ Sat, 02 Aug 2008 03:39:37 PDT
So, that has to be the most eye-opening experience of my life! It was amazing and wonderful and just so different than anything else I know! I absolutely loved it! I didn't want to come home, but not because of any boys or anything, no, it was because of the landscape and the people in general... it was just something I fell in love with... there is really no way for me to describe it correctly without you having to have been there to see it for yourself... you just have to go. That goes for anyone thinking of traveling abroad - go! You never know how different things are or what else is really out there if you never see it for yourself, and I highly recommend it! That's all I have to say for now, because I am going to try and get some sleep so that I can recover and start the long drag of getting back into the swing of home... not something I really want to do, though...

Good night all, and to those I've left behind, good day! <3

...ps, hope you're having fun at the beach...

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/19424247/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/19424247/ Wed, 16 Jul 2008 08:47:42 PDT
Yes, the day has come for me to leave on a 17 day trip to Europe. I can barely contain my excitement, but am also tired because I didn't finish packing until about 12 in the morning. Don't ask me why, because first of all I won't answer and second of all because there were just random reasons and I didn't. And because I am a big procrastinator. Anyways, I wish everyone a happy summer, or what's left of it, and I shall return!

~<3

P.S. I love you MB!

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/19385667/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/19385667/ Mon, 14 Jul 2008 07:31:16 PDT
...I went to the movies with a bunch of my friends last night, and we saw Wall-E! It was the cutest movie ever! Really, it is so adorable, and it made me want to run like 10 miles! I swear, I hope I never have to have a cupcake in a cup! haha.

Anyway, after everyone left, my boyfriend gave me a present for my trip... a rosary within a metal case which was blessed by Pope John Paul II. He told me he hoped it would keep me safe... Words cannot express how much it means to me, all I could do was say thank you.

This morning however, I felt like an idiot because last night when I uploaded my pictures I took from my camera to the computer, I noticed the date was the thirteenth. Huh, I thought to myself, that's funny, the last time I see everyone together is on the lucky thirteenth. Well, it just so happened that I check my voicemail and my boyfriend had called me at one in the morning to wish me a happy two-month anniversary for the thirteenth! ...*slaps face* of course you idiot! ...ya I feel pretty dumb, but then again, if you think about it, it's not so much the date to worry about remembering, but the thing for which the date holds meaning. So even though I forgot the actual date, I still was able to spend a little time with he who made the date mean something in the first place.

...I am sorry that I have nothing to give you except my heart, but I will see you again soon... I love you so much, I only hope you know that. Thank you so much for everything...

...ps, why do you have to tease me like that??? *playful growl*

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/19248771/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/19248771/ Mon, 07 Jul 2008 07:00:26 PDT
Level 1
( ) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
( ) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
SO FAR:0

Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love
(x) Dumped someone
( ) Been Fired
( ) Been In A Fist Fight
SO FAR: 2

Level 3
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person(by one or two years)
( ) Skipped Class
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die
SO FAR: 3

Level 4
(x) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your deviantART / sheezyart Friends(Duh!)
( ) Been To Paris(not yet...)
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
( ) Thrown Up From Drinking(hopefully not anytime soon...)
SO FAR: 5

Level 5
( ) Eaten Sushi
(x) Been Snowboarding
(x) Met Someone Through Internet
( ) Been in a Mosh Pit(thank goodness I didn't listen to my sister...)
SO FAR: 7

Level 6
( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Liked/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made A Snow Angel
SO FAR: 11

Level 7
( ) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding
( ) Played Dress Up
SO FAR: 13

Level 8
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Sliding
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School
SO far: 18

Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set
(x) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake
SO FAR: 20

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled(too many times...)
( ) Been Robbed / Vandalized
( ) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood
SO FAR: 22

Level 12
(x) Won A Contest
(x) Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention (stupid tardies!!)
(x) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident
SO FAR: 26

Level 13
(x) Had / Have Braces
( ) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
( ) Danced in the moonlight
SO FAR : 27

Level 14
( ) Hated The Way You Look
( ) Witnessed A Crime
( ) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes
SO FAR: 29

Level 15
( ) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The Ocean
( ) Felt Like You Were Dying (asthma attack)
SO FAR: 30

Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
( ) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
( ) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins
SO FAR: 33

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made Prank Phone Calls
( ) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
( ) Kissed In The Rain
SO FAR: 33

Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
( ) Made A Bonfire On The Beach Or Anywhere
SO FAR: 36

Level 19
( ) Crashed A Party
( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey
SO FAR: 37

Level 20
( ) Worn Pearls
( ) Jumped Off A Bridge
( ) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
( ) Swam With Dolphins
SO FAR: 37

Level 21
( ) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cubes
( ) Kicked A Fish D8
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
( ) Sat On A Roof Top and watched the stars
SO FAR: 38

Level 22
( ) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
( ) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
( ) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about
SO FAR: 39

Level 23
( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
( ) Had/Been In A Tree House
( ) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone
SO FAR: 40

Level 24
(x) Believed In Ghosts (define "Ghost")
( ) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes (probably....)
( ) Gone Streaking
( ) Visited Jail
SO FAR: 41

Level 25
( ) Played Chinese Chicken
( ) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
( ) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
(x) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused
SO FAR: 43

Level 26
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
( ) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
(x) Caught A Butterfly
( ) Laughed So Hard You Cried
( ) Cried So Hard You Laughed
SO FAR: 44

Level 27
( ) Mooned/Flashed Someone
(x) Had Someone Moon/Flash You(don't ask.)
(x) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten... ]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/19235885/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/19235885/ Sun, 06 Jul 2008 13:13:41 PDT
Sorry, little burst of energy there... Anyway, summer is awesome and I have a summer job which is pretty boring but it's easy money I guess and I still get time to spend with friends every so often. Like just last night I went to a party at my boyfriend's house. It was a lot of fun. We all got in the pool and watched The Boogieman(sp?). My best friend was scared out of her mind, but she had her friend to protect her. Everybody had a movie buddy which was cool, just the six of us... the original gang.

I like it like that. We've always been together, just the relationships have changed (except for two) But ya, it was a blast last night.

Oh, and I went for a walk with my boyfriend along the manmade pond-not lake- behind his house. It was such a great feeling to be there with him, just standing there under a tree looking out across the pond filled with duckies... yes, I said it. Duckies! Muahahaha!

Oh, the pool at my boyfriend's house has a little waterfall thing which is awesome and we all played "king of the waterfall" and in the process of knocking my best friend off I got a pretty cut on my knee as well as a bruise. But it's just a testament to my victory- Muahahahaha!!! So ya, if I limp in Europe I'll know why...

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/18917920/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/18917920/ Wed, 18 Jun 2008 18:48:49 PDT Suddenly he glances to his right and looks away...and then does a double-take. His eyes grow wide and his smile disappears. He turns half-way around and stares for a few seconds before coming to his senses- in which case he gets really annoyed that his girlfriend didn't let him know that she was coming and just "showed up."
And the whole time during that scene she was standing right there with a huge smile on her face as always...


hahahaha that was so much fun! Sorry, I had to... and it's not like I planned the whole thing, it was just spur of the moment that I actually came at all. But I'm glad I got to see you. <3 Apparently it was really obvious what was going on when you didn't return to the band room with your drum. Apparently Chili got upset and was yelling a speech at the freshmen. My sis said it was really funny.

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/18876559/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/18876559/ Mon, 16 Jun 2008 15:32:56 PDT

Common Fears:

[ ] staying single forever
[x] rejection
[ ] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[x] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[ ] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] that Scary guy
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[ ] the ocean
[x] failure
[x] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] rats
[x] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges - manmade structure over a height.
[ ] death
[ ] heaven
[ ] being robbed
[ ] falling
[ ] clowns
[ ] dolls
[ ] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[x] having great responsibilities
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes
[ ] hurricanes
[ ] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[ ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] being alone for too long and when it's dark
[ ] becoming blind
[ ] becoming deaf
[ ] growing up
[x] creepy noises in the night (i.e stalkers)
[ ] bee stings
[ ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat
[ ] high speed
[ ] throwing up
[x] falling in love
[x] super secret

Total: 9

If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling.
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you're fearless.
People who don’t have any are liars.

It's not paranoia if they really are out to get you.

~~~~~~~~~~
The result that I am "fearless" probably would be balanced out by the fact that the things that do scare me scare me a LOT. But not so much that I am paranoid, necessarily, just enough to make me cautious - which might be a little dumb when you think about it. But nevertheless I can't seem to help it yet, though some of them I am working on...

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/18810365/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/18810365/ Thu, 12 Jun 2008 21:10:50 PDT
So yesterday, I went to my first day of work which wasn't so bad - I'm basically an office assistant. It was a pretty uneventful morning, except for the fact that I was feeling butterflies and jitters all over the place. For some reason I just couldn't shake them off. The reason for this was that I was scheming...

So my boyfriend had told me about a meeting for the drummers at school that day and I told him I couldn't be there because my mom wanted me to look for a job. It was true, but then at the last minute my mom changed her mind. So all day I planned to surprise my boyfriend. hehe

So when I got to school that afternoon, I had no idea when he would show up, so long as it was after I did. I chose to sit in the back of the room, hiding behind a marimba and a music stand. When he finally came in, my heart jumped to a hundred miles per hour - let's just say I was REALLY excited. I just started smiling and couldn't stop.

I just waited for him to spot me, which he did after looking around for a bit. He was smiling but then saw me and froze. It was so cute - I couldn't help but laugh because he hates those kind of surprises!

But then he came over and gave me a hug - oh, it felt so good to hold him again... but we had to let go because the teacher was there and people were staring - not that I care much, but I didn't want to get in trouble, you know?

So we sat near each other the whole meeting and I finally calmed down because I knew that everything was going to be ok from here on out. After the meeting we said goodbye as he left and he gave me a kiss... we had waited so long to see each other - I was just so happy! I still am, btw.

...but the look on his face when he saw me was just priceless, and even though I'm sure he didn't appreciate it, it made me that much happier that I caught him off gaurd (if only slightly) only because he is always on top of things. ...I guess it's like my personal challenge, and it's fun! tehehe...

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/18776214/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/18776214/ Tue, 10 Jun 2008 23:56:14 PDT
I can't say how happy I am to be closer to everything and everyone that I know and love, but at the same time I still feel somewhat distant, if not more so, from my boyfriend. The reason? Because when I was away, I at least had the freedom to call at night and talk for a few hours. Now I don't even have that, except for these cold words on a keyboard.

Even when I was away, we had a rough idea of when we could see each other. Now not even that is certain.

...I'm not even sure if we're certain anymore. After a talk last night, I feel as though somehow I distanced myself from him, or him from me. I wonder if when the next time I see him... will he look at me differently? Do I know him enough to tell the difference?

...I want to make this work, I really do...

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/18660799/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/18660799/ Wed, 04 Jun 2008 11:29:40 PDT
...Yes, I said it, I wish summer was over, or at least June. Why you ask? Well, because I am stuck out of town away from all of my friends and my two best friends for a whole month! I have to find a bunch of money which isn't going to happen so that I can go on a trip with my best friend in July.

At least I was able to go to a really fun bowling party with my friends before I left my city, and I went to the movies with my best friend. The funny thing is that we are best friends who happen to love each other and so even if our relationship as lovers fails, I have every reason to believe that we will continue to be best friends. Why wouldn't we be?

...tehe, I'm laughing at myself because I completely forgot that my friend hates Chinese food(he's Japanese) and that's what we ate when we went to the movies. But he did eat a lot, so I'm assuming he liked it, and it didn't look like he forced it down, but then again he is a very good actor.

Sometimes I wonder if our relationship will last, seeing as both of us have bad luck with relationships. Sometimes it's our fault, sometimes it's not, but either way it never works out. I guess that's the way it's supposed to work as teenagers because we're still growing and developing, but every day people are becoming adults just a little bit sooner.

I wish I could say I know what's going to happen, but I don't, and nobody can, so we'll just have to see how life chooses to play us. I can say though that I love him, and if my heart is lying to me that I love him as a lover, then at least I can say I truly love him as my best friend, and that will never go away, no matter what happens in any other part of our lives.
We're just two best friends who happen to love each other. Who knows what will happen?

as for my time here away from home...
"I think I need a sunrise- I'm tired of the sunset. Here it's nice in the summer - some snow would be nice... Oh, ya, you don't know me and you don't even care, oh ya..."

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/18392270/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/18392270/ Mon, 19 May 2008 01:05:32 PDT
I usually had a lot going on in my life that I could put down on paper. A horrible dream or nightmare in the real world that just would not go away. Something my body could not lash out at physically, but could only let out in ink. Those are easy to let go of. Also easy is a single happy moment that I want to capture for all time, but now, how can I capture one moment when I feel happy all the time? How can I possibly process all of my thoughts into pictures - I would drown the earth in paper and ink.

Long ago, and yet not so long ago, I was caught up in trying to find something I didn't know I was searching for. In not knowing what I was searching for, of course I didn't know I had it all along. I don't know what caused it, but one night I looked in his eyes and... fell in love.
...but it was different this time. It wasn't the same type of love that I had felt for him the whole time. I had always loved him, but only the love for a friend. That love grew deeper and stronger, but never exactly that deepest, most unmistakable love between two lovers. Then something wonderful happened. I let myself go and invited him to dance with me. A scary thought if you know me.

Once on the dance floor, I still had no idea what I was doing, and yet I felt comfortable enough to let myself just...be myself. He is my best friend, and I had no need to act anything other than what I already was. So I finally trusted him enough to let him see me a different way.

"I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you..."
~Hoobastank "The Reason"

In letting him hold me and swing me the way that he did, I felt more vulnerable than I had ever been in my life. And yet it didn't bother me. Looking into his eyes and seeing that joy, elation, trust, friendship, it was something I had waited for all along. In seeing that from him, it was a big deal to me. For the first time in my life, I truely sang from my heart, not just because the song is enjoyable, but because I truely meant it. But more than that, the way he held me, the way we moved. Something snapped, or else gently gave way into something more.

The thing about dreams is that eventually, you can make them reality in the waking world.

P.S. I love you, and it still scares me.

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/18299133/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/18299133/ Tue, 13 May 2008 02:18:30 PDT I basically had to update my journal since my last one was from February, but I'm not sure what to say. Well, finals are just around the corner, and right after school, I'm being shipped off to another city to work until I can raise enough spending money for a trip I'm taking this summer. The problem is that I'll be out of town for a whole month which means absolutely no time to spend with friends. I'm wholly disappointed and dreading the trip, but I'll just have to make the best of it.
Anyway, for those few people who read this journal, the least I could do for you is give you some friendly advice, so here it goes...

Don't be like me and wait till the last minute to find out you could dance but were simply too afraid to.

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/16999874/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/16999874/ Thu, 21 Feb 2008 20:15:18 PST So, first of all, hello to everyone. I hope everyone is having a fantastic day, even if you are just some random person reading my journal and have no idea who I am(this would be most of you), but ya, I like when people are happy and in good moods.

Speaking of good moods, I just had my birthday on Feb. 17 and I turned 17! It feels weird that another year has come and gone so quickly, pretty soon my senior friends will be leaving my high school and I will be a senior! Then again, this summer means a trip to Europe with my best friend for over two weeks! We are so looking forward to it!

Anyway, so my birthday was fun, I had a few friends come over to my house and we played Guitar Hero and watched Finding Nemo and basically the party the party was technically over at 11pm but I still had two people until 11:45pm! Needless to say my mom was just waiting for me to kick them out, but the two friends finally drove home and my best friend spent the night. We were so tired, we couldn't even stay up to watch all of Across the Universe, which she bought me for my birthday.

So, I was opening all of my gifts and reading all of my cards that people made me or wrote for me, and I realized that I never knew how many people and how much my personality affects people. I try to generally have a positive outlook on things and be optimistic, and therefore I am always smiling. I can't help it, I just find joy in all of the small things in life. I even enjoy waking up at five o'clock every morning because I know that I can go outside in the cold and retrieve the newspaper.

Why is this good, you may ask. Well, it just so happens that when I go outside and look out to the East, I can see the faintest glow of the sunrise that hasn't come yet, but is promising a good day. It is very cold out, and the cool crisp air reminds me of when my family traveled to Mammoth Mountain, CA, where the air is clean and where my family just always have a good time. I especially have a good time every time we go because I get to enjoy all the beauty of God's creation in the way he built the mountains and the way that every day is special. This is why I enjoy every morning.

So anyway, back to the way I affect people, a good number of the cards I recieved said things like how they were so glad to have me to cheer them up with my big smile. My friends said they were all blessed to have a friend like me because when they are in a bad mood or having a bad day, they come and see me and just because I am so happy all the time, they can't help but feel better.

I'm telling you, that makes me so happy to hear that from most people whom I thought myself to be naturally happy people. Those cards were better than any gift I could ever recieve because they are words that come from the heart and that is something no amount of money can buy. I just thought that I'd take this moment to share that with all of you out there in the rest of the world... Keep smiling because you really do make a difference! I have seen and heard it first hand!

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/16207858/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/16207858/ Tue, 01 Jan 2008 13:47:48 PST This year should be big for me, I am finishing up junior year in high school and I should be going on a trip with my classmates and best friend to Europe in July! I'm really excited! I actually bought a booklet that gives all sorts of tips and advice on where to go, even though the whole trip is already planned out every day.
Anyway, last night I stayed up all night and watched Robbie Madison ride into the Guinness Book of World Records for the longest jump on a motorcross bike- 322' 7 1/2". That's a long way! It was really cool, I watched in on TV. Go Robbie!
Everyone be safe, and enjoy your break if you still have school!

~<3

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/16065788/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/16065788/ Sun, 23 Dec 2007 21:21:40 PST
<3

]]> ~rshl http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/13860921/ http://rshl.deviantart.com/journal/13860921/ Tue, 24 Jul 2007 13:57:29 PDT
~Rashelle <3

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