http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:runlindarun&section=today deviantART RSS for by:runlindarun en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 23 Dec 2009 04:10:12 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://runlindarun.deviantart.com/journal/11440701/ http://runlindarun.deviantart.com/journal/11440701/ Sun, 14 Jan 2007 21:44:32 PST
Nothing is how I really want it to be. I live so much in my head that real life constantly disappoints me. I always am daydreaming about how it will be in the future, how great it will be, how my life will come together once something happens. But I'm always waiting for something to happen. If it's not one thing, it's another.

So I've decided to ante up. Make decisions and plan out my future accordingly -- but actually DO something about it. As a result, I've changed my major. No more English for me, that was a stupid stupid dream with no real future or ideas attached to it. I'm majoring in Business Administration. I know it's boring but it's likely something I'll be good at and that will provide me more job opportunities. First off, though, I'm going to get a certificate to be an Account Clerk. That way, I'll have the skills necessary to work in an accounting office or similar while I'm still in school. That way I can hopefully get out of the wild world of shitty retail jobs and possibly make a little more money.

I'm also working on a bunch of other things to better myself. I'm going to get my license, for example. For God's sake I'm almost twenty years old and I don't have a driver's license. All my shortcomings, I feel, are due to fear and laziness. I don't want to be that person anymore.

With that said, I'm done. I could go on about how I'm changing my life, but that would be the same old story over and over again. I'll try to check back if I actually complete these things. That would be more meaningful than this slop.

For now, I'm hopeful.

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That's all.

]]> ~runlindarun http://runlindarun.deviantart.com/journal/9538062/ http://runlindarun.deviantart.com/journal/9538062/ Sat, 29 Jul 2006 22:31:28 PDT
I realized that I've had this thing for over two years. And it's extremely lacking and neglected. I don't know why.

I've changed so much over the two years I've had this thing. It's like I can pinpoint certain emotions of the stage I was going through in my very few deviations. It's weird.

I think I may be in another changing stage at the moment. I don't know.

Fuck people.

These days I'm determined to better my self-esteem. At LEAST in regards to how I look. I just have to remember that my name means beautiful in Spanish and that must mean something. That was lame. I don't know. Fuck I don't knows. Dammit.

Frustrated.

Done. ]]> ~runlindarun http://runlindarun.deviantart.com/journal/5962511/ http://runlindarun.deviantart.com/journal/5962511/ Sun, 17 Jul 2005 20:43:44 PDT
Especially as it pertains to one person in my life right now.

I know what I want to say it just won't come out.

Ugh. ]]> ~runlindarun http://runlindarun.deviantart.com/journal/5280088/ http://runlindarun.deviantart.com/journal/5280088/ Thu, 05 May 2005 22:48:50 PDT ]]> ~runlindarun http://runlindarun.deviantart.com/journal/2491140/ http://runlindarun.deviantart.com/journal/2491140/ Sun, 23 May 2004 14:23:58 PDT
My life has been pretty damn boring. Perhaps a return to deviantART is an even better idea than I had thought. At least it will be something to ease the boredom. I like how I only have two friends who actually attempt to spend time with me. But that's another story.

Anyway. The Postal Service is cooler than you. ]]> ~runlindarun http://runlindarun.deviantart.com/journal/2400752/ http://runlindarun.deviantart.com/journal/2400752/ Mon, 10 May 2004 16:32:41 PDT ~runlindarun http://runlindarun.deviantart.com/journal/2105265/ http://runlindarun.deviantart.com/journal/2105265/ Sun, 28 Mar 2004 21:58:53 PST
Life has been treating me fairly, I suppose. There are ups and downs but all around it's been nice. I've rediscovered my love of the outdoors. I love hiking (not hardcore hiking though, because I'm mosdef out of shape) & taking walks outdoors & seeing all kinds of animals. I'm hoping I can do that more. Hey, maybe it will produce some good photographs. I don't really have anyone to go with because everyone's always busy. Ahh well, I can take my dog I supppose. You gotta love the great outdoors.

Grr. I've been trying to watch what I eat but it's hard. I swear, the world is out to make me fatter. My mom made homemade pizza tonight and I couldn't resist. It was the best 3985409324823098 calories in the world though. Random? Of course. ]]> ~runlindarun http://runlindarun.deviantart.com/journal/1990045/ http://runlindarun.deviantart.com/journal/1990045/ Wed, 10 Mar 2004 21:43:04 PST
I wish I had talent. The only things that I consider myself to do fairly well are photography & some design stuff. But then I look at my stuff and there are people who do those things a million times better than me. Then I'm left with this feeling of incompetence. I also wish more people liked me. I guess I give a bad first impression because I'm the least likeable person of my friends. All my group of friends have separate groups of friends and I don't. Where does that leave me? Being alone for long spans of time subjects me to the contemplation of my life, and I hate it. But I'm so wrapped up in my stupid analyzation of EVERYTHING and my stupid self-conciousness that I don't think anyone wants to deal with me anymore. I guess it's what I deserve.

I swear I force bad moods upon myself. I won't allow myself to be happy for very long without relapsing and falling back into days that are notsogood.

But you could care less.

I don't think there will be any more deviations for a little bit because my digital camera broke and I just got my Nikon fixed two days ago. Bleh.

One more thing, I am so sick of seeing pictures of the sky. Sure, the sky is beautiful and always varying. There are some very beautiful pictures of the sky, but it's SO old and played out. It reaks of cliche (I'm too lazy to do the little line over the 'e', fuckoff.)

That is all. ]]> ~runlindarun http://runlindarun.deviantart.com/journal/1946525/ http://runlindarun.deviantart.com/journal/1946525/ Wed, 03 Mar 2004 16:39:07 PST broke it, but I can't use it anymore. Why, you ask? Because one of the tiny screws that held the bottom piece of metal came out. I don't know how, it just did. My dad insists that it will be extremely expensive to fix, so he refuses to go and get it fixed. Stubborn poo. He should be home any minute now, possibly with a cheap replacement camera. As of right now, I'm cameraless (besides my cheap digital camera) and sad.

Where is Richard? When I finally have a picture for him to make a vector out of, he doesn't come online. The world is out to get me.

New ID thinger (I look 12). ]]> ~runlindarun http://runlindarun.deviantart.com/journal/1930470/ http://runlindarun.deviantart.com/journal/1930470/ Sun, 29 Feb 2004 22:47:06 PST
Hopefully I'll add more stuff within a few days. ]]> ~runlindarun http://runlindarun.deviantart.com/journal/1924951/ http://runlindarun.deviantart.com/journal/1924951/ Sun, 29 Feb 2004 03:31:57 PST
I'm so lonely ]]> ~runlindarun http://runlindarun.deviantart.com/journal/1913078/ http://runlindarun.deviantart.com/journal/1913078/ Thu, 26 Feb 2004 23:05:45 PST ~runlindarun