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I love you.

can you tell me the same?

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/28168441/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/28168441/ Thu, 05 Nov 2009 19:32:31 PST
God, I'm scared.

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/28079184/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/28079184/ Sun, 01 Nov 2009 05:05:12 PST
Oh no.

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/27982843/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/27982843/ Mon, 26 Oct 2009 17:40:09 PDT
I made so many mistakes during my first semester at UP.

good Lord, give me a second chance.

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/27755033/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/27755033/ Tue, 13 Oct 2009 23:43:09 PDT
Yesterday was probably one of the best days ever from sunrise to sunset and even after sunset... actually even before sunrise, my roommates had already greeted me happy birthday. They were singing to me at 12mn, even though I was still obviously groggy and out of my proper thinking.

My cellphone was FLOODING with birthday greetings by then.

and when I woke up again in the morning there was a gigantic banner thing that said: "Happy Birthday Minamahal!" (or Happy Birthday, my love!) complete with poems and all from a few of my other friends. that's what they call me since my real name stands for "loved one" or "my love". hehhe. how sweet.

Then, when I went down to bring the laundry to the laundrywoman, there, in big, bold and... artistic letters read: "Happy Birthday Sinta" from my roommates. and beside it was a gigantic piece of paper with greetings from all sorts of people. xD imagine my surprise and embarrassment.

I can never count how many people greeted me that day... let alone how many times I was greeted.

Even everybody at the examination room sang me a birthday song. xD and my crush even personally gave me his sweetest smile and gave me his greetings. (*blushes extremely red*) he even borrowed one of my bracelets for him to keep over the sembreak for "remembrance." Can you even understand how flushed and amazed I was at the time? xD ayeeeee!! xDDDDD

then, I rushed over to the pawnshop to get the money my mom sent to me for my birthday since i was supposed to treat a few friends to dinner. ^^

A friend of mine even hitched on a carrier truck of softdrinks just to come over.

awwwww...

and best of all my bestfriend sent me a birthday card(and a ream of bondpaper) which got me all teary. >.<

I lalalalalLOOOOVEd my birthday!

To all those who made my wonderful, wonderful day possible, thank you!

Love you guys. I wont forget that day ever.

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/27294174/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/27294174/ Sat, 19 Sep 2009 06:36:56 PDT
speaking of finals, i'm a tad bit scared. and lazy to study for it. I've always been anyway, so what's new?

hahha.

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/27045661/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/27045661/ Sun, 06 Sep 2009 00:20:46 PDT
Good news, though. No class tomorrow, thanks to the pokemon president of the philippines. she declared it to be some sort of holiday, and I dont really give a damn what holiday that is. As long as it gives me a bit of rest, then it's all good.

I just realized that the only things I can appreciate for her being in office is the uncountable times that she declared minor things into national holidays. is that her way of dumbing down the youth? Well, it's relatively working. On the good side, there are still a good number of educated people.

In another light, her fondness for long holidays can also be looked at as a way of not letting schooling interfering with education. Now, since I'm too lazy to explain what that means, go ponder on your own. hehhe. lazy sunday nga diba?

So, now my mind is filled with radical and left-oriented themes and issues. It's filled with revolution and what not, thanks to the members of SAMASA party alliance... at the same time, bourgeois ideals are also trying to make its way through. My mind's a paradox.

I'm trying to enjoy my long weekend, reminiscing my first SmallVille night out. Damn that was fun.

Now if I can only find that boy I danced with that night.

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/26989064/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/26989064/ Thu, 03 Sep 2009 02:12:54 PDT
There are just far too many issues revolving around my... let's say... social life and it's getting kind of hard to know who to believe in.

One side says that the other will use me for their own advantage, that they're going to exploit my abilities...

The other side says that the former side is limiting what I can do...

and another one says that the limiting side propagates communism and is factionizing the organization...

pakshet.

I'm not sure where to go, who to talk to, and who to believe...

at current, I'm allies with all 3 sides... xD oh damn...

guess the best thing to do is observe right?

what do you think?

a.) side 1
b.) side 2
c.) side 3

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/26869124/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/26869124/ Fri, 28 Aug 2009 03:30:19 PDT
and I am

DAMN TIRED.

anyway, I'm still here, just so you know.

I'm going to hold a Conceptual Drawing Workshop this august 31, monday. and i'm very much excited for it. ^^

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/26603063/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/26603063/ Sat, 15 Aug 2009 04:52:08 PDT
and to think a few months ago, I'd make a journal everyday! Sometimes even twice or three times a day. Oh well... gone are the days of free internet access, now that my college life has taken over.

So, I've been doing a lot of things, obviously, and I can't deny the fact that I'm failing my two majors. Which means, it's probably time to shift courses. I REALLY want to shift courses. I can't take it, darn it! I have a feeling I'm gonna stay 9 years in the University if I don't shift...

then again, that's not such a bad idea, is it?

Eherm.

Anyway, I'ma tad bit disappointed to know that the desktop is... DYING. Which is... well, actually, it shouldn't affect me too much, since I barely go home anymore (I stay at the University Dorm), but well... whatever.

It's also the first time in weeks that I've gone home. Honestly, can't wait to get back to the dorm. *sigh*

So, I miss a lot of people, naturally, but I'm sure they don't miss me as much. Given this, I'll simply shut up. Hehehe.

Major infos about me:

1.) I joined an activist group. It's a political, socio-civic org. which is pretty cool, if it were more active. I'm working to change that.
2.) I'm being.. "recruited" by two enemy sororities. Uhm... good luck to me.
3.) I know this asshole who thinks I'm crazy for him... which is totally untrue. geddemet.
4.) I haven't had proper access to the internet for... weeks now.
5.) I'm craving to shop.
6.) I prefer big shirts now.
7.) My cellphone is a lot more active these days. Really.
8.) I only eat breakfast these days... or lunch. either way, I just eat one meal a day. -_-
9.) I miss free cold water.
10.) My ultimate frustration releasing routine is drinking for about 2 hours after swimming against the biggest waves on the beach.
11.) I was drunk last last night.
12.) I was drunk for 3 days last week.
13.) I'll probably be firing my first gun next week.
14.) People find me intimidating now. Cool.
15.) I have somebody to call "tatay" or "dad" now. ^_^

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/26098203/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/26098203/ Tue, 21 Jul 2009 23:02:52 PDT
just so you know.

oh, and I know i havent been submitting anything. yes, yes, yes. complain all you want. (ay, feeler? xD) but well, anyway, not to worry, because i still am drawing, and even painting. I just dont have the money to scan them in or even go to net cafe's and update my accounts. aheehehe... xD sorry.

oh, and my activist spirit is slowly waking up. though, i cannot disclose full details. erm. the chair of the org i'm in says its better if i dont talk about it too much yet.

so, anyway, yeah. college is still college.

feel free to leave me comments, messages and other such things.

just dont expect an immediate reply!

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/25664182/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/25664182/ Wed, 01 Jul 2009 01:26:06 PDT
but so far the best whirlpool i've thrown myself into. I think I'm so much more productive here than anywhere else, both mentally and physically, thanks to the badminton games me and my friends play in the afternoon and all those assignments and such.

I am of SOmuch more use here in the university than i am at home.

i don't wanna go back home!

xDD

first long exam next week saturday. Math 17. shit.
KomSai Acquaintance party this friday.
Badminton play later.
Room Hopping Tonight.
Jamming Session tonight.
Soc Sci 2 7am tomorrow.
comm1 assignment to be done later (i hope).
history 1 assignment(draw phil. map) to be done later.
Eat dinner. (very important)
Talk to Kim on the phone tonight.
Talk to Kim on the phone in front of Ar-Ar. Just to get him jealous.
Sleep (Even more important)

xD

conflict's a-brewing.

oh and most of all...

SAVE MY MONEY!!!

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/25404268/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/25404268/ Thu, 18 Jun 2009 21:30:18 PDT

wish me luck everybody. only a little more to go before my first long exam on math 17

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/25285303/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/25285303/ Sat, 13 Jun 2009 04:48:55 PDT when you're sitting there, it's hard for meee
to look awaaaay
so i try to find the words that i could saaaay
I know distance doesnt matter but you feel so far away~

and i cant lie
but everytime I leave, my heart turns greeey
and I..
wanna come back home to seee your faaace


Coz I JUST CANT TAKE IT!

Another day without you with me
is like a blade that cuts right through me
but I can waaait
I can wait forever

when you're gone my heart stops beating
when you're gone, it wont stop bleeedin'
but I can waaait
I can wait forever!

hahah!

ILY J<3

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/25278555/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/25278555/ Fri, 12 Jun 2009 18:17:31 PDT
but tomorrow...

after my long wait...

I can finally go back to the University.

WAAAAHHHOOOOO!!!!

srsly, there's never anything to do here at home except for surf the net and chat. not that it's a bad thing, but... still. >.>

eherm. anyway. unlike Simple Plan, I can't wait forever. xD

wow, that was so corny just now.

I'm very much excited to get back, but a little said because I wont be able to talk to my chat buddies as much anymore.

I'm gonna miss a good number of people. ^^

wish me luck, everybody. Hope I dont get frat-hazed. xD

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Now, if my brain can just manufacture some real quick, that'd be brilliant.

None?

Great.

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/25242741/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/25242741/ Wed, 10 Jun 2009 19:29:24 PDT
it's always good to talk about things that we like a great deal, rather than concentrating on the sucky things in life.

I really like it when people make parodies of a few things like movies and songs, but of course, only funny parodies.

I love rock music.

I love anime.

I love gensomaden saiyuki.

I love pretty colors. especially orange and brown. sometimes yellow. xD

I love long flowing silky black hair.

but I love short hair too.

I love songs that have great lyrics and tunes.

but I also love songs that make no sense and make me laugh.

I love texting my friends.

I love the Eraserheads.

I love Parokya ni Edgar.

Ohh, I love the movie: "Treasure Planet"

I love disney movies except for types like "High School Musical" (oh gawd, no.)

and I love a whole lot of other things.

wanna talk about your favorite things?

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/25191629/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/25191629/ Mon, 08 Jun 2009 05:15:05 PDT
ugh.

I want to sleep forever right about now.

then I could just keep dreaming forever.

Any nightmare would be better than this.

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/25172940/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/25172940/ Sun, 07 Jun 2009 04:12:49 PDT
((seriously, I fell out of bed when I realized it was such a good idea))

and YES! I'm going to make comics again. I just dont have a good title, and a good name for the lead actress/ character, that's all. So I'll scan in a drawing of her, and I'll ask you guys if you have any ideas for a title and a name. you can give either or both. whichever you want.

It's pretty much about a young, pretty, good-girl who decides to celebrate her 16th birthday at a small club with a few friends. She gets a little too drunk, goes home with some random guy and well, you know the rest.

A week later, she realizes she's pregnant.

So, yeah. that's how it goes. xD

any title ideas?

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/25169943/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/25169943/ Sat, 06 Jun 2009 22:12:26 PDT
My mind is tired of thinking and my heart is tired of loving.

So, I'm shutting down yet again.

*waves*

See ya all some other time, eh?

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/25154997/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/25154997/ Sat, 06 Jun 2009 03:31:00 PDT
I cant draw, I cant eat well, I cant think right.

I want to go back to the university dorm. Things made sense there.

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/25152108/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/25152108/ Fri, 05 Jun 2009 21:43:26 PDT
why are your songs so good???

"I need a little more luck than a little bit
coz everytime I get stuck the words wont fit
and everytime that I try to get tongue-tied
I need a little goodluck to get me by

"I need a little more help than a little bit
like the perfect one word noone's heard yet
and everytime that I try to get tongue-tied
I need a little goodluck to get me by.."

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/25152058/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/25152058/ Fri, 05 Jun 2009 21:40:31 PDT
Baby, that's just me. and you can't do anything about it.

*crosses my arms*

hmph.

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Frankly, I think I've forgotten how to. o-o Uh-oh. xD and A lot of people arent talking to me anymore. Idk where the hell they went off to, and if they're deliberately not talking to me, then so be it. xD like I care.

Okay, I do, but... WHATEVER. xDD

My mind is so messed up.

Also, i cant find my favorite sketchpad. Great. Just walk on off without saying goodbye, will you? Go on then!

>.>

I need a bit of space.

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/25064440/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/25064440/ Mon, 01 Jun 2009 06:30:37 PDT
I havent drawn in FOREVER!! 8D

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]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24816477/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24816477/ Mon, 18 May 2009 04:33:46 PDT
especially Jens. Y'all know how much i love my bro, and I do very very much. I hope he remembers that. ^^ I think about you bro, a lot, and I hope you know that I havent forgotten you ok?

oh, and I'm sorry I wasnt able to come online at the time I said I would. We had to go into town for the laundry thing, and we ran a little late. Really sorry... I feel so guilty.

I'll load up my account so I can call you, ok? ^^ Missing you so much.

Take care bro.

Love you. ^^

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24780792/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24780792/ Sat, 16 May 2009 04:10:04 PDT
and I'm scared of being lonelier when I get to my college dormitory. It's not gonna be easy lugging these bags away.

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24779028/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24779028/ Fri, 15 May 2009 23:15:23 PDT
]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24764155/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24764155/ Fri, 15 May 2009 03:00:46 PDT 3< GAtekeepers. How I miss that.

and, erm, I might be leaving early. meaning, I might be leaving tomorrow. o-o
so... xD yeah... this might be my last entry after awhile.. depends, really.

I'm gonna miss you all very much. ^^

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24745845/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24745845/ Wed, 13 May 2009 21:31:04 PDT
btw, I'm still on that sort of leave, so still not answering all my messages. just selective ones. ^^

dont take it personally if you dont get replied to, btw. blame the person who made me go into this shutdown. xD

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24727379/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24727379/ Tue, 12 May 2009 19:25:49 PDT
for the record though, yesterday WAS horrible. stupid cold made me vomit 5 times. >_<

but well, anyway, i'm still on shut down, so shut up.

^^ and i'm actually feeling slightly better thanks to tyler. ^^ yes, special mention for you. xD

and I'm writing up page 2 of my novel in progress. it's taking awhile.

but it will be up as soon as i can.

so, BUH_BYE!!! xDD mbwahahahah!!!

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24707807/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24707807/ Mon, 11 May 2009 17:21:56 PDT
Never mind.

It pierces me a bit.

Now, I'm not in the mood for anything at all.

I'm calling the celebration off. No more color month or fetish month.

EDIT:

I'm going into a temporary shut down. I wont answer any messages, I wont make any communication unless it's really important.

all i'll do... is submit literary works... and that's it.

I'm too frustrated for anything at the moment.

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24692703/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24692703/ Sun, 10 May 2009 19:03:56 PDT
even weirder is that it's not just going to be girls everywhere. xDD

So, leaving for college on the 17th. Might be back after a week, but then, I'll be... back there again... so, yeah, it's a complicated schedule.

Bye, bye in advance! ^^

EDIT: I'm also very very jealous of... someone. >__________<

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24679838/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24679838/ Sun, 10 May 2009 04:14:37 PDT
anyway, i'm much better now, and I'm drawing a heck of a lot more^^

plus, I've got inspiration for a story... It's about a young girl who gets thrown out of her house and fends for herself by working at a secured massage parlor in the metropolitan city of Manila. She wanders the Boulevard aimlessly, searching for a good purpose...

but now I'm talking too much. xD

I'll just start typing up the story now.

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24639613/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24639613/ Thu, 07 May 2009 17:31:01 PDT
First off, yesterday, I already started packing up my things for college. It kind of felt like running away. I cant believe how big the suitcase was... like... three of me standing side by side! So, I pretty much stuffed a lot of clothes in there, plus shoes, my necklace collection, my favorite jacket and my little backpack. I'll be packing in my art materials later on, since I still need to decide which ones to bring. I've got 3 packs of pastels ((all thanks to those christmas gifts)), a gazillion filled up sketchpad ((just seven actually)) and my ream of bondpaper. I'm definitely bringing the ream though.

Alright, so, first topic down. Next, to discuss mom.

Mom was extra happy yesterday. It's been the longest time since I got to be able to lay my head on her lap with her fingers stroking my hair. We were watching a few shows on TV then. Which leads us to our next topic. Mom had this impulse to braid my hair, and since I was kind of in the mood for it, I took my little box of rubber hair ties and let her braid the outer layer of my hair.

I'm not taking the braids off until thursday night next week. xD A little experiment mom and I are doing. Hehe. ^^

Also, yesterday, my grandfather took me to the mall, since it was too hot to stay home. He gave me a bit of money, which, he specifically said, should be spent on art materials. I was pretty happy since it's been the longest time since I got new art materials.

What I bought:
1. A cute new eraser with a design of an annoyed smiley on it.
2. More lead for my mechanical pencil.
3. A really cute ballpen with kitty designs on it. That's for normal writing and manual journal-writing.
4. Two mini notebooks which I bought for a pretty cool discount. (buy 1 take 1).
5. A new ballpen for my outlining needs.
6. A sketchpad! Really cheap, but good quality.
7. New coloring pencils! xD

and I just spent a little over a hundred pesos. ^^ That's amazing, regarding the good quality of items I bought. It's good to buy materials when school's coming in, due to the sales and discounts.

AND!

Since I now have new good quality coloring pencils, the color strike is over, and I've already started to color a few things I drew. ^^ So, expect more color and submissions! It's amazing how short-lived that strike was. Hehe.

Also, I have a new mascot. She's a little black kitty that keeps sneaking into my dreams as of late. I don't have a name for her yet though, so if any of you have ideas, let me know! She'll be making special guest appearances on my drawings. ^^ I love her so much. She's so adorable.

EDIT: I've named her now. her name is "Klat." Danish for Blob. xD
EDITEDIT: Good lord, i'm getting tired of answering messages.... >.<
EDITEDITEDIT: STOP MESSAGING ME! >.<

So, over-all, I'm in a great mood.

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24623446/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24623446/ Wed, 06 May 2009 18:00:02 PDT
HORRIBLE QUALITY.

so, unless i find/ buy good quality ones (aka faber castell for me ) or find my old ones--which are awesome, thank you very much-- i wont be coloring anything, other than using that blue ballpen I used. -_- i was pretty upset about it coz, no matter how much i tried to make it work despite the bad quality, it just totally destroyed my sketch. Dx I worked hard on that sketch! it was supposed to be for sannsikk and i was looking forward to coloring it, but it just totally ruined it. -_-

do i sound like a spoiled brat? yeah, i do.. but only when it's got art to do with it. xD

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24595986/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24595986/ Tue, 05 May 2009 05:18:41 PDT .<

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24571380/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24571380/ Sun, 03 May 2009 17:48:42 PDT
just wait until i get the money. >.< I will definitely draw more! and submit more!

Still sucks that I don't have a scanner though.

---

somebody save me... i think i'm going into a sort of nightmare...

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24570529/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24570529/ Sun, 03 May 2009 16:59:54 PDT
Very... quiet... almost... scary-quiet...

I wish a friend of mine were here to distract me from the silence...

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24559314/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24559314/ Sun, 03 May 2009 04:12:07 PDT
I'm a little bit tempted to talk to my ex... he's kinda... online now... and...

>.<

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I really wish he'd feel better really soon. He's starting to be really important to me now, and I really wish he'd be happy.

on another note...

is it alright to have a little crush on somebody, even when I'm in such a downer state?

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24518947/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24518947/ Thu, 30 Apr 2009 18:00:28 PDT
So far, Sannsikk is kind of the only one helping me... so... yeah.

My chest hurts so bad, it's almost like I can't breathe.

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So, what am I thinking of? just random things, really. and i've got a case of a small cold. *sniff* >___<

ah, dont worry. it'll be gone real soon. like.. tomorrow. xD heheh~

still excited about May. OMG that's tomorrow! 8D

do i even have money to scan in all the things I've drawn? *scampers around* xDD

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get ready for lots and lots of color and feet!

*jumps everywhere in excitement*

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and with the way i'm thinking... maybe a boyfriend isn't such a good idea.

How am I gonna tell John?

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also, i havent been able to scan due to several blackouts recently. -_-

hopefully later i can scan. :3

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augh.

i feel so dizzy~

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and colorization month! which means i will try as much as possible to insert little foot fetish thingies into my art, and color it even. ^^

SUPPORT THE FETISH!!

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I can't be alone anymore, because HE always comes into mind. Yes... HIM. Douglas. Douglas Scott.

There. I said it. I said his name. I'll admit it, too. I miss him. No matter how difficult it was to keep loving him, I still did.

Sometimes, I wonder if he still thinks of me. Does he stay up late at night as tears fall from his face like I did? He told me once that he'd never love anybody else other than me. He promised.

Has he broken that promise yet?

I wonder how he's doing, how he's work is going and such. I wonder if he's okay. He was always so clumsy, getting hurt every now and then.

I miss his giggles. I miss how I'd catch myself laughing to myself just because his laughing voice comes trailing into my head again. I miss how his voice goes deep, just the way I want it... and I can feel the hairs on my back stand.

I miss calling him over the phone. I miss hearing his voice. I miss setting my watch to ring off at around 9pm, just so I can call him. That's about the right time when he gets back from work. I miss how he'd whisper a sweet little "I love you" into my ear before we'd hang up.

It's amazing how patient he was with me, even more at times I wasn't. He's kind of... perfect...

He's everything I'm not. and he kind of cleaned me up a bit. Ever since he and I were together... I didn't drink, I didn't go out at night, I barely did anything wrong. but when he left, all these things came back within a finger snap... as if he was the border blocking all those bad things. Everything feels kind of... heavy now that he's gone.

Ever notice how I get depressed way more often, now that he's gone?

and I'm such a wimp to just be typing this up here and not even have the guts to talk to him.

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24383917/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24383917/ Wed, 22 Apr 2009 19:19:04 PDT are easily done once you've had a taste of perfection...

eherm... anyway. I really shouldn't be listening to that song, but it's on shuffle, so yeah... anyway.

I need more color in my gallery. Seriously. I REALLY need more color. :/ but i'm way too lazy to do it. -_- herrrggghhh... damn this innate laziness.....

anyway, I recently joined an art contest which was uberly awesome prizes (for gaia artists only). and it's pretty interesting. I havent done anything this epic for avi art in a very long while, not since my last drawing of Ace (see "it's on", ace commissions, gallery), and it took me a whole day to finish. I hope it at least gets a little something. I need some quick money to feed my aquarium obsession. I dont know why I love my gaia aquarium so much now. :/

oh, and about that job, some dude recently recruited me to design a few shirts for him. the ideas are interesting, and he seems like a good boss, so I shall draw for him. ^^ i hope not to take a long time with it.

and just because i feel like it... I'm listening to Mary CAsey's cover of britney's "hit me baby one more time as I type this"

and now it's done, so yellowcard's playing.

a quote from the vlog brothers:

"So today I'm gonna dwell on the things I like, which is good coz if i didnt, I'd be dwelling on taxes, which makes me wanna die."

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24364870/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24364870/ Tue, 21 Apr 2009 17:29:58 PDT
after that it's college for me! I need to get settled in a bit.

*jumps around in nervousness and hyperness*

btw, i'm feeling better. ^^

]]> ~sanzo-follower http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24318922/ http://sanzo-follower.deviantart.com/journal/24318922/ Sun, 19 Apr 2009 03:51:17 PDT AUGH!!!!

totally not in a good mood.

not answering messages until i'm better. >.<

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eherm.

I like hands. deal with it. xD

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