deviantART: by:saro-n-mizary http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:saro-n-mizary&section=today deviantART RSS for by:saro-n-mizary en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 04 Dec 2009 03:19:21 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png New Music Addiction http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/23180082/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/23180082/ Fri, 13 Feb 2009 18:00:34 PST
Richard Pryor Addresses a Tearful Nation

Sometimes I think I've almost fooled myself
Sometimes I think I've almost fooled myself--
Spreading out my wings
Above us like a tree,
Laughing now, out loud
Almost like I was free

I look at you as the thing I wanted most
You look at me and it's like you've seen a ghost¡º
I wear the face
Of all this has cost:
Everything you tried to keep away from me,
Everything I took from you and lost

Lights shine above me, they're like your eyes above the street
Lights shine below me, they're like stars beneath my feet¡º
I stood on your shoulders
And I walked on my hands,
You watched me while I tried to fall
You can't bear to watch me land

Take me away, carry me like a dove
Take me away, carry me like a dove¡º
Love me like you're lying
Let me feel you near,
Remember me for trying
And excuse me while I disappear

]]> ~saro-n-mizary No Promises http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/23128194/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/23128194/ Tue, 10 Feb 2009 19:16:15 PST
I make no more promises to write more and be a better friend and community member.

No more promises because I've desired forever for too long.

No more promises because I've broken my share, one too many time.

I make no promises, because promises aren't mine to make or keep.

I can only hope that this time, for once in years, I can finally do what i need.

My heart is broken, and I'm not myself anymore.

I've never felt this alone, and the sick thing is...


I think I'm loving every minute of it.

]]> ~saro-n-mizary Hiatus http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/13774128/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/13774128/ Tue, 17 Jul 2007 19:18:59 PDT Physical: rotund, or at least so i feel
Intellectual: still lacking the food i think i deserve
Emotional: exists
Spiritual: ...

So, after an emotional death, I'm working on the spiritual.

I'm going to try and write again, I'm sorry for those i let down (that means you ~JVD)

Let's see if I can fix the bridges I've burned.

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Bring Greenwheel to Houston! ]]> ~saro-n-mizary Have I been hoping loud enough, wishing hard enoug http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/12348087/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/12348087/ Tue, 27 Mar 2007 10:04:39 PDT Physical:weak, foggy, gross
Intellectual: needs to be fed...not fried
Emotional: blah
Spiritual: ...

So my crazy finally caught up to me. Between 14-16 hour days of studying and school, going out of my mind sick and just going out of my mind..period, I have made 5 minutes to sit here and try to empty my aching head.

I know i've been less than attentive to the the clubs i'm in and the people i watch. I'm sorry. I just haven't had much time lately at all. I'm hoping for somewhat of a break here soon though. I'm not sure how that will go though.

Tommy and I are doing relatively well. After pushing down the crazies for so long, my mind went on a rampage so I've not had a lot of sleep in the past couple days. Bright side: last night I finally talked to tommy because I couldn't hold it in until i went down to see him. Not so bright side: I'm effin miserable right now from no sleep, stress, and crying for forever...

I think I have decided to try and start at least with some character development on my story. Start with some sketchy outlines...some sketches. >.< maybe I'll work on that when i'm down visiting tommy. If i think about it, or have time.

~wycarnfife, ~shigo, =vespera you guys are all going to probably have some role in helping me develop this and work on it. ~shigo you know damn well I need your editing skills...I can't speak english, don't know what makes me think i'll be able to write it...

Well off to two tests and a lab...one of which tests i'm sure to fail...and the other i'm not so sure about. As for that lab...I have some conclusion questions to bs.

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Bring Greenwheel to Houston! ]]> ~saro-n-mizary Forever and Ever always behind http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/12000246/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/12000246/ Wed, 28 Feb 2007 12:45:14 PST Physical:weak
Intellectual: continuing the smell of fried brain
Emotional: a little neutral, a little excited
Spiritual: enlightened, hopeful

So, i know this doesn't really belong in my category at all, but I'm going to give it a shot. I think this challenge can be covered by all artists of ever style. I hoping to try and work on a visual and verbal art for every category.

So, here it goes:

The rules

1. Make 100 pics(plus, in my case a poem or prose) each one having a theme listed below. Each object should have ONE and only ONE theme to it, for it to count.
2. No time limit so have fun
3. The main picture should be drawn but not limited to, for all fair purposes, people are allowed to use their paint programs and photoshop to create the pic. (Again, i'll be bending this for when i decide to write instead)
3.a) pics should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the Da etiquette policy. Your pics can be anything from sketches and doodles to great master pieces. Just have fun with it.
4. The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that......
A) You are in the challenge
B) What you have completed
5. make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the pic
6. In the comments for your art work note if it is part of the list and what ONE theme it is.

THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tear
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation


Have Fun!

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Bring Greenwheel to Houston! ]]> ~saro-n-mizary Falling behind http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/11894712/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/11894712/ Tue, 20 Feb 2007 12:59:50 PST Physical:sore
Intellectual: still pretty burned
Emotional: stifeled
Spiritual: enlightened

So once i keep track of one portion of my life, other portions fall behind. I need to start writing again, it keeps me honest, keeps me...alive.

For those I have neglected in the past couple of days, I'll be back to commenting probably after my last test tonight. Things should be slowing down after that.

I'm going to have to devise a new way to study as I go, as opposed waiting until the week or two before tests and find out that I'm not ready.

I had the worst dream last night, well the dream wasn't bad, just the sleep that resulted from it was.

And that's my five minutes before I have to run off to my lab.


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Bring Greenwheel to Houston! ]]> ~saro-n-mizary It's been a few days http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/11877462/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/11877462/ Mon, 19 Feb 2007 06:04:24 PST Physical:pumped
Intellectual: burned out, but you gotta do what you gotta do
Emotional: "your hands are in my hair but my heart is in your teeth baby"
Spiritual: enlightened

So, after a few days of studying, I'm somewhat back to normal and just hoping I will pass these test. It's been a roller coaster in the land of Mary. At the least 10 hours of studying for the past two days and still so much work to be done. I'm surprised I got as much work done as I did.

I've started working out like I said I would (finally). Twice a day, five times a week in the goal. Cardio in the morning, Cardio and weight training at night. I'm going to be a prettier, sexier, more balanced me...or so we hope. I'd like to also work on getting massages as well, they aren't too expensive. Maybe once a month would be nice. Tension tends to be my biggest enemy, it'd be nice to defeat it every once in awhile.

I've been having the hardest time sleeping, I'm also hoping that once I get into this routine maybe I'll be able to sleep better. Or at least sleep.

I'm in the collaboration contest for ~UNITED-ART. Should be extremely fun, and the guy I'm working with (~JVD) seems like a real doll. I'm going to try and bring back Maria de Anon. For those who stuck around long enough to slightly know her, I'm going to try and write her story. Note: Try means more than likely fail due to all kinds of ADD

That's about all I can think about you guys, Later!


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Bring Greenwheel to Houston! ]]> ~saro-n-mizary After a long night http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/11840140/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/11840140/ Fri, 16 Feb 2007 09:03:54 PST Physical:tired, restless
Intellectual: burned out, but you gotta do what you gotta do
Emotional: "honey i think i'm a bit down down down.."
Spiritual: "we've got to feed our soul"

So I have made the decision not to go to class today. I'm going to study, and work and maybe get some free time so I can relax at least a little bit. I'm not doing so well folks. I wish I could say I was.

I want to mindless play video games, I want to cry, I want to get this fucking over with...I want to see Tommy.... I'm such a huge baby.

Peace


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Bring Greenwheel to Houston! ]]> ~saro-n-mizary There is something dark in her http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/11834880/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/11834880/ Thu, 15 Feb 2007 19:48:56 PST Physical: cold as f'n hell
Intellectual: burned out
Emotional: been better
Spiritual: "we've got to feed our soul"

There is something dark in her. Something that makes her mechanical and lost. Work, work, disappointment, work, sleep, wash, rinse, and repeat. There is something that lives deep inside of her and yearns for destruction and what's destructive. There is something deep that moans erotically for pain. There is something dark in her.

Make This Go On Forever ~ Snow Patrol

Please don't let this turn into something it's not
I can only give you everything I've got
I can't be as sorry as you think I should
But I still love you more than anyone else could

All that I keep thinking throughout this whole flight
Is it could take my whole damn life to make this right
This splintered mast I'm holding on won't save me long
Because I know fine well that what I did was wrong

The last girl in the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss in your first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final seconds you ever uttered to me was love

We have got through so much worse than this before
What's so different this time that you can't ignore
You say it is much more than just my last mistake

And we should spend some time apart for both our sakes

The last girl in the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss in your first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final seconds you ever uttered to me was love

The last girl in the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss in your first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final seconds you ever uttered to me was love

And I don't know where to look
My words just break and melt
Please just save me from this darkness

And I don't know where to look
My words just break and melt
Please just save me from this darkness


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Bring Greenwheel to Houston! ]]> ~saro-n-mizary Oh the mornings plague me http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/11826021/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/11826021/ Thu, 15 Feb 2007 07:07:27 PST Physical: cold as f'n hell
Intellectual: overworked
Emotional: lacking
Spiritual: "we've got to feed our soul"

So I worked my ass of yesterday studying, and I'm up this morning to continue the trend. With a total of about 5 hours of sleep, I have a feeling today is going to fail in production. I sure hope not. If I don't get my work done there is more than a slight chance I'll be sitting here this weekend moping about my lack of Valentine's when I have someone to celebrate it with. (Late as it may be)

I'm not really feeling the major update this morning, not that I have much to update on. Some emotions, some feelings, but nothing I feel like acknowledging this morning. I wrote for the first time in awhile last night, so I'll be posting that.

Catch you guys later.



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Bring Greenwheel to Houston! ]]> ~saro-n-mizary Good Morning and Happy V-Day! http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/11809901/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/11809901/ Wed, 14 Feb 2007 06:44:31 PST Physical: cold as f'n hell
Intellectual: waking up
Emotional: in love, lonely
Spiritual: "we've got to feed our soul"

Happy Valentine's Day everyone. It's that magical day where everyone is reminded that they are alone...well unless in reality they aren't. I would like to inform everyone though, I love you and wish all the love in the world to you on this day of awareness.

So it's been a few days since I updated. I had a slightly extended weekend due to some food poisoning. I was on my way home Monday morning when I felt the strong urge to vomit. This lead to me pulling on to the side of a major highway to puke and then carefully drove myself to a ghetto wal-mart off of South Post Oak.

I called Tommy to come pick me up, but the boy was too passed out to comprehend my inability to drive at the time, and no one else I called answered (except for Stone, and he was at work so I felt bad about asking him to come get me. Later I found out I should have asked him, he wouldn't have minded...but that's a mistake of mine and something I'm still unsure about with him). So I sat in the Wal-Mart restroom chugging Pepto and reading the door. "707 Browns by (can't remember the name)" "Fuck 707 713 Bitch! Queen Latina's" Scary stuff when you're not exactly capable of defending yourself if there happens to be a gang fight in the girl's restroom. Lol

So after being in the restroom for about an hour, I started to feel better and decided to see if I can make it to Austin. After getting into bumper to bumper traffic for about an hour, and stopping about every 15-30 minutes I called Courtney and asked her to send a message to my teacher and I made my way (slowly) back to Tommy's where I passed the fuck out.

When I woke up I was starting to feel better and felt like cooking. So, Phil, Nikki and I went to Kroger where I bought the ingredients to make myself some soup. Tomatoes, Zucchini, Carrots, Celery, White Beans, Basil, Crushed Red Pepper, Chicken broth, Garlic (which my fingers still smell of)...mm it was good. What little I had of it at least lol. After I ate a bit, I was tired (yet again) and gave what was left of my bowl to Phil and went to sleep.

3 Hours later I woke up to an empty pot of soup lol. It's ok, that's what happens when you leave something good around boys. I got some more sleep that night, and left yesterday morning and came back to Austin. Went to my lab yesterday and took care of business. Ate some dinner, and after watching some tv I passed out.

I kept having the strangest thoughts when I was driving. I wish I wasn't so inspired to write when I can't. Of all places for inspiration, while driving...

I had to move my car this morning and it's freezing balls outside. And now, I'm going to take a shower.

Hope you guys have a good one.

And like i said earlier...Happy V-DAY!!!


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Bring Greenwheel to Houston! ]]> ~saro-n-mizary Hours of WoW, aching, and love http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/11772689/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/11772689/ Sun, 11 Feb 2007 11:59:21 PST Physical: morning achey-ness and sinus junk
Intellectual: doing alright
Emotional: in love
Spiritual: what's that?

I hate Sunday. It means I'll have to leaving soon. Leaving the arms of my baby, leaving the comfort of "home". I'll probably be back next weekend though, and then won't be down for awhile. No money and I need to spend a weekend or two in Austin at least. Courtney and I need to go apartment browsing, you know just in case I do end up staying in Austin one more year.

I'll be studying today, yay! for the first set of tests coming up. Physics is on Monday, then my next tests aren't until the week after. He's not going to like me, but I'll probably pounce on him after I'm done writing in this journal. lol

Man, you guys...I'm crazy about him.

And he's pretty crazy as well.

Love's Divine ~ Seal

Then the rainstorm came, over me
And I felt my spirit break
I had lost all of my, belief you see
And realized my mistake
But time through a prayer, to me
And all around me became still

I need love, love's divine
Please forgive me now I see that I've been blind
Give me love, love is what I need to help me know my name

Through the rainstorm came sanctuary
And I felt my spirit fly
I had found all of my reality
I realize what it takes

'Cause I need love, love's divine
Please forgive me now I see that I've been blind
Give me love, love is what I need to help me know my name

Oh I, don't bet (don't bend), don't break (don't break)
Show me how to live and promise me you won't forsake
'Cause love can help me know my name

Well I try to say there's nothing wrong
But inside I felt me lying all along
But the message here was plain to see
Believe me

'Cause I need love, love's divine
Please forgive me now I see that I've been blind
Give me love, love is what I need to help me know my name

Oh I, don't bet (don't bend), don't break (don't break)
Show me how to live and promise me you won't forsake
'Cause love can help me know my name

Love can help me know my name.

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Bring Greenwheel to Houston! ]]> ~saro-n-mizary The boy sleeps... http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/11758656/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/11758656/ Sat, 10 Feb 2007 10:29:22 PST Physical: a bit of a headache, and a bit achey
Intellectual: satiated for now
Emotional: calm, loving, train wreck
Spiritual: what's that?

I love watching him sleep. For those I bothered while driving (including you Jai) I'm sorry. Lol. I do become quite the little boxed up ball of energy when driving. I feel sorry for those who deal with it, and think the ones who do it willingly are nuts.

I'm so glad to be in what I call "Home". I never really felt like I had a place to "hang my hat", but now I do. I have friends in this house and people that hopefully also consider me family. Hopefully is the operative word. I guess if they didn't like me, I'd know by now. I would have gotten that bad feeling that happens when you're in a place you don't belong.

I should probably do some studying, but I think I'm going to lounge around with my boy-o for a bit. Hopefully spend some kind of one-on-one time. We haven't had a moment alone since I got here, and I'd like a little bit of it. We'll see if he allows it.

I got a strong wave of negative emotions last night, I'm so sick of those feelings coming over me. I want my sleep, I want my peace...Sometimes I question if he really loves me. I think he knows that. I wonder if he just likes me because I'm so easy, or if it's because he just hasn't found anyone better as of yet. I mean he must have some strong feelings towards me, why else would he even take his precious time to have this long distance relationship with me? Sometimes I just wish he would show it as much as I try to show him how much I care.

But enough of these thoughts, I'm on the brink of tears and I'm not even into anything serious. Look at me, a bundle of nerves. I'm going to be off before I get dumb. Bye guys. Love you :)

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Bring Greenwheel to Houston! ]]> ~saro-n-mizary In history class http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/11746392/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/11746392/ Fri, 09 Feb 2007 11:32:36 PST Physical: a little bit sleepy
Intellectual: well toyed with, but still longing
Emotional: excited and excitable
Spiritual: what's that?

I don't know what I get so bored in my history class. It really is an interesting class, but it's not something I guess I'm really into. The teacher is even the history nerd of all nerds, so she's cute and fun to listen to. I guess it's mostly because I don't really care.

I've been keeping up with my deviations, and I have one thing to say to all to you. POST MORE!!! Not that I'm really one up on posting lots of deviations recently, it's just that I need something more to look at from y'all. At least until I'm inspired by something.

I'm going to my baby's this weekend. W00t!!! I'm so happy. I've been missing that boy-o so very much. I can't do it very often, I don't have the money too. So, obviously, the few times I do see him I treasure immensely. I only wish that I didn't usually have to study or something while I was there. On the bright side, while I'm studying, he's usually right by my side playing WoW or something.

I didn't update last night, but I must tell everyone that I *LOVE* my architecture class. I look forward to going to it, and I come out of it in such high spirits. Yesterday we talked about the number phi. I don't know if you know what it is, but it's this mathematical phenomenon that happens in everything. If you've ever heard of the Fibonacci series, this was a result of this series of numbers. My inablilty to teach anything keeps me from really trying to explain all of this, but I really suggest you look it up. It's one of the major subjects of the Davinci Code and pretty much surrounds the Knights Templar and everything else that the whole Davinci Code fanaticism engulfed. It's really an amazing phenomenon and adds mysticism to something that is considered so cut and dry. Math, geometry, how can that be mystical...go look it up. It's not hard to find information on it. Just look up phi or the golden number. It effects all our lives, and you probably don't even know it.

So enough about that rant, I was so excited yesterday. Poor Courtney, she had to hear me talk about this for probably about 30 minutes or so. I should pay attention to the last 20 minutes or so of class, see you later folks.

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Bring Greenwheel to Houston! ]]> ~saro-n-mizary When I grow up http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/11733016/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/11733016/ Thu, 08 Feb 2007 09:32:23 PST Physical: drowsy at best
Intellectual: wanting to be toyed with, wanting to toy
Emotional: bad dreams lead to strange feelings
Spiritual: still pretty lacking

What i wouldn't give to have one normal night of sleep. I don't remember ever dreaming this way before i lived here. Maybe this place really is haunted, and I just don't really want to believe it. Tomorrow, tomorrow, thank God for tomorrow.

Eh, well don't thank God for shit, he still has to prove that he exists. lol. Today is a relatively light day of classes, which means hopefully i can take a few minutes and relieve some of my stress. Clean a bit, get some work done...just all those things that need to get done before I leave.

Do you guys realize you have watched me grow up on here. You have seen me grow from a child in the 8th grade to whatever the fuck I am as a freshman in college. That's a long time, and a lot of writing. 5 years is a long time. 2 major heartbreaks, and several large highs and lows, and all along I've had people supporting me and being a friend to me.

I got lucky coming around here. I guess I wanted to say thanks. You guys have been wonderful.

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Bring Greenwheel to Houston! ]]> ~saro-n-mizary No more Sick-ness http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/11719055/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/11719055/ Wed, 07 Feb 2007 06:43:13 PST Physical: much better than before, dirty but will be clean soon
Intellectual: waking up and about to get to work
Emotional: not at topsy turvy as usual, pretty damn happy if i may say so myself
Spiritual: slightly enlightened, lets see if things work for the better

So I'm hoping I'm not punished too bad for having to miss my lab yesterday due to extreme vomiting. What is the best way to document "I was so sick and puking my brains out that I couldn't even get to a doctor"? I always hated the idea of documentation when all it came down to was that I couldn't get out of bed. If it comes down to it, i'll get the information I need from my lab partner. So at least I can have the lab done, and I hope my TA will take it.

I really wish I could be lazy today, but I know I've got school work to get done, and if I don't get it done during the week, I have the feeling I won't touch it during the weekend. I'm going to go stay with my boy-o this weekend. I'm so happy, I've been missing him in all kinds of ridiculous amounts.

I need to hurry up and get my application in for possibly attending UH next year. Part of me hopes I get into their architecture program, and then another part of me doesn't. I really don't want to go back home. Not that I don't love my parents or anything, but I had been wanting to leave that house for my whole high school career and now that I've finally left I'd give anything not to go back.

I had a friend suggest that I go to school on the east coast, but I had to explain to him that it wouldn't be that easy. I don't fit in with the east coast people I do know. Even my mother said I'm not an "east coast gal". Maybe I'll get my girls together, and we'll take a road trip across the US. Maybe I'll figure out where I fit in then...maybe.

We'll see what happens.

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Bring Greenwheel to Houston! ]]> ~saro-n-mizary Between Classes yet Again http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/11708293/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/11708293/ Tue, 06 Feb 2007 10:15:06 PST
I'm back up and running with the clubs i was in before i went on perma-hiatus. So hopefully I'll get people realizing I'm alive. I think I am the messiest eater i know. lol. And a pig on top of it.

Mental: working way too hard
Intelletual: tired and apathetic
Physical: sickly
Spiritual: fuck it

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Bring Greenwheel to Houston! ]]> ~saro-n-mizary So this is much like last year http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/11696652/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/11696652/ Mon, 05 Feb 2007 15:37:20 PST but I think I really mean it this time.

Every year I come back and say I'm going to pay more attention, I'm going to change, and I'm going to better myself. I don't think I can say anything to make you believe that I actually will this time, but being a freshman in college and depending on a male to be a steady source of *something* isn't the smartest thing, so I need to find myself something solid. I need to find myself something that I can identify myself with, something solid.

So, my first year at college. It's been eventful, already in my second semester and I'm not very impressed. Everyone said it's supposed to be so difficult, so hard...but after not trying a damn bit I passed all my classes last semester. So this semester I'm testing myself and seeing what I can really do. I'm probably going to be changing schools in the next year or so, not that I completely dislike Austin, I just am having a hard time connecting with people and finding that group I fit in. I'm hoping things work out so I don't have to go back home. I really don't believe I'd be happy back in the place they don't even see me as an adult yet.

I want to be more active. I want to feel like I'm a part of something. This weekend with my girlfriends in Dallas I realized I'm not always going to have them around. I'm not going to have those comforts come next year, and I'm going to have to deal with them instead of just being the ultra hermit I am.

I had a girlfriend tell me that I should start a "Medicine Wheel". Maybe if i start updating here I can keep up with it. It's not that it's hard, it's just that it can be difficult if your not in the habit of it.

I'm going to be better guys. I need to be better.

Physical: fat, mc-fat-kid
Intellectual: slightly worn, desiring
Spiritual: lacking
Emotional: Ups and downs, contemplation kicks my ass

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Bring Greenwheel to Houston! ]]> ~saro-n-mizary NaNoWriMo http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/10576802/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/10576802/ Tue, 31 Oct 2006 22:47:35 PST


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Bring Greenwheel to Houston! ]]> ~saro-n-mizary First Day on the Job http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/10204536/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/10204536/ Wed, 27 Sep 2006 14:36:13 PDT
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Bring Greenwheel to Houston! ]]> ~saro-n-mizary Adventures of a College Freshman http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/10086636/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/10086636/ Sat, 16 Sep 2006 00:59:42 PDT
Mood: Superhuman Invincible
Listening to: Dawn Over Zero

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http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/9899953/ Tue, 29 Aug 2006 18:43:07 PDT
Mood: Superhuman Robotic
Listening to: Tracy Chapman

"You got a fast car 
I want a ticket to anywhere 
Maybe we make a deal 
Maybe together we can get somewhere 

Anyplace is better 
Starting from zero got nothing to lose 
Maybe we'll make something 
But me myself I got nothing to prove  

You got a fast car 
And I got a plan to get us out of here 
I been working at the convenience store 
Managed to save just a little bit of money 
We won't have to drive too far 
Just 'cross the border and into the city 
You and I can both get jobs 
And finally see what it means to be living  

You see my old man's got a problem 
He live with the bottle that's the way it is 
He says his body's too old for working 
I say his body's too young to look like his 
My mama went off and left him 
She wanted more from life than he could give
 I said somebody's got to take care of him 
So I quit school and that's what I did  

You got a fast car 
But is it fast enough so we can fly away 
We gotta make a decision 
We leave tonight or live and die this way  

I remember we were driving driving in your car 
The speed so fast I felt like I was drunk 
City lights lay out before us 
And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder 
And I had a feeling that I belonged 
And I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone  

You got a fast car 
And we go cruising to entertain ourselves 
You still ain't got a job 
And I work in a market as a checkout girl 
I know things will get better 
You'll find work and I'll get promoted
We'll move out of the shelter 
Buy a big house and live in the suburbs

 You got a fast car 
And I got a job that pays all our bills 
You stay out drinking late at the bar 
See more of your friends than you do of your kids 
I'd always hoped for better 
Thought maybe together you and me would find it 
I got no plans I ain't going nowhere 
So take your fast car and keep on driving  

You got a fast car 
But is it fast enough so you can fly away 
You gotta make a decision
 You leave tonight or live and die this way"

I feel like jumping in my car and just leaving. Drive until I can find a place to live some life out of my car until I make enough money to continue on.

 Not in a bad mood really, life is good. I just get this way sometimes.

Hope you guys are doing well. Classes start tomorrow, I'm rather excited. Probably look into that job thing at the parking garages tomorrow since I didn't to it today.

~Mary
 





































































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Bring Greenwheel to Houston! ]]> ~saro-n-mizary My Gene Sequence Is Superior http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/9851535/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/9851535/ Fri, 25 Aug 2006 14:08:12 PDT
Mood: Superhuman Robotic
Listening to: Dan Mangan

"It's funny, you work so hard,
you do everything you can to get away from a place,
and when you finally get your chance to leave,
you find a reason to stay..."
~Ethan Hawke in Gattaca





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Bring Greenwheel to Houston! ]]> ~saro-n-mizary My goal(s) before I leave http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/9597987/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/9597987/ Thu, 24 Aug 2006 00:45:19 PDT
Mood: Superhuman Robotic
Listening to: Dan Mangan

1. Get my car back
2. See and spend some seriously hilarious time with my best friends
3. Get batteries (lots)
4. Take pictures of said hilarious times
5. Spend the night at nikkis
6. See those whom i haven't seen in ages
7. Dance under the stars (preferably in the rain)
8. Get the things I need for college (mostly)
9. Clear my slate for the things up ahead
10. Go to Rocky Horror
11. Go play some laser tag
12. Go sing some karaoke (didn't really go, but we did sit around in tommy's room singing like a bunch of retards on crack)
13. Make a mixed tape
14. Have a sing along with izzy and maybe learn a few things on the gee-tar
15. Try to make it to a concert, any concert, any venue (no matter how small or large)
16. Be a model...or at least try to be
17. Use my pool just one last time...or a few more times
18. Go to the mall Goth style with JP and Cammy
19. Become a hot redhead
20. Play a game of pool
21. Play a board game, any board game
22. Go to the beach
23. Do that thing Tommy planned for us but we didn't get to
24. Go some place that i've seen a thousand times and never been to
25. Visit Baystreet and create memories that'll last a lifetime(again another kind of, adrian and I did run out to skyline to eat)
26. Have a day out with my family
27. Go to Kemah and see the laser light show
28. Write something that I find impressive
29. Have someone actually use an impressive pick up line on me
30. Dance with someone, slow preferably, but dance none-the-less
31. Go to a theme party
32. Learn a new song on the piano and be able to play it well (i've been working on this one)
33. Buy a full-sized keyboard of my own
34. Get the numbers of all those I talk to but have lost touch with
35. Same thing with addresses
36. Get a tarot card reading.
37. Get some Snow Cones
39. Be told that i made an honest difference in *someone's* life for one reason or another
40. Worry a lot less, breathe a lot more
41. Try to let everyone know exactally how I feel about them, no question unanswered
42. Make Someone's day
43. Shoot something, anything...with a real gun lol
44. Go play some basketball (or any sport really, but i prefer basketball)
45. Go bowling
46. Fix up kat's computer
47. Do something totally and utterly girly
48. Get a mani and a pedi
49. Try some of those...sexual...things i haven't done before
50. Be so happy that everyone catches my happiness like a virus

Everyone is welcome to help out on these :) I want to get as much done as I can before I do that leaving thing on the 26th.

Love you guys
Mary

*bolded are those things already done*

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Bring Greenwheel to Houston! ]]> ~saro-n-mizary I felt Drowned http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/9511564/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/9511564/ Thu, 27 Jul 2006 12:39:32 PDT
I have things to post and for those that missed me, I love you guys : )

I'm ok now.

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]]> ~saro-n-mizary I've taken the first chunk out http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/9155121/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/9155121/ Fri, 23 Jun 2006 02:47:28 PDT
In either case, I've taken the first chunk out of my deviations. Commenting on just about everyone one...Now i'm only left with 152. Don't take that as I'm back to full running status. I'm still playing catch up. I just wanted to let you guys know, yes I will be back and fully running soon.

Once I catch up, I'll be back to my judging, commenting, full blown Machine Status.

Out of highschool for forever, spending the last free summer in awhile. Lovin' it.

MMMMMM it feels good :)

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]]> ~saro-n-mizary Graduation, Prom, and Spring Show http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/8674995/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/8674995/ Thu, 04 May 2006 18:12:45 PDT
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]]> ~saro-n-mizary Living again http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/8484595/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/8484595/ Sun, 16 Apr 2006 00:56:36 PDT
well, yea, I'm back and alive. Don't worry yourself(not that you did).

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]]> ~saro-n-mizary This time is the last time... http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/8349083/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/8349083/ Mon, 03 Apr 2006 00:36:18 PDT tonight.

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]]> ~saro-n-mizary Just playing with some Poetie Emo-ness http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/8031789/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/8031789/ Tue, 28 Feb 2006 19:45:14 PST catching it's reflection in your eyes
smoking to ease the pain
would you say, "go on, I need not see you cry"

Ride on, leave me today
open and unsturdy
days to years to life times
...dirty

~*~

Just lyric ideas. If you like it, let me know, I might have to flow with this one.

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]]> ~saro-n-mizary Joke of the Day http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/7909461/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/7909461/ Wed, 15 Feb 2006 18:10:48 PST
In either case, here is the joke that has brought me to make a new journal post.

Little boy goes to his father and asks "Daddy, how was I born?" The father answers: "Well, son, I guess one day you will need to find out anyway! Your Mom and I first got together in a chat room on Yahoo. Then I set up a date via e-mail with your Mom and we met at a cyber-cafe. We sneaked into a secluded room, where your mother agreed to a download from my hard drive. As soon as I was ready to upload, we discovered that neither one of us had used a firewall, and since it was too late to hit the delete button, nine months later a blessed little Pop-Up appeared and said:

"You've Got Male!"

Hope it made you smile.

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]]> ~saro-n-mizary At a lack for words http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/7872361/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/7872361/ Sun, 12 Feb 2006 09:55:29 PST It won't take a miracle to fix this, just a dream come true."

Well since I seem to be at a lack of words lately, I've been playing with Photoshop 7. Thus the pretty skies I've made. I've also found myself commenting on random deviants in the "recent deviations" part of the front page. I'm slightly reaching for more comments here people. Not feeling very motivated to write for an empty audience.

On the bright side, I'll possibly submitting a couple of contest works for bashing and what not. So those who wish to join that, just go ahead and visit my newest to be subs. I'll also might be trying my hand at drawing again. This is a big maybe and we'll see how I feel in the next couple of weeks.

Senior year stress is really starting to get to me and being stable is a bit out of sight. For those who care, keep me in your minds. For those who don't...well disregard the reaching out for pity. :)

Catch you guys on the flip side

Mary

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]]> ~saro-n-mizary Movie Spam http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/7716498/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/7716498/ Fri, 27 Jan 2006 12:26:22 PST


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]]> ~saro-n-mizary Adverstising for Shigo http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/7671447/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/7671447/ Sat, 21 Jan 2006 22:34:31 PST shigo

Here is her latest fan fiction There Ain't No Getting Over Me

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]]> ~saro-n-mizary Devious Journal Entry http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/7649162/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/7649162/ Thu, 19 Jan 2006 14:25:56 PST
I got my Pocky in today!!! Mmmmm pocky how much i do love you.

As much as i hurt, i'm in heaven now..
thank you japan for all your yummy-ness...

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]]> ~saro-n-mizary Well Life is coming back to this dusty den http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/7632610/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/7632610/ Tue, 17 Jan 2006 17:44:56 PST
Between bowling, school, and going out to COM to take Sociology I will have TONS of free time. lol My senior year is flying by so fast and i can feel it. This time next year i'll be graduating from my first year at University of Texas at Austin. Exciting, huh?

Well i'm going to be working on my submission for the "Deadliest Sin" competition at =PoetryPlease . I also need to get on the list for the contest at ~poetrycafe

I'm coming back into the active nutcase i used to be.

And who welcomes me?! NO ONE!!! GAH I SHALL BEAT YOU ALL!! lol

no, seriously, I love you all. and thanks =calthas for being the only one to welcome me. You're my favorite now ;)

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]]> ~saro-n-mizary Long Time Coming http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/7613500/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/7613500/ Sun, 15 Jan 2006 18:20:40 PST
I will soon be writing again. And maybe making regular updates. No promises quite yet.

]]> ~saro-n-mizary Turkey Day! http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/7131297/ http://saro-n-mizary.deviantart.com/journal/7131297/ Thu, 24 Nov 2005 10:17:32 PST
I hope you all fell good getting fat. ^_^ I know I will. Also, if you have the chance, help someone out today. You never know what can come along. ]]> ~saro-n-mizary