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Just alittle update cos I havent in a while.
Nothing much going on I suppose. As usual lol.

Things are going OK at work though I've made an arch-enemy, which is always interesting. Work is mostly boring boring boring though. I'm on Fitting Room which gets rather tedious. And they paid me wrong =[

I'm STILL neglecting my writing. Which is a shame really, cos right now I'm like this mess of feelings that I can't seem to write down. The teenage girly-girl in me is dying to let her over-dramatic presence be known lol and the moody little emo is telling her to be quiet, while some other part of me is screaming and jabbing at the self-destruct button. It makes an interesting combination lol.

But I guess life is same old, same old really. Though it just a month exactly til Christmas! Cant wait!

]]> ~sazzy-muffin "It's so Fred Perry!" http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/27995877/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/27995877/ Tue, 27 Oct 2009 14:11:41 PDT
Oh, to explain the title - I got my Matalan t-shirt and its black with thin red stripes. Very Fred Perry methinks =]

OH! 7 DAYS TILL CAKE DAY!!!

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Proved Me Wrong http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/27854034/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/27854034/ Mon, 19 Oct 2009 13:25:48 PDT James, for NO apparent reason what so ever, was awful to me. I asked if he was there because he didn't reply to me on msn and he started to swear at me. When I apologised for whatever the fuck I was meant to have done, he swore more. He was proper fucking horrible.
I wrote 'Wordless Wishes' about him and me in bed. Fucking wasted sentiment or what?!?! I cannot believe I was so fucking stupid!!!!
Why do I know the people I know???

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Resolutions http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/27630575/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/27630575/ Wed, 07 Oct 2009 10:20:20 PDT Well anyways, I want to have them somewhere where I'm reminded of them.

1. No smoking until my birthday
2. No more hooking up with guy no. 1 unless I actually want to.
3. No more snacks (as of next week) until Christmas.
4. Make things better with guy no. 2 by the end of November.
5. Smile more.

And I think thats enough for now.

]]> ~sazzy-muffin "I DON'T WANT A BOYFRIEND!" http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/27407505/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/27407505/ Fri, 25 Sep 2009 10:51:54 PDT But arrrgh I don't know what on earth's going on. I don't feel ready for this; its like it just jumped from round a corner.
Oh and I promise to get writing again soon. I've just been abit depressed lately and lacked motivation.

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Labels http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/27094239/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/27094239/ Tue, 08 Sep 2009 12:56:19 PDT But other peoples opinion of you shouldn't shape the type of person you are. Because people's minds can't cheapen you, not the real you.
(I'm having issues)

]]> ~sazzy-muffin I've Done Something Bad... Again http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/26917234/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/26917234/ Sun, 30 Aug 2009 13:59:17 PDT And the worst thimg is, people aren't surprised or shocked! Its like its the norm; like its just what I do. Tghough, in a way, I suppose it is. I have problems...

]]> ~sazzy-muffin GCSE Results http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/26855871/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/26855871/ Thu, 27 Aug 2009 12:21:31 PDT Holy fuck!

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Highs & Lows http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/26816212/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/26816212/ Tue, 25 Aug 2009 12:27:30 PDT But lets start with the good stuff: I GOT AN A IN ADDITIONAL MATHS!!!! HELL YEH! I'm actually sooooo pleased. I got some results back today (for the exams I sat with ccea).
Additional Maths - A
Maths - A
English - A
English Lit. - A*
R.E - A

I have no idea how I passed RE! No one seems to know! When I told my dad about my results, he actually said: "How the hell did you get an A in RE?!"

And Matalan called to tell me that I have a job

I was SO surprised because I thought I messed up the interview! the store opens on November 12th and my induction is on the 1st =]

And theres been a lot of bad stuff but thats not important right now.

IMA GET A NAME BADGE!!!!

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Love Is A Many Splendoured Thing http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/26586673/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/26586673/ Fri, 14 Aug 2009 09:53:10 PDT Its a complicated thing I guess. I used to think it was pretty black and white. Well, maybe black and white with a little grey in beetween. I think I've realised now that love is kinda technicolour.
And thats OK, because love's worth confusion. And colours are pretty =]

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Scotland Makes Me Sad http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/25899994/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/25899994/ Sun, 12 Jul 2009 13:36:10 PDT And i feel like this huge in the closet dyke! I mean, I know I'm not gay but thats not the point!
Though I guess it has some good sides. I mean, no one here knows about my self-harm and I don't do that anymore so theres no reason why they should know.
But I don't like it =[
I miss people so so so much.
And its the 12th today and I'm missing it =[ Not fair, cos I really love the band parade and I was in Belfast last year for it and it was so good.
Grr...

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Girl Confessions http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/25840129/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/25840129/ Thu, 09 Jul 2009 13:46:09 PDT
Girls only, unless you're a cross dresser or ridiculously camp

1. Do you sleep in your bra?:
Nope, i really hate bras

2. Do you enjoy drama?:
Err sometimes

3. Are you a girly girl?:
I think so abit... maybe

4. Who was the last person you hugged?:
God, I dont know!

5. Small or large purses?:
Small? But not too small

6. Are you short?:
Not as short as I thought I was =] but yeh, 5ft 3 isnt exactly tall...

7. Do you like somebody:
Yes. and its killing me

8. What would you do if someone smacked your butt?:
Smack them back =]

9. Do you care if your socks are dirty?:
Yeh but i hardly ever wear socks so s'alll good

10. Do you dress up on Halloween?:
Yes =] I like to be a fairy

11. Are you double jointed?:
My aunty says i am, but i dont think so

12. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?:
Sofa probs lol

13. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?:
O_O i dont think so

14. Is there of rumor going around about you?:
Not ryt now =] for once

15. Do you call anybody by their last name?:
ummm nope

16. How many guys will read this just because it says "Girl Confessions"?:
Probably none lol.

"X" Marks the Spot:
[x] I do wear make up.
[x] I have cried at a movie theater. (But secretly hush hush)
[x] I can put mascara on without opening my mouth. (Just! haha!!)
[x] I get jealous. (very, very jealous...)
[x] I think Johnny Depp is sexy.
[x] I love to laugh.
[x] I like death/grind/black metal.
[x] I like rap.
[ ] I like country
[x] I carry a purse.
[x] IÂd be lost without my computer.
[ ] I own a Spice Girls CD.
[x] I own a Britney Spears CD.
[x] I own a boy band CD.
[x] I get bored watching football.
[ ] IÂve never been called a spoiled brat.
[x] Guys are confusing.
[x] IÂve been called a bad influence. (On multiple occasions)
[x] I have/had a piercing other than my ears.

Come on ladies, be truthful!
1. What color is your bra that your wearing?:
Black

2. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?:
Dark

3. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?:
Yes!!!

4. Do you have a best friend(s)?:
Nope, all my friends are equal

5. Have you ever had your heart broken?:
Yer...

6. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?:
Yeh, but I've decided that I don't want it. I mean, OW!

7. Do you like your life?:
Well atm, its kina crappy (just moved country)

8. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?:
No, my friends are nice

9. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?:
Noooo i cant swim

10. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?:
More girls

11. How long have you had Facebook?:
I'm a total rebel and DONT HAVE FACEBOOK =]

12. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?:
Many a time lol

13. What are your biggest fears?:
Beards, clowns, masks etc (people hiding who they are really) oh and peadofiles!

14. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?:
Yes, many a time

15. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?:
Yes, im an obsessive kina gal

16. Do you believe in the saying Âonce a cheater, always a cheaterÂ?:
Nope

17. Have you ever had a good feeling about something?:
Yes =]

18. Do you ever wish you were famous?:
Nahh, the papparazi seem like awful people

19. Are you currently missing someone?:
I'm missing ssssoooooooo many people right now!

This guy or that guy? Pick one.

Punk/Goth or Gangster?:
Punk/Goth ^^

Preppy or Cowboy?:
Preppy

Face or Body?:
BOTH

Sweet or Sexy?:
BOTH

Well-educated or Dropout?:
Well educated, so as i can be intellectual

Armani or Abercrombie?:
oh armani suit... yumm!

City-slicker or Rural Guy?:
Either

Blue, green, grey, or brown eyes?:
Brown eyes =]

Contacts or Glasses?:
um contacts

More Questions.
01. Eyeliner or Mascara?:
Eyeliner cz i dont need mascara, my eye lashes are pretty good =]

02. Louis Vuitton or Dooney & Bourke?:
Neither

04. Skirts or pants?:
TROUSERS

05. Socks or leggings?:
Socks

06. Hoodies or jackets?:
Hoodies. Big massive boy hoodies that have been stolen from said boy are the bestest

07. Heels or sneakers?:
BOTH! i <3 shoes

08. Straight or curly hair?:
~sazzy-muffin 1 Exam and 6 Days http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/25246918/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/25246918/ Thu, 11 Jun 2009 01:41:31 PDT So far, I haven't as epically failed as I expected. Except German, but I had already written it off as a lost cause after my diaster of an oral. On my reading paper I wrote "Ich weiss nicht! Es ist zu schweirig! Ich kann nicht auf Deautsch lesen!", which should mean i dont know! its too hard! i cant read in german!
Im feeling pretty ok with add maths, my last physics module, english lit, and history paper 1. I dont think I did brilliantly, but it was OK.
Whole of german and last modules in biology and chemistry were woeful though.
When I get my results I'm gonna compare them with this and wail "what went wrong?!" (feeling a bit pessimistic about my gcse results)

Its also 6 days until I move. SAD FACE. Rather fucked off with most of my friends, who dont actually seem to care. And tomorrow may be the last day I see Bekka =[
Im going on a pretty epic beauty regime tonight so I can prepare lol.

YAY! My exams will be over in about...
5 hrs, 20 mins

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Jack U Off http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/25210230/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/25210230/ Tue, 09 Jun 2009 04:23:59 PDT
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Heartache Every Moment -- HIM

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY
Believe -- Staind

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Folsom Prison Blues -- Johnny Cash

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY
Six feet under the stars -- All Time Low

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Unspoken -- Lacuna Coil

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Summerboy -- Lady Gaga

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
without Fear -- Lacuna Coil

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
nature of the beast -- Beneath The sky

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Better not waste my time -- N-Dubz

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
The Ides Of March -- Silverstein

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Kiss Me -- Rediscover

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Sex -- N-Dubz (OH FFS!)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Passion's Killing Floor -- HIM

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Falling -- Lacuna Coil

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Keep On Moving -- Starstylerz

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
For You (acoustic) -- HIM (aww)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Beauty From Pain -- superchick (oh thats a good one)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Within Me -- Lacuna Coil

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Famous Last Words -- My chemical Romance

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Wait -- Sarah McLachlan

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
So Far Away -- Staind

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Lipgloss and black -- Atryu

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
The Climb -- Miley cyrus

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
You Belong With Me -- Taylor Swift )lies!)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
The Heartless -- HIM

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
The Chase -- Kill Hannah

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Decoy -- Paramore (thats not good)

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Love Lockdown -- Kanye west

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Baby, Its Fact -- HelloGoodbye

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Jack U Off -- Robyn (great.. just... great lol)

]]> ~sazzy-muffin "Its just because I like you." http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/24888335/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/24888335/ Fri, 22 May 2009 10:22:17 PDT
]]> ~sazzy-muffin More Exams http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/24838482/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/24838482/ Tue, 19 May 2009 12:09:18 PDT I sat my short course re yesterday. It went better than expected which, by the way, still isn't good. But its a subject I don't really care about. When asked to name two activities that the king was pleased with in the Final Judgment parable, I wrote:
(i) He got his goats and sheep back
(ii) Ploughing.
When asked by friends what teh hell I was on about, I said that everyone liked ploughing in those days. Yeh...
I sat my English Literature today. It was... I don't know. I really fucked up the Lord of the Flies essay, which I'm annoyed about because it was my best text. But my Our Town essay was Ok =]
I've got Biology tomorrow. The upside is thats its a module, so only 45min long.

Argh I need a lighter =[

]]> ~sazzy-muffin What I've Been Looking For http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/24748186/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/24748186/ Thu, 14 May 2009 03:28:21 PDT I feel like I'm getting away with murder here. And, its true, I am getting away with something forbidden. I love this feeling. I've found people who understand now.

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Exams http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/24731928/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/24731928/ Wed, 13 May 2009 04:16:31 PDT
]]> ~sazzy-muffin Moan http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/24231727/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/24231727/ Tue, 14 Apr 2009 02:24:41 PDT
Its raining =[
I missed the bus to Antrim. I should be chillin with my Bekka right now. But no...

I've been abandoned by my "friends". Actually, bothered? Well, I'm annoyed at Lissa tbh. All of a sudden, she's grown a pair, wow! And hello, if you have something you wanna talk about with someone, do it alone. Who gets a mate to hold their hand at the door?! ARGH.

Jake. Just... Jake. I love him and I hate that I do. Like, I really do care about him and he's just been a dick as of late when I'm nothing but nice to him. He made me cry ffs! Then pinned all the blame on me, the crying one. And then he was all like "i wanna care about you". GRR!

ok,there's more but if I continue it will be a full-scale rant. And its too early in the morning...

]]> ~sazzy-muffin LONG QUIZ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/24142892/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/24142892/ Thu, 09 Apr 2009 07:56:12 PDT
199: I was born in: Ballymena, N.I

198: I am really: moody.

197: My cell phone company is: Vodafone

196: My eye color is: green

195: My shoe size is: 3 ,3 and a half, or 4

194: My ring size is: dont know

193: My height is: 5ft 2

192: I am allergic to: Nothing.

191: My 1st car was: errr its a peugeot.

190: My 1st job was: does babysitting count?

189: Last book you read: New Moon.

188: My bed is: only a single, and the best187:

187 My pet: dont have one

186: My best friend: errr i have a few. Lets say Lissa. Shes a random little scouser.

185: My favorite shampoo is: Coconut scented.

184: AIM name: none

183: Piggy Banks are: awesome. Mine actually oinks.

182: In my pockets: there is always a phone, lipgloss and a lighter.

181: On my calendar: there is the wrong month showing.

180: Marriage is: sweet... sometimes.

179: Sponge Bob can: do whatever he wants.

178: My mom: gives me giggles.

177: The last three cd's I bought were: Lady Gaga, N-Dubz and Snowpatrol.

176: Last YouTube video watched: Not a clue.

175: How many cousins do you have? 7.

174: Do you have any siblings: a 11year old sister/force of evil called Tasha.

173: Are your parents divorced: nope

172: Are you taller than your mom? nope =[

171: Do you play an instrument? i TRY to play guitar.

170: What did you do yesterday: had a shower, pissed off my mum, saw my girlfriend, went out with mates.

I Believe In:

169: Love at first sight: no way, its just lust.

168: Luck: No such thing!

167: Fate: sometimes.

166: Yourself: no, im really unreliable!

165: Aliens: hell no

164: Heaven: not in the conventional sense

.163: Hell: no.

162: God: no.

161: Horoscopes: only the good ones.

160: Soul mates: maybe.

159: Ghosts: Course not!.

158: Gay Marriage: Yesh!

157: War: theres no other way of dealing with some people.

156: Orbs: huh?

155: Magic: noooo .

Which is Better

154: Hugs or Kisses: both at the same time =]

153: Drunk or High: neither... its all bad!

152: Phone or Online: phone.

151: Red heads or Black haired: Black [like my bekka]

150: Blondes or Brunettes: dark hair.

149: Hot or cold: Hot!.

148: Summer or winter: Summer.

147: Autumn or Spring: Autumn.

146: Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate.

145: Night or Day: In the middle, sunset.

144: Oranges or Apples: apple.

143: Curly or Straight hair: straight.

142: McDonalds or Burger King: Neither!

141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: milk.

140: Mac or PC: PC.

139: Flip flops or high heals: heels.

138: Ugly and rich OR Sexy and poor: sexy and poor.

137: Coke or Pepsi: Coke.

136: Hillary or Obama: Neither! Yeah, i hate Obama! What ya gonna do?

135: Burried or cremated: cremated, i dont wanna be eaten by wormies

134: Singing or Dancing: dancing.

133: Coach or Chanel: huh.?

132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: who the fuck?

131: Small town or Big city: city!.

130: Wal-Mart or Target: i'm not american...

129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: adam sandler.

128: Manicure or Pedicure: manicure.

127: East Coast or West Coast: north east =]

126: Your Birthday or Christmas: christmas, everyone is happy.

125: Chocolate or Flowers: CHOCOLATE.

124: Disney or Six Flags: disney.

123: Yankees or Red Sox: neither.

Here's What I Think About

122: War: Its stupid, but sometimes there's just no other way. Though I do wish people would wise up and STOP.

121: George Bush: That man gives me giggles. How the hell did he end up president?!?

120: Gay Marriage: Why the hell not?!?! Gay people are still people, why SHOULDN'T they be able to get married???!!!??

119: The presidential election: I come from the UK.

118: Abortion: Sad face

117: MySpace: can't work it.

116: Reality TV: is cheap and tacky.

115: Parents: are needed.

114: Back stabbers: hate them

113: Ebay: i loves!

112: Sex: Yayy!

111: Work: I need a job.

110: My Neighbors: are weird. Though one of my best mates lives next door, so yay!

109: Gas Prices: wll continue to rise.

108: Designer Clot... ]]> ~sazzy-muffin Effin annoyed http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/23944672/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/23944672/ Sun, 29 Mar 2009 03:27:12 PDT
AND I CANT EDIT MY MOOD
NOT IMPRESSED

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Sunday Vodka http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/23850073/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/23850073/ Mon, 23 Mar 2009 14:16:17 PDT Oh and bekka was so lovely today, I really miss her at the minute.

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Rethink http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/23741362/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/23741362/ Tue, 17 Mar 2009 05:16:15 PDT I mean, I'm only one (slightly fun-sized) girl and there are masses of bus drivers. And they could run me over!
Was just RATHER annoyed cz i wanted to go to antrim today and because of this evil bus driver bitch skank, i couldn't go. Sad face or what?

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Bus Drivers http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/23740765/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/23740765/ Tue, 17 Mar 2009 03:38:48 PDT Anyone want to join me?
or restrain me?

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Happy? http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/23556683/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/23556683/ Fri, 06 Mar 2009 12:50:58 PST
Thing is, I've been down a bad road. And I guess I'm scared that it'll happen again.
And if you look at above explanations, it kinda doesnt work. I take a supplement to control my hormone thing, I've been less tired than I usually am, I'm not really that stressed. Though the winter thing is true...

I hope this doesnt get worse...

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Away http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/23083487/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/23083487/ Sun, 08 Feb 2009 13:37:29 PST
=[

I mean, they dont even have Easter eggs in Iraq!

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Back To School http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/22413639/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/22413639/ Mon, 05 Jan 2009 12:30:21 PST
]]> ~sazzy-muffin What I Got http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/22276427/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/22276427/ Tue, 30 Dec 2008 09:25:50 PST Here's what else I received:

Electrical appliances --
A purple 16Gb iPod nano
A Sony Ericsson K770i phone
An epilator

Clothing --
2 pairs of flannel pjs
3 pairs of soft fluffy socks
1 pair knitted slipper socks
1 pair Hello Kitty trainers

DVDs --
Hero
House of Flying Daggers
Little Britain series 1-3
Transporter 1 & 2

A Hundred Million Suns by Snow Patrol

Nail varnish and fake nails

Vaious chocolates and sweeties

Various Bath Things

A Playboy hipflask

A big Mr. Depp Poster =]

and money, which was used to buy --
Robyn Cd
a pair of jeans
a pack of 3 spongebob knickers =]

oh and a so far unused HMV voucher

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Merry [[Almost]] Christmas! http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/22167212/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/22167212/ Wed, 24 Dec 2008 13:19:51 PST
MERRY CHRISTMAS to EVERYONE =]

yay!

]]> ~sazzy-muffin 1,2,3,4.... http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/21915626/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/21915626/ Wed, 10 Dec 2008 14:00:52 PST
What I meant to say before I was interrupted by self-righteous ignorance, is that I'm writing a goodbye letter to Philip to hopefully conclude the almost project about him I've been working on. Oh and there's a final poem. And I think I may start dreaming about him again (not fun).

Craig's been pissing me off. (Another self-righteous prick).

And my piercing' s bothering me - not because it hurts - because its so sensitive. Oh yeah, I got my left nipple pierced on Saturday! Its teh cutest thing! Yeah, i know i may be the only person to say that ever but.. Yeah!

and now i gots to go!

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Patronising http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/21915452/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/21915452/ Wed, 10 Dec 2008 13:51:29 PST
AAAAAAARGH

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Brick Walls http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/21626163/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/21626163/ Sun, 23 Nov 2008 07:01:02 PST
Today i realised that there's just no point trying with some people

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Breaking Dawn http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/20060505/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/20060505/ Wed, 20 Aug 2008 13:31:47 PDT Its soooo perfect!
=]

Oh and i found my i-pod. Jubilation!!!!

Oh and i was talking to Bekka last night.. About children.... AHH!!! *heart attack* But I've decided that Cadence is a nice name for a girl =]

OMG
GCSE maths results tomorrow!!!!!!!

HELP!!!

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Silence crushes http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/19982924/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/19982924/ Sat, 16 Aug 2008 06:46:13 PDT I miss music

And the weather's horrible...

I don't mean to be whingey, but i can't help it!

]]> ~sazzy-muffin summer http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/19772202/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/19772202/ Mon, 04 Aug 2008 13:47:03 PDT
its been so so so boring

i mean, i broke up with bekka on saturday!!!

but i DID climb Slemish [[its N.I's 2nd tallest mountain lol]]
And i met Danny for teh first time [[he's my biolgical grandad, cos hes my dad's real dad]]
And Ceri came over [[we had much guilt ridden fun]]

But mostly ive been readin alot and seeing bekka.

and omg!

LISSA'S BACK ON FRIDAY!!!!!!

]]> ~sazzy-muffin I don't want him... http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/18837220/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/18837220/ Sat, 14 Jun 2008 11:49:14 PDT
Theres no one i want to see

=[

and im thinking about matthew...
=[
its this song - it reminds me of him

i don't know why, i dont even want him...

Possibly....

Mehhh

OMG i have my phone back!!!! [[it got confiscated]]

aaaand my puters fixed!

so now i have to get to work on ALL the deviations I havent looked at. So far, its 381!!!
OMYGOODNESS!!!!!!

OH and CERI'S COMING OVER SOON!!!!

im really happy about that!

YAY!

]]> ~sazzy-muffin OH MY GOOSHNESS http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/18180372/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/18180372/ Mon, 05 May 2008 12:48:24 PDT
me and matthew [the ex-friend] are friends again

i dont want to be his friend

what if what happened last time happens again?

=[

i had a REALLY good weekend

my parents went to england on thurs nite
so i skipped skl on friday cos i was at meggys
had good time
was v v v funny
then went to auntie evelyns on fri nite
saturday was AWESOMAGE!!!!!
sunday was bit borrrring

had a day off today
it was SUNNY
it was SO good

but back at skl tomoz

new councellor on wednesday!!!!
ahhhh!
nooo!

xxxxxx

]]> ~sazzy-muffin YO BIATCHS http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/17542783/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/17542783/ Thu, 27 Mar 2008 14:33:00 PDT
IM BACK!!!!

hehe

not much has been goin on

i got a new neighbour!
luvs her!!!

i miss boys
i told bekka this and felt VERRRY guilty

im having God issues

i decided that i want to go to boarding school for sixth form
lets just say my parents are doing my head in and leave it at that

im full of easter chocolatey happiness and depresshyness

me and phlip are kinda talking again
im abusing him over msn right now

i found a lovely song
its called Beauty From Pain by Superchick

i got NEW SHOES!!!!
and NEW UNDERWEAR!!!

there is more

but i cant remember

so until next time...

*MWAH*

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Lovely Day...(kill me now) http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/17041481/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/17041481/ Sun, 24 Feb 2008 12:15:14 PST
i just had teh worst sunday i have ever had.

it was.... awful.

]]> ~sazzy-muffin ARGH http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/16977934/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/16977934/ Wed, 20 Feb 2008 13:35:46 PST
fuck sake

I HATE ME

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Update-ness http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/16816767/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/16816767/ Sun, 10 Feb 2008 12:35:11 PST
so... wht the hell has been going on?

um... if yew dont know, me and phlip are OVER [very, VERY over. I'm not even sure if we're currently on speaking terms]
And he has a new gf [its lyny, the lovely sweetiepie!]

and i have a new gf too! its bekka [the girl i cheated on him with!]
and tis going good with us two [well i bloody well hope so!]
We've also "gone public". People are, of course, being knobs about it. But OH WELL, its not MY fault that they're so narrow-minded. But APPARENTLY we're the talk of the school, which i find hilari-arse!

So with my new-found notoriety i'm fairly happy and quite bemused.

hehe

[live life to the full, cos someday you might wake up DEAD and think "OH SHIT, well that was a life bloody well wasted"]

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Together http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/16498135/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/16498135/ Sun, 20 Jan 2008 22:48:49 PST
]]> ~sazzy-muffin Over http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/16454804/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/16454804/ Fri, 18 Jan 2008 04:55:37 PST he broke up with me.
i feel so lonely... abandoned... unwanted.

its like.... theres these hands... pulling apart my chest. Sharp and icy.... carving a hole.
it physically hurts.

i want to scream and cry.
i never want to stop.

im hurting.

im still in love.

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Mehhh http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/16301579/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/16301579/ Mon, 07 Jan 2008 13:47:36 PST And i have a headache.
And im kinda brain-fried. My dear ex-friend, Matthew, sort of said he kinda missed me sometimes. Well, i think he did. And this came from the boy who MADE ME CRY on saturday!

Unfinished words written for him, that he will never read:

"Love is not an ugly word
But all love has gone from me and you
Standing alone under skies I'm sure were once blue...
Back when sunlight shone upon us two"

i do miss him....

sometimes

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Christmas Prezzies http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/16133696/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/16133696/ Fri, 28 Dec 2007 05:21:11 PST
1 black electic guitar and amp etc.
1 phone [W580i Sony Ericson]
1 pair of boots
1 pair of black and pink DCs
1 pig breafast set [bowl, plate, eggcup, mug]
1 pink umberella
2 character soaps [1 frog, 1 spongebob]
1 paint your own Jeremy Fisher statue [he's the frog from Peter Rabbit]
1 dog top-trumps
2 Stuffed animals [1 bear, 1 dog]
1 selection box
4 bath fizzers [1 lush one, 3 in a Miko Cat packet]
1 Hello Kitty shower radio
1 Hello Kitty marshmallow lollipop
1 Hello Kitty keyring
1 puppy calander
1 pair of Spongebob slippers
1 Spongebob fleecy blanket
1 Sponebob bathset [face-cloth, shower creme, body butter]
1 shower gel
2 pairs of PJs [1 red saying 'I LOVE KISSING' on them, 1 plain pink top with black bottoms that have different colured hearts on them]
3 books [1 Lets Get Lost by Sarra Manning, 1 Eclipse by Stephenie Meyer, 1 My Booky Wook by Russel Brand]
2 purses [1 pink and black HIM one with chain, 1 pink Hello Kitty one]
1 little bag of Spongebob and Hello Kitty stickers [came inside my Hello Kitty purse]
6 pairs of underwear [3 Snoopy, 3 other]
2 DVDs [1 My Neighbour Totoro, 1 Crouching Tiger, Hidden Drgon]
1 'Worlds Best Sister' plage
1 Hello Kitty t-shirt [didn't fit, had to give it to my wee sister]
1 Â£10 New Look gift voucher
Â£26.52 which has been used to buy:
2 eyeliner [1 whie, 1 purple]
1 black hairband
1 pair of black skinny jeans
1 pair of Hello Kitty earrings

im sure i've forgotten something.... but thats what i rember!!!!

]]> ~sazzy-muffin BITCH http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/15996425/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/15996425/ Wed, 19 Dec 2007 06:22:16 PST
i have been branded a bitch....

question is:

DO I CARE?!?!

]]> ~sazzy-muffin empty http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/15821696/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/15821696/ Thu, 06 Dec 2007 13:45:33 PST
its all my fault

i hate myself

life is going to be so hard to face without him

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Confession http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/15735004/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/15735004/ Fri, 30 Nov 2007 13:14:08 PST

she thought i was takin the piss

but i think she might have believed me eventully

i wanna know what she thinks about it. She seemed ok...
But it doesnt matter. She doesnt feel the same.

But the thing is...

i defo knew that there was NO chance before cos i was pretty sure she's straight....
Turns out she isn't.
Which is just awful cos it kinda gives me a lil ray of hope.
A vain hope, of course.
But still hope...

and i know its stupid....
but....

meh it doesnt matter

she doesnt feel the same

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Lust http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/15679637/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/15679637/ Mon, 26 Nov 2007 13:31:26 PST
i think i fancy someone

a friend

a girl

but it doesnt matter

she doesnt like me in that way

well, im pretty sure anyways

..... GAR

i WANT her

but what about philip....?

oh dear

]]> ~sazzy-muffin over http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/15564336/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/15564336/ Sun, 18 Nov 2007 14:59:53 PST
]]> ~sazzy-muffin OH NO! SHE'S BAAAACK!!!!! http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/15560400/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/15560400/ Sun, 18 Nov 2007 09:56:46 PST
WOO!

haha im happy! (dont it just scare ya?)

the birthday was great!!!!!

i got:

a hello kitty mobile-phone holder (SO cute!)
Venus Doom by HIM (tis their awesome new cd!)
a hello kitty water bottle (CUTE!)
a pink punky-fish bracelet (i LOVE it)
a pair of black and red stripy over the knee socks (hehe awesome)
a pair of black and purple stripy over the knee socks (equally awesome)
a pack of 3 miko cat bath fizzers (smell SO yum!)
pack of 6 bath fizzers (woo relaxation!)
some bath salts (SO much relaxing bath-ness)
some body lotion (so i smell yummmm)
a "i've shopped all my life and still have nothing to wear" door hanger thing (so true)
a "There's nothing better than a good friend, except a good friend with chocolate" magnet (again, true)
a cute wee picture frame (to put cute wee pictures in)
a little ornament (it makes me smile)
a earring and necklace set (they make me feel all growed up, tres sophisticated!)

AND money, which was used to buy:

3 pairs of spongebob "sportypants" knickers (haha so cool)
2 bras (pretty pretty polka dots)
a white dragrace jacket (if i could marry it, i would)
a yellow hello kitty t-shirt (prettiest t-shirt EVER)
yellow and black "rave your socks off" toe-socks (hehe me through nd through)
Spirited Away (LOVE dis film!)
Princess Mononoke (is that how u spell it???)

of course some of the money was spent on banal things such as phone credit and cigarettes. Speaking of which..... lol

BUT YES IM BaCK!!!!!

thanxxxxxxx to alll the lovely people who wished me happy birthday!
*much love and hugs*

so.... theres nothing left to say but.....

ROLL ON XMAS!!!!!!!!!

oh, and my daddy left to go to iraq this morning

he wont be here for christmas...

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Right ok peoples lets get things straight http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/15313559/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/15313559/ Thu, 01 Nov 2007 09:03:09 PDT
me nd phlip are still together. We never broke up. Its just that from quite early on, hes been addament that hes in love with me, so then when he said that he wasnt, it upset me greatly.
BUUTT..... he decided that he is still in love with me!
he was just annoyed!
AAAANND im pretty sure that im falling in love with him!

But thank you sssooo much for everyones concern!

RIGHT
on to more pressing matters:

by computer is buggered!
im at my aunties atm, and god knows when i'll next be on a computer!
so if im not on for a month or so, dont worry! i wont be dead!..... Unless the beards and/or clowns get me...
...oh dear...

AAANNDD...........

ONLY TWO DAYS UNTIL MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!
WWOOOOOO!!!!!!

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Crushed http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/15264172/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/15264172/ Sun, 28 Oct 2007 20:04:50 PDT up until recently, i was under the impression that philip was in love with me.
turns out, he isn't

MY SPIRIT IS CRUSHED

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Life ATM http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/15090171/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/15090171/ Tue, 16 Oct 2007 16:04:20 PDT
School:

my R.E teacher had a go at me today. He called me "illiterate", i really resent that comment. Arsehole. And i also resent having religion forced upon me. He doesn't teach as if "this is what christians believe" he teaches us that christianity is what we should believe. He pretty much said the other week that all the other religions are a load of bollocks. This is a man who is in charge of the education of children. It sickens me that he is allowed to poison them like that. We should be left to form our own beliefs, not have some narrow-minded, ignorant, self-riteous twat tell us that his beliefs, and only his, are right.
DOES MY HEAD IN!!!!!
but i wonder..... would i be able to not do my next R.E test? if im "illiterate" then he can hardly expect me to write can he?

I read a really sad poem in english today: 'Death Of A Child (who died in a mental hospital aged one)' by Jon Silkin. Tis very sad and moving. I was almost in tears. English is great!

In games, my team lost netball. DEVASTATED!!!!! I really hate sports though.... But netball's different.... somehow....

Philip:
things are good. No they're not. Its going ok. Im worried. You think its going ok, but then thats when they dump you and go find some other girl like 1 DAY LATER!!!!!!! ...Not that i've had any bad past experiences... But i do quite like him...

YAY! On friday, it'll be 4 weeks!!!!

<3

Creativerly

Hmm.... im currently working on a piece to go with 'The Vampire' by me. Its meant to be a short story but it'll probably get really stupid and i'll get carried away. Im writing it from both perspectives: victim and vampire. But im stuck: i need names. Preferably old-ish names, for the gothic feel.
For the girl(victim): i think maybe cassie (i didnt steal that from Hex...) or Cecilia or something lik that
For the boy (vampire): the first thing that sprang to mind was Damien. But i cant use it: I saw the Omen remake on saturday and sat all the way through going "AAWWW bless! hes adorable!". I think maybe something like Edward (ive been watchinf Edward Scissor Hands again!) or maybs something like Stefen or Leon... or..... Edgar.... or something.....

MEH!!!!
MY BIRTHDAY SOON!!!!
IN 2WEEKS AAAAAND 4 days!!!!!
YAY!!!!

God, im tired!

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Damaging http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/15073791/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/15073791/ Mon, 15 Oct 2007 13:41:47 PDT Suffering because of my selfish vices
Im on the verge of self-detruction
Suffering because I gave up on myself
And everyone"

World War Me -- From First To Last

i am damaging
one of those "vicious circle" people

so happy happy happy.... on the surface

im getting sick of this fucking charade that is my life

why do i keep pretending?

oh yeah, thats right, i dont want to be SECTIONED!

living is a problem because everything dies....
and its true isnt it?
from the moment of conception, we're already dieing
death is the only fucking inevitable

and we're all just waiting....

Why do i hurt myself so much?

Do i deserve it?

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Update http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/15060806/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/15060806/ Sun, 14 Oct 2007 15:16:36 PDT

im only going for one, two sessions tops.
its just to put my mums mind at ease.

i am, of course, going to lie through my teeth.

im good at it, after all.

will i continue with my dirty little habit?

most likely. I just have to be more careful now.

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Secrets http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/15009375/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/15009375/ Thu, 11 Oct 2007 01:30:44 PDT
she saw the cuts...

they're not deep.... but she took a fit

she thinks im going to kill myself

she's going to take me to the docter

she wants me fucking sectioned

I DONT NEED HELP

THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH ME

shes gonna tell my dad, he comes back home next month.... on my birthday....

FUCK SAKES

hes also gonna take a fit

it wouldn't surprise me if shes searching my room right now.

WHY CAN'T SHE JUST LEAVE ME ALONE?!?!?!?!?!

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Fate can wait another day... http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/14988846/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/14988846/ Tue, 09 Oct 2007 17:16:53 PDT
i cant sleep though...

but he didnt call and we didnt break up

and he DID read it

PHILIP, SO FUCKING HELP ME, IF YOUR READING THIS THEN STOP! YOU KNOW WHAT MY THREATS ARE LIKE YOU NOSEY WEE SO-SO!!!!

i luvv him really.... honest....

but yes, philip. He is my muse at the moment. Yes, im a sad sad person. But i can't help it! However, there is some pretty dark poetry under my bed so... i should be ok.... I hope....!
philip is.... philip, quite simply.
he's lovely, he really is.

but yeah im in a good mood.
i thought i'd just up-date this because the love(?) situation has changed yet again!

and the saga continues.....

<3 butterfly kisses <3

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Fate is on the other line.... http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/14978756/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/14978756/ Mon, 08 Oct 2007 22:55:14 PDT
ive gone and fucked it up again. why can't i be happy?!

he doesn't see that this is for the best

he said he thinks he loves me...
how can he?!??!
im... unlovable
im such a bad person and he's..... not

hes what matters
i wish i could forget all this
i wish i could run away with him, be alone togther
hes what makes me wake in the mrning
hes my reason

i need to stop trying to be a better person....

do i love him?
i think so, but it doesn't matter
he should give up on me
im a lost cause

hes better off without me.....

so now i jut need to wait for his call...........

put love on hold,
fate is on the other line

and i hope hes not reading this, it seems to be a habit of his now.... or maybe i want him to read it?

love........?

]]> ~sazzy-muffin Happiness http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/14972278/ http://sazzy-muffin.deviantart.com/journal/14972278/ Mon, 08 Oct 2007 14:35:25 PDT
i cant be happy

i dont deserve him

hes a good person

im not
im not
im not

im a fucking bitch

what am i doing?

"love is not like anything- especcially a fucking knife"

so im goin to turn to the knife

]]> ~sazzy-muffin