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                <title>Do I get a "Welcome Back"?</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 06 Mar 2009 11:25:42 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Wow. It has really been quite, quite a long time since I have visited my page, or DevArt for that matter. I feel a little sad about that.<br /><br />Hi there, guys. I hope you haven't forgotten me. My life just hasn't permitted me much time for art lately. School has rendered me so busy and totally uncreative! I feel as though my talent (if there was any to begin with) is slowly fading away. I want to grasp my creativity once again and make art. Luckily this semester I got into a General Art class and I'm quite grateful for that. Art is calling to me again, and that is what galvanized me to return to DevArt. After such a long hiatus, the desire to create art has augmented to considerable amounts.<br /><br />I felt a little depressed for quite some time before I decided to come back. The thought of one my forms of expression slipping from my control and ceasing to exist made me feel extremely discouraged. I didn't want to come back here for a while. I was afraid. <br /><br />Lately I've been listening to a multitude of music, and I must say,it really made me want to draw again or indulge myself in the pleasures of photography. It felt good that my old artistic self was not lost or dead. <br /><br />I cannot promise that I will be posting much at a consistent pace, but I will try. I have created a couple of works, that of which I have yet to show you. There is one thing I can assure you, my art has changed a little. I guess you can say, I've found a new style of art. Something more along the lines of 'emo' <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/x/xd.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":XD:" title="XD" /> I'm not sure if I'll be posting any fan art any time soon. However, I think I'll be posting quite a bit of photography.<br /><br />I am sorry to burden you all into reading this and wasting your time. I just needed to let someone know that I am glad to be back.<br /><br /><br />~Until then, deariez<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~scarletnightmare</author>
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                <title>I'm a Sophomore Now</title>
                <link>http://scarletnightmare.deviantart.com/journal/18785622/</link>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 11 Jun 2008 13:59:36 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <sub><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; 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Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; 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                <author>~scarletnightmare</author>
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                <title>Thank You &lt;3</title>
                <link>http://scarletnightmare.deviantart.com/journal/16701287/</link>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 03 Feb 2008 05:24:27 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ It's definately time that about time that I changed this journal, my previous journal entry just made me depressed. I would love to give a special thanks the following people:<br /><br /><a href="http://phonyprophet.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/p/h/phonyprophet.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconphonyprophet:" title="phonyprophet"/></a><br /><a href="http://taiki00.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/t/a/taiki00.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":icontaiki00:" title="taiki00"/></a><br /><a href="http://stutterlite.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/s/t/stutterlite.jpg" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconstutterlite:" title="stutterlite"/></a><br /><a href="http://seirenth.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/s/e/seirenth.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconseirenth:" title="seirenth"/></a><br /><br />and all the people who have cared enough to read my other journal entry. You guys are very special and I love you guys for actually caring <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/blushes.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":blushes:" title="Blush" /> I actually don't know how to express my gratitude, you guys have no idea how wonderful you are. Hopefully a simple and heartfelt <b><u>Thank You</u></b> is enough. <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /><br /><br /><br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" />... ]]></description>
                <author>~scarletnightmare</author>
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                <title>Dead...</title>
                <link>http://scarletnightmare.deviantart.com/journal/16519638/</link>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 22 Jan 2008 11:17:50 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ My grandmother died today...<br /><br />I came home from school with a headache and decided to sleep. My mother woke me up with bad news. She told me that my grandmother died. It was shocking and totally uncalled for. There was nothing else that I could do but reply with a 'What??!' and look of regret. She left and closed the door after. I thought to myself, 'But I haven't even graduated highschool yet...' Meaning, she died before I could turn 18 (which is the coming of age and most important age where I come from) I buried my head under my pillow and actually started to cry, I didn't want to cry, but I did. She was a diabetic and any injuries would be severe.I knew she was in the hospital; she was there for about 6 days, but never had I expected her to die. I feel so guilty and I regret not taking advantage of the time my grandma and I spent together. I miss her dearly.<br /><br />I didn't know what to do when my mother told me that she was going to go to the airport and fly there to attend the funeral with dad. They might leave this thursday, but they have to book their flights tomorrow. My mom's currently packing some essential things while my dad's arranging everything. They will leave for at most a week, so that means their leaving me for a week. I have no idea how I will survive because I can't cook, iron, or even use the stupid washing machine....<br /><br />I love my grandmother. Even if there was a language barrier keeping us apart, she always tried to speak in english. She was caring and always thought of others before herself. I may not have been very close to her in this life, but hopefully I will get to see her in the next life. <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /><br /><br />clubs I'm in <br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" alt=":bulletred:" title="Bullet; Red" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/bulletred.gif" width="10" height="10" al... ]]></description>
                <author>~scarletnightmare</author>
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                <title>The longest survey-quiz-thingy..ever XD</title>
                <link>http://scarletnightmare.deviantart.com/journal/16340881/</link>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 10 Jan 2008 08:43:42 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <sub>Tagged again! This time, by <a href="http://seirenth.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/s/e/seirenth.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconseirenth:" title="seirenth"/></a><br />
<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/m/mwahaha.gif" width="29" height="15" alt=":evillaugh:" title="EVIL Laughter!" /> I dare you all to read every single word posted in this journal <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/x/xd.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":XD:" title="XD" /><br />
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Real name: Sheila Renei Pangilinan Gomez<br />
Age: 15 <br />
Height: 5'4<br />
Natural hair color: Dark brown<br />
Eye color: Like coffee beans <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/x/xd.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":XD:" title="XD" /><br />
Skin color: Quite Fair<br />
Glasses/contacts?: Glasses are the smex~~!<br />
Piercings: Yes<br />
Tattoos: None yet<br />
Braces: I'm not sure, I'm getting them in the near future.<br />
Characteristics: Inwardly psychotic<br />
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FAVOURITES<br />
Color: Red, Green, Orange and Black<br />
Band: Metallica (old), Arch Enemy, Iron Maiden, Incubus, Jimmy Eat World, UVERworld, Nightmare, Abingdon Boys School, Asian Kung-fu Generation<br />
Video game: God of War <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/x/xd.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":XD:" title="XD" /><br />
Movie: Edward Scissorhands, FFVII-Advent Children, Pirates of the Caribbean  <br />
Book: Misery-Stephen King<br />
Food: Cheese? <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/l/lmao.gif" width="19" height="21" alt=":lmao:" title="Laughing my ass off!" /><br />
Drinks: Soda<br />
Game on a cell phone: Elfen Chronicles...I think<br />
CD: All-star Sessions-Roadrunner United<br />
Scent: Honeysuckle, Sakura, minty scents <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/animesweat.gif" width="19" height="19" alt="^^;" title="Sweating a little..." /><br />
Animals: Leopards, dogs, lion, panther, cheetah<br />
Comic books: None...<br />
Comics: Funny-suspenseful-scary-crack-induced idiotic ones<br />
Manga: Death Note, Naruto, Gothic, Doujinshi <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/w/wink.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=";)" title=";) (Wink)" /> Not much access to manga here <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/c/crying.gif" width="20" height="17" alt=":crying:" title="Crying" /><br />
Cereal: Choco Puffs...I swear there's nothing wrong with me <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/x/xd.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":XD:" title="XD" /><br />
Website: None that is of importance<br />
Cartoon: Ed, Edd and Eddy, Cow and Chicken<br />
Anime: Death Note, Bleach, Naruto, Samurai Champloo, Jigoku Shoujo, Katekyo Hitman Reborn!, DMC, Saiyuki and Paradise Kiss<br />
DO YOU..<br />
Play an instrument?: Yes, Guitar (electric, acoustic and classical. been playing since I was eight)<br />
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?: I don't like TV that much, but whenever I do watch, I'm usually watching documentaries and the like. You know, Nat. Geo, Animal Planet, Discovery etc. I do not find many shows on television to be of any significance anymore -_- They're just the same, only represented in different ways. Alot of TV channels that I've seen is very trvial and shallow.<br />
Like to sing?: Yes.<br />
Have a job?: Student? I mean, it's a job too, is it not?<br />
Have a cell phone?: Yeah, and Sony Erricson s700i<br />
Like to play sports?: Yeah, sometimes<br />
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Nope<br />
Have a crush on someone?: Yeah, but not anyone in my school.<br />
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?: Asia <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/x/xd.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":XD:" title="XD" /><br />
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?: No, I don't watch TV often anyways.<br />
Have any special talents/skills?: Drawing, guitar, unintentionally breaking people's hearts <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/t/tears.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":tears:" title="Tears" /><br />
I also have a special skill with threatening annoying people <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/biggrin.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":D" title=":D (Big Grin)" /><br />
Exercise daily?: Sure?<br />
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CAN YOU..<br />
Sing the alphabet backwards?: Not really...<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/animesweat.gif" width="19" height="19" alt="^^;" title="Sweating a little..." /><br />
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes? Yes, it's really easy! *stands on tippy toes* see?!?!<br />
Speak any other languages?: Yes, 2 dialects of Filipino, Spanish(not one of my native langs), totally fluent English, some Japanese<br />
Go a day without food?: Yes, I think.<br />
Remember your dreams: I never remember the entertaining dreams.<br />
Read music, not just tabs?: Yeah<br />
Roll your tongue?: Yup <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/letters/=p.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":P" title=":P (Lick)" /> Damn! They need a :rolltongue: icon here...<br />... ]]></description>
                <author>~scarletnightmare</author>
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                <title>Tagged by Derangedlunatic XD</title>
                <link>http://scarletnightmare.deviantart.com/journal/16201524/</link>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 01 Jan 2008 07:25:27 PST</pubDate>
                
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                <author>~scarletnightmare</author>
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                <title>DEATH NOTE QUESTION</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 23 Dec 2007 08:30:14 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Just to start this journal entry off<br />
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<b>"There is nothing good or bad, but thinking makes it so...."</b><br />
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Tell me the truth...<br />
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If you were to aquire the Death Note (by accident or not), would you rid the world of killers and criminals at your own will? Why or why not? What is your opinion on Light's 'justice mentality'? Would you be on his side or L's?<br />
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<u>My Opinion</u><br />
<i>My thoughts, they always contradict eachother...So I'd be cheering for Kira and also cheering for L simultaneously.</i><br />
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BE PREPARED FOR A REALLY CONFUSING RANT...<br />
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If I were to aquire the Death Note, I believe I would certainly be tempted to try it on people who murder others. But of course, that would also make me one of the killers. A murderer of murderers. This relates back to the DN manga where Light and Ryuk are having a talk about the extermination of criminals, but then Ryuk had stated that Light would be the only bastard left if he were to eradicate them. On the other hand, ruthless and unremorseful murderers end up going to the execution room anyway so why should I sympathize with them? In all honesty, I would let Kira do so what he will without hesitation. But then again, Kira's thinking is immature. To kill because they are 'bad' people. (Now I feel like L for some reason..)<br />
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Killers and criminals, with light or severe violations, should be judged justly. I mean, doesn't the word justice have 'just' in it? It isn't our right to decide who lives and who dies, but what is JUSTICE anyways? The thing that decides whether something is good or bad? There is no good or bad in my opinion because everything is percieved in various standpoints. Doesn't justice also kill people? Who says the law decides who dies? Who decides to take our lives anyway? Even some believe in a god, why would he want to kill us off if we did believe in him? So many questions, so many answers, eh?<br />
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Light's mentality on the killing of criminals sounds like something everyone would subconciously be having at the back of their minds. I guess Light represents an entity that people (concious or subconciously) wish existed. In a way, he is a scapegoat or one who is willing to take the blame. The one who will stand out among many. Many people are too afraid to be in his position even if they desire to rid the world of evil people, and if ever asked if it was bad to kill criminals, they would most certainly answer with a 'yes, it is bad.' So Light signifies the devil in all of us.<br />
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clubs I'm in <br />
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                <title>Yays! An Anime Survey!</title>
                <link>http://scarletnightmare.deviantart.com/journal/15232865/</link>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 26 Oct 2007 17:28:16 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <u>............................................................................................................</u><br />
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Favorite Anime: Death Note<br />
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Disliked Anime:Akagi because the art was really, really, really, really, really, really, really unusual.<br />
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Favorite anime boy:L from Death Note<br />
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Favorite anime girl:Yoruichi from Bleach<br />
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Favorite anime song:Broken Wings which is the OST of Trinity Blood<br />
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Favorite weapon:Katana<br />
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Anime name you like to go by: Ren (that's my actually nickname though)<br />
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Character you feel sympathy for<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/e/eek.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":O" title=":O (Eek)" />rihime from Bleach because there are people who think she's really weak, but she actually isn't. Look, she even has Aizen interested in her powers, how's that weak??!? eh???<br />
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Character that acts like you:I actually do not know for certain, but I believe I usually act like Hinata around people -_- <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/d/doh.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":doh:" title="Doh!" /><br />
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Character(s) that looks like you:Mikami Teru, Karin and Konan <br />
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Character that would make a good brother:Yamamoto from Katekyo Hitman Reborn!<br />
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Character that would make a good sister:Rukia from Bleach<br />
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Character that would make a good father:Jushiro Ukitake<br />
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Character that would make a good mother:Rangiku Matsumoto!<br />
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If you could be a anime chara who would it be? I would be Mikami Teru<br />
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Character you wish to kill:Hmm, it's hard to decide. I can't think of one really.<br />
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Which language would you speak in:Japanese<br />
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Where would you live:Kyoto, Japan<br />
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Favorite Mini Chi character: I-pin from Reborn!<br />
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Favorite anime toy character: wtf??<br />
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Sum up one personalility word for yourself: Obesessed<br />
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Favorite evil anime character<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/biggrin.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":D" title=":D (Big Grin)" />ietrich Von Lohengrin, Isaak and Cain which are all from Trinity Blood<br />
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Collect Anime posters(y/n):YESH!<br />
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Collect anime CD's(y/n):YESH!<br />
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Collect anime toys(y/n):a few <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/smile.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":)" title=":) (Smile)" /><br />
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What do you like(Slapstick/Comedy, Science Fiction , Drama, Romance, Action/Adventure , Giant Mecha ,Swords and Samurai , Cute and Cuddly , Historical , Anime based on Video Games ) Choose one or two:<br />
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i like swords and samurai and science fiction.<br />
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indicate if you prefer lots of blood and violence or not(y/n):<br />
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oh you have no idea...the answer is YES!<br />
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hmm...I really should change my layout hehe...*thinks of kewl, new boring layout*<br />
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<b>clubs I'm in</b><br />
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seme<br />
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                <title>Random Survey</title>
                <link>http://scarletnightmare.deviantart.com/journal/15138132/</link>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 20 Oct 2007 03:30:04 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ THIS IS A REALLY RANDOM SURVEY I TOOK. READ IT, MAYBE YOU'LL LEARN SOMETHING ABOUT ME <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/smile.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":)" title=":) (Smile)" /><br />
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1 - When was the last time you cried? About 2 weeks ago <br />
2 - Have you ever faked sick? I've attempted and failed miserably <br />
3 - What was the last lie you said? "Yeah, I'm doing my homework" <br />
4 - Have you ever cried during a movie? Yeah, but only when the villains died. <br />
5 - Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off of? I don't know, that person's non-existant <br />
6 - Have you ever danced in the rain? No, I get sick. <br />
7 - Have you ever been drunk? No, not yet. <br />
8 - Have you ever tried tried drugs? No, I think they're sad excuses to make people feel better. <br />
9 - Do you smoke? No, smoking is nasty <br />
10 - What's the farthest you've ever gone on a dare? Haha...I don't think it's ever worth the risks, so, not very far. <br />
11 - What is your full name? ããããã­ãããã <br />
12 - What is your blood-type? A+ <br />
13 - Have you ever been in a car accident? No <br />
14 - How old were you when you recieved your first kiss? I haven't recieved my first kiss, this year it might be with a CPR dummy -_-  <br />
15 - Who was your first kiss? Read the answer above, please <br />
16 - Have you ever had an online relationship? Psh, no. <br />
17 - Have you ever had phone-sex? No, I don't want to get hearing AIDS...(wow, I'm so lame) <br />
18 - Have you ever been rejected by a crush? Ha, I don't have one. <br />
19 - What is your favourite sport to play? Tennis <br />
20 - Have you ever made a prank phone call? Yeah <br />
21 - Have you ever said Have I ever said what? <br />
22 - What's your favourite childhood memory? Getting my first cake <br />
23 - Is there anything that you have done that you regret? I have a 10 page list in my head <br />
24 - What do you want to be when you grow up? Psychologist/artist <br />
25 - What is your political persuassion? To vote for leaders who won't screw up the country. <br />
26 - Have you ever had cybersex? I don't think there's a point to it O.o <br />
27 - Do you believe in g-d? What's with the g-d? If it's mean to say God then, yes I believe it him. <br />
28 - Do you believe in love at first sight? Not really. <br />
29 - Do you believe in karma? Yes <br />
30 - Who was your first crush? I don't believe I should say my infatuations, why does everyone care about who likes who anyways? <br />
31 - Who do yo uhave a crush on? Bloody hell, shut up already! <br />
32 - How would you describe yourself? Caring, fragile, artistic, understanding and laid back <br />
33 - What are you afraid of? Being alone <br />
34 - Are you religious? Not really <br />
35 - What does your screen name mean? Rose Cross <br />
36 - What person do you trust the most? ^__^ I think that person knows who they are. <br />
37 - Who was your first boyfriend/girlfriend? Never had one, and why does that matter? <br />
38 - What is the best compliment you have ever recieved? Something about being hot and smart <br />
39 - What is the meanest thing anyone has said about you? I don't know, I blank out because I don't want to hear them.  <br />
40 - What is the longest crush/relationship you have had? Don't make me kill you with a spork. <br />
41 - What is your greatest strength? Being open-minded <br />
42 - What is your greatest weakness? Love <br />
43 - What is your perfect pizza? Really cheeeeeesy <br />
44 - What is your first thought when waking up in the morning? Anime...anime...anime...anime..L...anime...L..homework..homework...homework...cheese..homework <br />
45 - What is your first thought before you go to bed? Anime..L...anime...L...L..L...L with Raito going to bed...L...^_^ <br />
46 - What college do you want to go to? An Art College <br />
47 - Do you get along with your family? Usually <br />
48 - Do you play any instruments? Yes. The piano and guitar. <br />
49 - What kind of music do you like? Metal, rock, anime soundtracks.. <br />
50 - Do you think you're attractive? A little, but not to the narcissistic extent. I do like my eyes alot though, but that's basically it. <br />
51 - Would you ever get a tattoo? Yes, that means I'm commited to art <br />
52 - How many piercings do you have? Only 2 <br />
53 - Who makes you laugh? My friends and great anime and cartoon characters. <br />
54 - Who would you want to be tied to for 24hours? L <br />
55 - Have you ever seen a dead body? Yes <br />
56 - Do you have a celebrity crush? Nope, I don't pay attention to celbrities. Most of them are messed up anyways. <br />
57 - What is one thing scientists should invent? Portable Manga Reader <br />
58 - Have you ever broken a bone? No, but I've fractured it. <br />
59 - What happens after you die? I got to Yaoi Land <br />
60 - Do you watch or read the news? Not very often, I don't like TV. Besides, all the news I hear is ab... ]]></description>
                <author>~scarletnightmare</author>
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                <title>Bleh..</title>
                <link>http://scarletnightmare.deviantart.com/journal/15025168/</link>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 12 Oct 2007 06:20:27 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hmm... Let's see. I am making this journal entry for no apparent reason, and the person who is writing this has become a person who is supposedly meant to do homework, but still consecutively finds their way to the damn computer seat <u>everyday</u><br />
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It's funny really, I always have to ask myself. <i>Why do you always end up there at the end of the day?</i> Well, to be blunt, I really have no reasonable clue. I should make a procrastinator's club....-_- <br />
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I'm consistently logging on to DA even if I don't mean to. Oh well, I'm just happy that I have a <i>little</i> break from school! <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/x/xd.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":XD:" title="XD" /><br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~scarletnightmare</author>
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                <title>Being a teenager....</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 02 Oct 2007 10:54:50 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ This week has been extremely...unbelievably...horribly stressful and difficult. I've had so many projects, tests, quizzes and family problems that I'm on the verge of going crazy. I don't know how to deal with it. I think I failed the Integrated Chemistry and Physics test, damnit..<br />
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I just had a fight with my dad, my mom seems to be taking his side all the time, then again I think I deserve it. Lately it's been really hard to get along with my own parents, it's like the don't even know me anymore. Is this just another phase? I don't know. My dad and I aren't getting along well, I've only said 3 words to him today. When he did talk to me, he was scolding at the same time. Should I feel like a mistake? shit, I'm sounding so emo -_-<br />
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Anyways, I must admit that everything's my fault because I sound so ungrateful to them even if I don't mean to...I think it's just all the stress that's getting to my head. It is my first time in highschool by the way. In all honesty, I am probably one of the sweetest people you'll ever meet, if you get the chance, and I'm also very giving. I'm an easy going person, very friendly and funny. Yet...I still can't get along well with my parents. Why is that? <br />
<br />
Right now, I think my dad regrets ever raising me..maybe my mom too. Everytime they get mad, I can't help but just to walk away and hurt myself more than they have hurt me. No, I don't cut. What I meant by that is just that I tend to think of things that make me extremely depressed and I start implying things, like whether I even deserve this life of luxury because there are millions out there who aren't very fortunate. I am thankful that I have my parents, I'm EXTREMELY THANKFUL. I do love them....but sometimes it's like they want me dead...then again, that's my fault too.<br />
<br />
At school, I'm never mad, or angry at myself or my parents because the only time when I'm truly happy is when I'm with my friends. Kinda like yesterday, I was really angry at myself..and when I read something <a href="http://emo-insomniac.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/e/m/emo-insomniac.gif" width="50" height="50" alt=":iconemo-insomniac:" title="emo-insomniac"/></a> commented on my deviations, I subconciously smiled. I had realized I was genuinely smiling the whole time while reading her comment after returning to go back to my room. I guess this is the reason why she's very special to me. <br />
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Phew, I'm quite glad I could get that out of the way for now. Although I know I'll still be thinking about it.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Characters come to life??</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 06 Sep 2007 02:09:43 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ WARNING! THIS WILL BE A REALLY STUPID JOURNAL ENTRY ^__^<br />
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Have you ever felt like you wanted a character/some characters to come to life (as in live and breath just like you) in a manga or anime? I've been thinking about this for a long time, but I don't know why though ^__^<br />
<br />
here's my list<br />
<br />
L-death note<br />
Light-death note<br />
Oh hell, all the characters from death note...let's even throw in the shinigami<br />
<br />
Zaraki-bleach<br />
Ichigo-bleach<br />
Ishida-bleach<br />
Renji-bleach<br />
Hisagi-bleach<br />
Yoruichi-bleach<br />
..wow, i'm listing alot..<br />
<br />
Ishida-bleach<br />
Gin-bleach (i doubt anyone can keep a fox face for long in the real wold, cuz in anime...anything can happen)<br />
Ulquiora-bleach<br />
Grimmjow-bleach<br />
Yachiru-bleach<br />
why don't i just put EVERYONE from bleach, eh? except for Aizen...he's an ass, but I can't really hate him. (he has his own sensual undertones i suppose <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/x/xd.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":XD:" title="XD" />)<br />
<br />
<br />
Itachi-naruto<br />
Naruto-naruto <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/x/xd.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":XD:" title="XD" /><br />
Sasuke-naruto<br />
Deidara-naruto<br />
too many to name...<br />
<br />
Chika Akatsuki-zombie loan ^_^<br />
<br />
<br />
well, that's all, folks!<br />
<br />
gimme a list!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~scarletnightmare</author>
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                <title>School!</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 29 Aug 2007 12:28:00 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Okay, school is about to start in a few weeks and I'm pretty stressed out about it. My tablet hasn't arrived yet, and it feels like I've been waiting for it for about a year...(it's only been about a month and a half really...)<br />
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It's my first time going to high school, I'll be at the bottom again!(i'm always on the bottom...danah, you understand this of course) I suppose the teachers will be meaner, but how am I supposed to know? I'm afraid of too much responsibility, even though I do get good grades. I guess it's time for me to grow up...sometimes I wish I could be a middle schooler forever.<br />
<br />
I would like to ask...<br />
<br />
what are advantages of being in high school...anyone wanna answer? <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/animesweat.gif" width="19" height="19" alt="^^;" title="Sweating a little..." /><br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~scarletnightmare</author>
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                <title>leaving</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 16 Jun 2007 03:52:22 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ yay..i'm leaving on the 22nd of june...i'm so happy and i'm gonna get a tablet in philippines whoooo!!! i'm so happy about that...but yeah i'm still also sad the my friends are leaving forever *cries*.....well, good thing i have internet ^_^..<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~scarletnightmare</author>
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                <title>SUMMER VACATION!!!</title>
                <link>http://scarletnightmare.deviantart.com/journal/13273684/</link>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 09 Jun 2007 04:41:55 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ whoo...it's the last week of school here...but also report cards are coming..eeek.... i'm so flippin scared O.o <br />
<br />
Anyways..i'm just really happy that school's gonna be over and we move to the next building, the flipside of this is that 12 people are leaving a it sucks extremely bad. No! I hate the end of the year, yet I like it at the same time.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~scarletnightmare</author>
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                <title>Random</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 22 May 2007 10:43:56 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hi...the final exams are coming up...whoopee! (being sarcastic)....I'm procrastinating alot...and i seriously just want to graduate from school already! Luckilly, i'll go on vacation this summer back to Asia, baby! Man, i love it there.<br />
<br />
My RANTS<br />
<br />
-too lazy to write fanfictions<br />
-i need new shoes...I WANT MY NEW VANS!<br />
-i have an artist's block right now<br />
-i lost my applications and i'm too lazy to re-install them<br />
-FINAL EXAMS<br />
-i feel like shit...<br />
-people keep calling me emo<br />
-someone checked my wrists in spanish class<br />
-I'm lazy<br />
-i hate my science teacher, he gave me an 88.7% on my project and i worked on it for hours. <br />
-i need to find something to wear for the graduation party<br />
-my mom's forcing me to wear some dress<br />
-i need to finish death note, but still too lazy.<br />
-.....i need someone to talk to<br />
-i hate my myspace<br />
<br />
okay..done! <br />
<br />
feel free to rant about anything in this journal entry! you can rant about ANYTHING...really. ^_^ just don't hurt people's feelings okay?<br />
<br />
~ja ne!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~scarletnightmare</author>
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                <title>Random</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 22 May 2007 10:43:53 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hi...the final exams are coming up...whoopee! (being sarcastic)....I'm procrastinating alot...and i seriously just want to graduate from school already! Luckilly, i'll go on vacation this summer back to Asia, baby! Man, i love it there.<br />
<br />
My RANTS<br />
<br />
-too lazy to write fanfictions<br />
-i need new shoes...I WANT MY NEW VANS!<br />
-i have an artist's block right now<br />
-i lost my applications and i'm too lazy to re-install them<br />
-FINAL EXAMS<br />
-i feel like shit...<br />
-people keep calling me emo<br />
-someone checked my wrists in spanish class<br />
-I'm lazy<br />
-i hate my science teacher, he gave me an 88.7% on my project and i worked on it for hours. <br />
-i need to find something to wear for the graduation party<br />
-my mom's forcing me to wear some dress<br />
-i need to finish death note, but still too lazy.<br />
-.....i need someone to talk to<br />
-i hate my myspace<br />
<br />
okay..done! <br />
<br />
feel free to rant about anything in this journal entry! you can rant about ANYTHING...really. ^_^ just don't hurt people's feelings okay?<br />
<br />
~ja ne!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~scarletnightmare</author>
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                <title>Back From Thailand...</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 04 Feb 2007 05:29:16 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well, I'm back and I really enjoyed the trip because I think it's one of the best experiences that I've ever had...yes, it was that awesome.<br />
<br />
The week went by so fast, I mean, it all felt like a dream. I woke up this morning in my bed, not the cabin beds. I still have jet lag. I'm back in the place that lack trees and I'm no longer surrounded by green trees. Only buildings and dry air. Damn it, I miss it there.<br />
<br />
Since I'm asian myself I felt much more at home there....but here, I feel misplaced. God, I don't like it here anymore.<br />
<br />
There's too much that I miss that it's hard to explain.<br />
<br />
It felt too much like a dream..that's all I have to say.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~scarletnightmare</author>
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                <title>School</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 17 Jan 2007 05:28:06 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Ahhh!! School is so damn stressful!! But I'm glad I got those stupid projects done...finally....now, all I have to worry about is presenting one of them....<br />
<br />
anyways, enough about school.....I can't wait till I get to Thailand for the school trip...I just wanna get away from this "sandbox" of a country that I live in....It's not like I'm saying Qatar is ugly, I love the sandunes but...sometimes I wish I could just get away from school, the heat, sand, and just hang out with my friends in a diffrent country.....<br />
<br />
*random moment* yay! i got time to write the next chapter of my fanfic!!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~scarletnightmare</author>
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                <title>Anime</title>
                <link>http://scarletnightmare.deviantart.com/journal/11047621/</link>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 13 Dec 2006 05:29:30 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ can anyone suggest a good anime for me to watch?<br />
<br />
here's a list that i've been watching...<br />
<br />
naruto<br />
bleach<br />
samurai champloo<br />
loveless<br />
death note<br />
DNangel<br />
ouran high host club<br />
yu yu hakusho<br />
gravitation<br />
gakuen heaven<br />
mirage of blaze<br />
<br />
and..........can you guys tell me if there are other cool anime series?<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~scarletnightmare</author>
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                <title>HECK YEAH!!!</title>
                <link>http://scarletnightmare.deviantart.com/journal/10979642/</link>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 07 Dec 2006 03:52:31 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ yesh! i finally i can view my artwork!!! WOOHOOO!!!!!!!!!!! im so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~scarletnightmare</author>
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                <title>AHH! WTF</title>
                <link>http://scarletnightmare.deviantart.com/journal/10966342/</link>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 05 Dec 2006 21:46:22 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ...okay....the people who provide internet my country are going out of control, they blocking all artwork here on DA even it has no mature content in it! WTF!!!!!?!?!?..............i am really pissed off, and i can't get to my friggin art! maybe they might unblock it,<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/f/fingerscrossed.gif" width="33" height="15" alt=":fingerscrossed:" title="I've got my fingers crossed." />   but it's a 3 percent chance that they would listen to other peoples' complaints. It's really unfair to other deviants in the country, it sucks alot.......now i can't view any of my art comments, i feel so homicidal....<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/c/censored.gif" width="34" height="15" alt=":censored:" title="Censored" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/r/rage.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":rage:" title="Rage" /><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/angered.gif" width="21" height="21" alt=":angered:" title="Angered" /><br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~scarletnightmare</author>
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                <title>YAY!</title>
                <link>http://scarletnightmare.deviantart.com/journal/10918949/</link>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 01 Dec 2006 21:52:50 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ woohoo! i finally got me winter break from school.....i won't have to worry about studing....yet...so im gonna have lots of time for DA and fanfiction, not to mention that i'm working on 2 art pieces at the same time...it's gonna take me a while to color...with a mouse.....<br />
<br />
anyways...yeah that's all i needed to say.. and visit my fanfiction account if you like yaoi...lol...<br />
<br />
<a href="http://www.fanfiction.net/~undeadmetalhead">[link]</a><br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~scarletnightmare</author>
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                <title>Devious Journal Entry</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 29 Nov 2006 11:06:44 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <a href="http://www.fanfiction.net/~undeadmetalhead">[link]</a><br />
<br />
visit this if you like yaoi...read my stuff.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~scarletnightmare</author>
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