http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:scarletwish&section=today deviantART RSS for by:scarletwish en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 25 Nov 2009 15:07:39 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://scarletwish.deviantart.com/journal/23658502/ http://scarletwish.deviantart.com/journal/23658502/ Thu, 12 Mar 2009 12:05:57 PDT I am failing at all three of my main lifelong struggles; to be more sociable, to paint more, to write more. Everytime I feel I have them nailed down, I start to let myself go, the next thing I know I am standing here, with everyone complaining I've retreated into dissapearance and heaps of unfinished sketches collecting dust and cat hair, and feathers. Ah, I now have an Owl, her name is Merlina, she is a burrowing owl so she really likes to hide underneath furniture and make up burrows in between my shoe's boxes and stuff. She doesn't fly much, although she's a baby I read on the internet they are mosty earth bound little creatures, and never do fly that much. Vlad my Hawk likes to ignore her and do nice displays of flying mastery, but she's much more cuddly, she falls asleep on my lap and allows me to caress her back.

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]]> ~scarletwish http://scarletwish.deviantart.com/journal/21809312/ http://scarletwish.deviantart.com/journal/21809312/ Thu, 04 Dec 2008 01:01:39 PST
People, they are going kinda mad all around, yet life is well and moving surprisingly on the sunny side, I should take heed I either did something right or it's one of those signs and portents of.. say the apocalypse which I incidentally found out means "lifting of the veil" and it stuck me as a particularly beautiful metaphor.
We are at the end of out Schoolar year in my university -thanked be the fates- and so summer ensues, my lilies bloomed a few days ago and all over my jasmine plant trees turn breathing into a pleasure.
Right now I don't feel I should be too concerned by the ravings of the mad mean people that seem to be going bananas lately and acting in a menacing manner...thy don't deserve that much attention after all.
As for the bloody and bruised veil of this world, suffering and pain, I am just glad I can sometimes get a breath of joy and warm sunlit happy days, it's been such a long dark season -I need out, We are such stuff As dreams are made on, are we not ?



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]]> ~scarletwish http://scarletwish.deviantart.com/journal/18792806/ http://scarletwish.deviantart.com/journal/18792806/ Wed, 11 Jun 2008 21:49:11 PDT I've been very much engaged with college stuff, we did some
metallic outfits, and now we are insanely busy with the crafting
of our own busts. I'm doing mine as Medusa.
Not as easy as I first thought, but none the less very entertaining.
I finally got arround uploading some pictures of my vulture,
still I have to take better pictures since the current ones do not
make me that happy.


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]]> ~scarletwish http://scarletwish.deviantart.com/journal/14474857/ http://scarletwish.deviantart.com/journal/14474857/ Mon, 03 Sep 2007 16:04:41 PDT about one's opinion..

I have not quite unpacked yet, because I am great at procrastinating
but also because I arrived not long ago, but already I get tiresome gossip
trailing behind me like a pack of hungry dogs.
I guess there is some people who need to get out, get a lover or two and
quit telling things about me to people they probably wish will hate me and who
ultimately will come and tell me.

I am so tired of being forced to put up with people who pretend they are avant garde and their prudish bullshit.

I mean, what I do in my private life and who I do it with can't be that interesting
can it ? I understand a comment or two, but this is pretty much out of hand.
I mean I lived a year abroad, came back a month and a half ago and there is already
people carrying gossip to Argentina ..... a neighboring country !
What on earth is going on ??



Whatever. Sorry for ranting.



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]]> ~scarletwish http://scarletwish.deviantart.com/journal/14082404/ http://scarletwish.deviantart.com/journal/14082404/ Wed, 08 Aug 2007 22:29:55 PDT
Instead I am immensely unhappy, my first pet died.
I had her for 18 years, ever since I was so small I could barely carry a tiny kitten.
I am forever brokenhearted.
Life keeps doing the most horrible things, it takes away all I've ever loved, I have so little left now it will run out of things to take away from me pretty soon. Perhaps that is something of an upside to this.
It hurts, it never stops, I have no rest.


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]]> ~scarletwish http://scarletwish.deviantart.com/journal/13610512/ http://scarletwish.deviantart.com/journal/13610512/ Wed, 04 Jul 2007 17:26:42 PDT On the positive side of things,I have real Internet again, no censure, no screening, no nonsense.
I have to find a scanner or get around taking pictures of my work here, but I have already uploaded the book cover I did before going away last year. I liked it back then but now I am not so sure anymore
Also all things went well in the giving away of the cat I rescued, I found a decent owner and save for all the tragic sentimentality of parting with the kitten it was alright.
I don't quite know where is my mind and I feel somewhat apprehensive about being back in my life, still I am quite content at the moment.

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]]> ~scarletwish http://scarletwish.deviantart.com/journal/13340978/ http://scarletwish.deviantart.com/journal/13340978/ Thu, 14 Jun 2007 10:06:22 PDT for the furry creature, but I mill anxious and constantly about what if that fails
in the last minute .. I have no rest. It is less than a week now and I'll be flying back
I am a running, I am a coming and entirely overcome with paralysis for all things
that can go wrong still.

I have decided to do some siamese twins project, which adds to the long list of things I
want to start working on. On the positive side when I get home I'll upload stuff I have
been meaning to put up here but had not the chance.
For instance a cover for a book called Tales of Love of Madness and Death by Quiroga
(fantastic book by the way), an unfinished series of portraits after Lautreamont's "octopus with a silken gaze" that at the time I felt quite happy with, and also some pictures of the dolls I made.

Maybe I'll get to write again before I get home, but then nothing is certain so in case I
don't :I hope you all have a great time while I'm away !!


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]]> ~scarletwish http://scarletwish.deviantart.com/journal/13225206/ http://scarletwish.deviantart.com/journal/13225206/ Tue, 05 Jun 2007 08:39:22 PDT Allthough 50 hours worth of flight don't provoke me to instant cheer I miss my home and family, and I miss my cats and my friends and I will at least for a while be quite happy to be back. Of course I am already trying to have a plan as to where will I go next, I have a paralysing fear of stability. I need to be getting away, always to leave. Sounds good but it's rather conflictive and it also alienates me from my loved ones, and as much as I need to get away from my life I need to feel loved, both currents tearing me appart I forever miss half of my heart.

Now that I have bemused everyone with my rant, I'll move to more practical issues, I have a kitten that I found out in the rain a month and a half ago, I have given him medicines and fed him and got him toys and a huge Totoro plush he likes to sleep in.
I love him to bits
Still customs requires 3 months of quarantine for a cat to be passed through which means I cannot take him with me
If you, or anyone you know happens to live in Beijing and can be a decent and loving
cat owner, please let me know and I'll be happy to meet you.
He's a sweet and extremely playful, black, long haired monster


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]]> ~scarletwish http://scarletwish.deviantart.com/journal/13137195/ http://scarletwish.deviantart.com/journal/13137195/ Tue, 29 May 2007 11:14:35 PDT Funny how I don't remember having much stuff, but now that I must cage it and move it that assumption is proven fallacious.

I had such a terrible mood today I probably would have melted the ground I walked on,
if only of course life were half as poetic as art would have us believe.

I don't know how to properly use Myspace, I normally post my writing there
and everyone has fancy looking profiles and it is making me mad not to
know how. So visit me there and if you know how make it look pretty
please let me know My myspace

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]]> ~scarletwish http://scarletwish.deviantart.com/journal/13001393/ http://scarletwish.deviantart.com/journal/13001393/ Fri, 18 May 2007 13:28:32 PDT
Still I have to gather some drive to finish the painting I started a month ago with jellyfish but when I think about underwater for some reason I get a faint nausea that scares me off the whole thing. I've always got happy enthusiastic feelings from underwater themes and monsters...I want this nausea nonsense to go away.
To make myself happy while I will this paralysis away I got some very pretty things in the antique market at PanJiaYuan and some Terry Pratchett books. How come I never stumbled on his writing before ? It would appear he is ridiculously famous yet I managed to miss him entirely, quite a shame since he's not only fantastic but hilariously clever.

I just read 's ordeal about an art stealing bastard who's been lurking on DA [link] and seemingly getting away with it

Also must get around scraping some old stuff in my gallery, after I sleep of course.

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]]> ~scarletwish http://scarletwish.deviantart.com/journal/12916829/ http://scarletwish.deviantart.com/journal/12916829/ Thu, 10 May 2007 22:22:56 PDT is still existing in yesterday while everyone knows we are entering the afternoon of the 11th day of may ) is my birthday, I got a brilliant book on William Waterhouse ( this being the present that I brought me myself ), the complete illustrated works of Lewis Carrol and a book on Ukiyo e (though my dad sent me this one a month ago, it was due for today)

My birthday always makes me uncomfortable, it is rather complicated to dwell on the happy side of getting older but is not that in itself that drags me into the gutter most of the time. They make me so horribly insecure, I am forever worrying if things are going well, if everyone is having a good time. Only perfect birthdays make me happy, but how often one finds oneself wrapped up in a perfect birthday ? so I mostly choose not to do anything, and worry instead about people remembering or not. I never escape madness. Knowing how vulnerable and inadequate today will make me feel only makes things madder, I am already angry with myself, I am smarter than this. Or at least I could be suffering more existentially, I could very well do with only having to deal with the morose, the horrors of death, love lost and regret.

Like Pessoa said, and said it better, a cold make even metaphysics sneeze.

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]]> ~scarletwish http://scarletwish.deviantart.com/journal/12810334/ http://scarletwish.deviantart.com/journal/12810334/ Wed, 02 May 2007 00:27:29 PDT
Summer has come as a train wreck, the way it always does in Beijing, the past week I wore jumpers and shivered in the cold, now my skin clawls at the heat.
As much as I detested the bitterness beyond endurance of winter, I have spent these days feeling nauseous and miserable.
I cannot paint or read nor any other thing that involves using my eyes, and feel too awful for any physical activity. Which come to think of it is a mighty disaster since training begins monday, but hopefully this will pass soon.

]]> ~scarletwish http://scarletwish.deviantart.com/journal/5553896/ http://scarletwish.deviantart.com/journal/5553896/ Tue, 07 Jun 2005 23:25:40 PDT
My livejournal [link]

Truth is it is already too painful and soul consuming
to keep one journal, so go to the above if your thirst
so inclines, and as for what to expect;

Dear readers and friends; if maintaining
relations was not complicated enough,
we'll have to suffer the written form.

Engaging in either insane metaphisics,
aesthetics or plain silliness, seems
to be the rule about my writing.

Naturally enough in a journal, only a
paltry version of the madness, horror
and joy of which life consists can be
expressed. But hopefully can serve as
a memory of some of it, and the echo
of all the rest.

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