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please look me up. im struggling so much to reform a foundation. when i was on this account i got so spoiled. and now...i am nothing.
id appreciate your support. <3

]]> ~scribblemarked http://scribblemarked.deviantart.com/journal/26190666/ http://scribblemarked.deviantart.com/journal/26190666/ Sun, 26 Jul 2009 13:05:41 PDT
cuz i could.

but seriously. someone should send me a note or something. i miss all my friends on here, haha.

]]> ~scribblemarked http://scribblemarked.deviantart.com/journal/25945653/ http://scribblemarked.deviantart.com/journal/25945653/ Tue, 14 Jul 2009 15:17:54 PDT i am five foot two, one hundred and sixty pounds, and i am beautiful. from the inside out.

i have been faced with a lot of unneccessary insults and pain lately, but as they say, that that doesnt kill you will only make you stronger.

i am ready to be strong. <3

im debating getting back into nudes again. it could be liberating. i dunno. someone support me.

]]> ~scribblemarked http://scribblemarked.deviantart.com/journal/25126845/ http://scribblemarked.deviantart.com/journal/25126845/ Thu, 04 Jun 2009 14:20:25 PDT i owe a bit of an explanation to you guys....for dissapearing all the sudden and not telling anyone....
okay.
well, i love(d) my work. i love being fun sexual thoughtful happy crazy real me, and capturing that. but i just could keep lying and quite frankly, its really hard to date someone who tells you sex is sin, that lying is a sin, and feel okay with the five bajillion naked pictures online. so i copped out, took it down, and quit. guess im weak like that.
sadly, im not coming back. i can't do this because i remember the guilt i felt and how much i wnated to progress as an artist but couldnt because i was so limited by secrets. instead i take pictures of little kids now, and i get paid money for it. im trying to open a studio. i havent done any nudes since i stopped here. though i will confess i'm actually a lot less innocent than i was last year....still a virgin, but barely.... in case you were curious. im studying computers full time at school. ive dated three guys in the last 12 months, i'm dating one now even, and they were all deuchebags lol. and thats my life..woohoo!
anyway, i really miss a lot of the friendships id formed with people on here. im impoloring you to drop me a line...the email is in_search_of_starshine@hotmail.com. id love to hear from you...i havent forgotten people.
loves. <3
-SM.

]]> ~scribblemarked http://scribblemarked.deviantart.com/journal/18873449/ http://scribblemarked.deviantart.com/journal/18873449/ Mon, 16 Jun 2008 12:52:43 PDT anyway. i'll try to get a few pictures up. thanks to everyone who stayed in contact. <3s to everyone.

]]> ~scribblemarked http://scribblemarked.deviantart.com/journal/18291932/ http://scribblemarked.deviantart.com/journal/18291932/ Mon, 12 May 2008 15:39:49 PDT so it happened at long dreaded last-
my computer crashed.

4 years of fles totally gone.

and now computerless except for mobile web on my cell phone.

this all is quite depressing, huh? well, thats why i havent been on DA for so long.

anyway, PLEASE everyone stay in touch.....i'm checking my email every day, and i can do MSN messenger easily. and i lovoove meeting new people so even if y=we arent talking already, feel free to drop me a line. i dont bite. hard.

i'll try to be back to DA soon, loves. it should only be another few weeks tops before i get my computer back. and then, good god, do i have pictures! and i will reply to stuff then. i cnat now because im in a public place, bleh....

in the meantime, hope to talk to you all soon!

]]> ~scribblemarked http://scribblemarked.deviantart.com/journal/18076685/ http://scribblemarked.deviantart.com/journal/18076685/ Mon, 28 Apr 2008 19:08:46 PDT ___________

well, today was a difficult day, and there’s some issues I want to address.

So I’ve said this first one before but it warrants repeating because obviously nobody listened to me the first time around....

Some of you need to stop being such pervs. I’m getting some of the most ridiculous shit I’ve ever seen in my life. I am a photographer and my own model, not a porn star. I don’t want any more “legs open” requests, any more inartistic trash requests, or, the most annoying offenders of all, “hey baby you wanna have cyber sex?” and “I masturbate to you wanna fuck you” type statements. Or anything else resembling these issues. Get fucking used to it. I can see through you. Let me explain, I am in this for art, not to get guys, and not for the sake of having people masturbate to me around the planet. I don’t get warm fuzzies from sexually explicit emails, I mean; I live romance as much as the next person, but vulgar comments about my breasts are NOT going to win me over. okay? okay. try asking my name, who i am, what i'm like. and only when im sure you care about me, me as a person, not a physique or a pretty face, will i give you that chance.

also, more importantly, on the subject of rude comments, I got a very mean MSN message today. Apparently artistic nudes are evil and I’m a whore and I am going to hell? Actually I was pretty upset. I mean, I know some people think that, but this made it come to the surface a little more than I was ready for. What I’m doing isn’t really truly wrong, is it? I’m a Christian, what does god think of this?

Well here's my take. God made Adam and eve naked, the reason the dressed was because of embarrassment and to shield lust. There is beauty in the human form, no doubt. My goal is to express this beauty. I am not embarrassed, not sexual about it. So I don’t feel what I’m doing is wrong, no more than Adam and eve in the beginning, hmm?

Don’t worry; I’m not a religion freak or anything. There’s a million other reasons, this part was just brought in because I was told what I'm doing is "ungodly, sinful, and wrong."

I am not a bad person., and I refuse to let self-righteous windbag convince me otherwise.


I’m going to go eat ice cream and watch bad reality TV and generally be sad at life now.

]]> ~scribblemarked http://scribblemarked.deviantart.com/journal/17911394/ http://scribblemarked.deviantart.com/journal/17911394/ Fri, 18 Apr 2008 12:32:10 PDT
(haha, im SUCH a kid at heart)

so yeah, just thought i'd inform you all!

current news bulletin: today sucked though.

someone cheer me up =[


(by the way, sorry i havent responded to notes. i promise i'll try to go through them tonight, i've just been really busy, and i have so many to look through, and i want to put some time into my answers!)

]]> ~scribblemarked http://scribblemarked.deviantart.com/journal/17870790/ http://scribblemarked.deviantart.com/journal/17870790/ Tue, 15 Apr 2008 19:27:33 PDT
okay, i couldnt sleep, so it's rambling time. ive been thinking, like usual, and here’s what’s on my mind:

We all live such lives of secrecy. It’s nothing personal, it’s just nature. Like me. You don’t even know my real age or my real name (that’s right, I said it. it’s not lindy, and im not 23. if anyone guesses right what the real info is, I’ll give them a prize ) (okay, maybe the prize is just pride that you guessed it and an e-hug, lol). And the rest of the world doesn’t know that I do these photos on the side of my perfect little yuppie life. theres a million other things like that, things that arent bad, just….there.

and I got to thinking, what would life be like if we stopped all this lying and secrecy? would anyone even survive? Face it: our world revolves around these things. everyone does it, it’s our common ground. Think about it- I bet you’ve told at least ten little lies or kept at least ten little secrets just today. and that’s okay. it’s the life we lead.

for instance, you can wake up and you feel like shit, but you lie to everyone who asks how you’re doing. You can lie to your professor about why you weren’t in comm. 114 yesterday, I mean, they KNOW you missed class because you were hungover, not because your tire went out. you can lie to your friends when they ask you if youre dating that cute new boy 2 dorms down. you lie, you lie, you lie. it’s a neverending cycle; a sort of addiction. [p.s. there are examples, not things I personally do. I try to live a life of total honesty when at all possible, personally.]

What would the world be like without this crap? Would it be cathartic, and help everyone through these hard times? Or would we all fall apart under the weight of all the things we simply dont want or need to know?

I can’t help but wonder.

]]> ~scribblemarked http://scribblemarked.deviantart.com/journal/17836760/ http://scribblemarked.deviantart.com/journal/17836760/ Sun, 13 Apr 2008 17:38:24 PDT wake up.
go through day.
get ready for bed.
take about two pictures and put them on deviantart.
go to sleep.
wake up and repeat.

quite frankly, im finding this whole picture thing really relaxing and helpful and very enjoyable. it's like my forbidden fruit. and i feel kindof bad about it, i mean, dont most people have a more "normal" pastime, like reading before they go to bed? and im sure you people are all very tired of seeing me.

oh well.

do what makes you feel good, right?

]]> ~scribblemarked http://scribblemarked.deviantart.com/journal/17781925/ http://scribblemarked.deviantart.com/journal/17781925/ Thu, 10 Apr 2008 15:27:47 PDT
this is going to be an incredibly cheesy post….so I’m sorry bout that….
haha, im kindof in a thinking mood. But I’ll try to keep the thoughts to something semi-related to this project, at least for now, for you all’s sake. if you want me to post other stuff, I will, but I didn’t think anyone would understand or care, so here’s where im starting haha.
I think people expect me to be someone I’m not here. People expect me to be some kind of sex goddess who’s so used to this. I guess I just wanted to share a bit of who I am, so lucky you
I am not a sex goddess. As a matter of fact, I’m a virgin. I’m not totally sure why- sometimes I’m not comfortable with it, sometimes my boyfriend at the time isn’t. And I mean a complete virgin, not just the “technical virgin” type. I gave a handjob once my freshman year of college, and that’s pretty much the extent of my sexual experience. hows that for naive?
I have never tried alcohol or smoked a cigarette and I have absolutely no will to. I go to very few dorm parties, and have had almost perfect attendance since the first grade. I get good grades in school and im the president of multiple volunteer organizations and other random clubs. I’m a naturalist and I’ve rallied against the war in Iraq; a lot of people tell me I’m a hippie at heart, lol. I’m a published writer and I’ve done well in several contests with the pictures I do of my kid sisters. I think that’s something people tend to underestimate about me, they think that because im showing off my body, I must not have anything else to show off. that all there is to me is physical.
the truth of the matter is, it’s the last thing about me I’d ever pick to show the world. I’ve spent my whole life being called fat, and I like who I am, but why would anyone else? But I started this for a reason. I’m tired of people telling me whats beautiful. I’ve watched enough america’s next top model to see what people consider beautiful. but that’s not always the case. I know I am someone gorgeous. and not because of my body but because everyone sees through different eyes, and personally I like myself and when I smile I really really mean it. My eyes have a meaning and a dream behind them. And isn’t that the most important kind of beauty?
I don’t really know why I’m saying all this. maybe I just want people to know im not just some slut off the streets who’s looking for cheap thrills. I’m just another college student who believes in something more than what I’ve been given. and whats so wrong with that?
anyway, tell me what you think of this. please tell me if im being utterly ridiculous….

<3’s.

]]> ~scribblemarked http://scribblemarked.deviantart.com/journal/17721368/ http://scribblemarked.deviantart.com/journal/17721368/ Sun, 06 Apr 2008 19:06:14 PDT
i've been on deviantart for a while and i am not just an amateur nude photographer, i'm really an avid writer and i photograph people, usually little kids. but i've wanted to work with nudes for a while, what can i say, i want to prove that you don't have to be stick-thin to be beautiful and proud of your body. but i didnt want to do these nudes on my regular page, which has a lot of people i know from school and work and such and i don't particularly want to see me naked.
and by the way, dont treat me like just because youve seen me naked you have the right to proposition me constantly. i keep gettign disturbing messages. i like sex...but not with people i dont know.

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