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That's what I remember every time I ask I'm alone at home and missing my friends in Brasil, that I'm here because here I have everything I need to change what I believe to be wrong with me, I don't have this feeling there, because everything is just too messed up most of the time.

Is strange to have plans again, getting use to it...

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/19678193/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/19678193/ Wed, 30 Jul 2008 10:29:12 PDT

I wanted to get rid of the last journal, but I don't know what to write, so here's a quote from Gizmodo:

"I can see it already, when the fourth angel sounds the trumpet, people will take out their cellphones and start recording a video of the Apocalypse. Except iPhone users, who would only be able to take photos. That and change their Facebook status to "is watching the asteroid falling.""

Because I now have a iPhone and I'm almost getting use to the lack of copy+paste...

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/18981306/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/18981306/ Sun, 22 Jun 2008 10:41:05 PDT

Someone went to a party and meet [fuck, I still don't know how to write this] a person. Some weeks later that someone searched thought the party's picture to see if the person he/she had meet [argh, again] had came out in any, but since neither of them knew many people at the party, there wasn't any pictures of them.

But since the party was held in a quite small flat, both could be seen several times in the background of a few pictures.

I liked this idea. The photographic translation of the fact that stuff happens in the background of the smiley and happy people. That something more complicate than hugs was going on but was not the picture's focus, but it's there anyway, and it's important for someone.

(and all that kind of stupidly reminds me of those awesome ads of Nespresso featuring George Clooney, specially one that I just saw at the airport, of 2 pictures being up to selection and the chosen one has the coffee on focus and the actor blurry )

Anyway, what I mean is that the collection of pictures that came out of that is quite interesting, but those are not my pictures and much less myself, so it becomes one of those "unpostable/unphotographable" moments.

Finally updated this thing (the journal, the pictures will have to wait a bit longer), and in the middle of my summer trip. Woho!

Enjoy.

[gave up on trying to change the "tense" emoticon, just imagine the opposite]

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/17979609/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/17979609/ Tue, 22 Apr 2008 16:46:31 PDT

to remind me to update this journal when I'm not so sleepy

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/17346129/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/17346129/ Sat, 15 Mar 2008 11:34:51 PDT

Best comment about "There Will Be Blood" (Warren Ellis @ Twitter): I still think it has a happy ending. It makes me warm in my bits.

Damn right.

So, Yay, in september I shall start my BA in Graphic Design in Central Saint Martins! Let's see how THAT goes!

Here's the crappy virtual version of my portfolio:
[link]

For me it like putting an end to a stage of my life and beginning another. In part because before last week studying design and staying in London for 3 years was just a plan, and now it has become reality, in the best possible way, but still, reality is still a bit frightening, isn't?

Now I have a whole week of procrastinating before I go away to Italy. I hope to invest some of that time in starting my Final Major Project about Bridges (specially London Bridge and Tower Bridge), organizing my stuff here in DA, the songs on my ipod and the mess that is my photo backup.

Wish me luck!

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/16955467/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/16955467/ Tue, 19 Feb 2008 01:40:02 PST

don't know, portfolio madness

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/16531300/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/16531300/ Wed, 23 Jan 2008 03:43:07 PST [link]

I bought Adobe stuff. I mean, I actually paid money for it, I didn't downloaded or have it in a burned CD. I bought it. I scare myself sometimes. And I don't have a computer to install it, because I'm going to the dark site, and the new mac book hasnt arrived yet. I have all this stuff (external HDs, Photoshop and other softwares, tablet, mouse, etc..) lying around just waiting for it...

At least I have been putting my reading up to date (while my deviantions pile up... almost 1300 now)... Slacking too much on my course, not good... OOooooh well, that's life.

[link] ]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/15478040/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/15478040/ Mon, 12 Nov 2007 11:46:10 PST
I have a project for the course I'm doing where I need secret messages, so give me yours, I keep no secrets anyway.

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/15351304/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/15351304/ Sat, 03 Nov 2007 19:37:55 PDT
In other news I love these stupid questionaires too much for my own good... (taken from :raelynkittyicon Oh, and I still have to do Platy's 8 random things, but I'm waiting for the good stuff.

Q. Are you right-handed or left-handed?
A. None really, I can't draw or write properly with neither hand.

Q. Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
A. My gall bladder and a small lump in my right breast (wasnt tumor, Yay!)

Q. What is the last heavy item you lifted?
A . My bag returning from Brasil.

Q. Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
A. Yes, when I was ice-skating in Colorado when I was.. 12? Something like that, I remember my cousin trying to keep me awake in the bus until we got home singing silly songs.

RANDOMOLOGY

Q. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
A. Nope.

Q. If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
A. I wouldnt change my name, but I think I would like to add my grandmothers surnames.

Q. What color do you think looks best on you?
A. Red (is stupid, I have like 3 red dresses, almost a cartoon character)

Q. Have you ever swallowed a non-food item by mistake?
A. Not by mistake

Q: Do you smile often?
A. Not without reason

Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: Not really, I try my best to friends-of-friends, but I'm a disaster with strangers/colegues

Q. Do you hold grudges?
A. Unhealthy yes.

Q. Who do you tell your secrets to?
A. Anyone who want to listen to them (then I think they are not really secrets, but anyway)

DAREOLOGY

Q. Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100?
A. Free money!

Q. Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000?
A. Only in a Tarantino Four Rooms Style.

Q. Would you never blog again for $50,000?
A. Nop

Q. Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000?
A. Don't need the money

Q. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
A. Nops

Q. Would you, without fear of punishment, take a human life for $1,000,000?
A. No

DUMBOLOGY

Q: What is in your left pocket?
A: My keys and a couple of coins (I'm quite organized about my pockets)

Q: Do have a hardwood or carpet floor in your house?
A: Each room has a different floor, my bedroom has carpet.

Q: Could you live with roommates?
A: Only with really nice ones.

Q: How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
A: One

Q: Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
A: Hmmm... When I was 14 and I was making out with my boyfriend in his car, and I had to lie and say I was 18 and studied law (damn, I'm such a nice girl, almost 10 years without talking to cops)

Q: What do you want to be when you grow up?
A: No fucking idea

FAVORITOLOGY

Q: Number?
A: 7

Q: Season?
A: Spring

Q. TV show?
A. House

Q. Flavor of gum?
A. Mint

CURRENTOLOGY

Q: Missing someone?
A: Family

Q: Mood?
A: Tired and happy

Q: Listening to?
A. Cars in the street outside

Q: Watching?
A. House!

Q: Worrying about?
A : The stuff I have to hand in on tuesday

Q: First place you went this morning?
A: Starbucks!

Q: What cant you wait to do?
A. Photoshop stuff

Q. What do you dread?
A. the future

Q: What will you do when you answer this question?
A. Write the asnwer

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/14800020/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/14800020/ Wed, 26 Sep 2007 12:49:06 PDT
I formated my caomputer to celebrate his 1 year anniversary, so no photoshop for me T.T

But I will be selecting the pics from Japan and China and all the rest...

Ok, back to being offline

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/13822616/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/13822616/ Sat, 21 Jul 2007 15:20:56 PDT
I posted the skteches I have already finished.. I dont have a scanner, so usually to submit "real stuff" I photograph it and twitch it in photoshop, but I was lazy and and I actually enjoyed how the pictures came out, so go check them out in my scraps: [link]

I shall spend my birthday in Tokyo, wow... less than 10 days to go and I'm 23.

I went to Madrid for a couple of days and a bunch of dreams I had came true, very happy about them.

Now, Japan, Tokyo, Brasil, Foundation, Wedding and all that craze.

See you some day when I come back!

L: 31760
C:7722

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/13609453/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/13609453/ Wed, 04 Jul 2007 15:53:27 PDT
So, the first 10 people that comment on this journal requesting a sketch of whatever they like, gets it (if you accept a pic on the theme, please say)! But you have to do 10 free sketches too, or karma will bite you in the ass! (which means that you dont REALLY have to do, and if you give me some chocolates I will forget all about it)

1- Platy - Platy
2- Tomohare - Him and his Ego
3- Danny - Spacedog
4 - Esper - um claustrofóbico casal de libélulas esquizofrênicas
5- Luisa - A saída da vida pacata
6- WakaBee - um monstro sentado do lado d uma radiola ouvindo musica velha
7-
8-
9-
10-

[I have already done 5 out of 6, I dont want to post them until they are all finished... and I will mail the originals for everyone because now I love mailing stuff]

L:31670
C:7722

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/13542175/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/13542175/ Fri, 29 Jun 2007 17:14:19 PDT
I went to see "How We Are" an exhibition of photography at Tate Britain (I was around there to schedule my interview at Chelsea College... It will be on the 11th! Gogogogo!) and I really enjoyed... I was particularly happy to found out how much women photographers were important in the early years...

As part of the exhibition they made a group at Flickr ([link]) and are asking everyone to contribute with pictures taken in the UK that fit in one of the 4 categories they have. It's up until the 27th, I hope to submit something...

Sorting stuff out around here while I dont have my passport back... Then I want to go visit some friends around, unfortunately there wont be a whole lot of time.. but oh well, I promised myself I would complain less and travel more

Oh, the tattoo stopped hurting, so now is all happyness cause I have this cute swallow on me that I love very much!

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/13231216/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/13231216/ Tue, 05 Jun 2007 17:50:58 PDT
I got a tattoo... At first I didnt want to get it feeling so down, because when I did my scarification I was feeling so great and everytime I touch it I remember the good times. But I have being putting off getting tattooed since I was 12, and a friend pointed out that the tattoo could help me lift my spirits up, so I went ahead and did it.

The design was created by the tattoo artist, Tinico (he has some amazing works, you should check it out: [link] [link]) inspired by the classic swallow tattoos you see in sailor of the old times.

Swallows have a bunch of meanings, none meant anything to me until I got this tattoo, which is what I like about it, it's *a tattoo*, not a life statement or something like that, I do that with my life.

For the disgrace of all my "symetric" friends, I only did one. I thought maybe getting the second one for my brother's wedding, let's see. It one wont be exactly like this one, since I want it to be a african swallow, I have to reserach the differences (I think there's something about the tail).

So yeah, is still healing and it hurted like mad, I'm not enjoying the process (I really enjoyed the process of my scarification, really!) but I'm really happy with it.



So yay, and my hair is black now, done with all the redness. Is kind of funny, both my parents had really dark hair (I mean, my mother's hair is grey now, and my dad almost doesnt any hair left.. but my brothers have really dark hair too, I was the only one to get the boring-brown) so it has a really different feeling for me when I'm dark-haired, hard to explain, sorry.

P.S.: Though this could be interesting to some friends of mine: [link]

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/12746370/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/12746370/ Thu, 26 Apr 2007 18:19:18 PDT
I got accepted at Camberwell's Foundation course. YAY! Really, big relief, really really big. Now, more vacations!

Big chances I will go to Japan and maybe China on July (right on my birthday! I think it will be the first one away from both my parents).

I have no ideia what I will do during June, maybe get to know the country or the continent better.

May will be spent in Brasil.

August will be me getting ready for the begging of the course in September.

October is my brother's Wedding.

And after that, hel's now what how I will be.. This week's PostSecret [link] has one postcard about someone that thought that he/she would kill her/himself before graduation. I dont think like that, but is hard to think ahead when I dont have much ideia on what I want to specialized... I never liked specializing... I might study something completely different after I finish my BA... Let's see...

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/12608894/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/12608894/ Sun, 15 Apr 2007 17:17:54 PDT

I hate being so lazy you know... I got to the conclusion that the key word in foundation's interviews is "motivation", you have to look motivated. And I am, I swear! I'm just freaking lazy and I have no habit/methos whatsoever to at least write down my ideia, to make them, pfff...

Mat gave a great ideia of combining some stuff I have being playing with, but man, lots of work and redoing some things I spent the whole weekend doing. Yes, I am excited about it, but... I don't know, I have this problem I think, that I need some return/compensantion straight away, not long term... So "yay, let me do this and it will look good in my portfolio so maybe someone will accept me" doesnt gets me going... I don't mean I need to be recognized as a genius as soon as it finished, but I need a more solid reason to make it...

Damn it, just get some pelasure from making something pretty, and really going all the way, and know that at least you tried to accomplish something. I think I got over the whole failure fear, is not that's its stopping me...

arght, I need to get back on therapy, ASAP!

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/12567939/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/12567939/ Thu, 12 Apr 2007 14:21:34 PDT [link]



For the easter holiday I went to Paris withsome friends. The weather was perfect, shiny days like I never saw, not a cloud in the sky and all at a very pleasant temperature. And not a pariesien to be seen in a thousands of kilometers.

On saturday, coming back from a great japanese dinner (I miss that about Paris, the city is so small, you can actually walk everywhere), we passed by the Notre Dame and notice that there were a mass going on. We went inside and saw that this gigantic church was lighted only by the candles that each person praying was holding... There were many people inside, but it didnt felt as crowded as when you visit in the morning, in the turist tours.

I tried discreetly take some pictures with my small camera. None came out good and now I kind of regret even trying. I wouldnt have taken pictures if it was a religious event of any other religion I think... And honestly, it kind of scares me the ideia of taking a picture of Jesus in the cross, since I know it wont ever come even close to how I see it.

Easter is by far my favorite christian holiday (I consider myself an atheist, but I grew up in a dominant catholic culture)... I can't really consider Chistmass a catholic holiday since I (and I think almost everyone people) don't really think about it's meaning (and I actually dont care about it much either), but the easter, the change of seasons, the whole fertility, hope stuff... Is all very nice, isnt?

And plus, is the chocolate holiday! I actually just ate a small chocolate chicken in Paris, but when I arrived back home, my door was painted avocado green (hehe I went to check in the online dictionary the name of the fruit and "alligator pear" came up as a possible translation) and inside there were some yellow walls, and the kitchen was all pretty and tidy... And Mat had bought me a bunch of chocolate! Uhu!

This post was a bit inspired by this site [link]
I hope to do this (describe pictures I didnt took/post) more.

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/12567194/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/12567194/ Thu, 12 Apr 2007 13:26:20 PDT

We are far too familiar to each other to be surprised by our encounter, but still, I'm reminded of his grandeur and my weakness. Each visit I know a bit better what to put away, so that his swinging tail wont crash. Each visit he finds something old that I didnt knew I kept with love to spit fire at.

Maybe someday he will just leave and never come back, and I will only remember his shining scales... Maybe someday I will be able to tame him as much as possible, and my house will be my own, but also his, and we shall live like that.

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/12336816/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/12336816/ Mon, 26 Mar 2007 13:32:08 PDT

bleblebleble I wanted to take that journal out of the front page because it made no sense, but I dont anything to talk about really.

I should write a paper about Hogarth, but its been hard to start, there are so many interesting things about his works, is hard to pick one.

And at the same time I hate to have to "read in" the artist, and not only on his art.... Because I think is kind of silly to presume he thought this or that, or think you really understand someone who lived so long ago.

So, oh well, Hello, How are you?

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/12233782/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/12233782/ Sun, 18 Mar 2007 14:25:55 PDT

I enjoy alcohol, quite a lot. Some drinks I really enjoy the taste (like a good beer, a cider, etc...) but most of the time I drink is really to get a bit high or really drunk. Is the only "drug" I take, since I dont smoke and dont play MMORPGs anymore (ok, there are the anti-depression drugs, but I see them as I see my glasses).

Don't know why I have just written that, I have being thinking about that since this morning, because I drunk yesterday for the first time in quite a while (I was avoiding drinking afraid of doing something wrong with my thumb). I alway get drunk with friends and usually have a wonderfull time, and I have being missing my friends quite a lot lately (not like "i'm so miserable I need my friends", more like just thinking about them a lot and wanting to chat with them about shit) but at the same time wondering I dont even have time to hang out with friends, and I have got over the whole thing "oh my god, if you are lonely you are a sad sad person" (just like I got over the "you need a boyfriend to be happy"). And then yesterday I went out with a girl I really enjoy the company, but who I dont really know that well or for that long, but anyway, we went to a pub and ended up spending the night talking to a group of scottish who were sitting next to us and we all had a great time.

And I think that's it, when I feel the need to "hang out" I usually manage to do it.. It doesnt bother me that I havent done that much lately, as long that when I want to do it, I see I can still have fun and all.

And does alcohol has to do with that? I don't know, I think it kinds of "maximizes" my fun, like, I can have fun without it, but I have more if I drink, although I dont always feel the need... I think like so many thing in my life right now I can't really racionalized, I just get to a point where if I know that I can control it and that I'm feeling good about it, that's whats important.

Bleh, doesnt make much sense, I don't know if I really putted the words like I wanted to... anyway...

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/12158469/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/12158469/ Mon, 12 Mar 2007 15:35:34 PDT

Day after day, alone on the hill,
The man with the foolish grin is keeping perfectly still.
But nobody wants to know him,
They can see that he's just a fool.
And he never gives an answer .....

But the fool on the hill,
Sees the sun going down.
And the eyes in his head,
See the world spinning around.

Well on his way, his head in a cloud,
The man of a thousand voices, talking perfectly loud.
But nobody ever hears him,
Or the sound he appears to make.
And he never seems to notice .....

But the fool on the hill,
Sees the sun going down.
And the eyes in his head,
See the world spinning around.

And nobody seems to like him,
They can tell what he wants to do.
And he never shows his feelings,

But the fool on the hill,
Sees the sun going down.
And the eyes in his head,
See the world spinning around.

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/12144410/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/12144410/ Sun, 11 Mar 2007 13:40:35 PDT

I have a bunch of pics to select and post, but not as many as I would like, being hard taking pics with my thumb like this.

The days are finally becoming sunny and beatifull, but I have no freaking time to enjoy then.

On tuesday we start having photoshop classes, but none could asnwer me if it would be on macs or PCs... I'm busted if we use macs, seriously.

time, time, I need more time... But at the same time I'm felling very ansioux or something like that... I want the summer to come soon.

bye.

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/11933202/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/11933202/ Fri, 23 Feb 2007 10:36:22 PST

i'm in a bloody humour, like they said it here. or not. fuck.

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/11856946/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/11856946/ Sat, 17 Feb 2007 15:37:12 PST

and apparently I was drunk when I last posted, because I forgot some of my favorite romantic pieces:








(i'm, like, completely in love with the work of this guy)

and some very new favorites:







ok, and now, my all time favorite:


I must say it was the combination of phrases that made that piece stuck to my mind for a couple of weeks... "finder's keeper's" + "you gotta hide your love away"

now, enough of that stuff, isnt 300 suppose to come out this week?!



]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/11826574/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/11826574/ Thu, 15 Feb 2007 08:17:18 PST

I always hate how friendship is somehow diminished by romantic love... I wish there were more movies about friendship instead of all these crappy ones about love... Why is so fucking necessary to be a romantic plot in any script?!

And I'm not just saying that because I'm single... I even spent the valentine's day getting my thumb operated and I dont feel sour about it... To prove that I decided to select my most romantic favs:


shall we start with my most favorite and romantic one? yes, we shall


ok, not very romantic, but is so cool...


I'm a big fan of klar and all his work with the umnicorns


again, not excatly romantic...


I'm in love with the unicorn dude


The greeks knew how to make love interesting


I just love the colors and the positions


Katamari>all, I loved the phrase


Harry Potter fanart.. I thought I would end up choosing one of Remus+Tonks, but oh well, they are more like friends who became lovers anyway.


This pic made me miss having a boyfriend, and that's pretty rare nowdays...


weeee.. play piercing!


ok, not romantic at all, but I'm reading about zombies and it's pink!


Cute!

anyway, hope everyone had a nice valentine's day, by itself or with someone, like every other day.


P.S.: hahahah a pic I took of my friends got featured in ModBlog:
[link]

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/11768432/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/11768432/ Sun, 11 Feb 2007 04:24:01 PST

first things first:

[link]

if you lazy to click on the link, Luisa wrote:

"I designed this t-shirt a couple of years ago, and now decided to submit the design to threadless.

If people vote for it and I get a good score, the shirt could be printed ad I could win some prizes. So... If you like my design, please vote for me within the next 7 days (preferably with a score 5 and an "i would buy it" mark). It would mean a lot to me, really!

The URL is below:
[link]"

~

I just arrived in London and my hair is crap! For the first time in my life I was so happy about my curls! Now they are gone! HELP! If I ever told my 15y.o. version that wished for straight hair everyday that this day would come to happen, I would never believe myself...

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/11628555/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/11628555/ Tue, 30 Jan 2007 20:41:23 PST

DA is absurdly fast! FUCK! I never expected to upload my deviantions so fast!

I had a great weekend receiving Luisa's band for their concert here in Sao Paulo, and I dont wanna write anymore because I'm sleepy. Good night, listen to some Beck:

~

We Live Again

These withered hands have dug for a dream
Sifted through sand and leftover nightmares
Over the hill, a desolate wind
Turns shit to gold and blows my soul crazy

The end, oh, the end
We live again
Oh, I grow weary of the end

Oh, hungry days in the footsteps of fools
Gazing alone through sex-painted windows
Dredging the night, drunk libertines
Stink like colognes from a new-fangled wasteland

The end, oh, the end
We live again
Oh, I grow weary of the end

Love is a plague in a mix-match parade
Where the castaways look so deranged
When will children learn to let their wildernesses burn
And love will be new, never cold and vacant

These withered hands have dug for a dream
Sifted through sand and leftover nightmares

The end, oh, the end
We live again
Oh, I grow weary of the end

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/11514580/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/11514580/ Sun, 21 Jan 2007 07:23:23 PST

sometimes I'm amazed by how clueless some people can be... And then I start thinking if maybe I'm that clueless too.

P.S.: based a bit on that, I moved a bunch of stuff to scraps... and moved 1 crap into the gallery.

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/11482380/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/11482380/ Thu, 18 Jan 2007 13:16:51 PST

Ok, my belated new year resolution will be to upload my works with a bigger size to DA, 1000x1000pxs (ah-ah, new resolution, get it?). Serious, I think it's a nice one (althought it will stop me from posting some stuff I used to post because the bad definition of the picture wouldnt be obvious in the smaller size) and I hope my few visitors enjoy it. Some day peharps I will replace all the gallery with the new resolution.

Another thing I have finally done it, is post a pic of my scarification here:


you can read more about scarification and skin removal here:
[link]

I was trying to post more deviantions but my conexion got crappy...

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/11300280/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/11300280/ Wed, 03 Jan 2007 11:53:04 PST

Happy New Year!

I think that's it... I'm a bit scared of 2007, because 2006 started as a very shitty year and ended up being a wonderful year by the end of it. So now that 2007 is starting so well, I'm afraid that it will end bad... Oh well, be ready for everything, isnt that what the bard said?

I posted a "series" of pics of friends representing 3 of my passions:



]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/11151181/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/11151181/ Fri, 22 Dec 2006 14:09:50 PST

So, in case I don't show up until next year, merry xmass and happy new year to everybody. Here's my gift to you all, a short tale by Neil Gaiman from his new book, Fragile Things. Hope you enjoy it!

Ah, and there will be a kiriban or whatever for 2k or something close to it... and dont forget to visit my best friend's gallery ->

~

Instructions (quite literally, a set of intructions for what to do when you find yourself in a fairy tale)
by Neil Gaiman

Touch the wooden gate in the wall you never saw before.
Say "please" before you open the latch,
go through,
walk down the path.
A red metal imp hangs from the green-painted front door,
as a knocker,
do not touch it; it will bite your fingers.
Walk through the house. Take nothing. Eat nothing.
However,
if any creature tells you that it hungers,
feed it.
If it tells you that it is dirty,
clean it.
If it cries to you that it hurts,
if you can,
ease its pain.

From the back garden you will be able to see the wild wood.
The deep well you walk past leads to Winter's realm;
there is another land at the bottom of it.

If you turn around here,
you can walk back, safely;
you will lose no face. I will think no less of you.

Once through the garden you will be in the wood.
The trees are old. Eyes peer from the undergrowth.
Beneath a twisted oak sits an old woman. She may ask for something;
give it to her. She
will point the way to the castle. Inside it
are three princesses.
Do not trust the youngest. Walk on.
In the clearing beyond the castle the twelve months sit about a fire,
warming their feet, exchanging tales.
They may do favors for you, if you are polite.
You may pick strawberries in December's frost.

Trust the wolves, but do not tell them where you are going.
The river can be crossed by the ferry. The ferry-man will take you.
(The answer to his question is this:
If he hands the oar to his passenger, he will be free to leave the boat.
Only tell him this from a safe distance.)

If an eagle gives you a feather, keep it safe.
Remember: that giants sleep too soundly; that
witches are often betrayed by their appetites;
dragons have one soft spot, somewhere, always;
hearts can be well-hidden,
and you betray them with your tongue.

Do not be jealous of your sister.
know that diamonds and roses
are as uncomfortable when they tumble from one's lips as toads and frogs:
colder, too, and sharper, and they cut.

Remember your name.
Do not lose hope — what you seek will be found.
Trust ghosts. Trust those that you have helped to help you in their turn.
Trust dreams.
Trust your heart, and trust your story.

When you come back, return the way you came.
Favors will be returned, debts will be repaid.

Do not forget your manners.
Do not look back.
Ride the wise eagle (you shall not fall).
Ride the silver fish (you will not drown).
Ride the grey wolf (hold tightly to his fur).

There is a worm at the heart of the tower; that is why it will not stand.

When you reach the little house, the place your journey started,
you will recognize it, although it will seem much smaller than you remember.
Walk up the path, and through the garden gate you never saw before but once.
And then go home. Or make a home.
Or rest.

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/11110431/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/11110431/ Mon, 18 Dec 2006 21:07:08 PST

For Tori Amos's "Strange Little Girls", Neil Gaiman wrote a couple of really short stories to go with the musics. My favorite one:

"There are a hundred things she has tried to chase away the things she won't remember and that she can't even let herself think about because that's when the birds scream and the worms crawl and somewhere in her mind it's always raining slow and endless drizzle.

You will hear that she left the country, that there was a gift she wanted you to have, but it is lost before it reaches you. Late one night the telephone will sing, and a voice that might be hers will say something that you cannot interpret before the connection crackles and is broken.

Several years later, from a taxi, you will see someone in a doorway who looks like her, but she will be gone by the time you persuade the driver to stop. You will never see her again.

Whenever it rains, you will think of her."

~

I got a scarification. If you can read portuguese, go to my blog (dancingwm.blogspot.com), or wait for me to get out of my lazy ass and post some stuff here.

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/10972939/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/10972939/ Wed, 06 Dec 2006 14:07:01 PST

From last journal:
Anyway, stuff I have to do:
- answer some notes here in DA [havent done, shit, should have]
- asnwer the questions of the application (about former experience and why you want to make the course, and no, I can't just write "i'm a n00b!") [asnwered and finished the application! So freaking happy about it! That's a first]
- do the kiriban for Niele, "something sweet" [I tried, I swear... But the chantilly I had bought with second intentions but didnt end up using was just not perfect as I like it... I will try to have another ideia]
- take pictures of the old coca cola bottle I broke last night [tried to, but the light I used burned, I didnt have time to buy a new one and now i'm leaving, so if I ever go to Buenos Aires, I will buy another old coke bottle]
- take pictures of the "iron desert" [shit, didnt have time to do this either, and it's a cool ideia for a pic]
- do christmass shopping! [did it! Bought everyone's gifts, the only one in the family I still have no ideia what to give is my dad, as always. There atre still some girlfriends who I havent bought gifts either, but I will do that in London and I already have some ideias in mind... Actually I only have an ideia for one, but everybody deserves to be happy, right?]

yeah, this didnt make any fucking sense, but I'm leaving paris tomorrow, I will spent a week in London doing anything I want with great company, I havent being in such a good mood for a looooong time... I like it ^^

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/10936991/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/10936991/ Sun, 03 Dec 2006 13:19:38 PST

My ipod is a strange being.

First, it has tons of Punk and Ska music, and I havent listen to a new band/been to a punk concert for at least 4 years I think... Is just because when I discovered MP3 I was 15 and punk was my life, and I had lotsa of free time so I converted ALL the CDs I had to the computer, and all the songs still hang around.

Now, 1 year ago, if you checked my computer for brazilian songs, if you founded more than a dozen bands, you were in the wrong machine. But this year I shared my flat with a guy who has a HUGE collection of brazilian music, like, everything ever recorded by Caetano Veloso or Chico Buarque (for some reason, his CD in spanish constantly comes up on my shuffle, I'm almost deleting it!)

Besides those two genres (I label all ska and punk as punk so I dont have headaches deciding which one Rancid is), I have Classical, Literature (basically Neil Gaimn reading his stuff and , Wizard of Oz, Peter and the Wolf readed by Sean Cornnery, Fernando Pessoa and Carlos Drummond de Andrade by Paulo Autran), Jazz (which is a broad term to me, is where I put Billie, Ella, Miles, Armstrong and Sinatra, besides other stuff), Soundtrack, Rock and Indie. Deciding between Rock and Indie for some bands is a bit hard, but basically Indie is what I like to listen if i'm feeling down.

Trivia:
My shortest "songs" are (all have 4 seconds):
Dialog from Clerks: I'm not even suppose to be here today!
(btw, did you guys watched Clerks2? I hated it)
Dialog from Cowboy Bebop: (Ed saying something in japanese)
Dialog from Snatch: (Brad Pitt saying something with irish accent and is impossible to understand)
Dialog from Transamerica: I'm from the church of the potencial father
Flip String from the Kill Bill Soundtrack
Punck by Suicide Machines

hmm... a lot of things coincided to make not want to take pictures with my present camera. Fisrt, I putted all the pictures I choosed for my portifolio in photoshop to try to make them look beter, and I notice how originally crappy they were. Then my flatmate bought a cool reflex camera, he offered to lended me, but I get a bit shy. And now is almost Cristmass, and my main gift this year will be a big reflex camera all nice and all, which I'm very looking forward to, my mom even described it to me by the phone

so when I look at my tiny stupid camera I go "bleh"... Which I think is kind of a good sign because it means I'm taking photography more serious and really want to take better shots.

Anyway, stuff I have to do:

- answer some notes here in DA
- asnwer the questions of the application (about former experience and why you want to make the course, and no, I can't just write "i'm a n00b!")
- do the kiriban for Niele, "something sweet"
- take pictures of the old coca cola bottle I broke last night
- take pictures of the "iron desert"
- do christmass shopping!

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/10854638/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/10854638/ Sun, 26 Nov 2006 09:24:31 PST

I like to share, but I hate being judged. Unfortunatey both can be easily mixed.

I like to show stuff I do because I want to share them, but the moment I start feeling judged I freak out... If someone catches a influence I had in my work, I'm happy, but if someone compares it, I feel bad, because that's not my intention.

I don't know if other "fellow artists" have this same thing... I'm having to gather my stuff to send as an application to a course, and I look thought my pictures and all, and I like them, but the moment I know someone will be judging them and me, trying to think what were or werent my intentions, I get really scared and completely loose my will to send anything. People cay the worst can happen is you get refused, well, that's REALLY bad for me. Is hard to admit, but I really am one of those people who deal very badly with "no", in part because, yes, I got a bit spoiled as a younger daughter (but serious, every second of my life i'm controlling myself so not to look as spoiled as I feel I should be), and part too because I hardly get myself in a situation of "yes" or "no" because I simply dislike them, is not how I think stuff should work, so if I put myself on a situation like this is because I want this thing really badly and couldnt find another way around... So, yes, "no" is really horrible.

Let me try to write about something a bit more cheerfull... I got a really nice message (that I will asnwer the best I can as soon as I finish this application thingie) and it included a question about the meaning of my nick, which I'm always happy to asnwer...

On my first visit to London, I dragged my best friend Luisa to a Neil Gaiman signing (he's my favorite graphic novels writer), the line was huge and we ended up making friends while waiting for it. So a few days later we were with these guys, and one of them, a boy from NY, he had this habit of eating sunflower seeds and I got addicted to it too, we were all drunk and I asked to keep the bag of seeds for myself and he said "Yeah, you keep the seeds and then you will be the seed keeper, cause it sounds like a neil gaiman character".

At that time the nickname I used was "Cosmic Girl" (because of Jamiroquai, they were good 5 years ago, you know?) but it wasnt very original (it was always taken in foruns and e-mail adresses) and I didnt like how it sounded so.. girly.

So that's one of my favorite things about "seedkeeper", because inicially it sounds gender-less... But "keeping seeds", that's a very feminine action, isnt it? And I actually am the kind of person who keeps a lot of things, good and bad, experiences and objects, memories and grudges, all kind of stuff really. That can be good and bad. Since right now i'm trying a "fresh start" and all, I kind of dislike this about me, and I think about another nick I made up once, a long time ago, "The Wild Child of The Sun", when you read the description for the tarot card of the Sun ([link]) you can see what I mean about fresh starts... but I'm have not yet "deserved" this new nick, so I will still be just seedkeeper for a while...

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/10737534/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/10737534/ Wed, 15 Nov 2006 18:23:10 PST

If you ask me, a day worth living is one that you wake up thinking one thing, and by the time you go to bed, you are thinking exactly the opposite. Because life is about changes, the one the world does on you, you do on the world, and on yourself.

Today I wake up thinking I hated being a woman... A biology class I had years ago came to my mind, my teacher explaining how the hormones in women works in cycles, and in men they work always the same. And my mood (more precisely my damned libido) has been swinging like crazy in the last month or so, and there was I blaiming it on being a women.

The Killers played here in Paris today and I didnt went to the concert cause I dont know anyone else in town that likes them too and I was in a bad mood to go alone. So I stayed at home and chatted with my friends in Brasil by messenger and all.

And then I got these amazing news from a dear friend (funnny isnt, sometimes you only realize how much you care/like someone when you see how happy you get when something good happens to them) and it had all to do with being a woman, so I decided to finally do some shots with the lingerie I had bought some days ago (why? because I didnt had one, simple), and I started thinking about how sexuality has so much to do with personality and not so much to do with sex...

I'm babbling, is almost 4AM and the maid is coming tomorrow (finally! i'm so lazy my place is covered in dust!), gotta go to bed ><

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/10646953/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/10646953/ Tue, 07 Nov 2006 12:04:12 PST

Enough of being emo, let's get this thing going!

Today I received a very cute e-mail from a old friend (old as I have known him for a long time, and he's much older than me, and I havent seen him in ages and.. you get it!) that really gave me confidence, good thing to have since I need to send my stuff to a course in London until the end of the month.

gogogogo!

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/10617374/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/10617374/ Sat, 04 Nov 2006 18:58:30 PST

Barry: I have a love in my life. It makes me stronger than anything you can imagine.
Barry: At that restaurant, I beat up the bathroom. I'm sorry.
Lena: Oh... I'm sorry... was that like a secret pudding?
Barry: Pudding...
Barry: Ummm, let's just... keep it between you and I, if that's possible.
Lena: Sure, Sure...
[Barry looks around... ]
Barry: Healthy Choice and American Airlines got together and put this promotion: If you buy any 10 Healthy Choice products, they will reward you with 500 frequent flier miles; with this special coupon, they'll up it to 1,000 miles. So, I think they are trying to push their teriyaki chicken which is $1.79, but I went to the supermarket and I looked around and I saw that they had pudding... for 25¢ a cup... comes in packages of four. But insanely... the barcodes... are on the individual cups! So, quarter a cup, say you bought $2.50 worth. That's worth 500... with the coupon it's 1,000 miles. It's a marketing mistake but I'm taking advantage of it. If you were to spend $3,000, that would get you a million frequent flier miles. You would never have to pay for a ticket the rest of your life.
Lena: You... you bought all that pudding so that you could get frequent flier miles?
Barry: I would say that's that, mattress man.
Barry: I know... yes...
Lena: That's insane.
Barry: I'm guessing it was a mistake... but... I'm taking advantage of it while it's offered. Who knows how long it'll last...
[once]
Barry: too many people start doing it...
Barry: I'm lookin' at your face and I just wanna smash it. I just wanna fuckin' smash it with a sledgehammer and squeeze it. You're so pretty.
Lena: I want to chew your face, and I want to scoop out your eyes and I want to eat them and chew them and suck on them.
[pause]
Barry: OK. This is funny. This is nice.
Barry: Teryaki chicken. Tery... aki chicken. Soup? Soup... soup... Chicken noodle...? Cookies. Pudding. PUDDING!
Barry: This really looks like Hawaii.
Dean Trumbell: SHUT UP! SHUT THE FUCK UP! Shut up; will you SHUTUP SHUTUP! SHUT SHUT SHUT SHUT SHUTUP... SHUTUP! NOW
[beat]
Dean Trumbell: Are you threatening me, dick?
Barry: Why don-...
[double beat]
Barry: Y' GO FUCK YOURSELF!
Dean Trumbell: oh y-...
[clears throat angrily]
Dean Trumbell: yo-... FUCK
[lowers tone]
Dean Trumbell: did you just saaay go fuck myself?
Barry: [nervously] ... yes, i did
Dean Trumbell: That wasn't good, you're DEAD!
Barry: And bye-bye. And bye-bye, you fuckin'... And bye-bye! You stupid motherfucker...
Barry: I didn't ask for a shrink - that must've been somebody else. Also, that pudding isn't mine. Also, I'm wearing this suit today because I had a very important meeting this morning and I don't have a crying problem.
Barry: Is this confidential?
Barry: I don't know if there is anything wrong because I don't know how other people are.
Barry: You can go to places in the world with pudding. That's funny.
Barry: [out of breath to his love Lena] Lena. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry I left you at the hospital. I called a phone-sex line... I called a phone-sex line before I met you, and four blond brothers came after me and they hurt you, and I'm sorry. Then I had to leave again because I wanted to make sure you never got hurt again. And I have a lot of puddings, and in six to eight weeks it can be redeemed. So if you could just give me that much time, I think I can get enough mileage to go with you wherever you go if you have to travel for your work. Because I don't ever want to be anywhere without you. So could you just let me redeem the mileage?
Barry: I wanted to ask you something because you're a doctor... I don't like myself sometimes. Can you help me?
Walter: Barry, I'm a dentist. What kind of help do you think I could give you?
Lena: People are just crazy in this world, I think.
Lance: The chair broke!
Anna: You strokin' yet?
Barry: My sister's a liar. I have to go to the bathroom.
Dean Trumbell: Now get the fuck out of here, pervert!
Barry: Didn't I warn you?
Dean Trumbell: Th... That's that!
Lena: So here we go.

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/10580228/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/10580228/ Wed, 01 Nov 2006 09:01:39 PST

Platy says I'm not nice to my watchers, and he's right. After I check 485 deviations and 190 messages I will post my pics from India.

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/10352461/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/10352461/ Tue, 10 Oct 2006 20:40:33 PDT

11 until 1k, if anyone cares to screenshot it, I will try to do something nice...

Right now I'm in Brasil, I will be going to India on the 16th... and waaah.. so much stuff, and I have to organize all my "projects" to send to a university to see if I can get into a course I would do anything to do... oh well.

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/10222528/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/10222528/ Fri, 29 Sep 2006 06:05:50 PDT

1.YOUR PORN STAR NAME
(name of first pet + street you live on):
Quinho Saintonge

2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME
(grandmother's/father's first name + favorite snack)
Sonia Pringles

3. YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME
(first word you see on your left + favorite restaurant)
When Frontera

4. YOUR SOCIALITE NAME
(silliest childhood nickname + first town where you partied):
Julica Aspen

5. YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME
(first initial + first three letters of your last name)
J Mar

6. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME
(favorite animal + name of high school):
Wolf Santa Cruz

7. YOUR BARFLY NAME
(last snack food you ate + your favorite drink)
Nutella Cider

8. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME
(middle name + city where you were born):
Bracher Janeiro

9. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME
(favorite candy + favorite musician's last name):
Malterses Amos

10. YOUR OPPOSITE SEX NAME
(name of [opposite sex] friend + cell phone company you use):
Danilo Orange

11. YOUR STAR WARS NAME
(first 3 letters of your last name + last 3 letters of mother's maiden name)
Marcher

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/10185541/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/10185541/ Mon, 25 Sep 2006 18:30:26 PDT

Listening to: Cherry Poppin'Daddies
Reading: Lost Girls by Alan Moore
Watching: Prison Break

Warning: My gallery has officialy become a fotolog, buuh for me. I decided to post some portraits, so I hope you can see something interesting in them (because I just love the ones I posted).

That said, let's get to the blog part.

Today, out of the blue, I decided to listen to Cherry Poppin'Daddies. It reminded me of a truly happy time of my life, when I would go out every single weekend to dance with my boyfriend until I could no more. We would dance together to the songs of the Cherry Poppin'Daddies and everything in my life was going just right (execept as always, the school thing, I have never succed in anything "academical"/to do with school or studies, and has been a source of great angst to me). I was 14/15 by then, so it made me a bit sad as always to remember so long has pasted and I dont think I have enjoyed myself again as I did back then (alhtought I have had some truly good times in the last month... Unfotunetly the last one didnt last long, as always, because of stupid timing)

The big problem I have in my life (ok, one of the many big problems I have) is timing. Like the last days, I said there had been some beatifull days in Paris, I decided that last saturday I would go out to look for some books and take some pics. But it was cloudy and I didnt really felt consumist, so I came back home empty handed. My dad took me to Giverny on Sunda, first time I been there.. Guess what? Clouds! And today, just because is monday, I felt like taking pics, but I only had time after the course, at 7pm, when there was almost no good light.

The timing in my life has always been wrong, I'm NEVER ready to the opportunities I get, never. Like when I dated this guy, when I was just 14/15, and after 2 years together I foolished thought "hey, it musnt be so hard to have other cool relationships like this!" and broke up with him (of course that wasnt the only reason, but anyway). He's still one of my closest friends (I'm going all the way to India just to hug him like there's no tomorrow!), and no, is not that I want to get back with him, is just that I really think I was very foolished back them. This picture reminded me alot of us (now and then) cause we have the same height, I used to have long hair, and he used to have short hair (now is the opposite XP), and he weared these cool jeans jackets, and as I said, we love to hug ^^



Anyway, I have made some very bad decisions in my life, specially in the last 4 years, I'm honestly amazed my friends are still around after the mess I was during this period, I'm very thankfull for their patience and friendship, honestly. I'm trying to be "ready for anything" so that timing doesnt bothers me so much, but I still find it hard sometimes...

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/10142010/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/10142010/ Thu, 21 Sep 2006 15:12:46 PDT

Listening to: Bitter Sweet Symphony by The Verve
Reading: História Universal da Infâmia
Watching: Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire

My new camera arrived a couple of days ago, it's a bit bigger and heavier than the one I broke, but it's better too (the steady shot actually works), and is still small enough for me to carry around everywhere. Tomorrow I will wake up early to do some reserach on a project I want to start, and I will try to use the oportunity to take some pictures around, the days here have just been crazy beatifull. Again, i'm sorry I will spend october out, when I come back in november it will be already cold and dark (i'm always so happy to leave school at 7pm and still have daylight to walk home), but I think new experiences will await for me, hope so at least.

See the book? It not a french one, that's how much i'm avoiding to read in french... I tell myself I'm just looking for a nice edition of "L'Etranger" (like the one I saw in a friend's house, all old and used, he said he bought it for 5 euros by the Seine.. I hate lucky people) but I havent actually being to a book store in the last weeks XP but that will change tomorrow, let's see...

saw a nice phrase today in class, in a Victor Hugo poem... (I dont know how to make accents in my keyboard)

"les yeux fixes sur mes pensees"

----

Update: Best. Day. Ever. "Lost Girls" by Alan Moore arrived by mail this morning and now I just saw the "300" (based on my favorite graphic novel by Frank Miller) trailler... Gosh, it just looks perfect, and Leonidas is just... everything I wanted him to be. I almost cried when it showed the shields... and the arrows, and everything! Is just so exactly like the comics...

Trailler in a brazilian site (the guy who plays Xerxes is a brazilian actor, very very handsome and he's gonna be in the third season of lost)
[link]

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/10098103/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/10098103/ Sun, 17 Sep 2006 05:43:29 PDT

How bored can you get?

--------------------------------

Take this quiz and find out how girly you are. (GUYS TOO) Put x's beside each thing that's true. Each x that you put is one percent. Have fun!!

[ ] My fingernails/toenails are almost always done
[ ] During the summer the only shoes i wear are flip flops
[ ] My favorite toys as a child were barbies
[x] My favorite colour is pink or purple (purple r0x)
[x] I did Gymnastics. (but I was horrible at it.. too tall)
[x] I love skirts.
[ ] Hollister is one of my favorite places to shop
[ ] Tight jeans are the only jeans i'll wear. (ugh, so unconfortable)
[x] I love chocolate
[ ] I've never had a real job.

TOTAL: 4

[ ] My hair is almost always straightened
[x] I have at least 8 myspace pictures (i'm considering Orkut=MySpace)
[ ] I usually go shopping once a week
[ ] I love to hang out at the mall with friends (there no malls in paris ><, and I rather hang out with friends at home)
[x] I have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace or earings. (it's been on the family for more than a century)
[ ] I've gone to a tanning salon.
[x] I've gone to the beach to tan.
[x] I have at least 10 pairs of shoes.
[ ] I watch either the OC or Laguna Beach.
[x] I change my icon weekly.
[ ] I wear a shower cap.

TOTAL: 5

[x] I dont shop at Hot Topic. (what the fuck is that?)
[x] My cell phone might as well become a part of me.
[ ] I wear mascara everyday
[x] I've been or am on a diet.
[x] Bathing suits are adorable.
[ ] I dont know the difference between a sheep and a goat.
[x] Big sunglasses are hott. (just bought my first pair...)
[x] I have gotten my nails done before.
[ ] MTV is one of my favorite channels. (when MTV use to have music, a decade ago, I liked it)

TOTAL: 6

[x] All I want to do at sleepovers is talk about boys! (sex actually, but that usually includes boys)
[x] I love to have gurls do my hair. (because I never do anything to it)
[x] I give and recieve hugs from all my friends (love hugs \o/)
[x] I hate bugs.
[x] Carnivals are so fun!(I suppose so)
[ ] Summer is THE best season. (no, too hot)
[ ] My swimsuit has 2 pieces (no, i'm fat)
[x] I'm waiting for my knight in shining armor. (not actually waiting, but I wouldnt mind if he shows up.. and it's not a knight, it's superman!)
[x] Musicians are so hot. (when they dont look to have some STD)
[x] You write me a poem and tell me I'm beautiful and I'm all yours. (or basically anything thats boosts my ego)

TOTAL: 8

[x] I am self-conscious.
[ ] I cry often. (funny, I used to cry a whole fucking lot, now not so much)
[ ] My car smells like vanilla or cherry. (sold my car XP)
[x] My dishes get washed more than once a week. (I dont have many dishes)
[x] I dont do sports. (I want to, really!)
[ ] I HATE to run.
[x] I squeal when I am surprised or angry. (i make a lot of strange noises)
[ ] I eat dried fruit as a snack.
[ ] I love romance novels.
[x] Drew Barrymore is so cute.

TOTAL: 5

[x] I dance a lot.
[x] usually spend an hour or over to get ready to leave my house.
[ ] I only have like 5 billion hair products.
[x] I love to get dressed up. (sometimes I hate, sometimes I love)
[ ] Every part of my outfit needs to match.
[ ] I talk on the phone at least once a day to my friends. (phone? what's that? I only use txt msgs and MSN)
[ ] I would love to have a photo shoot. (only if I could be completely alone... wich is impossible, so XP)
[ ] I apply lip stuff 50 times a day.
[ ] I wish I were a model.

TOTAL: 3

[x] I wish I could meet Paris Hilton. (kick/steal)
[ ] I have been something that was semi. (semi what?)
[ ] I own Uggs. (uggs? wtf is that?)
[ ] Hip Hop is the best music. (HELP!)
[ ] I pop my collar. (whaaaat?)
[ ] I like to be the center of attention. (yeah, you would expect this from a leo, but no, not all the time, too shy)
[ ] Guys with Mohawks are crazy (HOT! love them.. but I think this means in a bad way actually, so i'm not gonna tick)
[x] Horses are beautiful.
[ ] I'd rather not pay attention in school
[x] Cats are adorable.

TOTAL: 3

[ ] I write my own music.
[x] I would love to visit Hawaii. (I have visited and love it, would go back anytime)
[x] Valentine's day is so cute!
[ ] White is better than black.
[ ] I wouldn... ]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/10041730/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/10041730/ Mon, 11 Sep 2006 16:44:14 PDT

Mood: Lazy
Listening to: a boy named sue
Reading: cry of lot 49 (lets give it another try shall we?)
Watching: i wanna watch snakes on a plane

Wednesday is my new monday. Wednesday I will put my bed sheets to clean, buy a new light bulb to the lamp in the living room (the last one died on sunday), inscribe myself in the public pool, see if there's some way to fix my camera*, organize my closet, buy some french books, and buy some proper food if there's any time left (and booze... I keep leeching it from my flatmates).

Wednesday is when the maid comes... I love her, shes does everything so right.

I only had 1 day os classes of my french course and i'm enjoying it so much i'm considering not taking a trip to Brazil... That scares me, I thought I would never be able to enjoy classes again, specially french... well, the whole "a cute boy in my class weeee" helps a bit, but no, i'm really enjoying it... Let's see is the feeling is still around on friday (if I survive wednesday)

The thing about this trip to Brazil is because of the wedding of a very very important relative, and there will also be the birthday of one of my dearest friend.. So yeah, no way I'm cancelling it. But I can still apreciate this feeling, of enjoying studying, I was really afraid to have lost it...

*YES! I broke it... The visor at least... the part I most liked about it.. fuck it, give me anything expensive I will break it in less than a year... My notebook has survive until now... My ipod is all scratched up so I think thats good enough for me... And my new celphone has only a couple of days, but all the later ones didnt have much luck... I hate myself for not taking proper care of my stuff, I remember when I got a super duper mp3 player and I broke it like in a week, i'm just like that. Luckyly I only use the expensive pen my mom gave me for birthday to write on my pink diary or I would have already lost it (yes, I either break them or lost them... And I have a tendendcy to lost nice gifts people give me, and I dont need to talk about this in my therapy!)

about the song, check this out:


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Mood: Rage
Listening to: be yourself by morcheeba
Reading: anecdotes of destiny by karen blixten
Watching: la science des rêves

WHAT

THE

FUCK

I see my number of comments raising but I dont get any messages telling me so, and I cant see them! Even one I posted here and another in Platy's gallery dont show up! I even tried opening the site in IE in case it was a Firefox problem... I really dont understand and that pisses me off. Send me a note if you know whats happening please ><

First day of class from my french course at the La Sorbonne Ulala... Seems nice, I discovered I have become a terribly shy person, I could feel my face getting all red when I had to talk about myself... And every friday we will have to write a piece, and today I did one ridiculous small, and I felt like I wanted to disappear when the teacher notice but... Well, there is a canadian barman in the class (that are like, 4 boys outta a class of 15 people, and the girls include 3 annoying americans who sat in the back chatting during the whole class). But at least I felt I was in the right level, everybody seemed to had the same vocabulary as me, and I was the one who had studied the shorter time (that were people who had being studying french for years... anyway, my first languge is latin based so that's nothing to be proud of... and maybe the teacher will understand why my piece was so short, I got all the french I know from listening, not really doing exercices).

Anyway, I will have classes everyday from mid-day until 7pm... Quite nice if you ask me, I hate waking up early and I dont mind being busy. I have to see when I will go to the gym/pool... And I'm considering going back to play RO, I really miss the guys XP

Today I went to the house of a guy I studied with before high school... And a bunch of other brazilian friends, and all the girls there were in the same school as me in high school, and they are all just finishing very very very nice universities, and I didnt recognize them and they didnt recognize me cause we really never talked, but we all had a nice chat. Is funny meeting all these people in Paris, and I felt a little bit more confortable with the fact that I still dont have any french friends, cause neither them had (and they have being in france as long or longer than me), so the problem might not be me, or not just me (I still think I can be quite a boring person sometimes, but thats usually when i'm drunk).

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Mood: Rage
Listening to: you've got to hide your love away by the beatles
Reading: anecdotes of destiny by karen blixten
Watching: la science des rêves

my english is crap, have I mentioned that? I am able to write (and talk) correct english, but that would require me checking the spelling of half the words and payng a lot of attention, and since I dont really care about this here, you gonna have to bear with me.

Yesterday I went to sleep really early, for several reasons: The apartment in front of mine is having some work done, and for some strange reason, the guys working there only need to do those very noisy estuff in the morning.. for the rest of the day you dont ear a thing, but from 10am to mid day is hell. And I wanted to take a stupid ideia out of my mind, finally take a good rest and all those things that come with a well slept night.

Well, I wake up today having dreamed about the stupid ideia the whole damn night, and them checking some stuff and know that the problem is still there. And for some reason, there isnt any noise today, so I could have slept thought the morning... And apparently I have sinned very badly, cause god is punishing me with someone calling my place every 5 minutes with a fax tone... I DONT HAVE A FAX!! STOP CALLING!

grrrr....

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Mood: bleh
Listening to: seeing other people by belle&sebastian
Reading: anecdotes of destiny by karen blixten
Watching: la science des rêves

Uploaded some pics of stuff I keep around the house...

And these headers/whatever! Is from a wood thingie I bought in Turkey...

Not very inspired to write right now... Already took care of the comissions (I think).

Oh, I see a bunch of people I admire doing this "free sketch" thingie, I wish I could get a sketch, but you have to offer 10 free sketchs yourself too, and no way I can manage that.

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I keep forgeting I should look for a artist to comission a pic for my blog, Dancing with Myself. So i'm writing this here so I dont forget, so dont mind this.

And i'm gonna try to list the artist I like and have comissions open:
- (does layouts)
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- (i think)
- (I suppose she is open to comissions)
- (but I have to sign and send a document, and I'm so freaking lazy)
- (waiting list)
- (busy)
- (waiting list)

Deviant Art should really make it a easy way to know that from deviants ><

]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/9882456/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/9882456/ Mon, 28 Aug 2006 08:58:36 PDT
Mood: resting
Listening to: Glad to be Unhappy
Reading: Lonely Planes guides
Watching: I want to watch Lady in the Water!

If you love me, check my scraps, I'm shy.

What? ]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/9859479/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/9859479/ Sat, 26 Aug 2006 08:10:25 PDT
Mood: Finally Home!
Listening to: Bullets by The Editors
Reading: the crying of lot 49
Watching: Thank You For Smoking

So, back to Paris, already spitted in the civilizatory river (also known as The Seine), pics will come later...

What? ]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/9795145/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/9795145/ Sun, 20 Aug 2006 16:47:11 PDT
Mood: Travelling
Listening to: Suddenly I See
Reading: Mr. Norrel & Jonathan Strange
Watching: Thank You For Smoking

I dont have much opinion on this new layout, I already got use to it, so it seems as good as the old. The only thing that really bothered me was how the deviantions background is not always the same, ruining some stuff posted. But I liked this thingie about movies, book, etc.. (or maybe this is a thing displayed to paying deviants and I'm making a fool out of myself, just like when I thought that the design of the site had changed because I was now a paying deviant, it happened on the same day!)

Anyway, I'm in London now, by my pics it might seem like is my first time here, but I have actually been here many times before and I will be moving here in 02/2007 (maybe earlier, this november, but I'm really in doubt).

I putted "Suddenly I See" as song cause I listened to it in a pub a couple of days ago, Mr. Norrel and Jonathan Strange is one of my favorite books, specially because is so english, and Thank You For Smoking is the last film I have watched, and man, is so good! Go watch it if you have brains (remembering that I'm terribly against smoking habits, so no, this movie is not about that, is about having your own grip on your life)

I really like this city and all the old and new stuff in it... ]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/9524012/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/9524012/ Fri, 28 Jul 2006 14:38:38 PDT ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/9492204/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/9492204/ Tue, 25 Jul 2006 16:41:51 PDT ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/9354330/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/9354330/ Wed, 12 Jul 2006 12:45:10 PDT ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/9279532/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/9279532/ Wed, 05 Jul 2006 09:17:16 PDT ). Right now we are in Instanbul, which is a very very beatifull city, I certainly want to come back here with more time to explore. I'm just so sorry I don't know the language... And after spending months in Paris by myself, only seeing few and really good friends, I get really dizzy being with my whole family, talking and visiting places non-stop... Is just strange, but oh well, that's life. ]]> ~seedkeeper http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/9132714/ http://seedkeeper.deviantart.com/journal/9132714/ Wed, 21 Jun 2006 01:28:20 PDT ~seedkeeper